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WAVE: Big Book Study with Corey Session Twelve - How it Works Part 2 · The Daily Ripples Podcast

• 0:00
  Hey guys, this is the Wave Book study and we are, I've kind of fought with myself of how to approach this.
• 0:08
  We're on page 60.
• 0:09
  Um, we just finished up with the ABCs on how and how it works and.
• 0:17
  You know, I come into this thing of like, should I, the way I approach this when I'm taking someone new through the work and I don't, I would, I kind of wrestled with.
• 0:26
  Do I want to go through page 60 to 63 or 60 to 64?
• 0:30
  And the reason is, because like the way it's, this is step 3 from 60 to 63.
• 0:37
  And then the bottom of 63 starts step four.
• 0:42
  Well, the process of it, and it's intertwined, and the way I take someone through the steps is I take them through 3rd step prayer.
• 0:52
  We do search that prayer, then I get them started on the 4 step.
• 0:56
  And so that's what we're going to do.
• 0:58
  We're going to go to 60 to 64 and um, yeah, but this stuff's important and I've found myself trying, some days, I, early on, I was reading this, these 3 pages every day.
• 1:11
  Um, because it talks about me and The way my sponsor took me through and it made it more personal, and I'll probably just take y'all through it that way because it, the way I take other guys through is I use their name.
• 1:25
  So, Oh, no money.
• 1:28
  My name's Corey.
• 1:29
  So, and you know, if you want to, you can, well, I'm kind of reading through this and kind of explaining it.
• 1:34
  Just think about your own name.
• 1:35
  And, um, you know, if it doesn't align with you, it talks about, you know, most people live by this way, but I, uh, I think it comes back into page 30 before we get started and page 30 tells me.
• 1:55
  The delusion that we are like other people are presently maybe has to be smashed.
• 2:01
  Um,
• 2:03
  And so I think that's important going into this.
• 2:05
  And so middle page, kind of not middle page, but where it says being convinced, that's where we're going to start.
• 2:12
  So it says being convinced we are a step three.
• 2:16
  I think that means we're at step 3 now, right?
• 2:19
  Which is that we decided, or let's do it this way.
• 2:23
  Being convinced that Corey was at step three.
• 2:25
  which is that Corey decided to turn his will and his life over to the care of God as he understood him. So like, what I like to do when I think about those words is turn my will.
• 2:38
  So I think will is means thoughts and life means action.
• 2:43
  So if I reworded that, it'd say, being convinced Corey was at step three, which is that Corey decided to turn his thoughts and his actions over to God as he understood him.
• 2:55
  Then it says, just what do we mean by that?
• 2:58
  And just what do we do?
• 3:00
  And so it says the 1st requirement.
• 3:03
  And I circled, and I circled some things, and I think this word is a big word. Requirement, the 1st requirement is that Corey be convinced that any life run on self self-will can hardly be a success.
• 3:18
  On that basis.
• 3:20
  We're almost on collision, we're always in collision with something or somebody.
• 3:26
  Even though Corey's motives are good.
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  So even though my motives are good, I usually, I'll run into people.
• 3:35
  And it's like, you know, I come into that place and if you think back about it on page 52, how it talks about like full of fear, could be a real help, could make a living.
• 3:44
  You know, I come into that, right?
• 3:46
  You know, I try and I try and I try, but I'm always in collision with life.
• 3:50
  Why isn't it working?
• 3:53
  And that's what, that's kind of like, you know, my thought behind that is that's where it connects to. And it says, most people try to live by self-propulsion.
• 4:01
  Well, we just talked about, the delusion unlike most other people has to be smashed.
• 4:05
  Some people do this very successfully.
• 4:07
  Some, for some reason, that 3rd part of the 1st step, right, unmanageability, man, like, you know, this is where I believe this comes through.
• 4:17
  Most people try to live by self-propulsion.
• 4:21
  Each person is like an actor who wants to run the whole show, is forever trying to arrange the lights, the ballet, the scenery, and the rest of the players in Corey's own way.
• 4:33
  If Corey's arrangements would only stay put if people, if only people would do as Corey wished.
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  The show would be great.
• 4:42
  So the show would be great.
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  If everybody would do just as I wished for them and me.
• 4:47
  Goes on to say everybody, including Corey, would be, please.
• 4:51
  And it doesn't say, you know, whatever, you all get the point.
• 4:53
  Everybody, including Corey, would be, please, life would be wonderful.
• 4:59
  for them and me, right?
• 5:00
  I think that's cool because, like, I think I know best for you, too.
• 5:03
  It says in trying to make these arrangements.
• 5:06
  Corey may be sometimes be quite virtuous.
• 5:11
  And like, virtuous is morally excellent, right?
• 5:14
  I might be so like, you know, morally excellent in my thoughts.
• 5:17
  I might, Corey might be kind.
• 5:21
  Consider patience, generous, even modest and self-sacrificing.
• 5:25
  On the other hand, Corey may be mean, egotistical, selfish and dishonest.
• 5:30
  I think about a lot, like, you know, in a relationship with somebody and coming into that place where, yeah, wait, do you sex, sex is a great example of this.
• 5:42
  Like, I can be patient, considerate, kind, generous when I'm wanting sex with my partner.
• 5:49
  You know, but what if I don't get what I want?
• 5:53
  On the other hand, I might be mean, egotistical, selfish, dishonest.
• 5:58
  Just trying to get my way, trying to make life, and you do what I want.
• 6:03
  And I don't do that in an array of ways, right?
• 6:06
  I'll do that at work.
• 6:07
  I'll do that, you know, when I'm just around people.
• 6:11
  Try to trying to get my way.
• 6:13
  Just, hey, man, like just being so nice to people and using people.
• 6:17
  Then it goes on to sale.
• 6:20
  But as with most humans, Corey is more likely to have varied traits.
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  What usually happens.
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  The show doesn't go off very well.
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  Corey begins to think life doesn't treat him right.
• 6:34
  Corey decides to exert himself more.
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  So I'm exerting myself to be even more patient, generous, even modest, self-sacrificing.
• 6:45
  Maybe I exert myself more to be more mean, egotistical selfish dishonest.
• 6:50
  Back to the text.
• 6:52
  He becomes on the next occasion, the same word, still more demanding or gracious as the case may be.
• 6:59
  Still, the play does not sue Corey.
• 7:03
  Admitting.
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  He may be somewhat at fault.
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  He is sure other people are more to blame.
• 7:09
  So admitting, Corey, admitting I may be somewhat at fault.
• 7:14
  Corey is sure that other people are more to blame, and this is where you separate all this stuff people talk about in every single meeting, and I don't care to give my opinion about this because I think it's important.
• 7:29
  Because if you play a part and I play a part.
• 7:34
  And something, I will always play less than a part than you, because the house always wins.
• 7:41
  And we're going to skip over just a hair bed to page 67.
• 7:47
  So, it says, on the middle paragraph, it says, putting out of our minds, the wrongs others had done.
• 7:55
  So I put out my mind what you have done to me.
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  And then it says, we resolutely look for our own mistakes.
• 8:05
  So resolutely means with determination.
• 8:07
  So with determination, that means nothing in the whole part of any part that you played and I played.
• 8:15
  Um, I use another sheet of paper for that, this piece of the inventory.
• 8:20
  Because if I think if I played a part and you played a part, you will always play a bigger part. The house always wins.
• 8:27
  When I get home, And my significant other has done the dishes.
• 8:33
  And clean, or she hasn't done the dishes.
• 8:37
  That's my job, but it's off, she has done laundry.
• 8:41
  Did play with baby all day, clean this, clean that, clean this, and I get home and I do the dishes.
• 8:48
  My doing the dishes trumps everything because the house always wins.
• 8:53
  Same with anything that I say with, I looked at my part.
• 8:58
  It doesn't say part anywhere in the inventory process.
• 9:01
  So I think that's just an important thing that we get misled on this because everybody in these other places and I do not look at what the literature says.
• 9:11
  And you know, the literature says right here.
• 9:14
  Admitting, Corey may be somewhat at fault.
• 9:18
  Corey is sure that other people are more to blame than it says this.
• 9:23
  And we're on page 61 in the middle if you haven't fallen along, but that's okay.
• 9:28
  Says he becomes angry and didn't self-pitying.
• 9:31
  What is Corey's basic trouble?
• 9:33
  Is Corey not a self seeker?
• 9:35
  Even when trying to be kind?
• 9:37
  Is Cory not a victim of the delusion that he can rest satisfaction?
• 9:42
  So I'm going to fix that word.
• 9:45
  Is he not a victim of the delusion that he can forcefully have satisfaction and happiness out of this world if Corey only manages well.
• 9:54
  So if I just do good, and everybody does what I want, the world would be great.
• 10:03
  Is it not adding to all the rest of the players?
• 10:05
  That these, that these are the things that Corey wants.
• 10:10
  Do you people not know what I want and what I need?
• 10:13
  Like, I mean, that's the thing, right?
• 10:15
  Like, I think everybody knows that, and you people can read my mind, and y'all know that Corey knows best.
• 10:21
  See, this is where you go come into this place of right.
• 10:25
  The 1st requirement is that we be convinced that any life's run on self-will can hardly be excess, right?
• 10:31
  And it says back here, it says it is not evident to all the rest of the players that these are the things he wants and do not hit.
• 10:38
  Corey's actions make each of them wish to retaliate.
• 10:41
  Snatching all they can get out of the show. Is Corey not even the best moment, a producer of confusion rather than harmony?
• 10:49
  And I'm going to show you guys real quick.
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  Where the promise to that is.
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  And what that means, right?
• 10:57
  So the promise of that is on page 88.
• 10:59
  And on page 88.
• 11:02
  It says, We do not tire so easily, for we are not burning up energy foolishly as we did when we were trying to arrange life to suit ourselves.
• 11:15
  Right, so I'm not running around foolishly.
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  And that's the promise, right?
• 11:24
  Because this looks like I'm a producer of confusion rather than harmony.
• 11:28
  I have been.
• 11:29
  Like, because I'm just out here point fingers and thinking that I'm a good manager over everybody.
• 11:35
  Now it goes on to say our actor.
• 11:38
  that we're back on 61 at the bottom paragraph, our actor is self-centered, egosentered.
• 11:44
  So like, It says over here, most people try to live by self-propulsion on page 60, but like, and it gives me this example of that.
• 11:53
  And then it goes on to say our actor is self-centered, ego-centric.
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  So to me, that looks like a higher degree of that right there.
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  As people like to call it nowadays,
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  Corey is like the retired businessman who lolls in the Florida sunshine and the winner complaining of the sad state of the nation.
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  The minister who sighs over the sins of the 20th century.
• 12:15
  Now, I like this part right here because it says politicians and reformers who are sure all would be utopia if the rest of the world would only behave.
• 12:27
  So if everybody did what I wanted them to do.
• 12:31
  And behave, it would be utopia.
• 12:34
  And what's cool about that is I, and I don't remember marching this book, but on page 15, back in Bill's story, this is, you know, this is the promise to this work as well, right?
• 12:47
  Bottom paragraph of page, or page 16.
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  I'm sorry.
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  Bottom paragraph of page 16, the last paragraph in Bill's story, it says most of us feel we need to look no further for utopia.
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  We have it right here and now.
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  Each day, my friend simple talk in our kitchen multiplies itself in a widening circle of peace on earth and goodwill to mint.
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  So it tells me that utopia is right here and now.
• 13:15
  Oh.
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  And so on the top of page 62.
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  It says the outlaw, the safecracker, who thinks society has wronged Corey, and the alcoholic, who has lost all in his lock locked up.
• 13:30
  Whatever our product stations are, not most of us concerned with ourselves, our resentments are self-pity.
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  And, um, man, I got so much highlighted and underlined through this page.
• 13:45
  I think, you know, it's probably best for you to decide what you want, but I would definitely, if you have a pen, if you have a highlighter, this, these next 2 sentences would probably,
• 13:57
  Well, some of the most important sentences of this book, it says selfishness, self-centeredness, that we think is the root of Corey's troubles.
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  So, we're not talking about alcohol.
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  We're talking about selfishness, self-centeredness.
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  That's my root of my troubles.
• 14:15
  Huh.
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  And the cool thing is, if I know the root of my troubles is that.
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  I'd imagine the opposite is that as helping others, just a guess.
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  Anyways, driven by 100 forms of fear, self-delusion and self seeking.
• 14:32
  And self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellas and they retaliate.
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  So I step on the toes of my fellows.
• 14:42
  So I like this view because it's been true in my inventory processes.
• 14:49
  It's like, I'll have this girl that what she did was, you know, had the name of the person, what she did was cheat on me.
• 15:01
  And it didn't make me, 3rd column didn't make me feel good, right?
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  But on the 4th column.
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  What did I do to her?
• 15:10
  Well, selfishly, I wasn't there.
• 15:14
  You know, I wasn't thinking about her, self seeking motives.
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  I probably wouldn't was talking to other women and giving my time to them.
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  I'd probably cheated on her already before she did it to me.
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  And I wasn't president of the present in the relationship at all.
• 15:29
  And maybe I was.
• 15:30
  Maybe I didn't cheat on her.
• 15:32
  Maybe I just wasn't present because I was drinking the whole time and not being a partner and not having my priorities, right?
• 15:38
  Because the priorities is in our home occupations and affairs.
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  And I usually at that time of my life when all these different things were falling in pieces, I had those backwards, right?
• 15:49
  Because people were, People, my affairs were my priority.
• 15:53
  My 2nd was my job to keep my affairs in London, and 3rd was my home.
• 15:59
  So, and then it says this, it says, sometimes they hurt us, seemingly without provocation, they didn't even know it.
• 16:08
  But we invariably find that at some time in the past, we've made decisions based on self, which later put places in position to be hurt.
• 16:15
  And I know we're just talking about relationships, but it's an easy subject because a lot of people go through them.
• 16:20
  But I have found in my life that I've had resentments at women, and it's not worked out with certain women, but really, where I put them in my life because it says right here, but we we invariably found that sometime in the past we made decisions based on self.
• 16:36
  So, I've put women in my life just because I didn't want to be alone.
• 16:42
  I didn't care about what they were about, what their morals were, what their philosophical convictions were, how who they were as a person.
• 16:50
  I just put them in my life.
• 16:51
  And then I'm mad about this because they're not this person that I wanted them to be, but I was, and I wasn't who they wanted to be because I was someone fake then too.
• 16:58
  It's interesting to me.
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  It says,
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  But we invariably found that sometime in the past, we made decisions based on self, which later placed us in a position, but be hurt.
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  And so this is the biggest promise I found through the 4th step, and it might not be what y'all want to hear if you haven't done this and haven't like got to experience this promise.
• 17:24
  But this is, I got promises and prayers, and I'll just tell you this is in pink right here.
• 17:30
  So it says, so our troubles we think are basically of our own making.
• 17:35
  And so if my troubles are of my own making.
• 17:39
  But I have all these people that I'm mad at, right?
• 17:43
  Then it's this person's fault.
• 17:46
  It's my mom and my dad and my birth mother, my birth father, this person, my sisters, that I don't really know, all these people, the baby mama.
• 17:56
  It's all these people's fault that I am this way.
• 17:59
  That's a lot of people to get right.
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  But when my troubles are of my own making,
• 18:05
  It's a lot simpler thing, right?
• 18:08
  Then we're just looking at one person, not 50 people.
• 18:11
  And that's simple.
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  That's a lot better for me.
• 18:15
  I think that's the biggest one of the biggest promises in this big book.
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  Says they arise out of ourselves.
• 18:20
  And the alcoholic is an extreme example of self well run right, though he usually doesn't think so.
• 18:27
  So I think that means I'm not going to know when I'm running on self-will.
• 18:31
  And so if I'm not going to know what I'm running on self-will, that means that I'm not going to see that.
• 18:40
  Um.
• 18:45
  So it goes on to say, Above everything, we alcoholics must be rather the selfishness.
• 18:52
  So I must is a big word right there.
• 18:54
  So it says I have to be rid of the selfishness.
• 18:58
  And then it goes on to say, Corey must or kills kills him.
• 19:01
  So I got must circled both in those 2 because it says it's going to kill me.
• 19:07
  That's pretty extreme, right?
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  But I think that's important.
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  Then it says, God makes that possible.
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  There often seems no way of entirely getting rid of self without his aid.
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  So I can't get out of self with just me.
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  And so it says, many of us have moral philosophical convictions, galore, but we cannot live up to them even though we'd like to.
• 19:31
  Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying our own power.
• 19:37
  We had to have God's help.
• 19:38
  And so we kind of talked about this back here on page 45.
• 19:45
  Um, well, bottom of 44, it says if a miracle of morals are a better philosophy of life were sufficient to overcome alcohols, then many of us would have recovered long ago, but we found that such codes of philosophies did not save us, no matter how much we trust.
• 20:03
  We could wish to be moral, we could wish to be philosophically confronted.
• 20:08
  In fact, we could will these things with all our might, but the needed power wasn't there, right?
• 20:13
  So I could try.
• 20:15
  I could read the self help books.
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  I could listen to you talk and, you know, say these cool things.
• 20:20
  I could hang around these people that said these cool things too.
• 20:24
  But, it tells me that I, it couldn't live up to them even though I'd like to.
• 20:30
  So it says, Neither can we reduce our self centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power.
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  We had to have God's help.
• 20:40
  It had to as like an absolute, right?
• 20:43
  I had to do something.
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  It's important.
• 20:45
  So Corey had to have God's help.
• 20:48
  This is the high line of it.
• 20:51
  First of all, we had to quit playing God.
• 20:53
  It did work.
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  Next, Corey decided that hereafter in this drama of life, God was going to be Corey's director.
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  He is the principal.
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  Corey is his agent.
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  He is the father.
• 21:07
  Corey is his child.
• 21:09
  Then it says this, and this is like this, I believe like all this is in conjunction to this, but it says, he is the father, wears children, most good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant art through which we pass the freedom.
• 21:28
  And as you guys listen to me, you probably know that I don't think about this stuff simply, and it probably hinders me in some ways of trying to help some people, because I probably lose them after I start talking about this stuff.
• 21:40
  But, you know, this is the, this is the way I view these things, and this is the way I kind of fits into my head, my head's like, it's a pinball machine.
• 21:49
  I think about these pages and how it all connects and, I do that with a lot of different things and, you know, my sponsor.
• 21:58
  This is one of the main things he likes to point me to when I'm getting a little out there.
• 22:05
  He, you know, he just tells me, Corey, you know, most good ideas are simple.
• 22:09
  And um, sometimes I don't like the simplicity of things and uh, because my brain, you know, I, I'm, I still got some falls in me, right?
• 22:20
  I'm still human.
• 22:21
  But, you know, that's, you know, so, but he brings me down to earth with that a little bit.
• 22:25
  And so in that sentence, it says that this was the keystone and of the new and triumphant arc.
• 22:32
  And, you know, just a minute ago, we talked about moral philosophical convictions.
• 22:36
  So this triumphant arc, if you know what a keystone is, the keystone meets an arc at the top.
• 22:45
  Maya, my sponsor likes to talk about it like the, uh, man, what is that thing?
• 22:51
  Oh, I hate that I don't know.
• 22:53
  It's the, uh, thing in the uh, back to the future that they're looking for in the DeLorean.
• 22:59
  It is the, uh, the, the, the space, no, the, uh, man, sucks that I don't know the name of this right now off the top of my head.
• 23:08
  The flux capacitor, that's what it is.
• 23:11
  So, what's interesting about the flood capacitor is because, like, once they get the flux capacitor into the DeLorean, takes them to the 4th another dimension, right?
• 23:22
  And what's cool about the keystone, right?
• 23:24
  The keystone meets at the arc.
• 23:26
  And it, if you imagine like the St. Louis Arc, and you got on one side, morals and the right side, conviction, or philosophical convictions, and that keystone is met at the top, where he is our, my principal and on his agent, where he is the father and on his children.
• 23:46
  That comes together, the ark is made right there.
• 23:49
  The keystone's made.
• 23:50
  God, when God is my center point.
• 23:53
  And that's, yeah, that's just what it said.
• 23:56
  I mean, you know, in a way that works is that's how it works.
• 24:00
  I wish we were passed to freedom and what's freedom, right?
• 24:02
  And I, you know, we're going to bounce around.
• 24:04
  It's okay.
• 24:07
  Bottom of 26 tells me what freedom looks like, you know, what freedom is.
• 24:12
  Gives me, and that's a promise.
• 24:14
  It says, the Bible of 26 says, but this man still lives and he is a free man.
• 24:18
  He does not need a bodyguard nor he's confined.
• 24:20
  He can go anywhere on this earth where other free men may go without disaster, provided he'd be willing to maintain a certain simple attitude.
• 24:30
  In that simple attitude, I know we're just hopping pages now.
• 24:36
  The simple attitudes on the bottom of a page 13 of Bill's story, it says, my friend promised me when these things were done, I would enter upon a new relationship with my creator.
• 24:45
  That I would have the elements of a way of living which answered all my problems, and these developments, belief in the power of God.
• 24:54
  Plus enough willingness, honesty, and humility to establish and maintain the new order of things were the central requirements.
• 25:03
  Central requirements.
• 25:05
  That's important.
• 25:09
  Back to the text on the bottom of page, or it was on the top of page 63.
• 25:14
  And, uh, yeah, these these words are really important to me.
• 25:20
  This is the 3rd step promise.
• 25:22
  And it's interesting, like, the way this page is set up.
• 25:26
  I'm just thinking about this right now, uh, and we'll get to it after we go through it.
• 25:30
  But anyway, so it says when we sincerely took such a position, all sorts of remarkable things followed.
• 25:36
  Corey had a new employer.
• 25:39
  It says we had a new employer, but I may make this a little more personal.
• 25:42
  Being being all powerful.
• 25:45
  He provided what Corey needed if Corey kept close to him and performed his work wealth.
• 25:51
  And, um,
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  You know, I think about that.
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  Do I have what I need today?
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  And I'll tell you yes.
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  What's really cool about that piece, right?
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  It says he provided what we needed if we kept close to him and performed his work well.
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  And if I was to tell a new guy taking them through this work, the way I approach that is, oh, well, I wonder what his work is.
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  The work is.
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  And well, we're on step three.
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  I'd imagine step 4 is the, you know, the next his, the next work, I just, in a structural sense, but, you know, am I doing God's work today?
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  Am I helping others, about living a life of spiritual principles, am I trying to be that kind of person in my family, in my, in my home occupations and affairs, and, um, man, I could wake up in the morning and sit right here and tell you yes.
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  That's a crazy deal for someone like me.
• 26:47
  I can always do better, right?
• 26:49
  Um, which is cool because I can keep on seeking and keep on doing this thing and, But it says he provided what we needed.
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  And what do we need?
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  And I could tell you, I'll tell you where the connecting feature or factor or whatever word I'm thinking of.
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  It's on the bottom, it's the bottom paragraph on page 85.
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  So as much has already been said about receiving strength, inspiration and direction from him who has all knowledge of power.
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  If we have carefully followed directions, we begun to sense the flow of his spirit into us. To some extent, we become god conscious.
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  We have begun to develop this vital.
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  So vital is life and death 6 cents.
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  But we must go further and that means more action.
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  So I'm still doing the work, right?
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  And that's on page 685 and that's on the end of the 10 step, but...
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  I enjoy the connections because that's kind of how my brain things, but here's some more promise, the whole paragraph is a promise.
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  So it says established on such a footy, we become less and less interested in ourselves.
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  Corey's little planes and designs, more and more, Corey becomes more interested in seeing what he can contribute to the life.
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  As Corey felt new power flow in.
• 28:08
  Man, so like, you know, all these places where it's talking about new power and power.
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  Uh, that's crazy.
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  You know, people say they're powerless and that's, because I, that tells me I have a new power flow in. As Corey enjoys, enjoy peace of mind.
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  As Corey discovered, he could face life successfully.
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  As Corey became conscience of his presence, talking about God's presence because that's his capitalized.
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  Corey began to lose his fear of today, tomorrow, or the hereafter.
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  Corey was reborn.
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  Says we were reborn.
• 28:47
  The reason I say it's interesting, like, you know, this page set up is cool because like that's the promise and here's the 3rd step prayer.
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  Um, So it says we were now at step three.
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  So, 60 says being convinced we were at set three.
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  And the 3rd step prayer right before it starts says we were now at step three.
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  It's interesting to me.
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  Then it says, so it goes on to say, middle paragraph of 63, many of us said to our maker as we understood him.
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  as we understood him, as in squiggly loans.
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  So it's not this person's guy, it's not this, it's your own understanding.
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  And I think that's important to know.
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  So it says, God, I offer myself to thee.
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  To build with me and to do with me as thy will.
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  Relieve me of the bondage of self that I might better do thy will.
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  Take away my difficulties, that victor over them may bear witness to those I would help, of thy power, thy love, and thy way of life, may I do, thy will always.
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  There's exclamation mark at the end of that.
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  So, That's important, right?
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  you know, what's my difficulties?
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  Well, my difficulties me.
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  And victor over me so I could bear witness to those I could help.
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  Right, because like, I got to get over me so I can go be of help to someone else.
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  And so the next sentence is funny because, you know, It says now it says, we thought well before taking this step, making sure we were ready.
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  So it tells me the prayer that it tells me we thought well before taking this stuff.
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  That's crazy.
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  So it's like kind of tricks me into this a little bit, but you know, that's why I think the structural sense is cool.
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  Because maybe if that was before that, maybe people have, hold on, I got to think about before I do this prayer.
• 30:42
  Anyway, so it says, making sure we were ready that we could at last abandon ourselves utterly to him, and abandon is a stronger word than your surrender than anything else.
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  It is completely pick up and walk away.
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  There's no white flag.
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  It's me getting out of there, right?
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  I've abandoned ship, jumped out, hopped out, abandoned myself utterly to God, as I understood it.
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  Now it says we found it very desirable to take this spiritual step with an understanding person.
• 31:15
  I think understanding person is someone that understands this work.
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  Then it goes on to saying, I've come into this with a couple different people and I've had them go home and make this prayer with their wife, but because it says, right?
• 31:30
  So understanding purchase such is our wife.
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  Best friend or spiritual advisor.
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  I could connect the dots, the spiritual advisor as a guy that takes people through the work.
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  Oh, but it's interesting that understanding person such as our wife comes first.
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  That's cool.
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  Because, you know, people talk about in the rooms that I hang out in there.
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  I don't make any big decisions.
• 31:55
  And like, this is like a huge decision right here, right?
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  This is like me giving my life over to this power that I don't understand what it is, but I'm saying, hey, abandon myself utterly to you.
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  That's not a big decision.
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  But what people say in these places and in these rooms, if you go read the book, it discredits a lot of people, but you know, that's okay.
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  And I mean, I was listening to this dude talk and he was talking today about, and I was listening to him and he was like, man.
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  You know, people think I try to act special or like, you know, this way because I'm so radical.
• 32:30
  And I'm not radical.
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  I just read, and I think it's important to read the instructions, right?
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  And know what the instructions say.
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  If this is a design for living.
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  This is what it says.
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  So it says, but it is better to be God alone with one who might misunderstand.
• 32:49
  So it's better, like in, you know, this time, right?
• 32:51
  They were given this book out back in the 1939 and sending it out.
• 32:55
  You know, it probably was better to meet God alone than someone who might misunderstood, stand it, that just has this book, right?
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  Says the wording was, of course, quite options optional, so as long as we expressed the idea.
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  Voicing it without reservation.
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  This was only a beginning, though if honestly and humbly made, in effect, sometimes a very great one was felt in once.
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  So like, I like to have somebody that I'm taking through the work, read this paragraph first, right?
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  Because it kind of gets, you know, my sponsor, you know, asked me if this is what I did with guys and, you know, I told him no.
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  And I started doing it because I found myself and have a way with words to some extent and, you know, especially someone vulnerable and with their life broken down, like I can kind of got a conversation.
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  And you know, so when I was taken into this book and we come up to this prayer, you know, I can just run them through it.
• 33:55
  Um, but I find it best to have them read this paragraph 1st to give them the option to say, hey man, I don't really want to do this.
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  And that's cool.
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  I'm cool with that today.
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  Like, I'd rather, you know, you tell me you don't want to go through this work than find out, like, you know, halfway through more than this, that, like, this wasn't for you. And it's cool if this isn't for you.
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  We hold no monopoly.
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  But, you know, or if I might not be an understanding person to you.
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  That's cool too.
• 34:27
  Like, but I think, you know, it gives them the option.
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  It gives you the option to do that.
• 34:31
  And so that's kind of like the, the engulfing of the 3rd step, but I don't think you can stop there.
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  because the next sentence at the very bottom of page 63 says next we launched out a course of a vigorous action.
• 34:48
  So, there's not like, I'm on step three, because if I'm on step three, then I need a lower total course of vigorous action, the 1st step of which is a personal house clique.
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  Which many of us have never attempted.
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  Though our decision was a vital life and death and crucial step.
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  It could have little permanent effect, unless followed by strenuous effort to face and be rid of the things in ourselves which had been blocking us.
• 35:16
  So there's a lot to pack right there and it's, uh,
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  So it says, the decision could was a vital and crucial step, but it could have little permanent effect.
• 35:29
  And this is where it comes back in and we kind of touch on this on page 30 and there's a couple different places.
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  But, um, on page 33.
• 35:41
  Mill of page 33.
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  It says if we were planning to stop drinking, there must be no reservation of any kind, nor any lurking notion that someday he will be immune to alcohol.
• 35:51
  Is he, and then it goes on to say right here, right?
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  It could have little permanent effect.
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  Right?
• 35:57
  So back on page 64, it says it could have little permanent effect.
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  So like, do you want this to be a permanent effect or not?
• 36:03
  And if so, let's keep rolling.
• 36:06
  then it tells me what to do if it does. as unless everyone's followed by a strenuous server, the face would be rather the things that ourselves have been blocking us. Well, blocking us off from what?
• 36:17
  And, you know, I think when I look at what's blocking me, I go to the next page, but just so we can understand what we're talking about, because it says we're harvesting such feelers, we shut ourselves off in the sunlight of the spirit.
• 36:32
  So I'm shutting myself off from the sunlight of the spirit.
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  With things blocking.
• 36:39
  It says, uh, We found the great reality deep down within us.
• 36:45
  So where it says, we found the great reality deep down within us.
• 36:49
  So that's where God is.
• 36:50
  So if all these stuff, all these different things I've been pushing down right in my life, um, is blocking me, so it's blocking me forgotten, which is also deep down within me.
• 37:01
  Uh, sorry for the brain block for a second.
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  I couldn't think about where I was going.
• 37:06
  Anyway, so what have been blocking me?
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  All the stuff I've been pushing down.
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  And if God's the great reality is deep down with him and all this stuff is deep down with him.
• 37:15
  That's why we got to get unblogged because if I need to have this clear conscious contact with God, I got to get unblogged for that stuff.
• 37:23
  I got all the stuff, these resentments.
• 37:25
  I'm mad at the world of fearful at everything.
• 37:28
  My conduct through my life has just been crazy. And I'm full of shame, remorse.
• 37:35
  I don't know how to even look at it.
• 37:36
  And that's why this is so important because it says, our liquor back on page 64, the bottom of the 1st paragraph, our liquor was but a symptom, so we had to get down the causes and conditions.
• 37:47
  What's the causes of conditions?
• 37:49
  Then it goes on to say.
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  Therefore, we started upon a personal inventory.
• 37:54
  This was step four, a business, which takes no regular inventory usually goes, bro.
• 37:59
  So that might mean I die. If a business goes broke, it goes under.
• 38:03
  If I go broke, I might die.
• 38:05
  I don't know.
• 38:06
  Taking a commercial inventory is a fat, finding, searching, fat face.
• 38:11
  So it doesn't say searching, but I have searching over from those word fat finding and fat facing.
• 38:15
  So I think that's interesting process of searching a fearless process.
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  Is it an effort to discover the truth about the stock in trade?
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  One object is disclosed, damaged or insellable goods, to get rid of them promptly without regret.
• 38:31
  If the owner of the business is to be successful, he cannot fully himself about values, about truth, right?
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  His values is true.
• 38:39
  We did exactly the same thing with our lives.
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  We took stock, honestly.
• 38:45
  First, we searched out the flaws of our own makeup, which caused our failure.
• 38:51
  So there's flaws and mode, makeup, which caused my failure from the start before I even took a drink.
• 38:57
  That says being convinced that self-manifested in various ways.
• 39:02
  Well, what's the various ways?
• 39:04
  Well, it told me this over here on page 62, right?
• 39:06
  It says, Selfish and self-centered.
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  That we think is the root of our trouble, driven by 100 forms of fear, self-delusion, self- seeking and self-pity.
• 39:16
  I imagine those are some of the manifestations to sell.
• 39:19
  Back on 64.
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  was what had defeated us, we considered it common manifestation.
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  So those are common manifestations.
• 39:28
  Then it goes on to say resentment is the number one offender.
• 39:32
  And I think it is an important thing that we understand that it is not the only offender.
• 39:37
  It's as far as some people get this work, that I think a good representation of some other, some other offenders is on page 147.
• 39:48
  And it says, on page, is it page 147?
• 39:53
  Um, no, it's 145.
• 39:55
  Sorry.
• 39:55
  It says the greatest enemies of alcoholics.
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  So it says resentment is the number one offender.
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  We got that right.
• 40:03
  So then it goes on to 145.
• 40:05
  It says the greatest enemies of us alcoholics are resentment, jealousy, envy, frustration and fear.
• 40:13
  Huh.
• 40:14
  Interesting.
• 40:15
  So, resentment is the number one offender back on 64 destroys more alcohols than anything else.
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  For a minute, stems all forms of spiritual disease.
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  For we have been not only mentally and physically ill.
• 40:27
  So, mentally, after I mess stuff up in my life, I go drink, physically, I take drink right after the physical craving, right?
• 40:37
  You know, we had been spiritually sick.
• 40:40
  Right.
• 40:40
  So mental physical, spiritual.
• 40:42
  When the spiritual mality is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically.
• 40:47
  So, if I quit worrying about the middle, quit worrying about the physical, focus on the spiritual.
• 40:52
  It says I straighten up mentally and physically, right?
• 40:55
  And so in the family afterwards, it says, man.
• 41:02
  I'm not doing good with my...
• 41:07
  Okay, on page 127.
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  bottom of the middle paragraph.
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  So it says, for us, material well-being always follows spiritual progress.
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  It never proceeded.
• 41:17
  So that's material well-being also, but go ahead of the, uh, spiritual.
• 41:22
  So spiritual is over everything.
• 41:24
  That's what this book is telling me, I think.
• 41:26
  It says in dealing with resentments, we set them on paper.
• 41:30
  We listed people, institutions and principles who we were angry.
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  So if you're following me and want to just go through this work while I'm talking, that's cool.
• 41:38
  So the way I take do this and it's different from other people is far left corner of a piece of paper, right?
• 41:49
  who I was resentful at.
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  And it could be either people, institutions and principles.
• 41:55
  And write their name.
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  and I like college rule, but you could use wide rule or whatever.
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  But, um, write a name and skip 8 luns and stay with a left sheet of paper and if you're in a notebook.
• 42:07
  Don't write on the right sheet of paper.
• 42:09
  I don't know if that's too confusing for me explaining this, but last sheet of paper.
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  Far left, right name, skip 8 loans, right next name.
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  If you got more than one resentment for that person, write their name again.
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  Then skip 8 lines.
• 42:24
  And all we're doing is riding people, institutions and principles, institutions is.
• 42:31
  A lot of people getting some trouble with the law around these places and maybe that's an institution.
• 42:37
  Maybe it's a work.
• 42:38
  Maybe it's a school.
• 42:39
  Maybe it's a place of something, right?
• 42:42
  And principles or probably some simple things that you kind of grew up with.
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  Like, men make the money.
• 42:49
  Or, you know, women do all the dishes, whatever that is, there's principles that like we grew up with or saying, I got, bless you.
• 42:58
  I know a guy that gets so mad when you say, bless you, after someone sneezes, you know, because it interrupts, and he's like, that's not anyways, it doesn't matter.
• 43:06
  That's a principle that some people live by.
• 43:08
  Whatever it is, list them out, and what's really cool is that's it for this part of this work, and next week we'll go through some more, but I think it's important to stop there, because it gives you a beginning, and it tells me on this other page right here.
• 43:24
  Well, the way I'll do this is next week we'll go through the other 3 columns.
• 43:28
  Oh, I'm not going to sit on a column each week, but it is important to know it says next launched out on a course of vigorous action.
• 43:38
  Anyways, guys, thank you for listening, man.
• 43:41
  So my brain's kind of all over the place.
• 43:43
  I got a kitty cat nulling at the door in my room where I'm recording this ad and maybe I like to, I like to take other people down.
• 43:52
  See, that's that's exactly what I'm talking about.
• 43:55
  Admitting he made me somewhat at fault.
• 43:57
  He is sure that other people are more to blame, even a kitty cat.
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  I like to do, though.
• 44:01
  I like to take people down with the ship.
• 44:02
  But thank you guys for listening, man, like I, uh, it's been fun, and then I'll, we'll talk again next week.