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Your Soul is calling. Are you picking up? ☎️ · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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We need to answer the call, and this takes courage.
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We need to stay on the line, and this takes devotion.
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And we need to call back when the line drops.
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And this takes audacity.
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Oh, you said no.
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Oh, I'm going to ask another way or again or another person.
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Your soul is calling, but are you answering?
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Your soul is calling you in this moment, on this day, but are you picking up?
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You're picking up the phone of your soul calling.
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You're picking up your soul's calling, but are you staying on the line?
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You're staying on the line, but are you calling back when the line drops?
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Babes.
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Welcome to the Soul Salon.
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Today we are going to be tapping in to the frequency of answering your soul's calling because you are being invited in this moment to step in with both feet.
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Are you not?
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To not have one foot in and one foot out, but to say, oh, I'm plopping both feet on the other side of my dreams.
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I'm stepping through the portal.
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I'm stepping into the calling on my heart, the calling on my soul.
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This vibration of honoring and answering your soul's calling, it is such a powerful energy to be receptive to.
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And what I notice is either we are not picking up the call, we're saying not this week, or we're saying I'm not the kind of person who gets to, or we're saying I don't have what it takes, I'm going to speak about this with respect to me very soon.
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Or something a little bit more common, because babes, you've been answering the call.
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I feel like you've been taking aligned actions that your prior self only thought about.
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You've actually been embodying them.
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You're doing incredible.
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Now the elevator music is playing.
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We're getting a little bit bored.
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We're thinking, wait, why is it not happening already?
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Why is it taking so long?
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Why?
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I already posted the videos.
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I already advertised my event.
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I already signed up for the comedy open mics.
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What is, where is the dream dropping in?
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So the elevator music is playing.
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Ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba.
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And we're getting bored of waiting.
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We're saying, this should have happened by now.
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This should be my past.
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Because I've lived this in my dream so many times.
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Why is it not my reality?
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Why is it not?
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What's going on?
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So many of us, the invitation is to congratulate ourselves for answering the call, but then to devote ourselves to staying on the line.
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Because that vision has been given to you for a reason.
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You are envisioning this because you are the perfect channel to create it.
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No one else can give birth to what is on your heart in the precise manifestation that you can.
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So when we are showing up, we're taking the actions, we're posting the videos, we're writing these sub stacks, we're writing the book, but it feels like it's not happening fast enough.
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We need to honor the fact that it is so rare and we are rare souls.
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I know that you are a rare soul.
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Okay, you're a rare soul and it is so rare to stay on the line.
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It is so rare.
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People try once, they say, oh, they didn't respond to the email.
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Oh.
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My video didn't go off.
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The agent said no.
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The crowd didn't like me.
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And they give up.
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They drop the line.
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Oh, I guess I'm not supposed to be a singer.
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Oh, I guess I'm not supposed to be a dancer with no judgment.
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No judgment because we were conditioned to believe it's not safe to fail.
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And especially it's not safe to fail in public, which is why I have a video called The Courage to Flop.
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which is a deep, beautiful capacity that we all need to develop in order to show up for our soul's calling.
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So we need to answer the call, and this takes courage.
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We need to stay on the line, and this takes devotion.
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And we need to call back when the line drops.
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And this takes audacity.
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Or, oh, you said no.
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Oh, I'm going to ask another way or again or another person.
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So I want to walk you through a step-by-step example of what it means to answer the call and then to stay on the line.
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So I'm currently working on my first song, actually my first two songs.
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And the first song, Ghost Town, comes out in November.
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And it is bringing up so much for me stepping into this music invitation.
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It's bringing up so many limiting beliefs that I hold about myself.
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One of the biggest limiting beliefs is I'm not the kind of person who, I'm not the kind of person who gets to be a singer professionally.
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Those are for people who've been singing for decades.
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Or that's for that person over there.
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Or like, I've never known myself to be that.
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So then how can I now step into it?
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So all these insecurities of I'm not a good enough singer.
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There are so many singers out there.
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Actually, that's less of an insecurity because I'm like, well, what about my soul?
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It also came here for a reason.
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We're not gonna, I said this on my live portal, we're not gonna unsubscribe from ourselves.
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People may unsubscribe when you send the email, but you're not going to unsubscribe from yourself.
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So answering the call is saying, okay, yes, there is fear, there is doubt, there is perfectionism, there is uncertainty, but I know in my spirit
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There are songs in me that wake me daily.
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They keep me up.
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I'm haunted.
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I'm like possessed by them.
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It's not even a lot of people describe songwriting as this cathartic release.
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And we all have our process and it's all divine.
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And every project gets to be different.
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But I experience it as a possession.
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I'm being possessed.
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I'm like, okay, well, at some point I need to release this out of my spirit.
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Okay?
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Oh my word, that reminds me as we speak about this three-step process of answering the call, staying on the line, and then calling back when the line drops.
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A divine writer named Ehime Ora who wrote, Ancestors said and also spirits come from water.
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She's so magnificent, incredible, and sacred.
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She has this beautiful quote that says, Your body is not a coffin.
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Okay, so when we stay with all this creativity and we just let it die and sit within us,
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That's not what our bodies have come here to do.
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She says, put your work somewhere so that it can live.
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You know, let me get the exact quote.
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Okay, so here is the exact quote.
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These words are by Ehime Ora.
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You got to resurrect the deep pain within you and give it a place to live that's not within your body.
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Let it live in art.
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Let it live in writing.
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Let it live in music.
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Let it be devoured by building brighter connections.
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Your body is not a coffin for pain to be buried in.
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Put it somewhere else.
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Your body is not a coffin for pain to be buried in.
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Put it somewhere else.
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Hmm.
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Hmm.
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Oh, oh, well, you know, it's okay.
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I threw my phone for anyone who didn't see it and it dropped.
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That's okay.
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So the songs are possessing me.
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That is the call.
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The call sometimes feels like a haunting.
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Beyonce's beautiful lyrics.
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I know if I'm haunting you, you must be haunting me or the opposite.
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I know if I'm, yes, I think so.
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I know if I'm haunting you, you must be haunting me.
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So the call can look like feeling like an idea keeps coming to you and it comes and it comes and it comes and it stays within you like a pearl of your spirit that continues to be kept and protected for years.
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The call may come in the form of waking up late at night, feeling like you have been taken by something.
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The call can come in so many different ways.
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The call could feel like whenever you see someone doing what you want to do, you feel triggered.
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Because you know that is your future self calling you home to her, him, them.
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You know that they are a different version of you, but a timeline that you haven't fully aligned to.
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So answering the call is saying, I say yes.
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And inviting spirit source, God divine to say, okay, where do you want me to go next?
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What is my next most aligned action?
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And often it's not going to make sense.
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It's not going to be logical.
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And then your planning mind may try to over plan, over strategize something divine and miraculous that's trying to unfold.
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The stars are talking to you, babes.
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But are you listening?
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Well, the Chani app has got you covered.
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I am so excited to announce that Chani is officially a sponsor of the Soul Salon podcast.
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Oh my word, this is so magical.
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I literally feel like I'm in heaven right now.
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Chani is your fave's fave astrology app.
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I fell in love with Chani, the app, the minute.
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The person, absolutely incredible, absolutely a queen, absolutely phenomenal, sacred.
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But I fell in love with the app.
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The minute I downloaded it, it uploaded my birth chart.
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And then right underneath my birth chart, what were there?
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Three keys to my strategy chart.
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I read the first key.
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Literally, I sat there and I felt like this is reading me fulfilled word for word.
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Now, I'm not going to tell you what the three keys are.
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You're going to have to download the app to find out.
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But I screenshotted it and sent it directly to my bestie, Alex, which is also why I'm so excited to announce that Chani has just launched a brand new feature called Multiple Charts.
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This allows you to see up to 100 birth charts of your friends, your community, your crushes, your partners in depth.
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OK, I am so excited for the dreams, desires, challenges and gifts that I'm going to learn about my best friends, about my long distance friends.
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We are going to now stay cosmically connected because sometimes those chickens are not checking in.
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Okay, and unlike other astrology apps, Chani is completely AI-free, babes.
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Every single word was written by a human astrologer.
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Now, those are values.
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Those are principles.
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It's also queer and feminist-led.
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I mean, what more do I need to say?
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Chani has already taught me so much about myself, about honoring my Capricorn rising ambition, right?
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Because the ambition wants to ambush.
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And I'm so excited for you to become more consciously, cosmically connected to your community through the multiple charts feature and with Chani.
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Let's find each other in the stars, babes.
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Download the Chani app at the link below.
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Now back to today's soul session.
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So we're going to answer the call.
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And remember, think of a call.
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Is there a perfect way to answer a call?
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You could have it between your ear.
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You could be lying down.
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There's no perfect way to answer the call.
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We just need to pick up.
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Click that button.
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Whether your hands are greasy and you feel like, oh, the screen is going to get messed up, you click that button.
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You click that button.
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You click that button.
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You say hello.
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Okay.
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And then the call is going to ask something of you.
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Because your highest receiving comes from your highest giving.
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When you give, that's also what I'm experiencing with this music process.
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I was holding myself back and there's still blocks I'm still facing because I'm right at the beginning of this journey, right?
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I'm allowing you to step into what it's like for someone to crack open from a shell.
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This is the babiest, babiest step.
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But what I felt was that everything that I've been seeking to manifest is going to come from me honoring this calling.
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And it's the same with this podcast.
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The call came and I remember months and months, who am I to have a podcast?
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I don't have a PhD that we all have our stories, right?
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You definitely do not need a PhD to have a podcast.
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I, even all my favorite podcasts is none of them really have that.
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But yeah.
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It's like the voice of conditioning.
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I need to be qualified by someone outside of myself.
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This is why we had the permission portal, which you can grab the recording to below.
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You can purchase the recording to that incredible energetic container where we expanded our permission because when you expand your permission, you expand your life.
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So many people are walking around with gigantic,
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dreams and no permission to even lay a brick oh i want to be on a stadium but i'm not even allowed to send an email pitching my music to oh i want to be on a stage oh i want to be a best-selling novelist but i don't even give myself permission to show up imperfectly on a monday because i don't have the perfect block of time and i don't get to write unless i have a specifically two-hour block of saying you know so we're giving ourselves permission
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Okay, so that is we are answering this call.
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We are saying yes.
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We are taking imperfect action.
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We are not letting the greasy fingers stop us from picking up the phone.
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We're not allowing the fact that our battery is on 2% to stop us from just picking up the call, which is not a metaphor for a lack of rest.
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Please rest.
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Please restore.
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Please honor your seasons.
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But we are answering the call.
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We are answering the call.
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So I'm answering the call.
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I'm saying to the music, okay, okay.
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Use me.
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I will show up.
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Then what happens?
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If you have songs buried in your spirit, what do those songs need?
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To be finished, to be made, to be created, to be devoted to.
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So it's then that daily process of devoting myself to ushering and like, what's the word?
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Giving birth.
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being a birthing place, being the womb for these songs and allowing them to exist in a finished form.
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Because one of my sabotaging patterns was that I would start songs, but never finish them.
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So I would start a verse or I'd start a chorus, but then I'd never allow myself to finish it.
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Why?
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Because finishing a creative project takes a lot of courage because then you have to accept that it's actually done.
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And the divine creativity coach, Amy McNee, who's so powerful and will be a guest on the Salsa Lan.
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So both of them, Ehime Ora is going to be a guest virtually.
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And then Amy, it's all in the stars, either virtually or in person.
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And then Amy is going to be a guest in person.
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And she speaks about when you say something is finished, it's an act of vulnerability because when it's unfinished, you get to say, oh, but I can still make it better.
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Oh, but I can still change this.
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Oh, but I can still change paragraph one.
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And this with writing for me, this devastates me.
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My work is never done.
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It's always in a draft because it takes bravery, courage to say, look, I finished it.
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It's very vulnerable.
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So we're honoring the finishing.
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We're honoring the fact that that's what the call asked.
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So if you have the call to create a substack movement, we got to be willing to answer the call to write a substack essay.
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I don't have that call, but if you have that call, then honor that call.
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Okay, so we're going to take imperfect action because you are so powerful.
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And the calling has called you specifically at a frequency and level and vibration and volume that it's only calling you.
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I believe what is in your heart to share, no one can share on your behalf.
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So we're either going to be the void or we're going to be the vision.
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We're going to be the absence or we're going to be the commitment.
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Okay?
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Okay.
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So that's answering the call.
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Now we talk about staying on the line.
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This looks like following up.
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So many of you, so many of us are sending emails and never following up.
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I don't get that.
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You got to follow up.
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It's email.
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No one is like, oh, let me go respond to that email I got four weeks ago.
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No, you got to stay present.
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You got to stay like set a reminder on your calendar every week or every other week to follow up.
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If you want a dream opportunity, act like it, follow up, you know.
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Like if someone reaches out to you and then you think it's their fault for ghosting.
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No, it's no one.
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No one owes me.
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No, no, no.
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I follow up.
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Follow up.
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If you want to have someone on your podcast, they don't respond.
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You follow up.
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You follow up.
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You follow up.
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I don't chase.
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I attract.
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That's a lie.
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That's a myth.
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People who are living their dreams.
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They did both.
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I'm so sorry.
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Like so many of us, these tools are beautiful.
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It's beautiful language.
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And like, yes, there is an energy of chasing that I do think is obviously repelling.
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But there's a balance.
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Yeah.
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That could be Kerry Washington speaks about this.
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She says, like, I'm going to pray for my dream bus to arrive.
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But as that bus comes closely, I'm also going to run.
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I'm not just going to say, oh, but God will.
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No, I'm also going to run.
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It's a co-creation.
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That could be my bus, but I got to act like it.
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So if you know, I know that person is meant to be in my life.
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Well, I know that.
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I don't mean romantically.
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I know that that is also true, but I'm talking about creative collaborations, creative opportunities.
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I know I'm meant to collaborate with that brand.
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I know I'm meant to.
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you know, be in the universe of that person.
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I know I can help that person with their vision, but they didn't respond.
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What?
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Of course they didn't respond.
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Follow up, follow up, follow up, follow up, follow up.
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Set a reminder.
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Every, however frequency you want to follow up and you follow up, babes.
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I know that for me personally, if you email me, if you don't follow up, you probably won't hear from me.
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Probably, unless you are Trevor Noah.
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You're probably not going to hear from me because life is busy and you open the inbox and you're like, I'll respond.
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And then you forget.
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It's not even malicious.
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It's literally just mind, you know, the mind and life.
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And you have so many priorities.
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So if you know that what you are reaching out for...
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isn't their priority, it's yours.
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So that's why I don't agree if you say, oh, that person or like that opportunity ghosted me.
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What?
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Unless they actually did.
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What?
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It's not them who needs the opportunity, it's me.
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So I'm gonna follow up.
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Follow up like you mean it.
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Follow up like that's your buzz, okay?
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And then obviously at a certain point, you can stop following up.
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But keep following up because that's how you're gonna seal the deal.
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That's a closer.
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A closer follows up.
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People who like think about things and start things, they don't end up closing the deal.
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Because so many people just don't follow up with anyone.
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They send a DM, they're like, oh, but I sent it.
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What?
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Say what?
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Okay, anyways, back to soft love.
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That was a bit of a tougher love frequency.
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But anyways.
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You're so divine.
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I want that opportunity for you.
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That's why I'm saying it in this way.
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I'm like, I want that for you.
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I want what's on the other side of that email.
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So let's follow up.
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Let's be the ones who follow up.
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Okay, so that's staying on the line.
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Staying on the line is also, oh, this is no longer fun.
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This is, and then refinding the fun.
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Staying on the line is,
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like this isn't as dreamy as maybe the vision board made it seem.
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So I've had that with this podcast.
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I'm staying on the line.
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Like sometimes, you know, I never want to, like I love this podcast so much.
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And also the law of polarity, there are things about it that are challenging, but I stay on the line.
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Staying on the line is I'm devoted beyond the fantasy of how it's supposed to feel.
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So what happens in dating right now is no one is staying on the line because there's so many other people that you could call.
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So they just drop the line, drop the line, drop the line, drop the line.
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And so saying on the line is, okay, I'm in it.
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However long it takes.
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You know, some of our favorite musicians or writers, they were...
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doing invisible work for like 10 years before we found out who they were.
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So that's what staying on the line is.
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It's they had a calling and they kept showing up.
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They kept showing up.
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Jay Shetty speaks about how he would reach out to so many people for his podcast who said no, no, no, no, no.
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And now what's happening?
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They're lining up, babes.
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They're lining up to be on his show.
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I'm sure now it's like, you know what I mean?
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So that's an example.
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He stayed on the line.
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He stayed on the line.
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He stayed on the line.
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He stayed on the line.
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And every book we've ever read, they stayed on the line because they got the book idea.
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It felt exciting.
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Then they actually sat down and wrote the book.
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And I'm watching my best friend go through this.
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He's staying on the line.
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The book dream he's had since he was a child, he's staying on the line.
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He's showing up for the book.
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Even when there are seasons of rest, he's coming back.
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He's recommitting.
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He's returning.
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He's returning.
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The most powerful form of commitment sometimes is recommitment because it's the rare soul who comes back, who says, okay, fine.
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Yes, I stopped Substack or I stopped music or I stopped writing the book for two months.
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I took a break.
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I took a pause, but I'm an artist.
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My life is the art.
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I come back with richer perspective, richer understanding and meaning.
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But people who come back, oh, powerful.
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Staying on the line.
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Okay, staying on the line beyond how long you think it makes sense.
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That is so powerful, babes.
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Oh my word, your soul is calling, but are you staying on the line when you pick up?
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Your soul is calling, but are you willing to hold some of the embarrassment of staying on that line?
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Oh, because staying on the line can be embarrassing.
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It can lead to so much feelings of shame.
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Staying on the line is, why are not my videos are not popping off?
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So for me with this project, I'm like...
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I know I have a voice that was meant to be heard.
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Like I have a voice that was meant to be heard.
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Okay.
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I know that.
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And it took me, I didn't always know that.
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I didn't always know that.
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Go listen to the first hundred episodes.
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I didn't always know.
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This is the breadcrumb of my becoming.
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Each episode is me talking to myself as well as you.
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I didn't always know, but now I know.
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This is a voice that came here to be heard.
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So then there's 400 views.
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Now I know.
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Okay, wait.
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Okay.
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Let me just say, I know that for some people, that's so many views.
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And if those people in a room, that would be amazing.
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Obviously we grow.
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And once you've experienced, you know, videos with 200,000 views, then obviously it's a perspective thing.
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So first of all, the invitation is be grateful that there's 400 at all, because some people have four or two or one and 400 souls is amazing.
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But then there's also that feeling of like, how is it that I'm not where I know I could be?
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And then what will many people do?
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Drop the line.
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Fine, I guess I just won't have a podcast.
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Oh, I dropped the line.
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And there's the comparison and the envy or the fear of like not being good enough.
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I'm like, what am I doing wrong?
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Like, do people just not?
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And I'm like, no, no, no, no, no, because this is my archive.
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This is my mosaic.
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Someday, even if this interview or this video has 10 views, someday it's going to have 10 million.
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Some days it's going to have 10,000.
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Someday it's going to have 100,000.
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They're going to add three zeros.
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Then they're going to add four, then five, then six, because my voice always finds people at its most divine moment.
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And because I trust people.
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that the universe wanted to test my devotion because early success doesn't allow you to really see how devoted you are to something.
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Sometimes you need a period of things going a little bit dry, a little bit cold for you to really know how much you want to stay on that line.
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In fact, let me read to you about this.
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Just had to grab the phone from the floor where it fell.
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Oh, poet.
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Okay.
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let me read to you about the gift of not instantly succeeding.
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For anyone out there who's posting and not getting views or likes, who's, you know, reaching out to agents and they're not saying yes for your book, this is going to put things in a different perspective for you.
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The Artist's Journey by Kent Nürburne.
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It's called The Artist's Journey on Making Art and Being an Artist.
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And this part really stuck with me.
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It talks about the downfall of early success.
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So listen to this.
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Still, we should not be too hungry for success.
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Early success often contains a false promise.
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It is full of excitement and immediate passion, but almost unnoticed, it begins to turn your focus to what works rather than to the authenticity of your art.
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Those who have discovered you want you to replicate what you have already done.
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Your art begins to harden, to take form too soon.
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It is an aesthetic binding of the feet, impelling something that still should be growing toward a final form when it should be expanding and flowering.
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This is one of the great and unappreciated gifts of laboring in anonymity and obscurity.
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Your work is allowed to mature.
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You are free to experiment, to try different voices, to put on different artistic identities.
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It frees you from the pressure of outside scrutiny.
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And allows you to make mistakes without looking upon them as failures.
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Yet, working without success requires great strength of character.
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Working without external success is what he's talking about.
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Requires great strength of character.
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You must have faith that there is the spark of authentic talent within you.
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You must be able to persevere with only the love of your art as a driving force.
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These are strengths that many people, even people of great talent, simply do not have.
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Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm.
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These are strengths that many people, even of great talent, simply do not have.
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It takes a deep strength of character to show up when you're the only person in that room, when you're on stage and there's no one in the audience.
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It takes strength of character that most people don't have and you do have it.
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You do have it and you will claim it and you are claiming it.
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You have the strength of character to show up even when it seems like it's not working because you've already seen it worked in the cosmic realm.
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You've already seen what you've been shown.
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Let that be your evidence.
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We don't look to the outer world to be our evidence.
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We've already sourced it from a higher dimension of reality.
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So that's what it means to stay on the line.
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It's a level of commitment and devotion that most people don't have.
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And that idea that early success can be a downfall.
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I know that for me with TikTok, I went viral so early in my TikTok journey that sometimes I wonder, had that happened later, would I have had more of that time in that cocoon to develop myself and my voice and not back away due to the fear of success?
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So we think there's only a gift in early success.
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Our society tells us, oh, she's only 19 and she's already got a hit.
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Oh, they're only 21 and they've won a Grammy.
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Society tells us, oh, look, they're a best-selling author at 20.
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There's this ageism and this obsession with youth and making it early.
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What do we see of child stars?
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They haven't yet developed the vessel to hold all the energy that's coming into them.
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It's like lottery winners who crumble into despair.
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So had they had more time to mature, as Kent Nürburne says in this reading, we don't even know how much more they would have actually been able to be in alignment and integrity with the artistic voice.
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So we're staying on the line.
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We're doing what most people don't do.
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We're staying on the line.
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And then the last step is calling back when the line drops.
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And it's quite a similar frequency to staying on the line, but it's not allowing someone's no to be a final no.
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So many of us do this.
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I once watched this YouTube video of this woman saying that she had a partner boyfriend when she was very young.
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I can't remember the creator and I don't know how to find her.
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But she sang in front of him.
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This is so heartbreaking that this is how we treat each other, hold each other's art and how vulnerable we are.
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It's so beautiful on one hand, but also devastating on the other, because it means that sometimes even a whiff of rejection completely makes us take ourselves off the island.
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But she was saying that she loved to sing.
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And when she was maybe 17, she had an adolescent boyfriend, crush, who she was so into.
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And she sang in front of him.
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And he said she was a terrible singer.
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And she never sang again.
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For decades, she never sang again.
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And that story haunts me.
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It stays with me.
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Because how many of us can relate to that?
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We just stopped because someone said we weren't good enough.
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And I hold her with so much love.
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I'm not saying all she should have done is stay on the line.
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I hold it with so much love.
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I just wish someone else was on the line cheering for her to say, yes, you must sing.
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You can sing.
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Please sing.
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But imagine a world where we believe in ourselves and each other so much that we don't allow anyone to take our music.
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We don't unsubscribe from ourselves.
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The story I told at the Permission Portal was every time, every single time I send an email, as anyone with an email list will know, people unsubscribe.
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And it feels really devastating and embarrassing because it's like, oh, you scroll to the bottom of my words and you said, nope, never want to hear from her again.
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Never want to hear from her again.
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And it makes you feel like, am I doing something wrong?
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Am I being annoying?
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Am I da-da-da?
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But I've gotten to a place in my career and creativity where I'm like, I'm never unsubscribing from myself.
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Because in the past, I might be like, oh, let me not send as many emails.
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Let me be less A or less B in my emails.
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Let me not sell in my emails.
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Let me not be annoying.
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No, I'm not unsubscribing from myself.
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I'm not unsubscribing from my vision.
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And I'm not unsubscribing from the voices that I do know want to hear from me.
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I'm staying on the line, not just for my own heart, but for the people whose hearts I'm here to serve.
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So yes, those 400 videos may feel like, oh, that's not good enough.
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But what about all the people who are waiting to find me?
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I got to keep showing up so they can find me.
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You know what I mean?
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Yes, you do.
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Okay, so we're answering the calling, meaning we are taking imperfect steps.
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The only steps that spirit has given us to take are imperfect steps.
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So we're taking imperfect steps by answering the call.
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Actually, the first answer to the call is just to acknowledge that there is a call at all and that we want it.
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Like, I want that.
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I want that.
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I want that.
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I have that desire.
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And at the permission portal, we spoke about desire and the blocks we have in our own permission to want.
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So answering the call, honoring the wanting, taking aligned action towards the wanting, staying on the line, staying in the, don't love the idea of a ring, but staying in.
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the unfolding, longer than it logically makes sense.
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Because so many of our favorite artists did that.
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They kept showing up for their writing, for their music, for their speaking, far longer than it made sense to the people around them.
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Why don't you just give up for their business that they made if it's a loving business?
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Why didn't you just stop?
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No, there's no customers.
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No one's buying.
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It's not going to work.
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In fact, something I find so fascinating is there's the Netflix book says that will never work, which is what everyone around him told him.
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That will never work.
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That'll never work.
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That's just never going to... And what did Nelson Mandela say?
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He said, it always seems impossible until it's done.
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I think about that once a day.
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It does.
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It always seems impossible until it's done.
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Always.
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Every time.
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Because if you, you're a world builder, you are a, because you are something we've never seen before.
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So of course it seems like you're dreaming too big or you have too many desires, too many passions.
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It always seems impossible until it's done.
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So babes, I'd love to hear what was your biggest takeaway, your soul takeaway for answering your soul's calling from today's soul session.
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Yes, I am going to say, even when I'm writing lyrics, I'm like, how can I say the word soul?
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Where can the word soul appear?
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Can it appear again?
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How many times?
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I just love it.
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I love it.
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We're building the soul world, okay?
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We're living in an ego world, and I'm trying to co-create a soul world.
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That's where I'm trying to go.
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That came to me lyrically, because I'd never said those words before.
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But the soul world is a world where we all live from our soul, which is what I believe to be heaven on earth, to be paradise found on earth.
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And so when we're living in an ego world, we have something called beauty standards that have nothing to do with the soul.
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That's an ego world.
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The soul knows beauty, the beauty of a poem, the beauty of your mother's smile, the beauty of laughter between friends, the beauty of a sunset.
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That has nothing to do with what we're being sold to believe is beauty.
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And I originally learned that idea from a Substack writer called Jessica Dufino, who writes on beauty culture so powerfully and brilliantly.
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And I think that's so important.
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Like if we could return beauty to the soul world, oh my goodness.
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Like if we could live our music and our medicine, live in our hearts, say that hurt my feelings.
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Say I understand.
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Say I love you.
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Say I miss you.
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Say remember when?
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If we could reconnect with that soul frequency, I really believe we could recreate the world.
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So that's also what I'm standing for that.
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The Soul Salon, the Soul Siblings, we are usherers of a soul world.
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I really believe that.
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And if you're still here, babes, we are soul siblings.
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And we do things together.
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So please join the Soul Salon Collective.
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and join our space.
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People were sharing each other's Instagrams.
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It was such a vibe.
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I loved it.
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I'm so curious what the next portal will be.
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So join at the link below so you can stay in touch with the frequency and so we can kiki together.
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And also thank you for witnessing this unfolding because I am stepping into the next vibration of my, an iteration of my soul's calling.
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This was for me
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Answer the call that music is providing you.
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Stay on the line even when it gets challenging.
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And call back when people say no.
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Because so much is coming my way that I can't even see.
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But if I really honor this process...
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Oh my word, miracles on the other side.
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Miracles.
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And you've already seen it.
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You've already seen the miracles.
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So we're going to create them.
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We're going to be them.
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We're going to become them.
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I'm sending so much love to you.
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I'm sending so much love through you.
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You are divine.
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You are delightful.
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You are so generous to the world.
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And you have absolutely, you have what it takes.
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Absolutely, you have what it takes.
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Okay.
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You have known since you were a little child that you have something so magical inside of you.
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And society tried to say no, but you said yes.
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We're saying yes together.
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Okay.
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I know shame comes into the room.
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I know I'm never going to be the one who says I've overcome fear.
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I've overcome shame.
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I'm unapologetic.
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I love that word.
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I love the idea of it, but I am quite apologetic.
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And I love, I have a part of me that is unapologetic.
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And I love her.
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But I also have a part of me that's like, oh, I'm ashamed.
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And there is the saying that like when we do that, we keep each other small.
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But I think when we honor all the voices in us, we make the bar less high for the person on the other side.
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Because if you think I'm fearless, then you're going to be like, oh, I wish I felt like her.
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I'm not fearless.
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I got so many fears.
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I have 110 episodes basically about fear and the fears that I have.
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I have so many fears.
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I'm so afraid, but also I'm like bold.
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Okay, I'm bold.
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I'm brave.
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I'm courageous.
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I am courage.
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I'm a courageous woman.
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That's one thing I know I am.
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I walk into the fire of fear every single time.
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I'm going to walk.
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Okay, I don't do it every single time.
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But I'm going to walk into the studio of fear before my first song.
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I stood outside.
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I remember I'll never forget this moment.
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about to ring the doorbell of my producer's studio.
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And I waited and I stood there on this main street in London.
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And I thought to myself, what the fuck am I doing?
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Who am I to be doing this?
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What makes me worthy or deserving?
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Who am I to be making a song right now?
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Like whose life is this?
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I must be pretending.
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And I was so afraid.
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I was afraid I wouldn't be good enough.
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I was afraid my voice wasn't going to be good enough.
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And I just said yes.
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I said I'm going in.
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The word courage came to me.
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I rang the doorbell and I entered that door and I entered a new life, to be honest.
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So what door are you waiting behind, waiting to feel ready, waiting to not feel scared?
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Feel the fear and step in anyway.
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Feel the fear and answer the call anyway.
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We're doing that and we're doing it over and over again.
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Because when you face fear over and over again, it compounds to a place that you cannot currently even imagine.
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It compounds to a reality that you cannot currently even imagine.
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Oprah said that her life, it's not even that she dreamed of this life, that her life has surpassed her vision for what she ever thought was possible.
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And I'm sure it took so much courage for her to keep showing up.
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And still she's showing up today.
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So we're going to feel the fear.
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And we're going to step in.
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We're going to answer the call.
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We're going to stay on the line.
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And we're going to call back.
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It's a rare soul who does those things.
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And we are raised souls.
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Why not us?
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Honestly, why not us?
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You see someone on TV, you see someone on a magazine, you see someone on stadium, why not you?
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Why not you to be in that studio?
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Why not you to have that podcast?
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Why not you?
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Why not you to win that award?
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Why not you to have that reality, to have that future, to have that relationship?
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Why not you?
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Why not us?
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Why not us?
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We're miraculous beings.
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So we claim it.
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We claim the light that is ours to claim in this life.
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Okay, I'm sending so much love to you and I'll see you on the next soul session.
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I love you.
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Bye.
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My darling, my love, my soul sibling, thank you for stepping into the soul salon.
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If you are still hearing or watching this, we are soul siblings.
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We are resonating on the same frequency.
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And so something you may struggle with that I struggle with is the fear of being seen.
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You know that visibility is involved in you living your creative purpose and being in your power.
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serving the collective through your gifts through your magic through your medicine in order to do that you know you need to be more seen than you are allowing yourself to be right now i have a gift just for you heart made for us on this frequency
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And it is a free ebook called the soulful visibility guide that is soulful visibility.
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Like we don't just want to be seen.
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We want to be felt.
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We want to be heard.
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We want to move and be moved.
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So I do have a free gift for you.
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And all you need to do is go to my website.
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I understood.com.
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And there you will be able to input your email address and receive this directly to your inbox.
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This is such a juicy and delicious guide.
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And I change the free offering every few months.
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So, you know, get it while you can.
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All the links are in the show notes.
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So thank you so much.
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I love you.
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And I will see you on the next Soul Session.
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Okay.
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I love you.
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Bye.