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Diamonds in the Rough: You Asked, Teddi Spills · Two Ts In A Pod with Teddi Mellencamp and Tamra Judge

• 0:12
  Speaker 1: Hi, guys, Welcome to another episode of Diamonds and Rough
• 0:15
  Speaker 1: with Myself Teddy Mellencamp and and I am Erica Jane. Oh,
• 0:21
  Speaker 1: Erica Jane.
• 0:22
  Speaker 2: Holding on by a thread.
• 0:23
  Speaker 1: I was like, hold on, what's the grabbing of this?
• 0:25
  Speaker 1: You know what?
• 0:27
  Speaker 2: Okay?
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  Speaker 3: First off, let me be fully transparent. When I think
• 0:31
  Speaker 3: about why I'm frustrated. I look at you, and I'm like, Erica,
• 0:33
  Speaker 3: you can't be frustrated about anything. But I was just
• 0:36
  Speaker 3: feeling a little frustrated this week. I worked a lot
• 0:39
  Speaker 3: this last month, and I was just anyway and just
• 0:42
  Speaker 3: being a brat.
• 0:43
  Speaker 1: But I think we're You're just because I'm going through
• 0:46
  Speaker 1: a lot doesn't mean that you can't be a brat.
• 0:48
  Speaker 1: It's not one is a codependent of the other.
• 0:52
  Speaker 2: No, I'm not so sure about that.
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  Speaker 3: I think that you have to for me anyway, look
• 0:57
  Speaker 3: at my I have to look at my own behavior
• 0:59
  Speaker 3: and be like, yeah, I'm justified and feeling how I am,
• 1:01
  Speaker 3: But but you.
• 1:04
  Speaker 1: Can also go like I also realized that some of
• 1:07
  Speaker 1: the things that I get upset and frustrated about that
• 1:10
  Speaker 1: hurt me the most aren't even the big things that
• 1:13
  Speaker 1: I really am actually frustrated.
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  Speaker 3: I actually kind of understand that, though it's oftentimes the
• 1:18
  Speaker 3: little things that take you to places where you're like,
• 1:20
  Speaker 3: why am I even reacting this way?
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  Speaker 1: Why am I so fucking why am I?
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  Speaker 2: Because it's not really about that.
• 1:25
  Speaker 1: I mean, I was racing around and doing a bunch
• 1:27
  Speaker 1: of stuff this weekend. But when I got into the car,
• 1:30
  Speaker 1: and granted somebody else was driving me, so it's not
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  Speaker 1: even like I have a reason for it. But normally
• 1:35
  Speaker 1: it takes an hour to get to Orange County to
• 1:37
  Speaker 1: LA I was trying to get to you know, Kyle's
• 1:41
  Speaker 1: house for the party. Yeah, and it's a two hours
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  Speaker 1: and I would have had one would have thought someone
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  Speaker 1: punched me in the throat.
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  Speaker 3: But can I tell you, I'm not going through what
• 1:51
  Speaker 3: you're going through. And I would have had a nervous
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  Speaker 3: breakdown on that, Like I just I can't. There's certain
• 1:55
  Speaker 3: things that take me to a place two hours. First
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  Speaker 3: of all, from Orange County to Los Ange. This is ridiculous.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, and Orange County.
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  Speaker 3: Is great, it's beautiful, but why does it take us
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  Speaker 3: two hours?
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  Speaker 1: And there was so many accidents and then I'm like, Teddy,
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  Speaker 1: you should actually feel bad for the people that got
• 2:10
  Speaker 1: these that's true. However, however, I'm fucking annoyed because I
• 2:14
  Speaker 1: plan this day out perfectly right.
• 2:16
  Speaker 2: And it's that also.
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  Speaker 3: That's also why I think that I rake myself over
• 2:20
  Speaker 3: the goals. It's just like, Erica, what the fuck do
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  Speaker 3: you have to be upset? Yes, you have problems. We
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  Speaker 3: all have problems. Everybody in life has problems, but you know,
• 2:27
  Speaker 3: compared to others, your problems are manageable and you're fine
• 2:31
  Speaker 3: and they're yours.
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  Speaker 2: So get over it.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, that's how I feel, and I'm certainly not sometimes
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  Speaker 3: describing that for everybody.
• 2:37
  Speaker 2: Yeah, you're allowed to.
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  Speaker 1: Have a go you know what, This is fucking shit,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm pissed and I'm annoyed.
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  Speaker 3: Well also too, I've gotten to where I removed myself
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  Speaker 3: from situations before I go and make everybody else pay
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  Speaker 3: for whatever is going on in my life.
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  Speaker 1: That's not why I didn't see the other night.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, that's why I was totally tired and depleted, and
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  Speaker 3: I reached out and I said.
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  Speaker 2: No, yeah, not no, but like no, because I don't
• 3:02
  Speaker 2: want to be and.
• 3:04
  Speaker 1: I think that's important, I think, but you.
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  Speaker 3: Know where this comes from. I was gonna say, you
• 3:08
  Speaker 3: know where this comes from. This is very and ladies,
• 3:13
  Speaker 3: this is very perry post, this is very postmenopausal. This
• 3:18
  Speaker 3: is menopausal behavior for me because I normally would have
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  Speaker 3: thugged it out and I've been a pain in the
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  Speaker 3: ass and now I'm just like, I know I can't
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  Speaker 3: do it.
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  Speaker 2: I know I can't do it.
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  Speaker 3: I can't and everybody's gonna pay for me not being
• 3:31
  Speaker 3: in the mood and that's not right for everybody.
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  Speaker 1: Well, to make you laugh, I caught Lisa Renna trying
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  Speaker 1: to sneak out.
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  Speaker 2: See here you go.
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  Speaker 3: I go, I'm sitting there, say that's what I'm talking about,
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  Speaker 3: and I doing the old Irish exit.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, she tried to do the Irish goodbye and don't
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  Speaker 1: I couldn't let her be, but I didn't.
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  Speaker 2: You're not letting anybody get away with them.
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  Speaker 1: Was like, hey, Renna, is that you sneaking out? I
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  Speaker 1: think you got to put at least fifteen more minutes
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  Speaker 1: then have a seat.
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  Speaker 2: Oh god, And she was like, I've been the look
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  Speaker 2: on her face, I know.
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  Speaker 3: You know.
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  Speaker 1: And then her other friend that she drove with, she goes,
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  Speaker 1: were you not going to tell me?
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  Speaker 3: Oh my?
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  Speaker 1: She was like, I was going to text you since
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  Speaker 1: I got in the car. But we all do that shit, yes,
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  Speaker 1: and granted I did it one hour later.
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  Speaker 3: Well, it's also a family event. Yeah, and you're also
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  Speaker 3: you know, and I couldn't even show up to the
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  Speaker 3: family event because I was being a loser.
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  Speaker 1: You weren't being a loser. You just sometimes the power
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  Speaker 1: of no is more important than the power Well, I
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  Speaker 1: think the power of me knowing.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I know where I'm at in my limit, and
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  Speaker 3: I was ready to rage on anything that was not
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  Speaker 3: It's just it's not healthy.
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  Speaker 1: And your version of raging would that be ignoring somebody.
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  Speaker 3: Or being snappy snappy? It's being snappy. It's being snappy
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  Speaker 3: and irritable and just kind of bitchy. And that's not
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  Speaker 3: the person that I want to be with my friends.
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  Speaker 3: And that she just wasn't showing up.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, you were like, come on, you hear no.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, she's not showing up. I you know.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, I broke down in tears, and it was
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  Speaker 3: just like the whole thing stupid.
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  Speaker 1: But when you cry, do you call anybody? Well?
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  Speaker 3: I used to call my mother and then you know,
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  Speaker 3: we had a falling out and I didn't speak to
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  Speaker 3: her for a year over it, so no, Yeah, I mean, well,
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  Speaker 3: I'm not going to call my son ever, because number one,
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  Speaker 3: he's my child, and number two, he doesn't need that,
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  Speaker 3: so that's not happening. I don't lean on him like that.
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  Speaker 3: But no, because I don't. I don't need to put
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  Speaker 3: that on my mother. She's going through her own thing.
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  Speaker 3: I'm not going to put it on my friends.
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  Speaker 2: I just I just really, you know what I really do.
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  Speaker 3: I sit down and I try to meditate, and I
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  Speaker 3: try to connect with the higher power and I just
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  Speaker 3: kind of take it up with that, take it up
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  Speaker 3: with the creator, take it up with God, because I
• 5:54
  Speaker 3: don't need.
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  Speaker 2: To or my therapist.
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  Speaker 3: But she's you know, that's a that's an appointment, and
• 6:01
  Speaker 3: that's if I was going through something like devastating.
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  Speaker 2: Then I would text my therapist.
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  Speaker 3: But she doesn't need me to text her because I'm
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  Speaker 3: having a small shitty day to get over at Erica.
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  Speaker 2: You know, come on, it's not that n.
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  Speaker 1: Plus, like I did just learn this, which I didn't
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  Speaker 1: even know. In regards to therapy, I thought, you, like,
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  Speaker 1: go to therapy for the rest of your life.
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  Speaker 2: I do, but I need that.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, but somebody told me that therapy is something that
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  Speaker 1: when you're talking to your therapist and you're just shooting
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  Speaker 1: the shit.
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  Speaker 2: That's not therapy.
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  Speaker 1: That's not therapy anymore. So you need to if you're
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  Speaker 1: not actually talking to them.
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  Speaker 2: Well, you know, I come in with a list of
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  Speaker 2: questions every.
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  Speaker 1: Time you do.
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  Speaker 3: That's smart, not not well, let me let me clarify.
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  Speaker 3: Not every time, but I definitely will write out things
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  Speaker 3: and be like, I need to talk, I want to talk.
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  Speaker 3: I have four things i'd like to hit today, and
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  Speaker 3: she'll go, okay, let's start, and then she'll be like,
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  Speaker 3: all right, we need to pick these other two up
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  Speaker 3: later because there's a lot of work here.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: I make list because I I am at the place
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  Speaker 3: in my life like this can't be it. I'm just
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  Speaker 3: very I don't know whether you know. I'm talking about
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  Speaker 3: it with my son. I said, you know, like, I'm
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  Speaker 3: I'm at this weird place in my life because you're
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  Speaker 3: you're searching for something, and I am. I'm searching for
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  Speaker 3: what is this all about? This can't be it?
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  Speaker 1: And but some days I can. I can feel that
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  Speaker 1: way too. But some days I feel like, Wow, what
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  Speaker 1: an amazing life this is right now? Same And then
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  Speaker 1: some days I'm like, am I depressed?
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  Speaker 2: Yes, the answer is yes, you are.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like and if it's and if someone in
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  Speaker 3: your shoes was not depressed, that that would be insane
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  Speaker 3: and not truthful.
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  Speaker 2: You have a lot on your plate. Yeah, I have
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  Speaker 2: a lot of insight.
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  Speaker 1: Then you start to go through schedules, and then you
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  Speaker 1: start to be business and then it's like, holy shit, do.
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  Speaker 3: You have a hard time flipping between being creative and
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  Speaker 3: then being business minded?
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  Speaker 2: Like?
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  Speaker 3: I know that, Like, sometimes it's hard for me to
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  Speaker 3: do administrative things and look at the business of what
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  Speaker 3: I'm doing versus being in a creative state.
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  Speaker 1: Do you find that, Yeah, well, I started realizing that
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  Speaker 1: if I if it's not something i'm good at, I
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  Speaker 1: do much better when I hire someone else sure to
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  Speaker 1: those things. But then I pick a day where I
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  Speaker 1: kind of go through it. Let's say it's like the
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  Speaker 1: financial of course, Like I'll pick a day and I
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  Speaker 1: don't want it to be the same day that I'm
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  Speaker 1: doing the pot.
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  Speaker 3: Right, I pick one day a week where nothing I
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  Speaker 3: focus on is nothing but what has to get done
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  Speaker 3: financially around the house. Things like that that have nothing
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  Speaker 3: to do with being in a creative space.
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  Speaker 1: Running a millionaires. Yes, all those types of things like
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  Speaker 1: I wouldn't do that today. Like today, No, you need
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  Speaker 1: to be.
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  Speaker 3: Focused here, and you need to be lively, and you
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  Speaker 3: need to be engaged here, and I don't if.
• 8:41
  Speaker 1: I thought about, Oh well, I got to get to
• 8:42
  Speaker 1: the DMV after this, because by the way, do you
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  Speaker 1: have the updated.
• 8:45
  Speaker 2: No I don't, but I'm using my passport. Oh, my
• 8:48
  Speaker 2: global entry. Why I've already been through. I've already been
• 8:51
  Speaker 2: through TSA with the.
• 8:52
  Speaker 1: Well, guys, this is a little PSA. If you haven't
• 8:55
  Speaker 1: gotten the new idea with like the special little thing
• 8:57
  Speaker 1: on top you have to bring your passport to travel.
• 9:00
  Speaker 2: You didn't know that.
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  Speaker 1: No, I was in the hospital Erica.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't know I needed that going on for like
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  Speaker 3: ten years though, But this is just fresh.
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  Speaker 2: Yes, the limit is.
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  Speaker 3: But what I want to know is, and maybe somebody
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  Speaker 3: what was wrong with the other IDs? They weren't real? Like, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: what a fuck? You have my fingerprint already, so what
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  Speaker 3: is what is this.
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  Speaker 1: Next time I have to take a test?
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  Speaker 3: I have a global entry, I have TSA pre I
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  Speaker 3: have prints on file for multiple reasons. No, I've never
• 9:28
  Speaker 3: been arrested, so that's not it, but other reasons, and
• 9:31
  Speaker 3: so you know, you know, listen, the United States of
• 9:35
  Speaker 3: America knows who the fuck Erica Girardi is. I can
• 9:38
  Speaker 3: tell you that right now. You know when I'm coming
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  Speaker 3: through there, you're.
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  Speaker 1: Not sneaking round. Can I ask you another question?
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  Speaker 2: Because I'm in a great mood.
• 9:45
  Speaker 1: Let's well, that's I really am confused on one of
• 9:49
  Speaker 1: Tamra's answers to our last questions. So we were recapping
• 9:53
  Speaker 1: Secret Lives of Mormon.
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  Speaker 3: Why.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, I was like, what do you mean?
• 9:56
  Speaker 1: No, no, no, we were watching Secret Lives of Mormon
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  Speaker 1: Why And I said, have you ever done any of
• 10:01
  Speaker 1: the following things? And one of the following things that
• 10:03
  Speaker 1: I have done in my life is, okay, have you
• 10:07
  Speaker 1: ever had sex with your partner or a person a
• 10:12
  Speaker 1: partner with another couple having sex in the same room.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, I would have to go way back to
• 10:21
  Speaker 2: high school.
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  Speaker 1: I know, it's like nineteen and I think it happened.
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  Speaker 1: And I said it and everybody was like.
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  Speaker 3: What, Yeah, I would have to go way back to
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  Speaker 3: maybe high school. I think a girlfriend of mine met
• 10:33
  Speaker 3: these two German soccer players and they were staying in
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  Speaker 3: a hotel and maybe we had sex with them like
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  Speaker 3: in uh.
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  Speaker 2: Like the same room but separate beds. That's like that.
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  Speaker 2: But I'm I mean that would have to go way back.
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  Speaker 3: But I was in high school, and yes I was
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  Speaker 3: very mature then I still am.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, well I at least feel slightly better. Mine might
• 10:58
  Speaker 1: have been two beds and may have been the same bed,
• 11:00
  Speaker 1: may have been one of us throw a blanket on
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  Speaker 1: the floor.
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  Speaker 2: Yes I like that, but yeah, but I think I
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  Speaker 2: was they try to shame you for doing that.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, they didn't try to shame me, but everybody
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  Speaker 1: else was like no, never in the same room. And
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, I wasn't even paying attention to what.
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  Speaker 3: The other I to have another place, right, we were
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  Speaker 3: trying to get it in.
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  Speaker 2: Here's the other thing. Look I I and also where
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  Speaker 2: I'm at in.
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  Speaker 3: My life, like I don't really care. You know what
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  Speaker 3: people do with their own consenting adult relationships. Knock yourselves out.
• 11:32
  Speaker 3: I have no judgment. Hooray for you to consenting adults
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  Speaker 3: or more consenting adults.
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  Speaker 1: But if you only got a one bedroom sometimes you
• 11:42
  Speaker 1: got to figure it out.
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  Speaker 3: It's it's you know, live and let live, and as
• 11:46
  Speaker 3: long as everybody is healthy and happy and in control,
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  Speaker 3: and nobody's being you know, forced to do something coerced.
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  Speaker 1: And it is what it is.
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  Speaker 2: It is what it is. All right, you're ready for
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  Speaker 2: your Q and I yeah, I am.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, listen, it says this is for all for Teddy,
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  Speaker 3: this is her Q. And I I see you're getting tattoos.
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  Speaker 3: What's one major thing that you want to start the
• 12:17
  Speaker 3: next chapter of your life after beating these tumors.
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  Speaker 1: I would say, yes, I've gotten tattoos. I've gotten a
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  Speaker 1: bunch of tattoos, which people would say.
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  Speaker 2: I saw one on your spine.
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  Speaker 1: I have one on my spine, so my dad. So
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  Speaker 1: this is why there has been so many tattoos. So
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  Speaker 1: I have this little knife.
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  Speaker 2: I was that was there, you were there for that witness.
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  Speaker 1: So I got this little knife. And it's because if
• 12:39
  Speaker 1: everybody can remember the song I think I like this
• 12:42
  Speaker 1: little life. It became a joke in my family. It's
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  Speaker 1: I think I like this little knife and.
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  Speaker 2: So and you almost had me get one.
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  Speaker 1: I've almost almost convinced Erica. But it's like you get
• 12:54
  Speaker 1: annoyed and then you're like this, and everyone that knows
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  Speaker 1: who knows that means like I want a knife. I
• 13:00
  Speaker 1: want a knife. But each time that one of my
• 13:03
  Speaker 1: family members has come into town to get knife, including myself,
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  Speaker 1: I have gotten another tattoo. So I have my kids initials.
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  Speaker 1: I have this match that I joke with Kyle and
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  Speaker 1: Jen because we got a friendship one that it looks
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  Speaker 1: like a a Q tip.
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  Speaker 2: It does a little bit, it looks like a cut.
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  Speaker 2: That's a cute tip.
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  Speaker 1: But then I my dad came into town to get
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  Speaker 1: his little knife, which by the way, looks like a sword.
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  Speaker 3: I would expect nothing less. But remember he also covered
• 13:31
  Speaker 3: up your mom's face with Jesus.
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  Speaker 1: That is a true statement. He goes, what should we
• 13:36
  Speaker 1: do with this? He asked the tattoo guy because it
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  Speaker 1: was the same guy. Oh, Wes, yeah, Wes. You guys,
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  Speaker 1: here's the best going.
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  Speaker 2: He's really sweet.
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  Speaker 1: He's really sweet and really talented and like a true
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  Speaker 1: true artist.
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  Speaker 2: He's a nice guy.
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  Speaker 1: Of course, my dad and West really hit it off.
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  Speaker 1: But that's when they came up with this sword that
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  Speaker 1: I was like, I'm sorry, I don't know how this
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  Speaker 1: is knife. And then my brother on the other hand,
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  Speaker 1: got a knife like a switchblade like this big on
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  Speaker 1: his okay, and that's when I got. My dad goes,
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  Speaker 1: I will only get the knife if you get a
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  Speaker 1: tattoo with my lyrics somewhere on your body.
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  Speaker 2: Is that what that is? Because I just glanced which lyrics.
• 14:14
  Speaker 1: So it says life is short, even on its longest days.
• 14:20
  Speaker 1: And it goes down my back. And the thing about
• 14:23
  Speaker 1: my toutoo is pretty much all of them can be covered.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I like. I like the fact that, like I have.
• 14:29
  Speaker 2: My watch on, you can't see well they're yes.
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  Speaker 1: The one on my back I think is actually probably
• 14:34
  Speaker 1: my new favorite is beautiful. And I have so many
• 14:36
  Speaker 1: scars all over my back that it kind of just
• 14:41
  Speaker 1: broke it up a little bit. I like it, and
• 14:42
  Speaker 1: I can't see it, but I would imagine it's cute.
• 14:45
  Speaker 3: Listen, scars tell stories, okay, and you've got a lot
• 14:47
  Speaker 3: of stories to tell.
• 14:49
  Speaker 1: Edwin made me laugh because I go, I mean, I
• 14:51
  Speaker 1: can't even He goes, you got another tattoo, and I go,
• 14:53
  Speaker 1: I can't even see it, and he goes, well, someone
• 14:55
  Speaker 1: will be able to see it.
• 14:56
  Speaker 3: What are you gonna What are you gonna start? You
• 15:00
  Speaker 3: think you'd like to start the next chapter of your
• 15:02
  Speaker 3: life after these tumors.
• 15:03
  Speaker 1: I want to learn how to do something new, like
• 15:05
  Speaker 1: what like I want to learn how to like dance,
• 15:08
  Speaker 1: oh fun, or I want to learn how to become
• 15:10
  Speaker 1: a better singer.
• 15:12
  Speaker 3: Which, by the way, yes, it's in your blood.
• 15:16
  Speaker 1: Like I want to take the time and like get lessons. Yeah,
• 15:20
  Speaker 1: And like I love riding horses. I have goals doing that,
• 15:23
  Speaker 1: but like it's kind of now slates thing that I
• 15:25
  Speaker 1: just kind of tag along with.
• 15:27
  Speaker 2: Yeah, but you need something new to like reinvigorate. Yeah.
• 15:29
  Speaker 1: And I want to like find like the apal like
• 15:32
  Speaker 1: not just like my sex appeal, but I want to
• 15:34
  Speaker 1: find like your voice more natural in my movement. And
• 15:37
  Speaker 1: it's not for not for anything for the public. But
• 15:40
  Speaker 1: like I recorded a demo when I was like seventeen
• 15:43
  Speaker 1: years old, and I listened to it and I was like,
• 15:45
  Speaker 1: holy crap, that is terrible.
• 15:47
  Speaker 2: That's no really, were you being hard on yourself?
• 15:50
  Speaker 1: Or I mean it shows that I had potentially right.
• 15:54
  Speaker 3: So listen, raw talent is just that, it's like you
• 15:56
  Speaker 3: got to polish it that if you got raw talent,
• 15:59
  Speaker 3: it just takes.
• 16:00
  Speaker 1: And I may not want it for anything other than
• 16:02
  Speaker 1: I love to write music.
• 16:03
  Speaker 3: Hold on, you should be living your life for yourself. Yeah,
• 16:06
  Speaker 3: and you don't have to explain why you're doing anything
• 16:08
  Speaker 3: for anybody.
• 16:09
  Speaker 1: But I love to write music. I have like twenty
• 16:11
  Speaker 1: songs that I've written.
• 16:13
  Speaker 3: I love to hear this and oh my god, Seddie,
• 16:15
  Speaker 3: I want so I but I don't know how to write.
• 16:19
  Speaker 1: I know how to write the lyrics, but I don't
• 16:21
  Speaker 1: know how to do.
• 16:23
  Speaker 2: Music the music. So is this where John comes in?
• 16:26
  Speaker 1: Well, that's where he was like, well, we can do
• 16:28
  Speaker 1: it together.
• 16:29
  Speaker 2: Actually it's kind of cool.
• 16:30
  Speaker 1: Yeah, So just different things that I can do with FaceTime.
• 16:34
  Speaker 1: I mean, it's it's easy ways to do and plus, like,
• 16:37
  Speaker 1: I'm at a place now where I just want to
• 16:40
  Speaker 1: see my family and my friends as much as I
• 16:42
  Speaker 1: can because I appreciate them so much more than I
• 16:45
  Speaker 1: did before.
• 16:46
  Speaker 2: Of course, I appreciate everything. Do you have a keyboard?
• 16:49
  Speaker 1: I don't.
• 16:50
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna get you one free birthday, Okay.
• 16:52
  Speaker 1: It's coming. Our birthdays are coming now, I know our birthday.
• 16:55
  Speaker 3: I'm not going to get you like some fancy keyboards,
• 16:57
  Speaker 3: So John, don't go out by me on a keyboard.
• 16:59
  Speaker 2: But we need to get you a keyboard for your birthday,
• 17:01
  Speaker 2: just so I can. Yeah, so you.
• 17:02
  Speaker 3: Can just pick out little melodies whatever. You can just
• 17:06
  Speaker 3: start playing little things.
• 17:07
  Speaker 1: I just want to do something new and I don't
• 17:09
  Speaker 1: want to get stagnant.
• 17:11
  Speaker 3: No, right exactly. And there's something about look that creativity.
• 17:15
  Speaker 3: You can unlock all of these things, and you should
• 17:19
  Speaker 3: really do that.
• 17:19
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I'll get you a keyboard for a birth And.
• 17:21
  Speaker 1: Let's be honest. I'm not going to go to school
• 17:23
  Speaker 1: and get any kind of license or I don't want
• 17:25
  Speaker 1: to learn any of that. I don't care.
• 17:26
  Speaker 3: It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if I'm going to
• 17:28
  Speaker 3: pick something singer dance perfect. I love it singing and dancing.
• 17:32
  Speaker 3: Question number two. I recently suffered a health crisis myself
• 17:34
  Speaker 3: and find myself slipping into all a depression. What do
• 17:38
  Speaker 3: you do to protect your mental health? But I got
• 17:40
  Speaker 3: to tell you something, yours, I've never seen anything like you.
• 17:44
  Speaker 1: I just even hearing that, I could start crying. But
• 17:49
  Speaker 1: I think the main reason was somebody told me. And
• 17:53
  Speaker 1: I saw somebody actually at Kyle's the other night who
• 17:56
  Speaker 1: told me that his wife had the same thing as me,
• 17:59
  Speaker 1: and she is about six months post and he's like
• 18:04
  Speaker 1: he didn't even realize it that I had it. I mean,
• 18:06
  Speaker 1: he realized something was going on. He's like, but she's
• 18:09
  Speaker 1: you know, fallen into it a pretty dark place, and
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: but you know, they said she'll probably come out of
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: it in about six months. I'm like, so how long
• 18:18
  Speaker 1: has she been in it? And he's like six months?
• 18:21
  Speaker 1: And I think where I I don't know, I guess
• 18:25
  Speaker 1: lucked out, or whether whether or not I knew it
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: or not. Because my tumors came and they were such
• 18:31
  Speaker 1: a surprise to me, I never let myself slow down
• 18:35
  Speaker 1: because I didn't really understand the magnitude of it. It's
• 18:38
  Speaker 1: not like where you know, years and years in advance, like, oh,
• 18:41
  Speaker 1: I've got these tumors forming, if they get to this size,
• 18:43
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna have to do this over your earth. No,
• 18:46
  Speaker 1: it was just like bam, okay, this is why you
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: have the headaches. Okay, now you're gonna have massive surgery. Okay,
• 18:51
  Speaker 1: now you're gonna be in the hospital for sixteen days.
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: And I came out and I would say the first
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: five days, I was so brutally depressed. Oh I can't rude.
• 19:01
  Speaker 1: I mean I could cry just thinking about it. I
• 19:03
  Speaker 1: didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to see
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: my friends. I didn't want to see my kids. I
• 19:07
  Speaker 1: didn't want to see Edwin. I was broken.
• 19:10
  Speaker 2: I'm sure.
• 19:11
  Speaker 1: And then I just said to my dad and to
• 19:15
  Speaker 1: my friends, I said, I need to get out of here,
• 19:19
  Speaker 1: like and I don't want you guys Microman like I
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: want to go to lunch.
• 19:22
  Speaker 2: Yep, I want to live.
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: And I want I said, can somebody go, like get
• 19:26
  Speaker 1: me some decent clothes because nothing fits. So I think,
• 19:32
  Speaker 1: no matter how I'm feeling, yes, listen to your body.
• 19:35
  Speaker 1: But if you're feeling sad or you're feeling depressed, find
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: something that you can go do that makes you feel alive.
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: Because my doctor even said to me, he goes, I
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: feel like the reason you're doing as well as you're
• 19:47
  Speaker 1: doing is because you have fought for every single thing.
• 19:54
  Speaker 1: And he's like, and your body knows it wants to
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: be live. Yep, you're telling it every single day. And
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: he said, I want to be very clear about something.
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: There's nothing that you could do right now that could
• 20:06
  Speaker 1: get you to the point where it would make you
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: worse off.
• 20:09
  Speaker 2: Wow.
• 20:10
  Speaker 1: So I go, so could I go skydiving tomorrow? And
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: he's like, I mean not that I want to.
• 20:14
  Speaker 2: He's like yeah, yeah.
• 20:16
  Speaker 1: He's like you hurting yourself or you injuring yourself isn't
• 20:19
  Speaker 1: going to be any different than anybody else in the world.
• 20:21
  Speaker 2: Wow.
• 20:22
  Speaker 1: So if that's something a dream of yours, go do it.
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: Go do it. Wow, anything that's going to generate happiness
• 20:29
  Speaker 1: for you and keep away from stress. And I found
• 20:31
  Speaker 1: that there was a couple of people in my life.
• 20:33
  Speaker 2: Did you cut them out?
• 20:34
  Speaker 1: That just added to my stress and were always negative
• 20:37
  Speaker 1: nancies about everything, And I just was like, listen, if
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: this is what you want to talk about, I don't
• 20:43
  Speaker 1: want to talk to you.
• 20:45
  Speaker 2: That's wonderful.
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: I'm healing. Well, you've got a Yeah, I'm healing, and
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: I don't want to hear it. I don't care what
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: so and so said on the internet. I don't care
• 20:56
  Speaker 1: what you read and so and so's book. That's not
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: a Whatever I'm doing is working for me, and I
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: don't need your two cents.
• 21:04
  Speaker 2: Yes, exactly.
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: And that has helped me because I think a lot
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: and especially you know, if she's struggling or he's struggling
• 21:12
  Speaker 1: is dependent on what somebody else is thinking she should
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: be doing or he should be doing.
• 21:17
  Speaker 3: You also have a great environment. You're also like people
• 21:20
  Speaker 3: don't know this about you, But you're one of the
• 21:22
  Speaker 3: most mentally tough people.
• 21:25
  Speaker 2: That I know.
• 21:26
  Speaker 3: And Teddy's never complained. Teddy nine months pregnant in pumps
• 21:31
  Speaker 3: in a skirt like you know on some Crazy Housewives think,
• 21:35
  Speaker 3: never complained. Else she did was eat thumbs. And I
• 21:38
  Speaker 3: say that because you're just not that girl. And I
• 21:41
  Speaker 3: think that you have this tremendous will And it really
• 21:45
  Speaker 3: comes down to look, there's I can't even imagine what
• 21:49
  Speaker 3: you go through, really, but I.
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: Think anybody can generate. I'm not any stronger than anybody else.
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: I just think I've generated myself through out my life
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: to not be pitied. Yep, it's a big thing for you,
• 22:05
  Speaker 1: and it's a huge thing. Like there is nothing I
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: despise more than I feel like when somebody's pitying me,
• 22:12
  Speaker 1: or when somebody's weaning me, Oh, how are we doing?
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: What are we going to do?
• 22:17
  Speaker 2: No, yeah, you're not that.
• 22:18
  Speaker 1: This is my life and this is what I want
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: and this is what I'm going to do, and hopefully
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: it's going to work. And if it doesn't, everybody in
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: my life will see that I fought my very hardest
• 22:28
  Speaker 1: to show them how much I love them.
• 22:30
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 22:31
  Speaker 3: Well, there's no doubt that you love your family and
• 22:32
  Speaker 3: your friends. Yeah, there's no doubt that I think just
• 22:37
  Speaker 3: shows up like there's no stopping that.
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: But also taking away the guilt. Like yesterday, let me
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: tell you something, I slept for a jillion hours and
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: watched one million episodes of Friends with Neighbors.
• 22:48
  Speaker 2: Let me ask you a question, what should you have
• 22:50
  Speaker 2: been doing that you would have felt guilty about.
• 22:51
  Speaker 3: What WO was?
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: I would have felt guilty because I only hung with
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: my kids till eleven am. But then I called Edwin
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: and I said, hey, I'm hitting that wall that happened
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: around day four or five. I am tired therapy. I'm tired.
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: And he's like, you want me to come get the kids?
• 23:05
  Speaker 2: Yeah?
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: And I was like I would love that. And he
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: took them to church, into Burger place and lunch and
• 23:11
  Speaker 1: blah blah blah, and then Cruise went to a birthday
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: party and then they got dropped off at home at five,
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: and we had dinner and went to bed like it
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: was a perfect day.
• 23:19
  Speaker 2: But I had to ask for help, Right, you don't
• 23:22
  Speaker 2: like doing that.
• 23:22
  Speaker 1: I don't like doing that, but it felt really good.
• 23:25
  Speaker 1: But I got to say and then but then it
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: didn't feel bad anymore. And then I got to say, too,
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: thank you so much for doing that yesterday. I really
• 23:32
  Speaker 1: needed it, yes, And instead of guilting me, he responded by,
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: of course, we had a great time perfect. So it's
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: just like learning that you can ask for help. It's
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: not the end of the world.
• 23:42
  Speaker 2: It's not. It's really not.
• 23:43
  Speaker 3: And you, I think also too, you are very hard
• 23:48
  Speaker 3: on yourself, and maybe in some way this has brought
• 23:53
  Speaker 3: some softness, you know, brought some softness.
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: I can hug now.
• 23:57
  Speaker 2: I know life's a little bit sweeter.
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: I can hug me. It's so crazy.
• 24:03
  Speaker 3: Yeah, you've built a brand around accountability, But what's one
• 24:18
  Speaker 3: area of your life you consistently let yourself off the hook?
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: I left myself off the hook about everything, guys. And
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: also I dread that I set accountability. I am a
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: health and wellness coach that helps you change your life
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: and gets your body moving and helps you make some
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: healthier choices.
• 24:37
  Speaker 2: You did call yourself an accountable, but I.
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: Did pick the wrong freakin' word. I can hold somebody
• 24:43
  Speaker 1: accountable to what their goals are. I'm not accountable holding
• 24:46
  Speaker 1: people accountable to everything in the entire world. That's what
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: people got confused by. You're going to tell me your
• 24:51
  Speaker 1: goals and I'm going to hold you accountable.
• 24:53
  Speaker 3: To yea, if I come to you with a fitness
• 24:54
  Speaker 3: goal or a nutrition goal and I said, hey, I
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: want to.
• 24:56
  Speaker 2: Do X, Y and Z, and you go, okay, I
• 24:58
  Speaker 2: want to run a marathon? Great, Great, what's the date? Yeah?
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: Great, okay, this is our plan. But it's not for
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: every day to day life. Clearly, I make a ton
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: of bad decisions.
• 25:08
  Speaker 2: Well, it's not bad decisions. You're human being. We make
• 25:11
  Speaker 2: human decisions. We all make. We all fuck up, and
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: that's a matter.
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: Of It's not about living life of perfection.
• 25:18
  Speaker 3: You made a boring joke on the pot again recently.
• 25:21
  Speaker 3: Did being called that on RHBH make you change anything
• 25:25
  Speaker 3: about yourself?
• 25:26
  Speaker 2: You're not boring. I'll tell you that.
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: I don't think that I'm boring. I truly think that
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: I know she's not boring. My issue was I think
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: I lost my job season two.
• 25:41
  Speaker 2: I do too.
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: I think I lost my job season two, and they
• 25:44
  Speaker 1: kept me around for season three and I became a
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: nothing burger and then that was the end. And you
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: can do the math on what happened on season two
• 25:53
  Speaker 1: and figure that out.
• 25:54
  Speaker 2: I have a smile.
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: Do you agree?
• 25:58
  Speaker 2: I already told you how I felt, so I agree. Yes.
• 26:02
  Speaker 3: If you had the chance to host a morning talk show,
• 26:04
  Speaker 3: what would be your who would be your very first guest,
• 26:08
  Speaker 3: very first say you should do something like that? Oh?
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: I love. I mean that's why I love to go
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: on all those different those like Extra and all those shows.
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: I love doing it. I love talking pop culture. I
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: can't even help myself, like from needing to know everything
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: about the Justin Baldoni case to what's going on with Diddy?
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: To is you know Justin Bieber okay? Like all of it? Like,
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: I cannot help myself. I cannot get enough. My very
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: first guest, who would it be? It would be who's
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: ever trending in that moment?
• 26:44
  Speaker 2: And I would want to skuis the limit? Come on?
• 26:47
  Speaker 1: Sky's the limit?
• 26:48
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna dream without like boundaries.
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: If I could do anything, I would want to, like
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: do a day in the life of Jennifer Lopez.
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: Really why Jennifer?
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: Because she seems to I mean other than relationships. Yeah,
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: she seems to be able to do everything I want.
• 27:07
  Speaker 2: I found an incredible career, she has an incredible career.
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: I know that she's very disciplined, Yes, I know that,
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: but I want to see if there's a fun side.
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: I want to see all of that. Like I'd like
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: to shadow her for a week and see who she
• 27:19
  Speaker 1: really is and then give an expose, right, and see who.
• 27:22
  Speaker 3: She really is besides being Jennihilippez. Yes, yes, I understand
• 27:25
  Speaker 3: what you're.
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: Saying, because that I think I could learn from.
• 27:29
  Speaker 2: You mean, watching someone like that work like that.
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: Work like that, I can go, oh, Okay, this is
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: what I don't want. This is what I do want.
• 27:35
  Speaker 1: Oh I could do this or no, I absolutely I
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: wouldn't want to live my life working this hard, this
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: much all the time.
• 27:43
  Speaker 2: She's a very hard worker, very hard work, very hard worker.
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: But I mean there's so many people.
• 27:47
  Speaker 3: There's so many people in this business that work hard though. Yeah,
• 27:50
  Speaker 3: there's so many people that work hard in this business
• 27:52
  Speaker 3: that you don't know about.
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: But I think we don't see a ton of her working. No, see,
• 27:57
  Speaker 1: we don't see a ton of behind the scenes with her.
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: Who else? Give me some other people that like Chelsea
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: Hamler would be fun.
• 28:07
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm trying to think of your the answer to
• 28:10
  Speaker 3: your first question, people Okay, so hear me out. You
• 28:16
  Speaker 3: know reality TV, right, what we do is different than
• 28:20
  Speaker 3: what Jennifer Lopos does. Right, she's like a movie stars
• 28:22
  Speaker 3: as a pop artist signed to major labels and shit
• 28:26
  Speaker 3: like that. That's a different type of celebrity than if
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: you even want to say, like what we have a celebrity.
• 28:32
  Speaker 3: It's a different like leab in the sense that the
• 28:37
  Speaker 3: game that we play in reality television is very different
• 28:42
  Speaker 3: than the game that they play over there. When I
• 28:44
  Speaker 3: say they, I mean you could call them, you know,
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: like movie stars and shit like, yeah, a listers. It's
• 28:52
  Speaker 3: a different type of celebrity. It's a different type of fame.
• 28:54
  Speaker 3: It's it's harnessed in different way. We in the game
• 28:59
  Speaker 3: that we do are expected the rules. The rules are
• 29:01
  Speaker 3: a little different and the expectations are a little different
• 29:04
  Speaker 3: of us than it is of them. Like they get
• 29:06
  Speaker 3: to not cherry pick, but they have a little bit
• 29:09
  Speaker 3: more cover as to what.
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: An example of just that I know firsthand is my
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: dad and I went to an event the other night
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: and I one million percent did the red carpet and
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: he arrived after.
• 29:23
  Speaker 3: It was done, right, and it was just a different Yeah,
• 29:27
  Speaker 3: like it's it's a different vibe.
• 29:28
  Speaker 1: I got a plus one if I did the red carpet, right,
• 29:32
  Speaker 1: and I was like, well, I don't want to go alone.
• 29:33
  Speaker 3: Right, so myself right, But someone like let's just gets
• 29:37
  Speaker 3: to come whenever he wants to come, or let's sake,
• 29:39
  Speaker 3: let's take Jennifer Lopez, like she gets to do the
• 29:43
  Speaker 3: carpets for the movies that are hers and the ones that.
• 29:46
  Speaker 2: She possibly wants to go to. Yeah, you know, if
• 29:50
  Speaker 2: she wants to. It's a different life. It's a different level.
• 29:53
  Speaker 2: It's a different level.
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: But if we're talking Bravo people, if there's anybody that
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: I could interview.
• 29:59
  Speaker 2: We didn't know where.
• 30:00
  Speaker 3: Not talking about Bravo people, We're talking about anybody. Okay,
• 30:02
  Speaker 3: all right, Brough you gotta think outside of Bravo.
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: Well that's what That's why I think my answer I
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: stick for a little bit.
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  Speaker 2: I like that, I do.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, or who's somebody hot right now?
• 30:12
  Speaker 2: I don't know, you know, all the hot dudes. I
• 30:14
  Speaker 2: don't know anybody.
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: I don't know anyway.
• 30:17
  Speaker 3: It's not that I don't know, it's that I need
• 30:19
  Speaker 3: to fucking pay attention. I am so wrapped up in
• 30:22
  Speaker 3: my own universe that I must look outward instead of
• 30:26
  Speaker 3: like looking wherever I'm looking, which is like whow okay.
• 30:31
  Speaker 3: Next question questions, if you could trade lives with one
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  Speaker 3: housewife for twenty four hours, who would it be? And
• 30:37
  Speaker 3: what's the first thing you do in her shoes?
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: One housewife for twenty four hours. I'm not going to
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: pick anyone from Beverly Hills because I think that's stale
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: and we already know, we've.
• 30:49
  Speaker 2: Already been around those women who cares.
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: But if I could change lives with anybody I feel like,
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: who lives like? You know, who would be? She's not
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: even a housewife anymore. But Caroline Stansbury.
• 31:05
  Speaker 2: She looks like she has a good ass time to buy.
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  Speaker 2: She looks and that.
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  Speaker 3: And her husband, Sergio, he waits on her hand and
• 31:12
  Speaker 3: foot and I saw it.
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: And every single day they're on a trip somewhere else
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: going she's getting glammed, like she's got her outfits picked.
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  Speaker 2: They are living. That's what I want.
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  Speaker 1: And you know what, it doesn't have to be twenty
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  Speaker 1: four hours. I do a week.
• 31:28
  Speaker 2: Oh you want a week of that?
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: I don't need a week of him.
• 31:31
  Speaker 3: I know, I know I'm not talking about him. I
• 31:33
  Speaker 3: just don't like the production, like the whole production. Yeah,
• 31:37
  Speaker 3: and I mean that respectful.
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: I'm kind of curious who is who would yours be?
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  Speaker 3: She's actually a good one. And you know what, I
• 31:43
  Speaker 3: it's kind of the same thing. It looks real good.
• 31:46
  Speaker 2: I mean, I'm not going with anybody with kids.
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: I mean she has kids with their older right.
• 31:52
  Speaker 3: I don't need smaller children that I need to fight
• 31:54
  Speaker 3: with or schedule or get to a soccer game.
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  Speaker 2: No, that's not my vibes. Your online looks like it's
• 32:00
  Speaker 2: pretty good.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, she's a pretty good option for us. Anyways, let's
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: go to do be okay.
• 32:06
  Speaker 2: Wait.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, By the way, I was with Shep we did
• 32:10
  Speaker 3: upfronts and we were talking about you.
• 32:11
  Speaker 2: I was like, Teddy and I want to come to Charleston,
• 32:14
  Speaker 2: We really do, and he goes, you guys should come.
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: What's stopping us? We got to get our act together
• 32:20
  Speaker 1: and go And.
• 32:21
  Speaker 3: I would love to you let me know, but but
• 32:23
  Speaker 3: you know what, he's he and I spoke about you
• 32:25
  Speaker 3: just like you know, we were just walking and talking.
• 32:27
  Speaker 2: He's really sweet.
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: He's a sweet guy.
• 32:30
  Speaker 2: He's a sweet guy.
• 32:31
  Speaker 3: He I think just I know that his dad was
• 32:34
  Speaker 3: a lawyer's grandfather was a federal judge, Like they run
• 32:37
  Speaker 3: deep in that law.
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: Business down there, like his parents.
• 32:40
  Speaker 2: No, I figured it out, Yeah.
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: I figured out.
• 32:44
  Speaker 3: Yeah, No, And I got it from the horse's mouth.
• 32:45
  Speaker 3: So I was like, okay, cool, what is your favorite
• 32:48
  Speaker 3: childhood memory?
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: My favorite childhood memory? Shit, well, I have two memories
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: that like really stick out, but they're bad. My gosh,
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: why are my memories bad?
• 33:04
  Speaker 2: Well, sometimes because the human brain etches those in there.
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  Speaker 1: So like one of my childhood memories that like really
• 33:10
  Speaker 1: stands out, we're gonna switch.
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  Speaker 2: It from favorite to stands out.
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  Speaker 1: From favorite to stands out is my dad's first house.
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  Speaker 1: So when my dad first his first like big hit
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: was in nineteen eighty one.
• 33:23
  Speaker 3: That's the year I was borne and Diane. Yeah, so,
• 33:26
  Speaker 3: by the way, it was good. I love those songs.
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: It's a good jam. But so we switched from like
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: being in a little tiny house to being in this
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  Speaker 1: house and I had a circular driveway.
• 33:34
  Speaker 2: What city are we in?
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: Indiana? Okay, So we're in the house with the big
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: circular driveway, and anytime that my sister and I would
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: get in a fight, we'd have to run it. God,
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: John's rough run the circular driveway.
• 33:51
  Speaker 2: That's kind of cute though, but so like I have.
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: These memories of like looking at my sister and as
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: being like far more and like bringing out ways that
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: we could cross over through the grass, so like I
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: remember that. My other favorite memory was actually the first
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: time I got on a horse.
• 34:07
  Speaker 2: How were you?
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: I was four years old? Did you ask my neighbor
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  Speaker 1: like where my dad had a like a studio and
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: my neighbor her mom trained Shetland ponies.
• 34:19
  Speaker 2: Cute, it was a pony.
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: It was a pony, And I went over and I
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: said can I can I ride? And they said, yeah,
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: we have a new Shetland named TJ. And then he
• 34:29
  Speaker 1: became mine and he was my first pony.
• 34:31
  Speaker 2: Was he sweet? Because she's going I was gonna say,
• 34:33
  Speaker 2: Shellin's are me?
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: We have a video of my mom like giving him
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: tap to have him go forward, and he kicked her
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: right in the knee. Knee No, but we have an
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: on video. She's like come on, like she's trying to
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: and you remember those old school videos that you.
• 34:50
  Speaker 2: Can tell I got out, yeah, PJ? Yeah, how long
• 34:56
  Speaker 2: did you ride? TJ?
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: I mean I think my second one was fan Seek.
• 35:01
  Speaker 1: Her name was fancy and she was an actual small pony.
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: So I went from the Shetland to once I started
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: being able to like post really ride and stuff, then
• 35:08
  Speaker 1: I switched to fancy. Oh my god, I feel like
• 35:11
  Speaker 1: I could remember all of my ponies and horses in order.
• 35:13
  Speaker 3: That's do you know how many, just offhand, how many
• 35:15
  Speaker 3: you've had.
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: In total that I've owned? Probably twenty?
• 35:20
  Speaker 2: And how many did you ride for clients?
• 35:23
  Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, hundreds, hundreds, hundreds, Like I have no idea,
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: but I the ones that are special to me. I'll
• 35:29
  Speaker 1: never forget sure, of course. Like there's this horse what
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: goes around that I wrote of my trainers, Don Stewart,
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: and I remember that horse every single day. I love
• 35:40
  Speaker 1: it and we called them with GiMA.
• 35:41
  Speaker 2: How old were you when you turn pro?
• 35:43
  Speaker 1: I was seventeen seventeen. Yeah, so there were so many
• 35:48
  Speaker 1: met so many, so many, but gosh, I feel like
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: I went down memory lane. But thanks guys for tuning
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  Speaker 1: in for another episode of Diamonds in the Rough. Next week,
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: I'll be taking Erica's questions don't wing.
• 36:01
  Speaker 2: Thank you guys. Mhm