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DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ EPISODE #173_ HOST BLAQUE DIAMOND · DA CREW Podcast

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Hey everybody, this is Black Diamond from the Crew Network and you're listening
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gives you what you ask for. You know, I wanted to figure out
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what type of topic I was going to do tonight. So what I did
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was, as I was preparing for this topic, I did a little research.
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I went to the Bible. I wanted to know what the Bible says
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about peculiar God's chosen people. Well, I'm talking about one person. The
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Bible uses the word peculiar to describe God's chosen people. The word peculiar means
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being distinctive, being an individual, not a follower. The King James version
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of the Bible, first published in sixteen eleven, includes the verse for thou
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art a holy people unto the Lord. Thy God and the Lord have chosen
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thee to be a peculiar people unto himself, above all the nations that are
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upon the earth. One Peter two and nine reads, but ye are a
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chosen one. It is likely due to a desire to avoid the suggestion of
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odd, the modern translators have changed it to special, which describes my guest
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tonight. She carries a more positive implication. She has the characteristics of being
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only one of a kind. Yes she is. Please welcome the Peculiar Princess
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to Basic Black after Dark heading their Baby. Listen, you and Angela missed
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me up because when I hear y'all introductions, I was like, oh,
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I need to put that in my bio. Y'all make me sound so good
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like peculiar as you have said it, as you have broken It's we don't
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realize how wonderful it is to be peculiar, to be one of a kind,
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and people look at being odd as being negative when it's not. I'm
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so I I can only be what Beyonce say, one on one, I'm
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number one, the only one, because that's how he created me. So
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first of all, thank you so much for having me on the show.
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My love, Thank you so much. No, thank you for being here.
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I appreciate y'all just started following you, and I'm like, you know
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what the peculiar princess is. It definitely is you. You're a woman who
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knows exactly who you are and will not hesitate to tell anyone. You walk
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the catwalk and you are prepared to walk into your greatness. What is the
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most significant change you've seen to yourself over the past few years to where I
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don't have to be in control. I'm not saying that I've mastered it.
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I'm saying that when it comes to the process and the progress in the way
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that the creator designed it, it looks totally different than what I would have
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thought. I had my little life all planned out from when I was in
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elementary school, where I was going to go to school, what I was
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going to do, how I was gonna do it, where I was going
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to live, and my life looks nothing like the plans that I had designed.
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But his designs are so impactful that even as I walk it out step
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by step, even in the uncomfortableness, because it doesn't feel comfortable to not
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always know why you're going somewhere, who you're going to meet when you get
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there because sometimes it's just me. I'm traveling, but it's just me and
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how he's going to do it, because you would think if he told you
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what the end was supposed to be, well, I think it should go
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this way. I have no clue as to who I'm sent there for how
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long it's going to take, what I'm gonna say. After one show,
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one girl said, I'm gonna look you up on Facebook because you bless me.
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I don't even remember doing anything but just being me. But he told
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me that's what I need, because you've been looking at yourself as a hindrance,
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a hindrance and not allowing you to even step out. Now I just
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step out boldly. If you accept me, you accept me, there's nothing
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going to change because of your opinion, and I'm free so being able to
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let go the reins and knowing that the outcome is going to be good.
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Are we all playing every now and again as far as our future? We
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even playing what we're gonna wear to work, what we're going for lunch.
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But anytime he wants to make a shift and make a change, he's gonna
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make a shift, and he's gonna make a change. We have no control
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over It's nice to plan because you never know. But at the same time,
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when he say move, you move. Sometimes you ain't even got to
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say you move. You gonna know something that right, I have to move.
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So I definitely get what you're saying. What is the most significant challenge
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you have faced in your career and how did you overcome it. I am
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an introvert. I know you can't tell it on my page, you can't
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tell it in person, but I prefer to be by myself. Like when
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I'm by myself, like I have whole I mean, I'm the whole concert,
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like I'm the lead singer, I'm the background, I'm the dancers,
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I'm everything and love it. So when I get out amongst people and it
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could be a small group, it doesn't matter. I have to just allow
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him to be him because the desire for me is to not be in front
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of I would love to be in the background. I would love to be
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setting up the scenes, behind the scenes, but he's put me in the
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forefront. It's that right. I still can't stand it. I know that
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sounds awful. I still can't stand it, but I'm going to do it,
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and I'm going to withstand it because that's what I'm called to do.
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But like, I plan days where I do absolutely nothing, and those are
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my favorite days. So there are some days when I have a full day
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like today, where on last night, just thinking about the schedule had me
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kind of panicking. So I had to calm down, I had to breathe,
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I had to tell myself, he built you for this, he put
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this together. If anything is counseled, that's great, but if not,
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then you already know. So the challenge for me is getting outside my head
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to know this is what's got to be done. On today, a full
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day, it's really a challenge for me. And usually, like if we
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have a fashion show, you got to be there at ten am. The
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show don't start till six, but you got to be there that morning for
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all of them. So I'm usually there twelve hours or more and I have
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to rain in the any feelings that I feel to process and do what he's
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called me to do. And a lot of people don't see that and they
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don't believe it. But no, it's a process to be an introvert and
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want to be by yourself, but you'll put in the midst of an entire
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group of people with all kinds of stuff going on, and you still got
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a function in your right mind in the midst of chorled chaos, like it's
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controlled chaos, but it's still chaos. If that makes sense. It does,
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it does. You had mentioned several times that you feelings though that you're
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an introvert, but you can't tell it. You know, the mind plays
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so many tricks on so many people, that perception of someone else, how
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you perceive a person, it can trick you. But one thing that I
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see that's fascinating is down how you perceive yourself and your mind is still playing
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tricks in because you may think that you're one way, but girl, you
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could be something totally different, and somebody else can see that in you.
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And that's the That's just the wonderful thing about life and the wonderful thing about
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individuals and us being called individuals. Now you're also modeling. Modeling has come
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full circle in the African American community, and you're killing the game because I've
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seen a lot of your pictures. I've seen you walk that catboard, I've
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seen I've seen a lot. How accepted is the modeling industry for African Americans
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in places like Paris, like Milan and in Germany. Well, I will
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know next year. I've got accepted to Paris Fashion Week, I'm going to
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apply to London. London will be in September, and Mulne is close to
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One of my friends told me. They was like, Milan is close though,
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like you can hit London and you can hit Milan at the same time.
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And I didn't even I'm not knowledgeable about geography, so I did not
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know that. But she pulled it up on a map and I was like,
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I can knock two birds out with one stone, that being oh my
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god, like you know, Paris Fashion Week, London Fashion Week, that's
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huge. So I remember sitting on my bed, I was by myself,
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and before I sat down in that bed, he said Paris Fashion Week.
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I said, if you're telling me that you're sending me, then you're making
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the way. You gave me the provision, You're gonna make the way.
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And that's all I'm say because I don't even want that's so big, and
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so I'm excited to even see what's going on, the outfits, the atmosphere.
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I won't have to let you know, you don't have to get me
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back on the show, so that you know I will. We ever got
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to ask, you know, I will as soon as that rose I was
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for you. Now, look have you done that? You do New York
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Fashion Week? Ant? Yes, I've done two seasons of New York Fashion
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Week? Bananas when I tell you that when I first got accepted, And
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to know that this man also had looked at this producer had also watched my
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page and told me, I see what you're doing for the community. I
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see what you're doing with the young people. Keep it up. That blew
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my mind because he's over there and he travels like he vacations in Paris.
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Girl, that type of gold thing. And for him to say that to
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me, that was bananas. And so I got there. He had chosen
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my models. I've got models that will still walk for me every season after
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meeting me, after my styling them. And I'm talking about even to I've
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got some babies, like I've got some ten year olds. I got some
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eleven year olds, and they'll tell their parents because they can walk in more
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than one show, some people up to like four shows. I definitely want
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to talk to you about the babies and the younger people you have Latanya here,
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who was saying that she loves your hairstyles, she loves your hand you
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know what I'm saying. I'm not one of those salad eating chicks. Yes,
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how is it for a plus sized model to be in New York Fastion
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Week and also over in Milan? Because I know at one time over in
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Paris you had to be tweaky thin. Now, what is it like over
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there now? Because I've seen some plus size models, but not necessarily over
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there. It is they are killing the game. They even now, I
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didn't read the whole flyer. I just saw casting call, Okay. I
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reached out and the person was like, and I'm laughing, like hilarious,
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baby, you too little. This is for curvy women, you are,
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And I bust that laugh and I said, I'm so sorry I didn't read
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the whole flyar. But no, baby, they are busting open the doors.
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They are killing the runway, and they are even having their own even
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in the model I mean in the pageant circuit. The pageantry circuit, they've
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got their own Miss Curvy division where you have to be a certain size to
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even And I'm talking about they're with the tiaras, with the gowns that hit
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the floor out there strutting their stuff. They are a force to be reckoned
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with. And I believe that once that door became open to them, something
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that they hadn't even seen, the thought could be done. They was like,
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no, you didn't, and they kicked the door down. So now
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when I tell you that they are giving the skinny girls a run for their
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money, they are doing it like I'm so proud, so that when they
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come to tell mind, because I've got Pecuiar Princess boutique as well styling the
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models, and they'll come over, do you have something my size? I
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said, baby Bee, yes I do, and to dress them and they
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be like, oh my god. You made me feel so good because a
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lot of people that I'll go to they'll be like, oh, well have
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your size. We don't go up to your size. I said, no,
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I carry all sizes because I want the whole rainbow, I want the
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whole flow. I want that whole attitude. I want everybody to see everything
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from children to adults, so that they can see that there's no limit to
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what peculiar princess will do. I'm just so proud to hear that because you
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don't see too many people doing it. Now, somebody here the Crew podcast,
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which is part of what I'm a part of. They're saying that you're
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from Anderson, South, and she's so proud of you, so happy for
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you. You're a duer. What would you say is your most important quality
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for success? Oh my god, if you don't be consistent? There are
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days when listen like I even I don't want to get out of the bed.
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I'm telling you, I don't want to get out of the bed.
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But me, I have a list every day of to do list, even
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if on that list is to do nothing. Okay, so even when I
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do nothing, I get up and doing that was crazy, but it's so
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true. I won't lay there and do nothing. I will get up and
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do nothing and sit in that chair and I don't look cute because I don't.
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I'll still be in my pajamas, but I'll get up to do nothing.
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I never even realized that until I just said that. So consistency I
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have. I have goals every day every day. I have the goals.
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And that's why I was telling you. Would you say that you're controversial,
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Yes, I am. I don't I don't intend to be. I don't
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set out to be. You want everybody to to you know, they're not
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gonna yes you, but you you do want so much agreement. I don't
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get a lot of that. I get a lot of people that come to
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me. Most of them come in the inbox. They don't come on the
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uh timeline. But I stay in tenth toal damn what they say I stand
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on business, I don't. It doesn't You can't sway me. You used
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to be able to. But then when I I feel like my voice wasn't
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heard, I felt like I had to speak up. I had to step
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up, I had to show up. So now you can say it,
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but it's not gonna sway me. I almost said, I'm just saying,
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hey, let's go BBW S. So tell me. Do you know what
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BWS sends for? Is it big black body women? Is that big body
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women? I think I know there's an s big bold women something. I
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don't know what it is, but whatever it is, it got the word
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bigger than I'm all for it. I'm all for it, so I don't
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care what the rest of it says. I'm all for it. Alma.
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I like that. I like that. Now I see that. Of course
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you said you can't be controversial with sometimes what is your pet peeve? Oh
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my god, I don't know how to say it in one word, but
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this is what I get. I'm a doer. If I see it needs
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to be done and I can do it, I'm gonna do it. It's
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people that see it stuff that need to be done, but they'll bring it
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to me. Why if he spoke to you about why you bringing it to
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me? I've got a whole lot on my plate. I'm talking about I
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got a meet in three big beautiful women's slave. Okay, bad, that's
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back. So I have a lot of people that see that I do,
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and so they will bring me there. And there's nothing wrong with bringing me
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your vision if you want me to come alongside, if if you've invested in
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me, even in showing up to a show or something like that. But
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most of the people I get, they haven't shown up to anything, not
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even sharing a post, and they want me to put their vision together so
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that they can carry it out, like they want me to put their clothes
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on. I address myself. I can style you, but if that's not
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part of my purpose, then I can so a lot of people want to
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pimp your gift. It irritates me, but I don't know what that's called.
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You just called it. You called it out there, you said pimp
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your gifts, so then you just called it. So. You're also an
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author your book therapy title Therapy. You once said this book was written during
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your healing process and that you held onto so many things for years and it
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was causing you to suffer in your daily living. Are you healed now and
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if so, how were you delivered? Listen, listen. You know there
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was a time when black people said, depress yourself into that kitchen. You
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ain't the prayer. You know what I'm saying. The church, well,
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go and get prayered. So they weren't helping you through anything. They were
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dummy diagnosing you, and that didn't help. One. I had issues with
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my mom, okay, but I didn't know my mom's story until after.
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And y'all gonna be shocked. But don't be shocked. I mean, this
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happens, but it just most people don't see this. I punched my mom
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in the face and went to jail. We were having issues. It came
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to a head and exploded. I did hit her. I was wrong I'm
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not saying that I was not. I'm saying that when they took me to
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jail and I sat in that holding cell, I said, all the years
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of you trying to get your mom to love you, and not that she
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didn't love me, but in the way that you know, we look for
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a certain way, We have our own love language. You will not be
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trying to get anybody else to like you. You will not be people pleasing
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any longer. When you get out this joint, it's going to be about
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you, and you are not going to be triggered by everything. You are
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going to not be reacting to something that somebody says, who didn't do anything
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to you, but because it took you back to a place, you set
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something out of pocket. And you were going to write this book, which
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I had written before when my son was in elementary school, and then after
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I got through, I deleted the entire book because I put stuff in there
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that I didn't tell anybody. So therapy was named because every day I figutive
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le laid down on the counch and I was both the therapist and I was
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the client, the patient, and I labeled them like one misunderstood my lessation
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like I named it, and then whatever puss I pushed out of that wound,
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that's what I put on paper. Wow, So finally I finished it
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like it's got stuff in there, like my dad is my second cousin,
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which means he's my mom's first cousin. And I believe that that had some
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of the issue of why that she had an issue with me, because that's
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family within family. It happened. I knew who my dad was, even
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at a young age, will actually treat my the dad that raised me as
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his own badly. Sometimes when I was miserable, it wasn't even him that
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reacting. Loved that man, He's God, No love that man. So
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it was stuff like that that I put in that book, and I told
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my mom. We talked about it after I got out of jail. We
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sat down, talked she went through hell, but like we didn't know that
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until we sat down and spoke, had a conversation, and I said,
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you should have been wrote the book say that people don't know other people's stories
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and they just go for it. So after writing this, you mentioned you
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could see so much more clearly and that you are a different individual because of
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the situation. You also stated that you verbally. I don't like using the
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words. I'll say, Well, let's say that you there was an eruption
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of fluid from your stomach onto paper. What did you mean by that?
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All the hurt came up, all the ugly came up, all the wounds
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came up. I bled in the book. It was massy. That book
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is not cute. My god, that book is not cute. That book
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is is not happy. That book was coming from being a mental, physical,
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emotional wreck and standing like a palm tree at the end where I might
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be in but I'm not gonna break. It started out with somebody like coming
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out of you. I got set free in jail. I got set free
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in a holding cell, talking to myself. We're not gonna keep going through
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these cycles. Forty eight years old and still not healed from childhood. We're
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not doing that no more. Got that off me. Sent that I felt
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like it was, you know how you gods up a wound. I felt
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like that's what it was. Sent it to the publisher. The publisher said,
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I read that book. I sat it down and went and talked to
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my mom. Found out some things about my mom because me and my mom
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was having issues. Another lady read the book, called me crying. I
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can't finish it. I can't finish it. It's some things I can relate
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to, I said, put the book down. I said process. I
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said, you don't have to finish the book. I said, I said,
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I lived it. I know what you're saying. Another girl, I
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gotta meet you because it was like you wrote my story. I want all
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the people. So many people don't know that their mother, their parents,
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father to or whoever raised them, they have a backstory as well. And
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sometimes we take it for granted because we're looking at the surface and we're saying,
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no, you didn't go through nothing, because you don't think that they
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would have. But they do go through things too, you know they do.
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You have Alma here saying throw some all on me. Now your he
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go ahead, Alma, you up and fort tonight, like what? And
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she's definitely so what you say that your childhood shaped your adulthood? It does?
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You know that script that says all things work together for the good of
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those them the love Lord? What When I first read Now, when I
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first got saved, I didn't have the teaching that I do now. I
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didn't have the mentorship that I do now, so on our hell broke loose.
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I was like, I'm doing something right. Listen. Everything in my
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childhood, from the rejection, from the being bullied, made me stand no
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matter what. It made me be able to take that being controversial. I
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didn't know all that stuff was gonna work for me. There was no way
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I would be able to say what I say and stand on it. That
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bullying back in school had me standing to whether gone, y'all don't like me,
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but I'm gonna have to like myself. You know what I'm saying after
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so many years of trying to get them to accent me and wasn't fitting in
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even when I was trying to fit in. Look stupid trying to fit in
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Because I didn't fit in. I stood out. So I do, I
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say, I don't. I don't think back to my childhood fondly. It
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was so much that went on that I felt like God did not love me.
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I said, there's no way that you can love me and me endure
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the molestation, the bullying, all the things that I went. There's no
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way, Like, where are you when people telling me that you love me?
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But I'm not seeing he ain't that, not realizing that, oh my
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god, the story that was that had been written because this was before the
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foundation. Now it's beautiful. Now the physical I'm still waiting for this physical
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line up with the spiritual. Spiritually, I what's that song that Tasha and
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Nikki are seeing things that I have never seen? Every day I get up
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in anticipation and expectation because I know that he gonna show himself in some shape
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form of fashion on this day, to where I remember reading a verse that
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said the life of the believer is adventurous and I was saying there like,
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no, it's not. No, it's not, lady, I don't know
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what you because it was Gloria Copeland and I was like, no, it's
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not, yes it is. I can't put into words what I have experienced
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since the let go, the I relinquished control. I'm gonna let you,
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and the places that I've been in in spirit and in the natural, I
28:06
wouldn't trade that for nothing. So what do go? What do you think
28:11
people misunderstand you? What do you think people misunderstand you? More for people?
28:19
Do you do people misunderstand you? What do you think that they misunderstand
28:23
about you? But I don't know what the reason is. I don't know.
28:29
I wouldn't know how to answer that, because a lot of times I
28:32
want to know myself because I show up as me. I can't be nobody
28:37
but me. I try that, And so it's not that I expect everybody
28:42
to hear he ha. But it's sometimes while I'm sitting there, like have
28:48
I done something? And it's not. It's not that I've done anything.
28:52
I don't know where the misunderstanding comes in. And back in the day that
28:56
that used to bother me, like they used to tear me up, Like
28:59
I used to want to, hey, you know what's going on. It
29:00
seems to be some but no, he had to let me see, it's
29:04
about you, but not about you. You got to realize that sometimes you're
29:07
gonna walk a rom ca. You know. I'm working on something. And
29:15
one of those, one of the questions that I had for someone else was
29:18
the same thing about misunderstanding. And what I come to find that a lot
29:22
of misunderstanding comes from communication, and sometimes communication you don't even have to say
29:26
a word. You can just merely exist. You can merely exist, and
29:30
some people just misunderstand you without communicating. Because I could be just saying I'm
29:33
standing at the bus stop and you're there and I don't know you at all.
29:37
You know, my it's perception again. It rose right back to it.
29:41
You know, I can just look at somebody or and I shouldn't.
29:45
But this is what happens. We're all walking where I can misunderstand this person,
29:51
you know, and the minute they open their mouth, it's a totally
29:53
different thing. I've been in many situations where a person who misunderstands me,
30:00
I know, grown up. One person would say that you seem to be
30:02
so mean all the time. But then when they started talking to me and
30:03
we got into a conversation, totally different thing. You have no idea what
30:07
my morning was like, especially when you're raising kids. You had a rough
30:11
morning. You're trying to get them, are I They looked that way,
30:15
but try telling with kids early in the morning and you're trying to get to
30:18
work on school. So yeah, look in a certain way, but open
30:22
your mouth and start talking to me. It's like, girl, please,
30:25
we could be talking about anything and people say, you know, I misunderstood
30:29
you, and that happened correct so many times, so many times. I
30:33
like how you because one girl told me. One of my friends said,
30:38
you're intimidating, and I said, what do you mean, I don't do
30:41
anything. She was like, you don't have to. She was like,
30:44
you step in a room, you know who you are, you wear your
30:45
hair, you wear you want to, you dress the way you want to.
30:48
She was like, that intimidates. Some people never even thought about it
30:52
like that, because I'm just showing up, just showing up. So that's
30:56
funny's the type of person because I've heard it come my way, and i
31:00
take it as a compliment that I command a room when I come into a
31:03
room, and I'm okay with that. I am totally okay with that,
31:07
you know, because I know who I am and I'm not saying you don't
31:08
know who you are. But I'm not standing in he worried about you.
31:12
I'm not worried about you. I know why I'm in here, and I
31:15
know what my purpose is for being in here, and we may have the
31:18
same purpose, but we won't know that until we start getting into a conversation.
31:22
So I'm okay with that, you know, And and other people should
31:25
be. It's other people should be told. You know, we're gonna take
31:27
a commercial break right now, we're gonna come right back and talk to the
31:30
princess. I just can't wait to get into this next conversation with you.
31:34
So let's say, okay, we are back with the Peculiar Princess. Before
32:15
we shift gears, I have something I want to ask you. Do you
32:20
have a comedy special? Who? Please tell me who is Lucille? I
32:25
viewed one of your rials and you spoke briefly about Lucille. Who is she?
32:30
No black diamond? Listen, I do that everybody come on my show.
32:36
I look at the wheels. I look at them because I want to
32:37
know who they are. I said, I have to answer who that is?
32:43
Who is she? Remember? Okay, because see I do some of
32:45
them real to promote, either like a designer, a model of small business
32:50
or whatever. So with that one, I was promoting no excuses, who
32:54
has phenomenal clothing, phenomenal designer? But no, you remember that song is
33:00
old and he said, you took a fine time to leave me Lucill with
33:06
four hungry children and the crop in the field. It's a song. So
33:08
when I sat down, it just came to me, and so I just
33:13
did that. And then when I got off I was like, you need
33:15
help. Like I watched it and I crack up. But I this is
33:21
a song and that's the only part I know is the part I sang like.
33:24
I don't know the verses, but I remember that song when I was
33:30
little. I don't know who sings it, but it is an actual song.
33:34
And Lucille left that man and he told up, he is a fine
33:37
time to leave me. He mad, but he that low key comad,
33:39
which is scary. It's scarier than renting rab. I'm so glad you cleared
33:43
that up for me, because as I was looking, I was like,
33:45
what in the world, I said, that's that's a question I have to
33:49
ask. Yes, please go look back at some of her reals because she's
33:54
going off on You'll know why I'm asking who is Lucid. You'll want to
34:00
know who she is. Well, now you know who she is, But
34:01
now you need to go back and see why I asked that question. It
34:06
was just on my mind. I just couldn't wait till I get to tonight.
34:07
Yeah, that's what means, who steal it? Princess? Tell me
34:12
about the Kingdom Ministry's Repromation Center any special Listen, don't nobody want to be
34:19
no pastor. Do you know how hard it is? Like my sister used
34:22
to be back in the day, something wrong with her, someth is wrong
34:24
with her Sonny Maid, my sister, she didn't even go to church like
34:29
we back in the day. She was like, when you get your church,
34:32
And I said, one one I give my church. Well, we're
34:34
gonna have just me and you like, we don't play no games when it
34:37
comes to the kingdo woldn't play no games with God? She kept saying it.
34:42
And so then I was asked a pastor like four years ago, and
34:46
I talked to them. I said, okay, I'm a pray on it,
34:50
even though I know I got to do it. And then I hung
34:52
up with them and call my sister. I said, you did this to
34:54
me. You did this to me, and you're gonna have to come on
34:59
with me. And she was like, okay, well I'll let you know.
35:01
But she's there, and she's this system pastor, and it's a training
35:05
center. It's not a come in. Sing three songs, do the prayer,
35:09
do the scripture, sing another song to the offering. Is you got
35:14
your notebook? Do you have your physical Bible? Okay, do you know
35:16
how to pray? Because I'm about to call on you to pray? All
35:20
right, what in this scenario? You're coming to my house and you're witnessing
35:24
to me. But I got a bad attitude, so I need to see
35:28
what you're gonna do. No, they are trained and equipped, and they
35:31
all praying. They've got to do five minute sermons, which is about to
35:34
go to ten minute sermons. It says in my name, disciples shall speak
35:37
in new tongues. They shall lay hands on the sick, and day shall
35:40
recover. They shall take up serpence. That it don't say Pastor Stephanie is
35:45
gonna be the only one in here and doing all that. No, I
35:46
said, if you a disciple, then we're gonna go by the Bible.
35:50
And a lot of people have told me to my faith. That's why I
35:52
don't come, because I know I gotta work. They are being trained and
35:57
equipped, and they've told me because I tell them, we're a body.
36:01
Y'all talking about members and stuff, which is fine. I said, we're
36:05
members of a body to where even if you're not Reformation center, and you
36:08
might be all a body center, we still come together because for one body
36:14
but in this body, you're gonna be trained. You're gonna recognize, you're
36:17
gonna have a relationship with God. You're gonna recognize when the Holy spirits speaks
36:21
to you, you are going to go forth in obedience because that's what your
36:24
purpose is. So what it is, it's heaven School on earth because you're
36:30
being trained to be who you really call to be in spite of what you've
36:35
been taught that you gotta unlearn. So, yeah, what is your mission
36:39
in life? My mission in life is to help people know who they are
36:44
and what they can do so that they can live victoriously because they're not.
36:50
Oh, how has played a role in your life? Faith is listen,
37:00
listen. You can see what your physical eyes and look at something and it
37:05
is what it is. But faith sees what's supposed to be and make that
37:08
come to pass. The faith seeds those unseen and you see how it's supposed
37:15
to be even while you're looking at how it really is. But no one
37:17
that's gonna do the flip flop. That's gonna be as above so below that
37:22
them tables gonna turn baby, and it's gonna look like what it's supposed to
37:24
look like. Faith makes what's supposed to happen happen. For instance, Yes,
37:31
what does obedience mean to you? Obedience means that whatever is spoken,
37:37
if that is what you are called to do, then you walk in it.
37:40
It means that you are being led by the spirit of God in the
37:45
lane that you're supposed to be in. There's different lanes on the road.
37:50
Someone for the slow, someone for the fastes, someone for them. That's
37:52
just breaking the speed barrier. A lot of people like reformations in the needs
37:55
to do this. I'll stop them. I will stop them. I will
37:58
not let them finish. I will not let them for a period on it.
38:00
He did not tell me to do that. My obedience looks different from
38:04
your obedience, even though, like you said, we gonna be called to
38:07
the same purpose. But it's gonna look different, it's gonna talk different,
38:09
it's gonna smell different, we're gonna act different, even if we're doing the
38:13
same thing. So I don't understand why people try to compete. Obedience is
38:16
doing what you supposed to do as you So how important is belief? Belief
38:23
is important because if you don't believe it, you're not gonna genuinely do it.
38:27
I have people who say that they believe in something, but it doesn't
38:32
line Your actions don't line up, which makes you look schizophrenic because you're saying
38:37
one thing but you're doing another. If I believe that a chair is going
38:39
to hold me, I'm going to immediately sit down in that chair. If
38:43
I don't believe the chair is gonna hold my weight, either I'm not gonna
38:45
sit in it, or I'm gonna sit in the real, real carefully to
38:49
test the weight of the chair. What I say, what I believe is
38:52
gonna come out my mouth, and my life is gonna line up. I'm
38:55
not gonna be looking crazy. It looked like I got multiple personality disorder because
39:00
some people say, well, I believe that this can happen, but nothing
39:05
around them they're not shifted. If I believe that I am going to walk
39:08
into a place of wealth which has been spoken, then I'm preparing for the
39:14
wealth. Okay, I got my bank accounted. I'm over here. I
39:15
need these financial classes. I need you to speak to me because I see
39:19
that you know how to manage money. Can you give me a whole workshop
39:22
because I'm about to walk into this wealth and I want the knowledge to keep
39:24
it because I come from a place of poverty or sometime the only meal that
39:28
we got was at school. I don't want to be in that mindset where
39:31
I am poor. And that was prophesy to me at one time. You
39:36
believe that you're not good enough. You believe everything will always be secondhand,
39:38
and that's not to be so. Now that I believe different, I prepare
39:44
different. When I believe that I was only getting second hand, I was
39:46
comforted with second hand. I'm good. Can an individual have faith in doubts?
39:54
Yes, Now, don't get it twisted. Y'all. Remember that man
39:58
that he was in that by and they tried to cast that beamon out his
40:01
son, and then they couldn't do it. And then here come Jesus,
40:05
and Jesus said, do you believe that I can do this? And he
40:07
was like, help my unbelief. I know you can do it. He
40:13
told Jesus they couldn't do it. I'm coming to you now, okay,
40:16
but do you would help my unbelief. There are times when it's like the
40:21
faith and the doubts are in a battle. But no matter what I see,
40:25
no matter what I hear, I'm gonna speak the word only so that
40:29
I can prevail. That's one of my phrases. I will prevail, I
40:31
shall prevail. So yeah, you can have that. But I'm telling you,
40:37
the more you walk and the closer you get doubt, don't shall this
40:39
laughliev So God will forgive you if you have doubts, will he walk you
40:45
through them. He already knew before you step foot on dirt over him,
40:51
what you was gonna go through, what you was gonna endure, what you
40:52
was gonna think. And I tell people that they say, oh I did
40:55
this. I said, he already knew and still loved you. He'll die
40:59
for you, still waiting on you. Get up, repent and keep running.
41:02
Don't stop, don't wallow in it, get up. So, yes,
41:07
God he knows. They're sometimes that my son has talked to me.
41:10
Well, I didn't even know if you could do this. Yeah, that's
41:13
gonna sting. But baby, thank you for being honest. Yes, yes,
41:19
you spoke briefly about your childhood and you know the book therapy and everything.
41:24
Would you have ever thought as a child that you would have grown up
41:28
to be a pastor? No, didn't want it, didn't want to be
41:32
responsible for people, just let me take care of me because I wasn't doing
41:37
that well. Oh my god, I wasn't doing that well. Still,
41:40
we talked to him like, oh, yes, sure, you'll realize who
41:44
you put there, right, And he was like, yes, I do
41:46
realize who I put there, my daughter, my king, the son that's
41:52
manifested in the earth. I just remind myself sometimes who I am, because
41:57
that Stephanie back then didn't even think that she was worse to even be his
42:00
child, much less be the shepherd over some of his people. So when
42:05
were you called? Oh my god, it's been four it's been four years
42:09
since, and I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to evangelize.
42:13
I ran for a long time and so then I'll be into evangelize to
42:15
where I had people asking me, why are you talking to them? I
42:20
said, I evangelize. We talked to the unbeliever, what you mean four
42:27
years ago when he started this journey, I did not want to accept it.
42:30
Then, That's what I tell people. Everybody jumps around with the joy
42:34
and stuff. I'm not saying that I'm not good in what I do.
42:37
So when you were called, oh, to me, it's a weight,
42:45
but it's a good way. I don't know if any of you have ever
42:47
experienced a waited blanket, Like you get up under that blanket and you feel
42:52
it and like you know, it's heavy, but you warm and you comfortable
42:58
because it's not me. I can't do this. I wouldn't have tried this.
43:02
And he makes he makes me look real good. He makes it look
43:07
real easy because I just give it all. But I don't. I didn't.
43:12
I did not, Black Diamond. I could have done without this right
43:15
here. That's a lot. Well, he chose you for a reason,
43:20
you know, and in every season, he chose you for a reason.
43:23
So and I'm so glad that he did. And you know, I first
43:28
learned about you about a year ago when we did an event for Angela.
43:32
Yes, and that's when we were on there together and I heard you speak.
43:37
And when I started doing a podcast, I said, she's gonna be
43:38
on my show. She gonna be on my show. I remember that because
43:45
when I was preparing, I was getting ready, I said, I still
43:47
remember that, like it was like it was my sister calls it vomit.
43:52
She just has me. She's like, you got diarrhea, but buy diarrhea.
43:57
She was like you just open your mouth and he just flows out,
44:00
which it is when I do those Facebook lives, like I be nervous before
44:04
I get owned. Then I push that button in the countdown. I have
44:07
to go back and look at the live to even see what was said,
44:12
because I'm like, this is what you want. I need you to show
44:15
up. When you said a lot that day and I truly remember, I
44:19
can't remember it for abatim, but I should go, Oh my god,
44:21
this woman is a little powerhouse. You added an author, published poet,
44:27
comedian, publisher, minister, entrepreneur, motivational speaker, and award winning published
44:36
model to your resume. What would you say are some of your most valuable
44:39
skills with that? I'm gonna say like flexibility. I will show up and
44:52
be expected to I don't know how you not accommodate. You were coming this,
45:00
have to do one thing and then they'll either switch you or add something
45:02
to what you're asked to do. I know, like I said, I
45:07
know, and so you got to be able to be like I said,
45:09
Ben and not break to be able to be Okay, I came here tomorrow,
45:13
but they're also asking you over here to pray or they're also gonna want
45:15
you to say a poem over here. It's flexible because back in the day,
45:22
I used to be like, I ain't here for that. No,
45:23
you asked me to do a poem. That's all I'm gonna do. You
45:25
know what I'm saying. And so now I realize that God puts you in
45:29
places and then the floodgates open like his him. So being flexible that I've
45:36
gotten more accepting. I guess. So you've worked through so many projects.
45:40
What is the most exciting project you've worked on? To me, it was
45:45
that book Therapy. Yes, because it set me free. Yeah. I
45:52
was about to ask you what made it so special. You said it that
45:54
it set you free, because me out to walk around in isn't when you're
46:00
not in prison. It's the people walking around. We're free, Like we're
46:04
not in jail. Physically we're not. They're not behind bars, but we're
46:08
prisoners. We're prisoners of our thoughts, of our childhood, of our fears.
46:15
Fear is a fear has so many people not moving at all. Their
46:20
lits some moving, they're speaking, but they're not moving. I tell them
46:24
do it anyway. Therapy set me free. I got all that stuff off
46:29
me, and then I took off like an ego in the sky. Now
46:37
I know you've you've been doing all of that. I don't even know where
46:38
You're even gonna squeeze anymore time. And but what are you working on now?
46:43
I have already written a thirty one day devotional and then a journal that
46:49
I don't know when I'm gonna be able to put that out, already working
46:51
on some music already got to be in the words and all that. And
46:55
you sound like me, because that's what I said. I said, we
46:58
adding stuff to what we are really doing. So yeah, and then like
47:02
I said, with the parents and with the pageantry, like I have people
47:07
in the inbox asking are you doing this? Are you doing this? Are
47:09
you doing this? You do this? And I'm like, I can't do
47:12
this. And one young lady, I love her, she's a teenager.
47:15
She's putting on her own show in March, and she was like, Stephanie,
47:21
are you able to come to this? I said I cannot. She
47:23
said can you send your clothes? Though? And I just laugh. I
47:28
loved it because you make an impression where even if you can't be there,
47:31
they want your garments. They want your brand. And this was a child.
47:37
She's like, she's a teenager, but she's a child, and I
47:40
impacted her of love that she like, well, can we have some of
47:44
your clothes? So that yeah, that right there. Well I've seen some
47:49
of your stuff and I'm gonna come your way to get me maybe a size.
47:53
Well, you know what, Thanksgiving just happened. So I'll wait till
47:55
after the new year. Yeah, something is going because Thanksgiving was here,
48:02
the holidays here. I wait till after the new year when I can get
48:05
a little down a little bit more. We're asking yourself in the next five
48:08
years. In the next five years, I see myself break and mortal Mortal
48:15
mortar business where I have my boutique, I have my modeling agency, the
48:22
publishing company. I have the event center because I have a lot of events.
48:27
You know, it costs the rent, but I have all of that
48:30
set up is fully running that I have the people there who are dependable and
48:35
trustworthy, loyal to run it while I'm still traveling the globe. So you're
48:42
looking to have that in South Carolina? Are you looking to go Carolina?
48:45
Now? I do want what they called when you also have them in other
48:49
places. I don't think it's the FO. I call it being a mum,
48:53
That's what I call it. That's what I want. I want to
48:55
start it here because this is what he told me to and I didn't want
48:59
to do that either. I said, we got some malad agencies that we
49:02
started, then do some pop up shots other places and just see test the
49:06
waters while you're there. That's what I've been talking about because I know in
49:09
North Carolina they be like North Carolina is huge. Most of my shows in
49:14
North Carolina and then Sammy in Georgia, Alabama, Tennessee. So I'm gonna
49:17
start with those, but I'm gonna test the waters with those. But that's
49:22
my five years, five years, So what are we in. We're gonna
49:25
go on twenty so by twenty twenty nine. Yeah, I'm gonna have to
49:30
scoop this way in the DMV area. Well, we'll see I can now.
49:36
Yeah. That's why I say, you know, I travel, that's
49:38
not an issue. That's what I tell people. Even people have reached out
49:43
to me about being in the Peculiar Princess Ma lad agency. I said,
49:45
you ain't got to be here with me. I said, I send you
49:49
the gigs and you just pick and choose which gig you want to do,
49:52
I say, and they everywhere it's something that's in Los Angeles. It's some
49:55
like I said at Paris, I send all of that stuff out, like
50:00
if you want to go, go because I'm already on the jet plane.
50:05
As one the movie said, I think it was AMAGEDD. I'm leaving on
50:07
the jet plane. I'm already in motion. Zush, Princess. It was
50:14
more than a pleasure to sit and talk to you. Thank you so much
50:16
for sharing your journey and doing all that you do. How and where can
50:21
people connect with you? Listen? My phone number is eight six four seven
50:25
six two one four eight five text send it to him again eight six four
50:32
seven six two one four eight five. Texting is the quickest. Then my
50:37
Facebook page Stephanie Johnson Wrights, just my name, my Instagram at Peculiar Princess,
50:45
and then my web Summan. Yeah, I'll have to put my website
50:47
in because I don't know that by heart. But my email Pecure your Princess,
50:52
and then the numbers twenty nineteen at Gmail your Princess. The numbers had
51:00
to wrap everybody tonight, sadly, We're at the end of another Basic Black
51:04
After Dog podcast. Join us for my bonus show on Tuesday, December to
51:08
twenty sixth. After eighth After Dog, we'll be having a conversation from under
51:15
a bridge with Blossom Rogers. Thank you so much for joining us. Everybody,
51:21
Thank you, love you appreciate it. You know, I'm gonna get
51:23
with you because I I girl, you are who. I gotta get to
51:28
some of them closed. But like I said, I gotta get this damn
51:30
little bit more than where it's at. And we definitely got to talk.
51:34
And Latania said it earlier. I love that. I love that in the
51:37
hair. Now. No, back in the day we used to do the
51:39
like the wool and stuff like that and put it in there. People don't
51:43
understand that. I got yarn. That's what people like. That's it,
51:46
I said, Babe. It make a difference, I'm telling you so,
51:49
yeah, it does, because you wrap to hear the right way Rose and
51:53
everything. People just they don't know about that now. They don't know about
51:57
it now. They got all this other stuff going on and what But they're
52:00
really a hairstylist or a beautician or cosmetology. They need to read the other
52:05
book. There's another book that they need to read or ask somebody if they
52:09
don't know, because only that right there came from someplace else, and they're
52:15
not teaching that now correct. They're not I've seen it. They're not.
52:22
Thank you everyone for joining us, but I'm gonna definitely get with you.
52:25
Thank you, thank you, turn off tonight. I'm not imagine. Then
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take a shower shower together