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The Thing Wearing Her Face _ Creepypasta · History Dark

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  Speaker 1: Before we begin, if you didn't know, this channel is
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  Speaker 1: Links are below. Now, I hope you enjoy this terrifying
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  Speaker 1: horror story. I need to write this down before I
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  Speaker 1: talk myself out of it again, the way I always do.
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  Speaker 1: I've restarted this post four times and deleted it each
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  Speaker 1: time because it sounds insane when I read it back.
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  Speaker 1: But I've decided that if I sound insane, that's fine.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe I am. I just need someone else to read
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  Speaker 1: this and tell me what they think. Sarah leaves her
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  Speaker 1: mug on the left side of the sink. Always has,
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  Speaker 1: for the three years we've been together. She's left-handed, She
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  Speaker 1: sets it down without thinking, same as she tucks her
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  Speaker 1: hair behind her left ear when she's reading. Same as
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  Speaker 1: she reaches across her body with her left hand when
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  Speaker 1: she wants to grab something off a table. I know
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  Speaker 1: these things, the way you know anything about someone you've
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  Speaker 1: shared a bed with for a thousand nights. You just know.
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  Speaker 1: About six weeks ago, I walked into the kitchen while
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  Speaker 1: she was washing up after dinner, and the mug was
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  Speaker 1: on the right side of the sink I almost said something. Almost.
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  Speaker 1: But then I thought, why would I say something about
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  Speaker 1: a mug? She'd look at me like I was strange,
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  Speaker 1: and she'd be right. So I didn't. The next morning,
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  Speaker 1: the mug was on the left again, and I genuinely
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  Speaker 1: convinced myself I'd imagined it. Here's the thing. I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to be honest, because if I'm not, this whole post
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  Speaker 1: is pointless. I was hospitalised twice last year. Twice, and
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  Speaker 1: a third time the year before that. For something called
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  Speaker 1: Capgras Syndrome. If you don't know what that is, look
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  Speaker 1: it up. But the short version is this. Your brain
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  Speaker 1: starts telling you that the people you love have been
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  Speaker 1: replaced by doubles. Imposters. The person looks identical, sounds identical,
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  Speaker 1: But something in your brain's face recognition circuitry disconnects from
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  Speaker 1: the emotional processing part. So when you look at someone familiar,
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  Speaker 1: there's no warmth, no sense of recognition. Just the face
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  Speaker 1: that your logical brain says, this is Sarah, while something
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  Speaker 1: deeper says that is not. I know this about myself.
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  Speaker 1: I know my history. I was discharged in October after
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  Speaker 1: three weeks inpatient. And I told the doctor, and I
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  Speaker 1: told the intake assessors, and I told my mum on
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  Speaker 1: the phone afterward that I was better. That the medication
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  Speaker 1: was working, and the CBT was helping me challenge the
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  Speaker 1: intrusive thoughts before they spiralled. I lied. I lied because
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  Speaker 1: I needed to go home. And mostly, mostly, I've been
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  Speaker 1: fine I take the medication. I do the exercises. I
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  Speaker 1: recognize the thoughts when they start. But here's the problem.
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  Speaker 1: Here's a thing I can't explain away. It's not a
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  Speaker 1: feeling this time. It's not a sensation of wrongness. Not
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  Speaker 1: a paranoid gut instinct. It's evidence. Six weeks ago, the mug.
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  Speaker 1: Five weeks ago, I found Sarah's search history open on
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  Speaker 1: the shared laptop. She usually clears it, not because she's
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  Speaker 1: hiding anything, that's just what she does, she doesn't like clutter.
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  Speaker 1: But she'd left it open, and I saw she'd been
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  Speaker 1: looking up how to make her lemon drizzle cake, the
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  Speaker 1: one she's been making since before we met, the one
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  Speaker 1: her nan taught her. She's made it from memory in
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  Speaker 1: front of me six times. She was googling the recipe.
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  Speaker 1: She was reading the method step by step. I stood
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  Speaker 1: there for probably two minutes. Then, I closed the laptop.
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  Speaker 1: Four weeks ago, she called her best friend from school
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  Speaker 1: by the wrong name. Her best friend since they were eleven.
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  Speaker 1: She just... She said Rachel instead of Roisin. And then
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  Speaker 1: she laughed and said, God, sorry. Sorry. Don't know where
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  Speaker 1: that came from. Ryzin laughed too. But I watched Sarah's
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  Speaker 1: face when she said it. There was a half second
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  Speaker 1: where she didn't seem embarrassed. She seemed like she was
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  Speaker 1: correcting a data error. That's the only way I can
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  Speaker 1: describe it. Three weeks ago. The smell. This is the
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  Speaker 1: one I keep coming back to. Sarah has always smelled.
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  Speaker 1: I know how this sounds. She has this very specific
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  Speaker 1: smell that isn't perfume. It's just her. Warm, a little
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  Speaker 1: like clean laundry, and something underneath that I couldn't describe
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  Speaker 1: if I tried. Just her. Every person has it. You
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  Speaker 1: know the smell of someone you love without being able
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  Speaker 1: to articulate it. I hugged her in the hallway after work.
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  Speaker 1: and I didn't smell it. I smelled soap. Clean, neutral,
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  Speaker 1: nothing underneath. I held on for a bit too long.
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  Speaker 1: She said, You alright? I said, Yeah, long day. I've
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  Speaker 1: been reading about that syndrome a lot these past few weeks,
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  Speaker 1: which I know is probably the worst thing I can do.
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  Speaker 1: but I keep looking for the line between symptom and observation.
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  Speaker 1: The difference between I have a delusional brain that invents
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  Speaker 1: evidence and I'm noticing real things. The clinical literature says
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  Speaker 1: that patients often construct elaborate explanations to justify the belief.
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  Speaker 1: That they'll cite small behavioural inconsistencies, changes in personality or
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  Speaker 1: habit as proof. that the more they look, the more
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  Speaker 1: they find. Because the brain in that state is motivated
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  Speaker 1: to confirm. I know this. I've read it. I've read
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  Speaker 1: it and I said to myself, this is what you're doing.
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  Speaker 1: And I've sat with that thought and tried to let
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  Speaker 1: it dissolve that way the doctor taught me. But here's
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  Speaker 1: where I keep getting stuck. She said the thoughts feel real.
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  Speaker 1: She said the feelings feel real. She never said the
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  Speaker 1: evidence would feel real. She talked about it as a
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  Speaker 1: perceptual experience, an emotional one. She didn't talk about mugs
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  Speaker 1: and recipe searches and names and smells. Those aren't feelings.
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  Speaker 1: Those are things that happened. Last week, I did something
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  Speaker 1: I'm not proud of. Sarah went to her sister's on
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  Speaker 1: Thursday evening and I went through her things. Methodically. I
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  Speaker 1: don't really want to describe how methodically. I went through
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  Speaker 1: her side of the wardrobe and checked her coat pockets
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  Speaker 1: and looked at her journals. Yes, I read her journals.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not pretending I didn't. And I found nothing. Her
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  Speaker 1: handwriting was right. The entries were right. She wrote about
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  Speaker 1: me in them. recently, and what she wrote was loving
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  Speaker 1: and tired and ordinary. The way you'd write about someone
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  Speaker 1: you've been with for years and are still fundamentally fond of,
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  Speaker 1: but also occasionally irritated by. She wrote about me being
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  Speaker 1: distant lately. She wrote about being worried I was sliding again.
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  Speaker 1: She wrote, I don't know how to bring it up
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  Speaker 1: without making him feel like he's being spied on He'd
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  Speaker 1: feel like I was treating him like a patient. I
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  Speaker 1: sat on the floor of our bedroom and read that
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  Speaker 1: sentence six times. And the thing is, and this is
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  Speaker 1: the part I can't resolve, the part I keep running
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  Speaker 1: up against no matter which way I approach it, the
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  Speaker 1: thing is, that's exactly what she would write. The real Sarah.
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  Speaker 1: That's her exact voice. Her exact way of being careful
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  Speaker 1: with me. Whoever wrote that knows her. Knows us. Which
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  Speaker 1: means either she wrote it and I'm doing what I've
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  Speaker 1: always done and I'm sick again and I've been lying
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  Speaker 1: to everyone including myself or whatever is in this house
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  Speaker 1: with me has had access to her long enough to
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  Speaker 1: know her well enough to write in her voice. I
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  Speaker 1: keep writing that down and reading it back, and I know.
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  Speaker 1: I know how it sounds. I've been sleeping in the
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  Speaker 1: spare room for the past four nights. I told her
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  Speaker 1: it was because I'd been having bad insomnia and I
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  Speaker 1: didn't want to keep her up. She brought me a
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  Speaker 1: glass of water the first night and stood in the
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  Speaker 1: doorway for a moment. and looked at me with this
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  Speaker 1: expression that I've been trying to decode ever since. It
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  Speaker 1: wasn't hurt. It wasn't confused. It was something more like... patient.
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  Speaker 1: Like she was waiting. I don't know what she's waiting for.
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  Speaker 1: I've been out in the garden a lot this week.
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  Speaker 1: More than usual. Digging. We've been meaning to turn over
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  Speaker 1: the bed since autumn, so it's not strange. I have
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  Speaker 1: a reason to be out there. But I go out
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  Speaker 1: at odd hours. Early in the morning before she's up.
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  Speaker 1: Or late when it's getting dark and I have to
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  Speaker 1: use my phone torch. I don't fully understand why I
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  Speaker 1: do it. The physical work helps me think. Or maybe
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  Speaker 1: it helps me not think. I'm not sure which. The
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  Speaker 1: soil's soft from all the rain we had. Deep too.
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  Speaker 1: once you get past the first foot. Easier than I expected.
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to end this here, because I have to
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  Speaker 1: get some sleep. I want to say to anyone who
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  Speaker 1: knows about this syndrome, or has experience with it, or
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  Speaker 1: knows someone who's had it, I'm not looking for reassurance.
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  Speaker 1: I'm genuinely asking, is there a difference? Is there a
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  Speaker 1: point where you can look at it and say, no,
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  Speaker 1: This isn't the illness, this is real. Or is the
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  Speaker 1: illness specifically the thing that makes you think you've reached
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  Speaker 1: that point? I've been trying to figure that out for
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  Speaker 1: six weeks. I don't have to figure it out anymore.
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  Speaker 1: The house is so quiet tonight. That specific kind of
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  Speaker 1: quiet it hasn't had in weeks, since before all of
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  Speaker 1: this started. She, it, whatever it was, It isn't here anymore.
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  Speaker 1: I made sure of that a few hours ago. It
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  Speaker 1: put up more of a fight than I expected, which
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  Speaker 1: I think proves my point, actually. Sarah would never have
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  Speaker 1: done that. Sarah trusted me completely. I put her in
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  Speaker 1: the far corner of the garden, past the roses, where
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  Speaker 1: the soil was deepest and softest. It took a long time,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm exhausted. My hands are still dirty. I keep
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  Speaker 1: finding it under my fingernails. I don't feel bad about it.
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  Speaker 1: I want to be clear about that. I feel relieved.
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  Speaker 1: I feel like I've been holding my breath for six weeks,
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  Speaker 1: and I've finally been allowed to let it out. Wherever
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  Speaker 1: the real Sarah is, whatever that thing did with her,
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  Speaker 1: wherever it put her. I hope she knows I've never
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  Speaker 1: stopped looking for her. I hope she knows I figured
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  Speaker 1: it out. Most people wouldn't have. Most people would have
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  Speaker 1: just accepted the replacement and moved on and never known
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  Speaker 1: the difference. But I knew. I always knew. The garden
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  Speaker 1: looks tidy from the kitchen window. Neat, all turned over,
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  Speaker 1: like we always said we'd do before spring. She would
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  Speaker 1: have liked that, the real Sarah. She was always on
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  Speaker 1: at me to sort it out. I'm going to go
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  Speaker 1: wash my hands and go to bed. First full night's
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  Speaker 1: sleep I'll have had in months. I'll post an update
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  Speaker 1: when I'm feeling clearer. Until next time, keep the lights low.
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  Speaker 1: and the doors locked.