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Ed Collins gets real. Really real. · Aired Out

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  Speaker 1: me is in every Friday we bring him on here.
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  Speaker 1: He is Rex Thompson. Good morning, buddy, How the hell
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  Speaker 1: are you?
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  Speaker 2: I don't know if I'm as ugly as Rex. I
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  Speaker 2: don't know if I'm as short as Rex. I know
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  Speaker 2: right now I can walk better than him. Get your
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  Speaker 2: knee fucking fixed, big guy.
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  Speaker 1: Uh, you only have any Has anyone told you that
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  Speaker 1: you Rex, you almost look like big Ed Collins. Has
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  Speaker 1: anyone ever.
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  Speaker 2: Said that to you? I think he would take that
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  Speaker 2: as a compliment.
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  Speaker 1: I think, so you have. I want to say, Ed
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  Speaker 1: you have. You know what you have that Rex doesn't have.
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  Speaker 1: You have a nice head of hair.
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  Speaker 2: We were just talking about my hair last night.
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  Speaker 1: Who you and Rex?
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  Speaker 2: Me and Gilbert?
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  Speaker 1: All right, what was said about your hair.
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  Speaker 2: Last so Gilbert? Gilbert's my girlfriend so fucking packing up ladies?
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  Speaker 1: So god.
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  Speaker 2: Gilbert was saying how she didn't know if she could
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  Speaker 2: be with me if I was balding. Yeah, then my
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  Speaker 2: dad has a good head of hair, So I am
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  Speaker 2: confident that I will keep my lushes left.
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  Speaker 1: That's that's really really, it's really good. Can you imagine?
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  Speaker 1: And Rex, It's like when when he starts growing it
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  Speaker 1: back and there's a little bit of stubble up.
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  Speaker 2: There, rexwood hair would look weird to me.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, Rex, Yes.
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  Speaker 2: He is a bald head. This is his look.
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  Speaker 1: He should have been. He should have stayed bald after
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  Speaker 1: he was born. Are there any pictures of him with hair?
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  Speaker 1: Do you know rhetor.
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  Speaker 2: He looks like a very vibrant Hunter, Like, yeah, he
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  Speaker 2: was a little bigger than Hunter, but it's it's so small.
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  Speaker 1: Hunter's got a head of hair on him.
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  Speaker 2: Hunter's a good looking kid.
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  Speaker 2: your life will suck continuously.
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  Speaker 1: How old are you I am?
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  Speaker 2: I just turned thirty three. On four twenty.
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  Speaker 1: Is your birthday for twenty.
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  Speaker 2: I was born for this life.
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  Speaker 1: Man, Lord help us all please.
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  Speaker 1: Come on, come on right? And when you were a
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  Speaker 1: little kid, did you fall and hit your head?
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  Speaker 2: So I'm the youngest of six. We had fifty two
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  Speaker 2: foster kids by the time I was eight. I was
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  Speaker 2: always the youngest. So any plot that was schemed, I
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  Speaker 2: was the in the dryer. Hey, we're gonna make apple
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  Speaker 2: flingers out of apple branches and we're gonna throw apples
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  Speaker 2: at you at mock one while you're riding your bike.
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  Speaker 1: That was you were the victim. Yes, okay, what was
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  Speaker 1: I gonna do?
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  Speaker 2: Say no?
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  Speaker 1: So you've taken a couple of hits.
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  Speaker 2: My life has been one big hit. Can I can?
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  Speaker 1: I can I tell you something. I'm gonna. I'm gonna,
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  Speaker 1: We're gonna, We're gonna, as I said, this morning, We're
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  Speaker 1: gonna drive down the road this morning an hour blindfolded.
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you things that you don't know about me.
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  Speaker 1: You're gonna perfect you're gonna tell us. I was you're
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  Speaker 1: gonna tell you're.
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  Speaker 2: Gonna I was just talking about how I the only
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  Speaker 2: thing I want to talk about with people is the
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  Speaker 2: trauma they've endured and how it's changed their reactions, all right,
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  Speaker 2: and no one wants to talk about the ship that
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  Speaker 2: really hurt them.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, listen, I'm gonna say this right now. First of all,
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  Speaker 1: Number one, your batshit crazy. I know. Number two, I'd
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  Speaker 1: love to have you back on the podcast. Number three,
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  Speaker 1: I would love to have an I'd love to have
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  Speaker 1: you here with Rex too. We have a lot to
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  Speaker 1: talk about with with regard to Rex. But here's here,
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  Speaker 1: here's part of the reason why I think you're respectfully
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  Speaker 1: batshit crazy. I've I have never hit anyone. I've never
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  Speaker 1: punched anyone, and I've told you so many times I'm
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  Speaker 1: a lover, not a fighter. You I showed up at
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  Speaker 1: a job site that you were there one time with
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  Speaker 1: Barslow construction, and you were becking me, begging, pleading with
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  Speaker 1: me to hit you, to punch you in the face.
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  Speaker 1: And I was like, I like you, why would I
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  Speaker 1: want to hit you? And You're like, you've never punched anyone.
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  Speaker 3: JD.
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  Speaker 1: You need to feel what it's like. I said I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna hurt you, and you said you're not. You're not,
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  Speaker 1: And I'm like, how is that not going to hurt?
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  Speaker 2: So boys need to rough out the problem with a
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  Speaker 2: lot of society right now is men don't want a
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  Speaker 2: rough house. We are supposed to be fucking physical creatures,
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  Speaker 2: and when you're not, I think deep down in your
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  Speaker 2: DNA that drives you nuts.
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  Speaker 1: But I would have to be pissed at you to
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  Speaker 1: punch you.
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  Speaker 2: No way I would.
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  Speaker 1: No, I can't punch someone.
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  Speaker 2: I've punched seventy percent of the people I've loved in
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  Speaker 2: this world. I hope you don't ever have all the
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  Speaker 2: friends that I've made in my you there's punched on mom.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not going to get up. I'll be down, I'll
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  Speaker 1: have worm scrum.
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  Speaker 2: It would just be play it.
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  Speaker 1: It's not. I'm good. I'm on. I Am not going
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  Speaker 1: to play and punch you. I think I'm gonna have
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  Speaker 1: to be upset.
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  Speaker 2: I think violence is a skill, and as a human
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  Speaker 2: you should have the knowledge to be violent if need be.
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  Speaker 2: All right.
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  Speaker 1: This is Ed Collins, who is my guest, good close
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  Speaker 1: friend with Rex. We have talked shit about you on
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  Speaker 1: the air countless times about you. You've never you've never
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  Speaker 1: been on the air before. Here you are sitting in
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  Speaker 1: front of me. Rex is not with us today. Rex
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  Speaker 1: is going to be back with us next Friday, and
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  Speaker 1: hopefully you'll be with us too. But you have trained
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  Speaker 1: under Rex. You've been friends with Rex.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, not under with Rex. Was in the trenches with me.
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  Speaker 2: I met Rex with when he walked into a through
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  Speaker 2: the doors. I was like, okay, who is this guy?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah? So where were you born and raised? So right here?
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  Speaker 2: Now? I am originally from Sheffield, I was, Yeah, I
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  Speaker 2: grew up in Sheffield Heights, Okay, which is a nowhere land,
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  Speaker 2: the youngest of six.
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  Speaker 1: But you've been in where'd you go to high school?
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  Speaker 2: Lake Region? So we moved to the Newport. It's just
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  Speaker 2: south of Newport, all right, but you've Newport region. You've
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  Speaker 2: been here in uh in Barry Form almost a decade,
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  Speaker 2: almost a decade. So everyone knows you, ed you're you're
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  Speaker 2: a well known, interesting guy, well known guy. I didn't
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  Speaker 2: say everyone likes you, I said everyone knows you. So
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  Speaker 2: I don't live I could care less. Who knows me,
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  Speaker 2: what they know about me, what they say about me.
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  Speaker 2: The only thing I'm striving for right now in my
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  Speaker 2: life is how I the work I need to do
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  Speaker 2: to get over my bullshit to be a better person. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: that is my mission in life right now, because I've
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  Speaker 2: spent a lot of time angry at the world.
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  Speaker 1: Do we all have bullshit?
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  Speaker 2: Everyone has bullshit? And whether you're honest enough with yourself
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  Speaker 2: to talk about it and have that honest conversation with
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  Speaker 2: you that that will be the single greatest thing that
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  Speaker 2: holds you back in your life if you're not able
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  Speaker 2: to have the conversation with yourself about the ship that
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  Speaker 2: you do to everyone around you, because we all do it,
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  Speaker 2: whether we know it or not. We are all putting
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  Speaker 2: something out there, and you need to be conscious of
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  Speaker 2: what you're putting out there. And for a long time
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  Speaker 2: I was not sure, and I'm still ignorant to a
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  Speaker 2: lot of my stuff. But I want to say that
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  Speaker 2: I am working on it.
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  Speaker 1: Rex has fair to say. Please correct me if I'm wrong.
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  Speaker 1: He has been a mentor for me in many ways.
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  Speaker 1: Has he been a mentor to you?
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  Speaker 2: Rex met me when I was at my angriest, Like,
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  Speaker 2: if I didn't find that dude, I would be imploded.
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  Speaker 1: Would you be in jail. I absolutely jail or prison.
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  Speaker 2: It would have been an outburst, and I don't think
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  Speaker 2: a court system would take kindly to one of my outbursts.
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  Speaker 1: You've had you've had a rough life.
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  Speaker 2: I wouldn't call it rough. I've had a fun life.
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  Speaker 1: You've had a fun life, Okay, a big family, You've
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  Speaker 1: You've had things that have have have happened to you
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  Speaker 1: and for you, for.
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  Speaker 2: You, nothing happens to you. It's for your benefit.
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  Speaker 1: My god, if I learned that in the last year.
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  Speaker 2: It is all for you.
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  Speaker 1: But but without this outlet of mixed martial arts and
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  Speaker 1: being connected with people that are like minded.
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  Speaker 2: You have to find your tribe. Yeah, that is square one.
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  Speaker 2: You have to be honest with yourself because if you're
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  Speaker 2: not honest with yourself and you lie about who you are,
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  Speaker 2: you're going to surround yourself with people who lie about themselves,
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  Speaker 2: lie about who they are, and you're not going to
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  Speaker 2: get anywhere with those people. You have to have an
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  Speaker 2: honest conversation about who you are and what you want
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  Speaker 2: out of your life, and you need to surround yourself
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  Speaker 2: with people who want that to Yes.
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  Speaker 1: Ed Collins is my guest. This morning, who is very
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  Speaker 1: close with Rex. Rex is not able to be here
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  Speaker 1: this morning. He's at the pediatrist getting his toenails.
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  Speaker 2: Clipto. This is what we built a house for Hunters
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  Speaker 2: Investment Proper company. We from start to finish. Someone poured
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  Speaker 2: the concrete and from then on out Chris Pearlton, I
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  Speaker 2: framed it, put a roof on it, sided it all
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  Speaker 2: for Barslow. This is Rex's Rex and Hunter's brainchild. Sure,
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  Speaker 2: I am just the legs of the operation, and I
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  Speaker 2: have to be because I am too dumb to plan
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  Speaker 2: a project of that size. Sure, but I am a
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  Speaker 2: great I'm great at finishing stuff.
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  Speaker 1: Of course.
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  Speaker 2: I love. I love going to work and creating something
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  Speaker 2: and turning around being like, man, doesn't that look beautiful? Yeah? Right,
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  Speaker 2: that's very satisfactory to my brain. If I have to
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  Speaker 2: show up to an office every day and fake it,
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  Speaker 2: that's when I would implode.
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  Speaker 1: So so what does this have to do with Rex
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  Speaker 1: at the PTIT trust to this.
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  Speaker 2: So he and Hunter closed on this house. Yes, they
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  Speaker 2: have finally sold it. So today is the day if
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  Speaker 2: they go sign paperwork and finally sell this house. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: this morning, start to finish right now, created this house
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  Speaker 2: and sold it is. It's amazing, dude, what a courageous act.
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  Speaker 1: I can't imagine a world where.
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  Speaker 2: Everyone just wants to give up after like one bad thing.
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  Speaker 2: Hey man, we're going to build a house and we're
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  Speaker 2: going to deal with all the bullshit that comes with it,
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  Speaker 2: and we're going.
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  Speaker 1: To do this, and sometimes two or three bad things
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  Speaker 1: we do.
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  Speaker 2: Sometimes it's a couple of weeks worth of bad thing. Sure,
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  Speaker 2: Sometimes it's good for a month and then two days
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  Speaker 2: worth of ship sets you back that entire month. Yes,
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  Speaker 2: sometimes that happens. And you can't just throw your hands
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  Speaker 2: up in the air.
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  Speaker 1: And go, oh man, yeah right, well now what can
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  Speaker 1: I Well, we have you on camera here. Can I
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  Speaker 1: just see a quick bicep shot? Just jesus lord, I
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  Speaker 1: wor greens.
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  Speaker 2: I'm trying to fucking I'm trying to look like the whole.
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  Speaker 1: Can we see your shirt?
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  Speaker 2: Please? My shirt?
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  Speaker 1: Yep, the whole.
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  Speaker 2: I'm a nervous source. Rex. Toy Story one is my
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  Speaker 2: favorite Pixar movie.
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: You like Toy, You like some of the kids.
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  Speaker 2: We've conquered Disney Plus?
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  Speaker 1: Have you been to Disney?
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  Speaker 2: Now?
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  Speaker 1: Will? No?
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  Speaker 2: I don't want to be around those people. I just
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  Speaker 2: want to enjoy the movie. Those people, Dude, Disney adults,
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  Speaker 2: are you kidding me? No? Thank you, no, thank you.
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  Speaker 2: If you have made Disney your identity into your thirties,
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  Speaker 2: then we are different people and I do not want
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  Speaker 2: to be around you.
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  Speaker 1: I went to Disney once. True story, standing there night time,
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  Speaker 1: fireworks are getting ready to go off, fireworks standing there
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  Speaker 1: with Lily and Cherylyn. This was years ago.
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  Speaker 2: I get if you have kids, don't misinterpret that. If
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  Speaker 2: you're bringing your kids to a magical place by all
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  Speaker 2: means happening.
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  Speaker 1: Please. I'm just surprised with you, with all the mushroom consumption,
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  Speaker 1: that you haven't been to the magical place. That's all.
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  Speaker 2: I've been to the magical place, jad, I've been to
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  Speaker 2: the magical Kingdom over and over again.
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  Speaker 1: You have just not the one in Orleans.
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  Speaker 2: It's my bedroom, Christmas lights all around it.
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  Speaker 1: So we're standing there and we're getting ready for the
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  Speaker 1: fireworks to go off, and I look at it. There's
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  Speaker 1: this young woman who's you's got to be in her twenties,
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  Speaker 1: who's right next to us. And we're there for quite
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  Speaker 1: a while, and you know, Chriylyn and I were both
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  Speaker 1: noticing she's you know, she's not with with a man,
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  Speaker 1: she's not with a partner. You know, she's alone. And
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  Speaker 1: you know, an hour goes by or so and we
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  Speaker 1: start talking and I'm like, so, who are you here with?
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  Speaker 1: And she says, I'm just here with myself. And I said,
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  Speaker 1: where are you from? And she says, I'm from California.
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  Speaker 1: And she said, I love Disney so much. I fly
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  Speaker 1: here once a year to Orlando by myself for a
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  Speaker 1: week and I just all by myself. I just go
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  Speaker 1: around to the Magic Kingdom.
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  Speaker 2: I need that much money to have that much fun
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  Speaker 2: by myself. Life's taking it to me. So if I
• 21:23
  Speaker 2: could afford across the country plane ticket to go somewhere
• 21:28
  Speaker 2: for a week, that'd be awesome. Yeah, I would love that.
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: I'd love to go to the Magic Kingdom with you
• 21:32
  Speaker 1: life and stream it.
• 21:33
  Speaker 2: Live. Life has been kicking me in the nuts for
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: the last four or five months.
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: Yeah, So, okay, what what has you've had quite the
• 21:44
  Speaker 1: mixed martial arts journey? Journey that's a perfect word. Yes,
• 21:49
  Speaker 1: you've had You've been matched up with some huge fights,
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: You've had some health issues, you've had some accidents. At
• 21:59
  Speaker 1: the at the last last minute and have been been
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: able to fight what was one of the recent ones
• 22:06
  Speaker 1: that really bummed you out? Like it bummed you because
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: you were you went through you were going through fight camp,
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: you were ready mentally, physically, and all of a sudden.
• 22:18
  Speaker 2: That's happened a bunch of times. So here's a little
• 22:22
  Speaker 2: Chris lesson for you, is that I've working with that
• 22:27
  Speaker 2: dude helped me understand how I need to not overreact.
• 22:33
  Speaker 2: And I have spent a lot of my time freaking
• 22:36
  Speaker 2: out over the weather, over injuries, over all of the
• 22:41
  Speaker 2: uncontrollable ship that just happens in life. Politics. So I
• 22:45
  Speaker 2: don't do politics other things than just the weather. Dude,
• 22:51
  Speaker 2: My family, my siblings, life, life comes at you.
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: Would you say that every single one of us is
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: is fucked up, but just on different levels for different
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: reasons to we're all traumatized, different stories.
• 23:06
  Speaker 2: This is what I'm learning as a human. Yeah, we
• 23:09
  Speaker 2: are all traumatized. Like yeah, it's way not to be
• 23:16
  Speaker 2: with a with a.
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: Stupid metaphor here, But I think of a snowflake and
• 23:22
  Speaker 1: how every single snowflake is unique, is different. Every single
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: one of us has our own trauma cock too. Trauma
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: what trauma, cock to trauma. Well, but there's good things
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: and bad things that have happened in our lives. We've
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: all been on our own roller coaster.
• 23:39
  Speaker 2: But uh, like survival mechanism, you have to focus on
• 23:43
  Speaker 2: the bad because that's the stuff that really hurts you. Sure,
• 23:45
  Speaker 2: so when you get hurt as a person, that's what
• 23:48
  Speaker 2: that's your natural reaction.
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: You've been on a roller coaster in life, and fair
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: to say, at least I say, it seems like for
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: much of that ride that you've been unbuckled.
• 24:04
  Speaker 2: So here's what mushrooms have done for me in my life.
• 24:09
  Speaker 2: I spend a lot of my time with my fingers out.
• 24:14
  Speaker 2: It's their fault. It was this, it was that person.
• 24:19
  Speaker 2: It was because I didn't get that. It was always
• 24:22
  Speaker 2: something else. And when I ate mushrooms. Yeah, the only
• 24:26
  Speaker 2: problem I could see in my life was the choices
• 24:28
  Speaker 2: that I was making and how I was sabotaging myself
• 24:32
  Speaker 2: every step of the way, with how I treat people,
• 24:34
  Speaker 2: with how I.
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: Well, a lot of us love self sabotage.
• 24:40
  Speaker 2: No, everyone loves themselves too much. Everyone. A lot of
• 24:45
  Speaker 2: people make a lot of their life about only them.
• 24:49
  Speaker 2: And I've felt the worst I have felt is when
• 24:53
  Speaker 2: I've tried to make my life about me. When you fistfight,
• 24:57
  Speaker 2: you have to spend all of your time training. Then
• 25:01
  Speaker 2: you have to go home and worry about food. You
• 25:03
  Speaker 2: have to go home and worry about recovery. It is
• 25:06
  Speaker 2: never ending. It is never ending. When I went home
• 25:11
  Speaker 2: and decided that, hey, I love my girlfriend, I'm going
• 25:14
  Speaker 2: to choose her. I want I want to see what
• 25:17
  Speaker 2: she feels about her life. I want to figure out
• 25:20
  Speaker 2: the stuff that bothers her. Yeah, And then I made
• 25:23
  Speaker 2: it the WI and the we feels so much better
• 25:26
  Speaker 2: than the me. The me is so lonely. You do
• 25:29
  Speaker 2: not want to put yourself on an island. Isolation is
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: not the answer.
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: You've been there, You've been on this island.
• 25:37
  Speaker 2: Ask Benny Bird how meat I can be as a human?
• 25:42
  Speaker 3: Wow?
• 25:43
  Speaker 2: Who's Benny Benny's Rex's laborer. Yeah, Benny got stuck with
• 25:49
  Speaker 2: me when I had no idea how to communicate any
• 25:52
  Speaker 2: type of emotion. So it all came out very harsh
• 25:55
  Speaker 2: on him, on him, so yeah, to eat all of it.
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: Wow, so wow.
• 26:02
  Speaker 2: So when I go through all of this and at
• 26:04
  Speaker 2: the end of the tunnel, I have Benny Bird, of
• 26:06
  Speaker 2: all people, being like, hey man, yeah, something's different. I
• 26:10
  Speaker 2: like this guy.
• 26:11
  Speaker 1: Oh shit?
• 26:12
  Speaker 2: Can I say that I'm doing the wrong thing if
• 26:15
  Speaker 2: the people around me are like, who the fuck's this? Yeah? Damn?
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: How has how has Rex changed your life? What do
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: you say to that old fat fella? Yeah?
• 26:33
  Speaker 3: All right, so Rex has.
• 26:38
  Speaker 2: Rex was one of the only people I've met who
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: has not been afraid of me to where when I
• 26:45
  Speaker 2: blow up, it's not oh shit, I don't want to
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: be around that guy. Rex has been one of the
• 26:49
  Speaker 2: only people I've ever met that has wanted to dive
• 26:51
  Speaker 2: into whatever that was. And without it, God forbid, I
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: would not be in this place. And like with the
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: people that I have around me, with the relationships I have,
• 27:03
  Speaker 2: I would have sabotaged all of it. I would have
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: pushed people away. I would have lashed out in countless ways,
• 27:11
  Speaker 2: in countless ways.
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: Rex his as you're quite familiar with and many are
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: and in summer, has taken some fire lately by a
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: troublemaker who.
• 27:28
  Speaker 2: People want attention a heart for anyway.
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: He's out of heart for Connecticut. He's got a girlfriend
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: up here at Highgate. John Anderson, do you know what
• 27:37
  Speaker 1: I've learned about people? Hate always comes from below you.
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: The people who are doing well will never point down
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: and pick at you. Yeah, you always punch up because
• 27:50
  Speaker 1: you're envious of what that person is doing with your life. Sure,
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: life takes consistency and a lot of hard work, and
• 27:57
  Speaker 1: if you're not willing to commit that, then your life's
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: probably gonna suck. So when people see someone actually making
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: the effort, it's easy to try to poke a hole
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: in that because there's no chance in your life that
• 28:10
  Speaker 1: you could make that effort or that consistency or admit
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: that you fucked up and that you have.
• 28:15
  Speaker 2: To do better, because that's what it takes a lot
• 28:17
  Speaker 2: of the time. No, no, all of the time. Yeah,
• 28:20
  Speaker 2: all of the time. That is what it takes. You know.
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: Here here we are here, we are National Autism Awareness Month,
• 28:37
  Speaker 1: the month of April. The irony here of of what
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: Rex has had to endure from this freaking So.
• 28:49
  Speaker 2: The only currency you have in your life is your time.
• 28:53
  Speaker 2: And Rex has taken time out of his like he's
• 28:56
  Speaker 2: not busy enough running a business. And Donnie Brook.
• 28:59
  Speaker 1: Tell me about Saturday mornings at so Rex wakes up
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: Granite City, Mma wakes up Dante please.
• 29:07
  Speaker 2: And he so Dante is an autistic child that got
• 29:11
  Speaker 2: bullied on the bus. The bus driver had no idea
• 29:14
  Speaker 2: how to handle him and had a physical altercation with
• 29:20
  Speaker 2: a thirteen year old autistic boy.
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: Dante's mom is tuned in right now.
• 29:25
  Speaker 2: Okay, hello. So Rex took it upon himself to donate
• 29:35
  Speaker 2: his time on Saturday mornings to go try to teach
• 29:40
  Speaker 2: Dante how to defend himself as something like that were
• 29:43
  Speaker 2: to happen again. What an asshole? Yeah, are you kidding me?
• 29:52
  Speaker 2: Come on, we can't even have good intentions and do
• 29:57
  Speaker 2: things for people without having someone like that being like, na,
• 30:00
  Speaker 2: he's a fucking pedofoil. He's touching that kid. Fuck you?
• 30:05
  Speaker 2: Fuck you?
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: Yeah that that that got a lot of people riled
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: up in our community when this when John Anderson started to.
• 30:17
  Speaker 2: Because someone who cares about his community is trying to
• 30:20
  Speaker 2: do good in it. Yeah, yeah, tell me what John
• 30:24
  Speaker 2: Anderson has done for our community exactly, sell drugs, heroin.
• 30:30
  Speaker 2: Come the fuck on? Yeah, I know. And we can't
• 30:35
  Speaker 2: get mad at these people. Oh yeah, we can't do
• 30:39
  Speaker 2: anything to these people and they can hide behind the
• 30:43
  Speaker 2: anonymity of a fucking keyboard and say whatever they want.
• 30:47
  Speaker 2: Fuck you. Yeah, man, fuck you.
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: Amen. Amen, and hopefully, uh, you know, I I say
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: to Rack, you know, hopefully you'll have it. You'll have
• 31:01
  Speaker 1: a chance to to be face to face with.
• 31:05
  Speaker 2: I don't want Rex to get in trouble and dude. Yeah,
• 31:11
  Speaker 2: if Rex really tried to hurt that fella, like no
• 31:14
  Speaker 2: court system would be like well, yeah.
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: Rex says, a uh, He's got a relationship with Dante
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: that is very unique and.
• 31:24
  Speaker 2: He's a very genuine human.
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: He is right hard to come across through the bone.
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: And Rex in any of his father obviously when when
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: they're together, not care.
• 31:34
  Speaker 2: Because he is a genuine human.
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I know. But a lot of what they what
• 31:42
  Speaker 1: they're doing together is you know, it's like you said, roughhousing,
• 31:46
  Speaker 1: you know, and it's just it's physical and and quite honestly,
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: you know, and Rex has said.
• 31:52
  Speaker 2: It's not to mention that his father is the one
• 31:54
  Speaker 2: holding the camera.
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: Hello, my god, I know you think.
• 31:59
  Speaker 2: That his that is sitting there taping that letting something
• 32:02
  Speaker 2: like that happen. You know.
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: He used the masoning Rex bananas in a banana. Rex
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: is explained to me that what what Dante needs is
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: to be a little comfortable with some dude some physical
• 32:20
  Speaker 1: physical Everyone needs to.
• 32:21
  Speaker 2: Be comfortable with a little bit of violence. It's not
• 32:25
  Speaker 2: you are always a.
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: But it's not violence though, I mean now not with Dante.
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: It is just with Dante, just just pushing around.
• 32:32
  Speaker 2: Training is supposed to be playing. That's the sport itself
• 32:37
  Speaker 2: is brutal. So if you are trying to train for
• 32:40
  Speaker 2: the like an actual competition, it is brutal. But if
• 32:44
  Speaker 2: you are trying to have any longevity in that, it
• 32:47
  Speaker 2: is play.
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: What is admirable for me and I'm sure you is
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: to you know, I see Rex respond and reaction from
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: from an emotional standpoint because he was hurt by this.
• 33:06
  Speaker 2: We're emotional creatures.
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: We're emotional creatures. But to also see him try to
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: take the high road and be uh resilient, that's called growth.
• 33:16
  Speaker 2: Yeah, man, we have to grow as people. We can't
• 33:19
  Speaker 2: just laugh.
• 33:19
  Speaker 1: But it's so tough when you if you do something,
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: eating is.
• 33:23
  Speaker 2: The hardest part eating a shit sandwich, knowing that you need,
• 33:27
  Speaker 2: knowing the gratification of holding someone accountable for their shitty behavior.
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: Yeah right. If you do something bad and you are
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: you're getting you're taking fire, that's one thing. But if
• 33:40
  Speaker 1: you do something good, and you take fire.
• 33:45
  Speaker 2: That makes it hard to put the effort in.
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: Huh, yes it does.
• 33:49
  Speaker 2: That's where it says more about him still putting the
• 33:51
  Speaker 2: effort in this slander my name. I will still wake
• 33:55
  Speaker 2: up tomorrow, I will still put in the effort. I
• 33:57
  Speaker 2: will still go try to be a decent human because yeah, whatever,
• 34:01
  Speaker 2: am I really going to let that dude's opinions slow
• 34:04
  Speaker 2: me from doing anything in my day?
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: There's a lesson to be learned here, and it's it's
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: a tough lesson for so many of us to learn.
• 34:12
  Speaker 1: I struggle with it at times too, But Rex has
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: set a great example of how to be stronger and better.
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: I would say better, but god man, it's like, what
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: a shit show? Least difficult that was? I mean Easter
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: Easter Sunday with Easter Sunday was was a was a
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: shit show for for that. I mean, you know, I
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: don't know.
• 34:39
  Speaker 2: That was my birthday?
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: Happy birth How weld? You just turned thirty three? Thirty three? Damn?
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: Today is today? Is National Telephone Day? Today? Interesting? We
• 34:55
  Speaker 1: were talking about distracted driving and stuff. I want to
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: ask you and it maybe make the the Facebook question
• 35:01
  Speaker 1: of the day. What's the most embarrassing telephone call that
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: you've you think you've ever had.
• 35:11
  Speaker 2: So I grew up in the time. Look at this.
• 35:13
  Speaker 1: You don't even need to think about it.
• 35:15
  Speaker 2: When telemarketers used to call your house relentlessly, Yes, a
• 35:20
  Speaker 2: lot of kids, a lot of kids. Our parents did
• 35:23
  Speaker 2: not give a fuck. My mom is a saint because
• 35:26
  Speaker 2: if she tried to wrangle us in, she would have
• 35:29
  Speaker 2: pulled her fucking hair out. So when telemarketers call, we
• 35:32
  Speaker 2: were like, sweet entertainment, let's fuck with these people. Yes,
• 35:35
  Speaker 2: our parents have died. We've been home alone for a month.
• 35:39
  Speaker 2: Can you send food and water?
• 35:40
  Speaker 3: Please?
• 35:41
  Speaker 1: Beautiful love that a lot of good times, you had
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: some good times. As for me, I called and I'll
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: remember this like it was yesterday. Called my assistant principal
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: at high school, and this was I don't want to
• 35:59
  Speaker 1: date my self here, but this was right around the
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: time when like caller ID was was starting to be
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: well pagers, yes, fuck off. It's it's like caller ID
• 36:13
  Speaker 1: was just starting to come out.
• 36:14
  Speaker 2: Now, okay, wild where we're at.
• 36:16
  Speaker 1: But I didn't know that as a fifteen year old asshole.
• 36:22
  Speaker 2: You're like, wat be fucking funny.
• 36:24
  Speaker 1: I I was with a couple of couple of friends,
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: and we called the high school. We got the assistant
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: principal on the line, and he I was. I'm on
• 36:36
  Speaker 1: the phone with him, and my buddies are listening, and
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: I'm like, do you do you realize how tight your
• 36:43
  Speaker 1: pants are? Do you realize that your pants are so
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: tight it doesn't look like you're wearing underwear? Do you
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: even realize that you're walking around with high waters on?
• 36:54
  Speaker 1: You look like you look? I just I just this
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: was a long time ago. I just unleashed on this guy.
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: And then of course I hung up. Well, we're all
• 37:08
  Speaker 1: sitting there laughing. Five minutes later, the phone rings. My
• 37:13
  Speaker 1: mom comes in from outside. She can't I'm not thinking
• 37:16
  Speaker 1: anything of it, So what the phone's ringing? My mommy
• 37:20
  Speaker 1: answers the phone, I'm not thinking about anything, and I
• 37:23
  Speaker 1: hear her like mm hmm oh oh okay, oh gosh,
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: okay mm hmm okay. I am so sorry. I am
• 37:36
  Speaker 1: so sorry. I am so sorry. Nope, Nope, I won't no,
• 37:40
  Speaker 1: I won't. No. She hangs up, comes in and says
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: to my friends very calmly, all right, guys, listen, I
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: need you all to head home.
• 37:52
  Speaker 2: I need to have some.
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: No, I just I need some alone time. And my
• 37:58
  Speaker 1: buddies are like, how's going on here? So they leave
• 38:01
  Speaker 1: and Mom sits me down and she's like, uh, I
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: just got a phone call from the assistant principle.
• 38:10
  Speaker 2: And I was like, when you're blood around the cold, how.
• 38:16
  Speaker 1: Did that happen? And oh my what? She's like, Yes,
• 38:21
  Speaker 1: we have something called caller ID now and I'm like,
• 38:25
  Speaker 1: what's that. She's like, well, if they know what phone
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: number called them and I'm like.
• 38:33
  Speaker 2: Oh my god. And I would have got away with
• 38:36
  Speaker 2: it too, if it weren't for those best.
• 38:39
  Speaker 1: And she's like, you told him that he was wearing
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: high waters and that his ass looked good in his
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: tight pants.
• 38:48
  Speaker 2: And Gilbert tells me that a lot.
• 38:51
  Speaker 1: Gilbert's told me that a few times too.
• 38:53
  Speaker 2: I'm just saying, you're that Gilbert.
• 38:58
  Speaker 3: You hear that?
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: So so I'm like, oh my god. And she's like,
• 39:04
  Speaker 1: but I want you to know something. He asked me
• 39:08
  Speaker 1: who it was that he was speaking with, and he
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: asked me where the phone call came.
• 39:14
  Speaker 3: To get you a date?
• 39:16
  Speaker 2: My my mom, did you have a girly voice? And played?
• 39:24
  Speaker 2: She would not tell him who I was, all right,
• 39:29
  Speaker 2: your mom's a good one. My mom would have added
• 39:31
  Speaker 2: me out. My mom is all for you have to
• 39:35
  Speaker 2: respect a person in charge. And my mom would have been, yeah,
• 39:38
  Speaker 2: that was my shitty, my shitty youngest child. He's right here.
• 39:43
  Speaker 2: Hold on.
• 39:43
  Speaker 1: My mom had she covered my ass and she sat
• 39:49
  Speaker 1: me down and she's like, look, he wanted to know
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: your name. And I said, I will tell you that
• 39:55
  Speaker 1: it's my son. Yes, but I'm not going to tell
• 39:57
  Speaker 1: you my name or my son's name. But she said,
• 40:02
  Speaker 1: I will deal with it. I will take care of
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: it and it will never happen again. Hell yeah, And
• 40:08
  Speaker 1: she's like, I got your ass. I'm covering you, but
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: don't don't do that again. You got them. But just
• 40:16
  Speaker 1: know there is something called caller ID. So that's my
• 40:19
  Speaker 1: tribute to mom this morning, on this National Telephone Day.
• 40:25
  Speaker 2: Man, moms are awesome.
• 40:26
  Speaker 1: Oh my god, speaking of moms, Uh listen, I want
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: to have a speaking of moms. I want to have
• 40:33
  Speaker 1: a little bit of an uncomfortable, uncomfortable conversation with you.
• 40:37
  Speaker 2: I hear it.
• 40:38
  Speaker 1: I know you love one, this one you're not going
• 40:42
  Speaker 1: to see coming. I have been told and I've never
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: met your mom, but I have been told by several
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: people that your mom ed Collins is not just hot,
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: but smoking ass hot. What's going on her?
• 41:00
  Speaker 2: So my mom has a boyfriend right now and he
• 41:04
  Speaker 2: adores her. So to watch him seek affection from my
• 41:10
  Speaker 2: mother and to watch her be appreciated like that, it's
• 41:13
  Speaker 2: like watching kids. They are fucking children, yes, and I
• 41:18
  Speaker 2: want to be I am picked out. Stop fucking talking
• 41:20
  Speaker 2: about it next to me, Ellen, I don't want to
• 41:23
  Speaker 2: hear it. But the fact that they're giddy like that.
• 41:29
  Speaker 2: I'm not gonna call my mom ugly because I had
• 41:32
  Speaker 2: to get my devilish good looks from someone and it
• 41:35
  Speaker 2: wasn't my dad. It wasn't. But who said my mom
• 41:40
  Speaker 2: was hot? I mean, I mean, my mom is awesome.
• 41:48
  Speaker 2: My mom is like the mom you dream about. She
• 41:52
  Speaker 2: is the most selfless person I've ever met. It would
• 42:00
  Speaker 2: have been Rex probably, I know. The first time he
• 42:04
  Speaker 2: saw her, he was absolutely shocked. He was like, I
• 42:07
  Speaker 2: don't know what I expected, but it wasn't that. And
• 42:11
  Speaker 2: then he just sort of looked at me like, you know,
• 42:14
  Speaker 2: do you own a mirror? Have you seen you? It's
• 42:17
  Speaker 2: not all that. I can't believe I woke up to
• 42:22
  Speaker 2: talk about my mom's fucking hotness.
• 42:24
  Speaker 1: With you alive. Well, I mean, it's one thing if
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: if we're waking up, if we're waking up and talking
• 42:32
  Speaker 1: about how hot your mom is, that's one thing. But
• 42:34
  Speaker 1: if we're talking about how hot your mom is live
• 42:37
  Speaker 1: on camera in front of all these people, that's a
• 42:39
  Speaker 1: whole nother thing.
• 42:40
  Speaker 2: Buddy, is what it is.
• 42:42
  Speaker 1: I hope to have.
• 42:44
  Speaker 2: You can't fuck baby slit.
• 42:46
  Speaker 1: I'm trying to make you talk about it. Listen, I
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: want to ask you, do you know about this? Apparently
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: we had a shooting last night here in Perry, right
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: here on North Main Street.
• 43:01
  Speaker 2: So here's how I feel about the trouble in Barry.
• 43:04
  Speaker 2: I've been here, like I said, a long time. I
• 43:09
  Speaker 2: have not found the trouble that happens in Barry that
• 43:14
  Speaker 2: is consistently reported. If you're getting in trouble like that,
• 43:17
  Speaker 2: it's because you're going out and you're making dumb decisions.
• 43:20
  Speaker 2: Because yes, life is all about choices, and you are
• 43:23
  Speaker 2: making a choice to go do some dumb shit that
• 43:26
  Speaker 2: could potentially get you around someone who has a gun
• 43:29
  Speaker 2: who may want to shoot you, and then in fact
• 43:32
  Speaker 2: does so at some point. I think ten decisions before
• 43:37
  Speaker 2: the one that got him shot. He could have made
• 43:39
  Speaker 2: a change nine decisions before the one that got him
• 43:41
  Speaker 2: shot could have made a change. See where I'm going
• 43:44
  Speaker 2: with this. I do people make a lot of choices
• 43:46
  Speaker 2: and then fucking sit there and cry wolf when something
• 43:49
  Speaker 2: bad happens to him. Yeah, no shit, yeah no shit.
• 43:54
  Speaker 1: It's too bad.
• 43:55
  Speaker 2: Though, it is too bad. I'm not saying that someone
• 43:57
  Speaker 2: getting shot is an awesome thing. I don't know circumstances
• 44:00
  Speaker 2: behind it, but if it's in this town, I'm assuming
• 44:03
  Speaker 2: it's drug related.
• 44:06
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 44:07
  Speaker 2: I think many of us Sorry for making assumptions. I'm
• 44:11
  Speaker 2: sorry if you're an innocent bystander in this. I'm not
• 44:13
  Speaker 2: trying to fucking poke fun at your bullet hole.
• 44:20
  Speaker 1: There's some heavy stuff going on in the news, man.
• 44:23
  Speaker 1: I don't watch the news at all at all. Here's aha.
• 44:29
  Speaker 2: I'm happy you bring this up because I think a
• 44:32
  Speaker 2: lot of people that we live around get so fucking
• 44:36
  Speaker 2: worked up about what the fuck is put on their
• 44:39
  Speaker 2: TV screen and called news. Are you kidding me? Here's
• 44:44
  Speaker 2: something to think about. If your house is on fucking
• 44:46
  Speaker 2: fire and you called the federal government, do you think
• 44:52
  Speaker 2: the federal government is coming to help you put your
• 44:54
  Speaker 2: house out. Now the neighbor that you're arguing with over nothing,
• 45:02
  Speaker 2: turns out it's not a lot of difference. It's just
• 45:06
  Speaker 2: because you sort of want to feel right. So now
• 45:09
  Speaker 2: that you've argued with your neighbor and your house is
• 45:12
  Speaker 2: on fire and you go out and ask for help
• 45:14
  Speaker 2: and he goes, huh, sorry about your house being on fire.
• 45:18
  Speaker 2: That sucks? Or should we be worried about building our
• 45:21
  Speaker 2: community up? Hey, how's your family, how's your life going?
• 45:25
  Speaker 2: How are you doing? When was the last time you
• 45:28
  Speaker 2: walked outside and said, hey, how are you to anyone?
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: Yeah?
• 45:33
  Speaker 2: Or did you walk outside and went, huh, I wonder
• 45:35
  Speaker 2: what I need to do to get through this day? Sure,
• 45:38
  Speaker 2: but again that goes back to that lonely me thought, Yeah,
• 45:43
  Speaker 2: instead of worrying about the Wii, people have lost the
• 45:46
  Speaker 2: Wii in their lives. We are.
• 45:50
  Speaker 1: Concerned about tariffs and how they are going to affect
• 45:54
  Speaker 1: our lives. We're concerned about a lot of superficial stuff
• 46:01
  Speaker 1: that is, at the end of the day, it may
• 46:04
  Speaker 1: affect us in somewhere enough affect us, but we have
• 46:08
  Speaker 1: to stay grounded to what's most important.
• 46:13
  Speaker 2: We can't let anything external change how we as people function.
• 46:20
  Speaker 2: You're letting whatever that thing is then take control over
• 46:23
  Speaker 2: you and control all of your thoughts for that day.
• 46:27
  Speaker 2: You can't sit there and worry about the thing that
• 46:30
  Speaker 2: could potentially happen. You have to go out and deal
• 46:33
  Speaker 2: with what's being thrown at you. Any energy that you
• 46:36
  Speaker 2: put towards anything else is a waste of energy. Worry
• 46:40
  Speaker 2: about the shit that's going on right in front of you.
• 46:42
  Speaker 2: That's a lot. If you worry about your own life,
• 46:45
  Speaker 2: it's a fucking lot. Why would you want to go
• 46:47
  Speaker 2: out of your way to find more stuff to care about? Sure?
• 46:52
  Speaker 1: Sure, all you have to do is power up your
• 46:55
  Speaker 1: phone in the morning and just have a glance at it,
• 46:58
  Speaker 1: and you'll see stuff is trying to get your attention
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: and to focus your mind on on that. But we
• 47:07
  Speaker 1: lose sight of what's in front of us.
• 47:09
  Speaker 3: Man.
• 47:09
  Speaker 1: And it's like the Internet is you know, I get
• 47:12
  Speaker 1: I get people, Jesus jad. I've been trying to reach
• 47:15
  Speaker 1: it for the last four or five hours, and I'm like, dude,
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: I'm come see me. I'm on plugged, I'm on I'm
• 47:23
  Speaker 1: on my dirt bike with Lily. I'm not playing with Lily.
• 47:26
  Speaker 1: I don't give a ship what's going on? Yeah, but
• 47:28
  Speaker 1: didn't you hear about the But I could give a
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: ship man.
• 47:31
  Speaker 2: Favorite is that if I ever needed him, I don't
• 47:35
  Speaker 2: have to call I just to show up. I have
• 47:37
  Speaker 2: to show up at his house. Yeah, two in the
• 47:39
  Speaker 2: morning anytime.
• 47:42
  Speaker 3: Hmm.
• 47:42
  Speaker 2: That's the type of friend that I am. A very
• 47:45
  Speaker 2: gracious person with my time and my resources. Right, if
• 47:51
  Speaker 2: you are not willing to meet me on that level,
• 47:53
  Speaker 2: then I have nothing for you.
• 47:55
  Speaker 1: Sure.
• 47:55
  Speaker 2: Rex is one of the few people I've met in
• 47:57
  Speaker 2: my life that is willing to meet me on the
• 47:59
  Speaker 2: level of the human that I'm willing to meet him at.
• 48:02
  Speaker 1: Sure, and that's important. Rex is the kind of guy.
• 48:05
  Speaker 1: And this has happened to me. I've shown up at
• 48:07
  Speaker 1: the house unannounced and he's been will.
• 48:10
  Speaker 2: Drop everything, what is your problem?
• 48:12
  Speaker 1: What do you need?
• 48:12
  Speaker 2: Right?
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: But one time I showed up and he was, you know,
• 48:16
  Speaker 1: with Brenda and for Randy. H he just stopped.
• 48:23
  Speaker 2: And that doesn't sound like Rex. I bet Rex would
• 48:27
  Speaker 2: have told you to fucking wait a minute.
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: A minute, That's that's about it. Yeah, I would be
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: a minute, But you know, he's a ship Gilbert came
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: came to me and was like, what's going on and
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: are you doing all right? What's going on here? I
• 48:43
  Speaker 1: was like, yeah, it was just coming by his side,
• 48:45
  Speaker 1: all right, Okay, remember yeah, you can't.
• 48:49
  Speaker 2: Make people care about you know. When you find someone
• 48:52
  Speaker 2: that cares about you, care back, Yes, care back. I agree,
• 48:57
  Speaker 2: Create the wei, create the wi.
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: I love that. That's a that's a that's a takeaway
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: for me this morning.
• 49:05
  Speaker 2: Good.
• 49:05
  Speaker 3: What what do you? What are you?
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: What are you doing now with your life? What what's happening?
• 49:13
  Speaker 1: You're You're in construction.
• 49:15
  Speaker 2: I am trying to learn as many trades as I
• 49:20
  Speaker 2: potentially can. Okay, I can frame the house, I can
• 49:25
  Speaker 2: side a house.
• 49:25
  Speaker 1: Plumbing no fuck, no, heating now, electrical now okay. So
• 49:31
  Speaker 1: so construction.
• 49:32
  Speaker 2: Construction, if you can build it, I want to be
• 49:37
  Speaker 2: able to build it, all right. If you hand me something,
• 49:39
  Speaker 2: I want to be like, all right.
• 49:40
  Speaker 1: Who's carrying the heavyweight though, Benny, Because based on the
• 49:43
  Speaker 1: size of your arms, I'm guessing that you're like, guys,
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: can you bring those little nails over for just a second?
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: So can you can you carry those concrete?
• 49:52
  Speaker 2: I understand shingles am a fucking gorilla, yes, So I
• 50:01
  Speaker 2: try to take the workload off people around me. Because
• 50:08
  Speaker 2: it is easier for me and it's not a lot
• 50:10
  Speaker 2: of effort. It doesn't mean that people around me aren't trying.
• 50:15
  Speaker 2: It just means that I want to do a little
• 50:18
  Speaker 2: more so they don't have to interesting and I'm getting
• 50:25
  Speaker 2: fucking jacked in the process. Who cares? And at some
• 50:29
  Speaker 2: point someone needs to do it anyway, So if they
• 50:32
  Speaker 2: weren't there, I would be stuck doing all of it.
• 50:35
  Speaker 2: So why don't you appreciate the fact that they're taking anything?
• 50:38
  Speaker 4: Yeah, well said, it's a fucking tornado between these ears,
• 50:51
  Speaker 4: but sometimes some shit sticks.
• 50:54
  Speaker 1: I'm just seeing now that we have I saw this
• 50:59
  Speaker 1: last night that we've ided the Milton police officer that
• 51:03
  Speaker 1: was shot responding to the house fire search into Paul Locke.
• 51:10
  Speaker 1: Can you imagine being a police officer and showing up
• 51:13
  Speaker 1: at a fire, You're trying to help someone and you're
• 51:16
  Speaker 1: getting ambushed with bullets? The fuck.
• 51:22
  Speaker 2: Because a lot of a lot of my life decisions
• 51:27
  Speaker 2: have been about my moral compass, and a lot of
• 51:31
  Speaker 2: the laws don't necessarily reflect my moral compass, And to
• 51:38
  Speaker 2: try to put yourself out there to be better for
• 51:41
  Speaker 2: your community is a tough ass. And to ask them
• 51:47
  Speaker 2: to do it with little training, with little backing, with
• 51:53
  Speaker 2: a bunch of bullshit. Now not saying that they are
• 51:58
  Speaker 2: all angels, right, it is a I Am not going
• 52:02
  Speaker 2: to sit here and worship every fucking step they take.
• 52:05
  Speaker 2: They are also human, and because you've signed up to
• 52:09
  Speaker 2: be a cop, you are now held at a higher standard.
• 52:12
  Speaker 2: You should want to be held at a higher standard.
• 52:15
  Speaker 2: But you can't let the fact that your power in
• 52:19
  Speaker 2: your community could somehow fuck with your decision making. And
• 52:24
  Speaker 2: I think a lot of cops sometimes make the decision
• 52:27
  Speaker 2: because just because they can, not necessarily because.
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: It's what do you think about the whole Brandon Carbo
• 52:36
  Speaker 1: story and Officer McGowan, what's your take?
• 52:39
  Speaker 2: So here's my issue.
• 52:44
  Speaker 1: Can I put a disclaimer on the front of this?
• 52:46
  Speaker 1: My issue is opinions of Ed Collins are not necessarily.
• 52:51
  Speaker 2: Problem with anything I've said. Do not take it out
• 52:53
  Speaker 2: on JD. Find my face and try to take it
• 52:55
  Speaker 2: out on me. I'll defend everything I've said today. So
• 53:00
  Speaker 2: I thought is that I have been training martial arts
• 53:05
  Speaker 2: for almost a decade. I have been in countless live situations,
• 53:12
  Speaker 2: and any time I have thrown a punch at someone,
• 53:16
  Speaker 2: it is because my ego said punch that motherfucker in
• 53:20
  Speaker 2: the face. I'm sorry your ego got you in trouble.
• 53:25
  Speaker 2: I am My ego's got me in trouble countless times
• 53:28
  Speaker 2: in my life. And again it makes me want to
• 53:31
  Speaker 2: point the finger out and say, well, it was this,
• 53:34
  Speaker 2: it was that. But at the end of the day,
• 53:38
  Speaker 2: I need to honestly ask whose decision was it mine.
• 53:43
  Speaker 2: I made that decision and then I followed through on it,
• 53:47
  Speaker 2: and now I have to reap the consequences of my decision,
• 53:51
  Speaker 2: good or bad. Yep, you cannot complain about the bed
• 53:56
  Speaker 2: that you were lying in after making it.
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: Yeah, there's a There is so much that could be
• 54:09
  Speaker 1: said about this, and I think at.
• 54:11
  Speaker 2: Both sides of it. I understand wanting to fucking stand
• 54:15
  Speaker 2: up for yourself and absolutely put a whoop whooping on
• 54:20
  Speaker 2: someone who terrorized your community. Trust me, I fucking think
• 54:23
  Speaker 2: about it all of the time. That does not mean
• 54:26
  Speaker 2: that I get to go walk around my community and
• 54:29
  Speaker 2: put whoopings on all the people I deemed it.
• 54:35
  Speaker 1: But we also we also I think anyway, and I've
• 54:41
  Speaker 1: seen a lot of this on on social media, that
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: Officer McCowan is a human being and he absolutely there
• 54:50
  Speaker 1: are certain certain people like I like you. You just
• 54:53
  Speaker 1: alluded to that, certain people that certain officers have just
• 54:58
  Speaker 1: about had enough of dealing with.
• 55:02
  Speaker 2: And if I dealt with that dude for more than
• 55:04
  Speaker 2: two I've ran into him once. Yeah, and I was
• 55:07
  Speaker 2: walking with an earbud in with anybody, no fuck face,
• 55:11
  Speaker 2: I don't. Yeah, if I had to deal with that
• 55:14
  Speaker 2: guy over and over again, Yeah, I'm out making the
• 55:17
  Speaker 2: effort to take care of my family and community while
• 55:20
  Speaker 2: I watch someone not make the effort. That's what drives
• 55:25
  Speaker 2: me the most nuts is that every day every human
• 55:28
  Speaker 2: has the opportunity to be part of a community. You
• 55:31
  Speaker 2: have to wake up, be honest to the people around
• 55:33
  Speaker 2: you and go put the effort in and show everyone
• 55:35
  Speaker 2: that you are trying to do the right thing and
• 55:37
  Speaker 2: you are not trying to fuck them over.
• 55:39
  Speaker 1: Well said. I just met up with Brandon Carbo a
• 55:44
  Speaker 1: few days ago.
• 55:45
  Speaker 2: How was that?
• 55:46
  Speaker 1: And I had a conversation with him. I basically invited
• 55:54
  Speaker 1: him to come on the air here and to address
• 56:00
  Speaker 1: his community.
• 56:03
  Speaker 2: I'd be cool that if he did it. Honestly, if
• 56:06
  Speaker 2: he try to use your platform to manipulate you and
• 56:10
  Speaker 2: how you feel.
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: Yeah, but I would have a problem. I would make
• 56:13
  Speaker 1: sure that he wasn't taking advantage of the platform. But
• 56:17
  Speaker 1: I invited him to come in here and basically tell
• 56:20
  Speaker 1: his story. Yeah, you know, and he told me that
• 56:26
  Speaker 1: he would. He told me that he would be here Monday.
• 56:28
  Speaker 1: Today's Friday. He's been a no show.
• 56:31
  Speaker 2: And then you wonder why he's at where he's at
• 56:33
  Speaker 2: right exactly.
• 56:34
  Speaker 1: This is an opportunity for you to kind of come clean, uh,
• 56:38
  Speaker 1: you know, and he didn't take it. Go figure, So
• 56:44
  Speaker 1: you know, I'm not going to ask him twice if
• 56:47
  Speaker 1: he wants to come on the air. He knows where
• 56:48
  Speaker 1: the studio is. I invited him, and if he wants
• 56:51
  Speaker 1: to be on the air, he'll come on the air.
• 56:53
  Speaker 1: And if he wants to be here continue to be
• 56:55
  Speaker 1: a scumbag and you know, can continue to harass and
• 57:00
  Speaker 1: harm his community, then he will.
• 57:04
  Speaker 2: So here's what I've learned. Rex just hired a kid
• 57:06
  Speaker 2: named Maverick. Maverick's had trouble with drugs. He has kids,
• 57:12
  Speaker 2: and he is honestly put the effort in to get
• 57:16
  Speaker 2: away from drugs and to be there for his kids
• 57:20
  Speaker 2: and turn his life around. I do not mind helping
• 57:24
  Speaker 2: people who have made bad decisions. I only want to
• 57:28
  Speaker 2: help people who are making the effort to do the
• 57:32
  Speaker 2: right thing. And Brandon Carbo walking these streets asking people
• 57:37
  Speaker 2: for money is not putting the effort in. So why
• 57:40
  Speaker 2: the fuck should I take my effort and my money
• 57:43
  Speaker 2: and go help him? Why you have to put the
• 57:49
  Speaker 2: effort forward, and not a lot of people are willing to.
• 57:54
  Speaker 2: And if you're out fucking begging, you're obviously not out
• 57:58
  Speaker 2: putting the effort in.
• 58:00
  Speaker 1: Yesterday, reach in his pocket, pull out a pack of cigarettes.
• 58:04
  Speaker 2: Right, what are your priorities?
• 58:06
  Speaker 1: Thirteen bucks a pack?
• 58:08
  Speaker 2: What are your priorities? Because if it was doing good,
• 58:14
  Speaker 2: you wouldn't be wasting a fucking twenty dollars bill on
• 58:16
  Speaker 2: a pack of smokes. You can go. You're worried about
• 58:20
  Speaker 2: getting through the next day. It's a lot to untangle
• 58:26
  Speaker 2: your bullshit. I understand the fucking web it weaves, and
• 58:30
  Speaker 2: how easy it is to get caught in that web.
• 58:32
  Speaker 2: Oh yeah, if I didn't have Gilbert in my life
• 58:36
  Speaker 2: to call me on a lot of my shit, I
• 58:39
  Speaker 2: would still be walking around in ignorance. I'm the fucking man,
• 58:43
  Speaker 2: look at me. Yeah.
• 58:47
  Speaker 1: You know what's what's amazing is I've actually taken some
• 58:51
  Speaker 1: fire here in the past by saying on the air, look,
• 58:58
  Speaker 1: do something, it's your life. Be productive. A lot of
• 59:02
  Speaker 1: people and if ever see fire for JD. Not everybody
• 59:08
  Speaker 1: can do that. There's I'm like, dude, there's so many
• 59:11
  Speaker 1: fucking resources that are available to you to become a
• 59:15
  Speaker 1: better person or at least get started on that journey.
• 59:19
  Speaker 2: It is the easiest it has ever been to be successful.
• 59:23
  Speaker 2: Everyone is connected.
• 59:24
  Speaker 1: That's a quote.
• 59:25
  Speaker 2: Everyone is connected. You have the resources.
• 59:29
  Speaker 1: I'm writing that down. Say it again. It's the easiest, it's.
• 59:33
  Speaker 2: Ever the easiest. Sorry, it is the easiest it has
• 59:37
  Speaker 2: ever been, right now, to be successful. The problem with
• 59:41
  Speaker 2: that is it is the most easy. It is the
• 59:45
  Speaker 2: easiest time to be distracted. Yeah, right, So you need
• 59:50
  Speaker 2: to make the choice. Am I going to go out
• 59:52
  Speaker 2: and do the thing that I need to do because
• 59:54
  Speaker 2: I know I need to do it? Or am I
• 59:56
  Speaker 2: going to pull my phone out and am I going
• 59:57
  Speaker 2: to scroll through TikTok for four hours? There it is,
• 1:00:01
  Speaker 2: you have to want it. And yeah, that looks like
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 2: work a lot of days, And yeah, work isn't a
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 2: lot of fun a lot of days. But guess what,
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 2: that's the choice. Yeah, that is the choice.
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, and this is just not just Brandon Carbo,
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 1: this is every one of them.
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 2: This is there with a fucking sign fuck you times currency, right, Yeah,
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 2: why am I giving you my time for no effort?
• 1:00:39
  Speaker 2: No thank you. I'm putting in maximal effort. I'm trying
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 2: to be a max effort human and every aspect I'm
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 2: trying to love the max amount. I'm trying to build
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 2: the maxi amount. I am trying to get the most
• 1:00:52
  Speaker 2: I can out of this fucking life. So if you're
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 2: sitting there not doing the same, I have absolutely nothing
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 2: for you. Nothing.
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 1: We see it every day. We see it everywhere. We
• 1:01:08
  Speaker 1: see it at Price Chopper, we see it at the
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 1: junction by the hospital. We see it at the junction
• 1:01:14
  Speaker 1: up by Applebee's, we see it right here in Barry.
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 1: We see it everywhere.
• 1:01:19
  Speaker 2: But again, I don't feel bad because I understand the
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 2: effort it takes, and I understand the effort that I
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 2: am making every day, So I can't feel bad for you.
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 2: I understand it's hard. Ask me how I know I'm
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 2: out there fucking doing it.
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 1: And I've seen you, you know, and I've said to Rex,
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 1: I'm like Rex, my god, come on, buddy, these guys
• 1:01:40
  Speaker 1: are framing stuff outside. It's snowing out.
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 2: Dude, I used to climb pouring rain when it's freezing cold.
• 1:01:48
  Speaker 2: When you're in working for a company and you're just
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 2: a number, and guess what quota has to be met,
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 2: get the fuck out of the truck rock, Rex, at
• 1:01:55
  Speaker 2: least allow you to make the choice. Do you want
• 1:01:59
  Speaker 2: to go to work today? It is fucking miserable out.
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 2: And what I've learned about me is that if you
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 2: make it my choice, I will suffer immensely for you.
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 2: If you tell me I have to do anything, yeah,
• 1:02:10
  Speaker 2: O fuck yourself.
• 1:02:11
  Speaker 1: Oh interesting.
• 1:02:14
  Speaker 2: The only the reason why I really like get working
• 1:02:18
  Speaker 2: for Rex is that he allows that dynamic to happen.
• 1:02:21
  Speaker 2: At any point. If I am done with my day,
• 1:02:24
  Speaker 2: I can fucking how long?
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 1: How long do you think you would be able to
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 1: work with me on a construction site?
• 1:02:32
  Speaker 2: Again? How much effort are you willing to put in? Again?
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 2: I'm an effort dude. I don't care what your knowledge
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 2: level is, as long as you are spending your effort
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 2: trying to help me complete the task. I don't give
• 1:02:42
  Speaker 2: a fuck if you mess up a bunch of times.
• 1:02:45
  Speaker 2: That's humor. That's the shit that gets us through the day.
• 1:02:49
  Speaker 2: Thanks for doing that. That was kind of dumb. Yeah,
• 1:02:52
  Speaker 2: thanks for the laugh. Let's move on.
• 1:02:54
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 2: Wow, there's plenty of those people out there, but you
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 2: have to make an effort. That is the bottom line.
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 1: I want to ask you a question. And and Rex
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 1: is in here, so he has no way of defending himself.
• 1:03:11
  Speaker 2: I'll defend him.
• 1:03:14
  Speaker 3: Will you.
• 1:03:16
  Speaker 1: Come back and finish citing my house this summer?
• 1:03:20
  Speaker 2: Maybe? Maybe? Dude, I'm a busy guy. However, word, I.
• 1:03:30
  Speaker 1: Know you too, not to do my own h but
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 1: and like, can I say something else? I think it
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 1: was Benny that was over the house and Maverick, those
• 1:03:42
  Speaker 1: fucking guys. What they've done in my house, what they've done,
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 1: and it was a few other guys too, what they've
• 1:03:48
  Speaker 1: done to my bathroom, what they've done to my living room.
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 1: I have a new living room ceiling. I mean I
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 1: had a popcorn ceiling. Ed, who's got a popcorn seat?
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 3: Now?
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 1: I had to have that shit taken down.
• 1:04:02
  Speaker 2: Maverick's skill set is so much different than mine, and
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 2: he's respectful about it, so he is not the type
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 2: of kid to be like I know more than you.
• 1:04:11
  Speaker 2: We're doing it this way because I fucking said so,
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 2: oh yeah, he is very much. I like working with
• 1:04:18
  Speaker 2: people who make it a discussion. I at least want
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 2: to feel like I have had a choice in what
• 1:04:23
  Speaker 2: I'm doing today. I don't care if it was your
• 1:04:25
  Speaker 2: idea and I'm just like, yeah, that's a fucking great idea.
• 1:04:28
  Speaker 2: At least present it to the rest of us. Maverick
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 2: skill set and the way he brings and the way
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 2: he can communicate with another human has helped me professionally
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 2: a lot. He's got at carpet, he's good at finish. Yeah,
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 2: there's a there's a patience that's required. Kidder can't fake
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 2: that part.
• 1:04:50
  Speaker 1: Kidder is saying he's seen you on chop sites and
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 1: that you're a bull hell of a worker.
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 2: Fuck yeah, thank you. I try to be and I
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 2: want people to get their money's worth. When people see
• 1:05:00
  Speaker 2: me anywhere, I don't want them to.
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 1: Be like, oh, fuck that guy. It wants them to
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: be like that guy. Fuck yeah, you know you and
• 1:05:08
  Speaker 1: Chris Pearl, my god, you guys couldn't be any different.
• 1:05:12
  Speaker 1: He's he's so, he's quiet, he's kind of at a
• 1:05:15
  Speaker 1: little shy, but he's a good human he's a good human.
• 1:05:19
  Speaker 1: You guys work together all day, you're out freezing your
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: ass off you.
• 1:05:23
  Speaker 2: And then go to gym brother. Now his brother is
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 2: an incredible carpenter, and then incredible carpenter.
• 1:05:29
  Speaker 1: Then you guys go to the gym and beat the
• 1:05:31
  Speaker 1: ship out of each other after working with each other
• 1:05:33
  Speaker 1: all day.
• 1:05:34
  Speaker 2: But he's wrestled his entire life.
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 1: Can you wrestle him?
• 1:05:38
  Speaker 2: Fuck no, not a chance. But he's like his brother wrestled,
• 1:05:43
  Speaker 2: so he's used to like the grind with a loved
• 1:05:47
  Speaker 2: one and not taking that personally or taking it home
• 1:05:51
  Speaker 2: or bring it to the next spot.
• 1:05:53
  Speaker 1: Right.
• 1:05:54
  Speaker 2: I've never had an issue with that. I've spent a
• 1:05:56
  Speaker 2: lot of time around him.
• 1:05:57
  Speaker 1: Let me ask you, Chris Parolet versus Ed Collins bucks
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 1: me up ten times championship championship out of tight championship
• 1:06:10
  Speaker 1: belts on the line.
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 2: Who's gonna win ten out of ten times? Chris is
• 1:06:13
  Speaker 2: fucking me up? What? He's really good? Really good?
• 1:06:20
  Speaker 1: You wouldn't get in the catch with him for a belt?
• 1:06:22
  Speaker 2: I would. I love this fighting with Chris. It is
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 2: the most fun I've had inside of a gym is
• 1:06:27
  Speaker 2: fighting with that dude.
• 1:06:29
  Speaker 1: It is wildly entertaining, but you would do it for
• 1:06:31
  Speaker 1: the entertainment factor and not to win the belt. You
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 1: wouldn't win belt.
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 2: I want to do it because he's a great partner.
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 2: He is awesome at it. Yeah, and anything we're doing
• 1:06:42
  Speaker 2: is gonna help with my growth. Yeah, but do not
• 1:06:48
  Speaker 2: mistake when that if that dude wanted to walk into
• 1:06:51
  Speaker 2: a room and be like, I'm fucking sick of your ship.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 1: What's your what's your your your weight and your height?
• 1:06:57
  Speaker 2: I amably six three and I am probably two forty
• 1:07:04
  Speaker 2: right now.
• 1:07:05
  Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, and I love it.
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 2: I had been eating non stop and when I look
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 2: at myself, fuck, yeah.
• 1:07:16
  Speaker 1: You you know that you would have a little bit
• 1:07:19
  Speaker 1: of a challenge if I came up behind you and
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 1: got you around the ankles, sure, because I would hold on.
• 1:07:28
  Speaker 1: I would hold on to your life. But I would
• 1:07:32
  Speaker 1: hold on, and I think at some point it would
• 1:07:35
  Speaker 1: probably throw off your balance and drop you like a
• 1:07:38
  Speaker 1: fucking tree. No, I think if I could, if I
• 1:07:42
  Speaker 1: could get.
• 1:07:42
  Speaker 2: Dude, if you grab my ankles, I would fall over, laughing,
• 1:07:45
  Speaker 2: what the fuck are you doing down there?
• 1:07:47
  Speaker 1: Because i'd I would throw your your your equilibrium off,
• 1:07:51
  Speaker 1: you'd go down. But I'm just telling it's gonna happen
• 1:07:55
  Speaker 1: one of these days. Watch your back.
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 2: If you tabletopped me, if you have andy push me
• 1:08:01
  Speaker 2: while tabletopping me. That's a core moment, man, I'll fucking
• 1:08:11
  Speaker 2: hold on of that forever. You gotta do it now,
• 1:08:16
  Speaker 2: you gotta do it.
• 1:08:17
  Speaker 1: I just if I can catch you off guard, that's
• 1:08:20
  Speaker 1: my thing. I got to come in one hundred miles
• 1:08:22
  Speaker 1: an hour, bang right around the back of the knee
• 1:08:25
  Speaker 1: on the ankle.
• 1:08:26
  Speaker 2: Pretty easy to catch off guard.
• 1:08:29
  Speaker 1: Are you going to be in back in the Are
• 1:08:31
  Speaker 1: you going to be up at a battle in barry?
• 1:08:32
  Speaker 1: Are you going to be in the cage?
• 1:08:34
  Speaker 2: Not anytime soon. I have chose my home, okay, And
• 1:08:39
  Speaker 2: it is the most happy I've been with my life
• 1:08:42
  Speaker 2: right now because I put Gilbert first. And it's a
• 1:08:51
  Speaker 2: lot of fun when a human feels comfortable enough with
• 1:08:54
  Speaker 2: you to talk about the ship that fucked them up
• 1:08:56
  Speaker 2: as a human. Yeah, and how they're still holding on
• 1:08:59
  Speaker 2: to it in the relationships that they have with people,
• 1:09:02
  Speaker 2: and how it still affects them. That's what it's about.
• 1:09:05
  Speaker 2: We're just trying to help each other get through our
• 1:09:07
  Speaker 2: own bullshit. So when you lie about it and you're
• 1:09:10
  Speaker 2: not honest and you don't want to talk about it,
• 1:09:13
  Speaker 2: how can we help you as people? I understand that
• 1:09:19
  Speaker 2: it's shitty work and it hurts a lot, and you're
• 1:09:21
  Speaker 2: probably gonna cry a lot. I fucking get it, But
• 1:09:26
  Speaker 2: ask me how I know by sitting there, being honest
• 1:09:29
  Speaker 2: with myself and fucking crying a lot about it, you've
• 1:09:32
  Speaker 2: been a terrible human.
• 1:09:34
  Speaker 1: We need to fix that is So, what is something
• 1:09:37
  Speaker 1: that before I ask you this question? What do you
• 1:09:44
  Speaker 1: think of the people that say, if I could go
• 1:09:49
  Speaker 1: back and live my life all over again, I wouldn't
• 1:09:52
  Speaker 1: change a thing. I regret nothing. Do you feel that way?
• 1:09:59
  Speaker 2: You? I feel like I am very guided and life's
• 1:10:04
  Speaker 2: supposed to happen to us. We're supposed to be going
• 1:10:06
  Speaker 2: through this shit. We're supposed to feel it all.
• 1:10:09
  Speaker 1: That's deep, man, you know, and I've I've heard many
• 1:10:12
  Speaker 1: people say that. But I have to be honest with you.
• 1:10:15
  Speaker 1: If I'll just be, I'll be honest with everyone. If
• 1:10:19
  Speaker 1: if I could go live my life over again, there's
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 1: a few changes that I would have made. Yes, there
• 1:10:25
  Speaker 1: are within even within the last couple of years, that
• 1:10:31
  Speaker 1: you get that.
• 1:10:33
  Speaker 2: I've fucked up a lot.
• 1:10:35
  Speaker 1: Knowing now what I know. Yeah, but you don't.
• 1:10:41
  Speaker 2: Do you get that? Do you get to go back
• 1:10:42
  Speaker 2: with your knowledge? Now?
• 1:10:44
  Speaker 1: I don't.
• 1:10:45
  Speaker 2: Then how do you know you're going to make any
• 1:10:47
  Speaker 2: choice different?
• 1:10:48
  Speaker 1: True? Good point? Good point.
• 1:10:51
  Speaker 2: Your choices have made you. Whether you can like your
• 1:10:54
  Speaker 2: choices or not, they have made you, and you have
• 1:10:57
  Speaker 2: to accept that. You have to accept the bad in
• 1:10:59
  Speaker 2: you to give any of the good credit. You have
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 2: to accept your own shitty behavior.
• 1:11:05
  Speaker 1: Right or just bad choices that you pay too. Yeah?
• 1:11:09
  Speaker 2: Again? Accountability? Yeah, do you have any fucking shred of
• 1:11:13
  Speaker 2: accountability inside of you? Can you have that hard conversation
• 1:11:16
  Speaker 2: with yourself? Not a lot of people can?
• 1:11:19
  Speaker 1: Yeah?
• 1:11:19
  Speaker 2: Let alone talk about it with anyone else? Yeah? Right?
• 1:11:24
  Speaker 1: Nothing that you would do differently though, if you could
• 1:11:28
  Speaker 1: go through your life again.
• 1:11:32
  Speaker 3: Again.
• 1:11:33
  Speaker 2: I feel like I am a sum of the experience
• 1:11:37
  Speaker 2: and choices that I have been through, and right now
• 1:11:40
  Speaker 2: in my life I like me the most. Wow, And
• 1:11:44
  Speaker 2: I don't want to change that. I've done a lot
• 1:11:48
  Speaker 2: of terrible things, but I've also had to give myself
• 1:11:52
  Speaker 2: the space and attempt to forgive myself and turn the
• 1:11:57
  Speaker 2: conversation between my ears into something positive instead of running
• 1:12:02
  Speaker 2: myself into the ground. Over and over. Bro.
• 1:12:07
  Speaker 1: If you checked out with us later today and that
• 1:12:09
  Speaker 1: was the last thing that you said, it wouldn't get
• 1:12:16
  Speaker 1: any better. I mean, that's uh, that's that's it right there.
• 1:12:20
  Speaker 1: Damn good for you for saying that. For you, you know,
• 1:12:27
  Speaker 1: Rex was like a big Ed's coming on with you tomorrow. Man,
• 1:12:30
  Speaker 1: buckle up, bro. You you are such a and I
• 1:12:35
  Speaker 1: know you as the fighter, and I know your big
• 1:12:37
  Speaker 1: Ed Collins and the zip zipity do dot a, but
• 1:12:40
  Speaker 1: you're you really are such an insightful motherfucker.
• 1:12:44
  Speaker 2: You.
• 1:12:45
  Speaker 1: You you bring a an awareness and understanding to a
• 1:12:51
  Speaker 1: lot of stuff that I frankly I wish we were
• 1:12:53
  Speaker 1: pushing more on this podcast.
• 1:12:55
  Speaker 2: I want to succeed in life, and I know the
• 1:12:58
  Speaker 2: way that I do that is through what m Yeah.
• 1:13:05
  Speaker 1: Wow. And meanwhile, you know we got fucking Rodney No
• 1:13:11
  Speaker 1: Acts saying that you would kill me while I'm sleeping.
• 1:13:14
  Speaker 2: No way, I'm in my peace and love stage. It's
• 1:13:22
  Speaker 2: been weird, but it's been fun. Yeah. When you're when
• 1:13:26
  Speaker 2: you trained to fist fight, you have to be in
• 1:13:29
  Speaker 2: a mindset of I'm going to fight every day. Yeah,
• 1:13:33
  Speaker 2: And even if you are not fighting every day, you
• 1:13:37
  Speaker 2: will find shit to fight about Yeah, whether you know
• 1:13:41
  Speaker 2: it or not.
• 1:13:42
  Speaker 1: More of us, uh need to.
• 1:13:47
  Speaker 2: Not be.
• 1:13:48
  Speaker 1: Ah hm quietly fighting.
• 1:13:53
  Speaker 2: We need to half of the community.
• 1:13:56
  Speaker 1: Yeah, half a voice.
• 1:13:57
  Speaker 2: Life's hard.
• 1:13:58
  Speaker 1: You need people around, don't just you know, so many
• 1:14:02
  Speaker 1: of us sit home and just fester. We just sit
• 1:14:06
  Speaker 1: there and we got spin spinding, spinning.
• 1:14:09
  Speaker 2: The problem is that what happens when you go to
• 1:14:12
  Speaker 2: therapy twice a week, Well, you purge. Fore you spend
• 1:14:19
  Speaker 2: two days of your week bringing up all of the
• 1:14:22
  Speaker 2: bad in your life and you're talking about it. You're
• 1:14:24
  Speaker 2: not necessarily resolving things, so all you're doing is revolving
• 1:14:29
  Speaker 2: on the negative ship that has happened to you. You
• 1:14:31
  Speaker 2: need to change the way you think. Wow, Gratitude is
• 1:14:35
  Speaker 2: the attitude. You need to figure out the ship that
• 1:14:38
  Speaker 2: you were grateful, grateful for in this life, damn fella.
• 1:14:41
  Speaker 2: And you need to like hold on to that, the
• 1:14:45
  Speaker 2: ship you appreciate. That's how you get through it. If
• 1:14:49
  Speaker 2: there's a lot of bad to look for, Yeah, why
• 1:14:54
  Speaker 2: would you want to spend all of your time looking
• 1:14:56
  Speaker 2: for the bad? Oh and here's another bad thing?
• 1:14:59
  Speaker 1: Fuck that? Yeah, yeah, I believe me. You know I've
• 1:15:06
  Speaker 1: done it too. I think many of us have, but
• 1:15:11
  Speaker 1: we need to just take a take a step back,
• 1:15:16
  Speaker 1: take a deep breath. So and rewatch this podcast.
• 1:15:20
  Speaker 2: Within the last year, this this has been my biggest
• 1:15:25
  Speaker 2: thing in the last year, is that if anything bad
• 1:15:28
  Speaker 2: would happen to me, I would spiral. I would spiral
• 1:15:32
  Speaker 2: on the event. I would replay it. I would replay
• 1:15:35
  Speaker 2: what I said. I would replay what they said.
• 1:15:37
  Speaker 1: A little closer to Mike so we can hear you.
• 1:15:38
  Speaker 2: I would bring all of I would run through that
• 1:15:42
  Speaker 2: scenario ninety times.
• 1:15:44
  Speaker 3: I would be.
• 1:15:46
  Speaker 2: So far away from the room that I'm in, delving
• 1:15:49
  Speaker 2: into the scenarios that I'm making up in my mind.
• 1:15:52
  Speaker 2: There would be no chance you can have a conversation
• 1:15:54
  Speaker 2: with me. There would be no chance you could like
• 1:15:56
  Speaker 2: get me to do anything. I was not present. The
• 1:16:00
  Speaker 2: thing that has helped me a lot is being grateful
• 1:16:03
  Speaker 2: for the people in my life and that maybe not
• 1:16:08
  Speaker 2: everything bad happen happening to me is bad. So maybe
• 1:16:14
  Speaker 2: I should stop treating everything is the worst thing that's happened.
• 1:16:18
  Speaker 2: Maybe I should stop worrying about the shit that's happening.
• 1:16:22
  Speaker 2: Maybe I need to worry about how I am interacting
• 1:16:25
  Speaker 2: with the shit that is happening. To me, at some point,
• 1:16:29
  Speaker 2: I need to control my attitude. I need to control
• 1:16:32
  Speaker 2: my demeanor. I need to control how I interact with
• 1:16:34
  Speaker 2: this shit so I have a positive experience. Not that
• 1:16:37
  Speaker 2: necessarily all of it's gonna be positive. This is not
• 1:16:42
  Speaker 2: a fairy tale. One of the time, it is not
• 1:16:45
  Speaker 2: gonna be going well.
• 1:16:51
  Speaker 1: Spot on, brother, Damn, You're gonna come back in here
• 1:16:58
  Speaker 1: with sure with Rex one of these days, for sure. Okay, jeez, dude,
• 1:17:06
  Speaker 1: I love having you on.
• 1:17:07
  Speaker 2: Man. So my only problem with talking with Rex like
• 1:17:10
  Speaker 2: this is that Rex loves talking about politics.
• 1:17:13
  Speaker 1: Yeah, he does.
• 1:17:14
  Speaker 2: He loves it. I understand his fear and what he
• 1:17:18
  Speaker 2: is trying to accomplish by saying something, But goddamn, dude,
• 1:17:23
  Speaker 2: I do not want to talk about policies.
• 1:17:24
  Speaker 1: Well then we won't. Does Rex like your Does he
• 1:17:27
  Speaker 1: like your tattoos on your legs?
• 1:17:29
  Speaker 3: Maybe?
• 1:17:30
  Speaker 1: I hope Rex likes Have you ever seen my legs?
• 1:17:33
  Speaker 1: Have you ever seen me in shorts? I'm not wearing
• 1:17:36
  Speaker 1: shorts right now, man, That's not just my underwear. But
• 1:17:40
  Speaker 1: have you have you ever seen me? You've ever seen
• 1:17:43
  Speaker 1: my legs?
• 1:17:44
  Speaker 2: We should do that so you got a good set
• 1:17:46
  Speaker 2: of legs.
• 1:17:46
  Speaker 1: Do you want to.
• 1:17:48
  Speaker 2: Leg.
• 1:17:49
  Speaker 1: I'm just saying, at some point you should have a
• 1:17:53
  Speaker 1: look at them. That's all I'm saying.
• 1:17:55
  Speaker 2: Are they ugly?
• 1:17:56
  Speaker 1: You might very much like them. Okay, I'm just saying.
• 1:18:02
  Speaker 1: I'm just being honest with you. Dude. Love having you
• 1:18:06
  Speaker 1: in here. Show everyone your beautiful feet. Please show the camera.
• 1:18:10
  Speaker 2: Hold on, hold on, you guys gotta see this.
• 1:18:13
  Speaker 1: This is fun right there.
• 1:18:14
  Speaker 2: So when I was thirteen, I kicked a chair when
• 1:18:17
  Speaker 2: I was walking upstairs. So look at that pekky looks
• 1:18:20
  Speaker 2: pretty straight, right, You see how twisted that thing is.
• 1:18:31
  Speaker 3: Those are my piggiestattattatt.
• 1:20:00
  Speaker 2: To the stattatt.
• 1:20:17
  Speaker 3: The state, to Stetts, the.
• 1:20:31
  Speaker 1: Stato, the
• 1:20:38
  Speaker 2: Statto