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Random Heathen Ramblings: S3, EP32 - Letting Go... · Random Heathen Ramblings

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Well, hello everybody. Hail and welcome back.
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To a different sort of layout that different sort of format.
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As you can see, still got the intro, still got the
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housekeeping type stuff that you saw already, but I'm playing
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around with how I record my solo podcasts and in-person guest
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podcast going forward. Should I ever have any?
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So hopefully for those that are watching this, you know whether
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you're getting it on YouTube or on the Spotify platform.
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Hopefully this is an enjoyable thing.
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I might have to play Around a little bit with the lighting,
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but I kind of like the dark Ambience.
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You got my incense burner over here, which I am about to
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actually go ahead and light because it's not going to be a
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very in-depth podcast today. I just have one thing on my
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mind, I always say that, right? I always say that it's not going
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to be a long one and then it turns out, you know, to be a
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Regularly scheduled program regular length program, second
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to stay. I think it might need a little
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touch on the side. This is a cedar Aroma that were
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burning today. Here we go, more satisfied with
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that. Okay, this is a cedar Aroma that
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were burning today because I thought that it would be a great
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Aroma to usher in the Autumn season.
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Where, fastly approaching what Here in the northern hemisphere.
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A lot of folks acknowledged as the fall or Autumn Equinox or
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Solstice or what have you. So we've got we actually just
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this past weekend. We just had the full moon for
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this month. So you know the nights have been
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getting cooler the days of me getting still warm but not as
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oppressively humid or you know hot in that way.
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And I felt like you know Cedar Was a good.
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Was a good one too to bring in to the podcast too kind of Usher
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in that you know time of welcoming in the days of
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darkness here. Today with me I got actually got
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this brand-new cup that I'm really digging.
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This was made by the Elvis here. Workshop, who supplies so much
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of the accoutrements that you see around me including this
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incense burner The drum in the back, the little Hammer rattle
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that you see in some of the other items that you might have
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seen or have had our, I've had featured in other podcasts, and
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other my video content on the midgard, musings YouTube
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channel. But needless to say, this is
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phenomenal. This is my new daily drinking
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vessel right now. It's just got some tea in it.
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But this is a cup that can be used for as a says, hot and cold
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beverages. This is a cold beverage for
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right now. It's cold tea, but I've also got
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my Scotch here. Don't worry, we never podcast
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without it unless the occasion or the, or the place calls for
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something of a less alcoholic nature.
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So want to talk about that here in just a moment. and kind of
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give you guys something to look forward to I've coming.
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So at the time of this podcast being recorded, I am in the week
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of looking forward to welcome. The gentleman who has been a
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longtime supporter and follower of my channel, midgard musings.
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And by default, of course, a follower and a guest also on the
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random, even removes podcast. So my good friend from Missouri.
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Patrick Walsh will actually be coming out this week and if
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you're watching this podcast, he will be arriving.
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Tomorrow from from Missouri. And we got a really nice and
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exciting and fun podcast that we're going to be having in
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person at the bar field Crescent Park.
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We're going to be recording their.
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He's going to be talking about his high long experience, so
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really excited to hear him. Talk about that in front of all
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of us and do this. This podcast, not in this
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backdrop, but in the backdrop of Of nature, at least, you know,
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the park as it were. So because it is a, you know, a
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place of public happenings and things people come and go with
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their families and stuff. We cannot have alcoholic
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beverages at the park, so I will not be able to partake of
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scotch, but I will have my cup or, or a, or a, or a horn or of
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sorts with other beverages of refreshments and things.
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So we'll definitely be partaking of the non-alcoholic drinks, but
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That's for next week. As long as I'm in the confines,
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in the safety of my home by will drink and partake as I see fit.
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but yeah, this is again, just kind of like a New and different
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thing. I'm, you know, trying to figure
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out The future of the podcast and how I'm going to be
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recording stuff. I've got some really neat things
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that that other people have helped add to the podcast.
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In terms of like, outro content things that are going to be
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added to the end of this video, which I'm going to be playing
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around with today. So I'm rambling on about stuff
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that doesn't really matter to you folks.
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So what are we going to be talking about today?
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we're going to be talking about, Letting go.
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We're moving in again to the darker times where the sun does
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not have as much time in our skies as as it usually does.
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Of course, we're hitting into that longer nights shorter days
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time of year as as it happens every year.
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And so we're I'm at least experiencing some things.
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And now that one might say are dark times, you know, moving
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into Dark Times. But at the same time, they are
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necessary happening. Say, unnecessary things to allow
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for old things to die, in new things to, to be burnt to be
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birth or born and manifested as it were.
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So again, there's this like this, there's a conundrum to it
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all with, you know, allowing things to grow while also
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letting things die. And and one of the things that
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is hard for me as of late that I wanted to just kind of talk
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through today and talk about today is, you know, letting go
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of the things that you feel you have invested so much into
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whether it be physical growth of things, you know, whether you've
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tended to, you know, crops or built a structure or any other
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sort of, you know, tangible physical things, you know, there
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are times, are there come there comes a time or there comes
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times even wear All of the work that you've put into something
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all of the effort that you put into something is not reaping
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the reward. It's not bringing forth the
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fruit that you so desperately want to have it produce.
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It's not achieving the goals that you set despite your best
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efforts, despite all of your hard work and so one has to sit
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back and decide. Okay, well, do I do, what is it?
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Because I'm doing It wrong, right?
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Is it? Because I'm maybe not watering
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things enough and maybe it's because I'm using the wrong
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number. Is it?
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You know, is, am I doing something wrong or have?
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I checked all my boxes, have I dotted.
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All my eyes if I crossed all my T's and is the failure to
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produce due to other things that are on the other party side,
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right? Is it because it's just not
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meant to be, you know? Like no matter how much I want
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to grow coconuts. If I live in Canada, I'm just
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not going to be able to grow coconuts despite my best
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efforts. The ground is just not
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conducive, it's not rich enough, it's not climate, you know,
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climate speaking climate wise. It is not conducive to growing a
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tropical plant when you're in a Northern environment, right?
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So are the things that we are doing the things that I'm doing
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despite my best efforts, right? It's just not conducive, it's
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just not working. And I think some of the hardest
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decisions that we have to make when we sever those ties, when
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we cut loose, from the thing that we've put so much time into
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that one of the hardest moments that we reach is realizing that
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I can't do any, I can't do anything else.
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I can't, I want it to work and it's just not meant to be, it's
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just not working, you know. I think that so much of myself
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at least as a, the kind of pagan that I am right, is that I I
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believe that we have that, I have a lot of control in the
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here and now I have I feel like I have a lot of say, so in the
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way things pan out and I'm and I'm going to be very transparent
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and very real with you guys here today in the sense that that is
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not always the right way to You know, to think we don't have
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control over everything, we don't have control over a lot of
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things. and, That could be tough to face, that music can be tough
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to, you know, to dance to as it were.
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So the types of things that we can't control our first of all
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other people, you know? And when someone like myself,
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who is serving in a position of a leadership role within the
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Pagan Community, within my own small, Inner Circle tribe.
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It's not always, it's not about controlling things.
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It's not about Being like a being over certain things or
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certain people, but you kind of expect, right?
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When you when you lead, by example, when you do things that
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show results and when you do things that provide a result
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writer or bring about certain and goals, right?
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You you almost expect that when people see that, that that it
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inspires them to want to do the same thing.
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And so you're not necessarily controlling what other people do
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but by your deeds and by your actions, it inspires them to do
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things that align with what you're trying to accomplish.
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And that's just not always the case, not everything that you
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eat do is going to resonate with people or speak to people in a
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way that reaches that that result, right?
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No matter how much we try, no matter how much we we aim to do
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that and that's kind of where things are at for me, with my
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tribe, right? Working hard to build something
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working hard to, I guess, you know, And I've always said and
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I, you know, if you listen to any of my podcast or anything on
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my channel, like the whole like building thing like build a
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community, build a try, building this building that, right?
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I use that term and then I always come back and I'm like,
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you know, I almost really hate even saying it like that because
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it seems so, you know, methodical so so mechanical, so
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non-organic. But, you know, the more I think
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about it, I think that you have to, you have to build For things
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to be a certain way. You have to have control over
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the way. Things are built, you have to
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have your hands in it, so it's not necessarily a bad thing, but
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you want to, you know, allow the thing to grow.
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You want to allow it to cultivate and you want to
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nurture it along its way so maybe nurturing and helping the
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grow is better. But there is definitely I think
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part the more I, you know, think about it there there's more to
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be said about the whole building thing then I met The alluded to
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in the past. So building Community Building
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tribe, nurturing that growth I've really faced a lot of
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challenges recently where the growth is stunted and the growth
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is sometimes being choked out by weeds and things and and
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sometimes you got to get in there and you got to hack out,
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you know, chop down some of that, some of that bad growth or
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some of that, you know. You got to, you got to weed the
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garden and inevitably, if it's gotten so overgrown, if it's
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gotten. So choked up with the weeds.
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You know, sometimes you just got to go in there and just start
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from scratch. Just just go in there and some
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say, I'm done with trying to save this plant and done with
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trying to save this. I just need to tear it down,
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pull it out, rip it out and start from scratch.
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And we are in a spot, we have it.
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And we have kind of reached the position.
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My tribes early folk, have reached a position where, you
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know, certain elements are certain aspects of our tribe
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have needed to be. Ripped out removed.
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And maybe I did maybe a harsh comparison to what I mean by
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ripping out. It's not like you know, we're
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going in there and violently just saying getting it out of
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here, be done with it. But we're reading the writing on
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the wall, we're seeing the signs and we're reading the Omens and
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we're going, okay? It's time to.
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Move on. I recently saw something.
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And on the funny enough it was on the The Lord of the Rings,
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the rings of power Series on Amazon, which if anybody's kind
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of caught that recently and been watching it.
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The last episode episode 3 was the episode that introduced us
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to the island Kingdom of númenor.
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So, I'm not going to give away like spoilers or whatever but
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there's a line In this most recent episode.
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Which made me think, right? There's these people are island.
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People, they live on an island and the sea is a big part of
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their culture, big part of their life and it made me think of the
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northern European Scandinavian people where the sea was so much
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a part of their life where they would sail and go and just, you
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know, discover any places raid, right?
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All of these various things that they spent time on the sea.
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But this line in this, this episode made me think about its
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application and other aspects of life in the line was like, the
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sea is always right? You know what, I got to thinking
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how you could you could apply that to so much of Nature and
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the wild, you know, the forest is always right.
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The river is always right, the trail is always right, the
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mountain, the valley, the Desert Hills there, it is always right,
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which is to say that as much as we are, a part of these
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environments, and as much as we put ourselves into these spaces
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to write, You know, reconnect and in get back to Our Roots,
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our Primal primordial Roots, we are still at the whim of
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whatever happens out there, storm pops up, right?
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At reek falls down a wild animal comes across our path, right?
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The wild is always right. Because the wild has no order, I
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mean it does, but it doesn't. There the the sense of order,
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the order of Tribes the structure of like Civilization
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the the way Society over centuries.
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Over Millennia is have have developed the order of the Wild
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and the law of the jungle. As it were is, it's much more
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fluid and it just, it goes with what it goes with.
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And we when we, when we enter into that space and when we go
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out and we Adventure off into these places, we are, we've got
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to play by those rules. There is You know, you don't
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just like, you know, the sea is becoming boisterous.
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Writer this he's becoming a storm, you can't just say, hold
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on, hold on a minute. Let me let me let me lower my
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sales. Let me you know anchor, let me
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adjust my settings. Let me do something to hold on,
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just a minute. Give me a minute.
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No you are now in the middle of it.
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You know you walk through the trails or you walk through the
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river, you climb the mountains and you you know, encounter
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something you don't just tell her.
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A bear. Hold on a second.
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Let me get up this tree. Let me give me a 50-yard Head
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Start before you, you know, come and mow my guts out, the see the
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wild, the the winds that the storm.
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It's always, right. And it kind of goes back to the
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whole like what is right? And what is wrong?
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I mean, When a storm comes up, when I went a wild animal
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encounter as you and, you know, looks to you looks at you as, as
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their prey, or if you trip and you fall.
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And you and you hurt yourself out there because of, you know,
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uneven ground. It's all these things that is
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right for the wild, the wild is always, right.
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It's not right for you doesn't doesn't bode well for you to
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encounter, you know, these things and have to put up with
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it and have to deal with it, but that is what we must do.
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We must deal with it. And sometimes, you know, how
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does this? How does this fit into what I'm
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trying to say, you know, here and now with with, you know,
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things going on with with tribe or to try building or tribe
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cultivating and where, you know, I'm still trying to figure all
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that out because it's more metaphorical than literal.
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But there are storms that come through and there are things
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that come through that cause disruption in the flow of
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things, and some of us in positions of leadership that and
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within our communities, it is up to us and people look to us as
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What's going to happen to us, what's going to happen to this
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group? What are we?
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What are we going to do? And what are you going to do to
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you know, address this? Now, in I think a strong tribal
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unit, yes, those leaders are look to.
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And then, at the same time, the people that are in that
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established group band together, they come together and it's not
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just on one person to fix the issue.
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It is on everybody to fix the issue.
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Right? The storm comes through, it's
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not just on the chieftain to batten down the hatches, you
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know, everybody chips in and everybody secure.
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Things down. And everybody gets ready for the
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storm that is coming. And that happens, the reason
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that happens is because the trust that is established
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between members of that tribe, the the fifth bond that has been
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established. The obligation that is
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established between not just members of the tribe of between
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the chieftain in their tribe members and the tribe members
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and their Chieftain and the other, you know, leaders of the
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of the of the group or whatever, however, you know, whatever the
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tribal structure, whatever the Organizational structure of the
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of the building or the unit is, I should say, whatever that
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might be, you know? Yes, you look to your leaders to
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lead, but then you're also knowing that I'm going to be a
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part of this equation. I'm going to be working.
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And when you don't have that, when people don't step up, and
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when people don't, you know, work on on things together as a
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unit, then you are often faced with, you know, decisions to be
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like, well what are you doing here?
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Then if you're not going to band together with the rest of the
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group and you're going to just be out there flying solo and
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being you know, a Maverick and being You know the the captain
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of your own ship, you know, isolated on your own Island,
23:30
then the tribe then has no use for those types and I think
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there's a very fine line between knowing the importance of
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industriousness and being capable of handling stuff on
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your own. There's a fine line between that
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and then being on your own and not having anything to do with
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the tribe and the tribe not having anything to do with you.
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That is dangerous that when it when it when it leans on the
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ladder example that I just gave where yes you are strong as an
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individual but you're isolated as an individual, you have
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nothing to do with the group and as the unit that that's
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dangerous, your people can't rely on you.
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And then you therefore are not reliable and you can't rely on
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them to help you out. So when when things happen,
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right? Where makes it manifests, we're
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okay, I'm not, I'm not a part of this anymore.
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I can't be a I don't want to be a part of this.
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That could be, that's kind of where things are at for us.
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Right now, are for me, at least, is that?
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But I've put so much work into this already.
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I've done so much, you know, I've I, you know, I have so much
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invested into this, you know, how could I possibly walk away
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from this? How could I possibly let this
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thing be the, the end of it all, or at least the seeming end of
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it. It's tough.
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It is. It's tough to separate yourself.
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Withdraw yourself from that, but it, I think it's necessary.
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And I think it goes back to where I was talking earlier
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about how, you know, getting into the times of darkness and
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preparing for the times of Darkness.
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Its We need to, we need to kind of band together who we have
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available to us. We need to band together, we
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need to hunker down, we need to get ready for those dark times.
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And during that during those, those months of darkness of
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during that time of darkness, and during that time, where
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there's not a whole lot going on, we can regroup, we can, we
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can come up with the the next steps and we can be active in
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that way. You know, may not be time to get
25:39
out there and go on. A lot of, you know, Shares are
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do a lot of physical work but there's a lot of inner work that
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needs to be done and I think that that's kind of what's
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important about the timing of things where we are as a, where
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we are as individuals where we are as a tribe and and seeing
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that growth through to the next stage making it through.
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The dark ones welcoming in. Right.
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The, the winter nights and the winter months and tending to the
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Hearth fires tending to the things that are close in nearest
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and dearest to us. And letting letting go of those
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things that have served their purpose that have run their
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course, that have given everything that we can get out
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of them, right? and if we give, give give give
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Without receiving anything in return, if the reciprocity the
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gifting cycle gave of none of that is occurring.
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Then that is a telling Tale in and of itself, right?
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If we are, if we are Not. Receiving in return, the gifts
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that we've given. Then it is time to stop.
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You can't expect things to happen on a one-way Street,
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you're only going to be moving in a in a single single file
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single line. There's none of this exchange
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taking place and what's really interesting at least, for me,
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and for our tribe right now, or, you know, in recent times is
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that the reciprocity does exist and it is coming through in ways
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that I would not have initially expected, you know, I would not
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have expected to be engaging in the, the gifting cycle in the
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ways that I have been, you know, Having Patrick coming out, you
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know this this man has spoken so well in myself of midgard
28:07
musings and talking about how you know the information that
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he's gathered from what I do. Has been such like, you know, an
28:15
influence for him and it's humbling.
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It is it is genuinely touching to know that.
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Sitting in front of a camera for hours and days and whatever,
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cumulative time, spent over the years, has impacted somebody.
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And then, in a in reciprocity and in giving, back in a way,
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it's not just well, great, you know, you enjoy what I do and
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you know, sharing what I know. And it's benefiting you in a
28:46
way, but to give something tangible to the man to haul to
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offer shelter, to provide lodging to do the very thing.
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Our ancient ancestors would have done in ancient times that, you
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know, provide a place of Refuge, you know, a roof over their head
29:05
and travel to do that. Very thing that to me is like a
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great way to show. Thanks, and to give a gift in
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return. Yeah, sure.
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I may have been able to be of a positive influence for you, you
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know, in your life. Now, let me repay you in.
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Thanks. By giving you a place to sleep
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and giving you food to eat and giving you drink and giving you
29:31
time to spend in giving you a lot of these things, right?
29:33
That are so meaningful that you can build a real relationship
29:38
out of. I never would have thought that
29:40
this would have happened this way other ways.
29:48
JM fourth order of Saint, you know, be over to your Workshop.
29:52
This man has been Whether he knows it or not kind of like a
29:57
mentor and a, you know, he's said the same thing to me and in
30:02
the sense that you know, a lot of what I've done, has helped
30:05
him and we've helped each other and so there's there's exchange
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of knowledge as exchange of time counsel.
30:12
There's there's exchange of physical Goods of the of time of
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all these things, right? It's a living example.
30:23
Of how reciprocity transcends just physical gifts, right?
30:30
You give me this. I give you that.
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It goes so far beyond that and it and it is stablish has, and
30:37
builds a really strong bond between folks, you know, and it
30:45
helps to I think assuage some of the anguish that comes along
30:49
with letting go of things that you've spent so much time.
30:53
Like, oh man, I spent so many years working on this pot.
30:56
Now, I gotta break it. And now here comes a cup that
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serves a much better purpose you know that that fulfills a much
31:05
greater need that. You can focus your efforts and
31:09
your time and your energy and all that on.
31:12
So you know it's a I'm going to I'm going to use like an example
31:17
of just Maybe it fits, maybe it doesn't, but I'm going to say
31:21
it, you know, a couple of weeks ago, I'm you know, I do these
31:24
Riverwalk side, go out Barefoot in the in the in nature and I
31:28
get my feet, my bare feet, connected and grounded and
31:31
anchored back into the Earth and I received those energy time and
31:34
I'm revitalized and I have this walking stick that I was using.
31:37
And it broke right? It snapped in half almost and it
31:41
served its purpose and it was almost hard, right?
31:43
Yeah. It's just a stick.
31:44
You can find another one, right? But it's the whole like I've
31:49
walked. Miles with this thing.
31:50
I've swam with this thing. I've gone places with this thing
31:53
that now I can't go anymore. But I had to let it go.
31:58
They it's done. It's served its purpose.
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I let it go and it sent it down the river in the river, current
32:04
carries it to wherever it ends up to fulfill.
32:08
Its next purpose. All right, it's not going to.
32:10
Its next purpose is not going to be to provide stability when
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walking, but it's next purpose is going to be to provide, you
32:17
know, structure or materials for perhaps, you know, a river
32:22
creature or something to to build a shelter with or it's
32:25
going to decrease. Suppose, it's going to return
32:27
back into the Earth from whence it came.
32:29
And it's going to Again, the whole gifting cycle.
32:33
I think it the way it works. And that way, if you think about
32:35
it, it completes the cycle. So in the literal sense I've
32:44
recently had to let go of things that I've put some effort into
32:48
and that have gone with me in ways that I can't ever forget.
32:54
Metaphorically. I have had to let go of things
32:57
and let go of relationships in a way that have hurt to do so,
33:02
because That's it that that has served its purpose, it's run,
33:09
its course. Now the neat thing about it
33:12
right? Is that you know, some of these
33:13
types of things, some of these, like, relationships and affairs
33:17
with, you know, tribal members and whatnot.
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I don't feel like it. Those types of things are like,
33:26
well, never going to see that person again.
33:27
They're going to encounter that person again, but I think the
33:30
next encounter the next stage of things, should it ever happen is
33:34
going to be so much different because of that rebirth, because
33:39
of that, renewal because of that recycle stage.
33:44
If it does, if it happens, if it doesn't, then it truly has, you
33:47
know, run its course. And there is nothing left for us
33:51
to be a part of, you know, I do I try not to dwell on that
33:57
because again, the more I think about, you know, the specifics
34:00
of it all in the more I think about You know, the hurt or the
34:09
anguish of letting go, right? You can get lost in that, you
34:12
can get really, you can get stuck in that you get muck, you
34:15
know, stuck in the muck. You really get bogged down into
34:18
all that noise. And if you're bogged down, if
34:23
you're, if you're stuck in the mud, you're not moving forward,
34:26
you're becoming stagnant and you're letting that thing, be
34:30
the thing to control and Rule grow, you know, and prevent
34:35
ultimately prevent growth from happening.
34:39
So, a certain points and I've been at, and at a point it's
34:44
important to recognize and understand you have to let go.
34:49
Learn what you can out of the whole thing, right, which I
34:53
have. I've I've taken a lot of long
34:57
hard looks at myself because I am the last person to let
35:03
anything go, because I feel like there's something to salvage.
35:06
Because, again, I feel like I got control.
35:08
I have some sort of, I have to have some sort of control over
35:12
the situation, right? I have to be able to say that,
35:13
I've done everything that I can and if I haven't then I've
35:17
failed and I And learned everything that I can out of it.
35:20
But it, you know, sometimes you need outside, third-party
35:25
perspectives to be like, hey man, you know, you're kind of
35:28
beating a dead horse here. You're trying to do more than
35:32
what is Warranted. You, you're you need to step
35:38
away. You need to move on.
35:41
It's hard. At least it's hard for me.
35:44
May be hard for a lot of us. But don't feel like you're being
35:50
remiss. When you let go, don't feel like
35:53
you're not giving it your all When you walk away.
36:02
I think so much what's wrong in our society now is that guilt
36:05
culture Reigns and runs rampant this hole.
36:15
Yeah. Guilt culture, cancel culture.
36:17
There's a lot of things that are happening now in modern time,
36:21
the way our culture has evolved and stuff is is to put the blame
36:26
on people when There's no blame to be given.
36:35
It's a fine line, because I think that there's also some
36:37
people and some approaches to things that remove
36:42
responsibilities and remove accountability.
36:48
Not a lot of people are accountable of themselves, not a
36:53
lot of people are responsible themselves.
36:54
They want to put the blame on others, for the reason why
36:56
things suck, why the things why things are bad and why they feel
37:00
the way they feel. There's a lot of I think people
37:03
who have gotten. Or allowed I should say that.
37:10
There's a lot of people that'll have allowed their trauma to
37:14
rule their decisions and run and run and ruin their decisions and
37:18
ruin their relationships. Now, I'm not saying that people
37:22
who have experienced trauma of any sort are not justified in
37:26
feeling the way they feel. What I'm saying is that it is up
37:30
to us, as individuals, it is up to us to not allow that trauma
37:35
two be the reasons that we're bunch of assholes, you know,
37:46
that that is, that is tough. And that's a tough place to be.
37:49
That's a tough play. Tough place to find ourselves in
37:51
man. But be accountable for
37:56
yourselves, be accountable for ourselves, right.
37:59
Take up our Responsibilities to be better to be the best version
38:06
of ourselves. We possibly can be and that
38:08
doesn't mean that you're going to be the best every single day.
38:11
Doesn't mean that we're going to be the best of our version of
38:13
ourselves. Every single day, there's going
38:15
to be days where we really do suck in.
38:17
There's going to be days where we really feel like we just
38:19
don't amount to much and it's okay to not be okay.
38:23
It's okay to feel those feelings.
38:27
But I think everything again, everything in context, right?
38:31
Take care of it, address it, And that's going to be another
38:37
thing. I think that we talked about on
38:39
next week's podcast me and Patrick because this this kind
38:43
of touches on, you know, mental health.
38:45
No, it doesn't kind of touch on mental.
38:47
It, absolutely touches on mental health, and I think Patrick is
38:50
going to be able to, really provide some dialogue between
38:55
the two of us that when we're sitting there getting ready for
38:58
our Park mood while he's here in Tennessee, we're going to be
39:02
able to talk about that and we're not going to have like a
39:04
time limit on things. We're going to we're going to
39:06
do. Ramble On too.
39:08
However, long we want to ramble for it's going to probably be
39:11
one of the longer podcast episodes.
39:12
I think that are going to be released here, so just be ready
39:18
for that. It could be, you know, an hour
39:20
and a half, two hours long, we're not sure yet, we don't
39:22
know, but we're not going to put a time limit on it.
39:24
We're not going to stop just because it's, you know, I mean
39:27
we do we will have the parking to consider so I mean if we
39:30
start recording, it's, you know, 3-4 hours moving the oh crap,
39:33
you know, we got it ready for our guests to arrive.
39:36
But No, I think there's a lot of things to be said with regards
39:43
to all of this, right? So Patrick you can be seeing
39:46
this podcast before, you know, you come out here or whatever.
39:51
That's what we're going to be talking about, man.
39:53
We're going to be actually talking about it later this
39:56
week. Well, we're going to be
39:59
recording it later this week. And then you guys are going to
40:02
see it next week. So prepare for the dark times,
40:11
let go, there are things that are coming into this season for
40:17
a lot of us. That are going to require us to.
40:25
Withdraw, maybe disconnect. And just let go.
40:31
Let go of that broken staff, man.
40:36
You've walked along many roads. You've traveled many miles.
40:43
You know, it's time to, it's time to cash it in.
40:46
It's time to cash out. Maybe it's time to move on.
40:51
It's time to let go and letting go doesn't always mean a bad
40:56
thing. It's not inherently bad to let
40:58
go. It's not inherently bad to say,
41:00
I'm done. It's just what we got to do,
41:03
sometimes, right? So that is today's ramblings.
41:15
I think that's all I really wanted to say.
41:17
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42:32
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