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Choose Yourself feat. Christian Rainey · We Talk Back

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  Speaker 1: Welcome to We Talk Back Podcast, the production of iHeartRadio
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  Speaker 1: and the Black Effect Network.
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  Speaker 2: We're just two unapologetically black women with an opinion. He
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  Speaker 2: talks back.
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  Speaker 1: What's up, y'all?
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  Speaker 3: Thank you for tuning in for a new episode that
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  Speaker 3: We Talked Back, the show dedicated to you dreamers and chasers.
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  Speaker 1: It's your co hosts a J. Holiday. What's up, Tam Bam?
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  Speaker 2: What's up girl?
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  Speaker 3: How you doing?
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  Speaker 1: I love y'all, I love y'all.
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  Speaker 2: How's your weekend?
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  Speaker 1: I finished moving.
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  Speaker 3: I'm sleeping on a blow up mattress, bitch, Ti, My
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  Speaker 3: mattress comes.
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  Speaker 2: In not a bouncy house over there.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, honey, I smash on it yet, but and look
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  Speaker 3: I got a real plushed out though, Okay, a plush Now.
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  Speaker 3: I can't talk about niggas who sleep on blood mattresses.
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  Speaker 1: They don't carry my mattress.
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  Speaker 2: But they don't count because you moving. Some niggas that
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  Speaker 2: stay permanent.
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  Speaker 4: Shit that's they got, bitch is coming through. They got sex,
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  Speaker 4: They getting sections at the club. But I ain't got
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  Speaker 4: no bed.
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  Speaker 1: Where's your head board?
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  Speaker 2: Where's your priorities?
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  Speaker 1: Why is your polo so flat? What is happening? Sir?
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  Speaker 2: Then there's pillows. What did I do this weekend?
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  Speaker 3: I saw you, bitch, I saw you with the motherfucking
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  Speaker 3: shorts song man.
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  Speaker 4: No girl, when I tell you, they was on my
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  Speaker 4: head and the club this weekend.
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  Speaker 2: My little boo boo gave me my walking papers. He
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  Speaker 2: was saying he done with me. I was listening to
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  Speaker 2: my short. He doesn't cut me lose.
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  Speaker 4: So like, I was like sad on Saturday night. I
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  Speaker 4: gave myself one night to be sad. Then Sunday I
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  Speaker 4: was like, I'm outside, bitch. We outside tonight. That's how
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  Speaker 4: it was on Sunday, And I threw on some shorts
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  Speaker 4: and some leather boots and had a marvelous time.
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  Speaker 2: They was on my head. They was chasing me around
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  Speaker 2: the club.
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  Speaker 1: That's all in.
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  Speaker 2: Take yup.
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  Speaker 1: So next, you over him, You over the bub I
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  Speaker 1: missed him.
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  Speaker 4: But I mean, if you ain't want to be here,
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  Speaker 4: then please go where you're welcome and where you're happy.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, period. Next. Next, let's get into the sense of
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  Speaker 2: the week.
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  Speaker 1: Ah girl, did you see.
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  Speaker 3: This video of these fucking kids licking toes in the
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  Speaker 3: gymnasium in school looking peanut butter?
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  Speaker 1: Was it adults?
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  Speaker 2: No? There were other students.
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  Speaker 4: So it was an Oklahoma high school and Deer Creek
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  Speaker 4: High School to be exact, and they were having a
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  Speaker 4: fundraiser to help a local coffee shop that hires people
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  Speaker 4: with special needs, so they were raising money for them,
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  Speaker 4: and they had a toe locking toe sucking tournament was
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  Speaker 4: the event that students paid to attend, and they had
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  Speaker 4: kids on the ground like literally sucking other people's feet.
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  Speaker 2: And I just don't understand.
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  Speaker 4: Who approved this shit, Like who said, Okay, yeah, that's
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  Speaker 4: a good idea, let's go ahead and let these kids
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  Speaker 4: lock on each other foot.
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  Speaker 1: D these kids different, okay, because why.
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  Speaker 2: Would you even participating that?
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  Speaker 3: These kids real different from what I remember kids being like, no, now,
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  Speaker 3: let me let me stop tripping. I feel like sometimes
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  Speaker 3: we be lying acting like a lot of shit wasn't
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  Speaker 3: going on.
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  Speaker 2: No at my school, dud not.
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  Speaker 3: At the school. But I definitely got my toes licked
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  Speaker 3: in high school.
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  Speaker 2: You didn't know.
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  Speaker 4: And I wouldn't think about looking nobody toes in high school,
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  Speaker 4: Like what is that?
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  Speaker 2: What is that?
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  Speaker 3: I ain't think about looking nobody toes Now I'm not
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  Speaker 3: looking nobody's toes. I side eye niggas when they suck
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  Speaker 3: my toes, but I'm not gonna stop them.
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  Speaker 4: I don't like, don't put my foot in your mouth.
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  Speaker 4: I stand all day for work. I just don't feel.
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  Speaker 2: Like you should do that. That's nasty. Stop It's other.
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  Speaker 2: It's other special places that you can lick that I
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  Speaker 2: will actually enjoy.
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  Speaker 4: My feet are not not one of them.
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  Speaker 1: I like a little toe, I like it.
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  Speaker 3: I like to see a little toeing and a nigga
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  Speaker 3: mout every once in a while.
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  Speaker 1: And not some kids though, this is that's that's real wild.
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  Speaker 3: Like, so did the kids organize this thing or was
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  Speaker 3: it organized by adults? Because I'm seeing a lot of
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  Speaker 3: shit that adults are doing the children and for schools.
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  Speaker 4: But it was a school sanction of it, which means
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  Speaker 4: adults had to approve it. And I'm just trying to
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  Speaker 4: think of like what adult was like, Yeah, that's a
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  Speaker 4: good idea.
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  Speaker 2: Let's let's let the kids lick on each other foot.
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  Speaker 3: The principal obviously got a foot fetish and he don't
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  Speaker 3: give a ship he wanted to see it.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, because that's wild.
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  Speaker 1: Let me not assume that the principal was a man.
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  Speaker 1: That's that's kind of messed up.
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  Speaker 4: But whoever whoever is the need and fired, because I
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  Speaker 4: wish I would have seen the video of my baby
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  Speaker 4: on that damn gym, navy or floor lick at somebody's feet.
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  Speaker 4: Everybody hit it, and my baby like, what is wrong
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  Speaker 4: with you?
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  Speaker 2: You ain't got enough sister, know not to do no
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  Speaker 2: shit like that.
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  Speaker 1: Right shame? So listen, what would you do if you
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  Speaker 1: are in love? Right?
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  Speaker 3: This man asked you to marry him, and you're walking
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  Speaker 3: down the aisle and all of a sudden, what's that
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  Speaker 3: movie with a girl would out at.
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  Speaker 1: The damn prom Kirie cam Kirie.
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  Speaker 3: You walking down the aisle with your beautiful white wedding
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  Speaker 3: dress on, and all of a sudden somebody.
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  Speaker 1: Throws red paint on you on your wedding day. What's
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  Speaker 1: your next move?
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  Speaker 2: I'm airing that whole motherfucking wedding house. Everybody back up?
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  Speaker 2: Who threw paint?
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  Speaker 1: Girl?
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  Speaker 3: So it's a story on I find this online. So
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  Speaker 3: bride is splattered with red paint as she's walking down
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  Speaker 3: the aisle. Amid claims her groom's unhinged mom arranged the
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  Speaker 3: attack before later a thing to steal her son's passport
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  Speaker 3: to ruin his honeymoon. So they still got say I
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  Speaker 3: don't fuck with niggas with mamas noth example of why
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  Speaker 3: I prefer niggas who don't got no mama, no sister,
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  Speaker 3: and adult children.
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  Speaker 1: Adult yeah, adult children.
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  Speaker 3: If you got a thirty year old daughter who is
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  Speaker 3: not in a healthy relationship with a man, I can't
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  Speaker 3: fuck with you.
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  Speaker 4: I just feel like before I would marry a man,
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  Speaker 4: I would have to have like some type of healthy
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  Speaker 4: relationship or healthy boundary with his family. Because she knew
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  Speaker 4: that lady was full of she knew that lady was
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  Speaker 4: with all the smoke before they went down the aisle.
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  Speaker 4: There's no way I would have walked down that aisle
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  Speaker 4: with someone.
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  Speaker 2: So we're hinge.
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  Speaker 3: When I tell you the church would be so clean
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  Speaker 3: because I would clean all the pulpits.
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  Speaker 1: What his fucking mama.
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  Speaker 4: You can't be doing that to nobody, Mama, absolutely, because
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  Speaker 4: you know, sometimes I feel like men they let their
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  Speaker 4: mom run amuck over their lives.
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  Speaker 3: Right, So you you didn't leave it to your significant
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  Speaker 3: other to try to sort the shit out when really
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  Speaker 3: that's not my place. You need to check your mama.
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  Speaker 3: And if you can't check your mama out.
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  Speaker 2: He clearly couldn't check his mama.
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  Speaker 4: He probably never could check his mama in life, and
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  Speaker 4: that's why she thought it was okay to bring have
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  Speaker 4: somebody to bring paint up.
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  Speaker 1: In the wind and steal his passport so.
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  Speaker 2: He can't even go away.
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  Speaker 1: And they they got married.
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  Speaker 2: Still clearly, clearly they still got married.
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  Speaker 4: They needed a passport to go somewhere because they would
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  Speaker 4: be bail bunny for my motherfucking ass.
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  Speaker 2: That's all they would need.
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  Speaker 1: So y'all, uh, Kanye West, uh new wife? Listen, her
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  Speaker 1: name is Bianca since censory, but that.
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  Speaker 2: Calling her new wife. They've been together for at least
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  Speaker 2: two or three years now.
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  Speaker 3: Absolutely not Kanye has only been married to that lady
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  Speaker 3: for a year. Oh okay, Yeah, they got married last year,
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  Speaker 3: so y'all be seeing her. You know, they got pictures
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  Speaker 3: with her walking around with the ass out with a
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  Speaker 3: little plastic bag.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 3: I agree with Kanye when he said, like the the
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  Speaker 3: big designers be sealing his design because I can't remember
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  Speaker 3: who it was during New York Fashion Week, but they
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  Speaker 3: literally everybody was dressed like his girl. So obviously, y'all,
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  Speaker 3: y'all do be paying attention. And he is a trendsetter
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  Speaker 3: in some type of way, but anyway, so apparently Bianca censory.
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  Speaker 3: We've named her Bianca uncensored. Her dad wants a word
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  Speaker 3: with Kanye West over the recent revealing photos of his daughter.
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  Speaker 3: It says, shortly after Bianca was seen not wearing underwear
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  Speaker 3: under sheer stockings while having dinner with Ye in Paris.
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  Speaker 3: In Paris, her father we don't call this Nigga Leo
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  Speaker 3: Okay Leo reportedly said he wanted a conversation with the
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  Speaker 3: controversial artist, keeping in mind of the outfit could lead
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  Speaker 3: to legal trouble for her, as France has strict indecency
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  Speaker 3: laws and could result in jail time or a hefty fine.
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  Speaker 3: One source claim Bianca's father, Leo wants to have a
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  Speaker 3: proper sit down with Kanye and ask him what the
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  Speaker 3: hell he's thinking when he paraised Bianc around like a
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  Speaker 3: trashy naked trophy pony.
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  Speaker 1: How is this? This is a grown woman? Right?
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  Speaker 3: Is she being held against her will? She's always smiling,
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  Speaker 3: She always looked happy.
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  Speaker 4: She look at happy hole to me, well, she looked
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  Speaker 4: like she might be easily influenced, you know, would she
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  Speaker 4: be wearing this trash bag?
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  Speaker 2: And niggad asks if she was not with Kanye.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, but who is your dad to check me boo?
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  Speaker 4: He also said, you know, would he wants Chicago North
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  Speaker 4: to be seen in public when and revealing closed because
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  Speaker 4: their husbands encouraged them to.
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  Speaker 1: Absolutely not.
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  Speaker 3: He's trying to get Kim to take his kids out
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  Speaker 3: of a particular school because he feels like it's a
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  Speaker 3: school where children are groomed for Hollywood. Right, So of
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  Speaker 3: course Kanye would not have would not allow a man
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  Speaker 3: to have his child walking around looks crazy.
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  Speaker 2: Well, help pussy out.
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  Speaker 3: But yeah, this speaks to how sometimes boundaries that men
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  Speaker 3: have really doesn't pertain to women that they really don't love.
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  Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
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  Speaker 3: You know so I personally I don't think Kanye West
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  Speaker 3: actually loves this woman.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, because when he was with Kim, he used to
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  Speaker 4: get mad about her posting essentially stuff. So why the
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  Speaker 4: change her? Why is it okay for this woman to
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  Speaker 4: be so exposed?
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  Speaker 1: You don't like her?
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  Speaker 3: That's what it balls down to, because I remember Kim
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  Speaker 3: crying after the met gala. It's like Kanye knew exactly
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  Speaker 3: what she was wearing at night, and he waited till
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  Speaker 3: that day like to fuck with her about how revealing
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  Speaker 3: the outfit was right.
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  Speaker 1: But now you got this bit. She don't be having
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  Speaker 1: on no clothes at all.
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  Speaker 4: She'd be naked, bro like she should really be outside
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  Speaker 4: and asked nickd just having them.
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  Speaker 2: Would let this scallop your scallop is.
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  Speaker 1: Out, your callup is exposed.
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  Speaker 3: The middle of the Dad in the middle, in the
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  Speaker 3: middle of France's second dick on the boat, Kanye Buck
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  Speaker 3: cracks stay out his ask me out too.
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  Speaker 1: Kanye hopped in the truck and he was kicked up.
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  Speaker 4: Kanye, why are you so kick all of a sudden
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  Speaker 4: say two of the kind of.
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  Speaker 1: Sh I don't know?
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  Speaker 3: All right, So, speaking of men respecting the women that
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  Speaker 3: they say they love, we're talking domestic violence on this
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  Speaker 3: week's episode. So we have the founder of mad okay,
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  Speaker 3: that's Men Against Domestic Violence, and we talked back this week.
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  Speaker 1: Y'all stay tuned, all right, y'all, welcome.
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  Speaker 3: Back, And y'all know March is Women's History Month, and
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  Speaker 3: not to start the month off super heavy, but the
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  Speaker 3: conversation is definitely necessary. Women are almost always at the
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  Speaker 3: forefront of domestic violence conversations and primarily primarily the main advocates. Also,
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  Speaker 3: men aren't exempt, you know, from being victims, but they
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  Speaker 3: really don't speak out being victims or the abusers. It's
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  Speaker 3: usually a conversation that women are having. So today's guest
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  Speaker 3: is out here breaking the cycle of abuse through his
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  Speaker 3: work as a CEO and founder of an organization called MAD.
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  Speaker 3: That's m a d USA, Inc. And that's Men Against
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  Speaker 3: Domestic Violence. He's also the assistant Assistant Chief of Personal
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  Speaker 3: Development in the North Charlston Fire Department.
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  Speaker 1: He's a girl's dad and he's a good man.
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  Speaker 3: Anna, okay, y'all. Welcome Chris Raine, we fight, I mean
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  Speaker 3: we talked back.
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  Speaker 1: What's up?
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  Speaker 2: Welcome Christian.
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  Speaker 1: What how you doing today, Chad?
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  Speaker 5: I'm doing good, doing great, doing great. Nice to be here.
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  Speaker 2: Tell us about man, how I got started, tell us
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  Speaker 2: all the things.
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  Speaker 5: Really just a god, I think I would say, in
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  Speaker 5: a very unconventional way. I was in Baton, russ Louisiana
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  Speaker 5: in two thousand and six. I got a phone call
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  Speaker 5: from my cousin and that basically changed my life. I
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  Speaker 5: learned that my mom and my four siblings were murdered
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  Speaker 5: by my mom's husband, and they had only been married
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  Speaker 5: for about a year, and my mom was in Mi
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  Speaker 5: from colon cancer. So when I initially got the call,
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  Speaker 5: I really didn't know what I was flying home for.
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  Speaker 5: Nowhere really told me until I got here. And I
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  Speaker 5: had actually spoken to my mom ironically the day before,
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  Speaker 5: and our conversation was just around the period of time
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  Speaker 5: of which we had not talked, which was probably about
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  Speaker 5: a month or two, which was very unordinary for us,
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  Speaker 5: and she just basically was saying that she was busy
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  Speaker 5: basically following up her last chemore appointment and that they
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  Speaker 5: were headed got the Moja festival. I got a chance
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  Speaker 5: to talk to three of my siblings and you know,
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  Speaker 5: they said that they were going to Mojia. I said,
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  Speaker 5: I love you, love you too, and I told her
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  Speaker 5: I would talk to her tomorrow. She said, promise. I said,
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  Speaker 5: you know, we promised that we would talk the next day,
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  Speaker 5: and that was the last day we spoke. Fast forward
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  Speaker 5: about seven years of trying to rediscover myself and you know,
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  Speaker 5: this life and what it really means to go through
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  Speaker 5: this type of tragedy. I decided, through prayer and isolation
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  Speaker 5: that I wanted to do something to honor my family
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  Speaker 5: and their legacy, not in a negative way, but you know,
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  Speaker 5: bringing life to their lives and I hosted event at
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  Speaker 5: Walmart in the parking lot in honor of them to
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  Speaker 5: bring awareness to domestic violence. And I was only expecting
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  Speaker 5: family members to show up, and we had about five
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  Speaker 5: six hundred people show up in that event. And I
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  Speaker 5: knew from that point on that there was something bigger
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  Speaker 5: that I needed to do, and I wanted to do
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  Speaker 5: something that wasn't done already. I think that we have
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  Speaker 5: a lot of people doing reactive work to domestic balance.
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  Speaker 5: There's shelters, not enough shelters, and our resources for victims,
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  Speaker 5: but what are we doing on the front end to
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  Speaker 5: prevent it? And I felt like that where my space was,
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  Speaker 5: and so that's I began an organization to do proactive
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  Speaker 5: education for children, teaching team dating, violence, bullying, and domestic violence.
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  Speaker 5: And eleven years later, you know, made some legislative changes
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  Speaker 5: in the state of South Carolina, because before twenty sixteen,
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  Speaker 5: you would actually get more time for beating your dog
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  Speaker 5: than you would have beaten your wife or your significant other.
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  Speaker 5: So our morals quote unquote did not match.
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  Speaker 3: So y'all know, in South Carolina, it's still a law
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  Speaker 3: that you can beat your wife on the front steps
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  Speaker 3: of the Courthouse downtown Charleston is still a thing on
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  Speaker 3: the book, so a lot of legislation, legislation still actually
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  Speaker 3: hasn't been changed. So why do you think it is
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  Speaker 3: that men aren't as engaged in the topic.
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  Speaker 1: About domestic violence as much as women are.
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  Speaker 5: Guilt and accountability. I would say my very first TED
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  Speaker 5: talk I did was about men owning your role and
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  Speaker 5: just looking at the feedback that I got from YouTube,
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  Speaker 5: just the comments and stuff, and men just saying like, well,
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  Speaker 5: I never put my hands on a woman, Why do
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  Speaker 5: I have to take responsibility? But the truth of the
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  Speaker 5: matter is you didn't directly have to be a slave
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  Speaker 5: owner to benefit from slavery, and I don't directly have
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  Speaker 5: to be an abuser to benefit from the privilege of
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  Speaker 5: being a man, or contributing to the culture in which
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  Speaker 5: men feel like it's okay to abuse women or treat
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  Speaker 5: women a way that they do. So to me, I
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  Speaker 5: think a lack of accountability is the main thing, like
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  Speaker 5: not wanting to accept our role what we benefit in
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  Speaker 5: the culture, Like, no, not all of us may put
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  Speaker 5: our hands on someone, but you know, I think verbally
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  Speaker 5: we probably said some things sometimes, you know, as we
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  Speaker 5: grow on relationships. That probably is not the best thing.
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  Speaker 5: I'm on both sides, and I think just taking accountability
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  Speaker 5: for the culture in which we allowed to happen. If
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  Speaker 5: we're watching it happen and allowing it to happen, I mean,
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  Speaker 5: are we not at fault as well?
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  Speaker 4: I had I had went on a date one time
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  Speaker 4: and we just went to like a day it was
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  Speaker 4: like a brunch day party situation, and we met with
• 18:31
  Speaker 4: the guy was seeing his friend and he started telling
• 18:35
  Speaker 4: the story about how he had to beat his girlfriend
• 18:39
  Speaker 4: the night before, all right, and I got really upset
• 18:42
  Speaker 4: and I left. You know, I call me an uber,
• 18:45
  Speaker 4: and I left because I just felt like, one it
• 18:47
  Speaker 4: was one you just you know, casually talking about beating
• 18:50
  Speaker 4: a woman, and two the nigga ain't saying shit right,
• 18:55
  Speaker 4: So that gave me a sign that this ain't the
• 18:58
  Speaker 4: party for me. This is not my ministry. So the
• 19:02
  Speaker 4: guy was dating he said something to his friend about
• 19:05
  Speaker 4: why I left. So the next time I saw the guy,
• 19:08
  Speaker 4: he was like, I apologize for, you know, having that
• 19:12
  Speaker 4: conversation in front of you. But some women don't feel
• 19:15
  Speaker 4: like you love them unless you beat them. So my
• 19:19
  Speaker 4: question for you is, do you agree with that scenario, like,
• 19:22
  Speaker 4: are there women out there that only feel love when
• 19:25
  Speaker 4: they're being physically abused by men? And is there counseling
• 19:28
  Speaker 4: for that?
• 19:29
  Speaker 2: With Matt.
• 19:32
  Speaker 5: So to answer your first question, this is going to
• 19:34
  Speaker 5: open up a very deep conversation. Second ted talk that
• 19:41
  Speaker 5: I did was on love is not Love, which is
• 19:45
  Speaker 5: layered oppressed, fooling the emotions, And the premise of that
• 19:50
  Speaker 5: talk was how do we learn how to love? Is
• 19:58
  Speaker 5: it a universal thing that everyone understands what a healthy
• 20:02
  Speaker 5: relationship and with love is or are we taught with
• 20:04
  Speaker 5: love is? I would say that we're taught right, So
• 20:10
  Speaker 5: when we say that the only way that a woman
• 20:14
  Speaker 5: feels love is if she's hit or she's abused, okay,
• 20:18
  Speaker 5: we have to kind of backtrack and say, well, how
• 20:22
  Speaker 5: was she taught? What was the environment in which she
• 20:24
  Speaker 5: grew up in to where this was the norm, to
• 20:26
  Speaker 5: where this is what she accepts as being the norm.
• 20:29
  Speaker 5: Because if you grow up in the household as I
• 20:31
  Speaker 5: did from the age of six, where love and violence coexist,
• 20:38
  Speaker 5: how do you learn how to love without violence? Because
• 20:42
  Speaker 5: they are hand in hand? And so I think you
• 20:45
  Speaker 5: know the root of that is, you know, and I
• 20:49
  Speaker 5: was talking to aj about it earlier. Like even the
• 20:51
  Speaker 5: kids that I teach sometimes their lack of emotional intelligence.
• 20:58
  Speaker 5: Some of it is from them, but some of it
• 21:00
  Speaker 5: exactually passed down from their parents. Like there has to
• 21:04
  Speaker 5: be like traumatic cycles that are broken. And so I
• 21:07
  Speaker 5: can't blame the woman. You know, anybody would look at
• 21:11
  Speaker 5: her and be like, oh, you know, it's stupid. Why
• 21:14
  Speaker 5: don't why doesn't she just leave? Like it's a deeper
• 21:20
  Speaker 5: I hate to say sickness, but it's a deeper traumatic
• 21:27
  Speaker 5: event that she's had going on in her life repetitively
• 21:30
  Speaker 5: to where she feels like this is the normal, right,
• 21:33
  Speaker 5: and this is what she accepts as love because her
• 21:36
  Speaker 5: dad might have did it to her mom, or you know,
• 21:39
  Speaker 5: her mom may have a boyfriend and something that does
• 21:41
  Speaker 5: it to her, and it may be the pattern happening
• 21:44
  Speaker 5: over and over again. So what she does is accepts
• 21:47
  Speaker 5: the fact that this is what love is. At times
• 21:51
  Speaker 5: it may result into this and it's really just on
• 21:58
  Speaker 5: like kind of just settling. And sometimes you have men
• 22:03
  Speaker 5: who actually, you know, seek women who are heavily submissive.
• 22:10
  Speaker 5: And I hate using that word because I think the
• 22:15
  Speaker 5: word has kind of gained a very negative feel around
• 22:21
  Speaker 5: what submissiveness looks like in a relationship or should be
• 22:24
  Speaker 5: in a relationship, and so now it's just seen as negative.
• 22:29
  Speaker 5: But you know, and not to preach. But also I
• 22:33
  Speaker 5: often reference Ephesians when I talk about like submissiveness and
• 22:38
  Speaker 5: the way that I grew up in the church, I
• 22:40
  Speaker 5: used to hear male pastors preach for hours about wise
• 22:47
  Speaker 5: being submissive to your husbands. And one day I decided
• 22:52
  Speaker 5: to go read for myself, and I realized that God
• 22:56
  Speaker 5: gave more instructions on how male is supposed to treat
• 23:01
  Speaker 5: a female then he did the woman being submissive to
• 23:06
  Speaker 5: the man. So my thing is is if men own
• 23:09
  Speaker 5: the part of treating your wives that Christ loved the church,
• 23:14
  Speaker 5: or no man committing harm to his own flesh, Because
• 23:17
  Speaker 5: when you become married, our relationship, however you see it,
• 23:21
  Speaker 5: you become one right and no one's going to commit
• 23:24
  Speaker 5: or should commit harm to their own flesh. And if
• 23:26
  Speaker 5: you're deeming this person as your significant other, are your
• 23:29
  Speaker 5: better half? As some people say, why are you harming
• 23:33
  Speaker 5: this person? Because that cannot be a reflection of what
• 23:38
  Speaker 5: love is heavy.
• 23:47
  Speaker 3: I think that a lot of people you just have
• 23:49
  Speaker 3: to find somebody who has the same definition of love
• 23:52
  Speaker 3: as you do, because I feel like women who get
• 23:54
  Speaker 3: abused and men who abused somehow they always meet each
• 23:57
  Speaker 3: other because that same man could get with another woman
• 24:00
  Speaker 3: and would never put his hands on her because she's
• 24:03
  Speaker 3: not allowing that thing, right. But it's like, I know
• 24:07
  Speaker 3: some women who have been abused in every single relationship
• 24:09
  Speaker 3: they've been in.
• 24:12
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I was just thinking about that.
• 24:13
  Speaker 4: There's a girl that I know from Colombia and she's
• 24:15
  Speaker 4: always posting abuser man abusing, Yeah, abusing her like different
• 24:22
  Speaker 4: scars on her body and different war wounds from different men.
• 24:25
  Speaker 4: And it's just like, how are you continuously attracting physically
• 24:30
  Speaker 4: violent men?
• 24:32
  Speaker 5: It's a pattern. I mean, there's no different from fishing
• 24:35
  Speaker 5: in the same pond where they breed catfish and catch
• 24:41
  Speaker 5: a catfish. You can't be surprised that's where you're fishing at.
• 24:46
  Speaker 4: But I'm confused on how that worked because basically what
• 24:51
  Speaker 4: you said Columbia, South Carolina is a bunch of women
• 24:54
  Speaker 4: beating ass nigga.
• 24:58
  Speaker 5: Well, I'm gonna just tell you so track breaking in
• 25:00
  Speaker 5: South Carolina ain't great. I mean, we notice that's when
• 25:03
  Speaker 5: they come to men killer women so cultfully, I mean,
• 25:06
  Speaker 5: going back to what AJ said, Like, you think about it,
• 25:10
  Speaker 5: even though that law is a blue law, right, which is,
• 25:14
  Speaker 5: you know it's on the books, but it's not practice.
• 25:17
  Speaker 5: You could obviously get in trouble.
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: For it, But like spitting on the sidewalk.
• 25:22
  Speaker 5: Right, But you have to go back to the route
• 25:25
  Speaker 5: of why is it there in the first place, right,
• 25:30
  Speaker 5: because there's it's not by coincidence that over fifty percent
• 25:34
  Speaker 5: of the states that make up the top ten or
• 25:36
  Speaker 5: southern states. Right, Why do we hold on to laws
• 25:42
  Speaker 5: like that? Why were they designed in the first place?
• 25:46
  Speaker 5: Because to me, there's no Again I hate bringing up slavery,
• 25:52
  Speaker 5: but there's no rule or no law that is saying
• 25:56
  Speaker 5: that it's okay to be a slave. But in turn,
• 26:01
  Speaker 5: I would say that it doesn't stop the system of
• 26:03
  Speaker 5: slavery to continuing to happen. And so when you have
• 26:08
  Speaker 5: men who not only feel like it's okay to abuse
• 26:13
  Speaker 5: their wives physically, but they got together as lawmakers leaders
• 26:19
  Speaker 5: of a state and came together and decided that the
• 26:23
  Speaker 5: right thing to do with their time is to protect
• 26:26
  Speaker 5: the fact that they can beat their wives on what
• 26:29
  Speaker 5: they would consider a holy day and the Bible belt
• 26:36
  Speaker 5: in public, who.
• 26:42
  Speaker 2: Says that shit crazy.
• 26:44
  Speaker 4: That's why listen, I got a pistol for anybody coming
• 26:46
  Speaker 4: at me different, I swear, don't come at me crazy.
• 26:50
  Speaker 4: So let me ask you this. Are you saying you
• 26:52
  Speaker 4: do a lot of like training with children, you want
• 26:54
  Speaker 4: to get them young, right, But how do you go
• 26:56
  Speaker 4: about teaching a child something so heavy and helping them
• 27:00
  Speaker 4: to understand these things? Because it seems like a difficult task.
• 27:05
  Speaker 5: You go, you figure out what the pillars of And
• 27:09
  Speaker 5: this is what I'm meant to tell ag a minute ago.
• 27:11
  Speaker 5: You find out what the pillars of the what I
• 27:16
  Speaker 5: deem to be a sickness is, which is power and control. Right.
• 27:22
  Speaker 5: If you don't have power and control overybody over someone,
• 27:25
  Speaker 5: you're not gonna be able to abuse them. That's off top.
• 27:28
  Speaker 5: They're gonna leave, right. No one just magically becomes like,
• 27:34
  Speaker 5: I'm not gonna come holler at you and be at
• 27:38
  Speaker 5: our first date and be like, you know I hit
• 27:39
  Speaker 5: and abused women, right, That's that's nothing that I'm just
• 27:43
  Speaker 5: gonna come out and say, right, because you would leave right.
• 27:46
  Speaker 5: So over time I have to, like some people, court
• 27:52
  Speaker 5: to you, you know, tear you down physically, I'll tear
• 27:59
  Speaker 5: you down mentally. Right, and get you to depend on
• 28:02
  Speaker 5: me emotionally, depend on me for your happiness, and then
• 28:10
  Speaker 5: once we get to a certain point, then they feel
• 28:12
  Speaker 5: comfortable enough abusing right. No one's just gonna come out
• 28:17
  Speaker 5: and slap you, because nine times out of ten you're
• 28:19
  Speaker 5: just gonna leave.
• 28:20
  Speaker 3: I usually do it on the first date, but go ahead,
• 28:26
  Speaker 3: so you can't like so so a year from now, you.
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: Can't say I changed. It happened the very first date.
• 28:31
  Speaker 5: If I see aging a dollar paper, i'm'n just.
• 28:34
  Speaker 4: Be like, AJ is gonna find a way to make
• 28:38
  Speaker 4: domestic violence lighthearted.
• 28:41
  Speaker 3: Let me tell you what to do. You gotta hit
• 28:42
  Speaker 3: them on top of the head. It's a it's a
• 28:44
  Speaker 3: reset button on no shopping niggas head and like, especially
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: if they got hair like Kristen, you won't be able
• 28:50
  Speaker 3: to see it.
• 28:51
  Speaker 1: You just kind of don't.
• 28:52
  Speaker 4: This is exactly the opposite of what Christian is trying
• 28:55
  Speaker 4: to relate to our listeners.
• 28:59
  Speaker 2: She's just joking. Yeah, she don't really be hitting nobody.
• 29:02
  Speaker 3: I don't know that SHEI ate any anything violent oftentimes, So.
• 29:08
  Speaker 4: You're saying with the kids, you teach them about what
• 29:12
  Speaker 4: power control, So power.
• 29:14
  Speaker 5: And control, so when you when you say, like, how
• 29:16
  Speaker 5: do you get this across? It's teaching the basics. So
• 29:19
  Speaker 5: elementary school having a conversation about teen dating violence is
• 29:24
  Speaker 5: not age appropriate. They don't understand it, right, But what
• 29:27
  Speaker 5: do they understand relationships? Friendships? The root cause of bullying
• 29:32
  Speaker 5: is power and control. You can't bully somebody unless you
• 29:34
  Speaker 5: have power and control over them, right, So we teach
• 29:38
  Speaker 5: about friendships, healthy relationships surrounding bullying in that conversation. And
• 29:43
  Speaker 5: once we get to middle school and high school, that's
• 29:46
  Speaker 5: when we start talking about teen dating and domestic violence
• 29:49
  Speaker 5: and you know, talking about red flags. But what we
• 29:53
  Speaker 5: also just started incorporating into our lessons is a lot
• 29:58
  Speaker 5: of things dealing with men health. Because we talk about
• 30:02
  Speaker 5: like being able to recognize signs, but how do you
• 30:07
  Speaker 5: recognize within yourself the issues that you have dealing with
• 30:12
  Speaker 5: depression recognized and whether you depress, whether you deal or
• 30:16
  Speaker 5: suffer from anxiety or temper or a temper right, or
• 30:20
  Speaker 5: any of those things, And how do we solve it
• 30:24
  Speaker 5: or how do we recognize it, get help counseling, how
• 30:27
  Speaker 5: do we heal from those things? Last week I led
• 30:31
  Speaker 5: my first class in meditation and it was dope a
• 30:35
  Speaker 5: bunch of high school kids I had in the class
• 30:37
  Speaker 5: that I've been teaching for months, and for those kids,
• 30:42
  Speaker 5: it was like for them, they said, it was the
• 30:44
  Speaker 5: very first time in their life that they can remember
• 30:47
  Speaker 5: their mind just being clear and not racing about life.
• 30:51
  Speaker 5: And that's mindfulness And that's a lot of power to
• 30:54
  Speaker 5: hand over to a teenager that they've had, but they
• 30:57
  Speaker 5: deserve to be mentally free, you know. So basically just
• 31:01
  Speaker 5: teaching like a holistic thing, like not only pointing out
• 31:04
  Speaker 5: the red flags, but you're also just being emotionally intelligent
• 31:07
  Speaker 5: enough to be self aware but also manage your emotions,
• 31:10
  Speaker 5: but also to be socially aware to understand the people
• 31:13
  Speaker 5: that you're dealing with and kind of just gauge how
• 31:20
  Speaker 5: they emotionally respond to things, because I think even as adults,
• 31:24
  Speaker 5: those are things that we sometimes suff aware in relationships.
• 31:27
  Speaker 5: We can be self aware, we can kind of manage
• 31:30
  Speaker 5: our emotions, but sometimes we have a hard time reading
• 31:33
  Speaker 5: and managing other people's emotions and how we react to it.
• 31:38
  Speaker 4: So with MATD, you only focus on the youth, or
• 31:40
  Speaker 4: do you deal with like adult men who have already
• 31:43
  Speaker 4: been like domestically violent to people and they're trying to
• 31:46
  Speaker 4: change or do you not work with them?
• 31:50
  Speaker 5: Tan, That's a good question. So I would say that
• 31:53
  Speaker 5: I work with everybody because I've taught in college, I've
• 31:57
  Speaker 5: taught with the military, I've trained my fighter apartment on it.
• 32:02
  Speaker 5: There's not a space that I haven't done domestic violence training.
• 32:07
  Speaker 5: But when you talk about the abusers traumatically to me,
• 32:14
  Speaker 5: I used to be very closed after that because obviously
• 32:17
  Speaker 5: I was biased. I had abuser take everything that I
• 32:20
  Speaker 5: love away from me, right, but I had probation partner
• 32:25
  Speaker 5: parole reach out to me.
• 32:26
  Speaker 4: About Yeah, I was going to ask what happened to
• 32:29
  Speaker 4: that motherfucker? Because where he at he's in.
• 32:34
  Speaker 5: He's in Colombia at a mental institute. One of the
• 32:38
  Speaker 5: high schools that I teach actually is right by it.
• 32:41
  Speaker 5: I actually passed by it for the first time in
• 32:45
  Speaker 5: December last year. I never knew where it was, never
• 32:48
  Speaker 5: went up there. I forgave him within myself, never tried
• 32:54
  Speaker 5: to do a face to face. But he's in a
• 32:56
  Speaker 5: psychiatric ward in Colombia.
• 33:00
  Speaker 4: He was mentally ill already from the jump. Did you
• 33:03
  Speaker 4: feel like you knew this about him prior to your family?
• 33:08
  Speaker 5: No, I think that he knew what he was doing.
• 33:10
  Speaker 5: If I'm being honest with you, I think that he
• 33:14
  Speaker 5: was severely beaten when he got to prison. I mean,
• 33:20
  Speaker 5: obviously you go to Leeds Avenue. People know people, and
• 33:25
  Speaker 5: people knew what he did. They knew my family. You know,
• 33:29
  Speaker 5: I grew grew up in the gardens, and you know,
• 33:31
  Speaker 5: unfortunately a lot of people that I know might be
• 33:34
  Speaker 5: on Leeds Avenue, you know, right, So you know, I think.
• 33:41
  Speaker 3: Said, that's what I'm gonna say. What's Leeds Leeds Avenue
• 33:44
  Speaker 3: and Charleston South. Leeds Avenue is where the city jail
• 33:48
  Speaker 3: is at.
• 33:49
  Speaker 2: Yeah, so that's where he went first.
• 33:51
  Speaker 5: That's where he went first.
• 33:53
  Speaker 3: You were about to say how the parole or whatever
• 33:57
  Speaker 3: you were, you were telling us how the parole board
• 34:00
  Speaker 3: or whomever reached out to you.
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: What was that story?
• 34:05
  Speaker 5: And so they reached out to me about basically, let
• 34:11
  Speaker 5: me fix my face.
• 34:11
  Speaker 2: I got mad, got mad? I did go ahead.
• 34:17
  Speaker 5: So, I mean, it reached out to me about training
• 34:21
  Speaker 5: for abusers, people on probation for domestic violence, and you know,
• 34:27
  Speaker 5: initially I was like, I don't know if I'm ready
• 34:30
  Speaker 5: for it, because I don't know if they will ever
• 34:34
  Speaker 5: change or if it's just a waste of my time,
• 34:36
  Speaker 5: and I didn't want to, I just right, and so
• 34:41
  Speaker 5: but I agreed to it because I was like, look,
• 34:43
  Speaker 5: it's it's an opportunity. Let me at least feel it out.
• 34:46
  Speaker 5: I believe in uh well, rehabilitation to a degree, but
• 34:52
  Speaker 5: I believe in the higher power, and I feel like
• 34:54
  Speaker 5: things are often put into my path for a reason,
• 34:56
  Speaker 5: and some of it is growth. Right, And so I
• 34:59
  Speaker 5: went and I taught them, and what I realized by
• 35:04
  Speaker 5: teaching them were they were victims themselves, may not have
• 35:08
  Speaker 5: been victims of direct abuse, but goes back to back
• 35:12
  Speaker 5: to what we talked about before, like how did they
• 35:15
  Speaker 5: learn how to love? They watched their dad beat their mom.
• 35:19
  Speaker 5: That's all they know. So that's all you know. Guess
• 35:23
  Speaker 5: what you're going to do when you get an adult relationship.
• 35:25
  Speaker 5: You're going to revert back to your foundation and what
• 35:29
  Speaker 5: you and your parents are your first introduction to what
• 35:37
  Speaker 5: love is healthy or healthy.
• 35:41
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 35:42
  Speaker 3: I feel like violence is like that final measure for
• 35:46
  Speaker 3: some men to prove that they are men. Right, they
• 35:49
  Speaker 3: may not be able to show up in life like
• 35:52
  Speaker 3: they want to, like, they may not be shit at work,
• 35:56
  Speaker 3: whoever else amongst their friend group They're not that nigga.
• 36:00
  Speaker 3: But in that house with these women and children is where.
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: They are the boss. So what are what are? What's
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: your perspective on masculinity because I think some people confuse
• 36:13
  Speaker 1: masculinity with violence sometimes like you being stronger than whoever
• 36:18
  Speaker 1: else is around you? Can you share your perspective on
• 36:21
  Speaker 1: masculinity and how it intersects with topics like relationships, family
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: and personal well being?
• 36:29
  Speaker 5: So aj I know, as a disclaimer, I probably should
• 36:31
  Speaker 5: have told you I get add So what's gonna happen?
• 36:33
  Speaker 5: You're gonna have to break that question that a little
• 36:37
  Speaker 5: bit more part.
• 36:39
  Speaker 3: Let's talk about masculinity and what it is to be
• 36:41
  Speaker 3: a man, right, because I think that a lot of
• 36:44
  Speaker 3: people try to redefine what it is to be a woman.
• 36:46
  Speaker 3: We've had a whole episode on what is a woman right,
• 36:50
  Speaker 3: and it's not for women to define what a man is.
• 36:53
  Speaker 3: So from a male perspective, what is a man? What
• 36:55
  Speaker 3: is masculinity and how it means to relationships?
• 37:01
  Speaker 5: I think one I think that we're all trapped in
• 37:05
  Speaker 5: a box, a man box. If I can be real,
• 37:11
  Speaker 5: I think as men, we are trapped in a box
• 37:13
  Speaker 5: and we have this idea that we've been fed since
• 37:19
  Speaker 5: the beginning of time that this is what makes a man,
• 37:22
  Speaker 5: and those things are typically unhealthy things that have to
• 37:27
  Speaker 5: do with being violent, being aggressive, competing against each other
• 37:34
  Speaker 5: in unhealthy ways. And I think when it comes to women,
• 37:37
  Speaker 5: I think we just saw we have a hard time
• 37:39
  Speaker 5: cherishing women because we don't get a lot of we
• 37:42
  Speaker 5: don't see a lot of examples of it. It kind
• 37:47
  Speaker 5: of baffles me the fact that all of us, what
• 37:50
  Speaker 5: we do have in common is we come from a woman,
• 37:52
  Speaker 5: and we don't cherish a woman as if she is
• 37:56
  Speaker 5: the power of population, the power of birth on earth.
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: Say it right, your.
• 38:05
  Speaker 5: She is God on earth right And and you know,
• 38:11
  Speaker 5: I'm not going to quote it right, but you know
• 38:13
  Speaker 5: Tupac said in one of his songs, We're going to
• 38:18
  Speaker 5: raise a race of babies that's gonna hate the ladies, right,
• 38:23
  Speaker 5: And it's still true today. And I think we're toxic
• 38:28
  Speaker 5: because we don't have we we view what you deem
• 38:34
  Speaker 5: to be like we have conversations about women and how
• 38:37
  Speaker 5: women should be. We don't have conversations about men and
• 38:40
  Speaker 5: how men should be. But also we don't have a
• 38:43
  Speaker 5: conversation about it being okay for men to actually be emotional.
• 38:49
  Speaker 5: Right me, personally I am. I am vulnerable. My mom
• 38:57
  Speaker 5: raised me, so you know I have what people would
• 38:59
  Speaker 5: deem as feminine qualities. I'm just saying, like, I cook,
• 39:05
  Speaker 5: I clean, I do my daughter's here. There's nothing that
• 39:11
  Speaker 5: I hate to say it, but there's really nothing that
• 39:14
  Speaker 5: I would need a woman for. And my mom told
• 39:19
  Speaker 5: me pussy pussy that all right, So I'll say, you
• 39:24
  Speaker 5: still need I understand what I'm saying, right, This is
• 39:32
  Speaker 5: what my mom told me. She said, I want you
• 39:35
  Speaker 5: to be with a woman because it's who you want
• 39:38
  Speaker 5: to be with, not because you need her for something,
• 39:42
  Speaker 5: need her to cook, need her to clean, need her
• 39:44
  Speaker 5: to do this because a lot of men are just like,
• 39:47
  Speaker 5: oh man, she know to cook, I'm gonna make the
• 39:49
  Speaker 5: rest work out, right, And I'm like, I want to
• 39:53
  Speaker 5: be self sufficient because then I have more to bring
• 39:56
  Speaker 5: to the table because that takes a lot of work
• 39:59
  Speaker 5: off the woman. Because if I can cook and clean myself,
• 40:03
  Speaker 5: I'm not depending on you to just take on that
• 40:06
  Speaker 5: responsibility by yourself. To me, that's what partnership looks like.
• 40:11
  Speaker 5: And that's why I tell women when they're like, oh man,
• 40:13
  Speaker 5: I want a man that you know work and I
• 40:16
  Speaker 5: can just stay home. I'm like, Okay, Well, that's a
• 40:18
  Speaker 5: dangerous place to be because one of the forms of
• 40:21
  Speaker 5: abuse that we often do not talk about is financial use.
• 40:26
  Speaker 5: And if you put yourself in that situation and you're
• 40:29
  Speaker 5: in one of these forty six counties in South Carolina
• 40:33
  Speaker 5: with only sixteen shelters in it, and you ain't got
• 40:36
  Speaker 5: no money where you're going at.
• 40:39
  Speaker 2: Right? Only fans that's where you're going?
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: What about my mama house? Like god damn.
• 40:49
  Speaker 4: Some people don't have that option, right, People don't have anybody.
• 40:53
  Speaker 5: That's the thing about it. And I warrant teenagers about it. Like,
• 40:56
  Speaker 5: you know, you go to college, you got a man
• 40:58
  Speaker 5: that's from another place, and he got a job offer somewhere.
• 41:02
  Speaker 5: You end up moving back with him. You stuck, you isolated,
• 41:08
  Speaker 5: your family not there, your friends not there. You may
• 41:12
  Speaker 5: have mutual friends with him, but I can guarantee you
• 41:14
  Speaker 5: if you hiding, they're gonna probably tell them where you at.
• 41:18
  Speaker 5: But back to what AJ was saying as far as
• 41:20
  Speaker 5: like toxic masculinity, I think we just suffer from a
• 41:28
  Speaker 5: lot of trauma. And I think it goes back to
• 41:31
  Speaker 5: just like I told you, earlier, Like, it's so many
• 41:37
  Speaker 5: different directions you can go. I mean, you can go
• 41:39
  Speaker 5: back to like slavery, you can go back to like
• 41:44
  Speaker 5: even when we were free, and how the system was
• 41:47
  Speaker 5: dividing the households between men and women, and women were
• 41:50
  Speaker 5: kind of the were not kind of they were the
• 41:52
  Speaker 5: bread winners because men couldn't find jobs because the only
• 41:55
  Speaker 5: jobs that they had at the time were being slaves.
• 41:58
  Speaker 5: Women had trades and things that they can do, so
• 42:01
  Speaker 5: they typically held down the household. But if the man
• 42:04
  Speaker 5: separated from the house and you put in you insert
• 42:11
  Speaker 5: government assistance. But with government assistance, you can't have a
• 42:14
  Speaker 5: man in the house. You break up the dynamic of
• 42:19
  Speaker 5: you could say, the black home or homes in general.
• 42:23
  Speaker 3: I know that that thing, right, we always talk about it,
• 42:26
  Speaker 3: but I don't I think it's an assumption, right that
• 42:30
  Speaker 3: that was most black people's household, right. Have y'all seen
• 42:34
  Speaker 3: as a video on social media right now, And it
• 42:36
  Speaker 3: was like black people in California, like the early sixties,
• 42:40
  Speaker 3: and they were saying how they didn't want black people
• 42:43
  Speaker 3: migrating from the South coming to them because they were
• 42:46
  Speaker 3: affluent black people like in Cali and shit, and I
• 42:48
  Speaker 3: feel like the North was affluent, you had a lot
• 42:51
  Speaker 3: of affluent black people. Slavery was predominantly in the South
• 42:55
  Speaker 3: is where you saw this type of this type of thing.
• 42:57
  Speaker 3: So I just I don't I don't think that it
• 43:00
  Speaker 3: was a norm. You know, like every black woman is
• 43:05
  Speaker 3: not on housing even then or now, right, So I
• 43:09
  Speaker 3: think it's a misconception. A lot of the times black
• 43:13
  Speaker 3: men were already leaving the household is what I'm trying
• 43:15
  Speaker 3: to get to, right, Why the systems were put in place.
• 43:20
  Speaker 3: I don't think the systems were put in place because
• 43:23
  Speaker 3: black men were already there. I think something was happening
• 43:26
  Speaker 3: in the jobs and things like that. Yes, something was happening,
• 43:30
  Speaker 3: But I don't think that black men. I mean, I
• 43:32
  Speaker 3: don't think that the welfare system was put in place
• 43:35
  Speaker 3: because black men just weren't there, or they didn't want
• 43:39
  Speaker 3: them to be there. They put something in place to
• 43:41
  Speaker 3: make them go away. I think they were already going away.
• 43:47
  Speaker 4: Even if they were already going away, why is it
• 43:51
  Speaker 4: I can't have him in my home if I'm receiving
• 43:54
  Speaker 4: government assistance, why do they Why can't I have a
• 43:58
  Speaker 4: new Why can't I have a new new man in here?
• 44:00
  Speaker 4: Maybe he ain't the father of my kid. But why
• 44:02
  Speaker 4: I can't have a I can't even bring a new
• 44:04
  Speaker 4: man home. You know, if you're on section eight, that
• 44:08
  Speaker 4: seemed like it was very divisive.
• 44:11
  Speaker 5: It was, but also a j I would I would
• 44:14
  Speaker 5: say that, and I mean, this is just a theory.
• 44:19
  Speaker 5: But you know, when we when we think about like
• 44:22
  Speaker 5: systems like, we have to understand and acknowledge the fact
• 44:25
  Speaker 5: that systems are they have they passed down trauma. We
• 44:35
  Speaker 5: are are the way that we operate as men, like
• 44:39
  Speaker 5: it is rooted in something, right. I think the minute
• 44:43
  Speaker 5: that we were taken from Africa and brought here and
• 44:50
  Speaker 5: incorporated into another system and freed without reparation, we were
• 44:57
  Speaker 5: already destined to not succeed. We were set free without anything.
• 45:02
  Speaker 5: And so you take that with men that are broken.
• 45:07
  Speaker 5: Whether people believe in post slavery traumatic stress or not,
• 45:12
  Speaker 5: that still impacts the way that men operate now like
• 45:17
  Speaker 5: we still like we have archaic ways in which we operate,
• 45:22
  Speaker 5: and it's based off of you can call a tradition,
• 45:26
  Speaker 5: you can call it hereditary, you can call it whatever
• 45:28
  Speaker 5: it is, but it's to me, it's no different. How
• 45:32
  Speaker 5: like slavery still echoes in every aspect that we move
• 45:37
  Speaker 5: in in the South, particularly our state. Like we can
• 45:42
  Speaker 5: say like it doesn't exist, but that type of behavior
• 45:47
  Speaker 5: was passed down from somewhere, But it came from somewhere,
• 45:50
  Speaker 5: And I think, like as we as we continue to
• 45:52
  Speaker 5: look at it, I just believe like that may not
• 45:56
  Speaker 5: have been like the sole reason, because I don't think
• 45:58
  Speaker 5: that it is, but I think in general, it had
• 46:04
  Speaker 5: a place and had something to do with it. And
• 46:06
  Speaker 5: it's not a pass for men because at some point
• 46:09
  Speaker 5: in time we have to make a choice to break
• 46:11
  Speaker 5: a cycle in to change. Like I mean, I watched
• 46:16
  Speaker 5: my mom get her ass what plenty times, and I
• 46:20
  Speaker 5: watched her with other people ask but you know I knew,
• 46:24
  Speaker 5: I mean straight up, like I mean my mom, I
• 46:26
  Speaker 5: tell people my mom was a g I mean, you know,
• 46:29
  Speaker 5: I watched her slap somebody across the face with iron.
• 46:32
  Speaker 5: I mean my third brother, I mean second brother, I
• 46:36
  Speaker 5: guess his dad got shot by my mom. My mom
• 46:40
  Speaker 5: really didn't play them type of games. But I realized,
• 46:46
  Speaker 5: like with me, I did not want to repeat that cycle.
• 46:49
  Speaker 5: So you know, unfortunately I still ended up in two
• 46:54
  Speaker 5: abusive relationships myself. But you know, I had to make
• 46:58
  Speaker 5: decisions like this. Ain't this for me? Like this, ain't
• 47:01
  Speaker 5: I've seen unfortunately, I've seen what this can result into.
• 47:05
  Speaker 4: So you had women that were violent with you, or
• 47:08
  Speaker 4: you ended up being violid with them or both.
• 47:12
  Speaker 5: Damn you shouldn't even have to ask me that question.
• 47:14
  Speaker 5: That wouldn't even be on this podcast if it be
• 47:16
  Speaker 5: a woman.
• 47:16
  Speaker 2: But the answer you might be reformed.
• 47:19
  Speaker 5: No, no, no, no, definitely. I cannot stomach talks as
• 47:25
  Speaker 5: you say about men putting the hands on women. I
• 47:29
  Speaker 5: could never put my hand on a woman that's not
• 47:31
  Speaker 5: in my DNA.
• 47:37
  Speaker 4: Let me ask you this because you said seven years
• 47:40
  Speaker 4: after you had lost your family members, that is when
• 47:43
  Speaker 4: y'all had you started kind of started mad and you
• 47:46
  Speaker 4: had the event in the Walmart parking lot. What was
• 47:49
  Speaker 4: that seven years like for you? Because I want to know,
• 47:51
  Speaker 4: like what healing looks like for you, because a lot
• 47:54
  Speaker 4: of people go through something like that and they ain't
• 47:56
  Speaker 4: never write again, and they never could create a platform
• 47:59
  Speaker 4: like you have. So I commend you for that, But
• 48:01
  Speaker 4: what what was that like? You know, how did you
• 48:04
  Speaker 4: come out of that?
• 48:06
  Speaker 5: Reflecting on it? I mean it was a lot. You know,
• 48:10
  Speaker 5: I've gone through moments of like feeling lost in life,
• 48:15
  Speaker 5: but probably never as lost as I felt in those moments.
• 48:21
  Speaker 5: So those amount of years without any type of direction,
• 48:26
  Speaker 5: I mean you talk about like just existing, that's kind
• 48:31
  Speaker 5: of what the hell I was doing for seven years,
• 48:33
  Speaker 5: like just existing. I felt broken, I felt alone. I
• 48:42
  Speaker 5: didn't want to be here anymore. But you know, ironically,
• 48:49
  Speaker 5: for me, like I got baptized about a month or
• 48:54
  Speaker 5: so before that happened, and I would say religiously, it
• 48:59
  Speaker 5: was a kick in the face to me. I didn't
• 49:03
  Speaker 5: want to hear what the preacher had to say about anything,
• 49:07
  Speaker 5: barely wanted to hear what any type of counselor wanted
• 49:10
  Speaker 5: to say. There was nobody that was going to explain
• 49:13
  Speaker 5: to me that this shit was okay. And so I
• 49:21
  Speaker 5: smoked a lot because at the time I felt like
• 49:25
  Speaker 5: that was the only safe space that I had. And
• 49:31
  Speaker 5: I typically don't even say that publicly, but I think,
• 49:34
  Speaker 5: you know, just kind of being real with people. I
• 49:38
  Speaker 5: realized that even with doing that, like I wasn't like
• 49:42
  Speaker 5: when my high came down, my issues were still there.
• 49:47
  Speaker 5: I had to go to counseling. I went to like
• 49:50
  Speaker 5: three different counselors, and it was all about just feeling comfortable,
• 49:54
  Speaker 5: and I finally had like the dean of psychology at
• 49:57
  Speaker 5: Southern University. She counseled me for like year and a
• 50:00
  Speaker 5: half and we got to a point where she said, like,
• 50:03
  Speaker 5: I don't know what else to do. She said, you
• 50:10
  Speaker 5: I lost my mom, but I've never lost anything of
• 50:13
  Speaker 5: this magnitude, and I don't know. And so I've been
• 50:19
  Speaker 5: to probably like two other counselors since then. Who have
• 50:22
  Speaker 5: you know, give me a lot of tools to help.
• 50:25
  Speaker 5: But I mean, it was it was really a dark
• 50:27
  Speaker 5: place to put myself out of. But I needed isolation.
• 50:32
  Speaker 5: You know, sometimes you have to be in the cave
• 50:34
  Speaker 5: and just be with yourself and your thoughts in God
• 50:36
  Speaker 5: in order to like figure a way out. Because sometimes
• 50:40
  Speaker 5: the world is just so busy, so loud, that you
• 50:46
  Speaker 5: don't give you some time self to think and reflect
• 50:51
  Speaker 5: on life, and it's easy to get into the pattern
• 50:53
  Speaker 5: of being busy. I've mastered that I could busy myself
• 50:58
  Speaker 5: out of life. And I just realized being by myself
• 51:05
  Speaker 5: with no girlfriend, no friends, like being in Orlando and
• 51:10
  Speaker 5: not really having a social life and just really being
• 51:12
  Speaker 5: by myself, like life one is worth living if I
• 51:18
  Speaker 5: die or if I take my life like he wins right.
• 51:24
  Speaker 5: Not only did he kill five, he would have killed
• 51:26
  Speaker 5: six at that point in time. And so you know,
• 51:30
  Speaker 5: for me, did I want my family to be remembered
• 51:33
  Speaker 5: and then me overtake their legacy by me killing myself
• 51:40
  Speaker 5: wouldn't have made any sense. And I knew that my
• 51:41
  Speaker 5: mom was stronger than that and she would expect more
• 51:44
  Speaker 5: from me. So you know, when I got back home
• 51:48
  Speaker 5: finally went back to church, first sermon that I heard
• 51:51
  Speaker 5: was about asking God the right questions, not asking why,
• 51:57
  Speaker 5: which is I think the normal question that most people
• 52:00
  Speaker 5: want to know, but praying for guidance, like where do
• 52:04
  Speaker 5: we go from here? Where are you leading me from here?
• 52:08
  Speaker 5: And so like in my life now, I don't really
• 52:14
  Speaker 5: I mean, I still have anxiety, I still stress, but
• 52:19
  Speaker 5: I embraced chials interpolations more in life now because I
• 52:22
  Speaker 5: know the growth and the blessings that come on the
• 52:26
  Speaker 5: other side. And so I mean, it took him in
• 52:29
  Speaker 5: and and I would be lying to anybody to say,
• 52:31
  Speaker 5: like it doesn't affect me. I mean, my mom's birthday
• 52:35
  Speaker 5: affect me. My great grandmother just died three weeks ago.
• 52:39
  Speaker 5: We buried her Saturday, and she's buried right. Sorry, it's okay,
• 52:44
  Speaker 5: and she's buried right next to my mom. I appreciate it,
• 52:47
  Speaker 5: you know, and that's where she wanted to be. But
• 52:50
  Speaker 5: going out there is a reminder that you know, your
• 52:56
  Speaker 5: immediate family is gone. And I tell people like, if
• 52:59
  Speaker 5: you got biblands and you've got parents, you got mom
• 53:02
  Speaker 5: like cherits and love them because time is the most
• 53:09
  Speaker 5: valuable thing that we possess in life.
• 53:12
  Speaker 4: Right, So let me ask you this, where do you
• 53:15
  Speaker 4: want to take mad Like, where do you want it
• 53:18
  Speaker 4: to go? How do you want to grow it?
• 53:20
  Speaker 5: So I want Mad two. I probably need to change
• 53:26
  Speaker 5: it from mad US say the Mad World.
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: Kendrick Omar probably got that trademark.
• 53:35
  Speaker 5: I'm gonna have to.
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: It's definitely a mad world out here, right.
• 53:43
  Speaker 5: But where I see it growing next? Because I've done
• 53:49
  Speaker 5: sessions in India the country, and I've done sessions in
• 53:54
  Speaker 5: the United Kingdom, and I love to see it globally.
• 54:01
  Speaker 5: But for right now, my acute goals is to open
• 54:06
  Speaker 5: a chapter in every state, have a state each state
• 54:11
  Speaker 5: run their own organization under the umbrella a mad usay,
• 54:17
  Speaker 5: and kind of just get to work on breaking these
• 54:18
  Speaker 5: cycles and creating an environment where healthy relationships are the norm.
• 54:24
  Speaker 5: Because if we know that the issues are at home
• 54:28
  Speaker 5: and the kids are not receiving the same foundation, it's
• 54:32
  Speaker 5: our obligation and our job to teach them what healthy
• 54:36
  Speaker 5: relationship look like. Like. We know traumatically, I mean not
• 54:41
  Speaker 5: even just through trauma of but we just know that
• 54:45
  Speaker 5: our traumas are passed down. I mean I see it
• 54:47
  Speaker 5: in kids that I teach all the time, how they
• 54:48
  Speaker 5: handle their anger, just all of that right, and to me,
• 54:53
  Speaker 5: it's a huge responsibility to take on. But I mean,
• 54:56
  Speaker 5: somebody has to teach skids. Somebody has to So for me,
• 55:00
  Speaker 5: it's mad, you know, being in every state in the
• 55:05
  Speaker 5: United States and then just kind of moving on from there.
• 55:09
  Speaker 5: But this advocacy has to continue to grow. I mean,
• 55:12
  Speaker 5: people have seen the work that we've done. I mean
• 55:14
  Speaker 5: I've won national awards for the work that I've just
• 55:17
  Speaker 5: done in South Carolina. But I mean it isn't that
• 55:20
  Speaker 5: doesn't stop for me. I mean, I love my professions
• 55:24
  Speaker 5: as an assistant chief in the fire department, just and
• 55:28
  Speaker 5: inspired to be a head chief. But I think where
• 55:30
  Speaker 5: God is calling me in life is too pour into
• 55:37
  Speaker 5: his children.
• 55:39
  Speaker 2: Let me ask you this.
• 55:40
  Speaker 4: You said that you forgave the person who harmed your
• 55:44
  Speaker 4: family in that way? How because I can't forgive people
• 55:48
  Speaker 4: for taking my parking space outside. Still, it's a nigga
• 55:54
  Speaker 4: that live in this building right now, We got beef
• 55:56
  Speaker 4: just because of some shit that happened in the parking lot.
• 55:58
  Speaker 4: So I just want to unders then, how you came
• 56:02
  Speaker 4: to that, because I just have such a hard time
• 56:05
  Speaker 4: with forgiveness.
• 56:06
  Speaker 2: So it's something so tumultuous, like how were you able
• 56:09
  Speaker 2: to do that?
• 56:10
  Speaker 5: So i' might answer your question, but I'm gonna also
• 56:13
  Speaker 5: ask you a question. How heavy of a burden do
• 56:16
  Speaker 5: you feel about not being able to forgive?
• 56:20
  Speaker 2: How heavy? I'll be sleeping?
• 56:26
  Speaker 5: But are are there some deeper things in life that
• 56:32
  Speaker 5: you have not forgiven that you feel like? Deaf? Is you?
• 56:37
  Speaker 4: I know, absolutely absolutely, But I just can't see myself forgiven.
• 56:43
  Speaker 4: Some shit is just unforgivable for me, Like it's just like,
• 56:47
  Speaker 4: why why would I absolve you of that pain you
• 56:51
  Speaker 4: cost me? I don't ever, I don't want to forgive you,
• 56:54
  Speaker 4: you know, So I just I don't see how I
• 56:57
  Speaker 4: could ever forgive some of the atrocities that had happened
• 57:00
  Speaker 4: to me, And what has happened to you is much greater.
• 57:03
  Speaker 4: So it's just I want to know, like what it
• 57:06
  Speaker 4: took to be there, so maybe I could channel some
• 57:08
  Speaker 4: of that energy for my own life.
• 57:10
  Speaker 5: And I'm gonna ask you one more question before I
• 57:12
  Speaker 5: answer your question. Are you absolving them? Are you absolving yourself?
• 57:18
  Speaker 2: Well? I ain't did shit. Why I need to absolve myself?
• 57:21
  Speaker 4: You know? Why Am I absolving myself for the things
• 57:23
  Speaker 4: that you did to me? I don't understand.
• 57:25
  Speaker 3: So, you know, we talk about the five agreements sometimes, right,
• 57:28
  Speaker 3: and one of them is not taking things personally. Sometimes
• 57:31
  Speaker 3: it's not about you, right. The thing that somebody did
• 57:34
  Speaker 3: is not about you, Right, So you have to realize, like, yeah,
• 57:38
  Speaker 3: this person that is fucked up ship, it don't really
• 57:40
  Speaker 3: have nothing to do with me. It's something to me
• 57:41
  Speaker 3: if they did it to me, yes, but it's but
• 57:44
  Speaker 3: it's it's something going on with them within them, you
• 57:48
  Speaker 3: know what I'm saying.
• 57:50
  Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, it's mm hmm.
• 57:54
  Speaker 5: Let me say this. Let me let me say this
• 57:56
  Speaker 5: in a different way. Right, forgiveness is not for them,
• 58:00
  Speaker 5: is actually for you.
• 58:03
  Speaker 4: Because I've heard that before, But I just don't understand
• 58:07
  Speaker 4: how it is for me when they did me harm?
• 58:11
  Speaker 2: How is me forgiving you? For me?
• 58:13
  Speaker 5: Because the fact that you're still like I can see
• 58:16
  Speaker 5: it on your face right, So you still harnessing and
• 58:20
  Speaker 5: you're still holding on to it. That's negative energy that
• 58:23
  Speaker 5: you stored in your body every damn day. It does
• 58:26
  Speaker 5: not promote growth within you. So my thing is is
• 58:30
  Speaker 5: let that shit go. And for me, in order to
• 58:34
  Speaker 5: reach where I wanted to go, I had to let
• 58:36
  Speaker 5: that shit go because I had a burden of hate
• 58:40
  Speaker 5: in my heart that wasn't allowing me to move forward
• 58:44
  Speaker 5: because I was hanging on to it. Is in the past.
• 58:46
  Speaker 5: It happened. I can't change shit, me killing him, me
• 58:50
  Speaker 5: not forgiving him and bringing diet Your back and bringing
• 58:53
  Speaker 5: William back and bringing a Keen back and bringing Melchi
• 58:56
  Speaker 5: back and bringing Semina back. None of them coming back.
• 59:00
  Speaker 5: So for me, I got to move the hell on
• 59:04
  Speaker 5: because he's sitting in Columbia right now, no matter how
• 59:08
  Speaker 5: I feel towards him, and it ain't changing his life.
• 59:11
  Speaker 5: It's only affected me. So my forgiveness of letting it
• 59:15
  Speaker 5: go is me freeing myself. He has to live with that.
• 59:19
  Speaker 5: And so when I talk about like, and I think
• 59:21
  Speaker 5: where AJ was getting that with that was when you
• 59:25
  Speaker 5: forgive somebody even though they do something to you, that's
• 59:28
  Speaker 5: something that they have to live with and you just
• 59:33
  Speaker 5: kind of move on and free yourself. And it takes work.
• 59:37
  Speaker 4: I can see, yes, breath it hard because it's so
• 59:40
  Speaker 4: y'all like be mad.
• 59:42
  Speaker 2: I yeah, you're right.
• 59:45
  Speaker 4: I do carry some hatred for some things that has
• 59:48
  Speaker 4: happened to me in my life against people.
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  Speaker 2: I'm sorry, but I don't. I don't know how to
• 59:54
  Speaker 2: do that. Baby. That's it's gonna take a long I
• 59:57
  Speaker 2: don't know.
• 59:57
  Speaker 4: It's gonna take some work on my behalf to decide
• 59:59
  Speaker 4: that forgiveness is what I need for myself. Because I
• 1:00:03
  Speaker 4: feel like I'm sleeping pretty good and I still we
• 1:00:06
  Speaker 4: still got beef. We got beef for life, and it's
• 1:00:09
  Speaker 4: on site. If I see you, it's on site. That's
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 4: how I feel like.
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: I'm know it's terrible, but it's the truth.
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  Speaker 2: It's some people I got beef with. It ain't even here,
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 2: no more. They gone. But if I can't, if I
• 1:00:22
  Speaker 2: get in the gates, I'd be like, what that bitch yet?
• 1:00:25
  Speaker 3: And God gonna say, straight the hell if there's one okay,
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 3: you're not pass God bitch.
• 1:00:35
  Speaker 4: You know God ain't through with me oh yet. So
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 4: that's a beautiful because you know, I would always feel
• 1:00:40
  Speaker 4: like forgiveness in that realm was something that slave owners
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 4: taught black people to keep them in check. That's not
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 4: what I would feel, like, like, why are we forgiving
• 1:00:51
  Speaker 4: people who've harmed us so greatly?
• 1:00:53
  Speaker 2: Why? Why do why should I forgive them? I should?
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 2: I feel like I should never forgive you for that.
• 1:00:59
  Speaker 2: I don't. I don't. That's just something I don't understand
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 2: that level of So I.
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 5: Would say this forgiveness, I think was like being submissive
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 5: at a point, like I felt like people were forgiving
• 1:01:13
  Speaker 5: people a hella fast right, Like.
• 1:01:17
  Speaker 4: When that white girl shot that black man in an
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 4: apartment complex and they was in the courthouse giving her
• 1:01:23
  Speaker 4: bibles and hugging her.
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 1: I was so mad.
• 1:01:27
  Speaker 4: I was so upset, like why are we giving this
• 1:01:30
  Speaker 4: girl this kind of love and compassion after she just
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 4: murdered this black man in his own home. And that
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 4: was another example for me of like forgiveness just being
• 1:01:41
  Speaker 4: something that we just give too freely.
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 5: And I agree, and I will tell you, if I'm
• 1:01:47
  Speaker 5: being honest, forgiveness didn't happen overnight. Forginness didn't happen for
• 1:01:51
  Speaker 5: me until probably like five five years ago. Like I mean,
• 1:01:56
  Speaker 5: they had been over a decade of me harnessing that
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 5: kind of thing. But I will tell you after I forgave,
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 5: and like I said, I just believe in you know,
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 5: divine design, that a lot of other doors started opening
• 1:02:12
  Speaker 5: for me. My nonprofit grow tremendously after I let that
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 5: go because I was a better version of myself because
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 5: I was at harnessing hate or rage against somebody, because
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 5: I had to take control of myself. And that's the
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 5: thing about like forgiveness and like being emotionally driven by
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 5: harnessing that kind of feeling towards somebody is you can
• 1:02:36
  Speaker 5: easily be triggered, which means you don't have control over yourself.
• 1:02:41
  Speaker 5: Somebody else is still possessing of control over you. So
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 5: step one and emotional intelligence, be self aware. Step two
• 1:02:53
  Speaker 5: emotional management. Right, so understand that if somebody is triggering you,
• 1:03:00
  Speaker 5: they have control. I tell kids this all the time.
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 4: Maybe I need to sign up for MAD tonight because
• 1:03:10
  Speaker 4: I need to sign up tonight.
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  Speaker 3: I don't forgive easily either, Like I definitely hold grudges
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 3: and I'm make it known that I hold grudges against people,
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 3: but it's not I'm not going to allow it to
• 1:03:23
  Speaker 3: affect my day to day, you know what I'm saying.
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 1: I just need you to know that, I know that.
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: You know I don't fuck with.
• 1:03:29
  Speaker 3: You other than that, Like I'm not litting it and
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 3: I used to. There's a lot of things, you know,
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 3: especially like things that transpire and relationships with men.
• 1:03:38
  Speaker 1: You can let that shit fuck your whole thing up.
• 1:03:42
  Speaker 1: You know, you can't even think for real?
• 1:03:45
  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, what's some advice you would give to some
• 1:03:49
  Speaker 3: men struggling with expressing their emotions and or seeking support?
• 1:03:57
  Speaker 3: And it can't be like we talked about this earlier,
• 1:03:59
  Speaker 3: y'all we got men that listen, right, your woman is
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 3: not your therapist. Okay, sometimes you gotta seek it. I
• 1:04:06
  Speaker 3: know I asked him for advice, but just right quick,
• 1:04:11
  Speaker 3: you can't just unpack on your woman to expect her
• 1:04:13
  Speaker 3: to have the tools to deal with whatever traumas you
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 3: may have had your entire life, right, So sometimes you
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 3: gotta seek professional help.
• 1:04:23
  Speaker 5: So I would say one thing, right, two things. I'm
• 1:04:28
  Speaker 5: gonna answer your question. But yeah, but I'll get this
• 1:04:33
  Speaker 5: out of the way. I think that just from a
• 1:04:38
  Speaker 5: man's standpoint, one that is vulnerable and tries very hard
• 1:04:43
  Speaker 5: to be emotionally available. That finding a mate that is
• 1:04:51
  Speaker 5: okay with me expressing myself and being very raw with
• 1:04:56
  Speaker 5: my feelings is very very hard to fine because you
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 5: have to find somebody who is on the same emotional
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 5: intelligence level as you. And I speak a lot on
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 5: men not having deliberty to say things that women can
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 5: say to men mm hmm, because if I walk around
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 5: ignoring women like how they feel like it's okay for
• 1:05:23
  Speaker 5: them to ignore men, Like if we're talking and you
• 1:05:26
  Speaker 5: just decide you ain't going to respond. I can't do
• 1:05:28
  Speaker 5: that because if I do it, it's a totally different
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 5: reaction that I deal with. Or if I emotionally respond
• 1:05:34
  Speaker 5: very quick and I know myself, I am very sharp
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 5: with my words.
• 1:05:38
  Speaker 1: Now you're sassy, I am saying. You know, I'm saying.
• 1:05:41
  Speaker 1: That's what women would say if you with the responses.
• 1:05:44
  Speaker 5: Oh, he's sassy, right, And I can be pretty savage
• 1:05:48
  Speaker 5: with my words. But I know that about myself, right.
• 1:05:52
  Speaker 5: So now, like, what I find is people are very
• 1:05:56
  Speaker 5: impatient with me because I am very slow to respond.
• 1:06:01
  Speaker 5: One I have to process what you're saying I want
• 1:06:04
  Speaker 5: to listen to fully process what you're saying, but I
• 1:06:10
  Speaker 5: also want to think before I talk, right, I want
• 1:06:13
  Speaker 5: to make sure what I'm saying is true, is it helpful,
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 5: is it inspiring? Is it necessary? Is a kind?
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 4: Usually when I get to the end, God damn Christ,
• 1:06:27
  Speaker 4: who got time for all of that shits?
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 1: But we want men to be emotionally available though you
• 1:06:36
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, you gotta make time for it.
• 1:06:40
  Speaker 5: You got to like if that's But the thing is
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 5: is like, imagine if you have partners that considered that
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 5: before they said something to you, right, Like arguments or
• 1:06:53
  Speaker 5: disagreements would go totally different. It wouldn't be so emotionally
• 1:06:56
  Speaker 5: charged to where you know, I'm trying to tit for
• 1:06:59
  Speaker 5: tat you like I'm trying to move them like now,
• 1:07:02
  Speaker 5: like are we resolving this issue?
• 1:07:04
  Speaker 2: Like he just hurting each other.
• 1:07:06
  Speaker 3: I think people need to be honest that they like
• 1:07:08
  Speaker 3: this much of toxicity in a relationship because bitch just
• 1:07:11
  Speaker 3: be getting bored. If every man was emotionally intelligent, like
• 1:07:17
  Speaker 3: nobody would be together. Because I feel like people need
• 1:07:20
  Speaker 3: a little bit of toxicity. They won't admit that, but
• 1:07:23
  Speaker 3: it's a six love language.
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 1: For a lot of people.
• 1:07:26
  Speaker 5: Why so, aj, why do you feel that way? Why
• 1:07:28
  Speaker 5: do you feel like there has to be I.
• 1:07:29
  Speaker 3: Don't feel that way. I don't want toxicity. I know
• 1:07:32
  Speaker 3: exactly what that looked like looks like. So when I
• 1:07:34
  Speaker 3: see people online saying shit like I want my man
• 1:07:38
  Speaker 3: to be obsessed with me, I know firsthand what it
• 1:07:41
  Speaker 3: is for a man to be obsessed with for a
• 1:07:43
  Speaker 3: man to be obsessed with me, Because listen, baby, every
• 1:07:45
  Speaker 3: somebody's always in love, okay, always in fucking.
• 1:07:48
  Speaker 1: Love, and it's not. You don't want a man to
• 1:07:51
  Speaker 1: be obsessed with you.
• 1:07:52
  Speaker 3: So y'all out here doing magic tricks and all this
• 1:07:54
  Speaker 3: shit to make a nigga fall in love, You're not
• 1:07:56
  Speaker 3: gonna be able to get rid of him when you
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 3: feel like it, when you want to, You're not gonna
• 1:07:59
  Speaker 3: be a to get him away from you. So I
• 1:08:02
  Speaker 3: never want that type of control over another person. And
• 1:08:07
  Speaker 3: I don't like being control.
• 1:08:09
  Speaker 4: I'll be feeling like just a little see on that
• 1:08:13
  Speaker 4: base sprinkle, a little salt based sprinkle, just a tiny
• 1:08:18
  Speaker 4: little bit of toxic energy, make it a little a
• 1:08:21
  Speaker 4: little spiky, a little bit, just a little sprinkle sprinkle,
• 1:08:27
  Speaker 4: you know, little Ramsell down was nothing too crazy, nothing
• 1:08:30
  Speaker 4: too crazy.
• 1:08:31
  Speaker 2: I don't have no foolishness. But this is a little sprinkle.
• 1:08:34
  Speaker 5: How do you find that buffer because most people just
• 1:08:36
  Speaker 5: ain't a little crazy.
• 1:08:38
  Speaker 4: Yeah, you're right, You're right. It's a slippery slope. I
• 1:08:41
  Speaker 4: had a nigga chasing me around the club this weekend.
• 1:08:44
  Speaker 4: I had to get security to walk me out.
• 1:08:46
  Speaker 2: He was drunk. He was drunk, and I was in
• 1:08:49
  Speaker 2: there with some short song. He couldn't help.
• 1:08:52
  Speaker 5: In his mind. That was a little bit.
• 1:08:55
  Speaker 4: No, that wasn't no sprinkle, nigga, Stop you did, nigga?
• 1:09:00
  Speaker 4: Get I make a light of it.
• 1:09:05
  Speaker 2: But I'll be thinking like a little sprinkle of like, no.
• 1:09:12
  Speaker 3: Bitch, it's not cool because it's not. It's no middle ground.
• 1:09:15
  Speaker 3: We're crazy crazy it is.
• 1:09:19
  Speaker 4: She'll be saying like little stuff like I be joking,
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 4: but like when I have a man and he be
• 1:09:23
  Speaker 4: going out, I'll be like, leave your dick here, you know,
• 1:09:26
  Speaker 4: just like you know, joking, acting like I'm a little
• 1:09:30
  Speaker 4: obsessed with him, but not like scary up says like
• 1:09:35
  Speaker 4: if he ain't answering my phone, I'm not like obviously
• 1:09:37
  Speaker 4: he wants me to come to his house.
• 1:09:38
  Speaker 2: I'm not one of those.
• 1:09:44
  Speaker 4: All right, never mind, send me the link for mad
• 1:09:47
  Speaker 4: so I can yeah, bet, because you need therapy.
• 1:09:52
  Speaker 5: But TAMN, Like to your point, what I would say
• 1:09:55
  Speaker 5: is like understand like why people are like drawn to drama,
• 1:10:03
  Speaker 5: right and like reality TV. I was asking somebody the
• 1:10:07
  Speaker 5: other day. They was like, you know, I was like, well,
• 1:10:10
  Speaker 5: why do you you know? I like my Reality TV?
• 1:10:13
  Speaker 5: And I was like, well, does that reflect like who
• 1:10:16
  Speaker 5: you are in life? And They're like no, And I'm like, so,
• 1:10:18
  Speaker 5: why why are we so right? Why are we so
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 5: in tune to drama or entertained drama? Because I'm gonna
• 1:10:26
  Speaker 5: tell you at some point in time, I'm gonna tell
• 1:10:29
  Speaker 5: you from an ex sign, go say which one watch
• 1:10:31
  Speaker 5: the whole lot of reality TV? And i'swhere like she
• 1:10:36
  Speaker 5: just enjoyed arguing because that's what the hell she was watching.
• 1:10:40
  Speaker 5: Like if you watch a lot of drama, like, do
• 1:10:43
  Speaker 5: you not like take on a little bit of that
• 1:10:46
  Speaker 5: in yourself because it may be something that you're yearning for,
• 1:10:50
  Speaker 5: are yearning for the wrong amount of entertainment or attention?
• 1:10:54
  Speaker 5: Like to me, like what you subject yourself to sometimes
• 1:11:00
  Speaker 5: points in the direction of what you want to be
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 5: or what you want in your life.
• 1:11:06
  Speaker 1: What's that.
• 1:11:07
  Speaker 5: I'm gonna.
• 1:11:09
  Speaker 4: Watch a lot of war movies and I ain't trying
• 1:11:11
  Speaker 4: to jump out nobody playing.
• 1:11:12
  Speaker 5: Christian, but like a lot of war. But you seem
• 1:11:15
  Speaker 5: like you're ready to go to Warde.
• 1:11:16
  Speaker 3: Tam So, like I always think about that, like in
• 1:11:21
  Speaker 3: American culture, like where like reality like the Snapped and
• 1:11:27
  Speaker 3: these shows with people like real killings and stuff.
• 1:11:29
  Speaker 1: Why is that a part of American culture?
• 1:11:32
  Speaker 3: Like why is that TV shows? Like why is that entertainment?
• 1:11:35
  Speaker 3: Somebody's murder, like what happened to your family could very
• 1:11:38
  Speaker 3: well be on one of these TV shows Snapped? Why
• 1:11:42
  Speaker 3: is that entertaining to Americans? Murder twenty one Savage got
• 1:11:48
  Speaker 3: a song go Red Room, Red Room. That's murder spelled backwards.
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 3: That's just part of our culture for whatever reason. And
• 1:11:55
  Speaker 3: it's disgusting.
• 1:11:56
  Speaker 5: Though kind of found that if I'm being real.
• 1:12:00
  Speaker 4: We're going to be honest. Yeah, it's the American way.
• 1:12:03
  Speaker 2: Apparently we were found.
• 1:12:05
  Speaker 5: We're not completely founded, but I would say that there
• 1:12:08
  Speaker 5: was a lot of rape and murder that.
• 1:12:10
  Speaker 2: Happened when to get this place started, to get this
• 1:12:13
  Speaker 2: place started.
• 1:12:17
  Speaker 5: But to answer your question about men, and I think
• 1:12:22
  Speaker 5: you were asking how do you asking how do we
• 1:12:27
  Speaker 5: become emotional or how do we practice that? Or what
• 1:12:30
  Speaker 5: were you asking?
• 1:12:32
  Speaker 3: Like how did how do how do men you know
• 1:12:34
  Speaker 3: who are struggling to get help struggling with mental health?
• 1:12:39
  Speaker 1: Where did they start?
• 1:12:42
  Speaker 5: You start with self awareness, like understanding that as men
• 1:12:49
  Speaker 5: going to counseling is okay. I haven't had a therapist yet.
• 1:12:54
  Speaker 5: That hasn't become like a good friend. No matter whether
• 1:12:57
  Speaker 5: they like transition to another job or whatever, it is,
• 1:13:00
  Speaker 5: like they still stay in contact because we've just developed
• 1:13:04
  Speaker 5: a relationship. You have to have people that you can
• 1:13:08
  Speaker 5: talk to outside of family and outside of a relationship,
• 1:13:12
  Speaker 5: because if not, we look at it as compatibility or
• 1:13:15
  Speaker 5: connection with somebody because we can have those conversations. But
• 1:13:19
  Speaker 5: are you truly not just trauma bonding with somebody because
• 1:13:23
  Speaker 5: we look at trauma bonding as ooh we compatible, No,
• 1:13:28
  Speaker 5: you're incompatible y'all to share you know the same level
• 1:13:31
  Speaker 5: of trauma, and that's what y'all bond on. So when
• 1:13:34
  Speaker 5: y'all heal from that trauma and there was a guy
• 1:13:37
  Speaker 5: talking about it on social media one time, Like, when
• 1:13:39
  Speaker 5: you heal from that trauma and you have one person
• 1:13:43
  Speaker 5: that's healed and the other person that's not where do
• 1:13:45
  Speaker 5: you go from there? Because and I'm just telling you
• 1:13:50
  Speaker 5: from a person that's been in that type of relationship
• 1:13:54
  Speaker 5: and had to make a very tough decision about the
• 1:13:57
  Speaker 5: type of father that I wanted to be to my girls.
• 1:14:00
  Speaker 5: And I had to get out of the situation because
• 1:14:04
  Speaker 5: at the point I healed and they were still hanging
• 1:14:07
  Speaker 5: on to their trauma. And you can't force somebody to heal.
• 1:14:13
  Speaker 5: I was only control of healing myself. But if you're
• 1:14:16
  Speaker 5: not going to do the work to heal, and that's
• 1:14:18
  Speaker 5: that's for men. Like, if you're not going to do
• 1:14:19
  Speaker 5: to work to heal, like the trauma cycle is going
• 1:14:22
  Speaker 5: to continue. It's never going to change. So you know,
• 1:14:26
  Speaker 5: being self aware that even if you don't view your
• 1:14:30
  Speaker 5: life as being traumatic, it's okay to have a counselor
• 1:14:34
  Speaker 5: that you talk to in life because me personally, I
• 1:14:39
  Speaker 5: deal and suffer with a lot of anxiety. I had
• 1:14:41
  Speaker 5: to learn how to manage that, especially after my mom died.
• 1:14:47
  Speaker 5: Like I was waking up every morning with some of
• 1:14:53
  Speaker 5: the worst like feeling like fight or flight every day morning.
• 1:14:56
  Speaker 5: And I woke up, you know, and I had another
• 1:15:00
  Speaker 5: situation in a relationship where I started feeling the same
• 1:15:03
  Speaker 5: way around my partner and I was like, this, this
• 1:15:07
  Speaker 5: ain't life Like if you bringing that level of anxiety
• 1:15:09
  Speaker 5: to me, it ain't healthy. So, you know, being self
• 1:15:13
  Speaker 5: aware of yourself, but also just doing the things mentally
• 1:15:16
  Speaker 5: and physically to take care of yourself, take care of
• 1:15:19
  Speaker 5: your health, and don't apologize for putting yourself first. I
• 1:15:24
  Speaker 5: think that you know, when we get relationships, we especially
• 1:15:31
  Speaker 5: some men who are mostly available, they sometimes get taken
• 1:15:35
  Speaker 5: advantage of more because they are deemed this sometimes softer.
• 1:15:41
  Speaker 5: So you know, but it's okay to like choose you
• 1:15:45
  Speaker 5: understand your boundaries, set your boundaries, stick to them, but
• 1:15:49
  Speaker 5: also just acknowledge the fact that every woman you meet
• 1:15:52
  Speaker 5: is not going to accept you one hundred percent for
• 1:15:54
  Speaker 5: who you are. You're gonna you're a rare man and
• 1:15:58
  Speaker 5: you're going to have to find a rare woman, but
• 1:16:00
  Speaker 5: you're going to have to do the work. Like especially,
• 1:16:02
  Speaker 5: I think you said at earlier ages, like if you
• 1:16:05
  Speaker 5: got a woman that points out like something about you
• 1:16:07
  Speaker 5: that needs to change or something you know that challenges
• 1:16:11
  Speaker 5: your trauma, that's a damn good woman.
• 1:16:17
  Speaker 2: Needs to be like that's just me, that's just who
• 1:16:19
  Speaker 2: are you?
• 1:16:20
  Speaker 5: But you got them? Why are you the way that
• 1:16:23
  Speaker 5: you are? Because it ain't ain't normal contrary to your belief?
• 1:16:28
  Speaker 5: Is it's not normal? Like I mean I grew up
• 1:16:32
  Speaker 5: in the hood, like I still are. I mean still
• 1:16:37
  Speaker 5: in the hood to a degree. And I mean like
• 1:16:42
  Speaker 5: I talk to people every day that still hold on
• 1:16:45
  Speaker 5: to the same trauma, the same attitude, Like this is me,
• 1:16:49
  Speaker 5: this is who I grew up. Like, yeah, we grew
• 1:16:51
  Speaker 5: up in the same environment, but right now we two
• 1:16:53
  Speaker 5: different people. Why And I I hate saying that I've
• 1:16:59
  Speaker 5: been through more than you because that's subjective, But in
• 1:17:03
  Speaker 5: theory and life, I've been more than been through more.
• 1:17:06
  Speaker 5: I have more excuses to.
• 1:17:08
  Speaker 1: Be uh fucked up?
• 1:17:11
  Speaker 5: Correct then you? What is stopping you?
• 1:17:17
  Speaker 1: Yeah?
• 1:17:17
  Speaker 5: And that and that would be my challenge to men,
• 1:17:20
  Speaker 5: like like it's okay to be to be broken or
• 1:17:25
  Speaker 5: bent or a ment like I need some help, I
• 1:17:28
  Speaker 5: need somebody to talk to. I need to like grow
• 1:17:31
  Speaker 5: within myself. Like it's a simple reflection to me, I
• 1:17:35
  Speaker 5: look at my kids. What is the man that I
• 1:17:40
  Speaker 5: want them to marry? How do I want them to
• 1:17:45
  Speaker 5: be treated? Because I'm the type of man that's not
• 1:17:48
  Speaker 5: going to choose their love life form. You asked Daddy
• 1:17:51
  Speaker 5: for advice. I give you advice, but I'm never going
• 1:17:53
  Speaker 5: to tell you not to talk to this person, not
• 1:17:54
  Speaker 5: to talk to that person. But you have to sometimes
• 1:18:01
  Speaker 5: be that reflection of what you want, because there are
• 1:18:05
  Speaker 5: people who expect different for their mom and they expect
• 1:18:08
  Speaker 5: different for their daughters, but not really willing to do
• 1:18:12
  Speaker 5: the work for themselves. Because if you are the foundation
• 1:18:19
  Speaker 5: of which they learn what love is you accountable.
• 1:18:29
  Speaker 2: Absolutely true.
• 1:18:30
  Speaker 3: So we had a great segue in about five minutes
• 1:18:33
  Speaker 3: ago into a SIMPS story before.
• 1:18:37
  Speaker 2: We get into a SIMP story.
• 1:18:39
  Speaker 4: Though based on yall interaction with me, Christian, am I
• 1:18:43
  Speaker 4: running the niggas off from listening to the show.
• 1:18:50
  Speaker 5: No, I will honestly tam like we would have to
• 1:18:54
  Speaker 5: have like more conversation. I mean, I mean, I'm very real,
• 1:19:00
  Speaker 5: y'all are beautiful women, so I would thank you. I
• 1:19:02
  Speaker 5: would not have like a lack of men trying to
• 1:19:07
  Speaker 5: talk to y'all.
• 1:19:08
  Speaker 1: Somebody always in love? Okay.
• 1:19:12
  Speaker 5: My question would be is how a good man, how
• 1:19:16
  Speaker 5: do you how do your first dates typically go?
• 1:19:19
  Speaker 2: I'm telling hello jokes, I could see that.
• 1:19:22
  Speaker 4: It's always fun, It's always a good time, and I'm
• 1:19:25
  Speaker 4: stand up comedian in the whole time pretty much.
• 1:19:28
  Speaker 2: But that's just my personality honestly.
• 1:19:30
  Speaker 5: So where do you Where do you lay your expectation
• 1:19:32
  Speaker 5: in your boundaries out?
• 1:19:34
  Speaker 2: When I did?
• 1:19:34
  Speaker 4: I start laying boundaries and expectations when I decide that
• 1:19:37
  Speaker 4: I like the person, not the initial like the first
• 1:19:41
  Speaker 4: date is too early. It's all first dates a friend
• 1:19:44
  Speaker 4: zone for me, for everybody. But if I like, Okay,
• 1:19:48
  Speaker 4: this guy, this guy seems like he has potential, then
• 1:19:52
  Speaker 4: I start laying down boundaries and expectations.
• 1:19:55
  Speaker 2: But in the beginning, it's just fun. Shouldn't it be
• 1:19:59
  Speaker 2: that way? Though?
• 1:20:01
  Speaker 1: I'm dating with.
• 1:20:04
  Speaker 3: Yeah, but you need to tell us day one what
• 1:20:08
  Speaker 3: you want date one, what you're looking for.
• 1:20:11
  Speaker 2: Because I don't know. I might not want ship from you.
• 1:20:14
  Speaker 1: And why are you outside?
• 1:20:16
  Speaker 2: Because I have to see if you're something I want.
• 1:20:19
  Speaker 4: You know, I have to see if just I can't
• 1:20:21
  Speaker 4: just go off based off looks, so I have to, like,
• 1:20:24
  Speaker 4: I need to get to know you a little bit
• 1:20:26
  Speaker 4: then I can tell you what I want because you
• 1:20:28
  Speaker 4: may not be it in the first damn place.
• 1:20:30
  Speaker 2: That's how I feel like you are you homeboy material,
• 1:20:34
  Speaker 2: you know? So why I'm laying boundaries with you. I
• 1:20:37
  Speaker 2: ain't ever fucking with you.
• 1:20:38
  Speaker 4: You know, Let's just eat this little steak, watch this
• 1:20:42
  Speaker 4: little game, and then that's it. But if I really got,
• 1:20:46
  Speaker 4: like I start feeling you, then I start laying down
• 1:20:48
  Speaker 4: expectations and boundaries.
• 1:20:52
  Speaker 5: So do you feel do you feel like because you
• 1:20:54
  Speaker 5: say running and off, like, do you feel like theyre
• 1:20:57
  Speaker 5: what do you feel like they run off from? Because
• 1:20:59
  Speaker 5: I mean just re you like you seem like you
• 1:21:02
  Speaker 5: have a very I don't want Well, yeah, I would say,
• 1:21:07
  Speaker 5: like a very addictive personality.
• 1:21:10
  Speaker 2: What do you mean like I DoD drugs?
• 1:21:16
  Speaker 5: Like people will want to get to know you.
• 1:21:18
  Speaker 4: Oh yeah, yeah, I think, okay, yeah, okay, you're right.
• 1:21:21
  Speaker 4: You're right, Christmas, you're right.
• 1:21:22
  Speaker 3: But what happens once they get to know you?
• 1:21:28
  Speaker 2: What happens was to know.
• 1:21:32
  Speaker 4: I just I just had someone say that they can't
• 1:21:35
  Speaker 4: deal with my emotional sea sauce. I'm a cancer sometimes
• 1:21:41
  Speaker 4: I cry.
• 1:21:46
  Speaker 5: Oh lord, that's so.
• 1:21:51
  Speaker 4: I didn't even seesaw really though. I just saw this
• 1:21:54
  Speaker 4: ship that I like, I addressed it, and then they
• 1:21:58
  Speaker 4: called it an emotional sea sawce And I'm like, what,
• 1:22:03
  Speaker 4: how's that emotional seesaw? If I can't address something I
• 1:22:06
  Speaker 4: don't like because we were getting along fine and then
• 1:22:10
  Speaker 4: I tell you this is something that I don't like.
• 1:22:13
  Speaker 2: Now is an emotional seesaw.
• 1:22:16
  Speaker 5: Out the though it depends on how you delivered it.
• 1:22:19
  Speaker 2: Though I thought I.
• 1:22:20
  Speaker 1: Was I got to talk to these niggas nice.
• 1:22:23
  Speaker 5: I'm so sick, That's what I'm talking about. That's the
• 1:22:26
  Speaker 5: sassify you know what I'm saying, Like my thing is.
• 1:22:30
  Speaker 5: But if you want me like, think about this aj
• 1:22:33
  Speaker 5: in a relationship, like if you want me to value
• 1:22:37
  Speaker 5: your feelings right, how you feel, you want me to
• 1:22:41
  Speaker 5: listen to understand, not the respond is that too much
• 1:22:45
  Speaker 5: to have the same expectation from you? Because I don't
• 1:22:49
  Speaker 5: like this is my tone arguing and it irritates the
• 1:22:54
  Speaker 5: hell out of some people because this is me. I
• 1:22:58
  Speaker 5: cannot allow you to take me to another level because
• 1:23:01
  Speaker 5: guess what at that point in time, then I don't
• 1:23:03
  Speaker 5: have control over myself, which means there is no control
• 1:23:06
  Speaker 5: over our conversation. That we ain't going nowhere right. So
• 1:23:10
  Speaker 5: for me, like if you're not able to and I understand,
• 1:23:15
  Speaker 5: like some conversations warn't more emotions than others. But if
• 1:23:19
  Speaker 5: I see an emotional influx, like you this way during
• 1:23:22
  Speaker 5: the day and then I call you back and you here,
• 1:23:25
  Speaker 5: and I'm like trying to like converse with you, to
• 1:23:28
  Speaker 5: try to figure out like what's going on, and then
• 1:23:31
  Speaker 5: next thing, you know, you got an attitude of me
• 1:23:32
  Speaker 5: and I this shit. I'm like, I mean, how long
• 1:23:36
  Speaker 5: are you riding these waves?
• 1:23:38
  Speaker 1: You know, Christian?
• 1:23:39
  Speaker 2: Why aren't you reading my mind?
• 1:23:41
  Speaker 5: That's the problem we are not. Let me tell you
• 1:23:46
  Speaker 5: something about men. We ween the smartest people think we are.
• 1:23:52
  Speaker 3: Oh, we know that people think that, but but I
• 1:23:58
  Speaker 3: would say, like from a standpoint of.
• 1:24:03
  Speaker 5: And I think that goes into like social management, like
• 1:24:06
  Speaker 5: reading women and their emotions. I am not the best
• 1:24:11
  Speaker 5: at it, right, And I think most men kind of
• 1:24:14
  Speaker 5: suffer from that, right because we are kind of hardened
• 1:24:18
  Speaker 5: to not really embrace like a lot of emotions are.
• 1:24:21
  Speaker 5: And it's not like we get a lot of practice
• 1:24:24
  Speaker 5: with other men because outside of my friend's circle, like
• 1:24:27
  Speaker 5: what I consider my golden circle is the only men
• 1:24:31
  Speaker 5: that I will be vulnerable with, and they are vulnerable
• 1:24:33
  Speaker 5: with me. But not everybody has that. Like if I
• 1:24:37
  Speaker 5: stayed in the hood that I grew up in, I
• 1:24:39
  Speaker 5: would never be emotionally available for nobody. So the only
• 1:24:42
  Speaker 5: practice I get is engaging my women, Like that's going
• 1:24:45
  Speaker 5: to take practice of me reading that because I can't
• 1:24:49
  Speaker 5: say that women are the best communicators of their emotions,
• 1:24:54
  Speaker 5: like most women want their minds to be read. And
• 1:24:58
  Speaker 5: I'm like, you better textclue me, sign outside, telegram everything.
• 1:25:05
  Speaker 5: You better everything to me because I can't. I'm not
• 1:25:08
  Speaker 5: And I will tell you I don't read between the
• 1:25:10
  Speaker 5: lines because if I read between the lines and I
• 1:25:13
  Speaker 5: get it wrong, that's a whole nother argument. Right, So
• 1:25:16
  Speaker 5: why not for me? I ask for clear communication. You
• 1:25:19
  Speaker 5: tell me exactly how it is that you feel. You
• 1:25:22
  Speaker 5: tell me exactly how it is that I'm making you feel,
• 1:25:25
  Speaker 5: and then we can address the issue, because if you
• 1:25:28
  Speaker 5: skip steps with me, you're gonna be highly disappointed. I'm
• 1:25:32
  Speaker 5: gonna just tell you because to y'all, y'all got to
• 1:25:34
  Speaker 5: understand we two different creatures. Y'all understand y'all have this
• 1:25:38
  Speaker 5: telepathic thing going on within y'allself. Like people are just
• 1:25:41
  Speaker 5: feel that.
• 1:25:41
  Speaker 3: Way about men, though I swear to God, you could
• 1:25:44
  Speaker 3: be so articulate, you could say exactly what it is.
• 1:25:48
  Speaker 3: And sometimes men gaslight and women do too, right, and
• 1:25:52
  Speaker 3: what's the next response when when a bitch say some
• 1:25:54
  Speaker 3: shit that.
• 1:25:55
  Speaker 1: Makes too much sense? Were you mean?
• 1:26:00
  Speaker 2: That'll be the response? What you mean?
• 1:26:02
  Speaker 3: You know exactly what I'm saying. You know exactly what
• 1:26:05
  Speaker 3: I mean?
• 1:26:08
  Speaker 5: The way you mean can mean two things. Right, I'm Sam,
• 1:26:11
  Speaker 5: where are you from?
• 1:26:12
  Speaker 2: Columbia? South Carolina?
• 1:26:14
  Speaker 5: Okay? You understand a little bit of gichi. So when
• 1:26:18
  Speaker 5: when they say that, I think either one and I
• 1:26:21
  Speaker 5: hate telling them man, but one, they probably was not
• 1:26:23
  Speaker 5: paying attention to the conversation. What you mean typically is
• 1:26:28
  Speaker 5: I heard the back end, but not the front end, right,
• 1:26:31
  Speaker 5: not listening to understand, and they did not come up
• 1:26:34
  Speaker 5: with a good response on the fly. Or secondly, it
• 1:26:40
  Speaker 5: can be them being stuck and not really knowing how
• 1:26:42
  Speaker 5: to reply. Because sometimes I'm gonna tell you, some women
• 1:26:46
  Speaker 5: hit me with some stuff emotionally, I'm just like h
• 1:26:51
  Speaker 5: And they're like, well, you don't have a response. I'm like, well,
• 1:26:53
  Speaker 5: first of all, you literally just gave me two seconds
• 1:26:57
  Speaker 5: to respond over what I consider that even a text
• 1:27:01
  Speaker 5: message or even on the phone, a huge bubble of
• 1:27:04
  Speaker 5: information that you want me to decipher.
• 1:27:07
  Speaker 3: Ah, I'm just called to cut you off right there,
• 1:27:09
  Speaker 3: I got it. I don't got enough time to think
• 1:27:11
  Speaker 3: about a bullshit ass answer.
• 1:27:13
  Speaker 5: So it's that's my thing, right, would you if you
• 1:27:18
  Speaker 5: just hit me with a long paragraph of information, right,
• 1:27:21
  Speaker 5: just like you were asking me a question of a
• 1:27:23
  Speaker 5: minute ago and I said, aj, I got add Like,
• 1:27:26
  Speaker 5: you gotta break up these questions for me, because once
• 1:27:29
  Speaker 5: I get to answer one, it's gonna be hard for
• 1:27:31
  Speaker 5: me to get back to the second. Like if your
• 1:27:34
  Speaker 5: man is a man that can you can ask him
• 1:27:36
  Speaker 5: fifty questions and he can answer off it or respond
• 1:27:39
  Speaker 5: to all fifty things. You got a great one, But
• 1:27:42
  Speaker 5: for me, you gotta break that thing down. Because if
• 1:27:46
  Speaker 5: you send me a text message in a bubble, right,
• 1:27:48
  Speaker 5: I'm gonna tell you how I'm ana reply, I'm gonna
• 1:27:50
  Speaker 5: stroll back up to the top right, and then I'm
• 1:27:53
  Speaker 5: a reply to that, and then I'm gonna stroll back
• 1:27:57
  Speaker 5: down read some more. Okay, I'm a reply out of that,
• 1:28:00
  Speaker 5: Like that's how I'm gonna reply to you. So you
• 1:28:03
  Speaker 5: take that in a conversation, I can't go back, right,
• 1:28:06
  Speaker 5: And if I'm holding on to the first thing, the
• 1:28:09
  Speaker 5: first and last thing that you said, then I was
• 1:28:11
  Speaker 5: listening to respond to you. I wasn't really listening to
• 1:28:14
  Speaker 5: understand you. And so if I fire off real fast
• 1:28:19
  Speaker 5: nine times I'm attend, I'm gonna say something that's probably
• 1:28:21
  Speaker 5: gonna fuck the rest of the conversation up.
• 1:28:26
  Speaker 2: Man, you're tripping this shit.
• 1:28:30
  Speaker 5: Me personally, I don't, so I don't respond that way.
• 1:28:33
  Speaker 5: And that's the thing about it, Like I don't really
• 1:28:35
  Speaker 5: respond that way. Like I may be quiet for a minute,
• 1:28:40
  Speaker 5: or I might say, you know, I need some time
• 1:28:42
  Speaker 5: to process, but I don't give like the short like
• 1:28:46
  Speaker 5: you tripping, right.
• 1:28:47
  Speaker 2: I got enough stress at working. Shit, be my peace.
• 1:28:52
  Speaker 1: Men don't really.
• 1:28:53
  Speaker 5: Mean that, because men are I actually do mean that
• 1:28:56
  Speaker 5: when I say it, because I work a very very
• 1:29:00
  Speaker 5: stressful job, and so when I come home, I don't
• 1:29:04
  Speaker 5: mind talking about world problems and all that other stuff.
• 1:29:07
  Speaker 5: Maybe for the first thirty minutes hour we can talk
• 1:29:09
  Speaker 5: about work. Are they going, what's going on in the world?
• 1:29:14
  Speaker 5: After that, I just want to connect because I need
• 1:29:18
  Speaker 5: my woman to literally be my peace, because outside of
• 1:29:21
  Speaker 5: this world it's chaos, especially you know, being a black
• 1:29:25
  Speaker 5: woman and for me being a black man, and especially
• 1:29:29
  Speaker 5: the profession professions that I'm in and what I have
• 1:29:32
  Speaker 5: to pour into other people, Like when I come home
• 1:29:35
  Speaker 5: after we talk about our days, like, I just want
• 1:29:37
  Speaker 5: to connect emotionally with you, and that's it. If we
• 1:29:41
  Speaker 5: got kids, we can manage them until it's time for
• 1:29:44
  Speaker 5: them to go to bed or whatever, and then it
• 1:29:47
  Speaker 5: just needs to really be me and you. I don't
• 1:29:49
  Speaker 5: want to talk about world stuff all damn night. I
• 1:29:52
  Speaker 5: don't want to talk about problems all damn night. I
• 1:29:53
  Speaker 5: don't want to hear complaining all damn night. Like if
• 1:29:56
  Speaker 5: you complaining all damn damn, I'm just like, well, goddamn like,
• 1:30:00
  Speaker 5: you want to hear from me, Well, let me tell you.
• 1:30:02
  Speaker 4: Let me tell you what I want to hear from you.
• 1:30:04
  Speaker 4: I want to hear your SIMP story. We gotta take
• 1:30:06
  Speaker 4: a commercial. We'll be right back, but when we come back,
• 1:30:10
  Speaker 4: that's what I want to hear from you. One second's
• 1:30:15
  Speaker 4: real easy way to say that.
• 1:30:23
  Speaker 3: All right, y'all were back, and we are going to
• 1:30:25
  Speaker 3: get a SIMP story, a SIMP series story from Kristen.
• 1:30:31
  Speaker 1: What you got for us, Kristen.
• 1:30:33
  Speaker 5: Well listen for one. I'm gonna tell you, y'all put
• 1:30:35
  Speaker 5: me in a very tough predicament, in a rough spot.
• 1:30:39
  Speaker 5: But what I will say is I was in a
• 1:30:45
  Speaker 5: relationship where uh, I felt like I did it sounds
• 1:30:55
  Speaker 5: the same, sounds more like a damn sadass story, but
• 1:31:00
  Speaker 5: where I feel like I did a lot of adjusting right.
• 1:31:06
  Speaker 5: Whatever she wanted I did. I worked my ass off
• 1:31:11
  Speaker 5: to provide. At one time was working five jobs at
• 1:31:16
  Speaker 5: a time. She said that I was working too much,
• 1:31:20
  Speaker 5: so I stopped and started businesses to support financially and
• 1:31:27
  Speaker 5: on top of the job that I have. And I
• 1:31:30
  Speaker 5: think at a point where no matter what I did,
• 1:31:34
  Speaker 5: she wasn't happy, wasn't satisfied, and didn't really appreciate what
• 1:31:40
  Speaker 5: it is that I provided. And I think when one
• 1:31:44
  Speaker 5: day she called me selfish, that was a trigger for
• 1:31:50
  Speaker 5: me because I was like, I've literally sacrificed every goddamn thing,
• 1:31:55
  Speaker 5: whether you talk about financially, emotionally, whatever it is. Like,
• 1:32:00
  Speaker 5: I knew there were things I needed to work on,
• 1:32:02
  Speaker 5: but I will say at the end of the day,
• 1:32:06
  Speaker 5: it was a relationship that spanned it over ten years,
• 1:32:10
  Speaker 5: and I can't say that I got a whole lot
• 1:32:14
  Speaker 5: from it. Oh, I'm getting a whole lot taken away,
• 1:32:17
  Speaker 5: but I am getting a whole lot from it, a
• 1:32:19
  Speaker 5: whole lot of money taken away, But I ain't getting
• 1:32:21
  Speaker 5: a whole lot from it and for something that I'm
• 1:32:25
  Speaker 5: not getting anything out of. So I don't want to
• 1:32:28
  Speaker 5: like get too far into detail, but I think that,
• 1:32:30
  Speaker 5: you know, it's very hard for men to kind of
• 1:32:37
  Speaker 5: bounce back from situations like that, because I'm gonna be
• 1:32:41
  Speaker 5: honest with you, like being divorced and having two girls.
• 1:32:47
  Speaker 5: In my mind coming out, I felt like I was
• 1:32:50
  Speaker 5: damaged goods. I'm going to be considered damage goods, and
• 1:32:55
  Speaker 5: I had to realize that I have a lot more
• 1:32:58
  Speaker 5: value in me than my past or my current situation.
• 1:33:04
  Speaker 5: But I know they are in the biggest SIMP story
• 1:33:07
  Speaker 5: in the world. But scorpios typically ain't simps, specifically when
• 1:33:10
  Speaker 5: they're born in November blue like that from experience. But
• 1:33:19
  Speaker 5: I tell you, but that's probably the thing for me.
• 1:33:22
  Speaker 5: I would say, like, you know, giving you all to
• 1:33:25
  Speaker 5: somebody and then it not being appreciated and them on
• 1:33:30
  Speaker 5: the back end trying to destroy you or run with
• 1:33:33
  Speaker 5: a narrative. Because one thing about myself, like I'm not
• 1:33:36
  Speaker 5: going to bash anybody. I'm pretty to myself, mind my
• 1:33:39
  Speaker 5: own business and don't like people in my business, especially
• 1:33:43
  Speaker 5: in my personal business. And so you know, for me,
• 1:33:48
  Speaker 5: she can run with the narratives that she wants, and
• 1:33:51
  Speaker 5: I'm gonna keep my silence and just keep life moving.
• 1:33:55
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's why they so vague, vad and a quartering.
• 1:34:05
  Speaker 2: I appreciate you for trying Christian, but that wasn't that.
• 1:34:13
  Speaker 5: I'm trying to.
• 1:34:13
  Speaker 4: We're good, man, Yeah, we're good on that.
• 1:34:21
  Speaker 5: I told listen, I told since earlier, I said a
• 1:34:24
  Speaker 5: simp story. You ain't really.
• 1:34:25
  Speaker 1: Women having that a lot lately.
• 1:34:27
  Speaker 3: See, I guess the only people who be getting played
• 1:34:29
  Speaker 3: out of here, Tom, I guess because I got plenty
• 1:34:32
  Speaker 3: sim right, I'll see dumb bitch stories.
• 1:34:37
  Speaker 2: I just shared one with y'all earlier.
• 1:34:42
  Speaker 5: Listen. I mean that's that's probably the closest one I got.
• 1:34:46
  Speaker 5: That's the closest one I got. I mean, typically, you know,
• 1:34:49
  Speaker 5: I'm anew for my way out of them situations, and
• 1:34:52
  Speaker 5: I would say that women typically.
• 1:34:56
  Speaker 4: Well, I'm sorry that your relationship is all and I'm
• 1:35:01
  Speaker 4: sorry that is fucking up your pockets, my boy.
• 1:35:03
  Speaker 3: I never I don't understand why people You're like, why
• 1:35:06
  Speaker 3: are you celebrating a failure that is not something celebrating?
• 1:35:12
  Speaker 5: So you just to start a whole I'm gonna tell you,
• 1:35:18
  Speaker 5: like that is the trauma behind divorce, like when you
• 1:35:23
  Speaker 5: want to talk about black men after divorce, like the
• 1:35:27
  Speaker 5: pressure Like from my standpoint and where I grew up
• 1:35:30
  Speaker 5: in right, my perception of a perfect family was being married.
• 1:35:35
  Speaker 5: I waited until I was married to have kids, right,
• 1:35:39
  Speaker 5: and it didn't work. Me Walking away from that situation,
• 1:35:42
  Speaker 5: by far was probably the hardest damn decision I ever
• 1:35:45
  Speaker 5: made in my life, because I love my girls like
• 1:35:49
  Speaker 5: no other, but I knew in order for me to
• 1:35:52
  Speaker 5: be a great father for them and be a great
• 1:35:54
  Speaker 5: example for them, like, that situation just wasn't it in
• 1:35:58
  Speaker 5: my battle? Was Am I failing right now? Am I
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  Speaker 5: feeling my family and my feeling the fantasy of which
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  Speaker 5: I wanted a family to be? And it's no different
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  Speaker 5: from attaching yourself or holding on to an unhealthy relationship
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  Speaker 5: because of perspective of other people's thoughts. That failure is
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  Speaker 5: other people's thoughts because you're the one in the relationship.
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  Speaker 5: It's not a failure to you because you chose you
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  Speaker 5: it was healthy for you and for me. I almost
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  Speaker 5: stayed in the situation because I was more concerned about
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  Speaker 5: what other people thought and feeling like I was a
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  Speaker 5: failure when really I had to choose myself, and I
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  Speaker 5: mean it was the hardest thing to get past was
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  Speaker 5: the feeling of feeling like I failed. But the perfect family,
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  Speaker 5: as by a counselor said, is a fantasy. She said,
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  Speaker 5: if Jesus did not have a perfect family, how do
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  Speaker 5: you expect to have one? He had a blended family.
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  Speaker 4: Ryna, keep that to myself.
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  Speaker 2: No, I ain't saying that, my mam, wad listen to
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  Speaker 2: this show.
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  Speaker 1: I can't say that.
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  Speaker 5: Earlier. I want to. I want to hear what you got.
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  Speaker 4: I was just gonna say, Mary ain't even get smashed,
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  Speaker 4: so technically.
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  Speaker 5: I mean she did? She did? She? You do realize
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  Speaker 5: that Jesus had brothers, right?
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  Speaker 2: Who was all right?
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  Speaker 4: Jesus had brothers, but Jesus ain't have a physical daddy,
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  Speaker 4: a physical daddy like ain't nobody.
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  Speaker 2: Skating marry Joseph did after after, but she was.
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  Speaker 4: A virgin when she had But we know men lie,
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  Speaker 4: women lie, brother just don't lie.
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  Speaker 3: I don't know how I got this baby, all right,
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  Speaker 3: y'all listen, last, last, last, last. If anybody is out
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  Speaker 3: there and y'all feel like y'all won't have nothing less,
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  Speaker 3: you always got yourself.
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  Speaker 1: You always got yourself. You mean, just keep that in mind.
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  Speaker 4: You mean, do you have any last last advice for
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  Speaker 4: our listeners, Christian, I.
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  Speaker 5: Just take it back off of what AJ said and
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  Speaker 5: just always bet on yourself.
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  Speaker 5: But let no, I'm working on. So I'm working on
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  Speaker 5: a new website because what happened was somebody, uh right,
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  Speaker 5: they took the domain. I'm going to switch it probably
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  Speaker 5: to mad U s A Inc. Dot org. That's what
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  Speaker 1: Off of business services.
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  Speaker 5: Off I support my business. I don't care what he
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  Speaker 2: What about social media? Can they follow you somewhere to.
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  Speaker 5: Mad Us Inc. On Instagram, mad Us Inc. Mad u
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  Speaker 5: s A Inc. On Facebook, We're on Twitter, all of
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  Speaker 1: Yes, Kristin, y'all.
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  Speaker 4: Let me just say share this. The There is a
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  Speaker 4: Call if you need help, seriously, call somebody. Y'all go
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  Speaker 4: ahead kick it, AJ.
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  Speaker 1: And call me because I will pull up.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, all right, y'all hit me up on Instagram as
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