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When You Can't Forgive Yourself: A Letter on Mistakes, Confidence, and Self Worth · The Divine Worth Podcast

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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to the Divine Worth Podcast,
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  SPEAKER_00: where we are letting go of our self-doubt,
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  SPEAKER_00: anxiety, fear,
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  SPEAKER_00: and limiting beliefs so that we can step into the divine roles that God has for us.
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  SPEAKER_00: I am your host,
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  SPEAKER_00: Life Coach Karen Papin,
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  SPEAKER_00: and together we are embracing our divine worth and potential.
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  SPEAKER_01: Welcome to the podcast.
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  SPEAKER_01: This week I am doing something I haven't done before and just to give you
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  SPEAKER_01: a little background behind what I will be sharing with you today.
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  SPEAKER_01: I have this experience where I was cuddling with my son.
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  SPEAKER_01: I was putting him to bed and we were just kind of cuddling there and I was singing
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  SPEAKER_01: to him and he like shifted in a way and accidentally elbowed me in the face
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  SPEAKER_01: and I could not escape this owl that came out of me and my son felt horrible.
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  SPEAKER_01: He just like I remember just holding him and doing my best to comfort him,
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  SPEAKER_01: but it took a while for him to really calm down and
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  SPEAKER_01: To be able to move on from that experience.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I realize that this is something that we all go through,
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  SPEAKER_01: where we hold on to a mistake that we made,
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  SPEAKER_01: even though we felt horrible,
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  SPEAKER_01: even though there are things that we can do to overcome it,
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  SPEAKER_01: and even though we have the Savior in our life,
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  SPEAKER_01: we still hold on to these mistakes,
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  SPEAKER_01: and we beat ourselves up over and over and over again,
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  SPEAKER_01: and we ruminate over and over and over again.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so as I was pondering this,
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  SPEAKER_01: and since I have been focused on writing the things that come to my mind,
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  SPEAKER_01: this was one of those things that came to my mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so I wrote a letter to the one who is stuck in those mistakes and who can't get out of them.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I posted it on Substack, and I also thought that I would share it with you today.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I'm going to read what I wrote to you.
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  SPEAKER_01: That one.
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  SPEAKER_01: My dear one, I held you as you cried.
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  SPEAKER_01: In that moment, all I wanted was for you to be comforted.
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  SPEAKER_01: I offered words of comfort and the love shared through my warm embrace.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yet you still felt the sorrow, the pain, the guilt, the shame.
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  SPEAKER_00: All I could do was hold you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Trying to allow the love I felt for you to flow through my arms and into your soul.
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  SPEAKER_01: Trying to ease your pain through words that I'm not sure were even getting through to you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Sometimes That's all we can do is feel that pain.
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  SPEAKER_01: Sometimes all we can do is allow ourselves to see the mistakes that we've made
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  SPEAKER_01: and we struggle to move on to the next step because what we see is so obvious to us
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  SPEAKER_01: and so painful to admit.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, that acknowledgement is the first step to moving forward.
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  SPEAKER_01: It is hard, but so needed.
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  SPEAKER_01: But please don't get stuck there.
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  SPEAKER_01: I know what it's like to ruminate over and over what you did, replaying it over and over.
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  SPEAKER_01: That moment in your mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: Wishing you could go back and change the reality of what happened and yet feeling
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  SPEAKER_01: the hopelessness and awareness that what was done was done.
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  SPEAKER_01: There is hope.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's called repentance.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's called love.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's called doing what you can to right the wrongs and committing to doing things differently.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because you see,
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  SPEAKER_01: when you get stuck in the hopeless,
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  SPEAKER_01: either not focusing on what happened,
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  SPEAKER_01: or refusing to accept it,
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  SPEAKER_01: or ruminating over and over and not accepting that you can't go back and change it,
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  SPEAKER_01: it keeps you from making the change.
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  SPEAKER_01: My dear one, mistakes are a part of life.
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  SPEAKER_01: They are a part of learning.
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  SPEAKER_01: You have been given agency and the ability to choose who you will be moving forward.
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  SPEAKER_01: You get to choose how you want to respond to what happened.
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  SPEAKER_01: So instead of hiding in shame, allow yourself to feel my love for you.
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  SPEAKER_01: My love that extends to you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Regardless of those mistakes that you've made or the weaknesses that you carry,
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  SPEAKER_01: and accept where you are because then you can see more clearly the actions
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  SPEAKER_01: that you need to take to make things right.
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  SPEAKER_01: Move forward from that love that I have for you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Move forward with hope.
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  SPEAKER_01: I love you, and I always will.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's the end of the letter to the one.
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  SPEAKER_01: I imagined writing that,
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  SPEAKER_01: not only writing it to my son,
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  SPEAKER_01: but I also felt the words to myself as if Heavenly Father...
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  SPEAKER_01: I hope that you felt that as well,
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  SPEAKER_01: that you know that you have a loving Heavenly Father who understands
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  SPEAKER_01: that you have made mistakes.
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  SPEAKER_01: And because of that,
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  SPEAKER_01: has provided a way for you to be able to move forward,
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  SPEAKER_01: to be able to apply the atonement in your life,
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  SPEAKER_01: and to have His love for you in His life, and to learn and to grow.
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  SPEAKER_01: And while we are here on earth, we will make mistakes.
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  SPEAKER_01: That is part of the process.
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  SPEAKER_01: I hope you enjoyed that little letter.
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  SPEAKER_01: You can check out more letters like this one
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  SPEAKER_01: on my Beloved & Becoming Substack newsletter.
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  SPEAKER_01: I'll put the link in the show notes if you want to read those.
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  SPEAKER_01: Be sure to join me next week.
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  SPEAKER_01: We will be talking about a covenant woman of God,
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  SPEAKER_01: and we will be talking specifically about Emma Smith and diving into Doctrine
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  SPEAKER_01: and Covenants section 25 and learning more about how God has showed His love
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  SPEAKER_01: through Emma Smith.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so I will see you next week.
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  SPEAKER_00: To learn more about your divine worth and potential,
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  SPEAKER_00: you can check out my Divine Worth Scripture Study Journal with
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  SPEAKER_00: over 52 scriptures relating to your divine worth and potential.
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  SPEAKER_00: You can find that on Amazon by searching Divine Worth Journal by Karen Papin or
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  SPEAKER_00: through the link in the show notes.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are of worth.
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  SPEAKER_00: You have a purpose.
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  SPEAKER_00: The Lord loves you and He believes in you.
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  SPEAKER_00: And only you can make the impact on this world that you are meant to make.
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  SPEAKER_00: Join me next time as we talk more about divine worth and potential.