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Spiritual Disconnection: Reconnecting in the Scottish Highlands 🔮 · The Psychic Explorer

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Hello you lovely lot and welcome to this very
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special episode of The Psychic Explorer coming
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to you from Bonnie Scotland. Yes, regular listeners
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may have noticed that this episode is going out
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a week later than scheduled. If I'm honest, I
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was so busy preparing the October episodes, which
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I know you're going to love. They are fantastic.
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I'm so looking forward to sharing those with
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you. But in order to prepare for those, I almost
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completely forgot to record a solo episode to
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go out while I was on holiday. And I got myself
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in a tune and I thought oh should I do it should
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I do it or should I just let things be natural?
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I thought no Matt let things be natural and actually
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this goes to the theme of today's episode and
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that is being disconnected. I have felt quite
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disconnected to almost all things spiritual which
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I suppose I shouldn't really admit if I'm putting
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a podcast out about being spiritual and mediumship
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and all that sort of stuff that goes with it
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but this is an honest podcast and these things
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ebb and flow. So we took a week off and we went
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to Scotland and I took my microphone with me.
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This episode is not just a self -indulgent travel
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diary I promise you. There is a purpose behind
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it. As I said, this episode is all about disconnection.
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It's about what happens when we step away from
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our routine, when we literally disconnect from
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our lives and listen to the voice within. I suppose
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I wanted to give you a little vignette, a little
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something, a little flavour of the Scottish Highlands.
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So the last time I did this, I just basically
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sat on a beach and spoke to you and I did do
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that this time as well. However, This time I
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want to do things a bit differently. I want to
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take you with me. So sit back, put your earbuds
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in, make yourself a brew, get yourself some Scottish
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shortbread, or if you're listening in the UK,
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break out the Tunnex tea cakes. They are my favourites.
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And relax as I take you on a journey through
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the Scottish Highlands. So we have just picked
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up the van I borrowed from my dad. He bought
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a camper van a few years ago and he's been saying
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for a while Why don't you boys go and take it
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somewhere? So finally we have we have planned
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to go to Scotland and we are so looking forward
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to it With handover done, my dad gives us the
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keys We start the engine up and we make our way
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up the A1 to our first night's destination at
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Loch Lomond The drive up there is about 460 miles.
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That's about 740 kilometres. And it is pelting
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with rain the entire way. And I'm really worried
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that the whole trip is going to be a washout.
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We're in this camper van, so it's going to be
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fine. And whenever we've been to Scotland, we
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always joke that it's always cold and it's always
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wet. We've never had good weather whenever we
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visited. But the closer we get to the border,
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the rain thins out, the clouds disperse. And
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just a hint, only a hint of sunshine reveals
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itself. Driving up, I'm just thinking about what
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we're going to be doing. And the plan is to go
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to the inner Hebrides. We're going to go from
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Loch Lomond to the Isle of Mull, back over to
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the mainland, over to another island called the
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Isle of Skye, back over to the mainland again,
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down to Glencoe, and then home. There's going
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to be a lot of driving, but when Simon and I
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travel, we do tend to cover a lot of ground and
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this trip we plan on being no exception. We love
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to see places, we love to see as many places
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as we can, almost to our detriment because we
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come away so exhausted. But as I'm driving up
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I'm just contemplating what I want from this
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trip. Simon has recently rediscovered our local
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library and he's going through a bit of a reading
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obsession which is great. So he has got loads
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of books which he is planning on reading. I've
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got a couple too, but for me this holiday represents
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an opportunity to just reset, reconnect and recharge
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my batteries. And as we pass the sign that welcomes
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us to Scotland, I wonder can the sounds of Alba
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revive the connection within me? After about
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10 hours driving, we finally arrive at the gateway
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of the Scottish Highlands, Loch Lomond. We're
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trying to keep this trip as cheap as possible
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so we are trying to avoid campsites at all costs.
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The camper van is pretty self -contained except
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it has no toilet and it has no shower so we'll
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be having to make use of some public conveniences.
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We've also found an app where we can find free
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parking spaces and areas which we can pull over
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and camp the night. I'm really hoping that we
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have Scotland to ourselves and that we have to
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interact with as few as people as possible and
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hopefully finding camping spots off -grid while
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camping is really going to help with that. Unfortunately
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Loch Lomond is very popular and every camping
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space and parking spot is taken up with other
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motorhome users so we decided to hang a left
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and really test this three and a half litre engine
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as we go almost up a near vertical hill. We dogleg
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back on ourselves before eventually the road
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levels out and we follow the track which is only
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a single track with parting spaces for people
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coming the other way and we head into this valley.
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The road snakes and follows a stream which meanders
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its way through the bottom of the valley. It's
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called Douglas Water and as we find a spot The
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sun is just about to set. Setting the surrounding
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hills alight with the glow of the sun. It is
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beautiful and it is freezing. We have come from
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Norfolk where it was about 25 degrees and tonight
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it is forecast to go down to zero. It is stunning
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with nothing but the sound of the Douglas water
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flowing nearby. and the sound of sheep on the
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hills that surround us. What an incredible landscape
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to disconnect him. The next day we'd done our
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scarves, our hats, our big thick coats and faced
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the bitter winds but are cheered by the beautiful
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blue skies that have welcomed us to Scotland.
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Our bus follows the track as it goes up and down
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the small hills, the engines draining slightly
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as it goes uphill and then coasting as it goes
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back down. We make our way along the coast and
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visit pretty village after pretty village. These
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places that feel like the 21st century hasn't
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really touched. There are fewer people here and
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the people that are here are happy to let you
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mind your own business. People come here to escape.
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Whether that be from the world, from themselves,
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from their lives. Scotland is a natural beacon
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for people who want to find raw wild nature.
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to plug themselves into that landscape and recharge.
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We're driving in our van and we're watching Scotland
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pass us by. We are watching lock after lock pass
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by our windows, mountain after mountain, soar
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above us. This place has a raw, majestic beauty.
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And little do I know it, for us, Scotland has
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just got started. It's amazing how quickly you
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adapt. We've only been on the road for 24 hours
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and wild camp for one night. But already we are
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used to our own isolation. And when we put into
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Oban, a small port town, suddenly we're reminded
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that there are other people here. There are other
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tourists on the same trail. It's a Sunday but
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the shops are all busy. The restaurants are all
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full. Everyone is busy in themselves. Ferries
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are coming and going. A young boy stands on the
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promenade, playing his bagpipes to the tourists
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who walk past, throwing pound coins into his
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open bag on the floor. I'm reminded that as frustrated
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as I get when crowds and other tourists are around
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me, with people also comes creativity, comes
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creation. There are little craft shops everywhere.
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This boy is making music from an instrument made
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of sheepskin. And people are looking forward
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to their journey. And onwards with ours. The
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Isle of Mull is calling. It is just over the
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water and we are about to board our first ferry
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of the trip. Ferries crisscross this part of
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Scotland. It's quite phenomenal just how many
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ferry crossings there are. But everyone is always
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full. People are on the go. People are moving.
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People have people to see. And it's heartening
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to think that when you look at this corner of
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the world, one might think that it's empty, vacant.
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But even here, connections are being forged and
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maintained with other human beings. We drive
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onto the ferry and we prepare to set sail for
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our Our long voyage to our next destination,
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the Isle of Mull. The Isle of Mull is absolutely
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stunning. It's dark, it's daunting, it is majestic.
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I know I've used that word already, but... There's
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no other word for it. On this first morning in
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Mull, there's a slight drizzle, but it's nothing
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to worry about. In fact, the moisture gives the
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landscape this shiny, glowing effect. The grass
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is green. The mountains are covered in this orange
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bracken. And when the clouds do clear, the sky
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behind them is... bright blue. The occasional
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tree, the occasional shrub, litters the hillsides
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with rocks strewn from the previous ice age.
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Dry stone walls line some of the roads and when
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the road takes you through little woodland areas
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The grey of the walls is overcome by a deep green
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moss which has enveloped the wall almost as if
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saying no this wall is too hard we've got to
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soften it up with this thick green carpet. It
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is such an incredible landscape that honestly
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the photos I take just do not do it justice.
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Everywhere you look Hills and mountains plunge
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into silver and blue and grey water as calm as
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a millpond. Small fishing boats bob here and
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there and very suddenly the roads that we are
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used to disappear, replaced by a single track
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road with passing places. Now it takes quite
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a while to get used to this because as you're
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going along people behind you will be wanting
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to overtake so you have to pull over and let
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them pass. There'll be people coming the opposite
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way and you have to work out if you're going
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to pull over or if they're going to pull over
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and of course every time you do it's Scottish
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driving courtesy to wave a hand at the driver
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to say thank you for allowing you to pass. Now
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if I was in my regular car it wouldn't be a problem
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but I am in a three and a half ton van with very
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stiff gears heavy steering and quite spongy brakes.
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And every time I come to one of these passing
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places that I have to stop at, I have to throw
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the gear stick into first and the engine roars
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into action as I try and pull away. But I find
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it fun. I don't find it frustrating, I think.
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Driving, for me, is a pleasure. I love driving
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and exploring a landscape like this is a privilege.
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It really is. And as I'm driving along and having
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to stop every few moments to allow someone to
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pass, it strikes me that we are under constant
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pressure, whether we put ourselves under that
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pressure or whether we feel it from other people.
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We're in a constant race to get to our destination,
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or we feel like we are being pushed along. Social
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media, I think, is a great example for this.
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I feel a big pressure to try and post, post,
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post. And it's easy to get disappointed when
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no one replies to your posts and no one acknowledges
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them. But that is something I've had to have
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a conversation with myself about. Who am I doing
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that for? I feel there is a pressure to get lots
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of likes. I feel that there is a pressure to
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be validated. because everyone else is, and there
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seems to be this race to be the most popular
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person on social media, and it's never going
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to happen. And these passing places I found are
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quite metaphorical for this. You know, as I said,
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we do feel this pressure, but sometimes it's
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good to be forced to stop, to let other people
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pass, and to continue when you are ready. And
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sometimes when you are ready to get going again,
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it can be a struggle to do so, like the van.
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You've got to whack it into first gear, you've
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got to roll the engine to get the wheels rolling.
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But you get in your stride, you get going again,
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and then you have to pull over again. And that's
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absolutely fine. After an eight mile track of
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stop -starting, pulling over for photos, pulling
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over for other vehicles, we got to the small
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car park for the Locked Buoy Standing Stones.
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I wanted to see these. I've never seen standing
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stones. I have heard about them. I've heard about
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all the sort of energy they can bring. And I
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was really looking forward to seeing these stones.
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We pulled over beside this beautiful old stone
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bridge with a crystal clear stream passing under
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it. We donned our walking boots. Well, me with
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my yellow Wellington boots, my bright yellow
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Wellington boots I bought for a festival a couple
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of years ago. And we opened the old rusty gate
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and let ourselves into the field. Sheet were
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munchy on the grass and as we walked past they
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looked up and gave us an inquisitive stare And
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we walked along the ground and it was boggy.
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It was wet and muddy and it was squelching under
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our feet Until eventually we found this field
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and in the corner of this field were nine standing
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stones How long these stones have been here?
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No one actually knows but I did do a little recording.
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Simon was with me and I have to admit he was
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slightly off -putting. But here is what I had
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to say in the middle of the Lochbewy Standing
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Stones. Hello, everyone. I am coming to you from
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wild and wet Scotland. I am currently stood in
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the middle of... the lockbui standing stones
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on the Isle of Mull in the Inner Hebrides and
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my word it is stunning here apart from the distant
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sound of a chainsaw but this place is just incredible
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it is a land of mystery it is an ancient land
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and i don't want to sound too cliche by tap into
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old Celtic roots but you really can feel some
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sort of energy around here. The landscape is
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stark, it is beautifully bleak, it is so autumnal,
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it's gorgeous. We're driving around in my dad's
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camper van and when we're driving along the roads
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which hug and clean to either the lock sides
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or the sea. The colours are so dramatic, the
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black and grey rocks covered in a bright orange
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kelp with the orange and grey bracken going up
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into the green forests, the black cliff faces
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of the mountains, the green lush grass with the
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white specks of sheep Grazy amongst the hills
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it's just glorious it really is and I saw on
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the map that the standing stones were about half
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an hour from where we were camped out last night
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so I thought right let's go and drive and we
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took the single track road all the way along
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must have been about eight miles probably was
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that about 10 to 11 kilometres along the single
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track road with many passing places and we only
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passed two other vehicles coming the other way
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and we are the only people in this landscape.
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Simon is behind me making himself very aware
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that he is bored and making himself self conscious.
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funny or ridiculous face on me. I'm making it
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very, very difficult for me to even contain my
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thoughts or to string a sentence together. You
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know what? I'm very aware that this podcast can
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sometimes feel like it's just a stream of my
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consciousness. There's not a lot of structure.
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There's not a lot of continuity even. but I've
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really needed this holiday. This year's been,
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yeah, it's been one of ups and downs, but I've
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needed to get away. And I really want to relate
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this to mediumship spirituality because I feel
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there is this, I don't know if it's a pressure
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or if it's just an expectation. if you consider
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yourself a spiritual person you have to be in
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that vibe 24 7 and that is just not the reality
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life gets very lifey at times bills need to be
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paid partners need your attention friends have
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crises which you need to be there for to support
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them and I guess as we move into autumn which
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for me is my favourite time of year and for me
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also is the time of year I've noticed that where
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my spirituality and my connection starts to ramp
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up and maybe that's because daylight hours are
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fading so therefore my day job I'm not working
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as many hours as I am in the summer so therefore
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I have more time to practice but I guess the
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purpose of this podcast is to talk about the
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realities of mediumship the realities of psychic
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work and spirituality and they do ebb and flow
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so i guess i just want to impart onto you my
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dear dear listener that actually if you are feeling
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a bit in a rut if you are feeling like you should
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be doing more but you're not doing enough of
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it then Don't worry, that's life. We are here
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to experience. We are here to have a lifey life.
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And as I stand and walk around these standing
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stones, which have been here for thousands of
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years, and honestly, you wouldn't know they're
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here. They're just in a random field in a beautiful
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landscape. I am overusing that word beautiful
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quite a bit this trip my other half is telling
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me off using it far too much but these things
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have been here what feels like forever there's
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some sort of symbolism there's some sort of meaning
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behind them and that's that meaning of symbolism
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fades into the past as we embrace a modern technology
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-filled world These standing stones are a good
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reminder that you do have impact. You don't have
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to have impact 24 -7 but the things that you
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do, the things that touch people, they will have
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an impact on them. The point is these standing
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stones have been here forever and so is your
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spirituality, so is your mediumship. It was always
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going to be there. Even in times like I've been
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feeling recently where it's sort of slipped away
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and you are questioning whether you still have
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the ability to connect to your loved ones or
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other people's loved ones, you still have that
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ability and it's okay to take that step back
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from life, to have a holiday, to be there for
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friends, to pay your bills even as much as you
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might not want to. it's okay to take a step back
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from it. And I think I'm gonna do an episode
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at some point in the future about taking a break
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from mediumship and spiritual work. But yeah,
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I think I'm just gonna leave it there. Have a
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holiday, have a break, take care of yourself.
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I might come back at some point on this trip
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to, I don't know, pull a card and do a reading
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if I find somewhere nice. I'm very conscious
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that Simon is looking very, very bored as he
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waits for me to finish up this conversation to
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myself. You're bored? No? I say I might do another
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recording at some point and pull a card. Do something
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like that, yeah. What have you got to say to
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the listeners? Are you recording, are you? I
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am. Time to get the coffee now. So we've taken
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a little trip to the Isle of Iona, the Isle of
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Iona or just Iona, but there's a very old nunnery
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here and just a few smattering of houses and
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we've walked up through the island through the
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really green pastures where there are sheep grazing
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to the rocky beach at the northern end and it
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is pure white. sand beautiful turquoise blue
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water it's crystal clear bloody cold the wind
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is up but it's cold but it really is gorgeous
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and I just wanted to do a little vignette a little
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audio postcard of where I am Just a little thing
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to anyone, just a little note to anyone who comes
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to Iona. Make sure you eat first. We were planning
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on eating here but of the four cafes and restaurants,
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three of them are closed and one of them is like
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an old people's home. It didn't really appeal
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to us so we are struggling to find a way to eat.
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We've not eaten since breakfast. And I don't
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know why I'm telling you this, but I suppose
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the point is, if I'm going to relate it back
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to spirituality, look after yourself. If you
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don't look after yourself, you can't do your
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job, you can't be the best you want to be. So
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by all means, come away, enjoy yourself, but
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look after yourself at the same time. We consult
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our app and we find a camping spot right on the
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front of a beach. When we arrive we have more
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or less the entire beach to ourselves. There
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are four other campers parked up well away from
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one another giving us the space and isolation
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that we are craving. The side door of our camper
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van has flown open and we are just stunned by
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the view before us. The kelp -strewn beach slips
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into the crystal clear water and beyond there
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are islands and cliff faces and the sun is making
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the clouds above us dance to oranges and reds.
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It is just gorgeous. Simon decides to break out
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his book and it's not long before he's fallen
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asleep. So I take myself off to do another recording
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on Ushkin Beach. it is not quite nine o 'clock
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yet quarter to nine at night and I got my bobble
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hat on I've got my Wellington boots I've got
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a very thick coat I've got my scarf on because
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it is freezing so I've recorded two bits today
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and they didn't really feel right I was the first
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one I was in a field and I was in the middle
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of some standing circles and a bit like Thailand
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I felt like I should have been more connected
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I felt like I should have been this is something
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ancient this this goes back to ancient Celtic
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times these stones have been stood here for at
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least a thousand years if not you know two thousand
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years more but I was with my other half and I
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was being very self -conscious and he's a bit
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of a joker so he was winding me up a little bit
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as well and I was feeling quite uncomfortable
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doing my piece to Mike as it were then I found
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myself on top of this mountain and we pulled
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the camper van over and the valley floor just
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opened up in front of us two peaks one to the
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left of us one to the right of us and below us
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this valley there were three interconnected locks,
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these bodies of water which stretched out and
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it was stunning, it was just so beautiful. The
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colour of the heather as it went up the mountain,
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the purple which turned into the brown and the
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gold, bracken, and then finally the gold grass.
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the mountains and the hills around here don't
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have many forests and what forests there are
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they're all managed so you'll be driving through
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parts of pine forests and then suddenly cliff
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faces with tree stubs where they've cut all the
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trees down it does it is reminiscent to me of
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Mordor in the Lord of the Rings film when they're
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all when the orcs are all chopping all the trees
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down it does look a little bit like that in some
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places so it's a bit disconcerting but the landscape
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here is just so rugged and so real and I found
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myself talking again a piece of microphone but
31:11
my circle leader Nicola she had messaged me and
31:14
I was a little bit distracted with that I really
31:17
didn't know what my message was trying to be
31:20
in this episode so I thought just do it later
31:24
on So I have, I've waited and we have parked
31:28
up. Our campervan overlooks this gloriously rugged
31:35
beach. We are parked up on the beach. There are
31:40
grey and black rocks jutting into the water.
31:46
They are covered in not only orange and yellow
31:51
seaweed but bright purple seaweed too. I never
31:56
knew this stuff existed until I saw it floating
31:58
around today. And Simon's in the camper van,
32:02
fallen asleep already. But I'm happy to have
32:05
him sleep in the van while I come out here and
32:08
just compose my thoughts. So what are my thoughts?
32:13
There seems to be a pressure. And if not a pressure,
32:18
then certainly an expectation that if you step
32:21
onto this road of spirituality, mediumship, psychic
32:27
work, then that needs to be what you are, that
32:33
needs to be everything that you embody. I know
32:39
there's one person out there who listens to this,
32:44
and I hope. she takes note of this or at least
32:48
at least knows that I hear her and I feel I feel
32:52
her pain sometimes with this because it does
32:54
feel like you have to balance this with the needs
32:57
of everyone else around you that guilt of going
33:01
to circle that guilt of taking yourself upstairs
33:04
for a meditation because your other half wants
33:09
to spend time with you even if that is just sat
33:11
on the sofa watching shit tv But if you do find
33:16
you're on this journey of mediumship of psychic
33:19
work or spirituality and even if you're not on
33:24
that journey, but you Are a spiritual person
33:28
you are someone who is in touch with yourself
33:31
It can be very difficult to Stay connected to
33:37
yourself or stay connected to the thing that
33:40
brings you joy brings happiness brings a certain
33:45
amount of meaning, I guess, to your life. It's
33:48
my belief, and it's only my belief, that we are
33:52
here to experience things. Whether that be in
33:56
learning lessons, I don't know, but certainly
33:59
we are here to experience life in its physical
34:04
incarnation. You know, I'm sat here freezing
34:08
my arse off, but at the same time, appreciating
34:15
the sensations, appreciating how the cold feels
34:19
against my skin, how the smell of the seawater
34:24
smells, the sound of it lapping against the rocks,
34:30
the gratitude for the opportunity to be able
34:32
to be here. These other things, no I'll rephrase
34:39
that. This sort of thing is the reason I am here
34:43
is to experience things If I can help people
34:47
along the way then I absolutely will and you
34:52
know, I make it a real Part of my being to try
34:57
and help people and to be there for people But
35:04
this incarnation this time round of me being
35:07
here on this physical plane is to experience
35:12
things and I'm doing these things, but sometimes
35:14
that comes at the cost of my spiritual connection.
35:18
And I feel that's okay. I am not in this to make
35:24
a career for myself. I am not in this to necessarily
35:30
make a name for myself. I want to be good at
35:33
my mediumship. I want to be able to be accurate.
35:37
But my expectation is not to make a lot of money
35:40
on this. My expectation is not to be well known.
35:42
My expectation is not to be famous or anything
35:48
like that. My expectation is to be accurate and
35:53
to help heal the people I come in contact with.
35:56
And sometimes I need to remind myself that sometimes
36:03
I need to take time away from my everyday life
36:08
to borrow a camper van, to run away to Scotland,
36:16
to sit on a freezing cold beach at the end of
36:21
September. To realise that doesn't need to be
36:26
spiritual because just in doing this, that is
36:30
spiritual enough. I hope that makes some sort
36:35
of sense to you and I hope on some level that
36:38
helps you. I don't know, I can only put out there
36:43
what I feel in this time. So yeah, I'm gonna
36:49
leave it there. If I can, I normally get up early,
36:54
you know, we're in a camper van, so A, I'm freezing
36:56
my tits off and also we are woken by the sunrise,
37:01
which is glorious. So I'll get up tomorrow morning
37:05
and I will try and do a full of card and see
37:10
what I feel with that. Time for bed to me. Lots
37:15
of love until tomorrow. Good morning everyone.
37:32
We woke up this morning to a wonderful sunrise
37:36
and we opened up the van door to this incredible
37:43
view of this beach with the rocks and the little
37:48
islands in the distance the mountains in the
37:51
distance and the clouds overhead were a dusky
37:56
pinky peach as the Sun was starting to rise it
38:00
was really Really quite ideal. So I thought I'd
38:04
get up, get out of bed and I would pull a card
38:08
and just see what happens. See what comes through.
38:13
They always say that you should set your intention
38:18
before doing any of this sort of work. And I
38:21
guess my intention I want to set this morning.
38:24
Yeah, it's a message for you. I think this episode
38:27
is shaping into one about taking a break. The
38:34
reason I chuckle is because I pulled this card
38:36
for someone in the circle a few weeks ago. Isn't
38:43
it funny how these things work? So I was in circle
38:46
a few weeks ago and I pulled this card for actually
38:52
somebody who will be appearing on the Psychic
38:55
Explorer in a few months time. and it was about
39:00
taking a break. So let me just lean into this
39:05
card and just see what I can pull from it. Okay,
39:12
I'll tell you what I'll do. I will post this
39:14
actually as an Instagram post. So if you want
39:18
to see this card, then you can see it. This woman.
39:25
is in black she's in a long black dress and she's
39:28
got a long black veil coming from the back of
39:31
her hat she's got some used empty jars in front
39:36
of her and there's a black cloak over the beehive
39:40
these are the bee tarot cards I use they're a
39:43
beautiful set of cards if you don't have them
39:46
and you're a collector of tarot cards then my
39:48
word or even oracle cards my word I would definitely
39:51
invest in these The sense, if I'm gonna relate
39:57
this to taking a break, this woman is almost
40:00
in mourning. She is in mourning for lack of commitment.
40:05
She's in mourning for the lack of persistence
40:10
in her work. The place that she gets her power
40:14
from has been sheathed in a black cloth. And
40:19
she's concerned that she's not getting the most
40:23
out of her source. She's not getting the most
40:27
out of her power. These are used jars at the
40:31
bottom of her feet. She sees these as energy
40:34
spent and she's not looking at me. She's looking
40:36
towards a path which winds its way past a little
40:41
cottage into a woodland area. She's not sure
40:46
of where the path goes. She's not sure of the
40:48
path ahead and it's autumn. The leaves are changing.
40:52
It's where she's going to go going to be fruitless
40:56
because where she is at the moment she is surrounded
40:59
by nuts and berries and if only she looked behind
41:03
her if only she looked at what was behind her
41:06
she would see that she still has two whole jars
41:10
of honey she still has two jars of energy and
41:15
I do interpret that to you dear listener that
41:20
if you are feeling exhausted if you're feeling
41:25
like you can't get any power from wherever you
41:30
get your power from whether it is source whether
41:33
it is said last night reading a book relaxing
41:37
going on a walk or whatever it is if you don't
41:40
have that power there's always something left
41:42
and I always bring her up in my circle leader
41:45
Nicholas she always says there's always something
41:48
more it's always more And whenever I'm doing
41:52
a reading, just trying to do one more thing,
41:54
one more message. There's always something more.
41:59
Although the bees are covered up in this black
42:02
cloth, they're not fully covered. Some are still
42:05
getting through. It might feel like you are disconnected.
42:09
It might feel like I have been disconnected,
42:12
or at least I feel like I have been disconnected,
42:14
but I am not. We are not. We are still connected
42:17
to our power. it might feel really comfortable
42:21
just to stay put where you are because where
42:23
you are is somewhere which is fruitful which
42:27
is comfortable familiar you know you have your
42:31
resources you have your home in front of you
42:32
you have your food around you have water and
42:36
you could take that journey into the unknown
42:40
because the way I see it this card she is where
42:42
she is she's comfortable but she's in mourning
42:46
she's disconnected She's not feeling her power.
42:50
She could take that journey to somewhere new
42:53
and she could find an entire new power. She might
42:56
not, but she could always come home. I'm gonna
43:04
leave that one there. I don't wanna ramble on
43:05
too much, but I hope that made some sort of sense
43:08
to you. So for the moment, I'm sending all my
43:13
love. Take care, bye. We decided to take a little
43:39
day trip to an island called Staffa Island. Named
43:43
by the Vikings because of the unique rock formations
43:47
which looked like big rods, hexagonal rods, staffs
43:52
as they would call them. It's a bit like the
43:55
giant causeway but in island form. We're on our
44:01
small wooden boat cutting our way through the
44:04
deep blue water. Our tour guide who is not only
44:13
informative but really friendly too gives us
44:16
plenty of information on the way so that we can
44:18
make sense of what we are seeing. We're looking
44:39
across there on the left hand side or the port
44:42
side of the boat is the island of Iona And Iona
44:47
is three miles long by one and a half mile I
44:49
love this sort of stuff. I love that some figures
44:52
so anytime where anyone can give me new information
44:55
I am all there so I am loving this tour guide
44:58
We have nine children in our small primary school
45:05
on the island He pilots us to this island which
45:10
just lifts out of the ocean. It is something
45:13
prehistoric. In the summer there are puffins
45:16
which make their nests here but we are too late
45:19
to see them. But as we disembark the boat onto
45:22
the small concrete platform which is covered
45:25
in barnacles and baby mussels, we climb the metal
45:29
steps up onto the top of Stafford Island. and
45:34
admire the views around. It's blustery it's a
45:52
bit chilly but it is majestic and we just take
45:56
time at the top to admire our surroundings. Stafford
46:12
Island is not only famous for puffins and its
46:15
unusual geology it's also home to a cave called
46:19
Fingal's Cave and when everyone disembarked from
46:22
the boat most people went around to see the cave
46:27
Simon and I decided let's just hold fire on that
46:30
one let's go to the top first and wait until
46:33
everyone is done with the cave hoping that that
46:36
would give us an opportunity to experience Fingal's
46:39
Cave on our own So after about half an hour of
46:44
taking selfies, getting precariously close to
46:47
the edge of these sheer face cliffs which still
46:51
at the age of 41 makes my knees wobble. I can't
46:55
seem to get any closer than about a metre. But
46:59
we make our way down the ladders and we walk
47:03
along the path which has been marked out by the
47:06
National Trust for Scotland. scrambling over
47:09
large hexagonal rocks towards the direction of
47:12
this huge gaping mouth in the side of this island.
47:18
There are a few people there taking selfies and
47:20
taking photos so we just wait and hold fire and
47:24
after about five ten minutes of admiring the
47:28
views of admiring the calmness of the sea and
47:32
imagining how different this place must look
47:34
in the middle of winter when the winter storms
47:36
are rushing in off of the Atlantic causing huge
47:40
white frothy waves crashing up against the unique
47:43
rock structures that define this tiny speck of
47:47
land I step in and straight away I notice the
47:53
acoustics change There's not an echo. There is
48:05
a surrounding. It's almost as if I'm in a soundproof
48:09
chamber. This is no cave that I've ever been
48:13
in before. This is utterly different. This is
48:19
utterly unique. These hexagonal rocks which make
48:24
up this structure are almost reminiscent of a
48:27
cathedral. They look man -made. It's quite...
48:31
Just for lack of a better word. It's quite phenomenal
48:34
and I let my mind wander And I think of all the
48:38
people who have visited this cave over the millennia
48:42
Going all the way back to the Vikings the Celts
48:45
and before them This cave must have hosted some
48:50
sort of religious ceremony in days gone by it's
48:55
just begging for Offerings to be made I can envision
48:59
candles Set alongside the path to an altar in
49:04
the far recesses of this cave. I take a moment
49:10
and just sit there and just imagine and try and
49:15
connect to Whatever there was in the past I have
49:27
a moment in that cave and I re -emerge energized
49:33
I re -emerged invigorated I re -emerge more me
49:40
it's like the land has almost given birth to
49:44
me I didn't say anything to Simon I didn't say
49:46
anything I don't even think I acknowledge it
49:48
to myself but just being in contact with something
49:52
so ancient so of the earth so awe -inspiring.
50:02
It reminds me that my life here and now, as important
50:08
as it is, it's not everything. Matt Morris is
50:13
just fleeting. I am here for a millisecond, a
50:19
heartbeat, not even a heartbeat, a blink in the
50:23
lifespan of this planet, of this universe. and
50:29
all these things that I am worried about, all
50:32
these world events that I have no control over,
50:37
yet I put on my shoulders, whether that be the
50:41
genocide in Gaza, whether that be the rise of
50:46
nationalism in my own country and the world,
50:50
the hardening of people's hearts to people in
50:53
need. I can only have impact on the people that
50:59
I come into contact with, the people that I connect
51:03
with and the people who connect with me. Before
51:09
I went away to Scotland I was feeling disconnected.
51:13
For me this psychic spiritual mediumship work
51:17
it is so important to me and I want to be the
51:23
best I can be at it. And as I said, when I was
51:27
sat on the beach, when I was stood at the standing
51:31
stones at Lotbui, there is this expectation that
51:35
if you're a spiritual person, that needs to be
51:38
your entire being and that is not me. I can be
51:44
cynical, I can be scientific, I can be very logical.
51:51
I am not one for pulling a card every day. I
51:55
am not one for meditating every day I have this
51:59
gift as we all do as I strongly and firmly believe
52:04
we all do but I have not been practicing this
52:08
gift as much as I have done in the past and with
52:13
that comes guilt with that comes a self -imposed
52:16
expectation that expectation does not exist from
52:20
anyone else it's purely something I am putting
52:23
on to me I have so many different interests.
52:28
I keep up to date with world affairs. To my detriment,
52:34
hands up, especially recently, especially this
52:37
year, it's just been awful one thing after another.
52:41
And I have had things go on in my family life
52:46
which have not been fun. The plans I made have
52:51
not worked out. As I said to someone before I
52:54
went away life has been very lifey recently I
53:01
guess I needed to disconnect from my life to
53:06
reconnect to me and I hope that resonates with
53:11
you while I was away surrounded by this incredible
53:16
Scottish landscape I wasn't checking Instagram,
53:20
I wasn't checking Facebook every half hour. I
53:24
wasn't checking the news. I wasn't listening
53:27
to my political podcasts. I was just in the moment
53:33
with Simon having profound conversations and
53:37
talking shit in equal measure. Laughing, having
53:41
fun, exploring, doing what we do best as a couple
53:46
we explore. I'm going to draw this episode to
53:51
a close. I really hope you've enjoyed this little
53:54
journey through the Western Isles of Scotland
53:57
with me. If you are feeling that expectation
54:00
that you need to be more than you can be at this
54:06
moment, at any moment, I would encourage you
54:09
to give yourself that permission to just step
54:11
back, step back, re -evaluate. and find that
54:18
you. Find that you that sparks. Find that you
54:22
that is calm. Find that center. And so I will
54:28
leave you with the sounds of the bright veil
54:31
waterfall on the island sky. Take a moment to
54:36
just close your eyes and visualize yourself stepping
54:41
under this beautiful waterfall. and let the cold
54:46
water of the Scottish Highlands wash away your
54:50
cares, wash away your worries and reinvigorate
54:56
you. Take care guys, bye.