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How some narcissists will use your own EGO against you · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What is going on beautiful people?
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  Welcome to another episode of the narcissist Code.
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  I'm your favorite self aware narcissist Mr. Lee Hammock
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  better known as mental illness across all social media
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  platforms. This your first time seeing my
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  face or hearing my lovely voice. I'm a clinically diagnosed
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  narcissist and I use my platform on social media to raise
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  awareness for NPD. Get more people into therapy and
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  also validate the victims, survivors and thrivers of said
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  disorder. Said toxic people said toxic
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  traits. Today's episode is going to be
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  about how some narcissists use your own ego against you.
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  Your own ego. Your ego.
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  Yeah, you got an ego too. It's not just about narcissists
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  and there be egos before. Before we hop into today's
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  working on as well. Link is in the description of
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  every single video and podcast that I do.
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  But yeah, y'all your ego. Your ego can be used against you
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  because like, yeah, yes, narcissists have huge inflated
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  egos. We just do.
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  Yeah, we were super. We can be super egotistical
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  people. But just because a narcissist
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  has an ego does not mean the victim, survivor, Thriver does
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  not have one, does not have one. You also have an ego.
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  And this is not me trying to make it seem like you are a bad
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  person. Everybody has an ego.
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  Big, small, you know, big or small, happy, sad, you know what
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  I mean? Everybody has an ego.
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  An ego is like the definition of ego on Google says a person's
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  sense of self esteem or self importance.
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  And narcissists have an inflated sense of self esteem, an
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  inflated sense of self importance.
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  Inflated doesn't mean it's real. Narcissist, self esteem or self
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  importance is inflated, doesn't mean it's real.
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  Yours is real. You have a sense of self
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  importance. You have a sense of you have
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  self esteem. Narcissistic people tend to
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  snatch that away from you. It's like the battle of the egos
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  and my ego is so big and so inflated.
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  I want to stomp yours out. They will weaponize your ego
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  against you. They will make you.
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  They will take your self esteem from you.
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  They will crush your ego. My ego is so it's like I'm it's
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  like a big a big a big balloon y'all and I'm caught.
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  My ego is a big balloon and I'm constantly feeling it full of
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  air. Your ego is nice size.
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  I'm mine is about the bust. You ever seen the balloon there
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  like if you if you touch it it's a pop.
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  That's how. So you know how you see how you
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  see one of the big muscle head people with a shirt on that's
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  six sizes too small and the buttons are hanging them by a
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  thread and like if you plug it, it'll pop.
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  That's the narcissist ego right there.
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  It's so big and so inflated that if you plug it, it'll pop yours.
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  It fits just right. Your ego is a form fitting
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  shirt. Your ego has been custom made
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  for you. Mine is way too big for me, you
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  know what I'm saying? Mine is I you.
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  You deserve your ego. I don't deserve mine, you don't
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  mean. So if you're dealing with a
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  narcissistic person, y'all be like they take your their ego is
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  just going to dwarf yours. A lot of times their ego is
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  going to dwarf yours and they're going to make you question
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  yourself as they're going to make you feel bad about
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  yourself. The people that and this will
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  happen. This is what I consistently hear
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  when I'm doing my one O ones over zoom what I still do.
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  my one O ones and my group coaching and my workshops and
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  stuff I have coming up like that.
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  But your ego absolutely can be weaponized against you.
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  You're like my ego is so big, it's like stomps yours out,
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  right. They take away their selfish
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  thing like the people like one of the remember one.
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  One of the things I hear from a lot of people is a like the
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  person they left me for or the person they cheated on me with
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  is of left less quality than I am.
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  They're bigger, they're smaller, they're less educated, they have
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  less money. They ball headed, they short
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  they tall, they overweight, they're underweight.
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  You see what I'm saying? They didn't got, they broke,
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  they don't have. There's always something that
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  makes your eager, that hurts your ego, that hurts your
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  estate. Estate that hurts your
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  selfimportance. You see what I'm saying?
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  And narcissistic people have become masters of weaponizing
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  that against you. Because if I leave you for
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  somebody of less quality, Y'all's words, not mine
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  sometimes. You know what I mean?
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  The person they left me for is so unattractive, they downgrade.
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  That's that's what they right there.
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  That's the word right there. That's the word I was looking
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  for. They downgraded the the new
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  supply is a big downgrade from me.
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  The new person is the new. The new supply is a new is a
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  downgrade for me. So that hurts your ego.
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  How? What is it about?
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  It makes you start questioning yourself.
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  What is it about me that I look like this?
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  I have this that you left me for that.
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  So guess what happens? Y'all you want your you want
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  your ego back, right? You want your self esteem back.
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  You want your importance back. So guess what?
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  You take me back when I want to come back.
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  You tried to take me from the new supply.
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  You allow yourself to be triangulated.
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  You reverse the reverse Hoover. This is when the reverse Hoover
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  comes in right here. Y'all.
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  You Hoover yourself if I downgrade your words.
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  Not mine. If I downgrade my new supply,
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  you might want me back. You see what I'm saying?
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  I I downgraded. Right.
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  So you are upgraded. So you like?
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  Oh, no. You you and your feelings are
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  hurt. Your ego is hurt.
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  I my my big my big huge, inflated, fractured ego hurt
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  yours. You see what I'm saying?
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  But now you Hoover yourself back into the relationship.
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  You reach out to me. You ask me what I'm going to
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  talk about pain shopping later, but in the in a different
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  episode, you go pain shopping. You asking me questions that you
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  really don't want to know the answer to.
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  You like What did they have that I don't have?
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  What did they provide you that I didn't provide you?
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  What am I lacking? You see what I'm saying?
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  I hurt your ears. I weaponized it against you.
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  And now you're reaching out to me to reverse Hoover yourself.
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  And I can lie to you now. You've opened yourself up to be
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  lied to because your ego was hurt.
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  You've opened yourself up to be lied to and reverse Hoover
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  because you reached out to me. I'm like.
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  Look, it's not. I still love and care about you.
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  I don't. What What did I do?
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  I don't know why I did this. I really don't know why I'd be
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  making mistakes like that. I can't.
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  I I hate myself sometimes. When?
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  The stuff, the stuff that I put you through, I ain't really hate
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  it. I hate the stuff that I put you
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  through because it makes me feel horrible too.
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  You see what I'm saying? They will center themselves in
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  your pain. They will center themselves in
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  your suffering. They will center themselves in
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  your, I say, just in your life overall.
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  That's the part. That's the part about being with
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  a toxic, narcissistic person. Y'all this is how it's going to
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  go. They will send to your
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  themselves in your life, in your healing, in all types of stuff.
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  Y'all this is part of it. You had this something you that
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  sometimes that's how you would you have to be prepared for.
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  You know what I mean? But they weaponize your ego.
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  Your hurt, your fractured ego, your damaged ego is then
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  weaponized against you. They absolutely hurt your
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  feelings and things like that. They they yeah, they just really
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  do. They put it on you.
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  They put it. They put you through it.
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  And I'm just telling you people like your ego is so hurt that
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  you reach out to them or this doesn't always lead to the
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  reverse Hoover. But if your ego is hurt and I
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  reach out to you at the exact moment, at the right time, wrong
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  place, you know how wrong place, wrong time type stuff happens.
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  If I reach out to you, you understand the vulnerability
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  because your ego is damaged. I just weaponize.
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  You're her ego against you now. You're in a state to perceive me
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  back into your life. You're in a state to listen to
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  me. You're in a state to work with
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  me. You're in a state.
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  You're in a mental state to be collaborative with me to, to
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  maybe be open to some new possibilities in this
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  relationship space. Know what I'm saying?
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  Like y'all a narcissist hurts your ego because our egos are
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  hurt. Our egos are inflated.
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  Our egos don't. A lot of times y'all our egos
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  don't make sense. A lot of times our egos don't
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  make sense. And that's how you can tell that
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  sometimes you can get a lot of narcissists.
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  You can see a lot of narcissistic people.
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  That's how you can spot a narcissist.
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  The ego doesn't make sense. You see what I'm saying?
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  Like who they present themselves as and who they actually are.
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  Don't make the don't match up. Like I said, the big muscle
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  head, just pounds of muscle head with a little tiny shirt on.
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  It's about the pot. Like, hey, that shirt doesn't
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  fit you, you know what I'm saying?
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  The ego, they the ego is weighed.
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  It don't fit. It don't fit.
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  It don't fit. I know this might be a mixed
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  analogy, but it doesn't fit. You know what I mean?
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  It should be a big shirt, like a big fly.
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  It might be not the muscle shirt.
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  Maybe like a little. Maybe like a little dude.
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  Yeah, a little little dude. A little little lady.
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  A little what? Not a little person in like a
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  6XL shirt, like the Ego doesn't fit.
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  That might be working better and it's funny, both of them.
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  Funny be a 6XL shirt, you know what I mean?
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  With the Ego inflated or whatever.
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  You said that a BIG6XL shirt on a little person, you know, it's
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  just the sleeves don't fit, is like a big drape.
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  It's like a cloak. You see what I'm saying?
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  But yeah, y'all, don't let your ego be weaponized against you.
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  I'm just telling you because they would.
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  They absolutely will. A narcissistic person, a toxic
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  person, will use your own ego against you.
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  Your feelings are hurt, your self esteem is shattered, Your
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  self importance is rattled. Your and it hurts you.
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  It just does. You know what I'm saying?
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  It just does. Don't let it be weaponized
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  against you. Because as much like I said, you
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  are human being. You have feelings or your
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  feelings are hurt. It's understandable they
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  downgraded or they or they could have upgraded whatever viewpoint
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  you have. Y'all.
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  I try not to do the measuring scale with people so much
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  nowadays because it helps me in my own life.
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  But if they upgraded you, they're if they upgraded in
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  their new relationship and the new supply, they might hurt your
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  feelings as well. It might hurt your ego as well.
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  What do they have that I don't have?
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  Now you feel like you lack something because your ego has
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  been hurt. Now you feel like you lack
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  something. So now you reaching out to me,
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  asking me what you lack, asking me what you can work on.
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  Asking me how you can be better for me, asking what can you do
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  to get for us to get back together.
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  Asking me you see what I'm saying?
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  Because now I've upgraded. So to upgrade it's an upgrade or
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  downgrade is going to hurt your ego anyway.
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  Like he said, either way, me leaving you when you're not
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  ready or that narcissistic person leaving you when you're
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  not ready is going to hurt you regardless.
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  It just is y'all it's going to hurt you regardless, regardless
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  of the fact it's one of those things going to hurt y'all.
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