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My Family Doesn't Appreciate my Accomplishments · Brett Keane and Eve Show

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I am the way I am. One of the toughest things
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growing up is whenever you come to the realization that no
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matter what you do in your life, no matter how much you
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accomplished, those closest to you, those who are supposed to
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be genetically, tied to you and bonded to you, whenever they
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show that, they don't appreciate anything.
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You do that. They don't care about anything
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that you've ever created. And he projects anything that
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you have made that you put your heart and soul and passion into
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When they tell you, they have no interest whatsoever or say
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nothing at all. It's probably one of the most
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painful things that a child or an adult can deal with.
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And I know there's a lot of you out there like that.
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A lot of you who've went through some of the experiences that I
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have some of you probably did really, really well in school.
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But instead of people appreciating you for it, they
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feel as though, it was just simply expected, it's either
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they throw you You in the deep end and they say, well, you're
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either going to swim or you're going to drown.
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It's really up to you and that's their attitude about it.
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So you do well in school. You go on to do in college, you
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go on to making something of yourself and still these people.
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See no value in you. And of course, you're saying to
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yourself. Why did they even give birth to
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me? Why did they bring me into the
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world? They don't care about anything.
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I do. And some of you out there,
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you've got family members wear Are they never appreciated you?
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They never supported you. But when you started doing good
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for yourself, when your things or your product started selling
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all of a sudden they started coming out of the woodwork and
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wanting a handout. Are they wanted something given
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to them? Are they wanted to get a piece
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of the pie so they could get some kind of credibility or
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acknowledgement off your back. I've had that happen a lot to me
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as a kid as well as an adult. It's an experience I've had to
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deal with and I suppose we'll talk about how I put up with it
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and how it just doesn't drive me.
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Absolutely insane. And make me want to do a palsy
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go and drive off the damn Bridge goodness.
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When I was a kid, obviously I've said this before, my father
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ended leaving very early and my life.
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When I was brought into the world, he would eventually come
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back every once in a while just long enough to get my mother
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pregnant again. And then, of course, it was my
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mother who had a lot of mental issues that caused her to sleep,
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going to Violent hostile rages. And sometimes she got so bad me
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as well as my siblings, but end up in foster care.
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And when you're in foster care, usually you're put in with five
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or ten other kids or a It until home, or some kind of
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organization where you grow up and wherever the system can find
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a bed for you to throw you in. A lot of these type of people,
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they don't really show any kind of interest in what you're doing
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either because they have all these other kids I got to worry
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about and unfortunately when you get put in places in the system,
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some of these places they do it, not because they love kids and
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they want to raise kids, but because they get a hefty
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paycheck from the government to do that.
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I've often wondered. Why is it that on wealthy or
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poor parents are parents, who are bad?
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Odd on their luck or something like crappy happened to them in
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the family structure becomes unstable.
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What isn't the government? Send them a check?
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You know, why why take kids out of place?
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Because there's not enough food or, you know, enough Necessities
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when you can just send you, no money to the family themselves
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so they can take care of their kid.
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Obviously, there's some families out there that would rather go
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out and buy smack and cocaine off of of the street or spend
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their nightly money on a prostitute as opposed to taking
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care of their newborn baby and I could go on all damn day about
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that. But in my personal experiences,
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I the only thing that I ever seem to get appreciated about
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whenever came to my creativity or imagination, whenever came to
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family was music. And I did an entire video about
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why I walked away from music and musicians and all that you guys
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can check that out if you want. But when I first started doing
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music, I was doing a lot of cover tunes, like I had my
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mother. Be watching a soap opera on
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television or something like Young and the Restless or Bold
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and the Beautiful. And I would pull out my little
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organ and learn how to play it, like five minutes and she
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thought that was the coolest thing ever.
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Now, if I tried to play an original or I tried to play
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something that I made up and she wouldn't even be distracted from
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her television show, she just go on doing anything unless it was
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something that she liked her, she cared about, then what I was
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doing, didn't really matter. Either it wasn't important or
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significant. That's one of the reasons why
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she and I didn't get along too. Well whenever I was a young man
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either because if she wanted to go to church and I didn't want
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to because I was playing, my friends are doing other things,
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you would get a threat, you know, told you going to get
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kicked out of the house or something like that.
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If you didn't like attend a church or get in the car with
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her and go where she wants to, it's the way it was, that's the
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way life had been So obviously later on my life I made a couple
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CD albums and I ended up writing some books.
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I started writing whenever I was a teenager well I was in foster
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care. I didn't like constantly having
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ten kids all over me in a foster care or wherever I was existing
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at the time. So I would go into a room and I
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wrote all kinds of material and content.
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Filled tons of notebooks up and it was my way of escaping the
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world and reality. I basically created families and
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Covenants in a fantasy world where good was versus evil.
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If you were to look at some of my older books that I had
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written whenever I was a teenager back, when I was just
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starting out and learning how to even ride in the first place.
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You would probably get the an underground or underworld vibe
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from it. You know, if you've ever seen
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underworld before, it's basically a story about a family
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of vampires, a covenant that is at war with werewolves.
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Well, my book was a lot more bigger than that and it was
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before underworld. It was vampires Angels, demons
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werewolves. Every mythological character
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that you can Think of versus each other in the hopes to
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dominate the world. And of course, the human race
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was in the middle of it, and it was definitely a world.
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That was completely different and many, many ways than our
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world today. Just, you could literally in my
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story here about a werewolf, or a vampire fighting to the death
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and the middle of the street out in public, which is not
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something you would ever see. In reality, was pure, Fantasy.
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Pure fiction that kind of content nowadays, I've written a
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few books and I actually have a new book that's going to release
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which is going to be my autobiography.
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It's a book about my life, it's not just about my existence but
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also what I did through social media, as well as my personal
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life and all that, all the bad, all the good.
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I told my wife, if I'm going to write a book about my life, I
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want people to be able to know the negative stuff, as well as
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good stuff. I don't want to portray myself
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as some kind of hero or super character and didn't want to
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make it appear as though I was always right or writing myself,
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as some anthropomorphic character that unrealistically
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seems to be able to survive and win at everything it does, or
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it's overpowered like the tick off the new Star Wars movies,
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because it's not the way my life is ever been.
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I've always felt that it was distasteful.
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Whenever actor says her, actors are famous people go and get
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somebody some professional Ghostwriter to write their story
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for them. And of course, they rarely ever
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write about the negative stuff unless they feel like it's a way
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that they can slight someone else that they don't like, but
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they rarely paint them self as, you know, a person who's done
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wrong. Or bad or are made mistakes and
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all that. I do not enjoy books like that.
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I enjoy hearing about how people struggled, how they suffered,
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how they went to hell and back, and then ended up somehow,
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someway, surviving the obstacles in their life.
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Like what people actually do in real life and the truth is, in
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reality. Not everybody wins.
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Not everybody is the fastest in a race, not everyone's the
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smartest, not everyone, Superbook smart, some people are
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Street Smart, some people can survive out in the jungle and
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some people can survive being the, like, a big CEO or
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something of a corporation. Well, I end up writing these
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books obviously, and I had felt like a because of my family
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structure and what was going on. I didn't have the self-esteem or
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confidence to ever even tried to publish those first books.
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My Trilogy 20 notebooks that were all written out the idea of
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sitting down and actually, typing all that out.
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Just seemed like it was a waste of time.
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Why even bother I'll Ever get published, nothing will ever
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happen. I had that kind of attitude but
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my wife, she ended up looking through all my material and my
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content. And she thought there was a lot
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there, that was good. And then redeemable and worth
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actually keeping she loved me, she cared about me and she
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supported me and it was very unusual for me to be married to
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a person like this because all of my life I had always had the
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expectation or the idea that people who claim to love me
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aren't Necessarily going to care about what I have to say, or
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what I'm doing, or what I accomplished.
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She was a real breath of fresh air.
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She really showed me what love was and what it meant to support
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someone and all that. But my wife and some friends got
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together, they ended up putting the books together and we ended
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up getting self-published. We did try a couple big
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publishing companies but trying to publish a book is just as
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challenging or difficult and trying to get signed as a band.
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There are thousands of bands in this world that are absolutely
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talented. Some of them more talented than
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the filth that you see on Mt. TV or some of these music
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stations are what you hear on the radio, but the problem is
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that it's someone's Choice. Someone may listen to the music
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but not like the way the band looks and decide.
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I can't sell the image music has become very image oriented.
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You got to be willing to wear big stupid, hats act, dumb dance
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with practically naked, women and videos and you got to
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basically serve as Ariel type music Industries, usually like
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to go along with whatever culture seems the like at the
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time and if it seems make money then they'll just simply put
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copy after copy copy you know Carbon copies of Eminem are
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carbon copies of a TV 80's bands and they'll never change until
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somebody somehow manages to break through and then if that
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turns out good, then that's what the next 10 years is going to
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be. B.
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And that's how music follows will books.
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You the same way. And unfortunately because a lot
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of people are more Visual and they get into like television
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and they get into You know, watching things on the screen,
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whether it's through Facebook or Twitter or YouTube, a lot of
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people aren't really into reading anymore.
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Why? I read something why?
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I read a comic book, some kind of comic book that's got
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beautiful. Arden it when you can watch the
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animated series on television, are you can watch a movie where
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you can just sit back on your ass and not put any kind of
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concentration on it whatsoever and just watch whatever is being
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sludged at you. That way, no point in even
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bothering to read a book, who gives a shit what the characters
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are actually thinking, or what they're feeling, what's just
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have, the cookie cutter superhero or character, you
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know, do the event that we want and then, you know, a
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predetermined outcome that we think that the audience May
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appreciate or like and then make the big bucks.
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And of course, if we don't get the big bucks, then there's no
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sequels nothing happens. We don't continue on with That
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anymore, even if it may have been a success to a majority,
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the people it's all about the money, really?
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Well, obviously after we got my books published, I ended up
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sending a bowl, cookbooks out the different family members.
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I gave copies of my book to my sister, my brother.
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The this is the original Eternal Undying Love series that I had
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the first books I wrote whenever I was a teenager and I also sent
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a bulk of books out to the grandmother that's still alive.
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I have a grandmother on my mother's side.
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He passed away from Cancer. But the grandmother on the other
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side is from my father's side and she's like this, real
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Commando strict type of woman who basically is very
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controlling manipulative and does not ever have anything to
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do with her grandkids and I thought that she might
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appreciate me and see that. I've actually done something
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that I am valuable enough to actually spend time with or talk
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to or even bother to give me a phone call.
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So, I sent her out. The entire Trilogy of Eternal
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Undying Love. Well, what she did was one day
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she stops by and it surprised me because she didn't call and tell
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me she was going to show up. She ends up coming in.
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He sits down with a box in her hand and I say, hey, how you
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doing all that? And she brings along one of her
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daughters. Who is basically a sibling of my
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father? And she said, I stopped by.
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I was in the area. I'm going to be going to St.
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Louis for something, I forget what it was.
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And she said I wanted to return these to you, and she opened up
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the box and it was my books. There was no folds or bends.
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She had never even bothered to read any of them.
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She didn't even bother to open them.
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And look at what they the contents inside of the
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substance. Anything she said, well, you
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know, I appreciate you sending. The books but I don't like the
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covers. It's too dark.
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It's too, it's too like rough-looking.
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So I didn't bother to read them and I go well that's that's sad
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to hear. You've had them for almost a
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year now and he didn't. He didn't even read like a
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couple lines or chapter. Nope, didn't do that.
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Just not my type of thing. I was like, you even know what
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the books are about. I did have a big summary and
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description on the back of the books.
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She could have cheated and actually claimed that she want
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looked at some of that are at least read the description.
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But she goes now, I seen your artwork, I senior graphic design
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stuff that you did and I just it didn't appeal to me whatsoever.
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And I kept thinking to myself while I was sitting there and I
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said, well Grandma, you could have just kept the books, put
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them on your shelf, let him pick up some dust or something.
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You didn't have to, you know, I hardly are rarely ever see you
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or talk to. You could have just simply kept
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the books. And, you know, gave me that
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weird idea that, you know, that they were important enough for
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you to keep, but she wouldn't even love.
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Let me have that she wouldn't even Allow me the delusion or
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the ignorance of bliss, to be able to believe that they were
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important enough to even have setting on her table.
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Nope. So she gave him back to me and I
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remember my wife looked at me like what a bitch.
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My wife actually said that after she left what a bitch and to be
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honest with you, she is a bitch. That's a that's a very hateful
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ignorant thing to do. And it did break my heart.
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It caused me to feel like shit. I was like my goodness.
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She didn't even give it a chance.
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She didn't even give it an opportunity and, of course, my
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siblings were the same way. I've always tried to go out of
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my way. Anytime my brother says, I've
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got a new song. I wrote, brother, I sit down.
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I listen to a song and sometimes we listen to it 10 times.
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And I tell him, Man, this is good stuff.
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You did really great. I love the way the stumps.
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I like the way the so logos and I really give him a lot of
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feedback and support but not once in my entire life is my
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brother and sister ever actually looked at any of my projects,
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the only time my brother ever, listen to anything I did was
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whenever he was involved or participated in the music
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himself back whenever he was younger later on, he didn't want
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to hear anything I had to do. He did not want to have anything
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to do with my slow music or my bow LEDs, or my more chill
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stuff. It all had to be heavier thrash
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or just basically it was it had to have a certain image to it or
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certain feel or just wasn't no good.
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And that's sad because he and I we'd always we grown up on a lot
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of the same music. We listen to Queen.
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Elton John Megadeth Metallica Slayer and then we could turn
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around listen to To Journey, you know, great white, all the
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slower bands, sting, you know, just everything that you can
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imagine what I could turn their, I could listen to Richard Marx,
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I'll be waiting for you and then turn around.
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Listen to something hateful, like deicide or something.
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I don't know at what point in time, he Became so very narrow
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and his use of music. Or at least when performing it,
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it just somehow happened. And what's sad about it too.
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Is he's a prodigy. He's capable of doing blues, and
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ballads and melodic stuff. He just doesn't want to do that.
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He wants to do thrash and heavy metal, which I like, I enjoy.
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And I've always supported him on it, but I can't get the man to
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act. Actually read a page of a book.
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Now, I will give him credit for this, unlike my grandmother and
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some of my other family members, my brother did tell me that he
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did, open it up and he looked at some of the pictures and thought
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it was pretty cool. He does like the covers of my
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books but he just didn't find the time to be able to ever read
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it. And neither did my sister and
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the justification is that they're busy people, which they
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are. I give them that.
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It's too bad. They couldn't at least read one
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single chapter or paragraph though but that's how the cookie
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crumbles. Hmm, like I said, people, I'm
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trying to get out the cigarettes.
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I smoke Vapors, a lot. That's what I'm doing back here
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whenever I pause or hold for a bit.
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So, I mean, a lot of kids, in a lot of adults, you have your
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projects, you have used things that you work on, and obviously,
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whenever I spent the last 10 years to an atheist videos, my
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family was constantly shutting Army for that, you know, they
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were like, oh, you lack a belief in God, you know, that's that's
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terrible, that's satanic. That's he will blah, blah, blah
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and all that. So I had to put up with that for
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the longest time I had basically almost made a career of doing
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atheist videos and of course, no one in the family appreciated
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that they didn't want to see it, they didn't want to hear about
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it. And they actually felt almost
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embarrassed with the idea of going out in public with me
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because they were religious. And I was not So it's been like
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that all the way up into my adulthood and I feel for all the
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kids out there as well as adults, were you busted your
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ass? And you've done really, really
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good work. And you put a lot of time into
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what you've done in a lot of passion and that happens.
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So the next question you might ask me.
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Well, what about strangers? My books have sold pretty good,
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even the older stuff I've had people It does feel as though
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there are more haters and trolls who spend more time we seem to
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have enough time in their life to be able to either burn your
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book on a video or they'll buy it and then they'll burn it just
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make you. I guess they think that's going
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to hurt my feelings or something or they'll go over and say oh he
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writes like a 12 year old or something like that.
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Where your supporters and your fans don't put a whole lot of
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effort into actually telling you what they think I've had tons.
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Tons and tons of people tell me behind the scenes, man, when you
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write your next book, I love this and they described the
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story to you and who their favorite characters are and all
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that. And that feels awesome.
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That feels great but I also even one ever comes to like haters.
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If a hater actually looked through the book and made it
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through two chapters and they gave it a chance to me, that's
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an accomplishment if they hate it.
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The words, well, that's their business.
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That's their feelings. But at least I gave it a shot.
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At least they put the money forward to actually, you know,
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by something that I put my heart and soul into and gave it much
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more than what my family ever would.
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That actually makes me feel good.
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If they say they read it and it didn't work out for them then,
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you know, there's no feelings hurt, there's no sadness,
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there's no, oh, Oh, no, they didn't get it or whatever,
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because I know that not everything is everybody's cup of
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tea. I know that some music, I listen
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to other people. Won't I know that some things
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that people draw forms of art, people are just simply not going
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to gravitate towards. So I get that, but if someone's
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willing to look at your painting, if someone's willing
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to listen to your song are willing to read some of your
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material. Whether they walk away from it,
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loving and her hating it, you have to give them the credit and
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Pat them on the back for at least.
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Trying to give it a shot. Basically, what I'm saying is,
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I'd rather people try and put an effort than not.
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Try at all. And I'm not just saying that to
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the people who are the audience, who absorbs, the art that
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they're looking at. I'm talking about the artist
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himself. Don't give up.
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Don't allow other people's negativity.
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Stop you from accomplishing something that you want to do.
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If you decide that you want to write a book or draw comic book
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or you want to make music, don't do it.
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Because you think it's going to make you money.
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Don't do it. Because you think people will
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like you more do it because you inside yourself love it and it's
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what you want to do. Because if you base it on what
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other people think, people are stupid.
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People are brittle and fragile people.
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They don't some people don't even know what actual art is.
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Some people don't give a damn about art.
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Some people would take a Mona Lisa and wipe their ass with it.
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They don't care. Some people will dump on a
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painting to simply because it was painted by a religious
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person or because it was painted by a non-believer.
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If there's some kind of character trait, they don't like
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about a person then they'll take a perfectly beautiful
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constructed piece of art and wipe their ass with it.
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So you can't depend on what an audience thinks or what people
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think. When you're writing, you have to
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write because this is a story. You want to tell?
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This is a story that needs to be hurt.
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This is the art that needs to happen.
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This is from you. This is not from them.
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And that's how I'm able to continuously.
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Do my graphic design work, it's how I'm able to continue to do
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my art, it's how I do my videos and all that, and you know
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what's, what some of you might actually think that this is a
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kick in the teeth as well. But even though I'm a Christian
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now and I'm making videos about God, my family still thinks that
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I'm incorrect or and how I feel. So now they're telling me they
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won't even Look at my God videos.
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They won't even look at this stuff where I'm actually
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promoting even their own beliefs and ideas.
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And what I do is I look at it for what it is, it's not that
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these people have a problem with my book.
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It's not that these people have a problem with my art, are my
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music or my videos. The fact is they just don't give
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a shit at all. They don't care.
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And the truth is, when you really think about it and this
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is going to be cold. Some people are going to hate
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this for the family members out there who don't appreciate your
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accomplishments, and the people out there who want to run their
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mouths off in a dark corner, every one of these people most
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likely never accomplish it in their life, nine times out of
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ten. Most of these people who don't
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even give it a shot or shit on. You have never written a book in
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their life. I've never painted a masterpiece
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or a portrait will never know what it feels like to be on a
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stage and perform a song that they originally created.
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None of these people will ever have that experience.
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They will never even know what it's like to put that kind of
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passion, love and commitment in the something, so my advice is
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fuck what they think. Do it because you love it.
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Do it because it's right, don't do it for money.
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Don't do it for pussy. Don't do it for fame and fortune
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or the inflate, your ego, do it because you love it.
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Because I'll tell you what if you do it completely and you
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commit yourself because you love it when other people start
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showing that they love it, just as half as much as you do, it's
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going to make you feel so good inside.
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You're going to the more and more positive things that are
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actually said and done. The more accomplished, you're
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going to feel because you know, that everything that you put
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your heart into, it's a piece of you.
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It's a piece of your soul. And everything goes up from
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there. Ladies and gentlemen, I hope you
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enjoyed the video and I hope this inspires you and motivates
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you to be able to get through the darkness and over the
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obstacles and make something that's beautiful.
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God bless.