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Million Dollar Listing's Tracy Tutor: 30 Years of Our Friendship, Power Moves, & Owning Every Room · The Iconic Midlife with Roxy Manning

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If
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you
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want
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to
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maintain
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friendships,
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don't
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expect
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that
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we're
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all
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sitting
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around
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analyzing
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what
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your
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feelings
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might
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be
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behind
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the
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scenes.
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You
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have
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to
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pick
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up
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the
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phone
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and
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you
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have
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to
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say,
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I
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feel
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like
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shit
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today.
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We
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met
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at
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USC
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in
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1993,
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correct?
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Actually,
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it
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was
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a
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woman
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that
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was
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interviewing
0:25
several
0:25
different
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male
0:26
CEOs
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and
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asking
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them
0:29
questions
0:30
that
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women
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that
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she
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had
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interviewed
0:32
had
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been
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asked
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in
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the
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workplace.
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Questions
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like,
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it's
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so
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important.
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It's
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so
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important
0:38
at
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this
0:38
stage
0:39
in
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our
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lives,
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too,
0:40
to
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have
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that,
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you
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know,
0:41
community
0:42
is
0:42
everything.
0:43
I
0:43
mean,
0:43
the
0:44
suicide
0:44
rates
0:44
of
0:45
women
0:45
in
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midlife
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go
0:46
up
0:46
significantly
0:47
because
0:47
people
0:48
feel
0:48
alone,
0:48
you
0:49
know,
0:49
and
0:49
they
0:49
feel
0:50
like
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they're
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struggling.
0:51
So
0:51
what
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do
0:52
you
0:52
want
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people
0:53
to
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know,
0:54
especially
0:54
midlife
0:55
women,
0:55
about
0:56
friendships
0:56
at
0:57
this
0:57
Stage
0:58
in
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your
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40s,
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it's
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a
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lot
1:02
of
1:02
pressure.
1:02
So
1:03
back
1:03
to
1:03
dating.
1:06
Well,
1:06
this
1:06
will
1:07
be
1:07
the
1:07
fun
1:07
part.
1:07
Yeah.
1:08
Done
1:09
with
1:09
the
1:09
serious
1:09
shit,
1:10
Casey.
1:10
We
1:10
will
1:10
get
1:11
married
1:11
one
1:11
day.
1:11
I'll
1:12
leave
1:12
David.
1:12
We'll
1:13
run
1:13
away
1:13
together.
1:13
You
1:14
know
1:14
how
1:14
this
1:14
story
1:14
ends.
1:15
There
1:15
is
1:15
a
1:15
commune
1:15
on
1:15
the
1:16
horizon.
1:16
I
1:16
do
1:16
feel
1:17
it
1:17
coming.
1:17
Like,
1:17
how
1:18
many
1:18
years
1:18
are
1:18
we
1:18
talking?
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Span
1:20
of
1:20
a
1:20
life?
1:21
Yes.
1:22
The
1:22
most
1:22
savage
1:23
thing
1:23
I've
1:23
ever
1:23
done.
1:24
Most
1:24
savage.
1:30
Today's
1:31
guest
1:31
is
1:31
more
1:32
than
1:32
just
1:32
a
1:32
powerhouse.
1:33
She's
1:33
one
1:34
of
1:34
my
1:34
closest
1:35
friends,
1:35
my
1:35
sister
1:36
in
1:36
stilettos,
1:37
and
1:37
a
1:37
woman
1:38
who
1:38
has
1:38
redefined
1:39
what
1:39
it
1:39
means
1:40
to
1:40
rise,
1:40
evolve,
1:41
and
1:42
stay
1:42
unapologetically
1:43
herself.
1:44
You
1:45
probably
1:45
know
1:46
Tracy
1:46
Tudor
1:47
as
1:47
the
1:47
top
1:47
selling
1:48
real
1:48
estate
1:48
queen
1:49
from
1:49
Million
1:49
Dollar
1:50
Listing
1:50
Los
1:50
Angeles.
1:51
But
1:51
what
1:52
you
1:52
may
1:52
not
1:52
see
1:52
is
1:53
the
1:53
sharpness
1:53
behind
1:54
the
1:54
glam,
1:54
the
1:55
loyalty
1:55
behind
1:56
the
1:56
hustle,
1:56
and
1:57
the
1:57
depth
1:57
behind
1:58
the
1:58
directness.
1:59
In
1:59
this
1:59
conversation,
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we're
2:01
getting
2:01
into
2:01
everything
2:02
from
2:02
real
2:03
female
2:03
friendships
2:04
after
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40
2:05
to
2:05
the
2:05
business
2:06
moves
2:06
that
2:06
require
2:07
zero
2:07
approval
2:08
to
2:09
the
2:09
dating
2:09
standards
2:10
of
2:10
a
2:10
woman
2:10
who
2:11
doesn't
2:11
chase
2:12
anyone.
2:13
If
2:13
you
2:13
ever
2:14
wanted
2:14
to
2:14
know
2:15
what
2:15
it
2:15
looks
2:15
like
2:15
to
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own
2:16
your
2:16
worth,
2:17
rebuild
2:18
your
2:18
identity,
2:19
and.
2:19
And
2:19
do
2:19
it
2:20
all
2:20
in
2:20
five
2:21
inch
2:21
heels.
2:22
This
2:22
episode
2:22
is
2:23
your
2:23
masterclass.
2:24
Make
2:24
sure
2:25
to
2:25
follow
2:25
the
2:25
iconic
2:26
midlife
2:26
wherever
2:27
you
2:27
get
2:27
your
2:27
podcasts
2:28
and
2:28
watch
2:29
this
2:29
full
2:29
episode
2:30
on
2:30
YouTube
2:30
tomorrow
2:31
and
2:31
follow
2:32
us
2:32
on
2:32
social
2:33
heconicmidlife
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and
2:35
edcarpetroxy.
2:37
Let's
2:37
get
2:37
into
2:37
it.
2:38
Welcome,
2:38
Tracy.
2:40
Now
2:40
we're
2:40
with
2:40
my
2:40
bestie.
2:41
From
2:41
my
2:42
mom
2:42
to
2:42
my
2:42
college
2:43
bestie.
2:45
Hello.
2:45
Doing
2:45
a
2:46
new
2:46
podcast.
2:47
Welcome,
2:47
welcome.
2:48
Who
2:48
knows
2:48
where
2:48
this
2:49
is
2:49
gonna
2:49
go?
2:50
It
2:50
could
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go
2:51
many
2:51
different
2:51
ways.
2:54
It's
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a
2:55
long
2:55
and
2:55
winding
2:55
road,
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as
2:56
they
2:56
say.
3:00
I
3:00
love
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that
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you're
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wearing
3:01
glasses,
3:01
don't
3:02
you?
3:02
Those
3:02
times
3:03
have
3:03
changed.
3:04
This
3:04
is
3:04
what
3:05
happens
3:05
when
3:05
you're
3:05
15.
3:06
Even
3:06
with
3:07
big
3:07
prints,
3:07
I
3:07
still
3:07
have
3:08
to
3:08
wear
3:08
glasses.
3:08
I'm
3:09
blind
3:09
as
3:09
a
3:09
bat,
3:09
girl.
3:10
But
3:11
you.
3:11
I
3:11
feel
3:11
like
3:11
you
3:11
don't
3:12
have
3:12
to
3:12
wear
3:12
them
3:12
as
3:13
much.
3:13
If
3:14
I
3:14
don't
3:14
wear
3:14
them
3:15
for
3:15
a
3:16
period
3:16
of
3:16
time,
3:16
then
3:16
I
3:17
need
3:17
them
3:17
less.
3:17
But
3:18
if
3:18
I
3:18
put
3:18
them
3:18
on
3:19
and
3:19
take
3:19
them
3:19
off,
3:20
then
3:20
I'm
3:20
like.
3:21
It
3:21
takes
3:21
a
3:21
minute
3:22
to
3:22
adjust,
3:22
right?
3:25
Do
3:25
I
3:25
know
3:25
you?
3:26
Yeah.
3:26
Like
3:27
right
3:27
now.
3:27
You
3:27
look
3:27
gorgeous.
3:28
Oh,
3:28
my
3:28
God,
3:28
my
3:29
glasses
3:29
on.
3:29
It
3:30
could
3:30
be
3:30
a
3:30
total
3:30
shit
3:30
show.
3:31
Just
3:31
keep
3:31
the
3:31
glasses
3:32
off,
3:32
okay?
3:35
Oh,
3:36
lady.
3:36
I'm
3:37
a
3:37
little
3:37
puffy
3:37
today,
3:38
girl.
3:38
I'm
3:39
so
3:39
puffy.
3:39
Are
3:39
you
3:39
kidding
3:40
me?
3:40
Coming
3:40
off
3:40
that
3:40
plane?
3:41
Forget
3:41
it.
3:42
I
3:42
don't
3:42
know.
3:42
I
3:42
don't
3:43
know
3:43
if
3:43
it's
3:43
allergies
3:44
or
3:44
just
3:45
lack
3:45
of
3:45
dick.
3:46
I
3:46
mean,
3:47
could
3:47
be
3:48
a
3:48
little
3:48
of
3:48
both.
3:49
Yeah.
3:50
How
3:50
is
3:50
the.
3:50
How
3:50
is
3:50
the
3:51
dick
3:51
shortage
3:51
these
3:52
days?
3:53
I
3:54
mean,
3:55
I'm
3:56
just.
3:56
One
3:57
day
3:57
at
3:57
a
3:57
time.
3:59
It's
3:59
rough
3:59
out
4:00
there,
4:00
huh?
4:00
Rough
4:00
out
4:00
there
4:01
in
4:01
the
4:01
LA
4:01
streets.
4:02
I'm
4:03
sourcing
4:03
penis
4:04
out
4:04
from
4:04
other
4:04
countries
4:05
at
4:05
this
4:05
point.
4:06
It's
4:06
fine.
4:07
I
4:07
think
4:08
Australia
4:08
is
4:09
a
4:09
good
4:09
country
4:10
for
4:10
outsourcing,
4:11
right?
4:11
I'm
4:11
not
4:11
mad
4:12
at
4:12
Australia.
4:12
Okay.
4:13
Currently
4:13
not
4:14
at
4:14
all.
4:14
Not
4:15
at
4:15
all.
4:15
Not
4:15
upset.
4:17
Like
4:17
it.
4:18
Love
4:18
it.
4:18
Yeah.
4:19
Might
4:19
move
4:19
there.
4:20
I
4:20
mean,
4:21
it's.
4:21
It.
4:21
There
4:22
is
4:22
something
4:22
to
4:22
be
4:22
said.
4:23
They're
4:23
fun.
4:24
I
4:24
mean,
4:24
good
4:25
times,
4:25
right?
4:25
Yeah,
4:26
they're
4:26
really
4:26
good.
4:26
There
4:27
might
4:27
be.
4:27
I
4:28
think
4:28
I
4:28
heard
4:28
something
4:28
about
4:29
some
4:29
tall
4:30
Australian.
4:32
He
4:33
is
4:33
tall.
4:34
Very
4:34
tall.
4:35
Very
4:35
Australian.
4:36
Likes.
4:37
Have
4:37
a
4:37
good
4:37
time.
4:38
Cute.
4:39
Darling.
4:40
Darling.
4:41
They're
4:41
all
4:41
darling.
4:42
They're
4:42
all
4:42
darling,
4:42
right?
4:43
They're
4:43
just
4:43
having
4:43
fun.
4:44
Having
4:44
fun,
4:44
huh?
4:45
Like
4:45
I
4:45
said,
4:46
one
4:46
day
4:46
at
4:46
a
4:46
time.
4:47
I'm
4:47
not
4:48
exclusive
4:48
with
4:49
anyone,
4:49
Roxy.
4:50
We
4:51
like
4:51
that.
4:51
Because
4:51
then
4:52
I
4:52
get
4:52
to
4:52
vicariously
4:53
live
4:53
through
4:53
you.
4:54
It's
4:54
like
4:54
a
4:54
good
4:54
Sunday
4:55
brunch
4:55
story.
4:55
Yes,
4:56
it
4:56
is.
4:57
It
4:57
is
4:58
the
4:58
only
4:58
reason
4:58
we
4:58
get
4:58
together
4:59
at
4:59
this
4:59
point.
5:00
We
5:00
got
5:01
a
5:01
recap.
5:01
It's
5:01
always
5:02
a
5:02
recap.
5:02
I
5:02
do
5:03
love.
5:03
Actually,
5:03
one
5:04
of
5:04
my
5:04
favorite
5:04
things
5:04
is
5:05
when
5:05
we
5:05
do
5:05
have,
5:05
like,
5:06
a
5:06
night
5:06
out,
5:07
and
5:07
then
5:07
it's
5:07
like
5:07
the
5:08
morning
5:08
after,
5:09
we're
5:09
texting
5:09
and
5:09
we're
5:09
like,
5:10
ooh.
5:10
Well,
5:10
it
5:10
just
5:10
immediately
5:11
comes
5:11
a
5:11
FaceTime
5:12
from
5:12
the
5:12
bed.
5:12
We
5:13
no
5:13
longer,
5:13
like,
5:14
you're
5:14
not
5:14
my
5:15
best
5:15
friend
5:15
if
5:16
you
5:16
do
5:17
not
5:17
answer
5:17
my
5:18
FaceTime
5:19
promptly
5:19
at
5:19
8am
5:20
when
5:20
I
5:20
wake
5:21
up
5:21
from
5:21
the
5:22
night
5:22
before.
5:22
Yes,
5:23
correct.
5:23
And
5:23
it
5:23
usually
5:24
starts
5:24
out
5:24
with,
5:24
oof.
5:25
That's
5:25
like
5:25
the
5:26
first
5:26
text.
5:27
Oof.
5:28
It's
5:29
like
5:29
that
5:29
meme.
5:29
Dude.
5:30
Dude.
5:31
Yeah.
5:32
Yeah.
5:32
I
5:32
just.
5:33
I
5:33
honestly
5:34
Think
5:34
I
5:34
live
5:34
more
5:35
for
5:35
the
5:35
next
5:35
day.
5:36
Chat
5:37
and
5:37
FaceTime.
5:38
And
5:39
then
5:39
we
5:39
start.
5:39
And
5:39
then
5:40
I'll
5:40
just
5:40
keep
5:40
FaceTiming
5:41
everybody.
5:41
I'll
5:42
start
5:42
with
5:42
you
5:42
and
5:43
then
5:43
I'll
5:43
group
5:43
in.
5:44
We
5:44
just
5:45
start
5:45
adding
5:45
people.
5:46
By
5:46
the
5:46
end
5:46
of
5:46
that
5:47
chat,
5:47
we
5:47
have
5:47
like
5:47
six
5:48
women
5:48
and
5:49
maybe
5:49
a
5:49
gay.
5:49
Yes.
5:50
On
5:50
the
5:50
chat.
5:51
For
5:51
good
5:51
measure.
5:51
For
5:51
a
5:52
good
5:52
measure.
5:52
Just
5:52
to
5:52
give
5:53
feedback.
5:53
Yes,
5:53
yes.
5:54
Honest
5:54
feedback.
5:55
Correct.
5:55
Not
5:55
that
5:55
we're
5:56
interested
5:56
in
5:56
listening
5:56
to
5:57
it,
5:57
but
5:58
nonetheless,
5:58
they
5:58
just
5:59
look
5:59
pretty.
5:59
I
5:59
mean,
5:59
he's
6:00
there
6:00
for
6:00
eye
6:00
candy,
6:01
you
6:01
know.
6:01
Yeah.
6:02
Yeah.
6:02
I
6:02
mean,
6:03
it's
6:03
funny.
6:03
You'll
6:03
do
6:03
a
6:04
group
6:04
FaceTime,
6:05
but
6:05
you
6:05
will
6:05
not
6:05
do
6:05
a
6:06
group
6:06
chat.
6:07
A
6:07
text
6:07
chat.
6:08
I
6:08
leave
6:09
a
6:09
group
6:09
chat.
6:09
Yeah,
6:10
you
6:10
do.
6:10
I
6:10
hate
6:12
a
6:12
group
6:12
chat
6:12
about
6:12
a
6:13
birthday
6:13
present.
6:13
Oh,
6:14
a
6:14
group
6:15
gift.
6:15
We
6:16
know
6:16
how
6:16
we
6:16
feel
6:16
about
6:16
that.
6:17
We'll
6:17
go
6:17
there
6:17
later.
6:18
I
6:18
don't
6:18
want
6:18
to
6:19
talk
6:19
about
6:19
vacations
6:20
on
6:20
a
6:20
group
6:21
chat.
6:21
On
6:21
the
6:22
dates
6:22
of,
6:23
like,
6:23
when
6:23
they
6:23
can
6:24
come
6:24
in
6:24
and
6:24
when
6:25
I
6:25
can
6:25
come
6:25
in
6:26
and
6:26
I'm
6:26
not
6:27
interested
6:27
in
6:27
any
6:27
of
6:27
it.
6:27
So
6:28
I
6:28
just.
6:28
I
6:28
just
6:29
pretend
6:29
I'm
6:29
not
6:29
on
6:30
it.
6:30
Yes.
6:31
Or
6:31
the
6:31
dreaded
6:32
girls.
6:32
Leave
6:33
the
6:33
conversation.
6:34
Leave
6:34
your.
6:34
Like,
6:34
sometimes,
6:35
like,
6:35
if
6:35
I
6:35
want
6:35
to
6:35
showcase
6:36
that
6:36
I'm
6:36
annoyed.
6:37
Yeah.
6:38
I'll
6:38
actually
6:39
leave
6:39
the
6:39
conversation.
6:41
Just
6:41
to
6:41
tell
6:41
them,
6:42
like,
6:42
this
6:43
chat's
6:43
been
6:43
going
6:44
on
6:44
for
6:44
like
6:44
a
6:45
month
6:45
now
6:45
and
6:45
I'm
6:46
no
6:46
longer
6:46
interested.
6:47
I'm
6:47
actually
6:47
going
6:47
to
6:48
formally
6:48
leave.
6:49
That
6:49
really
6:49
sets
6:49
the
6:50
tone
6:51
for
6:51
where
6:51
I'm
6:52
at.
6:52
It
6:52
really
6:53
does.
6:53
And
6:53
I
6:53
think
6:53
the
6:54
worst
6:54
one
6:55
is
6:55
probably
6:55
the
6:56
girls
6:56
night
6:56
dinner.
6:57
The
6:57
girls
6:57
night
6:58
dinner
6:58
chat.
6:59
I
6:59
can't
6:59
do
6:59
that.
6:59
I
7:00
mean,
7:00
I
7:00
don't
7:00
wanna
7:01
talk
7:01
about
7:01
another
7:01
date
7:02
where
7:03
one
7:03
person.
7:03
Everybody
7:04
decides
7:04
on
7:04
a
7:04
date
7:05
and
7:05
then
7:05
one
7:05
person
7:05
is
7:05
like.
7:06
And
7:06
you
7:06
know
7:06
what
7:07
I've
7:07
just
7:07
said,
7:08
I'm
7:08
not
7:08
in
7:09
until
7:09
the.
7:09
You
7:10
guys
7:10
get
7:10
the
7:10
date
7:10
together
7:11
and
7:11
then
7:11
I'll
7:11
let
7:12
you
7:12
know
7:12
four
7:13
days
7:13
before
7:13
if
7:13
I'm
7:14
in.
7:14
Or
7:14
usually
7:15
the
7:15
day
7:15
of.
7:15
Usually
7:16
the
7:16
day.
7:16
Yes.
7:17
Correct.
7:18
I
7:19
take
7:19
accountability
7:19
for
7:19
that.
7:20
I
7:20
just
7:20
sometimes
7:20
wanna
7:21
say
7:21
no.
7:21
Yeah.
7:22
Until
7:22
I
7:22
say
7:23
yes.
7:23
Yeah.
7:23
Yeah,
7:24
you
7:24
do.
7:24
I'm
7:25
an
7:25
adult
7:25
and
7:25
I'm
7:25
old
7:26
enough,
7:26
and
7:26
I
7:26
am
7:26
at
7:26
that
7:26
place
7:27
in
7:27
my
7:27
life
7:27
where
7:27
I
7:27
just
7:28
say
7:28
no
7:29
until
7:29
I
7:29
feel
7:29
like
7:30
saying
7:30
yes
7:30
versus
7:31
saying
7:31
yes
7:32
and
7:32
then
7:33
backing
7:33
out
7:34
like
7:34
a
7:35
wuss.
7:35
It
7:36
is.
7:36
It's
7:36
almost
7:36
like
7:37
an
7:37
added
7:37
surprise
7:37
if
7:38
you
7:38
say
7:38
yes
7:38
at
7:38
the
7:38
end,
7:39
then.
7:39
Everybody'S,
7:40
you
7:40
know,
7:41
surprised
7:41
and
7:42
happy
7:42
that
7:42
I'm
7:43
able
7:43
to
7:43
attend
7:43
versus
7:44
disappointed
7:45
and
7:45
consistently
7:45
upset
7:46
with
7:46
me.
7:46
Yes.
7:47
Correct.
7:47
Correct.
7:48
We've
7:49
had
7:49
a
7:49
lot
7:49
of
7:49
people
7:50
consistently
7:50
upset
7:51
over
7:52
the
7:52
course
7:52
of
7:52
the
7:52
last
7:52
few
7:52
years.
7:55
Yeah,
7:55
it's
7:55
almost
7:56
come
7:56
to
7:56
blows
7:56
a
7:56
couple
7:56
of
7:56
times.
7:58
20
7:58
plus
7:59
years
7:59
of
7:59
friendship.
8:00
There's
8:00
bound
8:01
to
8:01
be
8:01
a
8:01
few
8:01
disgruntled
8:03
employees.
8:04
Exactly.
8:05
I
8:05
guess
8:06
we
8:06
should
8:06
probably
8:07
start
8:07
from
8:07
the
8:07
beginning
8:08
and
8:08
just
8:08
let
8:08
everybody
8:09
know
8:10
how
8:10
we
8:10
know
8:10
each
8:11
other.
8:11
How
8:11
do
8:11
we
8:11
know
8:11
each
8:11
other?
8:12
Tracee
8:12
Elaine
8:12
Tudor.
8:13
We
8:14
met
8:14
at
8:15
USC
8:15
in
8:16
1993.
8:20
Correct?
8:21
1993.
8:23
As
8:23
we
8:23
were
8:24
rushing
8:25
sororities
8:26
at
8:26
USC
8:27
and
8:27
walking
8:28
the
8:28
row.
8:29
That's
8:29
correct.
8:30
She
8:30
was
8:30
not
8:30
in
8:30
my
8:31
group,
8:31
so
8:31
that,
8:31
you
8:32
know,
8:32
I
8:32
was
8:32
in
8:32
a
8:32
separate
8:33
group
8:33
for
8:33
her
8:33
and
8:34
she
8:34
was
8:34
in
8:34
a
8:34
separate
8:34
group.
8:35
And
8:35
this
8:36
was
8:36
like
8:36
back
8:36
in
8:36
the
8:36
day
8:37
when
8:37
USC
8:37
was
8:37
still
8:38
a
8:38
little
8:38
bit
8:38
janky.
8:39
Yeah.
8:39
Little
8:39
rough.
8:40
Little
8:40
rough.
8:40
Little
8:40
rough
8:41
around
8:41
the
8:41
edges.
8:41
There
8:41
was
8:42
not
8:42
many,
8:42
many
8:42
places
8:43
to
8:43
eat,
8:43
and
8:43
we
8:43
had
8:44
like
8:44
a
8:44
lunch
8:44
break
8:44
or
8:45
something.
8:46
And
8:47
like,
8:47
the
8:47
place
8:48
to
8:48
get
8:48
a
8:48
bite
8:48
to
8:49
eat
8:49
was
8:49
Del
8:49
Taco.
8:51
So
8:51
I
8:51
think
8:51
we
8:52
met
8:52
at
8:52
Del
8:52
Taco.
8:53
Yes,
8:53
we
8:53
did.
8:54
We
8:54
sat
8:54
down,
8:55
we
8:55
shared
8:55
a
8:55
meal.
8:56
She
8:56
shared
8:56
a
8:56
crinkly
8:57
cut
8:57
fry.
8:57
Yeah.
8:58
Crinkly
8:58
cut
8:58
fr.
9:00
No
9:00
one's
9:00
mad
9:00
at
9:00
that.
9:01
No.
9:01
Give
9:02
us
9:02
all
9:02
the
9:02
crinkly
9:02
cut
9:03
fries.
9:03
Yeah.
9:03
And
9:04
that's
9:04
how
9:04
we,
9:04
I
9:04
think,
9:05
fell
9:05
in
9:05
love.
9:05
Yeah.
9:06
That
9:06
was
9:06
it.
9:06
That
9:06
was
9:06
it.
9:06
That
9:07
sealed
9:07
the
9:07
deal.
9:07
Well,
9:08
that
9:08
and
9:08
your
9:08
cold
9:09
shoulder
9:09
top
9:09
with
9:09
the
9:09
cowboy
9:10
boots
9:10
and
9:11
the
9:11
clothes.
9:11
I
9:11
was
9:11
channeling
9:12
warrant.
9:12
She's
9:13
my
9:13
cherry
9:13
pie.
9:13
And
9:14
I'm
9:14
not
9:14
sure
9:14
that
9:15
everybody.
9:15
I
9:15
was
9:15
from
9:15
the
9:15
valley.
9:16
Roxie,
9:17
you
9:17
were
9:17
a
9:17
little
9:17
more
9:18
conservative
9:18
and
9:18
from
9:18
Dallas,
9:19
Texas,
9:19
and
9:19
trying
9:20
to
9:20
make
9:20
a
9:20
good
9:20
impression.
9:21
I
9:21
grew
9:21
up
9:21
in
9:21
the
9:22
Valley
9:22
and
9:22
I
9:23
was
9:23
in
9:24
my
9:24
hairband
9:25
phase.
9:25
Yes,
9:25
you
9:26
sure
9:26
were.
9:26
Meanwhile,
9:27
I
9:27
was
9:27
a
9:27
mormon
9:27
wife
9:27
in
9:28
my
9:28
culotte
9:28
shorts
9:29
and
9:29
blazer
9:29
on
9:29
top.
9:30
Yeah.
9:30
I
9:30
was
9:30
not.
9:31
It
9:31
was
9:31
not
9:31
it.
9:32
It
9:32
was
9:32
not
9:32
it.
9:33
I
9:33
couldn't
9:33
wait
9:33
to
9:33
shed
9:34
that
9:34
skin.
9:34
You
9:34
did
9:35
you
9:35
right.
9:36
Shed
9:36
it
9:36
fast.
9:37
You
9:37
did.
9:37
And
9:37
then
9:37
you
9:38
fought
9:38
me
9:38
for
9:38
my
9:39
Marquang
9:39
narc
9:39
pants
9:40
for
9:40
three
9:40
years.
9:41
The
9:41
mark
9:42
we
9:42
should.
9:42
You
9:43
did
9:43
look
9:43
better
9:43
in
9:43
them
9:43
than
9:44
I
9:44
did.
9:44
No,
9:44
because
9:45
you
9:45
had
9:45
those
9:45
little
9:45
twig
9:45
legs.
9:46
And
9:46
I
9:46
was
9:46
like,
9:47
you
9:47
know,
9:47
like
9:47
I
9:47
had
9:48
little.
9:48
Little
9:48
soccer
9:49
legs.
9:49
Weren't
9:50
very
9:50
long.
9:51
And
9:51
I
9:51
just.
9:51
I
9:52
needed
9:52
all
9:52
the
9:52
help
9:52
I
9:53
could
9:53
get.
9:53
Oh,
9:53
my
9:53
God.
9:54
But
9:54
look
9:54
at
9:54
you
9:54
now,
9:54
lady.
9:55
Look
9:55
at
9:55
you
9:55
now.
9:56
Yeah.
9:57
To
9:57
hell
9:57
with
9:58
you,
9:58
college
9:59
body.
9:59
We're
10:00
back
10:00
with
10:00
vengeance.
10:01
We're
10:02
back.
10:02
We're
10:02
back.
10:03
So
10:03
it
10:03
brings
10:04
up
10:04
an
10:04
interesting
10:05
point
10:05
because
10:06
we've
10:06
been
10:06
friends
10:06
all
10:06
these
10:07
years.
10:07
30
10:07
plus
10:08
years.
10:08
What
10:09
do
10:09
you
10:09
think
10:10
makes
10:10
a
10:10
friendship
10:11
sustain
10:12
as
10:12
women
10:13
are
10:13
growing
10:13
and
10:14
changing
10:15
and
10:15
in
10:16
These
10:16
like,
10:16
public,
10:17
very
10:17
public
10:17
kind
10:18
of
10:18
careers.
10:19
And
10:19
there's
10:19
a
10:19
lot
10:19
of
10:20
pressure.
10:20
Right.
10:21
So
10:21
what
10:21
do
10:21
you
10:22
think
10:22
sustains
10:22
a
10:22
friendship,
10:23
particularly
10:23
at
10:23
this
10:24
point
10:24
time
10:24
in
10:24
our
10:25
lives?
10:25
I
10:25
mean,
10:25
we
10:26
talk
10:26
about
10:26
this
10:26
all
10:26
the
10:27
time,
10:27
you
10:28
know,
10:28
when
10:29
I
10:29
don't
10:30
think
10:30
you
10:30
understand
10:32
what
10:32
friendship
10:33
is
10:33
necessarily
10:34
sustainable
10:35
until
10:35
you
10:35
live
10:35
it.
10:36
Right.
10:36
And
10:37
I
10:37
think
10:37
we
10:37
all
10:37
go
10:38
through
10:38
different
10:38
phases
10:38
in
10:39
our
10:39
lives.
10:39
And
10:40
our
10:40
group
10:40
of
10:40
best
10:41
friends,
10:41
for
10:41
example,
10:42
from
10:42
college,
10:42
all
10:43
sort
10:43
of
10:43
walked
10:43
a
10:43
different
10:44
path.
10:44
I
10:44
was
10:44
one
10:44
of
10:44
the
10:45
first
10:45
of
10:45
our
10:45
friends
10:45
to
10:46
have
10:46
children
10:47
and
10:47
everybody
10:48
was
10:48
incredibly
10:49
supportive
10:49
of
10:49
me
10:49
during
10:50
that
10:50
time.
10:50
And
10:50
then,
10:51
you
10:51
know,
10:51
as
10:51
I
10:52
started
10:52
to
10:52
phase
10:53
out
10:53
of
10:53
little
10:54
kids,
10:54
then
10:54
you
10:54
guys
10:55
started
10:55
to
10:56
have
10:56
little
10:56
kids
10:56
and
10:56
I
10:56
had
10:57
like
10:57
young
10:57
teenagers
10:58
and,
10:59
you
10:59
know,
10:59
preteens.
11:00
So
11:01
it
11:01
was,
11:02
you
11:02
know,
11:02
we
11:02
were
11:02
in
11:02
different
11:03
phases
11:03
of
11:03
our
11:04
lives,
11:04
which
11:04
arguably
11:05
means
11:06
I
11:06
don't
11:06
really
11:07
want
11:07
to
11:07
go
11:07
to
11:08
a,
11:08
you
11:09
know,
11:09
toddler
11:10
birthday
11:10
party
11:11
because
11:11
I'm
11:12
navigating
11:12
if
11:12
my
11:13
preteen
11:13
is
11:13
smoking
11:14
weed
11:14
after
11:15
school.
11:16
So
11:16
it
11:16
was
11:16
like
11:16
we
11:17
were
11:17
dealing
11:17
with
11:17
different
11:17
things.
11:18
And
11:19
I
11:19
think
11:20
you
11:20
start
11:20
to
11:20
recognize
11:21
that
11:22
your
11:22
friends
11:22
either
11:23
understand
11:24
the
11:24
space
11:25
that
11:25
you're
11:25
in
11:25
during
11:26
the
11:26
time
11:26
that
11:26
you're
11:27
in
11:27
it,
11:28
vice
11:28
versa,
11:28
and
11:29
you
11:29
respect
11:29
that.
11:30
But
11:30
you
11:30
can
11:30
still
11:30
kind
11:30
of
11:31
come
11:31
together
11:31
and
11:32
you
11:32
pick
11:32
up
11:32
where
11:32
you
11:33
left
11:33
off.
11:33
I
11:33
don't
11:34
think
11:34
there's
11:34
anything
11:35
more
11:36
telling
11:37
that
11:37
when
11:37
I
11:38
pick
11:38
up
11:38
the
11:38
phone
11:38
and
11:38
I
11:39
speak
11:39
to
11:39
you,
11:39
if
11:39
we
11:39
don't
11:40
speak
11:40
for
11:40
five
11:40
or
11:41
six
11:41
weeks,
11:42
I'm
11:42
traveling
11:42
for
11:43
work,
11:43
you're
11:43
traveling
11:44
with
11:44
David,
11:44
whatever
11:45
that
11:45
may
11:45
be,
11:46
and
11:47
we
11:47
pick
11:47
up
11:47
the
11:47
phone
11:47
and
11:47
we
11:48
pick
11:48
up
11:48
exactly
11:48
where
11:48
we
11:49
left
11:49
off.
11:49
And,
11:50
you
11:50
know,
11:50
you
11:50
called
11:51
me
11:51
the
11:51
other
11:51
day
11:51
and
11:52
opened
11:52
your
11:52
heart
11:53
to
11:53
me.
11:53
We
11:53
hadn't
11:54
spoken
11:54
in
11:54
three
11:54
weeks
11:55
and,
11:55
you
11:55
know,
11:56
it
11:56
was
11:56
just
11:56
easy.
11:57
And
11:58
that
11:58
to
11:58
me
11:59
sort
11:59
of
11:59
defines
12:02
that
12:02
moment
12:03
in
12:03
time
12:03
where
12:03
you
12:03
realize
12:04
that
12:04
friendship
12:05
that
12:05
you've
12:06
had
12:06
for
12:06
30
12:07
years
12:08
is
12:08
going
12:08
to
12:08
be
12:09
a
12:09
friendship
12:09
for
12:09
life.
12:10
We're
12:10
not
12:10
always
12:10
gonna
12:11
be
12:11
on
12:11
the
12:11
same
12:11
page.
12:12
We're
12:12
not.
12:12
We
12:12
don't
12:13
need
12:13
to
12:13
talk
12:13
every
12:14
single
12:14
day
12:14
or
12:15
send
12:15
each
12:15
other
12:15
memes
12:15
100
12:16
times
12:16
a
12:16
day.
12:17
I
12:17
have
12:17
friends
12:17
that
12:17
are
12:18
very
12:18
much
12:18
in
12:19
my
12:19
day
12:19
to
12:19
day
12:20
life
12:20
right
12:20
now
12:20
that
12:20
are
12:21
living
12:21
exactly
12:22
where
12:22
I
12:23
am
12:23
right
12:23
now.
12:23
And
12:24
so
12:24
being
12:24
around
12:25
those
12:25
women
12:26
who
12:26
are
12:26
in
12:26
the
12:26
space
12:27
that
12:27
I'm
12:27
in
12:27
are
12:28
important
12:28
to
12:28
me
12:28
in
12:29
my
12:29
daily
12:29
existence.
12:30
But
12:30
that
12:31
doesn't
12:31
mean
12:31
that
12:32
I
12:32
don't
12:32
treasure,
12:33
respect,
12:34
admire
12:34
and
12:34
adore
12:35
my
12:36
friendship
12:36
with
12:37
you
12:37
for
12:37
30
12:37
plus
12:38
years.
12:38
It's
12:38
just
12:38
different.
12:39
And
12:39
I
12:39
can
12:39
call
12:39
you
12:39
any
12:40
time
12:40
of
12:40
night.
12:40
If
12:40
I
12:40
called
12:41
you
12:41
and
12:41
was
12:41
like,
12:42
yo,
12:43
I'm
12:43
gonna
12:43
need
12:44
you
12:44
to
12:44
come
12:44
pick
12:44
me
12:44
up.
12:46
And
12:46
you'd
12:47
be
12:47
like,
12:47
do
12:47
I
12:47
have
12:47
to
12:47
start.
12:48
Like,
12:48
do
12:49
I
12:49
have
12:49
to
12:49
start
12:49
crying?
12:49
Like,
12:50
what?
12:50
You
12:50
know,
12:50
you'd
12:51
be
12:51
like,
12:51
whatever
12:51
I
12:51
have
12:51
to
12:51
do.
12:52
And
12:52
I
12:52
know
12:53
that
12:53
that
12:53
would
12:53
happen,
12:53
and
12:54
vice
12:54
versa.
12:55
And
12:55
it's
12:55
just.
12:55
You
12:55
either
12:56
have
12:56
that
12:56
with
12:56
certain
12:56
people,
12:57
or
12:58
it's
12:58
very
12:59
finite
12:59
for
12:59
them,
13:00
and
13:00
there's
13:00
expectations,
13:02
and
13:02
I
13:02
think
13:02
you
13:03
can't
13:03
have
13:03
that
13:03
when
13:04
you
13:04
get
13:04
to
13:04
a
13:04
certain
13:05
place
13:05
in
13:05
your
13:05
life.
13:05
We
13:05
have
13:06
too
13:06
many
13:06
responsibilities
13:07
as
13:07
career
13:07
women,
13:08
as
13:08
mothers,
13:09
as
13:10
wives,
13:10
as
13:10
girlfriends,
13:11
as
13:12
sisters,
13:12
brothers,
13:13
daughters.
13:14
Like,
13:14
things
13:15
are
13:15
complicated
13:16
when
13:16
you're
13:16
in
13:17
your
13:17
40s
13:17
and
13:18
you
13:18
start
13:18
to
13:18
have
13:19
to
13:19
do
13:19
a
13:19
lot
13:19
of
13:19
things
13:19
that
13:20
you
13:20
never
13:20
expected.
13:21
And
13:21
that
13:21
has
13:21
to
13:21
come
13:22
first.
13:22
Yeah,
13:23
no,
13:23
absolutely.
13:24
So
13:24
looking
13:24
back,
13:24
like,
13:25
let's
13:25
say
13:25
10,
13:26
20
13:26
years
13:26
ago,
13:27
what
13:28
are
13:28
some
13:28
of
13:28
the
13:28
things
13:28
that
13:29
you
13:29
think
13:29
you
13:29
put
13:29
up
13:29
with
13:30
back
13:30
then
13:30
with
13:30
friends
13:31
that
13:31
you
13:31
would
13:31
not
13:32
put
13:32
up
13:32
with
13:32
today?
13:33
I
13:33
think
13:33
I
13:34
used
13:34
to
13:34
live
13:34
in
13:34
the
13:34
space
13:35
where
13:35
I
13:35
was
13:35
really
13:36
uncomfortable
13:36
with
13:37
confrontation,
13:38
and
13:38
it
13:38
used
13:39
to
13:39
give
13:39
me
13:39
anxiety.
13:40
Wait,
13:40
meaning
13:41
somebody
13:41
confronting
13:42
you
13:42
or
13:42
you
13:42
vice
13:43
versa.
13:43
Like,
13:44
whether.
13:44
Whether
13:45
I
13:45
felt
13:45
that
13:45
I
13:46
had
13:46
maybe
13:46
done
13:46
something
13:47
wrong
13:47
and.
13:49
And
13:49
it
13:49
was
13:49
gonna
13:49
be
13:50
blown
13:50
up
13:50
into
13:50
something
13:51
that
13:51
if
13:51
I
13:52
didn't
13:52
confront
13:52
it
13:52
and
13:53
apologize,
13:53
it
13:54
was
13:54
gonna
13:54
be
13:54
something
13:54
that
13:55
would
13:55
become
13:55
much
13:55
bigger
13:56
or,
13:56
you
13:57
know,
13:57
the
13:57
opposite,
13:58
where
13:58
maybe
13:58
they
13:59
had
13:59
done
13:59
something
13:59
to
13:59
me
13:59
and
14:00
I
14:00
had
14:00
to,
14:00
like,
14:01
tell
14:01
them
14:01
that
14:01
my
14:01
feelings
14:02
were
14:02
hurt
14:02
and
14:04
I
14:04
didn't
14:05
want
14:05
to
14:05
have
14:05
any
14:05
sort
14:06
of
14:06
unsettling
14:06
disconnect
14:08
in
14:08
my
14:08
life
14:08
at
14:09
the
14:09
time.
14:10
I
14:10
have
14:11
since,
14:11
obviously,
14:13
taken
14:13
on
14:13
a
14:14
new
14:14
era
14:15
called
14:15
the
14:16
IDGAF
14:17
era,
14:19
where,
14:19
you
14:20
know,
14:20
the
14:20
women
14:20
that
14:20
I
14:21
want
14:21
in
14:21
my
14:21
life
14:21
now
14:22
and
14:22
the
14:22
women
14:22
that
14:22
are
14:23
currently
14:23
in
14:23
my
14:23
life
14:24
are
14:24
women
14:24
that
14:24
are
14:24
ride
14:25
or
14:25
dies.
14:26
And
14:26
we're
14:27
all
14:27
gonna
14:27
make
14:27
mistakes
14:28
along
14:28
the
14:28
way.
14:28
We're
14:29
all
14:29
gonna
14:29
need,
14:29
you
14:30
know,
14:30
to
14:30
be
14:30
picked
14:30
up.
14:30
We're
14:31
all
14:31
gonna
14:31
need
14:31
to
14:31
be
14:31
let
14:32
off
14:32
the
14:32
hook
14:32
every
14:33
once
14:33
in
14:33
a
14:33
while
14:34
because
14:35
we
14:35
have
14:35
history
14:36
and
14:36
we
14:36
have
14:36
understanding
14:37
and
14:37
we
14:37
have
14:38
compassion
14:38
for
14:38
each
14:38
other
14:39
and
14:39
what
14:39
we're
14:39
going
14:39
through.
14:40
And
14:40
so
14:41
for
14:41
me,
14:41
like,
14:42
20
14:42
years
14:42
ago,
14:43
that
14:44
was
14:44
a
14:44
time
14:44
and
14:44
place
14:45
where
14:45
everything
14:46
felt
14:46
so
14:47
important.
14:48
Every
14:48
mistake
14:49
I
14:49
made,
14:49
every
14:50
mistake
14:50
a
14:50
friend
14:51
made
14:52
that
14:52
affected
14:53
me,
14:53
like,
14:54
that
14:54
is
14:55
what,
14:55
like,
14:56
I
14:56
would
14:56
walk
14:56
with
14:57
and
14:57
carry
14:57
on
14:57
my
14:57
shoulders
14:58
every
14:58
single
14:58
day.
14:59
I
14:59
do
14:59
my.
14:59
My
15:00
absolute
15:00
best
15:01
not
15:01
to
15:01
carry
15:01
that
15:02
weight
15:02
anymore.
15:03
And
15:03
it's
15:03
incredibly
15:04
freeing.
15:04
I'm
15:04
not
15:04
going
15:04
to
15:05
say
15:05
that,
15:05
you
15:06
know,
15:06
I
15:06
haven't
15:07
made
15:07
mistakes
15:07
in
15:07
relationships
15:08
or
15:08
friendships
15:08
in
15:09
my
15:09
life,
15:09
but.
15:10
And
15:10
or
15:11
my
15:11
friends
15:11
may
15:12
have
15:12
made
15:12
mistakes,
15:12
you
15:13
know,
15:13
as
15:13
far
15:14
as
15:14
how
15:14
we
15:14
relate
15:15
to
15:15
one
15:15
another,
15:16
but
15:16
I
15:16
don't
15:16
carry
15:17
the
15:17
burden
15:17
of
15:18
that
15:18
affecting
15:19
it
15:19
and
15:19
it
15:19
being
15:20
so
15:20
life
15:20
or
15:20
death.
15:21
That's
15:21
something
15:21
that
15:22
I
15:22
walk
15:22
my
15:22
daughter
15:22
through.
15:23
Juliet,
15:23
right
15:24
now.
15:24
You
15:24
know,
15:25
like
15:25
everything
15:25
with
15:26
your
15:26
friends
15:26
when
15:26
you're,
15:27
you
15:27
know,
15:27
a
15:27
teenager
15:28
maybe
15:28
all
15:29
the
15:29
way
15:29
up
15:29
through
15:29
the
15:30
time
15:30
that
15:30
you're
15:30
married
15:30
and
15:31
having
15:31
kids
15:31
in
15:32
that,
15:32
in
15:32
that
15:32
phase,
15:33
which
15:33
is
15:33
really
15:33
roughly
15:34
15
15:34
years,
15:35
your
15:35
friends
15:35
are
15:36
your
15:37
family.
15:37
Right.
15:38
And.
15:38
And
15:38
when
15:39
something
15:39
falls
15:40
out,
15:41
it's
15:42
like
15:42
life
15:42
altering.
15:45
And
15:45
I
15:45
just
15:45
don't
15:45
feel
15:45
that
15:46
way
15:46
anymore.
15:46
That's
15:47
good.
15:47
So.
15:48
Because
15:48
friendships
15:49
change
15:49
and
15:50
people
15:50
evolve.
15:51
Some
15:51
people
15:51
don't
15:52
evolve.
15:52
Like,
15:53
how
15:54
do
15:54
you
15:54
deal
15:54
with
15:54
that?
15:55
When
15:55
you
15:55
see
15:55
somebody
15:56
maybe
15:56
that's
15:56
you've
15:56
been
15:57
friends
15:57
with
15:57
for
15:57
a
15:57
long
15:57
time
15:58
and
15:58
you
15:58
don't
15:58
see
15:58
them
15:58
changing
15:59
or
15:59
you're
15:59
not
16:00
really
16:00
in
16:00
line
16:01
anymore.
16:01
Like,
16:02
how
16:02
do
16:02
you.
16:02
I'm
16:03
okay
16:03
with
16:03
that.
16:03
You're
16:04
okay
16:04
with.
16:04
I
16:04
don't
16:05
think
16:05
that
16:05
there,
16:05
there's
16:05
a
16:06
conversation
16:06
that
16:06
has
16:06
to
16:07
be
16:07
had
16:07
necess
16:08
if
16:08
you're
16:08
not
16:08
aligned
16:09
anymore.
16:09
I
16:10
think.
16:10
I
16:10
don't
16:10
wanna
16:10
say
16:10
the
16:11
trash
16:11
takes
16:11
itself
16:11
out
16:12
because
16:14
that's
16:14
a
16:14
little
16:15
harsh,
16:15
but
16:16
I
16:16
feel
16:16
like
16:17
you
16:17
just
16:18
begin
16:18
to
16:19
sort
16:20
of
16:20
go
16:20
a
16:20
different
16:20
direction.
16:21
And
16:22
that
16:22
doesn't
16:22
mean
16:22
you
16:23
can't
16:23
come
16:23
back
16:23
together.
16:23
That
16:24
doesn't
16:24
mean
16:24
you
16:24
don't
16:25
have
16:25
to
16:25
have
16:25
respect
16:25
for
16:25
each
16:26
other,
16:26
understand
16:26
each
16:27
other,
16:27
see
16:27
each
16:27
other,
16:27
and
16:28
have
16:28
sort
16:28
of
16:29
a
16:29
mutual
16:29
respect
16:30
and
16:30
admiration
16:31
for
16:31
the
16:31
history
16:31
of
16:32
your
16:32
friendship.
16:32
I
16:33
just
16:33
think,
16:34
you
16:34
know,
16:34
you
16:34
just
16:34
move.
16:35
You
16:35
move
16:35
in
16:35
a
16:36
different
16:36
direction
16:36
and
16:37
it
16:37
doesn't.
16:37
There
16:37
doesn't
16:38
need
16:38
to
16:38
be
16:38
a
16:38
conversation
16:39
about
16:39
that.
16:39
You
16:39
just
16:40
recognize
16:40
that
16:40
you're
16:40
not
16:41
on.
16:41
You're
16:41
not
16:41
aligned
16:42
anymore
16:42
the
16:42
way
16:42
that
16:42
you
16:43
used
16:43
to
16:43
be.
16:44
And,
16:44
you
16:45
know,
16:45
therefore
16:46
you're
16:46
going
16:47
the
16:47
way
16:47
that
16:48
that
16:48
suits
16:48
you.
16:48
That's
16:49
right
16:49
for
16:49
you.
16:49
Yeah.
16:50
We've
16:50
had
16:50
a
16:50
lot
16:50
of
16:50
changes
16:51
in
16:51
our
16:51
friend
16:51
group,
16:51
you
16:52
know,
16:52
and
16:52
it's
16:52
like
16:53
we've
16:53
kind
16:53
of
16:53
had
16:53
to
16:54
navigate
16:54
that.
16:54
And
16:54
you're
16:55
right.
16:55
Sometimes
16:55
you
16:55
just
16:55
don't
16:56
talk
16:56
to
16:56
people
16:56
anymore.
16:57
Sometimes
16:58
they
16:58
come
16:58
back
16:59
in
16:59
at
16:59
a
16:59
different
16:59
time.
17:00
Right.
17:00
Maybe
17:00
they're
17:01
going
17:01
through
17:01
shit,
17:01
you
17:02
know,
17:02
I
17:02
mean,
17:02
who
17:02
knows?
17:03
I
17:03
still
17:03
go
17:03
back
17:04
to
17:04
like
17:04
our
17:05
friend
17:05
group
17:05
that
17:06
obviously
17:06
has
17:06
been.
17:07
Has
17:07
been
17:07
close
17:07
for
17:08
a
17:08
long
17:08
time.
17:08
Some
17:09
closer
17:09
than
17:09
others.
17:10
And,
17:10
you
17:10
know,
17:10
the
17:10
six
17:11
of
17:11
us
17:11
or
17:11
five
17:11
of
17:11
us
17:12
that
17:12
have
17:12
known
17:13
each
17:13
other
17:13
since,
17:13
you
17:14
know,
17:14
we
17:14
were
17:14
18,
17:15
but
17:15
I
17:16
still
17:16
feel
17:17
even
17:17
with
17:17
some
17:18
of
17:18
the
17:18
friendships
17:18
in
17:18
our,
17:19
our
17:19
little
17:20
group,
17:20
that
17:20
maybe
17:21
I'm
17:21
not
17:21
As
17:21
close
17:21
to,
17:22
as,
17:22
you
17:22
know,
17:23
for
17:23
example,
17:23
you
17:24
and
17:24
Kristin.
17:25
I
17:25
still
17:26
feel
17:26
like
17:27
if
17:27
push
17:28
came
17:28
to
17:28
shove
17:29
and
17:29
if
17:29
there
17:30
was
17:30
something
17:30
that
17:31
I
17:31
could
17:31
provide,
17:32
I'd
17:32
be
17:32
there
17:33
in
17:33
a
17:33
heartbeat.
17:33
All
17:33
she
17:33
has
17:34
to
17:34
do
17:34
is
17:34
pick
17:34
up
17:34
the
17:34
phone
17:34
and
17:35
ask,
17:35
and
17:35
vice
17:36
versa.
17:37
Just
17:38
because
17:38
we
17:38
are
17:38
not
17:39
necessarily
17:39
aligned
17:40
in
17:41
our
17:41
values
17:42
and
17:43
our
17:43
day
17:43
to
17:43
day
17:44
and
17:44
how
17:45
we
17:45
see
17:45
life
17:46
right
17:46
now
17:46
and
17:47
where
17:47
we
17:47
are
17:47
in
17:48
life
17:48
doesn't
17:49
mean
17:49
that
17:49
there
17:49
won't
17:49
be
17:50
a
17:50
moment
17:51
down
17:51
the
17:51
road
17:52
where
17:53
those,
17:54
those
17:54
paths
17:54
could
17:54
sort
17:55
of
17:55
align
17:55
again.
17:56
And
17:56
so
17:57
I
17:57
always,
17:57
like,
17:58
try
17:58
to
17:58
put
17:58
one
17:58
foot
17:58
in
17:59
front
17:59
of
17:59
the
17:59
other
17:59
and
17:59
be
17:59
positive
18:00
about
18:00
it.
18:00
And,
18:01
you
18:01
know,
18:02
who
18:02
knows?
18:03
Yeah,
18:03
for
18:03
sure.
18:03
And
18:04
you
18:04
know,
18:04
the
18:04
world
18:04
loves
18:05
to
18:05
pit
18:05
powerful
18:06
women
18:06
against
18:06
each
18:07
other,
18:07
you
18:07
know.
18:07
Oh,
18:07
yeah,
18:08
Each
18:08
person.
18:09
But
18:09
what
18:09
do
18:09
you
18:10
think
18:10
is
18:10
the
18:10
best
18:11
way
18:11
for
18:11
friendships
18:11
to
18:12
thrive
18:13
in
18:13
like,
18:13
a
18:14
pressure
18:14
situation
18:14
or
18:15
in
18:15
a
18:15
world
18:15
like
18:15
that?
18:16
I
18:16
think
18:16
you
18:17
have
18:17
different
18:17
friends
18:17
for,
18:18
for
18:18
different
18:19
reasons.
18:19
Like,
18:20
I,
18:20
you
18:20
know,
18:20
I've
18:21
heard
18:21
this
18:21
a
18:21
few
18:21
different
18:22
times
18:22
where
18:23
it's
18:23
like,
18:23
you
18:24
have
18:24
to,
18:25
like
18:25
a
18:25
few
18:25
different
18:26
types
18:26
of
18:26
friends.
18:26
You
18:27
have
18:27
to
18:27
have
18:27
the
18:27
one
18:28
that
18:28
is
18:29
like,
18:29
ride
18:30
or
18:30
die,
18:31
that
18:31
you
18:31
could
18:31
pick
18:31
up
18:32
the
18:32
phone
18:32
call
18:32
at
18:33
any
18:33
hour
18:33
of
18:33
the
18:33
night
18:34
and
18:34
be
18:34
like,
18:34
I
18:34
need
18:35
you
18:35
to
18:35
bail
18:35
me
18:36
out
18:36
of
18:36
jail.
18:36
I
18:36
need
18:37
you
18:37
to
18:37
pick
18:37
me
18:37
up.
18:37
I'm
18:37
in
18:38
a
18:38
really
18:38
shitty
18:39
situation
18:40
with
18:40
a
18:40
relationship
18:41
that
18:41
I'm
18:41
in,
18:42
like,
18:42
and
18:42
it's
18:43
like,
18:44
pin
18:44
your
18:44
location.
18:45
I'll
18:45
be
18:45
there
18:45
in
18:46
10.
18:46
You
18:47
have
18:47
to
18:47
have
18:47
that
18:48
person,
18:48
right?
18:49
Then
18:49
you
18:49
have
18:49
to
18:49
have
18:50
like,
18:50
your
18:50
truth
18:50
teller
18:51
that's
18:51
gonna
18:52
sit
18:52
across
18:52
from
18:52
you
18:52
and
18:53
tell
18:53
you
18:53
the
18:53
things
18:53
you
18:54
don't
18:54
necessarily
18:54
want
18:55
to
18:55
hear
18:56
when
18:56
you
18:56
know
18:56
you
18:56
need
18:56
to
18:57
hear
18:57
it.
18:57
And
18:58
everybody
18:58
else
18:58
is
18:59
saying,
18:59
I
18:59
love
18:59
you,
19:00
I
19:00
support
19:00
you.
19:01
You
19:01
do
19:01
You.
19:02
You
19:02
know,
19:03
I
19:03
think
19:03
you
19:03
have
19:03
to
19:04
have
19:04
that
19:04
person
19:04
that's
19:04
willing
19:05
to
19:05
kind
19:05
of
19:05
shoot
19:05
you
19:05
straight
19:06
and
19:06
say,
19:06
I
19:06
think
19:06
you're
19:06
on
19:07
a
19:07
path
19:07
that
19:07
isn't
19:08
necessarily
19:08
gonna
19:09
serve
19:09
you.
19:10
And
19:11
I
19:11
think
19:11
that
19:11
friend,
19:11
that
19:12
type
19:12
of
19:12
friend
19:12
is
19:12
important.
19:13
And
19:13
then
19:13
I
19:14
think
19:14
you
19:14
have
19:14
to
19:14
have
19:14
the
19:15
friend
19:15
that
19:15
like,
19:16
brings
19:16
absolute
19:17
and
19:17
utter
19:19
joy,
19:19
laughter,
19:20
and
19:21
fun
19:21
into
19:22
your
19:22
life
19:23
at
19:23
this
19:23
phase.
19:25
That's
19:25
what
19:25
I
19:25
want.
19:26
Like,
19:27
I
19:27
want
19:27
those
19:27
three
19:28
things
19:29
to
19:29
make
19:30
sure
19:30
that
19:30
A,
19:30
I
19:30
don't
19:30
fall
19:31
off
19:31
track,
19:32
B,
19:32
that
19:32
I
19:33
always
19:33
have
19:33
someone
19:33
that
19:34
has
19:34
my
19:34
back
19:35
in,
19:35
in
19:35
my
19:35
darkest
19:36
days.
19:36
And
19:36
C,
19:37
someone
19:37
that
19:37
is
19:37
going
19:38
to
19:38
be
19:39
there
19:39
and
19:39
like,
19:39
you
19:40
know,
19:40
when
19:40
I'm
19:41
having
19:41
like
19:41
a
19:41
terrible
19:42
few
19:42
months
19:42
at
19:43
work
19:43
and
19:44
nothing
19:44
seems
19:44
to
19:44
be
19:45
coming
19:45
together,
19:45
they're
19:45
there
19:46
to
19:46
like,
19:47
just
19:47
make
19:47
me
19:47
laugh.
19:48
Pour
19:48
me
19:48
a
19:48
tequila,
19:49
sit
19:49
across
19:49
from
19:50
me
19:50
and
19:50
just
19:51
let
19:51
loose.
19:51
I
19:51
mean,
19:52
that's
19:52
what
19:52
girlfriends
19:52
are
19:52
all
19:53
about.
19:53
It's
19:54
so
19:54
important.
19:54
It's
19:54
so
19:54
important
19:55
at
19:55
this
19:55
stage
19:56
in
19:56
our
19:56
lives,
19:56
too,
19:57
to
19:57
have
19:57
that,
19:57
you
19:58
know,
19:58
community
19:59
is
19:59
everything.
20:00
I
20:00
mean,
20:00
the
20:01
suicide
20:01
rates
20:01
of
20:02
women
20:02
in
20:02
midlife
20:02
go
20:03
up
20:03
significantly
20:04
because
20:04
people
20:05
feel
20:05
alone,
20:05
you
20:06
know,
20:06
and
20:06
they
20:06
feel
20:07
like
20:07
they're
20:07
struggling.
20:08
So
20:08
what
20:09
do
20:09
you
20:09
want
20:09
people
20:10
to
20:10
know,
20:11
especially
20:11
midlife
20:12
women,
20:12
about
20:13
friendships
20:13
at
20:14
this
20:14
stage?
20:15
In
20:15
your
20:15
40s?
20:16
I
20:16
feel
20:16
like,
20:17
you
20:17
know,
20:17
you
20:17
have
20:18
to
20:18
ask.
20:19
You
20:20
know,
20:20
we're
20:20
not
20:22
18
20:22
anymore,
20:23
guys.
20:23
Like,
20:23
we're
20:24
not
20:24
in
20:24
the
20:24
space
20:25
where
20:26
our
20:26
friendships
20:27
are
20:27
the
20:27
center
20:27
of
20:28
our
20:28
universe.
20:29
Right.
20:29
I
20:29
mean,
20:30
for
20:30
me,
20:31
being
20:31
single,
20:32
my
20:32
friendships
20:32
are
20:32
incredibly
20:33
important
20:33
to
20:34
me
20:34
right
20:34
now,
20:34
and
20:34
I
20:35
lean
20:35
on
20:35
the
20:35
women
20:35
and
20:36
men
20:36
around
20:36
me
20:36
that
20:37
I
20:37
adore
20:37
and
20:38
treasure.
20:38
But
20:39
for
20:39
most
20:39
women
20:40
in
20:40
their
20:40
40s,
20:40
but
20:41
they
20:41
have
20:41
very
20:41
big
20:42
lives,
20:42
whether
20:42
it
20:42
be
20:42
career,
20:43
family,
20:43
et
20:43
cetera.
20:44
And
20:45
if
20:45
you
20:46
want
20:46
to
20:47
maintain
20:47
friendships,
20:48
don't
20:49
expect
20:49
that
20:49
we're
20:50
all
20:50
sitting
20:50
around
20:52
analyzing
20:54
what
20:54
your
20:54
feelings
20:55
might
20:55
be
20:55
behind
20:55
the
20:56
scenes.
20:57
You
20:57
have
20:57
to
20:57
pick
20:57
up
20:57
the
20:58
phone
20:58
and
20:58
you
20:58
have
20:58
to
20:59
say,
20:59
I
21:00
feel
21:00
like
21:01
shit
21:01
today,
21:02
and
21:02
I
21:03
need
21:03
my
21:03
ride
21:04
or
21:04
die.
21:04
Or
21:05
I
21:05
need.
21:06
I
21:06
need
21:06
Tracy
21:07
to
21:07
come
21:07
and
21:07
make
21:07
me
21:08
laugh.
21:08
Or
21:08
I
21:09
need
21:09
you
21:09
to
21:09
bail
21:10
me
21:10
out
21:10
of
21:10
jail.
21:10
Whatever
21:11
that
21:11
is,
21:11
you
21:12
need
21:12
to
21:12
be
21:12
able
21:12
to
21:13
say
21:13
it.
21:13
And
21:13
I
21:14
don't
21:14
think
21:14
women
21:14
say
21:15
it,
21:15
say
21:15
it
21:15
enough.
21:16
I
21:16
think
21:16
there's
21:16
an
21:16
expectation
21:18
that
21:18
if
21:18
you
21:18
don't
21:18
show
21:19
up
21:19
for
21:19
that
21:19
person
21:20
every
21:20
week
21:21
and
21:21
you're
21:21
not
21:21
texting
21:22
them
21:22
every
21:22
day
21:22
and
21:22
having
21:23
dinner
21:23
with
21:23
them
21:23
every
21:23
week,
21:24
that
21:24
you
21:24
don't
21:24
care.
21:24
And
21:25
the
21:25
reality
21:25
is,
21:26
when
21:26
you're
21:26
in
21:26
your
21:26
40s
21:27
and
21:27
you
21:27
have
21:27
kids
21:27
to
21:27
take
21:27
care
21:28
of,
21:28
a
21:28
job
21:28
to
21:28
deal
21:28
with,
21:29
a
21:29
husband
21:30
to
21:30
navigate
21:30
or
21:30
a
21:30
boyfriend
21:31
or
21:31
a
21:31
wife
21:32
or
21:32
whatever
21:32
that
21:33
looks
21:33
like,
21:34
you're
21:35
not
21:35
necessarily
21:36
giving
21:36
perspective
21:37
to
21:38
your
21:38
female
21:38
friendships
21:39
around
21:40
you.
21:40
So
21:40
you
21:40
need
21:41
help,
21:42
pick
21:42
up
21:42
the
21:42
phone
21:42
and
21:42
ask
21:42
for
21:43
it.
21:43
That's
21:43
the
21:43
first
21:44
step.
21:44
And
21:44
so
21:44
many
21:44
people
21:44
don't
21:45
do
21:45
that.
21:46
They
21:46
just
21:46
feel
21:46
sorry
21:46
for
21:47
themselves
21:47
and
21:47
they.
21:48
No
21:48
one
21:48
cares
21:49
about
21:49
me
21:49
anymore.
21:49
You're
21:50
not
21:50
there
21:50
for
21:50
me
21:50
anymore.
21:51
And
21:51
I
21:51
just
21:51
think
21:51
that's
21:52
the
21:52
wrong
21:52
dialogue
21:52
to
21:53
be
21:53
having.
21:53
If
21:53
you
21:53
don't
21:54
ask
21:54
for
21:54
help,
21:54
you're
21:54
never.
21:55
If
21:55
you
21:55
ask
21:55
for
21:55
help
21:56
and
21:56
you
21:56
don't
21:56
get
21:56
it,
21:57
now
21:57
that's
21:58
telling,
21:58
right?
21:59
That's
21:59
a
21:59
problem.
21:59
Yes.
22:00
Yeah.
22:00
You
22:00
have
22:01
to
22:01
put
22:01
the
22:01
first
22:01
step
22:01
out
22:01
there,
22:02
and
22:02
you
22:02
have
22:02
to
22:02
do
22:02
it.
22:02
Say,
22:03
I
22:03
need
22:03
help.
22:04
I'm
22:04
vulnerable
22:04
right
22:05
now
22:05
like
22:06
you
22:06
did
22:06
with
22:06
me
22:06
a
22:07
few
22:07
weeks
22:07
ago,
22:07
and
22:07
I
22:07
was
22:07
like,
22:08
all
22:08
bets
22:09
are
22:09
off.
22:10
Like,
22:10
I
22:10
got
22:10
in
22:11
my
22:11
car
22:11
and
22:11
we
22:11
spoke
22:11
for
22:12
30
22:12
minutes
22:12
and
22:13
we
22:13
navigated
22:14
our
22:14
way
22:14
through
22:14
it.
22:14
But
22:14
it's
22:15
only
22:15
because
22:15
you
22:16
asked
22:16
me
22:16
that
22:16
I
22:17
had
22:17
any
22:18
concept
22:18
about
22:19
what
22:19
you
22:19
were
22:20
feeling
22:20
and
22:20
where
22:20
you
22:20
were.
22:21
Otherwise,
22:21
how
22:21
would
22:21
I
22:22
have
22:22
known?
22:22
How
22:22
would
22:22
you
22:22
have
22:22
known?
22:22
You
22:23
wouldn't
22:23
have
22:23
known.
22:23
You
22:23
can't
22:24
guess.
22:24
You
22:24
know,
22:25
I
22:25
mean,
22:25
it's
22:25
imperative.
22:26
So
22:27
what
22:27
would
22:27
you
22:27
say
22:27
to
22:28
women
22:28
who
22:28
feel
22:29
like
22:29
they
22:29
don't
22:29
have
22:29
anyone
22:30
at
22:30
this
22:31
stage?
22:31
Like,
22:32
is
22:32
there
22:32
a
22:32
way?
22:33
Like,
22:33
maybe
22:33
through
22:33
community
22:34
outreach,
22:35
like,
22:35
how
22:35
do
22:36
women
22:36
get
22:36
a
22:37
good
22:37
group
22:37
of
22:37
girlfriends,
22:38
especially
22:39
now?
22:39
I
22:39
say
22:40
this
22:40
all
22:40
the
22:40
time,
22:40
but
22:41
I
22:41
feel
22:41
like
22:41
you,
22:42
your
22:43
sense
22:43
of
22:43
self
22:43
and
22:44
who
22:44
you
22:44
are
22:44
enters
22:45
the
22:45
room
22:45
before
22:45
you
22:45
even
22:46
speak.
22:47
So
22:48
if
22:48
you
22:48
want
22:49
female
22:50
friends
22:50
around
22:51
you,
22:52
be
22:52
aware
22:52
of
22:53
how
22:53
you're
22:53
putting
22:53
yourself
22:54
out
22:54
there
22:54
to
22:54
women.
22:55
You
22:55
know,
22:56
I'm
22:56
always,
22:56
I've
22:57
always
22:57
been
22:57
a
22:58
big
22:58
cheerleader
22:58
for
22:59
women.
22:59
I
22:59
don't
23:00
believe
23:00
in
23:00
competition.
23:01
I
23:01
believe
23:02
in
23:02
celebrating
23:02
each
23:02
other's
23:03
successes
23:04
and,
23:04
and,
23:04
you
23:05
know,
23:05
navigating
23:06
this
23:06
crazy
23:06
path
23:08
called
23:09
your
23:09
40s.
23:11
And,
23:12
you
23:12
know,
23:12
there's
23:12
going
23:12
to
23:12
be
23:12
ups
23:13
and
23:13
downs
23:13
for
23:13
all
23:13
of
23:13
us.
23:13
But
23:14
if
23:14
you
23:14
want
23:14
to
23:15
have
23:15
female
23:16
friends
23:16
and
23:16
you
23:16
don't
23:16
feel
23:17
like
23:17
you're
23:17
on
23:17
that
23:17
path
23:18
or
23:18
you
23:18
don't
23:19
feel
23:19
like
23:19
you
23:19
have
23:19
anyone,
23:20
put
23:20
yourself
23:20
in
23:20
scenarios
23:21
where
23:22
you
23:22
are
23:23
positive,
23:23
vulnerable,
23:24
all
23:25
of
23:25
the
23:25
things
23:25
I
23:25
don't
23:25
think
23:26
you
23:26
know.
23:26
When
23:26
you
23:26
walk
23:27
into
23:27
a
23:27
room
23:27
and
23:27
meet
23:27
a
23:28
new
23:28
group
23:28
of
23:28
women,
23:28
you
23:28
dump
23:29
your
23:29
shit
23:30
all
23:30
over
23:31
them.
23:31
I
23:32
feel
23:32
like
23:32
you
23:32
put
23:33
yourself
23:33
out
23:33
there
23:33
as
23:34
someone
23:34
who
23:35
is
23:36
positive,
23:37
energetic,
23:39
someone
23:39
that
23:39
is
23:40
interesting
23:40
and
23:41
dynamic
23:41
to
23:41
be
23:42
around
23:42
and
23:42
someone
23:43
that's
23:43
vulnerable.
23:44
And
23:44
you'd
23:45
be
23:45
surprised
23:46
at
23:46
how
23:46
many
23:47
friends
23:47
I've
23:47
made
23:48
that
23:49
are
23:49
in
23:49
the
23:49
same
23:49
space
23:50
as
23:51
I
23:51
am.
23:51
Because
23:51
really,
23:52
all
23:52
of
23:52
my
23:52
best
23:52
friends
23:53
are
23:53
still
23:53
married
23:54
or
23:55
have
23:55
very
23:55
young
23:55
kids.
23:58
And
23:59
so
23:59
I
24:00
had
24:00
to
24:00
kind
24:00
of
24:00
make
24:01
the
24:01
unilateral
24:02
decision
24:02
to
24:02
put
24:03
myself
24:04
in
24:04
a
24:05
space
24:05
where
24:05
I
24:05
was
24:05
meeting
24:06
women
24:06
that
24:07
were
24:07
in
24:07
the
24:07
same
24:07
space
24:08
and
24:08
time
24:08
that
24:08
I
24:09
was.
24:10
And
24:10
I
24:10
have
24:11
done
24:11
that.
24:11
And
24:11
it's
24:12
been
24:12
incredibly
24:12
rewarding.
24:13
It
24:13
doesn't
24:13
take
24:13
away
24:13
from
24:14
my
24:14
old
24:14
friendships,
24:14
but
24:15
it
24:15
has
24:15
allowed
24:16
me
24:16
to
24:16
make,
24:17
you
24:17
know,
24:17
brand
24:18
spanking
24:19
new
24:19
female
24:20
friends
24:20
that
24:20
I
24:20
treasure
24:21
just
24:21
as
24:21
much
24:22
as
24:22
I
24:22
treasure
24:22
my
24:23
30
24:23
year
24:23
friendships.
24:24
Nope.
24:24
We
24:24
win.
24:25
Yeah,
24:26
I
24:26
knew
24:26
that
24:26
was
24:27
gonna
24:27
happen.
24:28
Nope,
24:29
nope.
24:29
See
24:30
it
24:30
later.
24:31
The
24:31
30
24:32
pluses.
24:33
She
24:33
bitch
24:33
gets
24:34
jealous.
24:34
This
24:34
bitch
24:35
is
24:35
so
24:35
jealous.
24:36
I'm
24:36
like,
24:36
mm,
24:36
mm.
24:37
We
24:37
get
24:37
first
24:38
place.
24:39
I
24:40
know.
24:40
If
24:40
you
24:40
could
24:40
stick
24:41
your
24:41
tongue
24:41
down
24:41
my
24:41
throat
24:42
in
24:42
a
24:42
room
24:42
full
24:42
of
24:42
women,
24:43
you
24:43
would.
24:43
Tracy,
24:44
we
24:44
Will
24:44
get
24:44
married
24:45
one
24:45
day.
24:47
I'll
24:47
leave
24:47
David.
24:48
We'll
24:48
run
24:48
away
24:48
together.
24:48
You
24:49
know
24:49
how
24:49
this
24:49
story
24:49
ends.
24:50
There
24:50
is
24:50
a
24:50
commune
24:51
on
24:51
the
24:51
horizon.
24:51
I
24:51
do
24:52
feel
24:52
it
24:52
coming.
24:52
Okay,
24:53
so
24:53
you
24:53
do
24:53
think
24:54
there
24:54
is
24:54
a
24:54
way
24:54
for
24:55
women
24:55
to
24:55
have
24:55
close
24:56
friendships
24:56
without
24:57
the
24:57
jealousy,
24:58
without,
24:58
like,
24:58
the
24:58
competition?
24:59
Hell,
25:00
yeah.
25:00
I
25:01
absolutely
25:02
think.
25:02
And
25:02
I
25:02
talk
25:03
about
25:03
this
25:03
all
25:03
the
25:03
time
25:04
on
25:04
my
25:04
platform.
25:05
I
25:05
do
25:05
not
25:06
believe
25:06
in.
25:08
In
25:08
women
25:08
tearing
25:09
each
25:09
other
25:09
down.
25:09
I.
25:09
I
25:10
will
25:10
continue
25:10
to
25:11
put
25:11
content
25:11
out
25:11
there
25:12
that
25:12
challenges
25:12
women
25:13
to
25:13
reciprocate
25:15
with
25:16
admiration,
25:17
adoration,
25:19
like,
25:20
celebration
25:21
for
25:21
other
25:21
women,
25:22
no
25:23
matter
25:23
what
25:24
they're
25:24
putting
25:24
out
25:24
there,
25:25
rather
25:25
than,
25:26
well,
25:26
you
25:26
should
25:26
be
25:27
doing
25:27
it
25:27
this
25:27
way.
25:28
You
25:28
need
25:28
to
25:28
eat
25:29
more.
25:29
You
25:29
need
25:29
to,
25:30
like,
25:30
work
25:30
less.
25:31
You
25:31
need
25:31
to
25:31
find
25:31
a
25:32
man
25:32
that's
25:32
your
25:32
age.
25:32
Well,
25:33
no,
25:33
I
25:33
don't,
25:33
actually.
25:34
And
25:35
the
25:35
more
25:35
you
25:35
say
25:36
it,
25:36
the
25:37
more
25:37
I
25:37
want
25:37
to
25:38
put
25:38
content
25:38
out
25:39
there.
25:39
That
25:39
absolutely
25:40
dispels
25:40
that.
25:40
And
25:41
what
25:41
I've
25:41
found
25:42
in
25:42
the
25:43
last
25:43
few
25:43
years
25:44
is
25:44
by
25:44
not
25:46
curbing
25:48
who
25:48
I
25:48
am
25:49
and
25:49
what
25:50
I
25:50
stand
25:50
for
25:50
and
25:50
what
25:50
I've
25:51
always
25:51
stood
25:51
for,
25:53
more
25:53
and
25:53
more
25:53
women
25:54
are
25:54
celebrating
25:55
that,
25:55
at
25:55
least
25:56
the
25:56
following
25:56
that
25:57
I
25:57
have.
25:57
And
25:58
I
25:58
think,
25:58
you
25:59
know,
25:59
like,
26:00
we're
26:00
breaking
26:00
those
26:00
sort
26:01
of
26:01
boundaries
26:02
and
26:02
sort
26:02
of
26:03
challenging
26:03
women
26:03
with
26:04
a
26:04
little
26:04
bit
26:04
of
26:04
an
26:04
older
26:05
mindset,
26:07
particularly
26:07
surrounding
26:08
women
26:08
in
26:08
business,
26:09
how
26:09
we
26:09
dress,
26:10
how
26:10
we
26:10
present
26:10
ourselves,
26:11
how
26:11
we
26:12
choose
26:12
to
26:12
live
26:12
our
26:12
lives
26:13
after
26:13
divorce,
26:14
or
26:15
being
26:15
single
26:16
moms
26:16
in
26:16
our
26:17
40s,
26:17
whatever
26:17
that
26:18
looks
26:18
like.
26:19
I
26:20
think
26:20
more
26:20
and
26:20
more
26:21
women
26:21
are
26:21
wrapping
26:22
their
26:22
heads
26:22
around
26:22
reframing
26:23
their
26:23
mindset
26:26
about
26:26
what
26:26
we
26:27
should
26:27
be
26:27
doing,
26:28
how
26:28
we
26:28
should
26:28
be
26:28
celebrating
26:29
each
26:29
other,
26:29
versus
26:30
saying,
26:30
you're
26:31
doing
26:31
it
26:31
wrong.
26:32
You
26:32
should
26:32
be
26:32
doing
26:33
it
26:33
this
26:33
way.
26:34
And
26:34
that's
26:34
why
26:34
I
26:34
think
26:34
social
26:35
media
26:35
is
26:35
such
26:35
a
26:35
great
26:36
platform
26:36
for
26:36
that,
26:36
because
26:37
it's,
26:37
you
26:37
know,
26:38
a
26:38
world
26:38
full
26:38
of
26:38
free
26:39
speech.
26:40
I
26:40
mean,
26:40
the
26:42
little
26:42
freer
26:43
than
26:43
I
26:43
would
26:43
sometimes
26:43
like,
26:44
but,
26:44
you
26:45
know,
26:45
I
26:45
can
26:46
take
26:46
it,
26:46
right?
26:46
Like,
26:47
good
26:47
and
26:47
bad.
26:48
You're
26:48
a
26:48
good,
26:49
but
26:49
you've
26:49
always
26:49
been
26:50
like
26:50
that,
26:50
Trey.
26:50
You've
26:51
always
26:51
been
26:51
able
26:51
to,
26:52
like,
26:52
kind
26:52
of
26:52
deal
26:52
with,
26:53
like,
26:53
what
26:54
people
26:54
say,
26:54
what
26:54
they
26:55
do,
26:55
because
26:55
it
26:55
doesn't
26:56
change
26:56
who
26:56
you
26:57
are.
26:57
You
26:57
still
26:58
do
26:58
what
26:58
you
26:58
do.
26:59
I
26:59
think,
26:59
because
27:00
I
27:01
make
27:01
zero
27:02
apologies
27:03
for
27:03
where
27:03
I
27:03
am
27:04
in
27:04
my
27:04
life,
27:05
and
27:05
I've
27:06
shared
27:06
a
27:06
lot
27:06
of
27:06
what
27:07
I've
27:07
been
27:07
through.
27:07
Not
27:08
everything.
27:08
Not
27:08
everybody
27:09
knows
27:09
every
27:09
intimate
27:10
detail
27:10
about
27:11
my
27:11
personal
27:11
life,
27:12
but
27:13
on
27:13
the
27:13
whole,
27:13
I've
27:14
been
27:14
pretty
27:14
organic,
27:15
and
27:17
I
27:17
maintain
27:18
my
27:18
truth
27:19
on
27:20
my
27:20
social
27:20
platform.
27:21
And
27:21
I
27:21
think
27:21
because
27:22
of
27:22
that,
27:23
I
27:23
don't
27:24
have
27:24
any
27:26
problem
27:27
with,
27:28
you
27:28
know,
27:29
don't
27:29
get
27:29
me
27:29
Wrong.
27:29
Every
27:29
once
27:30
in
27:30
a
27:30
while,
27:30
someone
27:30
will
27:30
say
27:31
something
27:31
like,
27:31
as
27:32
it
27:32
relates
27:32
to
27:32
me
27:32
being
27:32
a
27:33
mother
27:33
or
27:33
my
27:33
children
27:34
or
27:34
something
27:34
like
27:34
that,
27:35
and
27:35
that
27:35
will
27:35
really
27:35
rub
27:35
me
27:36
the
27:36
wrong
27:36
way.
27:36
But
27:36
I
27:36
reset
27:37
and
27:37
I
27:38
remind
27:38
myself.
27:39
The
27:39
82
27:40
women
27:40
that
27:40
came
27:40
to
27:41
my
27:41
defense
27:42
against
27:42
the
27:42
one
27:43
woman
27:43
that
27:44
challenged
27:44
me
27:45
is
27:45
something
27:45
that
27:47
I
27:47
think
27:47
is
27:47
much
27:47
more
27:48
powerful.
27:48
And
27:48
I
27:48
think
27:49
women
27:49
sort
27:49
of
27:49
supporting
27:50
each
27:50
other
27:52
in
27:52
that
27:52
way
27:53
is
27:53
growing,
27:54
and
27:54
I
27:54
think
27:55
it
27:55
takes
27:55
a
27:55
little
27:55
bit
27:55
of
27:56
time.
27:56
And
27:56
I
27:56
think
27:56
we're
27:56
still
27:57
on
27:57
the
27:57
path,
27:57
but
28:00
I
28:00
think
28:01
we
28:01
need
28:01
to
28:01
be
28:02
our
28:02
biggest
28:02
cheerleaders.
28:03
It's
28:03
not
28:03
really
28:04
about
28:04
men.
28:05
Right.
28:05
It
28:05
really
28:05
is
28:06
about
28:06
women.
28:06
And
28:06
that's
28:07
the
28:07
interesting
28:07
thing
28:07
is
28:08
a
28:08
lot
28:08
of
28:08
times
28:08
those
28:08
negative
28:09
comments
28:09
come
28:09
from
28:09
other
28:10
women,
28:10
which
28:10
is
28:10
actually
28:11
surprising
28:12
to
28:12
me.
28:12
I
28:12
mean,
28:12
more
28:13
often
28:13
than
28:13
not,
28:13
I
28:13
talk
28:13
about
28:14
this
28:14
all
28:14
the
28:14
time.
28:15
Again,
28:16
you
28:16
know,
28:17
when
28:17
you
28:17
really
28:18
start
28:18
to
28:18
analyze.
28:18
I
28:19
think
28:19
for
28:19
a
28:19
long
28:20
time,
28:20
my
28:20
following
28:21
was
28:21
predominantly
28:22
women,
28:23
and
28:23
more
28:24
so
28:24
recently,
28:25
it's
28:26
changed
28:26
into
28:26
sort
28:27
of
28:27
a
28:27
50.
28:27
50,
28:28
but,
28:28
well,
28:29
look
28:29
at
28:29
you,
28:29
girl.
28:29
You're
28:30
looking
28:30
hot.
28:32
But
28:32
I
28:32
think
28:33
the
28:34
dynamic
28:34
of
28:34
having
28:35
a
28:35
largely
28:35
female
28:36
following,
28:36
ranging
28:37
from
28:37
really
28:38
like
28:39
18
28:39
to,
28:40
like,
28:40
50
28:41
most.
28:42
My
28:42
biggest
28:43
following
28:43
being
28:43
between
28:44
35
28:44
and
28:44
44.
28:47
These
28:48
women
28:48
are
28:50
kind
28:50
of.
28:51
It's
28:51
kind
28:51
of
28:51
crazy.
28:53
I
28:53
think
28:54
the
28:54
younger
28:54
generations
28:55
of
28:55
women
28:55
that
28:56
follow
28:56
me
28:56
are
28:56
incredibly
28:57
supportive.
28:57
I
28:58
think
28:58
the
28:58
older
28:58
generations
28:59
struggle
28:59
with
29:00
sort
29:01
of
29:01
breaking
29:01
the
29:01
dynamics
29:03
of,
29:04
you
29:04
know,
29:05
generationally
29:05
speaking,
29:06
how
29:06
they
29:06
were
29:07
told
29:07
to
29:08
be
29:08
women,
29:09
shut
29:09
up,
29:10
look
29:10
cute,
29:11
say
29:11
nothing,
29:12
or
29:12
if
29:12
you're
29:12
gonna
29:13
be
29:13
a
29:13
professional,
29:13
be
29:14
professional,
29:14
wear
29:15
a
29:15
suit.
29:15
And
29:16
I
29:16
don't
29:16
define
29:17
any
29:17
of
29:17
those
29:18
things
29:19
on
29:19
any
29:19
level.
29:20
I
29:20
sort
29:20
of
29:21
buck
29:21
the
29:21
system
29:21
everywhere
29:22
I
29:22
can.
29:22
And
29:23
I'll
29:23
continue
29:23
to
29:23
have
29:23
that
29:24
conversation
29:24
until
29:25
I
29:26
see
29:26
that
29:26
there
29:26
is
29:26
not
29:27
a
29:27
comment,
29:28
that
29:28
there
29:28
is
29:29
not
29:29
a
29:29
hater.
29:30
I
29:30
just
29:30
think
29:30
it's
29:31
important.
29:31
Well,
29:32
and
29:32
I
29:32
think
29:32
for
29:32
you,
29:32
too,
29:33
especially
29:33
with
29:33
the
29:33
clothing
29:34
comment,
29:34
I
29:34
saw
29:34
what
29:35
that
29:35
guy
29:35
said
29:35
about,
29:35
like.
29:36
Oh,
29:36
yeah,
29:36
yeah.
29:37
How
29:37
the.
29:37
How
29:37
women
29:38
in
29:38
real
29:38
estate
29:38
should
29:39
be
29:39
dressing
29:39
and
29:40
not
29:40
wearing
29:40
this,
29:40
not
29:41
wearing
29:41
that.
29:41
But
29:42
I
29:42
think
29:42
for
29:42
you,
29:42
too,
29:43
I
29:43
mean,
29:43
you
29:43
are
29:43
a
29:44
fashion
29:44
lover.
29:44
It
29:44
goes
29:45
deep.
29:45
It's
29:45
your
29:45
way
29:46
of
29:46
expressing
29:46
yourself.
29:47
Yeah.
29:48
So,
29:48
I
29:48
mean,
29:48
it's
29:48
almost
29:49
like
29:49
it's.
29:49
It's
29:50
almost
29:50
like
29:50
knocking
29:50
a
29:51
piece
29:51
of,
29:51
like,
29:51
who
29:51
you
29:52
are,
29:52
too,
29:53
just
29:53
internally,
29:54
like,
29:54
naturally.
29:55
Absolutely.
29:56
And
29:56
for
29:57
me,
29:57
I
29:57
don't
29:58
equate
29:59
what
29:59
I
30:00
wear
30:01
with
30:01
the
30:01
success
30:02
that
30:02
I
30:02
have.
30:03
I
30:03
saw
30:04
something
30:04
the
30:04
other
30:04
day
30:05
of
30:06
this
30:06
guy
30:07
on
30:08
Instagram
30:08
talking
30:09
about.
30:10
Actually
30:10
it
30:11
was
30:11
a
30:11
woman
30:11
that
30:12
was
30:12
interviewing
30:14
several
30:14
different
30:14
male
30:15
CEOs
30:16
and
30:17
asking
30:17
them
30:18
questions
30:19
about,
30:20
like,
30:21
You've
30:21
got
30:21
to
30:21
pull
30:21
it
30:21
up.
30:22
Asking
30:22
them
30:22
questions
30:24
that
30:24
women
30:24
that
30:25
she
30:25
had
30:25
interviewed
30:26
had
30:26
been
30:26
asked
30:27
in
30:27
the
30:28
workplace.
30:29
Questions
30:29
like,
30:30
do
30:30
you
30:30
typically
30:32
wear
30:32
outfits
30:33
like
30:33
that
30:33
when
30:33
you
30:33
come
30:33
to
30:34
work?
30:34
And
30:34
they're
30:34
sitting
30:34
in
30:35
an
30:35
interview
30:35
chair
30:35
in
30:36
like
30:36
a
30:36
polo
30:36
shirt
30:36
and
30:37
jeans
30:37
and
30:37
tennis
30:37
shoes.
30:38
And
30:39
you
30:39
start
30:39
to
30:39
see
30:40
as
30:40
they're
30:40
getting
30:40
asked
30:41
these
30:41
questions,
30:41
and
30:41
these
30:42
are
30:42
all
30:42
questions
30:43
being
30:43
asked
30:43
by
30:44
a
30:44
woman
30:45
that
30:46
has
30:46
interviewed
30:47
females
30:48
in
30:48
the
30:48
workplace
30:49
in
30:49
powerful
30:50
positions.
30:51
And
30:51
questions
30:52
they've
30:52
been
30:52
asked
30:52
since
30:53
they've
30:53
been
30:53
in
30:54
the
30:54
workplace.
30:55
And
30:56
you'd
30:56
be
30:57
shocked
30:57
at
30:57
the
30:58
responses
30:58
from
30:58
like,
30:59
they
30:59
interviewed
30:59
like
31:00
four
31:00
or
31:00
five
31:01
different
31:01
male
31:02
CEOs
31:02
from
31:02
like
31:03
different
31:03
tech
31:03
companies,
31:04
et
31:04
cetera,
31:04
like
31:05
major
31:05
players.
31:06
And
31:06
it
31:06
was
31:06
really
31:07
interesting,
31:08
A,
31:08
their
31:08
answers,
31:09
B,
31:10
how
31:10
uncomfortable
31:11
they
31:11
were
31:13
being
31:13
asked
31:13
those
31:14
questions,
31:15
which,
31:15
you
31:15
know,
31:15
we're
31:16
accustomed
31:16
to
31:16
on
31:16
a
31:17
daily
31:17
basis.
31:17
And
31:18
then
31:18
finally
31:19
the
31:19
way
31:19
she
31:19
ended
31:20
the
31:20
interview
31:21
was
31:21
they
31:22
started
31:22
talking
31:22
like,
31:24
if
31:25
my
31:25
daughter
31:25
ever
31:26
had
31:26
to
31:26
like,
31:27
experience
31:27
questions
31:28
like
31:28
that,
31:28
I
31:28
just
31:29
don't
31:29
like,
31:29
it
31:30
makes
31:30
me
31:30
incredibly
31:31
uncomfortable.
31:31
And
31:31
like,
31:32
the.
31:32
How
31:33
they.
31:33
And
31:34
they
31:34
weren't
31:34
like
31:34
narcissists,
31:36
like
31:36
masochists.
31:38
You
31:38
know,
31:39
all
31:39
the
31:39
kiss.
31:40
All
31:40
the
31:40
kiss.
31:41
They
31:41
were
31:41
actually
31:42
like
31:42
decent
31:43
men
31:44
that
31:44
were
31:44
just
31:45
put
31:45
in
31:45
a
31:45
position
31:45
to
31:46
answer
31:46
questions
31:46
that
31:46
we
31:46
as
31:47
women
31:47
typically
31:47
would
31:48
have
31:48
to
31:48
answer
31:49
in
31:49
a
31:49
professional
31:49
setting,
31:50
particularly
31:51
at
31:51
the
31:51
highest
31:52
level.
31:53
And
31:53
it
31:53
was
31:54
incredibly
31:56
fascinating
31:57
to
31:57
watch
31:58
their
31:58
responses
31:59
and
31:59
how
32:00
they
32:00
ultimately
32:00
reacted.
32:01
I'll
32:01
send
32:01
it
32:01
to
32:01
you.
32:02
Yes,
32:02
send
32:02
it
32:02
to
32:02
me.
32:03
It
32:03
definitely
32:04
speaks
32:04
to
32:04
like,
32:05
I
32:05
think
32:05
what
32:05
we
32:05
have
32:06
to
32:06
deal
32:06
with
32:06
and
32:07
the
32:07
things
32:07
that
32:07
we
32:07
have
32:08
to
32:08
navigate,
32:08
particularly
32:09
in
32:09
our
32:09
40s
32:10
as
32:10
we
32:10
become
32:10
more
32:10
successful
32:11
and
32:11
women
32:11
in
32:11
their
32:12
50s
32:12
and
32:13
sort
32:13
of
32:13
coming
32:14
up
32:14
that
32:14
ladder
32:15
of
32:16
entrepreneurial
32:16
growth,
32:17
success,
32:18
transformation
32:19
in
32:19
our,
32:19
in
32:19
our
32:19
businesses.
32:20
And
32:20
I
32:21
just,
32:21
these
32:21
men
32:21
just
32:21
were.
32:22
Like,
32:23
I
32:23
mean,
32:23
to
32:23
walk
32:23
in
32:23
our
32:24
shoes
32:24
for
32:24
a
32:24
day,
32:24
like
32:25
at
32:25
the.
32:25
Office,
32:25
they
32:26
can,
32:26
they
32:26
can't
32:26
walk
32:26
in
32:27
our
32:27
shoes
32:27
for
32:27
a
32:27
day.
32:28
That's
32:28
number
32:28
one.
32:28
Because
32:29
they
32:29
would
32:29
die
32:29
in
32:29
heels.
32:29
No,
32:30
like,
32:30
can
32:30
you
32:30
even
32:31
imagine.
32:31
Yeah,
32:31
like,
32:32
do
32:32
what
32:32
I
32:32
do
32:32
in
32:33
the
32:33
outfit
32:33
I'm
32:33
wearing
32:34
and
32:34
then
32:34
you
32:34
can
32:34
sit
32:34
across
32:35
from
32:35
me
32:35
and
32:35
talk
32:35
shit.
32:37
So,
32:37
you
32:37
know,
32:37
because
32:38
you
32:38
do
32:38
share
32:39
your
32:39
opinions
32:39
freely,
32:40
you're
32:40
very
32:40
opinionated,
32:40
which
32:41
is
32:41
amazing.
32:42
Do
32:42
you
32:43
ever
32:43
worry,
32:43
especially
32:44
like
32:44
in
32:44
a
32:44
male
32:45
dominated
32:45
field
32:46
that
32:46
it
32:46
gets
32:47
taken
32:47
the
32:48
wrong
32:48
way
32:48
or,
32:49
you
32:49
know,
32:49
they
32:49
might
32:50
hold
32:50
it
32:50
against
32:50
you
32:50
or
32:51
it's
32:51
like,
32:51
you
32:51
know,
32:52
all
32:52
ego,
32:53
this,
32:53
that
32:53
whatever
32:54
the
32:54
negative,
32:55
you
32:55
know,
32:56
connotation
32:56
of
32:57
it
32:57
is,
32:57
is
32:58
that
32:58
something
32:58
that
32:58
crosses
32:59
your
32:59
mind
32:59
ever?
32:59
Because
32:59
you're
33:00
always,
33:00
you've
33:00
always
33:01
been
33:01
opinionated.
33:02
I
33:02
mean,
33:02
I
33:02
Never
33:02
have
33:03
seen
33:03
a
33:03
different
33:04
side
33:04
of
33:04
you,
33:05
you
33:05
know,
33:05
but
33:06
does
33:06
that
33:06
ever,
33:06
does
33:06
that
33:07
ever
33:07
like,
33:07
cross
33:07
your
33:08
mind?
33:08
Especially
33:08
in
33:08
like
33:09
a
33:09
workplace
33:09
sort
33:10
of
33:10
setting?
33:10
No,
33:11
not
33:11
anymore.
33:12
That's
33:13
great.
33:13
Maybe
33:13
in
33:13
my
33:13
early
33:14
days.
33:15
I've
33:15
been
33:15
doing
33:16
what
33:16
I've
33:16
been
33:16
doing
33:17
for
33:17
almost
33:18
25
33:18
years.
33:19
I've
33:20
been
33:20
through
33:20
hell
33:20
and
33:21
back.
33:21
I
33:21
experienced
33:22
loss,
33:23
failure,
33:24
success,
33:24
failure
33:25
again.
33:25
I've
33:26
fallen
33:26
on
33:26
my
33:26
face,
33:27
I've
33:27
gotten
33:27
back
33:27
up.
33:27
Like
33:28
at
33:28
this
33:28
point,
33:29
some
33:30
dude
33:31
or
33:31
female
33:32
sitting
33:32
across
33:33
from
33:33
me
33:33
that
33:33
has
33:34
judgment
33:34
for
33:34
me,
33:35
I,
33:37
I
33:37
really
33:37
don't
33:37
give
33:38
a
33:38
shit.
33:38
Candidly,
33:39
I'm
33:39
doing
33:40
me,
33:40
I'm
33:41
on
33:41
my
33:41
path.
33:42
Either
33:42
be
33:43
by
33:43
my
33:43
side
33:43
or
33:43
get
33:43
out
33:43
of
33:44
my
33:44
fucking
33:44
way.
33:45
You
33:45
know
33:45
what
33:45
I
33:45
mean?
33:45
Yeah,
33:46
for
33:46
sure.
33:48
So
33:48
back
33:48
to
33:48
dating.
33:51
Well,
33:51
this
33:52
will
33:52
be
33:52
the
33:52
fun
33:52
part.
33:53
Done
33:54
with
33:54
the
33:54
serious
33:54
shit.
33:57
So.
33:57
Okay.
33:58
Do
33:58
you.
33:58
Because
33:59
obviously
33:59
you're
33:59
a
33:59
high
34:00
powered
34:00
woman,
34:00
you've
34:01
got
34:01
a
34:01
lot
34:01
going
34:01
on.
34:03
Do
34:03
you
34:03
think
34:03
that
34:03
that
34:04
intimidates
34:05
men
34:05
or
34:05
is
34:05
it
34:06
that
34:06
they
34:06
were
34:06
just
34:06
never
34:07
ready
34:07
to
34:07
date
34:08
somebody
34:09
like
34:09
you?
34:09
You
34:10
know,
34:10
I
34:10
have
34:11
so
34:11
many
34:11
opinions.
34:12
And
34:12
I'm
34:13
not
34:13
sure,
34:13
like,
34:13
it
34:14
depends
34:14
on
34:14
the
34:14
day.
34:16
I
34:17
was
34:17
set
34:17
up
34:17
with
34:18
someone
34:18
that
34:19
was
34:19
age
34:20
appropriate.
34:22
This
34:22
fucking
34:23
makes
34:23
me
34:23
laugh
34:23
so
34:23
hard.
34:25
Like
34:25
last
34:26
week.
34:27
Well,
34:27
you
34:27
haven't
34:27
even
34:28
told
34:28
me
34:28
this,
34:28
so
34:28
tell
34:28
me
34:28
what
34:29
happened.
34:29
I
34:29
mean,
34:29
nothing,
34:30
Nothing
34:30
happened.
34:30
Like,
34:31
whatever.
34:31
Like
34:32
handsome,
34:33
like
34:34
fit,
34:36
moderately
34:37
successful,
34:40
charming.
34:41
I
34:42
checked
34:43
a
34:43
few
34:43
boxes,
34:43
I
34:44
was
34:44
like,
34:44
okay,
34:44
this
34:45
is
34:45
like
34:45
lovely.
34:46
Like
34:46
divorced,
34:47
already
34:48
had
34:48
a
34:48
kid.
34:49
And
34:49
I'm
34:50
like,
34:50
oh,
34:50
wow.
34:50
Like,
34:50
I
34:51
don't
34:51
have
34:51
to
34:51
deal
34:51
with
34:52
like
34:52
navigating
34:53
that,
34:53
you
34:53
know,
34:54
whatever.
34:54
Okay,
34:54
this
34:54
is,
34:55
we'll
34:55
see
34:55
how
34:56
it
34:56
goes.
34:57
And
34:57
you
34:58
know,
34:58
again,
34:58
it's
34:59
another
34:59
case
34:59
of
35:00
like
35:00
the
35:00
male
35:01
ego
35:01
after
35:02
their
35:02
first
35:02
marriage
35:03
or
35:03
maybe
35:03
their
35:03
second
35:04
getting
35:04
out
35:04
of
35:04
a
35:04
relationship.
35:05
And
35:05
this
35:05
is,
35:06
this
35:06
is
35:06
very
35:06
specific
35:07
to
35:07
like,
35:07
I
35:08
think
35:08
major
35:08
cities
35:10
like
35:11
la,
35:11
New
35:11
York,
35:12
Miami.
35:13
Like,
35:13
did
35:13
he
35:14
work
35:14
in
35:14
entertainment?
35:15
No.
35:15
Okay,
35:16
that's
35:16
kind
35:16
of
35:16
nice.
35:17
But
35:18
wanting
35:19
to
35:19
date
35:20
someone
35:21
between
35:22
30
35:22
and
35:22
35.
35:24
And
35:25
I'm
35:26
like,
35:27
I
35:28
mean
35:28
a,
35:28
you're
35:29
not
35:29
rich
35:29
enough.
35:31
So
35:31
let's
35:31
start
35:32
there.
35:33
You
35:33
live
35:33
in
35:33
West
35:33
Hollywood.
35:34
Calm
35:34
down.
35:35
No,
35:35
but
35:37
it's
35:37
fascinating
35:38
to
35:38
me
35:39
because
35:39
like,
35:39
I,
35:40
you
35:40
know,
35:40
at
35:40
the
35:41
same
35:41
time
35:41
he's
35:42
saying
35:42
all
35:42
of
35:42
these
35:43
things,
35:43
like,
35:43
I
35:43
really
35:43
think
35:44
that
35:44
like,
35:45
I
35:45
like
35:45
should
35:46
date
35:46
someone
35:46
between
35:46
30
35:47
and
35:47
35.
35:47
And
35:48
you're
35:48
44
35:49
or
35:49
45
35:50
or
35:50
whatever
35:51
he
35:51
was.
35:53
But
35:53
I
35:53
want
35:54
to
35:54
make
35:54
sure
35:55
that
35:56
they
35:57
also
35:57
have
35:57
drive,
35:58
ambition,
35:59
success.
36:00
I
36:00
don't
36:01
want
36:01
a
36:01
woman
36:02
who
36:02
hasn't.
36:02
And
36:02
I'm
36:03
sitting
36:03
across
36:03
from
36:03
him
36:04
going,
36:05
you
36:06
have
36:06
no
36:06
Fucking
36:06
clue
36:07
what
36:07
you
36:07
want.
36:08
You're
36:08
just
36:08
caught
36:09
in
36:09
the
36:10
rat
36:10
race
36:10
of
36:11
feeding
36:11
your
36:12
male
36:12
ego
36:13
and
36:15
landing
36:15
something
36:16
as
36:16
a
36:16
trophy
36:17
versus
36:18
having
36:19
an
36:19
equal
36:19
partner.
36:20
And
36:20
so
36:20
that
36:20
was
36:21
like
36:21
a
36:21
massive
36:22
turnoff
36:22
to
36:22
me.
36:23
I've
36:23
experienced
36:23
that
36:24
more
36:24
times
36:24
than
36:24
I
36:24
can
36:25
count.
36:25
And
36:25
people
36:25
always
36:26
wonder
36:26
or
36:26
ask
36:27
why
36:27
I
36:28
date
36:28
younger.
36:29
And
36:29
it's
36:29
because
36:29
I
36:30
think
36:30
actually
36:30
the
36:31
younger
36:31
men
36:31
that
36:32
I
36:32
have
36:33
dated
36:34
have
36:34
had
36:34
more
36:35
respect
36:37
for
36:37
my
36:37
career,
36:38
what
36:39
I
36:39
do
36:41
and
36:41
candidly
36:42
look
36:42
better.
36:43
And
36:44
I'm
36:44
already
36:44
financially
36:45
independent.
36:45
I
36:46
don't
36:46
need
36:46
a
36:46
man
36:46
to
36:47
take
36:47
care
36:47
of
36:47
me.
36:48
I
36:48
would
36:48
love
36:48
someone
36:49
to
36:49
be
36:50
like
36:50
a
36:50
partner
36:51
and
36:51
take
36:51
care
36:51
of
36:51
me
36:53
and
36:53
be
36:53
an
36:54
equal.
36:54
Would
36:55
it
36:55
be
36:55
nice
36:56
if
36:56
they
36:56
were
36:56
on
36:56
my
36:57
financial
36:57
level?
36:58
Sure.
36:59
But
36:59
more
36:59
importantly,
37:00
if
37:00
they
37:00
can
37:00
deliver
37:01
me
37:01
emotional
37:01
security,
37:03
make
37:03
me
37:04
feel
37:04
safe,
37:04
make
37:05
me
37:05
feel
37:05
protected,
37:05
that's
37:06
far
37:06
more
37:06
interesting
37:07
to
37:07
me.
37:07
And
37:07
most
37:08
of
37:08
the
37:08
time,
37:08
the
37:08
men
37:09
that
37:09
I
37:09
meet
37:09
in
37:09
la,
37:10
particularly
37:11
in
37:11
like
37:11
Beverly,
37:12
like
37:12
this
37:12
town,
37:13
I
37:14
was
37:14
just
37:14
at
37:14
El
37:14
Pastayo
37:15
and
37:15
I
37:15
was
37:15
like,
37:15
there
37:15
was
37:15
a
37:16
table
37:16
full
37:16
of
37:16
men
37:16
and
37:17
I
37:17
got
37:17
up
37:17
to
37:17
go
37:17
to
37:17
the
37:17
bathroom
37:18
and
37:18
my
37:18
mom
37:18
was
37:19
like,
37:19
they
37:19
were
37:19
all
37:19
talking
37:20
about,
37:20
you
37:20
know,
37:20
I'm
37:20
like,
37:21
they
37:21
are
37:21
like
37:21
a
37:21
waste
37:22
of
37:22
space,
37:22
these
37:22
men,
37:23
all
37:23
of
37:23
them
37:23
with
37:24
their
37:24
fancy
37:24
watches
37:25
and
37:25
their
37:25
fancy
37:25
cars
37:26
and
37:27
it's
37:27
all
37:27
very
37:27
like
37:28
showy.
37:28
They
37:28
have
37:29
zero
37:29
substance,
37:31
you
37:31
know.
37:31
Yeah.
37:32
And
37:32
they're
37:32
all
37:32
carbon
37:33
copies
37:33
of
37:33
each
37:33
other.
37:34
And
37:34
by
37:34
the
37:34
way,
37:34
they
37:35
couldn't
37:35
sit
37:35
across
37:36
a
37:36
table
37:37
from
37:37
me
37:38
and
37:38
have
37:38
like
37:38
in
37:39
a
37:39
meaningful
37:39
organic
37:40
conversation
37:40
because
37:41
they're
37:41
so
37:41
used
37:41
to
37:41
dating
37:42
like
37:43
someone
37:43
who's
37:44
just
37:44
kind
37:44
of
37:44
like
37:45
figuring
37:45
their
37:45
lives
37:45
out.
37:46
And
37:46
God
37:46
bless
37:46
these
37:47
girls
37:47
that
37:47
are
37:47
like
37:48
coming
37:48
up
37:48
and
37:49
you
37:49
know,
37:49
getting
37:50
pursued
37:50
by
37:51
men
37:51
that
37:51
are
37:52
in
37:52
their
37:52
40s
37:52
and
37:53
50s
37:53
and
37:53
they're
37:54
28
37:54
to
37:54
32.
37:58
They're
37:58
probably
37:58
at
37:59
the
37:59
same
38:00
emotional
38:00
maturity.
38:01
Right.
38:01
So
38:01
that
38:02
tracks.
38:02
Yeah.
38:03
Like,
38:03
it's
38:04
true.
38:04
It's
38:04
true.
38:05
Because.
38:05
But
38:05
then
38:06
again,
38:06
I
38:06
don't
38:07
want
38:07
to
38:07
date
38:08
someone
38:08
who's
38:08
65
38:09
or
38:09
70.
38:10
Like,
38:10
I
38:10
value
38:11
the
38:11
way
38:12
I
38:12
take
38:12
care
38:12
of
38:12
myself.
38:13
I
38:13
value
38:14
like
38:15
my
38:15
priorities
38:16
and
38:16
wellness
38:16
and
38:16
health
38:17
and
38:17
wanting
38:18
to
38:18
have
38:18
a
38:18
good
38:18
time
38:19
and
38:19
being
38:19
in
38:19
that
38:20
space.
38:20
So,
38:20
like,
38:22
I
38:22
don't
38:22
know,
38:22
maybe
38:23
my
38:23
path
38:23
is
38:25
shorter
38:25
term
38:25
relationships
38:26
with
38:26
someone
38:27
in
38:27
their
38:27
30s.
38:28
And
38:28
you
38:29
know,
38:29
if
38:29
I
38:29
find
38:29
someone
38:30
that
38:30
I
38:30
go
38:30
the
38:31
distance
38:31
with,
38:31
then
38:32
that's
38:32
amazing.
38:32
I
38:33
don't
38:33
think
38:33
they're
38:33
going
38:33
to
38:34
be
38:35
in
38:35
their
38:35
50s
38:35
or
38:36
60s,
38:36
just
38:36
based
38:36
on
38:37
my
38:37
experience.
38:37
Right.
38:38
They're
38:38
also
38:38
kind
38:38
of
38:38
at
38:39
that
38:39
point
38:39
a
38:39
little
38:39
bit
38:39
jaded
38:40
in
38:40
a
38:40
way
38:40
too
38:41
with
38:41
like.
38:42
Yeah,
38:42
you
38:42
know,
38:42
they've
38:43
Lived
38:43
a
38:43
certain
38:43
amount
38:44
of
38:44
life,
38:44
and
38:44
it's
38:45
probably.
38:45
They're
38:46
set
38:46
in
38:46
their
38:46
ways
38:46
a
38:46
bit.
38:47
Right.
38:47
It's
38:47
like,
38:48
they
38:48
don't
38:48
want
38:48
to
38:48
be
38:49
kind
38:49
of
38:49
flexible
38:49
and,
38:50
well,
38:50
they
38:50
certainly.
38:51
Don'T
38:51
want
38:51
to
38:51
answer
38:51
to,
38:52
like,
38:52
an
38:52
equal
38:52
partner.
38:53
Right?
38:53
Correct.
38:54
Because
38:54
they're
38:55
used
38:55
to,
38:55
like,
38:55
you
38:56
know,
38:56
these
38:56
younger
38:56
girls
38:57
that
38:57
they
38:57
can
38:57
kind
38:58
of
38:58
control
38:58
in
38:59
a
38:59
way.
38:59
Yes.
38:59
Like,
39:01
you
39:01
can't
39:01
just
39:01
buy
39:02
me
39:02
with
39:02
a
39:02
Dior
39:02
bag.
39:03
Like,
39:04
you're
39:04
like,
39:04
I
39:04
can
39:04
buy
39:05
my
39:05
own
39:05
honey.
39:05
Well,
39:06
also,
39:06
like,
39:06
I'm
39:06
not
39:07
gonna.
39:07
Like,
39:07
that's
39:07
not
39:07
what
39:08
is
39:08
gonna
39:08
make
39:08
me
39:08
happy.
39:09
Like,
39:10
you
39:10
purchase
39:10
me
39:10
a
39:11
handbag
39:11
and
39:11
you
39:11
think
39:11
that
39:12
that's,
39:12
like,
39:12
the
39:12
way
39:12
to
39:12
my
39:12
heart.
39:13
Like,
39:13
no.
39:14
Be
39:14
emotionally
39:15
available.
39:15
Be
39:15
present.
39:16
Like,
39:17
do
39:17
those
39:18
things
39:18
for
39:18
me,
39:19
and
39:19
then,
39:19
you
39:20
know,
39:20
maybe
39:20
I'll
39:20
show
39:20
up
39:20
and
39:21
I'll
39:21
find
39:21
more
39:21
often
39:21
than
39:21
not.
39:21
But
39:22
most
39:22
men
39:22
in
39:22
their
39:22
late
39:23
40s,
39:23
early
39:23
50s,
39:24
and
39:24
60s,
39:24
like,
39:25
just
39:25
aren't
39:26
that.
39:27
So
39:27
how
39:27
do
39:27
you
39:28
stay
39:28
vulnerable
39:28
when
39:29
you're
39:29
dating?
39:29
You
39:30
don't.
39:32
Can't
39:32
compromise
39:33
that
39:33
power,
39:33
girl.
39:35
I'm
39:35
just
39:35
kidding.
39:36
I
39:36
mean,
39:37
trust
39:37
me.
39:37
Like,
39:38
my
39:38
feed
39:39
is
39:39
filled
39:40
with,
39:40
like,
39:41
Tracy,
39:43
here's
39:43
like.
39:44
It's
39:44
like,
39:45
men
39:45
and,
39:46
like,
39:46
tracy,
39:46
be
39:46
vulnerable.
39:47
You
39:48
know,
39:49
And
39:50
I
39:50
think
39:51
with
39:52
certain
39:52
people,
39:52
I
39:52
am.
39:53
Like,
39:53
there's
39:54
someone
39:54
in
39:54
my
39:54
life
39:54
right
39:55
now
39:55
with
39:55
that
39:55
I'm
39:56
very
39:56
emotionally
39:56
vulnerable
39:57
with
39:58
for
39:59
the
40:00
most
40:00
of
40:01
the
40:01
time.
40:03
But
40:03
I
40:03
feel
40:04
like
40:05
that's
40:05
a
40:06
struggle
40:07
that
40:07
for
40:08
someone
40:08
like
40:08
me
40:09
who's
40:09
been
40:10
financially
40:10
independent
40:11
and
40:11
had,
40:11
you
40:12
know,
40:12
several
40:12
relationships
40:13
post
40:13
divorce
40:14
and
40:15
haven't
40:15
really
40:15
found
40:15
my
40:16
person
40:17
yet,
40:17
but
40:17
have
40:18
had,
40:18
like,
40:18
beautiful
40:19
love,
40:20
just
40:20
not
40:21
everlasting,
40:22
that
40:23
it's
40:23
very
40:23
difficult
40:24
for
40:24
me
40:24
to
40:24
fully
40:26
be
40:26
vulnerable.
40:27
I
40:27
have
40:27
to
40:27
work
40:27
on
40:27
that
40:28
every
40:28
single
40:29
day.
40:29
Like,
40:29
speak
40:30
your
40:30
truth
40:31
if
40:31
you
40:31
want
40:32
it.
40:32
Say
40:32
it
40:33
out
40:33
loud.
40:34
Like,
40:34
don't
40:35
be
40:35
afraid.
40:35
Like,
40:36
you
40:36
failed
40:36
so
40:37
many
40:37
times
40:37
in
40:37
your
40:37
professional
40:38
life.
40:38
Why
40:39
are
40:39
you
40:39
so
40:39
scared
40:39
to
40:39
fail
40:40
again
40:40
in
40:40
your
40:40
love
40:40
life?
40:41
And
40:41
that's
40:41
a
40:41
question
40:41
that
40:42
I
40:42
struggle
40:42
with
40:42
a
40:42
lot,
40:43
you
40:43
know,
40:44
because
40:44
I
40:45
feel
40:45
like
40:45
all
40:45
eyes
40:45
are
40:46
always
40:46
on
40:46
me.
40:46
Like,
40:46
who's
40:47
she
40:47
gonna
40:47
date
40:47
next?
40:48
Like,
40:48
what?
40:49
People
40:49
follow
40:49
my
40:49
love
40:50
life,
40:50
and,
40:51
you
40:51
know,
40:51
this
40:52
town
40:52
is
40:52
small,
40:53
and
40:54
that's
40:54
why
40:54
I'm
40:54
dating
40:55
outside
40:55
of
40:55
the
40:55
country.
40:57
Who
40:58
has
40:58
slid
40:58
into
40:58
your
40:58
DMs
40:59
lately?
40:59
Anybody
40:59
interested?
41:00
Oh,
41:00
man.
42:07
There
42:08
was
42:08
one.
42:08
There
42:08
was
42:08
one
42:08
that
42:09
we
42:09
talked
42:09
about.
42:10
I
42:10
was
42:10
kind
42:10
of
42:10
jealous.
42:11
Which
42:11
one?
42:12
Mark
42:12
Estes.
42:13
Oh,
42:13
God.
42:14
He's
42:14
like,
42:14
12,
42:15
but
42:15
he's
42:15
so
42:15
cute.
42:16
Oh,
42:16
my
42:16
God.
42:18
For
42:18
a
42:18
little
42:19
bit.
42:19
No,
42:20
no.
42:20
He's
42:21
way
42:21
too
42:21
young,
42:21
but
42:21
he's
42:22
super
42:22
Hot.
42:22
He's
42:23
super
42:23
hot.
42:24
That's
42:24
exactly
42:25
it.
42:25
Great
42:25
body.
42:25
Yeah.
42:26
I
42:26
just
42:26
like
42:26
watching
42:27
him
42:27
on
42:27
Instagram
42:27
in
42:27
the
42:27
gym.
42:28
Oh,
42:28
I
42:28
know.
42:29
It's
42:29
good.
42:29
It's
42:30
really
42:30
cute.
42:30
No,
42:31
there's
42:31
things
42:32
in
42:32
my
42:32
DMs
42:32
that
42:33
I
42:33
cannot
42:33
share.
42:35
You
42:35
know,
42:35
when
42:35
you're
42:36
just
42:36
like,
42:36
going.
42:36
Because
42:36
I
42:37
actually
42:37
get
42:37
leads
42:38
there.
42:38
So
42:38
I
42:39
actually
42:39
physically
42:40
go
42:40
through
42:41
all
42:41
of
42:41
my
42:42
DMs,
42:42
from
42:42
requests
42:43
to
42:43
general
42:44
to
42:44
primary.
42:45
And
42:45
so,
42:45
like,
42:45
typically,
42:46
if
42:46
I
42:46
just
42:46
see
42:46
something,
42:47
I'll
42:47
just
42:47
tap,
42:47
tap,
42:48
tap,
42:48
tap
42:48
heart,
42:48
prayer,
42:49
heart,
42:50
prayer,
42:51
heart,
42:51
prayer,
42:51
tap,
42:52
thumbs
42:52
down.
42:52
You
42:53
know,
42:53
it's
42:53
like
42:53
a.
42:53
Keep
42:54
it
42:54
moving
42:54
until
42:55
I
42:55
get
42:55
through
42:55
the
42:55
leads
42:56
or
42:56
someone
42:56
that
42:57
is
42:57
asking
42:57
me
42:57
a
42:57
question
42:57
about
42:58
a
42:58
property,
42:58
etc.
43:00
And
43:00
then
43:01
all
43:01
of
43:01
a
43:01
sudden,
43:01
there's
43:01
a
43:02
photo.
43:03
This.
43:04
I
43:04
remember
43:04
when
43:05
you
43:05
first.
43:05
And
43:05
then
43:05
you.
43:07
It's
43:07
like.
43:07
It's
43:07
like
43:08
it's
43:08
a
43:08
train.
43:09
Train
43:11
crash
43:12
that
43:12
you
43:12
can't
43:13
avoid
43:14
seeing.
43:15
You
43:15
just
43:15
have
43:16
to
43:16
see
43:16
what's
43:17
there,
43:17
what's
43:17
behind
43:17
that
43:18
little
43:18
photo
43:19
thing.
43:20
And
43:20
then
43:20
you
43:20
open
43:21
it,
43:21
and
43:21
then
43:21
they
43:22
know
43:22
you
43:22
opened
43:22
it,
43:23
and
43:23
that's
43:24
like
43:24
the.
43:24
The
43:24
door
43:24
is
43:25
now
43:25
officially
43:26
open
43:26
to
43:26
just.
43:27
And
43:27
then
43:27
you
43:27
have
43:28
to
43:28
block
43:28
or
43:28
you
43:29
have
43:29
to
43:29
threaten
43:29
the
43:29
block.
43:30
Like,
43:31
you
43:31
can't
43:32
put
43:32
the
43:32
toothpaste
43:33
back
43:33
in
43:33
the
43:33
tube
43:33
at
43:34
that
43:34
point.
43:34
And
43:34
you
43:35
know
43:35
what?
43:35
I
43:35
remember
43:36
when
43:36
you
43:36
first
43:37
got
43:37
on
43:37
the
43:37
show
43:37
and
43:38
you
43:38
were
43:38
like,
43:38
look
43:39
at
43:39
these.
43:39
And
43:39
it
43:39
was
43:39
like,
43:40
dick
43:40
pic,
43:40
dick
43:40
pic,
43:41
dick
43:41
pic,
43:41
message,
43:41
dick
43:42
pic,
43:42
dick.
43:42
It
43:42
was
43:43
like.
43:44
It
43:44
was
43:44
just
43:44
like
43:44
an
43:45
onslaught.
43:46
So
43:46
is
43:46
it
43:47
like.
43:47
It's.
43:47
It's
43:47
pretty
43:48
fun?
43:48
Yeah,
43:48
it's
43:48
kind
43:48
of.
43:49
Of
43:49
fun.
43:49
You
43:50
know,
43:50
you're
43:50
driving,
43:51
you're
43:51
in
43:51
a
43:51
doctor's
43:52
office,
43:52
you're
43:52
checking
43:53
your
43:53
messages,
43:53
and,
43:53
like,
43:54
boom.
43:55
Like,
43:55
big,
43:56
hard
43:56
penis
43:57
in
43:57
your
43:58
phone
43:58
of,
43:58
like,
43:59
someone
43:59
in
43:59
the
43:59
middle
44:00
of,
44:00
like,
44:00
Arkansas.
44:01
Yeah,
44:01
yeah,
44:02
yeah.
44:02
You're
44:02
like,
44:02
okay.
44:03
Are
44:03
you
44:03
sitting
44:04
there
44:04
talking
44:04
to
44:04
your
44:04
mom?
44:05
Have
44:05
a
44:05
great
44:05
day,
44:06
Keith.
44:07
Like,
44:09
glad
44:09
my
44:10
real
44:10
estate
44:10
photo
44:10
inspired
44:11
you.
44:13
I
44:14
should
44:14
take
44:14
more
44:14
of
44:14
those.
44:17
I
44:17
mean,
44:17
it's
44:18
too
44:18
good.
44:19
But,
44:19
you
44:19
know,
44:19
like,
44:20
the
44:20
40s
44:20
for
44:21
you,
44:21
I
44:21
feel
44:21
like,
44:21
was
44:22
a
44:22
really.
44:24
It
44:24
was
44:24
a
44:25
big
44:25
decade
44:25
of
44:25
change
44:25
for
44:26
you.
44:26
You
44:26
know,
44:26
you
44:26
got
44:27
divorced.
44:28
Juliet
44:28
and
44:28
Scarlett,
44:29
your
44:29
kids
44:29
became
44:30
of
44:30
age.
44:31
You
44:31
got
44:31
on
44:32
this
44:32
really
44:32
successful
44:33
reality
44:34
show,
44:34
you
44:35
know,
44:36
and
44:36
you
44:36
built,
44:37
like,
44:37
this
44:37
amazing
44:37
business.
44:38
So
44:39
that
44:39
kind
44:39
of
44:40
all
44:40
happened
44:40
in
44:40
the
44:40
span
44:41
of,
44:41
like,
44:41
10.
44:41
Less
44:42
than
44:42
10
44:42
years.
44:43
Really?
44:43
Yeah,
44:43
because
44:43
I
44:43
got
44:43
divorced
44:44
when
44:44
I
44:44
was
44:45
41.
44:46
So
44:46
it's
44:46
been
44:47
eight
44:47
years.
44:47
Has
44:48
it
44:48
already
44:48
been
44:48
eight?
44:49
Yeah,
44:49
I
44:49
got.
44:49
I
44:49
filed
44:50
for
44:50
divorce
44:50
in
44:50
2017.
44:51
I
44:51
was
44:52
divorced
44:52
by
44:52
2018.
44:53
So
44:53
it's.
44:54
Yeah.
44:54
And
44:54
I
44:55
remember
44:55
when
44:55
you
44:55
knew,
44:55
you
44:55
knew
44:56
that
44:56
was
44:56
it,
44:56
like
44:56
when
44:57
you
44:57
made
44:57
that
44:57
decision,
44:58
that
44:58
was
44:58
it.
44:59
You
44:59
were
44:59
like
44:59
ready
45:00
to
45:00
go.
45:00
Yeah.
45:02
But
45:02
I
45:02
mean,
45:03
after
45:03
that,
45:03
you
45:04
know,
45:04
it's
45:04
kind
45:04
of
45:04
like.
45:04
So
45:05
you've
45:05
had
45:05
this
45:05
great,
45:05
you
45:06
know,
45:06
40s,
45:06
up
45:07
and
45:07
down,
45:07
like
45:07
all
45:07
over
45:08
the
45:08
place.
45:09
What
45:09
are
45:09
you
45:09
looking
45:09
forward
45:09
to
45:10
in
45:10
your
45:10
50s?
45:10
Because
45:10
you
45:11
are
45:11
having
45:11
a
45:11
big
45:11
birthday
45:12
in
45:12
August.
45:14
You
45:14
know,
45:14
I
45:15
just,
45:15
I
45:15
do
45:15
want
45:15
to
45:15
find
45:16
like
45:16
love,
45:17
like
45:19
a
45:19
relationship.
45:20
I
45:20
think
45:20
I'm
45:20
better
45:21
and
45:21
I'm
45:22
fun
45:22
as
45:22
hell
45:22
single,
45:23
but
45:24
like,
45:24
maybe
45:24
too
45:24
fun.
45:25
Like
45:26
I,
45:27
Is
45:27
there
45:27
really
45:27
too
45:28
much
45:28
fun?
45:28
I
45:29
tend
45:29
to
45:29
be
45:29
incredibly
45:30
spontaneous
45:31
and
45:32
you
45:32
know,
45:32
my
45:32
life
45:33
right
45:33
now
45:33
is
45:34
my
45:34
girls,
45:35
my
45:35
work
45:36
and
45:37
breaking
45:38
away
45:38
from
45:38
all
45:38
of
45:38
that,
45:39
having
45:39
fun
45:39
with
45:39
friends
45:40
and
45:40
meeting
45:40
people
45:41
and
45:41
traveling.
45:41
Right.
45:42
So
45:42
I
45:42
don't
45:43
have
45:43
an
45:43
ex
45:43
husband
45:44
to
45:44
worry
45:44
about.
45:44
Like
45:45
he's
45:45
all
45:45
good.
45:46
My
45:46
parents
45:47
are
45:47
healthy.
45:48
So
45:49
you
45:49
know,
45:50
those
45:50
are
45:50
the
45:50
three
45:51
things
45:51
that
45:51
I
45:51
spend
45:51
time
45:52
doing.
45:52
And
45:52
so
45:53
when
45:53
I
45:53
have
45:53
the
45:53
time
45:53
to
45:53
have
45:54
fun,
45:55
I
45:55
take
45:55
advantage
45:56
of
45:56
every
45:56
moment
45:56
of
45:56
it.
45:57
And
45:57
fortunately
45:58
for
45:59
me,
45:59
when
45:59
I'm
46:00
single,
46:00
I'm
46:00
a
46:00
good
46:01
time
46:01
and
46:01
people
46:01
like
46:01
to
46:02
invite
46:02
me
46:02
places.
46:03
I
46:04
think
46:04
that
46:05
that
46:05
can
46:05
get
46:06
a
46:06
little
46:07
tiresome
46:08
after
46:08
a
46:09
while
46:09
and
46:09
it's
46:09
much
46:09
more
46:10
fun
46:10
to
46:10
have
46:11
someone
46:12
that
46:12
you
46:13
want
46:14
to
46:14
do
46:14
that
46:14
with,
46:15
you
46:16
know.
46:16
But
46:16
I've
46:16
had
46:16
a
46:17
couple,
46:17
you
46:17
know,
46:17
I
46:18
was
46:18
dating
46:18
someone
46:18
a
46:19
few
46:19
months
46:19
ago,
46:20
which
46:20
will
46:20
go
46:20
unnamed.
46:21
Yes,
46:21
we
46:22
know,
46:22
we
46:22
know.
46:24
And
46:24
you
46:25
know,
46:25
that
46:25
was
46:25
short
46:25
lived.
46:26
It
46:26
was
46:26
a
46:26
few
46:26
months
46:28
and
46:28
I
46:28
realized
46:29
pretty
46:29
quickly
46:29
it
46:29
wasn't
46:30
the
46:30
path
46:30
for
46:30
me.
46:31
But
46:33
I
46:33
would
46:34
like
46:34
someone
46:35
that
46:36
like
46:36
values
46:37
who
46:37
I
46:37
am,
46:38
what
46:38
I
46:38
am,
46:40
doesn't
46:40
want
46:40
me
46:40
to
46:41
change
46:41
or
46:41
morph
46:42
into
46:44
like
46:44
what
46:45
it
46:45
means
46:45
to
46:45
be
46:45
with
46:46
them
46:46
or
46:46
how
46:46
they
46:46
pictured
46:47
me
46:48
to
46:48
be
46:49
in
46:49
the
46:49
couple
46:51
and
46:51
just
46:51
celebrate
46:52
me
46:52
for
46:52
who
46:52
I
46:52
am
46:52
and
46:53
have
46:53
a
46:53
partnership
46:54
with
46:54
someone
46:54
that
46:55
I
46:55
can
46:55
celebrate
46:55
the
46:56
same
46:56
things
46:56
in
46:56
them
46:57
and
46:57
that
46:57
do
46:58
that
46:58
together,
46:59
have
46:59
that
46:59
life
46:59
together,
47:01
celebrate
47:01
each
47:01
other's
47:02
successes
47:02
and
47:04
travel
47:04
and
47:04
have
47:05
fun
47:05
and
47:05
be
47:06
with
47:06
my
47:06
friends.
47:07
And
47:08
that's
47:08
to
47:09
me
47:09
that's
47:09
like
47:09
my
47:10
50s.
47:10
I,
47:10
I
47:11
have
47:11
no
47:11
issue
47:12
turning
47:13
50
47:13
at
47:13
all.
47:14
I've
47:14
never
47:14
felt
47:14
better.
47:17
I
47:17
feel
47:18
great.
47:18
I
47:18
feel
47:18
better
47:19
today
47:20
than
47:20
I
47:20
did
47:20
when
47:20
I
47:21
turned
47:21
40.
47:22
Do
47:22
you?
47:22
100%.
47:23
Why
47:24
do
47:24
you
47:24
think
47:24
just
47:24
where
47:25
you
47:25
are
47:25
in
47:25
life?
47:26
No,
47:27
I
47:27
think
47:27
physically,
47:28
like
47:28
literally
47:29
physically,
47:29
like
47:30
of
47:30
course
47:30
I'm,
47:30
I'm
47:31
more
47:31
successful
47:32
than
47:32
I
47:32
was
47:32
when
47:32
I
47:32
was
47:33
turning
47:33
40.
47:33
I've
47:33
lived
47:34
another
47:34
nine
47:35
years.
47:36
But
47:36
I
47:37
just
47:37
mean
47:37
physically.
47:37
I'm
47:38
in
47:38
the
47:38
best
47:38
shape
47:38
of
47:38
My
47:39
life,
47:40
my
47:40
doctors
47:41
are
47:41
like,
47:41
I
47:41
don't
47:42
know
47:42
what
47:42
the
47:43
hell
47:43
is
47:43
going
47:43
on
47:43
with
47:44
you,
47:44
but,
47:44
like,
47:45
biologically,
47:46
you
47:46
are
47:46
younger
47:47
today
47:48
than
47:48
you
47:48
were
47:49
nine
47:49
years
47:49
ago.
47:51
I
47:51
feel
47:51
great.
47:52
I
47:52
feel
47:52
energized.
47:53
I
47:53
feel
47:54
happy.
47:56
I
47:56
don't
47:57
think
47:57
I
47:57
felt
47:57
that
47:57
when
47:58
I
47:58
was
47:58
turning
47:58
40
47:59
again.
47:59
I
47:59
got
48:00
divorced
48:00
a
48:00
year
48:00
later,
48:00
so
48:00
that
48:01
might
48:01
have
48:01
had
48:01
something
48:01
to
48:01
do
48:01
with
48:02
it.
48:02
But,
48:04
yeah,
48:05
I
48:06
feel
48:06
physically
48:07
my
48:07
best.
48:07
And
48:08
that's
48:08
like,
48:08
for
48:08
me
48:09
and
48:09
I
48:09
think
48:09
such
48:10
an
48:10
inspiration,
48:11
hopefully,
48:11
to
48:11
other
48:12
women.
48:13
You
48:13
know,
48:13
I'm
48:13
49
48:14
years
48:14
old,
48:14
I
48:15
have
48:15
a
48:15
fucking
48:15
six
48:15
pack,
48:17
and
48:17
I
48:18
haven't
48:19
given
48:19
up
48:19
life.
48:20
I
48:21
enjoy
48:21
cocktails,
48:22
I
48:22
eat
48:22
cheeseburgers,
48:24
I
48:24
like,
48:25
you
48:25
know,
48:25
But
48:25
I
48:26
just
48:26
have.
48:26
Whatever
48:27
the
48:27
balance
48:28
is,
48:28
it's
48:29
what's
48:29
working
48:29
for
48:30
me.
48:30
And
48:30
I'm
48:30
not
48:30
saying
48:30
it's
48:31
gonna
48:31
work
48:31
for
48:31
everybody,
48:32
but
48:32
I
48:32
think
48:32
if
48:32
you
48:33
sort
48:33
of
48:33
invest
48:33
in
48:34
yourself
48:35
and
48:35
you
48:35
start
48:35
taking
48:36
actually
48:36
care
48:37
of
48:37
yourself
48:37
instead
48:37
of
48:37
everybody
48:38
else
48:38
first,
48:39
then
48:40
you
48:40
get
48:40
to
48:40
feel
48:41
good.
48:41
And
48:41
when
48:41
you
48:41
feel
48:42
good,
48:42
then
48:42
you
48:42
have
48:42
so
48:43
much
48:43
more
48:43
to
48:43
give
48:43
to
48:44
the
48:44
people
48:44
around
48:44
you.
48:45
So
48:45
how
48:46
is
48:46
like
48:46
the,
48:47
the
48:47
wear
48:48
and
48:48
the
48:48
tear
48:48
of
48:48
the
48:48
body
48:49
in
48:49
this
48:49
midlife
48:50
period
48:50
for
48:50
you?
48:50
I
48:50
mean,
48:50
are
48:51
you
48:51
feeling
48:52
the
48:52
things
48:52
that
48:52
a
48:53
lot
48:53
of
48:53
women
48:53
are
48:53
feeling
48:53
with,
48:54
like,
48:54
perimenopause,
48:55
for
48:55
example?
48:55
No,
48:56
I'm
48:56
on
48:56
testosterone.
48:57
I've
48:57
never
48:57
felt
48:58
better.
48:58
Oh,
48:58
shit,
48:58
girl.
48:58
You
48:59
didn't
48:59
tell
48:59
me
48:59
you
48:59
were
48:59
taking
48:59
testosterone.
49:01
It's
49:01
great,
49:01
right?
49:02
It's
49:02
fantastic.
49:03
Which
49:03
is
49:03
another
49:03
reason
49:04
I
49:04
need
49:04
a
49:04
boyfriend.
49:06
Like,
49:06
I
49:06
gotta
49:06
get
49:07
this
49:07
out.
49:08
It's
49:09
fantastic.
49:09
I
49:10
went
49:10
and
49:10
had
49:10
some
49:11
testing
49:11
done
49:12
probably
49:12
a
49:13
year
49:13
ago,
49:14
and
49:14
my
49:14
testosterone
49:15
levels
49:15
were
49:16
a
49:16
little
49:16
bit
49:16
low.
49:19
And
49:20
a
49:20
girlfriend
49:20
of
49:20
mine,
49:20
Caroline
49:21
Stanberry,
49:21
had
49:22
told
49:23
me
49:23
about
49:23
this
49:23
great
49:24
hormone
49:24
doctor.
49:24
So
49:25
I
49:25
went
49:25
and
49:25
got
49:25
all
49:25
my
49:25
blood
49:26
work
49:26
done.
49:26
And
49:26
he's
49:26
like,
49:26
your
49:26
levels
49:27
are
49:27
a
49:27
little
49:27
bit
49:27
low.
49:27
You
49:27
could
49:28
absolutely
49:29
put
49:30
some
49:30
testosterone
49:31
back
49:31
in
49:31
your
49:31
body.
49:31
Would
49:32
give
49:32
you
49:32
a
49:32
lot
49:32
more
49:32
energy.
49:33
You'll
49:34
be
49:34
great
49:34
in
49:34
the
49:34
gym.
49:34
And
49:35
the
49:35
one
49:35
thing
49:35
he
49:35
said
49:35
to
49:35
me
49:36
was,
49:36
do
49:36
you
49:36
have
49:36
a
49:36
boyfriend?
49:37
And
49:37
I
49:37
was
49:37
like,
49:38
I
49:38
just
49:38
broke
49:38
up
49:38
with
49:38
him.
49:39
Why?
49:39
He's
49:39
like,
49:39
well,
49:40
that's
49:40
going
49:40
to
49:40
be
49:40
a
49:40
problem.
49:42
And
49:42
I
49:42
didn't
49:43
really
49:43
understand
49:43
at
49:44
the
49:44
time
49:44
what
49:44
he
49:44
was
49:45
effectively
49:46
saying
49:46
to
49:46
me.
49:47
And
49:48
he
49:48
was
49:48
like,
49:50
you
49:50
might
49:50
start,
49:50
like,
49:51
looking
49:51
at
49:51
your
49:51
gardener
49:52
in
49:52
a
49:52
sexual
49:52
way.
49:53
And
49:53
I
49:53
was
49:53
like,
49:54
oh,
49:54
my
49:54
God.
49:55
Really?
49:55
Like
49:56
Chris?
49:57
And
49:57
sure
49:58
enough,
49:58
he
49:58
was
49:59
not
49:59
wrong.
50:01
So
50:01
I'm
50:01
embracing
50:02
it.
50:02
It
50:02
made
50:03
my
50:03
workouts
50:04
so
50:04
much
50:04
stronger.
50:05
I
50:05
have
50:06
way
50:07
more
50:07
energy
50:07
than
50:08
I've
50:08
ever,
50:09
like,
50:09
than
50:09
I
50:10
did
50:10
when
50:10
I,
50:10
you
50:10
know,
50:10
A
50:11
year
50:11
ago.
50:11
And
50:12
I
50:12
just,
50:12
I
50:12
feel
50:12
good.
50:13
How
50:13
long
50:13
did
50:13
it
50:13
take
50:13
to
50:13
kick
50:14
in?
50:14
Probably
50:14
like
50:15
a
50:15
month
50:15
or
50:15
two.
50:15
Okay.
50:16
And
50:17
it's
50:17
a
50:17
patch.
50:18
I
50:18
didn't
50:18
do
50:18
a
50:18
patch.
50:18
I
50:19
did
50:19
the
50:19
pellet.
50:19
So
50:19
it's
50:20
a
50:20
good
50:20
thing
50:20
then.
50:20
I
50:20
mean,
50:21
it's
50:21
been
50:22
wonderful.
50:22
Sex
50:22
drive
50:23
is
50:23
up,
50:23
like
50:23
the
50:24
whole
50:24
bit.
50:24
Energy's
50:25
up,
50:25
clarity,
50:26
like,
50:26
I
50:27
feel
50:27
great.
50:27
So
50:27
were
50:27
you
50:28
having
50:29
symptoms
50:29
before
50:30
you
50:30
started
50:30
taking
50:30
it?
50:31
Well,
50:31
my
50:32
testosterone
50:32
levels
50:33
were
50:33
low.
50:33
Yeah.
50:34
Did
50:34
you
50:35
have
50:35
like
50:35
the
50:35
brain
50:35
fog
50:35
or
50:36
anything
50:36
like
50:36
that?
50:36
No,
50:37
I
50:37
don't
50:37
have
50:37
time
50:37
for
50:37
brain
50:38
fog.
50:39
Like,
50:39
I
50:39
don't
50:40
even.
50:40
I
50:40
don't
50:40
even
50:40
have
50:41
time
50:41
to
50:41
process
50:41
that
50:41
I
50:42
have
50:42
brain
50:42
fog.
50:44
You
50:44
know
50:44
me,
50:45
I'm
50:45
up
50:45
at
50:45
6
50:45
o'
50:46
clock
50:46
in
50:46
the
50:46
morning.
50:46
I'm
50:47
in
50:47
the
50:47
gym
50:47
by
50:48
6:30
50:48
or
50:48
7.
50:49
I
50:50
go
50:50
until
50:51
6:30
50:51
or
50:51
7
50:52
every
50:52
night.
50:52
And
50:53
then,
50:53
you
50:53
know,
50:54
so
50:54
I
50:55
never
50:55
even
50:55
like,
50:56
slowed
50:56
down
50:57
long
50:57
enough
50:57
to
50:58
be
50:58
like,
50:58
how
50:58
am
50:59
I
50:59
feeling?
51:01
For
51:01
me,
51:01
I've
51:01
always
51:02
clocked
51:02
my
51:02
sleep.
51:03
Sleep
51:03
is
51:04
crucial
51:05
for
51:05
me.
51:05
And
51:06
so
51:06
I
51:06
notice
51:06
when
51:07
I'm
51:07
sleeping
51:07
less
51:08
than
51:08
seven
51:08
hours,
51:09
that's
51:09
when
51:09
I
51:10
start
51:10
to
51:10
get
51:10
a
51:10
little,
51:11
like,
51:11
agitated,
51:12
easier,
51:13
a
51:14
little
51:14
less
51:14
clear.
51:14
But
51:15
for
51:15
the
51:15
most
51:15
part,
51:15
if
51:15
I'm
51:16
getting
51:16
decent
51:16
sleep
51:17
and
51:17
my
51:17
serotonin
51:18
levels
51:18
are
51:18
on
51:19
point
51:19
and
51:19
I'm
51:19
taking
51:19
care
51:20
of
51:20
myself
51:20
and
51:20
putting
51:21
good
51:21
things
51:21
in
51:21
my
51:21
body
51:21
and
51:22
working
51:22
out,
51:23
I'm.
51:23
I
51:24
feel
51:24
a
51:24
thousand
51:25
percent.
51:25
So
51:25
in
51:26
terms
51:26
of
51:26
symptoms,
51:27
I
51:28
didn't
51:28
have
51:28
symptoms.
51:29
I
51:29
just
51:29
went
51:30
in
51:30
because
51:30
I
51:30
was
51:31
like,
51:31
I'm
51:31
48
51:32
years
51:32
old.
51:32
I
51:32
should
51:33
probably
51:33
like,
51:33
take
51:34
a
51:34
look
51:34
at
51:34
this.
51:35
And
51:35
I
51:36
had
51:36
been
51:36
on
51:36
birth
51:36
control
51:37
up
51:37
until
51:37
that
51:38
point.
51:38
And
51:38
he
51:38
was
51:38
like,
51:39
you
51:39
need
51:39
to
51:39
get
51:39
off
51:40
birth
51:40
control.
51:40
You've
51:40
been
51:40
on
51:40
birth
51:41
control
51:41
for
51:41
like,
51:41
you
51:42
know,
51:43
however
51:43
many
51:43
years,
51:43
20
51:44
something
51:44
year
51:44
more.
51:45
And
51:45
obviously
51:45
I
51:45
got
51:45
off
51:45
when
51:46
I
51:46
was
51:46
having
51:46
kids,
51:46
but
51:46
then
51:47
I
51:47
got
51:47
back
51:47
on
51:47
when
51:48
I
51:48
was
51:48
like,
51:48
and
51:48
we're
51:48
done.
51:50
So
51:51
that's
51:51
kind
51:52
of
51:52
where
51:52
he
51:52
was
51:52
like,
51:53
in
51:53
order
51:53
to
51:53
really
51:53
assess,
51:54
you
51:54
know,
51:55
where
51:55
you
51:55
are,
51:55
we
51:55
need
51:56
to
51:56
get
51:56
you
51:56
off
51:56
birth
51:56
control.
51:57
And
51:57
so
51:57
we
51:57
did
51:57
some
51:57
blood
51:57
work
51:58
and
51:58
that's
51:58
when
51:58
he
51:58
discovered
51:59
I
51:59
was
51:59
lower
52:00
in
52:00
testosterone.
52:02
And,
52:02
you
52:03
know,
52:03
we
52:03
made
52:03
those
52:03
adjustments
52:04
and
52:05
I'm
52:05
taking
52:06
some
52:06
peptides
52:07
as
52:07
well,
52:08
which,
52:08
you
52:08
know,
52:09
have
52:09
been
52:09
great
52:10
for
52:10
like,
52:10
collagen
52:11
and
52:12
just,
52:12
you
52:13
know,
52:13
my
52:13
body
52:13
feeling
52:13
good.
52:14
Your
52:14
skin's
52:14
looking
52:14
on
52:15
point,
52:15
lady.
52:16
Looks
52:16
good.
52:16
Thank
52:16
you.
52:17
Yeah,
52:17
thank
52:17
you.
52:17
I
52:18
mean,
52:18
that's
52:19
skincare
52:20
stuff
52:20
too,
52:20
and
52:21
genetics,
52:21
but
52:23
I'm
52:23
just
52:23
doing
52:23
the
52:24
things
52:24
sort
52:24
of
52:24
preventatively,
52:27
so
52:27
who
52:27
knows
52:27
when,
52:28
you
52:28
know,
52:28
menopause
52:29
comes,
52:29
and
52:30
if
52:30
it.
52:30
When
52:30
it
52:30
does,
52:31
I'm.
52:31
I'll
52:31
be
52:32
battling
52:32
that
52:33
next.
52:33
I
52:33
don't.
52:34
You
52:34
know,
52:34
but
52:35
for
52:35
the
52:35
time
52:35
being,
52:35
this
52:36
is
52:36
where
52:36
I
52:36
am.
52:36
You
52:37
know,
52:37
I
52:37
think
52:37
it's
52:37
really
52:37
important,
52:38
too,
52:38
to
52:38
be
52:38
open
52:39
with,
52:39
like,
52:39
the
52:39
things
52:40
that
52:40
we
52:40
do
52:40
that
52:40
are
52:41
maybe,
52:41
you
52:41
know,
52:42
like,
52:42
I've
52:42
been
52:42
very
52:43
on
52:43
my
52:43
page,
52:43
you
52:44
know,
52:44
I'm
52:44
like,
52:44
I'm
52:44
getting
52:45
Botox.
52:45
You
52:46
know,
52:46
I'm
52:46
doing
52:46
this
52:46
and
52:46
I'm
52:47
doing
52:47
that.
52:47
And
52:47
I
52:47
think
52:47
it's.
52:48
It's
52:48
really
52:48
important
52:49
to
52:49
be
52:49
open
52:49
about
52:50
that
52:50
kind
52:50
of
52:50
stuff.
52:51
And
52:51
I
52:51
know
52:51
you
52:51
are.
52:51
I
52:52
think
52:52
some
52:52
people
52:52
are,
52:53
like,
52:53
very
52:54
protective
52:54
of
52:54
that
52:54
stuff.
52:55
And
52:55
maybe
52:56
I
52:56
get
52:56
why,
52:57
you
52:57
know,
52:57
that's
52:57
just
52:58
never
52:58
been
52:58
who
52:58
I
52:58
am.
52:59
I've
52:59
had
52:59
Botox.
52:59
I've
53:00
had
53:00
filler.
53:00
I
53:00
don't
53:00
get
53:00
Botox.
53:01
I
53:01
actually
53:01
get
53:01
Xeomin,
53:02
because
53:02
Botox
53:02
doesn't
53:03
work
53:03
on
53:03
me
53:03
to
53:04
be
53:04
totally
53:04
transparent,
53:06
and
53:06
that's
53:06
something
53:07
I
53:07
do
53:07
for
53:07
maintenance,
53:08
and
53:08
I've
53:08
done
53:08
it
53:08
for
53:08
10
53:08
years.
53:10
People
53:10
think
53:10
I've
53:11
had
53:11
a
53:11
facelift.
53:11
I
53:12
have
53:12
not.
53:12
You
53:13
know,
53:13
I
53:13
have
53:13
not.
53:13
Thank
53:14
you.
53:14
Yes.
53:14
I
53:14
have
53:15
a
53:15
much
53:15
better
53:15
makeup
53:15
artist
53:16
now
53:16
than
53:17
I
53:17
did
53:17
when
53:17
I
53:18
first
53:18
started
53:18
the
53:18
show.
53:18
And
53:19
maybe
53:19
that's
53:19
why
53:19
you
53:19
see
53:19
the
53:19
difference.
53:20
And
53:20
I'm
53:20
probably
53:21
15
53:21
pounds
53:21
lighter,
53:24
you
53:24
know,
53:24
that's
53:25
the
53:25
difference.
53:26
I
53:26
have
53:26
not
53:27
had
53:27
a
53:27
facelift,
53:28
but
53:29
goddamn
53:29
sure
53:29
you
53:30
guys
53:30
will
53:30
know
53:30
when
53:30
I
53:30
get
53:31
one.
53:31
They'll
53:32
be
53:32
clocking
53:32
it,
53:32
you
53:32
know?
53:33
They
53:33
will.
53:33
I'll
53:34
just
53:34
tell
53:34
ya.
53:34
And
53:35
we'll
53:35
start
53:35
there,
53:36
so.
53:36
And
53:36
we
53:36
don't
53:36
have
53:37
to
53:37
ponder
53:37
on
53:38
it
53:38
anymore.
53:39
It's
53:39
unbelievable.
53:40
They'll
53:40
sit
53:40
there
53:40
and
53:40
they'll
53:41
guess
53:41
all
53:41
day
53:41
long,
53:42
you
53:42
know,
53:42
and
53:42
you're
53:42
like,
53:43
I
53:43
didn't
53:43
fucking
53:44
do
53:44
anything.
53:44
Like,
53:45
come
53:45
on.
53:45
I
53:46
don't
53:46
care.
53:46
They
53:46
just.
53:47
Yeah,
53:47
I
53:47
know.
53:47
You're
53:47
like,
53:48
I
53:48
don't
53:48
have
53:48
time
53:48
for
53:48
that.
53:49
Sorry.
53:50
Okay.
53:51
Regrets?
53:51
Any
53:52
regrets
53:52
from
53:52
your
53:52
40s?
53:53
I
53:53
don't
53:53
believe
53:53
in
53:54
regret.
53:55
I
53:55
think
53:55
it's
53:56
like
53:56
a
53:56
wasted,
53:57
wasted
53:57
emotion.
53:58
I
53:58
think
53:58
it.
53:59
It
53:59
crushes
54:00
like.
54:00
I
54:00
believe
54:00
in
54:01
decisions,
54:02
and
54:02
I
54:02
believe
54:02
sometimes
54:03
you
54:03
make
54:03
wrong
54:03
decisions
54:04
and
54:04
you
54:05
have
54:05
to
54:05
pay
54:05
for
54:05
the
54:06
decisions
54:06
that
54:06
you
54:06
make,
54:07
and
54:08
sometimes
54:08
that
54:08
takes
54:08
you
54:08
down
54:09
a
54:09
path
54:09
that
54:09
you
54:09
don't
54:10
necessarily
54:10
want
54:10
to
54:10
go,
54:11
but
54:11
I
54:11
think
54:11
there's
54:12
also
54:12
recovery
54:13
from
54:13
that.
54:13
And
54:13
I
54:14
think
54:14
there's
54:14
something
54:14
about
54:15
Even
54:16
in
54:16
your
54:16
40s
54:16
or
54:17
50s
54:17
or
54:17
60s
54:18
making
54:19
wrong
54:19
decisions,
54:20
which.
54:20
There's
54:21
something
54:21
about
54:21
our
54:21
youth
54:22
that
54:24
it's
54:24
like,
54:24
you
54:25
don't
54:25
make
54:25
mistakes
54:26
in
54:26
your
54:26
40s.
54:27
You
54:27
make
54:27
them
54:27
in
54:27
your
54:27
teenage
54:28
years
54:28
and
54:28
in
54:28
your
54:29
20s.
54:29
But
54:30
then
54:30
once
54:30
you
54:30
hit
54:30
35,
54:31
you
54:32
have
54:32
your
54:32
shit
54:32
together,
54:32
and
54:33
you're
54:33
not
54:33
supposed
54:33
to
54:33
make
54:33
those
54:33
kinds
54:34
of
54:34
mistakes
54:34
anymore.
54:36
Let's
54:36
advise.
54:38
There
54:38
is
54:39
not
54:39
a
54:39
woman
54:40
that
54:40
I
54:40
know
54:41
that
54:41
is
54:41
in
54:41
her
54:41
40s,
54:42
50s,
54:42
60s,
54:42
or
54:43
my
54:43
mom
54:43
in
54:43
her
54:44
70s
54:45
that
54:45
is
54:45
still
54:45
not
54:45
making
54:46
mistakes
54:47
in
54:48
her
54:48
life
54:48
or
54:49
my
54:49
life
54:49
today.
54:50
And
54:50
I
54:50
think
54:51
we
54:52
have
54:52
to
54:52
live
54:52
through
54:53
those
54:53
decisions
54:53
and
54:54
those
54:54
mistakes
54:54
and
54:54
figure
54:55
out
54:55
a
54:55
way
54:55
to
54:55
navigate
54:55
it
54:56
and
54:56
fall
54:56
down
54:56
and
54:56
get
54:57
back
54:57
up
54:57
again
54:57
and
54:57
recover.
54:58
That's
54:59
what
54:59
makes
54:59
us
54:59
women.
55:00
That's
55:00
what
55:00
makes
55:00
us
55:01
incredibly
55:01
powerful
55:02
and
55:02
strong.
55:02
I
55:02
think
55:03
the
55:03
idea
55:03
that
55:03
we're
55:04
supposed
55:04
to
55:04
kind
55:04
of
55:05
filter
55:06
out
55:06
all
55:06
these
55:07
mistakes
55:07
and
55:07
then
55:08
live
55:08
some
55:08
sort
55:09
of
55:09
path
55:09
that
55:10
is,
55:10
you
55:10
know,
55:12
some
55:12
wonderland,
55:13
I.
55:14
I
55:14
don't
55:14
think
55:14
that
55:14
exists.
55:15
I
55:15
think
55:15
we're
55:16
intended
55:16
to
55:17
stumble.
55:17
I
55:17
think
55:18
we're
55:18
intended
55:18
to
55:18
fall
55:19
in
55:19
love
55:19
multiple
55:19
times.
55:20
I
55:20
think
55:20
we're
55:20
intended
55:21
to
55:21
make
55:21
mistakes
55:21
with
55:21
the
55:22
people
55:22
that
55:22
we
55:22
fall
55:22
in
55:22
love
55:22
with.
55:23
I
55:23
think
55:23
we're
55:23
intended
55:23
to
55:23
screw
55:24
up
55:24
with
55:24
our
55:24
children.
55:25
I
55:25
think
55:25
they're
55:25
intended
55:25
to
55:26
learn
55:26
from
55:26
that,
55:26
and
55:26
so
55:27
are
55:27
we.
55:27
That's
55:28
what
55:28
makes
55:28
us
55:29
better
55:29
people.
55:30
That's
55:30
what
55:30
makes
55:30
our
55:31
children
55:31
better
55:32
people.
55:32
I
55:32
think
55:33
protecting
55:34
people
55:34
from
55:34
that
55:35
and
55:35
showing
55:36
just
55:36
one
55:36
facet
55:37
of
55:38
perfection
55:38
is
55:39
such
55:39
an
55:39
illusion,
55:40
and
55:40
it's
55:40
so
55:40
misleading
55:41
and,
55:41
I
55:41
think,
55:41
damaging.
55:42
Yeah.
55:42
And
55:42
it's
55:42
evolution,
55:43
too.
55:43
You
55:43
have
55:43
to
55:43
keep
55:43
evolving,
55:44
so
55:44
that's
55:45
part
55:45
of
55:45
it.
55:46
So,
55:46
yeah,
55:46
you're
55:46
gonna
55:47
fuck
55:47
up.
55:47
Like,
55:48
you're
55:48
gonna
55:48
keep
55:48
up.
55:49
Yeah,
55:49
you're
55:50
gonna
55:50
keep
55:50
winning,
55:50
too.
55:51
I
55:51
mean,
55:51
that's
55:52
both
55:52
ways.
55:53
That's
55:53
the
55:53
pressure
55:53
of,
55:54
like,
55:54
you
55:54
know,
55:54
something
55:55
you
55:55
and
55:55
I
55:55
were
55:55
talking
55:56
about
55:56
a
55:56
few
55:56
weeks
55:56
ago.
55:56
I
55:57
think
55:57
there's
55:57
this
55:57
idea
55:58
that,
55:58
like,
55:59
you
55:59
know,
55:59
here
56:00
we
56:00
are.
56:00
Like,
56:01
we.
56:01
We're
56:01
supposed
56:01
to
56:02
have
56:02
it
56:02
all
56:02
worked
56:02
out.
56:02
Says
56:03
who?
56:03
Yeah.
56:04
Just
56:04
because
56:05
I'm
56:05
in
56:05
my
56:05
late
56:05
40s,
56:06
I'm
56:06
supposed
56:06
to
56:06
have
56:07
all
56:07
the
56:07
fucking
56:07
answers.
56:08
No,
56:09
I'm
56:09
not.
56:10
Why
56:10
do
56:10
you
56:11
think
56:11
we
56:11
have,
56:11
like,
56:11
a
56:11
girl
56:12
tribe
56:12
to,
56:12
like,
56:13
help
56:13
us
56:14
through
56:14
stuff
56:14
like
56:14
this?
56:14
Like,
56:15
there's
56:15
no
56:15
universe
56:16
and
56:16
where
56:16
we're
56:17
supposed
56:17
to
56:17
have
56:17
it
56:17
all
56:18
figured
56:18
out.
56:19
I
56:19
think
56:19
that
56:19
messaging
56:20
is.
56:20
Is
56:20
not
56:21
only,
56:21
like,
56:21
wrong,
56:23
but
56:23
it's
56:24
damaging
56:24
even
56:25
to
56:25
us,
56:25
because
56:26
there's
56:26
still
56:26
this
56:27
feeling
56:28
of,
56:29
you
56:29
know,
56:30
imposter
56:30
syndrome,
56:31
where
56:31
we're
56:31
supposed
56:31
to
56:32
sort
56:32
of
56:32
think
56:32
that
56:32
we
56:32
have
56:33
it
56:33
all
56:33
together
56:33
and
56:34
it
56:34
doesn't
56:34
give
56:34
us
56:35
permission.
56:35
It
56:35
doesn't
56:35
give
56:36
you
56:36
permission
56:36
to
56:36
pick
56:37
up
56:37
the
56:37
phone
56:37
and
56:37
call
56:37
me
56:37
and
56:38
say,
56:38
I
56:38
don't
56:38
have
56:38
it
56:38
fucking
56:39
together,
56:39
Tracy.
56:40
Like,
56:41
I
56:41
feel
56:41
like
56:41
everything's
56:42
fucking
56:43
crumbling
56:43
and
56:44
I
56:45
need
56:45
to,
56:46
like,
56:46
Vent
56:46
and
56:47
dump
56:47
on
56:47
someone.
56:48
Can
56:48
I
56:48
do
56:48
it?
56:49
Like,
56:49
I
56:49
need
56:49
10
56:50
minutes
56:50
of
56:50
your
56:50
time.
56:51
And
56:51
that
56:52
I
56:52
think
56:52
we
56:52
have
56:52
to
56:53
give
56:53
each
56:53
other
56:53
permission
56:53
to
56:54
do
56:54
more
56:54
often.
56:55
Do
56:55
you
56:55
feel
56:56
imposter
56:56
syndrome?
56:59
You
56:59
know?
56:59
Yeah,
57:00
from
57:00
time
57:00
to
57:00
time.
57:01
Like,
57:01
I
57:01
think
57:01
the
57:02
messaging
57:02
that
57:02
I'm
57:02
this
57:03
boss
57:03
and,
57:03
like,
57:04
you
57:04
know,
57:04
because
57:05
I
57:05
stand
57:05
up
57:05
for
57:05
women
57:06
and
57:06
I
57:06
say
57:06
things
57:07
in
57:07
a
57:07
public
57:07
setting
57:08
in
57:08
one
57:08
facet
57:09
of
57:09
one
57:09
minute
57:10
in
57:10
a
57:10
social
57:11
media
57:11
platform,
57:12
that.
57:13
That
57:13
is
57:13
the
57:13
tonality
57:14
of
57:14
who
57:14
I
57:15
am
57:15
across
57:15
the
57:16
board.
57:16
And
57:16
that
57:17
doesn't.
57:17
It's
57:17
not.
57:18
That's
57:18
not.
57:19
You
57:19
know,
57:19
Instagram
57:20
is
57:20
one.
57:21
One
57:22
tidbit
57:23
of
57:23
me,
57:24
and
57:24
I
57:24
try
57:24
to
57:24
share
57:25
some
57:25
of
57:25
my
57:25
stuff
57:26
on
57:26
stories
57:26
of
57:26
me
57:27
just
57:27
being
57:27
silly
57:28
and
57:28
more
57:28
organic
57:29
so
57:29
that
57:29
you
57:29
can
57:29
see
57:29
different
57:29
facets
57:30
of
57:30
who
57:30
I
57:30
am
57:31
and
57:31
not
57:31
just
57:31
this
57:32
polished
57:33
sort
57:33
of
57:34
version
57:34
of
57:35
myself.
57:35
And
57:36
the
57:37
reality
57:37
is,
57:37
I
57:38
think
57:38
that
57:38
I
57:39
definitely
57:39
have
57:40
those
57:40
moments
57:40
where
57:40
I'm
57:41
like,
57:41
I
57:41
am
57:41
still.
57:42
You
57:42
know,
57:42
everyone's
57:43
like,
57:43
you're
57:43
killing
57:43
it.
57:43
I'm
57:44
like,
57:44
no,
57:44
not
57:45
today.
57:45
I'm
57:45
not.
57:46
Today
57:46
I
57:46
had
57:47
50
57:47
million
57:47
fall
57:48
out
57:48
at
57:48
escrow,
57:49
and
57:49
I
57:49
have
57:49
$100,000amateur
57:51
bill
57:51
to
57:51
pay
57:52
two
57:52
girls
57:52
to
57:52
put
57:53
through
57:53
school,
57:53
One
57:54
that's
57:54
depressed,
57:55
the
57:55
other
57:55
one
57:56
who
57:56
just,
57:56
you
57:56
know,
57:57
has
57:57
a
57:57
new
57:57
boyfriend
57:58
that
57:58
I'm
57:58
trying
57:58
to
57:58
figure
57:59
out
57:59
who
57:59
he
57:59
is.
57:59
You
58:00
know,
58:01
those
58:01
are
58:02
the
58:02
things
58:02
in
58:02
your
58:02
daily
58:03
life
58:03
as
58:04
a
58:04
mom
58:04
and
58:04
as
58:04
a
58:04
woman
58:05
and
58:05
a
58:05
career
58:05
woman
58:06
that,
58:06
like,
58:06
don't
58:06
necessarily
58:07
all
58:07
come
58:07
together.
58:08
And.
58:08
Yeah,
58:08
sometimes
58:09
you
58:09
feel
58:09
like
58:09
when
58:10
you're
58:10
posting
58:10
something
58:10
about
58:11
female
58:11
empowerment
58:12
and
58:12
being
58:12
a
58:13
boss,
58:14
you're
58:14
having
58:14
a
58:15
day
58:15
like
58:15
that.
58:16
You
58:16
feel
58:17
very
58:17
disconnected.
58:18
Yeah.
58:19
I
58:19
mean,
58:19
it's
58:19
up
58:19
and
58:19
down.
58:20
Right.
58:20
But
58:20
why
58:21
can't
58:21
you
58:21
be
58:21
both?
58:21
Yeah,
58:22
why
58:22
can't
58:22
at
58:22
the
58:23
same
58:23
time,
58:23
even?
58:23
So
58:23
I'm
58:24
trying
58:24
to
58:24
talk
58:24
about
58:24
that.
58:24
Yeah,
58:25
yeah.
58:25
No,
58:25
it's
58:26
true.
58:26
It's
58:26
true.
58:26
That'll,
58:27
like.
58:27
I
58:27
think
58:27
that
58:27
will
58:27
help
58:28
women
58:28
kind
58:28
of
58:29
get
58:29
through
58:29
it,
58:30
because
58:30
I
58:30
think
58:30
there
58:30
is,
58:31
like,
58:31
a.
58:31
Like,
58:31
the
58:32
thought
58:32
is
58:32
like,
58:32
oh,
58:32
it's
58:33
black
58:33
and
58:33
white.
58:33
You're
58:33
either
58:34
this
58:34
or
58:34
you're
58:34
that.
58:35
And
58:35
that's
58:35
not
58:36
true.
58:36
You're
58:36
gray.
58:36
There's,
58:37
like,
58:38
going
58:38
on
58:38
over
58:38
here.
58:38
Maybe
58:39
you're
58:39
empowered
58:39
here.
58:40
Maybe
58:41
everything
58:41
is
58:41
falling
58:41
apart
58:42
here.
58:42
And
58:42
it's
58:42
like
58:43
just
58:43
trying
58:43
to
58:43
get
58:43
through
58:43
the
58:44
day.
58:44
It's
58:44
one
58:44
day
58:44
at
58:45
a
58:45
time.
58:45
Right?
58:45
It's
58:46
one
58:46
day
58:46
at
58:46
a
58:46
time.
58:47
So
58:47
what
58:47
do
58:47
you
58:47
say
58:47
to
58:48
those
58:48
women
58:48
out
58:48
there,
58:48
especially
58:49
midlife
58:49
women
58:50
who
58:50
are
58:50
stuck
58:50
or
58:51
feel
58:51
like
58:51
they're
58:52
not
58:52
going
58:52
anywhere
58:53
or
58:53
maybe
58:53
they're
58:53
in
58:53
an
58:54
unhappy
58:54
marriage
58:54
or
58:55
like,
58:55
they're
58:55
not
58:56
in
58:56
business
58:56
where
58:56
they
58:57
want
58:57
to
58:57
be.
58:57
Like,
58:57
how
58:58
do
58:58
people
58:58
become
58:59
unstuck
58:59
and
59:00
not
59:00
lost?
59:01
I
59:01
think
59:01
for
59:02
a
59:02
lot
59:02
of
59:02
us,
59:04
we
59:04
start,
59:05
you
59:05
know,
59:06
life,
59:06
like,
59:06
you
59:07
know,
59:07
in
59:07
your
59:07
40s,
59:07
I
59:08
think.
59:08
And
59:08
I
59:08
don't
59:08
know
59:08
if
59:09
you
59:09
relate
59:09
to
59:09
this
59:09
or
59:09
not,
59:09
but
59:10
I
59:10
feel
59:10
like
59:11
you
59:11
get
59:11
to
59:11
the
59:11
place
59:11
where
59:11
you
59:12
start,
59:12
like,
59:12
looking
59:12
ahead
59:13
and
59:13
looking
59:13
ahead
59:14
and
59:15
what's
59:15
on
59:15
the
59:15
docket
59:16
for
59:16
me
59:16
and
59:16
what's
59:17
gonna
59:17
happen
59:17
next.
59:18
Instead
59:18
of
59:18
living
59:19
presently.
59:20
Like,
59:21
we're
59:21
thinking
59:21
about
59:21
the
59:22
shit
59:22
that's
59:22
happened
59:22
in
59:22
our
59:23
past
59:23
or
59:23
the
59:23
stuff
59:24
that
59:24
may
59:24
or
59:24
may
59:24
not
59:24
happen
59:25
in
59:25
our
59:25
future,
59:26
which
59:26
takes
59:26
us
59:26
out
59:26
of
59:27
where
59:27
we
59:27
are
59:27
in
59:27
the
59:28
exact
59:28
moment.
59:28
And
59:29
I
59:29
feel
59:29
like
59:29
if
59:29
you
59:30
wake
59:30
up
59:30
every
59:30
day
59:30
and
59:31
I
59:31
try
59:31
to
59:31
make
59:31
a
59:32
practice
59:32
of
59:32
this,
59:33
you
59:33
know,
59:34
for
59:34
me
59:34
to
59:34
navigate
59:35
how
59:35
busy
59:35
I
59:35
am,
59:36
but
59:36
it
59:37
also
59:37
helps
59:37
me
59:37
personally.
59:39
One
59:39
day
59:39
at
59:39
a
59:40
time.
59:40
I
59:40
don't
59:41
want
59:41
to
59:41
look
59:41
at
59:41
tomorrow.
59:42
I
59:42
don't
59:43
want
59:43
to
59:43
see
59:43
tomorrow.
59:44
Every
59:44
time
59:44
I
59:44
have
59:44
to
59:45
think,
59:45
like,
59:45
two
59:45
months
59:45
down
59:46
the
59:46
road,
59:47
I
59:47
have
59:47
a
59:47
hard
59:47
time
59:48
saying
59:48
yes
59:48
to
59:48
a
59:48
dinner
59:49
with
59:50
you
59:50
guys
59:50
in
59:50
two
59:50
weeks
59:51
from
59:51
now.
59:51
I
59:52
just
59:52
want
59:52
to
59:53
be
59:53
today.
59:54
Because
59:55
it
59:56
sometimes
59:56
feels
59:57
overwhelming
59:58
to
59:58
think
59:58
too
59:59
far
59:59
into
59:59
the
59:59
future.
1:00:00
I
1:00:00
rather
1:00:00
focus
1:00:01
on
1:00:01
my
1:00:01
happiness
1:00:02
today
1:00:03
on
1:00:03
Friday,
1:00:04
and
1:00:05
worry
1:00:05
about
1:00:06
what's
1:00:06
happening
1:00:07
next
1:00:07
week.
1:00:08
Next
1:00:08
week.
1:00:08
And
1:00:09
that
1:00:09
makes
1:00:09
it
1:00:09
a
1:00:10
little
1:00:10
bit
1:00:10
more
1:00:10
tolerable,
1:00:11
a
1:00:12
little
1:00:12
bit
1:00:12
more
1:00:12
in
1:00:13
the
1:00:13
moment,
1:00:13
and
1:00:13
a
1:00:14
little
1:00:14
bit,
1:00:15
you
1:00:15
know,
1:00:15
you're
1:00:16
able
1:00:16
to
1:00:16
be
1:00:16
present
1:00:16
with
1:00:17
the
1:00:17
people
1:00:17
that
1:00:17
you're
1:00:17
with
1:00:19
and
1:00:19
sort
1:00:20
of
1:00:21
get
1:00:21
rid
1:00:21
of
1:00:21
all
1:00:21
the
1:00:21
other
1:00:22
stuff
1:00:22
that's
1:00:22
happening
1:00:22
around
1:00:23
you,
1:00:24
you
1:00:24
know.
1:00:24
I
1:00:24
think
1:00:24
it's
1:00:25
really
1:00:25
important
1:00:25
also.
1:00:25
I
1:00:26
totally
1:00:26
agree
1:00:26
with
1:00:26
that.
1:00:27
But
1:00:27
also
1:00:27
to,
1:00:27
like,
1:00:27
let
1:00:28
go
1:00:28
of
1:00:28
these
1:00:28
timelines
1:00:29
that
1:00:29
we
1:00:29
have
1:00:29
in
1:00:29
our
1:00:29
head,
1:00:29
you
1:00:30
know,
1:00:30
like,
1:00:30
by
1:00:31
50,
1:00:31
I
1:00:32
need
1:00:32
to
1:00:32
have
1:00:32
this
1:00:32
and
1:00:33
this
1:00:33
and
1:00:33
this
1:00:33
and
1:00:33
that,
1:00:33
you
1:00:34
know,
1:00:34
or
1:00:34
I
1:00:34
should
1:00:34
be
1:00:34
here
1:00:35
in
1:00:35
my
1:00:35
career
1:00:35
or
1:00:36
here
1:00:36
in
1:00:36
my
1:00:36
relationship
1:00:37
and
1:00:37
this
1:00:37
and
1:00:37
that,
1:00:38
you
1:00:38
know,
1:00:38
and
1:00:38
it's
1:00:38
really.
1:00:39
I
1:00:39
think
1:00:39
a
1:00:39
lot
1:00:39
of
1:00:39
women
1:00:40
get
1:00:40
caught
1:00:40
up
1:00:40
in
1:00:40
that.
1:00:41
You
1:00:41
know,
1:00:42
that's
1:00:42
a
1:00:42
messaging
1:00:43
we've
1:00:43
been
1:00:43
given.
1:00:43
And
1:00:44
by
1:00:44
the
1:00:44
way,
1:00:44
even
1:00:44
for
1:00:44
men,
1:00:45
it's
1:00:45
the
1:00:45
messaging
1:00:46
we've
1:00:46
all
1:00:46
been
1:00:47
given
1:00:48
since
1:00:48
we
1:00:48
were
1:00:48
born
1:00:50
that's
1:00:50
been
1:00:51
programmed
1:00:51
for
1:00:52
so
1:00:52
long
1:00:52
that
1:00:53
to
1:00:53
undo
1:00:54
that
1:00:54
is
1:00:55
daily
1:00:55
work.
1:00:56
So
1:00:57
how
1:00:57
do
1:00:57
you
1:00:57
do
1:00:57
that?
1:00:57
What
1:00:58
is
1:00:58
the
1:00:58
daily
1:00:58
work?
1:00:59
Don't
1:00:59
fucking
1:01:00
look
1:01:00
at
1:01:00
tomorrow.
1:01:01
Like,
1:01:01
I
1:01:02
really,
1:01:02
really,
1:01:03
truly
1:01:03
won't
1:01:04
even
1:01:04
look
1:01:04
at
1:01:04
my
1:01:05
calendar
1:01:06
for
1:01:07
Tuesday
1:01:07
when
1:01:08
I
1:01:08
am
1:01:08
in
1:01:08
Monday
1:01:09
because
1:01:09
it's
1:01:09
too
1:01:10
overwhelming
1:01:10
to
1:01:10
me.
1:01:11
If
1:01:11
I
1:01:11
look
1:01:11
at,
1:01:12
like,
1:01:12
the
1:01:12
98
1:01:13
things
1:01:13
that
1:01:13
I
1:01:13
have
1:01:13
to
1:01:14
do
1:01:14
on
1:01:14
Tuesday.
1:01:15
Then
1:01:15
I
1:01:15
start
1:01:16
tripping
1:01:16
and
1:01:17
I
1:01:17
start
1:01:18
analyzing
1:01:19
what
1:01:19
that
1:01:19
day
1:01:19
is
1:01:19
going
1:01:20
to
1:01:20
look
1:01:20
like
1:01:20
instead
1:01:20
of
1:01:21
being
1:01:21
present
1:01:21
in
1:01:21
the
1:01:21
day
1:01:22
that
1:01:22
I
1:01:22
am
1:01:22
currently
1:01:22
in.
1:01:23
And
1:01:23
again,
1:01:24
yes,
1:01:24
I'm
1:01:24
talking
1:01:25
more
1:01:25
about
1:01:26
my
1:01:27
career
1:01:27
and
1:01:29
what
1:01:29
I'm
1:01:29
trying
1:01:30
to
1:01:30
achieve
1:01:30
in
1:01:31
my
1:01:32
entrepreneurial
1:01:34
self,
1:01:34
but
1:01:35
really
1:01:35
can
1:01:36
apply
1:01:36
very
1:01:37
much
1:01:37
to
1:01:38
my
1:01:38
personal
1:01:39
life
1:01:39
as
1:01:39
well.
1:01:40
And
1:01:40
whatever
1:01:41
people
1:01:41
come
1:01:41
into
1:01:42
my
1:01:42
life
1:01:42
in
1:01:42
the
1:01:43
day
1:01:43
that
1:01:43
I
1:01:43
am
1:01:43
currently
1:01:44
living
1:01:44
are
1:01:44
the
1:01:44
people
1:01:44
that
1:01:45
I
1:01:45
am
1:01:45
going
1:01:45
to
1:01:45
embrace.
1:01:47
And
1:01:48
that's.
1:01:49
That's
1:01:49
the
1:01:50
only
1:01:50
thing
1:01:50
that
1:01:50
I'm
1:01:51
not
1:01:51
a
1:01:51
doctor.
1:01:52
I
1:01:53
don't
1:01:53
fucking
1:01:53
know.
1:01:54
All
1:01:54
I
1:01:54
know
1:01:55
is
1:01:55
that
1:01:56
that's
1:01:56
what
1:01:56
makes
1:01:57
me
1:01:57
feel
1:01:58
less
1:01:58
angst
1:02:00
and
1:02:00
less
1:02:01
overwhelmed
1:02:03
with
1:02:03
what's
1:02:03
next
1:02:04
is
1:02:04
just
1:02:04
living
1:02:05
today.
1:02:05
What
1:02:05
are
1:02:06
three
1:02:06
things
1:02:06
that
1:02:06
women
1:02:06
can
1:02:06
do
1:02:07
like
1:02:07
today
1:02:07
to
1:02:08
feel
1:02:08
more
1:02:08
powerful?
1:02:08
You
1:02:09
think?
1:02:09
Like
1:02:10
three
1:02:10
actionable
1:02:11
things
1:02:11
like
1:02:11
our
1:02:11
listeners
1:02:12
right
1:02:12
now
1:02:12
could
1:02:12
do?
1:02:13
Take
1:02:14
care
1:02:14
of
1:02:14
yourself
1:02:14
first.
1:02:15
I
1:02:16
don't
1:02:16
think
1:02:16
women
1:02:16
do
1:02:17
that.
1:02:17
I
1:02:17
think
1:02:18
women
1:02:18
take
1:02:18
care
1:02:18
of.
1:02:18
We're
1:02:19
caretakers.
1:02:20
We're
1:02:20
nurturers
1:02:21
by
1:02:21
nature.
1:02:24
We
1:02:24
feel
1:02:24
selfish
1:02:25
when
1:02:25
we
1:02:26
take
1:02:26
care
1:02:26
of
1:02:26
ourself
1:02:26
first.
1:02:28
Let
1:02:28
me
1:02:28
tell
1:02:28
you
1:02:28
something.
1:02:28
When
1:02:29
you
1:02:29
hit
1:02:29
the
1:02:29
end
1:02:29
of
1:02:30
the
1:02:30
road
1:02:31
and
1:02:31
you
1:02:31
realize
1:02:32
that
1:02:32
you
1:02:32
haven't
1:02:32
taken
1:02:32
care
1:02:33
of
1:02:33
yourself,
1:02:33
not
1:02:33
only
1:02:34
are
1:02:34
you
1:02:35
mirroring
1:02:36
for
1:02:37
your
1:02:37
children
1:02:38
what
1:02:38
you
1:02:38
don't
1:02:38
want
1:02:38
them
1:02:39
to
1:02:39
do,
1:02:39
which
1:02:40
is
1:02:40
your
1:02:40
messaging
1:02:41
to
1:02:41
them,
1:02:41
is
1:02:41
you
1:02:42
come
1:02:42
first.
1:02:42
You're
1:02:43
raising
1:02:43
these
1:02:43
little
1:02:43
women.
1:02:44
You
1:02:45
take
1:02:45
care
1:02:45
of
1:02:45
you
1:02:45
first.
1:02:46
You're
1:02:46
the
1:02:46
most
1:02:47
important
1:02:47
person
1:02:47
in
1:02:48
your
1:02:48
life.
1:02:48
Your
1:02:49
self
1:02:49
confidence,
1:02:50
your
1:02:50
sense
1:02:51
of
1:02:51
self,
1:02:51
all
1:02:51
of
1:02:51
those
1:02:52
things
1:02:52
are
1:02:52
the
1:02:52
things
1:02:52
I
1:02:53
want.
1:02:53
But
1:02:53
I'm
1:02:53
gonna
1:02:53
mirror
1:02:54
something
1:02:54
else.
1:02:55
I'm
1:02:55
gonna
1:02:56
mirror
1:02:56
me
1:02:56
taking
1:02:56
care
1:02:56
of
1:02:57
you
1:02:57
and
1:02:57
not
1:02:57
taking
1:02:57
care
1:02:58
of
1:02:58
myself.
1:02:58
I'm
1:02:59
gonna
1:02:59
look
1:02:59
like
1:02:59
a
1:02:59
mess.
1:03:00
I'm
1:03:01
gonna
1:03:01
walk
1:03:01
around
1:03:01
in
1:03:02
a
1:03:02
gym
1:03:02
outfit
1:03:03
all
1:03:03
day
1:03:03
that
1:03:03
I
1:03:03
haven't
1:03:03
even
1:03:04
worked
1:03:04
out
1:03:04
in.
1:03:05
And
1:03:06
I'm
1:03:06
gonna
1:03:06
be
1:03:06
exhausted
1:03:08
because
1:03:08
I'm
1:03:08
gonna
1:03:09
stay
1:03:09
up
1:03:09
too
1:03:09
late
1:03:10
doing
1:03:10
all
1:03:10
the
1:03:10
things
1:03:10
for
1:03:10
you
1:03:11
and
1:03:12
not
1:03:12
doing
1:03:13
anything
1:03:13
for
1:03:13
myself.
1:03:13
And
1:03:14
then
1:03:14
I'm
1:03:14
going
1:03:14
to
1:03:14
be
1:03:14
depressed
1:03:15
because
1:03:15
I
1:03:16
feel
1:03:16
shitty
1:03:16
about
1:03:17
myself.
1:03:17
But
1:03:18
that's
1:03:18
the
1:03:19
mirror
1:03:19
image
1:03:19
that
1:03:20
I
1:03:20
want
1:03:20
you
1:03:20
to
1:03:21
see
1:03:21
as
1:03:21
my
1:03:21
daughter.
1:03:22
But
1:03:22
I
1:03:22
want
1:03:22
you
1:03:22
to
1:03:23
totally
1:03:23
do
1:03:23
something
1:03:23
different.
1:03:24
So
1:03:25
that's
1:03:25
one
1:03:26
piece
1:03:26
of
1:03:26
advice
1:03:27
that
1:03:27
went
1:03:27
on,
1:03:28
that
1:03:28
went
1:03:28
on
1:03:28
a
1:03:28
little
1:03:29
longer.
1:03:29
But
1:03:30
I
1:03:30
think
1:03:30
it's
1:03:31
literally
1:03:31
the
1:03:31
most
1:03:31
important
1:03:32
thing.
1:03:32
It
1:03:32
is.
1:03:33
It
1:03:33
is.
1:03:35
You
1:03:35
know,
1:03:36
surround
1:03:36
yourself
1:03:37
with
1:03:37
people
1:03:37
that
1:03:37
you
1:03:38
admire
1:03:39
and
1:03:39
that
1:03:40
you
1:03:40
aspire
1:03:40
to
1:03:41
be.
1:03:41
And
1:03:41
finally,
1:03:42
don't
1:03:42
settle
1:03:43
for
1:03:43
mediocrity,
1:03:44
even
1:03:45
in
1:03:45
your
1:03:46
40s.
1:03:48
Like,
1:03:48
just
1:03:48
because
1:03:49
you
1:03:49
haven't
1:03:49
quite
1:03:50
gotten
1:03:50
to
1:03:50
where
1:03:51
you
1:03:51
want
1:03:51
to
1:03:51
be
1:03:51
yet.
1:03:53
Like,
1:03:54
who
1:03:54
wants
1:03:54
to
1:03:54
be
1:03:55
mediocre
1:03:56
I
1:03:56
don't.
1:03:58
That's
1:03:59
why,
1:03:59
like,
1:03:59
if
1:03:59
I
1:03:59
hit
1:04:00
a
1:04:00
goal,
1:04:01
I'm
1:04:02
like,
1:04:02
all
1:04:02
right,
1:04:02
shit.
1:04:03
What's
1:04:03
up
1:04:03
next?
1:04:04
What's
1:04:04
up
1:04:05
next
1:04:05
for
1:04:05
me?
1:04:06
What
1:04:06
do
1:04:06
I
1:04:06
have
1:04:07
to
1:04:07
do
1:04:08
to
1:04:08
feel
1:04:08
like
1:04:09
I
1:04:09
have
1:04:10
something
1:04:10
to
1:04:10
strive
1:04:10
towards,
1:04:11
something
1:04:11
to
1:04:11
wake
1:04:11
up
1:04:12
for,
1:04:12
something
1:04:12
to
1:04:12
look
1:04:13
at.
1:04:14
I
1:04:15
think
1:04:15
it's
1:04:15
like
1:04:15
a
1:04:15
way
1:04:16
to
1:04:16
sort
1:04:17
of
1:04:17
keep
1:04:17
you
1:04:18
alive
1:04:18
and
1:04:19
present
1:04:20
and
1:04:21
wanting
1:04:22
to
1:04:22
get
1:04:22
up
1:04:22
and
1:04:22
grind
1:04:23
every
1:04:23
day
1:04:23
and
1:04:23
do
1:04:23
something.
1:04:24
Because
1:04:24
I
1:04:24
think
1:04:24
we're
1:04:24
the
1:04:25
most
1:04:25
happy
1:04:25
and
1:04:25
we're
1:04:26
the
1:04:26
most
1:04:26
motivated
1:04:26
when
1:04:27
we
1:04:27
have
1:04:27
purpose.
1:04:28
And
1:04:29
if
1:04:29
you
1:04:29
don't
1:04:29
have
1:04:30
goals
1:04:30
and
1:04:30
if
1:04:31
you
1:04:32
sort
1:04:32
of
1:04:32
are
1:04:32
just
1:04:34
settling
1:04:34
with
1:04:35
being
1:04:35
mediocre,
1:04:37
then
1:04:37
what
1:04:37
do
1:04:37
you
1:04:38
have
1:04:38
to
1:04:38
wake
1:04:38
up
1:04:38
for?
1:04:39
See,
1:04:39
that's
1:04:39
the
1:04:39
thing.
1:04:40
I
1:04:40
feel
1:04:40
like
1:04:40
a
1:04:40
lot
1:04:40
of
1:04:41
women
1:04:41
in
1:04:41
this
1:04:41
age
1:04:41
group,
1:04:42
you
1:04:42
know,
1:04:42
they've
1:04:42
raised
1:04:42
kids
1:04:43
or
1:04:43
they've
1:04:43
been
1:04:43
married,
1:04:44
or
1:04:44
maybe
1:04:44
they
1:04:45
stayed
1:04:45
at
1:04:45
home
1:04:45
and
1:04:45
they
1:04:46
stopped
1:04:46
working.
1:04:47
How
1:04:47
do
1:04:47
they
1:04:47
find
1:04:47
their
1:04:48
purpose?
1:04:48
Like,
1:04:48
how
1:04:48
do
1:04:49
you
1:04:49
do
1:04:49
that
1:04:49
when
1:04:49
you
1:04:50
feel.
1:04:50
I
1:04:50
don't
1:04:50
know,
1:04:50
man.
1:04:51
That's
1:04:51
up
1:04:51
to
1:04:51
them.
1:04:52
Read
1:04:52
a
1:04:52
few
1:04:53
books,
1:04:53
do
1:04:53
what
1:04:54
inspires
1:04:54
you.
1:04:55
Try
1:04:55
different
1:04:55
and
1:04:56
new
1:04:56
things.
1:04:56
Have
1:04:56
an
1:04:57
affair,
1:04:57
I
1:04:57
don't
1:04:57
give
1:04:57
a
1:04:58
shit.
1:04:58
Whatever
1:04:58
works
1:04:58
for
1:04:58
you.
1:04:59
But,
1:05:00
like,
1:05:00
do
1:05:01
something
1:05:01
that
1:05:01
you
1:05:01
haven't
1:05:02
done
1:05:02
before
1:05:02
to
1:05:03
inspire
1:05:05
something
1:05:05
inside
1:05:06
you
1:05:06
that
1:05:06
lights
1:05:06
a
1:05:06
fire.
1:05:06
And
1:05:07
whatever
1:05:07
that
1:05:07
fire
1:05:08
is
1:05:08
for
1:05:08
you,
1:05:09
go
1:05:09
light.
1:05:09
It
1:05:11
could
1:05:12
be
1:05:12
something
1:05:12
brand
1:05:12
new
1:05:13
that
1:05:13
you've
1:05:13
never
1:05:13
even
1:05:13
done
1:05:14
before.
1:05:15
And
1:05:15
I
1:05:15
don't
1:05:16
see
1:05:16
why
1:05:16
you
1:05:16
can't
1:05:16
do
1:05:16
it
1:05:17
just
1:05:17
because
1:05:17
you're
1:05:17
in
1:05:17
your
1:05:17
40s.
1:05:18
It's
1:05:18
the
1:05:19
fear,
1:05:19
you
1:05:20
know?
1:05:20
Yeah,
1:05:20
fuck
1:05:20
that.
1:05:20
I
1:05:21
wrote
1:05:21
a
1:05:21
book
1:05:21
about
1:05:21
that.
1:05:21
I
1:05:21
know.
1:05:22
Fuck.
1:05:22
Fear
1:05:23
is
1:05:23
a
1:05:23
four
1:05:23
letter
1:05:23
word.
1:05:24
It's
1:05:25
true.
1:05:25
It's
1:05:25
true.
1:05:26
No,
1:05:26
it
1:05:26
is
1:05:26
true.
1:05:27
It's
1:05:27
like,
1:05:27
I
1:05:27
think
1:05:27
women
1:05:27
are
1:05:28
so
1:05:28
paralyzed
1:05:29
a
1:05:29
lot
1:05:29
of
1:05:29
the
1:05:29
time
1:05:29
because
1:05:29
they're
1:05:30
like,
1:05:30
what
1:05:30
will
1:05:31
this
1:05:31
person
1:05:31
think
1:05:31
of
1:05:31
me?
1:05:32
Or
1:05:32
can
1:05:32
I
1:05:32
do
1:05:32
this?
1:05:33
Or
1:05:33
can
1:05:33
I
1:05:33
do
1:05:33
even
1:05:34
believe
1:05:34
in
1:05:34
myself
1:05:35
to
1:05:35
take
1:05:35
that
1:05:36
first
1:05:36
step,
1:05:36
you
1:05:36
know?
1:05:37
Yeah.
1:05:37
You
1:05:37
gotta
1:05:37
just
1:05:38
dive
1:05:38
off
1:05:38
anyway.
1:05:38
Just
1:05:39
dive
1:05:39
off.
1:05:39
And
1:05:39
don't
1:05:40
feel.
1:05:40
Don't
1:05:41
be
1:05:41
afraid
1:05:41
to
1:05:42
ask
1:05:42
for
1:05:42
help
1:05:43
100%.
1:05:44
Right?
1:05:45
Never.
1:05:46
I
1:05:46
mean,
1:05:46
Tracy,
1:05:46
you
1:05:46
still
1:05:47
ask
1:05:47
for
1:05:47
help.
1:05:47
I
1:05:48
mean,
1:05:48
it's.
1:05:48
Yeah,
1:05:49
for
1:05:49
sure.
1:05:50
I
1:05:50
could
1:05:50
not
1:05:50
do
1:05:50
what
1:05:51
I
1:05:51
do
1:05:51
without
1:05:52
the
1:05:52
help
1:05:52
from
1:05:53
the
1:05:53
help
1:05:53
and
1:05:54
support
1:05:54
from
1:05:54
the
1:05:54
people
1:05:54
around
1:05:55
me
1:05:55
that
1:05:55
love
1:05:55
me,
1:05:55
that
1:05:56
work
1:05:56
with
1:05:56
me,
1:05:57
my
1:05:57
children,
1:05:58
they're
1:05:58
my
1:05:58
greatest
1:05:59
support
1:05:59
system.
1:06:00
My
1:06:01
two
1:06:01
girls
1:06:02
see
1:06:02
what
1:06:02
I
1:06:02
do
1:06:02
every
1:06:03
day
1:06:03
and
1:06:04
you
1:06:04
know,
1:06:04
they're
1:06:05
my
1:06:05
biggest
1:06:06
fans
1:06:06
and
1:06:07
they
1:06:07
know
1:06:07
how
1:06:07
hard
1:06:07
I
1:06:07
work.
1:06:08
Yeah,
1:06:08
and
1:06:09
they're
1:06:09
coming
1:06:09
of
1:06:09
age
1:06:10
too.
1:06:10
I
1:06:10
mean,
1:06:10
Juliette's
1:06:11
gonna
1:06:11
be
1:06:12
19.
1:06:12
Yeah,
1:06:13
19.
1:06:13
So
1:06:13
what
1:06:13
would
1:06:14
you
1:06:14
say
1:06:14
to
1:06:15
25
1:06:15
year
1:06:15
old
1:06:16
Tracy
1:06:17
Elaine
1:06:17
Tudor,
1:06:18
the
1:06:18
first,
1:06:18
what
1:06:18
advice
1:06:19
would
1:06:19
you
1:06:19
give
1:06:19
her?
1:06:20
I
1:06:20
mean,
1:06:21
again,
1:06:21
leave
1:06:22
the
1:06:22
fear
1:06:22
at
1:06:22
the
1:06:22
door.
1:06:24
You
1:06:24
embrace
1:06:25
all
1:06:25
the
1:06:25
energy
1:06:26
that
1:06:26
you
1:06:26
have
1:06:27
inside
1:06:27
of
1:06:27
you
1:06:27
and
1:06:28
put
1:06:28
it
1:06:28
out
1:06:28
there
1:06:29
and
1:06:29
don't
1:06:30
fucking
1:06:30
hold
1:06:31
back.
1:06:32
You
1:06:33
have
1:06:33
absolutely
1:06:34
nothing
1:06:34
to
1:06:34
lose.
1:06:35
Maybe
1:06:35
we
1:06:35
should
1:06:36
have
1:06:36
had
1:06:36
better
1:06:36
hair
1:06:36
colorists
1:06:37
back
1:06:37
then,
1:06:37
though.
1:06:37
We
1:06:38
should.
1:06:39
George,
1:06:40
why
1:06:40
didn't
1:06:40
we
1:06:40
know
1:06:41
you
1:06:41
back
1:06:41
then?
1:06:41
I
1:06:42
mean,
1:06:43
those
1:06:43
college
1:06:44
photos,
1:06:45
every
1:06:45
time
1:06:45
you
1:06:45
pop
1:06:46
one
1:06:46
in
1:06:46
the
1:06:46
group
1:06:46
chat,
1:06:47
I'm
1:06:47
like,
1:06:48
wow.
1:06:48
Wow
1:06:49
what?
1:06:50
I
1:06:50
mean,
1:06:51
what
1:06:51
was
1:06:52
I
1:06:52
thinking?
1:06:53
I
1:06:53
don't.
1:06:53
I
1:06:54
thought
1:06:54
I
1:06:54
was
1:06:54
hot
1:06:55
back,
1:06:55
by
1:06:56
the
1:06:56
way.
1:06:56
I
1:06:56
was
1:06:56
so
1:06:57
confident
1:06:57
that
1:06:59
I
1:07:00
must
1:07:00
have
1:07:00
had
1:07:00
a
1:07:00
sparkly
1:07:01
personality
1:07:02
because
1:07:03
somehow
1:07:04
we
1:07:04
were
1:07:04
nailing
1:07:05
it.
1:07:06
I
1:07:06
don't
1:07:06
know
1:07:07
how
1:07:07
to
1:07:07
this
1:07:08
day.
1:07:08
I'm
1:07:08
so
1:07:09
confused.
1:07:09
It's
1:07:10
so
1:07:10
confused.
1:07:10
We
1:07:10
thought
1:07:11
we
1:07:11
were
1:07:11
like
1:07:11
the
1:07:11
hottest
1:07:11
things
1:07:12
that
1:07:12
walked,
1:07:12
you
1:07:12
know,
1:07:12
Sunset
1:07:13
Boulevard.
1:07:13
I
1:07:13
mean,
1:07:14
my
1:07:14
mom
1:07:14
raised.
1:07:14
Raised
1:07:14
me.
1:07:15
My
1:07:15
mom
1:07:15
was
1:07:15
like,
1:07:15
you
1:07:15
are
1:07:15
the
1:07:16
hottest
1:07:16
thing
1:07:16
since
1:07:16
sliced
1:07:17
bread.
1:07:17
And
1:07:17
I
1:07:17
was
1:07:17
like,
1:07:17
I
1:07:17
am.
1:07:18
She
1:07:19
was
1:07:19
like,
1:07:19
you
1:07:19
are.
1:07:19
And
1:07:20
so
1:07:20
I
1:07:20
just
1:07:20
went
1:07:20
out
1:07:20
into
1:07:21
the
1:07:21
world
1:07:21
thinking
1:07:21
I
1:07:22
was
1:07:22
the
1:07:22
jam,
1:07:23
you
1:07:23
know,
1:07:24
it
1:07:24
paid
1:07:24
off
1:07:24
though,
1:07:25
whatever,
1:07:25
I
1:07:26
guess
1:07:26
so.
1:07:28
God
1:07:28
bless
1:07:28
her,
1:07:29
but
1:07:29
that's
1:07:29
what
1:07:29
we
1:07:29
should
1:07:30
be
1:07:30
doing.
1:07:30
Like,
1:07:31
that's
1:07:31
how
1:07:31
I
1:07:31
was
1:07:32
raised
1:07:32
by
1:07:33
a
1:07:33
really
1:07:33
strong
1:07:34
woman.
1:07:34
And
1:07:34
that's
1:07:34
what
1:07:35
I
1:07:35
want
1:07:35
to
1:07:35
give
1:07:35
to
1:07:35
my
1:07:36
girls,
1:07:36
and
1:07:36
that's
1:07:36
what
1:07:36
I
1:07:37
want
1:07:37
to
1:07:37
give
1:07:37
to
1:07:37
the
1:07:37
women
1:07:38
around
1:07:38
me.
1:07:38
And
1:07:39
you
1:07:39
go
1:07:39
out
1:07:39
there
1:07:39
and
1:07:40
own
1:07:40
that
1:07:40
shit.
1:07:41
And
1:07:41
I
1:07:41
don't
1:07:42
care
1:07:42
what
1:07:42
you
1:07:42
look
1:07:42
like
1:07:43
or
1:07:43
how
1:07:43
many
1:07:43
curves
1:07:44
you
1:07:44
have
1:07:44
or
1:07:44
what
1:07:44
hair
1:07:45
or
1:07:45
how
1:07:45
bad
1:07:45
your
1:07:45
hair.
1:07:46
Like,
1:07:46
if
1:07:47
you
1:07:47
walk
1:07:47
into
1:07:47
a
1:07:48
room
1:07:48
with
1:07:48
confidence
1:07:49
and
1:07:49
you
1:07:49
own
1:07:49
it,
1:07:49
people
1:07:50
are
1:07:50
gonna
1:07:50
notice
1:07:51
not
1:07:51
only
1:07:51
the
1:07:51
women
1:07:51
in
1:07:52
that
1:07:52
room
1:07:52
that
1:07:52
are
1:07:52
gonna
1:07:53
be
1:07:53
like,
1:07:53
damn,
1:07:53
girl.
1:07:54
But
1:07:55
the
1:07:55
men
1:07:55
too.
1:07:55
And
1:07:56
they're
1:07:56
gonna
1:07:56
be
1:07:56
like,
1:07:56
okay,
1:07:57
uh
1:07:57
huh.
1:07:58
Yeah,
1:07:58
for
1:07:58
sure.
1:07:58
I
1:07:59
feel
1:07:59
like
1:07:59
you're
1:07:59
telling
1:07:59
Juliet
1:08:00
that
1:08:00
now
1:08:01
every
1:08:02
day
1:08:02
to
1:08:02
be
1:08:02
confident,
1:08:03
to
1:08:03
kind
1:08:03
of
1:08:03
step
1:08:03
into
1:08:04
her
1:08:04
power,
1:08:05
use
1:08:05
her
1:08:05
voice,
1:08:06
all
1:08:06
the
1:08:07
things,
1:08:07
right?
1:08:07
Absolutely.
1:08:08
So
1:08:08
how
1:08:09
are
1:08:09
you
1:08:09
living
1:08:09
the
1:08:10
most
1:08:10
iconically
1:08:11
right
1:08:11
now?
1:08:13
I
1:08:13
don't
1:08:13
know.
1:08:13
Aren't
1:08:14
I
1:08:14
just
1:08:14
iconic
1:08:15
at
1:08:15
this
1:08:15
point?
1:08:15
You
1:08:16
just
1:08:16
are
1:08:16
iconic,
1:08:17
girl.
1:08:18
How.
1:08:18
What
1:08:18
is
1:08:19
that
1:08:19
question?
1:08:19
How
1:08:20
am
1:08:20
I
1:08:20
living
1:08:20
the
1:08:20
most
1:08:21
iconically?
1:08:21
Yeah,
1:08:22
what
1:08:22
is.
1:08:23
What
1:08:23
is
1:08:23
like,
1:08:24
what
1:08:24
does
1:08:24
iconic
1:08:25
look
1:08:25
like
1:08:26
to
1:08:26
you
1:08:26
in
1:08:26
your
1:08:26
life
1:08:27
right
1:08:27
now?
1:08:27
Honestly,
1:08:27
I
1:08:28
feel
1:08:28
like
1:08:28
every
1:08:28
day
1:08:29
I
1:08:29
get
1:08:29
to
1:08:29
wake
1:08:30
up
1:08:30
and
1:08:30
be
1:08:31
whatever
1:08:32
version
1:08:32
of
1:08:32
myself
1:08:33
that
1:08:33
I
1:08:33
feel
1:08:33
like
1:08:34
being
1:08:34
in
1:08:34
that
1:08:34
day.
1:08:34
I
1:08:35
am,
1:08:35
like
1:08:35
I
1:08:35
said,
1:08:36
I
1:08:36
am
1:08:36
so
1:08:37
many
1:08:37
different
1:08:37
things.
1:08:38
I'm
1:08:38
not
1:08:39
just
1:08:39
one
1:08:39
thing.
1:08:39
So
1:08:40
if
1:08:40
I
1:08:40
wake
1:08:40
up
1:08:40
and
1:08:41
I'm
1:08:41
feeling
1:08:41
sexy
1:08:42
and
1:08:42
I
1:08:42
want
1:08:42
to
1:08:42
be
1:08:43
that
1:08:43
woman,
1:08:44
On
1:08:44
a
1:08:44
Tuesday,
1:08:45
then
1:08:45
that's
1:08:45
what
1:08:45
I'm
1:08:46
going
1:08:46
to
1:08:46
be.
1:08:46
If
1:08:47
I
1:08:47
want
1:08:47
to
1:08:47
wake
1:08:47
up
1:08:47
and,
1:08:48
you
1:08:49
know,
1:08:49
grind
1:08:50
and
1:08:50
be
1:08:50
a
1:08:50
hustler,
1:08:51
then
1:08:52
that's
1:08:52
what
1:08:52
I'm
1:08:52
going
1:08:52
to
1:08:52
be
1:08:53
that
1:08:53
day.
1:08:53
And
1:08:53
if
1:08:53
I
1:08:53
want
1:08:53
to
1:08:54
be
1:08:54
frivolous
1:08:54
and
1:08:55
carefree
1:08:55
and
1:08:55
book
1:08:56
a
1:08:56
trip
1:08:56
to
1:08:57
Napa
1:08:57
for
1:08:58
the
1:08:58
weekend,
1:08:58
then
1:08:58
that's
1:08:59
who
1:08:59
I'm
1:08:59
going
1:08:59
to
1:08:59
be.
1:09:00
That,
1:09:00
to
1:09:00
me,
1:09:01
probably,
1:09:01
at
1:09:02
my
1:09:02
age,
1:09:02
is
1:09:03
living
1:09:03
iconically.
1:09:04
Yeah,
1:09:04
yeah.
1:09:05
Being
1:09:05
who
1:09:05
you
1:09:05
are
1:09:06
when
1:09:06
you
1:09:06
want
1:09:06
to
1:09:06
be
1:09:06
it.
1:09:07
I
1:09:07
mean,
1:09:07
it's.
1:09:07
There's
1:09:08
nothing
1:09:08
more
1:09:08
freeing
1:09:09
than
1:09:09
being
1:09:10
where
1:09:10
I
1:09:10
am
1:09:10
in
1:09:10
my
1:09:11
life
1:09:11
and
1:09:11
having
1:09:11
the
1:09:11
independence
1:09:12
and
1:09:12
the
1:09:12
freedom
1:09:13
to
1:09:13
wake
1:09:13
up
1:09:13
and
1:09:13
say,
1:09:13
today
1:09:14
I'm
1:09:15
going
1:09:15
to
1:09:15
do
1:09:15
this,
1:09:15
because
1:09:15
I
1:09:16
can.
1:09:16
Yeah.
1:09:17
Little
1:09:17
less
1:09:17
given
1:09:18
every
1:09:18
day,
1:09:18
too.
1:09:20
Less
1:09:20
every
1:09:21
day.
1:09:21
Less
1:09:21
every
1:09:21
day.
1:09:22
One
1:09:22
less
1:09:22
to
1:09:23
give
1:09:23
every
1:09:23
single
1:09:24
day.
1:09:24
They
1:09:24
just
1:09:24
go
1:09:24
out
1:09:24
the
1:09:25
window.
1:09:28
Okay,
1:09:28
so
1:09:29
on
1:09:29
the
1:09:29
iconic
1:09:30
midlife,
1:09:30
we
1:09:30
like
1:09:30
to
1:09:31
play
1:09:31
games.
1:09:31
So
1:09:32
are
1:09:32
you
1:09:32
ready,
1:09:32
girls?
1:09:33
Oh,
1:09:34
let
1:09:34
me
1:09:34
put
1:09:34
on
1:09:34
the
1:09:34
glasses.
1:09:35
Hold
1:09:35
on.
1:09:36
Hold,
1:09:37
please.
1:09:37
Oh,
1:09:38
God.
1:09:38
Okay,
1:09:38
here
1:09:39
we
1:09:39
go.
1:09:39
Game
1:09:39
title.
1:09:40
It's
1:09:40
like
1:09:40
a
1:09:40
speed
1:09:40
situation.
1:09:42
Don't
1:09:42
ask
1:09:42
me,
1:09:42
like,
1:09:42
hard
1:09:43
questions,
1:09:43
then
1:09:43
expect
1:09:44
me
1:09:44
to
1:09:44
answer
1:09:44
like,
1:09:45
give
1:09:46
me.
1:09:46
Everything
1:09:46
you
1:09:47
got,
1:09:47
girl.
1:09:47
This
1:09:48
is
1:09:48
called.
1:09:48
Say
1:09:48
it
1:09:49
like
1:09:49
you
1:09:49
mean
1:09:49
it.
1:09:50
So
1:09:50
I'll
1:09:50
read
1:09:50
a
1:09:51
sentence
1:09:51
with
1:09:51
a
1:09:51
fill
1:09:51
in
1:09:52
the
1:09:52
blank,
1:09:52
and
1:09:52
you
1:09:52
fill
1:09:52
in
1:09:53
the
1:09:53
blank.
1:09:53
I
1:09:54
can
1:09:54
do
1:09:54
that.
1:09:54
Yeah.
1:09:56
All
1:09:56
right.
1:09:56
The
1:09:57
most
1:09:57
overrated
1:09:58
quality
1:09:58
in
1:09:59
a
1:09:59
man
1:09:59
is
1:10:00
blank.
1:10:00
Their
1:10:01
brain.
1:10:04
Starting
1:10:04
off
1:10:04
hot.
1:10:04
I
1:10:05
like
1:10:05
it.
1:10:05
I
1:10:05
like
1:10:05
it.
1:10:09
I'd
1:10:09
rather
1:10:10
walk
1:10:10
barefoot
1:10:11
through
1:10:11
LAX
1:10:12
than
1:10:12
blank.
1:10:13
Date
1:10:13
another
1:10:14
guy
1:10:14
in
1:10:14
la.
1:10:18
I
1:10:18
thought
1:10:18
you
1:10:18
were
1:10:18
gonna
1:10:19
say
1:10:19
drink
1:10:19
champagne.
1:10:20
Oh,
1:10:20
yeah,
1:10:20
I
1:10:20
don't
1:10:20
love
1:10:21
champagne.
1:10:21
Yeah,
1:10:21
you
1:10:21
did.
1:10:23
My
1:10:23
red
1:10:23
flag
1:10:24
in
1:10:24
a
1:10:24
friendship
1:10:25
is.
1:10:25
When
1:10:26
someone
1:10:27
blank
1:10:27
doesn't
1:10:28
celebrate
1:10:28
my
1:10:28
successes.
1:10:30
That's
1:10:30
a
1:10:30
big
1:10:31
one.
1:10:31
That's
1:10:32
red
1:10:32
flag.
1:10:32
That's
1:10:32
a
1:10:33
red
1:10:33
flag.
1:10:34
And
1:10:34
you
1:10:34
can
1:10:34
tell
1:10:35
those
1:10:35
people
1:10:35
right
1:10:35
from
1:10:36
the
1:10:36
get.
1:10:36
Yep.
1:10:37
Right
1:10:37
from
1:10:37
the
1:10:37
get.
1:10:38
Okay.
1:10:39
Power
1:10:40
is
1:10:40
quiet,
1:10:40
desperation
1:10:41
is
1:10:42
blank.
1:10:43
Loud
1:10:43
as
1:10:43
fuck.
1:10:44
You
1:10:44
can
1:10:44
see
1:10:44
it
1:10:44
from
1:10:44
a
1:10:45
mile
1:10:45
away,
1:10:45
can't
1:10:45
you?
1:10:46
Yeah.
1:10:46
Yep,
1:10:46
sure
1:10:47
can.
1:10:47
Yep.
1:10:48
The
1:10:48
last
1:10:48
time
1:10:49
I
1:10:49
ignored
1:10:49
my
1:10:50
gut,
1:10:50
I
1:10:50
ended
1:10:51
up
1:10:51
blank.
1:10:52
I
1:10:52
could
1:10:52
fill
1:10:52
in
1:10:53
a
1:10:53
few
1:10:53
of
1:10:53
those.
1:10:53
Yeah.
1:10:53
I
1:10:54
was
1:10:54
like,
1:10:55
yeah,
1:10:56
my
1:10:56
gut's
1:10:56
usually
1:10:57
right.
1:10:57
And
1:10:57
then
1:10:57
I
1:10:58
just,
1:10:58
like.
1:11:00
I
1:11:00
ended
1:11:01
up
1:11:01
in
1:11:01
a
1:11:01
relationship
1:11:02
much
1:11:02
longer
1:11:02
than
1:11:02
I
1:11:02
should
1:11:03
have
1:11:03
been.
1:11:03
Yeah,
1:11:03
you
1:11:03
did,
1:11:04
kind
1:11:04
of.
1:11:05
I
1:11:05
really
1:11:05
like
1:11:05
to
1:11:06
beat
1:11:06
a
1:11:06
dead
1:11:06
horse.
1:11:07
Just
1:11:08
drag
1:11:08
it
1:11:09
out
1:11:09
right
1:11:09
to
1:11:09
the
1:11:09
bitter
1:11:10
end.
1:11:10
You're
1:11:11
also
1:11:11
very
1:11:11
generous
1:11:12
in
1:11:12
your
1:11:12
relationships,
1:11:13
too.
1:11:13
You
1:11:13
do
1:11:13
give
1:11:14
a
1:11:14
lot
1:11:14
of
1:11:14
yourself.
1:11:14
I
1:11:15
know,
1:11:15
I
1:11:15
know.
1:11:16
Maybe
1:11:16
too
1:11:16
much.
1:11:17
I
1:11:17
mean,
1:11:17
you
1:11:18
know,
1:11:18
we
1:11:18
live
1:11:18
and
1:11:18
learn,
1:11:19
right?
1:11:19
Yeah.
1:11:19
Or
1:11:19
do
1:11:20
we
1:11:21
maybe
1:11:21
not,
1:11:22
like,
1:11:22
actually
1:11:22
delete?
1:11:23
I
1:11:23
do
1:11:24
I
1:11:24
learn
1:11:26
if
1:11:26
a
1:11:26
man
1:11:27
tells
1:11:27
me
1:11:27
he's
1:11:28
intimidated
1:11:28
by
1:11:29
me,
1:11:29
I
1:11:29
blank
1:11:30
run
1:11:31
for
1:11:31
the
1:11:31
hills.
1:11:32
Right?
1:11:32
Yeah.
1:11:32
Yeah.
1:11:33
Can't
1:11:33
do
1:11:34
it.
1:11:34
No
1:11:34
can
1:11:34
do.
1:11:34
I'll
1:11:35
make
1:11:35
time
1:11:35
for
1:11:35
anything
1:11:36
except
1:11:37
blink.
1:11:38
Bad
1:11:38
sex.
1:11:39
Yeah.
1:11:40
Who
1:11:40
has
1:11:40
time
1:11:40
for
1:11:40
that,
1:11:41
right?
1:11:41
No
1:11:41
one.
1:11:41
Not
1:11:42
today.
1:11:42
No.
1:11:43
I
1:11:44
feel
1:11:44
like
1:11:44
you're
1:11:44
on
1:11:44
a
1:11:44
good
1:11:45
trajectory
1:11:45
right
1:11:46
now,
1:11:46
Belle.
1:11:46
You
1:11:46
know,
1:11:48
I
1:11:48
can't
1:11:48
really
1:11:48
think
1:11:49
when
1:11:49
you
1:11:49
had
1:11:50
bad
1:11:50
sex
1:11:50
last.
1:11:51
I
1:11:51
can.
1:11:54
Not
1:11:54
in
1:11:54
the
1:11:55
recent
1:11:55
past,
1:11:56
not
1:11:56
recently.
1:11:57
Yeah,
1:11:57
it's
1:11:57
been
1:11:58
a
1:11:58
minute.
1:11:58
Been
1:11:58
a
1:11:58
minute.
1:11:58
At
1:11:59
this
1:11:59
point
1:11:59
in
1:11:59
my
1:12:00
life,
1:12:00
I
1:12:00
only
1:12:01
chase
1:12:01
blank
1:12:02
peace.
1:12:03
It's
1:12:04
a
1:12:04
big
1:12:04
one.
1:12:04
Peace
1:12:05
makes
1:12:05
you
1:12:05
happy
1:12:06
too,
1:12:06
so
1:12:06
it's
1:12:07
peace.
1:12:08
I
1:12:08
was
1:12:08
listening
1:12:08
to
1:12:08
someone
1:12:09
the
1:12:09
other
1:12:09
day
1:12:09
talk
1:12:09
about
1:12:10
this.
1:12:10
You
1:12:10
know,
1:12:11
the
1:12:11
difference
1:12:11
between
1:12:12
happiness
1:12:14
is,
1:12:14
you
1:12:14
know,
1:12:15
when
1:12:15
you
1:12:15
have
1:12:15
happiness,
1:12:15
that
1:12:16
means
1:12:16
there's
1:12:16
sadness.
1:12:17
That
1:12:17
means
1:12:17
you
1:12:18
have
1:12:18
the
1:12:18
ups
1:12:19
and
1:12:19
the
1:12:19
downs
1:12:19
of
1:12:19
that.
1:12:20
When
1:12:20
there's
1:12:20
peace,
1:12:21
you're
1:12:22
at
1:12:22
like
1:12:22
a
1:12:22
baseline
1:12:23
where
1:12:23
there's
1:12:24
no.
1:12:25
No
1:12:25
fluttering
1:12:25
movements.
1:12:27
I
1:12:27
want
1:12:27
to
1:12:27
be.
1:12:28
I
1:12:28
just
1:12:28
want
1:12:28
to
1:12:28
be
1:12:29
at
1:12:29
peace
1:12:29
to
1:12:29
where
1:12:30
there's
1:12:30
not
1:12:30
a
1:12:30
roller
1:12:31
coaster
1:12:32
of
1:12:32
highs
1:12:33
and
1:12:33
lows.
1:12:33
That's
1:12:34
life.
1:12:34
It's
1:12:34
going
1:12:34
to
1:12:35
happen.
1:12:35
But
1:12:35
when
1:12:35
you're
1:12:35
at
1:12:35
peace
1:12:36
with
1:12:36
yourself,
1:12:37
it
1:12:37
makes
1:12:37
it
1:12:38
much
1:12:38
easier
1:12:38
to
1:12:38
sort
1:12:38
of
1:12:38
tolerate
1:12:39
the
1:12:39
inconsistencies
1:12:40
of
1:12:41
others.
1:12:41
Yes.
1:12:41
In
1:12:42
the
1:12:42
external.
1:12:42
All
1:12:43
the
1:12:43
things.
1:12:43
Right.
1:12:43
Correct.
1:12:45
If
1:12:45
you
1:12:46
want
1:12:46
to
1:12:46
impress
1:12:46
me,
1:12:47
don't
1:12:47
bring
1:12:47
flowers.
1:12:48
Bring
1:12:49
blank
1:12:49
tacos.
1:12:51
Easy
1:12:51
answer.
1:12:52
Taco
1:12:52
Bell.
1:12:53
Just
1:12:53
tacos.
1:12:54
I
1:12:54
mean,
1:12:55
you.
1:12:56
You
1:12:56
show
1:12:56
up
1:12:56
outside
1:12:57
of
1:12:57
my
1:12:57
house
1:12:57
in
1:12:57
a
1:12:57
dark
1:12:58
van.
1:12:58
If
1:12:58
you
1:12:58
open
1:12:58
the
1:12:59
door
1:12:59
and
1:12:59
there's
1:12:59
like
1:12:59
tacos
1:13:00
inside
1:13:00
and
1:13:01
a
1:13:01
margarita,
1:13:01
like,
1:13:01
I
1:13:02
am
1:13:02
it,
1:13:03
you're
1:13:03
in.
1:13:03
That's
1:13:03
it.
1:13:04
That's.
1:13:04
That's
1:13:04
actually
1:13:05
the
1:13:05
way
1:13:05
to
1:13:05
your
1:13:05
heart.
1:13:06
Yeah.
1:13:06
Yeah.
1:13:06
So
1:13:07
true.
1:13:07
Tacos
1:13:07
and
1:13:08
margaritas.
1:13:08
I
1:13:08
mean,
1:13:09
sounds
1:13:09
good
1:13:09
for
1:13:10
today,
1:13:10
doesn't
1:13:10
it?
1:13:10
Should
1:13:10
move
1:13:11
to
1:13:11
Mexico.
1:13:13
Being
1:13:14
quote
1:13:14
unquote,
1:13:15
too
1:13:15
much
1:13:16
is
1:13:16
just
1:13:16
code
1:13:17
for
1:13:17
blank.
1:13:18
An
1:13:18
insecure
1:13:18
person.
1:13:19
Whoever.
1:13:19
Whoever
1:13:20
said
1:13:20
that.
1:13:21
Basically,
1:13:22
whoever's
1:13:22
saying
1:13:23
that
1:13:23
to
1:13:23
you
1:13:23
is
1:13:23
insecure.
1:13:25
Okay,
1:13:26
Mary
1:13:26
Fuck
1:13:26
Hill.
1:13:27
Oh,
1:13:27
I
1:13:27
love
1:13:28
this
1:13:28
one.
1:13:29
Dorit
1:13:29
Kemsley.
1:13:30
Kyle
1:13:30
Richards
1:13:31
or
1:13:31
Erika
1:13:32
Jayne?
1:13:32
Well,
1:13:32
after.
1:13:34
So
1:13:34
I'm
1:13:35
a
1:13:35
lesbian.
1:13:35
Yeah.
1:13:35
Now
1:13:36
you're
1:13:36
a
1:13:36
10
1:13:36
year
1:13:36
lesbian.
1:13:37
Today.
1:13:38
Oh,
1:13:38
my
1:13:38
God.
1:13:40
Okay,
1:13:40
well,
1:13:40
I
1:13:41
guess
1:13:41
I
1:13:41
have
1:13:41
to
1:13:41
kill
1:13:41
Dorit.
1:13:42
Cause
1:13:42
we
1:13:42
had
1:13:42
a
1:13:42
spat
1:13:43
about
1:13:44
my
1:13:44
hairstylist.
1:13:47
I
1:13:48
think
1:13:49
I
1:13:49
would
1:13:51
fuck
1:13:51
Erika
1:13:52
Jayne
1:13:52
and
1:13:52
marry
1:13:53
Kyle.
1:13:54
But
1:13:54
although
1:13:55
I
1:13:55
feel
1:13:55
like
1:13:55
Erika
1:13:56
and
1:13:56
I
1:13:56
would
1:13:57
maybe
1:13:57
have
1:13:57
a
1:13:58
great
1:13:58
marriage
1:13:58
together.
1:13:59
We
1:13:59
could
1:13:59
have
1:13:59
like
1:13:59
boyfriends
1:14:00
on
1:14:00
the
1:14:00
side.
1:14:00
I
1:14:01
don't
1:14:01
know,
1:14:03
we
1:14:03
be
1:14:03
like
1:14:03
hot.
1:14:04
Yeah.
1:14:04
Yeah.
1:14:04
Okay.
1:14:05
I
1:14:05
might
1:14:05
change
1:14:05
my
1:14:05
answer.
1:14:05
I
1:14:06
might
1:14:06
fuck
1:14:06
Kyle
1:14:07
because,
1:14:07
you
1:14:07
know,
1:14:08
she
1:14:08
might
1:14:08
be
1:14:08
good
1:14:08
at
1:14:08
It.
1:14:09
She
1:14:09
could
1:14:10
be,
1:14:10
like,
1:14:10
excellent.
1:14:11
So
1:14:11
that
1:14:12
actually
1:14:12
is
1:14:12
a
1:14:12
great
1:14:12
choice.
1:14:13
And
1:14:13
then
1:14:13
I'm
1:14:14
marrying
1:14:15
Erica,
1:14:15
and
1:14:16
we're
1:14:16
gonna
1:14:16
have,
1:14:16
like,
1:14:16
a
1:14:16
fabulous
1:14:17
sex
1:14:17
life.
1:14:18
Yes.
1:14:18
Yes.
1:14:18
So
1:14:18
that'd
1:14:18
be
1:14:19
good.
1:14:19
You
1:14:19
can
1:14:19
always
1:14:19
have
1:14:19
your
1:14:19
side
1:14:20
pieces,
1:14:20
you
1:14:20
know?
1:14:20
Yeah,
1:14:21
she'd
1:14:21
be
1:14:21
totally
1:14:21
down
1:14:21
with
1:14:22
that.
1:14:22
Yeah.
1:14:22
Oh,
1:14:22
by
1:14:23
the
1:14:23
way,
1:14:23
I've
1:14:23
come
1:14:23
up
1:14:23
with
1:14:24
a
1:14:24
good
1:14:24
tagline
1:14:25
in
1:14:25
case
1:14:25
you
1:14:25
want
1:14:26
to
1:14:26
go
1:14:26
the
1:14:26
Real
1:14:26
Housewives
1:14:27
of
1:14:27
Beverly
1:14:27
Hills
1:14:27
route.
1:14:28
Oh,
1:14:28
really?
1:14:29
Why
1:14:29
is
1:14:29
everyone
1:14:30
still
1:14:30
talking
1:14:30
about
1:14:30
this?
1:14:31
Okay,
1:14:31
what
1:14:32
is
1:14:32
the.
1:14:32
Cause
1:14:32
I'm
1:14:33
envisioning
1:14:33
it.
1:14:33
I
1:14:34
think
1:14:34
it
1:14:34
could
1:14:34
be
1:14:35
a
1:14:35
good
1:14:35
thing.
1:14:35
Okay,
1:14:36
ready?
1:14:36
I
1:14:37
don't
1:14:37
compete.
1:14:38
I
1:14:38
close.
1:14:42
What
1:14:42
do
1:14:43
you
1:14:43
think
1:14:43
about
1:14:43
that?
1:14:43
Wow.
1:14:43
That's
1:14:43
really
1:14:44
creative.
1:14:44
Roxy.
1:14:47
Yeah?
1:14:47
What
1:14:47
would
1:14:48
your
1:14:48
tagline
1:14:48
be?
1:14:49
I
1:14:49
don't
1:14:49
know,
1:14:49
man.
1:14:50
I
1:14:50
haven't
1:14:50
thought
1:14:50
about
1:14:51
it.
1:14:51
Haven't
1:14:51
thought
1:14:52
about
1:14:52
it.
1:14:52
Something
1:14:52
about
1:14:52
the
1:14:52
game.
1:14:54
I
1:14:54
don't
1:14:54
know.
1:14:55
I'll
1:14:55
come
1:14:55
back
1:14:55
to
1:14:55
you.
1:14:56
Okay.
1:14:56
Do
1:14:57
that.
1:14:57
Yeah.
1:14:58
Okay.
1:14:59
So
1:14:59
the
1:14:59
most
1:14:59
savage
1:15:00
thing
1:15:00
I've
1:15:01
ever
1:15:01
done
1:15:02
with
1:15:02
zero
1:15:02
regrets,
1:15:03
is
1:15:04
or
1:15:04
was
1:15:05
blank.
1:15:05
Like,
1:15:05
how
1:15:06
many
1:15:06
years
1:15:06
are
1:15:06
we
1:15:06
talking?
1:15:07
I
1:15:07
mean,
1:15:07
it
1:15:07
could
1:15:07
be
1:15:07
span
1:15:08
of
1:15:08
a
1:15:08
life.
1:15:09
Yes.
1:15:09
It
1:15:09
could
1:15:10
be
1:15:10
the
1:15:10
most
1:15:10
savage
1:15:11
thing
1:15:11
I've
1:15:11
ever
1:15:11
done.
1:15:12
Most
1:15:12
savage.
1:15:15
It's
1:15:16
a
1:15:16
lot
1:15:16
of
1:15:16
pressure.
1:15:19
I've
1:15:19
definitely
1:15:20
confronted
1:15:20
a
1:15:20
few
1:15:20
chicks
1:15:21
in
1:15:21
my
1:15:21
day.
1:15:22
Yes,
1:15:22
you
1:15:23
have.
1:15:24
When
1:15:25
the
1:15:25
girl
1:15:25
tried
1:15:25
to
1:15:25
break
1:15:26
into
1:15:26
my
1:15:26
sister's
1:15:27
house
1:15:27
and
1:15:27
steal
1:15:27
all
1:15:28
of
1:15:28
her
1:15:28
stuff.
1:15:28
Oh,
1:15:29
my
1:15:29
God.
1:15:29
Yes.
1:15:30
And
1:15:31
I
1:15:31
yanked
1:15:32
her
1:15:32
out
1:15:32
of
1:15:32
the
1:15:32
closet
1:15:33
and
1:15:33
threw
1:15:33
her
1:15:33
down
1:15:33
the
1:15:34
stairs,
1:15:35
as
1:15:35
one
1:15:35
does.
1:15:36
Then
1:15:36
she
1:15:36
pulled
1:15:37
half
1:15:37
my
1:15:37
hair
1:15:37
out
1:15:37
of
1:15:37
my
1:15:38
head.
1:15:38
That
1:15:38
was
1:15:39
pretty
1:15:39
savage.
1:15:39
Yeah,
1:15:40
that
1:15:40
was
1:15:40
pretty
1:15:40
savage.
1:15:41
I
1:15:41
mean,
1:15:42
took
1:15:42
my
1:15:42
earrings
1:15:43
out.
1:15:45
You
1:15:45
can't
1:15:45
lose
1:15:45
earrings.
1:15:46
I
1:15:46
was,
1:15:46
like,
1:15:46
in
1:15:46
my
1:15:47
early
1:15:47
20s.
1:15:48
Yeah.
1:15:49
I
1:15:49
mean,
1:15:49
I've
1:15:49
done
1:15:49
a
1:15:49
lot
1:15:50
of
1:15:50
savage
1:15:50
things.
1:15:51
Can
1:15:51
you
1:15:51
think
1:15:51
of
1:15:51
one
1:15:52
that
1:15:52
I've
1:15:52
done?
1:15:52
I
1:15:53
mean,
1:15:53
you've
1:15:53
known
1:15:53
me
1:15:53
long
1:15:54
enough.
1:15:55
I
1:15:55
feel
1:15:55
like.
1:15:56
What's,
1:15:57
like,
1:15:57
the
1:15:57
most
1:15:58
savage?
1:15:59
I
1:15:59
mean,
1:15:59
I've
1:15:59
smoked
1:15:59
a
1:16:00
lot
1:16:00
of
1:16:00
pot.
1:16:00
You're
1:16:00
asking
1:16:00
me
1:16:01
to
1:16:01
remember
1:16:01
a
1:16:01
long
1:16:01
time.
1:16:02
Yeah,
1:16:03
it's
1:16:03
a
1:16:03
long
1:16:03
time.
1:16:05
Maybe
1:16:06
my
1:16:06
bachelorette
1:16:07
party,
1:16:07
There
1:16:07
were
1:16:07
a
1:16:07
couple
1:16:08
savage
1:16:08
moments.
1:16:10
Maybe
1:16:11
without
1:16:12
giving.
1:16:13
Without
1:16:13
giving
1:16:13
too
1:16:14
much
1:16:14
away.
1:16:16
That
1:16:16
actually
1:16:16
was
1:16:16
pretty
1:16:16
savage.
1:16:17
That
1:16:17
was
1:16:17
very
1:16:17
savage.
1:16:19
Yes.
1:16:19
The
1:16:19
art
1:16:19
piece.
1:16:20
The
1:16:21
art
1:16:21
piece
1:16:21
giveth
1:16:23
in
1:16:23
ways
1:16:23
we
1:16:23
never
1:16:24
thought.
1:16:25
So
1:16:25
weird.
1:16:25
It's
1:16:26
so
1:16:26
weird.
1:16:26
That
1:16:26
was
1:16:26
pretty
1:16:28
strange.
1:16:28
Savage.
1:16:29
Whatever
1:16:29
you
1:16:29
want
1:16:29
to
1:16:30
call
1:16:30
it,
1:16:30
right?
1:16:31
Was.
1:16:32
Yeah.
1:16:32
Okay.
1:16:33
Tracy,
1:16:33
Elaine,
1:16:33
any
1:16:34
parting
1:16:34
words?
1:16:35
I
1:16:36
love
1:16:36
you.
1:16:36
It's
1:16:37
so
1:16:37
easy
1:16:37
talking.
1:16:37
I
1:16:38
could
1:16:38
do
1:16:38
an
1:16:38
interview
1:16:38
with
1:16:38
you
1:16:39
all
1:16:39
day.
1:16:39
All
1:16:39
day.
1:16:40
I
1:16:40
mean,
1:16:40
by
1:16:40
the
1:16:41
way,
1:16:41
am
1:16:41
I
1:16:41
like,
1:16:41
your
1:16:42
first
1:16:42
interview?
1:16:44
You're
1:16:44
not,
1:16:44
but
1:16:44
you're
1:16:45
definitely
1:16:45
probably
1:16:45
my
1:16:46
most
1:16:46
Favorite.
1:16:46
Rude.
1:16:47
Rude.
1:16:48
Rude.
1:16:49
I
1:16:50
mean,
1:16:50
it's
1:16:50
like,
1:16:51
definitely
1:16:51
easy.
1:16:52
Definitely
1:16:53
easy.
1:16:54
Definitely
1:16:54
easy.
1:16:55
Okay,
1:16:55
tell
1:16:55
everybody
1:16:56
where
1:16:56
they
1:16:56
can
1:16:56
find
1:16:57
you.
1:16:57
As
1:16:57
if
1:16:57
they
1:16:57
can't.
1:16:58
You
1:16:58
can
1:16:58
find
1:16:59
me@tracytutor.com.
1:17:00
if
1:17:00
you're
1:17:00
looking
1:17:01
to
1:17:02
potentially
1:17:02
buy
1:17:02
or
1:17:02
sell
1:17:02
any
1:17:03
real
1:17:03
estate
1:17:03
in
1:17:03
California,
1:17:04
Texas
1:17:04
or
1:17:05
abroad,
1:17:06
you
1:17:06
can
1:17:06
find
1:17:06
me
1:17:06
on
1:17:07
Instagram
1:17:07
@tracytutor.
1:17:09
TikTok.
1:17:09
Tracytutor.
1:17:11
I
1:17:11
don't
1:17:11
really
1:17:11
do
1:17:11
LinkedIn,
1:17:12
but
1:17:12
you
1:17:12
can
1:17:12
find
1:17:12
me
1:17:12
there
1:17:12
too.
1:17:14
Wait,
1:17:14
are
1:17:14
you
1:17:14
thinking
1:17:15
international
1:17:16
sales
1:17:16
now?
1:17:17
I
1:17:17
mean,
1:17:17
I
1:17:17
have
1:17:18
done
1:17:18
some
1:17:18
international
1:17:18
stuff.
1:17:19
I've
1:17:19
done
1:17:19
some
1:17:19
stuff
1:17:19
in
1:17:19
Mexico
1:17:21
and
1:17:21
done
1:17:21
some
1:17:22
stuff
1:17:22
in
1:17:22
Dubai.
1:17:22
London
1:17:23
should
1:17:23
be
1:17:23
kind
1:17:23
of
1:17:23
interesting.
1:17:24
Yeah,
1:17:24
I
1:17:25
kind
1:17:25
of
1:17:25
want
1:17:25
to
1:17:25
move
1:17:25
to
1:17:25
London.
1:17:27
Is
1:17:27
this
1:17:28
a
1:17:28
newer
1:17:28
development?
1:17:29
Yeah.
1:17:29
Oh,
1:17:29
and
1:17:30
when
1:17:30
were
1:17:30
you
1:17:30
thinking?
1:17:31
Well,
1:17:31
I
1:17:31
can't
1:17:31
do
1:17:31
it
1:17:31
for
1:17:31
a
1:17:31
few
1:17:32
years.
1:17:32
Scarlett
1:17:32
has
1:17:32
to
1:17:32
graduate.
1:17:33
Right.
1:17:34
But
1:17:35
like,
1:17:35
how
1:17:35
fabulous
1:17:36
it
1:17:36
would
1:17:36
be
1:17:36
if
1:17:36
I
1:17:36
had
1:17:36
a
1:17:36
flat
1:17:37
in
1:17:37
London.
1:17:37
I
1:17:37
mean,
1:17:37
it
1:17:37
would
1:17:38
be
1:17:38
fun
1:17:38
for
1:17:38
us.
1:17:38
It
1:17:38
would
1:17:39
be
1:17:39
fun.
1:17:39
I
1:17:39
mean,
1:17:39
we
1:17:40
could
1:17:40
just,
1:17:40
you
1:17:41
know,
1:17:41
do
1:17:41
London.
1:17:42
Wouldn't
1:17:42
I
1:17:43
be
1:17:43
amazing
1:17:43
in.
1:17:44
I'd
1:17:44
be
1:17:44
like
1:17:44
a
1:17:44
10.
1:17:45
It
1:17:45
would
1:17:45
be.
1:17:45
Yeah,
1:17:46
that
1:17:46
would
1:17:46
be
1:17:46
like
1:17:46
a
1:17:46
10
1:17:47
life.
1:17:47
It
1:17:47
would
1:17:47
be
1:17:48
literally
1:17:49
a
1:17:49
10.
1:17:49
Yeah.
1:17:50
I've
1:17:50
lived
1:17:50
here
1:17:50
my
1:17:50
whole
1:17:51
life.
1:17:51
Maybe
1:17:51
it's
1:17:52
time
1:17:52
to
1:17:52
like,
1:17:52
shake
1:17:52
a
1:17:53
tail
1:17:53
feather
1:17:53
and
1:17:53
like
1:17:53
go
1:17:54
check
1:17:54
out
1:17:54
like
1:17:54
another
1:17:55
place.
1:17:56
Country.
1:17:56
Yeah,
1:17:57
that
1:17:57
is
1:17:57
true.
1:17:58
Now
1:17:58
that
1:17:58
I'm
1:17:58
thinking
1:17:58
about
1:17:58
it.
1:17:59
You
1:17:59
have
1:17:59
always
1:18:00
never
1:18:00
left
1:18:00
California.
1:18:01
I've
1:18:01
been
1:18:02
here
1:18:02
since
1:18:02
birth.
1:18:04
Why
1:18:04
didn't
1:18:05
you
1:18:05
move
1:18:05
with
1:18:05
all
1:18:05
of
1:18:05
us
1:18:06
when
1:18:06
we
1:18:06
all
1:18:06
lived
1:18:06
in
1:18:06
New
1:18:06
York?
1:18:07
Because
1:18:07
I
1:18:07
was
1:18:07
an
1:18:07
actress
1:18:08
at
1:18:08
the
1:18:08
time.
1:18:09
Yeah,
1:18:09
you
1:18:09
can
1:18:09
act
1:18:09
in
1:18:09
New
1:18:09
York.
1:18:10
Not,
1:18:10
I
1:18:10
mean,
1:18:11
not
1:18:11
when
1:18:11
you're
1:18:11
graduating
1:18:12
from
1:18:12
college
1:18:12
with
1:18:12
a
1:18:12
theater
1:18:13
degree.
1:18:13
Like,
1:18:13
you
1:18:13
have
1:18:13
to
1:18:13
like
1:18:14
audition
1:18:14
and
1:18:14
do
1:18:14
all
1:18:14
of
1:18:15
that
1:18:15
shit
1:18:15
here.
1:18:15
It's
1:18:16
like
1:18:16
where
1:18:16
the
1:18:16
business
1:18:17
was.
1:18:17
Yeah.
1:18:18
So
1:18:18
you
1:18:18
just.
1:18:19
That
1:18:19
was
1:18:19
kind
1:18:19
of
1:18:19
the
1:18:19
driving.
1:18:21
Yeah.
1:18:21
I
1:18:21
mean,
1:18:22
I
1:18:22
kind
1:18:22
of
1:18:23
see
1:18:23
you
1:18:23
maybe
1:18:24
in
1:18:24
London.
1:18:25
Yeah,
1:18:25
right.
1:18:25
Uh
1:18:26
huh
1:18:26
huh.
1:18:27
I
1:18:27
can't
1:18:27
learn
1:18:27
a
1:18:27
new
1:18:27
language.
1:18:28
I
1:18:28
mean,
1:18:29
it's
1:18:29
too
1:18:29
hard.
1:18:30
It's
1:18:30
not
1:18:30
my
1:18:31
forte.
1:18:31
I've
1:18:32
been
1:18:32
speaking
1:18:32
Spanish
1:18:33
my
1:18:33
whole
1:18:33
life
1:18:33
and
1:18:33
I
1:18:34
still
1:18:34
need
1:18:34
three
1:18:34
coronas
1:18:35
to
1:18:35
like,
1:18:35
like,
1:18:35
like
1:18:36
get
1:18:36
out.
1:18:36
Like
1:18:36
any
1:18:37
sort
1:18:37
of
1:18:37
conjugation.
1:18:38
I
1:18:38
mean,
1:18:38
what
1:18:38
about
1:18:39
Texas
1:18:39
though?
1:18:39
You
1:18:39
kind
1:18:40
of
1:18:40
said
1:18:40
maybe.
1:18:40
Texas,
1:18:41
Love
1:18:42
maybe.
1:18:42
Is
1:18:42
that
1:18:43
still
1:18:43
a
1:18:43
possibility
1:18:44
there?
1:18:44
If
1:18:45
there
1:18:45
is
1:18:45
a
1:18:45
cowboy
1:18:45
in
1:18:46
my
1:18:46
future,
1:18:46
then
1:18:46
I
1:18:46
am
1:18:46
open
1:18:47
to
1:18:47
that
1:18:47
possibility.
1:18:49
So
1:18:49
also
1:18:50
the
1:18:50
show,
1:18:51
like,
1:18:52
what's
1:18:52
happening?
1:18:52
We're
1:18:53
on
1:18:53
pause.
1:18:53
I
1:18:53
mean,
1:18:54
I
1:18:54
think,
1:18:54
you
1:18:54
know,
1:18:54
for
1:18:55
the
1:18:55
time
1:18:55
being.
1:18:56
I
1:18:56
was
1:18:56
talking
1:18:56
to
1:18:56
Bryce
1:18:57
Sander
1:18:57
about
1:18:57
this
1:18:57
the
1:18:58
other
1:18:58
day.
1:18:58
For
1:18:58
the
1:18:59
time
1:18:59
being,
1:18:59
we're
1:18:59
on
1:19:00
pause.
1:19:00
I
1:19:00
love
1:19:00
those
1:19:01
boys.
1:19:01
I.
1:19:02
I
1:19:02
could
1:19:02
see
1:19:02
us
1:19:02
all
1:19:03
coming
1:19:03
back
1:19:03
together
1:19:03
and
1:19:04
doing
1:19:04
something
1:19:04
again.
1:19:05
I
1:19:05
don't
1:19:05
know
1:19:05
if
1:19:06
and
1:19:06
when
1:19:06
that
1:19:06
will
1:19:07
ever
1:19:07
happen,
1:19:07
but,
1:19:08
you
1:19:08
know,
1:19:08
life's
1:19:09
sort
1:19:09
of
1:19:09
an
1:19:09
open,
1:19:11
exciting
1:19:12
time
1:19:12
right
1:19:12
now.
1:19:13
I
1:19:13
don't
1:19:13
know
1:19:13
what's
1:19:14
gonna
1:19:14
happen.
1:19:14
I
1:19:14
don't
1:19:14
know
1:19:14
what
1:19:15
is
1:19:15
gonna
1:19:15
be
1:19:15
in
1:19:15
front
1:19:16
of
1:19:16
me
1:19:16
next,
1:19:16
but
1:19:16
I
1:19:16
welcome
1:19:17
it.
1:19:17
I
1:19:17
welcome
1:19:17
it
1:19:18
all.
1:19:18
Are
1:19:18
you
1:19:18
thinking
1:19:18
maybe
1:19:19
more
1:19:19
reality
1:19:19
tv?
1:19:20
Who
1:19:20
knows?
1:19:21
You're
1:19:21
open.
1:19:22
You're
1:19:22
open.
1:19:22
I
1:19:22
think
1:19:22
I
1:19:23
really
1:19:23
am.
1:19:23
I
1:19:23
think,
1:19:24
like,
1:19:24
what
1:19:24
is
1:19:25
going
1:19:25
to
1:19:25
come
1:19:25
to
1:19:26
me
1:19:26
is
1:19:26
going
1:19:27
to
1:19:27
be
1:19:27
meant
1:19:27
for
1:19:28
me,
1:19:28
and.
1:19:29
And
1:19:29
that's
1:19:29
how
1:19:30
I'm
1:19:30
gonna
1:19:30
live.
1:19:31
That's
1:19:31
the
1:19:31
great
1:19:31
way
1:19:32
to
1:19:32
manifest,
1:19:32
too,
1:19:32
is
1:19:33
just
1:19:33
being
1:19:33
open
1:19:33
like
1:19:34
that,
1:19:34
Right?
1:19:34
Like
1:19:35
letting.
1:19:35
Letting
1:19:35
opportunities
1:19:36
come.
1:19:37
Yeah.
1:19:37
Okay,
1:19:38
well,
1:19:39
I
1:19:39
expect
1:19:39
to
1:19:40
see
1:19:40
your
1:19:40
ass
1:19:40
back
1:19:40
on
1:19:41
this
1:19:41
couch
1:19:41
very
1:19:41
soon,
1:19:41
Ms.
1:19:42
Tracy.
1:19:42
Elaine,
1:19:43
let's
1:19:43
just
1:19:43
do
1:19:43
like
1:19:43
a
1:19:43
weekly.
1:19:44
Yes.
1:19:46
Oh,
1:19:46
my
1:19:46
God.
1:19:46
Special
1:19:47
guest
1:19:47
Tracy
1:19:47
Tudor
1:19:48
interfering
1:19:48
in
1:19:49
her
1:19:49
friend
1:19:49
Roxy's
1:19:49
podcast
1:19:50
just
1:19:51
to
1:19:51
talk
1:19:51
shit
1:19:52
to
1:19:52
all
1:19:52
the
1:19:52
guests.
1:19:53
We
1:19:53
love
1:19:54
it
1:19:54
anytime.
1:19:55
We
1:19:55
love
1:19:56
Tracy.
1:19:57
I
1:19:57
love
1:19:57
you,
1:19:58
baby.
1:19:58
I
1:19:58
love
1:19:58
you,
1:19:58
too.
1:19:59
That
1:20:00
conversation
1:20:01
was
1:20:01
everything.
1:20:02
Tracy
1:20:03
doesn't
1:20:03
just
1:20:04
speak
1:20:04
the
1:20:04
truth,
1:20:05
she
1:20:05
lives
1:20:05
it.
1:20:06
She's
1:20:06
a
1:20:06
woman
1:20:07
who
1:20:07
has
1:20:07
built
1:20:07
her
1:20:08
power
1:20:08
brick
1:20:08
by
1:20:08
brick,
1:20:09
heartbreak
1:20:10
by
1:20:10
breakthrough,
1:20:11
and
1:20:11
she's
1:20:12
done
1:20:12
it
1:20:12
all
1:20:12
while
1:20:12
staying
1:20:13
completely
1:20:14
fiercely
1:20:14
herself.
1:20:16
If
1:20:16
there's
1:20:16
one
1:20:16
thing
1:20:17
we
1:20:17
should
1:20:17
all
1:20:17
take
1:20:17
from
1:20:18
this
1:20:18
episode,
1:20:19
it's
1:20:19
this.
1:20:19
This.
1:20:20
You
1:20:20
don't
1:20:21
have
1:20:21
to
1:20:21
shrink
1:20:21
to
1:20:22
succeed.
1:20:22
You
1:20:23
don't
1:20:23
have
1:20:23
to
1:20:23
soften
1:20:24
to
1:20:24
be
1:20:24
seen.
1:20:24
And
1:20:25
you
1:20:25
don't
1:20:25
have
1:20:25
to
1:20:26
explain
1:20:26
your
1:20:26
standards
1:20:27
to
1:20:27
anyone.
1:20:28
So
1:20:29
be
1:20:29
sure
1:20:29
to
1:20:29
follow
1:20:29
the
1:20:29
iconic
1:20:30
Midlife
1:20:31
wherever
1:20:31
you
1:20:31
get
1:20:31
your
1:20:31
podcasts.
1:20:32
And
1:20:33
watch
1:20:33
the
1:20:33
full
1:20:33
unfiltered
1:20:34
video
1:20:35
episode
1:20:35
on
1:20:35
YouTube
1:20:36
tomorrow,
1:20:37
follow
1:20:37
us
1:20:38
on
1:20:38
Social
1:20:38
at
1:20:38
the
1:20:38
iconic
1:20:39
Midlife
1:20:39
and
1:20:40
me
1:20:40
radcarvetroxy
1:20:42
for
1:20:42
more
1:20:42
bold,
1:20:42
brilliant
1:20:43
midlife
1:20:44
realness.
1:20:44
Until
1:20:45
next
1:20:45
time,
1:20:46
Walk
1:20:46
in
1:20:46
like
1:20:47
you
1:20:47
own
1:20:47
the
1:20:47
place,
1:20:48
because
1:20:48
you
1:20:48
probably
1:20:49
do.