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Season 5 - Episode 40 - The unknown emotional bruise · Good Morning From The Chicken Coop!

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  Hey everybody, welcome to the good Morning from the Chicken
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  Coop podcast. My name is Kim Johnson and I am
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  a mastermindset coach, creative strategist, and also happened to
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  be a farmer. This is my Chicken coop and I
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  come out here. Every day to record a podcast.
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  To teach distinctions, possibilities, new ways of
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  thinking, and just bring some joy into the world.
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  So welcome to the coop and let's start your day off in a
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  fantastic way. Hey everybody, good morning.
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  Have you ever had a bruise on your leg or your arm and you
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  have no idea where it came from? I mean, I know I have one right
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  now, and This is why I I'm using this as a metaphor.
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  But we have this bruise and we have no idea where it came from
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  and it looks nasty. It looks like, jeez, I probably
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  got hit really hard and I didn't even realize it was there.
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  Or a paper cut. You have a paper cut and you
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  don't know it until you go to cut vegetables or cut something
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  for dinner and lemon juice or something acidic gets into it
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  and all of a sudden you're like, ah, what is that?
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  And you don't even realize that it's there.
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  Well, those are great physical reminders of the things that
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  happened to us that we don't know affect us.
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  And when we start to pay attention to them and we start
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  to think about them and like mentally take in, OK, I have a
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  bruise here and, and it's affecting me, but I didn't even
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  realize it happened. This, this goes on constantly
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  throughout our days. Little people will say little
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  things and they will show up in our world the way later.
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  And then we get like, what wait, what, what happened?
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  Sometimes they're easily identifiable and sometimes
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  they're more covert. And you have to think back about
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  how long can they stay with you? So how long can an emotional
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  bruise stay with you? How long can an emotional paper
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  cut stay with you? And it can stay with you for a
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  very, very long time. And I was I, I play this game
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  with myself about memory and I always try to think of something
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  every day I work on this. And I'm not joking when I say
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  every day I try to remember something from my childhood that
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  was common. That was that I did like, you
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  know, taking the drive, driving my daughter to daycare or
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  driving my son to school or like, I'll think of anything.
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  Well, the other day I was remembering that I was trying to
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  go back as far as I could remember.
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  How far back can I remember? And amazingly, well, maybe it's
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  not amazing, but it's the fact that the, one of the strongest
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  memories that I have came from when I was in preschool and my
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  mom put me into this private preschool and she was because
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  she said she, you know, I was too curious and she needed help
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  to help work with me. So I went to this private
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  preschool and they took us on a field trip and we went to
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  Plymouth Plantation, which is a replica of the Pilgrims and
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  where they came in in, in Massachusetts.
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  And this particular trip, I did not realize that we were going
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  to be going or I didn't even know because at that time, how
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  would I know? Maybe she didn't realize I was
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  going to be terrified of it. But we went into the, the
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  museum, the wax museum. And again, my vivid memories of
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  this show up with me walking in the door with the group and
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  seeing these wax people who look really creepy even to an adult
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  and freaking out. And I remember distinctly
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  screaming and trying to crawl up over somebody to get away from
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  this and wanting to go out the door and turning around and
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  running out the door and a teacher grabbing me, bringing me
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  back in. They they made me walk through,
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  which was horrifying. I shut my eyes.
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  I cried the whole time. I couldn't wait to get out and
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  go home. I kept screaming for my mother.
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  No one called her. It was one of those times in
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  life where it would have been handled completely differently
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  now, but then it was not. I was forced to walk through
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  now. Immediately when I thought of
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  that moment, I was like, wow, that is one of those emotional
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  bruises that I never really thought about and that shows up.
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  My family went to see Scary Movie on Saturday night.
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  I refuse to go. It shows up when I see
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  something. I'll be like, oh, you know, oh,
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  that's creepy. Don't go near that.
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  These little emotional bruises are there.
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  They stay. And I had never equated it to
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  how severe that incident was because I was forced to go
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  through it the wrong way. No one stopped and said, listen.
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  In fact, I remember the teacher laughing.
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  And what's so, so mind boggling to me is how could you have a
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  child screaming and be laughing? But that's what happened.
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  The person was laughing. So I'm telling you all of this
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  because it was a great reminder for me, one, to be aware of all
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  these little emotional bruises and how they show up, and two,
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  to really look at on how they're affecting you now.
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  So now I have clarity even further about why some of those
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  things show up. I had some distinct other things
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  happen, but I had forgotten about that one.
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  And as soon as I made that connection, I was like, huh, OK,
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  that explains a lot. So look for those emotional
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  bruises as much as you have, and paper cuts as much as you have
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  the time to think about it. You will find some.
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  All right, my friends, I hope you have a blessed day and I
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  will see you tomorrow. Bye.