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The Battle For The Soul - Bishop T.D. Jakes · Pst T.D Jakes -The POTTER'S HOUSE

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  Speaker 1: Genesis chapter 32, verse 22 through 32.
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  Speaker 2: How y'all doing?
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  Speaker 1: This is the closest a man ever comes to being pregnant.
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  Speaker 1: When you have a word on the inside and you're
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  Speaker 1: waiting to give birth to it, This is as close
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  Speaker 1: as we will ever know what it's like for you
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  Speaker 1: ladies go through when you have a child. I got
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  Speaker 1: in the car this morning, my brother who was driving me,
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  Speaker 1: he could tell I was heavy. Not heavy sad, heavy pregnant. Yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: you know how it is when you get heavy. Come
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  Speaker 1: on ladies, don't leave me out here. Because the brothers
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  Speaker 1: don't know what in the world I'm talking about. So
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  Speaker 1: if y'all don't get me out, I won't get out, okay?
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  Speaker 1: We're going to talk about some things today out of
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  Speaker 1: the word of God that I believe will bless your life.
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  Speaker 1: That night, Jacob got up and took his two wives,
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  Speaker 1: Lord have mercy.
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  Speaker 2: It's enough to have one.
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  Speaker 1: His two female servants and his 11 sons and crossed
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  Speaker 1: the ford of Jabbok. After he had sent them across
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  Speaker 1: the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob
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  Speaker 1: was left alone and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.
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  Speaker 1: Be careful with that when you see a man wrestle
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  Speaker 1: with him. This ain't some guy that wandered up to him.
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  Speaker 1: This is what is called a theophany. It is a
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  Speaker 1: manifestation of God in the Old Testament. When the man
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  Speaker 1: saw that he could not overpower him he touched the
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  Speaker 1: socket of Jacob's hip so that his hip was wrenched
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  Speaker 1: and as he wrestled with the man then the man
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  Speaker 1: said let me go for it is daybreak. But Jacob
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  Speaker 1: replied I will not let you go until you bless me.
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  Speaker 1: The man asked him what is your name? This is
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  Speaker 1: a blessing Jacob, he answered, it's a blessing to know
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  Speaker 1: who you are. Then the man said, your name will
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  Speaker 1: no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled
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  Speaker 1: with God. See, I told you it was God. You
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  Speaker 1: have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.
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  Speaker 1: Jacob said, please tell me your name. But he replied,
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  Speaker 1: why do you ask me my name? then he blessed
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  Speaker 1: him there. He didn't want to give him his name.
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  Speaker 1: It was a secret yet. Wasn't revealed yet. Wasn't time
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  Speaker 1: to know his name. He was going to give his
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  Speaker 1: name to Mary. So Jacob called the place Peniel saying
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  Speaker 1: it is because I saw God face to face.
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  Speaker 2: I told you.
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  Speaker 1: And yet my life was spared The sun rose above
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  Speaker 1: him as he passed Peniel and he was limping because
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  Speaker 1: of his hip. Therefore, to this day, the Israelites do
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  Speaker 1: not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the
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  Speaker 1: hip because the socket of Jacob's hip was touched near
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  Speaker 1: the tendon. Can you say amen? Now I want to
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  Speaker 1: do something I don't do often. Remain standing. I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to pray. I'm going to do two subjects. My topic
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  Speaker 1: is the battle for the soul. The battle for the soul.
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  Speaker 1: And my subtitle is imposter syndrome. Imposter syndrome.
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  Speaker 2: Let's pray.
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  Speaker 1: Spirit of the living God fall fresh on us today
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  Speaker 1: in the name of Jesus. Let a special anointing fall
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  Speaker 1: on us as we open up the word of God
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  Speaker 1: that it might be clear and profound, provocative, that it
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  Speaker 1: might minister to us in a supernatural way. I thank
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  Speaker 1: you in advance for what you're going to do. Have
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  Speaker 1: your way in this place in Jesus' name.
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  Speaker 2: Amen.
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  Speaker 1: You may be seated in the presence of God. Jacob
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  Speaker 1: is a wrestler. He is a struggler. He is... He
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  Speaker 1: is struggling and I want to set it up this way.
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  Speaker 1: I want Pastor Tore to come and I want Isaiah
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  Speaker 1: to come. I want Pastor Tudman to come. Just real quick.
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  Speaker 1: I'll make this a little quick illustration.
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  Speaker 2: Amen. Amen. Come on.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, I forgot. I forgot you. You ain't moving too fast.
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  Speaker 1: These knees and these ankles and everything. Everything going down
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  Speaker 1: but the word of God. I'm going to put you
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  Speaker 1: in the middle. I'm going to put you in the middle.
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to put you in the middle.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 1: You're going to be the body because you're the biggest.
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  Speaker 1: You're going to be the soul because you're the smallest.
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  Speaker 1: And you're going to be the spirit. The body in Greek,
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to get behind you. The body in Greek
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  Speaker 1: is called soma. Okay. The body in Greek is called soma.
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  Speaker 1: The soul, what we call soul in Greek is called psyche,
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  Speaker 1: where we get psychology. It is where we hold our memories,
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  Speaker 1: our emotions, our tragedies, our adversities, our positivities, our feelings,
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  Speaker 1: everything that we.
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  Speaker 2: Feel is housed here.
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  Speaker 1: Stress, happiness, joy lives here, affects our soma, but is
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  Speaker 1: not our soma. Okay, our spirit in the Greek in pneuma,
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  Speaker 1: pneuma meaning air, where you get pneumonia, meaning air. So
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  Speaker 1: in the Greek, this is the spirit, the soul, and
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  Speaker 1: the body. I am a spirit. I don't just have
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  Speaker 1: a spirit. I am a spirit. I live in a soma.
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  Speaker 1: I live in a body. This is my tabernacle. This
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  Speaker 1: is my apartment. But I am a spirit. I have
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  Speaker 1: a soul.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 1: And I live in a body. Now I want my
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  Speaker 1: body to turn this way. And I want my spirit
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  Speaker 1: to turn this way. And I want you to grab
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  Speaker 1: a hold to my soul. because this is what happens
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  Speaker 1: in our life. My spirit is trying to influence my psyche, okay?
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  Speaker 1: It's trying to influence my psyche with who I really am,
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  Speaker 1: with what I can be, what I can do. But
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  Speaker 1: my body, my flesh is reminding my psyche of what
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  Speaker 1: happened to me, what I've been through, what they said
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  Speaker 1: about me. And the war is going on for my
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  Speaker 1: psyche because the Bible says it is with the mind
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  Speaker 1: that we serve the Lord. Okay, and so the spirit
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  Speaker 1: is trying to influence the soul and the body is
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  Speaker 1: trying to influence the soul as well. Whatever my body
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  Speaker 1: partakes in affects my psyche. So if I'm a fornicator,
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  Speaker 1: a whoremonger, a liar, a cheater, an adulterer, whatever it
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  Speaker 1: is that I'm doing, it's going to affect my psyche deeply.
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  Speaker 1: It's going to affect my emotions. If I'm frustrated, if
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  Speaker 1: I'm hurt, if I'm wounded, if I was abused in
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  Speaker 1: my body, it's going to affect my psyche. If I'm winning,
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  Speaker 1: going forward, prevailing, overcoming, it's going to affect my psyche
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  Speaker 1: and my spirit. is going to try to affect my
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  Speaker 1: psyche with who God says I am, what God says
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  Speaker 1: I can have, what God says I can do, what
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  Speaker 1: God says I can be.
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  Speaker 2: Are you following what I'm saying? Now, turn face this
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  Speaker 2: way for a minute.
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  Speaker 1: Turn back the way you were before. Now, the war
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  Speaker 1: is for the mind. It is with the mind that
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  Speaker 1: we serve the Lord. The fight is for your mind.
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  Speaker 1: This is what keeps you up at night. This is
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  Speaker 1: what has you walking the floor at night. This is
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  Speaker 1: what has you frustrated. This is what sends signals to
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  Speaker 1: your flesh and stress and pain and adversity because this
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  Speaker 1: is up under attack. Psyche now is not brain. Brain
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  Speaker 1: and mind are two different things. The brain is a
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  Speaker 1: part of my body. Okay, so you have to understand
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  Speaker 1: the difference between my brain and my psyche. And this
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  Speaker 1: is my spirit.
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  Speaker 2: Now watch this. Can I go a little bit deeper?
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  Speaker 1: In my spirit, I have God consciousness. This is where
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  Speaker 1: I am most like God. God is a spirit. And
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  Speaker 1: they that worship him must worship him in. And in truth, okay,
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  Speaker 1: the spirit of the man is the candle of the Lord.
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  Speaker 1: In my spirit, I have God consciousness. In my soul,
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  Speaker 1: I have my psyche, I have self-consciousness. So when I
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  Speaker 1: lose my mind, I don't even know I'm here. Mama,
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  Speaker 1: do you know who I am? Daddy, do you know
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  Speaker 1: who I am? Who is that stranger standing over there?
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  Speaker 1: This gives me self-consciousness and my soma, my body gives
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  Speaker 1: me world consciousness. My soul, my psyche don't get cold.
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  Speaker 1: My spirit don't get wet. It don't care whether it's
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  Speaker 1: a rainy day or a good day. But my body,
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  Speaker 1: who is in touch with the world, gives me feelings
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  Speaker 1: of cold, hot, of rain and ice, sleep, storm, hell, touch, feelings.
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  Speaker 1: So if I die, leave for a minute, body, then
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  Speaker 1: I lose world consciousness. I don't care whether you put
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  Speaker 1: me in the refrigerator or put me in the oven.
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  Speaker 1: It doesn't make any difference because my body gives me
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  Speaker 1: world consciousness. My soul gives me self-consciousness. My spirit gives
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  Speaker 1: me God consciousness.
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  Speaker 2: If you don't know.
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  Speaker 1: God in your spirit, you can't know God anywhere else.
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  Speaker 1: You must know God in your spirit.
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  Speaker 2: Come back, body.
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  Speaker 1: See, a lot of people are trying to know God
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  Speaker 1: in their flesh. They're trying to know God in their flesh.
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  Speaker 1: You cannot know God in your flesh. You have to
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  Speaker 1: know God in your spirit. Man is a triune being
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  Speaker 1: created in the likeness and the image of God. He
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  Speaker 1: is one person. Behold, O Israel, the Lord thy God
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  Speaker 1: is one. But he has three parts, just like God
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  Speaker 1: has three parts. Father in creation. Son and redemption, Holy
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  Speaker 1: Ghost and regeneration. Just like the tabernacle had three ports,
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  Speaker 1: outer court, inner court, and holies of holies. So we
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  Speaker 1: have spirit, we have soul, we have body. God is consistent.
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  Speaker 1: Each one of them forms a different purpose in our lives.
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  Speaker 1: And so when the word of God comes in, it
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  Speaker 1: is heard through the body. It is received in the spirit.
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  Speaker 1: and then engrafted to the psyche. Glory to God. Faith
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  Speaker 1: coming by hearing and hearing by the word of God.
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  Speaker 1: And so I hear it in my body. I receive
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  Speaker 1: it in my spirit because my spirit has ears too.
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  Speaker 2: I don't have time to teach that far.
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  Speaker 1: My spirit has ears too. That's why Jesus said, he
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  Speaker 1: that hath an ear, let him hear what the spirit
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  Speaker 1: said to the church. When he says that, he's not
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  Speaker 1: talking about the outer ear because everybody has an outer ear,
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  Speaker 1: but my spirit has an inner ear. When my natural
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  Speaker 1: body hears a word and then my spiritual ear hears
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  Speaker 1: the word, then it whispers, whispers to my soul, whispers
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  Speaker 1: to my soul, what thus saith the Lord, okay?
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  Speaker 2: You see? Watch this.
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  Speaker 1: Now my spirit is the toughest part to handle because
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  Speaker 1: both of you whisper. Because it's getting directions from both sides.
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  Speaker 1: It's getting directions from both sides. One side is saying
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  Speaker 1: go out there and sleep around. Go out there and lie.
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  Speaker 1: Cuss them out. Tell them all. Get them straight. The
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  Speaker 1: other one is saying you're a Christian. You're washing in
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  Speaker 1: the blood.
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  Speaker 2: You're holy.
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  Speaker 1: You're born again. You're more than a conqueror. You're getting
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  Speaker 1: it from both sides. When I would do good, evil
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  Speaker 1: is present with me. That which I would do, I
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  Speaker 1: do not. O wretched man that I am, who shall
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  Speaker 1: save me from the body of this death? Are you
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  Speaker 1: hearing what I'm saying to you? Thank you, thank you,
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  Speaker 1: thank you. That sets the stage.
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  Speaker 1: You.
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  Speaker 2: Get that, don't you? You get that. You get that.
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  Speaker 2: You get that.
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  Speaker 1: So when I say the battle for the soul, it
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  Speaker 1: is the battle for the soul.
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  Speaker 2: And it goes on in all of our lives. It
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  Speaker 2: happens to all of us.
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  Speaker 1: Sometimes we go through things and we don't even understand
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  Speaker 1: why we're going through what we're going through, but we're
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  Speaker 1: going through them because God has a plan for our lives.
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  Speaker 1: Are you hearing what I'm saying? Separate then your mind
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  Speaker 1: from your brain. Separate your mind from your brain. In
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  Speaker 1: your head, you need to understand that. so that you
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  Speaker 1: can understand that there is a difference between a neurologist
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  Speaker 1: and a psychiatrist. If there's something wrong with my brain,
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  Speaker 1: I want a neurologist. If there's something wrong with my mind,
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  Speaker 1: I may want a psychiatrist. So there are two different
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  Speaker 1: things because the body is physical and the mind is
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  Speaker 1: not physical, though it is affected by physicalities. I'm going somewhere.
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  Speaker 1: It's going to take me a minute, but I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to get some. Y'all going to wait on me? If
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  Speaker 1: you study the brain, it isn't just the size or
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  Speaker 1: the shape that's different, but the way that the brain
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  Speaker 1: fires off with neurons is very different from person to person.
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  Speaker 1: We all have a head, we all have a brain,
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  Speaker 1: but it's not the same. It doesn't have the same capacity.
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  Speaker 1: It doesn't fire at the same rate. It doesn't have
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  Speaker 1: the same capacity to move from here We all have
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  Speaker 1: neurotransmitters who operate at different speeds depending on where you
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  Speaker 1: are in life. So it becomes very difficult for you
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  Speaker 1: to judge me with your brain. Because my neurotransmitters may
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  Speaker 1: not operate nor fire at the same rate that yours
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  Speaker 1: fire at. The ability for the neurons to fire through
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  Speaker 1: transmitters determines how I think.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 1: So I pull a little bit of my research I've
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  Speaker 1: been doing on my book, Disruptive Thinking. Disruptive Thinking. How
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  Speaker 1: I think may be different from how my father thinks,
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  Speaker 1: may be different from how my mother thinks, because genetically
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  Speaker 1: I am a composite of the two and not quite either.
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  Speaker 2: Are you with me?
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  Speaker 1: And so my brain is influenced genetically and experientially by
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  Speaker 1: the stress and the experiences.
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  Speaker 2: That I have.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm a composite of both and not quite neither,
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  Speaker 1: which creates a certain uniqueness. My fingerprint is different. My
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  Speaker 1: voice print is different. I sound a lot like my father,
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  Speaker 1: but not quite. My son sounds a lot like me,
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  Speaker 1: but not quite. because I have a unique voice pattern.
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  Speaker 1: I have a unique fingerprint and uniqueness often creates aloneness.
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  Speaker 1: Because I don't quite fit with anybody else. And because
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  Speaker 1: we think in a unique way, we have a tendency
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  Speaker 1: to judge people as if they were working with the
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  Speaker 1: same brain as we were. And we keep talking about
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  Speaker 1: what we would do. But what you would do and
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  Speaker 1: what I would do isn't me being stubborn or stupid.
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  Speaker 1: It is just that I'm different. And if you love
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  Speaker 1: me and you're gonna deal with me, you have to
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  Speaker 1: study how I think so you can figure out how
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  Speaker 1: to deal with me because the way you experience an
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  Speaker 1: event isn't how I experience an event because my neurotransmitters
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  Speaker 1: are not firing like yours are and many psychiatrists think
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  Speaker 1: that the firing of the transmitters controls the methodology wherewith
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  Speaker 1: I think about a thing or an issue.
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  Speaker 2: How am I doing so far?
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  Speaker 1: So this has all the world to do with how
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  Speaker 1: I show up in the world. How do I show
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  Speaker 1: up in the world? Dressed in what we do to
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  Speaker 1: avoid the complications of who we are. A lot of
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  Speaker 1: times we hide behind what we do to camouflage.
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  Speaker 2: Who we are. This is going to be good today.
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  Speaker 2: If you wait on me, it's going to be good today.
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  Speaker 2: So there I am.
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  Speaker 1: I look the same, but how I show up in
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  Speaker 1: the world has a lot to do with how I think.
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  Speaker 1: And there are various different methods, whether it is psychiatry
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  Speaker 1: or psychology, which would be counseling. Psychiatry deals more with medicine,
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  Speaker 1: how the medicines or secretions that come from the brain,
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  Speaker 1: are they balanced right? Just like you take medicine for
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  Speaker 1: hypertension or diabetes, sometimes your brain isn't sending the help
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  Speaker 1: that it needs to your mind for you to make
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  Speaker 1: the right choices.
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  Speaker 2: And it affects how I show up in the world. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: And then to complicate it even further, I haven't even
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  Speaker 1: touched demonic influence. Because that's yet a third factor we
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  Speaker 1: have to deal with that sometimes it is possible to
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  Speaker 1: have a psychological problem, psyche, and have a spiritual problem, demonology.
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  Speaker 1: If you were in Bible class with us tonight, I
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  Speaker 1: was working on demonology in a profound way. So all
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  Speaker 1: of that, how do I show up in the world
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  Speaker 1: and how do people see me? And a lot of
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  Speaker 1: times my camouflage is what I do. In reality, what
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  Speaker 1: I do can consume who I am and bring me
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  Speaker 1: to a point that I'm so bent on showing you
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  Speaker 1: what I do that nobody knows who I am. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: so we say Dr. Jill is a doctor. We say Dr.
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  Speaker 1: Williams is a doctor, but Dr. Williams is a person.
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  Speaker 1: who has a doctorate. And so we show up in
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  Speaker 1: the world in the disguise of our accomplishments.
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  Speaker 2: T.D.
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  Speaker 1: Jakes is a preacher, but T.D. Jakes is a person.
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  Speaker 1: And sometimes the title gets bigger than the individual. Come on, somebody.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're a husband.
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  Speaker 1: You show up in the world as a husband, but
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  Speaker 1: you're also a person. And sometimes what you do gets
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  Speaker 1: in the way of who you are until it creates
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  Speaker 1: imposter syndrome. Imposter syndrome is that those moments in your life,
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  Speaker 1: it's not a condition, it's an experience, and we have
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  Speaker 1: all had it. Where you question who you are versus
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  Speaker 1: how they see you. And you play the role. You
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  Speaker 1: play the role of a husband. You play the role
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  Speaker 1: of a wife. You play the role of a preacher
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  Speaker 1: for various reasons because you don't want people to see
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  Speaker 1: that who you are may not be at its best.
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  Speaker 1: And then you become plagued with an imposter syndrome because
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  Speaker 1: you don't feel legitimate enough when you try to equivocate
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  Speaker 1: who you are with what they expect from you. Am
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  Speaker 1: I getting into some stuff? A pregnant woman goes through
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  Speaker 1: a pregnancy and wonders, am I really a mother? Am
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  Speaker 1: I going to be a good mother? Maybe she has
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  Speaker 1: a baby and there are moments in her life where
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  Speaker 1: she sometimes feels like, you know, I'm inadequate. I don't
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  Speaker 1: have what it takes to be a mother. And she
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  Speaker 1: feels like maybe a week, a month, three months like
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  Speaker 1: an imposter. We all wrestle with feelings. of imposter syndrome.
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  Speaker 1: Survivors survive atrocities and feel guilty because they survived and
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  Speaker 1: other people didn't and they're present but they feel like
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  Speaker 1: an imposter sometimes. Degrieved people work in fields they no
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  Speaker 1: longer have passion for because they feel like an imposter.
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  Speaker 1: They're credentialed. They have the credentials to do it but
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  Speaker 1: not the passion for it they have the papers but
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  Speaker 1: not the passion and so there you are working on
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  Speaker 1: people but you really don't like people and you have
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  Speaker 1: moments of feeling like an imposter and they grate your
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  Speaker 1: nerves but your credentials say that you're there to serve
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  Speaker 1: people and you're serving people, but you feel like an
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  Speaker 1: imposter because sometimes you're sick of the people you're serving.
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  Speaker 1: Preachers break down under the weight of unworthiness because I
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: feel called to something that I don't feel competent to do.
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  Speaker 1: And so the expectation of the preacher is not that
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  Speaker 1: he teach about God, but that he be God. and
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  Speaker 1: the weight of their expectations for you to show up
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  Speaker 1: in the world as God drives you into isolation just
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: so you can admit your own humanity.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Husbands have moments of feeling like they're playing a role,
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  Speaker 1: trying to play a role for which they were not
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  Speaker 1: always scripted. Sometimes we're playing a role that we never
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  Speaker 1: saw Sometimes we're playing a role that you wrote for
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  Speaker 1: us that we never agreed to. Sometimes wives feel like
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: they're playing a role. I don't feel like cooking for you.
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  Speaker 1: What about me? What about my career? What about what
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: I want to do? But she goes ahead and cooks
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  Speaker 1: and makes some breakfast and serves it and she feels
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: like an imposter.
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  Speaker 2: Paul talks about it this way. Let me deal with
• 25:04
  Speaker 2: this one first.
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  Speaker 1: Parents felt guilty during COVID because they found out eight
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: hours teaching their distracted children wasn't as easy as they thought. Oh, no, no,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep going. I'm gonna keep going. I'm gonna
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  Speaker 1: keep going to you. I'm gonna keep going. I'm gonna
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  Speaker 1: keep going. Have there ever been moments that you got
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: sick of your own kids? Yeah, yeah, but you still
• 25:30
  Speaker 1: had to take care of them, but you felt like
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: an imposter syndrome. And there are moments that your kids
• 25:37
  Speaker 1: get sick of you. And so you've got to hold
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: the family together when all of the people in the
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: family go through periods and moments of feeling like imposters.
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: And how you manage those emotions, again, it's not fatal,
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: it's not terminal, and often it's not permanent, but we
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: all go through moments of imposter syndrome. And this imposter
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: syndrome comes with guilt and pain and agony and fear
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  Speaker 1: of discovery. And it also comes with feelings of unworthiness.
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  Speaker 1: Sometimes you show up in the world and God has
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  Speaker 1: blessed your life, but you came from the hood. And
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: when you came from the hood and you show up
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: in the corporate world, you walked away from the job
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  Speaker 1: not because you weren't good at it, but because deep
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: down you felt like you were an imposter. You can
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: wear the right clothes. You can use the right terms.
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  Speaker 1: You can discuss it in a very professional, prolific, provocative way.
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  Speaker 1: And yet it's not legitimate because as soon as you
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: get home, you take all of that and say, what's up, dude?
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: What's going on? Man, I'm telling you, it gets on
• 26:50
  Speaker 1: my nerve because you have to show up as an imposter.
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: Paul says, I find then a law that when I
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: would do good, evil is present with me. That which
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  Speaker 1: I would do, I do not. That which I would
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: not do, I do. Oh, wretched man that I am,
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: who shall deliver me from the body of this death?
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: Who shall get me away from this other guy? It's
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: not that I don't want to do good, but evil
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  Speaker 1: is also present. It's not that my spirit isn't talking
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  Speaker 1: to me, but my body is also talking to me.
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  Speaker 1: It's not that I don't want to do right. It's
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: that I have another voice to deal with. And sometimes
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: I show up in the world confused. I am trapped
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  Speaker 1: betwixt and between two worlds.
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  Speaker 2: Oh God.
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  Speaker 1: The first step of addressing the nefarious effects of imposter
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  Speaker 1: syndrome is to understand what it is. to recognize in
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: your own mind that imposter syndrome is best understood this way.
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  Speaker 1: It's best understood as a tendency instead of a type
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  Speaker 1: of person. It is a tendency and not a type.
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  Speaker 1: So this is not permanent. This is not fatal. This
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  Speaker 1: is not a diagnosis. It's a tendency to wonder about yourself.
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  Speaker 1: It's a tendency to have a feeling of not being authentic.
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  Speaker 1: It's a tendency of showing up in the world as
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: you are expected and go home exhausted from having to
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  Speaker 1: wear that other woman's clothes. I'm gonna get to it
• 28:48
  Speaker 1: in a minute. I'm gonna get to it in a minute.
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  Speaker 1: This means that the world is not comprised of imposters
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  Speaker 1: and non-imposters. So don't get on your high horse and say,
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  Speaker 1: I'm not one of them. Because at some point you
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: have been one of.
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  Speaker 2: Them.
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  Speaker 1: At some point, the young people talk about keeping it 100.
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  Speaker 1: Keeping it 100 will kill you. If your wife says,
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: does my behind look big in this dress? It is
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: better to show up in the world as she's expecting
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: you to. If you give her the absolute truth, you
• 29:34
  Speaker 1: may end your relationship. Do you ever think about anybody
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: other than me? Both genders. Don't you ladies laugh. Both genders,
• 29:51
  Speaker 1: both genders. Imposter syndrome. comes with its own weight, comes
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: with its own pressure. Instead, in any given situation, we
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: can all act in a way that is harmful to
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: ourselves and some people respond this way more often than others.
• 30:16
  Speaker 1: Some people get stuck in imposter syndrome and the weight
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: of being an imposter pushes them down. Not always negativity,
• 30:28
  Speaker 1: Sometimes you can be successful and still have imposter syndrome.
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: You can self-sabotage because you have imposter syndrome.
• 30:40
  Speaker 2: You've got a nice car, you've got a nice house.
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: You've got a nice family, but you don't feel worthy
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  Speaker 1: of that and you don't stop till you wreck it.
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  Speaker 2: Talk to me, somebody.
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  Speaker 1: Because you feel like an imposter because what God gave
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  Speaker 1: you doesn't line up with where you came from. And
• 31:03
  Speaker 1: your body keeps reminding you of where you came from.
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: You say, you know you ain't that. You don't deserve that.
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  Speaker 1: She shouldn't love you. So even if I love you,
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  Speaker 1: you will reject my love because the love is not
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: familiar to me because I don't love me. I won't
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: let you love me. I don't believe that you love me.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: I don't know how to receive that love because I
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: am wrestling with.
• 31:31
  Speaker 2: Imposter syndrome. Okay?
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  Speaker 1: It isn't just a drain on your morale. It's been
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: shown to induce feelings of depression, overall worse mental health,
• 31:50
  Speaker 1: can become a roadblock to career advancement. You can mess
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: up your career advancement because you smart enough to go
• 31:58
  Speaker 1: where you don't feel you deserve to go. So you
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: dumb down your creativity down to your comfort zone and
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: walk away where you have the ability to go because
• 32:13
  Speaker 1: you have imposter syndrome. You diminish job satisfaction and the
• 32:20
  Speaker 1: feeling that you have to stay in your current role
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: because you have no other option. And you talk yourself
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: to being in prison in a situation because you have
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: imposter syndrome. You don't feel worthy of anything else. You
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: don't have the courage to change. You really don't think
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: you're smart, but you're miserable where you are and you
• 32:41
  Speaker 1: won't go to where you're going and you're trapped in
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: an imposter situation.
• 32:47
  Speaker 2: Syndrome. Oh, God, do you hear what I'm saying? Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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  Speaker 2: This is good. This is good. This is good.
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: The book is called Disruptive Thinking, but I'm just giving
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: you just a little piece of it.
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  Speaker 2: It's not out yet. It's not out yet.
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: You can't even preorder it yet, but I'm in the
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: middle of writing it, and I wanted to use this
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: part with you today because I felt like this part
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  Speaker 1: couldn't wait because somebody in this room is getting ready
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: to be delivered today.
• 33:16
  Speaker 2: From imposter syndrome.
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: We shouldn't let our mindset get us down. The problem,
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: the exasperating thing with leading our people and talking to
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: people today is that they are controlled by how they feel.
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: I have never seen so many people whose response to
• 33:41
  Speaker 1: everything is how they feel about it. You cannot trust
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: your feelings. Your feelings are schizophrenic. They will be everywhere.
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: And instead of responding to facts, you respond to feelings
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: as if your feelings were king. You can't let your
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: psyche control what your body does, how your spirit feels
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: because your psyche is getting too many voices coming from
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: too many different places simultaneously. Do you hear what I'm saying?
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: Jacob fights within himself as I step into the text.
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  Speaker 1: He fights within himself Because number one, he's been a
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: fighter all of his life. Prenatally he was fighting. He
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: was fighting in his mother's womb. He is a fighter
• 34:47
  Speaker 1: by nature. He's fighting with Esau in the womb. And
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: all of a sudden we see a reverse birth order.
• 34:58
  Speaker 2: And he comes forth out of the womb fighting.
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: The conditions you come into you will always wrestle with.
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: If you came into the world unwanted, then rejection and
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: abandonment is a whistle that rings loud in your ears.
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: I didn't reject you, I just chose somebody else, but
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: your emotions are geared toward the way you came into
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: the world.
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  Speaker 2: Jacob, let me move on.
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: Jacob was, Jacob was fighting when he got here. Then
• 35:35
  Speaker 1: he fought for the birthright. And he was a trickster
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: and a con and a schemer. And it's not that
• 35:43
  Speaker 1: he's a bad person. He was born into an environment
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: that lended itself to doing whatever you had to do
• 35:51
  Speaker 1: to get wherever you had to go.
• 35:56
  Speaker 2: That's why you.
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: Can't, dating people online scares me because I can be
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: anybody I want to be online. I want to see
• 36:05
  Speaker 1: your mama. I want to see your daddy. I want
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: to see where you went to school. I want to
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: see you happy. I want to see you sad. I
• 36:12
  Speaker 1: want to see you when things get on your nerves.
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: I want to see how you act when you don't
• 36:15
  Speaker 1: like me. Don't be texting me and all that stuff.
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: I wanna be able to examine you because if we're
• 36:22
  Speaker 1: gonna be married, we're gonna go through everything together and
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: I need to know what mad looks like. I need
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: to know what sad looks like. I need to know
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: what depressed looks like. to see whether it's within the
• 36:34
  Speaker 1: guardrails of what I can live with. I'm not asking
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: you to be perfect, but I do have guardrails. There
• 36:41
  Speaker 1: is a jump-off point for me. I will get away
• 36:44
  Speaker 1: from you. If you show me crazy, and it's a
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: little bit of crazy, I can drink it down. But
• 36:50
  Speaker 1: if it's a whole lot of crazy, I might have to.
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  Speaker 1: Come on, talk to me, somebody. Come on, talk to me.
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: Jacob has tricked Esau out of his birthright. He has,
• 37:11
  Speaker 1: watch this, he has tricked Esau out of his birthright.
• 37:15
  Speaker 1: He has sold it for a pot of soup and
• 37:19
  Speaker 1: he got the birthright, but he never felt right. Now
• 37:27
  Speaker 1: you see the connection. Now you see the connection. He
• 37:31
  Speaker 1: got the birthright, but he never felt right because he
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: didn't really get it right. He tricked himself into getting
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: the birthright. And so even though he has the blessing
• 37:43
  Speaker 1: that comes along with the birthright, he doesn't really feel
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: right and he can't enjoy right because he feels like
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: an imposter in the opportunity because he feigned himself to
• 37:56
  Speaker 1: be something that he wasn't to get something that wasn't
• 37:59
  Speaker 1: his and now he's got the blessing but he can't
• 38:03
  Speaker 1: handle what he got. You got what you wanted but
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: you don't want what you got. after tricking and scheming. Yeah,
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: you got the man, but now you don't want the
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: man you got. Yeah, you got my job, but now
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: you can't handle the job that you got. Yeah, you
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: took the church, but now you can't handle the church
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: that you got because you tricked and scammed and sabotaged
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  Speaker 1: and killed and destroyed other people to get where you
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: were trying to go. And now you're in a situation
• 38:33
  Speaker 1: where Jacob has got what he wanted. but he doesn't
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: want what he's got. Because in the back of his mind,
• 38:44
  Speaker 1: he wonders, am I an imposter?
• 38:50
  Speaker 2: So now the text that.
• 38:53
  Speaker 1: I read is really has little to do with what
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: I want to preach. It is the meat. I want
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: to spend all my time on the bread. Everybody else
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: talks about what happened to Jacob on the mountaintop wrestling
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: with God. I want to show you why he's wrestling
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: with God. He is wrestling with God because if you
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: read the previous verses, he is about to meet up
• 39:17
  Speaker 1: with Esau. After years of being away from his brother,
• 39:23
  Speaker 1: who he has tricked the birthright from, now he is
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: concerned because soon or later you're going to have to
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: confront what you did. You can't get away from it.
• 39:38
  Speaker 1: You can't get away from it. Sooner or later, you're
• 39:42
  Speaker 1: gonna have to come face to face with who you beguile,
• 39:46
  Speaker 1: who you trick, who you confronted. It's only a matter
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: of time before you gotta deal with it And Jacob
• 39:54
  Speaker 1: is walking in blessings. He's walking in blessings. If you
• 39:57
  Speaker 1: read the previous verses, he's walking in blessings. He has
• 40:00
  Speaker 1: two wives. He has two families. He has sheep. He
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: has oxen. He has cattle. He has abundance. He has
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  Speaker 1: everything you could ever want because he has the birthright,
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  Speaker 1: but he don't feel right. Is there somebody in here
• 40:17
  Speaker 1: that's got the birthright, but you don't feel right? Anybody
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: else would love to be in your shoes. They would
• 40:24
  Speaker 1: love to have your position. They would love to have
• 40:27
  Speaker 1: what you evil about. But you got it but can't
• 40:32
  Speaker 1: enjoy it because you have imposter syndrome. We have to
• 40:36
  Speaker 1: spend all day trying to reinforce your self-esteem and confidence
• 40:41
  Speaker 1: because you don't feel worthy of where God placed you.
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: You got the sheep. You got the oxen. You got
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: the cattle. You got the kids. You got the wives.
• 40:52
  Speaker 1: You got everything and you're still not happy. No matter
• 40:55
  Speaker 1: how high we exalt you, you're still not happy. You
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: think that if you reach a certain place it's going
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: to make you happy. I came to tell you I
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: don't care how high you go, it's not going to
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  Speaker 1: make you happy because your miserableness is not coming from
• 41:11
  Speaker 1: the outside. It's coming from the inside. I know you
• 41:15
  Speaker 1: can't shout because you're sitting right next to somebody that's
• 41:18
  Speaker 1: going through that. But wiggle your toe, blink your nose,
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  Speaker 1: flash your eyes because you have met people like I
• 41:27
  Speaker 1: have met people who complain about everything, not happy about
• 41:32
  Speaker 1: anything because deep down inside you scammed your way to
• 41:37
  Speaker 1: get where you are and now you're there but you
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: don't feel authentic. And they tell him Esau is coming,
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: Esau is coming, Esau is coming and he does not
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: want to see Esau. Because he tricked Esau and he
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: ripped Esau off and he's living in Esau's life. Wife, cattle, oxen, birthright, opportunity.
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  Speaker 1: And he has this feeling of imposter syndrome because he
• 42:20
  Speaker 1: knows he is complicit in ripping Esau off of what
• 42:25
  Speaker 1: he thinks. What he thinks. What he thinks was rightfully his.
• 42:32
  Speaker 1: So he doesn't feel worthy because of how his neurotransmitters
• 42:38
  Speaker 1: are processing what happened in his life. And the story
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: that you tell yourself will either raise yourself or kill yourself.
• 42:45
  Speaker 1: And he doesn't think. that he's worthy. He has not
• 42:48
  Speaker 1: counted into it the sovereignty of God. He has not
• 42:51
  Speaker 1: counted into it that God hated Esau and loved Jacob.
• 42:56
  Speaker 1: He can't receive that kind of love because he feels
• 42:58
  Speaker 1: like an imposter. He has not counted into the fact
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: That the steps of a good man are ordered by
• 43:05
  Speaker 1: the Lord and the Lord delighteth in his way. And
• 43:08
  Speaker 1: even when you do wrong, God will make it work
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: out for good. He has not counted out the fact
• 43:13
  Speaker 1: that all things work together for the good of them
• 43:16
  Speaker 1: that love the Lord. All he knows is that Esau
• 43:20
  Speaker 1: is coming and he feels like an imposter in his
• 43:23
  Speaker 1: own life. And so he separates his blessings because he says,
• 43:33
  Speaker 1: they tell him Esau is coming with 400 men. And
• 43:37
  Speaker 1: he said, oh my God, they're coming to kill me.
• 43:39
  Speaker 1: And maybe if I separate my wives and separate my blessings,
• 43:43
  Speaker 1: maybe they won't get all of them. Maybe I'll keep
• 43:46
  Speaker 1: half of them because he thinks for sure he's going
• 43:49
  Speaker 1: to be destroyed because he has never offered. owned the
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: blessing that he has received. He's got the blessing that
• 43:56
  Speaker 1: he has received but he hasn't owned the blessing that
• 43:59
  Speaker 1: he has received because he is aware of his own
• 44:02
  Speaker 1: wretchedness and his own wickedness and his own humanity and
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: he can't enjoy it because he's wrestling with imposter syndrome
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: and there is a battle going on. It's not in
• 44:16
  Speaker 1: the womb this time. It's not for the birthright this time.
• 44:20
  Speaker 1: It is a battle for his soul. It is a
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: battle for his sleep. It is a battle for his peace.
• 44:26
  Speaker 1: I don't know who I'm preaching to today. You have arrived,
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: but you're not there. You got a better bed, but
• 44:32
  Speaker 1: you can't sleep in it. You got a nice house,
• 44:34
  Speaker 1: but you don't enjoy it. Other people are envious of
• 44:37
  Speaker 1: your life, but you don't appreciate it because of all
• 44:40
  Speaker 1: the things you went through along the way. Because you
• 44:43
  Speaker 1: are aware of your own wretchedness. Oh, wretched man that
• 44:47
  Speaker 1: I am, who shall deliver me from the body of
• 44:49
  Speaker 1: this death? You're driving around in your big old car,
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: but you need deliverance. You're in your big house, but
• 44:56
  Speaker 1: you need deliverance. You got a beautiful wife, but you
• 44:59
  Speaker 1: need deliverance because you are aware of your own wretchedness.
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: And there Jacob is living in fear. He's blessed, but
• 45:09
  Speaker 1: he's living in fear. He says to himself, I don't
• 45:14
  Speaker 1: deserve what I got because his sins are ever before him.
• 45:19
  Speaker 1: Whose sins are not? Give me five more minutes, I'm
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: coming to the point. I'm on my way somewhere, but
• 45:30
  Speaker 1: I gotta ride this sucker till I kill it. I
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: gotta break it down to the floor. I gotta break
• 45:36
  Speaker 1: it down to the floor. I gotta break it down
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  Speaker 1: to the floor. I gotta break it down to the floor.
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  Speaker 1: The Hebrew word there is arene, where we get arena,
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  Speaker 1: and it means that this is where men fight in
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  Speaker 1: the dirt. Gladiators fight in the dirt. And Jacob is
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  Speaker 1: an arena. He is fighting in the dirt. And whether
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  Speaker 1: you dance, shout, skip, or jump, all of us have
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  Speaker 1: had seasons where we were doing hand-to-hand combat in the dirt.
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  Speaker 1: Not with a hater, not with an enemy, with yourself,
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  Speaker 1: with your mind. with your own head, with your own thoughts.
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  Speaker 1: If it would have been an assailant, I would have
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  Speaker 1: killed him. If it had been Goliath, I would have
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  Speaker 1: knocked him out. But I had to get down in
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  Speaker 1: the dirt with my own head and say, what's really
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  Speaker 1: going on with you? Am I preaching to anybody in
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  Speaker 1: this room? You're an arena. You're in the arena. Arena
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  Speaker 1: is not the size of the Coliseum. It is the
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  Speaker 1: ground that you're fighting on. It's fighting in dirt. And
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  Speaker 1: everybody in here has had to fight in dirt to
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  Speaker 1: get where you are. If you made it anywhere at all,
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  Speaker 1: you had to fight in the dirt. You had to
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  Speaker 1: get down in the dirt. and say, though he slay me,
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  Speaker 1: yet shall I trust him. You had to get down
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  Speaker 1: in the dirt and say, I'm thinking crazy. I'm thinking
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  Speaker 1: like a fool. Why do I keep sabotaging myself? What
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  Speaker 1: is it about me that makes me mess up everything
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  Speaker 1: I lay my hands on? It is a fight to
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  Speaker 1: the finish. It is a battle for the soul. and
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  Speaker 1: it's not just demons and it's not just witches and
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  Speaker 1: it's not just curses. It's the stuff you went through
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  Speaker 1: that wakes you up in the middle of the night
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  Speaker 1: and rustles you down to the floor and tells you
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  Speaker 1: you're not worthy of what you're praying for. Your mouth
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  Speaker 1: is saying one thing but your mind is saying something
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  Speaker 1: else and until you get your mind and your mouth
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  Speaker 1: to come into agreement. You cannot receive the blessings of God.
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to preach it whether you like it or not.
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to preach it till demons tremble. I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to preach it till hell gets nervous. I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: preach it till somebody gets a breakthrough. And here comes Esau.
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  Speaker 1: Look at somebody and say, Esau is coming. Esau coming
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  Speaker 1: is that showdown moment that we all have sooner or
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  Speaker 1: later with our own lives that determines what makes you
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  Speaker 1: or breaks you. And when you have that Esau moment,
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  Speaker 1: either you're confronting or you die. not because he's gonna
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  Speaker 1: kill you. See, Jacob thought Esau was coming to kill
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  Speaker 1: him and that's why he divided the troops to keep
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  Speaker 1: him from killing everything. But Esau wasn't killing Jacob. Jacob
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  Speaker 1: was killing Jacob. Help me Holy Ghost. Help me Holy Ghost.
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  Speaker 1: Help me Holy Ghost. I need some help in here.
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  Speaker 1: I need some help Lord. I need some help. I
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  Speaker 1: could cast out devils but I can't cast out self.
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  Speaker 1: If it was a demon after you, I could cast
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  Speaker 1: out the demon. But when you're after yourself, it becomes
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  Speaker 1: hard to cast it out because yourself doesn't want to
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  Speaker 1: let go of the grip that it has over your destiny.
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  Speaker 1: But the devil is alive. We dealt with demons last week.
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to deal with you this week. Why are
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  Speaker 1: you killing you? Why are you stopping you? Why are
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  Speaker 1: you hurting you? Esau is coming. And like all people
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  Speaker 1: who wrestle with imposter syndrome, it has driven Jacob into isolation.
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  Speaker 1: Now I'm in my text. And Jacob was left alone
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  Speaker 1: with God. If you're not careful, you will end up
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  Speaker 1: where you don't have nobody.
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  Speaker 2: But God.
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  Speaker 1: Isolation. will drive you into such seclusion. You can't talk
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  Speaker 1: to nobody. You can't open up to anybody. You can't
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  Speaker 1: communicate with anybody. And everybody who tries to get to you,
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  Speaker 1: you either run from them or find an excuse not
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  Speaker 1: to love them because you think if they saw who
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  Speaker 1: you really were, they wouldn't love you because all of
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  Speaker 1: your life, you've been a trickster, a scam and a con. Jacob,
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  Speaker 1: what is your name? The Bible said that Jacob was
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  Speaker 1: left alone with God. Some of you are wondering why
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  Speaker 1: doors have been closed, why friends have been shut down.
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  Speaker 1: God's been wanting to get you by himself so he
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  Speaker 1: could work on your head and get yourself together. And
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  Speaker 1: I want you to name this Sunday Breakthrough Sunday because
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  Speaker 1: a breakthrough is coming in your life today. Oh my God,
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  Speaker 1: do you feel the Holy Ghost in this place? The
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  Speaker 1: anointing of God is here. Shake yourself and say, I
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  Speaker 1: got to get out of this.
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  Speaker 1: And
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  Speaker 1: that's where the wrestling begins. That's all he knows how
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  Speaker 1: to do is fight. He's been fighting in the womb.
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  Speaker 1: He's been fighting for the birthright. He's been fighting his
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  Speaker 1: own guilt. He's been fighting his own past. And even
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  Speaker 1: when God comes, he starts fighting God. But if you're
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  Speaker 1: fighting God, you can't win. Because sooner or later... God
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  Speaker 1: is going to get the victory out of your life.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know who I'm talking to tonight, but I'm
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  Speaker 1: talking to somebody in this room. God's got you surrounded.
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  Speaker 1: He's got you surrounded on the left. He's got you
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  Speaker 1: surrounded on the right. And everything that's been on you
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  Speaker 1: is about to break off of your life. Struggle all
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  Speaker 1: you want to, but God's going to win this battle
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  Speaker 1: in your life. Somebody give him 30 seconds of crazy praise.
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  Speaker 1: 30 seconds of crazy praise. Slap somebody and tell them,
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  Speaker 1: tonight we wrestle. Tonight we wrestle. We're not going to
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  Speaker 1: dance tonight. We're not going to shout tonight. We're not
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  Speaker 1: going to run tonight. But tonight we wrestle. We wrestle
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  Speaker 1: until I find out who I am. We wrestle until
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  Speaker 1: I get loose from the enemy. We wrestle until I
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  Speaker 1: stand up on my feet. We wrestle until the yoke
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  Speaker 1: is broken over my life. And if I Bible says
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  Speaker 1: that they began to wrestle with God. Wrestle with me, Jesus,
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  Speaker 1: but don't leave me. Wrestle with me till my soul says, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: oh God, I feel like preaching. Wrestle with me till
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: my mind says, yeah. Wrestle with me till I get healed.
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  Speaker 1: Wrestle with me till I get whole. I won't let
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  Speaker 1: you go till you bless my soul. My spirit is fine.
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  Speaker 1: My body is fine. But I won't let you go
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  Speaker 1: till you bless my soul. If I'm preaching to you,
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  Speaker 1: make some noise in this place. I won't let you go.
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  Speaker 1: I won't let you go. I won't let you go.
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  Speaker 1: I don't care who sits down. I'm going to jump up.
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  Speaker 1: I don't care who won't praise you. I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: praise you. If I have to lay out on the altar,
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  Speaker 1: if I have to crawl down the pews, I won't
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  Speaker 1: let you go till I break this cycle, till I
• 54:40
  Speaker 1: break this curse, till I break this situation. Look at
• 54:45
  Speaker 1: your neighbor and say, I got to break it. Move
• 54:49
  Speaker 1: your pocketbook because I got to break it. Get your
• 54:53
  Speaker 1: legs out of the way because I got to break it.
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  Speaker 1: I got to break it. If I got to step
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  Speaker 1: on your shoes, I got to break this thing that's
• 55:05
  Speaker 1: trying to break me. I dare you to praise him.
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  Speaker 1: I said I dare you to praise him. I said
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  Speaker 1: I dare you to praise him. You don't hear me?
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  Speaker 1: Open your mouth like you mad and praise him. Open
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  Speaker 1: your mouth like you in a fight and praise him.
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  Speaker 1: Open your mouth like you desperate and praise him. And
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: the Bible said that they wrestled all night long until
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  Speaker 1: the day was about to break. And the Bible says
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  Speaker 1: when the daybreak came that the angel smoked Jacob in
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  Speaker 1: his hip joint. Look at your neighbor and say, God's
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  Speaker 1: going to win this fight. If he got to knock
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  Speaker 1: you out, he's going to win this fight. If he
• 56:36
  Speaker 1: got to bring you to your knees, he's going to
• 56:38
  Speaker 1: win this fight. If he has to lay you out
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  Speaker 1: in the floor, God is going to win this fight.
• 56:44
  Speaker 1: The Lord told me to tell you. Get yourself together.
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  Speaker 1: You're running out of time. Stop making excuses. You're running
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  Speaker 1: out of time. Stop blaming everybody. You're running out of time.
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  Speaker 1: Behold the daybreakers. Who am I preaching to? Make some
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  Speaker 1: noise in this place. Make some noise. Till hell gets nervous.
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  Speaker 1: Make some noise. Till demons tremble. Make some noise. Till
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  Speaker 1: you get your peace back. Make some noise. Till you
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  Speaker 1: stop going off on everybody. Make some noise. Till you
• 57:30
  Speaker 1: get your joy back. Make some noise. Make some noise.
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  Speaker 1: You don't know who you are. you don't know what
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  Speaker 1: you can be you don't know what you can have
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  Speaker 1: you don't know what you can do I dare you
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  Speaker 1: to make some noise Breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough. Say
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  Speaker 1: it seven times. Breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough.
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  Speaker 2: Seven times. Breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough. Say it. Breakthrough, breakthrough, breakthrough.
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  Speaker 1: In my mind, in my finances, in my life, in
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  Speaker 1: my body, in my heart, in my spirit, in my marriage,
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  Speaker 1: in my home, in my praise life, in my prayer life,
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  Speaker 1: God said it's going to be breakthrough. It's going to
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  Speaker 1: be breakthrough. I'm tired of being a hawk between two opinions.
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  Speaker 1: I'm tired of being an imposter in my own life.
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  Speaker 1: I want a breakthrough. I want a breakthrough. I want
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  Speaker 1: a breakthrough. I want a breakthrough. I want a breakthrough. Yes, Lord.
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  Speaker 1: So there were two things I'm almost finished that God did. One,
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  Speaker 1: he smote him at the hip joint. He smote him.
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  Speaker 1: in the joints. Somebody in here, you just went through
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  Speaker 1: something very painful and God said, I did it to
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  Speaker 1: bring you to the point that you stop fighting me
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  Speaker 1: and start clinging to me.
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  Speaker 2: Glory to God.
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  Speaker 1: Come here, Torrey. You fought God as long as you
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  Speaker 1: could fight him. You fought him in the morning. You
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  Speaker 1: fought him in the evening. You fought his word. You're stubborn.
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  Speaker 1: You're going to have it your way. It looks like
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 1: you're going to prevail, but then he smote you at
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  Speaker 1: the hip joint. And now you're leaning on who you
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 1: used to be fighting with. God said, I'm going to
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: bring you to your knees. I'm going to make you say,
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to make you say yes. I'm going to
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 1: make you sell out. I'm going to make you surrender.
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  Speaker 1: You're going to start fighting me and start clinging on
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  Speaker 1: to me. I don't know who I'm preaching to, but
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  Speaker 1: I'm preaching to somebody. God's going to win this fight
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  Speaker 1: for your soul. I dare you to praise him right now.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.