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Check ya Mirror · The Volume Shift

• Deion: shit, we roll them. Listen, man. My kids be drawn. Y'all kids be drawn. I ain't talking about in the manner that's like acting up in school and you gotta keep going up there and this and that and they get in trouble and I ain't talking about like Debbie drawing like that. it'd be drawn in the most subtlest ways, right? and I don't know if that's the battle between parents and kids, you feel me? 'Cause it's like way that they be drawing, be like, I can't do nothing to you. So I'ma do little petty shit. You know what I'm saying? so let me tell y'all right. Kids be sitting there whole time. Hours. You know what I mean? Soon as I go to the bathroom, go take a you know me. Here they come. I really gotta go, please. So so so so so bad. Really, really so so bad. And I'm like, I'm in mid shin, I'm in mid poop, mid dookie, you know what I'm saying? Like trunk drawing, you know what mean? And I don't know it's like parent y'all is, right? Like s is it could be a couple different ways of parenting, right? Like no, they got the fucking wait, you feel me? Like but then it's like me, I'm like, I'm a sucker. So I'm like, nah, I gotta get up, you feel me? Cause the opposite is like me having to clean up if they make a a a mistake, you know what I mean? Or have an accident or however you you word it. You know what I mean? So I'm thinking about that. I'm like, I'd rather just get my ass up. Excuse me, you know what I mean? Versus like having to clean up after them. You feel me? So I get up mid poop, you what I'm saying? And you know that nut ass john, too, you just got started so it's like right there. And you can't like just wipe it 'cause then it's gonna be like a big mm, you know what I'm saying? On the and they smears and get all up Nah, you know what mean? So I gotta be clever, right? get up and pull up halfway and you mean rap my shit or something like you get me just to let them go real quick and you know what I'm saying? But that's the type drawn shit. That shit drawn, you know what I mean? whole time you ain't whole time you was sitting here you ain't had to go. Now I get in the drone and now you gotta go. so so so so bad. So it never was so so so bad when you was just sitting there f playing a iPad door. Yeah I mean, like and now it's so so really really I gotta really, really good like like it's detrimental if you don't go you feel me, so maybe the old petty shit like that, you feel me, that be drawn, I'm like, yo gotta get it together, man. You know what I'm saying? But it's funny cause it's like I I keep thinking about that commercial, you know what I mean? Like with where where it's the insurance draw. I think it's progressive, like progressives can say make have you save on your insurance, but it can't save you from being your parents. Like, you know what I mean? Like and I'm like, nah, I'm my parents now, you feel me? Where I'm going to the bathroom and then all the kids wanna rush. You know what I mean? We used to do that, right? But our shit was a little different, it was a little manipulative, you know what I'm saying? Cause mom and the bear for she just get the fuck out. We was walking in, know what I'm saying? And so whatever we wanted, it was like, yeah, well, every just gotta get in, whatever. You know what I mean? Like, my gotta get fired out. I'll just go in my pocketbook, just get out the bathroom. You know what it is? So it was like that, you feel me? So but I see that little petty battle between the kids and all that. You feel what I'm saying? I'm sitting there right with the crib. And they in the kitchen, like about to get a little snack or whatever. And I overhear I hear I hear talking like they like. So I got a boy and a girl, you know what I'm saying? So so my I think my girl was like, or my one of them said, who you think cooked better between mom and dad? you know what I'm saying? So I'm really tuned in with a hair, like, I'm like, what? Like, what god, where y'all even derive this type of conversation from, right? Like. Who you think cook better? they both was shit like mom, but then it was like they started picking what I don't know, dad make better chicken, mom makes better spaghetti, like they start running it down and I'm like, I'm sitting there, I'm like, do I feel the type of way about this? Like, what am I hearing right now? You feel me? I'm like. I'm about to be petty, you feel me? shit your mom cooked better, so go eat over there, you feel me? I don't even like my food versus your mom's food, so like, yeah, y'all gotta make it on your own type shit. Like, you know, talk about my cooking like that. You feel me? Like, I'm getting real petty, like, no, I ain't cooking for y'all no more. No more, no more dinners, no more I okay you think my chicken better no. Not cooking no more. How dare you fucking say yeah mom cooked better than what? Man, I know y'all sit there like, yeah, you nutty and shit, you goddamn right. They be drawn, I'm drawn. You know what I'm saying? Like, yeah. You gotta draw back as the parent, man. Fuck that. You know what I'm saying? You gotta be petty on petty. But anywho, welcome back to the volume shift where we're bridging gaps between genders, races, cultures, etc. I'm Buck Doctors the Doctor without the doctrine. What up, though? How y'all living? How y'all feeling? What a beautiful day, right? It's like 70 out this journey. So there's 15 degrees higher than the norm. For this time of the year, you mean I don't know how to take that, right? what's going on? But take it for what it is and accept the moment, right? And do your best in it, you know what I'm saying? Like, but a volume check, you know, our segment, man, we check in with the volume, you know I'm saying? Check on volume. Right now, a lot volume is. Is the election and the midterm, whatever, you know what I mean? People voting and all that. I ain't even gonna give my spill on it, like, 'cause I don't wanna, you know what I mean, sway nobody, like in their in the way that they operate, you feel me? Like but I do think is is decent to have these conversations, like, without I cause if for me it's like if you can stand if you stand on whi whatever it is, then you can have any conversation. You feel me? Whether it's gay, about gay sex or whatever, about the gay lifestyle, whether it's like politics, you know what I mean? Like whether it's religion, you know what I mean? Like if I'm steady on my my religion, like Islam or where have you. I can have conversations with Christians and it's not bothering me, you feel me? 'cause I'm solid. I think when you're not solid, then you hesitate on them conversations cause it can challenge, you know, your current stance on it. You know what I mean? So I understand why people don't have certain conversations and at the same time like I don't be wanting to put my stuff out there. that's one of my pet peeves, you feel me? I'm like religion is it's personal to me. You know what I'm saying? And you you don't gotta like project your stuff on me and tell me like I'm not gonna live right or live whatever or go to after place if I don't rock with Jesus or something. Like you miss me with that one. soon as you started with that talk. you get what I'm saying? You tell me I don't have a choice. You know what I mean? And it's crazy 'cause I ain't even have a choice to be here on this earth living. So for you d for me to get here and then you tell me like the only way to get to the other side is to go through this this entity or this this human made God person thing that y'all, you know, talk about Jesus. You know what I mean? That don't even make a little bit of sense. You get what I'm saying? Like how somebody died for my sins, you know. I ain't even get here yet. You know what I mean? And they say he died for the sins of the future. Now I ain't never know nobody that just know future like that. Like that. You know what I mean? But then y'all of it like not. psychics and shit like that, but y I'll believe that one though. You know what I mean? About the future. And see what I'm saying? I don't even want to be putting this to you. Cause I don't want y'all to stop believing in what y'all believe in, you feel me? Like y'all do y'all thing, chicken wing. I ain't gonna you know what I'm saying? I'm you know, I just continue to do my thing, you feel me? And operate under my understanding of operations, you know what I mean? And yours don't bother mine I don't bother yours, But it's it's like it's a must that people put it out there for you to be the same. And it's like I want what my for my what I want for me, what what I want for my brothers is like not everything, bro. You feel me? You know what I mean? pe people pick and choose off them lines. you don't want anything, bro. You feel me? 'Cause you don't want my girl to be your girl. You don't like you know I get it. You you might not want that specific person, but like you want me to have love. I get it. That's nice. You know what I'm saying? Like I appreciate that. You feel me? But let's get into it though, man. I think like On the volume check for me. I I pride myself in like Going back into me and utilizing everybody else as a mirror. And I think that's how life is supposed to be. You know what I mean? when things happen, it ain't just cause the person in front of you did something to you and then now you reacting or what have you, or you staying focused on them. For me, like I I gotta focus on me, because that's the only person like that I got control of. I don't know why you do why you what you do. I I can know why I respond the way I respond and how I even got to this point. You get what I'm saying? So you know, and I feel that way about everything, like relationships, friendships, jobs, any career, anything. Like, you feel what I'm saying? Like, and a lot of careers and and residential purchases and stuff like that, meaning getting a home, is like people wanna gonna blame white and black cause it's out there. You feel what I'm saying? But bigger than that, it is a a structure of things and how it operates. You know what I mean? Like now if you keep doing things in the operations the correct way and you still not getting through. I still don't say blame it on the racist stuff, the white, black, whatever, gender shit, none of that. just dig more into you and figure out, what you can do to acquire it. You feel me? And that that's gonna keep you with the what it does is it keep you sane. It keeps you in you. It keep you on your mission, you get what I'm saying? once you veer off and start blaming it, you in that world now. Now you can't even do nothing because you're thinking gonna be, it's a white and black thing. So you f you like kinda forcing yourself not to live no more. I mean you living but like live according to you and what's best for you. You feel what I'm saying? Like That should take hold of who you are now. Once you enter into somebody else's shit, you're no longer in yours. You know, so you don't gotta win in that that arena. So you just about to drag yourself through pain and all these other shits just because you accepted and and went it went that way. You get what I'm saying? So these are the things that I begin to understand after living. For some time now. You know what I mean? so I see a lot of people, they blame their spouses or their partners or their boyfriends or girlfriends, whatever, like, because they cheated. And then you get all all bent out of shape, and now you it's whoa me, you a victim, and now it's the worst thing that happened to you, and now you carrying that trauma. into the future and you putting that all on other people now you know I'm saying and it's like cheating is is personal but not to the person that's getting it done too it's personal like only if they accept it as that my god you cheated on me like what am I what do I do wrong you know, don't love me. you know, all that stuff. You know what I'm saying? And I got cheated on and it was like I'm not taking this shit personal, like that's on you. You feel what I'm saying? Like, that's on you. And I get that male emotions is different than female emotions, so That attachment that y'all might have with a person might be more serious serious than what it is for a man. So me saying it so easily is like, to a woman it might be like, but at the same time, try it. Do it. You don't know no other opposite, because the first thing you know is the response off of what what just happened. You know what I mean? And in your experience, probably people around you, this is how they reacted. Mom got cheated on you, she threw shit at dad and this and that and you know fucking wage war off a rage, you know what I'm saying? And and going through all these things, you feel me? Like now she's sitting in the house sad and don't wanna do nothing. You know what I'm saying? So that just it that's giving proof like that yo, as soon as you go that route when you take on somebody else, now you sad. Now you this and that. Now you going days without doing your normal routine. Basically you just took off of them what they was going through and now it's yours. And for what? For what? Why you take that? No, because that's my man. You don't supposed to cheat on me. that's my girl. What the fuck? That sound more like possession, that's mine. You know what I mean? you hear your kids all day saying, that's mine, give me mine. Excuse me, give me mine and all that. And it's like as a adult, you don't hear yourself sound like like that's some kid shit. You know I'm saying? Like, you don't own no people. What kind of See what I'm saying? we taking on from the slave, the master now. Why are you using that language? You own somebody because y'all date or go together? Or you buy your stuff and cause y'all committed to each other and all this. Like, that that ownership going is dangerous because when you put it in you like that, you Depending on the person, you defined it differently, you feel me? So and that's where the is a thin line between it's you crazy. You get what I'm saying? And a lot of people got this ownership control type thing, like you with me, you this and that. I heard a woman say, Once we had sex, we go together. Like it it automatically go together like that. And I'm like, She gonna get hurt. Cause to even have that thought and not have that conversation about it and all that, you gonna be hurt and then you're gonna be throwing chairs and breaking windows and scratching cards and all that. For what? And that's why I'm saying that's why I use everybody as my mirror. What the fuck would make have me in that position where now I'm doing all that crazy shit. Yeah what I'm saying? I done been afflicted plank pe pain. Now I'm trying to inflict pain on others and shit like that. So to me, you think that you winning by doing this? No, I gotta I feel good about doing it. It's like you really don't feel good about doing it, cause why would you even have to do it? You know what I'm saying? This person then got you doing things that you wouldn't normally do as yourself. But you cool with it because you think you protecting yourself. No, that nigga cheated on me. I buffed him in his fucking head. Fuck wrong with that nigga. And it's like, you sound like a loser. You sound like somebody that got cheated out their spot. You know what I mean? master manipulated you get me like whatever misery whatever they was going through now you got you know what I'm saying but and cheating to me is an insecurity so you take on that problem and you gonna have them same insecurities. That's why I say cheating is that that person's personal problem. Yeah I mean Like I said in the beginning, if you got a stance on something and you solid on it, you don't waver or move from that no matter what. So a a person that commits to a relationship and then go cheat, they not sound on what what they believe in or how they look at relationships and all these things. You feel me? So you gotta be the one that be like, That's your fucking problem and you need to fix yourself. You know what I mean? Or not. I don't it don't even matter because I'm not even gonna deal with you no more. You take your insecurity cheating problems and go that way. And I'll continue on my journey and I'll be clear in my myself so that I could, you know, find The frequency that matches mine. You know what I mean? and I told y'all on the episode before, I pick and choose based off people's morals, principles, values, as well as minds. You know what I mean? So I I look at all of that stuff like a chance for you to dive back into you and correct your shit because maybe you offline. You get me? And like I always say, this life is about the individual. So but at the same time, when you're in a relationship, friendship, and all them type things, it's two journeys that's happening at at the same time. You got yours and you got your partners. Their journey might be cheating and doing all this other shit till they find what they need to find and then correct it. Yours might be that how you perceive yourself with your with your internal insecurities. You feel what I'm saying? Like, how did you get into this space? Where you dealing with a person that has those problems where they're gonna cheat or they got insecurities that they not dealing with. You know what I mean? How did you get in a space with that same person? You need to evaluate that. You feel me? So when I got cheated on, I start thinking about all of that. And I'm like, to keep it G with myself, I was on low frequency. I was on low vibrations like You feel me? fresh out of a 10-year on and off relationship and just wanting to fuck to keep it G. Like I said, I'm keeping it G just to fuck something. You know what I mean? and that that thought or that need to just wanna fuck something, like put me in a space or vulnerable space to now accept other low frequencies that's on that vibration. You get me? And then that turned into real life responsibilities cause now we bringing in a life. You know what I'm saying? And we ain't do the the the normal corp shit shit and be friends and date and get to know one another and all of those type of things. So then now I'm lead with a thing that I really can't get rid of now, You feel me? Because it's a responsibility now and talking about having a child with somebody that is not in the same frequency, vibrations, alignments, journey, any like any of that stuff. You feel me? So thereafter, like a lot of things that happen is b based on that soul position in that beginning. You feel me? And hers could have been the same. She could have fucked with me because at the time her shit was low. You know what I mean? Or she lowered it. And and me as well. I lowered my shit. So now, you know what I mean? Those frequencies meet. And I'm like, I'm looking at this shit, y'all, and I'm like, like we jerk and wreck. You know what I mean? Like, and jerking wreck. To people that don't know, it it derives from basketball in the hood. We used to have that saying and probably not every hood, because we got different language in Philly. But y'all understand when I defined it what it means, and y'all probably have a different way of saying it wherever y'all are from. But anyway, it derived from us playing basketball, and that was for a person who not serious. serious about the game, get in the game and be for playing. not playing the game, but playing, like joking around, not taking this series, you know me. And us as the rest of the team or majority of the players playing, we really wanna get a good wreck in. You know what I'm saying? And rec is recreation short. You know what I'm saying? And so we try and get a good sweat, you know what I mean? We try and really wreck out this drill and you You you you jerk and rep. You know what I mean? Call it jerking cause yo, you fucking around. You know what I'm saying? And you're not as serious as everybody else on the court. And it fucks up the whole game. Cause now you gotta pay attention to this fuck person playing. Like, ew, you jerk and wreck, get the fuck out of here. Like you get what I'm saying? And and I feel the same way. About people and relationships, friendships, all this shit. Like you jerking rack, man. Yeah what I'm saying? You had a job. You ain't serious about this job. You playing for real. Like you just got this job cause you need to have something. And and look what that do for you, man. That don't do nothing. That you go twenty years playing at the job, you ain't advanced, you ain't do nothing, bruh. that's cra that's a crazy position. You feel me? You just that's a you just wasted time. You know what I'm saying? And same thing in relationships. It's wasted time, each other's time. We got to know these things about ourselves. no, I'ma chill because right now I'm going through a little drone where I feel low in my production. I feel low on my finances. I feel low on my spirit. I ain't happy, this and that. And you, you, you, you. Far back from trying to get in a relationship or have friendships and all that. You utilize this time to bring your low frequencies up to a higher drawing. You know what I mean? And I only say that because it's in hindsight, and I'm saying it from me, always looking into myself to be like, well, what was your part in it? how could you have prevented this from even occurring? I don't give that other shit. other people and all that that's too much energy going outwards and then as it goes outwards time continues and then I'm still left the same way allowing other shits now is a different person now and then it's another different person. How many persons I'm gonna go through before I be like, no I gotta fix my frequency. I gotta fix my vibrations. 'Cause what the fuck is it how is these people able to come in and do the same stuff? And I hear ya over and over, I keep ending up with these fuck niggas, but you never ask yourself like, How is this? And start really thinking about it to yourself, evaluating yourself, how the fuck if I'm so thorough, how I keep ending up with fuck niggas and shit. You love that shit. you just like Yeah No I don't let that sh but you keep doing it like you keep finding yourself in them drones. And I pride myself, man. I don't find myself in too many of those same joints because after everything I evaluate and I'm like, yo, you know, at the time of the crime, if I'm feeling these type way, I'm having these bad thoughts, you get what I'm saying? That's the same thing criminal-wise. Like, I'm having bad thoughts because I'm low on finances and stuff like that. But I'm like, I got to change my frequency. You know what I mean? I got to change my thinking. What am I thinking about? Why am I thinking like that? You get what I'm saying? And I got a lot of it because I ain't get to get these thoughts, changing thoughts, provoking thoughts until I was older and all of the damage has been done. So now I'm like working out of those things, but at the same time not trying like go back into the past and, you know, feel regret or feel sorry that I made those poor decisions. Just better be in understanding. of that I did do that and moving forward, I need to make better joints and I need to be in a better space of in my mind clarity, thoughts clear. Mind is being managed, appropriate to like what I want in life. You know what I'm saying? and purpose could be a big part of that. You get me? if you don't feel like you got any purpose, you'll be accepted to Feeling and staying, in the same space that you in. You like, fuck it, this just life. Nah, it ain't just life. It's the way that you are perceiving life. It's the way that you going about life. It's the way that you thinking about life. Ain't got nothing to do with nobody else. You feel me? Especially, and then don't get it confused too, because I hear a lot of people like, it's the way that I think. But don't get that all mixed up, you know what I mean? Cause the way you think, the trouble will come when you think that everybody else thinks the same way you think. I thought that at one point, and I had a lot of trouble from that. And it was in my results, not nobody else. They already gonna beat them, they got their journey. They they individual selves, you feel what I'm saying? But me, I'm like, listen, I gotta refrain back from like. thinking that everybody think the same way. Nah, I'm special in that manner. I think different. You know what I mean? and I probably made myself think different because of all this early s on stuff that was happening. in middle school I wasn't just like accepted into like peers and everything else. It was like, no, I had my squad, you feel me, that we did what we did the same. And then you had people that whatever for whatever reason they They had to mess with other people for theirs to be what it was. You get what I'm saying? And that that made that forced me into a space of being like, man, I don't never want to be wherever it's popular at. I'll rather make whatever I'm doing the popular thing and the everybody come to me. You feel what I'm saying? and that that joint happened to me based on outer stuff. Yeah what I mean? So it's changing me inside. But this particular drawing I feel like it was a good drawing because now I look back at my life, I'm like, I ain't really getting to that much stuff. I I wasn't out or like had a million friends and all I'd be like friends make you have beef and all that type stuff. You feel me? Cause by yourself you can control, manage, and operate how you operate, but when you with a bunch of people you don't know or can't control how they operate. You get what I'm saying? Like we go to the club and It's a nigga that just got a draw. You know what I mean? Start something. Now we in a mix, a fight and all that. And you rocking out like, that's my man, no matter what. And I told y'all last time, that blind leading shit, I'm not with it, at all. You you're a dickhead and I'm not going out with you again. You know what I'm saying? Cause that's not my mode of operation. I just I wanna go out and have a good time, you know what I'm saying? I'm not trying. Being no bullshit, you feel me? And then especially in Philly, bro, you get into some bullshit today. That shit is pride for the rest of your life after that. Some shit you ain't even signed up to for, you feel me? all because you got this attachment with with friendship and these these guys, and but y'all friendship ain't it ain't what it is, man. y'all callin' shit I feel like y'all calling shit that got definitions some other definition and it's not that. you know what I'm saying? You overly loving a motherfucker to a point where you blindly just follow their lead or you like friendship tell me like, yo bro, lay to death, man, but you got something wrong and you gotta fix it. You know what I'm saying? And I'm I'm your friend so much that I will not be your friend in order for you to be better. Let that sink in, you feel me? I will not be your fucking friend in order for you to be a better person, bro. That's how much I love you. I want you to love you the same way. You got to love yourself that same way. Don't let me love you more than you love yourself. That's my friendship, bro. You feel me? That's my relationship shit. My girl about to run off the deep end, I will not let her die. That's on her, man. I But whatever she do, good or bad, I'm a ride for. Nah, that's not no friendship shit, bro. That's op shit. Like. You know what I mean? You gonna let me just crash out? You ain't my motherfucking man. And I know y'all hear it too. I'll be hearing it in some of these videos, motherfucker be like, man, why you let me do that? damn man, why you let me crash out? Like damn bro, you your own man. Now but we friends, motherfucker. Like You know what I mean? So before any of my guys tell me they gonna crash out, you stupid. I I know you came to me because you know I'm about to give it to you. Straight. You know what I'm saying? No funny business. Like, I'm about to give it to you, bro. That's what I love, man. My friends, I real you know not to call me unless you want the real deal, cause other than that, you got other associates for that. For the lies and to keep you in the same space or predicaments you always in. Like you got them for that. Me, no, I'm the one that's gonna be like, chill the kid, fuck is you doing? You can't be out you can't ha hang out with me. You don't take care of your kids, you can't hang out with me. Cause I take care of my kids, what they look like. You know what I'm saying? people all the time, friends, you can have friends and nah they not friends then. They associates. Get the definitions of these things correct. I'm saying you my friend and you letting me, you know what I'm saying, an associate? Cool, you just Associated, you know what I'm saying? You don't got that real care, love to us that you know what I'm saying? But you don't got that real join like a real friend. That's why they extend words and say best friend. You know what I mean? Cause you the best one out of the friends. And then it's associates. So a lot of y'all be associates. And but y'all labeling shit as friends. And then when stuff happens, you carrying it as the definition of a friend and not a associate. That's why you all bent out of shape. Cause you swore that this was a friend whole time. It wasn't a friend, it was a associate. Your associate fucked your girl. You what I'm saying? Not your friend, not your homie. Cause if it was a friend, it was a homie, it w that wouldn't be. You get what I'm saying? So carry them definitions accordingly. Don't be out here talking about. Because or dramatically you find out. If you say you my husband, you say you my wife and you do something outside of that. That's why I don't really like these titles and all that. Cause they come with definitions and if I uphold the definition and the upper people don't and the other people don't hold that same definition, we're not gonna see it the same. And I'm gonna be the one left with all of that. You get what I'm saying? That's why I don't really argue and have these type of debates and relationships, cause like all right. The kids right there, I'm shut up. But I'ma get my term where I need to say it. And then it'd probably be in a better time because you in a better space to receive it. And then I can get my shit up, you receive it, and then you mean magic. We can move on. This shit is lovely. You feel me? But you wanna be steadfast or arguing, no, I gotta get the last word and this and that. You ain't gonna make me just feel no type of way to leave. To me, as soon as I start arguing with a person, no matter when it's over, I'ma feel some type of way that I had to argue with somebody. And it's gonna be on my mind and this. I'm like, I don't need that to be on my mind all day. You feel me? I already got a mission in life. That I gotta deal with. You feel me? I just told you I regret a lot of time that I missed. You feel me? So I don't got no play play time no more. I'm 41. You feel me? I don't have no play play time no more. Yeah I'm saying so I can't be out here like arguing and losing myself farther. Just cause you ain't on your right, John? You feel me? That's why I'm saying, man, we gotta stop jerking wreck, man. Cause while you hold in that spot of not being serious about the relationship, the friendship, other people are losing a slot that could be that slot. You know what I'm saying? I could really have somebody here that's serious, and we can be doing this shit seriously. Doing this life thing seriously. We could be doing this friendship shit seriously. I could be doing my career seriously. But y'all here jerking wreck, man. In the way. You staying with motherfuckers just cuz? no, I'll put the time in, we're gonna ride it. No, it ain't working, it ain't working. Wise woman once told me, man, Water flows were his least resistant. Yeah so if you getting resistance from friendship, relationships, careers and all of this, then it's like you gotta pivot and move around. And she said, if they ain't your people, give them back to God. Let him resort where they need to be and who they need to be with to get their shit together. But it ain't your joint to do it. Or it will work. But because you got the resistance, that's telling you that it ain't work. Water flows where it's least resistance. So hey, which way you flowing, you still getting resistance? It's like, no. But water finds its way wherever it needs to go. Regardless of the resistance. You get what I'm saying? And so your position should be like, Me move this rock out the way so my water can float. Take me to the water, to the water, you know what I mean, where your water can flow straight down the down the Nile, the valley. Other than that, you know what I'm saying? And then we had kids, we got these responsibilities. So I make it even harder for you to pivot now because it's like You got kids and you got other lives to you what I'm saying? So you really ain't got the time to fix another person, do this and that. But at the same time, let them go. So they can go back to God. I don't be understanding how you get yourself first you were strangers, then you get yourself five, eight years with a person that after you hate them. That makes sense to y'all. Like y'all be getting out of relationships like I hate that nigga, I wanna kill him. Damn. This can't be somebody that you laid in the bed with. But see that out and shit that have you living like that. No, I'm putting it all on me. What? I let this motherfucker sit lay in my bed for this whole time. I feel some type of way about me and my decisions. Like, you feel me? Like, nah. You was gonna be you regardless. It was me that was fucking up. I had the low frequency. You know what I'm saying? Now I got to hire my shit and no no bad feelings or nothing, but like I got to let you go and you you got to figure God to help you find your people to help you get through your journey. But my journey, I can't be holding on to shit that ain't of me. You get what I'm saying? Like friendship, relationship, or career. I keep saying that, right? Like I don't fuck around no more. And I was there, you feel me? So that's how I'm able to speak on this thing, as I'm speaking on it. You get what I'm saying? So you know, I hope, man, people find value and you know, digging back into yourself, no funny business, like and understanding, man, like like me, like I said, me being in an argue with with somebody else has me left feeling the type of what. I don't wanna feel a type of way so I don't get into arguments with people. You get what I'm saying? And you can do that with every aspect of your life. Let me be quiet, man. I ain't even gonna say nothing. you know, the kids is acting erotic, right? I mean eruptive and dun dun. I ain't even gonna say nothing. Let me just let it like pan out. Right? Because I understand with myself, soon as I project and raise my voice, a couple things is gonna happen, right? Now I'm looked at as a aggressive parent and then the kids get timid and like lose they fun and and and things of that nature. And I know a lot of people like, man, you guys say something these kids are run reckless and this and that. Nah. Don't do it. You know what I'm saying? Take a second. Let it map out and see what happened. at least that's what I do when I get better results. Cause I'm not walking around being angry. You get what I'm saying? Because as soon as I say something to them kids, I'm gonna feel some type of way all up the rest of the day. Cause I had to say something to them, and that made me mad. you feel me? So now I'm going on to work. And I got this energy with me now and and and I didn't have it before. You see what I'm saying? And that's what I'm saying. You gotta control your life to that magnitude, If I get in this argument with this guy, man, I'ma have to take off work. I'm gonna have to cause me, I'm like, yo, if we got issue like we gotta resolve it, cause it's gonna be on my mind too much. It's gonna occupy me too much to where as though I can't function and continue to do things. that I need to do. You get me? So I need to nip that. For me, I need to nip that in the bud from the rip. No, I'm not taking on that. Cause I know what it's gonna do based on me knowing me. And you gotta know you, man. Do you know you? Or do you know all the things that people did to make you a certain way? That's different. Early on, I was I was the person that because people was doing shit to me. That's what made me be certain ways. And that's them controlling me. That's not me controlling and dictating my life and how it go. You feel me? so I really had to, realize that whoa. 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