I’m Going Through a Second Death in My Awakening

Inner Pondering · Oct 13, 2026 · 15m

Becoming the spiritual person you were trying to be can still leave you exhausted when another identity has taken the place of the old one.

In this reflective transmission, Nikki sits with the deeper emptiness that can come after spiritual awakening — when the old roles begin to dissolve, but even the seeker, the healed one, the spiritual identity, and the need to become something better begin to fall away too. What once felt like growth can start to feel like another mask when the ego is still trying to be someone inside the awakening.

For the quiet seeker moving through inner shift, this…