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Real Talk Kim: Divorced Twice, Then God Sent Her Redemption · Love You Moore with Willie Moore Jr.

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  [SPEAKER_00]: Next, on the love of your wish, Elvis said he gets exposed and I walked through another divorce.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I said I'm never doing this again because now I got something to lose.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You're starting to heal.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You're like, man, I'm just not going to put up with this anymore.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: There's something about me that needs to change.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: She just said he wanted to hear my voice.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Something just sparked me and I came to tell you what was because I ain't never felt it in my life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: But it was hopeful, you're about to miss out on having a really great life because of a bunch of people that aren't going to love you tomorrow.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: When someone's got your back and loves you well, it makes you feel like that you can do anything in this world.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And it doesn't matter if anybody does something because he does.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And it's just a beautiful, beautiful gift, and I hope the whole world gets to experience it.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Hey family, Willie Mojoon, you're here.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Another love you more show.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Of course, you know, this is the place where people come who've been through un-coupling.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And you get a chance to hear their journey to love in themselves more.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Now, the Bible continuously tells us that we're to love our neighbor as we love ourselves.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: The only issue that I've been seeing with a lot of people is that it's hard to love somebody else when you don't take time for yourself.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: To my ladies out there, you've been doing way too much.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Huh?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I want to tell you number one, help is so healthy.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And of course you know you may have seen your mom do all this stuff and you seem like I have to put it with eight arms and doing all of this but you may not be built that way, baby.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You can get some help.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: They don't make you less than the mother or a wife if you get some help until my fellas.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Communication is tough, right?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I understand that communication may not be something that you're graded, but I want you to know that the word communication derives from a Latin word communicator, what simply means to share.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: So when somebody asks you or tells you you don't communicate, they just mean.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You're not sharing what's necessary for them to help you out.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: All right.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: So, preferably with this conversation, you'll see two people communicate, communicate, and share, and you're gonna fill it in your shop, I'm not here.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Listen, today's guest is a fan, favorite, and a person that I personally requested, because I'm in a new season of my life, and she continues to drop jewels, and live by example.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: One person I know who ain't gonna lie to me, because she keep it one hundred.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: It's in the field.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I promise you're gonna keep you.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Yes, Lord.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I was so honored to be with you.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Number one, let me tell you, thank you so much.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You live a way away and you can't wait.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I hit to the country to come out.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was thinking I was going all the way to Florida.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: If you're a real Florida, didn't it?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: When you get a part certain exit, you like, we'd buy the head on downpass making it.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know what so crazy is.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I used to live off a bridge.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh, yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Look at my previous life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I remember the story.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: So every time I passed the bridge, I think about partying, I think about, that was when I was in my crazy stage of life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And so kind of that down here changed.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Different person.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: So what does it feel like now being the version that you are married, living life, tons of pounds smaller, healthier, more than the life.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: When you look at the woman who live in that country club,
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  [SPEAKER_04]: versus the woman that you have now become through the grace of God, who is that woman and how do you feel today?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know what?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Really, I love my life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I never thought in a million years that I could feel this way.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: A 24-7.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Like it's...
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  [SPEAKER_00]: God brought me this most incredible man, you know my my story and I'll get to I got my best friend I learned I learned in this season of my life the last four years that it's important to like me so that I can like somebody else.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: and I like this man a lot and I'm in love with him and I get to marry him and so I just feel like I can I've always been me but a kind of a bitter me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Really?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You just always say I'm so...
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was so happy but sometimes when you get to a place like you're like I'm at right now, I just think
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was honest, but I was sometimes petty.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, and I think now it's just real real.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: It's, I'm so at peace.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: So it's so, so much joy and it's fun driving down here because I get to look over and remember that girl.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, that was the way I was with my two children and how different I am today.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Look, I look way younger than I ever did 15 years ago.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, he was going through.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: He had some different hairstyle and everything.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: But it's just your spirit for me.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And I was like, here we've got some soul.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And then I meet your husband at that time.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And I was just like, well, maybe not soul.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I don't know.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: She just, we'll be in the radio.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And I'm like, you thought she's married to a black dude, didn't you?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, I thought so too.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And then, yeah, I profited give was working because you are married to an African-American brother.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And I'm so glad to see him when we went, you know, backstage to the other side of my home.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: My God, he came and then I realized the real man is going to always stand by his woman side when they go out there.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Listen, I never had it.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: It's the craziest thing ever.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I never had a man protect me like Angelotus, a man that will fight for me, like a man that will literally go ahead to head with somebody for me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: If even if he sees comments, maybe we don't look at the comments, because he'll be ready to, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be, he'll be,
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I was telling somebody while I go, I was saying, when someone's got your back and loves you well, it makes you feel like that you can do anything in this world.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Because you know at the end of the day, you get to go to bed with your best friend.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You'd have a spend the night party with your best friend every night, and it doesn't matter if anybody doesn't love you.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Because he does.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And it's just a beautiful, beautiful gift.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I hope the whole world gets to experience it.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Why, I really, really do.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I don't know why I want to cry right now.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And I'm trying to keep my, because my homeboy from Connecticut, Miguel, and here you're like, bro, you better not cry, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: On the bros, you better not go there, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: But no, we cry, they can't swim.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Or happy and thankful.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I think.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I think I'm just more happy because I've said down with you two times thing like I said down with you from the first season when you're going through so much heartbreak But you still got to get there and you still got to inspire people the cost deal stands I got to take care of my mom.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I hope my kids are gonna be okay.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: They're getting older and then I see you go You know go through another season of your life where it's like I'm gonna be okay
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Because it is what it is and then you know, I just met and you know, I'm with Angela.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: He's my guy I'm not married just yet, but I'm on my way So we can't even really say his name Because it's like, is that the security guard up?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: But then say talking pretty nice trainer Yeah, you know, such a trainer, you know, and then it's all know and then of course You know, I'm privy later when all the ladies come in it's like that's the guy.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm like, I love him
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You know, and then you know, and now just to be able to see you free, um, I think if somebody seeing your journey and they don't, um, feel this way, they can't really love you like that.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Like for real, like, because I say you fight, you know, I say you fight, I say you fight, I say you fight the comments, I say you fight the hate, I say you, like, do that and you, you always show up for me and I just appreciate that, like when the world is so
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  [SPEAKER_04]: But you can't be, you can't see somebody become victorious again and not be happy for them, right?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Like, you cannot, if you're, if you're that way, I just don't, I, I just don't feel like the spirit of the Lord can live in you if you don't feel this much excited.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: And I'm just glad to see you happy because I always felt like you deserved it.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You know what I mean?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I think I always thought you deserve some happiness and you don't need to tell you what happens when God brings you a redemption and I call Angeloma my redemption.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: is that you don't even, you're not even angry, you know, you're not even, like, you're so at peace, like, even thinking about all that you were talking about, right?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I went through preachers of Atlanta, broken.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I felt like I've always had Christians coming at me even when I was, you know, with my mohawk.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and,
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  [SPEAKER_00]: There's something about cross and over to a place of victory, which is the way God created you and me to live.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And everybody in this world, God did not create us to live and cast an infusion.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And God also didn't create us to live in that choices.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I think for so long because of the church world, we stay, we fight, we hide.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: We don't want to talk about the victory on the other side of failed relationships because it looks like we just threw the other relationships away.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: So that's why we cry.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: We cry because we're getting a really experienced what God created for us to, this is how He created us to live.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: He's not a God of warfare, everything's not warfare.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, everything doesn't have to be a fight.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: He wants us to live like this and I think that's what we feel when we cry.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: So can you, can you maybe talk to to the journey?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: How do you love again after overcoming?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: such a betrayal and such a public everybody everybody knows like how do you open up your heart again to love again like why why why won't you just so internal to say well I'm just going to go do ministry and not do this why wasn't that your word I did you know I remember I mean gosh I had come out of an 18 year marriage with my son's father states in gold for five years six years met
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  [SPEAKER_00]: mother has been meridium quick.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I just always thought I supposed to be a wife.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And so that's the way I was raised to get married to have kids.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And that's what I was after.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I just made really bad choices.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And so by the time I wasn't in ministry when I met the other one that you knew, I was an
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I got a ministry after God started opening the windows, we haven't over my life and I started pastor and I was preaching five planes a week, preaching all over the world, every platform I'll under the sun and then all of a sudden he gets exposed and I walked through another divorce.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I said, I'm never doing this again because now I've got something to lose.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Because somewhere along that journey I found me, I started finding me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I started wanting that, I mean, as soon as that divorce happened, I started working out, they always say, you glow up after you get divorced.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: That's not it.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I think you realize somewhere along the line that you're starting to heal.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You're like, man, I'm just not going to put up with this anymore.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: There's something about me that needs to change.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You start pointing to finger at yourself.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I started changing.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I started realizing, sort of like, my hair grow.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I started going to the gym.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was content.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was happy.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm very successful.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I make great money.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I can go wherever I want to go.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I saw my house in Fayetteville.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Decide I was going to move down town Atlanta.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was changing everything.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was fine single.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was thinking I would never get married again because I can't have another divorce.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm already shouldn't be hell.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I should be in hell already.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: On an elephant's side.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Under those standards.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Like I sometimes even think out and out, I even get to still do what I do with my track record.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I think about that.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Thanks.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: Like I would judge me.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I would judge me.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: I would, you know, because that's what we do in the body of Christ.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: We judge people.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You say, I would judge me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I would.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I would probably look her and say, why is she even still talking in a mic?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Right?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Why is she writing another book?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Why is she, I passed really, very successful church with lots of incredible couples, like our church is thriving.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And, but I would probably judge me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, it's like the antiler of church.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And so, I was like, I'm never getting married again.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I was great with that and live in my life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I walked into eat at a restaurant with my brother and his sister-in-law, Saint Regen, right there in Buckhead.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: This dude walks by and I'm white.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: his black.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: It is.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, I like I was it was all I didn't even look at me and like I had no game.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I wasn't thinking about flirting.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was not good at flirting.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I'd been married my whole life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And he walks by and he said, I heard your voice.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, just want to say hi.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I was like,
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  [SPEAKER_00]: this dude is five.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: He was six five.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I preached all day.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: We were just having dinner at night.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: So I was not expecting anything.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And he says, you, one of those wings are good.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I had some.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, that was it.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: So then he goes to the bathroom.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm waiting for him to come back.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I mean, Shirley's going to talk to me just said he wanted to hear my voice.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: They want to see who that voice was connected to.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: He never said another word.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And we leave, but something sparked that night.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Like I was like, it'd been five six years since I'd been married.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, man, I'm in bucket, maybe.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe a possibility that I'm gonna marry not a preacher like I'm because I was never marrying a preacher again ever None of them ever like I just that's why I wasn't gonna get married because I didn't think I'd come Anybody in that be okay with the woman preacher So it has to be a preacher that culture is so different like I didn't grow the way what?
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Dang, the things you have to think about, we're going.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Ugh, so I just, he sparks something in me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: So man, I got on that prayer call, because I do prayer call every morning and a day on all my socials.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Eastern Standard Time.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I get on prayer call and something just sparked me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I came to tell you what it was, because I ain't never felt it in my life.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: But it was, it was hopeful.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: It was like, oh my gosh, there's people outside of the church.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: that are cool.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I just never looked at them.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And I started running, and I got us on a challenge.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, man, we could do anything for 30 days.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I went and lost another 32 pounds, that next month, and I was running and working out.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: That was the first time I ever been in a gym.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I had, you saw me running, you better run, because somebody's chasing me.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was in the gym, I was running, I was excited.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I didn't think anything else of it, but buddy, I was looking cute.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: I was, my hair was growing out, I was just feeling it.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: There's something happening, I don't know what it is.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, we go back to you to that place three months later.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: And all of a sudden we hear, do you mind if we sit at the fireplace with you guys?
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You've been thinking about walking away from their relationship.
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  [SPEAKER_04]: You've been keeping this seat.
• 15:32
  [SPEAKER_04]: Fighting this tug of war.
• 15:33
  [SPEAKER_04]: Every single day on your life.
• 15:35
  [SPEAKER_04]: Should I leave or should I stay?
• 15:36
  [SPEAKER_04]: Hey, hey, hey, I think it's important that you know before you go.
• 15:39
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm willing more June your relationship and family expert.
• 15:42
  [SPEAKER_04]: And when I tell you, it is important for you to make the right decision.
• 15:46
  [SPEAKER_04]: It is my goal that everybody who comes to my love you more a child in the States, Mary.
• 15:50
  [SPEAKER_04]: However, if you don't, the voice calls me six weeks and I had to rebuild trust for my children and I had to re-establish my name in a community, right?
• 15:57
  [SPEAKER_04]: I wanna make sure that everything I wish I knew I give you before you make that decision.
• 16:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: So I'm challenging you right now to join the love you more child.
• 16:06
  [SPEAKER_04]: Simple enough you know before you go.
• 16:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: Flatter.
• 16:09
  [SPEAKER_04]: Now back to the love you more show.
• 16:11
  [SPEAKER_04]: Flatter.
• 16:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: We go back to eat at that place three months later.
• 16:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: And all of a sudden we hear, do you mind if we set it to fireplace with you guys?
• 16:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I turn around and I turn around and I see Angelo.
• 16:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I put my hand on the top of the house like this.
• 16:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: And he said, my face just lit up and I said,
• 16:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: Come sit right here and I was just hit the couch I just said come sit right here And I was moving the pillars out of the way and he came and sat and it was on It was like literally God brought us back together three months later and by the time I left that night He sent me drew heel Beauty Oh, I he sent me a video.
• 16:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like it ain't even a christian song I love drew heel And I wear the all week long.
• 16:54
  [SPEAKER_04]: I just said that did you get me no drew here.
• 16:56
  [SPEAKER_04]: What no?
• 16:59
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm saying you say it's like you have no idea No, but that is not a do it.
• 17:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: Oh, okay.
• 17:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: He is her name.
• 17:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: It is like I saw her past by her and something was her name
• 17:12
  [SPEAKER_04]: So, so, most women got a call to a partner and be like, girl, he did this.
• 17:16
  [SPEAKER_04]: Who did you call?
• 17:17
  [SPEAKER_04]: Nobody.
• 17:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: Oh, wow.
• 17:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: My brother Melissa knew.
• 17:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: My brother is just her long new, but I was mixed.
• 17:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, because I was like, hey, man, this is, but he was a great guy.
• 17:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: He went to Del Proner's church.
• 17:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like, he loves him and Del Proner.
• 17:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: He still watches him.
• 17:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm like, you know what?
• 17:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's, he'll be in there getting ready for church watching it.
• 17:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: What?
• 17:36
  [SPEAKER_04]: He threw my brother in my house.
• 17:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: He still brought Bishop.
• 17:40
  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh, I mean, I was a good guy, but he's even great.
• 17:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: Oh, he's where he went to church.
• 17:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so we started dating, and he started giving me hope.
• 17:48
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, he wasn't in ministry.
• 17:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: Didn't understand how he didn't care.
• 17:52
  [SPEAKER_00]: He was the first man that didn't say where do I fit?
• 17:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll never forget doing a podcast at my house.
• 17:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I was like, where did Angelogo?
• 17:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: It was like probably fourth month.
• 18:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: And they said, me, it came in left.
• 18:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: By the time that podcast got done, he had went and washed both my cars.
• 18:08
  [SPEAKER_00]: He went, got tires rotated, hit put gas in the tanks.
• 18:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, he never asked me.
• 18:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: From that point on, I never touched another thing.
• 18:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: He just did all the things men are supposed to do.
• 18:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was like, man.
• 18:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I remember going to church one day and I looked at my mom and I said, Mom, I don't know if this is going to work.
• 18:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: She said, why is it because he doesn't come to my church?
• 18:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: He was still going to dump her on his church.
• 18:31
  [SPEAKER_04]: That's a good place.
• 18:32
  [SPEAKER_04]: It goes hard to leave this.
• 18:33
  [SPEAKER_04]: What is he going?
• 18:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: What is he saying?
• 18:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: If he was close, if my church is in the field, he would act.
• 18:39
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, he's tough to get up there.
• 18:41
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm not coming now because you came while he's I'm popping up on the floor.
• 18:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, I'm not far from you now.
• 18:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
• 18:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: As far as.
• 18:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: But he, he, he, he,
• 18:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, he doesn't go to my church.
• 18:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was going to be a problem.
• 18:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: She looked at me and grabbed me on the hand.
• 18:52
  [SPEAKER_00]: She said, girl, she said, you don't ever make that man.
• 18:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: Come to your church if you don't.
• 18:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: Oh, well, you are his assignment.
• 19:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: You'd be happy with that.
• 19:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: This is going to work.
• 19:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: You just let that man be.
• 19:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I did, and he ended up, man, come in a few weeks later, never left.
• 19:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: We got married.
• 19:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's amazing.
• 19:13
  [SPEAKER_04]: So how did you get married?
• 19:13
  [SPEAKER_04]: Did you just, was it a big ceremony?
• 19:15
  [SPEAKER_04]: Or you just like, we just...
• 19:18
  [SPEAKER_04]: Snuck is weak.
• 19:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know what we did?
• 19:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, the bag is all you do.
• 19:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: My mother did it in our living room.
• 19:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: My mother said, baby, you know this is it.
• 19:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, I know, but I can't really afford another wedding and another marriage.
• 19:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: I can't.
• 19:33
  [SPEAKER_04]: We just need to say, like, never get married again.
• 19:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: And she said, his business is it, like your boys love him.
• 19:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: the church loves him, and it's nobody's business.
• 19:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: Just y'all get married, and that's what we did.
• 19:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: We got married and private.
• 19:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: We were married two years before, probably anybody even knew it.
• 19:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: And,
• 19:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: best thing I've ever done, kept a secret.
• 19:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: Nobody knew if he was my trainer.
• 20:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: So we were together for a whole year before we even, before we got married.
• 20:06
  [SPEAKER_00]: But it's the best thing I've ever done in my life.
• 20:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: We did just have a wedding.
• 20:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: So this past new years, I was preaching.
• 20:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, just go, let's do it, live.
• 20:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: All this kind of stuff, and I just felt the Holy Spirit was like, yeah, you really believe that?
• 20:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because you got a great man and you don't even have a wedding because you cared what people were gonna say about you.
• 20:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was so afraid that people were gonna judge me that I snuck away and did something and missed out on the greatest part of my life, which was having wedding pictures, getting to stare at each other in the eyes and love on each other in front of all of our friends.
• 20:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so we finally did it this past July, and it was amazing.
• 20:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: That's so good.
• 20:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: How about the end of drew real?
• 21:06
  [SPEAKER_00]: I know all the good stuff now because of him so you know we'd be talking about you behind your back right?
• 21:13
  [SPEAKER_04]: You mean we say real talking about so hell she really got sold now.
• 21:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: She let she let down so everything nice you know for a circle hey he's my first ministry right there.
• 21:26
  [SPEAKER_04]: So talk about the him being your first ministry because, you know, you are a pastor, a very cool pastor, very anointed pastor.
• 21:32
  [SPEAKER_04]: Don't let the humor fool the assignment.
• 21:34
  [SPEAKER_04]: Like I would tell people, she's going to be down the earth.
• 21:36
  [SPEAKER_04]: We're going to laugh and have fun.
• 21:38
  [SPEAKER_04]: But over she starts talking that talk is coming and she can't help it.
• 21:42
  [SPEAKER_04]: It's like, I wasn't trying to do that, but I had to do that.
• 21:44
  [SPEAKER_04]: So, but when you say he's your assignment, like, how do you make sure that you prioritise this new love in your life to make sure that the outside world doesn't bleed and tell
• 21:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've never met anybody like him.
• 21:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, it's like, I love my daddy more than anything.
• 21:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: My daddy had big standards for a man.
• 22:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've never met anybody, like he's my person.
• 22:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like, I honor the heck out of him.
• 22:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: I respect the heck out of him.
• 22:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like he is so even he is, I'll never forget, this is probably when I really felt fell fell in love with him.
• 22:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was acting up, you know, I was,
• 22:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: one night, you know, just like I do, would, you know, I have staff, you know, I'm a business woman.
• 22:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've got employees, like I've got staff at our church.
• 22:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm successful.
• 22:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I'm just kind of, I've been saying, I'm straight, and you, you've got a business.
• 22:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: I do.
• 22:40
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
• 22:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, he let me know.
• 22:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: He, I said,
• 22:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm assuming, I remember we had an outman, I guess, I guess what it was was we went to a link up at that, which was a singles event.
• 22:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I had told him, go pull the car up, because he's ready to go, there was a game.
• 22:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: He did that for me.
• 22:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like he went to this event with me when there was a game, and he's a huge sports guy.
• 23:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I said, go pull the car up, I'm coming.
• 23:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I left him sitting in that car for 45 minutes.
• 23:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: And he could look in there and see me standing there taking pictures.
• 23:11
  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh, you're here.
• 23:12
  [SPEAKER_04]: You're about to get.
• 23:13
  [SPEAKER_04]: Come on, man.
• 23:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: But I wish you're still doing that, you know?
• 23:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: And he comes walking in his coat his off.
• 23:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: He comes walking in and I see him walking in it.
• 23:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: I just, I'm like, run it out.
• 23:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: It was like a wake-up call.
• 23:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because when we got in that car, he said, I guess you had never dated a black man before.
• 23:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, because I ain't blitting out with that.
• 23:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, I don't know what them white boys did, but as black men ain't going, you were going to just respect me like that, but he was saying it kind, but for the first time, my life, I was like,
• 23:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: Holy, like, I think I've always put everything above people, like ministry, it was like God knocked me in the face with that.
• 23:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: Dude, you're about to miss out on having a really great life because of a bunch of people that aren't going to love you tomorrow.
• 23:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: They love you today, but they will throw you away tomorrow.
• 24:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: You let somebody put you on a cancel culture and you watch how fast.
• 24:06
  [SPEAKER_00]: Man, it was like, I was the first time my life was like,
• 24:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like he allows me to be soft and so in that moment it and then he puts his arms around me.
• 24:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: We got home and he puts his arms around me.
• 24:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, I got your back.
• 24:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, but I got to know you got mine and I all of a sudden I was like, I love this man.
• 24:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, I'm going to give you 24 hours.
• 24:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because I really think that you need to maybe maybe you're too busy.
• 24:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you got too much on your plate.
• 24:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: He said, but I'm not okay being not thought of.
• 24:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like, it wasn't even that I was expecting you to do something extraordinary.
• 24:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: It was just, you said we were ready.
• 24:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: And it was a big old road.
• 24:48
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I'm sitting out there and cars flying by.
• 24:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I just look in there and it's like, you have no care in the world.
• 24:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm gonna be sitting out here.
• 24:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: I laid that next day because he was gone.
• 24:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: He was like, I really, I think I need to think about this
• 25:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you're just, maybe it's just too much.
• 25:08
  [SPEAKER_00]: Man, our home was laying in a cross.
• 25:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: I laying in a floor, laying in a cross, guy helped me get it together.
• 25:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't know why I've liked this.
• 25:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: And it was, I really had to, to so search, you know, if I put ministry before my kids, if I, you know, it's probably one divorce.
• 25:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thanks for lying because of the life I get to live now.
• 25:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: But it could have been part of it.
• 25:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was always driven so driven that people took a back burner that I really loved because I knew that it always be there.
• 25:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: But I really loved him and he was going to always be there.
• 25:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: If I didn't shake some things up.
• 25:45
  [SPEAKER_04]: So what did you do to make sure that you consider him differently than you've done?
• 25:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: I always ask him.
• 25:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: I never make a never make moves without talking to my husband.
• 25:57
  [SPEAKER_04]: Okay.
• 25:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: Which is huge.
• 26:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: ways before I agree to this, say, baby, will he most can we go down?
• 26:06
  [SPEAKER_00]: What do you think?
• 26:06
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I said, it's kind of far.
• 26:08
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's like, absolutely.
• 26:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's been there for us.
• 26:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: We're headed down there.
• 26:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like, I always, if he says, I don't even travel as much as I used to because he's like, nah, nah, nah, we're not doing that.
• 26:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: First time I'd ever.
• 26:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: Listen to somebody because I know he's got my heart.
• 26:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: No, you know, so I always talk them.
• 26:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: I always listen to him.
• 26:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: I know that he is leader of our home.
• 26:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's got a good track record.
• 26:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so he takes that pressure off me.
• 26:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't ever second guess him ever.
• 26:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: If men sit down and we talk about something and he says, baby, I think this is a good idea.
• 26:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: We do it, but he does that for me too.
• 26:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like if he tells me, Kim, I think that I feel this and I don't man-be, but let's pray about it because I'm leaning this way.
• 26:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: And then I come back and say, I really felt like we need to take this.
• 26:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's like, let's go, he'll never again.
• 27:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: He won't give me a silent treatment.
• 27:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: He don't shut down on me, which is what I've always been.
• 27:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I've always been in relationships where they just shut down on you and they pal.
• 27:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: He never does that.
• 27:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's like, okay, baby, I trust you.
• 27:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so it's easy to put him first.
• 27:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's easy to
• 27:19
  [SPEAKER_04]: that's that's that's that's that's mine that's my everything so I mean obviously you're white and obviously he's black and obviously we have Christian and then we have gospel I mean obviously you have cross-pop native into worlds was there any backlash from your more conservative
• 27:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: I believe it's her, you know, I remember Angelo telling me it was like this might hurt your ministry.
• 27:52
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I said for what?
• 27:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's because we're in a race.
• 27:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: I was like, dude, it's 2,026.
• 27:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's out there.
• 28:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't even see it.
• 28:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like I'm so oblivious, I actually don't even care.
• 28:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, if it went, whenever, man Angela said down in the society, this is my happily forever man.
• 28:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: This is, I'm doing this dog on thing.
• 28:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: I took into account, if I could see one of me too, he says, I want you to think about this.
• 28:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: If this hurts,
• 28:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: your ministry, or it hurts, whatever, are you good?
• 28:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: Are you gonna make the right decision?
• 28:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: Are we the right decision?
• 28:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: I said, dude, we can move to Cabo.
• 28:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: We can live on a beach, if I never preach another day of my life.
• 28:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: Oh well, I'll just sit and write books.
• 28:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll just put out books.
• 28:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll just sit and write books.
• 28:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: And this is it.
• 28:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, this is it, man.
• 28:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: This is for sure it.
• 28:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I think it hurt me, some.
• 28:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: Our church is full of multi-racial couples now, so that's kind of cool.
• 28:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: They're like, we don't feel accepted anywhere, but I'll church as full of it, right?
• 28:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't feel, I just think that we're great, we all felt it.
• 29:04
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
• 29:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: And it's from both sides.
• 29:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's from all sides.
• 29:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: Oh, really?
• 29:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: Just a. I think, you know, I think I admire the fearlessness.
• 29:14
  [SPEAKER_04]: You know, the Bible says that we walk by faith and by science and sitting in the eye of faith and having to do that in a relationship,
• 29:22
  [SPEAKER_04]: and then choosing your mate over the people is just like, I'm like, yeah, you know, because everybody has this imaginary, imagination of what they believe, so this will be beautiful for this person and this person.
• 29:35
  [SPEAKER_04]: And if you live your life kind of focusing on, like, hey, this is what I think people would like, because that's what you do when you're in a public eye, you're just kind of building out this beautiful, systematic thing that may be good for the brand,
• 29:48
  [SPEAKER_04]: and they realize the brand is just so fragile because people who love you one day and then they'll hate you the next.
• 29:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: So you gotta be able to say, when the smoke clears, what am I gonna be happy?
• 29:59
  [SPEAKER_04]: Not just receiving but serving, man.
• 30:02
  [SPEAKER_04]: Like, and I serve somebody who will be grateful for the attempt.
• 30:05
  [SPEAKER_04]: Not only like me landing right, but will you be okay with the considerations that I put in for your for your future in your life and I'm just inspired by the fact that I want to do what I believe I call me to do and I'm doing what I want to do yeah and the rest of y'all I would hope you go to heaven, but you can go to heaven if you want to yeah you can and and and and and that's your and and that's your choice, but you're not going to keep me here nice you're not going to keep me in this
• 30:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: I tell people that every day, I'm like, dude, y'all, you wanna be that way, be that way.
• 30:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm just giving you another way.
• 30:41
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
• 30:41
  [SPEAKER_04]: But I'm gonna live my life.
• 30:43
  [SPEAKER_04]: Now I was on the, I was on something, I was backstage or something.
• 30:49
  [SPEAKER_04]: And there's like, have you seen real talk, can you?
• 30:52
  [SPEAKER_04]: And I said, yeah, yeah, you know, I mean they don't they don't know the relationship or at all.
• 30:57
  [SPEAKER_04]: And I was like, oh, yeah, I think she got a lot of black man.
• 31:00
  [SPEAKER_04]: And I think, you know what I'm saying?
• 31:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: She just want to do this, this and this.
• 31:03
  [SPEAKER_04]: And I said, you know, I said, you know, the thing is, it's a lot of times we see people and we don't even know like all they've been through.
• 31:09
  [SPEAKER_04]: I said, you know, my thing, I'm just glad to see her with a man because she went through so much hell.
• 31:15
  [SPEAKER_04]: I could have been a lesbian.
• 31:16
  [SPEAKER_01]: More love you more podcast after this.
• 31:19
  [SPEAKER_04]: Next week on the Love You More Show.
• 31:21
  [SPEAKER_04]: Who's highly successful on the outside?
• 31:23
  [SPEAKER_04]: But never knowing what a man is going through on the inside.
• 31:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: All these outlets, like they're killing it.
• 31:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: But at home, it's like this.
• 31:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: You get up, you find somebody, you hire somebody.
• 31:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: Can you get yourself out of this?
• 31:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I had to listen.
• 31:34
  [SPEAKER_04]: When you're a man and your goal is just to live, yes, to not lose your mind.
• 31:38
  [SPEAKER_04]: For me, not to drink in the morning in the noon day and at night.
• 31:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: I hope my mistakes, my highs and my lungs, hope brothers out there, get in touch with your emotions and be able to share what you're really going through.
• 31:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, if you don't share what you're going through, it's going to take you through.
• 31:52
  [SPEAKER_04]: Tony, next week, now back to the Love You More Show.
• 31:55
  [SPEAKER_04]: Flat out.
• 31:55
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm just glad to see her with a man because she went through so much hell.
• 31:59
  [SPEAKER_04]: I could have been a lesbian or just saying, no.
• 32:03
  [SPEAKER_04]: And I said, hey, I don't know what you've been through.
• 32:06
  [SPEAKER_04]: And then you know, you single right now.
• 32:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: I don't know what that is even.
• 32:10
  [SPEAKER_04]: Like when she got up.
• 32:12
  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh my God.
• 32:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: But people always say that.
• 32:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: And she won't be black.
• 32:15
  [SPEAKER_04]: Black is a black woman.
• 32:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: I know people think I want to be black.
• 32:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: But what is that?
• 32:20
  [SPEAKER_04]: I mean, you had always had a look, you know, a little twang a little bit.
• 32:23
  [SPEAKER_04]: We didn't.
• 32:24
  [SPEAKER_04]: We didn't.
• 32:24
  [SPEAKER_04]: You grew up in Decay to somewhere.
• 32:26
  [SPEAKER_04]: Really?
• 32:27
  [SPEAKER_04]: Before Decay to turn and what it was, I might not.
• 32:29
  [SPEAKER_04]: She from like, yeah, she got to be really.
• 32:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 32:32
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
• 32:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: I knew it was so funny.
• 32:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's my Eddie.
• 32:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: My daddy never had one black person.
• 32:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: His church.
• 32:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: My brother has a church in Jonesboro.
• 32:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: Not one white person.
• 32:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: His church.
• 32:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: I start pastoring my church looks like heaven.
• 32:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: We got all colors, but isn't that funny?
• 32:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 32:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: Then my dad never had any black people now.
• 32:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I don't know where that came from me being like this.
• 32:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm just me.
• 32:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe I just got some salt.
• 33:00
  [SPEAKER_04]: We don't know.
• 33:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: We don't know your answers, though.
• 33:03
  [SPEAKER_04]: And we don't know.
• 33:04
  [SPEAKER_04]: You don't never know it.
• 33:05
  [SPEAKER_04]: Do you take the little bit?
• 33:06
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, I tell you, like, I'm 17.5% not jail.
• 33:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, you be like, what?
• 33:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: I knew it was something, but I mean, either way.
• 33:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: In my daddy, I always said he was Indian.
• 33:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: He got so mad one time, William.
• 33:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: We went to Gatlinburg and we went to one of those shows where that you watched the Indians fight and you're eating the chicken with your hands.
• 33:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: He got so angry at the way they treated his people.
• 33:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: He made us get up and leave.
• 33:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: Leave the show because he was like, man, they treat my people so bad.
• 33:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: We were home two years later.
• 33:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: He did the ancestry.
• 33:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: He got one ounce of me, they didn't.
• 33:35
  [SPEAKER_04]: He was so bad over nothing.
• 33:43
  [SPEAKER_04]: So hey, it's going out in the line.
• 33:45
  [SPEAKER_04]: If you're granted your good netting like, you know, you're granted your Cherokee on the West side.
• 33:50
  [SPEAKER_04]: Hey, real talk.
• 33:51
  [SPEAKER_04]: I got a lot to you.
• 33:52
  [SPEAKER_04]: I was adopted.
• 33:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: So everywhere I went.
• 33:54
  [SPEAKER_04]: I was in Mexico like are you my mom like it's just like I didn't know I was an animal could like
• 34:00
  [SPEAKER_04]: This is why I beat my people.
• 34:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: I went over to a bro like India, India.
• 34:04
  [SPEAKER_04]: I had other than that in me.
• 34:05
  [SPEAKER_04]: They're my family from like Bali, Bali.
• 34:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: And where I went thought I'd say it could.
• 34:10
  [SPEAKER_04]: Nobody was remotely close to my to my background.
• 34:15
  [SPEAKER_04]: I don't have no Indian bro.
• 34:17
  [SPEAKER_04]: I thought I was Dominican, a big man to produce like, you gotta be from the below bro, you look like they're with the beer now that I won't none of it.
• 34:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: People ask me all the time if what is the Arabic because of I know it's because my nose is big, they're like, you look like Arabic, you look like Airbnb and whatever.
• 34:34
  [SPEAKER_04]: So, okay, so let me get back.
• 34:36
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm having too much fun on my, so last thing and I just wanted to say this.
• 34:39
  [SPEAKER_04]: So what would you tell the person who may be, how long should you wait in between your relationships?
• 34:45
  [SPEAKER_04]: Or you know, you waited five or six years.
• 34:47
  [SPEAKER_04]: Is there a set time that you think?
• 34:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm just so thankful.
• 34:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think that when we get to a place where we're just looking, there's sometimes relationships are way over before it ever ends, you know?
• 35:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's like for a long time, you've been lonely.
• 35:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: and then when it's over all of a sudden you're walking in the gym and you meet somebody and you're like I want to marry them all because you missed that affection you missed that love for so long I used to be like you need to wait for such and such now I'm like you do you do you
• 35:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: That is one of the greatest gifts I gave myself was, man, you do you.
• 35:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: One thing I can tell you is doing it wrong and doing it right is you absolutely know when God brings the right one in your life.
• 35:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: They will do for you and you will do for them.
• 35:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: It will not be any chaos.
• 35:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: It won't be any confusion.
• 35:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: It'll feel like you're on vacation.
• 35:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: People say marriage takes work.
• 35:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: No it don't.
• 35:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you.
• 35:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: It does not take work.
• 35:45
  [SPEAKER_04]: It does not be that way.
• 35:46
  [SPEAKER_04]: You are Ryan Cameron are so to say it.
• 35:49
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'll go ahead.
• 35:49
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm sorry.
• 35:50
  [SPEAKER_04]: Go.
• 35:50
  [SPEAKER_04]: Who's Ryan Cameron?
• 35:51
  [SPEAKER_04]: He's he's on the radio in in Atlanta.
• 35:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: She say that too.
• 35:55
  [SPEAKER_04]: He heard me on the fall years ago on the phone with somebody I was dating and then he said he's really calm very articulate.
• 36:04
  [SPEAKER_04]: He married a young lady.
• 36:05
  [SPEAKER_04]: She looks like she's white, but she's actually from Australia, but her family's from Morocco.
• 36:09
  [SPEAKER_04]: And so they used to be like, oh, he married a married to this, he's like, I don't care none of this stuff that you say.
• 36:14
  [SPEAKER_04]: He looked at me and he calmly said, hey, no, because he's one of my fraternity brothers.
• 36:21
  [SPEAKER_04]: He said it doesn't have to be that way.
• 36:24
  [SPEAKER_04]: He said,
• 36:26
  [SPEAKER_04]: Marriage isn't hard.
• 36:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's not.
• 36:28
  [SPEAKER_04]: And it should not be that hard times to make it unique a marriage should not be that hard.
• 36:35
  [SPEAKER_04]: He said you know I was going by a garage door opener because I lost my garage door opener I haven't bought a garage door opener in the year
• 36:46
  [SPEAKER_04]: He said, Patty feels when I'm coming around the corner.
• 36:49
  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh, yeah.
• 36:49
  [SPEAKER_04]: And she turned and she opens up the garage for me.
• 36:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: And she said, she comes out and she doesn't get making me scared.
• 36:56
  [SPEAKER_04]: She does a little dance.
• 36:57
  [SPEAKER_04]: And he said, I was going by a garage door opener, but I couldn't miss my little dance and my little angel coming out when I come home from work.
• 37:05
  [SPEAKER_04]: I come home every day looking forward to see her.
• 37:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: I've never spent the day in my life.
• 37:11
  [SPEAKER_04]: hard with the woman of my dreams.
• 37:13
  [SPEAKER_04]: It does not have to be like that, especially in the dating States.
• 37:16
  [SPEAKER_04]: So I'm telling you.
• 37:17
  [SPEAKER_04]: And I was like, but the sex is so good.
• 37:20
  [SPEAKER_04]: I will deal with the care.
• 37:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't.
• 37:23
  [SPEAKER_04]: And we was like, no, he doesn't have to do that.
• 37:26
  [SPEAKER_04]: He was like, no, all of that.
• 37:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: Look, it doesn't come in.
• 37:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: That is not.
• 37:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: I got to pick this and I got to pick this or I got to choose, no, you don't.
• 37:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: It is the whole enchilada they are out there.
• 37:37
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
• 37:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: And man, this man, when he, I can hear him coming to, he always walks in our house.
• 37:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: We were married for two and a half years.
• 37:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: He walks in our house and he always has his song, a song.
• 37:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: He'll stand outside that door and he'll find him a song, whatever he's feeling.
• 37:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: And he turns that thing all throughout our house.
• 37:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: I hear that song that music, I don't care what I'm doing.
• 37:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: I get up and run to that door and I'm kissing all over his face.
• 38:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: He walks in and we just start dancing.
• 38:06
  [SPEAKER_04]: I mean, it is the best thing ever.
• 38:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: It ain't hard.
• 38:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: We don't fight.
• 38:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: You don't even want to fight.
• 38:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like, it is nothing.
• 38:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: People are like, oh, she's still in the honeymoon stages.
• 38:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
• 38:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's so great.
• 38:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: I can't even imagine not.
• 38:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: We put a bed together.
• 38:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: We put a king-sized bed together, and it was wonderful.
• 38:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: We didn't fight.
• 38:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: We didn't throw each other out of the room, right?
• 38:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: We laying the bed now is filling that bed.
• 38:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: We could've paid somebody to put that thing together, but he wanted to put it together with me.
• 38:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: it's that amazing.
• 38:43
  [SPEAKER_04]: So what is what does life look like in the next three to five years?
• 38:46
  [SPEAKER_04]: Like what do you see in your heart in your heart in your heart?
• 38:47
  [SPEAKER_04]: Or is it just day by day?
• 38:48
  [SPEAKER_04]: We'll see what we're going to do.
• 38:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know what?
• 38:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: So Angelo does all of our back ended our church.
• 38:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like he's come in really when we got married, our church even went to a whole other level because of
• 39:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: He, a man was there, you know, it did matter and he's such a alpha man when there's games.
• 39:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's got him playing in all the four years, you know, getting the husband's a church.
• 39:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so he's just literally, we're starting to build in December.
• 39:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: We'll start on our new property.
• 39:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: We have eight acres and we're going to build a new, about a thousand seat sanctuary.
• 39:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: None of that would have happened if my honey went to come in.
• 39:23
  [SPEAKER_04]: So is this in favor?
• 39:24
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.
• 39:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: Congratulations.
• 39:26
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yes, this is so unpodcast.
• 39:28
  [SPEAKER_04]: If you're like, I'm talking, I'm like, and the emperor, what else you do?
• 39:31
  [SPEAKER_04]: Go ahead.
• 39:32
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm so unpodcast.
• 39:34
  [SPEAKER_04]: We family, you know?
• 39:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 39:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: We're family.
• 39:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: So we're building.
• 39:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's exciting.
• 39:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's a fleece full-blown, thrown his whole foot neck, everything into it.
• 39:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so we're just, yeah, day by day.
• 39:48
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm right.
• 39:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: Books, I just wrote a brand new book, shut up and he'll
• 39:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: It's so real talk.
• 39:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, I'm pretty healed.
• 39:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: Just shut your mouth, but just stop talking about it.
• 39:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: Stop, stop stalking home.
• 40:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: Stop being mad at your baby daddy.
• 40:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: They gave you a baby.
• 40:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: Now you get somebody else that you ain't got to be angry and stalk.
• 40:07
  [SPEAKER_04]: Isn't the whole book as incredible?
• 40:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: When did it come out?
• 40:09
  [SPEAKER_04]: Was it out?
• 40:09
  [SPEAKER_04]: It's out.
• 40:10
  [SPEAKER_04]: It just came out.
• 40:10
  [SPEAKER_04]: So go up there.
• 40:11
  [SPEAKER_04]: I forgot to put it on the radio.
• 40:12
  [SPEAKER_04]: Shut up and heal.
• 40:13
  [SPEAKER_04]: Shut up and heal.com or something.
• 40:15
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yes.
• 40:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: Shut up and heal us on Amazon.
• 40:17
  [SPEAKER_04]: OK.
• 40:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: I didn't even do anything.
• 40:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: I put on Amazon so we go best seller and it did.
• 40:21
  [SPEAKER_04]: Of course.
• 40:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's just great and I'm coaching now.
• 40:24
  [SPEAKER_04]: So what is coaching the glyphos?
• 40:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I do want to one coach and have masterminds.
• 40:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I'm kind of branched outside the church.
• 40:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: I do business people.
• 40:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I have incredible rock stars that I get to walk through life with, one on one coaching.
• 40:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I have a bunch of those.
• 40:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've just master classes.
• 40:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm teaching, helping people start businesses, watching them thrive, helping them write books.
• 40:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: So just monetizing you.
• 40:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: I am making the bank.
• 40:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I watch it every kind of else make the bank.
• 40:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know what?
• 41:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm the bastard.
• 41:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: The bank is the bank.
• 41:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yes.
• 41:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: I am the pastor.
• 41:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: I am the preacher.
• 41:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: I am the mogul, the passionateman or whatever.
• 41:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: I believe that every single person that comes in my life should do more than me.
• 41:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so I want you to go.
• 41:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: I want you to, we have business as usual.
• 41:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think one, we have one in September, September 19th, where we open eight acres out in Fayetteville.
• 41:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: People bring their businesses, it's my husband's passion, and it's his baby, and they pop up their businesses all over our property, and we're watching people have multi-streams of income, killing it.
• 41:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so, as my passion, my passion is to give people the nerve to do what God's called them to do.
• 41:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I don't let up.
• 41:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm like a thorn in your flesh.
• 41:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: Get that book done.
• 41:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: I help them figure out how to self-publish.
• 41:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: I help them figure out how to write the chapters.
• 41:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: I keep, keep, keep.
• 41:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: Teach them how to be preachers, women preachers, how to come up with sermons.
• 41:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: How to be a good storyteller.
• 41:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like, I'm just killing it.
• 42:00
  [SPEAKER_04]: Love and life, okay.
• 42:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't even know how long we went, but I'm so excited right now I'd like to go finish my book.
• 42:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm on chapter three.
• 42:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: I would have your book done with you You'll have it then in a month.
• 42:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll probably have it done in a week with it with the thorn and you'll say I promise you it's easy Yeah, you should have more than one book.
• 42:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's just multiple streams of income, you know?
• 42:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, and the church is still gonna talk about you anyway
• 42:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: They don't talk about you.
• 42:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll be taking people's money.
• 42:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't even need their money.
• 42:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: I I'm hoping them get wrong.
• 42:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: That's funny.
• 42:31
  [SPEAKER_04]: So I Think I'm forgetting you right there, but you know that's what I be saying.
• 42:35
  [SPEAKER_04]: It's like every pastor that they be talking about and they be like Oh, he just walked up money.
• 42:40
  [SPEAKER_04]: I be like now he can't say this, but I promise you he'll need y'all money He don't roll books real estate like they don't understand that guy gives us wisdom and strategy outside of the church the offering is something more just for
• 42:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: You pay him to go.
• 42:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck
• 43:20
  [SPEAKER_04]: And then of course, my ties with the exception about two more people that are in here, or probably the, I probably give more than the vast majority of it here, every nine day and every year.
• 43:29
  [SPEAKER_04]: So we get a few people who seem great things.
• 43:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: But um, if you stop hating and hang around with me, I'll let you, I'll, I will ensure that you will be the biggest tyther at your church.
• 43:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've got to know for a fact, I carry the oil to activate you.
• 43:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: I will get your butt believe it in yourself.
• 43:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: So much so that you will be the biggest tie there.
• 43:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: You're church and you will get it'll be chump change.
• 43:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: So stop hating people that have something that they can give you.
• 43:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: And you know that the reason why you are judging them is because they probably got something that's gonna unlock something in you.
• 44:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: And so you're judging somebody that could really, really, really, probably bless your life.
• 44:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: So did you go and get coached by someone, are you just scald the oil?
• 44:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: Hey, listen, I'll tell you something.
• 44:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: But I was eight years old.
• 44:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: My parents would take me to shownies because you know, church people eat.
• 44:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: As all we do is eat.
• 44:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: We go to revival eat and I figured out they gave free suckers at school.
• 44:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: I mean, at Shownies, so I bring my purse and they always have the whole back out there for me.
• 44:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: They say, open your purse, Kim.
• 44:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'd open my purse.
• 44:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: They would dump all the suckers in it.
• 44:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'd go to school and I'd make 50 bucks on those free suckers.
• 44:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: Always been an entrepreneur.
• 44:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: I will out open an interior design company that, hey, I told people I could make drapes and they believe me.
• 44:52
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm always gonna make money.
• 44:53
  [SPEAKER_04]: That's so cool.
• 44:54
  [SPEAKER_04]: You know, I used to bag up a few never mind then.
• 44:59
  [SPEAKER_04]: I take it to the end of the year.
• 45:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: I always made it, everybody do.
• 45:03
  [SPEAKER_04]: I just took that skill set and I put it on like, hey, I for real want to be a club promoter.
• 45:10
  [SPEAKER_04]: Before Jesus, I would have clubs all through this piece.
• 45:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: But now, look at you on this property, built in media spaces for people on mute.
• 45:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: God is good.
• 45:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: The vision that you're getting to accomplish now because you didn't cave.
• 45:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: I knew you too when you were hung fighting for your life.
• 45:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, we've both been through seasons like that to see us both.
• 45:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: We didn't quit and this is the ramification and for that person that's watching this right now that you feel like man, I can't even pick my head up off the pillow.
• 45:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: You better.
• 45:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: Pick your head up, nobody's coming to get you up.
• 45:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: There she go, there she go, nobody's coming to get you up.
• 45:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: And until you get up and begin to believe in yourself, write that book, when nobody wants to read my book, go on chat to BET and let that chat to BET be your best friend, write a book, go on KDP, upload it.
• 45:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: You can have 12 books by the end of this year and just give them good names so everybody on Amazon wants to buy it.
• 46:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because baby, the fact that you're in that bad means you're fighting something the enemy don't want you to get to.
• 46:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: And that's what he was doing.
• 46:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: And then we did not want us to get to it.
• 46:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: So he polluted me with men.
• 46:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: He allowed me to think that a man had to save me.
• 46:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: And it wasn't until I hit rock bottom and found the rocket to bottom, which wasn't who my dad and mom taught me about.
• 46:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: He's a great God, but I found God for myself.
• 46:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I realized that when he created me, he created me with this brain and he's created every single person watching this today with a brain and you're watching this today because you want to throw in the towel, you want to give up.
• 46:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: But given up an option, but in any direction, because why you're going to give up?
• 46:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: Why are you going to sit and just be okay on wick and food stamps and just pathing to feel like you're barely making it when you can get up and make it.
• 46:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: you go to Goodwill on Monday by $25 close.
• 46:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: Go put them on D-pop for 20.
• 46:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: You can be turned and stuff around like that.
• 47:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: There's always a way to make money.
• 47:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: Go to the beauty store, buy some earrings, put them on D-pop, get you a store, get you Shopify.
• 47:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: You can have you a whole functioning store for hardly zero money.
• 47:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: You can ride a book and never invest a dime in that book.
• 47:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: You could upload it on KDP and Amazon and make $20,000 and never put a dime into it.
• 47:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: Cause KDP's free.
• 47:26
  [SPEAKER_04]: Wow.
• 47:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: And we're setting the home depressed eating hoes.
• 47:32
  [SPEAKER_04]: What we eat hoes.
• 47:34
  [SPEAKER_04]: Hey, well listen, well, you see why I was in prayer and I said, I said, I don't know who I need to talk to now.
• 47:41
  [SPEAKER_04]: And the other guests were for you, but the season that I'm in in my life, I just wanted to hear from Kim.
• 47:51
  [SPEAKER_04]: Did I encourage you?
• 47:52
  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh my God, I'm so encouraged and I'm trying to, as I said, I'm gonna get a lover there and I'm trying to keep my, you know I'm saying, I want pinky ring today.
• 48:00
  [SPEAKER_04]: You can't cry with a pinky winger.
• 48:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: Y'all, this man came out every week.
• 48:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's just shirt open.
• 48:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: I said, take God, you ain't got a dead bomb.
• 48:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: Paul, that's it.
• 48:08
  [SPEAKER_04]: It was a dead Jackson, and the Super Bowl were just in Timberlake moment.
• 48:12
  [SPEAKER_04]: Don't post that, but honestly, honestly, I'm so grateful that you would take the time to come because I needed you this time, right?
• 48:22
  [SPEAKER_04]: I'm in proud of you.
• 48:23
  [SPEAKER_04]: Thank you so much.
• 48:24
  [SPEAKER_04]: You're a kid.
• 48:25
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, like the you know growing up very unique spine.
• 48:28
  [SPEAKER_04]: I want him my boy is at the University of Wyoming He's in player personnel and then Peyton is in Kenna saw and he's two little ones and marriage and new relationship and just all of that And I said who I just need to see somebody who's just as quirky and crazy as I am Who's able to sit in himself long enough to win because I was like oh because I'll pick in every now and then
• 48:49
  [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah, she's still winning.
• 48:50
  [SPEAKER_04]: All right, who?
• 48:51
  [SPEAKER_04]: You know, I better leave out, so I thought your eyes are back.
• 48:54
  [SPEAKER_04]: Oh, yeah, she's good.
• 48:55
  [SPEAKER_04]: And then I go to my other, there's somebody else like, yeah, we want to pray.
• 48:58
  [SPEAKER_04]: And then we'll give you that on me.
• 48:59
  [SPEAKER_04]: But I'm so grateful.
• 49:01
  [SPEAKER_04]: I don't even have one of those beautiful motivational moments that I traditionally have at the end.
• 49:05
  [SPEAKER_04]: Because this one, you've already been motivated.
• 49:07
  [SPEAKER_04]: And so I think if we just wrap this up in a beautiful bulb, love yourself.
• 49:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: Love yourself, man.
• 49:14
  [SPEAKER_04]: Go big.
• 49:15
  [SPEAKER_04]: Go.
• 49:17
  [SPEAKER_04]: There you go.
• 49:18
  [SPEAKER_04]: Let up.
• 49:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: We love you.