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What is the Purpose of Life? | Ep. 6 · As A Man Awaketh Podshare

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  SPEAKER_00: What is the purpose of life?
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes, as always, I pick the easy questions.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, why not?
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  SPEAKER_00: Might as well, huh?
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  So,
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  if you've been following these videos,
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  this channel,
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  this substack,
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  you know that I...
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  bring answers to these questions from my own perspective,
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  from my own journey.
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  SPEAKER_00: And of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: this one is obviously not a small task to answer,
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  SPEAKER_00: as this has been the topic and theme of many philosophers,
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  SPEAKER_00: many great minds and hearts across human history.
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  Obviously,
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  many religions are dealing with that issue,
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  or that question rather.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so...
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  SPEAKER_00: Through my journey, obviously that was a question that I had in my mind.
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  SPEAKER_00: What is this thing called life?
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  SPEAKER_00: Where are we?
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  SPEAKER_00: Why are we here?
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  SPEAKER_00: And what is my role in all this stuff?
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  So I went through certain mythology books and certain ancient
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  history kind of things.
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  SPEAKER_00: Trying to find the answer.
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  SPEAKER_00: I wasn't really super concerned.
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  SPEAKER_00: It wasn't a burning question on the top of my mind,
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  SPEAKER_00: but it was always sort of there in the back of my mind.
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  So as my spiritual journey unfolded,
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  that question became louder and louder in my head.
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  But I never really felt that I received an answer that was
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  satisfactory to me,
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  SPEAKER_00: not even from the gurus,
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  SPEAKER_00: not even from the best-selling authors and books,
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  SPEAKER_00: and not from religion either.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I kept searching,
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  SPEAKER_00: and when I came across the opportunity,
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  SPEAKER_00: the invitation to look inside myself,
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  SPEAKER_00: and explore my own consciousness,
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  SPEAKER_00: explore my own subconscious mind,
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  SPEAKER_00: explore my heart,
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  SPEAKER_00: explore my entire emotional body in a way that I'd never done before,
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  SPEAKER_00: then it became rather obvious to me that the purpose of life,
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  SPEAKER_00: at least
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  SPEAKER_00: in my life was to heal my trauma,
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  SPEAKER_00: my pain,
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  SPEAKER_00: my fears,
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  SPEAKER_00: my anxieties,
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  all those negative emotions that kept weighing me down but that
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  I didn't really
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  SPEAKER_00: feel on the front of my consciousness,
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  SPEAKER_00: of my awareness on a day-to-day basis.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was all playing on a subconscious level,
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  but it was creating certain patterns and behaviors and thoughts
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  and dislikes and
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  SPEAKER_00: preferences that really weren't me.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's kind of hard to explain, but it was basically...
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  the pain and the fear that I had carried basically since
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  childhood was informing my
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  SPEAKER_00: everyday decisions,
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  SPEAKER_00: what kind of people I can hang out with,
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  SPEAKER_00: what kind of money I can make,
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  SPEAKER_00: what kind of career I can have,
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  SPEAKER_00: what's possible for me and what's not possible for me.
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  SPEAKER_00: So all these kinds of mental structures and mental cages really
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  were there in my own consciousness,
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  in my own awareness,
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  but I wasn't privy to that.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was something like a background program running in my own mind,
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  creating a reality and often experiences and situations that I
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  didn't like.
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  SPEAKER_00: I just didn't know why those things kept happening.
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  So as I kept digging deeper and deeper into my own
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  consciousness and I started
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  releasing some of those fears and some of those anxieties and
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  pains and self-doubts
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  SPEAKER_00: and questioning,
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  SPEAKER_00: self-limitation and things of that nature,
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  SPEAKER_00: inhibitions,
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  SPEAKER_00: as those things started to come out,
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  SPEAKER_00: I started getting access to my true self,
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  SPEAKER_00: my real true self,
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  SPEAKER_00: my soul self.
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  instead of just being in the head and being in the mind and
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  navigating life through
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  SPEAKER_00: this very narrow lens of mind perception.
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  SPEAKER_00: So then I started realizing,
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  SPEAKER_00: oh,
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  SPEAKER_00: wow,
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  SPEAKER_00: the purpose of life,
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  SPEAKER_00: the way I see it in my own reality,
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  SPEAKER_00: is I have to heal.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have to heal myself.
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  I have to heal all these old pains and fears and frustrations
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  and anxieties that I
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  SPEAKER_00: was carrying around for,
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  SPEAKER_00: well,
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  SPEAKER_00: for 30 plus years.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have to heal myself because I don't really know who I am.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because on top of the true self that is me...
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  SPEAKER_00: My true essence is all this crap that I have accumulated over my life.
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  So I don't really know who I am without all the fears and the
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  pains and the anxieties and stuff.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't know.
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  SPEAKER_00: So that then became my first purpose.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, that at least I need to see this through to the end.
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  SPEAKER_00: I need to heal myself as much as I can,
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  SPEAKER_00: as fast as I can,
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  because otherwise I'm walking around in my own life completely
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  blinded by my own
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  fears and anxieties and pains that are creating things
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  subconsciously that I don't
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  SPEAKER_00: like.
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  SPEAKER_00: So that then became my purpose.
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  I was on a very deep healing journey and still am to a degree
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  over the past few
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  SPEAKER_00: years,
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  SPEAKER_00: since 22,
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  SPEAKER_00: basically 2022.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I uncovered a lot, a lot of things that I didn't even know.
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  think were still in me,
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  like this old dysfunctional relationship I used to have with
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  this girl.
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  And there were still deep pains inside of me that I had carried
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  subconsciously.
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  SPEAKER_00: I thought I was completely over all that stuff, but I wasn't.
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  SPEAKER_00: Evidently, I wasn't.
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  SPEAKER_00: So as I then started to heal myself and more of this junk,
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  SPEAKER_00: really this emotional energetic junk as I was coming out of my being,
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  SPEAKER_00: out of my system,
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  SPEAKER_00: I started realizing,
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  SPEAKER_00: oh,
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  SPEAKER_00: okay,
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  SPEAKER_00: that's not me.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's not me.
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  SPEAKER_00: These are all mental cages,
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  mental patterns that were created as a coping mechanism for my
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  pain and my fears
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  SPEAKER_00: and my anxieties.
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  SPEAKER_00: So that's not me.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I can just let that go.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm not going to think those thoughts anymore.
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  I'm not going to participate in those behaviors because that's
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  not my true self.
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  SPEAKER_00: And as more of that was unraveling,
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  SPEAKER_00: I started realizing a lot of people,
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  SPEAKER_00: almost everyone is in the same condition.
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  SPEAKER_00: We have fears,
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  SPEAKER_00: we have pains,
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  SPEAKER_00: we have anxieties,
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  SPEAKER_00: we have self-doubts,
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  self-limiting beliefs and all that stuff primarily from our
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  early childhood years
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  SPEAKER_00: that we still carry around to this day.
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  And so we wonder why so many people get so easily triggered for
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  stuff that's not
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  SPEAKER_00: really that worthy of being triggered and having an outrageous outburst.
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  SPEAKER_00: So...
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  SPEAKER_00: Then I realized, okay, so this is not just my purpose.
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  SPEAKER_00: This should be everyone's purpose.
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  I mean,
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  if we don't heal ourselves,
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  then we don't know really who we are,
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  who we truly are.
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  SPEAKER_00: Our true essence,
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  SPEAKER_00: our soul essence that wants to express itself through us,
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  but it can't because there's so much pain and so much fear and
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  anxieties that are
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  SPEAKER_00: stopping us from expressing our true self.
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  SPEAKER_00: One quick example you can think of is,
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  SPEAKER_00: think of a situation in your life where you 100%,
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  SPEAKER_00: or at least for the majority,
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  SPEAKER_00: followed your heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: You followed your heart's desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: Regardless of what the mind told you,
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  SPEAKER_00: regardless of what kind of fear or anxieties you were feeling,
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  you knew in your heart this is the right thing to do and you
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  went for it regardless
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  SPEAKER_00: of what anyone said or how you otherwise thought about it.
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  SPEAKER_00: How the mind told you, oh, don't do that.
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  It's going to be dangerous or it's going to be uncomfortable or
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  you're going to be
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  SPEAKER_00: laughed at,
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  SPEAKER_00: whatever the case may be.
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  SPEAKER_00: But you did it anyways.
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  SPEAKER_00: You followed your heart and you went through with it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now think about how did that play out?
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  SPEAKER_00: Was that a nice experience?
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  SPEAKER_00: Did that experience turn out well?
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  SPEAKER_00: Most of the time, as far as I have seen, the answer is yes.
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  SPEAKER_00: When you followed your heart, something amazing happened.
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  SPEAKER_00: You made a beautiful relationship,
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  you entered a new amazing career that's more fitting to you and
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  what you want to
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  SPEAKER_00: do.
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  SPEAKER_00: Whatever the case may be,
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  you went on that trip to that vacation and you had an
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  absolutely amazing time.
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  SPEAKER_00: So when we follow our heart, amazing, magical things happen.
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  SPEAKER_00: But most of the time, we can't access our heart.
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  We can't listen to our heart because the noise of the pain and
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  the fear in our head
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  SPEAKER_00: is so loud that it drowns out our true heart's desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when I started realizing that, like, wow, okay, all right, I got it.
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  SPEAKER_00: I need to clean my temple.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is our temple.
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  SPEAKER_00: All religions tell us that in one way or another.
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  I need to clean my temple of all the fears and pains and
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  anxieties and all the
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  other junk that is in there that's not me to let my heart and
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  my soul finally
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  SPEAKER_00: express their true self,
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  SPEAKER_00: their true essence,
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  SPEAKER_00: my true self.
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  SPEAKER_00: So that became my purpose.
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  And I went on this healing journey very,
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  very intensely,
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  very dynamically.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I did these retreats almost every month to really dig deep.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this was amazing.
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  SPEAKER_00: I mean, when I had to face my childhood pain,
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  SPEAKER_00: And it was that night I was on the floor basically for three,
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  SPEAKER_00: four,
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  maybe even five hours just contorting in pain and screaming and
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  letting it all out.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was no fun,
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  SPEAKER_00: not by any stretch of the imagination,
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  SPEAKER_00: but I knew I had to do it because I wanted it all out.
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  A friend of mine was with me and he was helping me through that
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  whole experience
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  SPEAKER_00: and he said,
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  SPEAKER_00: do you want to take a break?
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  SPEAKER_00: I said, no, I want it all out.
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  SPEAKER_00: I want it all out.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so I kept going.
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  Because I knew at the end of that very painful experience would
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  be a whole new life.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this has not been that long.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's just been a couple of days really at the time of this recording.
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  And I can already start feeling the shifts,
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  amazing shifts start happening.
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  I can feel myself being sort of transformed from the inside
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  out,
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  from the heart side out.
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  So a new self is starting to express itself,
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  but it's all coming from the heart space.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I don't know where this is going.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm just along for the ride, really.
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  SPEAKER_00: But it feels wonderful.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels amazing.
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  SPEAKER_00: But it took me a long time to get there.
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  SPEAKER_00: So back to the purpose of life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Okay,
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  so we know that we don't really know who we are until we get
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  most of the pains and
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  SPEAKER_00: the fears out of our body,
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  SPEAKER_00: out of our system,
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  SPEAKER_00: out of the subconscious.
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  SPEAKER_00: Okay,
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  so then once we start to realize who we really are and who our
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  soul is and what our
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  SPEAKER_00: soul wants to bring forward,
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  SPEAKER_00: how it wants to express itself through us and through our heart,
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  SPEAKER_00: then the purpose of your life will naturally reveal itself.
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  SPEAKER_00: I mean,
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  SPEAKER_00: for me,
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  now these videos and the Substack and writing is becoming
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  something that I enjoy
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  SPEAKER_00: really more than anything else.
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  SPEAKER_00: And last year,
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  SPEAKER_00: at the same time,
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  SPEAKER_00: I didn't have this desire to speak and to write publicly that much.
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  But this is now what's coming through me and I'm enjoying the
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  process very much.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's not work for me.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't consider it work because I enjoy every single aspect of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: So what is it for you?
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  SPEAKER_00: What is the purpose of your life?
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  You may not know the answer to that yet because you haven't
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  really taken out all
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  SPEAKER_00: that junk,
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  SPEAKER_00: like I said.
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  SPEAKER_00: So there is a purpose for every single life here on this realm.
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  SPEAKER_00: And
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  It's your job to find out what that purpose is for you and your
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  life in this
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  SPEAKER_00: individual incarnation.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's a wonderful journey.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes, it's tough and it's hard, but it will reap you the greatest rewards.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because otherwise, what else is there?
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  SPEAKER_00: Okay, you get rich, congratulations.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now what?
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  SPEAKER_00: You buy a bunch of toys, you buy a bunch of houses,
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  SPEAKER_00: Great, now what?
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  SPEAKER_00: Can you take those with you into the afterlife?
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  SPEAKER_00: Obviously not.
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  SPEAKER_00: How many rich people, so to speak, they have everything in the world.
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  SPEAKER_00: They have all the toys,
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  SPEAKER_00: all the millions that you could throw at them,
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  SPEAKER_00: but they're depressed,
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  SPEAKER_00: they're addicted to drugs,
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  SPEAKER_00: they're alcoholics,
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  SPEAKER_00: they're terrible people hurting others emotionally and in other ways too.
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  SPEAKER_00: What's happening?
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  SPEAKER_00: What's going on?
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  SPEAKER_00: They haven't realized that it's about their soul,
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  that their soul has to heal from whatever traumas they went
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  through as children.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: maybe being an actor,
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  SPEAKER_00: maybe being a famous influencer isn't really their calling in life,
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  SPEAKER_00: isn't their purpose.
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  SPEAKER_00: But that's how they make their money.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, of course, you know, they keep going for it.
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  SPEAKER_00: But I tell you what, and this is...
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  Not something that I have yet experienced myself,
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  but that's probably gonna play out.
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope so.
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  And that is the fact that when you fully commit and live your
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  heart's desire,
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  SPEAKER_00: your soul's purpose,
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  SPEAKER_00: your life's purpose,
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  SPEAKER_00: you will be taken care of.
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  SPEAKER_00: All of your needs will be met.
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  All the money you need will be there because you are now in
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  perfect harmony and total flow
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  SPEAKER_00: With life itself,
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  SPEAKER_00: with God,
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  SPEAKER_00: the universe,
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  SPEAKER_00: with the quantum field,
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  SPEAKER_00: with the universal intelligence,
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  SPEAKER_00: whatever you want to call it,
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  SPEAKER_00: you are in harmony,
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  SPEAKER_00: you are in flow,
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  you are aligned with your soul's purpose and everything then
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  will conspire with you
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  SPEAKER_00: to support you.
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  I see this in many of my brothers and sisters who are on this
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  journey with me.
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  SPEAKER_00: And one of my teachers, he lives paycheck to paycheck.
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  SPEAKER_00: He has two kids, one of them going to college now.
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  SPEAKER_00: They have a house, they have two cars.
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  SPEAKER_00: And he just does work like this,
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  SPEAKER_00: one-on-one and also group sessions,
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  guiding people through these uncharted waters of your own soul
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  and your own psyche,
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  SPEAKER_00: your subconscious and helping you get those pains out of your system.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's all he does.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's all they do.
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  SPEAKER_00: And they're living a beautiful life.
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  SPEAKER_00: No savings, paycheck to paycheck.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's been working well for them for over 10 years.
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  SPEAKER_00: So he's living his purpose.
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  SPEAKER_00: fully every day.
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  SPEAKER_00: So now it's your turn.
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  SPEAKER_00: How can you get in touch with your purpose?
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  SPEAKER_00: Have you started healing yourself?
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  Have you started looking within and looking at your patterns
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  and your behaviors
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  SPEAKER_00: that may not be working so well in your favor?
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  SPEAKER_00: Do you need help finding someone who can guide you through this?
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  SPEAKER_00: Because yes, it is a labyrinth, let me tell you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Absolutely, it's a labyrinth.
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  SPEAKER_00: But the first step is you acknowledging, I need to heal.
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  SPEAKER_00: I need to heal myself.
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  SPEAKER_00: I need to heal my pains,
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  SPEAKER_00: my fears,
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  my anxieties in order to get closer to my soul and therefore
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  also get closer to my
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  SPEAKER_00: purpose in life.
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  SPEAKER_00: So thank you for watching.
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope you enjoyed this.
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  SPEAKER_00: Please let me know in the comments what you think and what you feel.
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  SPEAKER_00: I always love hearing from you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Bye-bye.
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  SPEAKER_00: Plane.
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  SPEAKER_00: Plane.
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  SPEAKER_00: Plane.
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  SPEAKER_00: Still a plane.
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  SPEAKER_00: Dog.
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  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, let's get going then.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is a question,
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  SPEAKER_00: obviously,
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  SPEAKER_00: that has baffled many brilliant minds,
• 17:42
  SPEAKER_00: many great philosophers,
• 17:45
  SPEAKER_00: mythological,
• 17:46
  SPEAKER_00: myth,
• 17:47
  SPEAKER_00: mythel,
• 17:48
  SPEAKER_00: myth,
• 17:49
  SPEAKER_00: mythy,
• 17:50
  SPEAKER_00: myth.