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Who Are You When the Mic Is Off? | Real Talk with Dr. Dee Fomby | EP138 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Hey, you guys, I am defund be and I'm super
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  Speaker 1: excited to be here with Jess ask the podcast. I
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  Speaker 1: have the phenomenal opportunity to be here with your host
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  Speaker 1: Just as oh my goodness, So you guys, I'm excited
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  Speaker 1: you and give me an opportunity to ask you guys
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  Speaker 2: So she is the reason why Desiraate and Josica are things.
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  Speaker 1: and what you guys have been able to build and
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  Speaker 1: also the friendship that you all have been able to establish. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: so just seeing this and allowing me to be a
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  Speaker 1: part and to sit in the seat, I don't.
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  Speaker 2: Give my seat up.
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  Speaker 1: No, no, yes, well, thank you for allowing me to
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  Speaker 1: sit in your seat on today. Thank you de Ray
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  Speaker 1: for allowing me to be here. I'm the one that
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  Speaker 1: is very honored. So I'm gonna ask you guys just
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  Speaker 1: a question, and I want you to just be honest, open, transparent,
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  Speaker 1: because this is a safe space.
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  Speaker 2: Now.
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  Speaker 1: Please know you guys that they do not know what
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  Speaker 1: I'm about to have. No, we're sitting over there like.
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  Speaker 2: We got any questions ahead of time.
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  Speaker 1: We just you know, just trusted me. We just I
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  Speaker 1: just came well actually I just came up with this.
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  Speaker 3: Watching I said, and we're crazy and know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, that's how we got here. And so excuse me
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  Speaker 1: if I you know, don't look at my look.
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  Speaker 3: No matter what I wear, period, because baby, I appreciate that.
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  Speaker 2: I appreciate that. So I want to go ahead and
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  Speaker 2: get started.
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  Speaker 1: So everybody already kind of know, like who you guys are,
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  Speaker 1: but what we would like to know is who are
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  Speaker 1: you when the cameras are off? Who are you when
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  Speaker 1: the mic is off? Who are you when you don't
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  Speaker 1: have a title and you're not trying to.
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  Speaker 2: Fulfill the need of other people?
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  Speaker 3: That's good, that's real good you want first, I would
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  Speaker 3: say that I I'm still learning it. I'm still learning
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  Speaker 3: because like I've shared before that I've I invested in
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  Speaker 3: being the doer, Like I invested in.
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  Speaker 2: What I thought was productive.
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  Speaker 3: And if I wasn't producing anything, I didn't think I
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  Speaker 3: had any value, right.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't think that I was important enough to just be.
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  Speaker 3: And so lately Jessica has been at the house.
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  Speaker 2: I've been at the.
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  Speaker 3: House like you can catch me at home, and I've
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  Speaker 3: been learning myself and enjoying myself. We recently went to
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  Speaker 3: the pottery class and I learned something about myself. There
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  Speaker 3: was like I don't like doing all their talking, like
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  Speaker 3: people think all I want to do is talk.
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  Speaker 2: I know.
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  Speaker 3: People really think all I want to do is see here,
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  Speaker 3: have conversation. Now, the Holy Spirit in me like really
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  Speaker 3: ignites some things. During certain conversations, it will, but most
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  Speaker 3: times I didn't want to be quiet.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah and just listen.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: I think that's a good statement for you to make
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  Speaker 1: because having big personalities the way that we have, oftentimes
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  Speaker 1: people think that we're entering into a room and our
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  Speaker 1: goal is to take over, take over the conversation. They
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  Speaker 1: feel like we have a takeover spirit. And the truth
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  Speaker 1: of the matter is is that we rather sit in
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  Speaker 1: the back of the room not have to really say anything.
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  Speaker 1: And oftentimes I revert to being an introvert, and I
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  Speaker 1: have anxiety that a lot of people don't know about
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  Speaker 1: when it comes to entering into a certain space. But
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  Speaker 1: when you see me, I show up differently because I
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  Speaker 1: know that's where my anointing lies. My anointing lies in
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  Speaker 1: me being an extrovert. I rather sit in who I
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  Speaker 1: feel like I'm naturally created to be, if that is.
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  Speaker 2: As an introvert. So thank you so much for sharing that.
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  Speaker 1: So does a ray like in your time, like in
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  Speaker 1: your space, who are you?
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  Speaker 5: I would say, at the heart of me, I'm still
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  Speaker 5: a creative, you know what I'm saying. So I love
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  Speaker 5: and I'm an only kid, So I actually kind of
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  Speaker 5: enjoy being by myself sometimes, you know what I'm saying,
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  Speaker 5: And I'm okay with that. I find myself. I love
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  Speaker 5: like HTRETV. Like I don't watch TV that often, but
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  Speaker 5: if I do turn a TV on, it's gonna be
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  Speaker 5: on something that my mind does not necessarily have to
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  Speaker 5: process and think through something, right, So I just love
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  Speaker 5: to sit there watch them paint houses and things. My
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  Speaker 5: mom is a she souls, so I'll even sit down
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  Speaker 5: and just think about like creatively. Like I remember when
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  Speaker 5: I was at one point in time. I'm like, I
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  Speaker 5: don't know how I did this. When I was fresh
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  Speaker 5: out of high school, I went into a junior college
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  Speaker 5: and I was playing basketball, I was working part time
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  Speaker 5: at Walmart. I was doing hair on the side still
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  Speaker 5: like going to class, and I work part time at
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  Speaker 5: the beauty supply store, and I just.
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  Speaker 2: Remember walking in there.
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  Speaker 5: I will and this is how I got to know
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  Speaker 5: Suji in So I would go in there and I
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  Speaker 5: would literally be in there for like thirty minutes an hour,
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  Speaker 5: literally just walking around and looking at all the hair,
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  Speaker 5: looking at all the accessories.
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  Speaker 2: In my mind it's like, ooh, you could do this this.
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  Speaker 5: So I feel like at the heart of who I am.
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  Speaker 5: I'm a creative, but I love to sit in nature.
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  Speaker 5: I love to go, I love to sit in the parks.
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  Speaker 5: I love music, and I also love to do community
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  Speaker 5: with people. That's that the Lord has connected me with
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  Speaker 5: do community with So I'm a doer at heart as well.
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  Speaker 5: And so I've really been trying to sit in a
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  Speaker 5: season where the Lord, I think, has me in a
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  Speaker 5: space of receiving. Oh that is so good, you know,
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  Speaker 5: and it's it's and it's hard for someone who loves
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  Speaker 5: to give and doing all these things. And so I've
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  Speaker 5: been literally having to sit and talk to the Lord
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  Speaker 5: a lot more about this current space that I'm in
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  Speaker 5: because it's a little overwhelming.
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  Speaker 1: It's definitely overwhelming when God is trying to pull something
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  Speaker 1: else out of you that you're not naturally just tapping into.
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  Speaker 1: And it's during those times that God put us in
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  Speaker 1: a very uncomfortable situation. So do you, guys, feel like
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  Speaker 1: there are times where you feel like you are performing
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  Speaker 1: versus just living in the space and even in the
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  Speaker 1: identity that God has given you.
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  Speaker 3: I would say I feel like I always gotta be on,
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  Speaker 3: because if I'm not on, folks be like what's wrong
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  Speaker 3: with your what's wrong?
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  Speaker 2: Why you ain't talking? Why are you getting quiet?
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  Speaker 3: Bro?
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  Speaker 2: I need a break. I'm tired.
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  Speaker 3: So I wouldn't even think because I do embody this
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  Speaker 3: part of me. I really feel like that this is
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  Speaker 3: who Jessica is I am. But the safety and the
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  Speaker 3: comfort I need the other side, like I need to
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  Speaker 3: be quiet, like I would prefer that. But I feel
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  Speaker 3: like a level of it is performance because there there's
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  Speaker 3: there's a marketable side of everyone, right, and I feel
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  Speaker 3: like when I'm not that marketable side, I don't use
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  Speaker 3: that marketable side to draw right. I think that the
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  Speaker 3: performance is the like the desert for instance, Deli Ray song.
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  Speaker 3: I'm always do Desit Ray songs because it's marketable, you
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  Speaker 3: know what I'm saying, Like I'm gonna always sing her
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  Speaker 3: name for what I love singing.
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  Speaker 2: You know everybody everybody loves They remember that song better
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  Speaker 2: than they remember.
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  Speaker 3: Just asked like it's pain. So I get there that
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  Speaker 3: that's needed to be able to allow people to be comfortable.
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  Speaker 3: But as far as like just being on, like I
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  Speaker 3: feel like I'm always I am always that person, always
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  Speaker 3: having to be on because when I'm.
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  Speaker 2: Not, people think something's wrong. So that's the right.
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  Speaker 1: Let me ask you, so when do you have an
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  Speaker 1: opportunity not to be on.
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  Speaker 2: When I'm in my quest in my private space.
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  Speaker 5: I was just thinking about as Jessica was talking, and
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  Speaker 5: kind of what you said early on is I know
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  Speaker 5: my the my anointing lies in me interacting with people, right,
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  Speaker 5: So what happens is kind of the same, Like I
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  Speaker 5: show up. Most people don't even know that I'm like
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  Speaker 5: introverted because of my personality because I'm fun, you know,
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  Speaker 5: and I just like to have.
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  Speaker 2: A good time.
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  Speaker 5: And so if you don't know the other side of
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  Speaker 5: me kind of the same thing, you would think something's wrong.
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  Speaker 5: I remember I had a friend to come stay one time.
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  Speaker 5: She was in town and she needed a place to stay,
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  Speaker 5: and I was like, oh yeah, girl, absolutely, And so
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  Speaker 5: it was so interesting because that was her first time
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  Speaker 5: in my personal space. And so after she left, maybe
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  Speaker 5: like a week or so later, she sent me a
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  Speaker 5: voice message and was like, Hey, you know, I don't
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  Speaker 5: think it feels like you didn't really want me there
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  Speaker 5: because you wasn't really like, you know, engaging.
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  Speaker 2: But my thing is like, hey, I for you to
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  Speaker 2: actually be in that space, that means I trust you.
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  Speaker 5: I said, Hey, here's everything, like refrigerator right here, the
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  Speaker 5: bathroom right here, like what you need, and I'm going
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  Speaker 5: to be right here in my space. But there's still
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  Speaker 5: moments that we interacted as things like that. But because
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  Speaker 5: I wasn't who she is normally used to be seeing outside,
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  Speaker 5: she thought that something was wrong and nothing was wrong.
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  Speaker 2: That's wrong. I didn't want to talk.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, you know, whats so ironic is that when Jessica
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  Speaker 1: and I we were doing the pottery class and we
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  Speaker 1: were just embracing the moment of what we were doing,
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  Speaker 1: and we were not talking to each other, and in
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  Speaker 1: my mind I was thinking, like, wow, do I need
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  Speaker 1: to engage her to let her know that I appreciate
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  Speaker 1: being here? Do I need to make her feel differently
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  Speaker 1: versus just embracing the moment. And then afterwards we both
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  Speaker 1: talked about it and we really enjoyed just having the
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  Speaker 1: company of each other, but being able to be in
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  Speaker 1: each other's presence without having to say anything. And to me,
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  Speaker 1: that's showing me that you that you honor the presence
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  Speaker 1: of the person, but it's also safe to sit quietly
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  Speaker 1: in someone's presence. Because this leads me to my next
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  Speaker 1: question when you when you feel that or people expect
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  Speaker 1: for you to just show up and be the extroverted person.
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  Speaker 1: Sometimes people are not able to see when you're not strong,
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  Speaker 1: which means that you both are considered the strong person,
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  Speaker 1: which I want to ask you, how do you communicate
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  Speaker 1: your needs when you are not that strong person?
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  Speaker 5: I'm if I'm honest, that's still a space. That's a
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  Speaker 5: space of opportunity for me to because I just naturally
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  Speaker 5: internalize everything like I've I'm not I haven't been the
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  Speaker 5: type to be like, hey, I got this going on,
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  Speaker 5: this is going on, or wooa, woe's me? Like I
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  Speaker 5: always have been in a space where things would happen,
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  Speaker 5: I'm like, all right, Lord, I will process it mentally
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  Speaker 5: like okay, well we gotta do and I'll just go
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  Speaker 5: forth in the thing. But now I'm in a season
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  Speaker 5: where the Lord is really stretching me to just open up,
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  Speaker 5: like specifically with save the safe people that he's put
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  Speaker 5: in my in my space, and so I just have
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  Speaker 5: to trust that the people that I know that are
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  Speaker 5: around me are safe enough and have the capacity to
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  Speaker 5: handle that because we are we Sometimes as the strong person,
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  Speaker 5: you may feel like what you're holding and dealing with.
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  Speaker 5: It's too much for people, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 5: So I have to trust that hey, I can say hey,
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  Speaker 5: like even even like heading to recording, I had tested yes,
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  Speaker 5: I said, hey, we're gonna start at this time because
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  Speaker 5: I had literally woke up and I just didn't have it,
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  Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. And so I'm grateful that
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  Speaker 5: it wasn't like like a whole back and forth kind
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  Speaker 5: of thing, which is honestly like in that moment, I
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  Speaker 5: just didn't When I woke up, I was like, dang, Lord,
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  Speaker 5: this is a lot. I just don't have it to
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  Speaker 5: get up right now? Can I just have an extra minute?
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  Speaker 5: So when I got when I when we got here,
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  Speaker 5: she gave me a hug because I knew because I
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  Speaker 5: know that she may not have known what was going on,
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  Speaker 5: but she probably sensed it right.
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  Speaker 1: And then I was here, yes, and that's something like
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  Speaker 1: crazy like And then I was here no, like for real,
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  Speaker 1: Lord just led me to be able to speak to
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  Speaker 1: a space that I didn't know needed to be feeled
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  Speaker 1: like me being here. They have no idea like this
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  Speaker 1: is such a setup. It is such a setup from God.
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  Speaker 1: But I love God like moment like this, because he
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  Speaker 1: see what you're doing and he's willing to take care
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  Speaker 1: of you in the midst of it. And it reminds
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  Speaker 1: me of the prophet Elijah when he went through that
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  Speaker 1: moment of depression.
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  Speaker 2: That God watched this. Y'all.
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  Speaker 1: God did not rush him out of depression. Come on,
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  Speaker 1: I come on, yeah, God did not rush him out
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  Speaker 1: of depression.
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  Speaker 2: God took care.
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  Speaker 1: Of him, but he limited the amount of time that
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  Speaker 1: he could be in that depression. However, God is so
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  Speaker 1: concerned about us, come on, and all of this that
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  Speaker 1: we're doing, like it is great, how we're helping other
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  Speaker 1: people and all of that. But God is concerned about
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  Speaker 1: you as his daughter. And so the reason why he
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  Speaker 1: would allow Jessica to have the grace the patience to
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  Speaker 1: just come in, notice you and hug you through that,
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  Speaker 1: and then how he would strategically put me here in
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  Speaker 1: this in this space like this, is God's love and concern.
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  Speaker 1: I want those who are watching. I want you guys
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  Speaker 1: to really pay attention to those moments where God is
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  Speaker 1: just loving on you.
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  Speaker 2: When people say, hey, you look cute today.
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  Speaker 1: I love when you do this, like when people have
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  Speaker 1: words of affirmation or they give you a compliment. Those
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  Speaker 1: things are not random. That is God just sending love
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  Speaker 1: language to you. That's God affirming you. That's God saying
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  Speaker 1: I see you daughter, I see you son, and so
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  Speaker 1: like I don't want you to miss like this God
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  Speaker 1: so bad?
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  Speaker 3: Like where were you mentally before we got here today?
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  Speaker 3: Because it's like you've been You've been You've been traveling,
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  Speaker 3: like you've been doing, You've been moving a lot. You
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  Speaker 3: serve on a high level, right, you know, just serve
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  Speaker 3: this space. You serve your church, which is thriving. You
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  Speaker 3: know what I'm saying. Then you just you know you're
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  Speaker 3: hired on as so many different things, where many heads
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  Speaker 3: and so like was it a place where it's like God,
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  Speaker 3: something's gonna have to give? Or like what was you
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  Speaker 3: just like I need a break?
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  Speaker 5: I think it was more so you know, I love
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  Speaker 5: when the Lord begins to give language. Like I've always
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  Speaker 5: done a lot of things at one time, right, but
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  Speaker 5: I think in this season I've gotten language to why
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  Speaker 5: I function and operate the way I do. And the
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  Speaker 5: language is a builder, right, so I now know the
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  Speaker 5: reason why my mind automatically goes to Okay, So how
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  Speaker 5: does this work? Like, what is the X, Y, and
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  Speaker 5: Z is because it's I help people build? Right, So okay, great, Lord,
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  Speaker 5: well what does that mean? So now if I look
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  Speaker 5: at all the spaces that I'm in, I'm literally building
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  Speaker 5: in all these spaces. And not only am I building,
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  Speaker 5: the other component is I'm also having to be okay,
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  Speaker 5: learning that I'm used to building and doing what I've built,
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  Speaker 5: but in this space, I'm learning to have to build
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  Speaker 5: and lead. So yes, I'm doing the thing with this
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  Speaker 5: component right here. Child, I'm a only kid. I'm used
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  Speaker 5: to building and being the lead in my own life.
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  Speaker 5: When it comes to like starting people in this capacity
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  Speaker 5: where I'm actually having to teach verbalized communicate, like, that's
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  Speaker 5: the uncomfortable part for me.
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  Speaker 2: So it's like in all of these spaces, Lord, all
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  Speaker 2: of them at one time. It's like all of them,
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  Speaker 2: like I'm.
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  Speaker 5: Building in all the relationship of church, this all of
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  Speaker 5: these is like it's all like and it's and it
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  Speaker 5: was just overwhelming. So it wasn't like, hey, I can't
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  Speaker 5: do this, It's hey, I need you to expand the
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  Speaker 5: capacity for it and give me the strategy on how
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  Speaker 5: to do this efficiently so that I can manage and
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  Speaker 5: Stewart it well, yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Like just asking God to expand you as he's expanding
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  Speaker 1: my mindset.
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  Speaker 5: If your mind is closed off to it, like then
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  Speaker 5: he can't go in and actually do the work because
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  Speaker 5: you can't even you can't even let go of the
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  Speaker 5: of where you were to go to where you're going.
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  Speaker 1: Now now what I what I also understand about being
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  Speaker 1: a builder is that yes, we go in to build,
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  Speaker 1: but also there are times many times as builders, you build.
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  Speaker 2: Then leave, not lead leave.
• 18:07
  Speaker 1: Builders they build it, they put the system, they put
• 18:10
  Speaker 1: the structure, and then they give those instructions to the
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: next person so that they can manage what has been built.
• 18:19
  Speaker 2: Yeah, watch this.
• 18:21
  Speaker 5: So a part of that also as when you're used
• 18:23
  Speaker 5: to doing all the things people depended on you, So
• 18:28
  Speaker 5: the idea of not being there and having to leave
• 18:30
  Speaker 5: the thing, it's like, well what is that?
• 18:32
  Speaker 2: What does that? What does that mean?
• 18:33
  Speaker 5: Like we're not good like you know, So a part
• 18:36
  Speaker 5: it's always all of this like stirring in a little in,
• 18:39
  Speaker 5: a little in a little piet So it's not like
• 18:40
  Speaker 5: I mean, honestly, I'm not in a bad space spiritual,
• 18:43
  Speaker 5: like I know that spirit is strong. It's just like
• 18:45
  Speaker 5: mentally and physically. My body is a like, girl, we
• 18:48
  Speaker 5: just need a moment.
• 18:50
  Speaker 1: But also like God is just teaching you how he
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: wants you to build going into the next season of
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: your life. Because the way that we're built it is
• 18:58
  Speaker 1: that we have built it, we have managed it, we
• 19:01
  Speaker 1: have provided the customer service to it and all that.
• 19:04
  Speaker 2: But God is like, no, you're gonna build it.
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: You're gonna put the SOPs together, and then you're gonna
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: hand that also that you can continue to build.
• 19:11
  Speaker 3: Do you think that we have a problem with that,
• 19:13
  Speaker 3: because because we don't get to involve ourselves with the
• 19:21
  Speaker 3: fruit of the production, like almost like I work so
• 19:24
  Speaker 3: hard for this, but now I gotta leave it, Like
• 19:27
  Speaker 3: y don't.
• 19:28
  Speaker 2: I don't get to enjoy any.
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: Of the labor that so you do get an opportunity
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: to experience to experience the fruit of it. But this
• 19:36
  Speaker 1: is what I want you guys to know, is that
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: your enjoyment of the fruit is not necessarily what you build.
• 19:44
  Speaker 2: It's not like oftentimes.
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: Like we want to enjoy the fruit of our labor
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: in the place in which we were assigned to come
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: and so you may have only been sent there to build,
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: and then God here allow you to enjoy the fruit
• 19:58
  Speaker 1: of your labor in your personal space.
• 20:01
  Speaker 2: That's good. He may have.
• 20:03
  Speaker 1: Increased you in other areas and you enjoying all of
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: this over here life, so instead of looking at the
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: place in which you're building, and you have to be
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: really mindful of that because sometimes you can feel left
• 20:18
  Speaker 1: out when you're a builder. You can feel as if
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: you're you know, not a par You can feel as
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: if you have done all of the work and then
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: nobody you know, appreciating or seeing all that you will
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: put into it. But as a builder, you have to
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: have a different mindset. You have to know that you
• 20:34
  Speaker 1: have been caught in a sign to build this and
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: then your fruit and your enjoyment is in another place.
• 20:40
  Speaker 2: That's so good.
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, So it's learning how to separate the two.
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: So during y'all building process, whether it's building this podcast,
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: building in your personal life, is there an area in
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: which you have failed that you haven't been as open
• 20:58
  Speaker 1: and transparent about that you would like to share today?
• 21:02
  Speaker 2: In building? Uh huh?
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: And building and it can be just building like with
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: like you personally have like is there an area it's like, oh, like,
• 21:16
  Speaker 1: in what area do you feel that you know, like
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: you have failed at to God it because because here's
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: the thing, it can look like a huge success for everybody,
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: like in the eyes of everybody else, but you know,
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: like to God, like God, you know what I failed here.
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: I didn't do like what I was like supposed to.
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: I didn't handle it the way that I'm supposed to.
• 21:36
  Speaker 2: Like I want to.
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: I want to talk a little bit about your failures
• 21:39
  Speaker 1: and how you have handled that, and like what the
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: rebound of it looks like when.
• 21:44
  Speaker 3: I thought of okay, two things I thought we used
• 21:46
  Speaker 3: to say that, which which people that have watched those
• 21:51
  Speaker 3: episodes before know about this. But in relationships where specifically
• 21:58
  Speaker 3: right now, I'm talking about romantic relationships, let's talk about it.
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: Romantically. I've gotten caught up, you know, being an other
• 22:08
  Speaker 2: woman and.
• 22:11
  Speaker 3: Just not you know, being strong enough to leave situations
• 22:17
  Speaker 3: when I, you know, discovered certain things.
• 22:19
  Speaker 2: And so.
• 22:21
  Speaker 3: I feel like I for a while, I faked that
• 22:24
  Speaker 3: I was okay. I faked that I was okay with
• 22:26
  Speaker 3: being single and I was just waiting on the Lord
• 22:28
  Speaker 3: when I was frustrated as hell, cause I if I
• 22:33
  Speaker 3: could be that, if I could be that unest I'm
• 22:35
  Speaker 3: frustrated with the idea of Okay, maybe this is all
• 22:39
  Speaker 3: this is for me, or maybe, you know what I'm saying,
• 22:42
  Speaker 3: a man won't need me. I had a an ex
• 22:45
  Speaker 3: boyfriend's dad tell me that I was gonna have to
• 22:50
  Speaker 3: choose being a wife or a ministry.
• 22:55
  Speaker 5: Hmm.
• 22:56
  Speaker 2: I had. I had to. And it wasn't that he
• 22:59
  Speaker 2: was like that he didn't like me. He really liked me,
• 23:01
  Speaker 2: like we vibe and everything. But I'll never forget. I'll
• 23:05
  Speaker 2: never get that. He said that to me.
• 23:08
  Speaker 3: When I was in my twenties and I didn't really
• 23:10
  Speaker 3: consider myself a minister. I just was, you know, very adamant.
• 23:14
  Speaker 3: I had just reconnected with the Lord, getting my own
• 23:17
  Speaker 3: my life back with Christ or whatnot. And he said
• 23:19
  Speaker 3: that to me. He's an older man, and when he
• 23:23
  Speaker 3: said that, it was kind of like as like, I'm
• 23:26
  Speaker 3: thirty four, well thirty four years old now, and I
• 23:31
  Speaker 3: still haven't found or experienced my husband, you know what I'm.
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: Saying, So what does what does that feel like you
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: as you are building? Yeah, like not having your person.
• 23:45
  Speaker 3: I would say, before I became free, that's my pennicle point,
• 23:52
  Speaker 3: that's like my turning point for me, before I was free.
• 23:55
  Speaker 3: It felt like a lonely place. I felt shamed that
• 23:59
  Speaker 3: I wasn't that place. There was a lot of doubt there.
• 24:04
  Speaker 3: And it's still some things that I'm like, make sure
• 24:05
  Speaker 3: I don't have the residue of. But if it was
• 24:08
  Speaker 3: a lonely place, it felt like I just the Lord
• 24:11
  Speaker 3: just didn't choose me to be what I felt like
• 24:13
  Speaker 3: I wanted to be. Like I was like, why would
• 24:15
  Speaker 3: you give me this desire to be a wife And
• 24:17
  Speaker 3: I'm not a wife like you. I've done everything that
• 24:20
  Speaker 3: you've told me to do, and you're not doing nothing
• 24:22
  Speaker 3: but the one thing I want and I'm getting everything else.
• 24:27
  Speaker 3: I look good to everybody else. Look, you're such a
• 24:30
  Speaker 3: good woman, and you're such a dis and you're dope.
• 24:32
  Speaker 3: And then it's it pisces me off. I'm being very
• 24:35
  Speaker 3: fluent with my but it upsets me because it really
• 24:42
  Speaker 3: upsets me when me and other men tell me that
• 24:46
  Speaker 3: and they're well, like there are men that like just
• 24:49
  Speaker 3: are saying like Caleb. For one, Caleb met with me
• 24:52
  Speaker 3: and desil Ray for dinner and we were talking and
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: he was in my business. He was asking questions and
• 24:59
  Speaker 3: I trust Caleb, and he was asking me all these
• 25:04
  Speaker 3: questions and but he was still reaffirming me, and I
• 25:07
  Speaker 3: was like, Caleb, I don't know.
• 25:08
  Speaker 2: He said, You've always been a good girl.
• 25:10
  Speaker 3: You've always been this because Caleb known me since I
• 25:11
  Speaker 3: was twenty something, so it's like, you've always been this you,
• 25:15
  Speaker 3: You've always been there.
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: And I'm just like, what, who gonna you? Who gonna
• 25:18
  Speaker 2: go get it? You know what I'm saying, Like that
• 25:21
  Speaker 2: get it?
• 25:22
  Speaker 3: You know?
• 25:22
  Speaker 2: And so I looked at it bad then, but then now.
• 25:26
  Speaker 3: Now post freedom, post knowing that actually living in freedom,
• 25:30
  Speaker 3: it's like, okay, lord.
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: I'm really just genuinely focused on me like I've never
• 25:38
  Speaker 2: been that way.
• 25:38
  Speaker 3: I never given myself a mission to say, you know what,
• 25:40
  Speaker 3: you can love yourself this time, like you can really
• 25:43
  Speaker 3: love yourself. And if they can involve themselves and you
• 25:46
  Speaker 3: loving you, then maybe that I'd be the person.
• 25:48
  Speaker 2: And then also I was.
• 25:49
  Speaker 3: Doing it wrong because I wasn't included including my community
• 25:53
  Speaker 3: in that process as well. So I was failing because
• 25:56
  Speaker 3: I went asking the people that I trusted. You know
• 25:58
  Speaker 3: what I'm saying, But I.
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: Really did try, so yeah, just trying to do it
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: by yourself. I feel like, you know, I've been through
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: every face in my life from from single, married, divorce.
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: We met all of that, and I totally understand, like
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: being in a place of singleness, how important it is
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: to really learn yourself because who you know your self
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: to be is the person that will make decisions for you.
• 26:26
  Speaker 2: Oh that's good.
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: Yeah, who you know yourself to be not the one
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: that we showcase to everybody else, not the mask that
• 26:34
  Speaker 1: we that we have, but the person that we truly
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: are is the person that's making decisions for us, Which
• 26:40
  Speaker 1: means that in relationships sometime we are choosing the people
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: or allowing those people to come into our space because
• 26:47
  Speaker 1: of how we truly see ourselves.
• 26:48
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: Yeah, So I want to go back to the question
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: about failure does a raise.
• 26:55
  Speaker 5: So what had came up was just the recent revelation
• 26:57
  Speaker 5: that the Lord had showed me about finance. Okay, okay, so,
• 27:03
  Speaker 5: which you know I had went through when I first
• 27:06
  Speaker 5: started in the entrepreneurship in twenty fifteen.
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: I was just out here just making your money.
• 27:13
  Speaker 5: But I was like, Lord, where the money at? You know,
• 27:14
  Speaker 5: and the Lord had just placed me. I ended up
• 27:16
  Speaker 5: meeting Lisa Jones and she helped me. She started doing
• 27:20
  Speaker 5: my budget for me. So we did that for about
• 27:23
  Speaker 5: a year, and then at the church I was in,
• 27:25
  Speaker 5: I began to I went through financial Peace, A small
• 27:27
  Speaker 5: group of the Dave Ramsey course went through that, and
• 27:31
  Speaker 5: then I began to co lead that. So I began
• 27:33
  Speaker 5: to get some knowledge and understanding about like finances, and
• 27:36
  Speaker 5: I was making money, baby, and I was like saving
• 27:38
  Speaker 5: and paying things off.
• 27:39
  Speaker 2: Da da da da dah.
• 27:40
  Speaker 5: And then so I get to this point where I
• 27:45
  Speaker 5: felt like I gave God a yes, and a yes
• 27:49
  Speaker 5: didn't look like what I.
• 27:49
  Speaker 2: Thought the yes was gonna look like.
• 27:51
  Speaker 5: Right, so I felt like, Lord, I was doing better
• 27:54
  Speaker 5: on the other side, on the other side, on the
• 27:56
  Speaker 5: other side, over here, I was doing better, and so
• 27:58
  Speaker 5: I felt like So I came to a point where
• 28:00
  Speaker 5: I felt like the Lord had uh give me some
• 28:03
  Speaker 5: relief and blessed me.
• 28:04
  Speaker 2: So I ended up uh uh he ended up leading me.
• 28:07
  Speaker 5: To sell my home and I got uh a pretty good,
• 28:10
  Speaker 5: pretty good return back. But at this time I was
• 28:12
  Speaker 5: also kind of in a in a transition, right, so
• 28:14
  Speaker 5: it was gonna I was able to pay some things
• 28:16
  Speaker 5: off but also live off some things. But what happened
• 28:19
  Speaker 5: also was I felt like I mismanaged some of those funds.
• 28:25
  Speaker 5: I Uh, I'm gonna say, I uh sold out of
• 28:31
  Speaker 5: sold in some places out of.
• 28:34
  Speaker 2: Immaturity. Yeah, m you know what I'm saying.
• 28:36
  Speaker 5: And so and then when the little it was a
• 28:38
  Speaker 5: lot so in that in that moment, what what began
• 28:41
  Speaker 5: to happen was I began.
• 28:42
  Speaker 2: To sit in shame.
• 28:43
  Speaker 5: M right, shame of mismanaging and things like that. So
• 28:46
  Speaker 5: fast forward here I am about two years later, and
• 28:50
  Speaker 5: the Lord revealed to me that I've had a block
• 28:52
  Speaker 5: on financial success. Like it's almost a fear of a
• 28:56
  Speaker 5: fear of success, yes, because the fear of mismanaging it again, yes,
• 28:59
  Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. So sitting in that, I'm like, okay, Lord,
• 29:02
  Speaker 5: I just begin to like renounce some some some areas
• 29:06
  Speaker 5: that I had had feel I felt like had sown
• 29:08
  Speaker 5: in background. You know what I'm saying. It just really
• 29:10
  Speaker 5: just began to like repent. And so I feel like
• 29:13
  Speaker 5: I was actually holding myself up with some of the
• 29:17
  Speaker 5: financial things that the Lord is wanting to bring because
• 29:20
  Speaker 5: I was allowing myself to sit in that that shame
• 29:22
  Speaker 5: and that guilt from that.
• 29:23
  Speaker 2: When that past, but on outside, it's like you know you,
• 29:26
  Speaker 2: I hear you. You on flights you. But the truth
• 29:29
  Speaker 2: of the matter is.
• 29:32
  Speaker 5: The Lord had the Lord when they say you begin
• 29:34
  Speaker 5: to learn the Lord, Like when I say, these last
• 29:36
  Speaker 5: couple years, I have learned who Jehovah girets come on,
• 29:40
  Speaker 5: I've literally and and I know that.
• 29:42
  Speaker 2: Was a part of process because before I.
• 29:45
  Speaker 5: Was my provider on you know what I'm saying, And
• 29:47
  Speaker 5: I knew that was the main thing about this process
• 29:49
  Speaker 5: was the Lord was like, I need you to make
• 29:51
  Speaker 5: a space for me. I want you to see that
• 29:53
  Speaker 5: I am your loving father. I want you to see
• 29:56
  Speaker 5: that I am the one who provides. And so now
• 29:58
  Speaker 5: I'm in this well I've had to be and trust
• 30:01
  Speaker 5: to be in a space of you know, just really
• 30:03
  Speaker 5: relying on the Lord in that space of finances.
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: Yeah, this is so good to me because when God
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: is trying to take you to another level, he begins
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: to show you another identity of who he is. And
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: so like when God took me through my transition, when
• 30:19
  Speaker 1: it came to finances and everything, I was at this
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: company and I helped the company generate millions of dollars.
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: I started in a whole department. I love what I
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: was doing, like it was the best thing ever. And
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: I remember God told me, he said, hey, I want
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: you to quit here. And I told the Lord, I
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: was like, shoot, you're gonna have to fire me because
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: I ain't leaving.
• 30:39
  Speaker 2: And I mean, like, I challenged God and say, You're
• 30:40
  Speaker 2: gonna have to fire.
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: Me because I ain't leaving because everything that I built
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: was surrounding this particular job. Our houses, are cars, my family, everything,
• 30:50
  Speaker 1: and I knew how to do this job with my
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: eyes closed, right, And so I felt like the company
• 30:55
  Speaker 1: that they needed me and there will be no way
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: that they will fire me or to let me go.
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: And when I tell you guys that I was fired
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: from the company, not because of performance or anything like that.
• 31:08
  Speaker 1: I was fired for a reason that I know that.
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: It was all God, how do you get fired while
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: you're pregnant on bed rest? You know what I'm saying.
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: After your fmlame, I was fired, and I remember God,
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: he whispered in my ear. He said, I'm about to
• 31:24
  Speaker 1: show you that I'm Jehovah Jirah. And God began to
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: show me another layer of him. And I told God,
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: I said, God, show me how to manage well, give
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: me additional resources so that I would never have to
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: depend on the world to provide for me I need.
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: I wanted God to show me about kingdom advancement. I
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: wanted him to show me how to be a good
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: steward over what He had given me, and he entrusted
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: into my hand. But it started with from that point,
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: excuse me, you guys. From that point I went on
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: food stamps. I was driving a BMW and the people
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: did not believe because at the time I was pastoring,
• 32:03
  Speaker 1: and they didn't believe that I wasn't getting income from
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: the church. So they had to write letters saying that, hey,
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: they do pastor, but they're not getting money here from
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: the church. Like that, people could not believe the financial
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: area that I was in. That's because God script everything
• 32:21
  Speaker 1: that I was relying upon away watch this so that
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: he can prove himself to me. So everything that you're
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: going through is not so that you can just experience
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: the weight of it. It's so that you can understand
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: the identity of God, so that you can understand like
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: who God truly is. So if you're experiencing like a
• 32:40
  Speaker 1: financial hardship right now, yes, it's about being a good manager,
• 32:44
  Speaker 1: being a good steward over what God has trusted you with.
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: But it's also knowing that God is Jehovah Jirah, and
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: he wanted to provide the solutions to the problems that
• 32:55
  Speaker 1: not only you're experiencing, but the problems that the world
• 32:59
  Speaker 1: may be experiencing.
• 33:01
  Speaker 2: Because when you.
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: Realize that you're a kingdom financier, when you realize that,
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: you realize that money and resources has to flow through
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: you to the community to meet a need. So when
• 33:14
  Speaker 1: God began to show you that he's Jehovah Jirah, what
• 33:18
  Speaker 1: he's really doing is saying, hey, you are a cunduit.
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: You are a flow of resources. He's teaching you that
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: everything that comes into your hand that is not about
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: just because not about desiree Like, there are certain things
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: that flow through your hand that has to get to
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: the people, but you don't know that until you realize
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: that he's Jehovah Jirah. So I appreciate that moment. I
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: appreciate that moment of vulnerability. So you got sitting where
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: you're sitting. Now, what do you wish that I would
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: have told you that I didn't or who did you
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: need me to be that I wasn't? What did I
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: miss that you wish I would have.
• 34:01
  Speaker 2: I think, I think that's good.
• 34:02
  Speaker 3: The first thing that comes up for me is, I
• 34:08
  Speaker 3: didn't know I could.
• 34:09
  Speaker 2: Be free with you. I'm cool. Yeah I didn't know,
• 34:14
  Speaker 2: but you listen, Okay.
• 34:17
  Speaker 3: So I think I needed to know that my say
• 34:22
  Speaker 3: I did have a safe space meaning. And when I
• 34:24
  Speaker 3: say safe space, people always say it's like, what is
• 34:26
  Speaker 3: the safe space?
• 34:26
  Speaker 6: With a safe space?
• 34:27
  Speaker 3: I need to be able to be nicked somewhere, like
• 34:30
  Speaker 3: you know that Noah's son got, you know, rebuked and
• 34:35
  Speaker 3: dismissed because he didn't honor his nickedness. You know what
• 34:38
  Speaker 3: I'm saying. And I need somewhere more my I'm nicked,
• 34:43
  Speaker 3: I can be honored. And I didn't know because now
• 34:47
  Speaker 3: and it's not anything that you had done. It was
• 34:50
  Speaker 3: what I had experienced before and what it felt like
• 34:53
  Speaker 3: like mainly because I wanted to be I operated in perfectionism.
• 34:57
  Speaker 3: But I wish I would have known on my end
• 35:00
  Speaker 3: that that's where I could be free, because I think
• 35:03
  Speaker 3: there's a lot of things that I could have avoided.
• 35:07
  Speaker 2: I know, I go bake the rest relationships.
• 35:08
  Speaker 3: But relationally, because that has been the biggest heartburn I've
• 35:13
  Speaker 3: dealt with.
• 35:13
  Speaker 2: You know, I didn't. I didn't deal with finances.
• 35:17
  Speaker 3: You know, I've gotten over the finances I've done. I've
• 35:21
  Speaker 3: dealt with that. Yeah, move Maneuvering through those seasons, yes,
• 35:25
  Speaker 3: I'd be mad, but I get through them.
• 35:27
  Speaker 2: I know. I know at the end of the day,
• 35:28
  Speaker 2: I'm like, Okay, this can be fixed. My credit can
• 35:30
  Speaker 2: be fixed. But relationships I don't.
• 35:33
  Speaker 3: I'm not confident about fixing those or I'm not comforting those,
• 35:37
  Speaker 3: so I sell.
• 35:38
  Speaker 2: I think that I wish I would.
• 35:40
  Speaker 3: Have taken advantage of where everybody else has been taking
• 35:43
  Speaker 3: advance because I was like, how do they see her
• 35:45
  Speaker 3: differently than I see her?
• 35:46
  Speaker 1: And how they just now you do, let's just go
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: ahead and make this play it.
• 35:51
  Speaker 3: You do expect more out of me, and I feel
• 35:56
  Speaker 3: that I get all of this. Yes, i'd be like
• 36:01
  Speaker 3: God see, but as far as like being a woman
• 36:06
  Speaker 3: to God, going after the things that I need to
• 36:09
  Speaker 3: go after, like I've seen all of that.
• 36:14
  Speaker 2: I just needed to know that, Like.
• 36:16
  Speaker 3: This season, this past season has shown me that I
• 36:18
  Speaker 3: can be and continue to develop in a safety, safe
• 36:22
  Speaker 3: space and still be the woman. Just go I think
• 36:24
  Speaker 3: that's the language I'm looking for, being the woman. Jusica
• 36:27
  Speaker 3: and not minister USC or not even Darter to Justica like.
• 36:31
  Speaker 2: The woman woman. I can be that with woman d Yeah,
• 36:36
  Speaker 2: I love that.
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: And you know, like what I'm realizing for me as
• 36:39
  Speaker 1: a leader that there's layers to this. Like sometime like
• 36:44
  Speaker 1: when you're building relationships with people, the first thing that
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: you're trying to determine, God, what is it that you
• 36:50
  Speaker 1: need out of me that this person need in this season?
• 36:53
  Speaker 1: And so that's why relationships go through seasons, they're go
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: through changes, and I find a lot of times, like
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: when it comes to relationships that we are expecting the
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: person to be the same way that they were when
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: they first came into your life. No, as as they
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: grow and the relationship evolved, then there's another layer that
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: I can expose to you that we can have. We
• 37:14
  Speaker 1: can oh now we can go behind this door. Oh now,
• 37:16
  Speaker 1: she's ready for this because I've seen that she's trained,
• 37:19
  Speaker 1: she developed, she has a ear to listen, she has
• 37:22
  Speaker 1: a heart. You know that it's not hardened towards the correction.
• 37:25
  Speaker 1: So there's a part of me as a leader that
• 37:28
  Speaker 1: I just can't just throw just out there when we
• 37:32
  Speaker 1: come into a relationship. You get what I'm saying, and
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: then those boundaries they needed to be established initially, they
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: needed to be established the way that they were so
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: that you can get to the place where you are
• 37:43
  Speaker 1: are right now. And I look at it like my
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: baby Aubrey, like my girls. Like when she was born,
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: she was a baby, she needed me like this. There
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: was things that I would have never exposed to my
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: baby because she was a baby. And then like when
• 37:58
  Speaker 1: she became a top, there was things that she no
• 38:01
  Speaker 1: longer did when she was a baby. Now that she's
• 38:04
  Speaker 1: a toddler, I'm seeing that she's advancing, she's operating like this,
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: she's doing that. And then as she becomes a teenager,
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: you don't just go through her phases. I'm seeing that
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: the things that she used to do she don't do
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: any more. Things are changing in her I'm seeing her
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: grow and mature. I'm seeing her use.
• 38:21
  Speaker 2: Language showing me that she's getting it.
• 38:24
  Speaker 1: And that's how I look at our relationship, like it
• 38:27
  Speaker 1: just went through different phases and now like I tell
• 38:31
  Speaker 1: like I tell Aubrey, you will be an adult much
• 38:34
  Speaker 1: longer than you are a child, which means that for
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: our relationship that we get to enjoy the adulthood much
• 38:42
  Speaker 1: longer than the direction, the discipline, the chestisement of those years.
• 38:48
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's good, thank you, thank you very much.
• 38:52
  Speaker 5: I think kind of similar to what Jessica said is
• 38:55
  Speaker 5: one thing that I've appreciated. What I appreciate about the
• 38:57
  Speaker 5: Lord is the space is the typically the women that
• 39:01
  Speaker 5: he has connected me to, I get to see them.
• 39:05
  Speaker 5: I'm honored that I've gotten to see them in their
• 39:07
  Speaker 5: private lives as well as like out there in public,
• 39:09
  Speaker 5: and they're one authentically the same. And I think he
• 39:13
  Speaker 5: needed to show me that because because I am different,
• 39:16
  Speaker 5: and it's okay for me to be who I am
• 39:18
  Speaker 5: in all spaces. But I think what I didn't take
• 39:22
  Speaker 5: advantage of, or I've done a disservice to, is because
• 39:26
  Speaker 5: I'm so used to doing and being and doing in
• 39:29
  Speaker 5: these spaces, not allowing, not allowing you to see me
• 39:35
  Speaker 5: right as as as a person. So I think earlier
• 39:38
  Speaker 5: this year, I think I came to the link and
• 39:41
  Speaker 5: this is after I had went on the trip, and
• 39:42
  Speaker 5: you asked me a question, a question, and I said,
• 39:49
  Speaker 5: who are you right now?
• 39:51
  Speaker 2: Right?
• 39:51
  Speaker 5: He said, oh, I'm just d so that when it's so,
• 39:55
  Speaker 5: and when you said that, it was like, oh, okay,
• 39:57
  Speaker 5: so she's asking about me, yes, a person, right, And
• 40:00
  Speaker 5: I was able to give you an honest, honest answer
• 40:02
  Speaker 5: to have some.
• 40:02
  Speaker 2: Dialogue about that, because I felt like we can have
• 40:09
  Speaker 2: some honest, honest.
• 40:10
  Speaker 5: Dialogue about that, because I've had this narrative and I've
• 40:14
  Speaker 5: been working through this, even being at the Browns, Like,
• 40:17
  Speaker 5: I had this narrative of not wanting to be a
• 40:18
  Speaker 5: burden to anybody, and nobody could have said that. I
• 40:22
  Speaker 5: just think and watching my mom struggle and try to
• 40:24
  Speaker 5: do the best that she could, and like the hardship
• 40:27
  Speaker 5: of that. In my mind, I'm like, dang, well, if
• 40:29
  Speaker 5: if I wasn't here, then it wouldn't have been this
• 40:31
  Speaker 5: type of struggle. So I had this narrative. So that's
• 40:33
  Speaker 5: why I've built I had built my life around not
• 40:37
  Speaker 5: wanting to depend on anybody, not having to depend on anybody.
• 40:39
  Speaker 2: It's just like me, right.
• 40:41
  Speaker 5: And so now that I'm coming into the space of
• 40:44
  Speaker 5: like really learning like, oh, people actually really care about
• 40:47
  Speaker 5: you the person, and I know that's been your heart.
• 40:50
  Speaker 5: The saying about the whole time is just I don't
• 40:52
  Speaker 5: think I've been open to actually that, you know.
• 40:54
  Speaker 2: So when you ask me that question, I was like, oh,
• 40:56
  Speaker 2: like me, I'm always I'm.
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: Always checking on you all as a as a person
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: outside of the creator and outside of the things. Yeah,
• 41:06
  Speaker 1: we'll talk about business, you know, well, we'll do all
• 41:08
  Speaker 1: of that, but when I come to you guys, when
• 41:10
  Speaker 1: I come to my girls, like, I am checking on
• 41:13
  Speaker 1: you all because I want to know, like if there's
• 41:15
  Speaker 1: any place in which I can serve you. And I
• 41:18
  Speaker 1: never want you guys to feel as if you're out
• 41:20
  Speaker 1: here by yourself, like you don't have the support, the
• 41:24
  Speaker 1: emotional and mental support that you need because you guys
• 41:27
  Speaker 1: are doing just a lot. So this just leads me
• 41:30
  Speaker 1: to my final question.
• 41:33
  Speaker 2: This has been really good, coach, Thank you, thank you.
• 41:37
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so before before we leave, what's one thing that
• 41:41
  Speaker 1: you really want the audience to, like, people to really
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: know about you? Jessica Smith, not just ask the podcast
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: not does a ray the creator, Like, what do you
• 41:52
  Speaker 1: want people to know about you? Or what do you
• 41:59
  Speaker 1: what do you think you wish people would I would
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: know about you or would have known about you?
• 42:07
  Speaker 2: I would just say that.
• 42:10
  Speaker 5: And this is just to also encourage people just to
• 42:14
  Speaker 5: be themselves, you know, like I and even if I
• 42:17
  Speaker 5: look back over my life I've always been different, whether
• 42:21
  Speaker 5: it was you know, I'm always into like sports, always
• 42:24
  Speaker 5: into being creative. Like even if I think about like
• 42:27
  Speaker 5: high school, like I because I did so many things,
• 42:29
  Speaker 5: like I could be in multiple groups and it'd be okay,
• 42:32
  Speaker 5: Like like oh, Dad's Like I could be with the nerds.
• 42:33
  Speaker 5: I could be with the arts and creative people I was.
• 42:36
  Speaker 5: I played basketball, so I could be with the athletes.
• 42:38
  Speaker 5: And like from the outside looking in, like somebody be
• 42:41
  Speaker 5: like You're kind of all over the place, You're doing
• 42:43
  Speaker 5: all these things, but I'm like, that's just who I am.
• 42:45
  Speaker 5: And so I think I just want to encourage people
• 42:47
  Speaker 5: to really just authentically beat themselves. Like I'm still discovered,
• 42:51
  Speaker 5: Like there's still some I'm working through, breaking down walls
• 42:54
  Speaker 5: and layers that I've put up out of defense. But
• 42:57
  Speaker 5: at the heart of who I am, I genuinely love people,
• 43:02
  Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. I genuinely want to see
• 43:04
  Speaker 5: people like be who God has called them to be,
• 43:07
  Speaker 5: and I'm just grateful that He's graced me to be
• 43:09
  Speaker 5: able to do it in multiple ways. So at the
• 43:11
  Speaker 5: heart of who I am, I am a I am
• 43:13
  Speaker 5: a creative.
• 43:14
  Speaker 1: But I think that we I think that we really
• 43:16
  Speaker 1: get that that's that's exactly what you show. That's that's
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: exactly like that's like, that's that's who you are. And
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: I think that you show up that way. Do you
• 43:28
  Speaker 1: think that people misunderstand you in any way?
• 43:31
  Speaker 5: I think just because how I show up a lot
• 43:33
  Speaker 5: of times, I don't put like we talked about earlier
• 43:35
  Speaker 5: about like that performance part, it's not and I don't
• 43:37
  Speaker 5: even think it's that I'm performing. That's who I am
• 43:39
  Speaker 5: in that space. But people don't really get to see
• 43:41
  Speaker 5: me in the other space, you know, like like I
• 43:44
  Speaker 5: don't want to talk sometimes, like you know, like and
• 43:47
  Speaker 5: it don't mean there's nothing wrong.
• 43:49
  Speaker 2: I just don't have nothing to say. And I sometimes
• 43:51
  Speaker 2: I said this.
• 43:51
  Speaker 5: The other day, like I was getting these messages about
• 43:54
  Speaker 5: a post or something I had put out and it
• 43:56
  Speaker 5: had like some misspelled words and stuff like that, and
• 43:58
  Speaker 5: I was like, you know, lord, I wish I would
• 43:59
  Speaker 5: have cared more.
• 44:00
  Speaker 2: I don't care like if people get reading to see
• 44:03
  Speaker 2: what it's supposed to say exactly.
• 44:06
  Speaker 5: So I love like being connected to suggest and being
• 44:09
  Speaker 5: connected to like I don't gonna say type A people,
• 44:11
  Speaker 5: but people like who just operate in a different level
• 44:14
  Speaker 5: than I than I do. Not that it's bad or anything.
• 44:16
  Speaker 5: I just like I don't care, but I'm learning to
• 44:19
  Speaker 5: care a little bit more about yeah yeah yeah yeah.
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: And so like one of the things that I shared
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: with people is that it's crazy that God would have
• 44:26
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  Speaker 1: gonna get that, but I but that was that was
• 45:04
  Speaker 1: a It's crazy that writing has really never been like
• 45:07
  Speaker 1: one of my strong suits at all.
• 45:09
  Speaker 2: So I have people that.
• 45:11
  Speaker 1: Watch like my post and be like, oh okay, go
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: ahead and correct correct that, or coach j D.
• 45:16
  Speaker 2: He'll grab my phone.
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: And there used to be shame around that because I
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: really didn't care like you, because I think just being
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: in that creative space like I'm busy, y'all, but I'm
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: glad I'm putting this out anyway. You know what I'm saying, Like, yo,
• 45:30
  Speaker 1: you know, you get you get what I'm saying. But
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: also at the same time, I realized that it doesn't
• 45:35
  Speaker 1: reflect the excellence of God.
• 45:37
  Speaker 2: And so if it was just about me, leave it.
• 45:39
  Speaker 1: But because this is a reflection of God, yes, change it.
• 45:42
  Speaker 2: Help me.
• 45:42
  Speaker 1: You guys, you see something that needs to be correct
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: okay in box me, you know, so that we can
• 45:46
  Speaker 1: get it taken care of. So thank you for sharing this. Okay,
• 45:49
  Speaker 1: what about you?
• 45:50
  Speaker 2: It's just remind me.
• 45:51
  Speaker 1: The question I was asking is who do you want
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: your audience? What do you want your audience to read
• 46:00
  Speaker 1: to really know about you? Or are there any misconceptions
• 46:04
  Speaker 1: that need to be you know, spoken about or corrected.
• 46:08
  Speaker 3: Do you have an idea of of what of miss
• 46:11
  Speaker 3: any misconcelutions.
• 46:12
  Speaker 2: Any misconceptions concerning you? Yeah? Yeah, I do. I do.
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: I feel like something like I feel like when you
• 46:20
  Speaker 1: walk into a room, you bring so much light, so
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: much energy, and your solutionists that sometimes people may think
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: that you are coming to take over operate like in
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: her space and things like that. But the way that
• 46:35
  Speaker 1: our mind works is that we are there to provide
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: a solution and we don't even be trying to provide
• 46:41
  Speaker 1: a solution, like, but.
• 46:45
  Speaker 2: Just came up. She came with me to the wedding.
• 46:49
  Speaker 5: She was she was a guest of the wedding daughter,
• 46:55
  Speaker 5: I'm the photographer, just there because she's like, oh my
• 46:57
  Speaker 5: help of says.
• 46:57
  Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't need but okay, come on, says,
• 47:00
  Speaker 2: So we show up.
• 47:01
  Speaker 5: And just when it's the thing, like when there's something
• 47:04
  Speaker 5: in you, is there a need in a space, it
• 47:06
  Speaker 5: just naturally comes out people that don't And I really
• 47:08
  Speaker 5: think it's people who aren't there yet, right They may
• 47:12
  Speaker 5: think like, oh, she's just taking over, but literally she
• 47:14
  Speaker 5: was like I don't know. I think she became like
• 47:15
  Speaker 5: the wedding coordinator, the steam cys, the drift, like all
• 47:19
  Speaker 5: these things in the space because and not that it
• 47:22
  Speaker 5: was bad, it was just there was a need, you know.
• 47:25
  Speaker 5: And she kept saying, I'm so sorry, apologize. I was like, girl, Hey,
• 47:29
  Speaker 5: I'm good, go do it.
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: You go to you And I feel like I show
• 47:33
  Speaker 1: up the exact same way, and when there's something that
• 47:36
  Speaker 1: needs to be done, yes, we do respect order. We
• 47:39
  Speaker 1: and you know we we respect the protocol, we respect
• 47:42
  Speaker 1: what's put in place, but the the solutionists in us
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: can't help but want to provide.
• 47:49
  Speaker 2: It hurts. I don't know how to explain it. Yeah,
• 47:52
  Speaker 2: I don't do it.
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: And watch this.
• 47:58
  Speaker 3: Oh my god, my god, I'm.
• 48:01
  Speaker 2: I gotta either I gotta leave or I gotta fix it.
• 48:03
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 48:03
  Speaker 2: So I'm just going to sound something. But I'm glad.
• 48:05
  Speaker 3: I'm glad you say that. I'm glad you said because
• 48:07
  Speaker 3: I didn't think of that. What I was thinking of
• 48:09
  Speaker 3: was I'm not perfect.
• 48:11
  Speaker 2: I don't want you.
• 48:12
  Speaker 3: I don't want anybody to be either. I am perfect.
• 48:16
  Speaker 3: I don't care what you see on social media. I'm
• 48:18
  Speaker 3: giving myself permission to say what I'm thinking in a
• 48:21
  Speaker 3: respectful manner in order because I still have I still
• 48:24
  Speaker 3: have coach t to I just know our relationships started
• 48:28
  Speaker 3: with because I correct her some art off the platform
• 48:33
  Speaker 3: when I was like, it's art though, Like she's like,
• 48:35
  Speaker 3: but that's not the woman of God. Like, so I
• 48:38
  Speaker 3: have accountability, but I didn't. I thought that I was
• 48:41
  Speaker 3: used to walk so ashamed or so afraid to say
• 48:44
  Speaker 3: or do things. But I'm really I'm really just just good,
• 48:47
  Speaker 3: Like I just enjoyed being what I need to be
• 48:49
  Speaker 3: when I need to be.
• 48:51
  Speaker 1: You know what, Like, as I'm hearing you say that,
• 48:53
  Speaker 1: I feel like people need to experience that part of
• 48:57
  Speaker 1: you more. Even like when the way that you connect
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: with people on social media, I feel like that's the vulnerability.
• 49:04
  Speaker 1: That side of you probably need to be displayed a
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: little bit more because even if I was to look
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: like on your social media page, I'm seeing all of
• 49:12
  Speaker 1: the things that are well, yeah, I'm not seeing like, hey,
• 49:15
  Speaker 1: you know you struggle with this, but you overcome. Because
• 49:18
  Speaker 1: the correct way to be an influencer is to, yes,
• 49:23
  Speaker 1: show your vulnerability, but well, I'll say a kingdom influencer,
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: that's good. The right way to be a Kingdom influencer
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: is okay to talk about the problems and the vulnerability,
• 49:34
  Speaker 1: but also how that has been worked out. And I
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: think that oftentimes we see the workout, but we don't
• 49:40
  Speaker 1: see that there was an initial problem for you to
• 49:43
  Speaker 1: get here. And I would like to see more of
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: the vulnerability, And I feel like that would be a
• 49:48
  Speaker 1: great way that you both grow your influence and the
• 49:53
  Speaker 1: impact because I feel like God to give the influence
• 49:57
  Speaker 1: when we work on the impact. And so like, as
• 50:00
  Speaker 1: we're going into this new season of our life thinking
• 50:04
  Speaker 1: about God, how can I make more of a Kingdom impact?
• 50:07
  Speaker 1: And the scripture that comes to mind to me is
• 50:09
  Speaker 1: that we win them by the words of our testimony.
• 50:13
  Speaker 1: And a testimony starts with the problem and it ends
• 50:16
  Speaker 1: with God. God ends with God the problem, it.
• 50:21
  Speaker 2: Ends with God.
• 50:22
  Speaker 5: That's a testimony because it's not that I think sometimes
• 50:26
  Speaker 5: we'll tell the issue and it's likely, yes, you went
• 50:30
  Speaker 5: through this thing, but what was the like are you
• 50:31
  Speaker 5: still there?
• 50:32
  Speaker 2: But the testimony happens God, God did it. God did it.
• 50:36
  Speaker 2: That's that's the testimony.
• 50:38
  Speaker 1: So I want to thank you guys so much for
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: just joining me today on Just Ask the podcast, and
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: so like, if you could leave them with one word,
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: if there's one statement, one prophetic flow word or whatever
• 50:51
  Speaker 1: that is sterned like in your belly, what what would
• 50:55
  Speaker 1: you say in this moment to the person that is
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: watching and listening.
• 50:59
  Speaker 5: I'll just like, I will say, like, the thing that
• 51:03
  Speaker 5: I am learning is me and just being authentically me,
• 51:09
  Speaker 5: and that the plan that the Lord had has already
• 51:13
  Speaker 5: in place is for the authentic me, right, And so
• 51:18
  Speaker 5: just being just saying yes, even though I don't understand
• 51:22
  Speaker 5: the process has really helped me to journey well, like
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  Speaker 5: help me to suffer well because I know I'm not
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  Speaker 5: in this thing by myself, even though sometimes it may
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  Speaker 5: feel that way.
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  Speaker 2: I know that the Lord is there.
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  Speaker 5: I know that the Lord has placed people in my
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  Speaker 5: path that if I would trust and lean on them,
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  Speaker 5: They're there for a reason, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 5: So I would just encourage you guys to, especially as
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  Speaker 5: we go into this new season, is to really just
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  Speaker 5: begin to i'ma say lean like it's cliches, may sound
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  Speaker 5: like leaning to the Lord, like wholeheartedly leaning too the Lord,
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  Speaker 5: like I'm getting into a space because I'm not. I
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  Speaker 5: know the Lord wants to use my voice in different ways.
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  Speaker 5: It don't mean I'm be saying the pool pair or
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  Speaker 5: anything like that. But he gave me unboxed worship, and
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  Speaker 5: this journey has literally been me unboxing what I thought
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  Speaker 5: ministry was what I thought I was, who I thought
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  Speaker 5: I was, and literally becoming a living sacrifice. And that's
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  Speaker 5: the worship, you know what I'm saying. So, yeah, that's
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  Speaker 5: so good.
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  Speaker 2: I love that I would.
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  Speaker 3: I would, I would pull from desert ray and say
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  Speaker 3: and lean into not only God but who God created
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  Speaker 3: you to be. We take I think we use the
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  Speaker 3: word where it says you were uniquely and wonderfully made,
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  Speaker 3: and we take that just to put some a band
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  Speaker 3: aid on things. Yeah, but when you really find that out,
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  Speaker 3: that's not an easy process.
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  Speaker 2: When you find how unique you are, it could.
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  Speaker 3: Be lonely, it could be frustrating, it could be even
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  Speaker 3: you might feel like you're confused at the times. But
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  Speaker 3: when you discover how unique you are and how wonderful
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  Speaker 3: you are, it's a beautiful place to be, in freeing place.
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  Speaker 3: And so I'm willing to share and be vulnerable on
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  Speaker 3: social media now whereas I was like child, I can't
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  Speaker 3: do anything.
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  Speaker 2: I just have to talk about the Bible. Yep, go
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  Speaker 2: to my tea talk. That's why I've been practicing. I've
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  Speaker 2: been practicing with my teeth talk.
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  Speaker 3: So I think that if anything, I think, give yourself
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  Speaker 3: a space to be the unique and to be the
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  Speaker 3: wonderful so that God, so God can be exposed through.
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  Speaker 2: The unique and the wonderful awesome. And I'll just pull
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  Speaker 2: from that as well.
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  Speaker 1: Is that when you're unique, you realize that you're multifacet
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  Speaker 1: which means that you're not faking, you're not pretending, but
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  Speaker 1: you're understanding what each environment, what each room need from you,
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  Speaker 1: and it's okay for you to show up and give
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  Speaker 1: that room what is needed. And then also understand that
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  Speaker 1: who you are created to be is the person that
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  Speaker 1: God loves. He made no mistakes when he chose you,
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  Speaker 1: when he created you, when he's given you the gifts
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  Speaker 1: to t talent, when he's given you something that is
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  Speaker 1: different from everybody else, and all the things that I
• 54:05
  Speaker 1: didn't like about myself, I've learned how to embrace from
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  Speaker 1: you know, my big lips, my big forehead, my big eyes,
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  Speaker 1: you know, my pinky toe, my hands, like all the
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  Speaker 1: things that I used to I want to change, I
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  Speaker 1: had to learn how to embrace those and know that
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  Speaker 1: this is part of my unique DNA, my makeup that
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  Speaker 1: God said is wonderfully and it's fearfully made. So thank
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  Speaker 1: you guys so much for listening. Don't forget to share
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  Speaker 1: this out, send this to someone because we know that
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  Speaker 1: it would bless him and I just want to know,
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  Speaker 1: Like when y'all got down time like this, y'all, y'all,
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  Speaker 1: let me be a part of y'all team.
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  Speaker 2: You're already a part of the team.
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  Speaker 3: If y'all don't know, like the safe Space, we want
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  Speaker 3: you to join the safe Space. It is a community
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  Speaker 3: on Patreon and she is one of the leaders in
• 54:53
  Speaker 3: the safe Space. Just because she is my leader. She
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  Speaker 3: has prayed with us, she has taught us. She taught
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  Speaker 3: us about what counsches.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, that was so good they ran.
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  Speaker 3: So we're going to be meeting doing retreats stuff and
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  Speaker 3: she's gonna be.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, I'm excited about that. I'm excited to support you
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  Speaker 1: guys and serve you all, hold your bags and you.
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  Speaker 2: Know, work on your agenda. Yeah, you know, I want
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  Speaker 2: to do all of that.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, that's as I probably won't drive y'all, but okay,
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  Speaker 3: we know that, we know that.
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  Speaker 2: But know y'all, the safe Space community is accessible to
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  Speaker 2: you guys. We're all going to be there.
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  Speaker 1: I want them really to commit to the nineteen ninety
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  Speaker 1: nine a month, that's only twenty dollars for the impartation,
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  Speaker 1: the wisdom, the accountability that you all will receive like
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  Speaker 1: as you go, and let me tell you, as you
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  Speaker 1: go into whatever season, as whatever is falling off of
• 55:52
  Speaker 1: you you. You need a safe space, you need a community.
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  Speaker 1: Community is important. A lot of what Jesus is dead
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  Speaker 1: that it was done through community. Even the miracles that
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  Speaker 1: was done in a community, it wasn't done in the church.
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  Speaker 1: Jesus taught where in the community. How many times did
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  Speaker 1: you see him teaching in the temple?
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  Speaker 2: You did?
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  Speaker 1: He went and said at the feet of the leaders
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  Speaker 1: in the temple. But that so that he can do
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  Speaker 1: the work that was needed in the community. So I
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  Speaker 1: would encourage you guys to be a part of this community. Man,
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  Speaker 1: it's only what two hundred and forty dollars for the
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  Speaker 1: year something like that. Yo, use your income tax to
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  Speaker 1: pay for the entire year.
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  Speaker 2: Like, do this for you, do it for you, for you,
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  Speaker 2: So do it for you. And I'm a living testament.
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  Speaker 3: Because I had to be learning how to be my
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  Speaker 3: own safe space before I create one.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, and so it's good. Thank you, thank you. I
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  Speaker 2: appreciate you. Thank you. Can we believe that we just
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  Speaker 2: I know, But.
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  Speaker 3: Y'all, y'all tell us what y'all was thinking, tell us
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  Speaker 3: what you learned in the commings. Hopefully we'll see you
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  Speaker 3: over there in the safe space. But until next time,
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  Speaker 3: until next week. Remember, life could be much more simple
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  Speaker 3: if you just just ask peace.
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  Speaker 6: Y'all, thank you for tuning in to this week's episode.
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  Speaker 6: Since you've made it this far, you might as well
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  Speaker 6: connect with us on all social media platforms at the
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  Speaker 2: Smith.
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  Speaker 4: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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  Speaker 4: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always
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  Speaker 4: thank thank God for one another day.
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  Speaker 7: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way. Hey,
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  Speaker 7: pray thank God for another day. Hey hey, I'm just
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  Speaker 7: thankful for another day. Hey hey, another day? Oh, another
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  Speaker 7: day wise, another day to get it right, another day
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  Speaker 7: to rise up, another day living, another day. We loved ones.
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  Speaker 7: I always remember hold it down for a ball one.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah,