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106. #TBT: Emily Abbate, Creator of Hurdle · Hurdle with Emily Abbate

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Speaker 1: There are going to be so many hurdles along the way,
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Speaker 1: and although the work may be hard, remember that it's
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Speaker 1: part of a story. It's part of your story, and
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Speaker 1: even though the end might not be exactly what you envision,
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Speaker 1: that doesn't mean that it's not beautiful. Hey, Hardler's coming
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Speaker 1: into your feed with a special throw back Thursday episode
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Speaker 1: of Hurdle, and man, this one really brings it back.
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Speaker 1: I had the idea to repost my story when I
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Speaker 1: was laying in my bed last Thursday night going to sleep,
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Speaker 1: and I realized that, you know, so much has happened
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Speaker 1: since Hurdle launched at the very end of twenty seventeen
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Speaker 1: beginning of twenty eighteen, and I feel now, no, I
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Speaker 1: am a completely different person, And to be completely candid
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Speaker 1: with you, I thought that I would listen back to
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Speaker 1: episode one and think to myself, like, what were you thinking?
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Speaker 1: But it feels strangely special and really great that I
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Speaker 1: listened to that episode today and can say with so
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Speaker 1: much certainty that I am empowered by the way I
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Speaker 1: told my story, how I shared that and was able
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Speaker 1: to get so vulnerable right off the bat. Of course,
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Speaker 1: there are some updated stats to share with you I
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Speaker 1: think at the time of recording that episode, I had
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Speaker 1: run five marathons.
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Speaker 2: Now I'm up to eight.
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Speaker 1: I'm no longer a spin instructor, but I do now
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Speaker 1: own a new specialized bike, and honestly, I'm just so
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Speaker 1: grateful when I reflect about how much has happened since
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Speaker 1: episode one, since I first shared my story on the podcast,
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Speaker 1: from the unbelievable guests that I've had the opportunity to
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Speaker 1: sit down with. I still remember also the first time
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Speaker 1: I recorded truly on my own, aside from that episode one,
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Speaker 1: it was for the New Year's episode going into twenty nineteen,
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Speaker 1: and I remember thinking to myself, I have no idea
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Speaker 1: if anyone's going to want to listen to this, if
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Speaker 1: anyone's interested just to hear me talk for any.
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Speaker 2: Amount of extended time.
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Speaker 1: And I learned really quickly that what I had to
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Speaker 1: say it mattered. It resonated in that I could do
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Speaker 1: some really cool stuff if I was just willing to
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Speaker 1: try new things, open up, and again get vulnerable. I
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Speaker 1: also want to touch on what I mentioned in the
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Speaker 1: episode about being overweight at two hundred and four pounds. Listen,
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Speaker 1: everyone has their own feelings on body positivity, body neutrality,
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Speaker 1: body acceptance. At the time, at that weight, I was
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Speaker 1: not a happy person.
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Speaker 2: In fact, I was miserable. Everyone is different, but I.
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Speaker 1: Want you to know that I recognize there are many
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Speaker 1: different stances about size and that I have respect for
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Speaker 1: the body positivity movement. And this is just my personal story.
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Speaker 1: So here we go today. I'm bringing you my story
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Speaker 1: for Throwback Thursday. As always, connect with me on social
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Speaker 1: media at Emily Abodi at Hurdle Podcast.
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Speaker 2: If you have a hurdle.
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Speaker 1: Moment of your own to share, or you just want
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Speaker 1: to say hi, you can always reach me over on email.
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Speaker 1: It's Emily at hurdle dot us. And with that, let's
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Speaker 1: get to hurdling.
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Speaker 2: Now.
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Speaker 1: Going forward, this would be the part where I introduce
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Speaker 1: a guest, but spoiler alert, the first guest is actually me.
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Speaker 1: A little background I guess first and foremost on this project.
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Speaker 1: When twenty seventeen began, I told myself there were a
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Speaker 1: few things that I wanted to do. I guess, as
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Speaker 1: resolutioners typically do at the turn of a new year.
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Speaker 1: Aside from really wanting to do things like get better
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Speaker 1: at spending time alone, I remember actually going to the
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Speaker 1: movies by myself and being so proud that I kind
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Speaker 1: of took that step last January. Aside from wanting to
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Speaker 1: take some more time alone, I also wanted to start
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Speaker 1: a podcast, and my ideas for what this would ultimately
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Speaker 1: become were a little all over the place. But when
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Speaker 1: I think about it, I really do think that some
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Speaker 1: of the best projects start out that way. It's been
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Speaker 1: a slow process, mostly because things, you know, they get
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Speaker 1: in the way.
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Speaker 2: But fast forward to about a month or two ago.
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Speaker 1: I was sitting here on my couch in New York
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Speaker 1: City venting about something to a girlfriend, and I looked
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Speaker 1: at her with so much sincerity, and I just said,
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Speaker 1: I just want to get over the hurdle.
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Speaker 2: And it clicked.
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Speaker 1: I started to think about all of the hurdles I've
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Speaker 1: faced and kind of just had this aha moment, even
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Speaker 1: if they're tear inducing, that was ugly crying kind of things.
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Speaker 1: Heartbreaking or difficult. Hurdles define us and it's hard to
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Speaker 1: see in the moment, but the obstacles that come with
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Speaker 1: those they really shape our character. And so I know
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Speaker 1: what's coming up. You're like, Okay, true, I'm down with this,
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Speaker 1: but what's with all the wellness stuff? Well, as I mentioned,
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Speaker 1: I'm a freelance fitness editor and writer. I was last
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Speaker 1: full time at Self Magazine at the end of twenty
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Speaker 1: sixteen as their.
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Speaker 2: Fitness editor before the book closed.
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Speaker 1: And before that, I was an editor at Rodale, the
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Speaker 1: publishing company that only for now owns Men's Health, Women's Health, Runners,
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Speaker 1: World Prevention, Bicycling, etc. So, as I said, a personal trainer,
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Speaker 1: a run coach, and a spin instructor at Swerve Fitness
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Speaker 1: here in the city. And here is a little bit
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Speaker 1: of a plot twist. I weighed two hundred and four
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Speaker 1: pounds ten years ago. So that's what's going to lead
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Speaker 1: us up to my hurdle moment, the obstacle that led
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Speaker 1: me to losing seventy pounds in college.
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Speaker 2: You know, it.
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Speaker 1: Smacks me like a ton of bricks every single time
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Speaker 1: I say that out loud.
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Speaker 2: So come back with me, will you? To my dorm room.
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Speaker 1: In two thousand and seven, Time Flies, I was a
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Speaker 1: freshman in college at the University of Connecticut, Go Huskies,
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Speaker 1: and I was dramatically overweight. I grew up in a
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Speaker 1: big Italian family and food was sort of the crux
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Speaker 1: of everything. I loved food, and you know, I still
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Speaker 1: love food, but here's an example. I was never the
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Speaker 1: kind of kid that was like, eat a quick bowl
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Speaker 1: of cereal and then Dad would drive me to school
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Speaker 1: in the morning. It was bagels all the time, everything
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Speaker 1: cream cheese, egg sandwiches all the time, extra bacon, pancakes
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Speaker 1: all the time.
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Speaker 2: Food was always an event. What's that?
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Speaker 1: What's that saying? It's like I live to eat instead
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Speaker 1: of eat to live. That was one hundred percent me anyway,
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Speaker 1: Like so many people, this sort of comfort for me
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Speaker 1: I found in food. And as a result, literally from
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Speaker 1: when I was a tween until this point in two
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Speaker 1: that and seven, my weight fluctuated constantly. I have photos
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Speaker 1: of me at age thirteen and I'm sitting on a
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Speaker 1: mini golf course and I'm probably tipping one hundred and
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Speaker 1: sixty pounds, and just for the record, to this day,
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Speaker 1: I stand roughly about like five three and a half.
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Speaker 1: And then I have photos of me and I'm sixteen
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Speaker 1: and I'm lean, and I'm teaching dance classes four times
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Speaker 1: a day. Anyway, for the purposes of this story, I
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Speaker 1: am a freshman in college, as I said, and I
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Speaker 1: am two hundred and four pounds. So here we are,
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Speaker 1: we're sitting in my dorm room, and there I am,
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Speaker 1: and I look down and I see a scale that
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Speaker 1: I definitely hadn't touched since move and day, and it's
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Speaker 1: under a stack of books from the previous semester. And
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Speaker 1: just to reiterate again, it wasn't like I didn't know
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Speaker 1: that I was overweight at this time. Like I look back,
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Speaker 1: and uh, I look at all the photos I have
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Speaker 1: of myself, and they're all just selfies of me and friends,
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Speaker 1: and they're just of my face. And that's a pretty
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Speaker 1: strong indicator that I had some body issues. Because I
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Speaker 1: couldn't even stand to look at evidence of myself in
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Speaker 1: this time that showed my body as its true size.
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Speaker 1: I couldn't really admit to myself that I hated my body. Hell,
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Speaker 1: that's a harsh sentence to kind of put out into
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Speaker 1: the world. Uh, you know, I was getting by without
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Speaker 1: feeling like I really needed to do.
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Speaker 2: Something about it.
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Speaker 1: So I take out the scale from under my bed,
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Speaker 1: my bunk bed, and I tap it with my toe
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Speaker 1: and I step on it in that way that we
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Speaker 1: all sort of do, where it's like if I tiptoe
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Speaker 1: toward the left side, maybe just a little bit, it'll
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Speaker 1: tell me that I'm ten pounds later, and I stared down,
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Speaker 1: and I swear those four seconds that the scale took
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Speaker 1: to populate, it felt like an eternity. And when I
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Speaker 1: saw the two hundred and four pounds staring back at me,
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Speaker 1: I felt empty. I was in the state of total bewilderment,
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Speaker 1: so many questions like how did I get here?
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Speaker 2: How did I get to this place? How did I
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Speaker 2: let it get this bad.
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Speaker 1: I get off the scale and I throw on some
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Speaker 1: old sweatpants and a hoodie and sneakers and did something
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Speaker 1: that at the time was totally not instinctive to me
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Speaker 1: at all, which was run down three flights of stairs
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Speaker 1: out of my dorm and sprint down this dimly lit road.
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Speaker 1: I probably go for about thirty seconds until I am
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Speaker 1: totally out of breath, completely zonked, and I clapse into
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Speaker 1: the grass next to the sidewalk, just so beside myself,
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Speaker 1: absolutely hysterical, and through the tears. I remember looking up
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Speaker 1: at the stars and just knowing I was so dumb
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Speaker 1: with her. In that moment, my hurtle moment, I knew
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Speaker 1: I had to evaluate, I had to reevaluate, I had
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Speaker 1: to take a step back and spend time on me
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Speaker 1: I knew that I was better than two hundred and
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Speaker 1: four pounds. I knew that I deserved a life that
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Speaker 1: wasn't so heavy. You know, In the past five six years,
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Speaker 1: I've picked up running, which we'll get to, and I've
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Speaker 1: done multiple marathons, I've done a triathlon. As a personal trainer,
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Speaker 1: I've taken own my own personal training clients. But this
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Speaker 1: night in the grass, this was my biggest victory. That night,
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Speaker 1: I decided to invest in myself. That night, the girl
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Speaker 1: who was so lost, like it just clicked. I needed
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Speaker 1: that scare, I needed that empty feeling. I needed that
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Speaker 1: reality check on the scale to reaffirm that I was
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Speaker 1: worthy of my own energy. So I'm thinking that this
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Speaker 1: is the part where we talk about how I lost
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Speaker 1: the weight, because it's not easy. It wasn't easy, So
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Speaker 1: I think we'll cover that a little bit here. The
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Speaker 1: first half of losing it all, which I would say
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Speaker 1: to giver take about three years, was really developing a
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Speaker 1: better relationship with food. It's embarrassing really when I say
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Speaker 1: this out loud, but I remember points growing up where
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Speaker 1: my parents would leave me at home alone and I'm
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Speaker 1: like at least sixteen at this point, and I got
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Speaker 1: excited that I would have free rein over the kitchen.
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Speaker 1: I would make French fries in the oven. I would
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Speaker 1: eat ice cream out of the container. I would eat
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Speaker 1: cheddar cheese from the bag. Oh man, I remember distinctly
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Speaker 1: texting one of my oldest friends, Tom Dargan, Hey, Tom,
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Speaker 1: if you're listening to this, I'm saying something along the
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Speaker 1: lines of I need to get to a point in
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Speaker 1: my life where I don't go to the fridge and
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Speaker 1: eat cheddar cheese out of the bag. So these habits,
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Speaker 1: they were really only exacerbated once I got to college
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Speaker 1: and I had the option to eat tater tots three
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Speaker 1: meals of the day and indulge in banana chocolate chip
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Speaker 1: ice cream from the Yukon Dairy Bar, which important note
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Speaker 1: here is by far the most delicious, the best.
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Speaker 2: Ice cream in the world, if you want my opinion.
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Speaker 1: So yeah, with losing weight, my relationship with food had
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Speaker 1: to change. I started to learn more about portion control,
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Speaker 1: and instead of completely eliminating foods or feeling guilty about eating.
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Speaker 2: Them, I just I learned how to eat them in moderation.
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Speaker 1: I never really wanted to be on one of those
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Speaker 1: elimination diets or feel like I couldn't live my life
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Speaker 1: as a twenty something college student and go out drinking
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Speaker 1: from some sketchy keg or what have you. And I
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Speaker 1: was lucky because there were parts that I was really
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Speaker 1: good at. You know, I loved vegetables like I adored them.
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Speaker 1: I still adore them, and I adored them almost as much.
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Speaker 2: As I adore banana chocolate chip ice cream.
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Speaker 1: And I learned eat more of them and less tater
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Speaker 1: tots and more protein and.
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Speaker 2: More just good stuff.
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Speaker 1: And those changes paid off, because within about a year
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Speaker 1: and a half I'd lost forty pounds and was keeping
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Speaker 1: it off. And that's about the time where I started
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Speaker 1: to fall in love with running. Now to date, I
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Speaker 1: have run five marathons and done a single triathlon, and
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Speaker 1: way too many half marathons to co count.
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Speaker 2: And that run on sentence is just crazy to.
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Speaker 1: Think about, because I never thought that I could be
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Speaker 1: a runner, especially because growing up my brother, who was
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Speaker 1: the track athlete of the family, with me being slightly overweight,
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Speaker 1: he'd always quip at me, telling me to go run
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Speaker 1: a mile whenever I was annoying him.
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Speaker 2: And now today I can't.
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Speaker 1: Even tell you how many people I talked to that
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Speaker 1: want my advice on running. They want to know how
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Speaker 1: they can run, how they can become a runner. Well,
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Speaker 1: I sucked it running.
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Speaker 2: I was the worst at it. I hated it.
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Speaker 1: And at this point, again, I had lost about forty
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Speaker 1: pounds and I was working for a summer at Camp
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Speaker 1: Laurelwood in Madison, Connecticut, and obviously at summer camp there
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Speaker 1: is no Planet fitness where you can go log forty
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Speaker 1: five minutes on an elliptical mindlessly. And I didn't want
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Speaker 1: to go back on all the progress I made. You know,
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Speaker 1: for me at that point it was not an option.
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Speaker 1: I'd worked too hard to get there, and so I
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Speaker 1: knew what I had to do, and that was pick
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Speaker 1: up running.
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Speaker 2: And so every day after lunch.
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Speaker 1: I would change into some black cotton leggings from Target
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Speaker 1: and Haynes white cotton v neck and I would go
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Speaker 1: run for fourteen minutes and I did the exact same
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Speaker 1: route down and back every single day. I did this
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Speaker 1: for about seven and a half weeks, and at the
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Speaker 1: end of the eight week summer session, I decided to
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Speaker 1: measure it with my car, and I kind of had
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Speaker 1: just assumed going into it that I was running a mile, Like,
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Speaker 1: I just figured I was slow. It was taking me
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Speaker 1: fourteen minutes, but I was doing it, and that's all
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Speaker 1: that mattered. So I get my car and I measure it,
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Speaker 1: and at the end, I looked down and it's a
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Speaker 1: half mile.
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Speaker 2: A half mile. It took me fourteen minutes to run
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Speaker 2: a half mile.
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Speaker 1: And it's kind of funny thinking about it now, because
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Speaker 1: how I wasn't angry about that in retrospect, It's crazy.
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Speaker 2: The thing was is that I didn't even care that.
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Speaker 1: It was only a half mile at the time, because,
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Speaker 1: like I said, I got to a point where I
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Speaker 1: liked running. I looked forward to that time for myself,
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Speaker 1: and it didn't matter how far it had been. All
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Speaker 1: that mattered was that I was doing something for me.
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Speaker 1: I was in investing in myself. I was keeping true
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Speaker 1: to that promise that I made myself in the grass,
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Speaker 1: and that was really really special.
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Speaker 2: You know.
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Speaker 1: It's definitely something I struggle with a lot still, this
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Speaker 1: concept of self love and investing in myself. I think
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Speaker 1: a lot of people share in this notion that it's
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Speaker 1: so easy to give to others, but it's hard to
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Speaker 1: spend time and energy and money on ourselves.
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Speaker 2: As a freelance writer.
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Speaker 1: If I land some mega assignment and I'm making crazy money,
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Speaker 1: I tend to develop what I like to refer to
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Speaker 1: as total Oprah syndrome.
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Speaker 2: I become super generous.
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Speaker 1: It's like you get a sweater and you get drinks
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Speaker 1: on me, and I'm going to buy you this cactus,
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Speaker 1: even if I know you're going to kill it within
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Speaker 1: two weeks.
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Speaker 2: It's just what happens. And the thing is is that
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Speaker 2: when it comes to giving back.
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Speaker 1: To me, I am so conservative, so conservative, I feel
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Speaker 1: like I don't need mine much, you know, because this
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Speaker 1: idea of giving to other people it feels so much
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Speaker 1: more rewarding than giving back to me. Still, out of
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Speaker 1: all of the lessons I learned at losing weight, which
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Speaker 1: like I said, took at least three years from start
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Speaker 1: to finish, the biggest of them all was that the
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Speaker 1: people around you, if you surround yourself with the right kinds,
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Speaker 1: they really want your best self. And although it might
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Speaker 1: feel a little counterintuitive, sometimes spending time on yourself is
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Speaker 1: really for the collective benefit. Good people won't be mad
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Speaker 1: at you when you need to do things for you period.
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Speaker 1: And although it may not feel like you need to
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Speaker 1: give back to yourself. You just got to do it,
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Speaker 1: and there are so many ways that you can do that.
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Speaker 1: You know, maybe you're taking a step back and you're
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Speaker 1: relaxing on a Sunday afternoon and watching HGTV until you
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Speaker 1: don't ever want to hear the word ship lap ever again.
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Speaker 2: Or maybe you.
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Speaker 1: Wake up an extra hour earlier and if you like
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Speaker 1: to run, you run a few miles, or perhaps you
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Speaker 1: go on airplane mode after nine pm at night and
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Speaker 1: you just totally disconnect.
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Speaker 2: Whatever it is. You've got to do.
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Speaker 1: Something, because when I take a step back and I
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Speaker 1: look at where I've come from, my whole life changed
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Speaker 1: because I decided to give back to myself.
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Speaker 2: My career path too. Really, I mentioned being a freelancer
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Speaker 2: a few.
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Speaker 1: Times now, and I really just don't believe I would
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Speaker 1: be as successful as I have been, or have the
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Speaker 1: grit to be my own boss or chase assignments and
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Speaker 1: deadlines and meetings and people if I didn't go through
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Speaker 1: this period. It's as if getting over this hurdle instilled
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Speaker 1: in me this champion's mindset. It's like I became very
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Speaker 1: aware that as hurdles would keep coming at me, I
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Speaker 1: would have the tenacity to get over them. That's not
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Speaker 1: to say that I've got this whole thing figured out,
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Speaker 1: far from it.
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Speaker 2: Far from it.
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Speaker 1: But once I believed in my inner game changer. You
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Speaker 1: know how great is that term game ginger?
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Speaker 2: I love it.
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Speaker 1: Once I believed in my inner game gender and I
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Speaker 1: believed that I was strong and capable and that I
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Speaker 1: could be better, it ripped off on other things and
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Speaker 1: that's when everything changed, and more than obviously in a
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Speaker 1: physical way. Also a little note I want to throw
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Speaker 1: in here. When you make a difficult decision, you come
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Speaker 1: to terms with this idea that you're about to put
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Speaker 1: in work. You know, and I truly believe the people
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Speaker 1: that say I just can't do this. They don't want
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Speaker 1: it enough, they don't want to put in the work,
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Speaker 1: And man, can that be frustrating, especially if it's within
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Speaker 1: a relationship. Fact, you can't make someone want something for themselves.
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Speaker 1: But when you want something bad enough, you come to
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Speaker 1: terms with this idea that every single day going forward
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Speaker 1: may be a little bit more difficult than the last.
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Speaker 2: And it's scary, yeah, but think about the payoff. Just
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Speaker 2: think about it.
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Speaker 1: The biggest rewards in life come from moments of adversity
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Speaker 1: for things when you've worked your butt off. I once,
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Speaker 1: here's a fun fact about me, ran two marathons in
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Speaker 1: one week. It's crazy, I know, and in hindsight, it
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Speaker 1: was absolutely insane and involved so much opportunity, cost abundant
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Speaker 1: amounts of training. I had to skip over dinners with friends,
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Speaker 1: I had to get up early as all hell and
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Speaker 1: run twenty xs miles starting at five fifteen am.
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Speaker 2: It was a lot.
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Speaker 1: But the reward of that, the reward of those experiences together,
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Speaker 1: one day, you know, I'll be able to tell my
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Speaker 1: kids that I did this, and they're going to think
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Speaker 1: their mom is a total badass. And that's the nugget.
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Speaker 1: And granted, you know, the nugget isn't always going to
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Speaker 1: be two marathons in week one week, But you just
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Speaker 1: think about the things you really want and how great
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Speaker 1: you feel at the end of them when you realize
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Speaker 1: that you were capable. You were capable all along, and
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Speaker 1: that's the good stuff, that's the magic. So what do
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Speaker 1: I want you to take away from my story, Well,
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Speaker 1: really hopefully that anything is possible if you believe it's possible.
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Speaker 2: Period.
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Speaker 1: You are the one who decides where you're at mentally, physically.
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Speaker 1: It's so important to invest in yourself. There are going
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Speaker 1: to be so many hurdles along the way, and although
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Speaker 1: the work may be hard, remember that it's part of
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Speaker 1: a story. It's part of your story. And even though
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Speaker 1: the end might not be exactly what you envision, that
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Speaker 1: doesn't mean that it's not beautiful. It doesn't mean that
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Speaker 1: you didn't work hard to get there. And whether or
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Speaker 1: not you believe it yet, you too. Yeah, you you're
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Speaker 1: a game changer. You are I think I think it's
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Speaker 1: about time to cut it. If you're still listening, thank you.
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Speaker 1: I appreciate you. I can't even stress how much work
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Speaker 1: has gone into this project already and you're only listening
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Speaker 1: to episode one. It's still in its infancy, from doing
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Speaker 1: things like learning how to build a squarespace and host content,
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Speaker 1: and finagling the best way to host these from my
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Speaker 1: we work space, which has been the ultimate saving grace
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Speaker 1: as a freelancer, getting me outside of my apartment and
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Speaker 1: providing me with enough freshly brewed coffee to fuel my
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Speaker 1: never ending thoughts. You know, the work feels endless, and
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Speaker 1: I also, of note, wouldn't be able to do any
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Speaker 1: of this without the support of my family and friends.
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Speaker 1: A holler to my friend my Corn for my beautiful music.
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Speaker 1: I said, we all face multiple hurdles in life, and
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Speaker 1: with that the first of many hurdles conquered until next time.