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#HURDLEMOMENT: London Marathon Recap · Hurdle with Emily Abbate

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  Speaker 1: I got to I get to I get to do
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  Speaker 1: this thing that makes me feel so empowered, so strong,
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  Speaker 1: so capable, and how awesome of an opportunity is that. Hey, everyone,
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  Speaker 1: Emily Abadi here you are listening to Hurdle Moment from Hurdle.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not even gonna I'm not even gonna bring you
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  Speaker 1: in with a real intro today. I'm just gonna get
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  Speaker 1: right to the fact that, man, here we are. What
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  Speaker 1: is this Tuesday? I'm recording this on Tuesday. It's coming
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  Speaker 1: out on Wednesday. I am two days removed from the
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  Speaker 1: London Marathon, and if I'm honest, I was originally planning
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  Speaker 1: on releasing this episode next Wednesday, but upon getting so
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  Speaker 1: many messages and wonderful emails from all of you telling
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  Speaker 1: me that you were looking forward to the London Marathon recap,
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  Speaker 1: I figured that now was as good of a time
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  Speaker 1: as any to sit down record it. Well, it's still
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  Speaker 1: fresh in my mind and give you my feedback and
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  Speaker 1: what was truly an incredible, incredible day. Now, I say
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  Speaker 1: this into the microphone under the assumption that maybe you've
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  Speaker 1: been here for a little while or a long while,
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  Speaker 1: but you're in the loop that on Sunday, October second,
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  Speaker 1: does some math in my head. I ran my eleventh
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  Speaker 1: marathon in London and it was a journey, a journey
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  Speaker 1: understatement to get there. And so today on the pod,
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  Speaker 1: I'm giving you the full recap. No big edits here,
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  Speaker 1: just kind of stream of consciousness, talking you through what
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  Speaker 1: was going on. Maybe a little bit of behind the
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  Speaker 1: scenes depending on if you follow along on social or whatever,
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  Speaker 1: but it was it was a day and a lot.
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  Speaker 2: Of thoughts and feelings went into the day.
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  Speaker 1: A lot of thoughts and feelings happened during the day,
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  Speaker 1: and I certainly have many, many of them now as well. Again,
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  Speaker 1: I'm recording this in my Paris hotel room. I'm staring
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  Speaker 1: at the Eiffel Tower right now, and overwhelmingly I feel grateful.
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  Speaker 1: That's the sentiment I'm walking away from Sunday with. For me,
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  Speaker 1: Sunday had nothing to do with time, but of course
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  Speaker 1: that's a question that's going to come through. So ultimately
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  Speaker 1: I ran what was according to my garment, something like
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  Speaker 1: twenty six point five something miles in four hours, three
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  Speaker 1: minutes and eleven seconds, and we're going to get into it.
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  Speaker 1: So without further ado, make sure you're following along on
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  Speaker 1: the Social at Hurdle podcast, I'm over at emilya body.
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  Speaker 1: If you have questions about what you listen to in
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  Speaker 1: this episode, I would love to answer them, and I
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  Speaker 1: would love to answer them in an upcoming episode, which
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  Speaker 1: means you know that I'm going to tell you I
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  Speaker 1: would love for you to leave me a voice message.
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  Speaker 1: The link to do that is in the show notes.
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  Speaker 1: Oh man, with that, Let's get into it. Let's get
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  Speaker 1: to hurdling. It has been a year and a half
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  Speaker 1: about since I first signed up for the London Marathon.
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  Speaker 1: I registered for the twenty twenty one London Marathon, I
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  Speaker 1: believe in March of twenty twenty one, and I trained
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  Speaker 1: for it. I'm going to link in the show notes
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  Speaker 1: kind of the journey that happened throughout last year. But
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  Speaker 1: the spoiler here is that I trained for this marathon,
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  Speaker 1: I developed some sort of strain we think it was
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  Speaker 1: my so as and ultimately had to withdraw from London
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  Speaker 1: last year. And so going in to this training cycle
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  Speaker 1: kind of like my redemption moment in twenty twenty two,
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  Speaker 1: I was so excited simply for the opportunity to show up,
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  Speaker 1: and so I registered for the twenty twenty two London Marathon.
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  Speaker 1: I think in April of this year and I started training.
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  Speaker 1: And this training cycle was different than some of my
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  Speaker 1: previous training cycles for many reasons. First of all, I
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  Speaker 1: went into this training cycle knowing that my main priority
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  Speaker 1: was simply to run the marathon and to do it
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  Speaker 1: without injury. I believe that I was so impacted by
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  Speaker 1: having to withdraw last year that I was so focused
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  Speaker 1: on taking care of myself and actually getting to show
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  Speaker 1: up to the start in twenty twenty two, and so
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  Speaker 1: this year I went to weekly physical therapy, something that
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  Speaker 1: I didn't take lightly, not only in my responsibility to
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  Speaker 1: show up for physical therapy and to go home and
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  Speaker 1: do the homework that so often goes hand in hand
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  Speaker 1: with such of an undertaking, but also the financial commitment.
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  Speaker 1: I put a lot of energy and a lot of
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  Speaker 1: thought into that. So there was that. I also made
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  Speaker 1: the conscious decision to work with a run coach. I think,
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  Speaker 1: and I know that a lot of us runners, and
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  Speaker 1: I say that speaking to you, knowing that you may
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  Speaker 1: be one as well, we lean into the opportunity to
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  Speaker 1: work with a run coach. For many different reasons. I
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  Speaker 1: have worked with a coach in the past because my
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  Speaker 1: goal was simply to run fast and to run faster
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  Speaker 1: than I had before, And this year I decided to
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  Speaker 1: work with my run coach. Her name is Rebecca Stow.
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  Speaker 1: I will link to an episode I did with her
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  Speaker 1: in the show notes as well. I decided to work
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  Speaker 1: with Stowe because I wanted help and guidance, knowing that
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  Speaker 1: my schedule was a bit crazy and I didn't want
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  Speaker 1: to put the extra brain work into figuring out how
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  Speaker 1: to navigate marathon training when life already felt a little
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  Speaker 1: bit difficult to navigate on its own. So those were
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  Speaker 1: the two, let's say, experts that I had in my
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  Speaker 1: toolbox going into the marathon. Now that you know that,
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  Speaker 1: let's talk about the weeks leading up to the marathon.
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  Speaker 1: I started this training cycle with a little bit of
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  Speaker 1: planto fasciitis. I would say about a few weeks of
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  Speaker 1: PT leader. The exercises that I received from my PT Luke,
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  Speaker 1: who was also recently on the POD, in combination with
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  Speaker 1: the therapy that he was helping me with, both of
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  Speaker 1: those things alleviated that plantro fasciitis pain. So I was
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  Speaker 1: able to really get into a groove with my training
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  Speaker 1: focus in on the work that my run coach had
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  Speaker 1: me do and dial in there. Two months of training
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  Speaker 1: goes by, and it's feeling really good, right, It's feeling like,
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  Speaker 1: how do I say this?
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  Speaker 2: I don't want to.
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  Speaker 1: Say that it felt effortless, because God knows that if
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  Speaker 1: you run in the Northeast and you run in New
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  Speaker 1: York City, that you know summer running is really freaking hard.
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  Speaker 1: But I felt very capable, and almost more capable than
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  Speaker 1: I even expected, about maybe three weeks to a month ago. Again,
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  Speaker 1: I'm recording this two days after I ran the marathon.
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  Speaker 1: I started to feel a twinge in my left knee
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  Speaker 1: after running my longest run before the long run aka
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  Speaker 1: my twenty mile long run before the marathon, again about
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  Speaker 1: three weeks a month ago. Typically speaking, I usually tackle
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  Speaker 1: as my longest run something like twenty two. Knowing that
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  Speaker 1: I had a history plant fasci itis. I was really
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  Speaker 1: working to be conservative and smart with my training, and
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  Speaker 1: so we decided that twenty would be my longest run.
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  Speaker 1: If you're listening to this and you're like, oh my gosh,
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  Speaker 1: should I be running twenty two? Should I be running
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  Speaker 1: twenty I would advise you to consult one on one
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  Speaker 1: with someone who can talk to and speak to your situation.
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  Speaker 1: But with that said, this is just kind of what
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  Speaker 1: worked for me this time around. So after that long run,
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  Speaker 1: I dealt with some pain in my knee and I
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  Speaker 1: went to PT and threw some hands on work and
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  Speaker 1: talking a lot through what I was experiencing. Luke told
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  Speaker 1: me that he was pretty sure I was navigating some
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  Speaker 1: tendon itis related to the IT band. We start to
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  Speaker 1: incorporate different exercises in my routine to work on strengthening
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  Speaker 1: both my hips, my glutes, all the things that could
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  Speaker 1: be creating this wonkiness. And I make the decision a
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  Speaker 1: week after that to start dialing back on my running
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  Speaker 1: and subbing it in for cycling.
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  Speaker 2: Now.
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  Speaker 1: I got a question in my DMS about this decision
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  Speaker 1: because I wrote something like we wanted to create a
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  Speaker 1: similar training stimulus. And what that means specifically, is a
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  Speaker 1: lot of the running that someone does leading up to
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  Speaker 1: the marathon is focused on endurance work. Right, you're about
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  Speaker 1: to go out and tackle a twenty six point two
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  Speaker 1: mile long run. You want to be able to make
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  Speaker 1: sure that you feel comfortable with time on feet. Depending
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  Speaker 1: on your goals, you may be incorporating other types of
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  Speaker 1: running into your routine, whether that be tempo work or
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  Speaker 1: interval base work, something like eight hundred meter repeats, four
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  Speaker 1: hundred meter repeats, mile repeats, what have you. My only
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  Speaker 1: goal was to mimic a training stimulus. Knowing that I
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  Speaker 1: had the training that I needed under my belt, I
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  Speaker 1: put in the work and I just wanted to make
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  Speaker 1: sure that I kept up my endurance efforts. Well, I
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  Speaker 1: think like three weeks before the marathon, I cycled something
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  Speaker 1: like seventy miles. Two weeks it was forty miles, and
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  Speaker 1: the week before was a mix of light running and cycling.
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  Speaker 2: So there's that. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: I feel like I've given you a lot of the
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  Speaker 1: necessary info you need to know.
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  Speaker 2: How I showed up to London. I showed up to London.
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  Speaker 1: As a result of the wonkiness in my left knee,
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  Speaker 1: I started to rejigger stress out the planter fasci itis
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  Speaker 1: in my right foot once again. So what that meant
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  Speaker 1: is for me, the way that plant fasciitis presents in
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  Speaker 1: my foot is that I feel a lot of pain
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  Speaker 1: in my heel. If you are new to the term
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  Speaker 1: plant fasciitis, essentially what this means is there is a
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  Speaker 1: tendon that runs basically the length of your foot from
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  Speaker 1: the ball to the heel. When you have planter fasci itis,
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  Speaker 1: it gets angry, it gets inflamed, and it causes pain
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  Speaker 1: traditionally again in that heel area. So I got to London,
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  Speaker 1: and I would say in the week and a half
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  Speaker 1: leading up to London that pain was real. It felt frustrating,
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  Speaker 1: I felt frustrated. I was both accepting and I don't
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  Speaker 1: even think I was angry. I was just frustrated and accepting.
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  Speaker 1: I could be both. I was ready to surrender to
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  Speaker 1: the fact that there was absolutely nothing I could change
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  Speaker 1: about the pain that I was feeling in my heel,
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  Speaker 1: while knowing that I was capable of tackling the effort
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  Speaker 1: that was ahead of me, and that there were going
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  Speaker 1: to be things that were out of my control that
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  Speaker 1: I needed to accept if I wanted to show up
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  Speaker 1: and do the thing that I couldn't do the year before.
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  Speaker 2: Period.
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  Speaker 1: About forty eight hours before the race, I flew in.
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  Speaker 1: I felt surprisingly good on that flight. I got off
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  Speaker 1: of the flight and was pleasantly surprised at how my
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  Speaker 1: knee felt. It wasn't really presenting any pain whatsoever, something
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  Speaker 1: that was not the case the week before, when I
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  Speaker 1: was on a flight coming back to New York from
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  Speaker 1: Los Angeles and my heel really didn't feel any sort
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  Speaker 1: of way. I wouldn't say it felt normal, but it
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  Speaker 1: didn't feel nearly as bad as it had previously in
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  Speaker 1: the I would say twenty four hours leading up to
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  Speaker 1: the marathon, the pain in my heel as I had
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  Speaker 1: to stop by the expo and I just grabbed some
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  Speaker 1: like last minute things that I'd forgotten whatnot. It was
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  Speaker 1: at a place where I really felt like again I
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  Speaker 1: keep coming back to the word surrender, like I was,
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  Speaker 1: I had to surrender. There was absolutely nothing I could
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  Speaker 1: do besides utilize the tools in my toolbox to navigate
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  Speaker 1: the pain. And I even called The night before I
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  Speaker 1: went to dinner. I was traveling with my good friend
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  Speaker 1: that was also running the race, and I went to
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  Speaker 1: dinner with her, and after dinner I called my pet
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  Speaker 1: and I said, listen, Luke, how will I know, like,
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  Speaker 1: what is the likelihood that I could actually like rupture
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  Speaker 1: my planter if it hurts during the marathon. And he
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  Speaker 1: told me it's very unlikely. It's extremely unlikely that that's
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  Speaker 1: going to happen, and I said, I'm just trying to envision,
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  Speaker 1: like all scenarios, And as I got off the phone
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  Speaker 1: with him, and in probably like the hour and a
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  Speaker 1: half to two hours between the end of that phone
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  Speaker 1: call and when I went to bed and when I
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  Speaker 1: hobbled back to the hotel after eating pasta, I just
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  Speaker 1: like sat there and I thought about what it would
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  Speaker 1: feel like if I had.
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  Speaker 2: To pull out.
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  Speaker 1: And I knew that there was a fine line between
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  Speaker 1: what would be manageable pain or discomfort and the moment
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  Speaker 1: that I would know in my gut that I could
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  Speaker 1: be doing something that had long term debilitating effects. I
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  Speaker 1: envisioned all of the possibilities. I envisioned what it could
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  Speaker 1: feel like to walk off of the course, hobble off
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  Speaker 1: of the course.
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  Speaker 2: And walk into a med tent and talk to.
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  Speaker 1: A group of people with tears streaming down my face
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  Speaker 1: about the fact that I couldn't keep going. And I
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  Speaker 1: thought about what it could feel like to maybe be
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  Speaker 1: in pain but also know that the pain was manageable
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  Speaker 1: and that I could finish.
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  Speaker 2: And I thought about what.
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  Speaker 1: It might feel like in the miraculous situation that the
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  Speaker 1: pain was gone, when I would wake up in the
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  Speaker 1: morning and it would just be excellent. I thought about
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  Speaker 1: all of it, and I also thought about how grateful
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  Speaker 1: I was to even have the opportunity to start, and
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  Speaker 1: how so many people would have killed to have that
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  Speaker 1: same chance, right, And I think what's important to stress
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  Speaker 1: here is that you can be both grateful and frustrated.
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  Speaker 1: You can feel both thankful and angry, you can feel
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  Speaker 1: both right. And that's exactly how I felt when I
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  Speaker 1: got in to my bed and I saw the light
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  Speaker 1: like sneaking in off of Piccadilly Circus, and I thought
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  Speaker 1: to myself, like, this is just how it is now.
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  Speaker 1: And I knew that, despite laying there with like literally
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  Speaker 1: tears in my eyes, that there was nothing I could
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  Speaker 1: do accept the things that were within my control. I
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  Speaker 1: was done being mad about the things that I had
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  Speaker 1: absolutely no power over, absolutely done with it, right, because
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  Speaker 1: wasting that energy it just didn't do me any good.
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  Speaker 1: It's like if I was to tell you, like tomorrow,
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  Speaker 1: and this was a situation for the marathon, it's going
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  Speaker 1: to rain tomorrow, right, you know that, right, It's gonna
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  Speaker 1: rain tomorrow. There's absolutely nothing you can do about the
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  Speaker 1: fact that it's going to rain tomorrow. So what do
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  Speaker 1: you have the chance to do in that moment. You
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  Speaker 1: can accept that it's going to rain tomorrow and envision
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  Speaker 1: how you want to feel if it's going to rain tomorrow,
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  Speaker 1: and think about the things that are within your power
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  Speaker 1: to do. Or you can sit there and you can
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  Speaker 1: be angry, and you can decide that you're just going
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  Speaker 1: to sulk in the fact that it's going to rain tomorrow.
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  Speaker 1: And I wasn't going to do that anymore, And so
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  Speaker 1: that was it. I woke up on Sunday, and I
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  Speaker 1: got dressed, and I took my ibuprofen, and I uber
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  Speaker 1: eate some coffee, and I ate a peanut butter and
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  Speaker 1: jelly sandwich, and I put on my clothes and I
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  Speaker 1: did the best I could with what I had, and
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  Speaker 1: I grabbed my poncho, thinking that it may rain, and
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  Speaker 1: I hopped on the tube and transferred to another train
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  Speaker 1: and got to the start. And up until I got
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  Speaker 1: to the start, I was thankful that I was with
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  Speaker 1: some friends of mine, but each of us happened to
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  Speaker 1: be in different corrals. So once I got to the
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  Speaker 1: starting village, I had an hour with me and myself
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  Speaker 1: and my thoughts and so I sat there and I
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  Speaker 1: just tried to do some breathing and a lot of
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  Speaker 1: stretching and a lot of warming up, and I radically
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  Speaker 1: accepted what was about to happen. It is such a
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  Speaker 1: bizarre feeling to accept the unknown, right.
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  Speaker 2: It was truly it was.
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  Speaker 1: I'm trying to put this into words because I don't
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  Speaker 1: know if I still I think I'm still trying to
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  Speaker 1: comprehend the growth that occurred for me, not only the
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  Speaker 1: morning before I crossed the starting line, but over the
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  Speaker 1: course of the race. Because the growth that happened for
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  Speaker 1: me was truly something that I don't think how I
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  Speaker 1: respond to this situation. It was something that I wasn't
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  Speaker 1: capable a few years ago. And so that place of
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  Speaker 1: radical acceptance, me being okay with knowing that I couldn't
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  Speaker 1: control what happened next, that that was good for me,
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  Speaker 1: that was special for me. And so yeah, I started.
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  Speaker 1: I ran into a teammate from New York in literally
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  Speaker 1: like one hundred yards out from the start. We walked
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  Speaker 1: there together and we were off and it began, and
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  Speaker 1: you know, it began almost like any other marathon, and
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  Speaker 1: that was kind of serendipitous. It began with me going
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  Speaker 1: out a little too fast and being excited and going
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  Speaker 1: on my way, and literally there wasn't a single point
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  Speaker 1: during that entire marathon if I'm going to speak to
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  Speaker 1: like what I feel about the London Marathon as a whole.
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  Speaker 1: There were spectators and people cheering along the entire course.
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  Speaker 1: I felt so supported, especially in the second half. There
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  Speaker 1: were moments if I had to pick out, like one
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  Speaker 1: thing that rubbed me the wrong way, that the course
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  Speaker 1: got pretty skinny, so to speak, and the field would
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  Speaker 1: have to narrow into like four or five people wide,
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  Speaker 1: and then it opened back up again. That would probably
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  Speaker 1: be my only critique of the entire course. But other
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  Speaker 1: than that, the marathon itself was beautiful. The crowd's energy
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  Speaker 1: was electric, and I really loved how it took me
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  Speaker 1: through so many different parts of London that I had
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  Speaker 1: never been to. I would say that maybe around mile
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  Speaker 1: sixteen was the first time that I like really started
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  Speaker 1: to think about the pain in my heel. And at
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  Speaker 1: this point I had been like running something like eight
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  Speaker 1: eight thirty eight forty five miles.
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  Speaker 2: I'm not entirely sure.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not staring at my splits right now as I
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  Speaker 1: talking to this microphone. But my only goal, as I said,
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  Speaker 1: was to go out and complete this marathon. My secondary
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  Speaker 1: goal of sorts was to not get injured seriously and overall,
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  Speaker 1: I wanted to make sure that I had fun, and
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  Speaker 1: so every once in a while I would like do
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  Speaker 1: a check in with myself and it was like, are
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  Speaker 1: you having fun?
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  Speaker 2: Are you smiling? Are you present? Are you looking around?
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  Speaker 1: do that gut check with myself, I was literally running
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  Speaker 1: and smiling and I laughed thinking about Kipchogi and how
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  Speaker 1: he's so known for that right and like, no wonder
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  Speaker 1: why he looks like he's having such a good time,
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  Speaker 1: because he genuinely is, and he's like exhibiting that to
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  Speaker 1: the crowd. And I felt like I was doing that
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  Speaker 1: as well, Like I mean, let's not compare myself to
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  Speaker 1: Kipchoki here, but just looking around and truly being happy
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  Speaker 1: with the fact that, like I was so aware, Like
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  Speaker 1: I was so aware of my surroundings, and I high
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: fived a zillion small children, and I like randomly took
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  Speaker 1: candy from strangers. Yeah, saying that out loud makes me
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: feel some kind of way. But gummies and small chocolates
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: and the water and yeah, everything right, And again sixteen
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: comes and the pain starts to hit. And when the
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: pain starts to hit, it's familiar. It's something that I
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: know that I have run through before it and can
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: run through again. That persists for the rest.
• 23:58
  Speaker 2: Of the run.
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  Speaker 1: So when you're at mile six and you're running a
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  Speaker 1: twenty six mile race, you have ten miles left, that
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  Speaker 1: means that give or take, you know, I'm so bad
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: at math. I knew I had at least an hour
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: and a half of running left, and so I really
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: really shifted my focus into finding the fun. I thought
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: that if I got outside of my body and I
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: paid attention to my surroundings and I allowed others to
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  Speaker 1: lift me up on my way, that I would get
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: to where I wanted to go and what an applicable takeaway, right,
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: What an applicable takeaway it is to allow others to
• 24:34
  Speaker 1: help you when you need help. I know I'm not
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: the only person that struggles with that, right. I know
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  Speaker 1: that I'm not the only person who wants to be
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: able to take care of things for themselves.
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  Speaker 2: But in this moment, it was.
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  Speaker 1: Such an important reminder for me to allow other people
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: to show up for me. I needed them period. Somewhere
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: around this point in time during the marathon, I spot
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: my good friend that I'm traveling with like up ahead
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  Speaker 1: of me.
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  Speaker 2: I get a burst of energy. I sprint up to
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  Speaker 2: catch her. It's so good to see her.
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  Speaker 1: I take a slew of paparazzi photos while running, and
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  Speaker 1: then within seconds, I'm like, you think that you're going
• 25:12
  Speaker 1: to run seven thirties to run along with her? And
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: you are kidding yourself. So I release her and I continue,
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  Speaker 1: And I realized that again in that moment, I fed
• 25:22
  Speaker 1: off of her energy and I needed to continue that.
• 25:25
  Speaker 1: So I would say, another two to three miles go by,
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  Speaker 1: and at the end of that third mile, I take
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  Speaker 1: out my AirPods and I commit. I commit to allowing
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  Speaker 1: this to happen, I commit to allowing other people to
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  Speaker 1: help me get to where I need to go.
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  Speaker 2: The pain.
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  Speaker 1: At this point I would say, like seven out of ten,
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: still manageable, not debilitating. But I would be remiss if
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: I didn't tell you that I was one hundred and
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: fifty percent like probably run limping a little bit. I
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: don't think it was super drafted, but I know that
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: I was definitely starting to favor my left side. In London,
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  Speaker 1: a lot of the local running cruise running groups there
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  Speaker 1: after mile twenty, which was great for me. In this instance,
• 26:11
  Speaker 1: I saw a link to his episode in the show notes.
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  Speaker 1: Charlie Dark the founder of Run Deem Crew, which is
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  Speaker 1: a collective of runners based here in London. I saw
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  Speaker 1: him at twenty one and the energy from him and
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  Speaker 1: his crew was electric. I think at mile twenty two,
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  Speaker 1: another woman that was from New York. She runs with
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  Speaker 1: a group called Rage and Release. She cheered for me,
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: she said, referencing my tank tops. She said, all right,
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  Speaker 1: old Man. I run with a group called Old Man
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  Speaker 1: Run Club in New York. And I heard her and
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  Speaker 1: in the string of ten minute miles, which was what
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  Speaker 1: I was where I was at at that moment I
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: look at like now, back at the readout from my
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: Strava and my garment, and there's like an eight thirty
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: there in that eight thirties entirely because of her motivating
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  Speaker 1: me to keep going, and the rest of it between
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  Speaker 1: twenty two in twenty six was truly heart like. There's
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: no there's no other way to really put that right,
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: there's no other way to articulate it. Like for me,
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: when I think about what got me through those four miles,
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  Speaker 1: it was it was.
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  Speaker 2: It was knowing that I could.
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  Speaker 1: It didn't feel good right, but what did feel good
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  Speaker 1: was paying attention to what was going on around me.
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  Speaker 1: What did feel good was the smiles and the cheers
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: coming from the crowd. What did feel good was knowing
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  Speaker 1: that once I got to twenty two, there was absolutely
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: nothing that was going to stop me from getting to
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  Speaker 1: twenty six point two, absolutely nothing. And when I accepted that,
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  Speaker 1: and when I knew that deep in my gut and
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: deep in my soul, then the only thing that I
• 27:47
  Speaker 1: had left to do was truly believe, was to believe
• 27:50
  Speaker 1: in myself and to know that I had the opportunity
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  Speaker 1: to do this thing that I didn't think that I
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: was genuinely capable of not you know, mentally, but physically
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: less than twenty four hours before, and so that's what happened. Surprisingly,
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: I wasn't obscenely emotional when I crossed the finish line.
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  Speaker 1: I think I was just so so grateful, but I crossed,
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  Speaker 1: and oh my god, I was so proud. Proud is
• 28:23
  Speaker 1: really an understatement. I was so thankful, so thankful that
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: my body allowed me to do this thing that I love,
• 28:32
  Speaker 1: so thankful that again, over a year and a half
• 28:35
  Speaker 1: in the making, I was finally able to cross off
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: this major moment from my bucket list, and more than anything,
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: proud of myself for the growth, proud of myself for
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  Speaker 1: not worrying about the time or how it looked right
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: like f the aesthetics, that was just something that was
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: so not on my radar anything. When I think about
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: this race, I think about that I really did it
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  Speaker 1: for me on my terms. I don't know if there
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: has been a race, a run, a marathon that I
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: have done since maybe my first marathon where I had
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: the same goal that I had on Sunday, which was
• 29:24
  Speaker 1: simply again to have fun and finish, and that despite
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: the things that I could not control is exactly what
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: I focused on. I stopped focusing on anybody else, and
• 29:39
  Speaker 1: I came back to come. I came back to the
• 29:44
  Speaker 1: notion that I got to I get to I get
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  Speaker 1: to do this thing that makes me feel so empowered,
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: so strong, so capable, And how awesome of an opportunity
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: is that sitting here and reflecting on Sunday and knowing
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: that there are going to be a nice handful of
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: people that listen to these reflections. I really do believe
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: that the takeaway that feels the strongest, what I want
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: you to walk away from this episode knowing, is that
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: you've got to run for you. It's a beautiful thing
• 30:30
  Speaker 1: to dedicate your run to other people. It's a beautiful
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: thing to run for a good cause. But at the
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: end of the day, the journey is about you.
• 30:39
  Speaker 2: Period.
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: If running a marathon, going after any other goal isn't
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: something that lights your soul on fire, then you have
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: to ask yourself why are you doing it in the
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: first place. I showed up on Sunday despite the pain,
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: to spite my doubts, despite the unknown, because I knew
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: how important it was to me, and I went out
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: there on Sunday, and I did the thing that makes
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: me feel like me because it felt right. But when
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: we do things because of others or social media or
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: external pressures and we seek that external validation, it's not
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: gonna feel the same. And so I leave this recap well,
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: I know I need to tell you how I'm doing
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: right now after the after the fact, but before.
• 31:36
  Speaker 2: We kind of get into that, I leave.
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: I leave this recap with a lot of gratitude and
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: a resounding perspective that I can do hard things and
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: that there is so much beauty in letting go of
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: the unknown and believing in the potential of possibility while
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: also being realistic. I'm never gonna tell you to be
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: like obscenely positive just to be positive again. I went
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: to bed crying on Saturday night, but I woke up
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: on Sunday ready with my whole heart to accept whatever
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: was going to happen next. And so whatever your big
• 32:18
  Speaker 1: goal is, your big, scary, hairy, audacious goal, I encourage
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: you to approach it with heart, to approach it with determination,
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: to approach it with grit, and know that you have
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: to be your own biggest hype man. You have to
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: believe in you to go after the things that you want,
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: to show up with your whole heart. And that's exactly
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: what I did on Sunday. I gave it every little
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: bit of myself because I am worth that, and so
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: are you. How am I doing right now? I'm okay.
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: I'm again in Paris. I'm kind of limping around and
• 32:59
  Speaker 1: I have a date with my Pete next week. I
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: feel tight, but nothing that some stretching hasn't been helping with.
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: I've been using all of my recovery tools. I traveled
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: with a pair of normal tech go I've got a
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: small hyper rice go with me. I've got a bunch
• 33:16
  Speaker 1: of muscle sprays. I went and got a like massage yesterday.
• 33:19
  Speaker 2: So I'm doing the best I can with what I have,
• 33:22
  Speaker 2: just like I did before I showed up to the
• 33:23
  Speaker 2: starting line. And I'm okay. Am I thinking about running
• 33:27
  Speaker 2: anytime soon?
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: Absolutely not, But I am looking forward to trying out
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: some new stuff once I get home and really focusing
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: on on what feels good starting with though now, which
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: means that I've got a bottle of red wine I'm
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: staring at and uh some exploring to do.
• 33:49
  Speaker 2: Thank you. I can't say that enough.
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: Thank you, all of you, every single person that's listened
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: to this up until this point and that has supported
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: me on this journey. I cannot imagine at this point
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: now doing all this without the opportunity to interact with
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: all of you. So I'm grateful for that, and I
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: hope that me sharing my story and getting vulnerable about
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: what I've went through and what I will continue to
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: go through helps you as you conquer the hurdles that
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: are going to show up for you inevitably.
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  Speaker 2: Again.
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  Speaker 1: Questions, comments, concerns, thoughts. I want to hear them, and
• 34:25
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• 34:27
  Speaker 1: leave me a voice message. The link to that is
• 34:30
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• 34:33
  Speaker 1: just say this, now, what's next?
• 34:34
  Speaker 2: I don't have an answer for you. Can we just.
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: Focus on the present. Let's focus on the present. At
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