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Oops, stain chronicles pt.1 & other bones I have to pick · An ASMR Practice

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  Speaker 1: Oh, clocking in for another shift. It is 4.41 in
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  Speaker 1: the morning. The sky is full of clouds and the
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  Speaker 1: streets are pretty quiet. The streets are real quiet right
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  Speaker 1: about now. I'm in a lovely community, I gotta say.
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  Speaker 1: We got We got two convenience stores within, like, a
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  Speaker 1: two-minute walk. We got Birdie's. And we got fucking... Some
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  Speaker 1: place that has Sopranos artwork on the front porch. And
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  Speaker 1: I really like the guy in there. He, you know,
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  Speaker 1: he chatted with me a while. He gave me a
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  Speaker 1: little fist bump. The second time I went in, I
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  Speaker 1: was like, do you have what I want? He said...
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  Speaker 1: he said, I have this other thing, I said, I
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  Speaker 1: don't want that thing, I said, I don't want that thing,
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  Speaker 1: I said, uh, Nux, dude, put it here, and he did,
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  Speaker 1: so I was rocking with that, and, um, the other place,
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  Speaker 1: the other place I'm rocking with in a big way, Birdies,
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  Speaker 1: they got everything, they got everything you could ever want,
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  Speaker 1: you know, this is irrelevant, this is literally irrelevant, So
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  Speaker 1: I want to talk about just a story time from
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  Speaker 1: Genesis class. I took a class about the Genesis chapter
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  Speaker 1: of the Bible. This is about all I know about
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  Speaker 1: the Bible, unfortunately. I mean, I know a little bit
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  Speaker 1: of other stuff from movies. Movies and conversations I've had.
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  Speaker 1: this is about all I got. Okay. But so Genesis
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  Speaker 1: class with rabbi Cohen, the, uh, context is that like,
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  Speaker 1: I don't necessarily remember signing up for this class. I
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  Speaker 1: don't know what I was thinking. Like, I don't think
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  Speaker 1: I was thinking like, I think I was probably at
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  Speaker 1: an all-time low and I was like, all right, let's
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  Speaker 1: see what the Bible has to say. And then there
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  Speaker 1: was a guy in the class who I had hooked
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  Speaker 1: up with, okay, like once. I'm pretty sure we hooked
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  Speaker 1: up one time. We went on like a couple dates
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  Speaker 1: and I thought I really liked him. On the dates,
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  Speaker 1: you know? Like, we freaking played pool. Which, I don't
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  Speaker 1: know how to play pool. But, you know, we had, like,
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  Speaker 1: the classic romantic moment where he's teaching me how to
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  Speaker 1: play pool. And I was like, ooh, a boy is
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  Speaker 1: teaching me something. Ooh. And he was taller than me,
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  Speaker 1: you know? And this is kind of rare, it would seem.
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  Speaker 1: And so... We, uh... I don't know. I was... I
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  Speaker 1: was smitten. What can I say? I was literally smitten.
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  Speaker 1: And I didn't even know this guy. I was like, ooh,
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  Speaker 1: he's taller than me and he teaches me how to
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  Speaker 1: play pool. And I feel like we had a pretty
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  Speaker 1: decent conversation about, like, Buddhism. You know, I was, like,
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  Speaker 1: into Eastern... Uh... What do you call this? The first
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  Speaker 1: word that came to mind was thought. The second word
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  Speaker 1: was ideology. I'm afraid to say philosophy because one time...
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  Speaker 1: I think people don't know what philosophy is. I'm getting
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  Speaker 1: intel from a former therapist that some people don't know
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  Speaker 1: what philosophy is. Because I was taking something way too
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  Speaker 1: personally and... Because I told someone at a job. Because I,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I'm like, oh, I went to college. I
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  Speaker 1: studied philosophy. And they just walked away. They literally walked away.
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  Speaker 1: They were like, I'm out of here. They didn't even
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  Speaker 1: say that. They just walked away. And then I'm talking
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  Speaker 1: to my therapist about it. I'm like, why did they
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  Speaker 1: walk away? Does anybody know why they walked away? And
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  Speaker 1: my therapist was like, you know... I don't think I
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  Speaker 1: really know what philosophy is. What is philosophy? So if
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  Speaker 1: you're interested, philosophy is philo, is love. You know, if
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  Speaker 1: you're a cinephile, you love movies. You love cinema. You
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  Speaker 1: could learn this by listening to the freaking Lonely Island song,
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  Speaker 1: Jack Sparrow. That's a perfect example. Um, so philo is
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  Speaker 1: love of philo. Uh, Sophie is wisdom, love of wisdom.
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  Speaker 1: Are you going to ask me what wisdom is? No,
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  Speaker 1: you're not. Cause you don't have a voice and you
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  Speaker 1: don't have a freaking say. Okay. Um, what is wisdom?
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  Speaker 1: I mean, to quote somebody, um, knowledge is that tomato
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  Speaker 1: is not a vegetable, right? Right? Tomato is a fruit.
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  Speaker 1: Wisdom is not putting tomato in your fruit salad. That's stupid.
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  Speaker 1: Straight up. But for some normies, that might make sense.
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  Speaker 1: I think you can put all sorts of things in
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  Speaker 1: your fruit salad. Oh, gosh. I'm really just telling jokes
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  Speaker 1: for myself. I'm really just out here. I'm out here
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  Speaker 1: on the balcony right now telling jokes for myself. I'm
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  Speaker 1: sitting on the ground. I was going to make a
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  Speaker 1: like a thought web for this on my iPad, but
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  Speaker 1: it's very low battery. And my iPad was telling me indirectly.
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  Speaker 1: My iPad was telling me I'm about to die. Please
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  Speaker 1: do not use me anymore. So I put the tablet down.
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  Speaker 1: okay so eastern philosophy me and this guy um i
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  Speaker 1: feel like i can name him his name is sam
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  Speaker 1: his name is sam and uh this is also the
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  Speaker 1: guy at one time we were we were the last
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  Speaker 1: girls at the party in one of the milk box
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  Speaker 1: houses um i don't know which one don't ask it
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  Speaker 1: wasn't fells i can tell you that much I think
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  Speaker 1: it was the next one, but it might have been
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  Speaker 1: the next one. And I don't remember any of their
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  Speaker 1: names because it doesn't matter. It was one of the
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  Speaker 1: milk box houses. And it wasn't Fels. I can tell
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  Speaker 1: you that. I know Fels quite well. Yeah, so... We're
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  Speaker 1: not going to get distracted on Fells. That's a story
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  Speaker 1: for another time. So this guy, Sam, you know, vaguely
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  Speaker 1: taught me how to play pool, vaguely had a decent
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  Speaker 1: halfway discussion on Buddhism. I was probably just some kind
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  Speaker 1: of desperate or something. I don't know. I was just
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  Speaker 1: shooting my shot. And so we hooked up and... It
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  Speaker 1: was okay. But ultimately, I don't know. It was okay.
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  Speaker 1: It was okay. It was certainly not the worst experience
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  Speaker 1: I've ever had. But it gets worse because... So fast
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  Speaker 1: forward and we're in Genesis with Rabbi Cohen and... And
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  Speaker 1: the rabbi liked me. That's all I know is the
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  Speaker 1: rabbi looked at me a certain kind of way and
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  Speaker 1: it wasn't gross. I mean, he looked at me with
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  Speaker 1: respect and he looked at me with like, like, please
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  Speaker 1: go on. Please keep talking. Please do not let these
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  Speaker 1: fucking idiots keep talking like you need to be the
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  Speaker 1: one talking. And I distinctly remember like a moment this
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  Speaker 1: guy Sam is like being super cynical and he's being
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  Speaker 1: like overwhelmingly cynical and like blaming God for everything bad.
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  Speaker 1: And listen, we've all been there. We've all been there. Um, I,
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  Speaker 1: if you, you know, there was a time I was
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  Speaker 1: making podcasts under a different name and my, you know,
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  Speaker 1: I described a time when I took a lot of,
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  Speaker 1: you know, a highly conscious substance and The first thing
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  Speaker 1: that happened was I was with my dad. Who is deceased.
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  Speaker 1: And it was wonderful. And it was beautiful. And we
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  Speaker 1: were having fun. And it was like an imaginary space.
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  Speaker 1: And we could just like. Create anything. And really we
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  Speaker 1: didn't create that much. You know. It was sort of
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  Speaker 1: like a bouncy ball simulation. It was like we were
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  Speaker 1: bouncy balls together. And we were like. Sort of. I
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  Speaker 1: don't know how to say this. we weren't dancing I
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  Speaker 1: wouldn't say we were dancing but we were there was
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  Speaker 1: music involved there was music involved and we were like
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  Speaker 1: bouncy balls and we were also ski balls Like, we
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  Speaker 1: were just balls rolling around. We were just balls rolling
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  Speaker 1: around and bouncing around. And, like, music was there. And,
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  Speaker 1: of course, music is wonderful. Oh, my gosh. I just
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  Speaker 1: got hungry. Fuck. What the hell? What the literal hell?
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  Speaker 1: I thought I did a good job eating today, but
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  Speaker 1: I guess not. Oh, man, I should have brought the coffee.
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  Speaker 1: Can I pause? Okay, I'm going to pause. Okay. Oh, shit.
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  Speaker 1: Almost just spilled everything with my knee, my left knee.
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  Speaker 1: So I got the coffee. The coffee's from this morning.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't finish it. I put way too much in
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  Speaker 1: the French press because I'm using an alternative. I'm using
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  Speaker 1: an alternative French press. It's way bigger than mine at home.
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  Speaker 1: And I just don't know how to control myself. And
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  Speaker 1: so I made way too much, but now it's kind
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  Speaker 1: of nice because I didn't have to make coffee. And
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  Speaker 1: because I didn't have to make coffee, I was like,
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  Speaker 1: I should make food. So we're chewing, we're chewing. This
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  Speaker 1: is a pretty symbolic meal, but if you're my friend,
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  Speaker 1: you can just ask about it, I suppose. Ugh. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: So Sam in Genesis. So we got Sam and Rabbi Cohen.
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  Speaker 1: I don't think I could tell you another single person
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  Speaker 1: in that class, unfortunately. I could probably look it up.
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  Speaker 1: Doesn't matter right now. So Sam's being super cynical and
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  Speaker 1: talking about, oh, God sucks. God is super bad. Et cetera.
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  Speaker 1: And I've hooked up with this guy. So I'm like... And,
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  Speaker 1: you know, he's moved on. He's moved on to some
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  Speaker 1: girl who looks nothing like me. And like, you know,
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  Speaker 1: they seem to be lasting longer than we did. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: basically things got weird during COVID with me and that guy.
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  Speaker 1: I think, I don't even think it got weird. It
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  Speaker 1: actually didn't get weird. It literally just like COVID happened
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  Speaker 1: and we had to go our separate ways. And, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I was pretty, it doesn't matter. Okay, let's talk about Genesis.
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  Speaker 1: Let's talk about Genesis. Can we freaking talk about Genesis?
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  Speaker 1: Holy shit. And he was being, yeah, we got it.
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  Speaker 1: He was being super cynical. I, and I was like,
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  Speaker 1: I seem to recall, I was like challenging him in
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  Speaker 1: the class. I was like, no, dude. You're such a
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  Speaker 1: fucking hater-ass bitch right now. And... And the rabbi was
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  Speaker 1: fucking with me. The rabbi was like... Yeah, girl. Tell him.
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  Speaker 1: And I don't remember what I said. I'm gonna be honest.
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  Speaker 1: I don't really remember what I said. But I was
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  Speaker 1: on some, like... I was on my faith shit. Like,
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  Speaker 1: I was... I was literally... Like... this is not true, like,
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  Speaker 1: God is good, and we can call God whatever we
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  Speaker 1: want to call God, I think, I mean, a higher power, like,
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  Speaker 1: let's go back to the freaking basics of recovery 101, okay, like,
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  Speaker 1: a higher power, it doesn't have to be God, it
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  Speaker 1: doesn't have to be Allah, okay, it doesn't have to be,
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  Speaker 1: what do they call it in Judaism, freaking, I don't
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  Speaker 1: want to know, I used to know, I forgore, I forwent.
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  Speaker 1: Oh my gosh. I love breakfast. Breakfast is the best food. Mmm.
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  Speaker 1: Petit déjeuner. I like, in French, they call it petit déjeuner,
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  Speaker 1: which is just little lunch. It's just a little lunch.
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  Speaker 1: Lunch break. We're taking a little lunch break. Everybody at home,
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  Speaker 1: grab a meal. I got two fried eggs here. Like
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  Speaker 1: two or three pieces of bacon. I think it's three
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  Speaker 1: pieces of bacon and one hash brown. Some taters. You
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  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying? Oh, the wind. Hello. The wind
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  Speaker 1: likes to fuck with me, let me tell you. The
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  Speaker 1: wind is very cinematic, though. I really do appreciate the
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  Speaker 1: wind sometimes. You know, elements. The elements. Okay, so this
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  Speaker 1: is what Rabbi Cullen taught me. He was like, God
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  Speaker 1: never spoke to woman. That's what he said. He said,
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  Speaker 1: God never spoke to woman. God spoke to man, and
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  Speaker 1: the woman, perhaps seeing that man is a freaking dumbass,
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  Speaker 1: the woman tested the man. God told man, don't eat
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  Speaker 1: the apple. Man told woman, don't eat the apple. Woman
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  Speaker 1: has keen botanical knowledge, okay? And she remembers what God,
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  Speaker 1: you know, and she can identify the apple specifically. And
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  Speaker 1: there might be multiple kinds of apples. Who knows? Some
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  Speaker 1: kind of plant. It might not even be an apple.
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  Speaker 1: Who's to say? Some kind of plant. God said, don't
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  Speaker 1: eat this plant. To man. Man said to Eve, don't
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  Speaker 1: eat this plant. Eve remembered. And then later, Eve was
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  Speaker 1: testing man's botanical knowledge. She brought the plant to man.
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  Speaker 1: She said, should we eat this? She was on God's side.
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  Speaker 1: She was literally on God's side. That's the, that's the,
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  Speaker 1: that's the freaking tale. Okay. To be told. Um, is
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  Speaker 1: it Eve? Listen, woman, listen to man, man, listen to God.
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  Speaker 1: Man forgot what God told him. Okay? God directly spoke
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  Speaker 1: to man and man forgore. He forewent. Okay? And this
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  Speaker 1: is a tale as old as fucking time. Man fucking forgore.
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  Speaker 1: And Eve had keen botanical knowledge. Okay? Literally. And she
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  Speaker 1: was testing man in God's favor. And God didn't even
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  Speaker 1: speak to her. God spoke through man to her. And
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: so the moral of the story is. I think God's
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  Speaker 1: on women's side. Straight up. You know I heard some
• 18:03
  Speaker 1: bogus freaking nonsense. That really pissed me off. That was like.
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  Speaker 1: If you have a daughter first. If like a daughter
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  Speaker 1: is first in your bloodline. Then that means that. Um.
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  Speaker 1: There's still like generational trauma or something. That means like.
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  Speaker 1: That means the generational curse hasn't been lifted essentially. As
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  Speaker 1: if having a daughter is like a bad thing. Let
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  Speaker 1: me tell you something. I worked with kids for a summer.
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  Speaker 1: And I will say. I will say. There are some
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  Speaker 1: tricky women. Okay. There are some tricky girls. Let's put
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  Speaker 1: it that way. I'll say this. I would say like
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  Speaker 1: 90% of the girls on their best behavior could not
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  Speaker 1: lie to you if they wanted to. And, I mean,
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  Speaker 1: they're pretty. They're pretty and they're well behaved. Okay? And
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  Speaker 1: then there was one particular girl that she was always whispering, okay?
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  Speaker 1: She was always whispering to the other girls and corrupting them.
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  Speaker 1: Straight up. Some people will say I was that girl.
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  Speaker 1: I don't even think that's true. I don't think I
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  Speaker 1: really said much. And y'all still found a way to
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: be mad. And I get it now. I get it now.
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  Speaker 1: Everything I've ever received was preparing me for this moment.
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  Speaker 1: It was preparing me. They were saying, baby girl, I
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: know you want coffee. You should probably eat something. You
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  Speaker 1: might want to eat something. first it's crazy it's crazy
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: how the very first sin was a woman who ate
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: what's that song called does anybody know josh remember when
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  Speaker 1: you fucking wanted to skip this song in the fucking
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  Speaker 1: car josh i'll kick your fucking ass right now boy
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  Speaker 1: if you can outdo me bro Just kidding, Josh. Love you, brother.
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  Speaker 1: I'm getting a little testy, okay? I'm eating bacon for
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  Speaker 1: the first time in, like, way too long. For the
• 20:26
  Speaker 1: longest time, when they were fucking up my order at
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: the fast food places, I was peeling the bacon off.
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: Couldn't do it. Couldn't do it. Ugh. But now it's
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: kind of nice. I mean, money, I think money is real. Like,
• 20:48
  Speaker 1: I think you should be a little careful, but fundamentally, fundamentally,
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: why are we wearing jeans? Have y'all ever heard of
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  Speaker 1: like being comfortable? Like, I don't want to eat chicken.
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  Speaker 1: I don't want to eat chicken. And this is a
• 21:09
  Speaker 1: hill I think I'm going to die on. Here's the thing.
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  Speaker 1: When I was in Vermont, You could go to the co-op.
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  Speaker 1: You could get good chicken, okay? You could get good, locally,
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  Speaker 1: pasture-raised chicken. And you could probably do it here. I
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: don't know. I want good chicken. And also, I don't
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  Speaker 1: want chicken. Eggs are fine. I love chicken. I have
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: such a deep, passionate love for hens. Hens, okay? Hens. Hens. Hands. Hands. Horns. Perhaps. No. No.
• 21:54
  Speaker 1: Not horns. Hens. This is something the fucking New England bitches...
• 22:05
  Speaker 1: My freshman year of college, they were all on my
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  Speaker 1: ass because I'd be like, I need a pen. And
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: I'd say, I need a pin. I need a pin.
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  Speaker 1: I need a pin. And they'd go, pin? Like a
• 22:16
  Speaker 1: safety pin? And I'd be like, uh, no, perhaps like
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  Speaker 1: a thing to write with, like a pen? And they'd
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: be like, it's pen. Like you wouldn't say when, it's when.
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, I'm about to throw hands. I'm straight
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: up about to fucking throw hands. Like, you know what
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: I mean. You literally know what I mean. Y'all are
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: so annoying. Can I have a southern accent? Is that okay?
• 22:42
  Speaker 1: I don't even have that much of a southern accent.
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: y'all got me fucked up y'all got me literally fucked
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: up and it's like and it's fine and i literally
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: am in a state of like total forgiveness right now
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: because because y'all are stupid and i don't care about
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: your fucking opinion oh my god they're like oh pronounce
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  Speaker 1: my name wrong oh oh my god How important is it?
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: You motherfucker. Clocking in. One day I'm gonna figure out
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: how to monetize this shit, but I haven't figured it
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  Speaker 1: out yet. I need a laptop. I'm currently locked out
• 23:32
  Speaker 1: of all the computers in my house. So... Um... And
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: I gave my personal computer. I gave the charger to
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: a certain individual. And my understanding is they're dog-aided. And
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: that computer fucking sucked anyways. I really need, like.
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  Speaker 2: I.
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: Probably just need to go to the library. That's probably
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  Speaker 1: what I need to do. I could actually probably do
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  Speaker 1: that tomorrow. Me and my friend were talking about we
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: really want to go to the library. I'm really sleeping
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  Speaker 1: on libraries. I'm scared of the library. I used to
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: have a lot of fantasies about libraries. And I could
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  Speaker 1: tell you why, but I'm not going to, okay? So yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I think, I think God's been speaking to me. I mean, okay, no.
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  Speaker 1: This is what I think. I think, I think like,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm just theorizing here, but I intuitively know, actually,
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  Speaker 1: that I think the voice in men's head is maybe
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  Speaker 1: closer to God than the voice in women's head. And
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  Speaker 1: that's not to say that men are superior. I don't
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  Speaker 1: think that's true. I think men are... I think men
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  Speaker 1: are extremely resistant to... Accepting that they possess goodness. Whoa. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: we're flying. Okay, we're flying. Oh, it's got a red
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  Speaker 1: and a green and an orange light. See, this is
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  Speaker 1: God speaking to me once more. And this is something
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  Speaker 1: I learned from a certain... How do you call this?
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: A certain seminary student in my life. Where I was like,
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: God doesn't intervene. You know, I've been highly corrupted by men,
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: I think, in my life. I think my files are
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: corrupted by men. I think technology is highly probably corrupted
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: by men. And I think technology fucks with women a lot.
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: And Jonathan Haidt has talked extensively about this. I really
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: recommend you read The Coddling of the American Mind. Also,
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: The Righteous Mind. Jonathan Haidt. Listen, the legs go all
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: the way up. I don't know what to say. I
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: think women, like, pay good attention. Probably much better than men. Like,
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: I think men are very good at, like, completing tasks. Like,
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: men are, like, very good soldiers and men are very good, like...
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: you know, typers, and I think men are very good at, like,
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: they have a mental checklist, and they, like, do the
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: things on the checklist, you know, and, like, the quality
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: of a man is sort of just the quality of
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: his mental checklist, you know, like, some men, some men
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: have a lot of things on their checklist, and they're
• 27:06
  Speaker 1: doing a lot, some men are doing so much that
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: they won't accept help, Some men are, like, so hyper-independent
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: that they're like, girl, I know you're trying to love me,
• 27:17
  Speaker 1: but I gotta go, um, I gotta go hang out
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: with the boys because this is, like, my number one
• 27:22
  Speaker 1: priority for some fucking reason. I, you know, and I
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: think it probably gives them a sense of meaning. Like,
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: I think men like to, like, bully each other, and, um,
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: I think that that's, like, a pretty high priority for
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: a lot of guys. It's just to, like, bully other guys.
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: I've witnessed this quite firsthand a lot. And... I know
• 27:47
  Speaker 1: what men are up to, okay? And it's nothing good.
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: It's straight up nothing good. And I think women, like...
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: I think women are trying to help y'all. We're literally
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: trying to help y'all. And y'all, like, won't listen. And
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: you're not helping us back. you're straight up not helping
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: us back, like, or, okay, maybe you are, okay, maybe
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: you are, I take it back, I think men go
• 28:22
  Speaker 1: to work, okay, men go to work, and they do
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: really good work, And they're very like diligent and they're
• 28:30
  Speaker 1: good soldiers. I don't know what to say. Like they're
• 28:32
  Speaker 1: really good at following orders and following the rules. And
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: that makes sense because men are like way more likely
• 28:37
  Speaker 1: to go to jail. Like men are way more likely
• 28:40
  Speaker 1: to get in trouble. I've done a lot of questionable
• 28:45
  Speaker 1: things and I've really never gotten in trouble. Like the
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: worst trouble I ever got in was because I was
• 28:51
  Speaker 1: cussing a lot at the Boys and Girls Club and
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: they made me sit in time out. And I remember
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: my mom came and she saw me sitting in timeout
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: and she's like immediately like fucking pissed. And I was like, mom,
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: all I did was cuss. All I literally did was
• 29:09
  Speaker 1: cuss and you do that shit all the time. What
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: the hell? Like if you didn't want me cussing, why
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: are you cussing all the time? And it's like, I
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: understand like my dad was also cussing and it's like,
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: she can't control him. But like, come on, be so
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: freaking for real. Like, So what am I trying to say?
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: I gotta stop talking about men. But I think there's
• 29:40
  Speaker 1: something here. I don't want to sympathize with men anymore.
• 29:44
  Speaker 1: I mean... Yeah, I have a future podcast guest. I
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: don't want to name them yet because I want to
• 29:56
  Speaker 1: give them the opportunity to name themselves. But... Um... I
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: feel like they would have really interesting thoughts on empathy.
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: Because they were once a psychopath. Um... Before they recovered
• 30:19
  Speaker 1: from substance. And... They told me some really freaking interesting stories.
• 30:23
  Speaker 1: And I would love to pick their brain more. Because
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: I think at the time I was just like... I
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: was just like... I was lobotomized. I was just like, oh,
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: I'm here alone with a boy. Like, how nice. Um...
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: because it's so it's so nice to be alone with
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: a boy because or a man he was a man
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: I would say he was definitely a man shout out
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: that guy I texted you earlier we were texting um
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: and yeah shout out uh I have another guy as
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: well I think on my way home I'm gonna stop
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: I I'm sure I can convince him. I convinced him
• 31:06
  Speaker 1: to do an interview in college. So I'm pretty sure
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: I can convince him to do another interview with me.
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: And one day I'm going to figure out how to
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: monetize this. So y'all fucking enjoy this shit while it's free, okay?
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: Because I'm going to figure it out. I'm literally going
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: to figure it out. I might have to consult a librarian.
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: Good thing I have one in the bloodline. I have
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: a couple. I got a couple of guys for that, okay?
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: By guys, I mean... Gagatis, mommies. Okay? I'm having fun.
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: I'm literally having fun. And... So, I got some interviews cooking.
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: I'm trying to work up the courage to ask my
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: friend I'm staying with if they want to do an interview. I'm, like,
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: kind of scared. I'm scared because... I don't know how
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: we're going to stay on the rails. I'm loving living
• 32:15
  Speaker 1: with them. And we lived together in college. And it
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: was just, like, wonderful. And it was a dream. But, like,
• 32:20
  Speaker 1: a good dream. Like, a really good, like, dream. Like,
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: a dream, a little dream of me kind of thing. Like,
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: it was really good. And also, I don't know how
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: we're going to stay on the rails. Because we are, like,
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: two hot messes, okay? Like, we are... I mean, we're
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: hot as fuck. But, like... you should just, you should
• 32:43
  Speaker 1: just see the messes we make every day. It's like,
• 32:46
  Speaker 1: holy shit. Um, and we can't sleep. Like we literally
• 32:55
  Speaker 1: can't even sleep at night. I mean, they're sleeping. I,
• 32:59
  Speaker 1: they're sleeping and I'm really, I'm really happy that they're sleeping. Um,
• 33:03
  Speaker 1: I feel really happy for them. And this is what
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: I say to my fiance at home. I'm like, my partner,
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: I'm like, Because part of me is so fucking jealous
• 33:16
  Speaker 1: that they just sleep like a goddamn baby. Okay, they
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: just sleep so good. And I'm just like, can I
• 33:23
  Speaker 1: fucking sleep? Can I fucking sleep? When is it going
• 33:27
  Speaker 1: to be my turn to sleep? I've made peace with
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: it at this point. I think I'm just maybe supposed
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: to be awake at this time. Some fucking dorks would
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: say that ADHD, back in the tribal days, the ADHD
• 33:41
  Speaker 1: people used to be the night watchers. I might have
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: said this before. But... Yeah. Like, they were protecting the
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: tribe at night. So, that could be me. That literally
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: could be me. And... Fortunately for the tribe, I am armed.
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: I do have arms. And... I don't want to use them, okay?
• 34:09
  Speaker 1: What can I say? Oh... It's how the Constitution intended it.
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: It's literally how the Constitution intended it. And, you know,
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: I got a friend. I got a freaking friend in
• 34:24
  Speaker 1: freaking Virginia, okay? And I also hooked up with him.
• 34:31
  Speaker 1: And I just remember, like, after we hooked up, they were, like,
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: showing me their arsenal. And they had, like, an alarming
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: amount of machine guns. Yeah. And maybe I shouldn't say
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: all that, but, you know, I got a handful of
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: friends all over the world. It's actually kind of, like,
• 34:56
  Speaker 1: it gives me a lot of faith. It gives me
• 34:59
  Speaker 1: a lot of faith and, like, hope and a sense
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: of protection that, like, I got friends, like, kind of
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: all over the country. And they're fucking, they got arms, bro.
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: They got so many arms. Between all of us, we have, like,
• 35:15
  Speaker 1: a lot of arms. And I don't think we're going
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: to do anything with it. I mean, if shit hits
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: the fan, we'll see. But this is what the Constitution intended,
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: is my understanding. Is that we're supposed to be armed.
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: Not for each other. We're not supposed to kill our neighbors.
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: That's freaking ridiculous. Are you freaking joking? It's to protect
• 35:38
  Speaker 1: the people from the government attacking the people. And, you know,
• 35:41
  Speaker 1: the thing is... The government, they're a little more sophisticated
• 35:48
  Speaker 1: these days. They're not attacking us physically because they know,
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: they know that we got, we got people on the inside, okay?
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: We got people on the inside, okay? And, uh... I
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: genuinely feel like there's like two people inside of me.
• 36:11
  Speaker 1: It's like, it's like a sexy Alex Jones. and like
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: his fucking giggle girl wife okay this is what these
• 36:22
  Speaker 1: are the two dogs inside of me one might be
• 36:26
  Speaker 1: a cat and this is another fucking stupid ass shit
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: that i saw on the internet at one time was
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: like you know like just this idea that like dogs
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: and cats are extremely different and how like we compare
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: dogs to boys and we compare girls we compare cats
• 36:45
  Speaker 1: to girls And then we also, like, train children to
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: understand that, like, dogs and cats are very different. Which,
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: dogs and cats are different. Don't get me wrong. But
• 36:54
  Speaker 1: a cat could fuck up a dog. Like, a cat
• 36:56
  Speaker 1: is quite small, but it could fuck up a dog.
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: And I've seen cats fuck up dogs. And also, I've
• 37:00
  Speaker 1: seen dogs... You know, dogs don't make any sense. Because, like,
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: why are the chihuahuas posting up at me and the
• 37:07
  Speaker 1: German shepherds are, like, looking at me with respect? Does
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: anybody know? Because... I'm just a little confused. Like, the chihuahuas...
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: think they're they think they're big they literally think they're
• 37:20
  Speaker 1: big and then like a cat it's like you have
• 37:25
  Speaker 1: to understand i love cats so much and they're like
• 37:27
  Speaker 1: i mean it goes one of two ways okay and
• 37:32
  Speaker 1: that's not a fucking bestiality joke okay stop guys like
• 37:37
  Speaker 1: you're grossing me out you're literally freaking me out And,
• 37:45
  Speaker 1: you know, I think the empathy I have for men is, like,
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: they really probably do be fucking animals sometimes. I got
• 37:53
  Speaker 1: intel from a certain stand-up comedian in my local area
• 37:57
  Speaker 1: that they might be fucking animals. And, you know, this guy, he, like,
• 38:05
  Speaker 1: he parted the Red Sea. He literally parted the Red
• 38:07
  Speaker 1: Sea for me. It was, like, a crowd of dudes
• 38:08
  Speaker 1: who were, like, all fucking talking to each other and
• 38:10
  Speaker 1: being fucking annoying. And this guy saw me. I don't
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: know if he... I don't know. He looked like an
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: exclamation point. I don't know what to say. He was
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: like a cartoon character. He was like... And he told
• 38:26
  Speaker 1: me to yell at them. He's like, tell them to
• 38:27
  Speaker 1: get out of your way. And I was like... And
• 38:31
  Speaker 1: then he took it upon himself and he parted the
• 38:33
  Speaker 1: fucking Red Sea for me. He parted them in. He said,
• 38:36
  Speaker 1: get the fuck out of her way. Get the fuck
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: out of her way. Right this way, man. and then I,
• 38:45
  Speaker 1: I took a freaking seat, I got a drink, I
• 38:46
  Speaker 1: took a freaking seat, and, uh, I was like, yeah,
• 38:49
  Speaker 1: thank you, and then I was kind of in love
• 38:51
  Speaker 1: with that guy for, like, a moment, because he was
• 38:54
  Speaker 1: kind of handsome, you had to look about him, he looked,
• 39:01
  Speaker 1: he looked fit, he looked agile, he looked, um, and
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: he was useful, you know, like, and I was, I
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: was kind of smitten for a moment, I just kept
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: looking at him, you know, And it's funny, his first
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: standup routine that I saw, it was like absolutely ridiculous,
• 39:19
  Speaker 1: but it honestly, I, I was dying laughing. Like I
• 39:22
  Speaker 1: thought it was so funny. He just went up on
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: stage and you're not going to believe me when I
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: say this, but he literally just participated. to jerk off
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: for like five minutes. But like, it was like the
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: craziest jerking off I'd ever seen. Like, like he really
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: did that. He really did that. And I felt like
• 39:43
  Speaker 1: it was like for me in a way, like, uh,
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: I resonated with it. And I was dying laughing. And
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure I was the only damn one dying
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: laughing at that. Because I was like... Yeah, this is
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: the state of our country right now, guys. Y'all are
• 40:08
  Speaker 1: all fucking addicted to porn. And y'all are jerking off
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: fucking freaky style every night. And... I think... You do you.
• 40:19
  Speaker 1: And I'm going to do me. And I think the state.
• 40:27
  Speaker 1: I think they're getting more sophisticated. I don't think they're
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: going to physically hurt us. If you're a man. They might.
• 40:36
  Speaker 1: I would be a little more careful if you're a man.
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: I don't think the state is going to hurt you
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: if you're a woman. I mean unless you're like really
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: doing some crazy shady shit. But like. For the most
• 40:46
  Speaker 1: part I think. I think, and I don't even want
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: to blame the state, okay? I might be the state's
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: number one sympathizer, okay? I think the state's probably doing
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: their best. And I think you really got to be
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: careful what you're doing on the internet these days, guys. Like,
• 41:04
  Speaker 1: and I'm not even talking about porn. I'm honestly talking
• 41:06
  Speaker 1: about just, like, you can't be believing everything. You really
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: can't be believing everything. Like, they're trying to make you scared.
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: This is, like, the biggest lesson. Like, because I have
• 41:19
  Speaker 1: so many people in my life that are, like, fucking paranoid.
• 41:23
  Speaker 1: Everybody's so freaking paranoid. And y'all are wrong. Like, you're
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: literally wrong. I can't with the paranoia. This, I think,
• 41:34
  Speaker 1: might be a good conversation to have with my friend
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: on the pod. Because they have some paranoias. And... I
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: understand it's rooted in love for me. Like it's rooted
• 41:49
  Speaker 1: in love and care for me where like, I'm like, oh,
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: I want to go for a walk at night. And
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: they're like, probably shouldn't, you know? And I'm like, why
• 41:59
  Speaker 1: is that? Like, why? Because we're in a kind of
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: diverse place. Like they, all the men have been pretty, they've,
• 42:09
  Speaker 1: nobody's done anything wrong to me. And I don't know
• 42:12
  Speaker 1: if I'm, like, super privileged and super protected. Like, I
• 42:15
  Speaker 1: don't know if I got, like, angelic bodyguards or, like, what.
• 42:17
  Speaker 1: I think I probably do. I really think I might.
• 42:21
  Speaker 1: The angels, I mean... I don't know. I don't know
• 42:27
  Speaker 1: what they are. The spirits, they do communicate with me.
• 42:32
  Speaker 1: And one of my podcasts, I don't know. Figure it out.
• 42:36
  Speaker 1: One of them, I was genuinely witnessing... Things that I
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: could not explain. It was paranormal activity. Straight up. And
• 42:47
  Speaker 1: it's like, I already believe in God. But that was
• 42:49
  Speaker 1: definitely like, okay, yep. And part of me, there was
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: an impulse to be like, uh-oh. Uh-oh. Because I couldn't
• 43:00
  Speaker 1: see any figures. Like, I couldn't see the ghosts. But
• 43:03
  Speaker 1: I could see them manipulating my environment. Straight up. You know,
• 43:07
  Speaker 1: it started with voices. It started with voices where I was.
• 43:11
  Speaker 1: I was hearing voices outside of my head. I don't
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: care if you believe me because I know what I heard.
• 43:24
  Speaker 1: And I really think it was. I mean, it doesn't
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. It was a certain and. there's a
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: lot of hands in my universe, and they're all red-headed,
• 43:37
  Speaker 1: let me tell you, they're all red-headed, including the one
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: that's my ancestor of sorts, and, like, her one pseudo-Semi-daughter is, like,
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: my understanding is, I think she's probably made peace at
• 43:55
  Speaker 1: this point, like, hopefully, but, like, my understanding is, like,
• 43:59
  Speaker 1: she wrote her, her adopted mother off this Anne and
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: you know she spoke very negatively about her my father
• 44:10
  Speaker 1: also spoke very negatively about her and she's rocking with
• 44:16
  Speaker 1: me though she's rocking with me because I don't know
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: I I heard her she spoke to me in many
• 44:24
  Speaker 1: ways and like you just wouldn't even believe me if
• 44:28
  Speaker 1: I told you you just wouldn't even believe me There
• 44:31
  Speaker 1: was one night, it was like a kooky night, and
• 44:34
  Speaker 1: I was really sleep-deprived, so it's hard to say, but
• 44:38
  Speaker 1: the book's pages were flipping on its own. And the shit, like,
• 44:43
  Speaker 1: I watched, and it's so funny, because I've had dreams. Like,
• 44:46
  Speaker 1: when I try to read a book in a dream,
• 44:49
  Speaker 1: it's like, in the past, when I try to read
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: a book in a dream, it's like, it's scrolling, and
• 44:56
  Speaker 1: I can't read it fast enough. It's like the fucking
• 44:58
  Speaker 1: Star Wars intro, and it's like, I can't read this fast.
• 45:01
  Speaker 1: And also I'm scared because why are the letters moving?
• 45:04
  Speaker 1: It was like that where it's like I saw the
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: original text. It's like the book flipped to a page
• 45:11
  Speaker 1: on its own. Wheel of Fortune style. And I saw
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: the original text and then I watched it type something
• 45:18
  Speaker 1: new into the book. What? Literally what? And it was
• 45:26
  Speaker 1: way too relevant in my life. And it was... you know,
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: sort of these archetypes that I saw from, when I
• 45:35
  Speaker 1: say the ands in my universe, I'm mainly thinking of, like,
• 45:38
  Speaker 1: working moms, there's an and, and with an e is
• 45:41
  Speaker 1: a child and, and so it was sort of referencing
• 45:45
  Speaker 1: these kind of archetypes, and referencing very relevant and, like,
• 45:51
  Speaker 1: current situations in my life, and how these archetypes are
• 45:57
  Speaker 1: working undercover, okay, to Bring me some relief, okay? They're working.
• 46:08
  Speaker 1: This is Secret Life of Bees, guys. Did anybody read
• 46:10
  Speaker 1: the frickin' book? Did anybody read the frickin' book? I
• 46:13
  Speaker 1: think it has a movie, too. The book's better. This is, like,
• 46:17
  Speaker 1: the one time that I would ever say the book
• 46:19
  Speaker 1: is better. Because, like, the Odyssey kind of sucked as
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: a book. I'm sure if I tried again, maybe it
• 46:26
  Speaker 1: would be okay, but that shit was written stupid, and
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: that's all I'm gonna say. Um, and, uh, I don't know. I,
• 46:40
  Speaker 1: I like movies a lot. Call me a cinephile. Call
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: me a cinephile. I like cinnamon too. I'm the consultant
• 46:48
  Speaker 1: of cinnamon. Okay. For a, for a, for a certain
• 46:53
  Speaker 1: person in my universe. Um, I still think that's so funny.
• 46:58
  Speaker 1: It's like, I just get a text out of nowhere.
• 47:00
  Speaker 1: What's the difference between this and this kind of sentiment?
• 47:02
  Speaker 1: I'm like, like, I can look it up. I can
• 47:08
  Speaker 1: look it up. I think I need to go for
• 47:14
  Speaker 1: another walk. I gotta walk my inner dog. You know,
• 47:17
  Speaker 1: and this is something I used to say, like, and
• 47:21
  Speaker 1: people always laughed, but, and people were always like, oh,
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: what do you even mean? and I was like bro
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: are you literally fucking stupid bro are you literally fucking
• 47:39
  Speaker 1: stupid um because I would say I need to walk
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: my inner dog and this was another thing a certain
• 47:49
  Speaker 1: person uh from the uh I don't want to be
• 47:53
  Speaker 1: problematic from I know where they're from They're from Bhutan.
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: It's like, it's like, allegedly, it's like the only carbon
• 48:01
  Speaker 1: negative country in the world. And like, they, my understanding is, they,
• 48:12
  Speaker 1: you know, in like the United States, we would measure
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: things by how much money, how much money as a
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: country we're making. And my understanding is that this country,
• 48:24
  Speaker 1: I might, I hope I'm not confusing it. I'm pretty sure, though,
• 48:27
  Speaker 1: this country, like, has, instead of, like, a profit scale,
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: they have a happiness scale. Like, a contentment scale for
• 48:35
  Speaker 1: their people. And they rank themselves number one on the
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: scale that they made up. And they might be right.
• 48:42
  Speaker 1: I don't know. But, you know, my friend really kind
• 48:50
  Speaker 1: of sold me on this country a little bit. and
• 48:56
  Speaker 1: I just remember one time they said to me they
• 49:01
  Speaker 1: were like where did you get all this energy how
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: do you have all this energy and they said it
• 49:05
  Speaker 1: in a tone that I took the wrong way frankly
• 49:07
  Speaker 1: because I was like oh they're judging me they're literally
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: freaking judging me and I think they probably were a
• 49:13
  Speaker 1: bit like they were kind of like you're a little
• 49:15
  Speaker 1: too much girl and and this is I get to
• 49:20
  Speaker 1: all the time I mean I'm a sunflower my love
• 49:24
  Speaker 1: is too much um I don't think my love is
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: too much I think my love is quite a lot
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: I think my love is quite a lot and I
• 49:33
  Speaker 1: think um I don't even know what to do with
• 49:36
  Speaker 1: all of it like that's the thing is I started
• 49:38
  Speaker 1: taking freaking ashwagandha because I was like I care so
• 49:42
  Speaker 1: much I'm care maxing I'm straight care maxing right now
• 49:45
  Speaker 1: and and I'm burning myself out and you know my
• 49:54
  Speaker 1: partner just keeps saying like uh just don't care just
• 49:57
  Speaker 1: don't care just don't care and I just I don't
• 50:00
  Speaker 1: know how I don't know what that means I don't
• 50:03
  Speaker 1: know what it means. I wish I did. I would
• 50:06
  Speaker 1: do anything. I would do anything. Take me. Take me.
• 50:11
  Speaker 1: Why me, dude? He's like, why do you have so
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: much energy? I'm like, well, I don't know. I'm on
• 50:16
  Speaker 1: my sixth coffee of the day. Normally, I would not
• 50:20
  Speaker 1: drink six coffees. Normally, I would drink one coffee in
• 50:22
  Speaker 1: the morning, but listen, I was hanging out with some
• 50:24
  Speaker 1: very handsome, ethnically ambiguous lads at the art spot, okay?
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: And they were just fucking feeding me lines, they were just,
• 50:33
  Speaker 1: they were just, not literal, well, they were feeding me,
• 50:38
  Speaker 1: they were feeding me references from movies I've never seen,
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: but I, I've heard, I, I understood what they were saying, because, like,
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: from songs, from songs, like, I understand some boy references
• 50:52
  Speaker 1: from songs, like, what's the one by Conor Price, um,
• 50:59
  Speaker 1: Something about Topanga. Something about Topanga. And then Baby No
• 51:04
  Speaker 1: Money goes... I don't know what a Topanga is. I
• 51:07
  Speaker 1: just had to look it up. Baby No Money goes, huh?
• 51:12
  Speaker 1: I think I might be Baby No Money. Baby No Money.
• 51:18
  Speaker 1: I'm obsessed. And my girl Jossie was like... I was
• 51:23
  Speaker 1: playing the song Edamame. Or Edamame. I think it's Edamame.
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: Poppy like a pea. Yeah, Edamame. and, you know, she's Spanish, and,
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: or she speaks Spanish, and, um, and.
• 51:38
  Speaker 2: She was, like, giggling, she was, like, she's, like, this
• 51:44
  Speaker 2: song is funny, I was, like, I know, right, girl,
• 51:47
  Speaker 2: I love it, I love it about me, I literally
• 51:51
  Speaker 2: love it about.
• 51:52
  Speaker 1: Me, uh, so freaking good, It's gotta be one of
• 51:58
  Speaker 1: my favorite beans. I like all kinds of beans, though.
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: Not all kinds of beans. Not all kinds of beans.
• 52:04
  Speaker 1: I like a garbanzo, okay? What are those little fucking
• 52:10
  Speaker 1: weird ones called? Lupini? Not the lupini. Those are weird
• 52:16
  Speaker 1: and really hard to find. And kind of expensive. The
• 52:22
  Speaker 1: lupinis are not for the girlies on a budget, let
• 52:24
  Speaker 1: me tell you that. like a garbanzo, I definitely, the garbanzos, my,
• 52:35
  Speaker 1: my farmer friend put me onto these, in a big way,
• 52:38
  Speaker 1: I mean, I think some other, I think some other
• 52:41
  Speaker 1: guys tried to put me onto them, like, in the
• 52:43
  Speaker 1: form of hummus, which, eh, eh, Hummus is, a good
• 52:49
  Speaker 1: hummus is hard to come by. And I can tell
• 52:52
  Speaker 1: you where to get a good hummus. I can tell
• 52:54
  Speaker 1: you where to get a good hummus. And let me
• 52:56
  Speaker 1: tell you, it's made out of edamame. It's made out
• 52:59
  Speaker 1: of edamame, allegedly. It's so freaking good. Oh, my God.
• 53:06
  Speaker 1: I've had so many homemade hummuses and, like, they don't
• 53:09
  Speaker 1: all hit the same. And, like, any store-bought hummus, get
• 53:14
  Speaker 1: out of my face. Literally get out of my face
• 53:16
  Speaker 1: with that shit. i'm mad make it yourself literally make
• 53:21
  Speaker 1: it yourself and also what just eat the bean what
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: the fuck are y'all what are y'all doing why do
• 53:33
  Speaker 1: you gotta pulverize the bean y'all are doing way too
• 53:36
  Speaker 1: much has anybody ever just put seasoning on like some
• 53:40
  Speaker 1: garbanzo beans and like fried it up it's like you
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: don't need to eat meat y'all are doing way too
• 53:46
  Speaker 1: freaking much Meat is a nice little treat sometimes. And
• 53:51
  Speaker 1: let me tell you, this is what I'm going to
• 53:52
  Speaker 1: say is. Oh, my God. Meat is addictive. Meat is addictive.
• 54:01
  Speaker 1: And you got to think you got to think as
• 54:04
  Speaker 1: if we're in a tribe. OK. We're not eating meat
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: every night, guys. Are you freaking joking? We're not eating meat.
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: We're definitely not eating meat three times a day. I'll
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: tell you that much. That's freaking kooky as shit. That's
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: kooky as shit. Y'all are crazy. What? Like, we're doing
• 54:25
  Speaker 1: way too much in the farming of animals. And I
• 54:30
  Speaker 1: like meat sometimes. Okay? And let me tell you, it's addictive.
• 54:34
  Speaker 1: And it's very similar to nicotine. If you're using nicotine
• 54:39
  Speaker 1: all day, every day, you're not even going to feel it. Okay?
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: Ask me how I know. And the same thing with me. Like,
• 54:50
  Speaker 1: you cannot be eating it every day. Your heart is
• 54:52
  Speaker 1: going to give out. Your heart is going to clog
• 54:55
  Speaker 1: up and you're going to fucking die. Ask me how
• 54:58
  Speaker 1: I know. Okay? And then, and then, pharma is going
• 55:07
  Speaker 1: to come in and they're going to give you medicine
• 55:09
  Speaker 1: that fucks your shit up even more. Okay? And it's just,
• 55:15
  Speaker 1: it's just... Come on, guys. Have a little restraint. Can
• 55:22
  Speaker 1: we eat a little less meat? Just a little bit less.
• 55:24
  Speaker 1: Try a fucking garbanzo bean. Okay, a chickpea edamame. It
• 55:30
  Speaker 1: has protein. It literally has protein and it has fats
• 55:32
  Speaker 1: and it has other vitamins and stuff. That's the thing
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: about meat. And the thing is, is like a lot
• 55:37
  Speaker 1: of you brokies are buying the cheap meat. How about
• 55:41
  Speaker 1: stop doing that? Buy the expensive meat. Only buy as
• 55:45
  Speaker 1: much expensive meat as you can afford. And then that's
• 55:49
  Speaker 1: your meat for the week. What the hell? What the
• 55:52
  Speaker 1: actual hell? And then everybody will be like, the food's poison.
• 55:59
  Speaker 1: You're poisoning yourself. Choose better. Have you ever considered that?
• 56:03
  Speaker 1: Have you literally ever considered that? I'm not saying be
• 56:07
  Speaker 1: a vegetarian. I'm not saying be a pescatarian. I'm saying...
• 56:11
  Speaker 1: have a little freaking restraint, because let me tell you,
• 56:13
  Speaker 1: if you go a couple days without eating meat, and
• 56:16
  Speaker 1: you eat some fucking beef, you eat some, like, high
• 56:19
  Speaker 1: quality good beef, oh boy, oh boy, you're gonna, you're
• 56:27
  Speaker 1: not even gonna believe me, what you're gonna do, okay,
• 56:33
  Speaker 1: it's gonna hit different, that's all I know, it hits
• 56:38
  Speaker 1: different I just ate bacon for the first time I
• 56:40
  Speaker 1: think I might be able to run a marathon and
• 56:42
  Speaker 1: I have not been training okay and also didn't sleep
• 56:47
  Speaker 1: straight up didn't sleep this shit is so stupid this
• 56:52
  Speaker 1: shit is literally so stupid oh okay guys I gotta
• 56:57
  Speaker 1: go bye