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Autistic People: (What do YOU know about AUTISM?) · Aspergers & Autism Podcast [The Aspie World] AuDHD

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  Hey guys in this week's episode. I'm talking about like what it's
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  like to be on the autism spectrum.
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  Like, how do I how does it feel to be autistic how from my point
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  of view specifically because I feel like a lot of people don't
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  understand this and they kind of you know, a lot of people see
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  autistic people as just being Like Rain Man or just being
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  like, you know, their friends kid or whatever.
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  And so this kind of bothers me is why I wanted to do this
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  So in case you feel like it's a bit jumpy is because it's taken
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  from different. Types of conversations I've had
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  guys. Enjoy this episode.
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  So autistic people. I mean like how much do the
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  general public know about autistic people.
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  There's this common misconception of autistic
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  people. Everybody is like rain man,
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  right and I did a talk for the national autistic Society talk.
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  About this exact thing where everyone thought, you know,
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  everybody who's got autism is Rain Man.
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  So what is Rain Man one may ask? Well Rain Man was a movie that
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  featured Dustin Hoffman as an autistic Savant individual with
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  Tom Cruise and there's a bunch of stuff that goes with it.
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  But the interesting thing about it is rain man is a savannah
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  which is kind of it's on the autism spectrum, but it isn't
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  basically what you see as a day-to-day autistic individual
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  see most people see he autistic individuals as all the same.
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  They always think that oh this person has an Autism Spectrum
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  condition. So they're going to be really
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  good at maths and not going to speak to anybody.
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  They want look anybody in the eye is ever and you won't be
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  able to have a conversation with them.
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  Well, this isn't in fact true, you know, most of the people who
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  I know on the autism spectrum have great ability to verbally
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  Express themselves through a vast vocabulary some of the
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  most, you know, amazing people I've met with autism Actually
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  don't have that good in math skills, you know, they don't
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  have this technical math brain, which is fine because we are all
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  individual. This is something that everybody
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  always forgets and I always get compared to oh, you're not like
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  that person's kid or oh, you know, my friends autistic and
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  you're not like them and I was like, well, that's interesting
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  because we shouldn't be the same because we're not the same we
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  are individuals we add different people but people always forget
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  that now I wanted to try and explain autism and kind of some
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  of the things that I UND in my life right now and people always
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  ask that question know. What's it like being autistic.
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  Well, here's some stuff that I would just want to share with
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  you guys. So being autistic is kind of
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  like being all by yourself in a crowded room on what I mean by
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  that is that there's so much going on in my brain that it's
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  hard to comprehend what what and the only way I can explain it is
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  like their circles. Okay, the circle spinning so you
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  have this circle spinning over here and this is like bi-fuel
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  users. Like I'm going to get up right
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  now. I have to get up some of my body
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  clock is saying get up. It's time to wake up.
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  Okay, cool. And then we have another spin
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  over here. And this pin is saying like
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  Okay, you gotta remember to eat you have to remember to eat but
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  your brain is thinking and getting up and I wanted you to
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  the cool things. I want to get up and I want to
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  start making videos. I want to go up and I want to
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  start learning my specific subject with specific interest
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  need and then you have this set plan in your head of how the day
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  is going to go. So you get your spinning this
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  plate here and then you spin this one here and then you have
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  another one over here, which is like I'm going to go downstairs.
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  I'm going to get you know, get get change get my stuff out of
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  the closet the Wardrobe whatever and then she's got these three
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  things spinning and all these things are spinning, right and
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  they're all your things and you can kind of manage all those
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  things. You can look at them and say
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  okay this was bending over here this one over here, but there's
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  somebody comes in and says, okay, we're changing the plans
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  and then they hit one of those those circles it like it flies
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  off like a disk and it hits all the others butts and by doing
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  that it just completely turned your day on its head and the
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  only way I can explain it is like imagine setting up loads of
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  dominoes in a row and then some Fucking one of them and then set
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  them all off and you're like, okay, it's all going but then
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  somebody taking one of the middle ones away and then it
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  only goes halfway through on the rest of the still standing
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  there. So all the stuff that you
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  planned has now gone to heck and you're never going to accomplish
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  those things. So that's kind of like the
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  dailies that's kind of like my, you know, I have to like have my
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  routines my patterns and things that I'm going to do in my day.
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  I love those things and I feel like it can become very chaotic.
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  Now. The other thing is that I am
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  quite content in. In my own head.
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  I like the things I think about I like my specific interests.
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  I love talking about SEO zandile talking about YouTube and aliens
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  and stuff from cool stuff like that.
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  Right, but when you're confronted with real life where
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  People want to talk to you about other things.
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  I want to talk about the weather or shopping or you have to
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  comprehend something that's you know, the logistical
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  comprehension of how to articulate a shopping trip,
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  which is completely difficult because your track your brain is
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  is very comfortable with the things that it knows but then
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  these people have it in foreign interest and that foreign
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  interest becomes chaotic and it becomes I guess there's only so
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  much space inside my head and my mind is trying to keep up like a
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  thousand miles an hour and I hope some of this is making
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  sense because It's hard to describe it any other way.
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  I feel like I'm constantly on a Tipping Point where I'm trying
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  my best to make sure everything is is kept up.
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  Like these plates is spinning when day is going.
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  Well. I'm remembering to do all those
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  things and I'm at constant Tipping Point which means that
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  at any moment this could all tip like tipping.
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  I mean like it could literally just, you know a change in
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  routine could cause my data go completely off the charts and
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  then like if it goes off the charts then I'm going to be like
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  And you know going oh and off the chart is basically when
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  meltdowns happens and shutdowns happen and things like that and
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  some days I find life so exhausting that I can't even get
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  up out of my bed because I just feel so overwhelmed with it.
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  It's like there's white noise everywhere other than in my
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  head. So when I'm in my head, I'm
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  thinking about the things I'm thinking about.
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  That's awesome. When I have to like interact
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  with the world. It's kind of like white noise.
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  It's like a like a hot white like like I can't I don't know
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  the best way to explain Like when you open your doors and
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  he's like so many things noises people smells like it's just
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  it's crazy. It's like literally it's like
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  imagine being really peaceful in bed and the next minute somebody
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  throws you out in the bed and you're on the middle of the
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  street. You're naked you're cold and
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  there's like a bunch of people walking past really fast and
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  just like agreeing with you and like shouting at you and stuff
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  and it's like buses in the way that maybe all that kind of
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  stuff. That's what it feels like every
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  single time. I want to go out of the house.
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  It's crazy. So how do I deal with that?
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  I actually put Headphones in my ears and I wear sunglasses.
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  I have a coat or a hoodie that zips up to about here and it
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  doesn't work that well in the summer but having a hat there's
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  actually help keep me quite secure and make me feel like I'm
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  still in my own head but above most things like a both most
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  things that all in relation to the autism spectrum.
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  I feel like the most difficult thing is interacting with
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  people. I don't know traveling and the
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  unexpected like so I try my best to plan everything out.
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  I try to be like as efficient. As on it, as you know organized
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  as I possibly can but the fear of the unknown cripples me so
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  much soul that when I sometimes organized to go somewhere.
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  I organized as much as I can but the fear of the unknown will
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  stop me going there 100% And this obviously is an anxiety
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  issue. This comes come morbidly with an
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  Autism Spectrum condition and that absolutely sucks now
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  dealing with people on a day-to-day basis is super
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  difficult and what I mean by this is I know what I'm talking
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  about. And I know all the things that I
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  have planned out in my head to do and to talk about during the
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  day but when I go out and I have to speak to somebody people will
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  be like, oh, you know, there's etiquette about what waiting in
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  line and a certain fashion off certain things that you say to
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  certain people and things that you can't say to certain people
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  and things that may offend this person or offend that person all
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  these are Unwritten Untold things that you just supposed to
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  just know and for people on the autism spectrum with an autistic
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  Spectrum condition. This is difficult.
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  I don't know these things. I don't know those boundaries
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  like it's so difficult to try and think of my head and go.
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  Okay, right that is that is not that it's not appropriate to say
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  here. That's appropriate to say that
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  this stuff is challenging. This is what I just tend to just
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  not talk to people in public. Now a lot of the time I get
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  quite overwhelmed and big social situation.
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  So if I'm like somewhere with like Naomi's family, so when I'm
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  with my girlfriend's family, I kind of get overwhelmed because
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  when there's a lot of people and A lot of people want to say a
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  lot of things you gotta imagine. I'm spinning all these plate
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  right now and then they come in with all their plates and we're
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  also and Spinner when you're trying to it just not gonna
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  happen. And so this is one of the
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  reasons why socializing is super super difficult, but it doesn't
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  mean that I don't want to like I want to go and see friends.
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  I want to see people I want to talk to people but I feel like
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  it's you have to surround yourself with people that can
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  understand you and it can support that because specific
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  need. Oh, yeah while we're talking
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  about it, I guess eye contact is obviously one of those big
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  issues. I don't actually like eye
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  contact. Find that kind of really
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  difficult and I also find that super uncomfortable to make eye
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  contact people especially will I don't even know so like people
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  on the autism spectrum can have issues and difficulties with
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  things like food and textures and smells and sights and sounds
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  and all these things are century overloading and they all these
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  are sensory input issues that are caused by something called
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  sensory processing disorder, you know, that persons not being
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  miserable and not being grumpy. They're not being spoiled or not
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  the causing a tantrum and they're also not fussy with
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  their eating. Ding what they actually are it's
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  either overly overly sensitive to certain sensory stimuli.
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  Now this is designed to tell you guys about how people with
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  Autism, you know, how they interact with the world how they
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  communicate with each other how they communicate with the rest
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  of the world around them. And this is me being honest and
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  telling you guys how to do it. It's scary.
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  The world is a scary place when I was a little kid.
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  I was absolutely frightened of everything.
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  I had my parents have to walk me everywhere.
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  It can go anywhere my own the the everything was so confusing.
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  I Understand why we go from this position to that position.
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  I didn't understand why events took place in certain orders.
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  They just seem to be completely random like, you know, oh we're
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  going to school and I'm at home and I'm going to the beach but
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  then we're going home. I haven't done it all this would
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  just completely unlinked event and it's made no sense to me the
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  older I got I still don't understand these things and I
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  still fear for it. You know, I'm 33 years old this
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  year and I still can't understand how people can walk
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  into a middle of a city on their own just be like, okay.
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  I'm going to order a coffee or a tea and just like be be happy to
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  sit in here old and tea and coffee that scares The Living
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  Daylights out of me like a I can't do that.
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  I can't do on the train alone can get a bus on my own account.
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  I can I can drive places on my own but when I get to the place,
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  I can't get out and beyond that. It's just like it's the craziest
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  experience like ever because I see people doing and I was a
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  kid. I used to think I wanted folder.
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  I'm going to be cool because I'll be able to understand those
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  things. I'll be able to go and do those
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  things other people doing I bills are going, you know, sit
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  in the middle like a coffee shop in Manchester or London or
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  something and you know, just be like a normal.
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  Listen, I'm just like, you know, I can't I can't do those things
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  and that really that's like the biggest issue.
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  Like I just want to be I want to be is you know, I don't know.
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  I don't know. I just want to fit in as much as
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  possible in my eyes and if it was a constant battle to try and
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  you know get into that. But anyway, that that's just rub
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  it I just hope that you have learned something from this my
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  ramblings have really like open your eyes and explain some stuff
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  that maybe you haven't already thought about before I didn't
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  even know about people. For being you know on the
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  Spectrum.