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Friendship After 40: The Real Deal on Women’s Bonds with Tracy Tutor · The Iconic Midlife with Roxy Manning

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  If
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  you
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  want
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  to
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  maintain
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  friendships,
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  don't
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  expect
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  that
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  we're
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  all
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  sitting
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  around
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  analyzing
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  what
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  your
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  feelings
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  might
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  be
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  behind
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  the
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  scenes.
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  You
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  have
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  to
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  pick
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  up
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  the
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  phone
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  and
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  you
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  have
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  to
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  say,
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  I
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  feel
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  like
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  shit
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  today.
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  We
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  met
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  at
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  USC
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  in
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  1993,
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  correct?
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  Actually,
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  it
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  was
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  a
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  woman
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  that
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  was
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  interviewing
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  several
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  different
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  male
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  CEOs
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  and
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  asking
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  them
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  questions
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  that
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  women
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  that
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  she
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  had
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  interviewed
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  had
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  been
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  asked
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  in
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  the
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  workplace.
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  Questions
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  like,
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  it's
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  so
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  important.
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  It's
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  so
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  important
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  at
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  this
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  stage
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  in
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  our
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  lives,
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  too,
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  to
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  have
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  that,
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  you
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  know,
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  community
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  is
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  everything.
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  I
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  mean,
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  the
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  suicide
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  rates
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  of
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  women
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  in
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  midlife
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  go
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  up
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  significantly
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  because
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  people
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  feel
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  alone,
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  you
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  know,
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  and
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  they
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  feel
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  like
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  they're
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  struggling.
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  So
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  what
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  do
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  you
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  want
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  people
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  to
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  know,
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  especially
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  midlife
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  women,
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  about
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  friendships
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  at
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  this
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  Stage
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  in
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  your
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  40s,
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  it's
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  a
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  lot
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  of
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  pressure.
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  So
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  back
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  to
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  dating.
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  Well,
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  this
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  will
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  be
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  the
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  fun
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  part.
• 1:07
  Yeah.
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  Done
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  with
• 1:09
  the
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  serious
• 1:09
  shit,
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  Casey.
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  We
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  will
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  get
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  married
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  one
• 1:11
  day.
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  I'll
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  leave
• 1:12
  David.
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  We'll
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  run
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  away
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  together.
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  You
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  know
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  how
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  this
• 1:14
  story
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  ends.
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  There
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  is
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  a
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  commune
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  on
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  the
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  horizon.
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  I
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  do
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  feel
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  it
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  coming.
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  Like,
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  how
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  many
• 1:18
  years
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  are
• 1:18
  we
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  talking?
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  Span
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  of
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  a
• 1:20
  life?
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  Yes.
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  The
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  most
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  savage
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  thing
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  I've
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  ever
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  done.
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  Most
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  savage.
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  Today's
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  guest
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  is
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  more
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  than
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  just
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  a
• 1:32
  powerhouse.
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  She's
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  one
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  of
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  my
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  closest
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  friends,
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  my
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  sister
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  in
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  stilettos,
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  and
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  a
• 1:37
  woman
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  who
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  has
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  redefined
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  what
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  it
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  means
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  to
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  rise,
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  evolve,
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  and
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  stay
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  unapologetically
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  herself.
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  You
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  probably
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  know
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  Tracy
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  Tudor
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  as
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  the
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  top
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  selling
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  real
• 1:48
  estate
• 1:48
  queen
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  from
• 1:49
  Million
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  Dollar
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  Listing
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  Los
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  Angeles.
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  But
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  what
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  you
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  may
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  not
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  see
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  is
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  the
• 1:53
  sharpness
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  behind
• 1:54
  the
• 1:54
  glam,
• 1:54
  the
• 1:55
  loyalty
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  behind
• 1:56
  the
• 1:56
  hustle,
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  and
• 1:57
  the
• 1:57
  depth
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  behind
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  the
• 1:58
  directness.
• 1:59
  In
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  this
• 1:59
  conversation,
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  we're
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  getting
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  into
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  everything
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  from
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  real
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  female
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  friendships
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  after
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  40
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  to
• 2:05
  the
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  business
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  moves
• 2:06
  that
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  require
• 2:07
  zero
• 2:07
  approval
• 2:08
  to
• 2:09
  the
• 2:09
  dating
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  standards
• 2:10
  of
• 2:10
  a
• 2:10
  woman
• 2:10
  who
• 2:11
  doesn't
• 2:11
  chase
• 2:12
  anyone.
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  If
• 2:13
  you
• 2:13
  ever
• 2:14
  wanted
• 2:14
  to
• 2:14
  know
• 2:15
  what
• 2:15
  it
• 2:15
  looks
• 2:15
  like
• 2:15
  to
• 2:16
  own
• 2:16
  your
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  worth,
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  rebuild
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  your
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  identity,
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  and.
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  And
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  do
• 2:19
  it
• 2:20
  all
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  in
• 2:20
  five
• 2:21
  inch
• 2:21
  heels.
• 2:22
  This
• 2:22
  episode
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  is
• 2:23
  your
• 2:23
  masterclass.
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  Make
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  sure
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  to
• 2:25
  follow
• 2:25
  the
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  iconic
• 2:26
  midlife
• 2:26
  wherever
• 2:27
  you
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  get
• 2:27
  your
• 2:27
  podcasts
• 2:28
  and
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  watch
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  this
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  full
• 2:29
  episode
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  on
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  YouTube
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  tomorrow
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  and
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  follow
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  us
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  on
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  heconicmidlife
• 2:34
  and
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  edcarpetroxy.
• 2:37
  Let's
• 2:37
  get
• 2:37
  into
• 2:37
  it.
• 2:38
  Welcome,
• 2:38
  Tracy.
• 2:40
  Now
• 2:40
  we're
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  with
• 2:40
  my
• 2:40
  bestie.
• 2:41
  From
• 2:41
  my
• 2:42
  mom
• 2:42
  to
• 2:42
  my
• 2:42
  college
• 2:43
  bestie.
• 2:45
  Hello.
• 2:45
  Doing
• 2:45
  a
• 2:46
  new
• 2:46
  podcast.
• 2:47
  Welcome,
• 2:47
  welcome.
• 2:48
  Who
• 2:48
  knows
• 2:48
  where
• 2:48
  this
• 2:49
  is
• 2:49
  gonna
• 2:49
  go?
• 2:50
  It
• 2:50
  could
• 2:50
  go
• 2:51
  many
• 2:51
  different
• 2:51
  ways.
• 2:54
  It's
• 2:54
  a
• 2:55
  long
• 2:55
  and
• 2:55
  winding
• 2:55
  road,
• 2:56
  as
• 2:56
  they
• 2:56
  say.
• 3:00
  I
• 3:00
  love
• 3:00
  that
• 3:01
  you're
• 3:01
  wearing
• 3:01
  glasses,
• 3:01
  don't
• 3:02
  you?
• 3:02
  Those
• 3:02
  times
• 3:03
  have
• 3:03
  changed.
• 3:04
  This
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  is
• 3:04
  what
• 3:05
  happens
• 3:05
  when
• 3:05
  you're
• 3:05
  15.
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  Even
• 3:06
  with
• 3:07
  big
• 3:07
  prints,
• 3:07
  I
• 3:07
  still
• 3:07
  have
• 3:08
  to
• 3:08
  wear
• 3:08
  glasses.
• 3:08
  I'm
• 3:09
  blind
• 3:09
  as
• 3:09
  a
• 3:09
  bat,
• 3:09
  girl.
• 3:10
  But
• 3:11
  you.
• 3:11
  I
• 3:11
  feel
• 3:11
  like
• 3:11
  you
• 3:11
  don't
• 3:12
  have
• 3:12
  to
• 3:12
  wear
• 3:12
  them
• 3:12
  as
• 3:13
  much.
• 3:13
  If
• 3:14
  I
• 3:14
  don't
• 3:14
  wear
• 3:14
  them
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  for
• 3:15
  a
• 3:16
  period
• 3:16
  of
• 3:16
  time,
• 3:16
  then
• 3:16
  I
• 3:17
  need
• 3:17
  them
• 3:17
  less.
• 3:17
  But
• 3:18
  if
• 3:18
  I
• 3:18
  put
• 3:18
  them
• 3:18
  on
• 3:19
  and
• 3:19
  take
• 3:19
  them
• 3:19
  off,
• 3:20
  then
• 3:20
  I'm
• 3:20
  like.
• 3:21
  It
• 3:21
  takes
• 3:21
  a
• 3:21
  minute
• 3:22
  to
• 3:22
  adjust,
• 3:22
  right?
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  Do
• 3:25
  I
• 3:25
  know
• 3:25
  you?
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  Yeah.
• 3:26
  Like
• 3:27
  right
• 3:27
  now.
• 3:27
  You
• 3:27
  look
• 3:27
  gorgeous.
• 3:28
  Oh,
• 3:28
  my
• 3:28
  God,
• 3:28
  my
• 3:29
  glasses
• 3:29
  on.
• 3:29
  It
• 3:30
  could
• 3:30
  be
• 3:30
  a
• 3:30
  total
• 3:30
  shit
• 3:30
  show.
• 3:31
  Just
• 3:31
  keep
• 3:31
  the
• 3:31
  glasses
• 3:32
  off,
• 3:32
  okay?
• 3:35
  Oh,
• 3:36
  lady.
• 3:36
  I'm
• 3:37
  a
• 3:37
  little
• 3:37
  puffy
• 3:37
  today,
• 3:38
  girl.
• 3:38
  I'm
• 3:39
  so
• 3:39
  puffy.
• 3:39
  Are
• 3:39
  you
• 3:39
  kidding
• 3:40
  me?
• 3:40
  Coming
• 3:40
  off
• 3:40
  that
• 3:40
  plane?
• 3:41
  Forget
• 3:41
  it.
• 3:42
  I
• 3:42
  don't
• 3:42
  know.
• 3:42
  I
• 3:42
  don't
• 3:43
  know
• 3:43
  if
• 3:43
  it's
• 3:43
  allergies
• 3:44
  or
• 3:44
  just
• 3:45
  lack
• 3:45
  of
• 3:45
  dick.
• 3:46
  I
• 3:46
  mean,
• 3:47
  could
• 3:47
  be
• 3:48
  a
• 3:48
  little
• 3:48
  of
• 3:48
  both.
• 3:49
  Yeah.
• 3:50
  How
• 3:50
  is
• 3:50
  the.
• 3:50
  How
• 3:50
  is
• 3:50
  the
• 3:51
  dick
• 3:51
  shortage
• 3:51
  these
• 3:52
  days?
• 3:53
  I
• 3:54
  mean,
• 3:55
  I'm
• 3:56
  just.
• 3:56
  One
• 3:57
  day
• 3:57
  at
• 3:57
  a
• 3:57
  time.
• 3:59
  It's
• 3:59
  rough
• 3:59
  out
• 4:00
  there,
• 4:00
  huh?
• 4:00
  Rough
• 4:00
  out
• 4:00
  there
• 4:01
  in
• 4:01
  the
• 4:01
  LA
• 4:01
  streets.
• 4:02
  I'm
• 4:03
  sourcing
• 4:03
  penis
• 4:04
  out
• 4:04
  from
• 4:04
  other
• 4:04
  countries
• 4:05
  at
• 4:05
  this
• 4:05
  point.
• 4:06
  It's
• 4:06
  fine.
• 4:07
  I
• 4:07
  think
• 4:08
  Australia
• 4:08
  is
• 4:09
  a
• 4:09
  good
• 4:09
  country
• 4:10
  for
• 4:10
  outsourcing,
• 4:11
  right?
• 4:11
  I'm
• 4:11
  not
• 4:11
  mad
• 4:12
  at
• 4:12
  Australia.
• 4:12
  Okay.
• 4:13
  Currently
• 4:13
  not
• 4:14
  at
• 4:14
  all.
• 4:14
  Not
• 4:15
  at
• 4:15
  all.
• 4:15
  Not
• 4:15
  upset.
• 4:17
  Like
• 4:17
  it.
• 4:18
  Love
• 4:18
  it.
• 4:18
  Yeah.
• 4:19
  Might
• 4:19
  move
• 4:19
  there.
• 4:20
  I
• 4:20
  mean,
• 4:21
  it's.
• 4:21
  It.
• 4:21
  There
• 4:22
  is
• 4:22
  something
• 4:22
  to
• 4:22
  be
• 4:22
  said.
• 4:23
  They're
• 4:23
  fun.
• 4:24
  I
• 4:24
  mean,
• 4:24
  good
• 4:25
  times,
• 4:25
  right?
• 4:25
  Yeah,
• 4:26
  they're
• 4:26
  really
• 4:26
  good.
• 4:26
  There
• 4:27
  might
• 4:27
  be.
• 4:27
  I
• 4:28
  think
• 4:28
  I
• 4:28
  heard
• 4:28
  something
• 4:28
  about
• 4:29
  some
• 4:29
  tall
• 4:30
  Australian.
• 4:32
  He
• 4:33
  is
• 4:33
  tall.
• 4:34
  Very
• 4:34
  tall.
• 4:35
  Very
• 4:35
  Australian.
• 4:36
  Likes.
• 4:37
  Have
• 4:37
  a
• 4:37
  good
• 4:37
  time.
• 4:38
  Cute.
• 4:39
  Darling.
• 4:40
  Darling.
• 4:41
  They're
• 4:41
  all
• 4:41
  darling.
• 4:42
  They're
• 4:42
  all
• 4:42
  darling,
• 4:42
  right?
• 4:43
  They're
• 4:43
  just
• 4:43
  having
• 4:43
  fun.
• 4:44
  Having
• 4:44
  fun,
• 4:44
  huh?
• 4:45
  Like
• 4:45
  I
• 4:45
  said,
• 4:46
  one
• 4:46
  day
• 4:46
  at
• 4:46
  a
• 4:46
  time.
• 4:47
  I'm
• 4:47
  not
• 4:48
  exclusive
• 4:48
  with
• 4:49
  anyone,
• 4:49
  Roxy.
• 4:50
  We
• 4:51
  like
• 4:51
  that.
• 4:51
  Because
• 4:51
  then
• 4:52
  I
• 4:52
  get
• 4:52
  to
• 4:52
  vicariously
• 4:53
  live
• 4:53
  through
• 4:53
  you.
• 4:54
  It's
• 4:54
  like
• 4:54
  a
• 4:54
  good
• 4:54
  Sunday
• 4:55
  brunch
• 4:55
  story.
• 4:55
  Yes,
• 4:56
  it
• 4:56
  is.
• 4:57
  It
• 4:57
  is
• 4:58
  the
• 4:58
  only
• 4:58
  reason
• 4:58
  we
• 4:58
  get
• 4:58
  together
• 4:59
  at
• 4:59
  this
• 4:59
  point.
• 5:00
  We
• 5:00
  got
• 5:01
  a
• 5:01
  recap.
• 5:01
  It's
• 5:01
  always
• 5:02
  a
• 5:02
  recap.
• 5:02
  I
• 5:02
  do
• 5:03
  love.
• 5:03
  Actually,
• 5:03
  one
• 5:04
  of
• 5:04
  my
• 5:04
  favorite
• 5:04
  things
• 5:04
  is
• 5:05
  when
• 5:05
  we
• 5:05
  do
• 5:05
  have,
• 5:05
  like,
• 5:06
  a
• 5:06
  night
• 5:06
  out,
• 5:07
  and
• 5:07
  then
• 5:07
  it's
• 5:07
  like
• 5:07
  the
• 5:08
  morning
• 5:08
  after,
• 5:09
  we're
• 5:09
  texting
• 5:09
  and
• 5:09
  we're
• 5:09
  like,
• 5:10
  ooh.
• 5:10
  Well,
• 5:10
  it
• 5:10
  just
• 5:10
  immediately
• 5:11
  comes
• 5:11
  a
• 5:11
  FaceTime
• 5:12
  from
• 5:12
  the
• 5:12
  bed.
• 5:12
  We
• 5:13
  no
• 5:13
  longer,
• 5:13
  like,
• 5:14
  you're
• 5:14
  not
• 5:14
  my
• 5:15
  best
• 5:15
  friend
• 5:15
  if
• 5:16
  you
• 5:16
  do
• 5:17
  not
• 5:17
  answer
• 5:17
  my
• 5:18
  FaceTime
• 5:19
  promptly
• 5:19
  at
• 5:19
  8am
• 5:20
  when
• 5:20
  I
• 5:20
  wake
• 5:21
  up
• 5:21
  from
• 5:21
  the
• 5:22
  night
• 5:22
  before.
• 5:22
  Yes,
• 5:23
  correct.
• 5:23
  And
• 5:23
  it
• 5:23
  usually
• 5:24
  starts
• 5:24
  out
• 5:24
  with,
• 5:24
  oof.
• 5:25
  That's
• 5:25
  like
• 5:25
  the
• 5:26
  first
• 5:26
  text.
• 5:27
  Oof.
• 5:28
  It's
• 5:29
  like
• 5:29
  that
• 5:29
  meme.
• 5:29
  Dude.
• 5:30
  Dude.
• 5:31
  Yeah.
• 5:32
  Yeah.
• 5:32
  I
• 5:32
  just.
• 5:33
  I
• 5:33
  honestly
• 5:34
  Think
• 5:34
  I
• 5:34
  live
• 5:34
  more
• 5:35
  for
• 5:35
  the
• 5:35
  next
• 5:35
  day.
• 5:36
  Chat
• 5:37
  and
• 5:37
  FaceTime.
• 5:38
  And
• 5:39
  then
• 5:39
  we
• 5:39
  start.
• 5:39
  And
• 5:39
  then
• 5:40
  I'll
• 5:40
  just
• 5:40
  keep
• 5:40
  FaceTiming
• 5:41
  everybody.
• 5:41
  I'll
• 5:42
  start
• 5:42
  with
• 5:42
  you
• 5:42
  and
• 5:43
  then
• 5:43
  I'll
• 5:43
  group
• 5:43
  in.
• 5:44
  We
• 5:44
  just
• 5:45
  start
• 5:45
  adding
• 5:45
  people.
• 5:46
  By
• 5:46
  the
• 5:46
  end
• 5:46
  of
• 5:46
  that
• 5:47
  chat,
• 5:47
  we
• 5:47
  have
• 5:47
  like
• 5:47
  six
• 5:48
  women
• 5:48
  and
• 5:49
  maybe
• 5:49
  a
• 5:49
  gay.
• 5:49
  Yes.
• 5:50
  On
• 5:50
  the
• 5:50
  chat.
• 5:51
  For
• 5:51
  good
• 5:51
  measure.
• 5:51
  For
• 5:51
  a
• 5:52
  good
• 5:52
  measure.
• 5:52
  Just
• 5:52
  to
• 5:52
  give
• 5:53
  feedback.
• 5:53
  Yes,
• 5:53
  yes.
• 5:54
  Honest
• 5:54
  feedback.
• 5:55
  Correct.
• 5:55
  Not
• 5:55
  that
• 5:55
  we're
• 5:56
  interested
• 5:56
  in
• 5:56
  listening
• 5:56
  to
• 5:57
  it,
• 5:57
  but
• 5:58
  nonetheless,
• 5:58
  they
• 5:58
  just
• 5:59
  look
• 5:59
  pretty.
• 5:59
  I
• 5:59
  mean,
• 5:59
  he's
• 6:00
  there
• 6:00
  for
• 6:00
  eye
• 6:00
  candy,
• 6:01
  you
• 6:01
  know.
• 6:01
  Yeah.
• 6:02
  Yeah.
• 6:02
  I
• 6:02
  mean,
• 6:03
  it's
• 6:03
  funny.
• 6:03
  You'll
• 6:03
  do
• 6:03
  a
• 6:04
  group
• 6:04
  FaceTime,
• 6:05
  but
• 6:05
  you
• 6:05
  will
• 6:05
  not
• 6:05
  do
• 6:05
  a
• 6:06
  group
• 6:06
  chat.
• 6:07
  A
• 6:07
  text
• 6:07
  chat.
• 6:08
  I
• 6:08
  leave
• 6:09
  a
• 6:09
  group
• 6:09
  chat.
• 6:09
  Yeah,
• 6:10
  you
• 6:10
  do.
• 6:10
  I
• 6:10
  hate
• 6:12
  a
• 6:12
  group
• 6:12
  chat
• 6:12
  about
• 6:12
  a
• 6:13
  birthday
• 6:13
  present.
• 6:13
  Oh,
• 6:14
  a
• 6:14
  group
• 6:15
  gift.
• 6:15
  We
• 6:16
  know
• 6:16
  how
• 6:16
  we
• 6:16
  feel
• 6:16
  about
• 6:16
  that.
• 6:17
  We'll
• 6:17
  go
• 6:17
  there
• 6:17
  later.
• 6:18
  I
• 6:18
  don't
• 6:18
  want
• 6:18
  to
• 6:19
  talk
• 6:19
  about
• 6:19
  vacations
• 6:20
  on
• 6:20
  a
• 6:20
  group
• 6:21
  chat.
• 6:21
  On
• 6:21
  the
• 6:22
  dates
• 6:22
  of,
• 6:23
  like,
• 6:23
  when
• 6:23
  they
• 6:23
  can
• 6:24
  come
• 6:24
  in
• 6:24
  and
• 6:24
  when
• 6:25
  I
• 6:25
  can
• 6:25
  come
• 6:25
  in
• 6:26
  and
• 6:26
  I'm
• 6:26
  not
• 6:27
  interested
• 6:27
  in
• 6:27
  any
• 6:27
  of
• 6:27
  it.
• 6:27
  So
• 6:28
  I
• 6:28
  just.
• 6:28
  I
• 6:28
  just
• 6:29
  pretend
• 6:29
  I'm
• 6:29
  not
• 6:29
  on
• 6:30
  it.
• 6:30
  Yes.
• 6:31
  Or
• 6:31
  the
• 6:31
  dreaded
• 6:32
  girls.
• 6:32
  Leave
• 6:33
  the
• 6:33
  conversation.
• 6:34
  Leave
• 6:34
  your.
• 6:34
  Like,
• 6:34
  sometimes,
• 6:35
  like,
• 6:35
  if
• 6:35
  I
• 6:35
  want
• 6:35
  to
• 6:35
  showcase
• 6:36
  that
• 6:36
  I'm
• 6:36
  annoyed.
• 6:37
  Yeah.
• 6:38
  I'll
• 6:38
  actually
• 6:39
  leave
• 6:39
  the
• 6:39
  conversation.
• 6:41
  Just
• 6:41
  to
• 6:41
  tell
• 6:41
  them,
• 6:42
  like,
• 6:42
  this
• 6:43
  chat's
• 6:43
  been
• 6:43
  going
• 6:44
  on
• 6:44
  for
• 6:44
  like
• 6:44
  a
• 6:45
  month
• 6:45
  now
• 6:45
  and
• 6:45
  I'm
• 6:46
  no
• 6:46
  longer
• 6:46
  interested.
• 6:47
  I'm
• 6:47
  actually
• 6:47
  going
• 6:47
  to
• 6:48
  formally
• 6:48
  leave.
• 6:49
  That
• 6:49
  really
• 6:49
  sets
• 6:49
  the
• 6:50
  tone
• 6:51
  for
• 6:51
  where
• 6:51
  I'm
• 6:52
  at.
• 6:52
  It
• 6:52
  really
• 6:53
  does.
• 6:53
  And
• 6:53
  I
• 6:53
  think
• 6:53
  the
• 6:54
  worst
• 6:54
  one
• 6:55
  is
• 6:55
  probably
• 6:55
  the
• 6:56
  girls
• 6:56
  night
• 6:56
  dinner.
• 6:57
  The
• 6:57
  girls
• 6:57
  night
• 6:58
  dinner
• 6:58
  chat.
• 6:59
  I
• 6:59
  can't
• 6:59
  do
• 6:59
  that.
• 6:59
  I
• 7:00
  mean,
• 7:00
  I
• 7:00
  don't
• 7:00
  wanna
• 7:01
  talk
• 7:01
  about
• 7:01
  another
• 7:01
  date
• 7:02
  where
• 7:03
  one
• 7:03
  person.
• 7:03
  Everybody
• 7:04
  decides
• 7:04
  on
• 7:04
  a
• 7:04
  date
• 7:05
  and
• 7:05
  then
• 7:05
  one
• 7:05
  person
• 7:05
  is
• 7:05
  like.
• 7:06
  And
• 7:06
  you
• 7:06
  know
• 7:06
  what
• 7:07
  I've
• 7:07
  just
• 7:07
  said,
• 7:08
  I'm
• 7:08
  not
• 7:08
  in
• 7:09
  until
• 7:09
  the.
• 7:09
  You
• 7:10
  guys
• 7:10
  get
• 7:10
  the
• 7:10
  date
• 7:10
  together
• 7:11
  and
• 7:11
  then
• 7:11
  I'll
• 7:11
  let
• 7:12
  you
• 7:12
  know
• 7:12
  four
• 7:13
  days
• 7:13
  before
• 7:13
  if
• 7:13
  I'm
• 7:14
  in.
• 7:14
  Or
• 7:14
  usually
• 7:15
  the
• 7:15
  day
• 7:15
  of.
• 7:15
  Usually
• 7:16
  the
• 7:16
  day.
• 7:16
  Yes.
• 7:17
  Correct.
• 7:18
  I
• 7:19
  take
• 7:19
  accountability
• 7:19
  for
• 7:19
  that.
• 7:20
  I
• 7:20
  just
• 7:20
  sometimes
• 7:20
  wanna
• 7:21
  say
• 7:21
  no.
• 7:21
  Yeah.
• 7:22
  Until
• 7:22
  I
• 7:22
  say
• 7:23
  yes.
• 7:23
  Yeah.
• 7:23
  Yeah,
• 7:24
  you
• 7:24
  do.
• 7:24
  I'm
• 7:25
  an
• 7:25
  adult
• 7:25
  and
• 7:25
  I'm
• 7:25
  old
• 7:26
  enough,
• 7:26
  and
• 7:26
  I
• 7:26
  am
• 7:26
  at
• 7:26
  that
• 7:26
  place
• 7:27
  in
• 7:27
  my
• 7:27
  life
• 7:27
  where
• 7:27
  I
• 7:27
  just
• 7:28
  say
• 7:28
  no
• 7:29
  until
• 7:29
  I
• 7:29
  feel
• 7:29
  like
• 7:30
  saying
• 7:30
  yes
• 7:30
  versus
• 7:31
  saying
• 7:31
  yes
• 7:32
  and
• 7:32
  then
• 7:33
  backing
• 7:33
  out
• 7:34
  like
• 7:34
  a
• 7:35
  wuss.
• 7:35
  It
• 7:36
  is.
• 7:36
  It's
• 7:36
  almost
• 7:36
  like
• 7:37
  an
• 7:37
  added
• 7:37
  surprise
• 7:37
  if
• 7:38
  you
• 7:38
  say
• 7:38
  yes
• 7:38
  at
• 7:38
  the
• 7:38
  end,
• 7:39
  then.
• 7:39
  Everybody'S,
• 7:40
  you
• 7:40
  know,
• 7:41
  surprised
• 7:41
  and
• 7:42
  happy
• 7:42
  that
• 7:42
  I'm
• 7:43
  able
• 7:43
  to
• 7:43
  attend
• 7:43
  versus
• 7:44
  disappointed
• 7:45
  and
• 7:45
  consistently
• 7:45
  upset
• 7:46
  with
• 7:46
  me.
• 7:46
  Yes.
• 7:47
  Correct.
• 7:47
  Correct.
• 7:48
  We've
• 7:49
  had
• 7:49
  a
• 7:49
  lot
• 7:49
  of
• 7:49
  people
• 7:50
  consistently
• 7:50
  upset
• 7:51
  over
• 7:52
  the
• 7:52
  course
• 7:52
  of
• 7:52
  the
• 7:52
  last
• 7:52
  few
• 7:52
  years.
• 7:55
  Yeah,
• 7:55
  it's
• 7:55
  almost
• 7:56
  come
• 7:56
  to
• 7:56
  blows
• 7:56
  a
• 7:56
  couple
• 7:56
  of
• 7:56
  times.
• 7:58
  20
• 7:58
  plus
• 7:59
  years
• 7:59
  of
• 7:59
  friendship.
• 8:00
  There's
• 8:00
  bound
• 8:01
  to
• 8:01
  be
• 8:01
  a
• 8:01
  few
• 8:01
  disgruntled
• 8:03
  employees.
• 8:04
  Exactly.
• 8:05
  I
• 8:05
  guess
• 8:06
  we
• 8:06
  should
• 8:06
  probably
• 8:07
  start
• 8:07
  from
• 8:07
  the
• 8:07
  beginning
• 8:08
  and
• 8:08
  just
• 8:08
  let
• 8:08
  everybody
• 8:09
  know
• 8:10
  how
• 8:10
  we
• 8:10
  know
• 8:10
  each
• 8:11
  other.
• 8:11
  How
• 8:11
  do
• 8:11
  we
• 8:11
  know
• 8:11
  each
• 8:11
  other?
• 8:12
  Tracee
• 8:12
  Elaine
• 8:12
  Tudor.
• 8:13
  We
• 8:14
  met
• 8:14
  at
• 8:15
  USC
• 8:15
  in
• 8:16
  1993.
• 8:20
  Correct?
• 8:21
  1993.
• 8:23
  As
• 8:23
  we
• 8:23
  were
• 8:24
  rushing
• 8:25
  sororities
• 8:26
  at
• 8:26
  USC
• 8:27
  and
• 8:27
  walking
• 8:28
  the
• 8:28
  row.
• 8:29
  That's
• 8:29
  correct.
• 8:30
  She
• 8:30
  was
• 8:30
  not
• 8:30
  in
• 8:30
  my
• 8:31
  group,
• 8:31
  so
• 8:31
  that,
• 8:31
  you
• 8:32
  know,
• 8:32
  I
• 8:32
  was
• 8:32
  in
• 8:32
  a
• 8:32
  separate
• 8:33
  group
• 8:33
  for
• 8:33
  her
• 8:33
  and
• 8:34
  she
• 8:34
  was
• 8:34
  in
• 8:34
  a
• 8:34
  separate
• 8:34
  group.
• 8:35
  And
• 8:35
  this
• 8:36
  was
• 8:36
  like
• 8:36
  back
• 8:36
  in
• 8:36
  the
• 8:36
  day
• 8:37
  when
• 8:37
  USC
• 8:37
  was
• 8:37
  still
• 8:38
  a
• 8:38
  little
• 8:38
  bit
• 8:38
  janky.
• 8:39
  Yeah.
• 8:39
  Little
• 8:39
  rough.
• 8:40
  Little
• 8:40
  rough.
• 8:40
  Little
• 8:40
  rough
• 8:41
  around
• 8:41
  the
• 8:41
  edges.
• 8:41
  There
• 8:41
  was
• 8:42
  not
• 8:42
  many,
• 8:42
  many
• 8:42
  places
• 8:43
  to
• 8:43
  eat,
• 8:43
  and
• 8:43
  we
• 8:43
  had
• 8:44
  like
• 8:44
  a
• 8:44
  lunch
• 8:44
  break
• 8:44
  or
• 8:45
  something.
• 8:46
  And
• 8:47
  like,
• 8:47
  the
• 8:47
  place
• 8:48
  to
• 8:48
  get
• 8:48
  a
• 8:48
  bite
• 8:48
  to
• 8:49
  eat
• 8:49
  was
• 8:49
  Del
• 8:49
  Taco.
• 8:51
  So
• 8:51
  I
• 8:51
  think
• 8:51
  we
• 8:52
  met
• 8:52
  at
• 8:52
  Del
• 8:52
  Taco.
• 8:53
  Yes,
• 8:53
  we
• 8:53
  did.
• 8:54
  We
• 8:54
  sat
• 8:54
  down,
• 8:55
  we
• 8:55
  shared
• 8:55
  a
• 8:55
  meal.
• 8:56
  She
• 8:56
  shared
• 8:56
  a
• 8:56
  crinkly
• 8:57
  cut
• 8:57
  fry.
• 8:57
  Yeah.
• 8:58
  Crinkly
• 8:58
  cut
• 8:58
  fr.
• 9:00
  No
• 9:00
  one's
• 9:00
  mad
• 9:00
  at
• 9:00
  that.
• 9:01
  No.
• 9:01
  Give
• 9:02
  us
• 9:02
  all
• 9:02
  the
• 9:02
  crinkly
• 9:02
  cut
• 9:03
  fries.
• 9:03
  Yeah.
• 9:03
  And
• 9:04
  that's
• 9:04
  how
• 9:04
  we,
• 9:04
  I
• 9:04
  think,
• 9:05
  fell
• 9:05
  in
• 9:05
  love.
• 9:05
  Yeah.
• 9:06
  That
• 9:06
  was
• 9:06
  it.
• 9:06
  That
• 9:06
  was
• 9:06
  it.
• 9:06
  That
• 9:07
  sealed
• 9:07
  the
• 9:07
  deal.
• 9:07
  Well,
• 9:08
  that
• 9:08
  and
• 9:08
  your
• 9:08
  cold
• 9:09
  shoulder
• 9:09
  top
• 9:09
  with
• 9:09
  the
• 9:09
  cowboy
• 9:10
  boots
• 9:10
  and
• 9:11
  the
• 9:11
  clothes.
• 9:11
  I
• 9:11
  was
• 9:11
  channeling
• 9:12
  warrant.
• 9:12
  She's
• 9:13
  my
• 9:13
  cherry
• 9:13
  pie.
• 9:13
  And
• 9:14
  I'm
• 9:14
  not
• 9:14
  sure
• 9:14
  that
• 9:15
  everybody.
• 9:15
  I
• 9:15
  was
• 9:15
  from
• 9:15
  the
• 9:15
  valley.
• 9:16
  Roxie,
• 9:17
  you
• 9:17
  were
• 9:17
  a
• 9:17
  little
• 9:17
  more
• 9:18
  conservative
• 9:18
  and
• 9:18
  from
• 9:18
  Dallas,
• 9:19
  Texas,
• 9:19
  and
• 9:19
  trying
• 9:20
  to
• 9:20
  make
• 9:20
  a
• 9:20
  good
• 9:20
  impression.
• 9:21
  I
• 9:21
  grew
• 9:21
  up
• 9:21
  in
• 9:21
  the
• 9:22
  Valley
• 9:22
  and
• 9:22
  I
• 9:23
  was
• 9:23
  in
• 9:24
  my
• 9:24
  hairband
• 9:25
  phase.
• 9:25
  Yes,
• 9:25
  you
• 9:26
  sure
• 9:26
  were.
• 9:26
  Meanwhile,
• 9:27
  I
• 9:27
  was
• 9:27
  a
• 9:27
  mormon
• 9:27
  wife
• 9:27
  in
• 9:28
  my
• 9:28
  culotte
• 9:28
  shorts
• 9:29
  and
• 9:29
  blazer
• 9:29
  on
• 9:29
  top.
• 9:30
  Yeah.
• 9:30
  I
• 9:30
  was
• 9:30
  not.
• 9:31
  It
• 9:31
  was
• 9:31
  not
• 9:31
  it.
• 9:32
  It
• 9:32
  was
• 9:32
  not
• 9:32
  it.
• 9:33
  I
• 9:33
  couldn't
• 9:33
  wait
• 9:33
  to
• 9:33
  shed
• 9:34
  that
• 9:34
  skin.
• 9:34
  You
• 9:34
  did
• 9:35
  you
• 9:35
  right.
• 9:36
  Shed
• 9:36
  it
• 9:36
  fast.
• 9:37
  You
• 9:37
  did.
• 9:37
  And
• 9:37
  then
• 9:37
  you
• 9:38
  fought
• 9:38
  me
• 9:38
  for
• 9:38
  my
• 9:39
  Marquang
• 9:39
  narc
• 9:39
  pants
• 9:40
  for
• 9:40
  three
• 9:40
  years.
• 9:41
  The
• 9:41
  mark
• 9:42
  we
• 9:42
  should.
• 9:42
  You
• 9:43
  did
• 9:43
  look
• 9:43
  better
• 9:43
  in
• 9:43
  them
• 9:43
  than
• 9:44
  I
• 9:44
  did.
• 9:44
  No,
• 9:44
  because
• 9:45
  you
• 9:45
  had
• 9:45
  those
• 9:45
  little
• 9:45
  twig
• 9:45
  legs.
• 9:46
  And
• 9:46
  I
• 9:46
  was
• 9:46
  like,
• 9:47
  you
• 9:47
  know,
• 9:47
  like
• 9:47
  I
• 9:47
  had
• 9:48
  little.
• 9:48
  Little
• 9:48
  soccer
• 9:49
  legs.
• 9:49
  Weren't
• 9:50
  very
• 9:50
  long.
• 9:51
  And
• 9:51
  I
• 9:51
  just.
• 9:51
  I
• 9:52
  needed
• 9:52
  all
• 9:52
  the
• 9:52
  help
• 9:52
  I
• 9:53
  could
• 9:53
  get.
• 9:53
  Oh,
• 9:53
  my
• 9:53
  God.
• 9:54
  But
• 9:54
  look
• 9:54
  at
• 9:54
  you
• 9:54
  now,
• 9:54
  lady.
• 9:55
  Look
• 9:55
  at
• 9:55
  you
• 9:55
  now.
• 9:56
  Yeah.
• 9:57
  To
• 9:57
  hell
• 9:57
  with
• 9:58
  you,
• 9:58
  college
• 9:59
  body.
• 9:59
  We're
• 10:00
  back
• 10:00
  with
• 10:00
  vengeance.
• 10:01
  We're
• 10:02
  back.
• 10:02
  We're
• 10:02
  back.
• 10:03
  So
• 10:03
  it
• 10:03
  brings
• 10:04
  up
• 10:04
  an
• 10:04
  interesting
• 10:05
  point
• 10:05
  because
• 10:06
  we've
• 10:06
  been
• 10:06
  friends
• 10:06
  all
• 10:06
  these
• 10:07
  years.
• 10:07
  30
• 10:07
  plus
• 10:08
  years.
• 10:08
  What
• 10:09
  do
• 10:09
  you
• 10:09
  think
• 10:10
  makes
• 10:10
  a
• 10:10
  friendship
• 10:11
  sustain
• 10:12
  as
• 10:12
  women
• 10:13
  are
• 10:13
  growing
• 10:13
  and
• 10:14
  changing
• 10:15
  and
• 10:15
  in
• 10:16
  These
• 10:16
  like,
• 10:16
  public,
• 10:17
  very
• 10:17
  public
• 10:17
  kind
• 10:18
  of
• 10:18
  careers.
• 10:19
  And
• 10:19
  there's
• 10:19
  a
• 10:19
  lot
• 10:19
  of
• 10:20
  pressure.
• 10:20
  Right.
• 10:21
  So
• 10:21
  what
• 10:21
  do
• 10:21
  you
• 10:22
  think
• 10:22
  sustains
• 10:22
  a
• 10:22
  friendship,
• 10:23
  particularly
• 10:23
  at
• 10:23
  this
• 10:24
  point
• 10:24
  time
• 10:24
  in
• 10:24
  our
• 10:25
  lives?
• 10:25
  I
• 10:25
  mean,
• 10:25
  we
• 10:26
  talk
• 10:26
  about
• 10:26
  this
• 10:26
  all
• 10:26
  the
• 10:27
  time,
• 10:27
  you
• 10:28
  know,
• 10:28
  when
• 10:29
  I
• 10:29
  don't
• 10:30
  think
• 10:30
  you
• 10:30
  understand
• 10:32
  what
• 10:32
  friendship
• 10:33
  is
• 10:33
  necessarily
• 10:34
  sustainable
• 10:35
  until
• 10:35
  you
• 10:35
  live
• 10:35
  it.
• 10:36
  Right.
• 10:36
  And
• 10:37
  I
• 10:37
  think
• 10:37
  we
• 10:37
  all
• 10:37
  go
• 10:38
  through
• 10:38
  different
• 10:38
  phases
• 10:38
  in
• 10:39
  our
• 10:39
  lives.
• 10:39
  And
• 10:40
  our
• 10:40
  group
• 10:40
  of
• 10:40
  best
• 10:41
  friends,
• 10:41
  for
• 10:41
  example,
• 10:42
  from
• 10:42
  college,
• 10:42
  all
• 10:43
  sort
• 10:43
  of
• 10:43
  walked
• 10:43
  a
• 10:43
  different
• 10:44
  path.
• 10:44
  I
• 10:44
  was
• 10:44
  one
• 10:44
  of
• 10:44
  the
• 10:45
  first
• 10:45
  of
• 10:45
  our
• 10:45
  friends
• 10:45
  to
• 10:46
  have
• 10:46
  children
• 10:47
  and
• 10:47
  everybody
• 10:48
  was
• 10:48
  incredibly
• 10:49
  supportive
• 10:49
  of
• 10:49
  me
• 10:49
  during
• 10:50
  that
• 10:50
  time.
• 10:50
  And
• 10:50
  then,
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  know,
• 10:51
  as
• 10:51
  I
• 10:52
  started
• 10:52
  to
• 10:52
  phase
• 10:53
  out
• 10:53
  of
• 10:53
  little
• 10:54
  kids,
• 10:54
  then
• 10:54
  you
• 10:54
  guys
• 10:55
  started
• 10:55
  to
• 10:56
  have
• 10:56
  little
• 10:56
  kids
• 10:56
  and
• 10:56
  I
• 10:56
  had
• 10:57
  like
• 10:57
  young
• 10:57
  teenagers
• 10:58
  and,
• 10:59
  you
• 10:59
  know,
• 10:59
  preteens.
• 11:00
  So
• 11:01
  it
• 11:01
  was,
• 11:02
  you
• 11:02
  know,
• 11:02
  we
• 11:02
  were
• 11:02
  in
• 11:02
  different
• 11:03
  phases
• 11:03
  of
• 11:03
  our
• 11:04
  lives,
• 11:04
  which
• 11:04
  arguably
• 11:05
  means
• 11:06
  I
• 11:06
  don't
• 11:06
  really
• 11:07
  want
• 11:07
  to
• 11:07
  go
• 11:07
  to
• 11:08
  a,
• 11:08
  you
• 11:09
  know,
• 11:09
  toddler
• 11:10
  birthday
• 11:10
  party
• 11:11
  because
• 11:11
  I'm
• 11:12
  navigating
• 11:12
  if
• 11:12
  my
• 11:13
  preteen
• 11:13
  is
• 11:13
  smoking
• 11:14
  weed
• 11:14
  after
• 11:15
  school.
• 11:16
  So
• 11:16
  it
• 11:16
  was
• 11:16
  like
• 11:16
  we
• 11:17
  were
• 11:17
  dealing
• 11:17
  with
• 11:17
  different
• 11:17
  things.
• 11:18
  And
• 11:19
  I
• 11:19
  think
• 11:20
  you
• 11:20
  start
• 11:20
  to
• 11:20
  recognize
• 11:21
  that
• 11:22
  your
• 11:22
  friends
• 11:22
  either
• 11:23
  understand
• 11:24
  the
• 11:24
  space
• 11:25
  that
• 11:25
  you're
• 11:25
  in
• 11:25
  during
• 11:26
  the
• 11:26
  time
• 11:26
  that
• 11:26
  you're
• 11:27
  in
• 11:27
  it,
• 11:28
  vice
• 11:28
  versa,
• 11:28
  and
• 11:29
  you
• 11:29
  respect
• 11:29
  that.
• 11:30
  But
• 11:30
  you
• 11:30
  can
• 11:30
  still
• 11:30
  kind
• 11:30
  of
• 11:31
  come
• 11:31
  together
• 11:31
  and
• 11:32
  you
• 11:32
  pick
• 11:32
  up
• 11:32
  where
• 11:32
  you
• 11:33
  left
• 11:33
  off.
• 11:33
  I
• 11:33
  don't
• 11:34
  think
• 11:34
  there's
• 11:34
  anything
• 11:35
  more
• 11:36
  telling
• 11:37
  that
• 11:37
  when
• 11:37
  I
• 11:38
  pick
• 11:38
  up
• 11:38
  the
• 11:38
  phone
• 11:38
  and
• 11:38
  I
• 11:39
  speak
• 11:39
  to
• 11:39
  you,
• 11:39
  if
• 11:39
  we
• 11:39
  don't
• 11:40
  speak
• 11:40
  for
• 11:40
  five
• 11:40
  or
• 11:41
  six
• 11:41
  weeks,
• 11:42
  I'm
• 11:42
  traveling
• 11:42
  for
• 11:43
  work,
• 11:43
  you're
• 11:43
  traveling
• 11:44
  with
• 11:44
  David,
• 11:44
  whatever
• 11:45
  that
• 11:45
  may
• 11:45
  be,
• 11:46
  and
• 11:47
  we
• 11:47
  pick
• 11:47
  up
• 11:47
  the
• 11:47
  phone
• 11:47
  and
• 11:47
  we
• 11:48
  pick
• 11:48
  up
• 11:48
  exactly
• 11:48
  where
• 11:48
  we
• 11:49
  left
• 11:49
  off.
• 11:49
  And,
• 11:50
  you
• 11:50
  know,
• 11:50
  you
• 11:50
  called
• 11:51
  me
• 11:51
  the
• 11:51
  other
• 11:51
  day
• 11:51
  and
• 11:52
  opened
• 11:52
  your
• 11:52
  heart
• 11:53
  to
• 11:53
  me.
• 11:53
  We
• 11:53
  hadn't
• 11:54
  spoken
• 11:54
  in
• 11:54
  three
• 11:54
  weeks
• 11:55
  and,
• 11:55
  you
• 11:55
  know,
• 11:56
  it
• 11:56
  was
• 11:56
  just
• 11:56
  easy.
• 11:57
  And
• 11:58
  that
• 11:58
  to
• 11:58
  me
• 11:59
  sort
• 11:59
  of
• 11:59
  defines
• 12:02
  that
• 12:02
  moment
• 12:03
  in
• 12:03
  time
• 12:03
  where
• 12:03
  you
• 12:03
  realize
• 12:04
  that
• 12:04
  friendship
• 12:05
  that
• 12:05
  you've
• 12:06
  had
• 12:06
  for
• 12:06
  30
• 12:07
  years
• 12:08
  is
• 12:08
  going
• 12:08
  to
• 12:08
  be
• 12:09
  a
• 12:09
  friendship
• 12:09
  for
• 12:09
  life.
• 12:10
  We're
• 12:10
  not
• 12:10
  always
• 12:10
  gonna
• 12:11
  be
• 12:11
  on
• 12:11
  the
• 12:11
  same
• 12:11
  page.
• 12:12
  We're
• 12:12
  not.
• 12:12
  We
• 12:12
  don't
• 12:13
  need
• 12:13
  to
• 12:13
  talk
• 12:13
  every
• 12:14
  single
• 12:14
  day
• 12:14
  or
• 12:15
  send
• 12:15
  each
• 12:15
  other
• 12:15
  memes
• 12:15
  100
• 12:16
  times
• 12:16
  a
• 12:16
  day.
• 12:17
  I
• 12:17
  have
• 12:17
  friends
• 12:17
  that
• 12:17
  are
• 12:18
  very
• 12:18
  much
• 12:18
  in
• 12:19
  my
• 12:19
  day
• 12:19
  to
• 12:19
  day
• 12:20
  life
• 12:20
  right
• 12:20
  now
• 12:20
  that
• 12:20
  are
• 12:21
  living
• 12:21
  exactly
• 12:22
  where
• 12:22
  I
• 12:23
  am
• 12:23
  right
• 12:23
  now.
• 12:23
  And
• 12:24
  so
• 12:24
  being
• 12:24
  around
• 12:25
  those
• 12:25
  women
• 12:26
  who
• 12:26
  are
• 12:26
  in
• 12:26
  the
• 12:26
  space
• 12:27
  that
• 12:27
  I'm
• 12:27
  in
• 12:27
  are
• 12:28
  important
• 12:28
  to
• 12:28
  me
• 12:28
  in
• 12:29
  my
• 12:29
  daily
• 12:29
  existence.
• 12:30
  But
• 12:30
  that
• 12:31
  doesn't
• 12:31
  mean
• 12:31
  that
• 12:32
  I
• 12:32
  don't
• 12:32
  treasure,
• 12:33
  respect,
• 12:34
  admire
• 12:34
  and
• 12:34
  adore
• 12:35
  my
• 12:36
  friendship
• 12:36
  with
• 12:37
  you
• 12:37
  for
• 12:37
  30
• 12:37
  plus
• 12:38
  years.
• 12:38
  It's
• 12:38
  just
• 12:38
  different.
• 12:39
  And
• 12:39
  I
• 12:39
  can
• 12:39
  call
• 12:39
  you
• 12:39
  any
• 12:40
  time
• 12:40
  of
• 12:40
  night.
• 12:40
  If
• 12:40
  I
• 12:40
  called
• 12:41
  you
• 12:41
  and
• 12:41
  was
• 12:41
  like,
• 12:42
  yo,
• 12:43
  I'm
• 12:43
  gonna
• 12:43
  need
• 12:44
  you
• 12:44
  to
• 12:44
  come
• 12:44
  pick
• 12:44
  me
• 12:44
  up.
• 12:46
  And
• 12:46
  you'd
• 12:47
  be
• 12:47
  like,
• 12:47
  do
• 12:47
  I
• 12:47
  have
• 12:47
  to
• 12:47
  start.
• 12:48
  Like,
• 12:48
  do
• 12:49
  I
• 12:49
  have
• 12:49
  to
• 12:49
  start
• 12:49
  crying?
• 12:49
  Like,
• 12:50
  what?
• 12:50
  You
• 12:50
  know,
• 12:50
  you'd
• 12:51
  be
• 12:51
  like,
• 12:51
  whatever
• 12:51
  I
• 12:51
  have
• 12:51
  to
• 12:51
  do.
• 12:52
  And
• 12:52
  I
• 12:52
  know
• 12:53
  that
• 12:53
  that
• 12:53
  would
• 12:53
  happen,
• 12:53
  and
• 12:54
  vice
• 12:54
  versa.
• 12:55
  And
• 12:55
  it's
• 12:55
  just.
• 12:55
  You
• 12:55
  either
• 12:56
  have
• 12:56
  that
• 12:56
  with
• 12:56
  certain
• 12:56
  people,
• 12:57
  or
• 12:58
  it's
• 12:58
  very
• 12:59
  finite
• 12:59
  for
• 12:59
  them,
• 13:00
  and
• 13:00
  there's
• 13:00
  expectations,
• 13:02
  and
• 13:02
  I
• 13:02
  think
• 13:02
  you
• 13:03
  can't
• 13:03
  have
• 13:03
  that
• 13:03
  when
• 13:04
  you
• 13:04
  get
• 13:04
  to
• 13:04
  a
• 13:04
  certain
• 13:05
  place
• 13:05
  in
• 13:05
  your
• 13:05
  life.
• 13:05
  We
• 13:05
  have
• 13:06
  too
• 13:06
  many
• 13:06
  responsibilities
• 13:07
  as
• 13:07
  career
• 13:07
  women,
• 13:08
  as
• 13:08
  mothers,
• 13:09
  as
• 13:10
  wives,
• 13:10
  as
• 13:10
  girlfriends,
• 13:11
  as
• 13:12
  sisters,
• 13:12
  brothers,
• 13:13
  daughters.
• 13:14
  Like,
• 13:14
  things
• 13:15
  are
• 13:15
  complicated
• 13:16
  when
• 13:16
  you're
• 13:16
  in
• 13:17
  your
• 13:17
  40s
• 13:17
  and
• 13:18
  you
• 13:18
  start
• 13:18
  to
• 13:18
  have
• 13:19
  to
• 13:19
  do
• 13:19
  a
• 13:19
  lot
• 13:19
  of
• 13:19
  things
• 13:19
  that
• 13:20
  you
• 13:20
  never
• 13:20
  expected.
• 13:21
  And
• 13:21
  that
• 13:21
  has
• 13:21
  to
• 13:21
  come
• 13:22
  first.
• 13:22
  Yeah,
• 13:23
  no,
• 13:23
  absolutely.
• 13:24
  So
• 13:24
  looking
• 13:24
  back,
• 13:24
  like,
• 13:25
  let's
• 13:25
  say
• 13:25
  10,
• 13:26
  20
• 13:26
  years
• 13:26
  ago,
• 13:27
  what
• 13:28
  are
• 13:28
  some
• 13:28
  of
• 13:28
  the
• 13:28
  things
• 13:28
  that
• 13:29
  you
• 13:29
  think
• 13:29
  you
• 13:29
  put
• 13:29
  up
• 13:29
  with
• 13:30
  back
• 13:30
  then
• 13:30
  with
• 13:30
  friends
• 13:31
  that
• 13:31
  you
• 13:31
  would
• 13:31
  not
• 13:32
  put
• 13:32
  up
• 13:32
  with
• 13:32
  today?
• 13:33
  I
• 13:33
  think
• 13:33
  I
• 13:34
  used
• 13:34
  to
• 13:34
  live
• 13:34
  in
• 13:34
  the
• 13:34
  space
• 13:35
  where
• 13:35
  I
• 13:35
  was
• 13:35
  really
• 13:36
  uncomfortable
• 13:36
  with
• 13:37
  confrontation,
• 13:38
  and
• 13:38
  it
• 13:38
  used
• 13:39
  to
• 13:39
  give
• 13:39
  me
• 13:39
  anxiety.
• 13:40
  Wait,
• 13:40
  meaning
• 13:41
  somebody
• 13:41
  confronting
• 13:42
  you
• 13:42
  or
• 13:42
  you
• 13:42
  vice
• 13:43
  versa.
• 13:43
  Like,
• 13:44
  whether.
• 13:44
  Whether
• 13:45
  I
• 13:45
  felt
• 13:45
  that
• 13:45
  I
• 13:46
  had
• 13:46
  maybe
• 13:46
  done
• 13:46
  something
• 13:47
  wrong
• 13:47
  and.
• 13:49
  And
• 13:49
  it
• 13:49
  was
• 13:49
  gonna
• 13:49
  be
• 13:50
  blown
• 13:50
  up
• 13:50
  into
• 13:50
  something
• 13:51
  that
• 13:51
  if
• 13:51
  I
• 13:52
  didn't
• 13:52
  confront
• 13:52
  it
• 13:52
  and
• 13:53
  apologize,
• 13:53
  it
• 13:54
  was
• 13:54
  gonna
• 13:54
  be
• 13:54
  something
• 13:54
  that
• 13:55
  would
• 13:55
  become
• 13:55
  much
• 13:55
  bigger
• 13:56
  or,
• 13:56
  you
• 13:57
  know,
• 13:57
  the
• 13:57
  opposite,
• 13:58
  where
• 13:58
  maybe
• 13:58
  they
• 13:59
  had
• 13:59
  done
• 13:59
  something
• 13:59
  to
• 13:59
  me
• 13:59
  and
• 14:00
  I
• 14:00
  had
• 14:00
  to,
• 14:00
  like,
• 14:01
  tell
• 14:01
  them
• 14:01
  that
• 14:01
  my
• 14:01
  feelings
• 14:02
  were
• 14:02
  hurt
• 14:02
  and
• 14:04
  I
• 14:04
  didn't
• 14:05
  want
• 14:05
  to
• 14:05
  have
• 14:05
  any
• 14:05
  sort
• 14:06
  of
• 14:06
  unsettling
• 14:06
  disconnect
• 14:08
  in
• 14:08
  my
• 14:08
  life
• 14:08
  at
• 14:09
  the
• 14:09
  time.
• 14:10
  I
• 14:10
  have
• 14:11
  since,
• 14:11
  obviously,
• 14:13
  taken
• 14:13
  on
• 14:13
  a
• 14:14
  new
• 14:14
  era
• 14:15
  called
• 14:15
  the
• 14:16
  IDGAF
• 14:17
  era,
• 14:19
  where,
• 14:19
  you
• 14:20
  know,
• 14:20
  the
• 14:20
  women
• 14:20
  that
• 14:20
  I
• 14:21
  want
• 14:21
  in
• 14:21
  my
• 14:21
  life
• 14:21
  now
• 14:22
  and
• 14:22
  the
• 14:22
  women
• 14:22
  that
• 14:22
  are
• 14:23
  currently
• 14:23
  in
• 14:23
  my
• 14:23
  life
• 14:24
  are
• 14:24
  women
• 14:24
  that
• 14:24
  are
• 14:24
  ride
• 14:25
  or
• 14:25
  dies.
• 14:26
  And
• 14:26
  we're
• 14:27
  all
• 14:27
  gonna
• 14:27
  make
• 14:27
  mistakes
• 14:28
  along
• 14:28
  the
• 14:28
  way.
• 14:28
  We're
• 14:29
  all
• 14:29
  gonna
• 14:29
  need,
• 14:29
  you
• 14:30
  know,
• 14:30
  to
• 14:30
  be
• 14:30
  picked
• 14:30
  up.
• 14:30
  We're
• 14:31
  all
• 14:31
  gonna
• 14:31
  need
• 14:31
  to
• 14:31
  be
• 14:31
  let
• 14:32
  off
• 14:32
  the
• 14:32
  hook
• 14:32
  every
• 14:33
  once
• 14:33
  in
• 14:33
  a
• 14:33
  while
• 14:34
  because
• 14:35
  we
• 14:35
  have
• 14:35
  history
• 14:36
  and
• 14:36
  we
• 14:36
  have
• 14:36
  understanding
• 14:37
  and
• 14:37
  we
• 14:37
  have
• 14:38
  compassion
• 14:38
  for
• 14:38
  each
• 14:38
  other
• 14:39
  and
• 14:39
  what
• 14:39
  we're
• 14:39
  going
• 14:39
  through.
• 14:40
  And
• 14:40
  so
• 14:41
  for
• 14:41
  me,
• 14:41
  like,
• 14:42
  20
• 14:42
  years
• 14:42
  ago,
• 14:43
  that
• 14:44
  was
• 14:44
  a
• 14:44
  time
• 14:44
  and
• 14:44
  place
• 14:45
  where
• 14:45
  everything
• 14:46
  felt
• 14:46
  so
• 14:47
  important.
• 14:48
  Every
• 14:48
  mistake
• 14:49
  I
• 14:49
  made,
• 14:49
  every
• 14:50
  mistake
• 14:50
  a
• 14:50
  friend
• 14:51
  made
• 14:52
  that
• 14:52
  affected
• 14:53
  me,
• 14:53
  like,
• 14:54
  that
• 14:54
  is
• 14:55
  what,
• 14:55
  like,
• 14:56
  I
• 14:56
  would
• 14:56
  walk
• 14:56
  with
• 14:57
  and
• 14:57
  carry
• 14:57
  on
• 14:57
  my
• 14:57
  shoulders
• 14:58
  every
• 14:58
  single
• 14:58
  day.
• 14:59
  I
• 14:59
  do
• 14:59
  my.
• 14:59
  My
• 15:00
  absolute
• 15:00
  best
• 15:01
  not
• 15:01
  to
• 15:01
  carry
• 15:01
  that
• 15:02
  weight
• 15:02
  anymore.
• 15:03
  And
• 15:03
  it's
• 15:03
  incredibly
• 15:04
  freeing.
• 15:04
  I'm
• 15:04
  not
• 15:04
  going
• 15:04
  to
• 15:05
  say
• 15:05
  that,
• 15:05
  you
• 15:06
  know,
• 15:06
  I
• 15:06
  haven't
• 15:07
  made
• 15:07
  mistakes
• 15:07
  in
• 15:07
  relationships
• 15:08
  or
• 15:08
  friendships
• 15:08
  in
• 15:09
  my
• 15:09
  life,
• 15:09
  but.
• 15:10
  And
• 15:10
  or
• 15:11
  my
• 15:11
  friends
• 15:11
  may
• 15:12
  have
• 15:12
  made
• 15:12
  mistakes,
• 15:12
  you
• 15:13
  know,
• 15:13
  as
• 15:13
  far
• 15:14
  as
• 15:14
  how
• 15:14
  we
• 15:14
  relate
• 15:15
  to
• 15:15
  one
• 15:15
  another,
• 15:16
  but
• 15:16
  I
• 15:16
  don't
• 15:16
  carry
• 15:17
  the
• 15:17
  burden
• 15:17
  of
• 15:18
  that
• 15:18
  affecting
• 15:19
  it
• 15:19
  and
• 15:19
  it
• 15:19
  being
• 15:20
  so
• 15:20
  life
• 15:20
  or
• 15:20
  death.
• 15:21
  That's
• 15:21
  something
• 15:21
  that
• 15:22
  I
• 15:22
  walk
• 15:22
  my
• 15:22
  daughter
• 15:22
  through.
• 15:23
  Juliet,
• 15:23
  right
• 15:24
  now.
• 15:24
  You
• 15:24
  know,
• 15:25
  like
• 15:25
  everything
• 15:25
  with
• 15:26
  your
• 15:26
  friends
• 15:26
  when
• 15:26
  you're,
• 15:27
  you
• 15:27
  know,
• 15:27
  a
• 15:27
  teenager
• 15:28
  maybe
• 15:28
  all
• 15:29
  the
• 15:29
  way
• 15:29
  up
• 15:29
  through
• 15:29
  the
• 15:30
  time
• 15:30
  that
• 15:30
  you're
• 15:30
  married
• 15:30
  and
• 15:31
  having
• 15:31
  kids
• 15:31
  in
• 15:32
  that,
• 15:32
  in
• 15:32
  that
• 15:32
  phase,
• 15:33
  which
• 15:33
  is
• 15:33
  really
• 15:33
  roughly
• 15:34
  15
• 15:34
  years,
• 15:35
  your
• 15:35
  friends
• 15:35
  are
• 15:36
  your
• 15:37
  family.
• 15:37
  Right.
• 15:38
  And.
• 15:38
  And
• 15:38
  when
• 15:39
  something
• 15:39
  falls
• 15:40
  out,
• 15:41
  it's
• 15:42
  like
• 15:42
  life
• 15:42
  altering.
• 15:45
  And
• 15:45
  I
• 15:45
  just
• 15:45
  don't
• 15:45
  feel
• 15:45
  that
• 15:46
  way
• 15:46
  anymore.
• 15:46
  That's
• 15:47
  good.
• 15:47
  So.
• 15:48
  Because
• 15:48
  friendships
• 15:49
  change
• 15:49
  and
• 15:50
  people
• 15:50
  evolve.
• 15:51
  Some
• 15:51
  people
• 15:51
  don't
• 15:52
  evolve.
• 15:52
  Like,
• 15:53
  how
• 15:54
  do
• 15:54
  you
• 15:54
  deal
• 15:54
  with
• 15:54
  that?
• 15:55
  When
• 15:55
  you
• 15:55
  see
• 15:55
  somebody
• 15:56
  maybe
• 15:56
  that's
• 15:56
  you've
• 15:56
  been
• 15:57
  friends
• 15:57
  with
• 15:57
  for
• 15:57
  a
• 15:57
  long
• 15:57
  time
• 15:58
  and
• 15:58
  you
• 15:58
  don't
• 15:58
  see
• 15:58
  them
• 15:58
  changing
• 15:59
  or
• 15:59
  you're
• 15:59
  not
• 16:00
  really
• 16:00
  in
• 16:00
  line
• 16:01
  anymore.
• 16:01
  Like,
• 16:02
  how
• 16:02
  do
• 16:02
  you.
• 16:02
  I'm
• 16:03
  okay
• 16:03
  with
• 16:03
  that.
• 16:03
  You're
• 16:04
  okay
• 16:04
  with.
• 16:04
  I
• 16:04
  don't
• 16:05
  think
• 16:05
  that
• 16:05
  there,
• 16:05
  there's
• 16:05
  a
• 16:06
  conversation
• 16:06
  that
• 16:06
  has
• 16:06
  to
• 16:07
  be
• 16:07
  had
• 16:07
  necess
• 16:08
  if
• 16:08
  you're
• 16:08
  not
• 16:08
  aligned
• 16:09
  anymore.
• 16:09
  I
• 16:10
  think.
• 16:10
  I
• 16:10
  don't
• 16:10
  wanna
• 16:10
  say
• 16:10
  the
• 16:11
  trash
• 16:11
  takes
• 16:11
  itself
• 16:11
  out
• 16:12
  because
• 16:14
  that's
• 16:14
  a
• 16:14
  little
• 16:15
  harsh,
• 16:15
  but
• 16:16
  I
• 16:16
  feel
• 16:16
  like
• 16:17
  you
• 16:17
  just
• 16:18
  begin
• 16:18
  to
• 16:19
  sort
• 16:20
  of
• 16:20
  go
• 16:20
  a
• 16:20
  different
• 16:20
  direction.
• 16:21
  And
• 16:22
  that
• 16:22
  doesn't
• 16:22
  mean
• 16:22
  you
• 16:23
  can't
• 16:23
  come
• 16:23
  back
• 16:23
  together.
• 16:23
  That
• 16:24
  doesn't
• 16:24
  mean
• 16:24
  you
• 16:24
  don't
• 16:25
  have
• 16:25
  to
• 16:25
  have
• 16:25
  respect
• 16:25
  for
• 16:25
  each
• 16:26
  other,
• 16:26
  understand
• 16:26
  each
• 16:27
  other,
• 16:27
  see
• 16:27
  each
• 16:27
  other,
• 16:27
  and
• 16:28
  have
• 16:28
  sort
• 16:28
  of
• 16:29
  a
• 16:29
  mutual
• 16:29
  respect
• 16:30
  and
• 16:30
  admiration
• 16:31
  for
• 16:31
  the
• 16:31
  history
• 16:31
  of
• 16:32
  your
• 16:32
  friendship.
• 16:32
  I
• 16:33
  just
• 16:33
  think,
• 16:34
  you
• 16:34
  know,
• 16:34
  you
• 16:34
  just
• 16:34
  move.
• 16:35
  You
• 16:35
  move
• 16:35
  in
• 16:35
  a
• 16:36
  different
• 16:36
  direction
• 16:36
  and
• 16:37
  it
• 16:37
  doesn't.
• 16:37
  There
• 16:37
  doesn't
• 16:38
  need
• 16:38
  to
• 16:38
  be
• 16:38
  a
• 16:38
  conversation
• 16:39
  about
• 16:39
  that.
• 16:39
  You
• 16:39
  just
• 16:40
  recognize
• 16:40
  that
• 16:40
  you're
• 16:40
  not
• 16:41
  on.
• 16:41
  You're
• 16:41
  not
• 16:41
  aligned
• 16:42
  anymore
• 16:42
  the
• 16:42
  way
• 16:42
  that
• 16:42
  you
• 16:43
  used
• 16:43
  to
• 16:43
  be.
• 16:44
  And,
• 16:44
  you
• 16:45
  know,
• 16:45
  therefore
• 16:46
  you're
• 16:46
  going
• 16:47
  the
• 16:47
  way
• 16:47
  that
• 16:48
  that
• 16:48
  suits
• 16:48
  you.
• 16:48
  That's
• 16:49
  right
• 16:49
  for
• 16:49
  you.
• 16:49
  Yeah.
• 16:50
  We've
• 16:50
  had
• 16:50
  a
• 16:50
  lot
• 16:50
  of
• 16:50
  changes
• 16:51
  in
• 16:51
  our
• 16:51
  friend
• 16:51
  group,
• 16:51
  you
• 16:52
  know,
• 16:52
  and
• 16:52
  it's
• 16:52
  like
• 16:53
  we've
• 16:53
  kind
• 16:53
  of
• 16:53
  had
• 16:53
  to
• 16:54
  navigate
• 16:54
  that.
• 16:54
  And
• 16:54
  you're
• 16:55
  right.
• 16:55
  Sometimes
• 16:55
  you
• 16:55
  just
• 16:55
  don't
• 16:56
  talk
• 16:56
  to
• 16:56
  people
• 16:56
  anymore.
• 16:57
  Sometimes
• 16:58
  they
• 16:58
  come
• 16:58
  back
• 16:59
  in
• 16:59
  at
• 16:59
  a
• 16:59
  different
• 16:59
  time.
• 17:00
  Right.
• 17:00
  Maybe
• 17:00
  they're
• 17:01
  going
• 17:01
  through
• 17:01
  shit,
• 17:01
  you
• 17:02
  know,
• 17:02
  I
• 17:02
  mean,
• 17:02
  who
• 17:02
  knows?
• 17:03
  I
• 17:03
  still
• 17:03
  go
• 17:03
  back
• 17:04
  to
• 17:04
  like
• 17:04
  our
• 17:05
  friend
• 17:05
  group
• 17:05
  that
• 17:06
  obviously
• 17:06
  has
• 17:06
  been.
• 17:07
  Has
• 17:07
  been
• 17:07
  close
• 17:07
  for
• 17:08
  a
• 17:08
  long
• 17:08
  time.
• 17:08
  Some
• 17:09
  closer
• 17:09
  than
• 17:09
  others.
• 17:10
  And,
• 17:10
  you
• 17:10
  know,
• 17:10
  the
• 17:10
  six
• 17:11
  of
• 17:11
  us
• 17:11
  or
• 17:11
  five
• 17:11
  of
• 17:11
  us
• 17:12
  that
• 17:12
  have
• 17:12
  known
• 17:13
  each
• 17:13
  other
• 17:13
  since,
• 17:13
  you
• 17:14
  know,
• 17:14
  we
• 17:14
  were
• 17:14
  18,
• 17:15
  but
• 17:15
  I
• 17:16
  still
• 17:16
  feel
• 17:17
  even
• 17:17
  with
• 17:17
  some
• 17:18
  of
• 17:18
  the
• 17:18
  friendships
• 17:18
  in
• 17:18
  our,
• 17:19
  our
• 17:19
  little
• 17:20
  group,
• 17:20
  that
• 17:20
  maybe
• 17:21
  I'm
• 17:21
  not
• 17:21
  As
• 17:21
  close
• 17:21
  to,
• 17:22
  as,
• 17:22
  you
• 17:22
  know,
• 17:23
  for
• 17:23
  example,
• 17:23
  you
• 17:24
  and
• 17:24
  Kristin.
• 17:25
  I
• 17:25
  still
• 17:26
  feel
• 17:26
  like
• 17:27
  if
• 17:27
  push
• 17:28
  came
• 17:28
  to
• 17:28
  shove
• 17:29
  and
• 17:29
  if
• 17:29
  there
• 17:30
  was
• 17:30
  something
• 17:30
  that
• 17:31
  I
• 17:31
  could
• 17:31
  provide,
• 17:32
  I'd
• 17:32
  be
• 17:32
  there
• 17:33
  in
• 17:33
  a
• 17:33
  heartbeat.
• 17:33
  All
• 17:33
  she
• 17:33
  has
• 17:34
  to
• 17:34
  do
• 17:34
  is
• 17:34
  pick
• 17:34
  up
• 17:34
  the
• 17:34
  phone
• 17:34
  and
• 17:35
  ask,
• 17:35
  and
• 17:35
  vice
• 17:36
  versa.
• 17:37
  Just
• 17:38
  because
• 17:38
  we
• 17:38
  are
• 17:38
  not
• 17:39
  necessarily
• 17:39
  aligned
• 17:40
  in
• 17:41
  our
• 17:41
  values
• 17:42
  and
• 17:43
  our
• 17:43
  day
• 17:43
  to
• 17:43
  day
• 17:44
  and
• 17:44
  how
• 17:45
  we
• 17:45
  see
• 17:45
  life
• 17:46
  right
• 17:46
  now
• 17:46
  and
• 17:47
  where
• 17:47
  we
• 17:47
  are
• 17:47
  in
• 17:48
  life
• 17:48
  doesn't
• 17:49
  mean
• 17:49
  that
• 17:49
  there
• 17:49
  won't
• 17:49
  be
• 17:50
  a
• 17:50
  moment
• 17:51
  down
• 17:51
  the
• 17:51
  road
• 17:52
  where
• 17:53
  those,
• 17:54
  those
• 17:54
  paths
• 17:54
  could
• 17:54
  sort
• 17:55
  of
• 17:55
  align
• 17:55
  again.
• 17:56
  And
• 17:56
  so
• 17:57
  I
• 17:57
  always,
• 17:57
  like,
• 17:58
  try
• 17:58
  to
• 17:58
  put
• 17:58
  one
• 17:58
  foot
• 17:58
  in
• 17:59
  front
• 17:59
  of
• 17:59
  the
• 17:59
  other
• 17:59
  and
• 17:59
  be
• 17:59
  positive
• 18:00
  about
• 18:00
  it.
• 18:00
  And,
• 18:01
  you
• 18:01
  know,
• 18:02
  who
• 18:02
  knows?
• 18:03
  Yeah,
• 18:03
  for
• 18:03
  sure.
• 18:03
  And
• 18:04
  you
• 18:04
  know,
• 18:04
  the
• 18:04
  world
• 18:04
  loves
• 18:05
  to
• 18:05
  pit
• 18:05
  powerful
• 18:06
  women
• 18:06
  against
• 18:06
  each
• 18:07
  other,
• 18:07
  you
• 18:07
  know.
• 18:07
  Oh,
• 18:07
  yeah,
• 18:08
  Each
• 18:08
  person.
• 18:09
  But
• 18:09
  what
• 18:09
  do
• 18:09
  you
• 18:10
  think
• 18:10
  is
• 18:10
  the
• 18:10
  best
• 18:11
  way
• 18:11
  for
• 18:11
  friendships
• 18:11
  to
• 18:12
  thrive
• 18:13
  in
• 18:13
  like,
• 18:13
  a
• 18:14
  pressure
• 18:14
  situation
• 18:14
  or
• 18:15
  in
• 18:15
  a
• 18:15
  world
• 18:15
  like
• 18:15
  that?
• 18:16
  I
• 18:16
  think
• 18:16
  you
• 18:17
  have
• 18:17
  different
• 18:17
  friends
• 18:17
  for,
• 18:18
  for
• 18:18
  different
• 18:19
  reasons.
• 18:19
  Like,
• 18:20
  I,
• 18:20
  you
• 18:20
  know,
• 18:20
  I've
• 18:21
  heard
• 18:21
  this
• 18:21
  a
• 18:21
  few
• 18:21
  different
• 18:22
  times
• 18:22
  where
• 18:23
  it's
• 18:23
  like,
• 18:23
  you
• 18:24
  have
• 18:24
  to,
• 18:25
  like
• 18:25
  a
• 18:25
  few
• 18:25
  different
• 18:26
  types
• 18:26
  of
• 18:26
  friends.
• 18:26
  You
• 18:27
  have
• 18:27
  to
• 18:27
  have
• 18:27
  the
• 18:27
  one
• 18:28
  that
• 18:28
  is
• 18:29
  like,
• 18:29
  ride
• 18:30
  or
• 18:30
  die,
• 18:31
  that
• 18:31
  you
• 18:31
  could
• 18:31
  pick
• 18:31
  up
• 18:32
  the
• 18:32
  phone
• 18:32
  call
• 18:32
  at
• 18:33
  any
• 18:33
  hour
• 18:33
  of
• 18:33
  the
• 18:33
  night
• 18:34
  and
• 18:34
  be
• 18:34
  like,
• 18:34
  I
• 18:34
  need
• 18:35
  you
• 18:35
  to
• 18:35
  bail
• 18:35
  me
• 18:36
  out
• 18:36
  of
• 18:36
  jail.
• 18:36
  I
• 18:36
  need
• 18:37
  you
• 18:37
  to
• 18:37
  pick
• 18:37
  me
• 18:37
  up.
• 18:37
  I'm
• 18:37
  in
• 18:38
  a
• 18:38
  really
• 18:38
  shitty
• 18:39
  situation
• 18:40
  with
• 18:40
  a
• 18:40
  relationship
• 18:41
  that
• 18:41
  I'm
• 18:41
  in,
• 18:42
  like,
• 18:42
  and
• 18:42
  it's
• 18:43
  like,
• 18:44
  pin
• 18:44
  your
• 18:44
  location.
• 18:45
  I'll
• 18:45
  be
• 18:45
  there
• 18:45
  in
• 18:46
  10.
• 18:46
  You
• 18:47
  have
• 18:47
  to
• 18:47
  have
• 18:47
  that
• 18:48
  person,
• 18:48
  right?
• 18:49
  Then
• 18:49
  you
• 18:49
  have
• 18:49
  to
• 18:49
  have
• 18:50
  like,
• 18:50
  your
• 18:50
  truth
• 18:50
  teller
• 18:51
  that's
• 18:51
  gonna
• 18:52
  sit
• 18:52
  across
• 18:52
  from
• 18:52
  you
• 18:52
  and
• 18:53
  tell
• 18:53
  you
• 18:53
  the
• 18:53
  things
• 18:53
  you
• 18:54
  don't
• 18:54
  necessarily
• 18:54
  want
• 18:55
  to
• 18:55
  hear
• 18:56
  when
• 18:56
  you
• 18:56
  know
• 18:56
  you
• 18:56
  need
• 18:56
  to
• 18:57
  hear
• 18:57
  it.
• 18:57
  And
• 18:58
  everybody
• 18:58
  else
• 18:58
  is
• 18:59
  saying,
• 18:59
  I
• 18:59
  love
• 18:59
  you,
• 19:00
  I
• 19:00
  support
• 19:00
  you.
• 19:01
  You
• 19:01
  do
• 19:01
  You.
• 19:02
  You
• 19:02
  know,
• 19:03
  I
• 19:03
  think
• 19:03
  you
• 19:03
  have
• 19:03
  to
• 19:04
  have
• 19:04
  that
• 19:04
  person
• 19:04
  that's
• 19:04
  willing
• 19:05
  to
• 19:05
  kind
• 19:05
  of
• 19:05
  shoot
• 19:05
  you
• 19:05
  straight
• 19:06
  and
• 19:06
  say,
• 19:06
  I
• 19:06
  think
• 19:06
  you're
• 19:06
  on
• 19:07
  a
• 19:07
  path
• 19:07
  that
• 19:07
  isn't
• 19:08
  necessarily
• 19:08
  gonna
• 19:09
  serve
• 19:09
  you.
• 19:10
  And
• 19:11
  I
• 19:11
  think
• 19:11
  that
• 19:11
  friend,
• 19:11
  that
• 19:12
  type
• 19:12
  of
• 19:12
  friend
• 19:12
  is
• 19:12
  important.
• 19:13
  And
• 19:13
  then
• 19:13
  I
• 19:14
  think
• 19:14
  you
• 19:14
  have
• 19:14
  to
• 19:14
  have
• 19:14
  the
• 19:15
  friend
• 19:15
  that
• 19:15
  like,
• 19:16
  brings
• 19:16
  absolute
• 19:17
  and
• 19:17
  utter
• 19:19
  joy,
• 19:19
  laughter,
• 19:20
  and
• 19:21
  fun
• 19:21
  into
• 19:22
  your
• 19:22
  life
• 19:23
  at
• 19:23
  this
• 19:23
  phase.
• 19:25
  That's
• 19:25
  what
• 19:25
  I
• 19:25
  want.
• 19:26
  Like,
• 19:27
  I
• 19:27
  want
• 19:27
  those
• 19:27
  three
• 19:28
  things
• 19:29
  to
• 19:29
  make
• 19:30
  sure
• 19:30
  that
• 19:30
  A,
• 19:30
  I
• 19:30
  don't
• 19:30
  fall
• 19:31
  off
• 19:31
  track,
• 19:32
  B,
• 19:32
  that
• 19:32
  I
• 19:33
  always
• 19:33
  have
• 19:33
  someone
• 19:33
  that
• 19:34
  has
• 19:34
  my
• 19:34
  back
• 19:35
  in,
• 19:35
  in
• 19:35
  my
• 19:35
  darkest
• 19:36
  days.
• 19:36
  And
• 19:36
  C,
• 19:37
  someone
• 19:37
  that
• 19:37
  is
• 19:37
  going
• 19:38
  to
• 19:38
  be
• 19:39
  there
• 19:39
  and
• 19:39
  like,
• 19:39
  you
• 19:40
  know,
• 19:40
  when
• 19:40
  I'm
• 19:41
  having
• 19:41
  like
• 19:41
  a
• 19:41
  terrible
• 19:42
  few
• 19:42
  months
• 19:42
  at
• 19:43
  work
• 19:43
  and
• 19:44
  nothing
• 19:44
  seems
• 19:44
  to
• 19:44
  be
• 19:45
  coming
• 19:45
  together,
• 19:45
  they're
• 19:45
  there
• 19:46
  to
• 19:46
  like,
• 19:47
  just
• 19:47
  make
• 19:47
  me
• 19:47
  laugh.
• 19:48
  Pour
• 19:48
  me
• 19:48
  a
• 19:48
  tequila,
• 19:49
  sit
• 19:49
  across
• 19:49
  from
• 19:50
  me
• 19:50
  and
• 19:50
  just
• 19:51
  let
• 19:51
  loose.
• 19:51
  I
• 19:51
  mean,
• 19:52
  that's
• 19:52
  what
• 19:52
  girlfriends
• 19:52
  are
• 19:52
  all
• 19:53
  about.
• 19:53
  It's
• 19:54
  so
• 19:54
  important.
• 19:54
  It's
• 19:54
  so
• 19:54
  important
• 19:55
  at
• 19:55
  this
• 19:55
  stage
• 19:56
  in
• 19:56
  our
• 19:56
  lives,
• 19:56
  too,
• 19:57
  to
• 19:57
  have
• 19:57
  that,
• 19:57
  you
• 19:58
  know,
• 19:58
  community
• 19:59
  is
• 19:59
  everything.
• 20:00
  I
• 20:00
  mean,
• 20:00
  the
• 20:01
  suicide
• 20:01
  rates
• 20:01
  of
• 20:02
  women
• 20:02
  in
• 20:02
  midlife
• 20:02
  go
• 20:03
  up
• 20:03
  significantly
• 20:04
  because
• 20:04
  people
• 20:05
  feel
• 20:05
  alone,
• 20:05
  you
• 20:06
  know,
• 20:06
  and
• 20:06
  they
• 20:06
  feel
• 20:07
  like
• 20:07
  they're
• 20:07
  struggling.
• 20:08
  So
• 20:08
  what
• 20:09
  do
• 20:09
  you
• 20:09
  want
• 20:09
  people
• 20:10
  to
• 20:10
  know,
• 20:11
  especially
• 20:11
  midlife
• 20:12
  women,
• 20:12
  about
• 20:13
  friendships
• 20:13
  at
• 20:14
  this
• 20:14
  stage?
• 20:15
  In
• 20:15
  your
• 20:15
  40s?
• 20:16
  I
• 20:16
  feel
• 20:16
  like,
• 20:17
  you
• 20:17
  know,
• 20:17
  you
• 20:17
  have
• 20:18
  to
• 20:18
  ask.
• 20:19
  You
• 20:20
  know,
• 20:20
  we're
• 20:20
  not
• 20:22
  18
• 20:22
  anymore,
• 20:23
  guys.
• 20:23
  Like,
• 20:23
  we're
• 20:24
  not
• 20:24
  in
• 20:24
  the
• 20:24
  space
• 20:25
  where
• 20:26
  our
• 20:26
  friendships
• 20:27
  are
• 20:27
  the
• 20:27
  center
• 20:27
  of
• 20:28
  our
• 20:28
  universe.
• 20:29
  Right.
• 20:29
  I
• 20:29
  mean,
• 20:30
  for
• 20:30
  me,
• 20:31
  being
• 20:31
  single,
• 20:32
  my
• 20:32
  friendships
• 20:32
  are
• 20:32
  incredibly
• 20:33
  important
• 20:33
  to
• 20:34
  me
• 20:34
  right
• 20:34
  now,
• 20:34
  and
• 20:34
  I
• 20:35
  lean
• 20:35
  on
• 20:35
  the
• 20:35
  women
• 20:35
  and
• 20:36
  men
• 20:36
  around
• 20:36
  me
• 20:36
  that
• 20:37
  I
• 20:37
  adore
• 20:37
  and
• 20:38
  treasure.
• 20:38
  But
• 20:39
  for
• 20:39
  most
• 20:39
  women
• 20:40
  in
• 20:40
  their
• 20:40
  40s,
• 20:40
  but
• 20:41
  they
• 20:41
  have
• 20:41
  very
• 20:41
  big
• 20:42
  lives,
• 20:42
  whether
• 20:42
  it
• 20:42
  be
• 20:42
  career,
• 20:43
  family,
• 20:43
  et
• 20:43
  cetera.
• 20:44
  And
• 20:45
  if
• 20:45
  you
• 20:46
  want
• 20:46
  to
• 20:47
  maintain
• 20:47
  friendships,
• 20:48
  don't
• 20:49
  expect
• 20:49
  that
• 20:49
  we're
• 20:50
  all
• 20:50
  sitting
• 20:50
  around
• 20:52
  analyzing
• 20:54
  what
• 20:54
  your
• 20:54
  feelings
• 20:55
  might
• 20:55
  be
• 20:55
  behind
• 20:55
  the
• 20:56
  scenes.
• 20:57
  You
• 20:57
  have
• 20:57
  to
• 20:57
  pick
• 20:57
  up
• 20:57
  the
• 20:58
  phone
• 20:58
  and
• 20:58
  you
• 20:58
  have
• 20:58
  to
• 20:59
  say,
• 20:59
  I
• 21:00
  feel
• 21:00
  like
• 21:01
  shit
• 21:01
  today,
• 21:02
  and
• 21:02
  I
• 21:03
  need
• 21:03
  my
• 21:03
  ride
• 21:04
  or
• 21:04
  die.
• 21:04
  Or
• 21:05
  I
• 21:05
  need.
• 21:06
  I
• 21:06
  need
• 21:06
  Tracy
• 21:07
  to
• 21:07
  come
• 21:07
  and
• 21:07
  make
• 21:07
  me
• 21:08
  laugh.
• 21:08
  Or
• 21:08
  I
• 21:09
  need
• 21:09
  you
• 21:09
  to
• 21:09
  bail
• 21:10
  me
• 21:10
  out
• 21:10
  of
• 21:10
  jail.
• 21:10
  Whatever
• 21:11
  that
• 21:11
  is,
• 21:11
  you
• 21:12
  need
• 21:12
  to
• 21:12
  be
• 21:12
  able
• 21:12
  to
• 21:13
  say
• 21:13
  it.
• 21:13
  And
• 21:13
  I
• 21:14
  don't
• 21:14
  think
• 21:14
  women
• 21:14
  say
• 21:15
  it,
• 21:15
  say
• 21:15
  it
• 21:15
  enough.
• 21:16
  I
• 21:16
  think
• 21:16
  there's
• 21:16
  an
• 21:16
  expectation
• 21:18
  that
• 21:18
  if
• 21:18
  you
• 21:18
  don't
• 21:18
  show
• 21:19
  up
• 21:19
  for
• 21:19
  that
• 21:19
  person
• 21:20
  every
• 21:20
  week
• 21:21
  and
• 21:21
  you're
• 21:21
  not
• 21:21
  texting
• 21:22
  them
• 21:22
  every
• 21:22
  day
• 21:22
  and
• 21:22
  having
• 21:23
  dinner
• 21:23
  with
• 21:23
  them
• 21:23
  every
• 21:23
  week,
• 21:24
  that
• 21:24
  you
• 21:24
  don't
• 21:24
  care.
• 21:24
  And
• 21:25
  the
• 21:25
  reality
• 21:25
  is,
• 21:26
  when
• 21:26
  you're
• 21:26
  in
• 21:26
  your
• 21:26
  40s
• 21:27
  and
• 21:27
  you
• 21:27
  have
• 21:27
  kids
• 21:27
  to
• 21:27
  take
• 21:27
  care
• 21:28
  of,
• 21:28
  a
• 21:28
  job
• 21:28
  to
• 21:28
  deal
• 21:28
  with,
• 21:29
  a
• 21:29
  husband
• 21:30
  to
• 21:30
  navigate
• 21:30
  or
• 21:30
  a
• 21:30
  boyfriend
• 21:31
  or
• 21:31
  a
• 21:31
  wife
• 21:32
  or
• 21:32
  whatever
• 21:32
  that
• 21:33
  looks
• 21:33
  like,
• 21:34
  you're
• 21:35
  not
• 21:35
  necessarily
• 21:36
  giving
• 21:36
  perspective
• 21:37
  to
• 21:38
  your
• 21:38
  female
• 21:38
  friendships
• 21:39
  around
• 21:40
  you.
• 21:40
  So
• 21:40
  you
• 21:40
  need
• 21:41
  help,
• 21:42
  pick
• 21:42
  up
• 21:42
  the
• 21:42
  phone
• 21:42
  and
• 21:42
  ask
• 21:42
  for
• 21:43
  it.
• 21:43
  That's
• 21:43
  the
• 21:43
  first
• 21:44
  step.
• 21:44
  And
• 21:44
  so
• 21:44
  many
• 21:44
  people
• 21:44
  don't
• 21:45
  do
• 21:45
  that.
• 21:46
  They
• 21:46
  just
• 21:46
  feel
• 21:46
  sorry
• 21:46
  for
• 21:47
  themselves
• 21:47
  and
• 21:47
  they.
• 21:48
  No
• 21:48
  one
• 21:48
  cares
• 21:49
  about
• 21:49
  me
• 21:49
  anymore.
• 21:49
  You're
• 21:50
  not
• 21:50
  there
• 21:50
  for
• 21:50
  me
• 21:50
  anymore.
• 21:51
  And
• 21:51
  I
• 21:51
  just
• 21:51
  think
• 21:51
  that's
• 21:52
  the
• 21:52
  wrong
• 21:52
  dialogue
• 21:52
  to
• 21:53
  be
• 21:53
  having.
• 21:53
  If
• 21:53
  you
• 21:53
  don't
• 21:54
  ask
• 21:54
  for
• 21:54
  help,
• 21:54
  you're
• 21:54
  never.
• 21:55
  If
• 21:55
  you
• 21:55
  ask
• 21:55
  for
• 21:55
  help
• 21:56
  and
• 21:56
  you
• 21:56
  don't
• 21:56
  get
• 21:56
  it,
• 21:57
  now
• 21:57
  that's
• 21:58
  telling,
• 21:58
  right?
• 21:59
  That's
• 21:59
  a
• 21:59
  problem.
• 21:59
  Yes.
• 22:00
  Yeah.
• 22:00
  You
• 22:00
  have
• 22:01
  to
• 22:01
  put
• 22:01
  the
• 22:01
  first
• 22:01
  step
• 22:01
  out
• 22:01
  there,
• 22:02
  and
• 22:02
  you
• 22:02
  have
• 22:02
  to
• 22:02
  do
• 22:02
  it.
• 22:02
  Say,
• 22:03
  I
• 22:03
  need
• 22:03
  help.
• 22:04
  I'm
• 22:04
  vulnerable
• 22:04
  right
• 22:05
  now
• 22:05
  like
• 22:06
  you
• 22:06
  did
• 22:06
  with
• 22:06
  me
• 22:06
  a
• 22:07
  few
• 22:07
  weeks
• 22:07
  ago,
• 22:07
  and
• 22:07
  I
• 22:07
  was
• 22:07
  like,
• 22:08
  all
• 22:08
  bets
• 22:09
  are
• 22:09
  off.
• 22:10
  Like,
• 22:10
  I
• 22:10
  got
• 22:10
  in
• 22:11
  my
• 22:11
  car
• 22:11
  and
• 22:11
  we
• 22:11
  spoke
• 22:11
  for
• 22:12
  30
• 22:12
  minutes
• 22:12
  and
• 22:13
  we
• 22:13
  navigated
• 22:14
  our
• 22:14
  way
• 22:14
  through
• 22:14
  it.
• 22:14
  But
• 22:14
  it's
• 22:15
  only
• 22:15
  because
• 22:15
  you
• 22:16
  asked
• 22:16
  me
• 22:16
  that
• 22:16
  I
• 22:17
  had
• 22:17
  any
• 22:18
  concept
• 22:18
  about
• 22:19
  what
• 22:19
  you
• 22:19
  were
• 22:20
  feeling
• 22:20
  and
• 22:20
  where
• 22:20
  you
• 22:20
  were.
• 22:21
  Otherwise,
• 22:21
  how
• 22:21
  would
• 22:21
  I
• 22:22
  have
• 22:22
  known?
• 22:22
  How
• 22:22
  would
• 22:22
  you
• 22:22
  have
• 22:22
  known?
• 22:22
  You
• 22:23
  wouldn't
• 22:23
  have
• 22:23
  known.
• 22:23
  You
• 22:23
  can't
• 22:24
  guess.
• 22:24
  You
• 22:24
  know,
• 22:25
  I
• 22:25
  mean,
• 22:25
  it's
• 22:25
  imperative.
• 22:26
  So
• 22:27
  what
• 22:27
  would
• 22:27
  you
• 22:27
  say
• 22:27
  to
• 22:28
  women
• 22:28
  who
• 22:28
  feel
• 22:29
  like
• 22:29
  they
• 22:29
  don't
• 22:29
  have
• 22:29
  anyone
• 22:30
  at
• 22:30
  this
• 22:31
  stage?
• 22:31
  Like,
• 22:32
  is
• 22:32
  there
• 22:32
  a
• 22:32
  way?
• 22:33
  Like,
• 22:33
  maybe
• 22:33
  through
• 22:33
  community
• 22:34
  outreach,
• 22:35
  like,
• 22:35
  how
• 22:35
  do
• 22:36
  women
• 22:36
  get
• 22:36
  a
• 22:37
  good
• 22:37
  group
• 22:37
  of
• 22:37
  girlfriends,
• 22:38
  especially
• 22:39
  now?
• 22:39
  I
• 22:39
  say
• 22:40
  this
• 22:40
  all
• 22:40
  the
• 22:40
  time,
• 22:40
  but
• 22:41
  I
• 22:41
  feel
• 22:41
  like
• 22:41
  you,
• 22:42
  your
• 22:43
  sense
• 22:43
  of
• 22:43
  self
• 22:43
  and
• 22:44
  who
• 22:44
  you
• 22:44
  are
• 22:44
  enters
• 22:45
  the
• 22:45
  room
• 22:45
  before
• 22:45
  you
• 22:45
  even
• 22:46
  speak.
• 22:47
  So
• 22:48
  if
• 22:48
  you
• 22:48
  want
• 22:49
  female
• 22:50
  friends
• 22:50
  around
• 22:51
  you,
• 22:52
  be
• 22:52
  aware
• 22:52
  of
• 22:53
  how
• 22:53
  you're
• 22:53
  putting
• 22:53
  yourself
• 22:54
  out
• 22:54
  there
• 22:54
  to
• 22:54
  women.
• 22:55
  You
• 22:55
  know,
• 22:56
  I'm
• 22:56
  always,
• 22:56
  I've
• 22:57
  always
• 22:57
  been
• 22:57
  a
• 22:58
  big
• 22:58
  cheerleader
• 22:58
  for
• 22:59
  women.
• 22:59
  I
• 22:59
  don't
• 23:00
  believe
• 23:00
  in
• 23:00
  competition.
• 23:01
  I
• 23:01
  believe
• 23:02
  in
• 23:02
  celebrating
• 23:02
  each
• 23:02
  other's
• 23:03
  successes
• 23:04
  and,
• 23:04
  and,
• 23:04
  you
• 23:05
  know,
• 23:05
  navigating
• 23:06
  this
• 23:06
  crazy
• 23:06
  path
• 23:08
  called
• 23:09
  your
• 23:09
  40s.
• 23:11
  And,
• 23:12
  you
• 23:12
  know,
• 23:12
  there's
• 23:12
  going
• 23:12
  to
• 23:12
  be
• 23:12
  ups
• 23:13
  and
• 23:13
  downs
• 23:13
  for
• 23:13
  all
• 23:13
  of
• 23:13
  us.
• 23:13
  But
• 23:14
  if
• 23:14
  you
• 23:14
  want
• 23:14
  to
• 23:15
  have
• 23:15
  female
• 23:16
  friends
• 23:16
  and
• 23:16
  you
• 23:16
  don't
• 23:16
  feel
• 23:17
  like
• 23:17
  you're
• 23:17
  on
• 23:17
  that
• 23:17
  path
• 23:18
  or
• 23:18
  you
• 23:18
  don't
• 23:19
  feel
• 23:19
  like
• 23:19
  you
• 23:19
  have
• 23:19
  anyone,
• 23:20
  put
• 23:20
  yourself
• 23:20
  in
• 23:20
  scenarios
• 23:21
  where
• 23:22
  you
• 23:22
  are
• 23:23
  positive,
• 23:23
  vulnerable,
• 23:24
  all
• 23:25
  of
• 23:25
  the
• 23:25
  things
• 23:25
  I
• 23:25
  don't
• 23:25
  think
• 23:26
  you
• 23:26
  know.
• 23:26
  When
• 23:26
  you
• 23:26
  walk
• 23:27
  into
• 23:27
  a
• 23:27
  room
• 23:27
  and
• 23:27
  meet
• 23:27
  a
• 23:28
  new
• 23:28
  group
• 23:28
  of
• 23:28
  women,
• 23:28
  you
• 23:28
  dump
• 23:29
  your
• 23:29
  shit
• 23:30
  all
• 23:30
  over
• 23:31
  them.
• 23:31
  I
• 23:32
  feel
• 23:32
  like
• 23:32
  you
• 23:32
  put
• 23:33
  yourself
• 23:33
  out
• 23:33
  there
• 23:33
  as
• 23:34
  someone
• 23:34
  who
• 23:35
  is
• 23:36
  positive,
• 23:37
  energetic,
• 23:39
  someone
• 23:39
  that
• 23:39
  is
• 23:40
  interesting
• 23:40
  and
• 23:41
  dynamic
• 23:41
  to
• 23:41
  be
• 23:42
  around
• 23:42
  and
• 23:42
  someone
• 23:43
  that's
• 23:43
  vulnerable.
• 23:44
  And
• 23:44
  you'd
• 23:45
  be
• 23:45
  surprised
• 23:46
  at
• 23:46
  how
• 23:46
  many
• 23:47
  friends
• 23:47
  I've
• 23:47
  made
• 23:48
  that
• 23:49
  are
• 23:49
  in
• 23:49
  the
• 23:49
  same
• 23:49
  space
• 23:50
  as
• 23:51
  I
• 23:51
  am.
• 23:51
  Because
• 23:51
  really,
• 23:52
  all
• 23:52
  of
• 23:52
  my
• 23:52
  best
• 23:52
  friends
• 23:53
  are
• 23:53
  still
• 23:53
  married
• 23:54
  or
• 23:55
  have
• 23:55
  very
• 23:55
  young
• 23:55
  kids.
• 23:58
  And
• 23:59
  so
• 23:59
  I
• 24:00
  had
• 24:00
  to
• 24:00
  kind
• 24:00
  of
• 24:00
  make
• 24:01
  the
• 24:01
  unilateral
• 24:02
  decision
• 24:02
  to
• 24:02
  put
• 24:03
  myself
• 24:04
  in
• 24:04
  a
• 24:05
  space
• 24:05
  where
• 24:05
  I
• 24:05
  was
• 24:05
  meeting
• 24:06
  women
• 24:06
  that
• 24:07
  were
• 24:07
  in
• 24:07
  the
• 24:07
  same
• 24:07
  space
• 24:08
  and
• 24:08
  time
• 24:08
  that
• 24:08
  I
• 24:09
  was.
• 24:10
  And
• 24:10
  I
• 24:10
  have
• 24:11
  done
• 24:11
  that.
• 24:11
  And
• 24:11
  it's
• 24:12
  been
• 24:12
  incredibly
• 24:12
  rewarding.
• 24:13
  It
• 24:13
  doesn't
• 24:13
  take
• 24:13
  away
• 24:13
  from
• 24:14
  my
• 24:14
  old
• 24:14
  friendships,
• 24:14
  but
• 24:15
  it
• 24:15
  has
• 24:15
  allowed
• 24:16
  me
• 24:16
  to
• 24:16
  make,
• 24:17
  you
• 24:17
  know,
• 24:17
  brand
• 24:18
  spanking
• 24:19
  new
• 24:19
  female
• 24:20
  friends
• 24:20
  that
• 24:20
  I
• 24:20
  treasure
• 24:21
  just
• 24:21
  as
• 24:21
  much
• 24:22
  as
• 24:22
  I
• 24:22
  treasure
• 24:22
  my
• 24:23
  30
• 24:23
  year
• 24:23
  friendships.
• 24:24
  Nope.
• 24:24
  We
• 24:24
  win.
• 24:25
  Yeah,
• 24:26
  I
• 24:26
  knew
• 24:26
  that
• 24:26
  was
• 24:27
  gonna
• 24:27
  happen.
• 24:28
  Nope,
• 24:29
  nope.
• 24:29
  See
• 24:30
  it
• 24:30
  later.
• 24:31
  The
• 24:31
  30
• 24:32
  pluses.
• 24:33
  She
• 24:33
  bitch
• 24:33
  gets
• 24:34
  jealous.
• 24:34
  This
• 24:34
  bitch
• 24:35
  is
• 24:35
  so
• 24:35
  jealous.
• 24:36
  I'm
• 24:36
  like,
• 24:36
  mm,
• 24:36
  mm.
• 24:37
  We
• 24:37
  get
• 24:37
  first
• 24:38
  place.
• 24:39
  I
• 24:40
  know.
• 24:40
  If
• 24:40
  you
• 24:40
  could
• 24:40
  stick
• 24:41
  your
• 24:41
  tongue
• 24:41
  down
• 24:41
  my
• 24:41
  throat
• 24:42
  in
• 24:42
  a
• 24:42
  room
• 24:42
  full
• 24:42
  of
• 24:42
  women,
• 24:43
  you
• 24:43
  would.
• 24:43
  Tracy,
• 24:44
  we
• 24:44
  Will
• 24:44
  get
• 24:44
  married
• 24:45
  one
• 24:45
  day.
• 24:47
  I'll
• 24:47
  leave
• 24:47
  David.
• 24:48
  We'll
• 24:48
  run
• 24:48
  away
• 24:48
  together.
• 24:48
  You
• 24:49
  know
• 24:49
  how
• 24:49
  this
• 24:49
  story
• 24:49
  ends.
• 24:50
  There
• 24:50
  is
• 24:50
  a
• 24:50
  commune
• 24:51
  on
• 24:51
  the
• 24:51
  horizon.
• 24:51
  I
• 24:51
  do
• 24:52
  feel
• 24:52
  it
• 24:52
  coming.
• 24:52
  Okay,
• 24:53
  so
• 24:53
  you
• 24:53
  do
• 24:53
  think
• 24:54
  there
• 24:54
  is
• 24:54
  a
• 24:54
  way
• 24:54
  for
• 24:55
  women
• 24:55
  to
• 24:55
  have
• 24:55
  close
• 24:56
  friendships
• 24:56
  without
• 24:57
  the
• 24:57
  jealousy,
• 24:58
  without,
• 24:58
  like,
• 24:58
  the
• 24:58
  competition?
• 24:59
  Hell,
• 25:00
  yeah.
• 25:00
  I
• 25:01
  absolutely
• 25:02
  think.
• 25:02
  And
• 25:02
  I
• 25:02
  talk
• 25:03
  about
• 25:03
  this
• 25:03
  all
• 25:03
  the
• 25:03
  time
• 25:04
  on
• 25:04
  my
• 25:04
  platform.
• 25:05
  I
• 25:05
  do
• 25:05
  not
• 25:06
  believe
• 25:06
  in.
• 25:08
  In
• 25:08
  women
• 25:08
  tearing
• 25:09
  each
• 25:09
  other
• 25:09
  down.
• 25:09
  I.
• 25:09
  I
• 25:10
  will
• 25:10
  continue
• 25:10
  to
• 25:11
  put
• 25:11
  content
• 25:11
  out
• 25:11
  there
• 25:12
  that
• 25:12
  challenges
• 25:12
  women
• 25:13
  to
• 25:13
  reciprocate
• 25:15
  with
• 25:16
  admiration,
• 25:17
  adoration,
• 25:19
  like,
• 25:20
  celebration
• 25:21
  for
• 25:21
  other
• 25:21
  women,
• 25:22
  no
• 25:23
  matter
• 25:23
  what
• 25:24
  they're
• 25:24
  putting
• 25:24
  out
• 25:24
  there,
• 25:25
  rather
• 25:25
  than,
• 25:26
  well,
• 25:26
  you
• 25:26
  should
• 25:26
  be
• 25:27
  doing
• 25:27
  it
• 25:27
  this
• 25:27
  way.
• 25:28
  You
• 25:28
  need
• 25:28
  to
• 25:28
  eat
• 25:29
  more.
• 25:29
  You
• 25:29
  need
• 25:29
  to,
• 25:30
  like,
• 25:30
  work
• 25:30
  less.
• 25:31
  You
• 25:31
  need
• 25:31
  to
• 25:31
  find
• 25:31
  a
• 25:32
  man
• 25:32
  that's
• 25:32
  your
• 25:32
  age.
• 25:32
  Well,
• 25:33
  no,
• 25:33
  I
• 25:33
  don't,
• 25:33
  actually.
• 25:34
  And
• 25:35
  the
• 25:35
  more
• 25:35
  you
• 25:35
  say
• 25:36
  it,
• 25:36
  the
• 25:37
  more
• 25:37
  I
• 25:37
  want
• 25:37
  to
• 25:38
  put
• 25:38
  content
• 25:38
  out
• 25:39
  there.
• 25:39
  That
• 25:39
  absolutely
• 25:40
  dispels
• 25:40
  that.
• 25:40
  And
• 25:41
  what
• 25:41
  I've
• 25:41
  found
• 25:42
  in
• 25:42
  the
• 25:43
  last
• 25:43
  few
• 25:43
  years
• 25:44
  is
• 25:44
  by
• 25:44
  not
• 25:46
  curbing
• 25:48
  who
• 25:48
  I
• 25:48
  am
• 25:49
  and
• 25:49
  what
• 25:50
  I
• 25:50
  stand
• 25:50
  for
• 25:50
  and
• 25:50
  what
• 25:50
  I've
• 25:51
  always
• 25:51
  stood
• 25:51
  for,
• 25:53
  more
• 25:53
  and
• 25:53
  more
• 25:53
  women
• 25:54
  are
• 25:54
  celebrating
• 25:55
  that,
• 25:55
  at
• 25:55
  least
• 25:56
  the
• 25:56
  following
• 25:56
  that
• 25:57
  I
• 25:57
  have.
• 25:57
  And
• 25:58
  I
• 25:58
  think,
• 25:58
  you
• 25:59
  know,
• 25:59
  like,
• 26:00
  we're
• 26:00
  breaking
• 26:00
  those
• 26:00
  sort
• 26:01
  of
• 26:01
  boundaries
• 26:02
  and
• 26:02
  sort
• 26:02
  of
• 26:03
  challenging
• 26:03
  women
• 26:03
  with
• 26:04
  a
• 26:04
  little
• 26:04
  bit
• 26:04
  of
• 26:04
  an
• 26:04
  older
• 26:05
  mindset,
• 26:07
  particularly
• 26:07
  surrounding
• 26:08
  women
• 26:08
  in
• 26:08
  business,
• 26:09
  how
• 26:09
  we
• 26:09
  dress,
• 26:10
  how
• 26:10
  we
• 26:10
  present
• 26:10
  ourselves,
• 26:11
  how
• 26:11
  we
• 26:12
  choose
• 26:12
  to
• 26:12
  live
• 26:12
  our
• 26:12
  lives
• 26:13
  after
• 26:13
  divorce,
• 26:14
  or
• 26:15
  being
• 26:15
  single
• 26:16
  moms
• 26:16
  in
• 26:16
  our
• 26:17
  40s,
• 26:17
  whatever
• 26:17
  that
• 26:18
  looks
• 26:18
  like.
• 26:19
  I
• 26:20
  think
• 26:20
  more
• 26:20
  and
• 26:20
  more
• 26:21
  women
• 26:21
  are
• 26:21
  wrapping
• 26:22
  their
• 26:22
  heads
• 26:22
  around
• 26:22
  reframing
• 26:23
  their
• 26:23
  mindset
• 26:26
  about
• 26:26
  what
• 26:26
  we
• 26:27
  should
• 26:27
  be
• 26:27
  doing,
• 26:28
  how
• 26:28
  we
• 26:28
  should
• 26:28
  be
• 26:28
  celebrating
• 26:29
  each
• 26:29
  other,
• 26:29
  versus
• 26:30
  saying,
• 26:30
  you're
• 26:31
  doing
• 26:31
  it
• 26:31
  wrong.
• 26:32
  You
• 26:32
  should
• 26:32
  be
• 26:32
  doing
• 26:33
  it
• 26:33
  this
• 26:33
  way.
• 26:34
  And
• 26:34
  that's
• 26:34
  why
• 26:34
  I
• 26:34
  think
• 26:34
  social
• 26:35
  media
• 26:35
  is
• 26:35
  such
• 26:35
  a
• 26:35
  great
• 26:36
  platform
• 26:36
  for
• 26:36
  that,
• 26:36
  because
• 26:37
  it's,
• 26:37
  you
• 26:37
  know,
• 26:38
  a
• 26:38
  world
• 26:38
  full
• 26:38
  of
• 26:38
  free
• 26:39
  speech.
• 26:40
  I
• 26:40
  mean,
• 26:40
  the
• 26:42
  little
• 26:42
  freer
• 26:43
  than
• 26:43
  I
• 26:43
  would
• 26:43
  sometimes
• 26:43
  like,
• 26:44
  but,
• 26:44
  you
• 26:45
  know,
• 26:45
  I
• 26:45
  can
• 26:46
  take
• 26:46
  it,
• 26:46
  right?
• 26:46
  Like,
• 26:47
  good
• 26:47
  and
• 26:47
  bad.
• 26:48
  You're
• 26:48
  a
• 26:48
  good,
• 26:49
  but
• 26:49
  you've
• 26:49
  always
• 26:49
  been
• 26:50
  like
• 26:50
  that,
• 26:50
  Trey.
• 26:50
  You've
• 26:51
  always
• 26:51
  been
• 26:51
  able
• 26:51
  to,
• 26:52
  like,
• 26:52
  kind
• 26:52
  of
• 26:52
  deal
• 26:52
  with,
• 26:53
  like,
• 26:53
  what
• 26:54
  people
• 26:54
  say,
• 26:54
  what
• 26:54
  they
• 26:55
  do,
• 26:55
  because
• 26:55
  it
• 26:55
  doesn't
• 26:56
  change
• 26:56
  who
• 26:56
  you
• 26:57
  are.
• 26:57
  You
• 26:57
  still
• 26:58
  do
• 26:58
  what
• 26:58
  you
• 26:58
  do.
• 26:59
  I
• 26:59
  think,
• 26:59
  because
• 27:00
  I
• 27:01
  make
• 27:01
  zero
• 27:02
  apologies
• 27:03
  for
• 27:03
  where
• 27:03
  I
• 27:03
  am
• 27:04
  in
• 27:04
  my
• 27:04
  life,
• 27:05
  and
• 27:05
  I've
• 27:06
  shared
• 27:06
  a
• 27:06
  lot
• 27:06
  of
• 27:06
  what
• 27:07
  I've
• 27:07
  been
• 27:07
  through.
• 27:07
  Not
• 27:08
  everything.
• 27:08
  Not
• 27:08
  everybody
• 27:09
  knows
• 27:09
  every
• 27:09
  intimate
• 27:10
  detail
• 27:10
  about
• 27:11
  my
• 27:11
  personal
• 27:11
  life,
• 27:12
  but
• 27:13
  on
• 27:13
  the
• 27:13
  whole,
• 27:13
  I've
• 27:14
  been
• 27:14
  pretty
• 27:14
  organic,
• 27:15
  and
• 27:17
  I
• 27:17
  maintain
• 27:18
  my
• 27:18
  truth
• 27:19
  on
• 27:20
  my
• 27:20
  social
• 27:20
  platform.
• 27:21
  And
• 27:21
  I
• 27:21
  think
• 27:21
  because
• 27:22
  of
• 27:22
  that,
• 27:23
  I
• 27:23
  don't
• 27:24
  have
• 27:24
  any
• 27:26
  problem
• 27:27
  with,
• 27:28
  you
• 27:28
  know,
• 27:29
  don't
• 27:29
  get
• 27:29
  me
• 27:29
  Wrong.
• 27:29
  Every
• 27:29
  once
• 27:30
  in
• 27:30
  a
• 27:30
  while,
• 27:30
  someone
• 27:30
  will
• 27:30
  say
• 27:31
  something
• 27:31
  like,
• 27:31
  as
• 27:32
  it
• 27:32
  relates
• 27:32
  to
• 27:32
  me
• 27:32
  being
• 27:32
  a
• 27:33
  mother
• 27:33
  or
• 27:33
  my
• 27:33
  children
• 27:34
  or
• 27:34
  something
• 27:34
  like
• 27:34
  that,
• 27:35
  and
• 27:35
  that
• 27:35
  will
• 27:35
  really
• 27:35
  rub
• 27:35
  me
• 27:36
  the
• 27:36
  wrong
• 27:36
  way.
• 27:36
  But
• 27:36
  I
• 27:36
  reset
• 27:37
  and
• 27:37
  I
• 27:38
  remind
• 27:38
  myself.
• 27:39
  The
• 27:39
  82
• 27:40
  women
• 27:40
  that
• 27:40
  came
• 27:40
  to
• 27:41
  my
• 27:41
  defense
• 27:42
  against
• 27:42
  the
• 27:42
  one
• 27:43
  woman
• 27:43
  that
• 27:44
  challenged
• 27:44
  me
• 27:45
  is
• 27:45
  something
• 27:45
  that
• 27:47
  I
• 27:47
  think
• 27:47
  is
• 27:47
  much
• 27:47
  more
• 27:48
  powerful.
• 27:48
  And
• 27:48
  I
• 27:48
  think
• 27:49
  women
• 27:49
  sort
• 27:49
  of
• 27:49
  supporting
• 27:50
  each
• 27:50
  other
• 27:52
  in
• 27:52
  that
• 27:52
  way
• 27:53
  is
• 27:53
  growing,
• 27:54
  and
• 27:54
  I
• 27:54
  think
• 27:55
  it
• 27:55
  takes
• 27:55
  a
• 27:55
  little
• 27:55
  bit
• 27:55
  of
• 27:56
  time.
• 27:56
  And
• 27:56
  I
• 27:56
  think
• 27:56
  we're
• 27:56
  still
• 27:57
  on
• 27:57
  the
• 27:57
  path,
• 27:57
  but
• 28:00
  I
• 28:00
  think
• 28:01
  we
• 28:01
  need
• 28:01
  to
• 28:01
  be
• 28:02
  our
• 28:02
  biggest
• 28:02
  cheerleaders.
• 28:03
  It's
• 28:03
  not
• 28:03
  really
• 28:04
  about
• 28:04
  men.
• 28:05
  Right.
• 28:05
  It
• 28:05
  really
• 28:05
  is
• 28:06
  about
• 28:06
  women.
• 28:06
  And
• 28:06
  that's
• 28:07
  the
• 28:07
  interesting
• 28:07
  thing
• 28:07
  is
• 28:08
  a
• 28:08
  lot
• 28:08
  of
• 28:08
  times
• 28:08
  those
• 28:08
  negative
• 28:09
  comments
• 28:09
  come
• 28:09
  from
• 28:09
  other
• 28:10
  women,
• 28:10
  which
• 28:10
  is
• 28:10
  actually
• 28:11
  surprising
• 28:12
  to
• 28:12
  me.
• 28:12
  I
• 28:12
  mean,
• 28:12
  more
• 28:13
  often
• 28:13
  than
• 28:13
  not,
• 28:13
  I
• 28:13
  talk
• 28:13
  about
• 28:14
  this
• 28:14
  all
• 28:14
  the
• 28:14
  time.
• 28:15
  Again,
• 28:16
  you
• 28:16
  know,
• 28:17
  when
• 28:17
  you
• 28:17
  really
• 28:18
  start
• 28:18
  to
• 28:18
  analyze.
• 28:18
  I
• 28:19
  think
• 28:19
  for
• 28:19
  a
• 28:19
  long
• 28:20
  time,
• 28:20
  my
• 28:20
  following
• 28:21
  was
• 28:21
  predominantly
• 28:22
  women,
• 28:23
  and
• 28:23
  more
• 28:24
  so
• 28:24
  recently,
• 28:25
  it's
• 28:26
  changed
• 28:26
  into
• 28:26
  sort
• 28:27
  of
• 28:27
  a
• 28:27
  50.
• 28:27
  50,
• 28:28
  but,
• 28:28
  well,
• 28:29
  look
• 28:29
  at
• 28:29
  you,
• 28:29
  girl.
• 28:29
  You're
• 28:30
  looking
• 28:30
  hot.
• 28:32
  But
• 28:32
  I
• 28:32
  think
• 28:33
  the
• 28:34
  dynamic
• 28:34
  of
• 28:34
  having
• 28:35
  a
• 28:35
  largely
• 28:35
  female
• 28:36
  following,
• 28:36
  ranging
• 28:37
  from
• 28:37
  really
• 28:38
  like
• 28:39
  18
• 28:39
  to,
• 28:40
  like,
• 28:40
  50
• 28:41
  most.
• 28:42
  My
• 28:42
  biggest
• 28:43
  following
• 28:43
  being
• 28:43
  between
• 28:44
  35
• 28:44
  and
• 28:44
  44.
• 28:47
  These
• 28:48
  women
• 28:48
  are
• 28:50
  kind
• 28:50
  of.
• 28:51
  It's
• 28:51
  kind
• 28:51
  of
• 28:51
  crazy.
• 28:53
  I
• 28:53
  think
• 28:54
  the
• 28:54
  younger
• 28:54
  generations
• 28:55
  of
• 28:55
  women
• 28:55
  that
• 28:56
  follow
• 28:56
  me
• 28:56
  are
• 28:56
  incredibly
• 28:57
  supportive.
• 28:57
  I
• 28:58
  think
• 28:58
  the
• 28:58
  older
• 28:58
  generations
• 28:59
  struggle
• 28:59
  with
• 29:00
  sort
• 29:01
  of
• 29:01
  breaking
• 29:01
  the
• 29:01
  dynamics
• 29:03
  of,
• 29:04
  you
• 29:04
  know,
• 29:05
  generationally
• 29:05
  speaking,
• 29:06
  how
• 29:06
  they
• 29:06
  were
• 29:07
  told
• 29:07
  to
• 29:08
  be
• 29:08
  women,
• 29:09
  shut
• 29:09
  up,
• 29:10
  look
• 29:10
  cute,
• 29:11
  say
• 29:11
  nothing,
• 29:12
  or
• 29:12
  if
• 29:12
  you're
• 29:12
  gonna
• 29:13
  be
• 29:13
  a
• 29:13
  professional,
• 29:13
  be
• 29:14
  professional,
• 29:14
  wear
• 29:15
  a
• 29:15
  suit.
• 29:15
  And
• 29:16
  I
• 29:16
  don't
• 29:16
  define
• 29:17
  any
• 29:17
  of
• 29:17
  those
• 29:18
  things
• 29:19
  on
• 29:19
  any
• 29:19
  level.
• 29:20
  I
• 29:20
  sort
• 29:20
  of
• 29:21
  buck
• 29:21
  the
• 29:21
  system
• 29:21
  everywhere
• 29:22
  I
• 29:22
  can.
• 29:22
  And
• 29:23
  I'll
• 29:23
  continue
• 29:23
  to
• 29:23
  have
• 29:23
  that
• 29:24
  conversation
• 29:24
  until
• 29:25
  I
• 29:26
  see
• 29:26
  that
• 29:26
  there
• 29:26
  is
• 29:26
  not
• 29:27
  a
• 29:27
  comment,
• 29:28
  that
• 29:28
  there
• 29:28
  is
• 29:29
  not
• 29:29
  a
• 29:29
  hater.
• 29:30
  I
• 29:30
  just
• 29:30
  think
• 29:30
  it's
• 29:31
  important.
• 29:31
  Well,
• 29:32
  and
• 29:32
  I
• 29:32
  think
• 29:32
  for
• 29:32
  you,
• 29:32
  too,
• 29:33
  especially
• 29:33
  with
• 29:33
  the
• 29:33
  clothing
• 29:34
  comment,
• 29:34
  I
• 29:34
  saw
• 29:34
  what
• 29:35
  that
• 29:35
  guy
• 29:35
  said
• 29:35
  about,
• 29:35
  like.
• 29:36
  Oh,
• 29:36
  yeah,
• 29:36
  yeah.
• 29:37
  How
• 29:37
  the.
• 29:37
  How
• 29:37
  women
• 29:38
  in
• 29:38
  real
• 29:38
  estate
• 29:38
  should
• 29:39
  be
• 29:39
  dressing
• 29:39
  and
• 29:40
  not
• 29:40
  wearing
• 29:40
  this,
• 29:40
  not
• 29:41
  wearing
• 29:41
  that.
• 29:41
  But
• 29:42
  I
• 29:42
  think
• 29:42
  for
• 29:42
  you,
• 29:42
  too,
• 29:43
  I
• 29:43
  mean,
• 29:43
  you
• 29:43
  are
• 29:43
  a
• 29:44
  fashion
• 29:44
  lover.
• 29:44
  It
• 29:44
  goes
• 29:45
  deep.
• 29:45
  It's
• 29:45
  your
• 29:45
  way
• 29:46
  of
• 29:46
  expressing
• 29:46
  yourself.
• 29:47
  Yeah.
• 29:48
  So,
• 29:48
  I
• 29:48
  mean,
• 29:48
  it's
• 29:48
  almost
• 29:49
  like
• 29:49
  it's.
• 29:49
  It's
• 29:50
  almost
• 29:50
  like
• 29:50
  knocking
• 29:50
  a
• 29:51
  piece
• 29:51
  of,
• 29:51
  like,
• 29:51
  who
• 29:51
  you
• 29:52
  are,
• 29:52
  too,
• 29:53
  just
• 29:53
  internally,
• 29:54
  like,
• 29:54
  naturally.
• 29:55
  Absolutely.
• 29:56
  And
• 29:56
  for
• 29:57
  me,
• 29:57
  I
• 29:57
  don't
• 29:58
  equate
• 29:59
  what
• 29:59
  I
• 30:00
  wear
• 30:01
  with
• 30:01
  the
• 30:01
  success
• 30:02
  that
• 30:02
  I
• 30:02
  have.
• 30:03
  I
• 30:03
  saw
• 30:04
  something
• 30:04
  the
• 30:04
  other
• 30:04
  day
• 30:05
  of
• 30:06
  this
• 30:06
  guy
• 30:07
  on
• 30:08
  Instagram
• 30:08
  talking
• 30:09
  about.
• 30:10
  Actually
• 30:10
  it
• 30:11
  was
• 30:11
  a
• 30:11
  woman
• 30:11
  that
• 30:12
  was
• 30:12
  interviewing
• 30:14
  several
• 30:14
  different
• 30:14
  male
• 30:15
  CEOs
• 30:16
  and
• 30:17
  asking
• 30:17
  them
• 30:18
  questions
• 30:19
  about,
• 30:20
  like,
• 30:21
  You've
• 30:21
  got
• 30:21
  to
• 30:21
  pull
• 30:21
  it
• 30:21
  up.
• 30:22
  Asking
• 30:22
  them
• 30:22
  questions
• 30:24
  that
• 30:24
  women
• 30:24
  that
• 30:25
  she
• 30:25
  had
• 30:25
  interviewed
• 30:26
  had
• 30:26
  been
• 30:26
  asked
• 30:27
  in
• 30:27
  the
• 30:28
  workplace.
• 30:29
  Questions
• 30:29
  like,
• 30:30
  do
• 30:30
  you
• 30:30
  typically
• 30:32
  wear
• 30:32
  outfits
• 30:33
  like
• 30:33
  that
• 30:33
  when
• 30:33
  you
• 30:33
  come
• 30:33
  to
• 30:34
  work?
• 30:34
  And
• 30:34
  they're
• 30:34
  sitting
• 30:34
  in
• 30:35
  an
• 30:35
  interview
• 30:35
  chair
• 30:35
  in
• 30:36
  like
• 30:36
  a
• 30:36
  polo
• 30:36
  shirt
• 30:36
  and
• 30:37
  jeans
• 30:37
  and
• 30:37
  tennis
• 30:37
  shoes.
• 30:38
  And
• 30:39
  you
• 30:39
  start
• 30:39
  to
• 30:39
  see
• 30:40
  as
• 30:40
  they're
• 30:40
  getting
• 30:40
  asked
• 30:41
  these
• 30:41
  questions,
• 30:41
  and
• 30:41
  these
• 30:42
  are
• 30:42
  all
• 30:42
  questions
• 30:43
  being
• 30:43
  asked
• 30:43
  by
• 30:44
  a
• 30:44
  woman
• 30:45
  that
• 30:46
  has
• 30:46
  interviewed
• 30:47
  females
• 30:48
  in
• 30:48
  the
• 30:48
  workplace
• 30:49
  in
• 30:49
  powerful
• 30:50
  positions.
• 30:51
  And
• 30:51
  questions
• 30:52
  they've
• 30:52
  been
• 30:52
  asked
• 30:52
  since
• 30:53
  they've
• 30:53
  been
• 30:53
  in
• 30:54
  the
• 30:54
  workplace.
• 30:55
  And
• 30:56
  you'd
• 30:56
  be
• 30:57
  shocked
• 30:57
  at
• 30:57
  the
• 30:58
  responses
• 30:58
  from
• 30:58
  like,
• 30:59
  they
• 30:59
  interviewed
• 30:59
  like
• 31:00
  four
• 31:00
  or
• 31:00
  five
• 31:01
  different
• 31:01
  male
• 31:02
  CEOs
• 31:02
  from
• 31:02
  like
• 31:03
  different
• 31:03
  tech
• 31:03
  companies,
• 31:04
  et
• 31:04
  cetera,
• 31:04
  like
• 31:05
  major
• 31:05
  players.
• 31:06
  And
• 31:06
  it
• 31:06
  was
• 31:06
  really
• 31:07
  interesting,
• 31:08
  A,
• 31:08
  their
• 31:08
  answers,
• 31:09
  B,
• 31:10
  how
• 31:10
  uncomfortable
• 31:11
  they
• 31:11
  were
• 31:13
  being
• 31:13
  asked
• 31:13
  those
• 31:14
  questions,
• 31:15
  which,
• 31:15
  you
• 31:15
  know,
• 31:15
  we're
• 31:16
  accustomed
• 31:16
  to
• 31:16
  on
• 31:16
  a
• 31:17
  daily
• 31:17
  basis.
• 31:17
  And
• 31:18
  then
• 31:18
  finally
• 31:19
  the
• 31:19
  way
• 31:19
  she
• 31:19
  ended
• 31:20
  the
• 31:20
  interview
• 31:21
  was
• 31:21
  they
• 31:22
  started
• 31:22
  talking
• 31:22
  like,
• 31:24
  if
• 31:25
  my
• 31:25
  daughter
• 31:25
  ever
• 31:26
  had
• 31:26
  to
• 31:26
  like,
• 31:27
  experience
• 31:27
  questions
• 31:28
  like
• 31:28
  that,
• 31:28
  I
• 31:28
  just
• 31:29
  don't
• 31:29
  like,
• 31:29
  it
• 31:30
  makes
• 31:30
  me
• 31:30
  incredibly
• 31:31
  uncomfortable.
• 31:31
  And
• 31:31
  like,
• 31:32
  the.
• 31:32
  How
• 31:33
  they.
• 31:33
  And
• 31:34
  they
• 31:34
  weren't
• 31:34
  like
• 31:34
  narcissists,
• 31:36
  like
• 31:36
  masochists.
• 31:38
  You
• 31:38
  know,
• 31:39
  all
• 31:39
  the
• 31:39
  kiss.
• 31:40
  All
• 31:40
  the
• 31:40
  kiss.
• 31:41
  They
• 31:41
  were
• 31:41
  actually
• 31:42
  like
• 31:42
  decent
• 31:43
  men
• 31:44
  that
• 31:44
  were
• 31:44
  just
• 31:45
  put
• 31:45
  in
• 31:45
  a
• 31:45
  position
• 31:45
  to
• 31:46
  answer
• 31:46
  questions
• 31:46
  that
• 31:46
  we
• 31:46
  as
• 31:47
  women
• 31:47
  typically
• 31:47
  would
• 31:48
  have
• 31:48
  to
• 31:48
  answer
• 31:49
  in
• 31:49
  a
• 31:49
  professional
• 31:49
  setting,
• 31:50
  particularly
• 31:51
  at
• 31:51
  the
• 31:51
  highest
• 31:52
  level.
• 31:53
  And
• 31:53
  it
• 31:53
  was
• 31:54
  incredibly
• 31:56
  fascinating
• 31:57
  to
• 31:57
  watch
• 31:58
  their
• 31:58
  responses
• 31:59
  and
• 31:59
  how
• 32:00
  they
• 32:00
  ultimately
• 32:00
  reacted.
• 32:01
  I'll
• 32:01
  send
• 32:01
  it
• 32:01
  to
• 32:01
  you.
• 32:02
  Yes,
• 32:02
  send
• 32:02
  it
• 32:02
  to
• 32:02
  me.
• 32:03
  It
• 32:03
  definitely
• 32:04
  speaks
• 32:04
  to
• 32:04
  like,
• 32:05
  I
• 32:05
  think
• 32:05
  what
• 32:05
  we
• 32:05
  have
• 32:06
  to
• 32:06
  deal
• 32:06
  with
• 32:06
  and
• 32:07
  the
• 32:07
  things
• 32:07
  that
• 32:07
  we
• 32:07
  have
• 32:08
  to
• 32:08
  navigate,
• 32:08
  particularly
• 32:09
  in
• 32:09
  our
• 32:09
  40s
• 32:10
  as
• 32:10
  we
• 32:10
  become
• 32:10
  more
• 32:10
  successful
• 32:11
  and
• 32:11
  women
• 32:11
  in
• 32:11
  their
• 32:12
  50s
• 32:12
  and
• 32:13
  sort
• 32:13
  of
• 32:13
  coming
• 32:14
  up
• 32:14
  that
• 32:14
  ladder
• 32:15
  of
• 32:16
  entrepreneurial
• 32:16
  growth,
• 32:17
  success,
• 32:18
  transformation
• 32:19
  in
• 32:19
  our,
• 32:19
  in
• 32:19
  our
• 32:19
  businesses.
• 32:20
  And
• 32:20
  I
• 32:21
  just,
• 32:21
  these
• 32:21
  men
• 32:21
  just
• 32:21
  were.
• 32:22
  Like,
• 32:23
  I
• 32:23
  mean,
• 32:23
  to
• 32:23
  walk
• 32:23
  in
• 32:23
  our
• 32:24
  shoes
• 32:24
  for
• 32:24
  a
• 32:24
  day,
• 32:24
  like
• 32:25
  at
• 32:25
  the.
• 32:25
  Office,
• 32:25
  they
• 32:26
  can,
• 32:26
  they
• 32:26
  can't
• 32:26
  walk
• 32:26
  in
• 32:27
  our
• 32:27
  shoes
• 32:27
  for
• 32:27
  a
• 32:27
  day.
• 32:28
  That's
• 32:28
  number
• 32:28
  one.
• 32:28
  Because
• 32:29
  they
• 32:29
  would
• 32:29
  die
• 32:29
  in
• 32:29
  heels.
• 32:29
  No,
• 32:30
  like,
• 32:30
  can
• 32:30
  you
• 32:30
  even
• 32:31
  imagine.
• 32:31
  Yeah,
• 32:31
  like,
• 32:32
  do
• 32:32
  what
• 32:32
  I
• 32:32
  do
• 32:32
  in
• 32:33
  the
• 32:33
  outfit
• 32:33
  I'm
• 32:33
  wearing
• 32:34
  and
• 32:34
  then
• 32:34
  you
• 32:34
  can
• 32:34
  sit
• 32:34
  across
• 32:35
  from
• 32:35
  me
• 32:35
  and
• 32:35
  talk
• 32:35
  shit.
• 32:37
  So,
• 32:37
  you
• 32:37
  know,
• 32:37
  because
• 32:38
  you
• 32:38
  do
• 32:38
  share
• 32:39
  your
• 32:39
  opinions
• 32:39
  freely,
• 32:40
  you're
• 32:40
  very
• 32:40
  opinionated,
• 32:40
  which
• 32:41
  is
• 32:41
  amazing.
• 32:42
  Do
• 32:42
  you
• 32:43
  ever
• 32:43
  worry,
• 32:43
  especially
• 32:44
  like
• 32:44
  in
• 32:44
  a
• 32:44
  male
• 32:45
  dominated
• 32:45
  field
• 32:46
  that
• 32:46
  it
• 32:46
  gets
• 32:47
  taken
• 32:47
  the
• 32:48
  wrong
• 32:48
  way
• 32:48
  or,
• 32:49
  you
• 32:49
  know,
• 32:49
  they
• 32:49
  might
• 32:50
  hold
• 32:50
  it
• 32:50
  against
• 32:50
  you
• 32:50
  or
• 32:51
  it's
• 32:51
  like,
• 32:51
  you
• 32:51
  know,
• 32:52
  all
• 32:52
  ego,
• 32:53
  this,
• 32:53
  that
• 32:53
  whatever
• 32:54
  the
• 32:54
  negative,
• 32:55
  you
• 32:55
  know,
• 32:56
  connotation
• 32:56
  of
• 32:57
  it
• 32:57
  is,
• 32:57
  is
• 32:58
  that
• 32:58
  something
• 32:58
  that
• 32:58
  crosses
• 32:59
  your
• 32:59
  mind
• 32:59
  ever?
• 32:59
  Because
• 32:59
  you're
• 33:00
  always,
• 33:00
  you've
• 33:00
  always
• 33:01
  been
• 33:01
  opinionated.
• 33:02
  I
• 33:02
  mean,
• 33:02
  I
• 33:02
  Never
• 33:02
  have
• 33:03
  seen
• 33:03
  a
• 33:03
  different
• 33:04
  side
• 33:04
  of
• 33:04
  you,
• 33:05
  you
• 33:05
  know,
• 33:05
  but
• 33:06
  does
• 33:06
  that
• 33:06
  ever,
• 33:06
  does
• 33:06
  that
• 33:07
  ever
• 33:07
  like,
• 33:07
  cross
• 33:07
  your
• 33:08
  mind?
• 33:08
  Especially
• 33:08
  in
• 33:08
  like
• 33:09
  a
• 33:09
  workplace
• 33:09
  sort
• 33:10
  of
• 33:10
  setting?
• 33:10
  No,
• 33:11
  not
• 33:11
  anymore.
• 33:12
  That's
• 33:13
  great.
• 33:13
  Maybe
• 33:13
  in
• 33:13
  my
• 33:13
  early
• 33:14
  days.
• 33:15
  I've
• 33:15
  been
• 33:15
  doing
• 33:16
  what
• 33:16
  I've
• 33:16
  been
• 33:16
  doing
• 33:17
  for
• 33:17
  almost
• 33:18
  25
• 33:18
  years.
• 33:19
  I've
• 33:20
  been
• 33:20
  through
• 33:20
  hell
• 33:20
  and
• 33:21
  back.
• 33:21
  I
• 33:21
  experienced
• 33:22
  loss,
• 33:23
  failure,
• 33:24
  success,
• 33:24
  failure
• 33:25
  again.
• 33:25
  I've
• 33:26
  fallen
• 33:26
  on
• 33:26
  my
• 33:26
  face,
• 33:27
  I've
• 33:27
  gotten
• 33:27
  back
• 33:27
  up.
• 33:27
  Like
• 33:28
  at
• 33:28
  this
• 33:28
  point,
• 33:29
  some
• 33:30
  dude
• 33:31
  or
• 33:31
  female
• 33:32
  sitting
• 33:32
  across
• 33:33
  from
• 33:33
  me
• 33:33
  that
• 33:33
  has
• 33:34
  judgment
• 33:34
  for
• 33:34
  me,
• 33:35
  I,
• 33:37
  I
• 33:37
  really
• 33:37
  don't
• 33:37
  give
• 33:38
  a
• 33:38
  shit.
• 33:38
  Candidly,
• 33:39
  I'm
• 33:39
  doing
• 33:40
  me,
• 33:40
  I'm
• 33:41
  on
• 33:41
  my
• 33:41
  path.
• 33:42
  Either
• 33:42
  be
• 33:43
  by
• 33:43
  my
• 33:43
  side
• 33:43
  or
• 33:43
  get
• 33:43
  out
• 33:43
  of
• 33:44
  my
• 33:44
  fucking
• 33:44
  way.
• 33:45
  You
• 33:45
  know
• 33:45
  what
• 33:45
  I
• 33:45
  mean?
• 33:45
  Yeah,
• 33:46
  for
• 33:46
  sure.
• 33:48
  So
• 33:48
  back
• 33:48
  to
• 33:48
  dating.
• 33:51
  Well,
• 33:51
  this
• 33:52
  will
• 33:52
  be
• 33:52
  the
• 33:52
  fun
• 33:52
  part.
• 33:53
  Done
• 33:54
  with
• 33:54
  the
• 33:54
  serious
• 33:54
  shit.
• 33:57
  So.
• 33:57
  Okay.
• 33:58
  Do
• 33:58
  you.
• 33:58
  Because
• 33:59
  obviously
• 33:59
  you're
• 33:59
  a
• 33:59
  high
• 34:00
  powered
• 34:00
  woman,
• 34:00
  you've
• 34:01
  got
• 34:01
  a
• 34:01
  lot
• 34:01
  going
• 34:01
  on.
• 34:03
  Do
• 34:03
  you
• 34:03
  think
• 34:03
  that
• 34:03
  that
• 34:04
  intimidates
• 34:05
  men
• 34:05
  or
• 34:05
  is
• 34:05
  it
• 34:06
  that
• 34:06
  they
• 34:06
  were
• 34:06
  just
• 34:06
  never
• 34:07
  ready
• 34:07
  to
• 34:07
  date
• 34:08
  somebody
• 34:09
  like
• 34:09
  you?
• 34:09
  You
• 34:10
  know,
• 34:10
  I
• 34:10
  have
• 34:11
  so
• 34:11
  many
• 34:11
  opinions.
• 34:12
  And
• 34:12
  I'm
• 34:13
  not
• 34:13
  sure,
• 34:13
  like,
• 34:13
  it
• 34:14
  depends
• 34:14
  on
• 34:14
  the
• 34:14
  day.
• 34:16
  I
• 34:17
  was
• 34:17
  set
• 34:17
  up
• 34:17
  with
• 34:18
  someone
• 34:18
  that
• 34:19
  was
• 34:19
  age
• 34:20
  appropriate.
• 34:22
  This
• 34:22
  fucking
• 34:23
  makes
• 34:23
  me
• 34:23
  laugh
• 34:23
  so
• 34:23
  hard.
• 34:25
  Like
• 34:25
  last
• 34:26
  week.
• 34:27
  Well,
• 34:27
  you
• 34:27
  haven't
• 34:27
  even
• 34:28
  told
• 34:28
  me
• 34:28
  this,
• 34:28
  so
• 34:28
  tell
• 34:28
  me
• 34:28
  what
• 34:29
  happened.
• 34:29
  I
• 34:29
  mean,
• 34:29
  nothing,
• 34:30
  Nothing
• 34:30
  happened.
• 34:30
  Like,
• 34:31
  whatever.
• 34:31
  Like
• 34:32
  handsome,
• 34:33
  like
• 34:34
  fit,
• 34:36
  moderately
• 34:37
  successful,
• 34:40
  charming.
• 34:41
  I
• 34:42
  checked
• 34:43
  a
• 34:43
  few
• 34:43
  boxes,
• 34:43
  I
• 34:44
  was
• 34:44
  like,
• 34:44
  okay,
• 34:44
  this
• 34:45
  is
• 34:45
  like
• 34:45
  lovely.
• 34:46
  Like
• 34:46
  divorced,
• 34:47
  already
• 34:48
  had
• 34:48
  a
• 34:48
  kid.
• 34:49
  And
• 34:49
  I'm
• 34:50
  like,
• 34:50
  oh,
• 34:50
  wow.
• 34:50
  Like,
• 34:50
  I
• 34:51
  don't
• 34:51
  have
• 34:51
  to
• 34:51
  deal
• 34:51
  with
• 34:52
  like
• 34:52
  navigating
• 34:53
  that,
• 34:53
  you
• 34:53
  know,
• 34:54
  whatever.
• 34:54
  Okay,
• 34:54
  this
• 34:54
  is,
• 34:55
  we'll
• 34:55
  see
• 34:55
  how
• 34:56
  it
• 34:56
  goes.
• 34:57
  And
• 34:57
  you
• 34:58
  know,
• 34:58
  again,
• 34:58
  it's
• 34:59
  another
• 34:59
  case
• 34:59
  of
• 35:00
  like
• 35:00
  the
• 35:00
  male
• 35:01
  ego
• 35:01
  after
• 35:02
  their
• 35:02
  first
• 35:02
  marriage
• 35:03
  or
• 35:03
  maybe
• 35:03
  their
• 35:03
  second
• 35:04
  getting
• 35:04
  out
• 35:04
  of
• 35:04
  a
• 35:04
  relationship.
• 35:05
  And
• 35:05
  this
• 35:05
  is,
• 35:06
  this
• 35:06
  is
• 35:06
  very
• 35:06
  specific
• 35:07
  to
• 35:07
  like,
• 35:07
  I
• 35:08
  think
• 35:08
  major
• 35:08
  cities
• 35:10
  like
• 35:11
  la,
• 35:11
  New
• 35:11
  York,
• 35:12
  Miami.
• 35:13
  Like,
• 35:13
  did
• 35:13
  he
• 35:14
  work
• 35:14
  in
• 35:14
  entertainment?
• 35:15
  No.
• 35:15
  Okay,
• 35:16
  that's
• 35:16
  kind
• 35:16
  of
• 35:16
  nice.
• 35:17
  But
• 35:18
  wanting
• 35:19
  to
• 35:19
  date
• 35:20
  someone
• 35:21
  between
• 35:22
  30
• 35:22
  and
• 35:22
  35.
• 35:24
  And
• 35:25
  I'm
• 35:26
  like,
• 35:27
  I
• 35:28
  mean
• 35:28
  a,
• 35:28
  you're
• 35:29
  not
• 35:29
  rich
• 35:29
  enough.
• 35:31
  So
• 35:31
  let's
• 35:31
  start
• 35:32
  there.
• 35:33
  You
• 35:33
  live
• 35:33
  in
• 35:33
  West
• 35:33
  Hollywood.
• 35:34
  Calm
• 35:34
  down.
• 35:35
  No,
• 35:35
  but
• 35:37
  it's
• 35:37
  fascinating
• 35:38
  to
• 35:38
  me
• 35:39
  because
• 35:39
  like,
• 35:39
  I,
• 35:40
  you
• 35:40
  know,
• 35:40
  at
• 35:40
  the
• 35:41
  same
• 35:41
  time
• 35:41
  he's
• 35:42
  saying
• 35:42
  all
• 35:42
  of
• 35:42
  these
• 35:43
  things,
• 35:43
  like,
• 35:43
  I
• 35:43
  really
• 35:43
  think
• 35:44
  that
• 35:44
  like,
• 35:45
  I
• 35:45
  like
• 35:45
  should
• 35:46
  date
• 35:46
  someone
• 35:46
  between
• 35:46
  30
• 35:47
  and
• 35:47
  35.
• 35:47
  And
• 35:48
  you're
• 35:48
  44
• 35:49
  or
• 35:49
  45
• 35:50
  or
• 35:50
  whatever
• 35:51
  he
• 35:51
  was.
• 35:53
  But
• 35:53
  I
• 35:53
  want
• 35:54
  to
• 35:54
  make
• 35:54
  sure
• 35:55
  that
• 35:56
  they
• 35:57
  also
• 35:57
  have
• 35:57
  drive,
• 35:58
  ambition,
• 35:59
  success.
• 36:00
  I
• 36:00
  don't
• 36:01
  want
• 36:01
  a
• 36:01
  woman
• 36:02
  who
• 36:02
  hasn't.
• 36:02
  And
• 36:02
  I'm
• 36:03
  sitting
• 36:03
  across
• 36:03
  from
• 36:03
  him
• 36:04
  going,
• 36:05
  you
• 36:06
  have
• 36:06
  no
• 36:06
  Fucking
• 36:06
  clue
• 36:07
  what
• 36:07
  you
• 36:07
  want.
• 36:08
  You're
• 36:08
  just
• 36:08
  caught
• 36:09
  in
• 36:09
  the
• 36:10
  rat
• 36:10
  race
• 36:10
  of
• 36:11
  feeding
• 36:11
  your
• 36:12
  male
• 36:12
  ego
• 36:13
  and
• 36:15
  landing
• 36:15
  something
• 36:16
  as
• 36:16
  a
• 36:16
  trophy
• 36:17
  versus
• 36:18
  having
• 36:19
  an
• 36:19
  equal
• 36:19
  partner.
• 36:20
  And
• 36:20
  so
• 36:20
  that
• 36:20
  was
• 36:21
  like
• 36:21
  a
• 36:21
  massive
• 36:22
  turnoff
• 36:22
  to
• 36:22
  me.
• 36:23
  I've
• 36:23
  experienced
• 36:23
  that
• 36:24
  more
• 36:24
  times
• 36:24
  than
• 36:24
  I
• 36:24
  can
• 36:25
  count.
• 36:25
  And
• 36:25
  people
• 36:25
  always
• 36:26
  wonder
• 36:26
  or
• 36:26
  ask
• 36:27
  why
• 36:27
  I
• 36:28
  date
• 36:28
  younger.
• 36:29
  And
• 36:29
  it's
• 36:29
  because
• 36:29
  I
• 36:30
  think
• 36:30
  actually
• 36:30
  the
• 36:31
  younger
• 36:31
  men
• 36:31
  that
• 36:32
  I
• 36:32
  have
• 36:33
  dated
• 36:34
  have
• 36:34
  had
• 36:34
  more
• 36:35
  respect
• 36:37
  for
• 36:37
  my
• 36:37
  career,
• 36:38
  what
• 36:39
  I
• 36:39
  do
• 36:41
  and
• 36:41
  candidly
• 36:42
  look
• 36:42
  better.
• 36:43
  And
• 36:44
  I'm
• 36:44
  already
• 36:44
  financially
• 36:45
  independent.
• 36:45
  I
• 36:46
  don't
• 36:46
  need
• 36:46
  a
• 36:46
  man
• 36:46
  to
• 36:47
  take
• 36:47
  care
• 36:47
  of
• 36:47
  me.
• 36:48
  I
• 36:48
  would
• 36:48
  love
• 36:48
  someone
• 36:49
  to
• 36:49
  be
• 36:50
  like
• 36:50
  a
• 36:50
  partner
• 36:51
  and
• 36:51
  take
• 36:51
  care
• 36:51
  of
• 36:51
  me
• 36:53
  and
• 36:53
  be
• 36:53
  an
• 36:54
  equal.
• 36:54
  Would
• 36:55
  it
• 36:55
  be
• 36:55
  nice
• 36:56
  if
• 36:56
  they
• 36:56
  were
• 36:56
  on
• 36:56
  my
• 36:57
  financial
• 36:57
  level?
• 36:58
  Sure.
• 36:59
  But
• 36:59
  more
• 36:59
  importantly,
• 37:00
  if
• 37:00
  they
• 37:00
  can
• 37:00
  deliver
• 37:01
  me
• 37:01
  emotional
• 37:01
  security,
• 37:03
  make
• 37:03
  me
• 37:04
  feel
• 37:04
  safe,
• 37:04
  make
• 37:05
  me
• 37:05
  feel
• 37:05
  protected,
• 37:05
  that's
• 37:06
  far
• 37:06
  more
• 37:06
  interesting
• 37:07
  to
• 37:07
  me.
• 37:07
  And
• 37:07
  most
• 37:08
  of
• 37:08
  the
• 37:08
  time,
• 37:08
  the
• 37:08
  men
• 37:09
  that
• 37:09
  I
• 37:09
  meet
• 37:09
  in
• 37:09
  la,
• 37:10
  particularly
• 37:11
  in
• 37:11
  like
• 37:11
  Beverly,
• 37:12
  like
• 37:12
  this
• 37:12
  town,
• 37:13
  I
• 37:14
  was
• 37:14
  just
• 37:14
  at
• 37:14
  El
• 37:14
  Pastayo
• 37:15
  and
• 37:15
  I
• 37:15
  was
• 37:15
  like,
• 37:15
  there
• 37:15
  was
• 37:15
  a
• 37:16
  table
• 37:16
  full
• 37:16
  of
• 37:16
  men
• 37:16
  and
• 37:17
  I
• 37:17
  got
• 37:17
  up
• 37:17
  to
• 37:17
  go
• 37:17
  to
• 37:17
  the
• 37:17
  bathroom
• 37:18
  and
• 37:18
  my
• 37:18
  mom
• 37:18
  was
• 37:19
  like,
• 37:19
  they
• 37:19
  were
• 37:19
  all
• 37:19
  talking
• 37:20
  about,
• 37:20
  you
• 37:20
  know,
• 37:20
  I'm
• 37:20
  like,
• 37:21
  they
• 37:21
  are
• 37:21
  like
• 37:21
  a
• 37:21
  waste
• 37:22
  of
• 37:22
  space,
• 37:22
  these
• 37:22
  men,
• 37:23
  all
• 37:23
  of
• 37:23
  them
• 37:23
  with
• 37:24
  their
• 37:24
  fancy
• 37:24
  watches
• 37:25
  and
• 37:25
  their
• 37:25
  fancy
• 37:25
  cars
• 37:26
  and
• 37:27
  it's
• 37:27
  all
• 37:27
  very
• 37:27
  like
• 37:28
  showy.
• 37:28
  They
• 37:28
  have
• 37:29
  zero
• 37:29
  substance,
• 37:31
  you
• 37:31
  know.
• 37:31
  Yeah.
• 37:32
  And
• 37:32
  they're
• 37:32
  all
• 37:32
  carbon
• 37:33
  copies
• 37:33
  of
• 37:33
  each
• 37:33
  other.
• 37:34
  And
• 37:34
  by
• 37:34
  the
• 37:34
  way,
• 37:34
  they
• 37:35
  couldn't
• 37:35
  sit
• 37:35
  across
• 37:36
  a
• 37:36
  table
• 37:37
  from
• 37:37
  me
• 37:38
  and
• 37:38
  have
• 37:38
  like
• 37:38
  in
• 37:39
  a
• 37:39
  meaningful
• 37:39
  organic
• 37:40
  conversation
• 37:40
  because
• 37:41
  they're
• 37:41
  so
• 37:41
  used
• 37:41
  to
• 37:41
  dating
• 37:42
  like
• 37:43
  someone
• 37:43
  who's
• 37:44
  just
• 37:44
  kind
• 37:44
  of
• 37:44
  like
• 37:45
  figuring
• 37:45
  their
• 37:45
  lives
• 37:45
  out.
• 37:46
  And
• 37:46
  God
• 37:46
  bless
• 37:46
  these
• 37:47
  girls
• 37:47
  that
• 37:47
  are
• 37:47
  like
• 37:48
  coming
• 37:48
  up
• 37:48
  and
• 37:49
  you
• 37:49
  know,
• 37:49
  getting
• 37:50
  pursued
• 37:50
  by
• 37:51
  men
• 37:51
  that
• 37:51
  are
• 37:52
  in
• 37:52
  their
• 37:52
  40s
• 37:52
  and
• 37:53
  50s
• 37:53
  and
• 37:53
  they're
• 37:54
  28
• 37:54
  to
• 37:54
  32.
• 37:58
  They're
• 37:58
  probably
• 37:58
  at
• 37:59
  the
• 37:59
  same
• 38:00
  emotional
• 38:00
  maturity.
• 38:01
  Right.
• 38:01
  So
• 38:01
  that
• 38:02
  tracks.
• 38:02
  Yeah.
• 38:03
  Like,
• 38:03
  it's
• 38:04
  true.
• 38:04
  It's
• 38:04
  true.
• 38:05
  Because.
• 38:05
  But
• 38:05
  then
• 38:06
  again,
• 38:06
  I
• 38:06
  don't
• 38:07
  want
• 38:07
  to
• 38:07
  date
• 38:08
  someone
• 38:08
  who's
• 38:08
  65
• 38:09
  or
• 38:09
  70.
• 38:10
  Like,
• 38:10
  I
• 38:10
  value
• 38:11
  the
• 38:11
  way
• 38:12
  I
• 38:12
  take
• 38:12
  care
• 38:12
  of
• 38:12
  myself.
• 38:13
  I
• 38:13
  value
• 38:14
  like
• 38:15
  my
• 38:15
  priorities
• 38:16
  and
• 38:16
  wellness
• 38:16
  and
• 38:16
  health
• 38:17
  and
• 38:17
  wanting
• 38:18
  to
• 38:18
  have
• 38:18
  a
• 38:18
  good
• 38:18
  time
• 38:19
  and
• 38:19
  being
• 38:19
  in
• 38:19
  that
• 38:20
  space.
• 38:20
  So,
• 38:20
  like,
• 38:22
  I
• 38:22
  don't
• 38:22
  know,
• 38:22
  maybe
• 38:23
  my
• 38:23
  path
• 38:23
  is
• 38:25
  shorter
• 38:25
  term
• 38:25
  relationships
• 38:26
  with
• 38:26
  someone
• 38:27
  in
• 38:27
  their
• 38:27
  30s.
• 38:28
  And
• 38:28
  you
• 38:29
  know,
• 38:29
  if
• 38:29
  I
• 38:29
  find
• 38:29
  someone
• 38:30
  that
• 38:30
  I
• 38:30
  go
• 38:30
  the
• 38:31
  distance
• 38:31
  with,
• 38:31
  then
• 38:32
  that's
• 38:32
  amazing.
• 38:32
  I
• 38:33
  don't
• 38:33
  think
• 38:33
  they're
• 38:33
  going
• 38:33
  to
• 38:34
  be
• 38:35
  in
• 38:35
  their
• 38:35
  50s
• 38:35
  or
• 38:36
  60s,
• 38:36
  just
• 38:36
  based
• 38:36
  on
• 38:37
  my
• 38:37
  experience.
• 38:37
  Right.
• 38:38
  They're
• 38:38
  also
• 38:38
  kind
• 38:38
  of
• 38:38
  at
• 38:39
  that
• 38:39
  point
• 38:39
  a
• 38:39
  little
• 38:39
  bit
• 38:39
  jaded
• 38:40
  in
• 38:40
  a
• 38:40
  way
• 38:40
  too
• 38:41
  with
• 38:41
  like.
• 38:42
  Yeah,
• 38:42
  you
• 38:42
  know,
• 38:42
  they've
• 38:43
  Lived
• 38:43
  a
• 38:43
  certain
• 38:43
  amount
• 38:44
  of
• 38:44
  life,
• 38:44
  and
• 38:44
  it's
• 38:45
  probably.
• 38:45
  They're
• 38:46
  set
• 38:46
  in
• 38:46
  their
• 38:46
  ways
• 38:46
  a
• 38:46
  bit.
• 38:47
  Right.
• 38:47
  It's
• 38:47
  like,
• 38:48
  they
• 38:48
  don't
• 38:48
  want
• 38:48
  to
• 38:48
  be
• 38:49
  kind
• 38:49
  of
• 38:49
  flexible
• 38:49
  and,
• 38:50
  well,
• 38:50
  they
• 38:50
  certainly.
• 38:51
  Don'T
• 38:51
  want
• 38:51
  to
• 38:51
  answer
• 38:51
  to,
• 38:52
  like,
• 38:52
  an
• 38:52
  equal
• 38:52
  partner.
• 38:53
  Right?
• 38:53
  Correct.
• 38:54
  Because
• 38:54
  they're
• 38:55
  used
• 38:55
  to,
• 38:55
  like,
• 38:55
  you
• 38:56
  know,
• 38:56
  these
• 38:56
  younger
• 38:56
  girls
• 38:57
  that
• 38:57
  they
• 38:57
  can
• 38:57
  kind
• 38:58
  of
• 38:58
  control
• 38:58
  in
• 38:59
  a
• 38:59
  way.
• 38:59
  Yes.
• 38:59
  Like,
• 39:01
  you
• 39:01
  can't
• 39:01
  just
• 39:01
  buy
• 39:02
  me
• 39:02
  with
• 39:02
  a
• 39:02
  Dior
• 39:02
  bag.
• 39:03
  Like,
• 39:04
  you're
• 39:04
  like,
• 39:04
  I
• 39:04
  can
• 39:04
  buy
• 39:05
  my
• 39:05
  own
• 39:05
  honey.
• 39:05
  Well,
• 39:06
  also,
• 39:06
  like,
• 39:06
  I'm
• 39:06
  not
• 39:07
  gonna.
• 39:07
  Like,
• 39:07
  that's
• 39:07
  not
• 39:07
  what
• 39:08
  is
• 39:08
  gonna
• 39:08
  make
• 39:08
  me
• 39:08
  happy.
• 39:09
  Like,
• 39:10
  you
• 39:10
  purchase
• 39:10
  me
• 39:10
  a
• 39:11
  handbag
• 39:11
  and
• 39:11
  you
• 39:11
  think
• 39:11
  that
• 39:12
  that's,
• 39:12
  like,
• 39:12
  the
• 39:12
  way
• 39:12
  to
• 39:12
  my
• 39:12
  heart.
• 39:13
  Like,
• 39:13
  no.
• 39:14
  Be
• 39:14
  emotionally
• 39:15
  available.
• 39:15
  Be
• 39:15
  present.
• 39:16
  Like,
• 39:17
  do
• 39:17
  those
• 39:18
  things
• 39:18
  for
• 39:18
  me,
• 39:19
  and
• 39:19
  then,
• 39:19
  you
• 39:20
  know,
• 39:20
  maybe
• 39:20
  I'll
• 39:20
  show
• 39:20
  up
• 39:20
  and
• 39:21
  I'll
• 39:21
  find
• 39:21
  more
• 39:21
  often
• 39:21
  than
• 39:21
  not.
• 39:21
  But
• 39:22
  most
• 39:22
  men
• 39:22
  in
• 39:22
  their
• 39:22
  late
• 39:23
  40s,
• 39:23
  early
• 39:23
  50s,
• 39:24
  and
• 39:24
  60s,
• 39:24
  like,
• 39:25
  just
• 39:25
  aren't
• 39:26
  that.
• 39:27
  So
• 39:27
  how
• 39:27
  do
• 39:27
  you
• 39:28
  stay
• 39:28
  vulnerable
• 39:28
  when
• 39:29
  you're
• 39:29
  dating?
• 39:29
  You
• 39:30
  don't.
• 39:32
  Can't
• 39:32
  compromise
• 39:33
  that
• 39:33
  power,
• 39:33
  girl.
• 39:35
  I'm
• 39:35
  just
• 39:35
  kidding.
• 39:36
  I
• 39:36
  mean,
• 39:37
  trust
• 39:37
  me.
• 39:37
  Like,
• 39:38
  my
• 39:38
  feed
• 39:39
  is
• 39:39
  filled
• 39:40
  with,
• 39:40
  like,
• 39:41
  Tracy,
• 39:43
  here's
• 39:43
  like.
• 39:44
  It's
• 39:44
  like,
• 39:45
  men
• 39:45
  and,
• 39:46
  like,
• 39:46
  tracy,
• 39:46
  be
• 39:46
  vulnerable.
• 39:47
  You
• 39:48
  know,
• 39:49
  And
• 39:50
  I
• 39:50
  think
• 39:51
  with
• 39:52
  certain
• 39:52
  people,
• 39:52
  I
• 39:52
  am.
• 39:53
  Like,
• 39:53
  there's
• 39:54
  someone
• 39:54
  in
• 39:54
  my
• 39:54
  life
• 39:54
  right
• 39:55
  now
• 39:55
  with
• 39:55
  that
• 39:55
  I'm
• 39:56
  very
• 39:56
  emotionally
• 39:56
  vulnerable
• 39:57
  with
• 39:58
  for
• 39:59
  the
• 40:00
  most
• 40:00
  of
• 40:01
  the
• 40:01
  time.
• 40:03
  But
• 40:03
  I
• 40:03
  feel
• 40:04
  like
• 40:05
  that's
• 40:05
  a
• 40:06
  struggle
• 40:07
  that
• 40:07
  for
• 40:08
  someone
• 40:08
  like
• 40:08
  me
• 40:09
  who's
• 40:09
  been
• 40:10
  financially
• 40:10
  independent
• 40:11
  and
• 40:11
  had,
• 40:11
  you
• 40:12
  know,
• 40:12
  several
• 40:12
  relationships
• 40:13
  post
• 40:13
  divorce
• 40:14
  and
• 40:15
  haven't
• 40:15
  really
• 40:15
  found
• 40:15
  my
• 40:16
  person
• 40:17
  yet,
• 40:17
  but
• 40:17
  have
• 40:18
  had,
• 40:18
  like,
• 40:18
  beautiful
• 40:19
  love,
• 40:20
  just
• 40:20
  not
• 40:21
  everlasting,
• 40:22
  that
• 40:23
  it's
• 40:23
  very
• 40:23
  difficult
• 40:24
  for
• 40:24
  me
• 40:24
  to
• 40:24
  fully
• 40:26
  be
• 40:26
  vulnerable.
• 40:27
  I
• 40:27
  have
• 40:27
  to
• 40:27
  work
• 40:27
  on
• 40:27
  that
• 40:28
  every
• 40:28
  single
• 40:29
  day.
• 40:29
  Like,
• 40:29
  speak
• 40:30
  your
• 40:30
  truth
• 40:31
  if
• 40:31
  you
• 40:31
  want
• 40:32
  it.
• 40:32
  Say
• 40:32
  it
• 40:33
  out
• 40:33
  loud.
• 40:34
  Like,
• 40:34
  don't
• 40:35
  be
• 40:35
  afraid.
• 40:35
  Like,
• 40:36
  you
• 40:36
  failed
• 40:36
  so
• 40:37
  many
• 40:37
  times
• 40:37
  in
• 40:37
  your
• 40:37
  professional
• 40:38
  life.
• 40:38
  Why
• 40:39
  are
• 40:39
  you
• 40:39
  so
• 40:39
  scared
• 40:39
  to
• 40:39
  fail
• 40:40
  again
• 40:40
  in
• 40:40
  your
• 40:40
  love
• 40:40
  life?
• 40:41
  And
• 40:41
  that's
• 40:41
  a
• 40:41
  question
• 40:41
  that
• 40:42
  I
• 40:42
  struggle
• 40:42
  with
• 40:42
  a
• 40:42
  lot,
• 40:43
  you
• 40:43
  know,
• 40:44
  because
• 40:44
  I
• 40:45
  feel
• 40:45
  like
• 40:45
  all
• 40:45
  eyes
• 40:45
  are
• 40:46
  always
• 40:46
  on
• 40:46
  me.
• 40:46
  Like,
• 40:46
  who's
• 40:47
  she
• 40:47
  gonna
• 40:47
  date
• 40:47
  next?
• 40:48
  Like,
• 40:48
  what?
• 40:49
  People
• 40:49
  follow
• 40:49
  my
• 40:49
  love
• 40:50
  life,
• 40:50
  and,
• 40:51
  you
• 40:51
  know,
• 40:51
  this
• 40:52
  town
• 40:52
  is
• 40:52
  small,
• 40:53
  and
• 40:54
  that's
• 40:54
  why
• 40:54
  I'm
• 40:54
  dating
• 40:55
  outside
• 40:55
  of
• 40:55
  the
• 40:55
  country.
• 40:57
  Who
• 40:58
  has
• 40:58
  slid
• 40:58
  into
• 40:58
  your
• 40:58
  DMs
• 40:59
  lately?
• 40:59
  Anybody
• 40:59
  interested?
• 41:00
  Oh,
• 41:00
  man.
• 41:01
  There
• 41:01
  was
• 41:01
  one.
• 41:01
  There
• 41:02
  was
• 41:02
  one
• 41:02
  that
• 41:02
  we
• 41:02
  talked
• 41:02
  about.
• 41:03
  I
• 41:03
  was
• 41:04
  kind
• 41:04
  of
• 41:04
  jealous.
• 41:05
  Which
• 41:05
  one?
• 41:06
  Mark
• 41:06
  Estes.
• 41:07
  Oh,
• 41:07
  God.
• 41:07
  He's
• 41:07
  like,
• 41:08
  12,
• 41:08
  but
• 41:08
  he's
• 41:09
  so
• 41:09
  cute.
• 41:09
  Oh,
• 41:10
  my
• 41:10
  God.
• 41:12
  For
• 41:12
  a
• 41:12
  little
• 41:12
  bit.
• 41:13
  No,
• 41:13
  no.
• 41:14
  He's
• 41:14
  way
• 41:14
  too
• 41:14
  young,
• 41:15
  but
• 41:15
  he's
• 41:15
  super
• 41:16
  Hot.
• 41:16
  He's
• 41:16
  super
• 41:17
  hot.
• 41:17
  That's
• 41:18
  exactly
• 41:18
  it.
• 41:18
  Great
• 41:18
  body.
• 41:19
  Yeah.
• 41:19
  I
• 41:20
  just
• 41:20
  like
• 41:20
  watching
• 41:20
  him
• 41:20
  on
• 41:20
  Instagram
• 41:21
  in
• 41:21
  the
• 41:21
  gym.
• 41:21
  Oh,
• 41:22
  I
• 41:22
  know.
• 41:22
  It's
• 41:23
  good.
• 41:23
  It's
• 41:23
  really
• 41:23
  cute.
• 41:24
  No,
• 41:24
  there's
• 41:25
  things
• 41:25
  in
• 41:25
  my
• 41:25
  DMs
• 41:26
  that
• 41:26
  I
• 41:26
  cannot
• 41:27
  share.
• 41:28
  You
• 41:29
  know,
• 41:29
  when
• 41:29
  you're
• 41:29
  just
• 41:29
  like,
• 41:29
  going.
• 41:30
  Because
• 41:30
  I
• 41:30
  actually
• 41:30
  get
• 41:31
  leads
• 41:31
  there.
• 41:32
  So
• 41:32
  I
• 41:32
  actually
• 41:33
  physically
• 41:33
  go
• 41:33
  through
• 41:34
  all
• 41:34
  of
• 41:35
  my
• 41:35
  DMs,
• 41:36
  from
• 41:36
  requests
• 41:36
  to
• 41:37
  general
• 41:37
  to
• 41:37
  primary.
• 41:38
  And
• 41:38
  so,
• 41:39
  like,
• 41:39
  typically,
• 41:39
  if
• 41:39
  I
• 41:39
  just
• 41:40
  see
• 41:40
  something,
• 41:40
  I'll
• 41:40
  just
• 41:41
  tap,
• 41:41
  tap,
• 41:41
  tap,
• 41:41
  tap
• 41:42
  heart,
• 41:42
  prayer,
• 41:43
  heart,
• 41:43
  prayer,
• 41:44
  heart,
• 41:44
  prayer,
• 41:45
  tap,
• 41:45
  thumbs
• 41:46
  down.
• 41:46
  You
• 41:46
  know,
• 41:46
  it's
• 41:46
  like
• 41:46
  a.
• 41:47
  Keep
• 41:47
  it
• 41:47
  moving
• 41:48
  until
• 41:48
  I
• 41:48
  get
• 41:48
  through
• 41:49
  the
• 41:49
  leads
• 41:49
  or
• 41:50
  someone
• 41:50
  that
• 41:50
  is
• 41:50
  asking
• 41:50
  me
• 41:51
  a
• 41:51
  question
• 41:51
  about
• 41:51
  a
• 41:51
  property,
• 41:51
  etc.
• 41:54
  And
• 41:54
  then
• 41:54
  all
• 41:54
  of
• 41:54
  a
• 41:54
  sudden,
• 41:55
  there's
• 41:55
  a
• 41:55
  photo.
• 41:57
  This.
• 41:57
  I
• 41:57
  remember
• 41:58
  when
• 41:58
  you
• 41:58
  first.
• 41:58
  And
• 41:59
  then
• 41:59
  you.
• 42:00
  It's
• 42:00
  like.
• 42:01
  It's
• 42:01
  like
• 42:01
  it's
• 42:01
  a
• 42:02
  train.
• 42:02
  Train
• 42:04
  crash
• 42:05
  that
• 42:05
  you
• 42:06
  can't
• 42:06
  avoid
• 42:08
  seeing.
• 42:08
  You
• 42:09
  just
• 42:09
  have
• 42:09
  to
• 42:09
  see
• 42:10
  what's
• 42:10
  there,
• 42:10
  what's
• 42:11
  behind
• 42:11
  that
• 42:11
  little
• 42:12
  photo
• 42:12
  thing.
• 42:13
  And
• 42:13
  then
• 42:14
  you
• 42:14
  open
• 42:14
  it,
• 42:14
  and
• 42:15
  then
• 42:15
  they
• 42:15
  know
• 42:15
  you
• 42:15
  opened
• 42:16
  it,
• 42:17
  and
• 42:17
  that's
• 42:17
  like
• 42:17
  the.
• 42:17
  The
• 42:18
  door
• 42:18
  is
• 42:18
  now
• 42:18
  officially
• 42:19
  open
• 42:19
  to
• 42:20
  just.
• 42:20
  And
• 42:21
  then
• 42:21
  you
• 42:21
  have
• 42:21
  to
• 42:21
  block
• 42:22
  or
• 42:22
  you
• 42:22
  have
• 42:22
  to
• 42:22
  threaten
• 42:23
  the
• 42:23
  block.
• 42:24
  Like,
• 42:25
  you
• 42:25
  can't
• 42:25
  put
• 42:25
  the
• 42:26
  toothpaste
• 42:26
  back
• 42:26
  in
• 42:26
  the
• 42:27
  tube
• 42:27
  at
• 42:27
  that
• 42:27
  point.
• 42:28
  And
• 42:28
  you
• 42:28
  know
• 42:28
  what?
• 42:29
  I
• 42:29
  remember
• 42:29
  when
• 42:30
  you
• 42:30
  first
• 42:30
  got
• 42:30
  on
• 42:30
  the
• 42:31
  show
• 42:31
  and
• 42:31
  you
• 42:31
  were
• 42:31
  like,
• 42:32
  look
• 42:32
  at
• 42:32
  these.
• 42:32
  And
• 42:33
  it
• 42:33
  was
• 42:33
  like,
• 42:33
  dick
• 42:33
  pic,
• 42:34
  dick
• 42:34
  pic,
• 42:34
  dick
• 42:34
  pic,
• 42:35
  message,
• 42:35
  dick
• 42:35
  pic,
• 42:35
  dick.
• 42:36
  It
• 42:36
  was
• 42:36
  like.
• 42:37
  It
• 42:37
  was
• 42:37
  just
• 42:38
  like
• 42:38
  an
• 42:38
  onslaught.
• 42:39
  So
• 42:40
  is
• 42:40
  it
• 42:40
  like.
• 42:40
  It's.
• 42:40
  It's
• 42:41
  pretty
• 42:41
  fun?
• 42:41
  Yeah,
• 42:42
  it's
• 42:42
  kind
• 42:42
  of.
• 42:42
  Of
• 42:42
  fun.
• 42:43
  You
• 42:43
  know,
• 42:43
  you're
• 42:44
  driving,
• 42:44
  you're
• 42:45
  in
• 42:45
  a
• 42:45
  doctor's
• 42:45
  office,
• 42:45
  you're
• 42:46
  checking
• 42:46
  your
• 42:46
  messages,
• 42:47
  and,
• 42:47
  like,
• 42:47
  boom.
• 42:48
  Like,
• 42:49
  big,
• 42:49
  hard
• 42:50
  penis
• 42:51
  in
• 42:51
  your
• 42:51
  phone
• 42:51
  of,
• 42:52
  like,
• 42:52
  someone
• 42:52
  in
• 42:53
  the
• 42:53
  middle
• 42:53
  of,
• 42:53
  like,
• 42:53
  Arkansas.
• 42:54
  Yeah,
• 42:55
  yeah,
• 42:55
  yeah.
• 42:55
  You're
• 42:56
  like,
• 42:56
  okay.
• 42:56
  Are
• 42:57
  you
• 42:57
  sitting
• 42:57
  there
• 42:57
  talking
• 42:57
  to
• 42:57
  your
• 42:57
  mom?
• 42:58
  Have
• 42:59
  a
• 42:59
  great
• 42:59
  day,
• 42:59
  Keith.
• 43:00
  Like,
• 43:02
  glad
• 43:03
  my
• 43:03
  real
• 43:03
  estate
• 43:04
  photo
• 43:04
  inspired
• 43:04
  you.
• 43:07
  I
• 43:07
  should
• 43:07
  take
• 43:07
  more
• 43:08
  of
• 43:08
  those.
• 43:10
  I
• 43:10
  mean,
• 43:11
  it's
• 43:11
  too
• 43:11
  good.
• 43:12
  But,
• 43:13
  you
• 43:13
  know,
• 43:13
  like,
• 43:13
  the
• 43:13
  40s
• 43:14
  for
• 43:14
  you,
• 43:14
  I
• 43:15
  feel
• 43:15
  like,
• 43:15
  was
• 43:15
  a
• 43:15
  really.
• 43:17
  It
• 43:18
  was
• 43:18
  a
• 43:18
  big
• 43:18
  decade
• 43:19
  of
• 43:19
  change
• 43:19
  for
• 43:19
  you.
• 43:19
  You
• 43:19
  know,
• 43:20
  you
• 43:20
  got
• 43:20
  divorced.
• 43:21
  Juliet
• 43:22
  and
• 43:22
  Scarlett,
• 43:22
  your
• 43:23
  kids
• 43:23
  became
• 43:23
  of
• 43:23
  age.
• 43:24
  You
• 43:25
  got
• 43:25
  on
• 43:25
  this
• 43:25
  really
• 43:26
  successful
• 43:26
  reality
• 43:27
  show,
• 43:28
  you
• 43:28
  know,
• 43:29
  and
• 43:30
  you
• 43:30
  built,
• 43:30
  like,
• 43:30
  this
• 43:30
  amazing
• 43:31
  business.
• 43:32
  So
• 43:32
  that
• 43:33
  kind
• 43:33
  of
• 43:33
  all
• 43:33
  happened
• 43:34
  in
• 43:34
  the
• 43:34
  span
• 43:34
  of,
• 43:34
  like,
• 43:35
  10.
• 43:35
  Less
• 43:35
  than
• 43:35
  10
• 43:36
  years.
• 43:36
  Really?
• 43:36
  Yeah,
• 43:37
  because
• 43:37
  I
• 43:37
  got
• 43:37
  divorced
• 43:37
  when
• 43:37
  I
• 43:38
  was
• 43:38
  41.
• 43:39
  So
• 43:40
  it's
• 43:40
  been
• 43:40
  eight
• 43:40
  years.
• 43:41
  Has
• 43:41
  it
• 43:41
  already
• 43:41
  been
• 43:42
  eight?
• 43:42
  Yeah,
• 43:42
  I
• 43:42
  got.
• 43:43
  I
• 43:43
  filed
• 43:43
  for
• 43:43
  divorce
• 43:44
  in
• 43:44
  2017.
• 43:45
  I
• 43:45
  was
• 43:45
  divorced
• 43:45
  by
• 43:46
  2018.
• 43:47
  So
• 43:47
  it's.
• 43:47
  Yeah.
• 43:48
  And
• 43:48
  I
• 43:48
  remember
• 43:48
  when
• 43:48
  you
• 43:49
  knew,
• 43:49
  you
• 43:49
  knew
• 43:49
  that
• 43:49
  was
• 43:49
  it,
• 43:50
  like
• 43:50
  when
• 43:50
  you
• 43:50
  made
• 43:50
  that
• 43:51
  decision,
• 43:51
  that
• 43:52
  was
• 43:52
  it.
• 43:52
  You
• 43:52
  were
• 43:53
  like
• 43:53
  ready
• 43:53
  to
• 43:53
  go.
• 43:53
  Yeah.
• 43:55
  But
• 43:56
  I
• 43:56
  mean,
• 43:56
  after
• 43:56
  that,
• 43:57
  you
• 43:57
  know,
• 43:57
  it's
• 43:58
  kind
• 43:58
  of
• 43:58
  like.
• 43:58
  So
• 43:58
  you've
• 43:58
  had
• 43:58
  this
• 43:59
  great,
• 43:59
  you
• 43:59
  know,
• 43:59
  40s,
• 44:00
  up
• 44:00
  and
• 44:00
  down,
• 44:01
  like
• 44:01
  all
• 44:01
  over
• 44:01
  the
• 44:01
  place.
• 44:02
  What
• 44:02
  are
• 44:02
  you
• 44:03
  looking
• 44:03
  forward
• 44:03
  to
• 44:03
  in
• 44:03
  your
• 44:03
  50s?
• 44:04
  Because
• 44:04
  you
• 44:04
  are
• 44:04
  having
• 44:04
  a
• 44:05
  big
• 44:05
  birthday
• 44:05
  in
• 44:06
  August.
• 44:07
  You
• 44:08
  know,
• 44:08
  I
• 44:08
  just,
• 44:08
  I
• 44:08
  do
• 44:09
  want
• 44:09
  to
• 44:09
  find
• 44:09
  like
• 44:10
  love,
• 44:11
  like
• 44:12
  a
• 44:13
  relationship.
• 44:13
  I
• 44:14
  think
• 44:14
  I'm
• 44:14
  better
• 44:14
  and
• 44:14
  I'm
• 44:15
  fun
• 44:15
  as
• 44:16
  hell
• 44:16
  single,
• 44:17
  but
• 44:17
  like,
• 44:17
  maybe
• 44:18
  too
• 44:18
  fun.
• 44:18
  Like
• 44:19
  I,
• 44:20
  Is
• 44:20
  there
• 44:21
  really
• 44:21
  too
• 44:21
  much
• 44:21
  fun?
• 44:22
  I
• 44:22
  tend
• 44:22
  to
• 44:22
  be
• 44:23
  incredibly
• 44:23
  spontaneous
• 44:24
  and
• 44:25
  you
• 44:25
  know,
• 44:26
  my
• 44:26
  life
• 44:26
  right
• 44:27
  now
• 44:27
  is
• 44:27
  my
• 44:27
  girls,
• 44:28
  my
• 44:29
  work
• 44:29
  and
• 44:31
  breaking
• 44:31
  away
• 44:31
  from
• 44:32
  all
• 44:32
  of
• 44:32
  that,
• 44:32
  having
• 44:32
  fun
• 44:32
  with
• 44:33
  friends
• 44:33
  and
• 44:34
  meeting
• 44:34
  people
• 44:34
  and
• 44:34
  traveling.
• 44:35
  Right.
• 44:35
  So
• 44:36
  I
• 44:36
  don't
• 44:36
  have
• 44:36
  an
• 44:37
  ex
• 44:37
  husband
• 44:37
  to
• 44:37
  worry
• 44:37
  about.
• 44:38
  Like
• 44:38
  he's
• 44:38
  all
• 44:39
  good.
• 44:39
  My
• 44:40
  parents
• 44:40
  are
• 44:40
  healthy.
• 44:42
  So
• 44:42
  you
• 44:42
  know,
• 44:43
  those
• 44:43
  are
• 44:44
  the
• 44:44
  three
• 44:44
  things
• 44:44
  that
• 44:44
  I
• 44:45
  spend
• 44:45
  time
• 44:45
  doing.
• 44:46
  And
• 44:46
  so
• 44:46
  when
• 44:46
  I
• 44:46
  have
• 44:46
  the
• 44:47
  time
• 44:47
  to
• 44:47
  have
• 44:47
  fun,
• 44:48
  I
• 44:49
  take
• 44:49
  advantage
• 44:49
  of
• 44:49
  every
• 44:49
  moment
• 44:50
  of
• 44:50
  it.
• 44:50
  And
• 44:50
  fortunately
• 44:52
  for
• 44:52
  me,
• 44:52
  when
• 44:53
  I'm
• 44:53
  single,
• 44:53
  I'm
• 44:54
  a
• 44:54
  good
• 44:54
  time
• 44:54
  and
• 44:54
  people
• 44:55
  like
• 44:55
  to
• 44:55
  invite
• 44:55
  me
• 44:55
  places.
• 44:57
  I
• 44:57
  think
• 44:57
  that
• 44:58
  that
• 44:58
  can
• 44:59
  get
• 44:59
  a
• 44:59
  little
• 45:01
  tiresome
• 45:02
  after
• 45:02
  a
• 45:02
  while
• 45:02
  and
• 45:02
  it's
• 45:03
  much
• 45:03
  more
• 45:03
  fun
• 45:04
  to
• 45:04
  have
• 45:05
  someone
• 45:05
  that
• 45:05
  you
• 45:07
  want
• 45:07
  to
• 45:07
  do
• 45:07
  that
• 45:08
  with,
• 45:09
  you
• 45:09
  know.
• 45:09
  But
• 45:09
  I've
• 45:10
  had
• 45:10
  a
• 45:10
  couple,
• 45:10
  you
• 45:11
  know,
• 45:11
  I
• 45:11
  was
• 45:11
  dating
• 45:12
  someone
• 45:12
  a
• 45:12
  few
• 45:12
  months
• 45:12
  ago,
• 45:13
  which
• 45:13
  will
• 45:14
  go
• 45:14
  unnamed.
• 45:14
  Yes,
• 45:15
  we
• 45:15
  know,
• 45:15
  we
• 45:16
  know.
• 45:17
  And
• 45:18
  you
• 45:18
  know,
• 45:18
  that
• 45:19
  was
• 45:19
  short
• 45:19
  lived.
• 45:19
  It
• 45:19
  was
• 45:20
  a
• 45:20
  few
• 45:20
  months
• 45:21
  and
• 45:22
  I
• 45:22
  realized
• 45:22
  pretty
• 45:22
  quickly
• 45:23
  it
• 45:23
  wasn't
• 45:23
  the
• 45:24
  path
• 45:24
  for
• 45:24
  me.
• 45:24
  But
• 45:27
  I
• 45:27
  would
• 45:27
  like
• 45:27
  someone
• 45:28
  that
• 45:29
  like
• 45:30
  values
• 45:30
  who
• 45:31
  I
• 45:31
  am,
• 45:31
  what
• 45:31
  I
• 45:32
  am,
• 45:33
  doesn't
• 45:34
  want
• 45:34
  me
• 45:34
  to
• 45:34
  change
• 45:35
  or
• 45:35
  morph
• 45:35
  into
• 45:37
  like
• 45:38
  what
• 45:38
  it
• 45:38
  means
• 45:39
  to
• 45:39
  be
• 45:39
  with
• 45:39
  them
• 45:39
  or
• 45:39
  how
• 45:40
  they
• 45:40
  pictured
• 45:41
  me
• 45:41
  to
• 45:41
  be
• 45:42
  in
• 45:42
  the
• 45:43
  couple
• 45:44
  and
• 45:44
  just
• 45:45
  celebrate
• 45:45
  me
• 45:45
  for
• 45:45
  who
• 45:46
  I
• 45:46
  am
• 45:46
  and
• 45:46
  have
• 45:47
  a
• 45:47
  partnership
• 45:47
  with
• 45:48
  someone
• 45:48
  that
• 45:48
  I
• 45:48
  can
• 45:48
  celebrate
• 45:49
  the
• 45:49
  same
• 45:49
  things
• 45:49
  in
• 45:50
  them
• 45:50
  and
• 45:50
  that
• 45:51
  do
• 45:51
  that
• 45:51
  together,
• 45:52
  have
• 45:52
  that
• 45:53
  life
• 45:53
  together,
• 45:55
  celebrate
• 45:55
  each
• 45:55
  other's
• 45:55
  successes
• 45:56
  and
• 45:57
  travel
• 45:58
  and
• 45:58
  have
• 45:58
  fun
• 45:59
  and
• 45:59
  be
• 45:59
  with
• 45:59
  my
• 45:59
  friends.
• 46:01
  And
• 46:01
  that's
• 46:02
  to
• 46:02
  me
• 46:02
  that's
• 46:03
  like
• 46:03
  my
• 46:03
  50s.
• 46:04
  I,
• 46:04
  I
• 46:04
  have
• 46:04
  no
• 46:05
  issue
• 46:06
  turning
• 46:06
  50
• 46:07
  at
• 46:07
  all.
• 46:07
  I've
• 46:07
  never
• 46:08
  felt
• 46:08
  better.
• 46:11
  I
• 46:11
  feel
• 46:11
  great.
• 46:11
  I
• 46:12
  feel
• 46:12
  better
• 46:12
  today
• 46:13
  than
• 46:14
  I
• 46:14
  did
• 46:14
  when
• 46:14
  I
• 46:14
  turned
• 46:14
  40.
• 46:15
  Do
• 46:16
  you?
• 46:16
  100%.
• 46:17
  Why
• 46:17
  do
• 46:17
  you
• 46:17
  think
• 46:18
  just
• 46:18
  where
• 46:18
  you
• 46:18
  are
• 46:18
  in
• 46:18
  life?
• 46:20
  No,
• 46:20
  I
• 46:20
  think
• 46:21
  physically,
• 46:21
  like
• 46:22
  literally
• 46:22
  physically,
• 46:23
  like
• 46:23
  of
• 46:23
  course
• 46:24
  I'm,
• 46:24
  I'm
• 46:24
  more
• 46:24
  successful
• 46:25
  than
• 46:25
  I
• 46:25
  was
• 46:26
  when
• 46:26
  I
• 46:26
  was
• 46:26
  turning
• 46:26
  40.
• 46:27
  I've
• 46:27
  lived
• 46:27
  another
• 46:28
  nine
• 46:28
  years.
• 46:29
  But
• 46:30
  I
• 46:30
  just
• 46:30
  mean
• 46:30
  physically.
• 46:31
  I'm
• 46:31
  in
• 46:31
  the
• 46:31
  best
• 46:31
  shape
• 46:32
  of
• 46:32
  My
• 46:32
  life,
• 46:34
  my
• 46:34
  doctors
• 46:34
  are
• 46:34
  like,
• 46:35
  I
• 46:35
  don't
• 46:35
  know
• 46:36
  what
• 46:36
  the
• 46:36
  hell
• 46:36
  is
• 46:36
  going
• 46:37
  on
• 46:37
  with
• 46:37
  you,
• 46:37
  but,
• 46:38
  like,
• 46:38
  biologically,
• 46:39
  you
• 46:40
  are
• 46:40
  younger
• 46:41
  today
• 46:41
  than
• 46:42
  you
• 46:42
  were
• 46:42
  nine
• 46:42
  years
• 46:42
  ago.
• 46:44
  I
• 46:45
  feel
• 46:45
  great.
• 46:45
  I
• 46:46
  feel
• 46:46
  energized.
• 46:47
  I
• 46:47
  feel
• 46:47
  happy.
• 46:50
  I
• 46:50
  don't
• 46:50
  think
• 46:50
  I
• 46:50
  felt
• 46:51
  that
• 46:51
  when
• 46:51
  I
• 46:51
  was
• 46:51
  turning
• 46:52
  40
• 46:52
  again.
• 46:53
  I
• 46:53
  got
• 46:53
  divorced
• 46:53
  a
• 46:53
  year
• 46:54
  later,
• 46:54
  so
• 46:54
  that
• 46:54
  might
• 46:54
  have
• 46:54
  had
• 46:54
  something
• 46:55
  to
• 46:55
  do
• 46:55
  with
• 46:55
  it.
• 46:56
  But,
• 46:57
  yeah,
• 46:59
  I
• 46:59
  feel
• 46:59
  physically
• 47:00
  my
• 47:00
  best.
• 47:01
  And
• 47:01
  that's
• 47:01
  like,
• 47:02
  for
• 47:02
  me
• 47:02
  and
• 47:02
  I
• 47:03
  think
• 47:03
  such
• 47:03
  an
• 47:03
  inspiration,
• 47:04
  hopefully,
• 47:05
  to
• 47:05
  other
• 47:05
  women.
• 47:06
  You
• 47:06
  know,
• 47:06
  I'm
• 47:07
  49
• 47:07
  years
• 47:07
  old,
• 47:08
  I
• 47:08
  have
• 47:08
  a
• 47:08
  fucking
• 47:09
  six
• 47:09
  pack,
• 47:11
  and
• 47:11
  I
• 47:11
  haven't
• 47:12
  given
• 47:12
  up
• 47:13
  life.
• 47:13
  I
• 47:14
  enjoy
• 47:15
  cocktails,
• 47:15
  I
• 47:16
  eat
• 47:16
  cheeseburgers,
• 47:17
  I
• 47:17
  like,
• 47:18
  you
• 47:19
  know,
• 47:19
  But
• 47:19
  I
• 47:19
  just
• 47:19
  have.
• 47:20
  Whatever
• 47:20
  the
• 47:21
  balance
• 47:21
  is,
• 47:22
  it's
• 47:22
  what's
• 47:23
  working
• 47:23
  for
• 47:23
  me.
• 47:23
  And
• 47:23
  I'm
• 47:24
  not
• 47:24
  saying
• 47:24
  it's
• 47:24
  gonna
• 47:24
  work
• 47:24
  for
• 47:25
  everybody,
• 47:25
  but
• 47:25
  I
• 47:25
  think
• 47:26
  if
• 47:26
  you
• 47:26
  sort
• 47:26
  of
• 47:26
  invest
• 47:27
  in
• 47:27
  yourself
• 47:28
  and
• 47:29
  you
• 47:29
  start
• 47:29
  taking
• 47:29
  actually
• 47:30
  care
• 47:30
  of
• 47:30
  yourself
• 47:31
  instead
• 47:31
  of
• 47:31
  everybody
• 47:31
  else
• 47:32
  first,
• 47:33
  then
• 47:33
  you
• 47:34
  get
• 47:34
  to
• 47:34
  feel
• 47:34
  good.
• 47:34
  And
• 47:35
  when
• 47:35
  you
• 47:35
  feel
• 47:35
  good,
• 47:35
  then
• 47:36
  you
• 47:36
  have
• 47:36
  so
• 47:36
  much
• 47:36
  more
• 47:36
  to
• 47:37
  give
• 47:37
  to
• 47:37
  the
• 47:37
  people
• 47:37
  around
• 47:38
  you.
• 47:39
  So
• 47:39
  how
• 47:39
  is
• 47:40
  like
• 47:40
  the,
• 47:41
  the
• 47:41
  wear
• 47:41
  and
• 47:41
  the
• 47:41
  tear
• 47:42
  of
• 47:42
  the
• 47:42
  body
• 47:42
  in
• 47:42
  this
• 47:43
  midlife
• 47:43
  period
• 47:43
  for
• 47:44
  you?
• 47:44
  I
• 47:44
  mean,
• 47:44
  are
• 47:44
  you
• 47:44
  feeling
• 47:45
  the
• 47:45
  things
• 47:46
  that
• 47:46
  a
• 47:46
  lot
• 47:46
  of
• 47:46
  women
• 47:46
  are
• 47:47
  feeling
• 47:47
  with,
• 47:47
  like,
• 47:47
  perimenopause,
• 47:48
  for
• 47:48
  example?
• 47:49
  No,
• 47:49
  I'm
• 47:50
  on
• 47:50
  testosterone.
• 47:50
  I've
• 47:51
  never
• 47:51
  felt
• 47:51
  better.
• 47:51
  Oh,
• 47:51
  shit,
• 47:52
  girl.
• 47:52
  You
• 47:52
  didn't
• 47:52
  tell
• 47:52
  me
• 47:52
  you
• 47:53
  were
• 47:53
  taking
• 47:53
  testosterone.
• 47:54
  It's
• 47:54
  great,
• 47:55
  right?
• 47:55
  It's
• 47:55
  fantastic.
• 47:56
  Which
• 47:57
  is
• 47:57
  another
• 47:57
  reason
• 47:57
  I
• 47:57
  need
• 47:57
  a
• 47:58
  boyfriend.
• 47:59
  Like,
• 47:59
  I
• 48:00
  gotta
• 48:00
  get
• 48:00
  this
• 48:00
  out.
• 48:02
  It's
• 48:02
  fantastic.
• 48:03
  I
• 48:03
  went
• 48:03
  and
• 48:03
  had
• 48:04
  some
• 48:04
  testing
• 48:05
  done
• 48:05
  probably
• 48:06
  a
• 48:06
  year
• 48:06
  ago,
• 48:08
  and
• 48:08
  my
• 48:08
  testosterone
• 48:09
  levels
• 48:09
  were
• 48:09
  a
• 48:09
  little
• 48:09
  bit
• 48:10
  low.
• 48:12
  And
• 48:13
  a
• 48:13
  girlfriend
• 48:14
  of
• 48:14
  mine,
• 48:14
  Caroline
• 48:14
  Stanberry,
• 48:15
  had
• 48:16
  told
• 48:16
  me
• 48:16
  about
• 48:16
  this
• 48:17
  great
• 48:17
  hormone
• 48:18
  doctor.
• 48:18
  So
• 48:18
  I
• 48:18
  went
• 48:18
  and
• 48:18
  got
• 48:19
  all
• 48:19
  my
• 48:19
  blood
• 48:19
  work
• 48:19
  done.
• 48:19
  And
• 48:19
  he's
• 48:20
  like,
• 48:20
  your
• 48:20
  levels
• 48:20
  are
• 48:20
  a
• 48:20
  little
• 48:21
  bit
• 48:21
  low.
• 48:21
  You
• 48:21
  could
• 48:21
  absolutely
• 48:23
  put
• 48:23
  some
• 48:23
  testosterone
• 48:24
  back
• 48:24
  in
• 48:25
  your
• 48:25
  body.
• 48:25
  Would
• 48:25
  give
• 48:25
  you
• 48:25
  a
• 48:26
  lot
• 48:26
  more
• 48:26
  energy.
• 48:27
  You'll
• 48:27
  be
• 48:27
  great
• 48:27
  in
• 48:28
  the
• 48:28
  gym.
• 48:28
  And
• 48:28
  the
• 48:28
  one
• 48:28
  thing
• 48:28
  he
• 48:29
  said
• 48:29
  to
• 48:29
  me
• 48:29
  was,
• 48:29
  do
• 48:29
  you
• 48:30
  have
• 48:30
  a
• 48:30
  boyfriend?
• 48:30
  And
• 48:30
  I
• 48:31
  was
• 48:31
  like,
• 48:31
  I
• 48:31
  just
• 48:31
  broke
• 48:32
  up
• 48:32
  with
• 48:32
  him.
• 48:32
  Why?
• 48:32
  He's
• 48:33
  like,
• 48:33
  well,
• 48:33
  that's
• 48:33
  going
• 48:33
  to
• 48:33
  be
• 48:34
  a
• 48:34
  problem.
• 48:35
  And
• 48:36
  I
• 48:36
  didn't
• 48:36
  really
• 48:36
  understand
• 48:37
  at
• 48:37
  the
• 48:37
  time
• 48:37
  what
• 48:38
  he
• 48:38
  was
• 48:38
  effectively
• 48:39
  saying
• 48:39
  to
• 48:40
  me.
• 48:41
  And
• 48:41
  he
• 48:41
  was
• 48:42
  like,
• 48:43
  you
• 48:43
  might
• 48:44
  start,
• 48:44
  like,
• 48:44
  looking
• 48:44
  at
• 48:44
  your
• 48:45
  gardener
• 48:45
  in
• 48:45
  a
• 48:45
  sexual
• 48:46
  way.
• 48:46
  And
• 48:47
  I
• 48:47
  was
• 48:47
  like,
• 48:47
  oh,
• 48:47
  my
• 48:47
  God.
• 48:48
  Really?
• 48:49
  Like
• 48:49
  Chris?
• 48:50
  And
• 48:51
  sure
• 48:51
  enough,
• 48:52
  he
• 48:52
  was
• 48:52
  not
• 48:52
  wrong.
• 48:54
  So
• 48:55
  I'm
• 48:55
  embracing
• 48:55
  it.
• 48:56
  It
• 48:56
  made
• 48:56
  my
• 48:56
  workouts
• 48:57
  so
• 48:57
  much
• 48:58
  stronger.
• 48:58
  I
• 48:59
  have
• 49:00
  way
• 49:00
  more
• 49:00
  energy
• 49:01
  than
• 49:01
  I've
• 49:01
  ever,
• 49:03
  like,
• 49:03
  than
• 49:03
  I
• 49:03
  did
• 49:03
  when
• 49:03
  I,
• 49:04
  you
• 49:04
  know,
• 49:04
  A
• 49:04
  year
• 49:04
  ago.
• 49:05
  And
• 49:05
  I
• 49:05
  just,
• 49:05
  I
• 49:06
  feel
• 49:06
  good.
• 49:06
  How
• 49:06
  long
• 49:06
  did
• 49:07
  it
• 49:07
  take
• 49:07
  to
• 49:07
  kick
• 49:07
  in?
• 49:07
  Probably
• 49:08
  like
• 49:08
  a
• 49:08
  month
• 49:08
  or
• 49:08
  two.
• 49:09
  Okay.
• 49:10
  And
• 49:10
  it's
• 49:10
  a
• 49:10
  patch.
• 49:11
  I
• 49:11
  didn't
• 49:12
  do
• 49:12
  a
• 49:12
  patch.
• 49:12
  I
• 49:12
  did
• 49:12
  the
• 49:12
  pellet.
• 49:13
  So
• 49:13
  it's
• 49:13
  a
• 49:13
  good
• 49:13
  thing
• 49:14
  then.
• 49:14
  I
• 49:14
  mean,
• 49:14
  it's
• 49:15
  been
• 49:15
  wonderful.
• 49:16
  Sex
• 49:16
  drive
• 49:16
  is
• 49:16
  up,
• 49:17
  like
• 49:17
  the
• 49:17
  whole
• 49:17
  bit.
• 49:18
  Energy's
• 49:18
  up,
• 49:19
  clarity,
• 49:19
  like,
• 49:20
  I
• 49:20
  feel
• 49:20
  great.
• 49:21
  So
• 49:21
  were
• 49:21
  you
• 49:21
  having
• 49:22
  symptoms
• 49:23
  before
• 49:23
  you
• 49:23
  started
• 49:24
  taking
• 49:24
  it?
• 49:25
  Well,
• 49:25
  my
• 49:25
  testosterone
• 49:26
  levels
• 49:26
  were
• 49:26
  low.
• 49:27
  Yeah.
• 49:28
  Did
• 49:28
  you
• 49:28
  have
• 49:28
  like
• 49:28
  the
• 49:28
  brain
• 49:29
  fog
• 49:29
  or
• 49:29
  anything
• 49:29
  like
• 49:30
  that?
• 49:30
  No,
• 49:30
  I
• 49:30
  don't
• 49:30
  have
• 49:30
  time
• 49:31
  for
• 49:31
  brain
• 49:31
  fog.
• 49:32
  Like,
• 49:33
  I
• 49:33
  don't
• 49:33
  even.
• 49:33
  I
• 49:33
  don't
• 49:34
  even
• 49:34
  have
• 49:34
  time
• 49:34
  to
• 49:34
  process
• 49:35
  that
• 49:35
  I
• 49:35
  have
• 49:35
  brain
• 49:36
  fog.
• 49:37
  You
• 49:38
  know
• 49:38
  me,
• 49:38
  I'm
• 49:38
  up
• 49:38
  at
• 49:39
  6
• 49:39
  o'
• 49:39
  clock
• 49:39
  in
• 49:39
  the
• 49:39
  morning.
• 49:40
  I'm
• 49:40
  in
• 49:40
  the
• 49:40
  gym
• 49:41
  by
• 49:41
  6:30
• 49:42
  or
• 49:42
  7.
• 49:43
  I
• 49:43
  go
• 49:43
  until
• 49:44
  6:30
• 49:45
  or
• 49:45
  7
• 49:45
  every
• 49:45
  night.
• 49:46
  And
• 49:46
  then,
• 49:46
  you
• 49:47
  know,
• 49:47
  so
• 49:48
  I
• 49:48
  never
• 49:48
  even
• 49:49
  like,
• 49:49
  slowed
• 49:50
  down
• 49:50
  long
• 49:50
  enough
• 49:51
  to
• 49:51
  be
• 49:51
  like,
• 49:52
  how
• 49:52
  am
• 49:52
  I
• 49:52
  feeling?
• 49:54
  For
• 49:54
  me,
• 49:55
  I've
• 49:55
  always
• 49:55
  clocked
• 49:55
  my
• 49:56
  sleep.
• 49:56
  Sleep
• 49:56
  is
• 49:57
  crucial
• 49:58
  for
• 49:58
  me.
• 49:59
  And
• 49:59
  so
• 49:59
  I
• 50:00
  notice
• 50:00
  when
• 50:00
  I'm
• 50:00
  sleeping
• 50:01
  less
• 50:01
  than
• 50:01
  seven
• 50:02
  hours,
• 50:03
  that's
• 50:03
  when
• 50:03
  I
• 50:03
  start
• 50:03
  to
• 50:03
  get
• 50:04
  a
• 50:04
  little,
• 50:05
  like,
• 50:05
  agitated,
• 50:05
  easier,
• 50:07
  a
• 50:07
  little
• 50:07
  less
• 50:08
  clear.
• 50:08
  But
• 50:08
  for
• 50:08
  the
• 50:08
  most
• 50:09
  part,
• 50:09
  if
• 50:09
  I'm
• 50:09
  getting
• 50:09
  decent
• 50:10
  sleep
• 50:10
  and
• 50:11
  my
• 50:11
  serotonin
• 50:11
  levels
• 50:12
  are
• 50:12
  on
• 50:12
  point
• 50:12
  and
• 50:12
  I'm
• 50:13
  taking
• 50:13
  care
• 50:13
  of
• 50:13
  myself
• 50:14
  and
• 50:14
  putting
• 50:14
  good
• 50:14
  things
• 50:14
  in
• 50:15
  my
• 50:15
  body
• 50:15
  and
• 50:15
  working
• 50:15
  out,
• 50:16
  I'm.
• 50:17
  I
• 50:17
  feel
• 50:17
  a
• 50:18
  thousand
• 50:18
  percent.
• 50:19
  So
• 50:19
  in
• 50:19
  terms
• 50:19
  of
• 50:20
  symptoms,
• 50:21
  I
• 50:21
  didn't
• 50:21
  have
• 50:22
  symptoms.
• 50:22
  I
• 50:23
  just
• 50:23
  went
• 50:23
  in
• 50:23
  because
• 50:24
  I
• 50:24
  was
• 50:24
  like,
• 50:24
  I'm
• 50:24
  48
• 50:25
  years
• 50:25
  old.
• 50:26
  I
• 50:26
  should
• 50:26
  probably
• 50:26
  like,
• 50:27
  take
• 50:27
  a
• 50:27
  look
• 50:27
  at
• 50:27
  this.
• 50:29
  And
• 50:29
  I
• 50:29
  had
• 50:29
  been
• 50:29
  on
• 50:29
  birth
• 50:30
  control
• 50:30
  up
• 50:31
  until
• 50:31
  that
• 50:31
  point.
• 50:31
  And
• 50:31
  he
• 50:32
  was
• 50:32
  like,
• 50:32
  you
• 50:33
  need
• 50:33
  to
• 50:33
  get
• 50:33
  off
• 50:33
  birth
• 50:33
  control.
• 50:33
  You've
• 50:34
  been
• 50:34
  on
• 50:34
  birth
• 50:34
  control
• 50:34
  for
• 50:35
  like,
• 50:35
  you
• 50:35
  know,
• 50:36
  however
• 50:36
  many
• 50:37
  years,
• 50:37
  20
• 50:37
  something
• 50:37
  year
• 50:38
  more.
• 50:38
  And
• 50:38
  obviously
• 50:39
  I
• 50:39
  got
• 50:39
  off
• 50:39
  when
• 50:39
  I
• 50:39
  was
• 50:39
  having
• 50:40
  kids,
• 50:40
  but
• 50:40
  then
• 50:40
  I
• 50:40
  got
• 50:40
  back
• 50:41
  on
• 50:41
  when
• 50:41
  I
• 50:41
  was
• 50:41
  like,
• 50:41
  and
• 50:42
  we're
• 50:42
  done.
• 50:44
  So
• 50:44
  that's
• 50:45
  kind
• 50:45
  of
• 50:45
  where
• 50:46
  he
• 50:46
  was
• 50:46
  like,
• 50:46
  in
• 50:46
  order
• 50:46
  to
• 50:47
  really
• 50:47
  assess,
• 50:48
  you
• 50:48
  know,
• 50:48
  where
• 50:48
  you
• 50:48
  are,
• 50:49
  we
• 50:49
  need
• 50:49
  to
• 50:49
  get
• 50:49
  you
• 50:49
  off
• 50:50
  birth
• 50:50
  control.
• 50:50
  And
• 50:50
  so
• 50:50
  we
• 50:50
  did
• 50:51
  some
• 50:51
  blood
• 50:51
  work
• 50:51
  and
• 50:51
  that's
• 50:52
  when
• 50:52
  he
• 50:52
  discovered
• 50:52
  I
• 50:52
  was
• 50:53
  lower
• 50:53
  in
• 50:53
  testosterone.
• 50:55
  And,
• 50:56
  you
• 50:56
  know,
• 50:56
  we
• 50:56
  made
• 50:56
  those
• 50:57
  adjustments
• 50:57
  and
• 50:58
  I'm
• 50:59
  taking
• 50:59
  some
• 50:59
  peptides
• 51:00
  as
• 51:00
  well,
• 51:01
  which,
• 51:01
  you
• 51:02
  know,
• 51:02
  have
• 51:02
  been
• 51:03
  great
• 51:03
  for
• 51:03
  like,
• 51:04
  collagen
• 51:04
  and
• 51:05
  just,
• 51:06
  you
• 51:06
  know,
• 51:06
  my
• 51:06
  body
• 51:07
  feeling
• 51:07
  good.
• 51:07
  Your
• 51:07
  skin's
• 51:08
  looking
• 51:08
  on
• 51:08
  point,
• 51:08
  lady.
• 51:09
  Looks
• 51:09
  good.
• 51:10
  Thank
• 51:10
  you.
• 51:10
  Yeah,
• 51:10
  thank
• 51:11
  you.
• 51:11
  I
• 51:11
  mean,
• 51:12
  that's
• 51:12
  skincare
• 51:13
  stuff
• 51:13
  too,
• 51:13
  and
• 51:14
  genetics,
• 51:15
  but
• 51:16
  I'm
• 51:17
  just
• 51:17
  doing
• 51:17
  the
• 51:17
  things
• 51:17
  sort
• 51:18
  of
• 51:18
  preventatively,
• 51:20
  so
• 51:20
  who
• 51:20
  knows
• 51:21
  when,
• 51:22
  you
• 51:22
  know,
• 51:22
  menopause
• 51:22
  comes,
• 51:23
  and
• 51:23
  if
• 51:23
  it.
• 51:24
  When
• 51:24
  it
• 51:24
  does,
• 51:24
  I'm.
• 51:25
  I'll
• 51:25
  be
• 51:25
  battling
• 51:26
  that
• 51:26
  next.
• 51:27
  I
• 51:27
  don't.
• 51:27
  You
• 51:27
  know,
• 51:28
  but
• 51:28
  for
• 51:28
  the
• 51:28
  time
• 51:28
  being,
• 51:29
  this
• 51:29
  is
• 51:29
  where
• 51:29
  I
• 51:29
  am.
• 51:30
  You
• 51:30
  know,
• 51:30
  I
• 51:30
  think
• 51:31
  it's
• 51:31
  really
• 51:31
  important,
• 51:31
  too,
• 51:31
  to
• 51:32
  be
• 51:32
  open
• 51:32
  with,
• 51:32
  like,
• 51:33
  the
• 51:33
  things
• 51:33
  that
• 51:33
  we
• 51:33
  do
• 51:34
  that
• 51:34
  are
• 51:34
  maybe,
• 51:35
  you
• 51:35
  know,
• 51:35
  like,
• 51:35
  I've
• 51:36
  been
• 51:36
  very
• 51:36
  on
• 51:36
  my
• 51:37
  page,
• 51:37
  you
• 51:37
  know,
• 51:37
  I'm
• 51:37
  like,
• 51:38
  I'm
• 51:38
  getting
• 51:38
  Botox.
• 51:39
  You
• 51:39
  know,
• 51:39
  I'm
• 51:39
  doing
• 51:39
  this
• 51:40
  and
• 51:40
  I'm
• 51:40
  doing
• 51:40
  that.
• 51:40
  And
• 51:41
  I
• 51:41
  think
• 51:41
  it's.
• 51:41
  It's
• 51:42
  really
• 51:42
  important
• 51:42
  to
• 51:42
  be
• 51:43
  open
• 51:43
  about
• 51:43
  that
• 51:43
  kind
• 51:44
  of
• 51:44
  stuff.
• 51:44
  And
• 51:44
  I
• 51:44
  know
• 51:44
  you
• 51:45
  are.
• 51:45
  I
• 51:45
  think
• 51:45
  some
• 51:46
  people
• 51:46
  are,
• 51:46
  like,
• 51:46
  very
• 51:47
  protective
• 51:48
  of
• 51:48
  that
• 51:48
  stuff.
• 51:48
  And
• 51:49
  maybe
• 51:49
  I
• 51:49
  get
• 51:49
  why,
• 51:50
  you
• 51:50
  know,
• 51:51
  that's
• 51:51
  just
• 51:51
  never
• 51:51
  been
• 51:51
  who
• 51:52
  I
• 51:52
  am.
• 51:52
  I've
• 51:52
  had
• 51:52
  Botox.
• 51:53
  I've
• 51:53
  had
• 51:53
  filler.
• 51:53
  I
• 51:54
  don't
• 51:54
  get
• 51:54
  Botox.
• 51:54
  I
• 51:54
  actually
• 51:54
  get
• 51:55
  Xeomin,
• 51:55
  because
• 51:55
  Botox
• 51:56
  doesn't
• 51:56
  work
• 51:56
  on
• 51:56
  me
• 51:57
  to
• 51:57
  be
• 51:57
  totally
• 51:58
  transparent,
• 51:59
  and
• 52:00
  that's
• 52:00
  something
• 52:00
  I
• 52:00
  do
• 52:00
  for
• 52:01
  maintenance,
• 52:01
  and
• 52:01
  I've
• 52:01
  done
• 52:01
  it
• 52:02
  for
• 52:02
  10
• 52:02
  years.
• 52:03
  People
• 52:04
  think
• 52:04
  I've
• 52:04
  had
• 52:04
  a
• 52:04
  facelift.
• 52:05
  I
• 52:05
  have
• 52:05
  not.
• 52:06
  You
• 52:06
  know,
• 52:06
  I
• 52:07
  have
• 52:07
  not.
• 52:07
  Thank
• 52:07
  you.
• 52:07
  Yes.
• 52:08
  I
• 52:08
  have
• 52:08
  a
• 52:08
  much
• 52:08
  better
• 52:09
  makeup
• 52:09
  artist
• 52:09
  now
• 52:10
  than
• 52:10
  I
• 52:10
  did
• 52:11
  when
• 52:11
  I
• 52:11
  first
• 52:11
  started
• 52:11
  the
• 52:12
  show.
• 52:12
  And
• 52:12
  maybe
• 52:12
  that's
• 52:12
  why
• 52:13
  you
• 52:13
  see
• 52:13
  the
• 52:13
  difference.
• 52:13
  And
• 52:13
  I'm
• 52:14
  probably
• 52:14
  15
• 52:15
  pounds
• 52:15
  lighter,
• 52:18
  you
• 52:18
  know,
• 52:18
  that's
• 52:19
  the
• 52:19
  difference.
• 52:19
  I
• 52:20
  have
• 52:20
  not
• 52:20
  had
• 52:20
  a
• 52:21
  facelift,
• 52:22
  but
• 52:22
  goddamn
• 52:23
  sure
• 52:23
  you
• 52:23
  guys
• 52:23
  will
• 52:23
  know
• 52:24
  when
• 52:24
  I
• 52:24
  get
• 52:24
  one.
• 52:25
  They'll
• 52:25
  be
• 52:25
  clocking
• 52:26
  it,
• 52:26
  you
• 52:26
  know?
• 52:26
  They
• 52:26
  will.
• 52:27
  I'll
• 52:27
  just
• 52:27
  tell
• 52:27
  ya.
• 52:28
  And
• 52:28
  we'll
• 52:28
  start
• 52:29
  there,
• 52:29
  so.
• 52:29
  And
• 52:30
  we
• 52:30
  don't
• 52:30
  have
• 52:30
  to
• 52:30
  ponder
• 52:31
  on
• 52:31
  it
• 52:31
  anymore.
• 52:32
  It's
• 52:32
  unbelievable.
• 52:33
  They'll
• 52:33
  sit
• 52:34
  there
• 52:34
  and
• 52:34
  they'll
• 52:34
  guess
• 52:34
  all
• 52:35
  day
• 52:35
  long,
• 52:35
  you
• 52:35
  know,
• 52:36
  and
• 52:36
  you're
• 52:36
  like,
• 52:36
  I
• 52:37
  didn't
• 52:37
  fucking
• 52:37
  do
• 52:37
  anything.
• 52:38
  Like,
• 52:38
  come
• 52:38
  on.
• 52:39
  I
• 52:39
  don't
• 52:39
  care.
• 52:40
  They
• 52:40
  just.
• 52:40
  Yeah,
• 52:40
  I
• 52:40
  know.
• 52:41
  You're
• 52:41
  like,
• 52:41
  I
• 52:41
  don't
• 52:42
  have
• 52:42
  time
• 52:42
  for
• 52:42
  that.
• 52:43
  Sorry.
• 52:44
  Okay.
• 52:44
  Regrets?
• 52:45
  Any
• 52:45
  regrets
• 52:46
  from
• 52:46
  your
• 52:46
  40s?
• 52:46
  I
• 52:47
  don't
• 52:47
  believe
• 52:47
  in
• 52:47
  regret.
• 52:48
  I
• 52:49
  think
• 52:49
  it's
• 52:49
  like
• 52:49
  a
• 52:49
  wasted,
• 52:50
  wasted
• 52:51
  emotion.
• 52:51
  I
• 52:51
  think
• 52:52
  it.
• 52:52
  It
• 52:52
  crushes
• 52:53
  like.
• 52:53
  I
• 52:54
  believe
• 52:54
  in
• 52:54
  decisions,
• 52:55
  and
• 52:55
  I
• 52:56
  believe
• 52:56
  sometimes
• 52:56
  you
• 52:56
  make
• 52:57
  wrong
• 52:57
  decisions
• 52:57
  and
• 52:58
  you
• 52:58
  have
• 52:58
  to
• 52:59
  pay
• 52:59
  for
• 52:59
  the
• 52:59
  decisions
• 52:59
  that
• 53:00
  you
• 53:00
  make,
• 53:01
  and
• 53:01
  sometimes
• 53:02
  that
• 53:02
  takes
• 53:02
  you
• 53:02
  down
• 53:02
  a
• 53:02
  path
• 53:02
  that
• 53:03
  you
• 53:03
  don't
• 53:03
  necessarily
• 53:04
  want
• 53:04
  to
• 53:04
  go,
• 53:04
  but
• 53:04
  I
• 53:05
  think
• 53:05
  there's
• 53:05
  also
• 53:05
  recovery
• 53:06
  from
• 53:06
  that.
• 53:07
  And
• 53:07
  I
• 53:07
  think
• 53:07
  there's
• 53:08
  something
• 53:08
  about
• 53:09
  Even
• 53:09
  in
• 53:09
  your
• 53:09
  40s
• 53:10
  or
• 53:10
  50s
• 53:10
  or
• 53:11
  60s
• 53:12
  making
• 53:12
  wrong
• 53:13
  decisions,
• 53:13
  which.
• 53:14
  There's
• 53:14
  something
• 53:14
  about
• 53:15
  our
• 53:15
  youth
• 53:15
  that
• 53:17
  it's
• 53:17
  like,
• 53:18
  you
• 53:18
  don't
• 53:18
  make
• 53:19
  mistakes
• 53:19
  in
• 53:19
  your
• 53:20
  40s.
• 53:20
  You
• 53:20
  make
• 53:20
  them
• 53:20
  in
• 53:21
  your
• 53:21
  teenage
• 53:21
  years
• 53:22
  and
• 53:22
  in
• 53:22
  your
• 53:22
  20s.
• 53:23
  But
• 53:23
  then
• 53:23
  once
• 53:23
  you
• 53:24
  hit
• 53:24
  35,
• 53:25
  you
• 53:25
  have
• 53:25
  your
• 53:25
  shit
• 53:26
  together,
• 53:26
  and
• 53:26
  you're
• 53:26
  not
• 53:26
  supposed
• 53:27
  to
• 53:27
  make
• 53:27
  those
• 53:27
  kinds
• 53:27
  of
• 53:27
  mistakes
• 53:28
  anymore.
• 53:29
  Let's
• 53:30
  advise.
• 53:31
  There
• 53:32
  is
• 53:32
  not
• 53:32
  a
• 53:33
  woman
• 53:33
  that
• 53:33
  I
• 53:34
  know
• 53:34
  that
• 53:34
  is
• 53:34
  in
• 53:35
  her
• 53:35
  40s,
• 53:35
  50s,
• 53:36
  60s,
• 53:36
  or
• 53:36
  my
• 53:36
  mom
• 53:37
  in
• 53:37
  her
• 53:37
  70s
• 53:38
  that
• 53:38
  is
• 53:38
  still
• 53:39
  not
• 53:39
  making
• 53:39
  mistakes
• 53:40
  in
• 53:41
  her
• 53:41
  life
• 53:42
  or
• 53:42
  my
• 53:42
  life
• 53:43
  today.
• 53:44
  And
• 53:44
  I
• 53:44
  think
• 53:45
  we
• 53:45
  have
• 53:45
  to
• 53:46
  live
• 53:46
  through
• 53:46
  those
• 53:46
  decisions
• 53:47
  and
• 53:47
  those
• 53:47
  mistakes
• 53:48
  and
• 53:48
  figure
• 53:48
  out
• 53:48
  a
• 53:48
  way
• 53:48
  to
• 53:49
  navigate
• 53:49
  it
• 53:49
  and
• 53:49
  fall
• 53:49
  down
• 53:50
  and
• 53:50
  get
• 53:50
  back
• 53:50
  up
• 53:50
  again
• 53:51
  and
• 53:51
  recover.
• 53:52
  That's
• 53:52
  what
• 53:52
  makes
• 53:53
  us
• 53:53
  women.
• 53:53
  That's
• 53:53
  what
• 53:54
  makes
• 53:54
  us
• 53:54
  incredibly
• 53:55
  powerful
• 53:55
  and
• 53:55
  strong.
• 53:56
  I
• 53:56
  think
• 53:56
  the
• 53:56
  idea
• 53:57
  that
• 53:57
  we're
• 53:57
  supposed
• 53:58
  to
• 53:58
  kind
• 53:58
  of
• 53:59
  filter
• 53:59
  out
• 53:59
  all
• 54:00
  these
• 54:00
  mistakes
• 54:01
  and
• 54:01
  then
• 54:01
  live
• 54:01
  some
• 54:02
  sort
• 54:02
  of
• 54:02
  path
• 54:03
  that
• 54:03
  is,
• 54:03
  you
• 54:04
  know,
• 54:06
  some
• 54:06
  wonderland,
• 54:07
  I.
• 54:07
  I
• 54:07
  don't
• 54:07
  think
• 54:08
  that
• 54:08
  exists.
• 54:08
  I
• 54:09
  think
• 54:09
  we're
• 54:09
  intended
• 54:10
  to
• 54:10
  stumble.
• 54:11
  I
• 54:11
  think
• 54:11
  we're
• 54:11
  intended
• 54:12
  to
• 54:12
  fall
• 54:12
  in
• 54:12
  love
• 54:12
  multiple
• 54:13
  times.
• 54:13
  I
• 54:13
  think
• 54:14
  we're
• 54:14
  intended
• 54:14
  to
• 54:14
  make
• 54:14
  mistakes
• 54:15
  with
• 54:15
  the
• 54:15
  people
• 54:15
  that
• 54:15
  we
• 54:15
  fall
• 54:16
  in
• 54:16
  love
• 54:16
  with.
• 54:16
  I
• 54:16
  think
• 54:16
  we're
• 54:16
  intended
• 54:17
  to
• 54:17
  screw
• 54:17
  up
• 54:17
  with
• 54:17
  our
• 54:18
  children.
• 54:18
  I
• 54:18
  think
• 54:18
  they're
• 54:19
  intended
• 54:19
  to
• 54:19
  learn
• 54:19
  from
• 54:20
  that,
• 54:20
  and
• 54:20
  so
• 54:20
  are
• 54:20
  we.
• 54:21
  That's
• 54:21
  what
• 54:21
  makes
• 54:22
  us
• 54:22
  better
• 54:23
  people.
• 54:23
  That's
• 54:23
  what
• 54:23
  makes
• 54:24
  our
• 54:24
  children
• 54:25
  better
• 54:25
  people.
• 54:26
  I
• 54:26
  think
• 54:26
  protecting
• 54:27
  people
• 54:28
  from
• 54:28
  that
• 54:28
  and
• 54:29
  showing
• 54:29
  just
• 54:30
  one
• 54:30
  facet
• 54:31
  of
• 54:31
  perfection
• 54:32
  is
• 54:32
  such
• 54:32
  an
• 54:32
  illusion,
• 54:33
  and
• 54:33
  it's
• 54:33
  so
• 54:34
  misleading
• 54:34
  and,
• 54:34
  I
• 54:34
  think,
• 54:35
  damaging.
• 54:35
  Yeah.
• 54:35
  And
• 54:35
  it's
• 54:36
  evolution,
• 54:36
  too.
• 54:36
  You
• 54:37
  have
• 54:37
  to
• 54:37
  keep
• 54:37
  evolving,
• 54:37
  so
• 54:38
  that's
• 54:38
  part
• 54:38
  of
• 54:38
  it.
• 54:39
  So,
• 54:39
  yeah,
• 54:40
  you're
• 54:40
  gonna
• 54:40
  fuck
• 54:40
  up.
• 54:41
  Like,
• 54:41
  you're
• 54:41
  gonna
• 54:41
  keep
• 54:42
  up.
• 54:43
  Yeah,
• 54:43
  you're
• 54:43
  gonna
• 54:43
  keep
• 54:43
  winning,
• 54:44
  too.
• 54:44
  I
• 54:44
  mean,
• 54:45
  that's
• 54:45
  both
• 54:46
  ways.
• 54:46
  That's
• 54:46
  the
• 54:46
  pressure
• 54:47
  of,
• 54:47
  like,
• 54:47
  you
• 54:48
  know,
• 54:48
  something
• 54:48
  you
• 54:48
  and
• 54:49
  I
• 54:49
  were
• 54:49
  talking
• 54:49
  about
• 54:49
  a
• 54:49
  few
• 54:49
  weeks
• 54:50
  ago.
• 54:50
  I
• 54:50
  think
• 54:50
  there's
• 54:51
  this
• 54:51
  idea
• 54:51
  that,
• 54:51
  like,
• 54:52
  you
• 54:52
  know,
• 54:53
  here
• 54:53
  we
• 54:53
  are.
• 54:54
  Like,
• 54:54
  we.
• 54:54
  We're
• 54:55
  supposed
• 54:55
  to
• 54:55
  have
• 54:55
  it
• 54:55
  all
• 54:55
  worked
• 54:56
  out.
• 54:56
  Says
• 54:56
  who?
• 54:57
  Yeah.
• 54:57
  Just
• 54:58
  because
• 54:58
  I'm
• 54:58
  in
• 54:58
  my
• 54:58
  late
• 54:59
  40s,
• 54:59
  I'm
• 55:00
  supposed
• 55:00
  to
• 55:00
  have
• 55:00
  all
• 55:00
  the
• 55:00
  fucking
• 55:01
  answers.
• 55:02
  No,
• 55:02
  I'm
• 55:02
  not.
• 55:03
  Why
• 55:04
  do
• 55:04
  you
• 55:04
  think
• 55:04
  we
• 55:04
  have,
• 55:04
  like,
• 55:05
  a
• 55:05
  girl
• 55:05
  tribe
• 55:06
  to,
• 55:06
  like,
• 55:07
  help
• 55:07
  us
• 55:07
  through
• 55:07
  stuff
• 55:08
  like
• 55:08
  this?
• 55:08
  Like,
• 55:08
  there's
• 55:08
  no
• 55:09
  universe
• 55:09
  and
• 55:10
  where
• 55:10
  we're
• 55:10
  supposed
• 55:11
  to
• 55:11
  have
• 55:11
  it
• 55:11
  all
• 55:11
  figured
• 55:11
  out.
• 55:12
  I
• 55:12
  think
• 55:13
  that
• 55:13
  messaging
• 55:13
  is.
• 55:14
  Is
• 55:14
  not
• 55:14
  only,
• 55:15
  like,
• 55:15
  wrong,
• 55:16
  but
• 55:17
  it's
• 55:17
  damaging
• 55:18
  even
• 55:18
  to
• 55:18
  us,
• 55:19
  because
• 55:19
  there's
• 55:20
  still
• 55:20
  this
• 55:20
  feeling
• 55:21
  of,
• 55:23
  you
• 55:23
  know,
• 55:23
  imposter
• 55:24
  syndrome,
• 55:24
  where
• 55:24
  we're
• 55:25
  supposed
• 55:25
  to
• 55:25
  sort
• 55:25
  of
• 55:25
  think
• 55:26
  that
• 55:26
  we
• 55:26
  have
• 55:26
  it
• 55:26
  all
• 55:26
  together
• 55:27
  and
• 55:27
  it
• 55:27
  doesn't
• 55:28
  give
• 55:28
  us
• 55:28
  permission.
• 55:28
  It
• 55:29
  doesn't
• 55:29
  give
• 55:29
  you
• 55:29
  permission
• 55:30
  to
• 55:30
  pick
• 55:30
  up
• 55:30
  the
• 55:30
  phone
• 55:30
  and
• 55:31
  call
• 55:31
  me
• 55:31
  and
• 55:31
  say,
• 55:31
  I
• 55:31
  don't
• 55:32
  have
• 55:32
  it
• 55:32
  fucking
• 55:32
  together,
• 55:32
  Tracy.
• 55:33
  Like,
• 55:34
  I
• 55:34
  feel
• 55:35
  like
• 55:35
  everything's
• 55:36
  fucking
• 55:36
  crumbling
• 55:37
  and
• 55:38
  I
• 55:38
  need
• 55:39
  to,
• 55:39
  like,
• 55:39
  Vent
• 55:40
  and
• 55:40
  dump
• 55:40
  on
• 55:41
  someone.
• 55:41
  Can
• 55:41
  I
• 55:42
  do
• 55:42
  it?
• 55:42
  Like,
• 55:42
  I
• 55:43
  need
• 55:43
  10
• 55:43
  minutes
• 55:43
  of
• 55:43
  your
• 55:44
  time.
• 55:44
  And
• 55:45
  that
• 55:45
  I
• 55:45
  think
• 55:46
  we
• 55:46
  have
• 55:46
  to
• 55:46
  give
• 55:46
  each
• 55:46
  other
• 55:47
  permission
• 55:47
  to
• 55:47
  do
• 55:47
  more
• 55:48
  often.
• 55:49
  Do
• 55:49
  you
• 55:49
  feel
• 55:49
  imposter
• 55:50
  syndrome?
• 55:52
  You
• 55:52
  know?
• 55:53
  Yeah,
• 55:53
  from
• 55:53
  time
• 55:54
  to
• 55:54
  time.
• 55:54
  Like,
• 55:55
  I
• 55:55
  think
• 55:55
  the
• 55:55
  messaging
• 55:55
  that
• 55:56
  I'm
• 55:56
  this
• 55:56
  boss
• 55:57
  and,
• 55:57
  like,
• 55:57
  you
• 55:58
  know,
• 55:58
  because
• 55:58
  I
• 55:58
  stand
• 55:59
  up
• 55:59
  for
• 55:59
  women
• 55:59
  and
• 55:59
  I
• 56:00
  say
• 56:00
  things
• 56:00
  in
• 56:00
  a
• 56:00
  public
• 56:01
  setting
• 56:01
  in
• 56:01
  one
• 56:02
  facet
• 56:02
  of
• 56:03
  one
• 56:03
  minute
• 56:03
  in
• 56:04
  a
• 56:04
  social
• 56:04
  media
• 56:05
  platform,
• 56:06
  that.
• 56:06
  That
• 56:06
  is
• 56:06
  the
• 56:07
  tonality
• 56:07
  of
• 56:08
  who
• 56:08
  I
• 56:08
  am
• 56:08
  across
• 56:09
  the
• 56:09
  board.
• 56:10
  And
• 56:10
  that
• 56:10
  doesn't.
• 56:11
  It's
• 56:11
  not.
• 56:11
  That's
• 56:12
  not.
• 56:12
  You
• 56:13
  know,
• 56:13
  Instagram
• 56:13
  is
• 56:14
  one.
• 56:14
  One
• 56:15
  tidbit
• 56:16
  of
• 56:17
  me,
• 56:17
  and
• 56:17
  I
• 56:17
  try
• 56:18
  to
• 56:18
  share
• 56:18
  some
• 56:19
  of
• 56:19
  my
• 56:19
  stuff
• 56:19
  on
• 56:19
  stories
• 56:20
  of
• 56:20
  me
• 56:20
  just
• 56:21
  being
• 56:21
  silly
• 56:21
  and
• 56:21
  more
• 56:21
  organic
• 56:22
  so
• 56:22
  that
• 56:22
  you
• 56:22
  can
• 56:23
  see
• 56:23
  different
• 56:23
  facets
• 56:23
  of
• 56:24
  who
• 56:24
  I
• 56:24
  am
• 56:24
  and
• 56:24
  not
• 56:25
  just
• 56:25
  this
• 56:25
  polished
• 56:26
  sort
• 56:26
  of
• 56:27
  version
• 56:28
  of
• 56:28
  myself.
• 56:29
  And
• 56:30
  the
• 56:30
  reality
• 56:31
  is,
• 56:31
  I
• 56:31
  think
• 56:31
  that
• 56:31
  I
• 56:32
  definitely
• 56:33
  have
• 56:33
  those
• 56:33
  moments
• 56:34
  where
• 56:34
  I'm
• 56:34
  like,
• 56:34
  I
• 56:34
  am
• 56:35
  still.
• 56:35
  You
• 56:36
  know,
• 56:36
  everyone's
• 56:36
  like,
• 56:36
  you're
• 56:36
  killing
• 56:37
  it.
• 56:37
  I'm
• 56:37
  like,
• 56:37
  no,
• 56:38
  not
• 56:38
  today.
• 56:39
  I'm
• 56:39
  not.
• 56:39
  Today
• 56:40
  I
• 56:40
  had
• 56:40
  50
• 56:40
  million
• 56:41
  fall
• 56:41
  out
• 56:41
  at
• 56:42
  escrow,
• 56:42
  and
• 56:42
  I
• 56:42
  have
• 56:43
  $100,000amateur
• 56:44
  bill
• 56:45
  to
• 56:45
  pay
• 56:45
  two
• 56:45
  girls
• 56:46
  to
• 56:46
  put
• 56:46
  through
• 56:46
  school,
• 56:47
  One
• 56:47
  that's
• 56:48
  depressed,
• 56:48
  the
• 56:49
  other
• 56:49
  one
• 56:49
  who
• 56:49
  just,
• 56:50
  you
• 56:50
  know,
• 56:50
  has
• 56:50
  a
• 56:51
  new
• 56:51
  boyfriend
• 56:51
  that
• 56:51
  I'm
• 56:52
  trying
• 56:52
  to
• 56:52
  figure
• 56:52
  out
• 56:52
  who
• 56:52
  he
• 56:53
  is.
• 56:53
  You
• 56:53
  know,
• 56:54
  those
• 56:55
  are
• 56:55
  the
• 56:55
  things
• 56:55
  in
• 56:56
  your
• 56:56
  daily
• 56:56
  life
• 56:57
  as
• 56:57
  a
• 56:57
  mom
• 56:57
  and
• 56:58
  as
• 56:58
  a
• 56:58
  woman
• 56:58
  and
• 56:58
  a
• 56:59
  career
• 56:59
  woman
• 56:59
  that,
• 56:59
  like,
• 57:00
  don't
• 57:00
  necessarily
• 57:01
  all
• 57:01
  come
• 57:01
  together.
• 57:01
  And.
• 57:01
  Yeah,
• 57:02
  sometimes
• 57:02
  you
• 57:02
  feel
• 57:03
  like
• 57:03
  when
• 57:03
  you're
• 57:03
  posting
• 57:04
  something
• 57:04
  about
• 57:04
  female
• 57:05
  empowerment
• 57:05
  and
• 57:06
  being
• 57:06
  a
• 57:06
  boss,
• 57:07
  you're
• 57:08
  having
• 57:08
  a
• 57:08
  day
• 57:08
  like
• 57:09
  that.
• 57:09
  You
• 57:10
  feel
• 57:10
  very
• 57:11
  disconnected.
• 57:12
  Yeah.
• 57:12
  I
• 57:12
  mean,
• 57:12
  it's
• 57:13
  up
• 57:13
  and
• 57:13
  down.
• 57:13
  Right.
• 57:14
  But
• 57:14
  why
• 57:14
  can't
• 57:14
  you
• 57:14
  be
• 57:14
  both?
• 57:15
  Yeah,
• 57:15
  why
• 57:15
  can't
• 57:16
  at
• 57:16
  the
• 57:16
  same
• 57:16
  time,
• 57:16
  even?
• 57:17
  So
• 57:17
  I'm
• 57:17
  trying
• 57:17
  to
• 57:17
  talk
• 57:18
  about
• 57:18
  that.
• 57:18
  Yeah,
• 57:18
  yeah.
• 57:19
  No,
• 57:19
  it's
• 57:19
  true.
• 57:19
  It's
• 57:20
  true.
• 57:20
  That'll,
• 57:20
  like.
• 57:20
  I
• 57:21
  think
• 57:21
  that
• 57:21
  will
• 57:21
  help
• 57:21
  women
• 57:22
  kind
• 57:22
  of
• 57:22
  get
• 57:23
  through
• 57:23
  it,
• 57:23
  because
• 57:23
  I
• 57:23
  think
• 57:24
  there
• 57:24
  is,
• 57:24
  like,
• 57:24
  a.
• 57:25
  Like,
• 57:25
  the
• 57:25
  thought
• 57:25
  is
• 57:26
  like,
• 57:26
  oh,
• 57:26
  it's
• 57:26
  black
• 57:26
  and
• 57:26
  white.
• 57:27
  You're
• 57:27
  either
• 57:27
  this
• 57:27
  or
• 57:27
  you're
• 57:28
  that.
• 57:28
  And
• 57:29
  that's
• 57:29
  not
• 57:29
  true.
• 57:29
  You're
• 57:30
  gray.
• 57:30
  There's,
• 57:30
  like,
• 57:31
  going
• 57:31
  on
• 57:31
  over
• 57:32
  here.
• 57:32
  Maybe
• 57:32
  you're
• 57:32
  empowered
• 57:33
  here.
• 57:34
  Maybe
• 57:34
  everything
• 57:34
  is
• 57:35
  falling
• 57:35
  apart
• 57:35
  here.
• 57:35
  And
• 57:36
  it's
• 57:36
  like
• 57:36
  just
• 57:36
  trying
• 57:36
  to
• 57:36
  get
• 57:37
  through
• 57:37
  the
• 57:37
  day.
• 57:37
  It's
• 57:38
  one
• 57:38
  day
• 57:38
  at
• 57:38
  a
• 57:38
  time.
• 57:39
  Right?
• 57:39
  It's
• 57:39
  one
• 57:39
  day
• 57:39
  at
• 57:39
  a
• 57:40
  time.
• 57:40
  So
• 57:40
  what
• 57:40
  do
• 57:41
  you
• 57:41
  say
• 57:41
  to
• 57:41
  those
• 57:41
  women
• 57:41
  out
• 57:42
  there,
• 57:42
  especially
• 57:42
  midlife
• 57:43
  women
• 57:43
  who
• 57:43
  are
• 57:43
  stuck
• 57:44
  or
• 57:44
  feel
• 57:44
  like
• 57:45
  they're
• 57:45
  not
• 57:45
  going
• 57:46
  anywhere
• 57:46
  or
• 57:46
  maybe
• 57:47
  they're
• 57:47
  in
• 57:47
  an
• 57:47
  unhappy
• 57:47
  marriage
• 57:48
  or
• 57:48
  like,
• 57:49
  they're
• 57:49
  not
• 57:49
  in
• 57:49
  business
• 57:50
  where
• 57:50
  they
• 57:50
  want
• 57:50
  to
• 57:50
  be.
• 57:51
  Like,
• 57:51
  how
• 57:51
  do
• 57:51
  people
• 57:51
  become
• 57:52
  unstuck
• 57:53
  and
• 57:53
  not
• 57:53
  lost?
• 57:54
  I
• 57:54
  think
• 57:55
  for
• 57:55
  a
• 57:55
  lot
• 57:56
  of
• 57:56
  us,
• 57:58
  we
• 57:58
  start,
• 57:58
  you
• 57:59
  know,
• 57:59
  life,
• 57:59
  like,
• 58:00
  you
• 58:00
  know,
• 58:00
  in
• 58:00
  your
• 58:01
  40s,
• 58:01
  I
• 58:01
  think.
• 58:01
  And
• 58:02
  I
• 58:02
  don't
• 58:02
  know
• 58:02
  if
• 58:02
  you
• 58:02
  relate
• 58:02
  to
• 58:02
  this
• 58:03
  or
• 58:03
  not,
• 58:03
  but
• 58:03
  I
• 58:03
  feel
• 58:03
  like
• 58:04
  you
• 58:04
  get
• 58:04
  to
• 58:05
  the
• 58:05
  place
• 58:05
  where
• 58:05
  you
• 58:05
  start,
• 58:05
  like,
• 58:06
  looking
• 58:06
  ahead
• 58:06
  and
• 58:07
  looking
• 58:07
  ahead
• 58:07
  and
• 58:08
  what's
• 58:09
  on
• 58:09
  the
• 58:09
  docket
• 58:09
  for
• 58:10
  me
• 58:10
  and
• 58:10
  what's
• 58:10
  gonna
• 58:10
  happen
• 58:11
  next.
• 58:11
  Instead
• 58:11
  of
• 58:12
  living
• 58:13
  presently.
• 58:14
  Like,
• 58:14
  we're
• 58:14
  thinking
• 58:15
  about
• 58:15
  the
• 58:15
  shit
• 58:15
  that's
• 58:16
  happened
• 58:16
  in
• 58:16
  our
• 58:16
  past
• 58:16
  or
• 58:16
  the
• 58:17
  stuff
• 58:17
  that
• 58:17
  may
• 58:17
  or
• 58:17
  may
• 58:18
  not
• 58:18
  happen
• 58:18
  in
• 58:18
  our
• 58:18
  future,
• 58:19
  which
• 58:19
  takes
• 58:20
  us
• 58:20
  out
• 58:20
  of
• 58:20
  where
• 58:20
  we
• 58:20
  are
• 58:21
  in
• 58:21
  the
• 58:21
  exact
• 58:21
  moment.
• 58:22
  And
• 58:22
  I
• 58:22
  feel
• 58:22
  like
• 58:23
  if
• 58:23
  you
• 58:23
  wake
• 58:23
  up
• 58:23
  every
• 58:24
  day
• 58:24
  and
• 58:24
  I
• 58:24
  try
• 58:25
  to
• 58:25
  make
• 58:25
  a
• 58:25
  practice
• 58:25
  of
• 58:26
  this,
• 58:26
  you
• 58:27
  know,
• 58:27
  for
• 58:27
  me
• 58:27
  to
• 58:28
  navigate
• 58:28
  how
• 58:28
  busy
• 58:29
  I
• 58:29
  am,
• 58:30
  but
• 58:30
  it
• 58:30
  also
• 58:30
  helps
• 58:31
  me
• 58:31
  personally.
• 58:32
  One
• 58:33
  day
• 58:33
  at
• 58:33
  a
• 58:33
  time.
• 58:34
  I
• 58:34
  don't
• 58:34
  want
• 58:34
  to
• 58:34
  look
• 58:34
  at
• 58:35
  tomorrow.
• 58:35
  I
• 58:36
  don't
• 58:36
  want
• 58:36
  to
• 58:36
  see
• 58:37
  tomorrow.
• 58:37
  Every
• 58:37
  time
• 58:38
  I
• 58:38
  have
• 58:38
  to
• 58:38
  think,
• 58:38
  like,
• 58:39
  two
• 58:39
  months
• 58:39
  down
• 58:39
  the
• 58:39
  road,
• 58:40
  I
• 58:41
  have
• 58:41
  a
• 58:41
  hard
• 58:41
  time
• 58:41
  saying
• 58:41
  yes
• 58:42
  to
• 58:42
  a
• 58:42
  dinner
• 58:43
  with
• 58:43
  you
• 58:43
  guys
• 58:43
  in
• 58:44
  two
• 58:44
  weeks
• 58:44
  from
• 58:44
  now.
• 58:45
  I
• 58:45
  just
• 58:45
  want
• 58:46
  to
• 58:46
  be
• 58:47
  today.
• 58:48
  Because
• 58:49
  it
• 58:49
  sometimes
• 58:50
  feels
• 58:50
  overwhelming
• 58:51
  to
• 58:51
  think
• 58:52
  too
• 58:52
  far
• 58:52
  into
• 58:52
  the
• 58:53
  future.
• 58:53
  I
• 58:54
  rather
• 58:54
  focus
• 58:54
  on
• 58:54
  my
• 58:54
  happiness
• 58:55
  today
• 58:56
  on
• 58:57
  Friday,
• 58:58
  and
• 58:58
  worry
• 58:59
  about
• 58:59
  what's
• 59:00
  happening
• 59:00
  next
• 59:01
  week.
• 59:01
  Next
• 59:01
  week.
• 59:02
  And
• 59:02
  that
• 59:02
  makes
• 59:02
  it
• 59:03
  a
• 59:03
  little
• 59:03
  bit
• 59:03
  more
• 59:04
  tolerable,
• 59:05
  a
• 59:05
  little
• 59:05
  bit
• 59:06
  more
• 59:06
  in
• 59:06
  the
• 59:06
  moment,
• 59:07
  and
• 59:07
  a
• 59:07
  little
• 59:07
  bit,
• 59:08
  you
• 59:08
  know,
• 59:09
  you're
• 59:09
  able
• 59:09
  to
• 59:09
  be
• 59:09
  present
• 59:10
  with
• 59:10
  the
• 59:10
  people
• 59:10
  that
• 59:11
  you're
• 59:11
  with
• 59:12
  and
• 59:13
  sort
• 59:13
  of
• 59:14
  get
• 59:14
  rid
• 59:14
  of
• 59:15
  all
• 59:15
  the
• 59:15
  other
• 59:15
  stuff
• 59:15
  that's
• 59:16
  happening
• 59:16
  around
• 59:16
  you,
• 59:17
  you
• 59:17
  know.
• 59:18
  I
• 59:18
  think
• 59:18
  it's
• 59:18
  really
• 59:18
  important
• 59:18
  also.
• 59:19
  I
• 59:19
  totally
• 59:19
  agree
• 59:20
  with
• 59:20
  that.
• 59:20
  But
• 59:20
  also
• 59:20
  to,
• 59:21
  like,
• 59:21
  let
• 59:21
  go
• 59:21
  of
• 59:21
  these
• 59:22
  timelines
• 59:22
  that
• 59:22
  we
• 59:22
  have
• 59:22
  in
• 59:23
  our
• 59:23
  head,
• 59:23
  you
• 59:23
  know,
• 59:23
  like,
• 59:24
  by
• 59:24
  50,
• 59:25
  I
• 59:25
  need
• 59:25
  to
• 59:25
  have
• 59:26
  this
• 59:26
  and
• 59:26
  this
• 59:26
  and
• 59:26
  this
• 59:26
  and
• 59:27
  that,
• 59:27
  you
• 59:27
  know,
• 59:27
  or
• 59:27
  I
• 59:28
  should
• 59:28
  be
• 59:28
  here
• 59:28
  in
• 59:28
  my
• 59:28
  career
• 59:29
  or
• 59:29
  here
• 59:29
  in
• 59:29
  my
• 59:30
  relationship
• 59:30
  and
• 59:30
  this
• 59:31
  and
• 59:31
  that,
• 59:31
  you
• 59:31
  know,
• 59:31
  and
• 59:31
  it's
• 59:32
  really.
• 59:32
  I
• 59:32
  think
• 59:33
  a
• 59:33
  lot
• 59:33
  of
• 59:33
  women
• 59:33
  get
• 59:33
  caught
• 59:34
  up
• 59:34
  in
• 59:34
  that.
• 59:34
  You
• 59:34
  know,
• 59:35
  that's
• 59:35
  a
• 59:36
  messaging
• 59:36
  we've
• 59:36
  been
• 59:36
  given.
• 59:37
  And
• 59:37
  by
• 59:37
  the
• 59:37
  way,
• 59:37
  even
• 59:38
  for
• 59:38
  men,
• 59:38
  it's
• 59:39
  the
• 59:39
  messaging
• 59:39
  we've
• 59:40
  all
• 59:40
  been
• 59:40
  given
• 59:41
  since
• 59:41
  we
• 59:42
  were
• 59:42
  born
• 59:43
  that's
• 59:44
  been
• 59:44
  programmed
• 59:45
  for
• 59:45
  so
• 59:45
  long
• 59:46
  that
• 59:46
  to
• 59:46
  undo
• 59:47
  that
• 59:47
  is
• 59:48
  daily
• 59:49
  work.
• 59:50
  So
• 59:50
  how
• 59:50
  do
• 59:50
  you
• 59:50
  do
• 59:51
  that?
• 59:51
  What
• 59:51
  is
• 59:51
  the
• 59:51
  daily
• 59:52
  work?
• 59:53
  Don't
• 59:53
  fucking
• 59:53
  look
• 59:53
  at
• 59:53
  tomorrow.
• 59:54
  Like,
• 59:55
  I
• 59:55
  really,
• 59:56
  really,
• 59:56
  truly
• 59:57
  won't
• 59:57
  even
• 59:58
  look
• 59:58
  at
• 59:58
  my
• 59:58
  calendar
• 1:00:00
  for
• 1:00:00
  Tuesday
• 1:00:01
  when
• 1:00:01
  I
• 1:00:01
  am
• 1:00:01
  in
• 1:00:02
  Monday
• 1:00:02
  because
• 1:00:03
  it's
• 1:00:03
  too
• 1:00:03
  overwhelming
• 1:00:04
  to
• 1:00:04
  me.
• 1:00:04
  If
• 1:00:05
  I
• 1:00:05
  look
• 1:00:05
  at,
• 1:00:05
  like,
• 1:00:05
  the
• 1:00:06
  98
• 1:00:06
  things
• 1:00:06
  that
• 1:00:07
  I
• 1:00:07
  have
• 1:00:07
  to
• 1:00:07
  do
• 1:00:07
  on
• 1:00:07
  Tuesday.
• 1:00:08
  Then
• 1:00:09
  I
• 1:00:09
  start
• 1:00:09
  tripping
• 1:00:10
  and
• 1:00:10
  I
• 1:00:10
  start
• 1:00:11
  analyzing
• 1:00:12
  what
• 1:00:12
  that
• 1:00:13
  day
• 1:00:13
  is
• 1:00:13
  going
• 1:00:13
  to
• 1:00:13
  look
• 1:00:13
  like
• 1:00:14
  instead
• 1:00:14
  of
• 1:00:14
  being
• 1:00:14
  present
• 1:00:14
  in
• 1:00:15
  the
• 1:00:15
  day
• 1:00:15
  that
• 1:00:15
  I
• 1:00:15
  am
• 1:00:16
  currently
• 1:00:16
  in.
• 1:00:17
  And
• 1:00:17
  again,
• 1:00:17
  yes,
• 1:00:18
  I'm
• 1:00:18
  talking
• 1:00:18
  more
• 1:00:19
  about
• 1:00:20
  my
• 1:00:20
  career
• 1:00:21
  and
• 1:00:22
  what
• 1:00:23
  I'm
• 1:00:23
  trying
• 1:00:23
  to
• 1:00:23
  achieve
• 1:00:24
  in
• 1:00:24
  my
• 1:00:26
  entrepreneurial
• 1:00:27
  self,
• 1:00:28
  but
• 1:00:28
  really
• 1:00:29
  can
• 1:00:29
  apply
• 1:00:30
  very
• 1:00:30
  much
• 1:00:31
  to
• 1:00:31
  my
• 1:00:32
  personal
• 1:00:32
  life
• 1:00:32
  as
• 1:00:33
  well.
• 1:00:33
  And
• 1:00:34
  whatever
• 1:00:34
  people
• 1:00:35
  come
• 1:00:35
  into
• 1:00:35
  my
• 1:00:35
  life
• 1:00:35
  in
• 1:00:36
  the
• 1:00:36
  day
• 1:00:36
  that
• 1:00:36
  I
• 1:00:37
  am
• 1:00:37
  currently
• 1:00:37
  living
• 1:00:37
  are
• 1:00:38
  the
• 1:00:38
  people
• 1:00:38
  that
• 1:00:38
  I
• 1:00:38
  am
• 1:00:38
  going
• 1:00:39
  to
• 1:00:39
  embrace.
• 1:00:41
  And
• 1:00:42
  that's.
• 1:00:43
  That's
• 1:00:43
  the
• 1:00:43
  only
• 1:00:43
  thing
• 1:00:44
  that
• 1:00:44
  I'm
• 1:00:45
  not
• 1:00:45
  a
• 1:00:45
  doctor.
• 1:00:46
  I
• 1:00:46
  don't
• 1:00:46
  fucking
• 1:00:47
  know.
• 1:00:47
  All
• 1:00:48
  I
• 1:00:48
  know
• 1:00:48
  is
• 1:00:49
  that
• 1:00:49
  that's
• 1:00:50
  what
• 1:00:50
  makes
• 1:00:50
  me
• 1:00:50
  feel
• 1:00:51
  less
• 1:00:52
  angst
• 1:00:53
  and
• 1:00:54
  less
• 1:00:55
  overwhelmed
• 1:00:56
  with
• 1:00:56
  what's
• 1:00:57
  next
• 1:00:57
  is
• 1:00:57
  just
• 1:00:58
  living
• 1:00:58
  today.
• 1:00:59
  What
• 1:00:59
  are
• 1:00:59
  three
• 1:00:59
  things
• 1:00:59
  that
• 1:00:59
  women
• 1:01:00
  can
• 1:01:00
  do
• 1:01:00
  like
• 1:01:00
  today
• 1:01:01
  to
• 1:01:01
  feel
• 1:01:01
  more
• 1:01:01
  powerful?
• 1:01:02
  You
• 1:01:02
  think?
• 1:01:03
  Like
• 1:01:03
  three
• 1:01:03
  actionable
• 1:01:04
  things
• 1:01:04
  like
• 1:01:05
  our
• 1:01:05
  listeners
• 1:01:05
  right
• 1:01:06
  now
• 1:01:06
  could
• 1:01:06
  do?
• 1:01:07
  Take
• 1:01:07
  care
• 1:01:07
  of
• 1:01:07
  yourself
• 1:01:08
  first.
• 1:01:09
  I
• 1:01:09
  don't
• 1:01:09
  think
• 1:01:09
  women
• 1:01:10
  do
• 1:01:10
  that.
• 1:01:11
  I
• 1:01:11
  think
• 1:01:11
  women
• 1:01:11
  take
• 1:01:12
  care
• 1:01:12
  of.
• 1:01:12
  We're
• 1:01:12
  caretakers.
• 1:01:13
  We're
• 1:01:13
  nurturers
• 1:01:14
  by
• 1:01:14
  nature.
• 1:01:17
  We
• 1:01:17
  feel
• 1:01:18
  selfish
• 1:01:19
  when
• 1:01:19
  we
• 1:01:19
  take
• 1:01:19
  care
• 1:01:19
  of
• 1:01:20
  ourself
• 1:01:20
  first.
• 1:01:21
  Let
• 1:01:21
  me
• 1:01:21
  tell
• 1:01:21
  you
• 1:01:22
  something.
• 1:01:22
  When
• 1:01:22
  you
• 1:01:22
  hit
• 1:01:23
  the
• 1:01:23
  end
• 1:01:23
  of
• 1:01:23
  the
• 1:01:23
  road
• 1:01:24
  and
• 1:01:24
  you
• 1:01:25
  realize
• 1:01:25
  that
• 1:01:25
  you
• 1:01:25
  haven't
• 1:01:26
  taken
• 1:01:26
  care
• 1:01:26
  of
• 1:01:26
  yourself,
• 1:01:27
  not
• 1:01:27
  only
• 1:01:27
  are
• 1:01:27
  you
• 1:01:29
  mirroring
• 1:01:30
  for
• 1:01:30
  your
• 1:01:30
  children
• 1:01:31
  what
• 1:01:31
  you
• 1:01:32
  don't
• 1:01:32
  want
• 1:01:32
  them
• 1:01:32
  to
• 1:01:32
  do,
• 1:01:33
  which
• 1:01:33
  is
• 1:01:34
  your
• 1:01:34
  messaging
• 1:01:34
  to
• 1:01:34
  them,
• 1:01:35
  is
• 1:01:35
  you
• 1:01:35
  come
• 1:01:35
  first.
• 1:01:36
  You're
• 1:01:36
  raising
• 1:01:36
  these
• 1:01:36
  little
• 1:01:37
  women.
• 1:01:38
  You
• 1:01:38
  take
• 1:01:38
  care
• 1:01:38
  of
• 1:01:39
  you
• 1:01:39
  first.
• 1:01:39
  You're
• 1:01:40
  the
• 1:01:40
  most
• 1:01:40
  important
• 1:01:41
  person
• 1:01:41
  in
• 1:01:41
  your
• 1:01:41
  life.
• 1:01:42
  Your
• 1:01:42
  self
• 1:01:43
  confidence,
• 1:01:43
  your
• 1:01:44
  sense
• 1:01:44
  of
• 1:01:44
  self,
• 1:01:45
  all
• 1:01:45
  of
• 1:01:45
  those
• 1:01:45
  things
• 1:01:45
  are
• 1:01:46
  the
• 1:01:46
  things
• 1:01:46
  I
• 1:01:46
  want.
• 1:01:46
  But
• 1:01:46
  I'm
• 1:01:47
  gonna
• 1:01:47
  mirror
• 1:01:47
  something
• 1:01:47
  else.
• 1:01:48
  I'm
• 1:01:49
  gonna
• 1:01:49
  mirror
• 1:01:49
  me
• 1:01:50
  taking
• 1:01:50
  care
• 1:01:50
  of
• 1:01:50
  you
• 1:01:50
  and
• 1:01:50
  not
• 1:01:51
  taking
• 1:01:51
  care
• 1:01:51
  of
• 1:01:51
  myself.
• 1:01:52
  I'm
• 1:01:52
  gonna
• 1:01:53
  look
• 1:01:53
  like
• 1:01:53
  a
• 1:01:53
  mess.
• 1:01:54
  I'm
• 1:01:54
  gonna
• 1:01:54
  walk
• 1:01:55
  around
• 1:01:55
  in
• 1:01:55
  a
• 1:01:56
  gym
• 1:01:56
  outfit
• 1:01:56
  all
• 1:01:56
  day
• 1:01:56
  that
• 1:01:57
  I
• 1:01:57
  haven't
• 1:01:57
  even
• 1:01:57
  worked
• 1:01:57
  out
• 1:01:57
  in.
• 1:01:59
  And
• 1:01:59
  I'm
• 1:01:59
  gonna
• 1:02:00
  be
• 1:02:00
  exhausted
• 1:02:01
  because
• 1:02:02
  I'm
• 1:02:02
  gonna
• 1:02:02
  stay
• 1:02:02
  up
• 1:02:02
  too
• 1:02:02
  late
• 1:02:03
  doing
• 1:02:03
  all
• 1:02:03
  the
• 1:02:04
  things
• 1:02:04
  for
• 1:02:04
  you
• 1:02:05
  and
• 1:02:05
  not
• 1:02:06
  doing
• 1:02:06
  anything
• 1:02:06
  for
• 1:02:07
  myself.
• 1:02:07
  And
• 1:02:07
  then
• 1:02:07
  I'm
• 1:02:07
  going
• 1:02:07
  to
• 1:02:08
  be
• 1:02:08
  depressed
• 1:02:09
  because
• 1:02:09
  I
• 1:02:09
  feel
• 1:02:09
  shitty
• 1:02:10
  about
• 1:02:10
  myself.
• 1:02:11
  But
• 1:02:11
  that's
• 1:02:12
  the
• 1:02:12
  mirror
• 1:02:12
  image
• 1:02:13
  that
• 1:02:13
  I
• 1:02:13
  want
• 1:02:14
  you
• 1:02:14
  to
• 1:02:14
  see
• 1:02:14
  as
• 1:02:14
  my
• 1:02:15
  daughter.
• 1:02:15
  But
• 1:02:15
  I
• 1:02:16
  want
• 1:02:16
  you
• 1:02:16
  to
• 1:02:16
  totally
• 1:02:16
  do
• 1:02:17
  something
• 1:02:17
  different.
• 1:02:18
  So
• 1:02:18
  that's
• 1:02:18
  one
• 1:02:19
  piece
• 1:02:20
  of
• 1:02:20
  advice
• 1:02:20
  that
• 1:02:21
  went
• 1:02:21
  on,
• 1:02:21
  that
• 1:02:21
  went
• 1:02:22
  on
• 1:02:22
  a
• 1:02:22
  little
• 1:02:22
  longer.
• 1:02:23
  But
• 1:02:23
  I
• 1:02:24
  think
• 1:02:24
  it's
• 1:02:24
  literally
• 1:02:24
  the
• 1:02:25
  most
• 1:02:25
  important
• 1:02:25
  thing.
• 1:02:26
  It
• 1:02:26
  is.
• 1:02:26
  It
• 1:02:26
  is.
• 1:02:28
  You
• 1:02:29
  know,
• 1:02:29
  surround
• 1:02:30
  yourself
• 1:02:30
  with
• 1:02:30
  people
• 1:02:31
  that
• 1:02:31
  you
• 1:02:31
  admire
• 1:02:32
  and
• 1:02:33
  that
• 1:02:33
  you
• 1:02:33
  aspire
• 1:02:34
  to
• 1:02:34
  be.
• 1:02:34
  And
• 1:02:35
  finally,
• 1:02:35
  don't
• 1:02:36
  settle
• 1:02:36
  for
• 1:02:36
  mediocrity,
• 1:02:38
  even
• 1:02:39
  in
• 1:02:39
  your
• 1:02:39
  40s.
• 1:02:41
  Like,
• 1:02:42
  just
• 1:02:42
  because
• 1:02:42
  you
• 1:02:42
  haven't
• 1:02:43
  quite
• 1:02:43
  gotten
• 1:02:44
  to
• 1:02:44
  where
• 1:02:44
  you
• 1:02:44
  want
• 1:02:44
  to
• 1:02:45
  be
• 1:02:45
  yet.
• 1:02:46
  Like,
• 1:02:47
  who
• 1:02:48
  wants
• 1:02:48
  to
• 1:02:48
  be
• 1:02:48
  mediocre
• 1:02:49
  I
• 1:02:50
  don't.
• 1:02:52
  That's
• 1:02:52
  why,
• 1:02:52
  like,
• 1:02:52
  if
• 1:02:53
  I
• 1:02:53
  hit
• 1:02:53
  a
• 1:02:54
  goal,
• 1:02:55
  I'm
• 1:02:55
  like,
• 1:02:55
  all
• 1:02:55
  right,
• 1:02:56
  shit.
• 1:02:56
  What's
• 1:02:57
  up
• 1:02:57
  next?
• 1:02:58
  What's
• 1:02:58
  up
• 1:02:58
  next
• 1:02:58
  for
• 1:02:59
  me?
• 1:02:59
  What
• 1:03:00
  do
• 1:03:00
  I
• 1:03:00
  have
• 1:03:00
  to
• 1:03:00
  do
• 1:03:01
  to
• 1:03:02
  feel
• 1:03:02
  like
• 1:03:03
  I
• 1:03:03
  have
• 1:03:03
  something
• 1:03:03
  to
• 1:03:03
  strive
• 1:03:04
  towards,
• 1:03:04
  something
• 1:03:04
  to
• 1:03:05
  wake
• 1:03:05
  up
• 1:03:05
  for,
• 1:03:05
  something
• 1:03:06
  to
• 1:03:06
  look
• 1:03:06
  at.
• 1:03:08
  I
• 1:03:08
  think
• 1:03:08
  it's
• 1:03:09
  like
• 1:03:09
  a
• 1:03:09
  way
• 1:03:09
  to
• 1:03:10
  sort
• 1:03:10
  of
• 1:03:10
  keep
• 1:03:11
  you
• 1:03:11
  alive
• 1:03:12
  and
• 1:03:12
  present
• 1:03:13
  and
• 1:03:15
  wanting
• 1:03:15
  to
• 1:03:15
  get
• 1:03:16
  up
• 1:03:16
  and
• 1:03:16
  grind
• 1:03:16
  every
• 1:03:16
  day
• 1:03:17
  and
• 1:03:17
  do
• 1:03:17
  something.
• 1:03:17
  Because
• 1:03:17
  I
• 1:03:18
  think
• 1:03:18
  we're
• 1:03:18
  the
• 1:03:18
  most
• 1:03:18
  happy
• 1:03:19
  and
• 1:03:19
  we're
• 1:03:19
  the
• 1:03:19
  most
• 1:03:19
  motivated
• 1:03:20
  when
• 1:03:20
  we
• 1:03:20
  have
• 1:03:20
  purpose.
• 1:03:22
  And
• 1:03:22
  if
• 1:03:22
  you
• 1:03:22
  don't
• 1:03:23
  have
• 1:03:23
  goals
• 1:03:24
  and
• 1:03:24
  if
• 1:03:24
  you
• 1:03:25
  sort
• 1:03:25
  of
• 1:03:26
  are
• 1:03:26
  just
• 1:03:27
  settling
• 1:03:28
  with
• 1:03:28
  being
• 1:03:28
  mediocre,
• 1:03:30
  then
• 1:03:31
  what
• 1:03:31
  do
• 1:03:31
  you
• 1:03:31
  have
• 1:03:31
  to
• 1:03:31
  wake
• 1:03:31
  up
• 1:03:31
  for?
• 1:03:32
  See,
• 1:03:32
  that's
• 1:03:33
  the
• 1:03:33
  thing.
• 1:03:33
  I
• 1:03:33
  feel
• 1:03:33
  like
• 1:03:34
  a
• 1:03:34
  lot
• 1:03:34
  of
• 1:03:34
  women
• 1:03:34
  in
• 1:03:34
  this
• 1:03:35
  age
• 1:03:35
  group,
• 1:03:35
  you
• 1:03:35
  know,
• 1:03:35
  they've
• 1:03:36
  raised
• 1:03:36
  kids
• 1:03:36
  or
• 1:03:36
  they've
• 1:03:37
  been
• 1:03:37
  married,
• 1:03:37
  or
• 1:03:37
  maybe
• 1:03:37
  they
• 1:03:38
  stayed
• 1:03:38
  at
• 1:03:39
  home
• 1:03:39
  and
• 1:03:39
  they
• 1:03:39
  stopped
• 1:03:40
  working.
• 1:03:40
  How
• 1:03:40
  do
• 1:03:40
  they
• 1:03:41
  find
• 1:03:41
  their
• 1:03:41
  purpose?
• 1:03:41
  Like,
• 1:03:42
  how
• 1:03:42
  do
• 1:03:42
  you
• 1:03:42
  do
• 1:03:42
  that
• 1:03:43
  when
• 1:03:43
  you
• 1:03:43
  feel.
• 1:03:43
  I
• 1:03:44
  don't
• 1:03:44
  know,
• 1:03:44
  man.
• 1:03:44
  That's
• 1:03:44
  up
• 1:03:44
  to
• 1:03:44
  them.
• 1:03:45
  Read
• 1:03:46
  a
• 1:03:46
  few
• 1:03:46
  books,
• 1:03:47
  do
• 1:03:47
  what
• 1:03:47
  inspires
• 1:03:48
  you.
• 1:03:48
  Try
• 1:03:48
  different
• 1:03:49
  and
• 1:03:49
  new
• 1:03:49
  things.
• 1:03:50
  Have
• 1:03:50
  an
• 1:03:50
  affair,
• 1:03:50
  I
• 1:03:51
  don't
• 1:03:51
  give
• 1:03:51
  a
• 1:03:51
  shit.
• 1:03:51
  Whatever
• 1:03:52
  works
• 1:03:52
  for
• 1:03:52
  you.
• 1:03:53
  But,
• 1:03:53
  like,
• 1:03:54
  do
• 1:03:54
  something
• 1:03:55
  that
• 1:03:55
  you
• 1:03:55
  haven't
• 1:03:55
  done
• 1:03:55
  before
• 1:03:56
  to
• 1:03:56
  inspire
• 1:03:58
  something
• 1:03:59
  inside
• 1:03:59
  you
• 1:03:59
  that
• 1:03:59
  lights
• 1:04:00
  a
• 1:04:00
  fire.
• 1:04:00
  And
• 1:04:00
  whatever
• 1:04:01
  that
• 1:04:01
  fire
• 1:04:01
  is
• 1:04:01
  for
• 1:04:02
  you,
• 1:04:02
  go
• 1:04:03
  light.
• 1:04:03
  It
• 1:04:05
  could
• 1:04:05
  be
• 1:04:05
  something
• 1:04:06
  brand
• 1:04:06
  new
• 1:04:06
  that
• 1:04:06
  you've
• 1:04:07
  never
• 1:04:07
  even
• 1:04:07
  done
• 1:04:07
  before.
• 1:04:08
  And
• 1:04:09
  I
• 1:04:09
  don't
• 1:04:09
  see
• 1:04:09
  why
• 1:04:09
  you
• 1:04:10
  can't
• 1:04:10
  do
• 1:04:10
  it
• 1:04:10
  just
• 1:04:10
  because
• 1:04:10
  you're
• 1:04:11
  in
• 1:04:11
  your
• 1:04:11
  40s.
• 1:04:12
  It's
• 1:04:12
  the
• 1:04:12
  fear,
• 1:04:13
  you
• 1:04:13
  know?
• 1:04:13
  Yeah,
• 1:04:14
  fuck
• 1:04:14
  that.
• 1:04:14
  I
• 1:04:14
  wrote
• 1:04:14
  a
• 1:04:14
  book
• 1:04:14
  about
• 1:04:14
  that.
• 1:04:15
  I
• 1:04:15
  know.
• 1:04:15
  Fuck.
• 1:04:16
  Fear
• 1:04:16
  is
• 1:04:16
  a
• 1:04:16
  four
• 1:04:17
  letter
• 1:04:17
  word.
• 1:04:18
  It's
• 1:04:18
  true.
• 1:04:18
  It's
• 1:04:19
  true.
• 1:04:19
  No,
• 1:04:19
  it
• 1:04:20
  is
• 1:04:20
  true.
• 1:04:20
  It's
• 1:04:20
  like,
• 1:04:20
  I
• 1:04:21
  think
• 1:04:21
  women
• 1:04:21
  are
• 1:04:21
  so
• 1:04:21
  paralyzed
• 1:04:22
  a
• 1:04:22
  lot
• 1:04:22
  of
• 1:04:22
  the
• 1:04:23
  time
• 1:04:23
  because
• 1:04:23
  they're
• 1:04:23
  like,
• 1:04:24
  what
• 1:04:24
  will
• 1:04:24
  this
• 1:04:24
  person
• 1:04:25
  think
• 1:04:25
  of
• 1:04:25
  me?
• 1:04:25
  Or
• 1:04:25
  can
• 1:04:26
  I
• 1:04:26
  do
• 1:04:26
  this?
• 1:04:26
  Or
• 1:04:26
  can
• 1:04:27
  I
• 1:04:27
  do
• 1:04:27
  even
• 1:04:27
  believe
• 1:04:27
  in
• 1:04:28
  myself
• 1:04:28
  to
• 1:04:29
  take
• 1:04:29
  that
• 1:04:29
  first
• 1:04:29
  step,
• 1:04:30
  you
• 1:04:30
  know?
• 1:04:30
  Yeah.
• 1:04:30
  You
• 1:04:31
  gotta
• 1:04:31
  just
• 1:04:31
  dive
• 1:04:31
  off
• 1:04:31
  anyway.
• 1:04:32
  Just
• 1:04:32
  dive
• 1:04:33
  off.
• 1:04:33
  And
• 1:04:33
  don't
• 1:04:33
  feel.
• 1:04:34
  Don't
• 1:04:34
  be
• 1:04:35
  afraid
• 1:04:35
  to
• 1:04:35
  ask
• 1:04:35
  for
• 1:04:35
  help
• 1:04:36
  100%.
• 1:04:37
  Right?
• 1:04:39
  Never.
• 1:04:39
  I
• 1:04:39
  mean,
• 1:04:39
  Tracy,
• 1:04:40
  you
• 1:04:40
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• 1:04:40
  ask
• 1:04:40
  for
• 1:04:40
  help.
• 1:04:41
  I
• 1:04:41
  mean,
• 1:04:41
  it's.
• 1:04:42
  Yeah,
• 1:04:42
  for
• 1:04:43
  sure.
• 1:04:43
  I
• 1:04:43
  could
• 1:04:43
  not
• 1:04:44
  do
• 1:04:44
  what
• 1:04:44
  I
• 1:04:45
  do
• 1:04:45
  without
• 1:04:45
  the
• 1:04:45
  help
• 1:04:46
  from
• 1:04:46
  the
• 1:04:47
  help
• 1:04:47
  and
• 1:04:47
  support
• 1:04:47
  from
• 1:04:48
  the
• 1:04:48
  people
• 1:04:48
  around
• 1:04:48
  me
• 1:04:48
  that
• 1:04:48
  love
• 1:04:49
  me,
• 1:04:49
  that
• 1:04:49
  work
• 1:04:49
  with
• 1:04:49
  me,
• 1:04:50
  my
• 1:04:50
  children,
• 1:04:51
  they're
• 1:04:51
  my
• 1:04:52
  greatest
• 1:04:52
  support
• 1:04:53
  system.
• 1:04:54
  My
• 1:04:54
  two
• 1:04:54
  girls
• 1:04:55
  see
• 1:04:55
  what
• 1:04:56
  I
• 1:04:56
  do
• 1:04:56
  every
• 1:04:56
  day
• 1:04:57
  and
• 1:04:57
  you
• 1:04:57
  know,
• 1:04:58
  they're
• 1:04:58
  my
• 1:04:59
  biggest
• 1:04:59
  fans
• 1:05:00
  and
• 1:05:00
  they
• 1:05:00
  know
• 1:05:00
  how
• 1:05:00
  hard
• 1:05:01
  I
• 1:05:01
  work.
• 1:05:01
  Yeah,
• 1:05:02
  and
• 1:05:02
  they're
• 1:05:03
  coming
• 1:05:03
  of
• 1:05:03
  age
• 1:05:03
  too.
• 1:05:03
  I
• 1:05:04
  mean,
• 1:05:04
  Juliette's
• 1:05:05
  gonna
• 1:05:05
  be
• 1:05:05
  19.
• 1:05:06
  Yeah,
• 1:05:06
  19.
• 1:05:06
  So
• 1:05:07
  what
• 1:05:07
  would
• 1:05:07
  you
• 1:05:07
  say
• 1:05:08
  to
• 1:05:08
  25
• 1:05:09
  year
• 1:05:09
  old
• 1:05:09
  Tracy
• 1:05:10
  Elaine
• 1:05:11
  Tudor,
• 1:05:11
  the
• 1:05:11
  first,
• 1:05:11
  what
• 1:05:12
  advice
• 1:05:12
  would
• 1:05:12
  you
• 1:05:13
  give
• 1:05:13
  her?
• 1:05:13
  I
• 1:05:14
  mean,
• 1:05:14
  again,
• 1:05:15
  leave
• 1:05:15
  the
• 1:05:15
  fear
• 1:05:15
  at
• 1:05:15
  the
• 1:05:16
  door.
• 1:05:17
  You
• 1:05:17
  embrace
• 1:05:18
  all
• 1:05:19
  the
• 1:05:19
  energy
• 1:05:19
  that
• 1:05:20
  you
• 1:05:20
  have
• 1:05:20
  inside
• 1:05:21
  of
• 1:05:21
  you
• 1:05:21
  and
• 1:05:21
  put
• 1:05:21
  it
• 1:05:22
  out
• 1:05:22
  there
• 1:05:22
  and
• 1:05:22
  don't
• 1:05:23
  fucking
• 1:05:24
  hold
• 1:05:25
  back.
• 1:05:26
  You
• 1:05:26
  have
• 1:05:26
  absolutely
• 1:05:27
  nothing
• 1:05:27
  to
• 1:05:28
  lose.
• 1:05:28
  Maybe
• 1:05:29
  we
• 1:05:29
  should
• 1:05:29
  have
• 1:05:29
  had
• 1:05:29
  better
• 1:05:30
  hair
• 1:05:30
  colorists
• 1:05:30
  back
• 1:05:30
  then,
• 1:05:31
  though.
• 1:05:31
  We
• 1:05:31
  should.
• 1:05:33
  George,
• 1:05:33
  why
• 1:05:34
  didn't
• 1:05:34
  we
• 1:05:34
  know
• 1:05:34
  you
• 1:05:34
  back
• 1:05:35
  then?
• 1:05:35
  I
• 1:05:35
  mean,
• 1:05:37
  those
• 1:05:37
  college
• 1:05:37
  photos,
• 1:05:38
  every
• 1:05:38
  time
• 1:05:39
  you
• 1:05:39
  pop
• 1:05:39
  one
• 1:05:39
  in
• 1:05:39
  the
• 1:05:39
  group
• 1:05:40
  chat,
• 1:05:40
  I'm
• 1:05:40
  like,
• 1:05:41
  wow.
• 1:05:42
  Wow
• 1:05:43
  what?
• 1:05:43
  I
• 1:05:44
  mean,
• 1:05:44
  what
• 1:05:45
  was
• 1:05:45
  I
• 1:05:45
  thinking?
• 1:05:46
  I
• 1:05:47
  don't.
• 1:05:47
  I
• 1:05:47
  thought
• 1:05:47
  I
• 1:05:48
  was
• 1:05:48
  hot
• 1:05:48
  back,
• 1:05:49
  by
• 1:05:49
  the
• 1:05:49
  way.
• 1:05:49
  I
• 1:05:49
  was
• 1:05:50
  so
• 1:05:50
  confident
• 1:05:51
  that
• 1:05:53
  I
• 1:05:53
  must
• 1:05:53
  have
• 1:05:54
  had
• 1:05:54
  a
• 1:05:54
  sparkly
• 1:05:54
  personality
• 1:05:55
  because
• 1:05:56
  somehow
• 1:05:57
  we
• 1:05:58
  were
• 1:05:58
  nailing
• 1:05:58
  it.
• 1:05:59
  I
• 1:06:00
  don't
• 1:06:00
  know
• 1:06:00
  how
• 1:06:01
  to
• 1:06:01
  this
• 1:06:01
  day.
• 1:06:01
  I'm
• 1:06:02
  so
• 1:06:02
  confused.
• 1:06:03
  It's
• 1:06:03
  so
• 1:06:03
  confused.
• 1:06:04
  We
• 1:06:04
  thought
• 1:06:04
  we
• 1:06:04
  were
• 1:06:04
  like
• 1:06:04
  the
• 1:06:04
  hottest
• 1:06:05
  things
• 1:06:05
  that
• 1:06:05
  walked,
• 1:06:06
  you
• 1:06:06
  know,
• 1:06:06
  Sunset
• 1:06:06
  Boulevard.
• 1:06:07
  I
• 1:06:07
  mean,
• 1:06:07
  my
• 1:06:07
  mom
• 1:06:07
  raised.
• 1:06:08
  Raised
• 1:06:08
  me.
• 1:06:08
  My
• 1:06:08
  mom
• 1:06:08
  was
• 1:06:09
  like,
• 1:06:09
  you
• 1:06:09
  are
• 1:06:09
  the
• 1:06:09
  hottest
• 1:06:09
  thing
• 1:06:10
  since
• 1:06:10
  sliced
• 1:06:10
  bread.
• 1:06:10
  And
• 1:06:10
  I
• 1:06:11
  was
• 1:06:11
  like,
• 1:06:11
  I
• 1:06:11
  am.
• 1:06:12
  She
• 1:06:12
  was
• 1:06:12
  like,
• 1:06:12
  you
• 1:06:13
  are.
• 1:06:13
  And
• 1:06:13
  so
• 1:06:13
  I
• 1:06:13
  just
• 1:06:14
  went
• 1:06:14
  out
• 1:06:14
  into
• 1:06:14
  the
• 1:06:14
  world
• 1:06:14
  thinking
• 1:06:15
  I
• 1:06:15
  was
• 1:06:15
  the
• 1:06:15
  jam,
• 1:06:17
  you
• 1:06:17
  know,
• 1:06:17
  it
• 1:06:17
  paid
• 1:06:18
  off
• 1:06:18
  though,
• 1:06:18
  whatever,
• 1:06:19
  I
• 1:06:19
  guess
• 1:06:19
  so.
• 1:06:21
  God
• 1:06:22
  bless
• 1:06:22
  her,
• 1:06:22
  but
• 1:06:22
  that's
• 1:06:23
  what
• 1:06:23
  we
• 1:06:23
  should
• 1:06:23
  be
• 1:06:23
  doing.
• 1:06:24
  Like,
• 1:06:24
  that's
• 1:06:25
  how
• 1:06:25
  I
• 1:06:25
  was
• 1:06:25
  raised
• 1:06:25
  by
• 1:06:26
  a
• 1:06:26
  really
• 1:06:27
  strong
• 1:06:27
  woman.
• 1:06:27
  And
• 1:06:28
  that's
• 1:06:28
  what
• 1:06:28
  I
• 1:06:28
  want
• 1:06:28
  to
• 1:06:29
  give
• 1:06:29
  to
• 1:06:29
  my
• 1:06:29
  girls,
• 1:06:29
  and
• 1:06:30
  that's
• 1:06:30
  what
• 1:06:30
  I
• 1:06:30
  want
• 1:06:30
  to
• 1:06:30
  give
• 1:06:30
  to
• 1:06:31
  the
• 1:06:31
  women
• 1:06:31
  around
• 1:06:31
  me.
• 1:06:32
  And
• 1:06:32
  you
• 1:06:32
  go
• 1:06:32
  out
• 1:06:33
  there
• 1:06:33
  and
• 1:06:33
  own
• 1:06:33
  that
• 1:06:33
  shit.
• 1:06:34
  And
• 1:06:35
  I
• 1:06:35
  don't
• 1:06:35
  care
• 1:06:35
  what
• 1:06:35
  you
• 1:06:36
  look
• 1:06:36
  like
• 1:06:36
  or
• 1:06:36
  how
• 1:06:36
  many
• 1:06:37
  curves
• 1:06:37
  you
• 1:06:37
  have
• 1:06:37
  or
• 1:06:38
  what
• 1:06:38
  hair
• 1:06:38
  or
• 1:06:38
  how
• 1:06:39
  bad
• 1:06:39
  your
• 1:06:39
  hair.
• 1:06:39
  Like,
• 1:06:40
  if
• 1:06:40
  you
• 1:06:40
  walk
• 1:06:41
  into
• 1:06:41
  a
• 1:06:41
  room
• 1:06:41
  with
• 1:06:42
  confidence
• 1:06:42
  and
• 1:06:42
  you
• 1:06:42
  own
• 1:06:43
  it,
• 1:06:43
  people
• 1:06:43
  are
• 1:06:43
  gonna
• 1:06:43
  notice
• 1:06:44
  not
• 1:06:44
  only
• 1:06:44
  the
• 1:06:45
  women
• 1:06:45
  in
• 1:06:45
  that
• 1:06:45
  room
• 1:06:46
  that
• 1:06:46
  are
• 1:06:46
  gonna
• 1:06:46
  be
• 1:06:46
  like,
• 1:06:46
  damn,
• 1:06:47
  girl.
• 1:06:48
  But
• 1:06:48
  the
• 1:06:48
  men
• 1:06:49
  too.
• 1:06:49
  And
• 1:06:49
  they're
• 1:06:49
  gonna
• 1:06:50
  be
• 1:06:50
  like,
• 1:06:50
  okay,
• 1:06:50
  uh
• 1:06:51
  huh.
• 1:06:51
  Yeah,
• 1:06:51
  for
• 1:06:52
  sure.
• 1:06:52
  I
• 1:06:52
  feel
• 1:06:52
  like
• 1:06:52
  you're
• 1:06:52
  telling
• 1:06:53
  Juliet
• 1:06:53
  that
• 1:06:53
  now
• 1:06:55
  every
• 1:06:55
  day
• 1:06:55
  to
• 1:06:56
  be
• 1:06:56
  confident,
• 1:06:56
  to
• 1:06:56
  kind
• 1:06:57
  of
• 1:06:57
  step
• 1:06:57
  into
• 1:06:57
  her
• 1:06:57
  power,
• 1:06:58
  use
• 1:06:58
  her
• 1:06:59
  voice,
• 1:07:00
  all
• 1:07:00
  the
• 1:07:00
  things,
• 1:07:00
  right?
• 1:07:01
  Absolutely.
• 1:07:02
  So
• 1:07:02
  how
• 1:07:02
  are
• 1:07:02
  you
• 1:07:02
  living
• 1:07:03
  the
• 1:07:03
  most
• 1:07:04
  iconically
• 1:07:04
  right
• 1:07:05
  now?
• 1:07:06
  I
• 1:07:06
  don't
• 1:07:06
  know.
• 1:07:07
  Aren't
• 1:07:07
  I
• 1:07:07
  just
• 1:07:07
  iconic
• 1:07:08
  at
• 1:07:08
  this
• 1:07:08
  point?
• 1:07:09
  You
• 1:07:09
  just
• 1:07:09
  are
• 1:07:09
  iconic,
• 1:07:10
  girl.
• 1:07:11
  How.
• 1:07:12
  What
• 1:07:12
  is
• 1:07:12
  that
• 1:07:12
  question?
• 1:07:13
  How
• 1:07:13
  am
• 1:07:13
  I
• 1:07:13
  living
• 1:07:14
  the
• 1:07:14
  most
• 1:07:14
  iconically?
• 1:07:15
  Yeah,
• 1:07:16
  what
• 1:07:16
  is.
• 1:07:16
  What
• 1:07:16
  is
• 1:07:17
  like,
• 1:07:17
  what
• 1:07:18
  does
• 1:07:18
  iconic
• 1:07:18
  look
• 1:07:19
  like
• 1:07:19
  to
• 1:07:19
  you
• 1:07:19
  in
• 1:07:20
  your
• 1:07:20
  life
• 1:07:20
  right
• 1:07:20
  now?
• 1:07:20
  Honestly,
• 1:07:21
  I
• 1:07:21
  feel
• 1:07:21
  like
• 1:07:22
  every
• 1:07:22
  day
• 1:07:22
  I
• 1:07:23
  get
• 1:07:23
  to
• 1:07:23
  wake
• 1:07:23
  up
• 1:07:23
  and
• 1:07:24
  be
• 1:07:24
  whatever
• 1:07:25
  version
• 1:07:25
  of
• 1:07:26
  myself
• 1:07:26
  that
• 1:07:26
  I
• 1:07:27
  feel
• 1:07:27
  like
• 1:07:27
  being
• 1:07:27
  in
• 1:07:28
  that
• 1:07:28
  day.
• 1:07:28
  I
• 1:07:28
  am,
• 1:07:28
  like
• 1:07:29
  I
• 1:07:29
  said,
• 1:07:29
  I
• 1:07:30
  am
• 1:07:30
  so
• 1:07:30
  many
• 1:07:31
  different
• 1:07:31
  things.
• 1:07:31
  I'm
• 1:07:32
  not
• 1:07:32
  just
• 1:07:32
  one
• 1:07:33
  thing.
• 1:07:33
  So
• 1:07:33
  if
• 1:07:33
  I
• 1:07:33
  wake
• 1:07:34
  up
• 1:07:34
  and
• 1:07:34
  I'm
• 1:07:34
  feeling
• 1:07:35
  sexy
• 1:07:35
  and
• 1:07:35
  I
• 1:07:35
  want
• 1:07:36
  to
• 1:07:36
  be
• 1:07:36
  that
• 1:07:36
  woman,
• 1:07:37
  On
• 1:07:37
  a
• 1:07:38
  Tuesday,
• 1:07:38
  then
• 1:07:38
  that's
• 1:07:39
  what
• 1:07:39
  I'm
• 1:07:39
  going
• 1:07:39
  to
• 1:07:39
  be.
• 1:07:40
  If
• 1:07:40
  I
• 1:07:40
  want
• 1:07:40
  to
• 1:07:40
  wake
• 1:07:41
  up
• 1:07:41
  and,
• 1:07:42
  you
• 1:07:42
  know,
• 1:07:43
  grind
• 1:07:43
  and
• 1:07:43
  be
• 1:07:44
  a
• 1:07:44
  hustler,
• 1:07:44
  then
• 1:07:45
  that's
• 1:07:45
  what
• 1:07:46
  I'm
• 1:07:46
  going
• 1:07:46
  to
• 1:07:46
  be
• 1:07:46
  that
• 1:07:46
  day.
• 1:07:46
  And
• 1:07:47
  if
• 1:07:47
  I
• 1:07:47
  want
• 1:07:47
  to
• 1:07:47
  be
• 1:07:47
  frivolous
• 1:07:48
  and
• 1:07:48
  carefree
• 1:07:49
  and
• 1:07:49
  book
• 1:07:49
  a
• 1:07:49
  trip
• 1:07:50
  to
• 1:07:50
  Napa
• 1:07:51
  for
• 1:07:51
  the
• 1:07:51
  weekend,
• 1:07:52
  then
• 1:07:52
  that's
• 1:07:52
  who
• 1:07:52
  I'm
• 1:07:52
  going
• 1:07:53
  to
• 1:07:53
  be.
• 1:07:53
  That,
• 1:07:54
  to
• 1:07:54
  me,
• 1:07:54
  probably,
• 1:07:55
  at
• 1:07:55
  my
• 1:07:55
  age,
• 1:07:56
  is
• 1:07:56
  living
• 1:07:57
  iconically.
• 1:07:57
  Yeah,
• 1:07:58
  yeah.
• 1:07:58
  Being
• 1:07:58
  who
• 1:07:59
  you
• 1:07:59
  are
• 1:07:59
  when
• 1:07:59
  you
• 1:07:59
  want
• 1:08:00
  to
• 1:08:00
  be
• 1:08:00
  it.
• 1:08:00
  I
• 1:08:00
  mean,
• 1:08:00
  it's.
• 1:08:01
  There's
• 1:08:01
  nothing
• 1:08:01
  more
• 1:08:02
  freeing
• 1:08:02
  than
• 1:08:02
  being
• 1:08:03
  where
• 1:08:03
  I
• 1:08:04
  am
• 1:08:04
  in
• 1:08:04
  my
• 1:08:04
  life
• 1:08:04
  and
• 1:08:04
  having
• 1:08:05
  the
• 1:08:05
  independence
• 1:08:05
  and
• 1:08:06
  the
• 1:08:06
  freedom
• 1:08:06
  to
• 1:08:06
  wake
• 1:08:06
  up
• 1:08:06
  and
• 1:08:07
  say,
• 1:08:07
  today
• 1:08:08
  I'm
• 1:08:08
  going
• 1:08:08
  to
• 1:08:08
  do
• 1:08:08
  this,
• 1:08:09
  because
• 1:08:09
  I
• 1:08:09
  can.
• 1:08:09
  Yeah.
• 1:08:10
  Little
• 1:08:10
  less
• 1:08:11
  given
• 1:08:11
  every
• 1:08:12
  day,
• 1:08:12
  too.
• 1:08:14
  Less
• 1:08:14
  every
• 1:08:14
  day.
• 1:08:15
  Less
• 1:08:15
  every
• 1:08:15
  day.
• 1:08:15
  One
• 1:08:15
  less
• 1:08:16
  to
• 1:08:16
  give
• 1:08:16
  every
• 1:08:17
  single
• 1:08:17
  day.
• 1:08:17
  They
• 1:08:18
  just
• 1:08:18
  go
• 1:08:18
  out
• 1:08:18
  the
• 1:08:18
  window.
• 1:08:21
  Okay,
• 1:08:22
  so
• 1:08:22
  on
• 1:08:22
  the
• 1:08:23
  iconic
• 1:08:23
  midlife,
• 1:08:24
  we
• 1:08:24
  like
• 1:08:24
  to
• 1:08:24
  play
• 1:08:24
  games.
• 1:08:25
  So
• 1:08:25
  are
• 1:08:25
  you
• 1:08:26
  ready,
• 1:08:26
  girls?
• 1:08:27
  Oh,
• 1:08:27
  let
• 1:08:27
  me
• 1:08:27
  put
• 1:08:28
  on
• 1:08:28
  the
• 1:08:28
  glasses.
• 1:08:28
  Hold
• 1:08:29
  on.
• 1:08:30
  Hold,
• 1:08:30
  please.
• 1:08:31
  Oh,
• 1:08:31
  God.
• 1:08:31
  Okay,
• 1:08:32
  here
• 1:08:32
  we
• 1:08:32
  go.
• 1:08:33
  Game
• 1:08:33
  title.
• 1:08:33
  It's
• 1:08:33
  like
• 1:08:34
  a
• 1:08:34
  speed
• 1:08:34
  situation.
• 1:08:35
  Don't
• 1:08:35
  ask
• 1:08:36
  me,
• 1:08:36
  like,
• 1:08:36
  hard
• 1:08:36
  questions,
• 1:08:37
  then
• 1:08:37
  expect
• 1:08:37
  me
• 1:08:37
  to
• 1:08:37
  answer
• 1:08:38
  like,
• 1:08:39
  give
• 1:08:39
  me.
• 1:08:39
  Everything
• 1:08:40
  you
• 1:08:40
  got,
• 1:08:40
  girl.
• 1:08:41
  This
• 1:08:41
  is
• 1:08:41
  called.
• 1:08:42
  Say
• 1:08:42
  it
• 1:08:42
  like
• 1:08:42
  you
• 1:08:42
  mean
• 1:08:43
  it.
• 1:08:43
  So
• 1:08:43
  I'll
• 1:08:44
  read
• 1:08:44
  a
• 1:08:44
  sentence
• 1:08:44
  with
• 1:08:45
  a
• 1:08:45
  fill
• 1:08:45
  in
• 1:08:45
  the
• 1:08:45
  blank,
• 1:08:45
  and
• 1:08:45
  you
• 1:08:46
  fill
• 1:08:46
  in
• 1:08:46
  the
• 1:08:46
  blank.
• 1:08:47
  I
• 1:08:47
  can
• 1:08:47
  do
• 1:08:47
  that.
• 1:08:48
  Yeah.
• 1:08:49
  All
• 1:08:49
  right.
• 1:08:50
  The
• 1:08:50
  most
• 1:08:51
  overrated
• 1:08:51
  quality
• 1:08:52
  in
• 1:08:52
  a
• 1:08:52
  man
• 1:08:53
  is
• 1:08:54
  blank.
• 1:08:54
  Their
• 1:08:54
  brain.
• 1:08:57
  Starting
• 1:08:57
  off
• 1:08:58
  hot.
• 1:08:58
  I
• 1:08:58
  like
• 1:08:58
  it.
• 1:08:58
  I
• 1:08:59
  like
• 1:08:59
  it.
• 1:09:02
  I'd
• 1:09:03
  rather
• 1:09:03
  walk
• 1:09:04
  barefoot
• 1:09:04
  through
• 1:09:04
  LAX
• 1:09:05
  than
• 1:09:06
  blank.
• 1:09:06
  Date
• 1:09:07
  another
• 1:09:07
  guy
• 1:09:07
  in
• 1:09:07
  la.
• 1:09:11
  I
• 1:09:11
  thought
• 1:09:12
  you
• 1:09:12
  were
• 1:09:12
  gonna
• 1:09:12
  say
• 1:09:12
  drink
• 1:09:13
  champagne.
• 1:09:13
  Oh,
• 1:09:13
  yeah,
• 1:09:14
  I
• 1:09:14
  don't
• 1:09:14
  love
• 1:09:14
  champagne.
• 1:09:14
  Yeah,
• 1:09:15
  you
• 1:09:15
  did.
• 1:09:16
  My
• 1:09:16
  red
• 1:09:17
  flag
• 1:09:17
  in
• 1:09:18
  a
• 1:09:18
  friendship
• 1:09:19
  is.
• 1:09:19
  When
• 1:09:19
  someone
• 1:09:20
  blank
• 1:09:21
  doesn't
• 1:09:21
  celebrate
• 1:09:22
  my
• 1:09:22
  successes.
• 1:09:23
  That's
• 1:09:24
  a
• 1:09:24
  big
• 1:09:24
  one.
• 1:09:25
  That's
• 1:09:25
  red
• 1:09:25
  flag.
• 1:09:26
  That's
• 1:09:26
  a
• 1:09:26
  red
• 1:09:26
  flag.
• 1:09:27
  And
• 1:09:27
  you
• 1:09:28
  can
• 1:09:28
  tell
• 1:09:28
  those
• 1:09:28
  people
• 1:09:29
  right
• 1:09:29
  from
• 1:09:29
  the
• 1:09:29
  get.
• 1:09:29
  Yep.
• 1:09:30
  Hundred
• 1:09:30
  percent
• 1:09:30
  right
• 1:09:30
  from
• 1:09:31
  the
• 1:09:31
  get.
• 1:09:32
  Okay.
• 1:09:33
  Power
• 1:09:33
  is
• 1:09:33
  quiet,
• 1:09:34
  desperation
• 1:09:35
  is
• 1:09:36
  blank.
• 1:09:36
  Loud
• 1:09:37
  as
• 1:09:37
  fuck.
• 1:09:37
  You
• 1:09:37
  can
• 1:09:38
  see
• 1:09:38
  it
• 1:09:38
  from
• 1:09:38
  a
• 1:09:38
  mile
• 1:09:38
  away,
• 1:09:38
  can't
• 1:09:39
  you?
• 1:09:39
  Yeah.
• 1:09:39
  Yep,
• 1:09:40
  sure
• 1:09:40
  can.
• 1:09:40
  Yep.
• 1:09:41
  The
• 1:09:42
  last
• 1:09:42
  time
• 1:09:42
  I
• 1:09:42
  ignored
• 1:09:43
  my
• 1:09:43
  gut,
• 1:09:44
  I
• 1:09:44
  ended
• 1:09:44
  up
• 1:09:45
  blank.
• 1:09:45
  I
• 1:09:46
  could
• 1:09:46
  fill
• 1:09:46
  in
• 1:09:46
  a
• 1:09:46
  few
• 1:09:46
  of
• 1:09:46
  those.
• 1:09:47
  Yeah.
• 1:09:47
  I
• 1:09:47
  was
• 1:09:47
  like,
• 1:09:49
  yeah,
• 1:09:49
  my
• 1:09:49
  gut's
• 1:09:50
  usually
• 1:09:50
  right.
• 1:09:50
  And
• 1:09:51
  then
• 1:09:51
  I
• 1:09:51
  just,
• 1:09:51
  like.
• 1:09:54
  I
• 1:09:54
  ended
• 1:09:54
  up
• 1:09:54
  in
• 1:09:54
  a
• 1:09:55
  relationship
• 1:09:55
  much
• 1:09:56
  longer
• 1:09:56
  than
• 1:09:56
  I
• 1:09:56
  should
• 1:09:56
  have
• 1:09:56
  been.
• 1:09:56
  Yeah,
• 1:09:57
  you
• 1:09:57
  did,
• 1:09:57
  kind
• 1:09:57
  of.
• 1:09:58
  I
• 1:09:58
  really
• 1:09:59
  like
• 1:09:59
  to
• 1:09:59
  beat
• 1:10:00
  a
• 1:10:00
  dead
• 1:10:00
  horse.
• 1:10:01
  Just
• 1:10:01
  drag
• 1:10:02
  it
• 1:10:02
  out
• 1:10:02
  right
• 1:10:02
  to
• 1:10:03
  the
• 1:10:03
  bitter
• 1:10:03
  end.
• 1:10:04
  You're
• 1:10:04
  also
• 1:10:04
  very
• 1:10:05
  generous
• 1:10:05
  in
• 1:10:05
  your
• 1:10:05
  relationships,
• 1:10:06
  too.
• 1:10:07
  You
• 1:10:07
  do
• 1:10:07
  give
• 1:10:07
  a
• 1:10:07
  lot
• 1:10:07
  of
• 1:10:07
  yourself.
• 1:10:08
  I
• 1:10:08
  know,
• 1:10:09
  I
• 1:10:09
  know.
• 1:10:09
  Maybe
• 1:10:10
  too
• 1:10:10
  much.
• 1:10:10
  I
• 1:10:10
  mean,
• 1:10:11
  you
• 1:10:11
  know,
• 1:10:11
  we
• 1:10:11
  live
• 1:10:12
  and
• 1:10:12
  learn,
• 1:10:12
  right?
• 1:10:12
  Yeah.
• 1:10:13
  Or
• 1:10:13
  do
• 1:10:13
  we
• 1:10:14
  maybe
• 1:10:15
  not,
• 1:10:15
  like,
• 1:10:15
  actually
• 1:10:16
  delete
• 1:10:17
  I
• 1:10:17
  do.
• 1:10:17
  I
• 1:10:17
  learn.
• 1:10:19
  If
• 1:10:20
  a
• 1:10:20
  man
• 1:10:20
  tells
• 1:10:21
  me
• 1:10:21
  he's
• 1:10:21
  intimidated
• 1:10:22
  by
• 1:10:22
  me,
• 1:10:22
  I
• 1:10:23
  blank
• 1:10:23
  run
• 1:10:25
  for
• 1:10:25
  the
• 1:10:25
  hills.
• 1:10:25
  Right?
• 1:10:26
  Yeah.
• 1:10:26
  Yeah.
• 1:10:27
  Can't
• 1:10:27
  do
• 1:10:27
  it.
• 1:10:27
  No
• 1:10:27
  can
• 1:10:28
  do.
• 1:10:28
  I'll
• 1:10:28
  make
• 1:10:28
  time
• 1:10:29
  for
• 1:10:29
  anything.
• 1:10:30
  Except
• 1:10:30
  blink.
• 1:10:31
  Bad
• 1:10:31
  sex.
• 1:10:33
  Yeah.
• 1:10:33
  Who
• 1:10:34
  has
• 1:10:34
  time
• 1:10:34
  for
• 1:10:34
  that,
• 1:10:34
  right?
• 1:10:34
  No
• 1:10:35
  one.
• 1:10:35
  Not
• 1:10:35
  today.
• 1:10:35
  No.
• 1:10:37
  I
• 1:10:37
  feel
• 1:10:37
  like
• 1:10:37
  you're
• 1:10:38
  on
• 1:10:38
  a
• 1:10:38
  good
• 1:10:38
  trajectory
• 1:10:39
  right
• 1:10:39
  now,
• 1:10:39
  Belle.
• 1:10:40
  You
• 1:10:40
  know,
• 1:10:41
  I
• 1:10:41
  can't
• 1:10:42
  really
• 1:10:42
  think
• 1:10:42
  when
• 1:10:43
  you
• 1:10:43
  had
• 1:10:43
  bad
• 1:10:43
  sex
• 1:10:44
  last.
• 1:10:45
  I
• 1:10:45
  can.
• 1:10:48
  Not
• 1:10:48
  in
• 1:10:48
  the
• 1:10:48
  recent
• 1:10:49
  past,
• 1:10:50
  not
• 1:10:50
  recently.
• 1:10:50
  Yeah,
• 1:10:51
  it's
• 1:10:51
  been
• 1:10:51
  a
• 1:10:51
  minute.
• 1:10:51
  Been
• 1:10:52
  a
• 1:10:52
  minute.
• 1:10:52
  At
• 1:10:52
  this
• 1:10:52
  point
• 1:10:53
  in
• 1:10:53
  my
• 1:10:53
  life,
• 1:10:53
  I
• 1:10:54
  only
• 1:10:54
  chase
• 1:10:55
  blank
• 1:10:55
  peace.
• 1:10:57
  It's
• 1:10:57
  a
• 1:10:57
  big
• 1:10:57
  one.
• 1:10:58
  Peace
• 1:10:58
  makes
• 1:10:59
  you
• 1:10:59
  happy
• 1:10:59
  too,
• 1:11:00
  so
• 1:11:00
  it's
• 1:11:00
  peace.
• 1:11:01
  I
• 1:11:01
  was
• 1:11:01
  listening
• 1:11:02
  to
• 1:11:02
  someone
• 1:11:02
  the
• 1:11:02
  other
• 1:11:02
  day
• 1:11:03
  talk
• 1:11:03
  about
• 1:11:03
  this.
• 1:11:04
  You
• 1:11:04
  know,
• 1:11:04
  the
• 1:11:04
  difference
• 1:11:05
  between
• 1:11:06
  happiness
• 1:11:07
  is,
• 1:11:08
  you
• 1:11:08
  know,
• 1:11:08
  when
• 1:11:08
  you
• 1:11:08
  have
• 1:11:08
  happiness,
• 1:11:09
  that
• 1:11:09
  means
• 1:11:09
  there's
• 1:11:09
  sadness.
• 1:11:10
  That
• 1:11:11
  means
• 1:11:11
  you
• 1:11:11
  have
• 1:11:11
  the
• 1:11:12
  ups
• 1:11:12
  and
• 1:11:12
  the
• 1:11:13
  downs
• 1:11:13
  of
• 1:11:13
  that.
• 1:11:13
  When
• 1:11:13
  there's
• 1:11:14
  peace,
• 1:11:15
  you're
• 1:11:15
  at
• 1:11:15
  like
• 1:11:15
  a
• 1:11:16
  baseline
• 1:11:16
  where
• 1:11:17
  there's
• 1:11:17
  no.
• 1:11:18
  No
• 1:11:18
  fluttering
• 1:11:19
  movements.
• 1:11:20
  I
• 1:11:20
  want
• 1:11:21
  to
• 1:11:21
  be.
• 1:11:21
  I
• 1:11:22
  just
• 1:11:22
  want
• 1:11:22
  to
• 1:11:22
  be
• 1:11:22
  at
• 1:11:22
  peace
• 1:11:23
  to
• 1:11:23
  where
• 1:11:23
  there's
• 1:11:23
  not
• 1:11:24
  a
• 1:11:24
  roller
• 1:11:24
  coaster
• 1:11:25
  of
• 1:11:26
  highs
• 1:11:26
  and
• 1:11:27
  lows.
• 1:11:27
  That's
• 1:11:27
  life.
• 1:11:27
  It's
• 1:11:28
  going
• 1:11:28
  to
• 1:11:28
  happen.
• 1:11:28
  But
• 1:11:28
  when
• 1:11:29
  you're
• 1:11:29
  at
• 1:11:29
  peace
• 1:11:29
  with
• 1:11:30
  yourself,
• 1:11:30
  it
• 1:11:31
  makes
• 1:11:31
  it
• 1:11:31
  much
• 1:11:31
  easier
• 1:11:31
  to
• 1:11:32
  sort
• 1:11:32
  of
• 1:11:32
  tolerate
• 1:11:33
  the
• 1:11:33
  inconsistencies
• 1:11:34
  of
• 1:11:34
  others.
• 1:11:35
  Yes.
• 1:11:35
  In
• 1:11:35
  the
• 1:11:35
  external.
• 1:11:36
  All
• 1:11:36
  the
• 1:11:36
  things.
• 1:11:37
  Right.
• 1:11:37
  Correct.
• 1:11:39
  If
• 1:11:39
  you
• 1:11:39
  want
• 1:11:39
  to
• 1:11:39
  impress
• 1:11:40
  me,
• 1:11:40
  don't
• 1:11:41
  bring
• 1:11:41
  flowers.
• 1:11:42
  Bring
• 1:11:42
  blank
• 1:11:43
  tacos.
• 1:11:44
  Easy
• 1:11:45
  answer.
• 1:11:45
  Taco
• 1:11:46
  Bell.
• 1:11:46
  Just
• 1:11:47
  tacos.
• 1:11:47
  I
• 1:11:47
  mean,
• 1:11:49
  you.
• 1:11:49
  You
• 1:11:49
  show
• 1:11:50
  up
• 1:11:50
  outside
• 1:11:50
  of
• 1:11:50
  my
• 1:11:50
  house
• 1:11:51
  in
• 1:11:51
  a
• 1:11:51
  dark
• 1:11:51
  van.
• 1:11:51
  If
• 1:11:52
  you
• 1:11:52
  open
• 1:11:52
  the
• 1:11:52
  door
• 1:11:52
  and
• 1:11:52
  there's
• 1:11:53
  like
• 1:11:53
  tacos
• 1:11:53
  inside
• 1:11:54
  and
• 1:11:54
  a
• 1:11:54
  margarita,
• 1:11:55
  like,
• 1:11:55
  I
• 1:11:55
  am
• 1:11:55
  it,
• 1:11:56
  you're
• 1:11:56
  in.
• 1:11:57
  That's
• 1:11:57
  it.
• 1:11:57
  That's.
• 1:11:57
  That's
• 1:11:58
  actually
• 1:11:58
  the
• 1:11:58
  way
• 1:11:58
  to
• 1:11:59
  your
• 1:11:59
  heart.
• 1:11:59
  Yeah.
• 1:11:59
  Yeah.
• 1:12:00
  So
• 1:12:00
  true.
• 1:12:00
  Tacos
• 1:12:01
  and
• 1:12:01
  margaritas.
• 1:12:02
  I
• 1:12:02
  mean,
• 1:12:02
  sounds
• 1:12:03
  good
• 1:12:03
  for
• 1:12:03
  today,
• 1:12:03
  doesn't
• 1:12:04
  it?
• 1:12:04
  Should
• 1:12:04
  move
• 1:12:04
  to
• 1:12:04
  Mexico.
• 1:12:07
  Being
• 1:12:07
  quote
• 1:12:08
  unquote,
• 1:12:08
  too
• 1:12:08
  much
• 1:12:09
  is
• 1:12:09
  just
• 1:12:10
  code
• 1:12:10
  for
• 1:12:10
  blank.
• 1:12:11
  An
• 1:12:11
  insecure
• 1:12:12
  person.
• 1:12:12
  Whoever.
• 1:12:13
  Whoever
• 1:12:13
  said
• 1:12:13
  that.
• 1:12:15
  Basically,
• 1:12:15
  whoever's
• 1:12:16
  saying
• 1:12:16
  that
• 1:12:16
  to
• 1:12:16
  you
• 1:12:16
  is
• 1:12:17
  insecure.
• 1:12:19
  Okay.
• 1:12:19
  Mary
• 1:12:19
  Fuck
• 1:12:20
  Hill.
• 1:12:20
  Oh,
• 1:12:21
  I
• 1:12:21
  love
• 1:12:21
  this
• 1:12:21
  one.
• 1:12:22
  Dorit
• 1:12:23
  Kemsley.
• 1:12:23
  Kyle
• 1:12:24
  Richards
• 1:12:24
  or
• 1:12:25
  Erika
• 1:12:25
  Jayne?
• 1:12:26
  Well,
• 1:12:26
  after.
• 1:12:28
  So
• 1:12:28
  I'm
• 1:12:28
  a
• 1:12:28
  lesbian.
• 1:12:29
  Yeah.
• 1:12:29
  Now
• 1:12:29
  you're
• 1:12:29
  a
• 1:12:29
  10
• 1:12:30
  year
• 1:12:30
  lesbian
• 1:12:30
  today.
• 1:12:31
  Oh,
• 1:12:31
  my
• 1:12:32
  God.
• 1:12:33
  Okay,
• 1:12:34
  well,
• 1:12:34
  I
• 1:12:34
  guess
• 1:12:34
  I
• 1:12:34
  have
• 1:12:34
  to
• 1:12:34
  kill
• 1:12:35
  Dorit
• 1:12:35
  cause
• 1:12:35
  we
• 1:12:35
  had
• 1:12:36
  a
• 1:12:36
  spat
• 1:12:36
  about
• 1:12:37
  my
• 1:12:38
  hairstylist.
• 1:12:41
  I
• 1:12:41
  think
• 1:12:42
  I
• 1:12:43
  would
• 1:12:45
  fuck
• 1:12:45
  Erika
• 1:12:45
  Jayne
• 1:12:46
  and
• 1:12:46
  marry
• 1:12:46
  Kyle.
• 1:12:47
  But
• 1:12:48
  although
• 1:12:48
  I
• 1:12:48
  feel
• 1:12:49
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• 1:12:49
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• 1:12:49
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• 1:12:49
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• 1:12:50
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• 1:12:50
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• 1:12:51
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• 1:12:51
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• 1:12:51
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• 1:12:51
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• 1:12:52
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• 1:12:52
  We
• 1:12:52
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• 1:12:52
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• 1:12:52
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• 1:12:53
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• 1:12:53
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• 1:12:53
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• 1:12:53
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• 1:12:54
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• 1:12:54
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• 1:12:54
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• 1:12:56
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• 1:12:56
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• 1:12:56
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• 1:12:57
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• 1:12:57
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• 1:12:58
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• 1:12:58
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• 1:12:58
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• 1:12:58
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• 1:12:58
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• 1:12:59
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• 1:12:59
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• 1:12:59
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• 1:12:59
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• 1:12:59
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• 1:13:00
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• 1:13:00
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• 1:13:01
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• 1:13:01
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• 1:13:01
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• 1:13:01
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• 1:13:02
  Good
• 1:13:02
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• 1:13:02
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• 1:13:03
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• 1:13:03
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• 1:13:03
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• 1:13:03
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• 1:13:03
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• 1:13:04
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• 1:13:05
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• 1:13:05
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• 1:13:05
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• 1:13:06
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• 1:13:06
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• 1:13:06
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• 1:13:06
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• 1:13:07
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• 1:13:07
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• 1:13:08
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• 1:13:08
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• 1:13:09
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• 1:13:09
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• 1:13:09
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• 1:13:09
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• 1:13:10
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• 1:13:10
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• 1:13:10
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• 1:13:10
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• 1:13:11
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• 1:13:11
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• 1:13:11
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:12
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• 1:13:13
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• 1:13:13
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• 1:13:13
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• 1:13:13
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• 1:13:13
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• 1:13:14
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• 1:13:14
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• 1:13:14
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• 1:13:14
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• 1:13:14
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• 1:13:15
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• 1:13:15
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• 1:13:15
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• 1:13:15
  Yeah.
• 1:13:16
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• 1:13:16
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• 1:13:16
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• 1:13:16
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• 1:13:16
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• 1:13:17
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• 1:13:17
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• 1:13:17
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• 1:13:17
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• 1:13:17
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• 1:13:18
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• 1:13:18
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:19
  Real
• 1:13:20
  Housewives
• 1:13:20
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• 1:13:20
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• 1:13:21
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• 1:13:21
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• 1:13:21
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• 1:13:22
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• 1:13:22
  Why
• 1:13:23
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• 1:13:23
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• 1:13:23
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• 1:13:23
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• 1:13:24
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• 1:13:24
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• 1:13:24
  Okay,
• 1:13:25
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• 1:13:25
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• 1:13:25
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• 1:13:25
  Cause
• 1:13:26
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• 1:13:26
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• 1:13:27
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• 1:13:27
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• 1:13:27
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• 1:13:27
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• 1:13:28
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• 1:13:28
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• 1:13:28
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• 1:13:28
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• 1:13:28
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• 1:13:29
  Okay,
• 1:13:29
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• 1:13:30
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• 1:13:30
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• 1:13:30
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• 1:13:31
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• 1:13:31
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• 1:13:36
  What
• 1:13:36
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• 1:13:36
  you
• 1:13:36
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• 1:13:36
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• 1:13:36
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• 1:13:36
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• 1:13:37
  That's
• 1:13:37
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• 1:13:37
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• 1:13:38
  Roxy.
• 1:13:40
  Yeah?
• 1:13:41
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• 1:13:41
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• 1:13:41
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• 1:13:41
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• 1:13:42
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• 1:13:42
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• 1:13:42
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• 1:13:43
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• 1:13:43
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• 1:13:43
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• 1:13:43
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• 1:13:44
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• 1:13:44
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• 1:13:44
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• 1:13:44
  Haven't
• 1:13:45
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• 1:13:45
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• 1:13:45
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• 1:13:45
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• 1:13:46
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• 1:13:46
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• 1:13:46
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• 1:13:47
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• 1:13:47
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• 1:13:48
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• 1:13:48
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• 1:13:48
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• 1:13:49
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• 1:13:49
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• 1:13:49
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• 1:13:49
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• 1:13:50
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• 1:13:50
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• 1:13:51
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• 1:13:51
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• 1:13:52
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• 1:13:53
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• 1:13:53
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• 1:13:54
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• 1:13:54
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• 1:13:54
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• 1:13:54
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• 1:13:55
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• 1:13:55
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• 1:13:56
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• 1:13:56
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• 1:13:57
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• 1:13:57
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• 1:13:58
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• 1:13:59
  Like,
• 1:13:59
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• 1:13:59
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• 1:13:59
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• 1:14:00
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• 1:14:00
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• 1:14:00
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• 1:14:00
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• 1:14:00
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• 1:14:00
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• 1:14:01
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• 1:14:01
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• 1:14:01
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• 1:14:01
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• 1:14:01
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• 1:14:02
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• 1:14:02
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• 1:14:03
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• 1:14:03
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• 1:14:03
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• 1:14:03
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• 1:14:03
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• 1:14:04
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• 1:14:04
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• 1:14:04
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• 1:14:05
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• 1:14:05
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• 1:14:05
  Most
• 1:14:05
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• 1:14:09
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• 1:14:09
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• 1:14:09
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• 1:14:09
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• 1:14:10
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• 1:14:12
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• 1:14:13
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• 1:14:13
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• 1:14:14
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• 1:14:14
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• 1:14:14
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• 1:14:14
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• 1:14:14
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• 1:14:15
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• 1:14:15
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• 1:14:16
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• 1:14:16
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• 1:14:18
  When
• 1:14:18
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• 1:14:18
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• 1:14:18
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• 1:14:19
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• 1:14:19
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• 1:14:19
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• 1:14:19
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• 1:14:19
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• 1:14:20
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• 1:14:20
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• 1:14:20
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• 1:14:21
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• 1:14:21
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• 1:14:21
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• 1:14:21
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• 1:14:22
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• 1:14:22
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• 1:14:22
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• 1:14:23
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• 1:14:24
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• 1:14:24
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• 1:14:25
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• 1:14:25
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• 1:14:25
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• 1:14:25
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• 1:14:26
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• 1:14:26
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• 1:14:26
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• 1:14:26
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• 1:14:27
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• 1:14:27
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• 1:14:27
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• 1:14:28
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• 1:14:29
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• 1:14:29
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• 1:14:29
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• 1:14:29
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• 1:14:30
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• 1:14:30
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• 1:14:30
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• 1:14:30
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• 1:14:31
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• 1:14:31
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• 1:14:31
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• 1:14:31
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• 1:14:32
  That
• 1:14:32
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• 1:14:32
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• 1:14:32
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• 1:14:33
  Yeah,
• 1:14:33
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• 1:14:33
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• 1:14:33
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• 1:14:34
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• 1:14:34
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• 1:14:35
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• 1:14:36
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• 1:14:36
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• 1:14:36
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• 1:14:38
  You
• 1:14:39
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• 1:14:39
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• 1:14:39
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• 1:14:39
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• 1:14:39
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• 1:14:40
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• 1:14:40
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• 1:14:40
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• 1:14:40
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• 1:14:40
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• 1:14:41
  Yeah.
• 1:14:42
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• 1:14:42
  mean,
• 1:14:42
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• 1:14:42
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• 1:14:43
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• 1:14:43
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• 1:14:43
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• 1:14:43
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• 1:14:44
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• 1:14:44
  Can
• 1:14:44
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• 1:14:45
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• 1:14:45
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• 1:14:45
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• 1:14:45
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• 1:14:45
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• 1:14:45
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• 1:14:46
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• 1:14:46
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• 1:14:46
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• 1:14:47
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• 1:14:47
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• 1:14:47
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• 1:14:47
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• 1:14:48
  I
• 1:14:48
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• 1:14:49
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• 1:14:50
  What's,
• 1:14:50
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• 1:14:50
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• 1:14:51
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• 1:14:51
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• 1:14:52
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• 1:14:52
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• 1:14:53
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• 1:14:53
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• 1:14:53
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• 1:14:53
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• 1:14:53
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• 1:14:53
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• 1:14:53
  You're
• 1:14:54
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• 1:14:54
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• 1:14:54
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• 1:14:54
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• 1:14:54
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• 1:14:55
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• 1:14:55
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• 1:14:55
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• 1:14:56
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• 1:14:57
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• 1:14:57
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• 1:14:57
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• 1:14:59
  Maybe
• 1:14:59
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• 1:14:59
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• 1:15:00
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• 1:15:00
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• 1:15:01
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• 1:15:01
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• 1:15:01
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• 1:15:01
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• 1:15:02
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• 1:15:04
  Maybe
• 1:15:05
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• 1:15:05
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• 1:15:06
  Without
• 1:15:07
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• 1:15:07
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• 1:15:07
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• 1:15:07
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• 1:15:09
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• 1:15:09
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• 1:15:09
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• 1:15:10
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• 1:15:10
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• 1:15:10
  That
• 1:15:11
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• 1:15:11
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• 1:15:11
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• 1:15:12
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• 1:15:12
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• 1:15:12
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• 1:15:13
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• 1:15:13
  The
• 1:15:14
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• 1:15:14
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• 1:15:15
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• 1:15:16
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• 1:15:16
  ways
• 1:15:17
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• 1:15:17
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• 1:15:17
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• 1:15:18
  So
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• 1:15:19
  It's
• 1:15:19
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• 1:15:19
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• 1:15:20
  That
• 1:15:20
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• 1:15:20
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• 1:15:21
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• 1:15:22
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• 1:15:22
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• 1:15:23
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• 1:15:23
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• 1:15:23
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• 1:15:23
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• 1:15:23
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• 1:15:23
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• 1:15:24
  Was.
• 1:15:25
  Yeah.
• 1:15:26
  Okay.
• 1:15:26
  Tracy,
• 1:15:26
  Elaine,
• 1:15:27
  any
• 1:15:27
  parting
• 1:15:27
  words?
• 1:15:29
  I
• 1:15:29
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• 1:15:29
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• 1:15:30
  It's
• 1:15:30
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• 1:15:30
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• 1:15:31
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• 1:15:31
  I
• 1:15:31
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• 1:15:31
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• 1:15:31
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• 1:15:31
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• 1:15:32
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• 1:15:32
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• 1:15:32
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• 1:15:32
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• 1:15:33
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• 1:15:33
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• 1:15:33
  I
• 1:15:34
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• 1:15:34
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• 1:15:34
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• 1:15:34
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• 1:15:34
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• 1:15:35
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• 1:15:35
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• 1:15:35
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  My
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• 1:15:47
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• 1:15:48
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• 1:15:48
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• 1:15:49
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  You
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• 1:15:54
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• 1:15:57
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• 1:15:57
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• 1:15:58
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• 1:15:58
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• 1:16:07
  Wait,
• 1:16:07
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• 1:16:08
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• 1:16:08
  international
• 1:16:09
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• 1:16:10
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• 1:16:11
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• 1:16:12
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• 1:16:14
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• 1:16:16
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• 1:16:18
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• 1:16:18
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• 1:16:18
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• 1:16:18
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• 1:16:19
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• 1:16:19
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• 1:16:19
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• 1:16:21
  Is
• 1:16:21
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• 1:16:21
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• 1:16:21
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• 1:16:22
  Yeah.
• 1:16:22
  Oh,
• 1:16:23
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• 1:16:23
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• 1:16:26
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• 1:16:26
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  Right.
• 1:16:28
  But
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• 1:16:28
  how
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• 1:16:33
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• 1:16:34
  you
• 1:16:34
  know,
• 1:16:35
  do
• 1:16:35
  London.
• 1:16:36
  Wouldn't
• 1:16:36
  I
• 1:16:36
  be
• 1:16:36
  amazing
• 1:16:37
  in.
• 1:16:37
  I'd
• 1:16:37
  be
• 1:16:37
  like
• 1:16:38
  a
• 1:16:38
  10.
• 1:16:38
  It
• 1:16:38
  would
• 1:16:39
  be.
• 1:16:39
  Yeah,
• 1:16:39
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• 1:16:39
  would
• 1:16:39
  be
• 1:16:39
  like
• 1:16:40
  a
• 1:16:40
  10
• 1:16:40
  life.
• 1:16:40
  It
• 1:16:41
  would
• 1:16:41
  be
• 1:16:41
  literally
• 1:16:42
  a
• 1:16:42
  10.
• 1:16:43
  Yeah.
• 1:16:43
  I've
• 1:16:43
  lived
• 1:16:44
  here
• 1:16:44
  my
• 1:16:44
  whole
• 1:16:44
  life.
• 1:16:44
  Maybe
• 1:16:45
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• 1:16:45
  time
• 1:16:45
  to
• 1:16:45
  like,
• 1:16:46
  shake
• 1:16:46
  a
• 1:16:46
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• 1:16:46
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• 1:16:47
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• 1:16:47
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• 1:16:47
  go
• 1:16:47
  check
• 1:16:47
  out
• 1:16:48
  like
• 1:16:48
  another
• 1:16:49
  place.
• 1:16:49
  Country.
• 1:16:50
  Yeah,
• 1:16:50
  that
• 1:16:50
  is
• 1:16:51
  true.
• 1:16:51
  Now
• 1:16:51
  that
• 1:16:51
  I'm
• 1:16:52
  thinking
• 1:16:52
  about
• 1:16:52
  it.
• 1:16:52
  You
• 1:16:52
  have
• 1:16:52
  always
• 1:16:53
  never
• 1:16:53
  left
• 1:16:54
  California.
• 1:16:55
  I've
• 1:16:55
  been
• 1:16:55
  here
• 1:16:56
  since
• 1:16:56
  birth.
• 1:16:58
  Why
• 1:16:58
  didn't
• 1:16:58
  you
• 1:16:58
  move
• 1:16:58
  with
• 1:16:59
  all
• 1:16:59
  of
• 1:16:59
  us
• 1:16:59
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• 1:16:59
  we
• 1:16:59
  all
• 1:16:59
  lived
• 1:17:00
  in
• 1:17:00
  New
• 1:17:00
  York?
• 1:17:00
  Because
• 1:17:00
  I
• 1:17:00
  was
• 1:17:01
  an
• 1:17:01
  actress
• 1:17:01
  at
• 1:17:01
  the
• 1:17:01
  time.
• 1:17:02
  Yeah,
• 1:17:02
  you
• 1:17:02
  can
• 1:17:02
  act
• 1:17:03
  in
• 1:17:03
  New
• 1:17:03
  York.
• 1:17:03
  Not,
• 1:17:04
  I
• 1:17:04
  mean,
• 1:17:04
  not
• 1:17:04
  when
• 1:17:04
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• 1:17:05
  graduating
• 1:17:05
  from
• 1:17:05
  college
• 1:17:05
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• 1:17:06
  a
• 1:17:06
  theater
• 1:17:06
  degree.
• 1:17:06
  Like,
• 1:17:07
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• 1:17:07
  have
• 1:17:07
  to
• 1:17:07
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• 1:17:07
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• 1:17:08
  and
• 1:17:08
  do
• 1:17:08
  all
• 1:17:08
  of
• 1:17:08
  that
• 1:17:08
  shit
• 1:17:09
  here.
• 1:17:09
  It's
• 1:17:09
  like
• 1:17:10
  where
• 1:17:10
  the
• 1:17:10
  business
• 1:17:10
  was.
• 1:17:11
  Yeah.
• 1:17:11
  So
• 1:17:12
  you
• 1:17:12
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• 1:17:12
  That
• 1:17:12
  was
• 1:17:12
  kind
• 1:17:13
  of
• 1:17:13
  the
• 1:17:13
  driving.
• 1:17:14
  Yeah.
• 1:17:15
  I
• 1:17:15
  mean,
• 1:17:15
  I
• 1:17:16
  kind
• 1:17:16
  of
• 1:17:16
  see
• 1:17:16
  you
• 1:17:17
  maybe
• 1:17:17
  in
• 1:17:17
  London.
• 1:17:18
  Yeah,
• 1:17:18
  right.
• 1:17:19
  Uh
• 1:17:19
  huh
• 1:17:20
  huh.
• 1:17:20
  I
• 1:17:20
  can't
• 1:17:20
  learn
• 1:17:21
  a
• 1:17:21
  new
• 1:17:21
  language.
• 1:17:22
  I
• 1:17:22
  mean,
• 1:17:22
  it's
• 1:17:22
  too
• 1:17:22
  hard.
• 1:17:23
  It's
• 1:17:23
  not
• 1:17:24
  my
• 1:17:24
  forte.
• 1:17:25
  I've
• 1:17:25
  been
• 1:17:25
  speaking
• 1:17:26
  Spanish
• 1:17:26
  my
• 1:17:26
  whole
• 1:17:26
  life
• 1:17:27
  and
• 1:17:27
  I
• 1:17:27
  still
• 1:17:27
  need
• 1:17:28
  three
• 1:17:28
  coronas
• 1:17:28
  to
• 1:17:28
  like,
• 1:17:29
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• 1:17:29
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• 1:17:29
  get
• 1:17:29
  out.
• 1:17:30
  Like
• 1:17:30
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• 1:17:30
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• 1:17:30
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• 1:17:30
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• 1:17:31
  I
• 1:17:32
  mean,
• 1:17:32
  what
• 1:17:32
  about
• 1:17:32
  Texas
• 1:17:33
  though?
• 1:17:33
  You
• 1:17:33
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• 1:17:33
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• 1:17:33
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• 1:17:33
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• 1:17:34
  Texas,
• 1:17:35
  Love,
• 1:17:35
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• 1:17:36
  Is
• 1:17:36
  that
• 1:17:36
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• 1:17:36
  a
• 1:17:37
  possibility
• 1:17:37
  there?
• 1:17:38
  If
• 1:17:38
  there
• 1:17:38
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• 1:17:38
  a
• 1:17:38
  cowboy
• 1:17:39
  in
• 1:17:39
  my
• 1:17:39
  future,
• 1:17:39
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• 1:17:40
  I
• 1:17:40
  am
• 1:17:40
  open
• 1:17:40
  to
• 1:17:40
  that
• 1:17:41
  possibility.
• 1:17:42
  So
• 1:17:42
  also
• 1:17:43
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• 1:17:44
  show,
• 1:17:45
  like,
• 1:17:45
  what's
• 1:17:45
  happening?
• 1:17:46
  We're
• 1:17:46
  on
• 1:17:46
  pause.
• 1:17:47
  I
• 1:17:47
  mean,
• 1:17:47
  I
• 1:17:47
  think,
• 1:17:47
  you
• 1:17:48
  know,
• 1:17:48
  for
• 1:17:48
  the
• 1:17:48
  time
• 1:17:48
  being.
• 1:17:49
  I
• 1:17:49
  was
• 1:17:50
  talking
• 1:17:50
  to
• 1:17:50
  Bryce
• 1:17:50
  Sander
• 1:17:50
  about
• 1:17:51
  this
• 1:17:51
  the
• 1:17:51
  other
• 1:17:51
  day.
• 1:17:52
  For
• 1:17:52
  the
• 1:17:52
  time
• 1:17:52
  being,
• 1:17:52
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• 1:17:53
  on
• 1:17:53
  pause.
• 1:17:53
  I
• 1:17:54
  love
• 1:17:54
  Those
• 1:17:54
  boys.
• 1:17:55
  I.
• 1:17:55
  I
• 1:17:55
  could
• 1:17:56
  see
• 1:17:56
  us
• 1:17:56
  all
• 1:17:56
  coming
• 1:17:56
  back
• 1:17:57
  together
• 1:17:57
  and
• 1:17:57
  doing
• 1:17:58
  something
• 1:17:58
  again.
• 1:17:58
  I
• 1:17:59
  don't
• 1:17:59
  know
• 1:17:59
  if
• 1:17:59
  and
• 1:17:59
  when
• 1:18:00
  that
• 1:18:00
  will
• 1:18:00
  ever
• 1:18:00
  happen,
• 1:18:01
  but,
• 1:18:01
  you
• 1:18:02
  know,
• 1:18:02
  life's
• 1:18:02
  sort
• 1:18:03
  of
• 1:18:03
  an
• 1:18:03
  open,
• 1:18:05
  exciting
• 1:18:05
  time
• 1:18:06
  right
• 1:18:06
  now.
• 1:18:06
  I
• 1:18:06
  don't
• 1:18:07
  know
• 1:18:07
  what's
• 1:18:07
  gonna
• 1:18:07
  happen.
• 1:18:07
  I
• 1:18:08
  don't
• 1:18:08
  know
• 1:18:08
  what
• 1:18:08
  is
• 1:18:08
  gonna
• 1:18:09
  be
• 1:18:09
  in
• 1:18:09
  front
• 1:18:09
  of
• 1:18:09
  me
• 1:18:09
  next,
• 1:18:09
  but
• 1:18:10
  I
• 1:18:10
  welcome
• 1:18:10
  it.
• 1:18:10
  I
• 1:18:11
  welcome
• 1:18:11
  it
• 1:18:11
  all.
• 1:18:11
  Are
• 1:18:11
  you
• 1:18:12
  thinking
• 1:18:12
  maybe
• 1:18:12
  more
• 1:18:12
  reality
• 1:18:13
  tv?
• 1:18:13
  Who
• 1:18:14
  knows?
• 1:18:14
  You're
• 1:18:15
  open.
• 1:18:15
  You're
• 1:18:15
  open.
• 1:18:16
  I
• 1:18:16
  think
• 1:18:16
  I
• 1:18:16
  really
• 1:18:16
  am.
• 1:18:17
  I
• 1:18:17
  think,
• 1:18:17
  like,
• 1:18:18
  what
• 1:18:18
  is
• 1:18:18
  going
• 1:18:18
  to
• 1:18:19
  come
• 1:18:19
  to
• 1:18:19
  me
• 1:18:19
  is
• 1:18:20
  going
• 1:18:20
  to
• 1:18:20
  be
• 1:18:21
  meant
• 1:18:21
  for
• 1:18:21
  me,
• 1:18:21
  and.
• 1:18:22
  And
• 1:18:22
  that's
• 1:18:23
  how
• 1:18:23
  I'm
• 1:18:23
  gonna
• 1:18:24
  live.
• 1:18:24
  That's
• 1:18:25
  the
• 1:18:25
  great
• 1:18:25
  way
• 1:18:25
  to
• 1:18:25
  manifest,
• 1:18:26
  too,
• 1:18:26
  is
• 1:18:26
  just
• 1:18:26
  being
• 1:18:27
  open
• 1:18:27
  like
• 1:18:27
  that,
• 1:18:27
  right?
• 1:18:28
  Like
• 1:18:28
  letting.
• 1:18:28
  Letting
• 1:18:29
  opportunities
• 1:18:30
  come.
• 1:18:30
  Yeah.
• 1:18:31
  Okay,
• 1:18:32
  well,
• 1:18:32
  I
• 1:18:33
  expect
• 1:18:33
  to
• 1:18:33
  see
• 1:18:33
  your
• 1:18:33
  ass
• 1:18:34
  back
• 1:18:34
  on
• 1:18:34
  this
• 1:18:34
  couch
• 1:18:34
  very
• 1:18:35
  soon,
• 1:18:35
  Ms.
• 1:18:35
  Tracy.
• 1:18:36
  Elaine,
• 1:18:36
  let's
• 1:18:36
  just
• 1:18:37
  do
• 1:18:37
  like
• 1:18:37
  a
• 1:18:37
  weekly.
• 1:18:37
  Yes.
• 1:18:39
  Oh,
• 1:18:39
  my
• 1:18:39
  God.
• 1:18:40
  Special
• 1:18:40
  guest
• 1:18:40
  Tracy
• 1:18:41
  Tudor
• 1:18:41
  interfering
• 1:18:42
  in
• 1:18:42
  her
• 1:18:42
  friend
• 1:18:42
  Roxy's
• 1:18:43
  podcast
• 1:18:44
  just
• 1:18:44
  to
• 1:18:44
  talk
• 1:18:45
  shit
• 1:18:45
  to
• 1:18:45
  all
• 1:18:45
  the
• 1:18:46
  guests.
• 1:18:46
  We
• 1:18:47
  love
• 1:18:47
  it
• 1:18:48
  anytime.
• 1:18:48
  We
• 1:18:49
  love
• 1:18:49
  Tracy.
• 1:18:50
  I
• 1:18:51
  love
• 1:18:51
  you,
• 1:18:51
  baby.
• 1:18:51
  I
• 1:18:52
  love
• 1:18:52
  you,
• 1:18:52
  too.
• 1:18:53
  That
• 1:18:53
  conversation
• 1:18:54
  was
• 1:18:54
  everything.
• 1:18:56
  Tracy
• 1:18:56
  doesn't
• 1:18:57
  just
• 1:18:57
  speak
• 1:18:57
  the
• 1:18:58
  truth,
• 1:18:58
  she
• 1:18:58
  lives
• 1:18:59
  it.
• 1:18:59
  She's
• 1:19:00
  a
• 1:19:00
  woman
• 1:19:00
  who
• 1:19:00
  has
• 1:19:00
  built
• 1:19:01
  her
• 1:19:01
  power
• 1:19:01
  brick
• 1:19:02
  by
• 1:19:02
  brick,
• 1:19:02
  heartbreak
• 1:19:03
  by
• 1:19:03
  breakthrough,
• 1:19:04
  and
• 1:19:05
  she's
• 1:19:05
  done
• 1:19:05
  it
• 1:19:05
  all
• 1:19:06
  while
• 1:19:06
  staying
• 1:19:06
  completely
• 1:19:07
  fiercely
• 1:19:08
  herself.
• 1:19:09
  If
• 1:19:09
  there's
• 1:19:10
  one
• 1:19:10
  thing
• 1:19:10
  we
• 1:19:10
  should
• 1:19:10
  all
• 1:19:11
  take
• 1:19:11
  from
• 1:19:11
  this
• 1:19:11
  episode,
• 1:19:12
  it's
• 1:19:13
  this.
• 1:19:13
  This.
• 1:19:13
  You
• 1:19:14
  don't
• 1:19:14
  have
• 1:19:14
  to
• 1:19:14
  shrink
• 1:19:15
  to
• 1:19:15
  succeed.
• 1:19:16
  You
• 1:19:16
  don't
• 1:19:16
  have
• 1:19:16
  to
• 1:19:17
  soften
• 1:19:17
  to
• 1:19:17
  be
• 1:19:17
  seen.
• 1:19:18
  And
• 1:19:18
  you
• 1:19:18
  don't
• 1:19:19
  have
• 1:19:19
  to
• 1:19:19
  explain
• 1:19:20
  your
• 1:19:20
  standards
• 1:19:20
  to
• 1:19:20
  anyone.
• 1:19:22
  So
• 1:19:22
  be
• 1:19:22
  sure
• 1:19:22
  to
• 1:19:22
  follow
• 1:19:23
  the
• 1:19:23
  iconic
• 1:19:23
  Midlife
• 1:19:24
  wherever
• 1:19:24
  you
• 1:19:25
  get
• 1:19:25
  your
• 1:19:25
  podcasts.
• 1:19:26
  And
• 1:19:26
  watch
• 1:19:26
  the
• 1:19:26
  full
• 1:19:27
  unfiltered
• 1:19:28
  video
• 1:19:28
  episode
• 1:19:29
  on
• 1:19:29
  YouTube
• 1:19:29
  tomorrow,
• 1:19:30
  follow
• 1:19:31
  us
• 1:19:31
  on
• 1:19:31
  Social
• 1:19:31
  at
• 1:19:32
  the
• 1:19:32
  Iconic
• 1:19:32
  Midlife
• 1:19:33
  and
• 1:19:33
  me
• 1:19:34
  radcarvetroxy
• 1:19:35
  for
• 1:19:35
  more
• 1:19:36
  bold,
• 1:19:36
  brilliant
• 1:19:37
  midlife
• 1:19:37
  realness.
• 1:19:38
  Until
• 1:19:39
  next
• 1:19:39
  time,
• 1:19:39
  walk
• 1:19:40
  in
• 1:19:40
  like
• 1:19:40
  you
• 1:19:40
  own
• 1:19:41
  the
• 1:19:41
  place,
• 1:19:41
  because
• 1:19:42
  you
• 1:19:42
  probably
• 1:19:42
  do.