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Dirty Little Secret:I’m Getting Married… But I Still Love Him” · Billy The Kidd In The Morning

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  Speaker 1: First is Dirty Little Secret.
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  Speaker 2: Makes one or two point nine.
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  Speaker 3: It's pail like a kid, Candislow pass, she's here, producer, pooh,
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  Speaker 3: he's here, and then got Cannas is back.
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  Speaker 2: She was gone yesterday and sorry the man who if
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  Speaker 2: you were gone today, I was gonna call him sick.
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  Speaker 2: He's not that bad.
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  Speaker 3: No, Pooh, I love, I mean pooh. We've been friends
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  Speaker 3: for twenty six years. We've worked together for twenty six years. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: there's just.
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  Speaker 2: Certain things people can do, and there' certain things people can't. Sure, okay,
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  Speaker 2: and that's for all things.
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  Speaker 3: He just does. You just do all the things he can't, okay.
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  Speaker 3: So that's what we learned yesterday, Dirty Little Secret. He
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  Speaker 3: tried to do text his top stories, and it sounded
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  Speaker 3: like two high tops in a dryer.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, that's what it sounded like right there. I'm sorry
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  Speaker 2: I missed that.
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  Speaker 3: He picked every story about food and one story about Hooters.
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  Speaker 2: So, I mean, there's this kind of food. It's a
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  Speaker 2: niche audience, but I'm sure they wanted to know. As
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  Speaker 2: they had to say in the core professional world, we
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  Speaker 2: had to pivot.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, if you've got a secret eight three three seven,
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  Speaker 3: eight seven one two nine okay, dirty little secret, whatever
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  Speaker 3: that is, just you know, confess to us, get it
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  Speaker 3: off your chest.
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  Speaker 2: And you got one.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, I have a secret that literally nobody in my
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  Speaker 1: life talks about at this point, Like my family knows
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  Speaker 1: to not bring it up because they know it just
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  Speaker 1: makes me super emotional. And now I'm engaged and I'm
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  Speaker 1: so happy. I love my fiance and we're planning this
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  Speaker 1: beautiful wedding. And the problem is he has no idea
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  Speaker 1: that I was married before.
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  Speaker 3: Oh you were okay, so you were married before. You're
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  Speaker 3: so you're engaged to him, so you're about to be married,
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  Speaker 3: but he doesn't know you were ever ever married before
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  Speaker 3: at all.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah. I never told him, and before everybody starts freaking out.
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  Speaker 1: Just I know it's insane, but it's complicated. I got
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  Speaker 1: married right out of heighth to my high school sweetheart,
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  Speaker 1: and I was totally in love with him. And shortly
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  Speaker 1: after we got married, he his addiction got worse and worse,
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  Speaker 1: and I tried everything. I tried rehab, I tried helping
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  Speaker 1: him get jobs. I just stayed up all night worrying,
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  Speaker 1: crying and begging him, trying to, you know, save him
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  Speaker 1: from himself. And I just I couldn't. I realized eventually
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  Speaker 1: that I couldn't save him because he didn't want to
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  Speaker 1: save himself.
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  Speaker 2: You know, so is he did he pass or was
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  Speaker 2: he still alive?
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  Speaker 1: No, he's still alive. We just haven't talked in years.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, So for a minute, it sounded like you might
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  Speaker 2: have passed away.
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  Speaker 1: You just really couldn't save himself from the addiction.
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  Speaker 2: Right, so you had to choose yourself and walk away. Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, we ended up getting divorced because I just couldn't
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  Speaker 1: deal with it anymore. And the worst part of all this,
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  Speaker 1: the part that nobody knows, not anyone in my family
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  Speaker 1: or anybody else, is deep down I really believe that
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  Speaker 1: he'll always be my one true love, the love of
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  Speaker 1: my life.
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  Speaker 2: I just what you really so well?
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  Speaker 3: I mean, you obviously love your fiance now, but deep
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  Speaker 3: down inside you feel like he was your true or
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  Speaker 3: is your true love.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean not who he is now, not who
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  Speaker 1: he became, but who he used to be. That version
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  Speaker 1: of him that's gone now that I've had to accept
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  Speaker 1: that's gone, Like that person is the love of my life.
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  Speaker 1: And it feels like I've had to grieve someone dying,
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  Speaker 1: even though he's still alive, and he's I don't know,
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  Speaker 1: he just he struggles so badly with addiction. And I
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  Speaker 1: still keep in touch with his mom. So it's something
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  Speaker 1: that like my fiance has no idea about, of course, right.
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  Speaker 3: But and I get that you feel like the person
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  Speaker 3: that you were in love with is kind of dead
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  Speaker 3: in no way, Yeah, is kind of you are kind
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  Speaker 3: of grieving really because that person that you fell in
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  Speaker 3: love with doesn't exist right now. We had one of
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  Speaker 3: these not too long, agore. Remember do you remember the
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  Speaker 3: one the guy called up where his ex got sober
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  Speaker 3: right and wanted him back back into the light her
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  Speaker 3: life or whatever, and they ended up getting together and
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  Speaker 3: they're still together right now.
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  Speaker 2: He dumped the girl that he was with.
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  Speaker 3: It was a similar situation where this guy, his ex
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  Speaker 3: was an alcoholic. She calls him up one day. He's
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  Speaker 3: already living with another woman and she's like, listen, I'm sober.
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  Speaker 3: I'm sorry. He ends up dumping his girlfriend that he
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  Speaker 3: was living with. I mean, this all happened with Damember.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah. Kind of messy.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, but he left right away and went remember we
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  Speaker 3: had him on the air, Yeah, and proposed to her.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, right, do you think about that at all. What
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  Speaker 2: if he were different today?
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  Speaker 1: I do, but I just he's nowhere close to even
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  Speaker 1: making those changes.
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  Speaker 3: I'm telling you, though, Let's say he does, because this
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  Speaker 3: is the same thing this guy said.
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  Speaker 2: Let's say this.
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  Speaker 3: Guy figures out his life and he sobers up, and
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  Speaker 3: you're in game, aged, you're not married yet. He calls
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  Speaker 3: you and he says, I'm so sorry. I am the
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  Speaker 3: person that you know you fell in love with. I
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  Speaker 3: was sick, I'm healthy again, and I want you back.
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  Speaker 3: What happens then, I don't know.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know.
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  Speaker 3: Wow.
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  Speaker 1: I love my fiance, but I and I envision a
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  Speaker 1: future with him.
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  Speaker 2: But sure.
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  Speaker 1: The problem is is I've always envisioned a future with
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  Speaker 1: you know, my high school sweetheart.
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  Speaker 2: Hey, I don't think you should get married. I don't know.
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  Speaker 3: I mean that's feelings like you cannot stop your life
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  Speaker 3: though because of an X who has an addiction.
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  Speaker 2: No, but you have to leave it in the past.
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  Speaker 2: You have to that.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know that I could.
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  Speaker 2: Even talk to his mom if I felt that way.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know that I could be in contact.
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  Speaker 3: If you have a string attached to yeah, you have
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  Speaker 3: strings attached and it's almost like you have to break
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  Speaker 3: all the strings in order to move on.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, if you're really going to move on, that's just
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  Speaker 2: my thought. But I don't know.
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  Speaker 3: I feel for you because my heart breaks for you
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  Speaker 3: that you do feel like this was your one true love.
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  Speaker 3: But I think you can genuinely have a one true
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  Speaker 3: love and still well someone who you thought was your
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  Speaker 3: true love and still move on.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, because sometimes you have to. Fiance has no idea.
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  Speaker 2: That's the part that bothers me. I know, but what
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  Speaker 2: is he supposed to know? I don't know that you're struggle.
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  Speaker 2: You seem like you're struggling with this. Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: Well, I mean I think, if anything, you should be
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  Speaker 3: honest with him about being married before, because I feel
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  Speaker 3: like that will come out at some point. Yeah, but
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  Speaker 3: I'm kind of focused on the fact that I don't
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  Speaker 3: know if you should be even marrying this guy if
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  Speaker 3: you haven't moved on completely. Yeah, please let us know
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  Speaker 3: what happens. Good luck, And I'm sorry you're going through this.
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  Speaker 3: And it's not like I'm saying I don't believe that
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  Speaker 3: you love your fiance, because I do really believe that
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  Speaker 3: you do, right, it's just a different kind of love.
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  Speaker 2: I guess that's yeah, that's a baggage.
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  Speaker 1: Really it is.
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  Speaker 2: Good luck. Please let us know what happens.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, just going into marriage with Lie, yeah, is bad
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  Speaker 3: news for you.
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  Speaker 2: Just got to go in with a clean sleg.