Latest / Dits & Dahs / after this, then that
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- Sue: Do you have lists of actions awaiting to be done based on something that has yet to happen in your life? Meaning that if such that when X happens, I'll be able to do Y and Z and make an improvement in my life. I have this chapter closing in my life with the end of Gareth's tools and equipment finally being removed out of the house. And over the years that I've been waiting for this moment to happen, I've created plans. in this case of where to shift my belongings in the reclaimed space of the house. And at time knowing that there will be opportunities for me to purge my equipment once I finally have space to spread it out. And I've spoken about this a bit recently because it's a clear obsession at the moment. So it got me thinking about... The fact that my grace and patience has been utilized for all this time for the sake that, you know, I couldn't afford to force that situation to happen any quicker than it did. Confirmation with a bird tweeting. And now that that time has arrived, I'm all ready to flip the switch on the next phase of the operation to reorganize my physical belongings. And of course, there's a general inner excitement as well, because part of what I'm trying to do is rebuild my life. pretty much on the same parallels, same house, same sort of lifestyle as a solo person. I talk about... germinating and tending to my garden this year much in the same way as we did when we were married. And that's partly because we've got set and forget plants and self seeding plants and accepting that we've made accommodations for those plants to continually be grown as crops and adding to it is all part of sort of living in a nearly parallel existence as before. And it also gets me to thinking about all of the other things that I have had planned. but not yet implemented for the sake of required movement on something else to happen first. It's a process I go through every few months that came out of being destitute. It came out of when you had so little income that when you did receive it, you had to address the priorities first and foremost, and you made a list of things that you know you needed to pay to get done, but if you didn't have the cash right on hand, it was just gonna be put on a list to be done whenever. So I'm well used to processing those lists and flipping the switch to action, but it nonetheless is a reoccurring situation and I think I'm in good company. Whether you experience that firsthand or whether you know somebody that has learned that going to take money to move something forward in your life and you don't have the money, well, it's just going to have to wait to get done or you figure out a way to manifest it via some other means. I think sometimes the consequence of having a list of all of these plans that are in the in the wings of the stage of life. Oh God, that's a horrible metaphor. Anywho, I'm gonna keep that in, because you know, let's give you a giggle. Gives me a giggle. Is that sometimes you start carrying some emotional angst with it, some anxiety, some uncertainty, some doubt. I certainly knew that when I was destitute that there was a tremendous amount of uncertainty with regard to the next chunk of income and when it was gonna arrive. So all these things that you had on your list, we're going to be twitching a little bit until you had that cash. And it could be that low level vibration of anxiousness that you're used to feeling because it's no fun being destitute and it's not even living paycheck to paycheck. It's that and the fact that you're having to pay catch up on other things. It can contribute to a lot of negative feelings. And I'm certainly not advocating for being bubbly happy. when you're going through these situations, but I am advocating for the fact that once you recognize that there may be additional unwanted negative energies projected upon you just because the universe knows that you're going through hard times and it's teaching you a lesson of some sort to be determined later, you just don't notice adding that little bit of anxiousness in. And you don't even realize you had that extra anxiety floating around your energy all that while until you finally get a chance to enact that plan. because you can't avoid the fact that once it's completed, you're feeling a weight lifted off you, a level of relaxation that's coming over you, letting go. I do advocate for making your journey through those times as joyous and calm as you possibly are able to do so. And that's why raising your awareness of hidden lurking negative energies that are associated with the strife that you're experiencing but are nonetheless not yours to embrace. Be aware of that. so that you can transmute that energy, make it into something good. Sometimes it's just the completion of the plan itself that is exhilarating. In my case, it's simply a matter of relocating some material bits of things in my studio to another room so that I can make more room for keyboards to be transparent. There's no money in the budget to add more keyboards to the extra space that I now have. It's just simply wishful thinking on my part. Again. That item does get added to another list of when the money comes in that is available, that plan gets enacted. But I think a lot about the angst that we might suffer day to day is that buildup of all of those plans that we're just waiting to enact. And it's unwittingly contributing to a weight that we really don't need to be carrying. And sometimes those plans that we've made and are waiting to implement, when they come to the reality of implementing them, you realize, don't really need that anymore. Well, think in the end you end up, as you become more aware of what's going on in your life, you tend to revisit those lists and plans with more frequency because you're understanding more that everything you carry like that might not be physically seen or changed. is nonetheless something that internally you're carrying within your spirit and may not need to, but you won't know that until you review it. I'm looking forward to being able to flip the switch on this latest plan. Thanks for listening. I'll let you know how it goes.