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S4 79. Carly T – I Survived, Overcomer & Epic Grace · Millennial Mustard Seed

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  Hello folks. This is Princess.
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  You are listening to the Millennial Mustard Seed Podcast.
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  Thanks for listening. Don't forget to share with your
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  friends. That's tough.
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  We're in a very tough spot. I think that what we're doing
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  right now is a great benefit in virtue because it's an end
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  around between this whole corrupt informational system,
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  media system. We claim to believe in a God who
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  spoke the universe into existence.
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  And literally raised himself from the dead.
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  And yet we're not going to believe that anything else
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  exists in the spirit realm, even though his word tells us that
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  they do. Their bodies weren't permitted
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  to go to sleep like humans do, and they weren't permitted to go
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  to heaven. So they wander the earth.
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  You know, I've seen the eyes turn black to the numb tongues
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  being spoken. These giants were way up in the
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  island. The young Braves, the young men
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  would hide them in the trees. They wait for one of these 12
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  footers to come walking down the bath, and they would jump on
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  them and kill them and drag them back to the village.
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  And the village would feast on the body.
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  Then people start to get weapons.
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  They start to get armor. They start to build cities.
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  They start to fortify their cities.
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  Now God lets. Down and there's violence
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  everywhere. The battle, this war that we are
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  at is not against each other. It's against these
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  principalities and these rulers and these archons In the high
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  places, it's. Really worthwhile to read the
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  Bible yourself. Fear is one of the primary
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  drivers of mind control because we have to take every thought
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  captive and resist fear. You're going to have a
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  testimony. That is a justice case against
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  the Kingdom of darkness. Welcome back to the Millennial
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  Mustard Seed Podcast. I'm your host, Rod and thank you
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  for being here with me. I have a great episode in store
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  for you guys. I am joined by Carly.
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  She is a disciple of Dan de Balls.
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  She reached out to me. She wanted to share her
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  testimony. This is powerful.
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  It's an emotional roller coaster.
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  We barely get into Carly's full story, but we just this is an
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  introduction and we jump around some amazing topics about how
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  God has been healing her, some of the traumas that she has been
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  through. Her life.
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  And then there's some surprise cliffhangers for towards the end
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  of this episode about her Bigfoot encounter that she had.
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  Yeah, you heard me right, Sasquatch.
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  And it's just an edifying and encouraging story.
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  Overall, it's it needs to be talked about.
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  And I know other people out there.
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  You guys have a story. You got something you need to
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  get off your chest. This is the place to do it.
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  Reach out to me. Read the show notes you guys.
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  You're able to get my e-mail address there and find all kinds
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  of recommendations that I have there, like Dan de Balls, Bride
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  ministry. Website which you can go to to
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  get prayer or counseling if you need counseling in this space
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  for any of the traumas that you've been through in this life
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  or just to help you along your journey.
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  this podcast to grow. We could not do it without you.
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  But with all that being said, I am ready to jump into this
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  episode. You guys ready?
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  Let's go. Let's go.
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  My name is Carly. I'm from Minnesota.
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  We're going to be talking about my life story and the
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  faithfulness of God today. Welcome to the Millennial Must
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  Receive podcast. Carly, that was an awesome
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  introduction and I'm happy to be with you.
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  This is going to be a really awesome conversation, so I just
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  want to start off with asking you how did you find the
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  podcast? My pastor is Dan Duvall, who you
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  have interviewed, so that's why I found it.
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  That's so awesome. Yeah, Dan is a really awesome
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  guy. I.
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  I think very highly of him and the work that he's done,
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  especially with the prayers. I always tell people my personal
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  life, his prayers are powerful. I believe in strategic prayer,
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  and God also talks about precatory prayer in the word.
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  I mean, that's, you know, the prayer that David was using
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  against hordes of enemies that were after him.
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  And I think it's something that's that the church doesn't
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  really put a lot of focus on. So that's so cool that Dan
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  Duvall is your pastor. He's he's an awesome guy.
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  Yeah, he's been on the show twice.
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  We've talked a couple times off air and there's nobody quite
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  like him. Indeed, it's really true.
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  I've also to piggyback on what you said about the strategic
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  prayers. I've definitely believe that in
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  this season, in this generation, it's becoming more and more
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  about praying with wisdom. I think generations before got
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  by for a long time with Lord. Please help such and such.
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  Lord, fix our government. You know, very vanilla prayers.
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  But the way that the enemy is operating, when you compare that
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  to the revelation of our identity in Christ and how
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  intentionally and intensely the Lord is unpacking who and what
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  we really are, it's like you can see that these things are rising
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  in intensity together. So the more the enemy is
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  utilizing wicked constructs in the Asheville realm or utilizing
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  inequities and bloodlines to get whatever he wants get to get
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  going On the contrary, the revelation of who and what we
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  really are is becoming more solid and people, I tell you,
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  there's, I don't know anybody in my circle who isn't asking that
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  question. Who am I?
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  What is my identity in Christ? What did he mean when he said
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  greater things? Will you do?
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  What did he say in John 17 when he asked us to be one with him
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  as he is one with the Father? And I think that these the
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  importance of our identity is playing a lot into how effective
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  our strategic warfare is, because it's no longer that
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  vague vanilla prayer. We're going for the constructs
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  of the enemy now with the weapons of of not seeking
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  victory as if it's something that's beyond us, but fighting
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  from the place of victory. Because the essence that has
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  made me is victory. I don't strive to be something.
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  The essence of Yahweh is in my DNA, you understand.
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  So it's like no longer fighting for victory, but from victory.
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  Because I am victory. You are victory.
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  It's not something you seek to aspire to achieve someday down
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  the road. It's an expression of your
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  identity. And so when we talk about dance
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  prayers, what he's expressing is the truth of who he is and the.
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  Reason why I think it rings so strong with you and with other
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  people is because it's like we've been like the Bible talks
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  about the deer panting for the water of life and now in that
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  water of life is our identity because he is in us.
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  What else is there like? The revelation of Christ is the
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  revelation of us as He made us to be.
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  It is him who works in us and through us to cause his will to
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  come about. And you're hitting on so many
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  important points and this podcast, this is the space for
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  that. This is the Millennium Mustard
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  Seed. Literally.
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  It's just funny that. There's so many churches out
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  there on every corner in every neighborhood in America.
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  And a lot of people have these questions.
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  They've been systematically desensitized.
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  They've been dealing with SRA. They've been dealing with all
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  types of different damaging effects from the enemy.
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  Some willing participants, some unwilling participants are maybe
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  they some people are being used by the enemy.
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  They don't even know it. And we have a generation of
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  people. That are looking for better
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  answers. Where can I go?
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  What does God really say about me, man?
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  I feel it right now. Wow.
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  I'm excited for this interview. This is the first time we
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  talked, Carly and I can tell you're a disciple of Dan Duvall.
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  Yeah, here's that. I can tell.
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  Yeah, it's so cool. Well, listen, let's start
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  jumping into your story a little bit.
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  You know, just give us, like. A 30,000 foot overview, if you
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  will, about who you are. You know how you grew up, and
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  let's just start diving in your story.
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  I'm just going to ask you questions as we go along.
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  There's a bunch of topics I really like to cover with you,
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  so let's go. Yeah.
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  The 30,000 foot view of my story is a story of coming into
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  wholeness, and there's something about trauma at a young age that
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  causes you to become many different people.
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  It's like, I will be different depending on the situation so
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  that I feel safe. And sometimes the identities
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  that I have found in my trauma have been not quite me.
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  And so it's been a it's been a healing journey, it's been a
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  broken journey. And I can't say like my parents
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  were maliciously trying to hurt me.
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  I wouldn't go that far. And I know for a lot of people,
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  that's their story. But that wasn't the case for me.
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  I I found myself victim as a young child to sexual
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  perversion, and I can go more into that.
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  And then again as a teenager. And I lost my dad at the age of
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  10. My parents were divorced.
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  My mom was remarried to a man that was just not cool, not
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  safe. And when my dad died, I knew he
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  wasn't gone, and I sought him, but I saw him in the wrong ways.
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  And as I grew up, my mom then had separated from my stepdad,
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  and I was doing a lot of drugs, like it was my escape.
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  It made me feel like I might have joy or companionship, just
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  freedom from the darkness that was in my heart.
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  And I moved to Chicago and got brutally sexually assaulted,
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  Came back to Minnesota. I wanted to get my life right,
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  but I just couldn't do it. And I ended up getting married.
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  I met and married a man in three months.
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  I met him at the bar, married him, married him three months
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  later. He gave me two beautiful sons.
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  The marriage wasn't safe and it dissolved.
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  And I went back into the witchcraft stuff, and I came to
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  a point in my life that it was I needed something else, and there
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  was someone else. I want to ask you, were your
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  parents involved in witchcraft, or was it a satanic occult or
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  anything that you're aware of? I mean, how did you really kind
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  of find yourself in these situations at a young age?
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  Not overtly, but as I've grown up, I've learned that there's
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  not a lot of room between Catholicism and witchcraft.
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  There's no conflict in the spirit there.
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  And that's not to say that our Catholic brothers and sisters
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  who go to Mass and do these things are practicing
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  witchcraft. But it's to say that you can go
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  to Catholic Church on one day and go practice witchcraft on
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  another day and not feel that condemnation, that that what's
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  the word, conviction. Thank you, Holy Spirit, that
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  that a person who was really walking with the Lord would feel
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  there's not a lot of conflict there.
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  So no, they weren't, you know? And I don't know because the
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  weirdness started when I was really young.
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  My first memory of life, I was 18 months old, and I've
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  confirmed this with my mom. I was like, mom, do you remember
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  that time I was sitting on your bed and you gave me like a pile
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  of raisins to eat? But you also had emptied your
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  purse. So there was like change and
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  stuff on the bed. And I was, I was eating the
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  raisins and then I stuck a Raisin up my nose and I got
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  really scared because I couldn't get it out.
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  And then you came in the room and started panicky.
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  She was like, Carly, you were like 18 months old when that
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  happened. You remember that?
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  I was like, yeah, I can remember dreams from being a year old,
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  just strange. And you know, I, as I got older,
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  my mom and my dad, they didn't, they really struggled.
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  They were young parents. They married right out of high
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  school. They had my brother and they
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  were really struggling financially when I was growing
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  up. They had an airplane because my
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  dad was a pilot and two bikes, no car.
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  So they were biking places and then flying places and then
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  Superior, WI. That's a different kind of cold
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  people. If you're from anywhere other
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  than northern Minnesota, Wisconsin, you just don't know
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  cold, like we know cold. It's a different, it's
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  offensive, it is a disrespectful kind of cold.
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  So they would live, they would live their lives like this,
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  right? And and my dad chose to be be
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  really mean to my mom. I don't.
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  I don't have memories of some of the things that she has said to
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  me. And not to downplay my dad but
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  just as I've asked questions as I've gotten older.
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  But I can remember them arguing. And I remember one particular
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  argument. I was maybe two and they were
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  going back and forth and I remember standing in the kitchen
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  crying for peanut butter. But I can remember thinking in
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  my little tiny brain, if I can just get them to focus on me,
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  they'll stop hurting each other. And this is this is how trauma
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  starts. When a child has to be the one
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  to save their parents from destruction, whether that's
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  perceived or actual, it does something to a child that it it
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  breaks their heart. And and as I got older, you
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  know, my parents divorced and my mom remarried.
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  But in that time, like I remember I was about four years
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  old and I remembered being able to put my fingertips together
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  and pull them apart and see lightning in between my fingers.
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  But I could never do it when other people are around.
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  Or like I remember being able to.
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  I used to call it in my mind, making space under my feet, but
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  I was levitating. But I could never do it when
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  other people were around. So it begs the question, how?
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  What's where? Where did I learn that?
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  I I don't have a real answer for that.
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  I mean, through prayer and the revelations that the Holy
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  Spirit's given me, I've I've just come to accept that these
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  are bloodline things, like druidism in my bloodline and for
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  some reason it just manifested in me.
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  Maybe because I was more curious.
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  I I really don't know. But it made me aware.
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  And the other thing I could see energies like around flowers and
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  around people colors. It looked like almost like a
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  colorful smoke coming off of people.
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  Yeah, like being able to see the OR aura.
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  Yeah, yeah, Yeah. So my mom married my stepdad.
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  It was terrible, folks. Lord Jesus, it was really.
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  He was very mean to my mom. I remember one night in
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  particular, I thought he was going to kill her.
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  He came in looking for. He came in.
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  My mom said I'm going to hide. I was probably 15 or so don't
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  tell him where I am. And and I knew where the shotgun
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  was. And he when he came in he looked
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  evil like his eyes were bloodshot and red and he was
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  storming around the house and some of this isn't that unusual.
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  But this night it was a particularly dangerous thing was
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  going on and my mom was hiding and I was hearing him run
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  imaging through the closet but I had moved it.
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  I had an instinct about it and I had moved it and he stormed
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  around and swore and was swearing and he ended up leaving
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  the house. But it wasn't that much longer
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  after that. My mom was like, I'm my mom, A
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  good Catholic girl said I'm leaving my husband, and that was
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  her end of her second marriage. But it was a very volatile
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  situation, and of course it wasn't all bad.
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  The Lord is. This is the thing about telling
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  hard stories that I never want to gloss over.
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  God had ways of showing me his love, even though things were
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  not safe at home. He gave me a friend named Keisha
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  when I was 8 years old. She lived across the street and
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  her family was very functional and healthy.
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  I loved being over there. Mom loved her dad or dad loved
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  her mom. There were no step people and
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  and I got to see what that looks like and I got to have a a
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  sister who loved me into this day.
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  She's still my best friend and 43 now almost.
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  But there were. It was like God gave me the
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  ability to find fun. It was almost like that was his
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  his relief Ave. for me. I could find fun anywhere.
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  And I did do some not so great things as a child.
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  We were pretty naughty, right? And I'm not going to give glory
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  to God for that. But I will say that there's
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  always relief. The Lord said to me one time,
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  Carly, there's always more. It's like sometimes we get to
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  places in our lives where we just feel as though what we're
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  experiencing now is, is what we'll always experience.
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  It can be very hopeless, right? But even in the worst times of
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  life, he's like, But there's always more, there's more joy.
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  It might not be here now, but that's not to say it's not
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  coming in the morning. You don't have money, but
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  there's more money. You don't have a friendship, but
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  there are friends. And he's providing always for
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  us. And what we're experiencing now
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  is not going to be our eternal experience.
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  It's not we're not damned to what we're having going on in
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  our life right now. There's always more.
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  The Lord is abundant. So Carly, let me ask you, let me
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  ask you this. I want to backtrack just a
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  little bit. Now when you said you could see
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  the electricity between your fingers and you could levitate
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  off the ground, do you remember ever having like any sleep
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  paralysis during this period in time?
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  Was there anything activating that or do you think that was
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  literally like you were saying a bloodline thing?
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  Or do you think that this was some type of disturbance from
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  the dark side? How do you help me understand
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  maybe why that was happening? To tell you the truth, I I don't
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  I don't know exactly why that was happening.
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  I do know that I've just always been very sensitive and I think
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  it's a gift. But you know the Lord, the the
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  Lord gives us gifts and it's a beautiful gift and I I
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  appreciate it and but the but the enemy can has an inkling
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  about these things too. And every time God does the
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  thing there, the enemy is right on his heels trying to
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  counterfeit that thing and try to pervert that thing and twist
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  that thing and make it a problem.
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  And I mean literally everything he counterfeits.
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  Well, and that's what I was thinking like that's why I kind
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  of asked like, is there, was there sleep paralysis at the
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  time or? But I would have weird dreams.
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  I can remember having weird dreams.
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  Like I can remember having dreams of being hung by my neck
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  and swung down a staircase. Or like, I remember as a
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  teenager, I had this dream. This was a terrifying dream.
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  I was changed to a bed, and there was a demon that was like,
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  intimidating and antagonizing and threatening me.
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  And then Satan shows up, but he doesn't look pretty.
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  He's in his form. That's not attractive.
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  And he was. He was threatening to, he was
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  threatening to rape me. And he said in my dream, how
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  does it feel to be raped by a demon?
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  And I could remember waking up from that dream and having
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  physical like I felt it on my body.
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  Like if you've, if of course you're married and you have
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  children, so you know you can feel the effects of physical
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  intimacy even after it's passed. And it was like that.
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  Wow. Yeah, Wow.
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  Yeah. So I don't know that.
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  It's like they were accessing me from the astral round.
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  Why I was targeted, I don't know.
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  Maybe it was. I think you're spot on with that
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  because, all right, so I said it this way to people.
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  I think the enemy sees our light that's in us sometimes long
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  before we see the darkness, right?
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  So I think the enemy can see that God has put his mark on us.
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  He has a calling on our life that literally there's an
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  anointing for what is written in the book of life for you to
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  complete. Like you said that in the
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  beginning here, that state of victory, that is where we are.
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  The enemy is defeated. We do have the high priest who's
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  interceding for us but the enemy sometimes, especially through
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  people, especially through circumstances when we have our
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  innocence when we're growing young and and some people turn
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  to be calloused over. But some people, they just, they
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  never quite let themselves get so cold that that they can't be
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  jump started by what God has planned for.
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  Actually, I've heard a little bit of both, but that's why I
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  was asking like was there something that you can remember
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  during that time that was significant where the enemy was
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  trying to pervert possibly a gift that you were given or
• 23:52
  maybe it was a bloodline thing, but I mean we can kind of move
• 23:55
  on from that. So I want to ask you, have you
• 24:00
  had prophetic dreams at all? Yeah, I have.
• 24:04
  I have my whole life. So one significant one was about
• 24:09
  9/11. It was 1996, maybe 95, right in
• 24:16
  there. And I had a dream that I was in
• 24:19
  New York City in the dream, and all of a sudden there was this
• 24:24
  loud bang and this, this like, grayish brown, thick.
• 24:33
  Ash or smoke? I couldn't tell in the dream,
• 24:35
  but it was like coming at us through the city streets.
• 24:39
  I had been to New York before at that point, so I was.
• 24:41
  I had physically been to New York.
• 24:43
  You know, what? Was that what I'm saying?
• 24:44
  But I I could see it in the dream coming.
• 24:46
  And then everything just went. You couldn't see your hand in
• 24:48
  front of your face. It was so thick and terrible.
• 24:52
  And I woke up from that dream shook.
• 24:54
  I've had dreams about. And then prayed.
• 24:57
  Now, after I got saved, I would have dreams.
• 24:59
  Like there was this one time I had this dream that someone was
• 25:01
  trying to plant a bomb in Millennial Park in Chicago.
• 25:04
  And I woke up from that dream and I pray, pray, prayed, and
• 25:07
  like a week or two later they had caught some guy who was
• 25:10
  planning to do a bomb attack. I have had other dreams where
• 25:14
  things get exposed to me. One, recently things get exposed
• 25:17
  to me about people around me that I that I love and I care
• 25:22
  about. In inbound attacks and I'll tell
• 25:25
  them and then we thwart them or hey, the Lord is giving you a
• 25:29
  word for this thing. I've had dreams about famous
• 25:32
  people. Madonna, Eminem, Fauci, Joe
• 25:37
  Manchin, Trump Scavino, whatever his first name is.
• 25:44
  Weird stuff. And so the prophetic dreams have
• 25:48
  always been a thing and. I would have prophetic insights
• 25:52
  as well. One time we were driving up to
• 25:54
  Duluth. My dad lived up in Superior till
• 25:57
  he died in 91. And my my inlaws, Not my inlaws.
• 26:01
  My mom's husband's family also lived up there, so we were up
• 26:05
  and down 35 W at least 3-4 times a month.
• 26:10
  Like all the time going up there.
• 26:12
  And one time I was like, mommy, watch out for deer.
• 26:15
  We're driving up at night and within 30 minutes or so spap, we
• 26:20
  hit a deer. And my mom was like, how would
• 26:23
  you know? I'm like, I don't know.
• 26:25
  I just know some stuff. Sometimes I would just know.
• 26:30
  I don't know. It's man, the old, I don't know
• 26:36
  about you, Carly, but the older I get, the more I remember stuff
• 26:40
  from when I was younger, right? And I'll venture out and ask
• 26:43
  questions and in a lot of ways, I've said it on the show many
• 26:47
  times but I'm still peace and a lot of my my journey together,
• 26:52
  right. That's the purpose of the the
• 26:54
  podcast here is I get to talk with other people.
• 26:56
  I get to sharpen. I get to be sharpened and really
• 27:00
  bear each other's burdens in a way and fulfill the law of just
• 27:03
  like, hey, like I'm here like I'm listening like I'll pray for
• 27:06
  you like we're we're not alone. That's that's super important
• 27:10
  for me. But just certain things that
• 27:12
  you're saying, you know, I've had the conversation with my
• 27:15
  mother where she was like when you were younger, you would say
• 27:18
  things. I mean, I had trouble talking
• 27:21
  for years and you know, kindergarten didn't didn't go so
• 27:25
  well for me because I wouldn't talk.
• 27:26
  I wouldn't talk to anybody. But she would say that I had
• 27:30
  insight. I would tell her about things
• 27:32
  that would then it would happen like a week later or hours
• 27:35
  later. And it's just, it's interesting
• 27:37
  to hear you say that there there's something about that
• 27:42
  these, this generation, this generation of people, I think
• 27:46
  God really has something up his sleeve for the enemy.
• 27:52
  And I think the enemy thought it was going to be a weapon for him
• 27:58
  to use for defeat. But but God's going to turn the
• 28:01
  table. I'm sorry, I don't mean to
• 28:03
  digress here, but no, let me ask you some more questions.
• 28:06
  You just like triggered some stuff or I'm?
• 28:08
  Like nostalgia. I just went back in my own story
• 28:11
  by hearing a piece of yours. I'm like, this is good.
• 28:15
  So talk to me a little bit about like seeing energy.
• 28:18
  So you talked about being able to see like the aura of things
• 28:22
  right now. Was that limited to just people?
• 28:25
  Did you see that in animals? Is that in objects?
• 28:28
  Just dive into that. Help me help me out here.
• 28:32
  All of that. It was actually most poignant in
• 28:35
  things in nature. Trees, flowers, rocks, places,
• 28:40
  you know, I grew up a lot of the time in Superior, WI, which is
• 28:45
  very beautiful. With Duluth is very beautiful
• 28:48
  place, There's lots of rivers and wonderful nature places to
• 28:52
  check out and my dad was big on outdoor sports, so he was a
• 28:56
  pilot. So we had his own aircraft and
• 28:58
  we skied and we went to the beach and he worked for KQDS
• 29:01
  which is up there at the radio station.
• 29:03
  We were always out and about. He's a very popular guy.
• 29:06
  But my point in saying that is we spent a lot of time in nature
• 29:09
  and I would see it there, but as I grew older, well into my 20s
• 29:14
  really until I got saved. And then I had to shut down my
• 29:18
  third eye because that's what was being utilized.
• 29:23
  I could see energy in people. So I remember one time I was
• 29:25
  walking down the path behind our apartment at the time, and
• 29:28
  there's this woman, she was walking towards me and I just, I
• 29:31
  had to tell her because I could see her aura.
• 29:35
  But then there was this like dark mass that emanated from
• 29:38
  somewhere around her abdomen. And I I knew that something was
• 29:41
  wrong with her, like she was sick or.
• 29:46
  She either knew it or she didn't know it, but it was looking
• 29:48
  dark, right? And so I told her and I didn't
• 29:51
  pray for her. I wasn't saved at the time.
• 29:53
  I just dropped this thing on her, just crazy 20 year old
• 29:58
  coming out of the woods talking about black auras.
• 30:01
  Like I'm sure she was a little whoops, you know, but your aura
• 30:05
  is super purple, you know? It was just, it was.
• 30:08
  I'm sure it was weird for her, but I told her what I was seeing
• 30:11
  and she. And she put her hand on her
• 30:14
  stomach. She's like, yeah, I was just
• 30:15
  diagnosed with, I don't even remember to be honest with you,
• 30:18
  but she had admitted that there was something wrong in her
• 30:22
  abdomen. So I was just always very
• 30:26
  sensitive and and really that lended itself well to being
• 30:32
  curious about the supernatural, right.
• 30:36
  And when you combine a natural inclination to be curious about
• 30:40
  what's beyond the veil. With with experiences of trauma,
• 30:46
  it ends up being that there's an Ave. in for the enemy to kind of
• 30:51
  twist these things and make it something else.
• 30:54
  And so like it's it's just it's so slick, you know, it's like
• 31:00
  when you're dealing with the enemy is so slick and then when
• 31:03
  you take a step back like you had just said about.
• 31:06
  He he, he thinks he's going to use this generation for some
• 31:08
  things, but he's got another thing coming.
• 31:10
  Yes, that's always true too, right?
• 31:13
  So when I was 6, around the age of 6, I was molested by my
• 31:17
  friend's grandfather who lived down the street from my dad's
• 31:21
  house. He was he, he would like, sit me
• 31:26
  on his lap and bounce me on his lap.
• 31:28
  And I always made me feel very uncomfortable because he would
• 31:33
  he his body would react. Let's just put it like that.
• 31:36
  And then one day he asked me to, to come upstairs to show me
• 31:40
  whatever I was six. I just agreed.
• 31:42
  He was like, let me show you something cool.
• 31:44
  I was like, alright, great. I'm not thinking about it,
• 31:47
  right? All I knew was that he made me
• 31:49
  uncomfortable, but I didn't put all the pieces together.
• 31:52
  And then he he came out of the bathroom.
• 31:53
  He was naked. This man tried to get me to
• 31:56
  touch him. I ran away, but it was it was
• 31:59
  jarring to my person. It was so jarring and it just it
• 32:07
  triggered this hypersexuality in me and it from a young age.
• 32:12
  And I I want to be candid with that because there's so much
• 32:16
  shame that comes with that experience of sexuality at a
• 32:21
  young age. You, you, you know it's not
• 32:23
  right. It's almost like your body
• 32:26
  betrays you because your mind, your heart, your soul, your
• 32:30
  spirit, even it knows. This is not good.
• 32:34
  But your body's like this is so good.
• 32:37
  And it starts to sow this division of self very at a very
• 32:43
  early age. And so on the heels of that
• 32:47
  comes a lot of condemnation. Gosh, I should have known
• 32:51
  better. I knew better.
• 32:52
  I just didn't. I wish I would have La La La La
• 32:55
  la and you start to blame yourself.
• 32:59
  But the truth is, is that your body is built to respond to
• 33:01
  these things. When it gets triggered early,
• 33:04
  it's a problem. But it doesn't make you dirty.
• 33:07
  It doesn't make you beyond redemption.
• 33:12
  It doesn't make sexuality beyond redemption, but it but it does
• 33:17
  require a real close walk with the Lord when it comes to
• 33:20
  intimacy. They're on forward because
• 33:22
  there's so much that has to be restored.
• 33:27
  Wow. And it just makes me think, you
• 33:29
  know, as I'm taking this journey with you, I'm sitting back
• 33:32
  listening to your story. I can't help but now think about
• 33:38
  the over sexualization of every generation, but especially the
• 33:43
  youth who don't really have the parameters set in place because
• 33:46
  not many parents are raising children in the way of the Lord
• 33:49
  that when they grow, they won't depart from it.
• 33:51
  That that's just not happening. But for example, even you put on
• 33:56
  YouTube, you know, I put on like super book, which is like a
• 33:59
  Christian cartoon for my 6 year old and a couple times and this
• 34:04
  is through YouTube. I don't do cable.
• 34:06
  I don't, I don't watch TV like that.
• 34:07
  I have the TV for pretty much walking watching documentaries
• 34:11
  on YouTube of different people but commercials that pop up.
• 34:15
  I mean over sexualization of commercials.
• 34:17
  I I literally walked in it was probably a couple weeks back and
• 34:21
  there was like a demonic advertisement for some creepy
• 34:24
  movie coming out. And my son physically he's
• 34:27
  scared. I like had to run grab the
• 34:29
  remote dive and and be like Oh my gosh Skip.
• 34:32
  Like I turned it off. After that I'm like Nope, we're
• 34:34
  going back to the books because I try to balance, you know he's
• 34:37
  got he's got a a good collection of books that you know we try to
• 34:41
  get him interested in. But it but it's it's everywhere.
• 34:45
  It's everywhere. And so just the way you
• 34:47
  described what happened to you at six years old about how, like
• 34:51
  your body almost felt like it was betraying itself, Because I
• 34:54
  believe, you know, kids especially pure of heart, yet I
• 34:59
  mean just the corruption's not there.
• 35:01
  What does the word say? The word has the final
• 35:04
  authority. It says if you were to make one
• 35:06
  of these little ones go astray, it is better you tie a meal
• 35:10
  stone around your neck, which is a really big stone.
• 35:13
  It's not something small and be cast to the bottom of the ocean.
• 35:16
  And it's like that is happening on numbers that we can't even
• 35:19
  imagine today all around the world.
• 35:22
  But that that's what. Sorry, I didn't mean to go on
• 35:24
  another rent, but you got me so emotionally involved just from
• 35:27
  listening to you. Oh my goodness.
• 35:28
  And it goes so much farther than that nowadays.
• 35:31
  Because, you know, it used to be that in order to traumatize a
• 35:35
  child you would have to physically interact with them.
• 35:38
  But now, the way they do it in the spirit, they can access our
• 35:44
  children astrally and affect their souls.
• 35:50
  In ways that have a very similar bent as physical sexual assault
• 35:56
  and it and it can come through the IT can come through the
• 35:59
  wavelengths that come out of the TV, the tablet they access
• 36:02
  children in their dreams like it's So it's so important that
• 36:07
  we recognize that the way that the enemy operated 100 years
• 36:12
  ago, even 50 years ago, they advance in technology too.
• 36:16
  OK, so. Yeshua overcame all of it at the
• 36:21
  cross. Everything that enemy was going
• 36:23
  to advance and learn how to do, you know, crazy new stuff, La La
• 36:27
  la. He already defeated it.
• 36:28
  It's not a thing. It's not a thing of fear, but it
• 36:31
  is a it is a thing of understanding, because the
• 36:34
  weapons of our warfare advance too.
• 36:37
  And they're but they're always the blood, the word, the
• 36:39
  testimony, the Holy Spirit. And one thing I remember is you
• 36:44
  have to keep your mind sober. We can't allow our children to
• 36:49
  become afraid. The first thing in my life that
• 36:52
  caught me was that fear. It was that fear, that moment I
• 36:57
  thought I had to protect my parents from each other.
• 37:02
  I had repressed memories come back to me from even before then
• 37:06
  of things that would happen in the daycares that we're also
• 37:10
  very traumatizing it and it it all led to just a very.
• 37:16
  Broken understanding of people and self.
• 37:24
  But the thing about it is that the Lord is present in all of
• 37:28
  it. And I have heard people say,
• 37:31
  well, God, if you were real, where were you?
• 37:33
  And I'll tell you where he was. He was right there holding you
• 37:40
  and crying. I had a vision one time of
• 37:44
  something that happened to me. It's a new memory and I just, I
• 37:48
  hesitate to tell this story but I think the important part is
• 37:51
  this. I had a memory of of a trauma
• 37:54
  that occurred in in the daycare when I was like 2 and the Lord
• 38:00
  opened my eyes and it he was had me on his lap with his arms
• 38:05
  wrapped around me and his chin rested on my shoulder and I
• 38:09
  could feel his tears running down the front of my shirt.
• 38:13
  And he was weeping. And he was saying, not this one
• 38:15
  too. And this is the risk of free
• 38:19
  will. This is the greatest risk the
• 38:22
  Lord ever took, was giving people free will.
• 38:25
  But he never wanted robots. But in giving people free will,
• 38:30
  people can choose to abuse other people.
• 38:32
  That doesn't make God not real. The purpose that you must find
• 38:37
  in those traumas is where was he?
• 38:41
  Because I promise you he was there.
• 38:42
  I promise you he was weeping. I promise you he he guarded your
• 38:47
  heart. That doesn't mean it didn't have
• 38:50
  an effect, but it means that he is never absent.
• 38:56
  And he weeps over our pain. Wow.
• 39:05
  Yeah, that's that's amazingly deep.
• 39:09
  I've heard it, said Carly, that some people have considered the
• 39:15
  the loss of memory of certain things that have taken place,
• 39:19
  especially in the younger portion of life.
• 39:21
  It almost is a gift at times from God because like he, I
• 39:26
  think also, well, he of all would know that there's these
• 39:31
  breaking points and that there's trauma that that layers and it
• 39:36
  compounds and you know, it builds up.
• 39:40
  And I think in some ways, like I I feel that way.
• 39:43
  The reason I say it is because I even feel that way about my
• 39:45
  past. I think there's certain things
• 39:47
  where God was like, we're not going to go there and deal with
• 39:49
  that yet until you're looking at me and when you're focused on me
• 39:54
  and you know who I am and you know the victory, but you know
• 39:57
  that we and we all suffer. Read the psalms.
• 40:01
  Read the psalms alone. For anybody out there who's
• 40:04
  like, what are the, what is Rodney and Carly talking about?
• 40:06
  Listen. There's the good, the bad, the
• 40:08
  ugly, the beautiful and everything in between.
• 40:11
  When you read the songs and see what David went through,
• 40:13
  literally one point in time he is he's crying out and saying,
• 40:17
  God, my enemies encompass me, Lord, they're they're here to
• 40:20
  literally take me down into the pit, hear my cries, don't turn
• 40:24
  your face from me and you go a couple verses later and he is
• 40:26
  literally bold statements. My God is just and his fury has
• 40:31
  consumed the enemy who has set their foot against me.
• 40:34
  They have fallen by the way of the sword they drew to my neck,
• 40:37
  right. I mean, we see, I'm, I'm
• 40:39
  paraphrasing here, but but we see that with God's people.
• 40:43
  So anybody out there listening right now, if if you're getting
• 40:48
  triggered, if you're having memories, if you're dealing with
• 40:51
  something, it's okay to go there.
• 40:53
  But I want to tell you, go there with a godly person, pray and
• 40:57
  and and and find somebody. Go reach out to Dan Duvall.
• 41:00
  Every episode since I had him on, I put his website there.
• 41:04
  So you guys have access to the prayers and you guys have access
• 41:07
  to to go find a coach and get some help because that's
• 41:11
  important to me. That's important.
• 41:13
  It is important. It is important.
• 41:14
  And the number one thing you can ask is is literally Jesus.
• 41:18
  Where were you? Not Jesus, where were you?
• 41:22
  No, he was there. Where was he?
• 41:24
  Let him show you where he was because he was there.
• 41:28
  He would Where would else would he be?
• 41:30
  If your child was hurting where Where would you be?
• 41:32
  You would be there. And how much better of a father
• 41:35
  is he? And to go back to what you were
• 41:38
  saying about memories does you know it's a whole journey like
• 41:43
  what you said about No Rod. You're not ready to go there
• 41:46
  until you're looking at me. Yes.
• 41:48
  Yes. Because there's a testimony in
• 41:51
  our memories and. When I got some of these
• 41:54
  memories back, I saw them again. But I wasn't retraumatized by
• 42:01
  them because I was looking at them through Jesus.
• 42:05
  It was like he shielded me from being retraumatized by
• 42:10
  remembering things. But you know what I got out of
• 42:13
  it. For one, I saw him there, and
• 42:16
  for two my testimony is written. In Heaven.
• 42:23
  And it is a testimony to the condemnation of our enemy.
• 42:26
  And it affects more than me. My testimony affects more than
• 42:30
  me. It's not just about how good God
• 42:32
  has been to Carly. This is about every piece of my
• 42:36
  soul that the enemy has trafficked and tortured and
• 42:39
  utilized for evil agendas being taken back from His Kingdom
• 42:43
  cleanse and given back to me. You know why?
• 42:46
  You know why that affects everybody else, too?
• 42:48
  Because we are one body. Go in a room with some crabby,
• 42:51
  energetic vampire you. You will feel drained.
• 42:54
  So how much more? When I am whole, does that not
• 42:57
  affect the people around me? Does that not affect the body of
• 43:00
  Christ? Not only that, but he's sewing
• 43:03
  into his own condemnation. Every memory I get back, it's
• 43:07
  it's a nail in his coffin. Yes, and Amen.
• 43:10
  Because I'll tell you what, if I got one skin cell in the camp of
• 43:14
  the enemy, I'm coming for it. You don't get anything of mine
• 43:17
  because you know what they do, they utilize we.
• 43:20
  There is nothing more powerful in this world than Yahweh
• 43:24
  himself and he lives in us. So any fragment of us that is
• 43:28
  utilized by the camp, it's coveted.
• 43:30
  And there's, you know, people would love to find oil on their
• 43:33
  property, right? Because bam, now they're rich
• 43:36
  because it's utilized to to energize the world.
• 43:39
  It runs economies, right? And if that's true for something
• 43:43
  as simple as oil, imagine what you are energetically.
• 43:46
  You are the image and likeness of Yahweh, and the energy that
• 43:50
  he is, is you. He he took his essence and made
• 43:56
  you that energy can power a lot more than cities, folks.
• 44:01
  And if even the little bit it's of it, it's in the camp of the
• 44:03
  enemy. It's a problem not only because
• 44:06
  it's it's inevitably tethered to your life experiences, but it's
• 44:11
  giving. Energy to an evil agenda.
• 44:15
  And so my point in saying all that is to say yes, getting the
• 44:19
  memory back is scary. Yes, there's times and seasons.
• 44:23
  We have to be looking at the Lord.
• 44:25
  We have to be looking at it with the Lord.
• 44:27
  It's not all at once. That wouldn't be merciful.
• 44:30
  But it's important to remember because you can't convict
• 44:33
  somebody of a crime if there's no witnesses.
• 44:35
  And I stole that from Dan because it was really hard to
• 44:39
  understand. Like, how do we do?
• 44:42
  Why do I have to remember this? And then he said that in one
• 44:45
  sermon somewhere. Y'all better just check it out
• 44:48
  because you'll find you'll find the gems for yourself in season.
• 44:51
  It's like you can't convict someone of a crime without a
• 44:53
  testimony without a witness. You're the witness and every
• 44:57
  part of ourselves that we get back.
• 45:00
  We that's our inheritance. It's it's not just about being
• 45:04
  able to, you know, live your life a little better.
• 45:06
  This, our personhood, is his inheritance, he said.
• 45:10
  We are his inheritance. What?
• 45:14
  The one who was uncreated, who made all things, who was
• 45:18
  complete and holy and perfect in all his ways.
• 45:21
  I'm his inheritance. Oh, that makes me really
• 45:25
  important. And that makes you.
• 45:27
  Really important and all those things about you that the enemy
• 45:30
  has tried to harness for his fuen fuen stuff he does.
• 45:34
  It's not okay. We got to go for it.
• 45:37
  And this is where strategic prayer comes in because we have
• 45:40
  to go get what is his, what is ours.
• 45:43
  And we already have the victory. So pony up.
• 45:47
  I don't know what else to say. You just got a ride out.
• 45:50
  Get your music that you love, get your scriptures that you
• 45:53
  love. Find a group of people.
• 45:55
  Who you can trust and pray with and pray and pray smart and wise
• 46:00
  prayers, Strategic prayers. Because you will avail so much.
• 46:04
  You will. I tell you, when I started this
• 46:06
  journey, when I got saved in 2009, was it nine or seven?
• 46:10
  I can't remember. My life has been radically
• 46:14
  changed, but it wasn't me. I'm just walking with the Lord
• 46:18
  like he's a faithful one. Wow.
• 46:27
  Yeah. OKOK, so you're speaking my
• 46:29
  language now that this is where I live, in this, this place.
• 46:35
  I love hearing the testimony because we know it is only by
• 46:41
  the blood of the lamb and through our testimonies that we
• 46:45
  overcome. And here's another another line
• 46:49
  from Dan. You're going to have a testimony
• 46:53
  that is a justice case against the Kingdom of Darkness.
• 46:56
  That's actually in the intro of the podcast.
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  Now, I I know that just speaking with with Dan personally because
• 47:04
  this, this is the thing Carly God has people in the Kingdom,
• 47:10
  in the body that he wants us to connect with for one reason or
• 47:13
  another. It doesn't always need to make
• 47:15
  sense in the moment. There's things that I've heard.
• 47:18
  I've listened to people talk for hours years ago when it first
• 47:21
  started to show and they'll be like one or two things that just
• 47:23
  stick with me, right? It's like that never left me and
• 47:27
  then I'll find, oh, that was a tool that that God was using to
• 47:32
  give me from somebody else that I was to pull out and use for
• 47:36
  this job, right. It was like that.
• 47:38
  It's just right there on the back burner.
• 47:39
  At any point in time, turn around and grab it and use it.
• 47:42
  And I and I think that's interesting and we need more
• 47:44
  people to speak up, to talk about their testimonies, to not
• 47:49
  be afraid to go there. But we got to be strong in the
• 47:52
  Lord. So like, there's this balance of
• 47:53
  like we need to disciple people and and love people.
• 47:58
  Like literally love them. Like just be there with them.
• 48:00
  Like it. I was reading the scripture the
• 48:02
  other day and it was like cry with who's crying and laugh with
• 48:05
  who's laughing. Like anybody joyful, sing a song
• 48:09
  to the Lord. Is anybody sick?
• 48:11
  You need prayer, prayer and intercede, right?
• 48:14
  And it's like we need to see more of that as well, because
• 48:16
  there's there's plenty of like YouTube cool Christian.
• 48:20
  I feel like Christianity is like kind of cool right now in the
• 48:23
  public's eye in a way, because it's kind of the rebel, like the
• 48:26
  whole world is like opposed to it.
• 48:27
  So people think it's cool to be a Christian rapper, a Christian
• 48:30
  musician. And I believe there's some real
• 48:32
  ones out there. I believe there's some real ones
• 48:34
  out there, but not all of them, you guys, not all of them.
• 48:38
  The battles that take place behind closed doors, most people
• 48:41
  never see that stuff. So you got to have people you
• 48:44
  can pray with that you trust. And we need more Dan the balls
• 48:47
  out there. We need more Carly's out there
• 48:50
  at this point in time. Oh man, so.
• 48:53
  Yeah, we need to wake up to who we are and, and and I think
• 48:56
  that's where the rubber meets the road is when you're moving
• 49:00
  in your identity and you're not living a life of watered down
• 49:05
  identity. It's not, it's not a theological
• 49:07
  exercise of personality, right? It's if you punch me in the face
• 49:13
  and wake me up and ask me who I am, I'm going to know my name.
• 49:16
  It doesn't matter what's going on.
• 49:17
  Like I'm going to know my own name, right?
• 49:19
  Because it has been with me. It is who I am, frankly.
• 49:22
  Right? This name.
• 49:23
  And the Lord has a different name for me.
• 49:25
  But my point is, is that it's got to be so in us.
• 49:28
  And how does this come? This comes by fellowship, time
• 49:32
  and the Word. Realizing that God is with you
• 49:36
  all the time and he will speak to you through little things.
• 49:39
  Just like you said. That moment you, you cross paths
• 49:42
  to somebody. They said a thing.
• 49:43
  It's stuck with you. That's the Lord.
• 49:46
  That's the Lord right there, and it's learning to recognize those
• 49:49
  little moments. I tell you, I've had the Lord
• 49:51
  show up and talk to me through the silliest things.
• 49:57
  It's so simple. Because he it's not always this
• 50:00
  deep esoteric searching. There's that too, right?
• 50:04
  There's that, too. But there's also that time you
• 50:08
  see a flower budding. And he talks to you about the
• 50:11
  cycles of life and how you'll always be born again and again.
• 50:15
  And there's always hope and there's always newness of life
• 50:18
  in him. It's it's just that simple.
• 50:21
  But we have to choose to, to look for it.
• 50:24
  Expect the Lord to show up in the every day Ness of your life.
• 50:28
  He will talk to you when you're folding your laundry.
• 50:30
  He will show you how to be grateful in the mundane things
• 50:34
  of life, because he's there too. God isn't just there to be met
• 50:39
  when you're in your prayer closet.
• 50:41
  He's there to be met when you're tying your shoes and you're
• 50:43
  running your kids to this place and that place and you're
• 50:45
  vacuuming your carpet. It's all the Bible says.
• 50:48
  Do all things unto the Lord, Yeah, and and that's a
• 50:54
  relationship. But we're talking about, we're
• 50:55
  literally talking about a relationship, how we are
• 50:59
  relating to God, because clearly he is there.
• 51:02
  Whether somebody out there is listening to this or like, I
• 51:05
  don't see him, though I don't feel him.
• 51:07
  We can't always base it on on feelings.
• 51:09
  Faith is is not by sight. It's not by sight, you guys.
• 51:16
  Your faith can increase, grow if you whether you have a blindfold
• 51:19
  on or not. You know faith is the substance
• 51:21
  of things hoped for, the evidence of the unseen.
• 51:25
  And I love what you said, Carly. I love what you said about
• 51:28
  looking at the everyday things because I get distracted on.
• 51:32
  I work in a factory 4050 hours a week, right?
• 51:36
  You know, I have a young kid, right?
• 51:37
  I got land, I got chickens here. And I'm like, I'm trying to get
• 51:41
  all this stuff done. And a lot of times I'll be like,
• 51:43
  I'll just have to laugh at myself and be like, man, I
• 51:46
  cannot take myself too serious. God, I am like, go, go, go,
• 51:49
  right. I got veins popping out.
• 51:51
  I'm sweating out here and I haven't talked to you all day.
• 51:53
  Lord, like, what am I doing? Like, what is going on around
• 51:56
  here? Right?
• 51:57
  And then I'll just start to soak it up with him for a minute.
• 51:59
  But I wish that literally I had more of the training to see that
• 52:04
  just by models, by examples, Carly.
• 52:07
  Lord knows this is the thing. Next time you're shoveling
• 52:11
  chicken poop, ask the Lord to be there with you.
• 52:13
  When you're shoveling the chicken poop.
• 52:16
  When you're when you're sweating and you're running around and
• 52:19
  you're, you know, your frazzle. Lord, just be here with me
• 52:22
  because it's learning to walk in the mundane things, right?
• 52:27
  And and like if my husband were to leave my house and go be in a
• 52:30
  different country for a month, if I didn't see him, let's say
• 52:32
  our phones are broken and we couldn't talk, would he be any
• 52:34
  less my husband because he's over there?
• 52:37
  He wouldn't. It isn't the IT isn't.
• 52:41
  If we've base our faith purely on our experiential, sensual
• 52:46
  aspects of of our relationship with God, we're going to be
• 52:49
  disappointed in seasons because. Sometimes you just have to trust
• 52:54
  Lords. I'm struggling the chicken poop
• 52:59
  and you're here with me because I got to shovel it.
• 53:02
  You've you've made me Stewart, right?
• 53:04
  You you you told me to tend and keep the garden.
• 53:06
  I got these chickens now I got to bless them in Jesus name.
• 53:10
  Maybe they'll poop a little less.
• 53:11
  I don't know. But you know what I mean?
• 53:14
  Give me more eggs, less poop in Jesus name.
• 53:17
  Amen. You know But you got to in All
• 53:19
  in all things pray without ceasing.
• 53:21
  Do all things unto the Lord that mean what that is, is just an
• 53:25
  invitation Lord invites. There's seasons in my life where
• 53:27
  I like I'm a spiritual warrior, but there are seasons in my life
• 53:33
  when I'm like I cannot. I'm just in my turtle shell,
• 53:36
  like peeking out going Lord, I ain't going, no, Sir, I'm not
• 53:41
  going out there. You're going to have to come in
• 53:43
  here with me. And he does.
• 53:45
  And it doesn't change the things that's happening in my life
• 53:49
  necessarily in the moment. But I know I've invited into
• 53:53
  him, into a place, and that's meaningful because every time we
• 54:00
  give the Lord our yes. Every time we open a door for
• 54:03
  him to come in, he's faithful to Sup with us.
• 54:08
  And you know what? His presence gives us strength.
• 54:10
  His presence gives us peace. And next thing we know, we look
• 54:14
  back and we go. I don't know how I got over, but
• 54:17
  I know one day I said Jesus yes. And that's all it takes, is it's
• 54:23
  not always complicated. It's not always taking time
• 54:27
  aside and stopping what you're doing, and that's great too.
• 54:29
  But if you're in a seasonal life that you can't do that, there's
• 54:32
  grace for that. Invite him when you're cleaning
• 54:35
  the toilet. Like, just do it.
• 54:37
  He's not afraid. He's not a he's not so uppity
• 54:41
  that he can't be in the shower talking to you while you're
• 54:44
  crying like he's got big shoulders and he's not easily
• 54:50
  offended. So.
• 54:51
  You know, talk to Jesus when you're on the toilet.
• 54:53
  He don't mind. I promise he doesn't.
• 54:56
  He just wants to be invited in. Yeah.
• 55:00
  You know, I'm really happy that I love when the episode just
• 55:04
  goes organic organically, just flows.
• 55:06
  And this is, this is a reminder for me and for everybody
• 55:10
  listening, just to include the Lord and more of what we're
• 55:16
  doing. Cuz he's there anyway.
• 55:18
  He's already there and so including him in that is really
• 55:22
  you saying yes to God. I know that you're there and it
• 55:27
  reminds me of what repentance is.
• 55:30
  Repentance is a change of mind. It's changing our mind.
• 55:34
  We we can change our mind about how we are dealing with things
• 55:38
  about what's going on on our day-to-day.
• 55:42
  It's just it's such a great a great place to come to.
• 55:45
  Now we have, we have a close here in about 10 minutes.
• 55:49
  So I'm going to say this right now, you're you got to come back
• 55:52
  for Part 2 because we we have so much more to get through.
• 55:55
  Yes, but I want it. I just wanted to say something.
• 56:00
  I don't mean to butt in, but I want to say one more thing.
• 56:04
  After I got saved, it wasn't all roses.
• 56:09
  I ended up in a a church where the pastor was predatory,
• 56:15
  sexually predatory towards me and.
• 56:19
  In the light of a lifetime of brokenness and self betrayal and
• 56:23
  condemnation, I was so vulnerable, even though I was an
• 56:28
  adult and a mother of two sons like I should have, quote UN
• 56:31
  quote, known better. And I think that's the thing
• 56:33
  that Enemy often says to people who are agewise adults, but
• 56:38
  they're not. We're not there yet because of
• 56:40
  unresolved trauma and hurts and I really want to speak to.
• 56:48
  I want to share my testimony in this place, and it's it's very
• 56:51
  vulnerable and raw. It's not pretty to listen to.
• 56:55
  Some people might not even like me when we're done, like, right?
• 56:59
  But the truth of the matter is these things happen.
• 57:02
  Church hurts. Go beyond being disappointed
• 57:04
  that you didn't get crowned to Deacon, OK?
• 57:08
  They they can become a rending of the soul.
• 57:12
  That makes you question if he's even real.
• 57:17
  And there's people out there who have lived that, like I have
• 57:20
  lived that. And there was a point in my life
• 57:23
  after I, after I finally admitted to my husband what had
• 57:27
  happened to me, that I said to the Lord, Look, I don't know
• 57:32
  anything. Nothing.
• 57:34
  The sky might not even be blue. I might not even be me.
• 57:38
  The seasons might not be real. Yo, I know two things.
• 57:42
  That's it. Two things.
• 57:45
  God is good. Jesus is Lord, and so help me
• 57:48
  God, you're going to have to build everything else back.
• 57:50
  Because it broke me so deeply, was like the culmination of all
• 57:57
  my worst traumas took place in the church.
• 57:59
  And it shouldn't be like that, but it was.
• 58:05
  And there's a way through and there's an overcoming that's
• 58:09
  available and it's not time to give up and it's not time to
• 58:12
  pack up and go to the new age, no.
• 58:15
  Because sometimes the people who are call themselves Christians,
• 58:19
  they may be well meaning, but they got their own unresolved
• 58:21
  stuff. This is facts.
• 58:27
  This. Facts.
• 58:28
  Wow. And it and it took a toll.
• 58:30
  It took, it affected my marriage.
• 58:32
  It it, and we've had to be building back ever since.
• 58:36
  It affected my new family when I got married again and I had that
• 58:40
  courage to get married again. But the Lord was in it.
• 58:44
  Every step of the way. Not every day and not every
• 58:47
  moment could I see it. But he has been faithfully
• 58:51
  putting me back together since the moment I confessed to my
• 58:56
  husband what had happened to me. He's been building us back, but
• 58:59
  it's been a very difficult Rd. But this is where the Lord calls
• 59:04
  people overcomers. Overcomers have overcome some
• 59:07
  stuff. They didn't just arrive on a a
• 59:10
  valet of roses. You have to fight for stuff.
• 59:14
  If it matters to you, you have to buckle down and do it.
• 59:16
  And if you can't do it, you invite Jesus into your I can't
• 59:20
  do this right now. And I I would just love to come
• 59:24
  back and talk about the truth of what happened to me and just
• 59:28
  pray that it allows other people who've been through similar
• 59:33
  situations to say to Jesus, yes, again, because he's faithful.
• 59:41
  Absolutely. And you're definitely going to
• 59:43
  come back. I know you just for a sneak peek
• 59:47
  for the listeners you have some information or possibly is an
• 59:52
  experience with Sasquatch and different hauntings of sort.
• 59:57
  Quick left, yeah. Yeah, we're.
• 1:00:02
  Want me to touch on that a little bit?
• 1:00:03
  Little Sasquatch sprinkles. Just a little glimmer of
• 1:00:06
  Sasquatch. Because I love Bigfoot and
• 1:00:10
  crickets in general, yeah, yeah, I just, I have to go there and
• 1:00:14
  we're going to do this as as literally because the audience
• 1:00:18
  is going to expect us to talk about this when you come back.
• 1:00:20
  And and I think that that's going to be a lot of fun.
• 1:00:23
  But give us a couple little glimmers here of Sasquatch.
• 1:00:27
  What's going on there? What's going on?
• 1:00:30
  With Sasquatch soup? Okay so.
• 1:00:33
  My grandparents of my mom's mom's house was haunted and
• 1:00:37
  crazy and weird and at night my this was out by the Shaquanmaga
• 1:00:41
  National Forest out in Wisconsin, North Central,
• 1:00:43
  Wisconsin, little town, middle of nowhere.
• 1:00:46
  You can see the whole Milky Way in the sky at night, legit
• 1:00:50
  nowhere'sville. And so there was always my
• 1:00:54
  grandma would call them poltergeist and they'd move
• 1:00:56
  things around the house and and there'd be there's this one room
• 1:00:59
  that there were shadow people and dark.
• 1:01:02
  Cold. It was always cold.
• 1:01:03
  It was. It was strange.
• 1:01:05
  But the Sasquatch thing was my grandma would always shut the
• 1:01:08
  curtains at night. Because that's funny, because
• 1:01:11
  not everybody in my family is sensitive to it, but there was a
• 1:01:14
  handful of us that were and it just felt like someone was
• 1:01:17
  watching us through the window. So nobody would want to look out
• 1:01:21
  the window at night. My grandma actually went so far
• 1:01:24
  as to have a history of the land, to see, like where they're
• 1:01:27
  at Native American burial grounds or something, because
• 1:01:29
  the place was just weird. But one night, this is the
• 1:01:32
  Sasquatch encounter. You won't find me on Sasquatch
• 1:01:36
  Chronicles because it's too short of a story, but it's
• 1:01:38
  perfect for this timing. So my grandma had just passed
• 1:01:42
  away and my whole family was at the house.
• 1:01:46
  And it was old farmhouse. You walk out the door and you
• 1:01:48
  got to walk a little ways to the car.
• 1:01:51
  Ever the people who are sensitive to these things, we we
• 1:01:54
  did not go outside at night by ourselves because it just was
• 1:01:56
  freaky. It was freaky.
• 1:01:59
  But this time I'm like, you know what?
• 1:02:00
  I'm saved. I got Jesus, me and Jesus, we're
• 1:02:02
  going to the car. Hey.
• 1:02:04
  So I it's night. I walk out and I go to my car to
• 1:02:07
  get whatever I was going to get. And I looked down the driveway
• 1:02:11
  between the garage and the barn, and there was like this.
• 1:02:15
  It's hard to tell but I would say about 8 or 9 feet tall based
• 1:02:18
  on a tree that it was standing next to hulking black figure.
• 1:02:23
  And the reason why I say was Sasquatch is because the build
• 1:02:26
  it was like the head of the thing was my God, it was like 2
• 1:02:33
  huge watermelons and there was probably 4 1/2 feet wide and it
• 1:02:38
  was because there was a light down that way down the hill it
• 1:02:42
  was in relief. So.
• 1:02:44
  I couldn't see features because the light was behind the thing
• 1:02:48
  down the yard, probably 25 yards, based on me eyeballing a
• 1:02:53
  football field in my brain, OK, And and I just looked at it and
• 1:02:57
  I stopped and look and I'm like frozen.
• 1:02:59
  And this thing's looking at me. And I just grabbed my stuff,
• 1:03:03
  shut the door. I was like, Lord, this devil
• 1:03:09
  Sasquatch thing is not going to see me running.
• 1:03:11
  So I'm not running. Right.
• 1:03:14
  So I start to, like, walk quickly controlled way back to
• 1:03:18
  the house and went inside and I told my mom, she's like, you
• 1:03:22
  shouldn't even be going outside at night by yourself.
• 1:03:26
  Wow. But that was The thing is, is
• 1:03:27
  between always feeling like someone's looking through the
• 1:03:29
  window and then this one occurrence, you know, and I've
• 1:03:32
  seen spirits before. I've that's a whole nother
• 1:03:36
  thing. That's another podcast for
• 1:03:37
  another day. But between the Ouija board and
• 1:03:39
  my own seances and channeling and trying to resurrect the soul
• 1:03:43
  of my dead father, I've seen a lot of spiritual stuff.
• 1:03:46
  And this was not that. This was a very physical
• 1:03:50
  something. So you see the silhouette of of
• 1:03:55
  the Bigfoot, right? And and now let's end it with
• 1:03:59
  this Okay, what do you think it was?
• 1:04:03
  A physical creature? Completely physical?
• 1:04:06
  Or do you think it was a spiritual being that manifested
• 1:04:11
  into the physical? What do you think Sasquatch is?
• 1:04:14
  Yeah, but that's that's a loaded question.
• 1:04:16
  The reason why I think this was a the reason why I think it's
• 1:04:18
  both. I think just like all creation,
• 1:04:22
  it's sentient. It has self-awareness, it has
• 1:04:27
  spiritual stuff about it. It's a it was a physical thing,
• 1:04:30
  so it's physically there, but. You know you can't feel the
• 1:04:37
  energy of something that isn't alive.
• 1:04:39
  If you take a dead flower and put it on the table, you're not
• 1:04:42
  really going to be able to feel the energy of it is not an
• 1:04:45
  animate object, right? Only the things that are alive
• 1:04:49
  and have an energetic feel. The soul, if you will.
• 1:04:54
  I hesitate to use that term technically, but then you can
• 1:04:58
  feel it, so I think. As far as the whole Sasquatch
• 1:05:02
  conversation goes, I think they are, they're different.
• 1:05:07
  There's there's different ones that can do different things.
• 1:05:10
  Just like people, we have different gifts, we have
• 1:05:13
  different abilities and and maybe some of us are lumped
• 1:05:16
  into, you know, having a prophetic bent or some of us are
• 1:05:18
  lumped into this. I think Sasquatch is the same
• 1:05:21
  way. It's the it's a physical entity
• 1:05:23
  that has supernatural expressions and abilities.
• 1:05:27
  So people have talked about it cloaking.
• 1:05:30
  Or disappearing or. Or its energy, like debilitating
• 1:05:34
  you. The frequency of its voice.
• 1:05:37
  I think all of these things lend to believing that it has a
• 1:05:42
  spiritual ability that is different than our own.
• 1:05:49
  So I would say it's both. And yeah, I really like, I
• 1:05:53
  really like your answer. I I feel very, very similar.
• 1:05:58
  I still haven't made my mind up 100%, but I know it's not just
• 1:06:01
  an ape man running around out in the woods.
• 1:06:04
  It's so much more than that. And I've never had an encounter
• 1:06:06
  with one but but I've, you know dealt with some other cryptids
• 1:06:13
  if you will. And from what I hear it sounds
• 1:06:17
  very similar, the way that these things make you feel and the
• 1:06:21
  presence that they carry. And it's a battle we we're in a
• 1:06:25
  battlefield that all of this is it's a battlefield.
• 1:06:29
  And Carly, it was it was a pleasure to have you on and we
• 1:06:32
  didn't get into enough of your story.
• 1:06:36
  So a Part 2 is guaranteed and I just want to I just want to give
• 1:06:40
  you a real quick space. If if you have some kind of
• 1:06:42
  winding down words for us here and if you have anything where
• 1:06:47
  if a listener wants to reach out to you, if you have like a
• 1:06:49
  social media site or just anything at all, feel free to
• 1:06:52
  plug that and give us some closing thoughts and words just
• 1:06:58
  on your experience here this far and.
• 1:07:02
  I think you could put it in the show notes.
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  You could just share my Gmail account.
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  I'm not big on social media like.
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  You know, China's watching us, Facebook censoring us.
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  So what are we going to say? My face, my social media is not
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  very interesting, folks. So if you do want to reach out
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  to me for some other reason, just e-mail me.
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  I'll give Rod that information, as in, in closing thoughts.
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  You're not disqualified because of the things that you've been
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  through. God.
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  God can love you back into wholeness.
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  It's not a snap of a finger. It's not an easy Rd.
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  But you get closer every time you give him your yes.
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  And there's hope. There's hope for people who
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  maybe don't know him know Jesus, it's not another moral code to
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  live by. You could pick a moral code from
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  any religions of the world. Jesus is the embodiment of all
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  of creation, including you. It's it's not about learning to
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  not do this and to start doing that.
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  It's about learning truly who you are in Him because you're
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  not separate. And if you've spent your life
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  feeling separate from something that's bigger than you, I
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  promise you. If you genuinely seek truth in
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  your life, you will land at Jesus.
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  You will land at Jesus. I I took a long, windy crazy Rd.
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  but I got there too, and if he could bring me there, his hand
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  isn't far from you. And so I hope you come back for
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  Part 2, because we're going to talk about some of the harder
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  things, some of the testimonies, cosmic justice cases.
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  As Daniel says, and and we're going to stomp the devil in the
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  face, because you know what, that's what he's got coming.
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  So I'm going to tell my testimony and it's going to be
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  vulnerable and real, but I'm not ashamed and I don't think
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  anybody else should be either. Because the truth be told is
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  that vulnerability is a weapon of the Lord as well.
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  Because you know what? Nobody can hurt me.
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  They can't hurt me. I can tell you the dark and
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  crazy horrible things, the terrible decisions I've made, as
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  ugly as I've been, and who can take something, Who can take
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  something from me without the Lord say so?
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  I better. I'd be vulnerable and honest
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  with the things that I've been through and help somebody else
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  than to be afraid of what somebody else might think.
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  God forbid. Psalms 106.
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  Praise ye the Lord, Oh give thanks unto the Lord, for he is
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  good for his mercy. Endureth forever, who can utter
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  the mighty acts of the Lord? Who can show forth all of his
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  praise? Blessed are they that keep
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  judgment, and he that do with righteousness.
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  At all times. Remember Me, Lord, with thy
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  favor that thou bearest unto their people.
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  Oh, visit me with thy salvation, that I might see the good of
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  that chosen, that I may rejoice in the gladness of thy nation,
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  that I may glory with thine inheritance.
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  Carly, it was an honor to have you here and to hear your story.
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  I know that this one was an emotional roller coaster, and we
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  didn't even get into the meat of her story yet.
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  This is just an introduction, so share this one with your
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  friends, family members, with your coworker.
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  Thank you. That's all man.
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  God bless. And goodbye.