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Farron Dozier Show with Amanda Rae · Military Broadcast Radio | MBR Talk

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Hey, what's up man? How you doing?
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I'm. Blessed my brother.
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I'm good, man, I'm good. Hey, did you see the game last
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night? I was your game.
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But did you see the shot? I lost money from that.
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Oh man, that shot was old man. But.
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It was good, yeah. What's the name?
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You really want to know. I do.
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Exhaustion, muscle spasm, Asthmatic issues, Unexpected
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sickle cell trait type. Are.
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You serious? When I was young I found out I
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had sickle cell trait. My mom's told me but I ain't
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have no knowledge of it. But when I got older I had a
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child and the doctor told me my daughter has sickle cell trait.
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You know, the fact that both parents have sickle cell trait,
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there's a 50% chance the child may have the trait and 25%
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chance the child may have the disease.
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And that's what's the count. Do you know that 2.5 million
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people in the United States have sickle cell trait?
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300 million people globally. I didn't find out I had sickle
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cell trait until I was in the Army 10 years.
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Next thing you know I had a sickle cell trait Exertion site
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April so. I thought that was a.
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Black gene or something? Nah man, the black community is
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number 21 out of 36,000 babies are being born with sickle cell
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disease. You could be Caucasian,
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Mediterranean, European. You got rid of a bloodline man.
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There is an inherited gene in our community that has been
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forgotten. The name is sickle cell trait.
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WDCONSCT, also known as What's the Count, is out to bring
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awareness, education and prevention to people all over
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the globe. Want more information?
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Call us now at 323-215-5384 or visit www.wdconsct.org.
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Some of us still carry the burden of battle.
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It threatens to drown us in our everyday lives.
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In battle, we had our weapons and combat gear to keep us safe,
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to keep us confident, but when we returned home, we were not
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armed with weapons and gear to cope with our own minds.
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I was lucky to find my combat gear, my mental weapon and it's
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Not with medication, but rather by activating the
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parasympathetic nervous system through a breathing regulation
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and multisensory stimulation. A recent study has shown that
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Comago decreases PTSD and anxiety levels in veterans,
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helping those who are suffering and having a long lasting
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effect. Visit comago.com to learn how
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you can get Comago through the VA or with a special Veterans
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discount code. All right, good afternoon.
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Can y'all hear me out there? Is everything good out there?
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I appreciate your opportunity listening in.
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This is French talk edition right here on MB radio dot USI
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want to thank you for tune listening today.
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We have a full, full show for you today.
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I'm blessed to have an opportunity to have some
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conversations that are important, especially to me
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dealing with the mental health, mental toughness aspect of life
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transition out of the military. However, we care about causes as
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well. So I'm an advocate for not just
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sickle cell trade as you saw in the PSA, or for veteran suicide,
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but there are other conversations in the world like
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lupus, chronic illnesses like sickle cell disease.
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So I have someone that's going to help me deliver some of those
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conversations today. Also, it is a veteran platform
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so we got some veterans here. So with the variety of shows on
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NBR, we got some. I got 2 guests that are actually
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have a show on NBR radio as well.
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So just having a great time today.
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Thanks for listening in. If you want more information
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again, go to WDCON sct.org for your sickle cell trade talk.
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If you want to find out what I'm up to in the community, you can
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go to farandi.com as well or on Instagram at Farandosi.
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If you want to be a guest on the on the show here.
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Just want to cover some things this week.
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This past week, I had an opportunity to speak at church
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at the ministry of reconciliation, my main church.
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And there's the the, the topic that we had this quarter was
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about revelations, right? And I've grown up in church and
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a lot of times the revelation talk was a scary, you know, it's
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like it almost scares you straight to be a Christian for
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what those times talk about. But during the lessons I was
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struggling because as they were talking about crisis coming back
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for his bride, right? And so I'm listening to that
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from a perspective of relationship, men and women,
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husband, wife, bride and and being divorced.
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It was like, I don't want to hear nothing about no marriage
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talk. I like I'm that that was just
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being blocked out, right? And so I brought it up, you
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know, to the church on the Bible study and they were like, you
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know, Farhan, it's a different, it's a different context.
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You got to catch that in the spirit.
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It's a whole parable and, and things like that, that, that it
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refers to. So I'm like, OK, cool, I'll,
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I'll, I'll go and, and, and meditate on that and, and take a
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look and see what I get for, you know, for myself.
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And so that, that last week I started to studying and praying
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and asking the Holy Spirit to like, OK, what is, what am I,
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what am I missing here? And let me tell you, I got it.
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What I got is one of the things I listened to was Tony Evans.
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My mom turned me on to him a while back and he had a
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conversation in James Three talking about the horses and the
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bits that are in their mouth and how they're controlled by the
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bridle is like self is control. And so I'm listening and, and
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all of a sudden, out of all the stuff I have been meditating on
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that week, I heard it finally for myself that the bride that
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Christ is coming back for is a particular kind of people,
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right? And I, and then so I looked at
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it like, OK, what it, what is that?
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What does that mean? And so when I looked it up for
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myself, I saw that he's coming back from what we've, what I've
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heard before in the, in the, in the, in conversations, people
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who are set apart, people who are pure in heart, people who
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are mature in faith and people who are disciplined in speech.
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And when I, I'm like, Oh, the bride is not the wedding bride.
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It's the particular kind of people.
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And so I got revelation for myself.
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I understood the passage more and I actually found a lot of
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peace in that conversation around revelation.
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And so if you want, you know, to find out more about that the
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scriptures that that I I learned that from is James 3.
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And the way that the bride and the bit and the self-control
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came into play is because the power of our tongue and how you
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talk, if you really pay attention, how you talk and the
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words that you use. Sometimes our own languages, our
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own trap, sometimes how we talk. They say the life and death is
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in the power of the tongue. And if you believe that that's
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true, just listen. Listen to how you talk to
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yourself. Listen to how we talk to one
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another. And so when I got that
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revelation for that passage, I got my understanding about
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revelations and, and, and so to be able to now, you know, apply
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that to my life and apply that what it looks like.
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I have already been being that person because I've learned to
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take responsibility from my language, what I talk, what I
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say. And in the spiritual context,
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that is really most important because it's how you treat how
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you talk to one another is, is very important.
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So that's, you know, from that aspect of my spiritual journey
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this week had AI really had a good time.
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So I delivered that message at church and, and, and from what I
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was told it did, it did land because I said, what are you
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filtering your, your, your life through?
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Are you filtering what you say to yourself and about life
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through the world or are you saying things through what the
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word has to say? And you have a choice, right?
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And, and those worlds are two different worlds.
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And sometimes we try to use the spiritual context in the world
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and it doesn't align because it has, it has a totally different
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meaning in the spirit. So again, thank you for for
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listening and tuning in. I'm going to bring up the guests
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because we're going to have a, a, a particular kind of
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conversation. So I'm going to start with my
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guy, Big Dre. Hey, what's happening, Big Dre?
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Hey, I'm doing it, man. Thank you again for you and Mr.
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Dolger. Man, no, man.
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Thank you for hanging out man. Always, man.
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That's why he's humble man. We had technical difficulties
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before the show, but King is always there.
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Man, he was having technical difficulties.
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Yeah, he was the dude. Next year.
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Yeah, exactly. You know what I mean.
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See. Look, look.
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He froze already. No, but man, thank you.
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Yeah, we had a great week with y'all.
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For those who don't understand you living in California, we got
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a spot June 21st that we're going to do a live broadcast
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from. It's called Hammer and Nails,
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12121 W Olympic St. in Los Angeles, a block from Bunny
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Drive. Yeah, it's, it's the man cave
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for me. And ladies and gentlemen, so you
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bring out to your family, it's going to be Family Day and
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members only day going to do on our show live, man.
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But first of all, I'll give my thanks to all our veterans, men
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and women that's fighting this country, the ones who gave their
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lives and everything else. And I I guess it's coming out
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today. Mr. you know, Gary, Gary had a
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phenomenal story and and it's going to be it's going to be a
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great show, man. I can't wait to watch Amanda and
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and my country boy from North Carolina.
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You know what I mean? Lord cast South Carolina.
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Yeah, you keep following you keep following South Carolina.
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You know what I mean? I can't wait to talk to each
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other. OK, great show ladies and
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gentlemen. Let's go, let's go.
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Let's bring up Amanda first. What's up, ladies?
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Hi. How you doing?
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I'm OK, it's hot today so just trying to stay cool.
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It is, it is. Thank you for accepting
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invitation to hang out with us today.
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Appreciate you. Yeah, of course.
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Yes, we're not strangers. She's She's.
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Me and her have been hanging out with some conversations for
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She's. A sports manager.
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She's a sports manager. We love sports managers.
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Yeah, and I'm a big supporter of veterans too, so thank you for
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your service. Appreciate you.
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Thank you. And.
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Your taxes. Your lovely dog, too.
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He's your master. But I'm gonna tell you.
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I'm gonna tell you something real fine.
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You know, I'm my my sisters both passed away from lupus and my
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oldest sister and my sister Darlene, she passed away about a
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year after my mom passed away a year later.
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She didn't waited for my mother to to transition and she said
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now that she was gone, it's her turn.
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So she we lost her back in 2015, you know, six months after my
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mom died in 2014 and my oldest sister shortly been dead since
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94. A lupus got hurt, you know, so
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it had the same thing, a sticker to a trait.
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Also, if I know it's in my family in history, but you know,
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I'm a big time advocate of it too.
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And I, I, I support any kind of things we got going on.
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So definitely, I can't wait to see what Amanda has to say when
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she's doing her stuff and everything her trash.
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Thank you and I'm so sorry to hear your loss.
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Thank you. Thank you.
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Appreciate it all. Right.
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Let's bring up Gary real quick. Gary, how you doing?
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Hey, man, I'm here. I'm.
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I'm getting better, man. You know, on the West Coast, you
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know, Creek making dreams come true, you know, Hey, I want to
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shout out to all the veterans. Hey, what I like about what I
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see in veterans is that you don't hear a lot of stories of
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veterans going berserk and doing crazy things, shooting up people
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with the PT with the PTSD that you don't hear all anything
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negative about veterans. And that's a good thing, you
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know, and, and I, and I think because we're strong in so many
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ways and from the trainings we had and we just got to keep up
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that good mindset. And also I'm going to do some
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more research, but sickle cell trades and all that.
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I was, I heard a little bit of something yesterday.
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It was real quick because I'm frequency, I'm all about tuning
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that frequency and what I'm understanding about sickle cell.
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And I got to go more into it before I can really speak on it.
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But you know, you guys know how to Google this stuff too.
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It's a, it's a frequency, a positive frequency that God has
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given us the people who have that.
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So it's something special that you have, but you got to know
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how to operate it from within. Exactly.
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Exactly. But that frequency is so fun.
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I appreciate you saying that because they touch on that as a
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navigate for sickle cell trait. Sickle cell disease has its own
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conversation. But again, I, I hear no
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different than veterans, right? That sometimes I said how we
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talk and sometimes I hear my community talk about their
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illness like it's outside of them, like it's like it's
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outside of them. But it's, it's a part of your
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DNA, right? And if you're, if you're born
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with that gene, then like you said, there is a purpose for
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that and you got to tap in to figure out what that purpose is.
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And turn it into a positive. Exactly.
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So I appreciate you. Saying that, I love that man
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right there Gary, because he we go way back.
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Hey, God been good to to us, you know, back with me, Andrea.
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My son was just a a baby. What, 344?
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Yeah, me and Fred. We and now you're grown man, 21
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years old. You're grown man now.
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Right, he got the scene today. I told him when he go meet you
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today to put to let him see his your his muscles muscles.
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And he? Said no, I ain't nothing to try
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to see my muscles. I saw a pre cut of them, you
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know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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OK, so you got Amanda. We got an athlete waiting for
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him, man you, you know, we're inside of an athlete, so it's a
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beautiful sight. Let me bring up the two more,
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two more guests and then we're going to get this this
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conversation started. All right, gentlemen, how are
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you? What's up?
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What's going on with everybody? How y'all feeling?
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You know North Carolina in the house.
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That's right. I could easily send them into
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the waiting room. Y'all just let me know when.
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You have a dog. I'm mad to stick that dog out.
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You know, brother, that dog. Get them.
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Get them. No, this part of it, man, you
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know, everybody getting together, chopping it up, having
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fun, you know and all man. It's good man.
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We appreciate y'all bringing us in on y'all show, man, from the
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West Coast, you know, and you know.
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Thanks buddy. I heard yeah, and I heard, I
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heard y'all talking. I heard y'all talk about the
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sick of sale too. And one of my my oldest
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daughter, she has like the S the NC Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Aaron probably know more about that.
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Oh yeah, for sure. I think it's I think it's three
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kinds. I forgot no one is a s s.
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There's the SSSCSD, there's a actually there's a a bunch of
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different conversations in our community.
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We have about four or five that we expressed in our community,
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but there's thousands. Yeah, there's different types of
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SC is one of those for. Sure, yeah, yeah.
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So, yeah. So pretty good topic.
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Yeah. So like I say, you know, she's
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older now, she's about 26 and, you know, she's doing well, you
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know, but she has that form, I guess the SC, the form that, you
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know, like 'cause you know, I think it's a certain form that,
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you know, their people are kind of frail, but she don't, she
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doesn't have that. So you wouldn't, you couldn't
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tell that she has it, you know, so you know.
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Do you know do you know which who has the S and who has the C?
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I can't remember hey, 'cause you know, you know that that was all
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you know, I know y'all said something about the exes
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earlier. So there was an ex and you know.
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We'll leave that for the man talk, then we'll leave.
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There you go. There you go.
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He's safe. So I want, I want to start off
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with Amanda, to just kind of have a conversation.
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I want you to do me a favor, introduce yourself to the to the
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listeners, and then we'll just have a conversation with you.
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Excuse me, I'm really shy. My name is Amanda Ishi.
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I'm the CEO and founder of Kaizen Sports Management.
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I'm also a cancer survivor of colon cancer.
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I also was diagnosed with lupus, 2012 I believe.
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And yeah, I coach basketball. I love everything basketball.
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I'm trying to create a global market and network.
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And yeah, that's pretty much it. And my service dog, Tomas, she's
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with me too. I love.
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It, it is, it is, it is Lupus Awareness Month.
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And so I definitely want to touch on that.
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I can say we're not strangers, but what do you want people to
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know about lupus as? As conversation, I want people
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to know that it's like everyone when they find out lupus, they
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just automatically refer to Selena Gomez.
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And I want people to remember, you know, she's you know, she
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has a lot of rich rich. She has like a lot of wealth and
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fame. So she has a lot more resources
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than someone like me who, you know, it's not as easy.
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And also it's a big mental health hurdle as well.
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It affects mental health greatly because people look at you and
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they think you're OK. You don't look sick, you know,
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But you know, it's, it's very physically burdening on me.
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I get tired a lot. The pain is really bad too.
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And I get rashes sometimes. My heart gets attacked by the
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lupus, My lungs get attacked. Right now my kidneys are being
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affected by it. So yeah, it comes with a lot of
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burden. But when people first look at
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me, they don't really think there's anything wrong.
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But yeah, I have a lot of health conditions going on though.
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Yeah, thank you. We talked, you and I talked
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offline and I was, I was pleasantly surprised to hear
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that your basketball career may take a, a, a turn for the good.
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What's what's going on with that opportunity to continue your
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basketball, that chasing hoop dream conversation we have?
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Well, I don't want to get my hopes set or say too much, but
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because I'm still, you know, trying to get things going and
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I'm trying to get things established.
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But I recently did a media shoot with Rui Hatchimura from the
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Lakers, and so I've been in talks with his team.
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I work directly with Wasserman Group, so as infinite
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contractors. So a lot of times there's
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projects for media shoots where they need a location or facility
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for basketball. So because I know so many
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facilities in LA and California and I'm so well connected with
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the basketball committee and just different people in this
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industry, they always reach out to me.
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And I'm going to be teaming up with a facility in LA this
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summer and we're going to be hosting some international
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professional teams out here and do some scrimmages.
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I'm going to have Phil Handy come in and help out with me.
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So I'm really. Excited.
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And what about? I got trouble now.
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Thank you. What?
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About your personal basketball journey, Are you?
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Can you allow to talk? Can you say something about
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that? All that.
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Yeah. So I, I thought you were talking
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about the other one. So I did meet someone at a
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coaching conference for Nike and he is a coach for wheelchair
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basketball. And I shared with him my story
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and how I told him I had to retire from basketball because
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after the cancer and like the Crohn's disease and I had 12
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surgeries, I now have a permanent ileostomy bag.
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So because I have such a short amount of my intestine left,
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it's too dangerous to play basketball because, you know,
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wrong one wrong move and someone hits it, then that's it.
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I'm done. I don't have it anymore.
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And I'm going to have to live on tubes the rest of my life.
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So I love basketball so much. I was like thinking, like, what
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can I do so I can still play and be active and, you know, be
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around the game I love instead of on the sideline.
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And then I discovered wheelchair basketball.
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And so I tried it out for a day with him and it was so hard.
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It really humbled me. Like all those years of me
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playing like even overseas for short season, like I thought,
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you know, like, oh, I got this. But it's very hard and I have so
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much more respect for those players and I'm excited to start
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that journey. So yeah, let's see.
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What about what about what coaching you've done about head
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coaching you've done about coaching?
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I'm taking a break 'cause I was coaching a lot of like local
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leagues here in LA and I wasn't getting the respect I felt like
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I deserved from players. And it just wasn't like I, I
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hate to say this, but it just, it was ruining the game.
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I love it started to become more about money and the attitudes
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and just people like not working hard, you know, And it's just
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goes against everything I believe in and what I stand for.
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And so I just, you know, I said I'm not going to do this
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anymore. I'm going to stick to the pro.
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Level, yeah. Alright, and I appreciate you
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for saying that because that's that being my taste in hoop.
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Dream is still connected to basketball.
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Only the AB, we got three ABA teams now.
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And so I, I can definitely relate to you as far as how do
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we stay connected to that game of basketball.
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I really appreciate. You for saying?
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Anybody have any questions before I move?
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I just want to get somebody. Do anybody have any?
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Questions. No, we're good.
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OK. Yeah.
24:08
OK. One of the other conversations
24:10
that we're going to get into is around mental health.
24:13
And you kind of said it earlier in your, in your topic, I posted
24:18
a, a, a flyer that had complex post traumatic stress disorder
24:24
and, and it had about 20 different things on there.
24:28
And one of them is I feel like I'm a burden, right?
24:33
And and so when I look at even myself after my transition out
24:38
of the service and, you know, not taking on the label as a
24:41
disabled veteran, but also have to be, you know, responsible for
24:45
that because I do have some injuries.
24:48
Sometimes you do feel like you're a burden on people.
24:50
Sometimes I had to learn that if I ask for help and the person
24:55
says no, like I have to allow them to say yes or no.
24:59
I and I can't think that if I say ask for help, everybody's
25:02
going to say yes. And a lot of times we make that
25:05
no mean something about us, right?
25:08
And if that happens when we're children, how do you think that
25:13
plays out when we become adults? Wanted to ask for support and
25:16
help. And so she responded, Amanda
25:19
responded to that one about the burden.
25:22
I'm like, hey, can you come on and share that?
25:24
Because I really believe a lot of people may deal with this
25:28
aspect of life that we don't talk about it.
25:32
We don't know how to talk about it or or afraid to even say
25:34
that, hey, this is how I feel. I like a burden.
25:37
And then when I listen to my sickle cell community, same
25:39
thing. It's like I hear people say, oh,
25:44
I don't have any support. I don't have this, I don't have
25:46
that. But then when you talk to them
25:47
more, you hear, well, you don't even ask for help, but why don't
25:51
you ask for help in this? Because I've been told no so
25:53
many times in the past that that no is in the future.
25:57
And now you feel like you're by yourself.
25:59
And so I want to do, Amanda, to kind of share that experience
26:03
for yourself around that burden conversation.
26:07
Yeah. So for me, I come from an Asian
26:10
background, so if you know anything about Asians, we're
26:13
very prideful and we never talk about emotions.
26:17
We don't ask for help. We just kind of figure it out.
26:21
So there's that background that is contributing to me being that
26:25
way. And also, I was diagnosed in
26:28
2016, so I was only 26 years old, but I was diagnosed with
26:33
lupus before that, and I had Crohn's.
26:35
But when I was diagnosed with cancers 2016 after surgery, but
26:40
they did remove it during surgery.
26:42
So my experience wasn't too bad with that.
26:46
But when you're so young and you're diagnosed with an illness
26:49
like that, especially having a bag, it's like, who can you
26:54
relate to? Because in the doctor's office,
26:57
there's no pamphlet or anything telling you what your life will
27:00
be like. It's just when you open a
27:03
pamphlet, it's just directions how to change it.
27:05
And everyone in the pamphlet was like old people.
27:09
There's like no one young. So I had no one to relate to.
27:12
And I was in the hospital the majority of my 20s.
27:16
So I missed out a lot of things. And a lot of my friends didn't
27:20
understand what I was going through.
27:22
And I didn't get a lot of visits.
27:25
I didn't get people like, you know, trying to include me like
27:28
Facetiming while they're out, you know, and that's something I
27:31
would have done for them, but I just felt like a burden because
27:36
it was like, I don't want to ask, you know, because then I
27:38
feel ashamed. But then at the same time I was
27:40
angry and resentful because it's like, why aren't they asking me?
27:44
So it was like a catch 22, you know, and, and especially with
27:49
family too, you know, like I had a rough childhood and I got shut
27:54
down a lot if I asked for help. So like what Veron was saying,
27:58
that affects me a lot too, in my adult, in my adult ears.
28:03
It's very intimidating for me to ask for help 'cause I'm just so
28:06
used to like having to figure it out on my own.
28:09
And there's been times where I need to go to the hospital for
28:12
emergency and I would just take an Uber instead of asking
28:15
someone to drive me. Yeah, no, thank you again.
28:20
Thank you for that. Because I just, I just want
28:22
people to to hear the different aspects of life and how
28:26
important it is because we're social beings and we want to be
28:30
with people, we want family around us.
28:32
But sometimes those experiences, those we think we're protecting
28:36
ourselves at the same time we're also hurting ourselves.
28:38
And then then what do we do after that or, or who do we
28:41
become after that? You know, I just knew.
28:44
But what we get to be in those situations.
28:46
And so I appreciate you, you know, for for saying that since
28:49
Mr. Health Awareness month. And so that is something that we
28:52
wanted to touch on as well, especially from a woman's
28:55
perspective of what that looks like.
28:57
Yeah, that's, that's deep. Yeah, that's real.
28:59
That's really deep. You know, a lot of people, like
29:02
you said, a lot of people don't express it, you know, the way,
29:04
like the way you're doing it to us or letting us know about it.
29:08
Like I said, that's that's really deep though.
29:11
Yeah, it is. Also let me ask you this after
29:15
going through all of that, how does it affect you?
29:19
Like now in your life now you do you still what's the effects of
29:25
it? I'm not going to lie.
29:29
Yeah, I'm not going to lie. It's very hard because people
29:34
forget that if, if you're going to be in the hospital that many
29:38
times and that long of a period, like bad things will happen, you
29:43
know, the chances of that happening, like your interaction
29:46
with nurses or doctors. So it wasn't like I was in the
29:50
hospital just laying in bed, like just smooth sailing.
29:53
Like I went through a lot of trauma in there and I was even
29:56
assaulted once by a male nurse. And I after that, I just never
30:01
felt safe with male nurses, you know, 'cause when you're that
30:04
vulnerable, it's hard. And even now as an adult, I
30:09
still struggle with relating to people because, you know, it's
30:12
like, who can I find that can understand this, You know?
30:16
And the truth is no one really can unless they're in my shoes.
30:21
And that's something I have to set that the same time, it's
30:25
like an everyday burden that I have to carry.
30:27
And it's something I'm still navigating.
30:29
I'm in therapy and I'm learning how to communicate better and
30:33
open up to people. Gotcha.
30:37
OK, Yeah, that's a tough pill to swallow, man.
30:40
That's a lot. Especially when you're running
30:44
your own business, you know, and like, you're a coach, you're
30:48
managing all these players. It's a lot.
30:50
And no one ever stops to like, you know, remind themselves
30:54
like, oh, she's going through a lot because I get my phone goes
30:58
crazy, you know, people contacting me demanding things
31:02
and I'm like, I need to rest, Like, give me a break.
31:06
So having boundaries helps. Putting up boundaries definitely
31:09
helps. Yeah, like you said with the
31:12
phone calls and everybody coming at you, that's yeah, they're
31:15
stressed within itself, you know?
31:16
Yeah, definitely. Yeah.
31:20
Keep it positive like you are. That's what's going to keep you
31:23
going. You know that's.
31:24
Positive energy, I commend you for that.
31:29
You're my you're my zero. I'm I'm unless you like me.
31:34
I'm about to cry over here, man. I I can cry.
31:37
I can. Cry you can cry.
31:39
You good you. Good.
31:40
You good. I know how to lose my friend a
31:41
lot like I lose my sister. Lupus.
31:43
And what you? Going through.
31:44
I want to tell everybody, man, stress that when it comes to
31:46
colon exams. I got my schedule in two weeks.
31:49
My second one, I don't play with that man.
31:50
My son just had a colon gas scare and he's only 38 years old
31:54
and they found someone and removed it and he's happy.
31:57
Now I'm going myself with my second one.
31:59
You just don't know. You walk around and smile and
32:01
think you're in the healthiest person.
32:02
Before you know it, boom and you're interested.
32:04
In care too. It's called comments though.
32:07
You know you have a dream but don't let them fool you to like
32:10
he said earlier about putting things out of the atmosphere
32:13
with what you say. Your mouth is dangerous.
32:15
God tells you every time this is a weapon.
32:17
You got to be careful. So God got a mission for you,
32:19
girl, I don't think he don't. I can see in your eye.
32:21
He got a mission for you. Oh.
32:24
She's legit. She's legit.
32:25
She's got this right now, but she's legit on there.
32:30
Legit, right? Right.
32:31
I I leave that number contact. We own, we own the arena out in
32:36
Ohio. We own basketball arena.
32:37
I own 20% Echo. It's called Flight the Fight
32:40
Academy in Dayton, OH. So I was like, I think I've
32:42
heard of it. Yeah.
32:44
It's owned by Chris Wright. He played NBA ball.
32:46
And we own, we own, we own 20% of that.
32:48
So our team do so the fantastic. So we we already look for
32:51
something new out there. We definitely got to talk
32:53
because I have clients all over and I'm trying to expand my
32:56
network to the East Coast. That's doing.
33:00
East Coast basketball and Midwest basketball so different
33:02
from West. Coast.
33:05
I actually, I like it better. Yeah, I like it.
33:08
Better. When I was in New York for the
33:10
NBA draft a couple years ago, I played some pickup ball out in
33:14
Harlem and I was like, I love this game Over here.
33:18
Everyone plays hard and aggressive over here.
33:21
They cry about everything. I break the nail, break the
33:25
slide. I broke up, yeah.
33:31
Yeah, I. Know.
33:33
Yeah, that's what, yeah, that's what I don't like about the
33:36
game, man. Yeah.
33:38
That's what I. Don't like about the game?
33:39
What are you? Doing stop looking at the Revs,
33:41
just hurry. Up and get a.
33:43
New defense. What do you call him?
33:45
I would joke him inside, joke in the background.
33:46
What do they call NBA ball now? 3 pointer.
33:48
Oh. My gosh.
33:50
All they do exactly. That's it.
33:52
Only three. Points and dunking.
33:54
That's it. No one plays.
33:55
Defense. No one boxing.
33:57
Out no boxing. Out.
33:58
No fundamentals. So here's a big question for
34:01
you, Amanda. You're the female GOAT.
34:03
Basketball history. Who to go, Who to go all time?
34:07
Go basketball and you better not say LeBron James.
34:12
Never you. Better not never.
34:15
Never. Thank you.
34:17
Who is who? Who is the go?
34:18
I I'm tougher than LeBron for thank you.
34:21
OK? For me, my personally, my go is
34:25
Kobe, but MJ is the go and then Kobe's Black Mamba.
34:30
But the way I played basketball and the way I I grew up studying
34:35
basketball was Kobe mostly. So I would say thank you, That's
34:41
that. Generation.
34:44
That's why that's that generation.
34:47
Hey, you know, hey, you know, we got.
34:50
Hey, you know we got to stay in North Carolina, right?
34:56
But you know what, though, I, I did have the luxury of growing
34:59
up. I saw like, first I saw Doctor
35:02
J, right? And I was like, it won't be
35:05
nobody else. And then came Jordan and then
35:08
I'm like, you know, then I said, well, there ain't going to be
35:10
nobody. And then here comes Kobe.
35:12
So, you know, I kind of go with that, you know, that arena like
35:15
that. Thank you.
35:18
That's not not I'm going to be tired, but my son got to play
35:21
one season with me. Come on now, saying Ken Griffey
35:23
and Chris Gibby senior. I got to play my no picking 1280
35:28
fifth in the draft ball. I mean, I mean, come on, man.
35:33
I know he's been disrespected Brownie, but he got him a.
35:35
Job he got him a. Yeah, he got him a job, baby
35:38
brother. Better than the older brother,
35:39
so ain't no big deal, right? Yeah, that's what I.
35:42
Think that's. What I think you know, I, I
35:45
asked Jordan one time. We were smoking a cigar with
35:47
Jordan and he was in Miami. I said man, how do you say a man
35:50
he'd a goat When Kareem had four years of college at all time.
35:56
He had no years of college all time.
35:58
He should have had 50,000, but he shot the ball 100 times the
36:01
game. He's supposed to have that.
36:03
And you know, we know for a fact Kobe, the all time leading
36:05
scorer now, Kobe's still alive. He would have still played.
36:07
But he said every time he let it go, he wasn't selfish. 20 years,
36:10
I'm out. But for me, for me and Lebron's
36:14
defense, always not, not for real.
36:18
I always said this right here. Kobe is the closest thing to
36:21
Jordan. But LeBron?
36:23
He's the more athletic Magic Johnson.
36:27
Yeah, OK. But I think, but I think the
36:29
reason why, I think the reason why a lot of people compare him
36:32
and they put him and Jordan together against each other
36:34
because you know, everybody growing up, you know, they
36:37
wanted to wear that 23 and that's what LeBron, he wanted 23
36:41
coming in high school and coming out right.
36:43
But really, LeBron is is Magic Johnson.
36:45
Yeah. Thank you.
36:46
He'll pass it and he he decent on free throws, he'll pass it.
36:51
He's a, he's a better shoot jump shooter than Magic was, you
36:55
know, so I would have been in the arena with Magic.
36:57
OK, Yeah. OK, yeah, that's a that's a
37:00
fair. That's a big joke.
37:02
But a lot of people, but a lot of people, they don't, a lot of
37:05
people don't don't, They don't for some reason they don't do
37:07
that. They always hit him against
37:10
Jordan, right, Mike? But I would say Jordan, I would
37:12
say Jordan, Kobe. And then I would take LeBron.
37:15
I would say he's his game is more catered toward Magic, you
37:19
know? What I mean because they.
37:21
Don't really compare magic to anybody compared to magic.
37:26
Nobody. That's a good point.
37:30
Yeah. I pick OKC and then next to the
37:34
finals I'll pick it. For some reason, I don't know
37:36
why I have. I had to get a chance man, give
37:42
a chance. 7273 How? Many years.
37:46
They've been rebuilding long enough.
37:47
They should be. Rebuilding for years.
37:57
That's why I picked man in the finals.
38:03
But I think I think going to win it all.
38:06
I think, I don't think. I think Indiana.
38:09
I think Indiana too. Lakers don't have a chance until
38:40
they can find a coach that won't kiss Lebron's butt.
38:44
Then they will. They will finally get where they
38:47
need to be. But until they can achieve that,
38:49
it's. I mean, look what's happened,
38:51
you know? It's not true.
38:52
What about an owner who won't speak with nobody?
38:54
An owner who won't speak with all the guys.
38:56
You know. I didn't say that on.
39:03
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dot US. Had to play that for Drake.
42:26
Just so y'all know, we don't get in no trouble over here.
42:31
My bad man. I had to.
42:33
I could help. I could help.
42:34
I sleep with somebody. I I did the back of my day on
42:37
the head court. I did the back of my day.
42:38
I apologize. You know what anyways?
42:41
Alright, let. Me bring everybody back.
42:43
Her manager. Oh, my God.
42:45
Yo, man, I told you I'm not. I'm not gonna pickle without the
42:49
juice, man. In this group.
42:54
Yeah. I'm not defending nobody.
42:55
I'm chatting like it is, man. Shoot, right?
42:57
Don't sleep. Don't sleep with them.
42:59
Exactly. Don't do it.
43:01
Hey, Gary, I see you back there Gary, but your phone is if you
43:05
can correct your phone before I bring you up, Gary, I just see
43:07
your phone is sideways, but. Yeah, Amanda, I sent you my
43:10
stuff in the comments for the audience I sent you everyday
43:14
only. OK.
43:16
You got. It I look forward to it.
43:18
Definitely, definitely. So my my counterparts here on MB
43:24
radio men talk gentlemen, please introduce yourself your.
43:29
Brothers. Hey, I'm Shaw.
43:31
And I'm Daryl. Yeah.
43:34
Let's yeah great on bro. Give us some background of of of
43:37
your show that's on the platform.
43:40
Well, man, talk is kind of, it basically came from, we started
43:45
with like Zoom. We wanted to have like a safe
43:47
space for men to come in and just talk and they didn't accept
43:52
it. So we went to the people.
43:54
So we went to the men and we started on YouTube and Zoom and
43:59
all of that. And now we on the radio show.
44:01
So it's basically we just, we do a lot of different topics, you
44:05
know? Like we.
44:07
Fell in prison systems. And good ones pseudo good ones,
44:12
pseudo child and. Force yeah they say Baba Baba
44:15
shop talk you know for the. Yeah, basically, yeah, yeah.
44:19
So kind of it kind of keeps some stuff going that's.
44:22
All Yeah, yeah, You know, like I said, my name is Daryl.
44:25
I'm glad y'all, you know, appreciate y'all, you know,
44:27
inviting us on the platform. And like what my brother was
44:31
saying, you know, we first started off, like I said, on
44:34
Zoom in a safe space. We weren't going to record or
44:37
anything. You know, who's just going to
44:38
get a bunch of guys. You know, he didn't have a lot
44:40
of guys in his area that want to join, right.
44:43
And then I guess you know, guys, you know how they do, they fall
44:46
away or whatever, you know, won't, won't tap any in or
44:48
whatever. So my brother said, you know,
44:50
hey, bro, hey man, the people won't come to us.
44:53
Let's you know, let's he said God said, let's go to let's go
44:56
to the people. So that's when we start zooming
44:59
and recording. And then, yeah, we went from
45:02
there, you know, and start doing on YouTube.
45:04
So yeah, you know, took off from there.
45:07
I. Appreciate that.
45:08
I appreciate that because there's some conversations that
45:11
you want to have without the cameras.
45:14
So people you would think, you would think that would be the
45:17
environment so they could have a the safe space to have a
45:20
conversation. But some people, even in that,
45:22
they still don't want to have those talks.
45:25
You don't want it and that's the issue with some men.
45:27
They don't want to open up and that that causes issues, you
45:32
know, in their relationships. You know, even with the kids,
45:35
you can't open up to your kids. So I mean, now the IT goes
45:39
through this cycle now the kids don't open up.
45:42
To their kids and now you got a bunch of angry people.
45:46
That's the kind of way I look at it, you know, right.
45:48
And the funny and the funny and The funny thing about that too,
45:51
man, is like a lot of times we have, you know, whether may who
45:54
guys my brother may work with us and guys I may know, a lot of
45:57
times they they, they the ones want to come to the platform,
46:01
but then when we form the platform, they don't show up.
46:04
They kicking out or don't show up.
46:06
So. You know what I got?
46:07
I got you. I got you.
46:09
Yeah. So.
46:09
Basically just me and him. We just said we'll just go, you
46:12
know, we just tag team and go, go for it, you know?
46:16
Yeah. So this this is a military
46:19
platform. What?
46:20
Who's the service member or the? The oh, I'm an Air Force.
46:24
Air Force, I'm a ring. Yeah, I'm a ring.
46:27
Yeah. There you go.
46:32
He the intelligent one, Air Force, intelligent people.
46:35
Yeah. Yeah, say a part again.
46:38
They didn't hurt you and he, he said.
46:39
Nothing he ain't. Saying I said nothing.
46:45
Man, and I always, I always shout out, shout my brother out.
46:48
You know, he's the young, I'm the oldest, you know, of the
46:50
family, brothers or whatever. But I shout him out because, you
46:54
know, he asked me, you know, to come on board with him, right?
46:58
And so I said, man, yeah, I'll do it with you, man.
47:00
I'll come on and talk with, chop it up with you, you know, and
47:03
and you know, he's the kind of like the, you know, the brains
47:06
of it. He's he's more the tech savvy,
47:09
you know, and I'm kind of the, you know, the, you know, I'll
47:11
talk, but I'm just like, when it come to tech savvy, he kind of
47:14
dabble in all of that, you know what I'm saying?
47:16
So. So.
47:18
I always call him the brains of the operation, but he always
47:21
say, you know, was ours, you know, was ours together.
47:23
But you know, but he pretty much, you know, it's the brains
47:27
that you know that all of it. So I just joined in, tapped in
47:30
with a man. And for me, man, you know, it's,
47:33
it's therapeutic for me, you know, when I get to chop it up
47:35
every week, you know, you know. No doubt that that's kind of why
47:38
I got here, living in the future of those podcasts.
47:43
Well, back then it was Internet radio, and in 2009 it wasn't
47:46
podcast from 10 to the radio. Living until those next week
47:49
episodes kept me alive, man. It was like, OK, you know, you
47:52
interrupt that willingness to die.
47:55
You know, there's a space that can be filled with.
47:56
And when, you know, you got to find out what's next as us as
47:59
veterans turned into a passion and, you know, to to be here.
48:05
What had you joined the Marines? Well, I guess when I was coming
48:09
out of high school, it was a lot of lot of guys around our way,
48:13
you know, they was Army or either Navy and I wanted to do
48:16
it. I was always, I wanted to do
48:17
something different. Even back then I was a little
48:20
smaller, but I wanted to do something different.
48:23
So I saw the blue stripes. You know how the recruiters do,
48:27
You know, they come out, see the blue stripes with the white hair
48:29
on dress Blues or whatever. So they got.
48:32
Yeah, they got. Me man.
48:33
You a man? Yeah.
48:37
Boy, they got me man. So that's why I joined man.
48:40
So then, you know, I went to Pi Paris Island for basic.
48:44
Then I, you know, then I went to School of Infantry at Camp
48:47
Lejeune, Camp Geiger and and then after I left Giga, I went
48:52
to, you know, Fast Company in Norfolk, VA.
48:54
We're dealing with sea duty and all that stuff like that.
48:57
Before I did 2 years of there at the Norfolk Naval Base.
49:00
Then I came back to Camp Lejeune and finished up my last two
49:03
years up up there. So I ain't do but four years,
49:06
you know, they tried to get me the sign.
49:08
I was like, no. Four and out.
49:11
Four and out. Got out, got out the end of 91.
49:14
Yeah, that's good. That's good, yeah.
49:17
And. And and for you, Sir, the Air
49:19
Force, you saw that, you saw this Marine experience was like,
49:22
Nah, I'm good with that one. Well, let me say, let me tell.
49:24
You this story. Like, Nah, we ain't going that
49:28
way. I tried to tell the people that
49:32
so men is OK to fail, right? I tried the Marine Corps.
49:36
I couldn't swim. Oh.
49:39
So then I went to the Air Force and that was, you know, where I
49:42
found my spot. Yeah.
49:45
That was my spot. So, you know.
49:47
Yeah. Information Manager.
49:50
We swim like each other. I swim like a Chevy truck, like
49:52
a rock. Hey, hey, I told him.
50:06
I told him, Brother, let it bother you, man.
50:07
Come. Look, I want no bona fide swim
50:10
either. I did like the least.
50:11
The least qualification was like 5 minutes swimming on your back
50:15
and that's all I did. Yeah, I rolled out on the.
50:18
Pool what day I hate about the. Pool I would have had a heart
50:21
attack. Yeah, boy.
50:24
So I found my way in the Air Force and I went out to
50:27
naturally Lackland, then up the teaser and then back down the
50:30
pool. Yeah.
50:32
Yeah. So that was my story, man.
50:34
I'm AI was office Guy, which I enjoyed because when it's
50:38
raining and cold and they're out there exercising, you know,
50:41
always looking at them, I enjoyed that part of.
50:46
Always telling, always telling. See, I was the crash dummy.
50:50
I went out. They learned from me.
50:54
Right that. Was a good thing.
50:57
That was a good thing. You got it all out the way
50:59
early. Yeah, because see what it was
51:01
with me, my recruiter got me, You know what I mean?
51:03
So and see, because I know back in the days when I was in
51:07
school, high school students could drive a school bus.
51:09
I don't know how they did it in Cali, but over here high school
51:13
students could actually drive school buses.
51:14
So when I got ready to go with my recruiter was like, yeah,
51:18
man, I got you, come on in or whatever.
51:20
So I said, listen, I said I wanted to go in, mow the tea
51:23
because I was driving scuba or either supply.
51:27
He was like, oh, man, you know, don't worry about it.
51:29
You ain't, you ain't you're not decided yet, right?
51:32
He said when he said when you get the basic training, he said
51:34
they're going to get you. You'll be the major mind up.
51:40
And he got me with the he got me with the open contract man.
51:44
Oh. No.
51:47
Make your. Mind up later, huh?
51:50
Yeah, he tell me. Yeah, man, you can.
51:52
You can. You can decide later wrong.
51:53
You know, after basic training, they'll give you another chance.
51:56
I was like, he got me because, you know, we had, you know, like
52:00
me and Shaw, we always talk about it.
52:02
You know, my dad, we, he wasn't in the home, but he was in our
52:05
life. Yeah.
52:06
So, so when by me being the oldest, I had to kind of grow up
52:09
kind of quick, kind of fast or whatever.
52:12
So when I got with the recruiter, you know, I didn't
52:15
have nobody to guide me left or right.
52:17
So I'm, I'm put my trust in this guy.
52:20
Like, yeah, man, I'm in basic training.
52:22
I'm like tell my buddies like yeah man, right out the base of
52:26
training man, I get to go to supply either motor tea.
52:28
I'm going to be watching y'all humping and next thing you know
52:32
they, you know, watching me and. That's.
52:39
What? And that's what Shaw, he learned
52:41
there from me. Because I said, man, I said
52:43
don't make sure you sign whatever you want to go in on.
52:46
Don't let the recruiter get you. I learned from crash crash.
52:52
I got a quarterly, about 15 men. Got it, Got it.
52:55
Yeah, got it. So.
52:57
Before before Amanda came on the the to speak today.
53:01
Have have you gentlemen heard about lupus?
53:03
You got any any. Yeah, we heard of.
53:04
I heard of it. Yeah.
53:08
I don't know anybody with it, but I heard of it.
53:11
Is there a cause? Is it, is it and I was going to
53:14
ask her or ask you, is it like is I'm pretty sure from what she
53:16
was describing, is it kind of is that painful?
53:18
You go through like moments like wake up daily or something like
53:23
that or, you know, with pain or something or you know.
53:27
Yeah, I haven't been pain free for about 20 years.
53:35
Wow, Like just constant pain for 20 years.
53:37
So I don't know what it's like to be pain free.
53:41
I I actually forgot and I'm just so used to the pain.
53:45
My tolerance is super high. Yes, it is.
53:48
By the way, real quick, not to change the subject, but I used
53:52
to be stationed in 29 Palms. Oh, OK.
53:58
OK, I didn't make it out there, but I heard about it.
54:00
I heard the story. You don't want to go there,
54:01
I'll. Be at the way tomorrow my.
54:05
Ex husband's a marine. He was what was he?
54:11
He was a tanker. OK.
54:13
Yeah, and. Thanks to him.
54:16
We got stationed there. It was like either Pendleton or
54:19
29 Palms. And we got.
54:21
You always heard, I always heard him calling it 29 stomps and I
54:25
live. In yeah, it's out there out
54:26
there I'm. Out there, I'm going to the
54:31
morning look. Up Lake Bandini.
54:35
OK. Look up Lake Bandini, they would
54:37
make him run PT every morning. It's like 110° out right by a
54:42
lake of basically shit from the barracks.
54:45
Like just straight from the barracks.
54:47
I was like why? Why it's?
54:51
For your country, girls, for your country all the time your.
54:56
Country man. But I do.
54:58
Miss Tricare, Tricare, it was great healthcare for me.
55:01
And they, the naval doctors there, they were the ones that
55:04
actually found a good treatment plan for my lupus.
55:08
So shout out to them because the civilian doctors, they didn't
55:10
know what they're doing. So yeah.
55:14
University. Oops.
55:18
University oops. What it is right?
55:22
Gary, before we, before we move forward, Gary, introduce
55:24
yourself, man. I know you've been here hanging
55:26
out, listening to all the conversations.
55:27
Oh, I'm loving it, man. You know I'm a listener.
55:30
You know I'm loving you. You young folks talk that good
55:33
stuff and bring back memories. I like the positive.
55:36
Gestures and. Attitudes.
55:38
I mean, that's where it's it. That's where it's at.
55:40
You know, I was born in Indiana, basically.
55:43
And my mom, rest her soul. Bess Taylor, she's a design, you
55:48
know, and she designed clothes. And we moved to Detroit because
55:51
a friend of hers, Harvey Fuqua, if you ever heard of that name,
55:55
he discovered Marvin Gaye. He had a group called Harvey and
55:58
the Moon Glow, Moon Glows. He was married to Gwendolyn
56:02
Gordy, so we shared the same birthday.
56:04
Even though my mom and him were good friends, he had my mom
56:07
making clothes for the spinners. The main ingredients, Tavares,
56:11
Al Green, Marvin Gaye, you name it.
56:14
My mom, you know, she did it. And so Harvey, since we shared
56:20
the same birthday, I was 9 running around Detroit and a guy
56:24
named Gregory Peterson, one of our neighbors, he was a hustler.
56:27
So we was, he had me out there shoveling people's snow out the
56:30
driveway, carrying people's groceries when it was safe
56:33
because as you know, ain't nobody letting you carry the
56:36
groceries in our in our world today.
56:40
I mean, the police, even in the snow, when me and my mom pushing
56:43
the grocery cart to the house, they had stopped and pick us up
56:46
and give us a ride like home. That's how cool, you know?
56:49
And, and, and it wasn't the best neighborhood either, but we
56:52
survived it. So when Motown moved down here
56:55
in 70, Harvey had my mom move us all out to LA, to Hollywood in
57:00
72. So that was interesting to come
57:04
to Hollywood because Harvey asked me, he was on the 9th
57:07
floor at the RCA building on Sunset.
57:09
He said, Gary, what you want for your birthday, you want a record
57:11
deal or you want money? And I'm like, I'm like, you
57:20
know, he could have made me a star.
57:21
Because a lot of people see you hear that stuff called industry
57:25
plant. I don't believe in that because
57:28
if somebody in the industry believes in you and they see
57:32
that, they see a dollar sign in you, they know how to place you
57:35
in the industry where you can make money, they can make money
57:38
and everybody can be happy. So that industry plant stuff, I
57:42
don't go for it. And, but I was fortunate enough
57:45
to be out here and after high school, I, I mean, actually, I
57:50
left high school, high school, 2 credits short and joined the
57:53
Army. I went into the engineers.
57:56
I went to Fort Leonard Wood for training in the.
57:59
Woods. The Woods lost.
58:01
In Living in the Woods. Right.
58:04
So that experience alone in basic training, you know, 11
58:08
particular task, I was scared to get up on that, that pole you
58:12
climb and go across. The rope.
58:14
Oh yeah, yeah. So we went to the rifle range
58:17
and I was a guy on I'm carrying a flag and all these soldiers
58:19
behind me, but I didn't know it. I had pneumonia.
58:23
And oh wow. So it's a truck that follows us,
58:26
as you all know in basic training, if you get on that
58:28
truck running at 10 miles to the range, you going to have to do
58:32
some major push ups when you get to the to the facility.
58:35
So I got to the facility. I, I ended up not getting on the
58:38
truck, but I was the last person to go in the gate.
58:41
I qualified marksman at 49 shots out of the 50 and woke up in the
58:47
hospital and with pneumonia. Now I got lost time there
58:51
because my sister and I, we were looking for my records on the
58:56
hospital that I was in, on Fort Meadowood property.
59:01
And it's been 4 years and they haven't sent me any of those
59:03
records. But to move on, I ended up going
59:07
to Germany, Darmstadt, West Germany, near Frankfurt.
59:10
I ended up, you know, combat engineer.
59:12
I ended up working the captain like me.
59:15
So he wanted me to drive and I didn't know how to drive.
59:20
So a brother that was a Sergeant in the office, he looked at me
59:23
and said OK. He took me out in a Jeep and I
59:26
tore up the gears. But he taught me how to drive.
59:30
I ended up driving for the major and, and his name was Major
59:34
Ellis, but he likes to consider himself Little Caesar.
59:37
So everywhere he went, I was right there.
59:40
Terrain walks unit all over, all over Europe with the top brass
59:44
and, and to, to jump a little bit further, you know, I used to
59:47
go out to the, the clubs there and I used to go by myself
59:51
walking through those parks to get, you know, Germany is kind
59:54
of weird if you've been there. And so, yeah, I, I had a good
59:59
experience in doing that. Then the polar side one time
1:00:01
walking back through the neighborhood because Darmstadt
1:00:04
is considered like a Beverly Hills.
1:00:06
So I'm a black man, I'm dressed real nice and I'm walking back
1:00:08
to the, to the place to the barracks and the, the polar side
1:00:12
pull up on me as soon as I get in the gate.
1:00:16
And then the, the gatekeeper, he called the captain.
1:00:20
A few guys came out with their rifles and the polar side
1:00:22
saying, well, this guy's tearing up.
1:00:24
Post signs, somebody reported him tearing up signs.
1:00:27
And I, I don't do such anything like that.
1:00:30
But my, my, my unit had my back because the captain came out and
1:00:33
they had they rifles ready against the Polizzo.
1:00:35
And I used to have a lot of respect for the Polizzo because
1:00:39
they do a lot of training more than regular police, you know,
1:00:41
five years of training to be a Polizzo.
1:00:45
But after that, you know, I went on to Fort Lewis, WA and I was a
1:00:51
member, member of the Martin Luther King Singers.
1:00:53
I sung baritone. I joined the choir in church
1:00:55
because I was in church. And.
1:00:58
And I had, and I had a gentleman, I'm not going to say
1:01:00
his race or anything, but he, he, he was my platoon leader and
1:01:05
he used to give me slack all the time.
1:01:07
And this is a little bit about karma now.
1:01:09
And I used to tell the captain and you know, you can't jump and
1:01:12
you got to go through the chain of command.
1:01:14
But I went to the captain and said, hey, man, you know, he's,
1:01:17
he's drinking on duty and dah, dah, dah, dah.
1:01:20
And for a punishment, actually they gave me his job because he
1:01:25
went home on vacation and he was drunk and he ran into a fence
1:01:32
and it put the pole in his eye and put his eye out and he
1:01:36
couldn't come back to the military.
1:01:38
So they gave me his job. He was AE6 communication
1:01:41
specialist. So the captain assigned me to
1:01:43
take that over. So I ended up, I'm young.
1:01:45
I signed for $400,000 worth of commo equipment.
1:01:50
Now I'm missing Mikes, I'm missing wires, I'm missing
1:01:54
everything. But since I was well, white,
1:01:57
because I was one of those guys were cool with the maintenance,
1:02:00
everybody, they, you know, they gave me a Jeep and they sent me
1:02:04
out in the woods and Fort and, and Fort Lewis and, and I was
1:02:09
collecting hundreds of miles of camel wire with that teeth,
1:02:13
hundreds of miles. Now, the reason I'm telling that
1:02:15
part of the story because, you know, I believe in crypto
1:02:17
creatures, you know, and I'm listening to a story last year,
1:02:23
that same Fort Lewis in the Washington State, Mount Saint
1:02:27
Helen erupted. We were practicing for desert
1:02:29
storm and, and Mount Saint Helen volcano dust.
1:02:32
We was out there 30 days at a time.
1:02:35
So a lot of my medical problems come from being in that dust,
1:02:38
that volcano dust eat cancer. But people don't know that
1:02:44
because as you know, chemicals are in that that volcano rash.
1:02:47
And so a plane went down with like maybe 17 to 20 something
1:02:52
people on it on Fort Lewis property in the woods.
1:02:57
And that plane went down the wreckage.
1:03:00
When time they got to the wreckage, the bodies were torn
1:03:03
apart, ripped apart, not from the crash from Bigfoot type
1:03:09
creatures. They're saying, and I know a lot
1:03:11
of people say, oh, you say Bigfoot, but you got to if you
1:03:13
understand God, you understand God didn't start and stop with
1:03:16
us. So it's a lot of crypto
1:03:19
creatures. It's a lot of things we don't
1:03:20
know about. Matter of fact, it's too many
1:03:23
things we don't know about that we're we're woke.
1:03:25
Matter of fact, if you see the chemtrail planes flying over and
1:03:28
you think that's chemicals that they're putting on us and poison
1:03:31
at us, no, it's blocking the sun because our frequencies are now
1:03:35
open to receive the gift to allow us to be whoever we want
1:03:40
to be and communicate on another level.
1:03:42
So they're man is trying to block that.
1:03:45
That's that chemtrail. So if you're seeing the sun
1:03:47
getting blocked and it's affecting our crops, that's why
1:03:50
we got a lot of GMO and having all these cancers and stuff, you
1:03:54
got to be careful with your food because that GMO, they don't
1:03:57
allow that in Europe from America.
1:03:59
Trigger it, it will trigger it. Exactly.
1:04:01
You don't lie in Germany, they don't lie in Europe.
1:04:03
They were Eastern Europe. They allow it all.
1:04:05
Exactly. So to make a quick story, you
1:04:08
know, I ended up for 30 years, I've had this ideal of a movie.
1:04:13
Harvey did give me a a deal with a rap group, the Gumby Boys at
1:04:18
Capitol Records. I was one of the first, you
1:04:22
know, man, black man, to have a rap group on Capitol Records,
1:04:25
the Gumby boys. We changed our name to
1:04:27
Uncontrollable Urge. I found them in a skating rink
1:04:30
out here in the Valley, and they were sliding around in bikini,
1:04:34
in bikini underwear. And the girls was going crazy.
1:04:37
And I'm like, these fools need to be, they need to be on TV.
1:04:41
What year was that? Oh God, that was in the early
1:04:45
80s. That's like a Venice Beach game.
1:04:50
Right, right, right. But see, I didn't know nothing
1:04:52
about. The record business.
1:04:55
So I ended up coaching football at the Sherman Oaks Park in
1:04:59
Encino Park. And Denzel's son, I coached him,
1:05:02
I coached Ice Cube son. He was, he was out there and I
1:05:07
had a script me and some partners had written.
1:05:10
And Denzel was cool. He was like, oh, Gary, man, when
1:05:12
you ready, just give it to me. So we were at Granada Hills when
1:05:16
I know I'm skipping over a lot, but it's it's a fun story.
1:05:19
But Denzel and I were walking out of Granada Hills high after
1:05:22
a game and he said what you got what you got.
1:05:26
And see what I'm saying by this, I'm letting you know he's a
1:05:28
brother and and Harvey Fuqua, these guys from the Motown era
1:05:33
and other eras back there, they were giving brothers a chance if
1:05:36
they had talent, you can present it.
1:05:39
So Denzel said what you got. So as I'm handing him the
1:05:42
package, 2 girls come screaming in the parking lot for Denzel.
1:05:46
He looked at me and said, Gary, get it to my agent.
1:05:49
That was like a hit in my stomach.
1:05:52
And same thing with Damian Wayne's.
1:05:54
I read when I work for the Prince.
1:05:55
I drove see, I'm a driver at at best for the in the military.
1:05:58
I drove the Jeep, as I told you, I drove for the current.
1:06:02
I drove for the second in command of Europe when I was
1:06:03
over there. So I have I have my driving.
1:06:06
I Dre know me because I mean we've been together.
1:06:08
He knows that we drove work for Playboy.
1:06:12
So I drove for Hugh Hefner, the girls next door.
1:06:13
I was on that TV show. So it's interesting.
1:06:19
I'm with the Prince of Gabon. His his father was the king of
1:06:23
Gabon. His grandfather is the president
1:06:27
of of Congo, the Brazzaville side.
1:06:32
So, so I'm with his security team.
1:06:35
I'm on the I'm driving the Prince around.
1:06:38
I drove him to high school for four years here out in Sherman
1:06:40
Oaks. He went to Buckley, he went on
1:06:42
to Harvard. But at that time, the cancer
1:06:45
caught up with me for the kidney cancer I had, I was on dialysis
1:06:49
for 9 years as driving for this young man, his grandmother, the,
1:06:54
the queen, she was here in Bel Air with him.
1:06:57
So he's the real Prince of Bel Air.
1:06:58
In other words, the real Prince. So when he was at school, I'm
1:07:03
running his grandmama at the Costco to buy stuff for her
1:07:07
hotel that's in Congo. And, and me and I took her to
1:07:11
church. We always was in church, I mean
1:07:13
with with her and so we had a good experience there.
1:07:16
But other people were concerned with Gary driving for Junior and
1:07:20
he's got he's on dialysis. And I had to tell her, I said
1:07:23
Mommy Claire is her name. I said Mommy Claire.
1:07:25
I don't drive with my kidney, I drive with my brain.
1:07:29
So. She I remember the story too.
1:07:31
We lived. Together, you remember that?
1:07:33
So I went on to have a successful trip there and then I
1:07:36
said, OK, it's time for me to downsize.
1:07:38
Instead of going to Harvard with Junior, I stayed here and I
1:07:42
downsized and said, OK, now it's time to fight for my life
1:07:45
because I could have kept making that money for another five
1:07:47
years and then poof, I would have been gone.
1:07:50
So and then I didn't want to leave my son alone.
1:07:52
So Dre know the story. So boom, that's how I ended up
1:07:56
working with Dre and James Tony. James, when Dre was bodyguard
1:08:00
for James Tony, he pulled me in and he gave me a place to live
1:08:06
so me and my son can kick it, you know, because I have my son
1:08:10
more than his mom. And so it was me, Dre and my son
1:08:13
and a a a cool cat named Cato. So yeah.
1:08:17
So we we were doing good. And how it works with your mind
1:08:21
and and it's it's an interesting part of this.
1:08:23
What I'm going to say is I had a old beat up car.
1:08:26
You remember that red car hat? Yeah, I know toy.
1:08:29
I don't know what it was, but it was breaking down all the time.
1:08:31
But when Dre said, Gary, I got this place over here, you can,
1:08:34
you can come and have this place.
1:08:36
And I said, OK, I looked at the place and I said, oh, there's a
1:08:40
limousine company right around the corner.
1:08:43
I can walk to work. I put that in my mind and boom,
1:08:47
I moved in with Drake. My car broke down.
1:08:49
I walked down the street. The Russians on this place, the
1:08:53
Russian right, they hired me on the spot.
1:09:01
That's that's how I got the job with the Prince because they had
1:09:03
to crime. The contract family had the
1:09:08
contract too with the Russians. So I.
1:09:21
Was. Caught between the Gambino
1:09:25
family and the Russian mafia. And I always want, every time I
1:09:29
go to the office, to pick up the car from the house.
1:09:32
I was always nervous about, man, this guy, the boss going to come
1:09:36
in here, put a gun in this guy throat.
1:09:38
Sure enough, one day I go in the office and Demetrius came in
1:09:43
from New York, one of the top Russian mobs.
1:09:46
Sure enough, he had the guy in the office with a gun in his
1:09:49
mouth. He pulled me outside and said,
1:09:52
hey, I understand you work for Playboy and you know, da da, da
1:09:54
da, can you introduce me to some girls?
1:09:58
And I'm like, you're the Russian mafia.
1:10:00
You get, you know he's. Got women everywhere.
1:10:06
But we can do another show. Out of here, I want to spend
1:10:17
these last, you know, 20 minutes or so around the men talk and
1:10:22
and and the men. I'm thankful.
1:10:23
I'm glad you stayed around because I want your input from a
1:10:27
woman's perspective. I know you, I don't want you to
1:10:29
speak for all women, but maybe from your perspective of the men
1:10:33
talk, right, Because for for me, what I'm learning as as I've
1:10:37
done like 15 years of just my own healing process, right?
1:10:43
Men, we are responsible. We are the ones biblically
1:10:46
responsible for our families. We are the foundation.
1:10:49
We're not the roof. We're the foundation of the
1:10:51
family, right? And if you understand the
1:10:53
foundation of the family, I tell men, have you ever gone home and
1:10:57
said, thank you foundation for holding up the house?
1:11:00
Like we don't we, we discount the foundation of that home, But
1:11:04
what happens if that foundation is cracked?
1:11:06
That whole house can be condemned, no matter how
1:11:09
expensive it is, no matter how much is, you know, beautiful.
1:11:12
It is for for the men talk that you gentlemen do and I've I've
1:11:15
I've listened to some of your episodes and and Amanda for you
1:11:20
for for you, Amanda for for a male from a from a woman to a
1:11:27
male. What is what is the the most
1:11:30
important thing for you looking for that person?
1:11:34
Is it their character? Is it with the stuff like what
1:11:37
what what is the we know that the eyes, of course, is the
1:11:40
first thing we see the beauty. But past that, once you get past
1:11:44
all that, what what are the things that from your view, a
1:11:48
woman looks for? She's smiling and and and the
1:11:53
male. Well, it's refreshing to be
1:11:56
asked that because, you know, I, I am a 35 year old woman that's
1:12:02
been single ever since my divorce, you know, and reading
1:12:07
the Bible has helped me keep my standards high for what I look
1:12:11
for in a man. And also the try and error.
1:12:14
I've dated a lot of men in the past that I've looking back now
1:12:18
I've, I've noticed they were broken men and they just were
1:12:23
very emotionally immature. Like whenever we'd have a
1:12:27
disagreement argument, I would always remind them like, look,
1:12:30
it's you and I versus a problem, not me versus you.
1:12:34
But they automatically would feel attacked.
1:12:36
They would abandoned me, just walk out on me.
1:12:39
I've been a stepmom and I got burnt out because I learned
1:12:43
quickly from that experience. You never pour out an empty cup.
1:12:47
So I learned from all of those experiences that like now I know
1:12:53
at 35 years old that I need to. Like in the Bible it says the
1:12:58
partner you should choose is someone you can go to war with.
1:13:02
And I think nowadays it's very hard to date because masculinity
1:13:08
is very rare now. And I've been hit on with guys
1:13:13
with nail Polish and like, you know, they act very feminine.
1:13:17
And I'm very traditional. I was raised to be feminine.
1:13:20
I was raised to cook and clean and take care of the husband,
1:13:24
take care of the kids, you know, and I've noticed that's been
1:13:28
vanishing as well with women. So you have it's both sides.
1:13:31
It's not just one side. And I think masculinity is
1:13:35
lacking because we don't have a lot of strong male role models
1:13:39
that are teaching young. And then this is how you treat a
1:13:42
woman and this is how you get through issues and adversity.
1:13:45
You know, and because that's why they're acting so emotional.
1:13:48
Like, you know, the basketball players they coach, if they get
1:13:52
a call that doesn't go their way or a confrontation in the game,
1:13:55
they just freak out and fall apart.
1:13:57
You know, they don't stay focused.
1:13:58
And they don't have those tools to problem solve.
1:14:01
They don't have any resilience. They don't know how to, you
1:14:05
know, problem solve on their own and how to hold on to their
1:14:08
integrity. And it's, it's really sad
1:14:11
because that's lacking now. And, and as a woman, that's just
1:14:15
the bare minimum, Just a man that can be masculine.
1:14:18
He can keep his word, he can be stable and protect me and he can
1:14:23
open the door for me, like just stuff like that.
1:14:25
But it's sad because men don't even know how to talk to me as a
1:14:30
woman, like the stuff they say to me.
1:14:32
It's just like, like, who do you think I am?
1:14:35
Like, why are you talking to me like that?
1:14:37
And it's just sad. And but then I also look at
1:14:39
young women and I'm just like, why are you dressing like that?
1:14:43
You know, like, why are you so desperate for attention?
1:14:46
And then they they're the same woman that go and complain
1:14:48
there's no good men, but you're sitting there and you're
1:14:51
bragging about how you use men for their money.
1:14:54
So it's just sad. Both sides are ruining the
1:14:57
dating pool. And, and I'm a firm believer on
1:15:01
the tradition of a man and a woman being married and like,
1:15:04
the man being the provider and the protector and the woman, you
1:15:07
know, taking care of the home and bringing him peace.
1:15:10
But all I see now is young women just, they are yelling.
1:15:15
They're acting so like they're acting masculine, you know, So
1:15:19
it's like, it's just kind of embarrassing, you know?
1:15:23
And yeah, so I see both sides. Like the tables have turned, the
1:15:28
women act thick, masculine in the women.
1:15:31
I mean, the men act feminine. That's what I'm saying the.
1:15:35
The new men purse 'cause they wearing the new men purse.
1:15:38
Yeah. And you know, that's what that's
1:15:41
what yeah, that's what me and my brother, we kind of touch on
1:15:43
stuff like that a lot because, you know, we see it or some guys
1:15:47
want us to talk about it. But in a lot of times too.
1:15:51
And I know my brother, he going to tap, tap in on there too.
1:15:53
Like what we see is, I know I do around my area, you know, a lot
1:15:58
of times we try to talk to the people is that a lot of the
1:16:01
women they're raising the boys just like what you was talking
1:16:06
about. And I've seen some instances
1:16:08
where guys have came in to try to actually help raise their
1:16:12
boys, whether it be step dads or it can be the blood dad or
1:16:16
whatever, however you want to use it.
1:16:18
And the parent, the mom would step in in between the dead.
1:16:24
They keep from disciplining him. And so they raised these boys
1:16:29
like the way they raised them. This is what they're getting.
1:16:31
You know this was out there now. Yeah, I, I personally look at it
1:16:35
like this. I think the roles have reversed.
1:16:39
Like you, it's normally God the man and the woman now is God the
1:16:43
woman and the man. The roles are reversed and the
1:16:46
women have taken the spot of the man and the man has fell back
1:16:50
into the woman spot. Whenever you mess up that order,
1:16:54
you're going to have what you have.
1:16:56
And what you have now is a bunch of, you know, a lot of women
1:17:00
that are what they say, independent and that's where
1:17:03
it's coming from instead of them just being submissive to the
1:17:07
man. I mean, you're not going to find
1:17:09
a perfect man. That's not going to happen, nor
1:17:11
you're going to find a perfect woman.
1:17:12
So if you have a piece of a man that's doing decent, he's
1:17:17
protecting like she said, he's protecting how to talk to you,
1:17:19
he's providing treat him like he's the man, like he's the
1:17:23
head. Don't belittle him just because
1:17:26
you make $10,000 more than him. You know, so I, I just think the
1:17:31
roles have been. Reversed and that's some of the
1:17:33
cases too yeah, that's some of the cases.
1:17:35
Like what you saying like sometimes you can have women
1:17:38
just because they make more than their husband, they'll, you
1:17:41
know, kind of push them to the side or whatever.
1:17:44
And also like, like Charles just said too, you know, with the
1:17:50
with the, the, the one with the woman that's stepping in front
1:17:52
of the man, you know when God ain't going to bless that.
1:17:56
You. Know he's not going to bless
1:17:57
that, you know, like she's stepping in front of the man and
1:18:00
you know, and doing what a man should be doing, you know, so
1:18:04
and you know, it's just, it's just it's it's tough out there.
1:18:06
So we still, we still work on it and we still try to tap in with
1:18:10
guys and talk to guys about it. But it like you said, though
1:18:14
amount is it is tough because like I said, you got the social
1:18:17
media, you got one guy right now, he might be like, he might
1:18:21
look at you and say, oh, you're nice looking, he talking to you.
1:18:24
And then soon as you get off the line with you, he looking at
1:18:27
somebody else. You know what I'm saying?
1:18:29
So see, back in the day, we didn't have to do that.
1:18:31
We had to go out. You know when you know when you
1:18:34
know. In person.
1:18:36
In person. In person, yeah.
1:18:38
Meet the father. Meet the father and everything.
1:18:40
Yeah, well. That's how I, that's how I used
1:18:43
to date too. And I also noticed that society,
1:18:47
like modern society, treats men very badly.
1:18:50
Now the whole like feminist movement, like we don't need a
1:18:54
man. It's like we do need men.
1:18:57
Like look at the place I live in.
1:18:59
This was built by men, you know, And like, having masculinity is
1:19:03
necessary, necessary for this world to turn, you know, And
1:19:06
there's nothing wrong with that. Men have a role and women have a
1:19:09
role and it's needed both of them and.
1:19:13
What means, what women have to understand, too, is that when
1:19:16
you step into that role as the man, you got to take those
1:19:19
shots. As the man, right, You got to
1:19:21
take those hits. If you want to be out front,
1:19:24
you're going to get hit. Yeah, and I don't want that.
1:19:26
Yeah, there you go. Yeah, I don't want, man.
1:19:29
Be the man and you know a good man and.
1:19:32
That's what we we take, We tell women, we tell women sometime
1:19:35
too. They're tapping it.
1:19:36
Like he said earlier about the submissiveness.
1:19:38
A lot of them when you tell them to be submissive to your man or
1:19:43
your husband, significant or whatever, they take that as get
1:19:48
in there and cook my food or whatever.
1:19:49
They take it, they take it to heart.
1:19:51
But it's not, that's not the way.
1:19:53
That's not submissive, you know, you just, you know, you working
1:19:57
together with your husband as like the as you should as a
1:19:59
helpmate, you know, But when they when you say, when you say
1:20:03
submissive, you need to be a submissive woman.
1:20:06
Hey, sometimes women look like they threw you threw some salt
1:20:10
in their face. You know, but it don't mean.
1:20:14
It don't mean that when they say, you know, women should be
1:20:17
submissive to their man, it don't mean that you a slave or
1:20:20
something. It don't mean that.
1:20:23
Well, I can. I can vouch for my time.
1:20:25
They agree an incredible queen and where I go she cater to me
1:20:29
and I cater to her and she I call my alpha Rd. dog but just 5
1:20:34
foot one truck driver and she's a builder in construction so she
1:20:38
know how to her place of the alpha female and so I'm the go
1:20:41
get her. She do what she got to do what
1:20:43
you call it NBA you call it NBANBAOF.
1:20:46
It's NBA for only fans. What for the color of that you?
1:20:52
Mentioned you mentioned something my brother about the
1:20:55
men being in front of taking the hit, right.
1:20:57
And and I I've for myself as, as I've been, you know, working out
1:21:01
for Ron. I I looked when I looked when I
1:21:04
had the conversation about the foundation of the house, the
1:21:08
meal being the foundation of the family.
1:21:11
My conversation is, is what's my ingredients, right?
1:21:16
So if you look at the foundation, it's concrete
1:21:18
rebarb, it's gravel, it's stone, it's formwork, you know, it's
1:21:22
anchor and bolts, moisture, Berry.
1:21:25
Like all these things are at the in the in the ground of the
1:21:28
Hostess house. Yeah.
1:21:30
My conversation to men today is, well, what are you, what's your
1:21:33
ingredients? Is it shame, embarrassment,
1:21:35
disappointment, upset, frustration, all mixed with
1:21:39
happiness. And like, we got to figure out
1:21:41
as men, what is that? For what is it?
1:21:43
Yeah, Whether it be pressed or whatever.
1:21:45
Honor. Whatever.
1:21:47
Yeah, said that that made me. That makes me think about these
1:21:51
conversations moving forward. What's your ingredients as a
1:21:54
man? Like what are you, what are you
1:21:56
made of? Not what you do, but who are you
1:21:58
as a your character? Yeah, a lot of times it's I.
1:22:02
Would say a little, I would say a little shame is in there too.
1:22:05
And the reason why I say that is because like a lot of guys, like
1:22:08
that's coming up now, they are afraid to be out front and take
1:22:12
the mantle. Like even in like, like being
1:22:15
shy. You know, we both go to church.
1:22:17
So, you know, you got guys, you know, we, we leaders in the
1:22:19
church, our, our, you know, respect and respect the churches
1:22:22
or whatever. And, you know, we take the lead.
1:22:25
You know, what do we need to do or whatever.
1:22:27
You know, you got a lot of guys who they just don't, they don't
1:22:31
take the lead no more. It's just like they, they want
1:22:33
to sit in the background, you know.
1:22:35
So yeah, exactly. I see that every day that's
1:22:39
turned off for a woman when a man can hold his own.
1:22:42
That's the same. But the good news is there's
1:22:45
somebody out there for everybody because it's too many of us.
1:22:48
And. If.
1:22:50
You ain't finding it. Yeah, you can.
1:22:51
You can when I when you go around the world, you know, most
1:22:53
of us been all over the world. You know how people are
1:22:56
different in other countries? It's it's amazing what we have
1:23:01
available. I got to the point where I said,
1:23:03
hey, I'm just going to get me two robots from Japan next year.
1:23:07
But then I had a nightmare and then I programmed them wrong and
1:23:09
they beat the cramp out of me. So I'm scared of that part now.
1:23:16
You know what about? The programming.
1:23:22
Let me tell you all about the programming.
1:23:25
This this is the beauty of today's show.
1:23:27
Because again, that's why I made it here.
1:23:29
And when YouTube Brothers hit me up about the show, imagine this
1:23:36
is the ingredients of some of us.
1:23:39
I feel like I don't have a right to exist.
1:23:45
I feel like I have. Now imagine that's part of your
1:23:47
ingredients. Imagine I bother people just by
1:23:51
being alive. Imagine I wish I'd never been
1:23:55
born. Imagine an ingredients of I'm a
1:23:59
burden, I feel invisible, I'm nothing, I don't matter.
1:24:03
I will never be enough. I'm all alone in this world.
1:24:07
How can you have a relationship? You can't.
1:24:11
With those kind of things. And that's what I'm saying is in
1:24:14
the background, it's not even in the foreground in your
1:24:17
conscience. I'll talk about in the
1:24:18
subconscious mind of the person that you're living from that
1:24:24
silently. Yeah.
1:24:26
How, how, how? How can we?
1:24:29
You can't. Well, they say that we were
1:24:30
asked to be to have the parents that we have.
1:24:33
We were asked at birth, you know, we chose our parents and
1:24:38
and we got to remember and we're now learning, you know, burying
1:24:42
people 6 feet you when you bury a loved one in that casket that
1:24:46
that dissolves. The body dissolves.
1:24:48
You're it's like you bearing you, you, you putting seeds in
1:24:52
the grill. You're putting that body back
1:24:54
into this earth and it's going to bloom again.
1:24:57
And it's in a recycle, a caught recycle of being reborn here on
1:25:01
earth without the memory of where you've been in the past.
1:25:04
Now, if you get cremated, that's another story because your soul,
1:25:08
from what I'm understanding, your soul is free now and you
1:25:11
can go anywhere you want to go. But if you bury yourself, get
1:25:14
buried in the ground, you're replanting yourself to grow here
1:25:19
again. And you're stuck.
1:25:20
And a lot of people don't understand that.
1:25:23
But a lot of people are stuck here on this earth because
1:25:26
they're reborn here, you know, reincarnated, what you call it,
1:25:30
but you don't remember. You don't remember your past
1:25:33
lives, but once you break that cycle, then you know, you know,
1:25:39
hey, I'm free. Because God has given us the
1:25:41
capability that the spiritual beings that we are, we're part
1:25:44
of the universe and we can go anywhere in this this universe
1:25:50
when we leave here. And this is not the best place,
1:25:53
but we got to make it the best place.
1:25:55
Why we here? And you can't be afraid of death
1:25:58
because death, they say, from what I'm understanding, because
1:26:02
you know, when I was in surgery and from emergencies and I
1:26:05
figured out, you know, that white light they talk about, you
1:26:08
see, I'm sitting there and when the doctors came in to cut them
1:26:11
lights on them, surgical lights. And I'm thinking I'm dying right
1:26:14
now. And I'm like, man, damn the
1:26:16
white, that's the surgical lights.
1:26:18
They know white lights. I'm serious, everything that you
1:26:25
said, there's people that believe all those different
1:26:28
things, right? But what my brother said about
1:26:30
the shame is I, I, I just turned 55 in March at 54.
1:26:40
I discovered for 52 years I've been living in avoiding shame,
1:26:46
embarrassment, disappointment. And that was from a 2 year old
1:26:50
child decision toward my mother before I really had language,
1:26:56
right? And so when you understand that,
1:26:58
and when you understand brain science and you understand how
1:27:02
the brain functions, when you put those pieces together, man,
1:27:06
it is amazing how powerful our mind is.
1:27:10
Right. And the work that you've got to
1:27:12
do to unravel, as he's saying for me, unravel all the
1:27:15
decisions that you made-up about these conversations, as
1:27:19
sometimes it's a natural survival state of mind that we
1:27:23
make up the decision from our childhood that that that the
1:27:27
brain creates these conversations already.
1:27:31
And if you attach to one of those, you spend your life
1:27:36
renewing your heart trying to get.
1:27:38
Free from those things, right? That's right.
1:27:40
And and, and and that's the part for me that coming back to
1:27:43
church, it's like that's the work is you got to renew your
1:27:47
mind. What, what, what principles,
1:27:49
what tools, what conversations are you using that you believe
1:27:54
in that you trust to unravel those?
1:27:57
Because at 54, man, I'm like, you got to be kidding me. 52
1:28:01
years and I and I have proof. I have evidence.
1:28:05
I got body sensations like I got memories and all, all, all of
1:28:10
it. I won't say all of it, but more
1:28:13
than 70% of it was made-up. Made-up until I found something
1:28:21
like The Word to challenge those thoughts up against those
1:28:25
stories. Right, like you said, man, it's
1:28:28
a, it's a like to back to Amanda, you know, it's a
1:28:31
multitude of things, but always tell people like the guys, like
1:28:35
she said she was, you know, I guess talking to or dealing with
1:28:37
or whatever, you know, and he's not bashing Women's Day or
1:28:41
whatever, nothing like that. But majority of the women now
1:28:44
are raising boys, young boys and they are raising, they're
1:28:48
raising young men. The you know the mean that they
1:28:52
are raising, they ain't this, they are not the mean that they
1:28:55
want to date themselves exactly. You know what I mean?
1:28:57
So. Yeah.
1:28:59
So right now like that, yes. But see.
1:29:01
I think it's helped. Right.
1:29:03
And like I I'm saying, I'm just I'm going to say that in my way
1:29:06
before we end this show, the Bible speaks so of a man and a
1:29:10
woman being by yourself. God wants us to be by yourself
1:29:13
first to work on herself. I don't know why people rest
1:29:15
into relationships. Singleness.
1:29:18
Oh my God, run a nightclub. Are you here live.
1:29:21
I'm going to find me a baller. And I know I would tell them
1:29:25
I'll be walking down the line in the nightclub.
1:29:26
I say, so you're going to follow a baller, huh?
1:29:28
I say I guarantee you that ball will be a one shot caller
1:29:31
tonight, right? Next week, you're back here mad.
1:29:35
That motherfucker was just in that blame, blame, blame.
1:29:37
I said, you just said you're going to find a baller.
1:29:40
Well I take NBA stands for NBA stands for only fans.
1:29:45
Everybody get only fan accounts now trying to catch these dudes
1:29:48
and God telling you to wait because if you broken yourself
1:29:52
and get successful he going to see that perfect man. 22 broken
1:29:55
yolks is not going to work. That's.
1:29:58
Why I tell people don't get a relationship until you're going
1:30:00
to have sex. Me and my girl, I'm being real
1:30:01
with you. We're not having no intercourse
1:30:03
at all. We're not married.
1:30:03
I'm not married to you. I'm not doing that because
1:30:06
that's not if you want to go run your butt on somewhere and go
1:30:08
out of here, I'm not going to hold you back.
1:30:11
God bless you and I'm going to give my blessings.
1:30:14
So and Gary, though I am I I don't try to 45678 women, man.
1:30:17
I can't do all that. I can't balance my own business.
1:30:19
And if I balance 54 women right, I don't that part, you know,
1:30:23
call you call you the wrong name maybe, but my car slice of my
1:30:28
tires, I got tires right, No. Dre is a genuine man.
1:30:32
This brother is, I mean, he, he's a guy that everybody loves
1:30:36
here everywhere, you know? So, yeah, Dre's the guy.
1:30:39
I. Appreciate that man.
1:30:41
I tried to be a guy gave me that tell me I died at birth.
1:30:44
My mom died. Give a birth, man.
1:30:45
We both came back 22 minutes letters in my book.
1:30:48
Well, I told Gary Gandy to write a book because I know Ferran
1:30:51
should have about four or five best sellers right now, but we
1:30:55
need to write a book Amanda. You definitely to write a book,
1:30:57
everyone. Told me.
1:30:58
That yeah, everyone that CBT will make you.
1:31:02
I wrote my book 2 of them I do well, I do have the do do what
1:31:11
you do, but God tell you our stories are who we are as human
1:31:14
beings and we can help them out. Our stories something out with
1:31:17
us as people all the time. Well, your testimony is
1:31:21
important. Your testimony is important.
1:31:23
When they get it. Thank you.
1:31:25
Thank you. Sorry in my day, so I bless you.
1:31:27
Appreciate you all man. I appreciate everybody this.
1:31:30
Was exciting. Amanda Amanda what what do you
1:31:33
want to say before we get out of here?
1:31:34
What do you want to? I actually did almost cry when
1:31:46
you Ferran opened up about the shame and like you feel like you
1:31:51
don't deserve to be here. That actually almost made me cry
1:31:55
because and then like, I instantly wanted to like,
1:31:59
nurture you, you know, that's just how I am.
1:32:02
If I see someone. Like if I just see someone, you
1:32:07
know, in pain or something, I just feel naturally like, oh, I
1:32:10
need to help them, you know? And I wanted to ask you men,
1:32:14
since I'm the minority here, as a woman, what can I do to help
1:32:20
support men with their mental health and be there for them?
1:32:24
I think it's important for me to know, especially as a coach.
1:32:28
Respect my mind's respect though. 1 for me.
1:32:33
Yeah. Yeah.
1:32:34
On a health tip tip for everybody, because I dealt with
1:32:37
hypertension and that's a silent killer that took my kidney, that
1:32:42
I got the cancer from all the things I told you in the
1:32:45
military, but I could have saved my kidney, but I had to go
1:32:49
through what I had to go through.
1:32:50
I was on dialysis for nine years because my blood type is OOO
1:32:55
positive. And so it's hard to find a
1:32:57
donor. But the bottom line is once I
1:33:01
got my kidney, I got a whole new life.
1:33:04
So if you really want it, I mean, I told you a little bit
1:33:07
about me, but I've actually created a franchise, a superhero
1:33:11
franchise, but you'll be hearing about shortly.
1:33:13
And the first one is Keeper Zagaya.
1:33:16
And we're going to be dealing with with the Mother Gaia Earth
1:33:21
and saving humanity and getting people to love and come
1:33:25
together. And that's the first one, then
1:33:28
the Kingdom of Gaia and then the Keeper.
1:33:30
And I got some serious characters.
1:33:32
So you're going to laugh, but I got Shaq coming in as Blackfoot.
1:33:36
I got Bill Bellamy. He told me I was given the part
1:33:41
of Wolfman Black to Kevin Hart because my buddy is close to
1:33:44
Kevin Hart. But when I told Bill Bellamy
1:33:46
about it, he said, Gee, that's a man.
1:33:49
That's what condo on steroids. He said, give me Wolfman Black
1:33:52
because Shaq is his cousin. So, I mean, so I got a cast of
1:33:58
superheroes that we're about to put out.
1:34:01
And so that's what I've been doing lately is creating what I
1:34:05
started 30 years ago and now it's coming to par now.
1:34:08
So I look forward to sharing more about that with you all.
1:34:12
But God is good. Just keep the positive energy.
1:34:15
All the. Time and you will get what you
1:34:18
want out of this life. Yeah.
1:34:20
You know, Amanda, you said, you know, for men it's it's, it's
1:34:26
tough because some of those stuff, some of those things are
1:34:28
layered, right? And so the best thing that I've
1:34:32
learned so far for myself is we say that.
1:34:36
We say that we are good listeners.
1:34:38
Are we really, do we listen to react, to respond?
1:34:42
And I tell my, I have three daughters.
1:34:44
So I tell my daughters, you got to ask more questions.
1:34:47
You got to listen to the what they say to you and, and, and
1:34:51
give that back to them of what they said to see if that's what
1:34:54
they really trying to say, because a lot of times we don't
1:34:56
say what we're dealing with. We use words to describe life.
1:35:00
And I'm struggling, you know, I could, I could be struggling for
1:35:03
something that I, that you might have some resources to help me
1:35:06
fix. But if I just say I'm
1:35:08
struggling, then I'm not telling you what it is.
1:35:10
And so I don't get a chance to say that, but because why as
1:35:15
men, we, we, we, we suffer in silence and we don't want to be
1:35:18
judged, right. And, and, and finding your
1:35:22
partner, it's like, oh, shoot, if I tell you my deepest
1:35:25
secrets, are you going to slander my name?
1:35:27
Are you going to go tell my? And so men have a lot of things
1:35:31
that we deal with that we don't know how to language or share
1:35:36
because of with the fear of the repercussions of being open and
1:35:41
vulnerable. So a lot of times that respect
1:35:44
could just be having a conversation.
1:35:47
So you said that this is what you're dealing with.
1:35:49
You know, why did why did you use the word scared or struggle?
1:35:53
Like, what's the struggle like? So hopefully that opened up that
1:35:56
person to have the space to say, Oh well, this is what I'm
1:36:00
dealing with. But a lot of times you.
1:36:03
Describing it? Yeah, By the time we say that,
1:36:05
we're describing it and it's like, well, it's a description.
1:36:09
I can't help you if you don't say what it is.
1:36:12
And a lot of times it's it's not even a real thing because our
1:36:15
minds is making up these stories.
1:36:19
I'm a nurturer, like she said, she knows.
1:36:20
She said she wanted to nurture you earlier.
1:36:23
That'll help. Yeah, that that helps too.
1:36:26
Cause a lot of, a lot of women, they, they are, they thought,
1:36:29
they don't think that men like we, we like to be nurtured too,
1:36:33
even though we may not show it. But you know, we like to be, you
1:36:37
know, pat on the back, rubbed on the head or whatever, you know,
1:36:41
and talk to talk to like, like fairness said on a, you know,
1:36:45
respectful way or whatever. You know, we, you know, we like
1:36:48
that too. But like I said, like he said,
1:36:50
we got layers where we going to, we going to, we going to be
1:36:53
hard. But, you know, once we, you
1:36:57
know, you got a woman that's they know that's going to
1:36:59
nurture them like that and talk to them in a respectful manner,
1:37:03
You know, the account, the account opened up.
1:37:06
Yeah. They opened up.
1:37:07
Yeah. I would say listen, the longer
1:37:10
you listen to a person, the more they'll tell you who they are.
1:37:14
That's right. So you just sit and listen.
1:37:16
They'll tell you exactly what's going on.
1:37:18
They can't help it as you think about it.
1:37:21
Like us on this platform right here tonight.
1:37:24
Everybody had a story. If.
1:37:27
You let them talk. They'll talk and talk and talk
1:37:30
and the longer you listen, just listen.
1:37:32
All you got to do is just let them empty out and then you'll
1:37:35
you'll know how to navigate or they talk, then you know how to
1:37:40
sidestep. Well, I know this isn't a spot I
1:37:43
might need to stay away from. You know, when you just like you
1:37:46
said, you nurture them along the way, but just listen.
1:37:49
That's it. It it definitely will.
1:37:52
They definitely will tell you where they are.
1:37:54
Anybody. Well I I thank y'all for hanging
1:37:59
out for an hour and 37 minutes so I got to cut.
1:38:02
Hey. There's a show Next up after
1:38:04
here. So gentlemen, thank you so much.
1:38:07
Your show's on Fridays. Yeah, at 6:00 PM Eastern
1:38:11
Standard Time. So that's 3:00 PM on the East
1:38:13
Coast, yeah. Yeah, yeah, real quick, Yeah,
1:38:15
real quick. Man, I appreciate y'all man, you
1:38:18
know, inviting us all man and all you know, we not we said
1:38:21
Shah. We've been waiting.
1:38:22
About what, 2-3 months now, four months going on four, we know
1:38:25
and we just, you know, kind of, you know, still getting on our
1:38:28
own. We so we going, we going to
1:38:30
visit, you know, try to, you know, tap in with other people.
1:38:33
You know, we just kind of been trying to know figure this thing
1:38:35
out, you know ourselves. So we appreciate y'all, you know
1:38:38
you, you know you. We have, you have, we are your
1:38:41
first invite or you will have first invite or whatever.
1:38:44
You want. To look at.
1:38:47
Yeah, and, and, you know, and like I said, you know, a lot of
1:38:50
times I work around my brother scared, you know, because like I
1:38:53
said, you know, he get up Eastern Time, he got to get up
1:38:55
at 2:45 in the morning. So so we'll be checking, we'll
1:38:59
be checking out here in a couple of minutes.
1:39:00
So he's going to get ready to go to sleep.
1:39:03
All right. So a pleasure man to meet all of
1:39:05
you we. Appreciate y'all, it's so nice.
1:39:07
Meeting. Y'all I'll be.
1:39:09
Reaching out to you guys, I mean, I have some people that
1:39:13
can send your way, so appreciate it.
1:39:16
Yeah, it's so nice meeting you guys all.
1:39:18
Right. Nice meeting y'all too.
1:39:20
Thank you. Thank you so much.
1:39:21
We. See you all.
1:39:22
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