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198 | The Exhaustion No One Talks About as a Female Entrepreneur · Your Money, Your Rules | Financial Mastery, Wealth Mindset, Leadership Principles, Intuitive Decision-Making, Human Design

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  Erin Gray: Welcome back to Your Money, Your Rules podcast with me, your host, Erin Gray.
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  Erin Gray: Today I want to talk about something that I feel like many high-achieving women experience.
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  Erin Gray: They know very intimately, even if you might not have had the language to describe it.
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  Erin Gray: And I want to talk about over-responsibility.
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  Erin Gray: So this is a pattern of caring more than what is actually yours.
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  Erin Gray: I've experienced it in myself.
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  Erin Gray: I see it.
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  Erin Gray: I'm actually doing this podcast because we actually had this conversation with a couple of clients over the past couple of weeks.
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  Erin Gray: So I wanted to do an episode on this because I think that this bleeds not just into our business, it bleeds into our friendships, it bleeds into our marriage, it bleeds into parenting, like all of the areas of our life if we aren't aware.
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  Erin Gray: So let's dive in.
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  Erin Gray: I wanted to share a quick little update with you.
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  Erin Gray: I am coming back to YouTube.
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  Erin Gray: It feels really aligned for me where I am right now.
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  Erin Gray: I have someone that I'm super excited about that's helping me edit and put everything up there for you guys.
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  Erin Gray: You know, as a consumer, I love to watch people on YouTube, you know, when I listen to podcasts.
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  Erin Gray: And also, you know, for me being on there to connect with you.
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  Erin Gray: Like I love connecting.
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  Erin Gray: Video is another way that I love to connect so that you can see me face to face and have these conversations in a deeper way.
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  Erin Gray: I want to say that the episodes will be released on Thursdays.
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  Erin Gray: This is going to allow more continuity across all of the platforms and everything that I am giving and sharing with you guys.
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  Erin Gray: So I just want to say thank you for being here, for listening, for growing alongside me, for all of the changes that I've made along the way as I've, you know, learned and iterated and refined.
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  Erin Gray: I just want to say thank you.
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  Erin Gray: If you're new here, I want to say welcome.
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  Erin Gray: So you can listen to me here like you continue to do.
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  Erin Gray: I'll be there as well.
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  Erin Gray: So, first, I want to define what over-responsibility actually is.
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  Erin Gray: And I think it is the one that handles more than we are actually meant to, right?
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  Erin Gray: There's one thing with being responsible, like we take ownership for our actions.
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  Erin Gray: But what I have found with myself and with clients is we actually take responsibility for ourselves, and we also take responsibility for everyone else.
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  Erin Gray: So this is someone who anticipates everyone or specific person's people's needs.
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  Erin Gray: This is someone who remembers things when everyone else has forgotten.
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  Erin Gray: This is the one who keeps the emotional temperature in the room regulated, and the one who steps in before anyone else has to.
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  Erin Gray: And I think that this comes from our childhood, and I'll dive into that here in a little bit.
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  Erin Gray: But just because that we are capable and we are willing doesn't actually mean that we need to or have to or should.
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  Erin Gray: Because when we have been good at nearly everything in our life, which that's what I found with myself and with clients, right?
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  Erin Gray: We just do the thing.
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  Erin Gray: We're so good at what we do and we're good at a lot of things.
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  Erin Gray: We just take care of everything.
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  Erin Gray: And even though that we can do it, it doesn't mean that we actually are meant to or that it's actually best for us and best for those people around us.
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  Erin Gray: And this is what I have learned is that capability does not actually equal responsibility.
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  Erin Gray: Just because you can hold it does not mean that it actually was yours to hold.
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  Erin Gray: I think a lot of us have learned very on in life, early in life in childhood, that being responsible had us feeling loving, or I should say, actually loved from our parents.
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  Erin Gray: It made us feel valuable.
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  Erin Gray: A lot of my childhood, along with my clients' childhood, is very similar.
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  Erin Gray: We were more of the one that took care of things, that received love for taking care of things.
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  Erin Gray: And more often than not, we were probably the mature one.
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  Erin Gray: And we were the helper.
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  Erin Gray: We were the ones that kept the peace.
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  Erin Gray: We did a lot of parentification.
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  Erin Gray: And parentification is, and I just Googled this, it's a psychological term for a role reversal in which a child is actually expected to take on the responsibilities that actually belong to the parent.
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  Erin Gray: So instead of being cared for as children, right?
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  Erin Gray: Our parents are responsible for meeting our needs, the child becomes the caregiver emotionally, practically, right?
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  Erin Gray: Like doing a lot of household things and or both.
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  Erin Gray: So a lot of us have learned early on, we got praise for, we got, we received love for, got out of girls that our worth was connected to how useful we were.
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  Erin Gray: So we might have also received a lot of love, right?
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  Erin Gray: The more helpful we were, the more that we took on more responsibilities, the more that we anticipated our parents' needs, then that had us receiving more love.
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  Erin Gray: And so maybe even if you grew up like I did in a house that felt very chaotic around you, maybe that taught you how to overfunction in order to feel safe.
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  Erin Gray: Because you have to come back to the body and the nervous system is always protecting you.
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  Erin Gray: There's a reason why you have been the one that has been taking care of everything, right?
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  Erin Gray: Because that was your way of keeping you safe.
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  Erin Gray: So these patterns, they make sense and they begin as an adaptation.
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  Erin Gray: And what I want to say here is that even though what once actually helped us survive, it was a very good thing that we did that to keep the peace, to anticipate need, that also, as in an adult, can become the thing that actually drains you.
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  Erin Gray: Over responsibility can look like managing other people's emotions, right?
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  Erin Gray: So we kind of put ourselves on the back burner because we don't want to upset, upset someone else.
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  Erin Gray: So when someone comes to you with an issue, think about this from an employer standpoint, running your business.
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  Erin Gray: When an employee comes to you with an issue, you jump in, you help, you solve it.
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  Erin Gray: And before you know it, you're already in the mix of it.
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  Erin Gray: And you're like, wait a second, I've spent the last hour or so solving this problem.
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  Erin Gray: And you didn't even check in with yourself and ask yourself like if you even wanted to do this.
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  Erin Gray: And I think that this comes from a habit.
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  Erin Gray: This comes from, like I already mentioned, our childhood.
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  Erin Gray: So you have to slow down.
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  Erin Gray: You have to get kind of be onto yourself and start asking yourself questions before you just jump in, right?
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  Erin Gray: Because the habit, the neural pathway is somebody comes and asks for help.
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  Erin Gray: I just start helping them versus do I want to help them?
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  Erin Gray: Where is the growth for me?
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  Erin Gray: Where is the growth for them?
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  Erin Gray: And it can look like believing that if you don't do it, it actually won't happen correctly, right?
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  Erin Gray: Like sometimes with clients, they'll say, like, well, they don't know how to do it.
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  Erin Gray: And I'm like, well, how do you think they don't know how to do it?
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  Erin Gray: Because you haven't either taught them or they haven't had to in air quote struggle yet to figure out how to do it.
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  Erin Gray: But how is that actually growth for them?
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  Erin Gray: And how is that actually growth for you?
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  Erin Gray: So this can look like stepping in too quickly, rescuing too often, carrying burdens before anyone has actually asked us to.
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  Erin Gray: And I want to bring in this business thread here of like not looking at their employees from an empowered perspective.
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  Erin Gray: So when we don't look at our employees from an empowered perspective, first and foremost, then that is a reflection and in a mirror of us.
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  Erin Gray: Where are we not feeling empowered?
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  Erin Gray: That's number one.
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  Erin Gray: Number two is when we don't look at our employees from an empowered perspective, where are we overcompensating and doing things for them because we don't think that they are capable of doing it?
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  Erin Gray: I see this a lot with clients and their employees.
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  Erin Gray: So when we don't look at them from this place, we will overcompensate to help the employee when in reality, what they actually need to do is set very clear expectations and boundaries and consequences and do more leading and coaching versus less coddling and being over responsible.
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  Erin Gray: And so I always ask my clients, as well as myself, is like, where's the growth?
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  Erin Gray: The growth actually for a lot of us high-achieving women isn't to actually do more.
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  Erin Gray: It's to do less.
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  Erin Gray: It's to have more fun, it's to rest more, it's to lean back, it's to let other people kind of, and I don't like that word struggle, but it's to let them figure things out.
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  Erin Gray: And it's for us to feel that uncomfortable feeling in our body.
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  Erin Gray: Because more often than not, what we're doing is that feels uncomfortable for us.
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  Erin Gray: So we just jump in, we do the thing because we know that that will appease our nervous system and it will appease theirs.
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  Erin Gray: Now, whether we're doing this subconsciously or not, that's another thing.
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  Erin Gray: But I think a lot of us actually do this unconsciously because this is just what we have always done, right?
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  Erin Gray: This is a pattern that we have.
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  Erin Gray: So, what we also have to start thinking about is like, where is my growth?
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  Erin Gray: What is the actual growth here?
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  Erin Gray: Do I need to actually rest more?
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  Erin Gray: Do I actually need to let them figure it out and then come to me after they've tried it multiple times and then be able to ask questions?
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  Erin Gray: We also have to discuss, you know, what are we getting from being over-responsible?
• 8:44
  Erin Gray: Because there is or are several feelings from the action of being over-responsible, right?
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  Erin Gray: Think about in childhood, we probably got praise for being very dependable, very, I want to even say likable, right?
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  Erin Gray: Like there's that feeling that like we're a good girl.
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  Erin Gray: We've done the things, we were strong, we were selfless.
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  Erin Gray: And I'm air-quoting, right?
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  Erin Gray: Selfless.
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  Erin Gray: We're the ones that always get stuff done.
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  Erin Gray: Like we are the dependable ones that everyone can rely on us, the ones that everyone can come to for the answers.
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  Erin Gray: We are the go-to person.
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  Erin Gray: But underneath that praise, those accolades, those atta girls, many of us feel resentful, right?
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  Erin Gray: If you were to really ask yourself, is this serving me?
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  Erin Gray: How do I actually feel?
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  Erin Gray: I know when I over responsible, when I'm overly responsible, I get frustrated.
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  Erin Gray: I feel fatigue.
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  Erin Gray: I have experienced many times of burnt out in my life, right?
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  Erin Gray: I feel pressure.
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  Erin Gray: There's probably loneliness there.
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  Erin Gray: Because at the end of the day, more often than not, over-responsibility actually means that there is really less room left for you.
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  Erin Gray: If you think about, you know, a circle, and I think this comes from the book Essentialism.
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  Erin Gray: He talks about, and he he deals with it more so from energy and like where do you want to put your energy?
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  Erin Gray: And then and this ties to this is if you have a circle and an arrow and all of these arrows, which is where we are putting our energy, how much energy do we actually have left for us versus being very intentional with our energy and choosing like where do we want to steward it?
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  Erin Gray: You know, so if you're so busy and you're concerned and taking care of everybody else, then how much room is there left for you?
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  Erin Gray: Right.
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  Erin Gray: And I think what at this very what's not being said here, thread is receiving to be just who you are, to just be, not to be the person who's always doing, to not be the person who's always focused on somebody else's growth and expansion, like allowing yourself to receive, to allow yourself to put in and pour into your creative growth and expansion, to allow yourself to rest.
• 10:45
  Erin Gray: Like if we're always putting out everybody else's fires, how much energy is actually left for us?
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  Erin Gray: And so if this has been your pattern, I want you to know and I want you to hear me when I say that you are not weak for wanting relief or support or to let go of some of this stuff.
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  Erin Gray: This doesn't make you selfish or weak for wanting this support.
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  Erin Gray: I often hear this with clients like that they shouldn't ask for help or that they shouldn't ask for support.
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  Erin Gray: This is a practice.
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  Erin Gray: This is a skill set that you are developing.
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  Erin Gray: If you've spent your entire life supporting somebody else or everyone else, you don't flip a switch and just automatically change overnight, right?
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  Erin Gray: This doesn't just happen all of a sudden with your employees.
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  Erin Gray: You have built neural pathways.
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  Erin Gray: They have built neural pathways to come to you to expect to get the answers from you.
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  Erin Gray: You have taught them that.
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  Erin Gray: You have to retrain them and yourself into a new way of being.
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  Erin Gray: It's fine.
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  Erin Gray: It's not a problem that this takes some time, right?
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  Erin Gray: But if you want to be able to grow, if you want to be able to feed yourself first, if you want to be able to support yourself and nourish yourself first, we have to start putting ourselves first and we have to start asking ourselves, where is the growth?
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  Erin Gray: You're not failing because you don't want to support them any longer.
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  Erin Gray: It's just that you're redefining what support actually looks like.
• 12:05
  Erin Gray: It looks like slowing down long enough to ask, is this actually mine to carry or is the growth for them to learn on their own?
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  Erin Gray: And I don't think, you know, like I was telling a client this the other day.
• 12:17
  Erin Gray: It's not that you're just gonna stop answering the phone and you're not even gonna like educate them and convey to them what you are doing and how you are changing.
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  Erin Gray: You're going to tell them, hey, look, listen, I'm recognizing some patterns in myself.
• 12:29
  Erin Gray: I see where I have been taking responsibility over responsibility for you guys.
• 12:34
  Erin Gray: I recognize that I actually need to take a step back.
• 12:37
  Erin Gray: I need to let you guys learn some things and then be able to help you, but not be the go-to person.
• 12:44
  Erin Gray: So there's a couple of things that are going to shift.
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  Erin Gray: Like I'm not going to be answering the phone every single time you call.
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  Erin Gray: There's going to be some boundaries that are set up.
• 12:51
  Erin Gray: So lovingly to yourself and to them, have those conversations.
• 12:56
  Erin Gray: But more often than not, what I have found is the growth is for actually them to learn on their own, not to just call you immediately.
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  Erin Gray: Some other questions that you can ask yourself is did anyone ask me to actually hold this or to give them advice?
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  Erin Gray: Like that is something that I have asked myself or start asking myself like, is my friend actually asking me for advice or are they just wanting me to just listen?
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  Erin Gray: Because more often than not, what they want is just someone to listen.
• 13:20
  Erin Gray: Okay, well, then my advice isn't going to be heard and they're not asking for my advice.
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  Erin Gray: So I'm not going to give it.
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  Erin Gray: Right.
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  Erin Gray: So am I helping, right?
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  Erin Gray: Or am I attempting to control a situation because I don't like how it feels in my body when people struggle or work through their growth?
• 13:35
  Erin Gray: Am I actually being supportive or is this actually rescuing?
• 13:38
  Erin Gray: Am I carrying this from love or is this from fear?
• 13:41
  Erin Gray: Like only you are going to know by how you feel in your body.
• 13:45
  Erin Gray: But these are questions that you can start asking yourself and slowing down and really gaining more clarity before you just like go and do the thing.
• 13:54
  Erin Gray: Because healthy responsibility, it feels clean.
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  Erin Gray: It feels very neutral.
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  Erin Gray: It feels unattached to the outcome.
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  Erin Gray: It feels like either way is okay.
• 14:02
  Erin Gray: Right.
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  Erin Gray: But I think what a lot of us do is try to control situations from that place of fear, right?
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  Erin Gray: Over responsibility typically feels heavy, it feels burnt out, it feels resentful, it feels angry or frustrated or bitter.
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  Erin Gray: So those are things that you will know by how you are feeling in your body is going to tell you if that's actually clean energy or not.
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  Erin Gray: If you feel nothing when someone says, hey, you know, an employee says, Hey, I really need your help.
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  Erin Gray: And you're like, hey, listen, not on my schedule for the day.
• 14:35
  Erin Gray: If you feel clean and clear, you know that you're on point.
• 14:38
  Erin Gray: If you feel guilt, if you feel shame because you said no, then you know that there is work within you that you need to do in order to transcend that relationship.
• 14:48
  Erin Gray: You know, I was telling a client the other day that when you know, when you step in and you fix things for the employee, you're actually stunting their growth.
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  Erin Gray: You aren't allowing this natural process that actually has to ensue for him and for you.
• 15:02
  Erin Gray: So you're skipping some of the most potent pieces of the process by jumping in and saving him, versus if you allow him to figure it out with your guidance, of course.
• 15:12
  Erin Gray: But then when you jump in and start fixing things, because that is what you have always done, where's the growth for you and where's the growth for him?
• 15:20
  Erin Gray: And, you know, my client was like, I had never thought of it like that.
• 15:23
  Erin Gray: It's like, of course not, right?
• 15:24
  Erin Gray: Like this is where awareness happens.
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  Erin Gray: Awareness typically happens after the fact.
• 15:29
  Erin Gray: But it's one of those things of like, okay, I'm aware now.
• 15:31
  Erin Gray: What do I want to do differently?
• 15:33
  Erin Gray: What else could you create?
• 15:35
  Erin Gray: Could you return home to if you stopped being over-responsible?
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  Erin Gray: Right.
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  Erin Gray: So the question that I'm always asking myself is am I being over-responsible?
• 15:44
  Erin Gray: Like, am I in over-responsibility mode or am I choosing this because I want to and because it lights me up and it helps me?
• 15:51
  Erin Gray: Like, where is the growth?
• 15:52
  Erin Gray: Always be asking yourself that.
• 15:53
  Erin Gray: Because when we allow others to experience whatever their experience is, we get to have our experience and our relationships become more honest.
• 16:02
  Erin Gray: I think a lot of us are trying to control relationships.
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  Erin Gray: We may not be aware of this, but we're trying to control relationships by controlling outcomes, right?
• 16:11
  Erin Gray: And we control outcomes by stepping in and meddling in things when we're actually, like I said, stunting that process or not allowing the natural process to happen for growth for them and for growth for us.
• 16:25
  Erin Gray: So when we can start to first and foremost, where's the growth?
• 16:30
  Erin Gray: Allowing the discomfort that we feel in our body, allowing the growth for them and for us, our business starts to like feel more fun.
• 16:37
  Erin Gray: It feels more sustainable, you know.
• 16:39
  Erin Gray: Like I was telling another client the other day, I'm like, yeah, that works right now for them texting you.
• 16:43
  Erin Gray: But with the amount of employees you have, when you want to grow, you don't have enough time in the day to answer all of the text messages.
• 16:50
  Erin Gray: So it's going to take some shifts on our part.
• 16:52
  Erin Gray: And I say it always starts with us first, right?
• 16:55
  Erin Gray: So you want to think about honoring your energy first and how is that actually helping others?
• 17:01
  Erin Gray: So if you've been feeling tired, if you've been feeling pressured or maybe resentful or bitter or like you're caring too much, this is your invitation, not to become stronger, not to push harder, not to keep going.
• 17:13
  Erin Gray: I think that's the like sneaky little way that we beat ourselves up.
• 17:16
  Erin Gray: Like we actually don't need to push more, work harder, more hours, think, do more things.
• 17:22
  Erin Gray: We actually need to re-evaluate.
• 17:24
  Erin Gray: We need to let go.
• 17:25
  Erin Gray: We need to set some boundaries and some expectations and some consequences.
• 17:30
  Erin Gray: We need to trust that everyone is capable, just like us.
• 17:33
  Erin Gray: We need to look at our employees, we need to look at our vendors, we need to look at our children and our spouse and all of the things and humans is as they are just as capable and empowered as we are.
• 17:45
  Erin Gray: And the more that you believe that and you see them through that lens, the more that things will shift for you.
• 17:52
  Erin Gray: True leadership, it doesn't require martyrdom and fixing everything for everyone else.
• 17:57
  Erin Gray: That's what I don't think that's actually leadership.
• 18:00
  Erin Gray: I think that comes from a place of control and from coddling.
• 18:02
  Erin Gray: And that really comes from a place of fear, not actually love.
• 18:06
  Erin Gray: So start to trust yourself with this, right?
• 18:09
  Erin Gray: What like journal on this?
• 18:11
  Erin Gray: What would that look like if you were allowed to be supported, if you were to trust that people could come through for you, what would that actually look like?
• 18:20
  Erin Gray: What would that feel like in your body?
• 18:22
  Erin Gray: How would your business shift if you believed that to your core?
• 18:26
  Erin Gray: And if this is something that you have been experiencing and you're ready for real support, but I don't want you to do it alone.
• 18:32
  Erin Gray: You don't have to do it alone.
• 18:34
  Erin Gray: I offer a space where you don't have to overfunction and overgive or hold everything together by yourself.
• 18:40
  Erin Gray: It's a space where you get to be held, where you get to be challenged and you get to be guided as you step into the kind of leadership that actually feels aligned and sustainable for you.
• 18:51
  Erin Gray: So if you are ready to explore what that could look like, I would love to work with you.
• 18:55
  Erin Gray: But you can connect with me through the link that I'll put in the show notes and start building a new way of leading, one where you are supported too, because I think so many of us women actually need to be supported and feel supported and receive that support.
• 19:09
  Erin Gray: Okay, that's all I have for you today.
• 19:11
  Erin Gray: Thank you for being here.
• 19:12
  Erin Gray: I will see you in the next episode.