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Keon Davis Lost Everything, Then God Rebuilt the Man | Willie Moore Jr. · Love You Moore with Willie Moore Jr.

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[SPEAKER_05]: Ta-da!
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[SPEAKER_05]: Hey!
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[SPEAKER_05]: Welcome to another edition of the Love You More Show.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Can I do this?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Flat out.
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[SPEAKER_05]: if they family listen welcome to the love you more show today's guest is a man that I've known for a very long time got an opportunity to see the maturation of his brand here's the thing did you know that health is wealth well he's the living testimony
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[SPEAKER_05]: that health can be well because he started an amazing truck at first and just moved groove whenever I would go do TV or something I would see smooth and smooth these smooth these and then DC young fly star posted and everybody started posting and it's just been an amazing journey now.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He's actually in Phil's Plaza with his own spy.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm so proud of you got a book just doing big things.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Kion Davies in the house.
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[SPEAKER_05]: What up, champ?
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[SPEAKER_05]: What's up, bro?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Man, so bless, bro.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Man, to those people out there who don't know about K-I, tell them a little bit about the business, then we're going to do this ice break.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Okay, cool.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Um, a little bit about the business, man, my company's called smoother groove.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like you said, we started inside.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We started inside of a gym in Alabama.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And we was able to fortunate enough to get a food truck and then get on campus at Auburn University.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And that's one thing is kind of took the shift, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: But along story short, I exploded fast, right, faster than what I can even imagine.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like just doing stuff that nobody that I knew was doing.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So I was making money handle for fist that nobody can even tell me what I could do with it.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So.
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[SPEAKER_03]: growing fast, skill and fast, not really having the right mentorship, places and things like that.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I had a store in Walmart.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I opened up six different locations and then it all crumbled, right, and all crumbled.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I lost everything.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Literally one day I had, I had a bag.
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[SPEAKER_03]: The next day, I'm 375,000 dollars.
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[SPEAKER_03]: less, right, $59,000 in a negative, and so I had to shut everything down at Alabama, and then I picked up and I moved to Atlanta.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so at that point, that point, yeah, that point in time, bro, it was like, I know I got something, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I know it, I didn't make this much money if I ain't handling it, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I just got to figure out what I was missing.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So when I did that, I just jumped back in my truck.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And I went to everywhere that I could think of that I seen on on love and hip hop on on anything Atlanta.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I was pulling up in my food trucks and I look I got this product y'all come outside.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I want to feed y'all for free and that's when the the ball got rolling for free.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, yep.
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[SPEAKER_05]: See, that's what, see what I told you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You got a soul first, right?
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[SPEAKER_05]: A lot of people trying to get paid quick, but you got to put some seed in the ground.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I think I got my first movie free.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Like, hey, man, tell me, hey, man, this is actually really, really good.
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[SPEAKER_05]: But I want to do this icebreaker real quick to anybody who's watching right now, make sure you subscribe.
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[SPEAKER_05]: But I want you to check out this icebreaker.
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[SPEAKER_05]: We're gonna talk from this.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Check this out.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You know, when I left that church, my life had changed forever.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I realized that moments quickly become memories.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So it's important that you spend great moments with your loved ones because you just don't never know.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Speaking of loved ones, I was getting picked up by one of my favorite, but not so favorite uncles, Uncle G. I mean, he owes school driver, Cadillac had to the back and he not need to sit up, but he's still a good guy.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He's sometimes joked too quick, but the truth is, he's exactly what I need to do in this time to bring me back to Earth.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He walks up and he says...
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[SPEAKER_05]: You all right, sir.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm like it's tough.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He can tell you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I know it, but it's a part of life He says don't worry about a thing.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He's in a better place.
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[SPEAKER_05]: That's true.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You know I'm crazy, right?
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[SPEAKER_05]: I don't know why they say in a better place.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He in a box But you know you see I got your laughing already laughter is healing for the soul No matter what it is laughing all keep laughing you're like no matter what you do, okay?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Now get your punk ass in the car
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[SPEAKER_05]: What?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Good jazz in the car, Junior.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Why?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Say a lot of people don't understand again.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm saying it's no stability in this guy.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Why are you living off of him?
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[SPEAKER_04]: It's a dream, you're saying it.
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[SPEAKER_04]: People don't buy your news if you don't eat that.
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[SPEAKER_04]: So it don't get half ways from time to time.
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[SPEAKER_04]: I'll tell you over here.
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[SPEAKER_04]: I promise that times I want to break down No one loves us, me It's time I'm going up and going back down If you believe, you'll love me Taking private precautions, times getting harder Do what we gotta do in the feet I saw us in the waters, you already saw us in the lava Then you got your world You just told me to claim it And I saw that girl
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[SPEAKER_05]: Wow, the name of the song is turn a point, go stream it right now, it's available.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Why not, right?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Willy, you know what they said?
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[SPEAKER_05]: It's the return of pretty Willy, no, it's Willy, no, we might got a little pretty in there.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm holding on to handsome, but I wanted to tell you, like, I was listening to all these artists who are doing so much music and they said, Willy, what type of music you're going to do?
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm doing music.
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[SPEAKER_05]: that really feel good in my shanana.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And if Jesus is in the passion to see to my core, I promise you whether there's love, music, rap, music, or any other type of music, if he's sitting right there in the core, I can turn it up and not be ashamed.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Okay, that's my job, praise God, all right?
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[SPEAKER_05]: So family, make sure that you stream it right now.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Kia, David's hanging out with us.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Can I tell you this?
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[SPEAKER_05]: The name of that song is turning point.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So...
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[SPEAKER_05]: $375,000 worth of money.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You lose that money.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You get in that car.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You go to a land.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You have a wife and children.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You got two girls.
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[SPEAKER_05]: How did they take this brief and quick transition?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Did you go first by yourself and then come on later?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Or did you say, hey, we packing up and we're going.
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[SPEAKER_03]: It was like a three month process.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So it took me three months to get my account back to zero.
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[SPEAKER_03]: It took you three months to get back to nothing.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you're back to nothing, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so from there, it was like, we prepped.
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[SPEAKER_03]: My ex, she was, she's a veterinarian.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So she was easy for her to just apply somewhere down there.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so we ended up finding somewhere down there.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And then it was like, all right, found a job.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Boom, let's do it.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So for me,
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[SPEAKER_03]: It was an easy, like I ain't gonna say easy, but it was a transition because I had to go from everything that I built, from Tuskegee, to being there, being around an area, knowing everything, knowing this plug, my car breakdown, I got somebody to do it, you know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Utilizing all of my resources, just uprooted, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And then taking that, moving to Atlanta where I know a lot of people.
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[SPEAKER_03]: But not necessarily my tribe, who that makes sense, you know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so from there, I had to recreate a tribe, I had to recreate a new normal.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And that was devastating, that was devastating because your, your, you really like identity shifting, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: You changing from like, okay, I took this ill, but I'm gonna go back and try to do it again, but that ill still in the back of your mind, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: The L still sitting right here on your shoulder.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Everything, every move I make, the L still right here.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know that feeling that I had that emotional like drama that trauma that all of that stuff that went into it, I really like felt everything up.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so for me when I got here, it was like, all right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I got to get the ground.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I got to hit the ground running, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And when I hit the ground running, not just in the truck, but mentally as well.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I got to reshape this mental game because it's this, I mean, I'm literally beating myself up.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like we saw my earlier, you know, I'm literally beating myself up over a while, took this out, opposed to how do I fix this out?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I'm saying?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so that's kind of the transitional phase that took place at the time.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, don't click
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[SPEAKER_05]: being foreclosed on because of my business practices and watching that range or overgo down the street on the back of their repo truck.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Like a lot of that stuff, like I realized even now, although that's not my true reality right now.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Like I realized probably about four months ago, I'm still running from poverty.
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[SPEAKER_05]: and co incidentally because of my ambition and my focus, like I think that played a pivotal role in the demise of my first marriage.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Like, and I mean, of course, I will other things.
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[SPEAKER_05]: She, that I'm just talking about, like, what I do.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I think just being extremely ambitious and being scared.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Like, bro, I never want to go through this ever again in my life.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I do not want to be in the back of this gas station smoking black in my wine.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Well, it tips no more because I'm just, I'm trying to just get sued.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So you get to Atlanta.
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[SPEAKER_05]: How long does it take for you to bring your family and bring them here?
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[SPEAKER_03]: We all came together.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Okay.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We all came together.
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[SPEAKER_03]: It took me.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So I had two food trucks that was still in LA then.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So matter of fact, the first event that I met you at was easy event.
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[SPEAKER_03]: The basketball camp.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yes, it was.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So that event right there, I'd never figured it because it was shaped me here, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: So that event alone, what I see there was doing it, my truck and stuff was still in Alabama.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So at that point in time, I told you, I'm at zero.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, so I reached out to eat and book them.
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[SPEAKER_03]: They hit me back, was like, hey, what did take to do to the camp?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And it was like, well, how much are you going to charge me?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I was like, I'm just doing for free.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'll make my money on the parents.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so they like, what you mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like, ain't nobody, you know how it is.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Ain't nobody doing them for free.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right, well, what's the backing up?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, no, I'm good.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so when I did it, I showed up and I killed it.
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[SPEAKER_03]: But the caveat to it was, I had to borrow $200 to go buy a product to get product away.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So listen to what I'm saying.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I was so, I was so spaced out of my head to know like, I'm feeling, I'm about to kill it, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I know it's about to happen.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You know what's that?
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[SPEAKER_05]: That's kind of fainting.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I like keep going.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I just got this.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I felt it in my shadow now.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So then when I did that, I'm like, all right, I need 200, I'm gonna go buy this product.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'm gonna give it all away.
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[SPEAKER_03]: They like, what?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so what happened was when I did that, you know, they was like, bro, like, you killing it out here.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We gotta do something for you.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So they did the little video, whatnot posted it up on a side two weeks later.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I came make this up two weeks later.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I get a phone call, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And they like, hey, is this smoothie truck?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, yeah, it was like, we wanted to see if you was available for X, Y, Z date.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, who was this?
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[SPEAKER_03]: It was like this such as such from Tyler Perry Studios.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We seen on E.T.
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[SPEAKER_03]: page that it was a smoothie truck out here.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We wanted to book one.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Time out.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So Eric Thomas, E.T.
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[SPEAKER_05]: the hip-hop preacher.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Thank God, it's Monday.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You got it.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Back to him.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So when that happened, I'm like, what you mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like, yeah, we was looking on the page.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We had a big fan.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We seen it posted a smoothie truck and we wanted one for set.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, these was when I started getting some bread now, so now we started to make some noise and so from there I got one set I'm posting up another set posted up another set now.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'm getting contracts with with different companies to be able to the post up at day locations and concert deals that I'm working with these different venues and different things like that So that's what really got the ball rolling when I got it.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, so you haven't out in six.
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[UNKNOWN]: Yes
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[SPEAKER_05]: What is walking back into your home feel like, that's an amazing question.
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[SPEAKER_03]: That I think that question resonates with so many people, but I don't think a lot of people have the guts to enter, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: So for me, what it felt like at that time was, I would walk back in my home to feed it, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I would come back feeling like,
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[SPEAKER_03]: I don't went out in the world and killed it and came home.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And it's like, but you ain't do X, Y, and Z.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Or you know what I'm saying?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like, you still not good enough.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so what I've learned over the years is that I had an abandonment issues.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I got traumas and triggers we all do right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so one of those that was me trying to prove myself to be good enough all the time.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Man with my sports background, that's all that that's how you measure if you're good.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, if you start and if you put in numbers right so the numbers was going to tell you if you was good or not.
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[SPEAKER_03]: The play time was gonna tell you if you good or not, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: So me going out and doing what I was doing and rebuilding and restructuring and really fighting myself at the same time.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Digging up my own skeletons and dealing with them, real time, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: In the midst of trying to rebuild myself, my company, my fact like, do I all of this process?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so coming home felt like it felt more of going into the world than it did, feeling like coming home.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know, besides like my daughters.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, that's the one unconditional love that feels like there's nothing.
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[SPEAKER_03]: If you can bottle that filling up, yeah, and sell it, you'll be me now hands over fist all the time.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Wow, deep great conversation going on.
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[SPEAKER_05]: No, no, but guess what, you and subscribe for more of these conversations.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I promise you, I'm going to get right back to the episode.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Okay, thank you back to you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So you're going to those houses.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You talk a little bit about abandonment issues.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Of course, you know I always shed it.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I was adopted.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I never met anybody in my biological family to 2020.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Struggle with code dependency.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I, too, understand what it's like, too.
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[SPEAKER_05]: live your life based up on what you can do instead of who you are as a human being.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I traditionally tell my kids all the time, I say, saying, why I love you, not because of what you do, but because of who you are, because of who I am.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So because it's like I want them to have this perpetual mindset that like, hey, daddy love me, not because the points I'm putting on the board, how fast I'm running to track me, what your kids can come in with an elf.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm like, did you do your best, though?
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[SPEAKER_05]: And if they feel like, well, you know, I could.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm like, well, you got to go work on that,
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[SPEAKER_05]: But if you did joke, if you come in like, man, they're my best, and I failed horribly.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm gonna be like, I did that before.
16:52
[SPEAKER_05]: That'd be like that.
16:53
[SPEAKER_05]: You're not gonna kill me.
16:54
[SPEAKER_05]: No, you have determined that you did your best.
16:58
[SPEAKER_05]: And if your best didn't cut it, man, we're gonna try to do our best in another area and figure it out.
17:03
[SPEAKER_05]: So what type of traumas did you have to defeat to throughout you coming up as a child?
17:11
[SPEAKER_03]: So for me, I think my biggest trauma was,
17:16
[SPEAKER_03]: So having a space where I'm raised by my mom, right?
17:21
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm the oldest of four boys, you know what I'm saying?
17:24
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm the man at the house.
17:26
[SPEAKER_03]: My whole life, you know what I'm saying?
17:28
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm responsible.
17:29
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm the man at the house, right?
17:30
[SPEAKER_03]: Even though like one of the things that I never did, and I talk about this too, up until probably like a year ago, I realized I didn't know how to pay bills.
17:39
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
17:40
[SPEAKER_03]: And it sounds so crazy when I said I'll out.
17:43
[SPEAKER_03]: That's like, what do you mean?
17:44
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like, well, my whole life, I gave money, right?
17:48
[SPEAKER_03]: But I never organized under this.
17:51
[SPEAKER_05]: You know what I'm saying?
17:52
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm gonna pay my even when I,
17:54
[SPEAKER_05]: Oh, hey, I forgot to get her.
17:55
[SPEAKER_05]: I was like, man, my mom.
17:56
[SPEAKER_05]: I used to be like, how much is it?
17:58
[SPEAKER_05]: I give her 2300.
17:59
[SPEAKER_03]: She goes, I said, do what you do.
18:00
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm saying, and so then you go to college, you ain't worried about that.
18:04
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
18:04
[SPEAKER_03]: Then I met my ex wife and college.
18:06
[SPEAKER_03]: So then we moving together.
18:08
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm still giving the money, but she organized it on it.
18:10
[SPEAKER_03]: It wasn't until I got the divorce.
18:12
[SPEAKER_03]: I got on my own, and I'm like, wait a minute, bro, I just paid this.
18:15
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, I'm paying everything late.
18:16
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm paying late fees on this.
18:18
[SPEAKER_03]: And you know what I'm saying?
18:19
[SPEAKER_03]: It relies on like, oh, but this is a skill I never learned.
18:22
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, this something that I've never even thought because I'm so conditioned to having someone with me, right?
18:29
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm so conditioned to I do what I do.
18:31
[SPEAKER_03]: They do what they do, right?
18:33
[SPEAKER_03]: That partnership that I'm so used to that, you know what I mean?
18:36
[SPEAKER_03]: And so through that process, I've learned like even growing up.
18:40
[SPEAKER_03]: Like I had this one.
18:41
[SPEAKER_03]: I never forget this year.
18:42
[SPEAKER_03]: I was 12 years old bro.
18:43
[SPEAKER_03]: I never forget that this was this was my turning point like your song right I was 12 years old and at the career we had this thing called the black expo yeah black expo right and so we had the black expo we had a five on five basketball tournament and we had a three on three we had a two on two father son tournament right.
19:01
[SPEAKER_03]: So during this tournament, I would always like be the ball boy.
19:04
[SPEAKER_03]: I would help get rebounds and I was always involved.
19:07
[SPEAKER_03]: But I was one of the best athletes in my hometown period.
19:09
[SPEAKER_03]: Hands down, every sport, yeah, every sport.
19:12
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
19:13
[SPEAKER_03]: But I could never play in this game, right?
19:15
[SPEAKER_03]: I seen my home boy.
19:16
[SPEAKER_03]: I was 12 years old, bro.
19:17
[SPEAKER_03]: I had a basketball in my hand.
19:18
[SPEAKER_03]: I was leaning on the fence.
19:19
[SPEAKER_03]: That hit me on, go ahead.
19:20
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
19:21
[SPEAKER_03]: And so I was watching my home boy, his dad play on this scene.
19:25
[SPEAKER_03]: I was watching my other partner, his dad playing on the other end.
19:27
[SPEAKER_03]: And I'm standing in the middle of this fence watching these games going, I started balling crying.
19:32
[SPEAKER_03]: I mean, like, snop bubbles, little Roscoe, right, little Roscoe crying.
19:36
[SPEAKER_03]: And so I ran home and I ran home, like, two miles full speed, but I got home.
19:41
[SPEAKER_03]: I dug my head in the pillow and cried myself to sleep, right?
19:46
[SPEAKER_03]: But the thing was when I woke up.
19:48
[SPEAKER_03]: I was somebody completely different.
19:50
[SPEAKER_03]: Because what I had in my head when I woke up was, I'm gonna be so good.
19:54
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm gonna make my daddy coming to me, right?
19:57
[SPEAKER_03]: On top of that, anybody that sure will put day daddy, I'm gonna destroy them.
20:02
[SPEAKER_03]: And I'm gonna embarrass them in front of day daddy, right?
20:06
[SPEAKER_03]: So everything that, at my whole entire being,
20:10
[SPEAKER_03]: If I think you walking with your dad, okay, boom, that's my target.
20:13
[SPEAKER_03]: I feel like killing.
20:13
[SPEAKER_03]: I feel embarrassed him in front of his daddy, right?
20:16
[SPEAKER_03]: That was my genetic makeup at the time.
20:18
[SPEAKER_03]: And everything I did was to outwork every single body that was in my path, in my way.
20:23
[SPEAKER_03]: And we was lined up, it was gonna be a long day.
20:25
[SPEAKER_03]: And then back in my mind was, I feel embarrassed in front of his daddy.
20:29
[SPEAKER_03]: That was my whole mentality up until my dad died.
20:33
[SPEAKER_03]: Crazy the up until my dad died.
20:35
[SPEAKER_03]: That was my whole philosophy, my whole genetic make-up was that that was it.
20:40
[SPEAKER_03]: And so that childhood, my whole childhood was banked on that type of mentality and not having that dad and just seeing everybody and like, hey, like I have my pop-off, you know what I'm saying?
20:53
[SPEAKER_03]: My granddad, I have my granddad, that was my dude.
20:55
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
20:55
[SPEAKER_03]: That was my best friend.
20:57
[SPEAKER_03]: But it wasn't my dad, you know what I mean?
20:59
[SPEAKER_03]: It wasn't that same thing.
21:01
[SPEAKER_03]: It was the same love.
21:02
[SPEAKER_03]: It was the same nurture.
21:03
[SPEAKER_03]: It was the same tough lessons.
21:05
[SPEAKER_03]: It was the same, all of those things.
21:08
[SPEAKER_03]: But it just wasn't my dad.
21:09
[SPEAKER_03]: And the story that I knew about my dad was,
21:13
[SPEAKER_03]: I just wasn't, I wasn't getting enough for my dad.
21:16
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
21:17
[SPEAKER_03]: Up until I got a little older, I'll tell you that story later on too, but up until I got into age to really realize what this was.
21:24
[SPEAKER_03]: You know, and so that was kind of my whole childhood growing up.
21:29
[SPEAKER_05]: to you there, like no dad, you got Paul Paul, you come up with this amazing plan, way to read, calibrate, and turn your pain into fuel.
21:39
[SPEAKER_05]: Cause like literally, you know, and here's the thing, if you watching this, I'm not trying to over talk him on building bridge.
21:46
[SPEAKER_05]: My thing was, I'm gonna be so good that I'm gonna show my mama everything she missed out on.
21:52
[SPEAKER_05]: Even though I got a mama, even though I have a dad, they adopted me and saw a good, but I'm gonna be a star.
21:59
[SPEAKER_05]: So you can know Man, I should have killed What that that was my ticket out of wherever she was.
22:08
[SPEAKER_05]: Then I ended up meeting them
22:10
[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm like, you have a heart of pretty willy.
22:12
[SPEAKER_05]: She's like, no, I never, I never had the opportunity.
22:15
[SPEAKER_05]: I was like, damn it.
22:17
[SPEAKER_05]: I didn't get out of this work, you know what I mean?
22:19
[SPEAKER_05]: And you didn't, you didn't know who I was.
22:22
[SPEAKER_05]: You're like, but it sounds like you were a man.
22:25
[SPEAKER_05]: And I wouldn't, you know, and it was really, really cool.
22:27
[SPEAKER_05]: Did you ever get the opportunity to lock eyes with him and have a strong conversation with your father?
22:32
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, definitely.
22:33
[SPEAKER_03]: I met my dad when I was going into my sophomore year college first time meeting.
22:37
[SPEAKER_03]: And then the first thing I asked him, I was like, what happened?
22:40
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
22:41
[SPEAKER_03]: And he looked at me in my eyes.
22:43
[SPEAKER_03]: And he was like, he was like, I ain't got a lot to you.
22:46
[SPEAKER_03]: He said, I just felt like I won't get enough to be a dad.
22:48
[SPEAKER_03]: You know, at that point in time, I'm like, what do you mean?
22:53
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, that's not like an excuse, right?
22:55
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm 19, 20 years old, immature as ever.
22:58
[SPEAKER_03]: Her, you know what I mean?
22:59
[SPEAKER_03]: And I'm here, you say like, you just, you're not good enough to do my dad.
23:02
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, that don't even sound right, right?
23:04
[SPEAKER_03]: And so, but from there, from that standpoint, it was like, at the end of the day, when all the things were occurring,
23:11
[SPEAKER_03]: I was like, he was telling me this.
23:14
[SPEAKER_03]: He was telling me a story, was getting to know each other.
23:15
[SPEAKER_03]: It was more like, better than the friendship.
23:17
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, yeah, I missed this.
23:19
[SPEAKER_03]: Let's just be cool right now.
23:20
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
23:21
[SPEAKER_03]: But then what I found out was, I had older brothers.
23:24
[SPEAKER_03]: Right?
23:24
[SPEAKER_03]: I got my dad got five, five boys, right?
23:28
[SPEAKER_03]: Six boys and so five of them have all been in trouble.
23:32
[SPEAKER_03]: He's been directly in all of their lives, right?
23:35
[SPEAKER_03]: Four out of the five have been in trouble at some type of way shape before.
23:39
[SPEAKER_03]: The youngest one was like 10, 12 at the time, right?
23:43
[SPEAKER_03]: So what I realized and I found out about my dad, he never met his dad and never seen his dad before in his life, right?
23:51
[SPEAKER_03]: Understanding the background now is like, hey, I never have no dad.
23:56
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't even know what I'm doing by my track record.
24:00
[SPEAKER_03]: It don't seem like I'm pretty good at this.
24:02
[SPEAKER_03]: I got a son that said Indiana that I don't have nothing to do with.
24:05
[SPEAKER_03]: He seemed like he's doing pretty good.
24:07
[SPEAKER_03]: Let me not mess that up too, right?
24:10
[SPEAKER_03]: So as I got older and matured a lot more, I understood, like, oh, that has to be a terrible feeling to feel like you're not good enough for your own seat, right?
24:19
[SPEAKER_03]: And so after he died, I went to his funeral.
24:23
[SPEAKER_03]: I found out everybody in his space.
24:26
[SPEAKER_03]: know everything about me, right?
24:28
[SPEAKER_03]: So it wasn't that he didn't want it.
24:31
[SPEAKER_03]: They, everybody at his funeral knew everything about me that I've never met before.
24:36
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
24:37
[SPEAKER_03]: And so it was, it was, it was like, dang, like, post really rock with me.
24:43
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
24:44
[SPEAKER_03]: But this is all after he passed.
24:46
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
24:46
[SPEAKER_03]: And so now it's like in hindsight, being a father now, you kind of like, eh, bro, like, I kind of missed that, right?
24:54
[SPEAKER_03]: I kind of missed, I mixed and screwed because I wasn't emotionally mature to be able to and take this on and be able to regurgitate it in a way that wasn't just based on feeling, wasn't just based on childhood, was based on right now.
25:07
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, let's get this right right now.
25:09
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I'm saying?
25:09
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, we met now, let's figure this out right now.
25:12
[SPEAKER_03]: You know, moving forward and so I'll never get that opportunity.
25:14
[SPEAKER_03]: I tell people all the time, like, I don't care what your parent did.
25:17
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't care who they are, what happened, you have to forgive them for you, right?
25:22
[SPEAKER_03]: I had to forgive my dad for me.
25:24
[SPEAKER_03]: What's off of gave him for me, now the conversations that I have with my cousins, my family, like I mean family, I ain't never seen before my life, right?
25:32
[SPEAKER_03]: You don't say, I understand, like never, never seen before my life and really having an opportunity to build a relationship with them.
25:38
[SPEAKER_03]: and they know like, hey, that's cause right there, right?
25:42
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, that's my family right there.
25:43
[SPEAKER_03]: Even on Facebook and all this stuff, like, being able to see people that I've never met before my life.
25:48
[SPEAKER_03]: I met my oldest brother probably like six months ago for the first time.
25:52
[SPEAKER_03]: Me and them look just alike, we just end like, it, me being always being the oldest, me always having to be, it felt good to be little bro.
26:01
[SPEAKER_03]: Yes, you know what I'm saying?
26:03
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I don't know, like, it feel good like, yeah, I got a big brother, like, I can finally call on somebody, if I don't know something and so now for me, not having these relationships and not having these father figures and having all of these, these quote unquote mentors or people that that you're looking to for guidance, kind of to do you in the wrong direction, you kind of hesitant.
26:27
[SPEAKER_03]: We're having relationship with men, right?
26:29
[SPEAKER_03]: And for me personally, right?
26:31
[SPEAKER_03]: And so I would always be hesitant.
26:33
[SPEAKER_03]: I think so.
26:34
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you right.
26:34
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
26:35
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, yeah.
26:36
[SPEAKER_03]: I would always be hesitant to be like, oh, I don't been on this road.
26:40
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, you know what I mean?
26:41
[SPEAKER_03]: It's hard for me to build connect real gene relationships because I've always felt like they would send me through the wall and then they'll walk through it.
26:50
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm saying, so even if I'm like, hey, bro, like, I'm trying to figure out how to let me know what I need to do.
26:55
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm, I'm with it, like I'm gonna do the work.
26:58
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
26:58
[SPEAKER_03]: They're like, all right, cool, go kick down the brick wall.
27:00
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, you just gotta keep hitting it.
27:02
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, yeah, I'm like, oh my god, like this is crap, but if this were to take, you don't say I'm gonna do it.
27:06
[SPEAKER_03]: And then I knocked the wall down and they walked through it.
27:08
[SPEAKER_03]: And I'm like, what else?
27:09
[SPEAKER_03]: They're like, yeah, we got another wall.
27:10
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, wait a minute, hold on.
27:12
[SPEAKER_03]: I can't be just like, you know what I'm saying?
27:14
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, so...
27:15
[SPEAKER_03]: feeling like, from one end, you feel like you just put in dudes and you paying dudes, right, we're on the other end, you like something that happened up here.
27:21
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I mean?
27:22
[SPEAKER_03]: So that's what kind of shifted that perspective.
27:25
[SPEAKER_05]: It's so crazy.
27:27
[SPEAKER_05]: I would tell them my other guess that I, you know, I hit the prayer closet about five.
27:32
[SPEAKER_05]: Sometimes I fall asleep in there.
27:33
[SPEAKER_05]: I ain't gonna lie.
27:34
[SPEAKER_05]: I'd be like, man, you know, God, I'm just trying to be faithful.
27:37
[SPEAKER_05]: I feel like boy, go to sleep.
27:38
[SPEAKER_05]: I just go to sleep in there.
27:39
[SPEAKER_05]: I don't know if you say go to sleep, but I show them
27:42
[SPEAKER_05]: But when I get on the trail me a trail me like your revelation, so I'm going to trip me a downstairs.
27:47
[SPEAKER_05]: I have a gym in our office here and I'm on trail me.
27:52
[SPEAKER_05]: So I'm praying for my guests today and I pray about you and then all I can appear in just in my spirit is keep your word like keep your word keep your word and then where you're talking I realize that
28:09
[SPEAKER_05]: for you, the biggest honor, it's for somebody to keep their word.
28:16
[SPEAKER_05]: Like as you talking, I'm like, oh, okay, because I don't even know what that means.
28:19
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm like, keep my word.
28:21
[SPEAKER_05]: Well, I'm keeping my word here.
28:22
[SPEAKER_05]: It's what it's like.
28:23
[SPEAKER_05]: But I realize now.
28:25
[SPEAKER_05]: for a man to truly build connection with Kia, it's just be a man in your word.
28:29
[SPEAKER_05]: If you say you gonna do some, bro just show up and do what you said you was gonna do.
28:34
[SPEAKER_05]: So I just wanted to kind of pivot and be like, okay, now I get it.
28:37
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm trying to get my piece because I'm like, well, I don't kept my word, but to those of you who want to connect on a more intimate level, as a brother, like a man don't give me the fluff, just keep it 100 with me.
28:49
[SPEAKER_05]: If you can do it, do it.
28:50
[SPEAKER_05]: Don't give me the pitch, give me the truth.
28:52
[SPEAKER_05]: You know, and I think you can handle true.
28:54
[SPEAKER_05]: So when I look at your father and I'm just like okay cool he didn't want to be in the life because he looking at all these kids like I kind of messin up here's this very successful guy I feel like is it safe to say in our humility that like man I don't want to fail like I don't want to fail with this and then when I look at the parallel of you walking into your house and feeling like a failure you know the Bible says that the sins of the father will be passed on to the sun
29:19
[SPEAKER_05]: And it's like some of those attributes like they go in and you like man I don't even know why I feel like this or whatever right like being like when I finally Remember my biological father.
29:29
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm like, oh I got to watch it with you know.
29:31
[SPEAKER_05]: I got to watch it with you know.
29:34
[SPEAKER_05]: I got to watch it with that alcohol
29:35
[SPEAKER_05]: Now they, you know, because he, he never gained good, but if we're gonna pop, we know it's gonna have an air date.
29:41
[SPEAKER_05]: Like, no, he never gained good, but you know he can't, you know he can't have a little someone with him.
29:46
[SPEAKER_05]: And you know what I'm saying?
29:47
[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm like, oh, those are my, my struggles.
29:49
[SPEAKER_05]: Then I put in your business industry because you're a good man.
29:51
[SPEAKER_05]: Or God willing to be a good man in my pit.
29:53
[SPEAKER_05]: But I'm like, some of that stuff got it in with me.
29:57
[SPEAKER_05]: I didn't know about divorce being in my bloodline until I met them and if I would have known that there was something else that could be passed on from the father and the me.
30:08
[SPEAKER_05]: I probably would have chose a little later in like verses like, hey, like checking the box.
30:14
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
30:15
[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, man, a good man.
30:16
[SPEAKER_05]: show where I went and ran.
30:17
[SPEAKER_05]: You got to do that.
30:18
[SPEAKER_05]: You know, just kind of what they took you in business.
30:20
[SPEAKER_05]: It's just like, no, man, you got to really make sure that you map that thing out.
30:24
[SPEAKER_05]: So when you feel like a failure at home, how long did it take key on to speak up and say, hey, this don't feel right?
30:30
[SPEAKER_03]: I think it was done over time.
30:33
[SPEAKER_03]: But I think being still being immature is ever, right?
30:37
[SPEAKER_03]: Not even understanding what man that is, right?
30:39
[SPEAKER_03]: So for me, you know what I'm saying?
30:41
[SPEAKER_03]: Like for me, it was more like,
30:45
[SPEAKER_03]: Right, let me find my own happiness.
30:47
[SPEAKER_03]: Let me go, oh, did you give me a little attention?
30:49
[SPEAKER_03]: Let me just start spending some time over here, right?
30:51
[SPEAKER_03]: Let me just, oh, it making me feel good over here.
30:53
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, let me, let me do that.
30:55
[SPEAKER_03]: And so those were the things that ended up happening and started to transpire.
30:59
[SPEAKER_03]: And it started to make me feel good.
31:01
[SPEAKER_03]: So when I came home, I didn't even feel that pressure anymore.
31:04
[SPEAKER_03]: Right, I didn't have this, like, I'm good.
31:05
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, I'm, I'm here, but I ain't even paying attention to you, because I don't already got my ego rubbed over here.
31:11
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
31:12
[SPEAKER_03]: You're like real spill.
31:14
[SPEAKER_03]: From that standpoint, it wasn't me ever speaking up like, hey, look, like, this ain't something right, right?
31:20
[SPEAKER_03]: It was more or less like, all right, just keep doing your thing.
31:22
[SPEAKER_03]: All right, you don't want to hear no way, all right, cool.
31:24
[SPEAKER_03]: I figured out, like, I'm good.
31:25
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, I can make do with the dude, you know what I'm saying?
31:27
[SPEAKER_03]: And so I think that was the way that I went about it, which was completely wrong.
31:31
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I mean?
31:32
[SPEAKER_03]: I should have spoke up.
31:33
[SPEAKER_03]: I should have said this.
31:34
[SPEAKER_03]: I should have been able to communicate, because I was a terrible communicator.
31:38
[SPEAKER_03]: I was more of a a get quiet.
31:41
[SPEAKER_03]: I'll just get quiet and, you know, I'm saying, I bet a time for the right.
31:45
[SPEAKER_03]: I ain't even trying to argue with you.
31:47
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, you got it.
31:47
[SPEAKER_03]: You want it.
31:48
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm a white flagger.
31:49
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I'm a black flagger.
31:50
[SPEAKER_05]: And then I'll be on my taste, man.
31:51
[SPEAKER_05]: Like it's crazy.
31:52
[SPEAKER_05]: What you what you doing?
31:53
[SPEAKER_05]: What you doing?
31:54
[SPEAKER_05]: Go.
31:54
[SPEAKER_03]: That's it, you know what I'm saying?
31:56
[SPEAKER_03]: And so I think those were the things that I learned that was wrong, and I learned to kind of recondition and reshape, but back to your point like you were saying being passed down, it was the same type of thing.
32:06
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
32:08
[SPEAKER_03]: Like that's what I grew up.
32:09
[SPEAKER_03]: That's what I really seemed.
32:10
[SPEAKER_03]: That's what the OG's was teaching.
32:12
[SPEAKER_03]: That was, you know what I'm saying?
32:14
[SPEAKER_03]: That's what I held on to were those type of things.
32:17
[SPEAKER_03]: And it's like, bro, like, I was taught how to survive as a man by unhealed men.
32:23
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
32:25
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, bike, real, the moment right there.
32:29
[SPEAKER_03]: It's not for you, dude.
32:30
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
32:31
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
32:32
[SPEAKER_03]: But then at the same time, we don't know what we don't know.
32:35
[SPEAKER_03]: So if my pops wasn't taught by his pops, he's teaching what he knows.
32:41
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
32:42
[SPEAKER_03]: Even the cats in the, at the crib, even the cats in the hood, the cats that's coming by, that's, hey, what's, you know what I'm saying?
32:49
[SPEAKER_03]: you're not even regulated, you're not even understanding that what you're doing is wrong.
32:54
[SPEAKER_03]: You're not even understanding that you're sitting in a foundation that's not strong.
32:58
[SPEAKER_03]: So now all we're doing is passing down, lying at the line, at the line, at some BS.
33:03
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
33:03
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm teaching, I'm going to start this BS.
33:05
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to teach you this.
33:06
[SPEAKER_03]: That's how you should do it, right?
33:07
[SPEAKER_03]: Get you two or three of them, you know what I'm saying?
33:09
[SPEAKER_03]: You have one for your money, but you have one, that's like, bro, you sound like an idiot.
33:13
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
33:14
[SPEAKER_03]: Because at the end of the day when you know like for me personally,
33:20
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't want nothing, I don't want nobody else, it's nothing, right?
33:23
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't know what they did for it, I don't know how they work for it, I only want was mine.
33:28
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
33:28
[SPEAKER_03]: And it was meant for me, my money success, people, like anybody that's the one I only want was mine, right?
33:35
[SPEAKER_03]: And because of everything is going to fit like a glove, right?
33:40
[SPEAKER_03]: It's going to be some areas where some people better than I am, that's good.
33:43
[SPEAKER_03]: That's good.
33:44
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
33:45
[SPEAKER_03]: It's gonna be some areas that I don't understand that they do.
33:48
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, that's good.
33:49
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I mean, but my people understand me.
33:52
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, my lady's gonna understand me.
33:54
[SPEAKER_03]: My kids understand me.
33:56
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
33:57
[SPEAKER_03]: And at the end of it, everything that I do everything that I live by everything that I go off of is love.
34:03
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I'm saying?
34:04
[SPEAKER_03]: Like I leave with love and from there.
34:07
[SPEAKER_03]: Good.
34:08
[SPEAKER_03]: No, it's good.
34:09
[SPEAKER_03]: I want I wanted to ask you this.
34:11
[SPEAKER_05]: when you finally go through this divorce process, how hard was it for you to look at the same woman that you said I do to and realize that the version that you said I do to no longer live there?
34:28
[SPEAKER_05]: Yep.
34:28
[SPEAKER_05]: How hard was that for you?
34:29
[SPEAKER_03]: It was so hard because like even going through the process, like things that would occur, things that were being said, things that were being done, it's like,
34:40
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, what, like, for real?
34:43
[SPEAKER_03]: This what we doing, you know what I mean?
34:45
[SPEAKER_03]: And so for me, it's like, I would have never even thought to even think that way, right?
34:50
[SPEAKER_03]: I would never even, and so for me, it's like, did I even know you, right?
34:55
[SPEAKER_03]: Was I blinded by a lot of things, but then I also look at it as, what did I do to cause that?
35:01
[SPEAKER_03]: Right, right?
35:02
[SPEAKER_03]: What was my role in it?
35:03
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, because I still feel like,
35:06
[SPEAKER_03]: regardless of the fact, I'm the leader.
35:10
[SPEAKER_03]: Everything starts with me.
35:11
[SPEAKER_03]: If I don't create a strong foundation, nothing behind me will.
35:16
[SPEAKER_03]: Everything else, everything else is just going to go and do what it do.
35:19
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
35:20
[SPEAKER_03]: And two, you laid out a strong foundation.
35:22
[SPEAKER_03]: But if I don't have a strong foundation, ain't no way for me to lay down a strong foundation.
35:26
[SPEAKER_03]: And as a woman, I think what I've learned as a woman, women can pick up on if a man got a strong foundation or not.
35:32
[SPEAKER_03]: So when you don't, when you're not alive, when a lot of cats be like, man, she only let me lead.
35:37
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like you're not a leader.
35:38
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like, hey, bro, you ain't got leadership quality.
35:40
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
35:41
[SPEAKER_03]: And so everything, everything stems from so many different, that like, I'm just, it's like, bro, you're not showing up as a leader.
35:48
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't think I was showing up as a leader.
35:50
[SPEAKER_03]: That's fair.
35:50
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
35:51
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, because of like I said took the elves took it is all these different things.
35:56
[SPEAKER_03]: So emotionally, I'm all over the place.
35:59
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
36:00
[SPEAKER_03]: Then after that my granddaddy died.
36:02
[SPEAKER_03]: So that really put me in a in a. Yeah, yeah, it threw me for a loop.
36:07
[SPEAKER_03]: Like it, it it.
36:08
[SPEAKER_03]: It was so bad that I would be paid to come do an event.
36:12
[SPEAKER_03]: I could wake up and the water not get hot enough in my shower.
36:20
[SPEAKER_03]: I got laid back now.
36:21
[SPEAKER_03]: Like I was so depressed and down, like it was terrible.
36:24
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
36:25
[SPEAKER_03]: That was the only, the only father for your guy knew.
36:27
[SPEAKER_03]: It was the only dude that I, that was my, like literally, he was such an important part of my life.
36:36
[SPEAKER_03]: I didn't talk to him.
36:37
[SPEAKER_03]: I talked to him every day.
36:38
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
36:39
[SPEAKER_03]: Every single day.
36:39
[SPEAKER_03]: I still got his voicemails.
36:41
[SPEAKER_03]: I talked to him every day.
36:42
[SPEAKER_03]: So, it was a Sunday, I talked to him.
36:46
[SPEAKER_03]: He rushed out of my hands and I'm going to cry back.
36:47
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to go chill.
36:49
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
36:50
[SPEAKER_03]: Monday I didn't hear from him.
36:51
[SPEAKER_03]: So I'm like, my pop-up almost got busy today.
36:54
[SPEAKER_03]: Tuesday morning, I get a call from his number.
36:56
[SPEAKER_03]: It's my uncle, Tim.
36:58
[SPEAKER_03]: Hey, you're granddaddy, he ain't here.
36:59
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, where he ain't come home?
37:01
[SPEAKER_03]: Now he ain't make it.
37:02
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, where he was supposed to go?
37:04
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
37:05
[SPEAKER_03]: Like he died.
37:06
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, he crazy.
37:08
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, get off my phone.
37:09
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
37:10
[SPEAKER_03]: He called back.
37:10
[SPEAKER_03]: He was like, no, we walked in in the house.
37:12
[SPEAKER_03]: So me not talking to him for one day.
37:16
[SPEAKER_03]: is the day that he passed.
37:18
[SPEAKER_03]: So imagine that like that stronghold, you know what I mean?
37:21
[SPEAKER_03]: So like dealing with all of that on top of this loss, on top of that on top of this, on top of this, my therapist was like, bro, you are walking grief.
37:29
[SPEAKER_03]: You just really walking, you are walking ball agree from closing stores down to losing everything to, you know what I'm saying?
37:37
[SPEAKER_03]: On top of having a dependency issue, where everything, it's, my trigger is people leaving, but then closing a store, closing another store, shutting this down, my granddaddy dime, my daddy dime, my grandma just packed like back to back to back to back to back, you know what I'm saying?
37:54
[SPEAKER_03]: So it creates this,
37:56
[SPEAKER_03]: Like a shale, where it's like, I just gotta keep going.
38:01
[SPEAKER_03]: I just gotta walk, I just gotta get up and go.
38:04
[SPEAKER_03]: Like as long as I can do that, I'm good.
38:06
[SPEAKER_03]: You understand?
38:07
[SPEAKER_03]: So that's kind of the balance of that.
38:11
[SPEAKER_05]: How did you respond to the grief ball now?
38:16
[SPEAKER_03]: I was just tested, probably about a month ago in my grandma pass.
38:20
[SPEAKER_03]: And so that was my granddaddy's wife, you know what I'm saying?
38:24
[SPEAKER_03]: And so it hit me different.
38:26
[SPEAKER_03]: I actually officiate her funeral.
38:29
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, and that was, that was different, you know, and, but for me, my grandmother, I went to go pick her up from Florida and moved her, extracted her from Florida and she went to go move my mom.
38:39
[SPEAKER_03]: So I went and picked her up, drove, we was back there.
38:42
[SPEAKER_03]: We came, we spent so much time together.
38:44
[SPEAKER_03]: I've never spent this type of time with my grandmother, right?
38:48
[SPEAKER_03]: Just me and her, like, you know what I mean?
38:50
[SPEAKER_03]: Really telling me how she loved me, when she thought how she felt, she was a, I mean, she was literally,
38:55
[SPEAKER_03]: the life of every room she goes into.
38:57
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
38:59
[SPEAKER_03]: And so spending that time with her and knowing like the pain she's saying, she's one of them, she's all country grammar.
39:05
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
39:05
[SPEAKER_03]: Don't want you to worry about her.
39:07
[SPEAKER_03]: She good, don't want you know what I'm saying.
39:10
[SPEAKER_03]: But then when she passed,
39:12
[SPEAKER_03]: I felt this is a relief for her, right?
39:15
[SPEAKER_03]: I didn't really, and it's still kind of crazy that I came to this caller, you know what I'm saying?
39:21
[SPEAKER_03]: But I still feel this, I still feel her energy around me.
39:26
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
39:27
[SPEAKER_03]: Because she's like, she told me, she was like, baby.
39:29
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't care what you do.
39:30
[SPEAKER_03]: This is this is my granny.
39:32
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't care.
39:32
[SPEAKER_03]: You showed them mother.
39:34
[SPEAKER_03]: Who you're my grandson.
39:35
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, yeah, that's what I'm saying.
39:36
[SPEAKER_03]: Like I'm talking about like, yeah, about a what room, no matter what it's this, this is my grandmother, you know, saying I'm our oldest grandchild, like, like all that stuff.
39:46
[SPEAKER_03]: And so for this one, it was kind of like,
39:50
[SPEAKER_03]: It's kind of numb, but it's still like joyful, in a sense, right?
39:54
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like, I agree, you're good now.
39:57
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I mean?
39:57
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, do you think it's different or do you think you're different?
40:01
[SPEAKER_03]: I think I'm different.
40:02
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I think I'm different.
40:03
[SPEAKER_03]: I think for sure, I'm different.
40:04
[SPEAKER_03]: Cause I think that like any other time, I probably would have been,
40:09
[SPEAKER_03]: just somebody rock so we're all like we're all know how many to be the bodies I got in me but you know what I'm saying but like it's it's definitely a different different understanding with them myself right so it's like what I what I equated to is you know you on the treadmill right yes and we all hit that that moment where we like I want to get off this
40:29
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, I'm like, I'm done, you know what I'm saying?
40:32
[SPEAKER_03]: But you may not have been done with the workout, right?
40:35
[SPEAKER_03]: And that little slight second that you have to make a decision was to jump off or stay on, right?
40:41
[SPEAKER_03]: That's that quit button.
40:42
[SPEAKER_03]: That's that, that's that protect button, right?
40:45
[SPEAKER_03]: And so for me, I think I felt that so much.
40:49
[SPEAKER_03]: and I've learned how to adjust, right?
40:53
[SPEAKER_03]: So it's like being on a treadmill, you run in, it's like, all right cool, let me slow my pace down a little bit.
40:57
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't have to get off the treadmill.
40:58
[SPEAKER_03]: Let me just slow down a little bit, right?
41:00
[SPEAKER_03]: Instead of a band and shit, right?
41:03
[SPEAKER_03]: And so the same thing, when you're in the fights, my hitting and nose, you like, bro, like, you got to make a decision whether you want to keep fighting or you want to, like, that's a slight, slight moment that you got to make that decision, you know what I'm saying?
41:13
[SPEAKER_03]: Real quick.
41:14
[SPEAKER_03]: And so in life, it's kind of the same thing for me.
41:16
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like when things happen,
41:19
[SPEAKER_03]: to make a decision.
41:21
[SPEAKER_03]: And now, all of my decisions are made to just keep going.
41:25
[SPEAKER_03]: Before they were like, man, freak is junk, bro.
41:30
[SPEAKER_03]: But now everything that I've been doing, every moment, every thing that occurs with me now, it's like cool.
41:37
[SPEAKER_03]: Let's figure it out.
41:38
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
41:39
[SPEAKER_03]: Cool.
41:40
[SPEAKER_03]: Let's figure it out.
41:40
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
41:41
[SPEAKER_03]: There's no more panic mode.
41:43
[SPEAKER_03]: They're going to do this.
41:43
[SPEAKER_03]: Like you said, I don't have the repose.
41:45
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't have the, the VIXX.
41:46
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't have all of that stuff.
41:48
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
41:48
[SPEAKER_03]: So now it's like, bro, like, we're doing this again.
41:51
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
41:52
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
41:52
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, let me just, let me just get into my, my space and really understand what's going on.
41:57
[SPEAKER_03]: And then it gives me a clear view to attack it in that money.
42:00
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
42:03
[SPEAKER_05]: So I wanted to go here.
42:04
[SPEAKER_05]: So I do want to put this on record because I don't want to forget this question.
42:08
[SPEAKER_05]: I want to ask what this fatherhood look like now for Kian.
42:11
[SPEAKER_05]: That's where I want to go.
42:13
[SPEAKER_05]: And then boom, guy kind of inserted himself.
42:16
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm like, I want to go right here.
42:17
[SPEAKER_05]: I believe God is challenging you to surrender.
42:27
[SPEAKER_05]: Christians mess up a lot in front of people.
42:31
[SPEAKER_05]: And people like you watch your sponge of information.
42:37
[SPEAKER_05]: And like God is kind of putting you in a place in that words like, I need you to lean on me the way I need you to lean on me, based upon the relationship that I want to establish with you, it's going to be true.
42:50
[SPEAKER_05]: It's going to be authentic.
42:51
[SPEAKER_05]: It's going to be, it ain't going to be like nothing that people in Christianity have shown you and let you die.
42:59
[SPEAKER_05]: Like a lot of these guys are fake, a lot of these guys that put some staying on wood is the truth and it ain't got nothing to do with him.
43:08
[SPEAKER_05]: I mean, you from the neighborhood, I can speak to you that way and tell you, you know how you kind of.
43:14
[SPEAKER_05]: See a guy and you know you think he won't think and then he end up being another thing and it'd be like, man, all guys like that like that.
43:22
[SPEAKER_05]: Right.
43:22
[SPEAKER_05]: So anything that's on that pedigree, I just kind of put you out, lump you out all together.
43:26
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
43:27
[SPEAKER_05]: It's one that you know, man.
43:28
[SPEAKER_05]: Like.
43:29
[SPEAKER_05]: like I really want to do some uniquely different this time and to connect you with brothers who really live in the life and brothers who live in the life and live in the faulty and then God put them in a train wreck and they really locked in with him that you know what I mean, because God really want to do some with you man, this testimony that I've just heard, you know what I mean, it doesn't just testimony the podcast of course.
43:51
[SPEAKER_05]: But to see all that you've gone through, I just don't think a loving guy would allow you to go through all of that without wanting to use the story.
43:59
[SPEAKER_05]: The Bible says that people are overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the Word of the testimony.
44:04
[SPEAKER_05]: Now Christians get mad at this sometimes when I say that, but it was like it wasn't like one was stronger than the other in that particular sentence in the Bible.
44:13
[SPEAKER_05]: The blood and Lamb in the testimony were equally prominent and powerful.
44:18
[SPEAKER_05]: And now God is giving you this amazing testimony of being on the other side.
44:23
[SPEAKER_05]: But I do feel in my spirit because I want to kind of get that part before I hit you with this one, no.
44:29
[SPEAKER_05]: But man, like slow down sometime also require like rest.
44:35
[SPEAKER_05]: And that's the hardest thing for people who are going to go get it.
44:38
[SPEAKER_05]: To know that God wants to do more in our rest than he can ever do in our work.
44:43
[SPEAKER_05]: But the last 11 months I've been doing the Sabbath.
44:46
[SPEAKER_05]: on a Saturdays and Saturdays, my day to get it because the kids is gone playing ball.
44:53
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm gonna go to that, but when they get finished, I don't mind you playing the game more than two.
44:56
[SPEAKER_05]: I was going to the beginning, so I would go get it.
44:59
[SPEAKER_05]: I started to force myself to create a regimen of Sabbath and now I'm in this process of buying some things and the agents like what Saturday they're doing this and I had to have a strong, stern, hey bro.
45:16
[SPEAKER_05]: On Sunday, after Saturday, said, I really do appreciate you honoring my Sabbath and no calls for me, and I know that that may have been uncomfortable, and it takes a lot of trust to work with somebody who chooses God on the Saturday, but.
45:33
[SPEAKER_05]: Man, it's something I'm trying to be in 11 months.
45:35
[SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
45:36
[SPEAKER_05]: And that made me back and said, I need to do the same thing, bro.
45:41
[SPEAKER_05]: Like I, all I know how to do is work, and it just opened up a conversation for him and I to create a different type of synergy, and then I feel God in my spirit saying,
45:51
[SPEAKER_05]: That minister more than any word that you could have a said to a man that's like that because he knows you go to work It's starting me and you can look at them.
45:59
[SPEAKER_05]: I just can't go to work.
46:00
[SPEAKER_05]: You look at me like they're gonna find a way He gonna work like he gonna work But man, I just feeling my spirit man like I want to show you more your risk
46:08
[SPEAKER_05]: Is there a day that you can maybe take where you say, man, you know what I just want and it'll be difficult for a man who grind and like when you came in, you set up your stuff and tell us on first guess of it and be like, hey, I got to bring my stuff right away because he's a really grind it, but is there a day that he can trust God with the same man I own this day.
46:28
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm just, I'm gonna sit here and try not to do much.
46:31
[SPEAKER_05]: Is there a day?
46:33
[SPEAKER_03]: I don't think I thought about it, but I can make it happen.
46:37
[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
46:38
[SPEAKER_03]: I can definitely, I can definitely be obedient in that aspect to find a day to make shape.
46:43
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
46:44
[SPEAKER_03]: I've never really, never really had a all-a-days assigned to me.
46:48
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
46:49
[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, we grind it.
46:50
[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, if we grew up on HIPHOP.
46:51
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, hey, come on Liz, hey, day's week.
46:57
[SPEAKER_03]: One of the things that that I really started to adopt, bro, is
47:03
[SPEAKER_03]: this notion of hustling, grinding, getting it out the mud, those were survival mode.
47:11
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I'm saying?
47:13
[SPEAKER_03]: That's where we idolize survival mode.
47:17
[SPEAKER_03]: When somebody that we see, be like, where you got it out the mud, but we're gonna rock with him more than somebody that didn't, right?
47:24
[SPEAKER_03]: And so that's bothered me so long because you said it's earlier and it struck me too.
47:29
[SPEAKER_03]: But it's like, even when I'm up, I feel like I'm in survival mode.
47:33
[SPEAKER_03]: You know, I'm still getting times like I still feel like I'm in survivor mode because I don't want to I don't want that alien right yeah, but what I realize, bro, is that the difference is that the advocate of survivor mode is stewardship.
47:50
[SPEAKER_03]: All right, so now when I'm thinking about it, I'm looking at a stewardship and it's like not, not even just like on a biblical standpoint, not just from the Bible, it's like, bro, like, a stewardship is planning.
48:03
[SPEAKER_03]: Your stewardship is forecasting, right?
48:05
[SPEAKER_03]: Stewardship is doing what you're supposed to do, like I had a cold.
48:08
[SPEAKER_03]: Countdown.
48:09
[SPEAKER_03]: Bro, I had a coach bro.
48:10
[SPEAKER_03]: My football coach at Tuskegee.
48:12
[SPEAKER_03]: He came in, bro.
48:12
[SPEAKER_03]: We won.
48:13
[SPEAKER_03]: I probably lost two games.
48:14
[SPEAKER_03]: My whole career.
48:15
[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
48:16
[SPEAKER_03]: He came in and was like, listen, I got a coach with champion.
48:19
[SPEAKER_03]: Y'all want to win games?
48:20
[SPEAKER_03]: This is all you got to do.
48:21
[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
48:21
[SPEAKER_03]: He came in.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We think he coming in like Dion with the quotes and he said, be were you supposed to be?
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[SPEAKER_03]: Do what you supposed to do all the time.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Calculation.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Bro.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Do what you're supposed to do.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Do what you're supposed to be all the time.
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[SPEAKER_03]: We gonna win.
48:36
[SPEAKER_03]: And I'm like, what?
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[SPEAKER_03]: So now, 10, 15 years later, when I'm listening to that, that's the worship.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Were you supposed to be doing what you're supposed to do all the time?
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[SPEAKER_03]: All the time.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And you gonna win, right?
48:52
[SPEAKER_03]: So now when I think about hustling, it's like, hey, my partner got an opportunity of, oh, should I'm gonna go over there?
48:56
[SPEAKER_03]: Now you're supposed to be at your store right now.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Cause you're really feeling missed the opportunity that I was setting up for you at the store cause you're not where you're supposed to be.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right, or if you run in late, man, I spent a little bit more time doing this and I, you're not where you're supposed to be.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So you probably some probably going to occur.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So now when you when you take that component of it and you break it all the way down to the lowest common denominator is the turtle in the rabbit.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: The rabbit is hustling.
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[SPEAKER_03]: The rabbit going he fast athletic.
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[SPEAKER_03]: He got all the skills But he distracted every little thing pop up.
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[SPEAKER_03]: He on it, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: The turtle.
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[SPEAKER_03]: He locked me.
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[SPEAKER_03]: He got one go Going from here to there.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I don't care.
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[SPEAKER_03]: What's going on around me?
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[SPEAKER_03]: He got the blinders on.
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[SPEAKER_03]: He going from here to here.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Let's do a shit.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, that's true.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so those are the things that I started to adopt and it's like, okay
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[SPEAKER_03]: I gotta do what I do so well, right?
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[SPEAKER_03]: That when I set this goal up in these parameters, this is the only thing I'm doing.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So right after church after you finish eating,
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[SPEAKER_03]: because once I get there, everything is going to change for everybody around me, right?
51:04
[SPEAKER_03]: But the more that I'm distracted, basically what you say, right?
51:07
[SPEAKER_03]: The more that I'm distracted, the more I'm all over the place, the less I'm focused in on what I'm supposed to do to bless the people around me.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
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[SPEAKER_03]: So that's where I took that.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Man, I don't know, God just wants to have a deeper relationship to show you who he is.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He wants you to be a fan of him.
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[SPEAKER_05]: All right.
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[SPEAKER_05]: In your own strength, you can do so much.
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[SPEAKER_05]: but with him pushing behind your supernatural, I'm betraying your natural, just become super.
51:40
[SPEAKER_05]: And let's hear the thing, I'm not getting no key on.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm like, you are here because I'm proud of you.
51:47
[SPEAKER_05]: But I'm just hearing God saying that I can do more if I'm able to undergird his ideas.
51:54
[SPEAKER_05]: Like literally, if God is able to say, now that we're in Fibs Plaza, you start doing a Sabbath.
52:04
[SPEAKER_05]: you will get a chance to look at the numbers and see them go up, astronomically, and you will start to say, wait a minute, I've been working way too hard.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Case in point, I take myself off the world because my master's a dialysis journey.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I don't know how I'm gonna make you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I have no idea.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I make a certain amount of money standing on stages across the country, but I'm not leaving my mom with to do dialysis alone.
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[SPEAKER_05]: My dad's 92 years old at the time.
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[SPEAKER_05]: He can support her, but he can't support her like I can.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I travel to St. Louis by weekly every single week for a year to be with my mom on the whole her hand because I love her that much.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I guess I ain't never really trusted you like that because all I know how to do is survive and go get it.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm gonna be why I'm supposed to be doing what I'm supposed to be doing every time.
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[SPEAKER_05]: That's just how, you know, that's how I'm right.
53:05
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm from the neighborhood bro.
53:07
[SPEAKER_05]: Like, people come down to this city and they be lily gagging.
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[SPEAKER_05]: It's tough.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I don't understand.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Because you don't get these type of opportunities and say lose.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Right.
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[SPEAKER_05]: But when I did that,
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[SPEAKER_05]: I've become such a fan of God because I said in front of a podcast that my accountant probably thought was crazy that I was paying too much for.
53:25
[SPEAKER_05]: You can just get mics and you can just get this sit over there.
53:30
[SPEAKER_05]: That's it's more about the content than it is about the aesthetics.
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[SPEAKER_05]: No, I'm a king.
53:35
[SPEAKER_05]: I want when they look at it, I want them to feel like they watch TV, and plus I want to work with Katie Bowie, something about him in manhood that I think I'm supposed to glean from.
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[SPEAKER_05]: So I know it costs more, but can we not look at it as a cost, but can we look at it like a sea?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Can we look at it like that?
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[SPEAKER_05]: You know how you, when you see the tires come out, look at when I do content factory as a sea.
53:58
[SPEAKER_05]: Can now can't it make sense to you?
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[SPEAKER_05]: Well, I guess.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Because now you're going to look at this product.
54:03
[SPEAKER_05]: And God decided to breathe on this freaking podcast.
54:06
[SPEAKER_05]: The first episode, first two months, full transparency.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I didn't even know YouTube could get you no money.
54:14
[SPEAKER_05]: And then I let it fall off because life's all I life in or whatever and then I just decided to be consistent again.
54:20
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm saying all that not to be impressive, but to impress a point upon you and build a bridge that guy has blown my mind that I'm such a fan of him more than I am a fan of my own work.
54:33
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm looking at it like, oh my god, what he going to do this time, so I walk around with this urgency at my age now to tell my other brothers like, bro, it's kind of like when you're in the streets, I'm like, bro, A.
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[SPEAKER_05]: We got you can go to the NFL all you got to do is that cuz that's a way out.
54:54
[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, bro get that ball shoot a hundred free throws every day.
54:58
[SPEAKER_05]: You can get you a scholarship for me tracking field.
55:01
[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, bro, don't be smoking, bro.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Go run you from Berkeley.
55:04
[SPEAKER_05]: You can get a full ride scholarship to the SEC.
55:06
[SPEAKER_05]: That was my route.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Now I'm running back to entrepreneurs and stuff and they say, hey, God can do more and I less than he can do.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm much if we just be consistent for six and giving one them day.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm just saying, like, I broke because the enemy wanted to get our high blood pressure.
55:22
[SPEAKER_05]: Like I'm glad you're doing that and it's like, he want to get our health out of messed up.
55:26
[SPEAKER_05]: He wanted us working vigorously that we don't never get an opportunity to enjoy the fruits of our labor.
55:31
[SPEAKER_05]: I said, now I'm out.
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[SPEAKER_05]: My kids going also embrace rest.
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[SPEAKER_06]: Yeah.
55:35
[SPEAKER_05]: So as a father,
55:36
[SPEAKER_05]: It's like, well, you know what's that, you know what's heard?
55:38
[SPEAKER_05]: It's been a lot, man.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, you know what's heard?
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[SPEAKER_05]: You know that ain't gonna do that.
55:42
[SPEAKER_05]: You know what, even take no calls.
55:43
[SPEAKER_05]: Like everybody know what it is.
55:45
[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm like, oh, cool.
55:46
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm sending a new example for my children.
55:48
[SPEAKER_05]: Cause I got three boys.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I don't want them to get on grind grind grind grind.
55:52
[SPEAKER_05]: because you ain't got a grind grind grind.
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[SPEAKER_05]: All you got to do is faithful, faithful, faithful, be there, be what you pose to be, doing what you supposed to do all the time.
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[SPEAKER_05]: All the time, and now I'm just adding one caveat, and just give God to one of them that he's, and his heart is healed.
56:10
[SPEAKER_05]: It's hard for me to risk, then it is for me to work.
56:14
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm in like a crack here, like, bro, I need to look at the numbers,
56:22
[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, if it ain't done by Monday, just that another Sunday is my birthday after I finish my worship stuff and I'm gonna get to you Dean and then my, my, um, call the penalty is like, what they gonna think of me.
56:35
[SPEAKER_05]: I did it tonight's conversation tour and I didn't say a no product on Saturday.
56:40
[SPEAKER_05]: And I need to, you miss it.
56:41
[SPEAKER_05]: No, many, bro.
56:42
[SPEAKER_05]: They're looking for your table.
56:44
[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm like, I just said another table on Monday, every time I go on a thing, he got a new opportunity that's paid on them.
56:51
[SPEAKER_05]: Like if I was going to make three, he always give me seven.
56:54
[SPEAKER_05]: So if I get another 10, I was like, I probably supposed to make five and a week.
56:59
[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm saying all that to say, bro, like I just feel like there's so much other opportunity that God wants to give you.
57:04
[SPEAKER_05]: And then here's the thing is so much more creativity that he wants to give you to an Everest.
57:08
[SPEAKER_05]: I you think this book, so I'm here show you a screenplay.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And then here show you a movie.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And the one thing you know about you is that you're gonna be what you pose to be doing, but you can probably do it all the time.
57:21
[SPEAKER_05]: So last question, what does Fatherhood look like for a man who works who's an entrepreneur has two girls, he's divorced.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And now you have to re-establish now this 24 hour conversation with these daughters and keeping them much more cooking, learning how to do deals and others.
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[SPEAKER_05]: What does Fatherhood look for, look like for Kian?
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[SPEAKER_03]: I think for me, man, I've been really trying to re-structure that because like being not having my pops, right?
57:47
[SPEAKER_03]: I know what it feels like to not have.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So not being with my daughters every day, it kind of feels like that a little bit.
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[SPEAKER_03]: you know what I'm saying and so for me it was like I've always been intentional with my little girls like everything like they know not the test of doors they know you know what I'm saying they know they don't sell on the inside of the street when we walk in they know like they know certain things from their dad right but it's like
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[SPEAKER_03]: not being with them every day, every moment I can, every, every little thing that pops up, every problem, like I want to be there for that, like even with my, my oldest daughter.
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[SPEAKER_03]: She was born at 27 weeks.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so I was literally like again, I have my pops.
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[SPEAKER_03]: So when when my ex-wife got pregnant, it's like, we pregnant.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like what, you know what I'm saying?
58:36
[SPEAKER_03]: So I'm going to the, we're going to auto-point minutes every appointment.
58:39
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm buying an ultrasound to see, like I want to see.
58:41
[SPEAKER_03]: You're going to put a machine up.
58:43
[SPEAKER_03]: They only get you two or three of them to hold a term.
58:44
[SPEAKER_03]: Like every time I'm buying an embodiment, I want to see them.
58:47
[SPEAKER_03]: Like you might pick that, bring them a machine up.
58:49
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
58:50
[SPEAKER_03]: Her water breaks at 21 weeks.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'm at an elevated pitch competition in Florida.
58:54
[SPEAKER_03]: We live at Alabama.
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[SPEAKER_03]: her water breaks at 21 weeks.
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[SPEAKER_03]: The doctor said 97% of women water break going to labor within 72 hours.
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[SPEAKER_03]: My daughter was put it been born at 21 weeks.
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[SPEAKER_03]: She wouldn't have made it.
59:08
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
59:08
[SPEAKER_03]: So you're talking about faithfulness and understanding like that was the decided moment for me where I think I showed up right where she was on bed rest for another seven weeks.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
59:20
[SPEAKER_03]: Had my little girl, she was losing the NICU for six months.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Right, in Florida.
59:25
[SPEAKER_03]: So back to the same thing that you were saying about your mom.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Every Sunday, I was flying in or out of Atlanta, going to Florida.
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[SPEAKER_03]: coming back home for the week.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'd be here for a week.
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[SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to have a lot of bit.
59:35
[SPEAKER_03]: I got six doors open at this time.
59:36
[SPEAKER_03]: This is when I'm, I'm, I'm, we see if I had this one.
59:39
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm this is when I'm up.
59:40
[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
59:41
[SPEAKER_03]: And so it was so bad.
59:42
[SPEAKER_03]: Well, I was buying airport.
59:43
[SPEAKER_03]: I was buying plane tickets at the airport.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Like I wasn't booking flights.
59:46
[SPEAKER_03]: I didn't know when I needed to go.
59:48
[SPEAKER_03]: So I'm going to this.
59:50
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to the airport next Friday.
59:51
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm going.
59:52
[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
59:52
[SPEAKER_03]: Yes.
59:53
[SPEAKER_03]: And so did that for six months.
59:55
[SPEAKER_03]: Right.
59:56
[SPEAKER_03]: And so back to the point, it's like,
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[SPEAKER_03]: learning that, feeling that, being engulfed in that as a father, it's like, bro, like, this is everything I know, right?
1:00:08
[SPEAKER_03]: These kids are the right example of me.
1:00:11
[SPEAKER_03]: The love that I give them is what they're going to give to the world, right?
1:00:15
[SPEAKER_03]: The lessons that they learn are the lessons that they're going to go out into the world, right?
1:00:20
[SPEAKER_03]: I didn't choose my kid.
1:00:21
[SPEAKER_03]: My kid's chose me.
1:00:22
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:00:23
[SPEAKER_03]: I didn't choose my parents, you know what I'm saying?
1:00:25
[SPEAKER_03]: I mean, I chose my parents.
1:00:26
[SPEAKER_03]: They didn't choose me.
1:00:27
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:00:28
[SPEAKER_03]: And so from that standpoint, it's like, I got these kids that I got to be the best example in the world too.
1:00:35
[SPEAKER_03]: Because everybody, when everybody knows it, your daughter, your heart first love.
1:00:40
[SPEAKER_03]: I know what you know what I'm saying at the end of the day.
1:00:43
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, don't love that version.
1:00:44
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm trying to figure this one out, you know what I'm saying?
1:00:49
[SPEAKER_03]: It's so understanding that it's like I have to always show up as my best self.
1:00:54
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, even when I'm like I was I had got to the point probably after the divorce right there missed to me writing this book.
1:01:02
[SPEAKER_03]: I was an extendo state for like six months.
1:01:04
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, God told me he was like, listen, I left a relationship.
1:01:08
[SPEAKER_03]: I was like, I'm fit to just move, right?
1:01:10
[SPEAKER_03]: And they were like, I ain't tell you to go nowhere.
1:01:11
[SPEAKER_03]: I want you to sit down.
1:01:13
[SPEAKER_03]: And this is, I heard this word, like, clear his day, either sit down or I'm gonna sit you down.
1:01:19
[SPEAKER_03]: Right?
1:01:20
[SPEAKER_03]: And I know that means.
1:01:21
[SPEAKER_07]: Yeah.
1:01:21
[SPEAKER_03]: Right?
1:01:22
[SPEAKER_03]: Me and from now, you don't let me.
1:01:23
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm ready.
1:01:24
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm listening, right?
1:01:25
[SPEAKER_03]: So I sat down.
1:01:25
[SPEAKER_03]: So I'm like, all right, cool.
1:01:26
[SPEAKER_03]: So I got an extended staff paid up for like the week.
1:01:29
[SPEAKER_03]: Like, I'm gonna just be here for a week or so.
1:01:30
[SPEAKER_05]: Just so I figure out what I want to do.
1:01:33
[SPEAKER_05]: Mama and flip right mama and extend though is an extended stay hotel.
1:01:38
[SPEAKER_05]: We talking hood right here So I want to live like so in the neighborhood if you said the extended stay like what you stand at bro I'm over this stand out for about two week brother come hotline all right, so now I'm going back to my normal self Yeah, go ahead.
1:01:52
[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, what's that yeah, but now I was there and so it was like
1:01:57
[SPEAKER_03]: The first week I was there, I would try to find a spot.
1:01:59
[SPEAKER_03]: So I'm like, I'm just moved to a spot, looked up, looked up some cribs to look at, went, did the little deposit, got scammed on the house, right?
1:02:07
[SPEAKER_03]: And I thought I was going to move into, got scammed, $4,000 dollars.
1:02:10
[SPEAKER_03]: So I was like, hey, bro, so I'm like, what are you?
1:02:12
[SPEAKER_03]: I didn't take you to go to where.
1:02:14
[SPEAKER_03]: I'm saying, so I'm like, all right, cool.
1:02:16
[SPEAKER_03]: So I started to get, I had to get comfortable, but uncomfortable being by myself and isolation, right?
1:02:24
[SPEAKER_03]: But at the same time, I still got my kids every other weekend.
1:02:27
[SPEAKER_03]: So I got my kids in the extended state with me.
1:02:31
[SPEAKER_03]: Right, every other weekend where we still, hey, you got the bed, I'm gonna get on the little couch over here, y'all go to sleep on the screwdriver, I'm gonna lay down, give me a little rest, and we're gonna get up, we're gonna go and get in the pool and do some stuff, they feel like we was on vacation, but I'd never really change that perspective.
1:02:47
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like that, just down, bad.
1:02:49
[SPEAKER_03]: Like it's like nah, even as I'm down, bad.
1:02:52
[SPEAKER_03]: I still got you.
1:02:53
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:02:55
[SPEAKER_03]: So I think those are the moments that I lean back on.
1:02:58
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like, hey, it no matter what you did, no matter what you didn't do, no matter what failed, what didn't work, what all of that.
1:03:05
[SPEAKER_03]: You still did that right so that unconditional love to me is like be the best version of yourself because they're going to love your regardless Yeah, I don't love your regardless right and be the best version that you can to be the example of what they should look for the man right the foundational pieces the The the the the the moments of just loving and really showing everything you can about being a great human because that they
1:03:28
[SPEAKER_03]: day that's really what it is.
1:03:30
[SPEAKER_03]: It's like being how good of a human being can we be.
1:03:33
[SPEAKER_03]: Right everything else falls in the place like you say we got faith and understanding all these things like just being a great human, I'll take you further than anything else.
1:03:42
[SPEAKER_03]: You know so it's like teaching those little things and allowing them.
1:03:46
[SPEAKER_03]: to be the most creative they can possibly be.
1:03:49
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:03:49
[SPEAKER_03]: Like my oldest daughter, the same one.
1:03:52
[SPEAKER_03]: She was, she played the Lion King.
1:03:54
[SPEAKER_03]: She played the young Simba in the Lion King.
1:03:56
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:03:57
[SPEAKER_03]: She sold her own clothes.
1:03:58
[SPEAKER_03]: She playing Sebastian in a little mermaid now.
1:04:01
[SPEAKER_03]: She drawn on YouTube.
1:04:02
[SPEAKER_03]: She got a little drawing page where she, you know what I'm saying?
1:04:04
[SPEAKER_03]: She on YouTube.
1:04:05
[SPEAKER_03]: She want people how she drawn everything.
1:04:07
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:04:08
[SPEAKER_03]: And then my youngest daughter, she's probably the most athletic.
1:04:11
[SPEAKER_03]: kid I've ever seen.
1:04:13
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:04:13
[SPEAKER_03]: She got it all honest, right?
1:04:15
[SPEAKER_03]: Fearless, jump off from every time I'm with her, I got to watch every move she make because she'd jump off anything.
1:04:21
[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
1:04:21
[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I'm saying?
1:04:22
[SPEAKER_03]: Long she can see me in her business, she'd jump.
1:04:24
[SPEAKER_03]: Like I'm gonna catch you.
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[SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, you know what I'm saying?
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[SPEAKER_03]: And so just having that and having that being that every day, every time I'm my story with me, you know, and showing them everything that I can about being a great father.
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[SPEAKER_03]: You know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_03]: So that's that's kind of what I live on.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm very proud of you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I appreciate it.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I don't want to go past that point.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm very proud of you.
1:04:50
[SPEAKER_05]: I'm pretty shish.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I just want you to really receive that I'm not just giving you words.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm not proud of you because of what you accomplished.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud of the man that you've become.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud of the things that you've overcome.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud of the future that God has for you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud of this day for this going to get easier.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud that you didn't give up.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud that you didn't take your own life.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud that in your private moments, you how did that God?
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I'm proud that you chose to put your pain on paper.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You light years ahead of anything that with the background that you come from,
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[SPEAKER_05]: I believe it was 2022.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Somebody called me in the airport and said, man, I see you talking on all of them stages.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Man, one day I'm gonna be on stage, just like you, man, I probably, you know what I can, I, I'm cold, I can, I can be too.
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[SPEAKER_05]: When I say, yeah, now's the verbs.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Maybe if you had my story, you might not be on this earth.
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[SPEAKER_05]: If you knew the stuff that I had to overcome.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And I stay in that same grace through the power and Lord, man, that you've been through some stuff, man.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Yeah.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And, bro, I'm very, very proud of you.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Anybody can write anybody can do smoothies, but not with the background and the grace and the favor that God has blessed you with.
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[SPEAKER_05]: I'm proud of you, bro.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Appreciate it, man, dude.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And family, listen, love yourself more.
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[SPEAKER_05]: We ran out of time, so I can't get you no good, let's shoot, shoot, shoot.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Well, fellas, talk to your brothers, man.
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[SPEAKER_05]: With some you see, great in your brothers.
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[SPEAKER_05]: make sure that you tell them.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Make sure that you love on them.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Make sure that you don't play so much in business that you miss the opportunity to be part of for which a word for your brother's man.
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[SPEAKER_05]: All right, let up.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Hey, Willie Mojoong, you're here.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And you're voting soon.
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[SPEAKER_05]: You need to go.
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[SPEAKER_05]: If that go to flatoutfamily.com right now, because on Monday's, we give you the opportunity to learn all about finance.
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[SPEAKER_05]: How to take your financial life to a whole other level, okay?
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[SPEAKER_01]: Then on Tuesday, AJ Jorners in the building, he's going to let you know how you can make some money at home with remote jobs, and even if it's not a remote job, he's going to put some extra money in your pocket.
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[SPEAKER_05]: And of course, Wednesday is all about relationships.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Honestly, you've been thinking about the D-word divorce.
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[SPEAKER_05]: for many, but you don't have to, right?
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[SPEAKER_05]: You've been going through a lot in your relationship.
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[SPEAKER_05]: Dr. Tardis, I train in licensed psychologists and relationships specialists.
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[SPEAKER_01]: He's gonna give you all the tools you need to take your relationship to another level.
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[SPEAKER_01]: And then on Thursday, our educational guru as we like to call him, Kata Simmons, he's gonna be in the building.
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[SPEAKER_01]: Now, he often has advice for kids and students, but I always take notes.
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[SPEAKER_01]: And so it's gonna bless you as an adult.
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