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73. the "perfect" solo night itinerary... how to enjoy your own company · Hot Girl Energy Podcast

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Hello you guys, and welcome back to another episode of the Hawkrel Energy Podcast.
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I'm your host, Kailee, and this is your weekly reminder that it's
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a new day, a new week, a new mindset, and another day
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if you become the hock Gral energy you want to attract. Hello you guys,
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Happy Tuesday. It is the morning for me right now, and I
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just took my vitamins for the day. And you know when you swallow a
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vitamin and it doesn't go down the right pipe. That is currently what I'm
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dealing with in my throat, and for some reason, it's affecting my stomach
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as well, Like my stomach hurts right now, and I have no idea
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why it's affecting my stomach, but anyways, I just hate that feeling and
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I just keep drinking water hoping that it will eventually go down. So for
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some reason, I feel like I'm talking weird or anything like that. It's
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literally because of the way I swallowed my vitamins this morning. But any who,
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welcome to the last few days of January. As if we're already going
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into February, all I can think about is Gallantine's Valentine's Day, just a
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bunch of pink, red hearts. I love Valentine's Day. I find it's
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such a cute little way to celebrate love with your girlfriends or your partner anything
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like that. I don't know. I feel like people kind of either love
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or hate Valentine's Day, but I love it. I love decorating my home,
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putting cute little Valentine's Day things in it, and yeah, just celebrating
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love. I recently just posted a TikTok about the candy salad. I've seen
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this all over my TikTok for you, Paige. I don't know if you
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guys have seen it, but essentially, you make a jar in your home
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and it's just a bunch of different candies. And I made it Valentine's Day
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theme, just obviously because all of Valentine's Day candies out. And I literally
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just keep it on my shelf in my kitchen, and I think it looks
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so cute. And you know, every time I'm craving something sweet, I
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just grab a bit of candy from the jar. Zach's been loving it,
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that's for sure. He's like, all right, we're gonna do Easter,
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We're gonna do all the holidays. And we're gonna do different candy jars every
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single time. So anyways, we'll see how long this last. But it
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is going down pretty fast. I think, more so because Zach is addicted
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to candy and he's addicted to sweet so he every time he comes home from
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work, he literally is grabbing candy. It's so funny. But anyways,
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there's a fun little idea to do, and it was so satisfying to make
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as well. Just seeing all the candies being poured into the jar and just
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like shaking it up and everything. It was like very satisfying to do.
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So if you haven't done it, check it out on TikTok. It's called
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the candy Salad or someone actually commented on my TikTok. See there's my throat.
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Someone a should commented on my TikTok and they said it was called a
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mix and pick. I think is what she said, because she thought of
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the movie theaters when you mix your candy and like the popcorn or whatever,
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you call it a mix and pick. And I'm like, oh, yeah,
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that's actually a really good point. Like I didn't really think about that,
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sony. It could also be that as well. So yeah, but
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candy salad is what it's referred to on TikTok. Anyways, if you're the
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kind of person that doesn't love Valentine's Day, then this episode could be for
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you, because we're going to be talking about the perfect solo night, what
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describes my perfect night. And the reason why I really wanted to talk about
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this was because this past weekend, I was alone all weekend because Zach was
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working late night shifts with work, and I was really just enjoying my own
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company, Like I was really just enjoying the solo nights of being home alone.
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I was really just trying to enjoy my own company by doing these little
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things, and I just felt so good doing it. And I feel like
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I've really mastered my nights at home now, whether I'm with Zach or I'm
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alone. When I'm with Zach, it's obviously a bit different, but when
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I'm alone, these are things that I like to do to just enjoy my
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own company. As I said, and if you're the kind of person that
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you know doesn't like to celebrate Valentine's Day and doesn't know what to do,
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this could be a really good itinerary for you just to really enjoy your own
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company and spend a night where you don't feel alone. So that's what we're
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gonna be talking about in today's episode. So this is everything that I personally
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think would make my ideal night, like everything that I would want to do.
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If I were to describe my perfect solo night, this would be it.
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So first off, once I've logged off for work, locked off with
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social media, I start with taking Freddy for a walk. I actually love
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to walk Freddy later in the day. I don't know why, but I
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feel like it's warmer specifically right now, Like usually in the summer I'm walking
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Freddy early in the morning, but for some reason, right now, I
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really enjoy walking Freddy right before dinner. I like to go outside. I
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like to walk for like twenty minutes with him, and as I said,
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I just don't find it as cold, which is kind of nice. And
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the sun is also setting so it's kind of a nice ambiance to see as
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well. So usually I will take him for a twenty minute walk, whether
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it's just listening to music or putting on a podcast, just kind of starting
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the night off by getting a good walk in. I feel refreshed, I
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feel good, I got out of the house, you know, it's all
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good, and then after I take him for a walk. This is something
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that I I told you guys that I was striving to do this year,
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and I've decided to start doing it earlier in the night versus later, And
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that's meditation. I feel like meditation for me has always been very, very
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difficult to get into. It's not something I can honestly say I do every
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single night. Right now, it's like once or twice a week. I'm
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gradually just trying to get into it. But it's something that I'm having a
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hard time doing because it's something that I'm adding to my routine, right So
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it's definitely hard to adapt to something that you're not used to. So I
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find when Zach's here, for an example, I have a hard time doing
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it. Like I'm like, you know, busy cleaning up the kitchen,
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spending time with him, doing some work whatever. Like there's excuses that I
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can make up, and everyone has excuses when they don't do something, let's
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be honest. But it's something that I've been trying to make a priority.
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But I realized I've been having a really hard doing it with Zach in the
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area for some reason, like I feel like the only time I could do
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my meditation is later in the night, and by that point, I'm like,
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I want to be in bed, I want to just zone out watch
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Supernatural with Zach, like I don't want to do anything else, Like that's
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just something I truly enjoy doing every single night. So I was like,
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Okay, maybe I should start doing this earlier in the night, before dinner,
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when Zach isn't even home from work yet, I'm alone, it's dark
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out. Why not set the mood right before dinner and actually get a ten
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minute meditation done. So for me, that is the ideal situation at the
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end of the day. My goal for my nighttime routine is to be fully
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relaxed. I want to be fully relaxed, fully just rested, Like doesn't
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matter what time I do my meditation, but right now for me, I
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find right before dinner is the best time to do it. So form the
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workout platform that I use you guys Now by Sammy Clark. She actually has
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meditation on the app now, which has been really really helpful for me because
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I already have the platform, I already use it, so I know how
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to get around with it, and yeah, so that's what I've been using
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for meditation, and it's a ten minute thing. You just lay out your
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mat, lay a candle, really set the mood, sit down for ten
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minutes and just really close your and really visualize and listen to what the girl
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is saying. And it feels so relaxing. You have no idea. So,
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yeah, that's something I'm still striving to do. I'm not gonna lie
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to you guys and just say, oh, yeah, I've included to my
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routine. No problem, like doing it every night, blah blah blah,
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Like that's not the case at all. Like I feel like adding something to
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your routine takes some time and it's not an easy thing. Like, for
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an example, if you're someone that never worked out in the morning and you're
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trying to work out in the morning, Like it's not easy, right,
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Like you're gradually trying to add it into your routine and eventually it will become
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a habit and it will stick to your routine. So that's what I'm doing
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with meditation. I'm taking my time with it. I'm really just trying to
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find ways to enjoy it. What time of the day do I enjoy doing
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it, and right now it's been before dinner, So yeah, that's something
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that I've been enjoying to do once or twice a week. Then you're gonna
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make some dinner, whether it's ordering takeout or making your favorite dinner dish.
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This is my favorite therapy. I love cooking so much, like I truly
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do. One of my favorite recipes is the GA you had to Eat vodka
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passa sauce. Like, let's be honest, anything with pasta and cream sauce
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is going to be good. That's one of my favorite dishes, as well
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as the Merry Meat Chicken. It's like a cream spinach sun dried tomato chicken
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that you can either add pasta with or rice. It's one of my favorite
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meals. Or as you guys know, I'm a huge soup girl. I
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just made chicken noodle soup recently, and you know I love creamy tomato soup.
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We made broccoli cheddar soup last week as well, which was so good,
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So I love trying out different soups. That's like my favorite thing ever.
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But if I'm alone and it's the weekend, for an example, I
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crave takeout food, like anything from a good takeout place just hits the spot
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every single time, and when I'm alone, specifically on the weekend, like
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I don't really want to cook or clean, Like I really just want to
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order takeout, not have to clean up anything, and just like enjoy my
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own company, right, But during the week I would rather cook. Like
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I don't know how to explain it, but I feel like your weekend mindset
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is different than your weak mindset, if that makes sense. Like weekend,
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I'm like, I'm lazy. It's the weekend. I want to order takeout,
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I don't want to clean, Whereas during the week I'm like, okay,
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I want to have a healthy dinner, I want to cook, I
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want to clean up. Like there's just different mindsets that I'm feeling during the
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week first weekend, So let's pretend this is the weekend when we're talking about
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this perfect solo night. So I'm ordering takeout. If I were to order
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takeout from my favorite place, it would be mad Radish. I don't know
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if you guys have it in the States, but it's not It's not really
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a Chipolti. It's kind of like a sweet green in a way with a
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bit of Chapolti I guess, I don't know. It's a salad place,
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but they also have like just really really good bowls. My favorite bowl is
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the Maple Farm Bowl. It's like chick peas, lemon, chicken, herb,
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rice, lettuce. They have this like deep red cauliflower in it.
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I don't know, it's just so good. I can't even describe it.
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It's just every time it just slaps and I'm obsessed with it. Feta cheese,
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it's really really good salad dressing on top as well. So that's like
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my go to place for takeout. Or I'll order from a place called Kannata
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Noodle House and it's Tai food and I get chicken pat tie spicy with the
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spring rolls. It's, oh my god, it's so good. Anyways,
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I'm getting hungry just talking about this. But anyways, those are my twop
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of replaces to order takeout from if I'm wanting to crave takeout. And then
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yeah, if I want to cook dinner, that's usually the recipes that'll make
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as I mentioned, and then after I cook, I usually obviously have to
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reset the kitchen clean it up. Or if I'm doing takeout, I still
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want to clean my countertops, making sure that my kitchen is fully closed.
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Whether I'm you know, putting dishes in the dishwasher, or starting the dishwasher
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at night, emptying the dishwasher, or anything like that. I want to
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make sure that everything is completely clean because I cannot walk away from a mess.
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I don't know about you guys, but I have that. I don't
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want to say I have OCD, but I have that situation where I cannot
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leave a mess like I just I have to finish it, Like I can't
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leave a task uncompleted, like it has to be completed before I leave the
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space. It's just something that I have to do. So yeah, so
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that's what I do. I always make sure everything is clean, everything is
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organized, and then you usually I would make my favorite dessert. So my
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favorite dessert is obviously chocolate. I've mentioned that multiple times. I literally have
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chocolate every single night. It's my favorite thing ever. But again, if
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we're thinking of the weekend, sometimes I like to actually like make a dessert,
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whether it's like an ice cream Sunday or even if I make brownies.
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Simple Mills has a boxed brownie recipe. I got it in the States.
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I don't know if you can get in Canada. But I bought two boxes
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of it, and oh my goodness, guys, it is so good.
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It's very simple to make. It's I'm honestly not a baker at all.
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I suck at bakings. It's just not my strong suit. Or you know,
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Pillsberry chocolate chip cookies. I'll just buy those and just put it on
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a pan and do it. I have made like fresh cookies myself and all
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that, but I don't know, they just never hit the same I'm always
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just disappointed in how it tastes. I think it's just because I'm very good
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at cooking. I always enjoy what I cook, but when I bake,
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I don't always enjoy what I bake, like it just like it doesn't hit
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the spot, if that makes sense. So I usually just do that.
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But brownies and ice cream Sundays are like my favorite thing if I'm really just
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wanting to indulge and just have a really good dessert. So that's like my
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favorite way to have a dessert on the weekend, is whether it's an ice
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cream Sunday or making brownies or making cookies. That is my sweet tooth.
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I love to create those things, so much. Okay, So once you
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have your dessert, making sure the kitchen is still clean. After doing all
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that, then I go upstairs and I start prepping to take a hot shower
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or a hot bath. And usually I'll have makeup on, so I'll wash
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my face. I'll just cleanse my entire face, making sure all my makeup
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is off. And usually I've been gravitating more towards a hot shower versus a
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hot bath, but either or works. It really just depends on the night.
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But having a hot shower, specifically after you take all your makeup off,
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it just feels so refreshing. I've also been obsessed with the Salt and
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Stone body wash in the scent Santelle. Oh my goodness, you smell amazing
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afterwards. So yeah, just doing a little bit of bodycare in the shower,
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coming out, putting on your fluffy robe. Let's talk about a robe.
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I am a robe girl. I will forever be a robe girl.
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I just love putting on my cozy robe. I would literally walk in a
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robe all day, Like I from nine am to nine pm, I would
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wear a robe all day. I just love robes so much. But anyways,
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I put on my robe, I put on a cute little headband,
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just to do my skincare, body care, all that, like love doing
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all that because that also makes me feel so clean. And then doing all
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your skincare, and then putting on a lip bomb afterwards. To be specific,
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the summer Friday's lip butter bomb is the best. I truly feel like
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I'm the cleanest human being in the world. It's something that's just undescribable.
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I just feel so good. And then putting on a face mask or putting
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on eyemasks just to really give that self care night vibe, like just feeling
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yourself feeling good, Like this is already sounding like the perfect night already,
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but doing all those things always make me feel so good. And then afterwards,
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after you've done your skincare, your bodycare, you've put on a face
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mask, then you're gonna put on a match PJ sets. There's nothing better
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than putting on a matching PJ set. You look put together, you look
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cute as hell, you just feel luxurious. There's something about wearing a matching
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PJ set that just is undescribable. It feels so good. So I've been
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wearing matching PJ sets for the longest time ever, like no word of lie.
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I used to wear like old gym shirts or old shirts of zas and
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then like box or shorts, and it ain't cute. I felt sloppy.
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When I woke up, I didn't feel put together or before going to bed.
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But since I've worn matching PJ sets, I wake up, I feel
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cute, I look cute. I'm in a matching set. Like you feel
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more put together. There's just something in your mindset that feels good about having
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a matching set. I don't know how to describe it, but it just
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that's exactly how I feel. I just feel very put together. So I
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put on my matching PJ sets, I go downstairs, and this is where
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I would make myself either a t or the sleepy Girl locktail. You guys
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know, the sleepy Girl mocktail I've mentioned in the past helps you fall asleep.
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But on most nights I usually have a tea. My favorite brands for
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tea are Traditional Medicillines. That is by far probably my favorite brand and the
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one brand that I usually stick to. They have three different types of teas
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that I really enjoy. It is the nighty night tea or the breathed tea,
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which is like a eucalyptus mint, and then the last one is a
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lemon detox I think, which honestly, I don't really have that one as
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much. I'm more between the eucalyptus mint and the Nighty Night one. And
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then there's also a RESTful sleep one by the brand Yoki. So those are
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like my go to teas that I always buy and restock on. And I
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don't know, I love having a tea specifically after like everything, after I've
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eaten, after I've cleaned the kitchen, all that, I feel like having
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a tea after all that is just so peaceful and I feel like, I
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honestly feel like it helps my digestion as well. Having a warm cup of
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tea at night just feels so good on my body. I don't know it's
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it could be something in my head, but I I just can't live without
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a tea at night, and they're all teacaf obviously. I don't have anything
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with caffeine anytime afternoon, to be honest, like, I'm very much a
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caffeine free girl. Past like one pm, I cannot have caffeine or else
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I will not sleep. So everything is caffeine free. And then at this
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point, once I have my tea, I will go sit on my couch
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and I will turn on my fireplace. I love setting the vibes. We
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all know. Setting the vibes is key, lighting a candle, turning on
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your fireplace, whatever it is, just set the tone that will really help
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you enjoy, to love your space and to enjoy your companies. Just really
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setting the tone of the room. So once my fireplace is on, I
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turn on my TV. I'm putting on my favorite TV show. Currently.
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If you've been following me on TikTok, you guys know that I've been watching
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Vampire Diaries. Let's talk about it. I am obsessed with this show.
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I have watched it before, but I have not watched the entire show.
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I've only watched the first four seasons. Season five. Right now, I
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am like binging it, Like I'm constantly just having it on in the background
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in my house while I'm getting work done, whether it's editing a TikTok,
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editing a YouTube video, editing the podcast, I'm just always having it on
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in the background because I'm addicted right now and I'm on season five. As
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I said, if you followed the show or not. I hope everyone here
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has either watched it or has not watched it. But I'm at the part
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where Elene is a vampire. Bonnie just came back from the dead, so
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she was dead and now she's alive. And now Catherine is dead because she
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took the cure, so now she's no longer a vampire. Well at least
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I think she's dead. The last episode I just watched, she just fell
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down the stairs, So I don't know. There's a bunch going on.
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Are you team Jamon? Are you team Stephan? To be honest, I
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feel like I'm still team Stefan. I'm having a hard time with Damon,
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like he's starting to grow on me, but I'm just like waiting for that
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click. Like everyone's like, Oh, it's gonna happen. It's gonna happen.
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You're gonna become team Jamon eventually, and I'm like, ky, when
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is that going to happen? I feel like I'm still team Stephan. And
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like every time I see Stepan with you know, Caroline or Catherine or whoever
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he's with, I'm like, he should be with Elena. Like I'm not
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seeing it, so I don't know. Does Damon get better, like,
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does he become more of a lovey doveye guy? I don't know. I
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just feel like I'm very unsure about what team I'm on, but I can
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honestly say the show is such a good show. If you have not watched
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it, you need to watch it. I'm obsessed. I just got my
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best friend into it as well. Alissa has obviously been on my attorney leave
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with Hayden, and she just messaged me yesterday and she's like, I literally
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started Vampire Diaries because of you, so she's rewatching it. So yeah.
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Anyways, I'm just excited because I actually think I'm gonna finish it this time.
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I'm going to finish all eight seasons, which I'm pumped about, whereas
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last time, for some reason, I just didn't finish it. I don't
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know why. So I'm very excited to start watching the next four seasons because
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I've never seen them, so it feels new, it feels exciting. I'm
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looking forward to seeing how the series actually turns out. So yeah, I'm
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excited. So that's what I've been watching currently by myself is just Vampire Diaries,
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and I've been absolutely loving it and then usually while'm watching Vampire Diaries,
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I'll either be you know, doing work or going through Pinterest. Pinterests is
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by far my favorite way to plan anything in my life. Literally, Pinterest
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is my constant vision board. I'm constantly looking at it to find inspo for
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work, to find inspo for we're life in general, wedding, you know,
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trips that I have coming up, just things I want to achieve for
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myself, my brand that I'm building, like always, always, always scrolling
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through Pinterest. I truly find it is the best app that has ever been
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created, in my opinion, And I'm just constantly finding inspiration through Pinterest,
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and I love scrolling through it constantly. I scroll through it every single day.
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It's my best way to find inspo, creativity, all that. So
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I love to do that when I'm watching my favorite show. And yeah,
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so the vibes are good. We got the living room all set up with
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the candles lit, the fireplace. On Vampire Diaries is on, We're scrolling
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through Pintra. It's like, the vibes are good. They're so good.
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So once I do all that, usually by this point it's pretty late in
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the night. I usually prep myself to get ready for bed, So I'm
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brushing my teeth, I'm doing my mouth wash all that, and then usually
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at this point I will put my phone away and give myself the last hour
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of my night completely disconnected from social media, disconnected from my phone. Whether
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I want to stretch before bed, or just like listen to music or watch
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a show with Zach. This is if I'm not having a soulo night or
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reading anything like that. Like, whatever you love to do that completely disconnects
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you from social media is so important to do an hour before bed. I
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also just find being off my phone for the last hour before bed is so
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good for my mind and it helps me fall asleep so much easier. I
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feel like if I'm constantly scrolling through my phone, I have a hard time
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falling asleep after And yeah, I just like need that break from my phone
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because I'm obviously constantly on it with my job. So disconnecting, whether it's
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stretching, listening to relaxing music, whatever helps you disconnect from social media,
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do those things. I personally love to stretch because obviously I work out a
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lot and I sometimes find I have a hard time stretching after my workouts,
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Like, I have a hard time finding time throughout my day to stretch,
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So for me, the perfect time to stretch is right before bed. I
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stretch for like ten minutes, just stretching my body out. And I've had
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a few injuries within the past few years, as you guys know. Last
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year, I pulled both my quads, so I still honestly have trouble with
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them. When I'm playing soccer or when I'm out spinning, sometimes I can
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feel the muscles get really really tight, but it's not to the point where
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I need to go to physio anymore. It's more so just I need to
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stretch. I need to use my roller just to like really relax my muscles
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and all that. So I find stretching before bed is like my therapy,
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Like it's my favorite way to end off the night before I get into bed.
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And then once I'm done stretching, I love to go in my bed,
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set my hatch alarm clock and right now I'm listening to crickets before I
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had to bet, so it sounds like a cottage. I also love campfire
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as well, but that is like my perfect solo night is doing all those
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things like that is like my perfect nighttime itinerary when it comes to the perfect
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solo night. So obviously every night is different. This is just like something
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that I would strive to do on my solo night and just things that I
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actually enjoy doing when I'm trying to enjoy my own company or just being home
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alone. So if you're the kind of person that struggles to figure out what
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to do in their spare time and doesn't really know how to enjoy their own
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company, this could be a really good itinerary to follow. Or just write
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a list down of your favorite things that you love to do at home and
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do those things. I'm telling you right now, you'll feel so good doing
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it. But obviously every night is different. As I said, when I'm
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with Zach, our nights are a little different, but I really enjoyed those
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nights as well. But if I were to describe my perfect solo night,
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this would be it. So thank you so much for listening to today's episode.
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so much for listening to this episode. I love you all so much,
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and I will see you guys in next week's episode.