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- 0:20Speaker 1: the Days of a Comet by H. G. Wells, Book one,
- 0:24Speaker 1: Chapter three, Sections five and six. Section five. You must
- 0:31Speaker 1: understand that I had no set plan of murder when
- 0:35Speaker 1: I walked over to Checkshill. I had no set plan
- 0:38Speaker 1: of any sort. There was a great confusion of dramatically
- 0:42Speaker 1: conceived intentions in my head, scenes of threatening and denunciation
- 0:47Speaker 1: and terror. But I did not mean to kill the revolver.
- 0:52Speaker 1: Was to turn upon my rival, my disadvantage and age
- 0:56Speaker 1: and physique. But that was not it really the revolver.
- 1:01Speaker 1: I took the revolver because I had the revolver and
- 1:05Speaker 1: was a foolish young lout. It was a dramatic sort
- 1:08Speaker 1: of thing to take I had, I say, no plan
- 1:12Speaker 1: at all. Ever, and again, during the second trudge to Checksil,
- 1:18Speaker 1: I was irradiated with a novel, unreasonable hope. I had
- 1:22Speaker 1: awakened in the morning with a hope. It may have
- 1:25Speaker 1: been the last unfaded trail of some obliterated dream that,
- 1:30Speaker 1: after all, Nettie might relent toward me, that her heart
- 1:34Speaker 1: was kind toward me in spite of all that I imagined
- 1:37Speaker 1: had happened. I even thought it was possible that I
- 1:41Speaker 1: might have misinterpreted what I had seen. Perhaps she would
- 1:45Speaker 1: explain everything. My revolver was in my pocket for all that.
- 1:51Speaker 1: I limped at the outset. But after the second mile
- 1:55Speaker 1: my ankle warmed to forgetfulness, and the rest of the
- 1:58Speaker 1: way I walked. Well. Suppose, after all I was wrong.
- 2:04Speaker 1: I was still debating that. As I came through the
- 2:07Speaker 1: park by the corner of the paddock near the keeper's cottage,
- 2:11Speaker 1: I was reminded by some belated blue hyacinths of a
- 2:15Speaker 1: time when I and Nettie had gathered them together. It
- 2:19Speaker 1: seemed impossible that we could really have parted ourselves for
- 2:23Speaker 1: good and all. A wave of tenderness flowed over me,
- 2:27Speaker 1: and still flooded me as I came through the little
- 2:30Speaker 1: dell and drew towards the hollies. But there the sweet
- 2:34Speaker 1: Nettie of my boy's love faded, and I thought of
- 2:38Speaker 1: the new Nettie of desire and the man I had
- 2:41Speaker 1: come upon in the moonlight. I thought of the narrow,
- 2:44Speaker 1: hot purpose that had grown so strongly out of my
- 2:47Speaker 1: springtime freshness, and my mood darkened to night. I crossed
- 2:54Speaker 1: the beech wood and came towards the gardens with a
- 2:57Speaker 1: resolute and sorrowful heart. When I reached the green door
- 3:00Speaker 1: in the garden wall, I was seized for a space
- 3:04Speaker 1: with so violent a trembling that I could not grip
- 3:07Speaker 1: the latch to lift it, for I no longer had
- 3:10Speaker 1: any doubt how this would end. The trembling was succeeded
- 3:15Speaker 1: by a feeling of cold and whiteness and self pity.
- 3:19Speaker 1: I was astonished to find myself grimacing, to feel my
- 3:23Speaker 1: cheeks wet, and thereupon I gave way completely to a
- 3:27Speaker 1: wild passion of weeping. I must take just a little
- 3:31Speaker 1: time before the thing was done. I turned away from
- 3:35Speaker 1: the door and stumbled for a little distance, sobbing loudly,
- 3:39Speaker 1: and lay down out of sight among the bracken, and
- 3:42Speaker 1: so presently became calm again. I lay there some time,
- 3:47Speaker 1: I had half a mind to desist, and then my
- 3:50Speaker 1: emotion passed like the shadow of a cloud, and I
- 3:53Speaker 1: walked very coolly into the gardens through the open door
- 3:58Speaker 1: of one of the glass houses. I saw Old Stewart.
- 4:02Speaker 1: He was leaning against the staging, his hands in his pockets,
- 4:06Speaker 1: so deep in thought he gave no heed to me.
- 4:10Speaker 1: I hesitated and went on towards the cottage slowly. Something
- 4:15Speaker 1: struck me as unusual about the place, but I could
- 4:18Speaker 1: not tell at first what it was. One of the
- 4:21Speaker 1: bedroom windows was open, and the customary short blind, with
- 4:26Speaker 1: its brass upper rail partly unfastened, drooped obliquely across the
- 4:31Speaker 1: vacant space. It looked negligent and odd, for usually everything
- 4:36Speaker 1: about the cottage was conspicuously trim. The door was standing
- 4:41Speaker 1: wide open, and everything was still, but giving that usually
- 4:46Speaker 1: orderly hall and odd look. It was about half past
- 4:49Speaker 1: two in the afternoon. Was a pile of three dirty
- 4:53Speaker 1: dishes with used knives and forks upon them on one
- 4:57Speaker 1: of the hall chairs. I went in to the hall,
- 5:00Speaker 1: looked into either room and hesitated. Then I fell upon
- 5:04Speaker 1: the door knocker and gave a loud rat tat too,
- 5:09Speaker 1: and followed this up with an amiable hello. For a
- 5:13Speaker 1: time no one answered me, and I stood listening and expectant,
- 5:17Speaker 1: with my fingers about my weapon. Some one moved about upstairs,
- 5:22Speaker 1: presently and was still again. The tension of waiting seemed
- 5:26Speaker 1: to brace my nerves. I had my hand on the
- 5:30Speaker 1: knocker for the second time when Puss appeared in the doorway.
- 5:34Speaker 1: For a moment we remained staring at one another without speaking.
- 5:39Speaker 1: Her hair was disheveled, her face dirty, tears stained, and
- 5:43Speaker 1: irregularly read. Her expression at the sight of me was
- 5:47Speaker 1: pure astonishment. I thought she was about to say something,
- 5:51Speaker 1: and then she had darted away out of the house again.
- 5:56Speaker 1: I say, Puss, I said, Puss. I followed her out
- 6:00Speaker 1: of the door. Puss, what's the matter? Where's Nettie? She
- 6:04Speaker 1: vanished round the corner of the house. I hesitated, perplexed
- 6:09Speaker 1: whether I should pursue her. What did it all mean?
- 6:13Speaker 1: Then I heard someone upstairs. Willie cried, the voice of
- 6:16Speaker 1: missus Stewart. Is that you? Yes? I answered, where is everyone?
- 6:21Speaker 1: Where's Nettie? I want to have a talk with her.
- 6:24Speaker 1: She did not answer, but I heard her dress rustle
- 6:28Speaker 1: as she moved. I judged she was upon the landing overhead.
- 6:33Speaker 1: I paused at the foot of the stairs, expecting her
- 6:36Speaker 1: to appear and come down. Suddenly came a strange sound,
- 6:42Speaker 1: A rush of sounds, words jumbled and hurrying, confused and shapeless,
- 6:47Speaker 1: borne along upon a note of throaty distress that at
- 6:50Speaker 1: last submerged the words altogether and ended in a wail.
- 6:55Speaker 1: Except that it came from a woman's throat, it was
- 6:58Speaker 1: exactly the babbling sound of a wheir child with a grievance.
- 7:02Speaker 1: I can't, she said, I can't, and that was all
- 7:05Speaker 1: I could distinguish. It was, to my young ears, the
- 7:09Speaker 1: strangest sound conceivable from a kindly, motherly little woman, whom
- 7:14Speaker 1: I had always thought of, chiefly as an unparalleled maker
- 7:18Speaker 1: of cakes. It frightened me. I went upstairs at once,
- 7:22Speaker 1: in a state of infinite alarm, and there she was
- 7:25Speaker 1: upon the landing, leaning forward over the top of a
- 7:29Speaker 1: chest of drawers beside her open bedroom door, and weeping.
- 7:33Speaker 1: I never saw such weeping. One thick strand of black
- 7:36Speaker 1: hair had escaped and hung with a spiral twist down
- 7:40Speaker 1: her back. Never before had I noticed that she had
- 7:44Speaker 1: gray hairs. As I came upon the landing, her voice
- 7:48Speaker 1: rose again, Oh that I should have to tell you, Willie,
- 7:52Speaker 1: Oh that I should have to tell you. She dropped
- 7:55Speaker 1: her head again, and a fresh gust of tears swept
- 7:58Speaker 1: all further words away. I said nothing. I was too astonished,
- 8:03Speaker 1: but I drew nearer to her and waited. I never
- 8:07Speaker 1: saw such weeping. The extraordinary wetness of her dripping handkerchief
- 8:12Speaker 1: abides with me to this day. That I should have
- 8:15Speaker 1: lived to see this day, she wailed. I'd rather a
- 8:18Speaker 1: thousand times. She was struck dead at my feet. I
- 8:23Speaker 1: began to understand, missus Stewart, I said, clearing my throat,
- 8:27Speaker 1: what is become of Nettie? That I should have lived
- 8:30Speaker 1: to see this day? She said by way of reply,
- 8:34Speaker 1: I waited till her passion abated. There came a lull.
- 8:38Speaker 1: I forgot the weapon in my pocket. I said nothing,
- 8:41Speaker 1: and suddenly she stood erect before me, wiping her swollen eyes. Willie,
- 8:47Speaker 1: she gulped, She's gone, Nettie gone, run away, run away
- 8:53Speaker 1: from her home, Oh, Willie, Willie, the shame of it,
- 8:56Speaker 1: the sin and shame of it. She fled herself upon
- 9:00Speaker 1: my shoulder and clung to me, and began again to
- 9:04Speaker 1: wish her daughter lying dead at our feet. There there,
- 9:08Speaker 1: said I, and all my being was a tremble. Where
- 9:11Speaker 1: has she gone? I said, as softly as I could
- 9:15Speaker 1: but for the time she was preoccupied with her own sorrow,
- 9:18Speaker 1: and I had to hold her there and comfort her
- 9:21Speaker 1: with the blackness of finality spreading over my soul. Where
- 9:25Speaker 1: has she gone? I asked for the fourth time. I
- 9:29Speaker 1: don't know, we don't know. And oh, Willie, she went
- 9:31Speaker 1: out yesterday morning, I said to her. Nettie, I said
- 9:35Speaker 1: to her, you're mighty fine for a morning. Call fine
- 9:39Speaker 1: clothes for a fine day, she said, And that was
- 9:41Speaker 1: her last words to me, Willie, the child, I suckled
- 9:45Speaker 1: at my breast. Yes, yes, But where has she gone?
- 9:48Speaker 1: I said? She went on with sobs, and now telling
- 9:53Speaker 1: her story with a sort of fragmentary hurry. She went out,
- 9:57Speaker 1: bright and shining out of this house. For she was smiling, Willie,
- 10:02Speaker 1: as if she was glad to be going, glad to
- 10:05Speaker 1: be going, I echoed, with soundless lips. You're mighty fine
- 10:09Speaker 1: for the morning, I says, mighty fine. Let the girl
- 10:13Speaker 1: be pretty, says her father. While she's young and somewhere,
- 10:17Speaker 1: she's got a parcel of her things hidden to pick up,
- 10:20Speaker 1: and she was going off out of this house forever.
- 10:24Speaker 1: She became quiet. Let the girl be pretty, she repeated.
- 10:29Speaker 1: Let the girl be pretty while she's young? Oh, how
- 10:32Speaker 1: can we go on living? Willie? He doesn't show it,
- 10:36Speaker 1: but he's like a stricken beast. He's wounded to the heart.
- 10:40Speaker 1: She was always his favorite. He never seemed to care
- 10:42Speaker 1: for Puss like he did for her, And she's wounded him.
- 10:47Speaker 1: Where has she gone? I reverted at last to that.
- 10:51Speaker 1: We don't know. She leaves her own blood. She trusts herself. Oh, Willie,
- 10:56Speaker 1: it'll kill me. I wish she and me together were
- 10:59Speaker 1: lying in our graves. But I moistened my lips and
- 11:03Speaker 1: spoke slowly. She may have gone to marry. If that
- 11:08Speaker 1: was so, I prayed the god it might be so, Willy.
- 11:11Speaker 1: I prayed that he'd take pity on her him. I mean,
- 11:14Speaker 1: she's with I jerked out, who's that? In her letter?
- 11:20Speaker 1: She said he was a gentleman. She did say he
- 11:23Speaker 1: was a gentleman in her letter? Has she written? Can
- 11:27Speaker 1: I see the letter? Her father took it? But if
- 11:31Speaker 1: she writes, when did she write? It came this morning?
- 11:36Speaker 1: But where did it come from? You can tell? She
- 11:39Speaker 1: didn't say she said she was happy. She said love
- 11:42Speaker 1: took one like a storm, cursed that. Where is her letter?
- 11:48Speaker 1: Let me see it? And as for this gentleman. She
- 11:51Speaker 1: stared at me. You know who it is, Willie, she protested,
- 11:56Speaker 1: you know who it is. Whether she said or not,
- 11:59Speaker 1: her eye made a mute, unconfident denial, Young Verral, she
- 12:05Speaker 1: made no answer. All I could do for you, Willie,
- 12:08Speaker 1: she began, presently, Was it, Young Verral? I insisted for
- 12:13Speaker 1: a second, perhaps we faced one another in stark understanding.
- 12:18Speaker 1: Then she plumped back to the chest of drawers and
- 12:21Speaker 1: her wet pocket handkerchief, And I knew she sought refuge
- 12:25Speaker 1: from my relentless eyes. My pity for her vanished. She
- 12:30Speaker 1: knew it was her mistress's son as well as I,
- 12:33Speaker 1: and for some time she had known, she had felt.
- 12:37Speaker 1: I hovered over her for a moment, sick with amazed disgust,
- 12:42Speaker 1: I suddenly bethought me of old Stuart out in the greenhouse,
- 12:46Speaker 1: and turned and went downstairs. As I did, I looked
- 12:50Speaker 1: up to see Missus Stewart moving, droopingly and lamely back
- 12:54Speaker 1: into her own room. Section six. Old Stuart was pitiful.
- 13:02Speaker 1: I found him, still inert in the greenhouse where I
- 13:04Speaker 1: had first seen him. He did not move. As I
- 13:07Speaker 1: drew near him. He glanced at me and then stared
- 13:11Speaker 1: hard again at the flower pots before him. Ah, Willie,
- 13:16Speaker 1: he said, this is a black day for all of us.
- 13:19Speaker 1: What are you going to do? I asked, The missus
- 13:23Speaker 1: takes on? So he said, I came out here. What
- 13:26Speaker 1: do you mean to do? What is a man to
- 13:29Speaker 1: do in such a case? Do? I cried? Why do
- 13:34Speaker 1: he ought to marry her? He said, by God, yes,
- 13:36Speaker 1: I cried, he must do that anyhow he ought to.
- 13:41Speaker 1: It's it's cruel. But what am I to do? Suppose
- 13:44Speaker 1: he won't likely he won't What? Then he drooped with
- 13:49Speaker 1: an intensified despair. Here's this cottage, he said, pursuing some
- 13:55Speaker 1: contracted argument. We've lived here all our lives. You might say,
- 14:00Speaker 1: clear out. At my age, one can't die in a slum.
- 14:04Speaker 1: I stood before him for a space, speculating what thoughts
- 14:08Speaker 1: might fill the gaps between those broken words. I found
- 14:12Speaker 1: his letter g and the dimly shaped mental attitudes his
- 14:16Speaker 1: words indicated abominable. I said, abruptly, you have her letter.
- 14:22Speaker 1: He dived into his breast pocket, became motionless for ten seconds,
- 14:26Speaker 1: then woke up again and produced her letter. He drew
- 14:30Speaker 1: it clumsily from its envelope and handed it to me silently.
- 14:35Speaker 1: Why he cried, looking at me for the first time,
- 14:37Speaker 1: what's come to your chin, Willie? It's nothing, I said,
- 14:41Speaker 1: it's a bruise, and I opened the letter. It was
- 14:45Speaker 1: written on greenish tinted fancy note paper with all and
- 14:50Speaker 1: more than Nettie's usual triteness and inadequacy of expression. Her
- 14:55Speaker 1: handwriting bore no traces of emotion. It was round and
- 14:59Speaker 1: upright and clear, as though it had been done in
- 15:02Speaker 1: a writing lesson. Always her letters were like masks upon
- 15:06Speaker 1: her image. They fell like curtains before the changing charm
- 15:10Speaker 1: of her face. One altogether forgot the sound of her light,
- 15:14Speaker 1: clear voice. Confronted by a perplexing, stereotyped thing that had
- 15:19Speaker 1: mysteriously got a hold upon one's heart and pride, how
- 15:23Speaker 1: did that let her run? My dear mother, do not
- 15:27Speaker 1: be distressed at my going away. I have gone somewhere
- 15:30Speaker 1: safe and with some one who cares for me very much.
- 15:34Speaker 1: I am sorry for your sakes, but it seemed that
- 15:37Speaker 1: it had to be. Love is a very difficult thing
- 15:41Speaker 1: and takes hold of one in ways one does not expect.
- 15:45Speaker 1: Do not think I am ashamed about this. I glory
- 15:48Speaker 1: in my love and you must not trouble too much
- 15:50Speaker 1: about me. I am very very happy, deeply underlined fondas
- 15:57Speaker 1: loved the father and Puss your loving neddie that queer
- 16:02Speaker 1: little document. I can see it now for the childish
- 16:06Speaker 1: simple thing it was. But at the time I read
- 16:09Speaker 1: it in a suppressed anguish of rage. It plunged me
- 16:12Speaker 1: into a pit of hopeless shame. There seemed to remain
- 16:17Speaker 1: no pride for me in life until I had revenge.
- 16:21Speaker 1: I stood staring at those rounded upstanding letters, not trusting
- 16:25Speaker 1: myself to speak or move. At last, I stole a
- 16:29Speaker 1: glance at Stuart. He held the envelope in his hand
- 16:33Speaker 1: and stared down at the postmark between his horny thumb nails.
- 16:39Speaker 1: You can't even tell where she is, he said, turning
- 16:41Speaker 1: the thing round in a hopeless manner, and then desisting.
- 16:46Speaker 1: It's hard on us, Willie. Here she is. She hadn't
- 16:49Speaker 1: anything to complain of, a sort of pet for all
- 16:52Speaker 1: of us, not even made to do her share of
- 16:55Speaker 1: the housework. And she goes off and leaves us like
- 16:58Speaker 1: a bird that's learnt to fly. Can't trust us. That's
- 17:02Speaker 1: what takes me, puts herself. But there what's to happen
- 17:06Speaker 1: to her? What's to happen to him? He shook his
- 17:11Speaker 1: head to show that problem was beyond him. You'll go
- 17:15Speaker 1: after her, I said, in an even voice. You'll make
- 17:18Speaker 1: him marry her. Where am I to go? He asked helplessly,
- 17:23Speaker 1: and held out the envelope with a gesture. And what
- 17:25Speaker 1: could I do? Even if I knew? How could I
- 17:28Speaker 1: leave the gardens? Great God, I cried, not leave these gardens.
- 17:33Speaker 1: It's your honor, man. If she was my daughter, If
- 17:36Speaker 1: she was my daughter, I'd tear the world to pieces,
- 17:39Speaker 1: I choked. You mean to stand it? What can I do?
- 17:44Speaker 1: Make him marry her? Horsewhip him? Horsewhip him, I say,
- 17:47Speaker 1: I'd strangle him. He scratched slowly at his hairy cheek,
- 17:52Speaker 1: opened his mouth and shook his head. Then, with an
- 17:55Speaker 1: intolerable note of sluggish gentle wisdom, he said, people of
- 18:00Speaker 1: our sort, Willie, can't do things like that. I came
- 18:05Speaker 1: near to raving. I had a wild impulse to strike
- 18:08Speaker 1: him in the face. Once in my boyhood I happened
- 18:12Speaker 1: upon a bird terribly mangled by some cat and killed it.
- 18:16Speaker 1: In a frenzy of horror and pity, I had a
- 18:19Speaker 1: gust of that same emotion. Now has a shameful, mutilated
- 18:23Speaker 1: soul fluttered in the dust before me? Then you know?
- 18:27Speaker 1: I dismissed him from the case. May I look, I asked.
- 18:32Speaker 1: He held out the envelope reluctantly. There it is, he said,
- 18:37Speaker 1: and pointing with his garden rough forefinger. I A P,
- 18:42Speaker 1: A M P. What can you make of that? I
- 18:46Speaker 1: took the thing in my hands. The adhesive stamp customary
- 18:50Speaker 1: in those days, was defaced by a circular post mark
- 18:54Speaker 1: which bore the name of the office of departure and
- 18:57Speaker 1: the date. The impact of the particular case had been light,
- 19:02Speaker 1: or made without sufficient ink, and half the letters of
- 19:05Speaker 1: the name had left no impression. I could distinguish I
- 19:10Speaker 1: A P, A M P, and very faintly below D
- 19:15Speaker 1: S O. I guess the name in an instant flash
- 19:19Speaker 1: of intuition. It was Shamtenbury. The very gaps shaped that
- 19:24Speaker 1: to my mind, perhaps in a sort of semi visibility.
- 19:28Speaker 1: Other letters were there, at least hinting themselves. It was
- 19:32Speaker 1: a place somewhere on the east coast I knew, either
- 19:36Speaker 1: in Norfolk or Suffolk. Why I cried and stopped? What
- 19:41Speaker 1: was the good of telling him? Old Steward glanced up sharply.
- 19:46Speaker 1: I am inclined to think, almost fearfully into my face.
- 19:49Speaker 1: You you haven't got it, he said, Shamptonbury. I should
- 19:53Speaker 1: remember that you don't think you got it, he said.
- 19:58Speaker 1: I handed the envelope back to him. For a moment
- 20:01Speaker 1: I thought it might be Hampton, I said, Hampton. He repeated, Hampton,
- 20:06Speaker 1: How could you make Hampton. He turned the envelope about
- 20:10Speaker 1: h A M my Willie, you are a worse hand
- 20:13Speaker 1: at the job than me. He replaced the letter in
- 20:17Speaker 1: the envelope and stood erect to put this back in
- 20:20Speaker 1: his breast pocket. I did not mean to take any
- 20:24Speaker 1: risk in this affair. I drew a stump of pencil
- 20:27Speaker 1: from my waistcoat pocket, turned a little away from him,
- 20:31Speaker 1: and wrote Shamptonbury very quickly on my fraid and rather
- 20:35Speaker 1: grimy shirt cuff. Well said I, with an air of
- 20:39Speaker 1: having done nothing remarkable. I turned to him with some
- 20:43Speaker 1: unimportant observation. I have forgotten what I never finished, whatever
- 20:48Speaker 1: vague remark I commenced. I looked up to see a
- 20:52Speaker 1: third person waiting at the greenhouse door. End of Book one,
- 20:57Speaker 1: Chapter three, Sections five six. Recording by Richard Kilmer Reo
- 21:04Speaker 1: Medina Texas