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Almost Famous OG: Clare Eyes, Full Hearts · The Ben and Ashley I Almost Famous Podcast

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  Speaker 1: This is the almost famous podcast with her radio, right,
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  Speaker 1: and I have no light like I'll match you there now,
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  Speaker 1: I'll at you hang on. Oh thanks is better? But
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  Speaker 1: actually I think but I don't know. Yeah, I'm not
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  Speaker 1: as shiny. That's nice. Hey, shiny is good in my
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  Speaker 1: It's like do we yes, depends on how you describe it,
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  Speaker 1: your do we radio. I've got such a radio podcasting.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not entirely sure what this media. I know. I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: it's podcasting radio. I don't know. Anyway, Welcome to our podcast,
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  Speaker 1: whatever the hell it is, Welcome to it. I'm really
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  Speaker 1: excited for today. Seven days at least, at least it's
• 0:52
  Speaker 1: been only seven days, because before that, well maybe before
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  Speaker 1: that it was seven days, and then before that it
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  Speaker 1: was like months. Yes, we took a lot, a little
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  Speaker 1: hiatus man, A lot happen in seven days. Yes, especially
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  Speaker 1: um good news for the person that we're going to
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  Speaker 1: talk to today. I'm so excited. I love her and
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  Speaker 1: have always rooted for I feel like a lot of
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  Speaker 1: people have. Um, it's the one and only Claire Crawley,
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  Speaker 1: and um, she's got some big things that have been
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  Speaker 1: happening in her life and we're excited to talk about
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  Speaker 1: it today. Yes, I'm excited. I think we should bring
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  Speaker 1: her on. I mean, my goodness, this is the biggest
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  Speaker 1: news going on in Bachelor Nation right now. I think
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  Speaker 1: it's pretty spectacular. Yeah, I love it. Okay, let's bring
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  Speaker 1: her in there. She is, well, Hi, how are you?
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  Speaker 1: We're good. I mean, you've got to be on cloud nine. Congratulations,
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  Speaker 1: Thank you so much. It was literally the most unexpected thing.
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  Speaker 1: We were just living our lives, doing our thing, and
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  Speaker 1: here we are, So it was unexpected. You didn't know, No,
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  Speaker 1: absolutely not. I had no clue. As a matter of fact,
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  Speaker 1: we always we always talked about getting engaged, um and
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  Speaker 1: just our life together just felt so natural and it's
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  Speaker 1: been the same for a long for a while. So
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  Speaker 1: to me, it was just we were going on a trip.
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  Speaker 1: We were going to the Rise festival, and then we
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  Speaker 1: always joked about We're like, I'm like, when are you
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  Speaker 1: getting engaged? And he's like, three, baby here and so yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Then he pulled it out and I kept trying to
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  Speaker 1: like draw hints to see because I was like, this
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  Speaker 1: is the most beautiful festival. This has been something we
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  Speaker 1: have been dreaming about to go to, and I was like,
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  Speaker 1: should I get my nails done? And he's like, no,
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  Speaker 1: they look fine, and I was like, well, if I
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  Speaker 1: get him done, I'm gonna do like party wild colors
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  Speaker 1: and he's like, no, totally, that sounds great. When we
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  Speaker 1: were we were leaving for the festival, I was like,
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  Speaker 1: should I brush my hair or do you like a
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  Speaker 1: messy knot? And he's like do it not? You look
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  Speaker 1: hot in a messy not like who cares? And I
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  Speaker 1: was like, okay, well I'm at or not, it's not
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  Speaker 1: happening now because because it's just like do you baby?
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  Speaker 1: You know? He doesn't he doesn't, yes, And afterwards aught
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  Speaker 1: about that, I was like, why did you not at
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  Speaker 1: least tell me to put on waterproof mass scara, like
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  Speaker 1: because I didn't want to make it obvious and I
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  Speaker 1: didn't want you to know. Are you a big surprise
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  Speaker 1: person to you? Like surprises? I only like surprises when
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  Speaker 1: I don't know what's happening, if that makes sense. Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: So the type of people that are like, I've got
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  Speaker 1: a surprise for you, but I don't want to tell you.
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  Speaker 1: I can't do yeah, don't do it, don't bother? Yeah, yes,
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  Speaker 1: so you were fully surprised so totally surprised completely and
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  Speaker 1: I as a matter of fact, he even told me
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  Speaker 1: they're like I said, there's parts of me that were like,
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  Speaker 1: this is the perfect time, what this would be so
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  Speaker 1: wonderful because here I am on our first date. Last
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  Speaker 1: year we had talked about I was supposed to go
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  Speaker 1: to the Rice Festival for the first time ever. So
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  Speaker 1: it was September of last year and it was Rice
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  Speaker 1: Festival at the same time every year, so I was like,
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  Speaker 1: I really want to go to this. And I was
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  Speaker 1: supposed to go with somebody else but got canceled on
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  Speaker 1: and I was like, I'm really bummed because I really
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  Speaker 1: want to go to this thing. And so this year
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  Speaker 1: he was like, let's go together and I I couldn't
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  Speaker 1: have been more happy because it was like we had
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  Speaker 1: talked about this last year. He wanted to do it
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  Speaker 1: just as much as I wanted to do it, and
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  Speaker 1: it's a really special to it, so you have to
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  Speaker 1: do it. Tris to Oh my god, so Bob, I
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  Speaker 1: wrote her. I saw her photos and I have been
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  Speaker 1: dying to do this as well. It looks so amazing.
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  Speaker 1: I am totally into experiential things, uh, tell her, tell everybody.
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  Speaker 1: So Basically you go out to the Mojabby Desert. It's
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  Speaker 1: about I want to say, a half hour twenty minutes
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  Speaker 1: outside of Las Vegas and the Lantern Festival. And what
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  Speaker 1: you do is basically, at sunset it was a full moon.
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  Speaker 1: You rite. You each get a huge lantern that's deeply
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  Speaker 1: it's just a paper lantern and it's deflated. You write
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  Speaker 1: your intentions. You write intentions on it. You can write hopes,
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  Speaker 1: dreams for the future, you can write some people write
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  Speaker 1: notes to loved ones that have passed on. Yeah, it's
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  Speaker 1: a really special moment. And then they've got this really
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  Speaker 1: beautiful music, kind of like yoga music going on, just
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  Speaker 1: super relaxing. It's a beautiful, beautiful environment. I keep when
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  Speaker 1: people ask me about it, I kind of compare it
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  Speaker 1: to like Coachella, but for Yogi's where it's not music
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  Speaker 1: not gathering up just I want to say, like seven
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  Speaker 1: thousand people were there, but everybody has a little plot
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  Speaker 1: and so you're not stepping on an other. You can
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  Speaker 1: just sit and hang out on your own little plot
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  Speaker 1: and it's it's Yeah. So when I reached out to you,
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  Speaker 1: I actually looked it up and they have a whole
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  Speaker 1: map of where you can go. I was like, where
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  Speaker 1: do I even look. I mean, they don't have tickets
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  Speaker 1: available for next year yet, but I definitely want to
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  Speaker 1: know all the story, all the scoops. So yeah, that
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  Speaker 1: sounds it's amazing. And then once they set it off.
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  Speaker 1: I'm sure you've seen the videos and stuff like that,
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  Speaker 1: but once they you led him all at the same
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  Speaker 1: time and they go off out into just your little
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  Speaker 1: torch lights up and it sends the lantern up, and
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  Speaker 1: you see, I mayst want to cry thinking about thousand,
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  Speaker 1: seven thousand lanterns that light up the sky, and it's
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  Speaker 1: just such an emotional, such a special night, and without
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  Speaker 1: the engagement, it was such a special night. So I
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  Speaker 1: was already crying. I was already so happy to me
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  Speaker 1: at one of them. On my lantern, I had written
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  Speaker 1: don't give up and that oh yes, I saw your post.
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  Speaker 1: I saw that was all That's all I knew about.
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  Speaker 1: It was from your post. Yeah, so I had written
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  Speaker 1: not even we hadn't even gotten obviously, I haven't gotten
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  Speaker 1: engaged yet. I didn't know he was proposing, And I
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  Speaker 1: just felt like where I was last year at this
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  Speaker 1: time compared to this year at this time, I wanted
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  Speaker 1: to give up that and trust me, on everything, I
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  Speaker 1: wanted to give up. I wanted to give up on life.
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  Speaker 1: I wanted to give up on relationships. I wanted to
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  Speaker 1: give up on being vulnerable and open. It just was
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  Speaker 1: tired of everything. I was tired of the game, tired,
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  Speaker 1: and I thought if I had given up, I wouldn't
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  Speaker 1: be experiencing one of the greatest moments of my life
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  Speaker 1: with the man of my dreams. Right, yeah, I mean
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  Speaker 1: so last year at this time. Um, I mean, obviously
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  Speaker 1: your mom is you know, you're super close with your mom,
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  Speaker 1: and she's had some has some health struggles and she did.
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  Speaker 1: First of all, she's doing okay. She's thank you for asking.
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  Speaker 1: It's always hard to answer that one, and I have
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  Speaker 1: a hard time to answering people with that question because
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  Speaker 1: she's doing okay, but she's still in hospice. Um. Yeah, though,
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  Speaker 1: as good as you can be. I guess she's positive.
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  Speaker 1: She's a strong woman, and she loves Ryan, which is
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  Speaker 1: everything to me. Oh my gosh, everything to you. That's
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  Speaker 1: great that she's gotten to know him, all right, I
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  Speaker 1: mean that's such a wonderful thing. Yeah, totally. He comes
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  Speaker 1: with me every time that we're Sacramento, he comes with me.
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  Speaker 1: He'll literally asked, will be like, can I come with
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  Speaker 1: you to see your mom? And oh, I love I
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  Speaker 1: just love it. Yeah, there's um. She kind of hit
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  Speaker 1: one of those unfortunate milestones recently where um, she didn't
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  Speaker 1: recognize me. And I think it was a momentary thing,
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  Speaker 1: but she didn't. She didn't recognize me. She didn't remember
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  Speaker 1: my name or anything like that, and it was just
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  Speaker 1: a really been a little a little more difficult lately.
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  Speaker 1: And I was sitting with her feeding her dinner the
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  Speaker 1: other day and she looked at me and she was like,
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  Speaker 1: where's Ryan? And I was like, so she knows, she knows,
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  Speaker 1: she knows, you know. Oh, that's got to make you
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  Speaker 1: so happy. I I gotta say, I can't imagine. I
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  Speaker 1: love love in general, but Claire, you know, having gotten
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  Speaker 1: to know you so many years ago, I'm so excited
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  Speaker 1: for you because you are so deserving of this moment
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  Speaker 1: and it's just so great to see you so happy,
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  Speaker 1: and you know, with a with a guy that obviously
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  Speaker 1: you know, really cares about you and wants to be
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  Speaker 1: there for you. So I'm so happy for you. No,
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  Speaker 1: thank you. It's been a long journey. But I think
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  Speaker 1: everybody's got a different path and everybody's got a different
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  Speaker 1: journey kind of thing. And I think it doesn't matter
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  Speaker 1: how long it takes you to get there, as long
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  Speaker 1: as you get there and where you want to be.
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  Speaker 1: And here's the other thing too, which I find interesting,
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  Speaker 1: is that I was actually really really happy with being single.
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  Speaker 1: I love in the life. I say that the people
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  Speaker 1: all the time. That's when it happens. I swear, that's
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  Speaker 1: when it happens when you're like, you know what, I'm good,
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  Speaker 1: I'm finally happy with me. And I mean and you,
• 9:34
  Speaker 1: you know, you you were very vocal about getting to
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  Speaker 1: that place too, which I think is super inspirational for people.
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  Speaker 1: You know, and I think that because they see you
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  Speaker 1: on TV and they think, oh, everything must just be
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  Speaker 1: great and wonderful. But you were really you know, you
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  Speaker 1: put it out there and you were an open book
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  Speaker 1: about it, and you were finally at this great place
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  Speaker 1: with yourself and then all of a sudden, here comes
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  Speaker 1: the perfect guy. Right. I think it's just it's a
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  Speaker 1: great message. It's a great message for people to know
• 9:57
  Speaker 1: if they're like, why can't I find the right person?
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  Speaker 1: It's like you gotta find your first and then then
• 10:01
  Speaker 1: you haven't. He had to find someone else, you know
• 10:03
  Speaker 1: exactly that. That's a big part of Ryan eyes relationship
• 10:06
  Speaker 1: where I haven't shared too much about it, but I've
• 10:09
  Speaker 1: talked about it, is that he reached out immediately when
• 10:13
  Speaker 1: I went through my last breakup, he reached out immediately,
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  Speaker 1: didn't skip a beat, I feel like, and he reached
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  Speaker 1: out and you guys had known each other before that,
• 10:23
  Speaker 1: or just reached out because he wanted to meet you.
• 10:25
  Speaker 1: We had known each other before that, and then we
• 10:27
  Speaker 1: hadn't we'd never met up in person, but we had
• 10:30
  Speaker 1: met through social media and stayed in contact and kind
• 10:33
  Speaker 1: of like always messed each other, just stayed friends. He
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  Speaker 1: was always respectful of my relationship and everything, and even
• 10:39
  Speaker 1: prior to that, like he was just he's just a
• 10:41
  Speaker 1: really respectful guy. And so but he knew when I
• 10:44
  Speaker 1: became single. He reached out and I was at a
• 10:47
  Speaker 1: very very low point, and he's just the sweetest guy.
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  Speaker 1: He just was so patient and he was like I
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  Speaker 1: had told him I didn't want to go to dinner.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't have an appetite or anything, and he was like,
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  Speaker 1: let's just get tea, and I remember going. We laughed
• 11:02
  Speaker 1: about it now, but we went to grab tea and
• 11:04
  Speaker 1: I was so ill. I hadn't eaten a day. I
• 11:07
  Speaker 1: just so depressed and struggling. I hadn't got out of
• 11:10
  Speaker 1: bed days. And he we sat there and I had laughed.
• 11:16
  Speaker 1: I hadn't laughed in months, you guys, I hadn't laughed
• 11:19
  Speaker 1: in a long time, and like genuinely laughed. And we
• 11:23
  Speaker 1: sat there for four hours and just laughed and laughed
• 11:25
  Speaker 1: and laughed. And but the biggest when you know, yeah,
• 11:29
  Speaker 1: that's when you know. But the biggest thing was as
• 11:30
  Speaker 1: amazing as he was, as great of chemistry as we
• 11:33
  Speaker 1: had then we had talked about it, and I had
• 11:36
  Speaker 1: told him because it was a couple maybe a couple
• 11:38
  Speaker 1: of months that we had been talking after that last breakup,
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  Speaker 1: and I had told him I still have deep healing
• 11:45
  Speaker 1: and wounds that I need to heal on my own,
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  Speaker 1: and I want to be able to do that on
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  Speaker 1: my own and not lean on you as a crutch
• 11:52
  Speaker 1: for that or cover that up with this great new love.
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  Speaker 1: I want to be able to genuinely heal and give
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  Speaker 1: you the best of me. And because he the ongoing
• 12:02
  Speaker 1: thing is he it was too good to be a rebound,
• 12:05
  Speaker 1: and so waited until he wasn't and he gave me
• 12:10
  Speaker 1: up space. He dated other people, I dated other people, UM,
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  Speaker 1: and then we kind of came back together and it
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  Speaker 1: was even better than the first time. Does he live
• 12:20
  Speaker 1: in Sacramento or did he when you met? No, he
• 12:23
  Speaker 1: actually lives um in the Oakland Hills, So he lives
• 12:27
  Speaker 1: right essentially in my backyard. Okay, got it? Yeah, and
• 12:31
  Speaker 1: we I still so I have. I moved into mining
• 12:35
  Speaker 1: house in July, and he has his house here in Oakland,
• 12:39
  Speaker 1: but I still have that house. He has this house,
• 12:41
  Speaker 1: and we're just wherever we are, this is his house,
• 12:43
  Speaker 1: and so wherever we're at we're together. So I we're
• 12:46
  Speaker 1: in Oakland, we're together. If we're in Sacramento, we're together.
• 12:50
  Speaker 1: To do it. We just have them both, and I
• 12:52
  Speaker 1: want to prioritize. Yeah, I still wanted to have the
• 12:55
  Speaker 1: space to um live in my own house for a while,
• 12:59
  Speaker 1: and and also have my house and sacraments for the
• 13:03
  Speaker 1: time where I want to go see my mom and
• 13:04
  Speaker 1: I go see your cheek. So it's it's worked out
• 13:07
  Speaker 1: for brillion. It's an easy it's maybe an hour drive
• 13:10
  Speaker 1: so it's super easy. I was gonna say, it seems
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  Speaker 1: really close from my memory. Yeah, yeah, okay, so tell
• 13:16
  Speaker 1: us about him. Let's let's get the scoop on, right.
• 13:19
  Speaker 1: It's Ryan Dawkins, Ducks Dukins. He is the greatest. I
• 13:26
  Speaker 1: feel like he is. So, I mean, for the longest time,
• 13:30
  Speaker 1: I didn't share a relationship because it didn't matter like that.
• 13:34
  Speaker 1: It didn't, It wasn't, there was nothing. It was actually
• 13:38
  Speaker 1: a priority for me to date a man and to
• 13:40
  Speaker 1: be with a man that didn't want the faith that
• 13:43
  Speaker 1: came with the show social media, and that's always that's
• 13:47
  Speaker 1: always a twist, like like Trista obviously didn't have to
• 13:50
  Speaker 1: experience this part of it. When you come off the
• 13:52
  Speaker 1: show and you are single, which you know, we Claire
• 13:55
  Speaker 1: and I have both done that. You do you do
• 13:58
  Speaker 1: sometimes wonder about people's motivations, right, like, you know, why
• 14:00
  Speaker 1: is this person calling me all the time? Why are they?
• 14:03
  Speaker 1: You know? It does make you kind of wonder. But
• 14:06
  Speaker 1: thankfully Trista got it right the first time. She's the
• 14:08
  Speaker 1: queen of that stuff. So that's not no, I did not.
• 14:12
  Speaker 1: You were forgetting the Bachelor. Oh yeah, yeah, we know.
• 14:20
  Speaker 1: The Bachelor has a much better track record than The Bachelor. Yeah,
• 14:29
  Speaker 1: but yeah, I mean it's it was. You do wonder
• 14:31
  Speaker 1: about that, right You are kind of like maybe I
• 14:33
  Speaker 1: just need to be by myself for that reason too. Yep, absolutely,
• 14:37
  Speaker 1: And I was actually, to be honest, okay, being by myself.
• 14:41
  Speaker 1: I feel like single women, single people don't get enough
• 14:44
  Speaker 1: credit that they I mean it's I loved being single
• 14:48
  Speaker 1: and I wanted to wait for the right guy that
• 14:50
  Speaker 1: didn't care about the aspect. Couldn't have any social gain
• 14:54
  Speaker 1: from me being associated with the show because that could
• 14:57
  Speaker 1: listen for somebody to want to be m Yeah. Okay,
• 15:01
  Speaker 1: So he has two daughters, right, and so you're you're
• 15:05
  Speaker 1: a stepmom now or you're going to be a step
• 15:08
  Speaker 1: do you guys get married? So how do you feel
• 15:10
  Speaker 1: about that? Do you love it? I mean, I can
• 15:13
  Speaker 1: see you fitting perfectly into any any relationship that has
• 15:17
  Speaker 1: to do with a girl. You're I feel like you're
• 15:18
  Speaker 1: a girl's girl. The guys guys guy's girl too. But
• 15:22
  Speaker 1: I love, love, love his daughters. They are the most snugliest,
• 15:28
  Speaker 1: sweetest girls ever and they have been so loving to
• 15:32
  Speaker 1: me and accepting to me, which has meant a lot,
• 15:35
  Speaker 1: Like they could easy to be like, you're not my mom,
• 15:38
  Speaker 1: which they've got an amazing mom, and I always try
• 15:41
  Speaker 1: to remind them like, I'm not trying to come in
• 15:43
  Speaker 1: and be your mom. You have an amazing mom that
• 15:45
  Speaker 1: loves you more than anything in the world. I'm just
• 15:47
  Speaker 1: here to add love to your life, to add happiness
• 15:50
  Speaker 1: to your life, and to help your dad. And uh,
• 15:53
  Speaker 1: I love that you love but like he's blessing, he's
• 15:59
  Speaker 1: a lover. We were laughing because we were sitting watching
• 16:02
  Speaker 1: a movie and the girls were at school, and he
• 16:05
  Speaker 1: was like, why do my girls text you ten times
• 16:08
  Speaker 1: more than they text me? Like ten to what? But
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  Speaker 1: I just I love them. I genuinely love his daughters,
• 16:15
  Speaker 1: And it was a big part of why I love
• 16:17
  Speaker 1: him so much is because he's such an amazing goad
• 16:20
  Speaker 1: to them, such an amazing Yes, that's such a turn on, Yeah,
• 16:27
  Speaker 1: I said. I said that a few years ago to
• 16:28
  Speaker 1: a friend of mine who was dating a guy with kids,
• 16:31
  Speaker 1: and I literally said, I'm like, if you don't like
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  Speaker 1: this guy, I'll figure out a way to marry him
• 16:36
  Speaker 1: because he's such a great dad. Like it's so it's
• 16:38
  Speaker 1: such a great thing, you know that prioritizing of your
• 16:41
  Speaker 1: children is like a big deal, especially when I think
• 16:43
  Speaker 1: when you see people like you guys dating and he's
• 16:45
  Speaker 1: still putting his kids first. It's pretty spectacular totally, and
• 16:49
  Speaker 1: it's the sweetest thing in the world where even this morning,
• 16:52
  Speaker 1: one of my favorite things to do together is school
• 16:54
  Speaker 1: drop off, and I just love everything about them all life.
• 16:57
  Speaker 1: And we did go off together and he he'll get up,
• 17:02
  Speaker 1: I'll he'll let me. He won't wake me up, And
• 17:04
  Speaker 1: he'll get up and he'll be making them pancakes, cooking breakfast,
• 17:07
  Speaker 1: packing their lunches, getting their clothes ready, like he's such
• 17:10
  Speaker 1: a good dad to them. And I get up and
• 17:12
  Speaker 1: they're just all with their backpacks ready for school, and
• 17:15
  Speaker 1: love him. He's at from the distance listening because you blushing. Um,
• 17:30
  Speaker 1: oh yeah he's got oh I love um he's he's
• 17:36
  Speaker 1: just a really good dad. And it was one of
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: the things of I got that inside peek of how
• 17:41
  Speaker 1: he is. And there's some guys who you don't know
• 17:44
  Speaker 1: when you marry them, if they don't have kids, what
• 17:46
  Speaker 1: kind of dad they're gonna be, Like, Yeah, yeah, they
• 17:49
  Speaker 1: could be a not present dad. And he's very present
• 17:52
  Speaker 1: with his daughters. And I absolutely love that. So okay,
• 17:55
  Speaker 1: so I know you just got engaged. And I hate
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: it when people rush people and they're like, okay, so
• 18:00
  Speaker 1: when's babies coming? But I know I feel like you've
• 18:03
  Speaker 1: wanted to be a mom for a while. Yeah, is
• 18:06
  Speaker 1: that something on the table, Like do you think that
• 18:09
  Speaker 1: you would like to have children with him? Um? Well,
• 18:14
  Speaker 1: I have always said, and I know it's so funny
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: because even publicly, I'm like babies, and I all my friends,
• 18:22
  Speaker 1: everybody who knows me knows how much I just love
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: babies just in general. So the fact that he comes
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: with two babies already lights up my world. And I
• 18:35
  Speaker 1: have told him we first started dating, I said, I
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: know you have two roles. So whether whether our path
• 18:41
  Speaker 1: is just your two girls another baby added on to that,
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: it's our baby, Um, whether we adopt a baby, whether
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: we whatever it is because I'm older, whatever it looks like.
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: Even if it's only his two girls, it's his two girls,
• 18:55
  Speaker 1: and that those are children in my life. That's what
• 18:58
  Speaker 1: I wanted to family. So however that's going to work out,
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: we haven't. Really. We're deciding that we're figuring that out,
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: but not in a rush to fail out. And I
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: feel I've always kind of joked about, like, I know,
• 19:11
  Speaker 1: I'm forty one, but I'm like, I'm a child bride.
• 19:13
  Speaker 1: Don't ask me. Like nowadays, women there are so many
• 19:18
  Speaker 1: options to children at any age. Who's the one that's
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: pregnant now with twins at what forty eight? Hilary Swank. Yeah, yeah,
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: she's like, so people like to say this, Oh, you're
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: so old and you're just too old Baines and that,
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: but I feel like we are so much times are
• 19:42
  Speaker 1: different now, we are so much down. Yeah, and medical
• 19:47
  Speaker 1: technology has come up. I mean, Claire, I'm fifty one
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: and I have a three year old and one year old,
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: so anything, you know, it's totally doable. But they were
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: calling but to be fair, they were calling my I mean,
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: my wife wanted to kill him. But you remember meeting
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: and and I'm sure Claire when we were in l
• 20:01
  Speaker 1: a years ago together, but she got pregnant with our
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: second she was thirty five, and they called her a
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: geriatric pressent. I literally thought she was gonna kill somebody.
• 20:11
  Speaker 1: That is the most outdated. They need to raise that
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: bar because they're giatric, they're healthy, just older having children,
• 20:18
  Speaker 1: and it's yeah, I think it honestly varies at different
• 20:22
  Speaker 1: parts of the world to helpful, because I feel like
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: even in the United States, in New York, the average
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: age of women having children is a lot older than
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: in Middle Yeah. Yeah, because they put their careers first
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: or whatever. Yeah, it's a lot different. So I will
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: say this is that Ryan. We've talked about it. Ryan's
• 20:39
  Speaker 1: open to anything and everything. So it's not like I've
• 20:42
  Speaker 1: got my two girls, I don't want children. Do you
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: still want to be with me? It's it's not like
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: that at all. It's he is like, I want what
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: you want and I'm down for that. As long as
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: you're together. Who cares? I love it. So he's a
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: big triathlete, right, yes, Oh my gosh, tell me why
• 21:11
  Speaker 1: he can? I brab for one seconde he did? Yes? Please?
• 21:14
  Speaker 1: He is such an athlete just naturally. I am alway.
• 21:18
  Speaker 1: He's had this triathlon for not traffling this iron Man
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: for the last couple of months. He's been planning for it,
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: but has not he worked out, like he's gone on
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: jogs and runs. But I know how that is. Yeah,
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: he went out and amazing, like are you not dead?
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: He went't hiked in the next morning, up and a
• 21:36
  Speaker 1: camel dock's recovery. It must be something in the name.
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: The name Ryan makes these people like superhuman athletes. It's exacting.
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: I agree, Yes, how is Ryan doing? How is he doing?
• 21:49
  Speaker 1: He's good, He's you know, he's got his up and
• 21:52
  Speaker 1: down days. But um, thank you for asking. Um, he's good,
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: he's I don't know if you read or heard about it.
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: We don't need to get into it. But he's sticking
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: himself with honey beats be venom therapy. I was just
• 22:03
  Speaker 1: talking about that the other day to Run. I was
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: showing them a video on it, and because I'm not
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: even realizing that you guys do it, but it has
• 22:12
  Speaker 1: been so beneficial to people in so many ways. I
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: alternative therapies, and I believe deep. Talking to Ryan about
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: it was like ran when we were in uh where
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: were we? Like Tahoe and Ryan. Ryan and I had
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: had like half an hour conversation about it, and I
• 22:28
  Speaker 1: was my mind was blown. I'm like, wait a minute,
• 22:31
  Speaker 1: you intentionally sting yourself with bees. I would like start
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: bawling like a baby, but he was like telling yeah,
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: it's crazy, Yeah, we need to bring him on. Yeah,
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: you know, well, it's funny because I don't know if
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: I would because last week I think something was wrong
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: with me. I can't remember what was wrong. And you
• 22:48
  Speaker 1: can use it for everything, like you can you can
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: do use be venom therapy for everything. And maybe I
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: was just feeling bad. I think I was just feeling yucky.
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: He's like, well, why don't you do a couple of stings.
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: I'm like, oh no, not happening a couple of Yeah,
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: I just can't. It's a little house. It's a little house,
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: um that that lives in our pantry and we just
• 23:11
  Speaker 1: ordered more. They came via FedEx y from from an aviary.
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: It's crazy, um because here in Colorado, they you can't
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: get them anymore. They're in their hives for the like
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: the cold season. But um yeah, he is still stinging
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: and he has his ups and downs. But thank you
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: for asking. He's good. I mean, the thing is, I
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: know that triathlon life, that triathlete life, and I feel
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: like it's funny because I was never interested. Like never,
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: I was like, okay, you do you. I'll do a
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: five k with you every so often, maybe, but I'm
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: not even close to like even thinking about marathons. But
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: You've done a bunch of races, haven't you. I have.
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: I Actually, that's one thing that's changed in my life.
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: Is that. A couple of years ago, when I was
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: super sick with my breast implants, when I had them in, um,
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: I could barely walk. I could barely walk. I was
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: so sick. I was doing my best, but it would
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: take all of my energy just to function normally. So
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: working out above that, doing anything above that, it was
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: extremely hard. I was more yoga, light plodies. Those were
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: my workouts. And now with Ryan, he actually, um, he
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: just I believe, bought a marathon and so he his
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: job is no, wait, how do you do that? I
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: don't know people own marathons, but it's a thing. So
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: he but he literally puts on races and that's his
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: job is too. Yeah, he's worked for the Giants, He's
• 24:44
  Speaker 1: done a bunch of that stuff. So he is very
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: much into running. And I want to be with him
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: a lot. I love being with him, and so when
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: he goes and does these things, it's in like this weekend,
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: we have one in Dallas, and I'm like, I want
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: to come to Dallas with you, and so I'm gonna
• 24:59
  Speaker 1: go the running running run the one in Dallas. So
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: he works it, I run it, and then I just
• 25:04
  Speaker 1: meet him at the end. That's awesome. But he love it.
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: I think that to me is a sign of one
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: of the signs of a good partner is that if
• 25:12
  Speaker 1: you make each other's lives better. And he's always encouraging me,
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: always like, let's do this. I want to do it.
• 25:20
  Speaker 1: I want to, you know, run with him, and so
• 25:22
  Speaker 1: it's it's really made my life better and improved my life.
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: That's awesome. Yeah, well you look great. You look so happy.
• 25:30
  Speaker 1: You're just radiating happiness. I love it. You're that person.
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: I mean, we all adore you, and it's just like
• 25:36
  Speaker 1: so great to see you just find the right person
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: and just hit that next level, you know. Seriously, especially
• 25:44
  Speaker 1: after one Pablo, you know what, I feel like that
• 25:49
  Speaker 1: was it was all for a purpose. It was all
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: for a purpose. Even going that with one Pablo. It
• 25:55
  Speaker 1: was a pivotal moment in my life for standing up
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: for myself to a on That was the first time
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: I had ever done that. It was right after an
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: a piece of relationship. If I've shared that before, but
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: it was a moment that I had that I needed
• 26:07
  Speaker 1: to be able to stand up for myself. So I
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: am thankful for that moment as well. Yeah, that's crazy
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: that I remember meeting you right after that, and I
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: was just like I loved first of all, I loved
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: that season because I made me feel so good about myself, like,
• 26:24
  Speaker 1: oh wait, this guy is way worse than me. No,
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: but it was like one of those things where I
• 26:29
  Speaker 1: loved you standing up to him. I loved everything you said,
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: and it was like, you know, then we I just
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: along the way. You know. It was just like you
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: just built such a bigger and bigger following of people
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: that and then you impacted him so much by being
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: so open and honest, you know. And I think it's
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: just I just love. I love the whole full circle.
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: And I agree you've got to go through those bumps
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: in the road and that's all part of your story
• 26:50
  Speaker 1: before you arrive where you need to be, you know.
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: And and I'll tell you to thank you for a thing.
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: I'll tell you too. And I feel like this is
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: an important thing is that I am extremely extremely happy
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: now and everybody, even in my comments, people are like, oh,
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: you're going You're happier this year that I I was
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: happy not being in a relationship with Ryan. This happiness
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: came from me. This happiness came from healing. This happiness
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: came through doing the hard work of kind of trudging
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: through the emotional crap that I needed to get rid
• 27:22
  Speaker 1: of and the heaviness and the forgiveness that I needed
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: to experience in my own life. That's where this happiness
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: has come from. And Ryan adds to it, and I'm
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: grateful for him for but this happiness was a long
• 27:35
  Speaker 1: time coming and a lot of therapy and a lot
• 27:37
  Speaker 1: of work within myself and a self work. So that's
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: where this is where eaten from. And that's how I'm
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: able to have a healthy relationship now, is because I've
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: done the work. That's that's where I get the happiness.
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: That's where I sources. So even if Ryan left, God forbid,
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: if he left tomorrow, I would still have this happiness. Yeah,
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: you laid happiness foundation and now you both can build
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: a house on it. So I think it's beautiful. I mean,
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: I'm here for you, Bob. No, I don't let any
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: man ever again break me. So with that strengthen that
• 28:22
  Speaker 1: foundation for myself. Do not let a man bring me
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: that level ever. Again. Okay, so I have to ask.
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: I mean, if you want to shut me down, shut
• 28:32
  Speaker 1: me down, But I just want to know if any
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: of your ex is have reached out since hearing the news.
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: Totally totally I have. They have. Yeah, I've dated some
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: really amazing guys. I will tell you there are absolutely
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: ones that have not and one and we could probably
• 28:51
  Speaker 1: guess which one. I will see one if you'd like.
• 28:54
  Speaker 1: But UM, to me, it's very telling of I care.
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: I feel like there's a meme about this, or like
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: some quote about this, but how how I treat you
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: as a reflection of how you treated me. So if
• 29:09
  Speaker 1: you think that I'm awful, what did it take for
• 29:13
  Speaker 1: me to get there? You know, like I'm not. I'm
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: not brat for no reason. I don't have an attitude
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: for no reason. I'm not difficult for no reason. You're
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: good to me, I'm good to you and my expending
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: such a good friend, the sweetest got out. Yeah, and
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: even guys prior to ben Well that I've dated um
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: have totally reached out and are just the sweetest things
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: in the entire world in our congratulations and just really kind,
• 29:39
  Speaker 1: really kind of Yeah, you get you get what you
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: give right, yeah, yeah, the golden rule. Yeah, how you
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: want to be treated right? Yep? Um okay, So two
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: more questions that I have and then Bob you can
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: you can take over if you want. But are you
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: I'm sure it just I know it just happened. But
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: do you have visions of a of a a wedding
• 30:03
  Speaker 1: in mind? Like, do you know kind of what you
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: want to do? I've we've definitely thought about it. I
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: want a very simple wedding. I've always wanted that. For
• 30:14
  Speaker 1: my years of being a hair stylist, I did way
• 30:16
  Speaker 1: too many bride's hair. Oh I said, oh my gosh,
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: the sweetest bride I rolled you will. I always were like,
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: they're gonna be an easy bride. They're super calm, they're
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: super laid back. They were bridezillas. I just feel like
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: I don't want to put the energy and the stress
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: to worry about other people on my special day or
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: are a special day. So I want really simple I
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: actually I will tell you this. We want two weddings.
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: I love. So you're gonna have destination wedding. Yes, I
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: want one because my mom is not able to travel
• 30:55
  Speaker 1: or do anything like that. Um, and to be around
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: a lot of people. It's kind of over it's overwhelming
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: for her, and I just want a special moment with
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: her as to have us really just a small intimate ceremony. Um,
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: we had that, Ryan, we had I don't know if
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: you could actually nobody knows this, but Ryan proposed twice
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: to me once he did Yeah for the actually we
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: have here's this funny story. We have actually there proposals.
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: So he proposed to meet the Rise festival. Then we
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: came back to Sacramento and he oh, it's amice want
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: to cry every time. But he asked my mom for
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: her blessing again, and um, when he did that, he
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: got down on a knee again and in front of
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: my mom proposed to it, which is yeah and then yeah,
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: and then we are very progressive people. And so I
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: actually I didn't get down on a knee, but I
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: proposed to him as well. So if people see him
• 31:56
  Speaker 1: his finger, it's because I proposed to him as well.
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: So we he thought, if you get to wear a ring,
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: why don't I get to wear a ring. Here's a
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: almost famous O. G. First, we're all crying, so that's good,
• 32:13
  Speaker 1: really special moments. So he he knows how much my
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: mom means to me, how important she is in our lives,
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: and so yeah, he proposed twice, so I want her to.
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: He also was like, wants her to be there for
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: the wedding, and we don't know. Time is precious and
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: time is limited, so we want one with her to
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: a small intimate thing, and then one I want another
• 32:33
  Speaker 1: small one, but just something more of like with his
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: girls and us and something something and maybe a destination
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: that Yeah, I love it. I don't even want to
• 32:46
  Speaker 1: ask my next question because that was just like the
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: perfect like I just love that conversation. I am just
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: so happy for you. Thank you so much, happy, seriously,
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: thank you. I appreciate that so much. And you can
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: literally ask anything, like I'm an open book with it
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: all if oh, I know, I just want to thank
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: you for coming on our little show to share it
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: when it's so nice. Of course, seriously, I have to
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: say this time, I love sharing the story, but I
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: love sharing my love and the story righting us and
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: details of us because it really is a special relationship
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: to me and I'm proud of this one and happy
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: about this one. And he really does light me up.
• 33:27
  Speaker 1: So you can see it's all over your face. I
• 33:30
  Speaker 1: love it. Okay, I am going to ask the question
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: because I do kind of just want to know. I
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: was watching your stories, I think yesterday or maybe the
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: day before, and you had like a little Q and
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: A with him, which was so cute, by the way,
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: And one of the questions that came up was has
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: he watched the show? Do you plan on? Does he
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: plan on watching the show? Because I know he kind
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: of joked about it in the story like, well, now
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: I want to see it, But is that true or
• 34:09
  Speaker 1: was he just joking like will you guys watch it together?
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: Bachelor in Paradise? Are you watching all the things? I
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: don't know. He's he's very which I told him in
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: the beginning. I need a very stable guy who was
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: comfortable with my past and who was comfortable with everything
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: about me, because that's what makes me me, is everything
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: I've been so whether it's relationships, whether it's like we
• 34:31
  Speaker 1: talked about stuff all the time, we talked about guys
• 34:33
  Speaker 1: I've dated, he's been on the phone or I've been
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: on the phone with an X, Like he's amazing. So
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: he's he just kind of laughs it at all and
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: it's kind of like whatever and find it funny. But
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: I don't know, right, let's ask him, you guys can
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: ask him. Let's ask him. Yes, I love it, Do
• 34:51
  Speaker 1: you do you want to watch the show? So I
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: asked her, I was watching the stories, um, yesterday or
• 35:01
  Speaker 1: the day before when she did that little cute Q
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: and A when you guys were cooking together, and uh
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: and and I know that you joked and said, oh,
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: well i'll watch now. Um. But I was like, was
• 35:12
  Speaker 1: he joking or or was that true? Do you have
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: any interest in watching? I definitely would and maybe if
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: we watched it, well, probably watched together, laugh together and
• 35:23
  Speaker 1: be like yes. See. That's that's the only problem. I
• 35:27
  Speaker 1: will tell you. We tried to watch my season my
• 35:29
  Speaker 1: my wife and I and they don't have VHS tapes anymore,
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: so it was really difficult. So needless to say, I've
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: got to bounce that stuff over to a DVD format
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: at some point because that will be outdated soon. Anyway,
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: I have to convert that. Yeah, I love it, Yeah,
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: but we I think we could probably laugh watch it laugh.
• 35:48
  Speaker 1: I think that's the best way to watch it. But
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: I mean, honestly, I feel like, what you need to
• 35:53
  Speaker 1: show him is is maybe the moment where you told
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: one Pablo off because that's kind of like a big
• 36:00
  Speaker 1: part of who you are, you know, like how you
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: shared it was a pivotal moment for you. Um, I
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: think you need to watch that. Ryan. I think we've
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: had We've had times, we've had like he probably knows,
• 36:12
  Speaker 1: not probably he knows about it all. I've told him
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: all the even the behind the scenes of everything with
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: a lot of it. So like he's then he'll put
• 36:20
  Speaker 1: an actual video to with the stories that I've told. Yeah,
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: I did that with my life too. I was so
• 36:27
  Speaker 1: like up front, I'm like, I just never want you
• 36:29
  Speaker 1: to be surprised by anything. So here you go, you know,
• 36:31
  Speaker 1: here is everything, this is what really happened, this is
• 36:34
  Speaker 1: what you saw on TV, that kind of stuff. And
• 36:36
  Speaker 1: it's easy. It's easy. And it's like, if you have
• 36:39
  Speaker 1: a problem with anything that I've done, that's not accepting
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: me completely. Holy. So when you come into this race relationship,
• 36:46
  Speaker 1: you gotta know you gotta love me for my good,
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: for my bad, for everything that I've been through, because
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: that's what makes me me. He knows, I mean, all
• 36:56
  Speaker 1: of his stuff, that's what makes me I'd love and
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: accept him for who he as well. Everybody's got a
• 37:01
  Speaker 1: pass and that's what gets you get to your present,
• 37:03
  Speaker 1: you know. So it's like without it, you wouldn't be
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: who you are. I love that. I think it's awesome. Yeah,
• 37:08
  Speaker 1: I'm excited for you. I have I have one question
• 37:11
  Speaker 1: for Ryan. Um, well, before you go, were you at
• 37:15
  Speaker 1: iron Man Hawaii in two thousand four Hawaii? Are? Oh?
• 37:27
  Speaker 1: It is so? My husband has done um some iron
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: Man races as well and expas and stuff. Yes, it
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: was so incredible, such an amazing experience. Um, but I
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: have no interest in doing it myself on like unlike Claire, Well,
• 37:42
  Speaker 1: at least the race part. Yeah, definitely. I mean that's
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: pretty intenselated right now. I feel like if, right if
• 37:53
  Speaker 1: Ryan Sutter walked in and was on the camera, I'd
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: just be like, really, guys, really on bookended two Super
• 37:59
  Speaker 1: Ryan's and then there's stuff anyway, you have yourself, Thank you, right,
• 38:05
  Speaker 1: thank you for talking? Um, Okay, before I keep saying this,
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: one last question. You haven't produced sweatshirt on? Where is
• 38:14
  Speaker 1: that yours? Or? Right? Girl? Are you kidding me? This
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: is neither one of us. I have such a fascination,
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: lazy with getting vintage sweatshirts, and oh my god, that
• 38:26
  Speaker 1: that is my jamp so no perdue for me. I went, okay,
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: got it community college for my cosmetology degree. Not that's okay,
• 38:36
  Speaker 1: But I'm telling you, vint sweatshirts are my things fall,
• 38:40
  Speaker 1: so okay, share them with me because I'm all about
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: it too, all about the cozy, all about leggings. Look
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: very comfortable. We are cozy, were cozy. Thank what's your say?
• 38:55
  Speaker 1: Oh veil, oh Veril, gotcha, gotcha? You gotta represent the
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: hood in the hoodie fancy. You're just fancy right now.
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: You know, we were going to do some family photos today,
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: so I'm trying to go. I'm trying to find my luck.
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: Are you for Christmas cards? Not yet, now, I says.
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: You know, I'm in Michigan and the fall colors are
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: so beautiful, so I wanted to try and take advantage.
• 39:19
  Speaker 1: And I got all gussied up and then it started raining. Okay, yeah, yeah,
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: not today, not today. I'm sorry. Well that's okay. You
• 39:29
  Speaker 1: look nice for the pod, you look at it. I
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: wore this little digit sweatshirt tied. You guys both look
• 39:36
  Speaker 1: adorable come on, come on, so good. I love I
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: love this chat. We are you as you know, we're
• 39:44
  Speaker 1: the o G s and because you are your your
• 39:47
  Speaker 1: you are an OG especially because we're kind of in
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: Bachelor in Paradise season, so you're legit o G guy's
• 39:54
  Speaker 1: for sure. Yeah yeah and obviously a huge fan favorite.
• 39:59
  Speaker 1: I mean unbelievable. Yeah, yeah. Do you regret bash My
• 40:02
  Speaker 1: Paradise said, oh, did you youret going on there? I
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: don't regret anything in my life, but I do. It
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: was it was one of the more challenging things for
• 40:09
  Speaker 1: me because in the o G seasons there was not
• 40:13
  Speaker 1: an alcohol limit for people, and right that's the only
• 40:18
  Speaker 1: thing there was to do on the beach was just
• 40:20
  Speaker 1: get hammered. And I don't drink, and so for me,
• 40:24
  Speaker 1: I'm sure I just too cool because but I wasn't.
• 40:29
  Speaker 1: It was just like I don't drink, so I'm bored,
• 40:31
  Speaker 1: and I just kind of isolated myself and which just
• 40:34
  Speaker 1: wasn't my vibe. It wasn't my thing. I thought going
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: on there it would be like zip lines and adventures
• 40:41
  Speaker 1: and horsebock kings and boat rides and whatever, like a
• 40:44
  Speaker 1: lot of just swimming in the ocean. But it was
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: just too dang hot. There was nothing. You couldn't even
• 40:50
  Speaker 1: get on the beach without heat stroking. So it was
• 40:52
  Speaker 1: just really yeah, a lot of sitting around and just
• 40:56
  Speaker 1: drinking for people. And I was just sitting around and
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: being like boring. And then the whole raccoon conversations happened.
• 41:07
  Speaker 1: You come on the amount of people who were like,
• 41:15
  Speaker 1: why would you talk to a raccoon? How stupid? I mean,
• 41:18
  Speaker 1: come on, well, now we know you and the raccoon
• 41:23
  Speaker 1: were the only two that weren't hammered, so it makes sense. Yeah,
• 41:27
  Speaker 1: I know there's points where I wish I drank but
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: did not. You know what, though, you can thank you
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: lucky stars for that. Once you see like the edits
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: back and you're like the only one that doesn't say
• 41:37
  Speaker 1: anything dumb. You're like, conversation with raccoon, I'll take that,
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: I take I'll take that over. I probably did dump
• 41:44
  Speaker 1: things too, but like I couldn't blame it on the alcohol.
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: You know, maybe yes I wasn't Okay, Yeah, I was drunk,
• 41:55
  Speaker 1: all right. Well, cheers to you even though you don't drink.
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: Cheers to you and Ryan and huge gratulations. We are
• 42:02
  Speaker 1: just so happy for you. Thank you, thank you. I
• 42:05
  Speaker 1: just love your love. I love your love, I love
• 42:07
  Speaker 1: your happiness. I love the light that shines from within you.
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: So well, thank you, Thank you guys so much for
• 42:14
  Speaker 1: having me on. I know when they when they told
• 42:16
  Speaker 1: me I could come on with you guys, I was like, yes,
• 42:18
  Speaker 1: I want to talk to you guys so much more.
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: I feel like the new the new generation of people
• 42:25
  Speaker 1: on the show. I'm like, I could be their moms.
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: We could be their moms, and the same I am
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: turning fifty. I'm turning fifty, so uh do not look fifty.
• 42:40
  Speaker 1: Thank you at all. Thank you, But but I say
• 42:45
  Speaker 1: that I feel that because these kids are like twenty whatever,
• 42:48
  Speaker 1: and if I had kids in my late twenties, they
• 42:51
  Speaker 1: could totally be my children. And I do. I have
• 42:53
  Speaker 1: said that in the past, they feel. I feel very
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: maternal towards everyone, even even Bob, even though Bob's older
• 43:00
  Speaker 1: than me. I'm just incredibly mature. I make it easy
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: a child. I feel the same way most the same way.
• 43:11
  Speaker 1: So you can come on any time, and before you go,
• 43:17
  Speaker 1: I have to see the ring. You flashed it flashed it.
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: Oh wow, that is beautiful. Thank you so much amazing.
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: Yes he did. I always told him. I was like,
• 43:31
  Speaker 1: just so you know, there's a lot to live up
• 43:33
  Speaker 1: to in the bachelor world as far as like proposals
• 43:36
  Speaker 1: or rings, Like just so you know, I'm happy to
• 43:41
  Speaker 1: even just have a happy relationship. That's what that's for.
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: The ring doesn't matter, the proposal doesn't matter. You can
• 43:47
  Speaker 1: do it in bed watching a movie. I don't care. Totally. Yeah, yeah,
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: he went above and beyond and it was the most
• 43:55
  Speaker 1: speckful thing and the most beautiful ring. That's gorgeous. And
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: your nails look on points. You were ready. I had to.
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: I've done afterwards because they were not done when I
• 44:12
  Speaker 1: love the glazed, the glaze, the dips, got the dip.
• 44:18
  Speaker 1: Bob knows more than me. Love it. Thank you, Claire.
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: We love you, Claire. Congratulations. So happy for you. Thank
• 44:28
  Speaker 1: you so much you guys. I love you guys too,
• 44:30
  Speaker 1: and I appreciate you guys just thinking about me, having
• 44:33
  Speaker 1: me on, it means a lot, of course, it means
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: a lot for you to come on. So thank you
• 44:38
  Speaker 1: and give Ryan a big hug for us for coming
• 44:40
  Speaker 1: and popping in because I know he was probably like,
• 44:44
  Speaker 1: why do I have to do this, but guy, he's
• 44:47
  Speaker 1: a tech guy. We need his help, ye to help.
• 44:51
  Speaker 1: He's not he doesn't want to hug the camera and
• 44:54
  Speaker 1: you know what, bonus bonus right don't? Yeah? Awesome, Thank
• 45:02
  Speaker 1: you Claire, so much love, so much love, and I
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: appreciate your having me on take care of Claire. Thanks
• 45:07
  Speaker 1: for coming by Claire. You had such great question her. Well, honestly,
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: it's like having a conversation with a girlfriend because she
• 45:19
  Speaker 1: is one of my girlfriends, you know, like we Actually
• 45:23
  Speaker 1: it's funny because I'm thinking about it now. I'm going
• 45:25
  Speaker 1: to go do this right now. On our bachelorette um
• 45:29
  Speaker 1: group chat, we usually say happy birthday to everybody, and
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: no one has come on and said congratulations on her
• 45:38
  Speaker 1: on her engagement. So I'm gonna go do that before
• 45:41
  Speaker 1: I actually forget. Definitely do that. But yeah, I just
• 45:46
  Speaker 1: love her and her attitude. I feel like, you know,
• 45:51
  Speaker 1: she said it, it's easy to get down about stuff,
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: especially when you've been through all the things and are
• 45:57
  Speaker 1: still going through, like especially with her mom that she's
• 46:00
  Speaker 1: been through, that she's going through, and to have that
• 46:03
  Speaker 1: positive attitude, I feel like it's just so mature and
• 46:07
  Speaker 1: so important, and you know, she's raving about Ryan. But
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: I have to say, Ryan, if you're listening to this Dawkins,
• 46:16
  Speaker 1: you have found a keeper to Oh no doubt beautiful.
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: I've always thought that about her since the first time
• 46:20
  Speaker 1: I met her. We just got along so well. She
• 46:22
  Speaker 1: was super cool. We had a great time together, and
• 46:25
  Speaker 1: she's obviously very beautiful and and you know, has done
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: a lot of her life as well. But I just
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: always really liked her spunkiness, like her attitude about stuff
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: and m and man, I mean from the second she
• 46:36
  Speaker 1: came on you, I mean, you see you just see
• 46:38
  Speaker 1: that that glow and and like she said, though, that
• 46:41
  Speaker 1: all comes from within. She got that before she even
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: met you know, Ryan again. And so that's just great
• 46:46
  Speaker 1: to see someone who you know is in the rights place.
• 46:49
  Speaker 1: You know, it's just so confident I could say that
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: confidently about her, you know. Agreed, agreed. So thank you.
• 46:57
  Speaker 1: So this has been another edition to almost famous the
• 47:00
  Speaker 1: O G S. Yeah, thanks for listening. Thanks for listening.
• 47:11
  Speaker 1: H