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Narcissists dont want to look inside themselves · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  So a lot of narcissists don't want to be introspective and
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  take a look inside themselves. If you're new here, my name is
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  Lee Hammock. I'm a diagnosed narcissist and
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  welcome to another episode of The Narcissist Code.
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  So welcome back folks. Welcome back, welcome back.
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  Oof. Love it.
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  Yeah, I love the the intro. Add a nice little little, add
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  some flavor to the videos and whatnot.
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  So thank you all for coming in on my intro and whatnot.
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  Saying the child. Mostly I'll do like it, but
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  yeah, so y'all. Yep, Yep, Yep.
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  A lot of narcissistic people don't want to be introspective.
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  I know, I know, I know what you hear, like you see it online and
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  whatnot, that narcissists lack the ability to be introspective.
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  But is that true? For a lot of them, yes.
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  But I think some narcissists have the ability to look inside
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  themselves. They have the ability to be
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  introspective, They have the ability to take a look within
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  themselves. And they still choose not to.
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  They still choose to go out here and do the toxic behaviors.
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  They still choose to continue forward on the pathway that has
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  them in a position in their life right now.
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  They they don't want to change. Y'all they don't.
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  They absolutely do not want to change.
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  They enjoy who they are for the most part.
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  Like they they just do. Like yeah, I see so many people
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  that say hey I wish I can make my narcissistic person in my
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  life be self aware like you are. I wish they could be more self
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  aware. I wish they could take a look
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  inside themselves. There are some self aware
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  narcissists out there. Y'all right now that are still
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  horrible people. They like, like they've taken a
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  look inside themselves and still decided to be bad people.
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  They still decided to go. They still decided to be toxic
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  and manipulative and be who they are right now, Be who they've
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  been for the entirety of their lives.
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  Even when even when they become self aware, even when they go to
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  therapy and take a deeper look within themselves, even when
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  that type of stuff does happen, they still go out and be still
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  be themselves. Yo, taking a this is what I
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  don't think a lot of people realized.
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  Taking a look inside of yourself is a tough bet.
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  Like looking within yourself is a tough deal.
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  It is absolutely a tough thing to do.
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  It is absolutely a rough thing to do.
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  Yeah, it's just one of those things like taking a deep look
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  within yourself. It's tough as a narcissistic
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  person because like when you look within yourself, you might
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  see some stuff that you don't want to see.
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  And I don't know, people are going to say Lee, that's what
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  anybody That's what most people. Most people are not going to
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  take a deep look within themselves because of that.
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  Most people are not going to want to do this because of that.
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  Yeah, I I understand that space. I do understand that.
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  But there's a lot of narcissistic people, y'all.
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  They just do not want to take a look within themselves because
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  they would have to face themselves.
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  They will have to face down who they are and what they are going
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  through and what they experienced and things of their
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  nature. They they absolutely don't want
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  to do that because when you have to take a look inside of
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  yourself, you see your damaged inner child.
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  The the the the thought of you running into your damaged inner
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  child sitting in the corner of a dark room trying to learn how to
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  defend themselves, trying to learn how to be better people
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  Y'all it is a who. It is a mind game.
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  It is a mindset. It is a, it is a it can be a
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  very difficult thing to do and most of the narcissists that
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  have the ability to look within themselves still don't want to
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  make that change. That's why you see very rare.
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  That's why you very rarely see a self aware narcissist like
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  myself or Ben Taylor over at Raw Motivations or Leon Walker
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  Junior. They're actually trying to put
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  the work in to to better themselves, to change their
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  behaviors in a positive way. You rarely, that's why you
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  rarely see it. Y'all honestly.
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  That's why you rarely see it happening.
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  That's why you rarely see it transpiring.
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  Because even when you can't take a look inside, you don't want to
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  because you have to face yourself.
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  You have to fake like you have to fake.
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  Not only do you have to face yourself right now where you
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  are, you have to you have to face yourself where you came
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  from. And a lot of narcissists don't
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  want to do that. Y'all.
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  They don't want to face the things that they have done
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  because that means holding themselves accountable.
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  And that means you have to face, you have to come face to face
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  with a shame monster. And so many narcissists are
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  trying to avoid shame. It is out.
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  It is absolutely unbelievable. So many narcissists are trying
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  to get away from shame. That is, that is mind.
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  It will blow your mind. It's one of the things that will
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  absolutely blow your mind to see how many people are trying to
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  avoid shame. You know because you have to.
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  In order to move forward, you have to be able to look back and
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  just reconcile with what you have done.
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  Because you have, you have to reconcile with it, and that
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  requires A deeper look inside. That requires facing down and
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  admitting that you were wrong. In some situations that requires
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  making amends to people that are still going to be a part of your
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  life and some that it might that might not be a part of your life
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  anymore. Making deep amends to people can
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  help out so much out it. It is one of those things that
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  can empower you. But most, like I said, not all
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  narcissists possess the ability to be introspective.
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  Some of them don't understand what they are doing and some of
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  them will never understand what they're doing.
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  Some of them don't care what they're doing.
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  Let's be real. Some of them don't know, don't
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  care what they're doing. They like being who they are
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  because it's gotten them this far, right?
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  It's gotten them this far in life.
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  So why would they just want to change anything up?
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  You know what I mean? Why would I change my behavior
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  that have served me for 20304050 years, you know?
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  But the introspective part, like I said, there's some hard angle
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  List the the self aware narcissists out here that are
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  doing bad things. Just Google.
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  Just go on Reddit and Google self aware narcissists and they
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  see the people who don't like me.
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  There's a lot, There's a whole contingent, not even just ready.
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  It's a whole bunch of different platforms like YouTube,
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  Facebook, TikTok, Instagram. There's so many other self aware
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  narcissists who don't like me. The self aware narcissist is
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  Facebook group because I'm introspective and I'm not scared
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  to face down myself. You know, a lot of narcissists,
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  they look inside themselves and they want to still sit in victim
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  mode. They want to still be able to
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  blame other people for what has happened in their life, for why
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  they are, why they are the way that they are.
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  They want to be able to do that. They want to be able to face
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  that type of stuff down. They just, yeah, that's part of
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  it. That's part of the dynamic.
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  That's part of it. It's part of the journey.
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  That's part of everything that's been going on.
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  It really, really is. You know, that's why I tell
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  people like you have to face down what you've been through.
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  You have to, you want to get better.
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  You got to face it down. And most of them want to face it
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  down. It'll over leave.
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  I'm going to. I'm going to.
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  I'm a victim too. And that's why I treat people
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  badly like OK, they're looking to look inside and see why you
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  want to stay in that same mindset.
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  Man. No, I'm good.
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  I'm good. I don't want.
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  I'd rather blame everybody else. OK?
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  self-awareness doesn't work for everybody else.
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  Self-awareness is just step one. Some some like say some do not
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  want this most. Most narcissists that are self
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  aware don't want to take the the deeper step and look at inside.
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  Look at inside of themselves and facing down their fears in one
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  of their narcissists. Biggest fears is shame.
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  It's facing down shame. Shame is a great provocation for
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  narcissists. Y'all it just is for most if not
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  all narcissists like shame is a great provocation for them.
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  Shame can drive the mindset of a lot of narcissistic people.
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  It can make it mess their minds up, you know Having to face down
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  the shame monster is a big is a big is a huge task that that
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  most are not willing to do. Most are not willing to face
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  down shame to stare, shame to look, to look shame directly in
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  the eye and face it down and keep things moving.
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  You have to be you are. You have to be willing to do
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  that. They have to.
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  Most don't want to do it. Yeah, I'm just telling you most
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  like who they are. I'm telling you I am a first
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  hand witness that a lot of self aware narcissists just like
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  being who they are. They become self aware.
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  They understand the abusive, the abusive, traumatic background
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  that they have, but they don't. But they don't want to take the
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  next step and look deeper within themselves to move forward in
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  any type of healing because they have to face it down and it's
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  tough. It's tough, y'all, you know,
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  Yeah, it is tough to do. It is a tough thing to do.
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  And a lot of times it might seem pointless to do because even if
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  you are diagnosed narcissists online trying to make changes,
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  people are going to chastise you for it anyway, regardless of how
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  much good you do. Like even even in my own
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  personal space, even in my own life right now, people see me
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  doing good and they still are like, I I I still question
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  whether Lee is genuine. Like he's been three and a yeah,
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  he's been 3 1/2 almost four years.
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  It is right now you know. But the mask would have been and
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  came off by now. Y'all y'all would have seen the
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  mask slip by now if it was going to slip.
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  Let's just put it that way, you know, So there's a whole
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  different space to be in. But most narcissists do not want
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  to face themselves down. They want they don't want to sit
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  on their hands. They don't want to sit oddly by
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  and mess things up. They just they don't want to do
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  that. Let's be let's keep it hot,
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  let's keep it realistic. Let's be realistic with
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  everything you know. But at the end of the day, most
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  narcissistic people are, are not.
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  It's it's a fear y'all the fear of, you know, facing who you
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  are, the fear of facing that what you've done.
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  Most don't want to do that. Y'all.
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  They still want to make excuses for their behaviors.
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  They still want to sit in the they still want to sit in
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  victimhood. Because victims get attention,
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  victims get sympathy, victims get empathy, victims get
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  compassion, victims get a a. It's like being a victim
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  benefits them. There's a benefit to being a
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  victim. Sit in victim mode for a lot of
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  narcissistic people. So they don't want to look
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  internally, they don't want to face it down, they don't want to
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  deal with this. The pain and the shame and the
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  hurt. They don't want to y'all because
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  again, y'all This is not me making excuses, but like, it is
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  tough. It's tough to do.
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  I'm still doing it right now. I'm still working through that
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  situation right now. It's tough for me to do and I've
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  been in therapy for almost 7 / 6 years.
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  I've been in therapy. It's been six years and a month
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  now that I've been in therapy. So fighting that, fighting the,
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  you know, fighting that, you know, just fighting that energy,
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  fighting people back, you know, fighting back.
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  Their dynamic, fighting back, their mindset is a very unique
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  perspective to be a yeah. So that's why I just say, like
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  you have to keep empowering yourself on your journey.
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  You know, if you're dealing with a narcissistic person and they
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  don't want to take accountability, they don't want
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  to look within themselves, I'm not telling you to leave the
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  person. I'm just saying, if they
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  understand what they're doing to you and what they've put you
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  through, then I'm just saying if they don't like this is who
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  they're going to be. They're just saying, hey, look,
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  this is who I'm going to be. If you want to be part of my
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  life, then you need to accept who I am and then they give you
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  options. Some of them will give you the
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  option to leave, but if you try to leave them, they'll lose
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  their minds and just beg you to stay.
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  But they don't beg. They don't make any changes.
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  They just beg you to stay and beg you to tolerate and put up
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  with what they've been doing to you, beg you to stay, beg you to
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  stay. And still the behaviors get
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  worse because you stayed, you know.
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  But you have to be safe. Y'all because a lot of people,
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  like I said when they're scared to look internally, it does mean
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  something that will hurt you to avoid shame, you know?
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  But anyways, y'all I hope y'all enjoyed this episode.
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  Hope we get you to look inside the mind of a narcissistic
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