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BBNIC Ep 37 - I WOULD DATE A PORN STAR · Blind But Now I See

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Taylor early birthday shout out, I mean don Julio birthday, man, Man,
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I appreciate you that Julio gonna turn into the hook Jake Wiseley for real.
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But you know, we just having fun. Memorial Day coming up,
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drinks, cookout, barbecues and everything else. You know, happy month,
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pre Mother's Day, Father Day coming up. Let's see what gifts I get
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because you know, for over they come out, they act like they don't
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know his Father's Day. They act like it's a regular day. They don't
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a knowledge. But it's cool though, which is crazy. But how you
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feeling today, Wolf, I'm feeling good, bro. It's another day on
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Earth. Bro. I'm happy. I'm alive. The weather is good in
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New York City, anytime the weather good in New York City. Bro,
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I'm telling you, Bro, telling you, Bro, some flower some flower
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dresses outside when we show us out, the crap tops is blowing in the
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wind. I'm just oh, man, this is a great time to be
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alive. Man. Let me ask you something random. You smoke, you
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smoke weed? No, I don't smoke. I don't smoke weed, but
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I'm working my own weed brando. Yeah, definitely, is I start smoking
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like your ship? Did you ever smoke weed? Yea, I smoked a
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couple of times, a couple of times, So you were never like a
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big smoker. I was a drinker. I see I smoke. It's like
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I see you. I mean, especially this new weed that's out right now.
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Yeh man, you feel a different types of way. So since you
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you you more of a you partake in the in the liquor than you do
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the smoke. How does somebody know when they addicted? Like? When do
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you know when? When when too much is too much liquor? Yeah?
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How do you know? Like? How do you even separate? How do
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we separate the difference between somebody who just love getting sucked up because they having
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a good time and then somebody that's like, need need to interven. You
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gotta when you got to drink Monday, Tuesday, one day, Thursday,
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Friday, Saturday, Sunday, it's a problem. When you feel like you
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don't know your limits is a problem, and it's enough is enough. It's
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a problem. And you drinking, like when you just drinking just a drink,
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it's a problem. Like when you can walk around and drink other people
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cups I got. I got friends that's alcoholics that they go and pick up
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somebody else's cup that they left behind just to drink it. That's what it's
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like, Yo, you're alcoholic. That's wicked. It's like, it's not
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you're not a social drinker. I'm a social drinker. Like I drink.
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It's times I go out don't drink. I don't got the urge too.
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I don't got the taste to Some people wake up and they outside the liquor
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store before the liquor store even right right, It's like, nah, you
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got a problem, man, When every little thing is a celebration for you
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to drink, you got a problem. I mean, some people a glass
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of wine, I don't feel like a glass of wine today. That's not
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an alcoholic and none of that. And sometimes, like they said, wine
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is good for the heart anyway, like a little glass and I could take
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that, that's what they say. But when you drinking and you drinking,
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and you drinking, and it's like, damn, bro, you don't care
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if you drinking. Dogs start off a dog that you're drinking light you drink.
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Nah, it's a problem drinking everything you sweating, it's coming out of
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your poles. Like you you even when you don't got to look at your
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system. You could tell something that's wrong, like that that monkey is on
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your back. You need something. That ship is a problem. I feel
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like you need to go seek help from it. Yeah, bro, how
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do you feel about people who they feel like they gotta constantly drink alcohol to
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gain confidence to talk to girls? Like what advice would you give to somebody
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that feel like I can't talk to girls unless I'm drunk. I mean,
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I feel like you you really ain't gonna go fard with that. I feel
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like confidence coming from within. It ain't no substance that can give you that
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that boost. Because you see signing the library, you see something on the
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train, you see signing in the museum or you see something on the plane,
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you won't you need that drink to go talk. I feel like if
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the liquor gives you your motivation, your confidence, and you need that,
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you're missing out on a lot of blessings. Because let's take it out just
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for the women. I mean, you can't. You'll miss out on opportunities
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of like talking to somebody that can benefit your life. But you can't because
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you need you need the alcohol in your system. So if you needed to
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talk to a girl, you needed to, You needed to talk to opportunities
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that might come your way. So which means you're gonna miss out on a
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lot. Yeah. So therefore it's like that liquor control in your life.
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Yeah, wow, why do you want that? Yeah? And I mean
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I was. I was addicted to the perks, whatever the case may be.
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And it's like when I had that in my system, I didn't care
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what came out my mouth because it's like I was boost up and high.
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So it's like you don't think about that ship until it's off, Like damn,
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I had that. But now that I'm clean from it and all that,
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I don't got to be drunk to speak my mind or say what I
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want to say. I say it because I am him. I am like,
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you can't take that away from me. Like my voice is everything,
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my work is everything. So it's like I don't need no substance to get
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me there to say what's on my mind or say if I want to talk
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to you. You know what's interesting about life, It's so many people that
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they have their vision, they have their limbs, they got a lot of
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things, you know what I mean, Like they got a place to sleep
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every night, they got a job. But it's so many people that's like
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so not confident, right, And when I see you, I see somebody
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who could have a very great excuse to you to not be confident, not
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be excited about life. And then yet every time I see you, you
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motivated, You always got something to look forward to. But then there are
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people that haven't been through like one percent of what you've been through, and
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they just feel like, I mean, you got some people who you know,
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contemplating if they want to even live or not. Yeah, you know,
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And I just I want to ask you because I think you're the most
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You're the right person to ask as a person that's like literally battle testing.
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You know, sometimes you get advice from people, and they can give you
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some good advice, but like, what if you've been through though, like
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to say that you can give me you know what if you survived you know,
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like you survived something that would literally, like not even metaphorically take people
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out, and yet you still hear happy, Yeah, got you know what
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I mean? Walking with a rhythm. And so what would you what kind
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of advice would you give to somebody? Well, first of all, what
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would you say to somebody who sleep behind the wheel because clearly like it's like
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you don't even got nothing to be complaining about, and yet you're like unhappy.
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Like what would you tell that a person like that? First I would
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tell them, look at my life and do you still want to complain about
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yours? It's like you have the ability to see your loved ones, you
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have the ability to get up and walk. You ain't in a wheelchair,
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you ain't using no stick. It's like what you're beating yourself up over.
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I feel like you need to fine with the root of your problem is and
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solve it, whether it's therapy, whether you just need less time up and
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put everything on the table. Let people know how you feel. I feel
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like a lot of people wake up with no reasons to be down. A
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lot of people wake up with no reason to be miserable. It's like you
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living how many people how many people die today? And then you got to
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think how many people went to sleep last night thinking tomorrow, when I wake
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up, I'm gonna eat this tomorrow, when I wake up, I'm gonna
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go to work someone when I wake up, I'm gonna do this for my
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grandkid, my son, my daughter, my sister and whatever. And then
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when they didn't wake up. So who is you to be tripping over anything
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in life? Don't get me wrong. It's like, go back to what
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you're saying, like, yeah, I got confidence, I come, I
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rhythm, I'm smiling and everything. It was hard for me for a minute
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cause it's like I had to find out who I was again. So it
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was like I used to walk in the roads and think that everybody looking at
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me because I was blind. I had pretty much I was walking with my
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head down. I forgot who I was, and in the process of that,
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I lost a lot of people. I pushed a lot of relationships away,
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Like I turned like I'm in a dark But it's like the sun was
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still shining on me. I didn't see the sun. I was just taking
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I was running towards them dark clouds, just to stand in the dark clouds,
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thinking that I was gonna blend in and nobody was gonna see it.
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Right, So my best advice to a person like that is stay out the
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dark. It's not made for everybody. The dont can tell you some fucked
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up things. The doc could take you down. The dark can fuck your
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mind up. You can hear voices, you start hallucinating. You can forget
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who you is, you can forget how you look and everything else, and
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that shit could swallow you. And once you get swallowed by the dark.
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Best in believe that Grim Reaper will be coming with the biggest medallion around his
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neck, bopping and thinking that you were his friend, and you thinking that's
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the right place, because he gonna tell you everything that you want to hear,
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everything that you loved to hear, and he and then it'll be over
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for your life. I've been in that dark place. I seen the Grim
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Reaper and everything else, but the sun shine brighter. So now when I
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walk in the rooms, I walk in the room knowing that I'm the the
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fliest motherfucker, the baddest motherfucker, the confident motherfucker that knowing that anybody got
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to come to me to answer questions Like I'm a party promoter. So when
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I'm texting DJ's like, Yo, you're on for this week, you're on
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for that week. I'm taking I'm controlling my life. I'm taking back my
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life. It ain't oh call the people don't work with to see what the
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schedule is. People calling me so you know what's the next move, See
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know what we're doing this, So seeing what we're doing that. So it's
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like, that's my way of taking back who I am and it feels good.
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So I tell a person, I mean, find a way of find
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what's your purpose of living, what's your reasons to live and lead life through
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there? You got to sit down and talk to a person on that college.
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Do it. Don't be scared to do it. I ran from therapy.
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I'm looking for a strong therapy that could deal with me, and I'm
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ready to commit and turn my life to that. That's the best thing I
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can tell you to do is just stay out that dog. Yeah. I
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really feel like you're the right person to ask because you have lifted so much,
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and you have came through so much, and yet you know you,
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you definitely look like you're enjoying your life. And I say, every day,
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wake up, bro. Yeah, that's why I said, say I'm
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the King of the dolt. I felt like I was in a dog soonol.
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I learn how to maneuver through it. I learned not to get stuck
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in it. I learned how to be successful in it. So it's like,
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not too many people ain't gonna be lucky to maneuver like the way I
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did. I mean, it's really all about choices. Like at the end
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of the day, you could have stayed in the darks. You could have
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very much so stayed there. You could still be there right now, like
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years later, like considering all the dope shit that you've done, and just
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imagine that there's another dimension of life, another walk of life when none of
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that happened and you just stayed down. People don't understand eight years when you
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contemplating this is today you want to get the strength to kill yourself. A
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lot of people don't understand that it is Today's the day I'm gonna stop being
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a cout and check out. A lot of people don't understand that another day
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you make up is like how I'm going out, I'm gonna jump off this
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I'm gonna jump off this roof. I'm gonna take these pills. I don't
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want to check myself out. Come on. Man, A lot of a
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lot of people can't relate to that. Yes, it's a different feeling.
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So it's like now when I wake up and say and say what business adventure
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I'm gonna start today? I wake up and say, damn what what outfit
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I'm gonna put on today? When I wake up and say and say,
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damn, what girl I'm gonna talk to today? Like how my life going
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change today? Like how I'm gonna make history today? You know, I'm
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not having them fucked up thoughts in my head. So it's like the last
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guest I had on the show, and he sat there and says he felt
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like like it was a joke, but I didn't find it as a joke
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when he sat there and say looking for his mother gun off itself. But
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it was a deal though. I felt like that was a feeling that he
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really feel of course for sure. And it's like and I said, I
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don't see therapy. He said, I'm just going there and I'm saying the
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same thing over. I feel like you never opened up to really explain how
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you really feel to get their proper help that you need. I feel like
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that's a problem. Like I'm saying, years, man, I've been done
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for twelve years, eight years, so it been only four years. I've
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been good with this four years. I've been trying to make up for all
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the damages I did in that years. It's a whole lot I did in
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that eight years, and I'm trying to make up, which is like rebuild
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relationship, showing that I'm a different person, Like try to get back the
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time that I really waste and I let go, like moments that I passed
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up on I'm trying to get back now. So it's like I got a
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lot more work to do in the last eight years I really wasted. And
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then, don't get me wrong with that, it's coming together in these four
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I made accounting these four How many people can say and say they got a
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relationship with Wheezy, Gilly Wallow, wax Lorreale. How many people can say
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say they got relationships with these people. Been in the room with Charlottemagne,
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been in the room with powerful speakers. People see me and like, damn,
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bro, like you're moving, like damn, you're doing better than us
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and all that. And I'm like, I think if I would have started
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this ship, gave myself for just a year to grieve and got back to
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it, I'd be dangerous right now. But I like, time is everything,
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So it was my time. My time was my time, Like it
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came right when it's supposed to. Let me ask you this. You have
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an Instagram blinding I see NYC fob underscore C note, I got the official
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blonde step up. I promote on everything. Do you go on Instagram every
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day? Yeah? Every day. I gotta post my parties. I gotta
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post my parties when I put my rails up, when I put my stories
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up and people like it and people reacting to it, I respond back to
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the people, letting them know that I'm not big. I'm not too big
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to respond back to you, to give you advice or just to like your
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your comment or put a heart to it or tell you hanging there. I'll
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show people I'm just as good as I'm just on the level with you.
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How do you how do you experience I mean, obviously like I'm assuming,
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nah, I ask you, how do you experience Instagram? Like what is
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it like as somebody who can't like observe the visual aspect of it? Well
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before like now I just posted get off it, okay, But before I
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really was going on people pages listen to the video like they was going through
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the videos for me. I'm listening to it, they reading it to me.
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I'm putting a picture to her and like whatever the case may be,
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Like I know I keep saying the thin but Cherokee. I used to go
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on her page, listen to her on Instagram, on Instagram Cherokee dis go
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on her Instagram page, and not only like I'm fascinated about her, she
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need to episode with shared to I mean, I'm listening to her classy ass
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and all that other ship. But then I also took that and seeing how
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she promoted herself and that made me even different, Like no matter how you
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go down service, now she's promoting something related back to that Cherokee brand,
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right, So it's like, yo, you could treat because like am this
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ass? But really and truly it's like she's promoting at the hustler. So
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it's the hustler into how she promoted herself. It's like, Damn, I
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had to learn that look at the business, acting like it's there. I'm
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looking at the pleasure, but she's really looking at the business. And then
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I used to go on like DJ Envy and Swiss Beats and Meek Mills and
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jay Z and all that them looking at all these ships and seeing like that
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ship motivates me. They're like, damn bro such has got this new raif.
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Damn bro Nigga riding in this And then I'm listening to and he talking
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the ship and they popping the ship. You had that chains handing off that
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neck, and it's like, I'm gonna get that ship. I want that
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ship. I want to see how I feel to walk and hit them ship's
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hitting together like I want to. I want to see that ship like I
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want to. I want to witness that. So Instagram definitely helps me out
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to be who I am today one thousand a cent. The different accounts and
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all that I looked at her. Right now, I going different people podcasts
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just to see the clips and the topics that they talk about. Right for
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sure, to see how I can give feedback to how can I flip it
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and bring it to a better episode on my ship? How do you go
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to different people's podcasts? Though? Like you do you search them by like
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voice command, by name, and then you people do it for me,
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people do it for you. Know, everything is podcast I listen to podcasts
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more than I watch TV and stuff. Yeah, so it's like, yo,
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look up this for me, look up that for me. Looking for
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it or know what I started doing too, Go a WTF media studio Instagram
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and I started looking at the different guests. They had different all different podcasts
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coming something different. So when I look at it, I'm like, damn,
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okay, cool dad. Like I was here the other day and I'm
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hearing the girls talk about like men and how men move this that and the
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third or men. I wanted to go in there, like, Yo,
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can I get a seat in a mic? Because I'm a man that he
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talked my ship? Men is not all like this, So listen. Oh
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that's like the perfect segue what I was going to ask you next. So
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I'm sure like as you on Instagram or is you just listening to everything that
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you definitely know about the gender wars men and women back and forth arguments?
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What is your what is your take on all of that when you hear these
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things, like what do you think about this stuff? First thing I said,
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say you put me in the room for the You put me in a
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room with a full of women. They will not win the battle. Oh
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yeah, they would not win the battle. That's how you feel. That's
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how I know, That's how I feel. I'm coming out ten ten zip.
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Oh I'm knocking over down, Like, yo, listen, you ain't
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ready for this show. This is this? This maybe because this, Oh,
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men don't do this, but what you're doing that? He not doing
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this? Are you paying attention? Are you cooking? Are you doing this?
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This? Then the third like it's so much ship that women want men
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to do, but it's like what are you giving us to do? Like
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to work with to be honest, like we could point the fingers out what
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men do, but can you point the fingers to yourself with what you wasn't
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doing that he did this? Accountability Like I feel like a lot of women
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don't I have that either. I mean that's what they say, Like a
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lot of women don't have a caddy. They don't take accounability for what they
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did. And another thing to is I feel like like women could point out
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every little fucked up thing that you did, but they can never point out
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all the good things that's that you did, right, And I feel like
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that's where everything gets sucked up at because like soon as we get into an
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argument, you point up every little mistake I made, But when me and
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Gud, you never embraced me for the things I did for you, like
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not did for you, but did for us to make this relationship last the
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way it is. Yeah, that's true. I feel like that they can't
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stand with me. I'm just saying I'm blind, poppy official stuff. I
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stand correct. So you would like to have a conversation, You would like
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to have some of these conversations, Yeah, I definitely do women because not
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for not I can learn a lot from it too, right, right,
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you can learn a lot from it as well, Like for instant, like
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my ex, like we go back and forth. I understand where she coming
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from, but I don't understand where she's coming from. Maybe if I heard
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it from a different woman to know it's sometimes like we get on I'm like,
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damn, she fucking bipolar. But then you know what I mean,
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I have older women that's in my air, like Yeah, you gotta understand
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what you put through so she might be scared to take that jump that rests
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with you again, whatever the case may be. It's like so it's like
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something you can learn from women because it's like, this is my intake on
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what you did, whatever the case may be. I'm like maybe this I
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say it like this, Maybe I need to approach the situation different instead of
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thinking like I'm here, I am, I'm a new person. I change,
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come back and don't work like that. Do you notice a because I
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imagine from your perspective, everything about life is a lot about energy at this
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point, right, everything is energy. Do you notice a significant difference between
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the energy of a woman and a difference in the energy of a man's Yeah?
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Uh, in a way, Yeah, women is more. I feel
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like in my case, the energy from a woman is nurturing. It depends
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what woman I can say, and a lot of different Like in the clubs,
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I be around a lot of energy that you just know is bullshit.
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Just you fake the funk with it, right, But then when you're around
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that positive, good energy that you just you just want to hold, you
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don't want to let go those them good energies and then you got the energy
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from men where it's like niggas just want to fuck with you because you the
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hottest nigga that's out right now, or you you could benefit themb and you
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they look good being next to you or being good to say that, oh
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they know, oh I know, I know Wolf. So you're saying,
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like it's different energies and ship. So you're saying more often than not,
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women's energy is more authentic and men's is more so like what can I do
22:38
to get something from Like it's it's some authentic ass man out here. You
22:42
you one, my son Smooth, my son k Big, Will d Rock
22:48
Castro because it's like they're not looking for nothing out of me, my son
22:51
Dre, my son Chris that you mad. It's like you're not looking for
22:53
nothing out of me. They just want me to be great because if I'm
22:56
great, we all wanna be great. Right. So that's what like I
23:00
can't since say oh men, But then I got that man yo, I
23:03
know see no, whooh that's my brother. But then my sister at the
23:07
door, and it's like if you don't know how you can you say my
23:08
brother bro right, So it's like ener Jesus is just different. No.
23:14
No, like being in the clubs, I really see like women staying on
23:18
business as men trying to figure out how they could get next to you to
23:21
lead you for you. I see it thirty four yars, women going in
23:26
their pocket paying they cash up in it thirty hours. MENO, can you
23:30
gonna get seen? No? Yo, I can't. I ain't paying that
23:34
nigga? How much? How much money you came out of here? You're
23:37
saying that you noticed that when it comes to like support, women's support,
23:40
they're not afraid to support. Fin women not afraid of support. I know
23:44
how women that bought bottles and say get a cup. Wow, they're not
23:48
done seeing me boil bottles and niggas come over there with a cup. It's
23:52
like, what's up with this picture? I'm like, yo, damn,
23:55
bro let me get fifty dollars towards this bottle and you can't afford that ship.
23:57
Something is wrong, bro, you my man, you fucked up one
24:02
week, okay, cool, but then every week you fucked up. If
24:03
something is wrong, women bring the bottle. Nah, come on, man,
24:07
men bring the cupe real shit. Sometimes the niggas beat beat the bottle
24:11
girl over there with the bottle to get a cup, Like, how are
24:15
you doing this? That's a clip like real shot, doesn't seem like last
24:21
month. We walked into the club, and before I even walked through the
24:25
doors, my name was being called. Then we go to our section,
24:29
the bottles coming out. I see people running over there. I stayed there,
24:32
like I went half my left and left the bottles on the table.
24:33
Tomorrow, whatever you take home, take home my mouth. I gotta go
24:36
to the next party. But then I had to really check myself. They'll
24:40
say and say, like people just riding the ride that I'm providing. Right,
24:45
I gotta stop that ship from my name being called before I stepped into
24:48
the door, they already know it's money coming in the building, right,
24:52
Nah. I had to check myself now. It's like, I'm not scared
24:55
to buy a cup and don't care what you think. I've been doing this
24:57
shit for so long that buying bottles to get my name shout it out.
25:02
I don't need that ship no more like y'all need the Cloud. I don't.
25:06
I'm just here to support and go about my way, right. So,
25:10
like I had to do a lot of reality check being in these clubs,
25:12
right, real ship? Damn, that's so interesting? Is there is
25:19
your is your favorite artist rod Wave? Is that your favorite artist? My
25:23
favorite artists meek males, Meek males, A couple of males, A little
25:30
dirt because like my artists in minds, like I can relate to Nick Mails.
25:36
Dream of night Man is my all time favorite song. When that song
25:38
come on, I got a bottle. I gotta put that shit in the
25:41
air. When that song come on, I'm in the club. I put
25:44
my hands in the egg because them words, I feel them. Ships.
25:47
You know, I went back and listened to your first episode and you started
25:52
that episode off. Come on, man, with that song? What I
25:55
did it without no vision? I did ship with horrible decisions, like I
26:00
just took that song and put my ship. Like when I got that Cussarati
26:03
thought it was a joke. Come on. Hit his rest of Pleeze recipes
26:07
to the park a lot Cucara so big, can't even fit in the park.
26:11
Come on, you understand, But like the words, it's like hit
26:15
me. I used to wait for time, but I used to pray for
26:18
times like this. The rhym like this, So I had to grind like
26:21
that to shine like this in the back of the like, people don't understand
26:25
that shit. Them words hit me. See my dreams come true. No,
26:29
he said, light Man's come true. It was time to marry the
26:32
game and I said, yeah, I said it's time to marry the dark.
26:33
And I said, yeah, dude, that's when I accepted my me
26:37
being blind. Nigga, don't understand that ship. I did it without no
26:41
vision. I did with ship with horrible decisions. That's a big thing right
26:45
there. Nigga, don't understand that ship. Like, come on, no,
26:49
that's true, bro, that's what that song hit me hard, Rod
26:52
Waved, dark Clouds hit me hard. Little dirt fabrication hit me hard,
26:57
Like these songs that I'm like, damn, I listen to it. It's
27:00
like, damn, like they really talking that ship jay Z, Like I
27:04
listened jay Z for motivation, Like, come on, he was he was
27:08
one of those kids. Thirty kids probably went through Massie. Now look at
27:11
him now, yeah, look at him? Now, come on, man,
27:15
I look at I'm just a fan of music. Yeah, I go
27:18
forward music. I'm a fan of that ship. There's some things that you
27:22
know. I think I think you told me once that that you don't like
27:26
being in the water. You told me that I don't like being in the
27:27
water. I think you told me that one. Yeah, because I don't
27:30
know what. I don't know what. That's a big fact. I don't
27:33
know. Is there any like I don't know, is there any like activities
27:41
in the earth that you would like to do that you haven't done. I
27:42
want to do it all. I want to. I want to put my
27:45
fans behind me and just try it. Okay, So I want to parasite.
27:48
Okay, I don't know to parasol. I can't jet ski. It's
27:52
crazy. Before I was blunt, I never witnessed none of this ship.
27:56
So it's like I want I want to parasl experience. Yeah, I want
28:00
to. I want to scooba div You know, I can't see what's under
28:02
the water, but just to say I lived and I did it? Yeah?
28:04
Absolutely? How many people that should go virable blond man parasling, blond
28:08
man scoop a dobting but don't see ship a blond man dancing with the domphense
28:14
Like, how many people you really see do ship like that? I'm breaking
28:18
the curse to show people like, nah, we can still have fun.
28:21
No matter what condition we're in, that's the most important thing. You can
28:25
still have fun? What still have fun on? Yeah, I'm have the
28:30
floaties, but still I'm doing it. I'm still gonna do it just to
28:36
say I lived it. I did it. It's like what else? Right
28:40
do you feel like? When you go to the strip club? You get
28:41
special privileges. I could do whatever the fun I don't want. They be
28:48
feeling sorry, so it's like, hey, you can do it. What
28:52
you want to grab on this? You want to touch that? They don't
28:55
care. But it's like, yeah, I do get special special privilege.
29:00
You show you want me to do that to you and this that and the
29:03
third year I get special privileges and it's like you just just love Like I
29:07
just I love that ship. I ain't gonna lie. I love strip clothes.
29:10
Man, what's your favorite thing? What do you like about strip club?
29:14
It's a touching aspect. You can slap ass, you can drink,
29:18
you can have fun. It's like strip clubs. It's like my aunt,
29:22
my sister, we all in there. We turned up, we vibing,
29:26
We standing on your aunt. What me and my aunt be everywhere? The
29:30
one I was telling you that be watching your ship. That's your people think
29:33
that's my system more than my my aunt me being a strip club standing on
29:40
the chains. We man, we have we have a ball man. We
29:42
be having a ball man, man, Auntie man, listen, we could
29:47
burn down the club together. Do you feel like the strippers put a little,
29:51
a little extra razzle dazzle on the dance for you because they clapping poppy,
29:56
sit down here, throwing a leg over here, leg on my shoulder
30:00
them. I'm like, oh, she's doing this, She's given that extra
30:02
treatment. What throw a dollar there, Throw a dollar there. It depends
30:06
if your the acid fact and is moving, you might get the whole bank.
30:10
What you what? You ever start your own strip club? I want
30:11
to, Yeah, I want to. What would you call it? I
30:18
ain't think of it. I ain't going deep into that, but I definitely
30:22
I definitely would love that ship. Though. What would be different about your
30:26
strip club than the other ones? What would make your strip club different?
30:30
I make that ship handicap accessible, make sure they get in comfortably. What
30:38
man, this is the wind cher section right here, and they got that
30:41
guaranteed tip money. Come on, come on, first of the month,
30:45
go crazy. They're getting that sense I check who but us? Come on,
30:51
man, that shouldn't be It's like, yo, if you death just
30:55
the touching this the it's like I will the way I will break it down,
31:00
Like I don't know, I would try to cater to everybody. If
31:04
it would be one of those clubs, like it's more like a theme park
31:08
you step into my shit, it's like you're in a theme park more than
31:11
just a strip club. You're gonna see it all right, I'm gonna have
31:15
pools over here, this, that, and and third, like she's gonna
31:18
be a movie. What are there any guests that because you asked me a
31:23
similar question of the last episode we did, but are there any guests that
31:29
you haven't worked with yet? But if they hear this, they might feel
31:34
that I would love to sit down and so yeah, yeah, like,
31:37
who are some people that you would like to sit down with? Jay Z
31:41
think smaller though, thank somebody, somebody somebody more like not so far away
31:45
from Gillian Wallow. That's that's a podcast I would love to sit down with.
31:52
It's a podcast called Earn Your Leisure of course. Yeah, I would
31:56
love to sit down with them just to pick their brain about business and everything
32:01
else I would I would love a conversation with Charlamagne, sit down with Charlemagne,
32:07
talk to him pig's brain about mental health and everything else, and like
32:12
just about life, like listen to his books. Who else I would like
32:17
that I would like to sit down with It's a couple of damn. It's
32:23
like I listen to a lot of podcasts, so it's like it's a couple
32:27
of people. I would really love this. I would love to do a
32:29
Harvard decision on blobing. I see something different when I first did the episode.
32:35
It's like I was new to the shot shy. You know, I
32:37
wasn't myself. Now I'm meant to myself now. They gotta I got some
32:39
ship, some stories that I can really go through it and speak my ship
32:44
now. But at one point I had reached out to MOUs Jones at one
32:51
point, but shading uh, it's I feel like I'm past that I got
32:59
you. I feel like I passed her. It's like a couple of people
33:00
I reached out to. It like THEMN I would love to like like Angela
33:06
Yee is another one. I would like to do an interview on her,
33:08
like just like represent no No, no, No, my all time one
33:14
to Meeka Mallory, To Meeka Mallory and Jamela T. Davis Jamalo T.
33:20
Davis is like her story of being in the jails and everything and switching her
33:25
life around and all. I really want to tap into that ship. I
33:30
felt like she has a powerful story that I really want to tap in.
33:32
Jamelo T. Davis being on the front line, I really want to tap
33:37
into that ship, like Jamela Jamela, I got you, I got you,
33:43
got Jamalo T. Davis. Then she went to jail for fraud and
33:45
all that she did like ten years in the fats. Wow. I would
33:51
really love to tap into her. Okay, it's like I watched I got
33:54
like long list of stories like my stories with questions. I just would love
33:59
that asks her, but I ain't a lot. My biggest one I would
34:02
love is Gilly and Wallow though, Yeah, because it's like Gilly. I
34:07
wouldn't want to tap into the streets side of Gilly. Like the fact that
34:10
you look like like losing your son, that's a different feeling. It's like
34:15
I never witness step but my mother did, and it's like I have a
34:17
son, so it's like that's a hurtful and then like Wallow losing damn it
34:23
half his life to being in the prisons, and look what you had today.
34:30
It's like and pick they mind about the business, Pick they mind about
34:32
the podcast, and like that confidence that they could turn down ship to know
34:37
that they got signed that was better behind that ship to come to. I
34:39
feel like that would be my biggest really, my biggest episode. Cheroke can't
34:45
leave out, can't leave my baby out. I can't leave my baby out,
34:50
And like like that, I feel like that's a good line up for
34:54
me really to go to you. She to go number one, number one,
34:59
go all, go second to no one, second to no one.
35:01
I married that girl no matter what she did. You'll marry Cherokee, no
35:05
matter what she did in life. No, wait a minute, like really
35:09
think about it, all right, you're dealing with girls you don't know they
35:13
passed, you don't know what they did in life. It's just Cherokee just
35:15
documented that's true. That's true. You don't know that's true. I mean,
35:20
listen, no disrespecting Cherokee, none at all. I'm just saying that's
35:22
you know, it takes it takes a strong man to be Maria porno star.
35:28
It takes you gotta be a strong man. I said, there a
35:30
baby with a contract. Let me see what you gotta do. Okay,
35:31
uh huh. You said you're gonna pay your extra if she do what you
35:36
feel like that baby, we could do that. You're going into business together.
35:40
Hold on, stop the record real quick. Are you saying that you
35:45
could be married to her while she's still active in the business together? Oh
35:50
that's different. Business together, that's different. I'm open, open, I'm
35:54
an open, open soul. Now you wouldn't mind, you wouldn't That wouldn't
35:59
bother you. Mopen. So now I know it's it's not real. It's
36:04
well, it's real, but it's not. It's a job. It's a
36:10
job. But I just know what it is it's like because that's how I
36:15
know her. So it's like, it ain't gonna bother me because this is
36:16
who she is. But in the case of like my exes and ship,
36:20
nah, I can't do it. I'm not saying up there watching nobody penetrate
36:23
you, right, Okay, So that's where you draw the line. World
36:27
War three and that bitch. But if she go like, hey, I'm
36:30
about to go get this quick ten thousand dollars, real quick, come coming
36:32
on a set with you? Baby? Get it? I thought you said
36:35
you didn't want to be there. Cherokee, Like I said, that's I
36:37
know her for doing her work, right, so like so opposed to my
36:43
ex that's not her. So it's like I can't see somebody penetrating her,
36:46
and I'm just saying there like I'm cool with it. I can't it's gonna
36:50
be World War three. But Cherokey, I know this is what I met
36:53
you like this, So why would I be the one to fear that?
36:58
Now? Baby? Get that? Show him that move that I tought you
37:00
last night? Baby good? I mean, I'm meeting you where you are.
37:07
What about Cherokee's voice? Do you like her voice? Oh? My
37:08
god? Sexy melts me every time, mes me every time. It's crazy.
37:14
That's my that's my baby, right yeah. I had every girl died
37:16
that would look up Cherokee. Why that's my baby. They don't understand head
37:23
up, try to get I try to get an interview with all that ship.
37:29
You tried to do that? What happened? I even head up?
37:30
Like, yo, book, you come to the party. She wanted twenty
37:34
five hundred but this is when I wasn't getting money and I was first starting
37:37
out to party learning it. I am twenty five hundred to come on,
37:40
I have it. If I would have had it, or I would,
37:44
So let me ask you something. If Cherokee, if we got in contact
37:45
with Cherokee and she said, I just got a message back from Marley too
37:52
of her availability. By the way, but if she said, I'm sorry,
37:59
I'm just literally so I'm so blown away by this bro. Like so
38:01
she said literally like damn, I don't know, I don't know, I
38:07
don't know. It's just I'm so blown away by because it's hard for me
38:10
to imagine being so comfortable that it's like, yeah, baby, go ahead
38:15
and go get that money for us and then come back. And it's like,
38:17
damn, car Man, you make sure you get her good angles,
38:21
right, gangster bro, gangster differend. I'm gonna meet her half figured.
38:30
That's how I met her. Bro. You were you are evolved human being?
38:34
Bro. You different bro? I meta like that. So it was
38:37
like, how can I change it? How was that not real love?
38:40
That's real love? At that point? I mean, how many niggas out
38:45
here get cheated on? It? Still take the back, kissing it and
38:47
all that. He said. I'm just listening. I'm just being realistic about
38:51
my situation all the way. Bro man, what would you take if you
38:55
had if you had a chance to take Cherokee out on the date, where
38:58
would you take her? I bring Turkey to the hood, the hood,
39:05
just to walk through, just to show her, like, I don't care
39:09
how big you is, I don't care how famous you is and all that
39:14
you will bring Cherokee, the legendary stallion of a porn start chilling on the
39:20
corner with me. What do you know doing that? You think she don't
39:23
like that? Yeah, she's gonna love it. Why because she's gonna feel
39:28
safe with me? Like, yeah, he's blind. But look how my
39:30
baby holding me down? Look how like my baby got these niggas and check
39:35
they're not they're not doing that, they're not playing, like, don't play
39:37
with me, Like, nigga, you what why are you looking at her?
39:39
Nigga? Go watch your videos. But let me ask you this though.
39:44
Now Cherokee is obviously she has a very recognizable face and more importantly,
39:49
she has a very recognizable body. Yeah you know what I mean. So
39:54
do you think you could deal with that. Yeah I could. I'm comfortable
39:58
with myself. I'm the type walking down the street and nigga look back on
40:00
my grandpa ass like it's good, right, look good? Well, what
40:04
about the fact that like people going to be just thann the third autograph and
40:08
this that and third. Oh yo, she get crazy backshots and this,
40:13
this, this? But what Okay? So I feel you on that,
40:15
But what about what about like if her sex drive is like way crazier than
40:21
yours and you can't keep up with it. I'm gonna keep up. I've
40:23
been waiting for this forever. I'm gonna keep up. Are you sure of
40:28
what? And if I can't? Blue you endorse me now? But endorse
40:35
me now? Why not shut out the blue Tube? Come on, man,
40:40
caron, pink Horse, pop, pink purple Horse. I want it
40:45
all? What give it to me? She gonna love me long time?
40:51
Oh my goodness. Did you hear about Cameron on seeing that? Oh my
40:54
god? I take my head off to him. Here to go, bro,
40:58
take my head on talk for the simple In fact, I puffed?
41:00
Did he did? He's wrong one thousand percent. I don't condone it,
41:04
even though I've been in that predicament. I don't condone it. But at
41:07
the same time, you're not going to bring me on this white people showed
41:12
the tear down another black man. Yeah, I take my head off to
41:15
cam for that too. Any time, y'all, Why y'all bring me up
41:19
here to talk something positive? Like you said, let's talk about my podcast.
41:22
Let's talk about how I came from the streets into the music industry.
41:25
So now I'm podcasting. Yeah, we're not talking about that, But y'all
41:30
want to talk about Puffy, somebody that I really had no connections to,
41:32
a none of that. Now, he did the right thing. I would
41:34
have did the same shit too. Do you think that he should have?
41:38
Do you think that he should have used that opportunity to relate to women's like
41:46
I don't even know the word. Do you think he should have, let
41:49
me phrase it the right way? Do you think he should have Do you
41:52
think he missed out on an opportunity to speak for a lot of women?
41:55
Yeah, uh no, I don't feel because at the beginning of it he
42:00
said there and say he don't condone it. It was a disgusting he did.
42:04
That's everything right there. I don't condone it. But at the same
42:07
time, I'm not going to condone you bringing me on the show just to
42:09
tell that in as black man, right, like he going through enough ship.
42:13
He don't need me to add on to it because right because you know,
42:15
because I guess do you in your mind do you think two things could
42:17
be true? It's like, yes, he's guilty, But at the same
42:20
time, I'm not gonna like make I'm not bad. I'm not making an
42:22
example of him for the for the white world to see. I'm not going
42:24
to crucify him. And it's like y'all setting it up so his own CONEU
42:30
can crucify him. I'm not going to take part of that. Like we
42:31
can handle this on our own. At the end of the day, I'm
42:34
doing great things over here. You're not highlighting that. You want me to
42:37
bring it to talk about Oh, Puff did this? Puff did that?
42:39
Puff is wrong? Puff is going through Puff is dealing with the consequences behind
42:44
it. Again, everything snatched away from why do I need my words my
42:47
platform to speak on this man and what he did. What if somebody was
42:52
to just say that, like, oh, we're like because he if he's
42:55
a threat to black women and he's like a threat to all of us,
42:58
Like what if somebody was to say, you, you know what, I
43:00
personally feel like you're taking it a little easier on him than he and we
43:06
shouldn't be taking easy on him at all. Like what if somebody said that,
43:08
I'm saying, that's not my responsibility. I should have been down,
43:13
that's not my responsibility to Our relationship is not close, Like this is my
43:17
brother, that's my brother. It's different. I'm not gonna scold him in
43:22
front of the world. Right behind the scenes, I'm tiking, bro,
43:24
what the fuck is up with you? Bro? What are you doing?
43:28
What's up with you? Like, I'm not going like beat my my brother
43:30
down because it's entertainment for you. It's a check coming into the seeing and
43:36
ship. No, I'm not doing that. And then on top of that,
43:38
it's like, if this was really my brother, I'd be here to
43:43
check him day before I even got that far. Yeah, because at the
43:47
end of the day, it's like I don't get fuck how much power my
43:50
brother's got or what my brothers have. The love is always there for me
43:55
to check you, to bring you back down, like you you bugging the
43:58
fuck out, bro. It's like if I can't check you, then I
44:01
mean be really not friends, being really not brothers. But I'm a yes
44:05
man to you. We're really not brothers. Yeah, Noah, like my
44:09
right hand man, smooth, you do a lot of he said, a
44:12
lot of shit. I'm like, we go back and forth. He like,
44:14
I understand what you're saying. Bro, I respect it, but I'm
44:15
still gonna do what I want to do. I Yo, Bro, I
44:21
disagree with it. I feel you should handle it. By the end of
44:22
the day. I didn't sit there and just let him just do it.
44:25
Yeah, and then it be times he busts to move and do it,
44:30
and be times he'll come be like, Yo, you're right bro. Yeah,
44:31
that's that's the brother we had. I could be comfortable to tell you,
44:35
like, Yo, it's not worth it, bro, Like, if
44:38
you can't do that, then we really don't got a relationship. Bringing Cam
44:43
on that show to talk about puff with relations what connections do they have?
44:47
Yeah, Now you're just trying to get everybody that look like us, same
44:51
color as us to beat that man down. I wouldn't take part of it,
44:53
because that's really what it's about. At the end of the day,
44:55
Like they try to hide it underneath the guise of like standing up for our
45:00
community and doing what's right. But the thing is is, like I could
45:04
stand up for our community and do what's right in a completely unrelated way,
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Like all of that shit is not riding on me. Talking about Diddy right
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now, and then I have I have different appears about a lot of shit
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too. It's like separating the person from the art. M R Kelly Okay,
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a monster, monster. I would never deny it. He did what
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he did with the women. It was one thousand percent wrong. But you
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cannot take away the the history, the legacy of this man. He have
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a song for every occasion, getting married, step in the name of love.
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Yeah, you cheat on your girl, woman's worth when you graduate the
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world's greatest, when you don't feel positive, I believe I could fly catalog.
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Come on, man, you want to get nasty, got the whole
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twelve play album, Sex in the Kitchen, however you want to do it?
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You cheating on, you cheating, busted and how many other people he
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was behind that catalog behind Yeah true, Come on, man, separate the
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person from the art. It's an interesting perspective, my brother, come on,
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look Bill Cosby, he did what he did? Can you take away
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different world? I'm not gonna stop watching the Cosby Show. Can you take
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away the Cosby Show? Can you take away fat Albert? I feel you
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now you make a strong point. You can't take away the art from these
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people, damn. But then you got people like Elvis that was messing with
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that young woman. Yeah, and they celebrate Elvis in the hip hop,
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in the rock and roll. Still the King of Rock. Come on,
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man, if you're gonna tell us talk like, come on like I look
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at it. Look at a Nickeolooney and documentary. I never watched it.
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I ain't watch it. Still the King of Rock, bro Come on,
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man, it is what it is. That's what they say. We only
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we the only coach of We don't only erase that to each other. Then,
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so you think that black people should get to a place that even when
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we fuck up, we should handle it amongst ourselves, not in front of
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the world, handling amongst ourselves, and not even that. If you see
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somebody fucking up before they career, their legacy and everything goes over that bridge.
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Right, There's so many people that are around Puffs that probably could have
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made a difference, but they didn't. But they didn't. So many people
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probably around Kelly that could have made a difference, but they didn't. Right,
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it's like our only race that I sit there and just watch us our
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life and path. So that's true. That's an interesting conversation. We should
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definitely we should get somebody on the show to have that conversation, like separating
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the art from the artists. I think we could have a we could really
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expound on that. And happened to a fiery ass conversation about like r Kelly
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monster. But then you look at that man life. He was being touched,
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when he was using, molested when he was young and all I felt
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like monsters created monsters just didn't get the proper help to to deal with his
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prow That's why he and that's why we're in and now. And then we
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got to talk about the parents too. It was these parents I was bringing
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their kids to him, though, why they not be in charge? I'm
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not saying Kelly doesn't deserve that time, but why the parents not in jail
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too? Right? A lot of people ably say, oh, no,
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that's he's not supposed to Yeah, he's not supposed to be touching these little
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kids. But the parents didn't condon it. Condone that ship the first line
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of defense. Taking your teenage daughter to our r Kelly concert front row while
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this man grinding and everything goes that's true. Come on, I doesn't seen
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people throw their kids on stage when Usher was performing. It's like, what
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type of mother are you? Yeah, that's real. That's that's not it,
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Bro, that's not it. That's real. Bro, that's not it.
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That's like Turkey Live and I'm taking myself. I'm a parent before anything.
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Bro. I just can't get jigging with that ship. Can't get jigging
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with that ship. But I think we just need to separate the artists from
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the person from the art. And I look at Cherokey. I separate the
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person from the art. When the cameras is rolling, that's the art.
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She probably a whole different way when you really get to know what she's probably
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a whole different way. BRO. Might take it to the hug like to
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show you like, I'm not going way expensive restaurant you want to eat at
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right now, I'm taking you to the chicken spot right what you want hot
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wings, French fries? What does she feel offended by that? Oh,
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I saw imna tell her I'm treating you like a regular person. I'm I'm
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treating like the superstar that everybody else like portrayed you as. No, I'm
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showing you like you just in the way you are just a person to me
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that I love. But at the same time, I'm not going to put
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you on a pedestal. Now, baby girl, we equal with me together,
49:45
that baby girl, So you would take you would take Cherokee the same
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place you would take another girl that you're really interested, like the same one
49:52
thousand Applebee's, or you don't want that, or you a libster. You
49:58
go there to a baby girl. Think you're going to Philips and mister Childs
50:00
and all this other shit. This this you ain't doing that. I'm doing
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that. I'm not doing that. Sometimes I feel like these higher in the
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restaurants and these high end closes like really makes people forget who they really are.
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I bring you back down, to bring you back down to be humble
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and this ship get snatched away. What you're eating? This shit get snatched
50:22
away quick, come on what you're eating With that. With that being said,
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I think that's a great place to wrap the episode. Sure, bro,
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this episode of The Blind But now I See you podcast and and I'm
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gonna leave on. Man, don't give a funk about what people think.
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Man, save what's on your mind and leave with that. Man, I
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m FO will be seen up the official Blind Step and I always step big