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Sleep Paralysis & Sleep Apnea | The Christian Reeve Podcast #172 · The Christian Reeve Podcast

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Hello and welcome to another episode of the Christian Reeve
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subjects as it was as it promised so Is episode will be
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about sleep paralysis and sleep apnea, but I also have some
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stuff at the end afterwards. Some extra stuff.
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I'm not going to spoil it but you know they'll be different
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Listening, thank you so much for listening.
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I really appreciate you now, let's get into our main event,
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the moon events, sleep, apnea, and sleep paralysis.
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Now I suffer from sleep paralysis and sort of acute,
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sleep apnea, I suppose, and I've been toying around with how to
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do this show. For some time, I came up with
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this idea recently, to do a sleep and dreams Series where I
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kind of explore the topic of sleep and dreams through
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different angles. So some of it is just personal
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experience and some of it is just kind of exploring the
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concepts around sleep and dreams.
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And I don't know, I thought it was kind of interesting and I
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like to always put like a personal slant on these things
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as well as you know, but I wanted to do my research and
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kind of get to the facts first before we kind of go into my
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personal experiences. So I'm going to kind of briefly
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explain what. Sleep, paralysis and sleep apnea
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are and then we'll explore my experiences and we'll go from
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there. So, according to the sleep
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foundation.org, sleep, paralysis refers to the situation where a
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person is not fully awake, and although, they are conscious of
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their surroundings there unable to move or speak.
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So, our bodies are always paralyzed during REM sleep and
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this probably to prevent us from attacking ourselves or Waking
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ourselves up during during sleep.
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Now, it's a temporary state that occurs either right before,
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waking up, or just after we fall asleep, it frequently involves
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troubling hallucinations and a sensation of Suffocation.
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Sleep paralysis is categorized as a type of parasomnia and
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parasomnias are abnormal behaviors, that occur during
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sleep. So if you're wondering what I'm
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reading for those who are watching the podcast, I have
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lots of notes and you can hear that.
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In the audio recording as always for regular listeners of the
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show. You know.
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I make copious amounts of notes but I don't know I wanted to
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know my my fax with this situation, this event?
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I don't know. I'm stumbling more words.
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You know what? It's been a while since I
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actually recorded a show and I always feel a bit Rusty and fun
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fact, I actually sat down and recorded this show already for
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about 30-40 minutes and everything that could go wrong
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went wrong. And in the end I decided it just
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wasn't Wasn't good enough. I expect a certain caliber, I
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have expectations are placed upon myself and ultimately I was
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like, this isn't good enough and it's not good enough for my
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audience for my listeners. So this is my second attempt
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during this show. I hope you enjoy it.
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I hope it's good. Anyway, let's get back into it.
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There are different types of sleep paralysis and I'll just
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run through them now. So there's isolated sleep
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paralysis, which is when the episodes are not Said to an
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underlying diagnosis of narcolepsy, which is a
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neurological disorder, that prevents the brain from
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properly, controlling wakefulness and can often lead
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to sleep paralysis. There is recurrent sleep
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paralysis, which is when there's multiple episodes that occur
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over time, and then there's recurrent isolated sleep
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paralysis, which occurs when there are multiple ongoing
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instances of sleep paralysis in someone who does not have
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narcolepsy. Oopsie.
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Now we'll just continue on so standard REM sleep involves
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Vivid dreaming as well as atonia, which refers to a lack
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of normal, muscle tone, or strength.
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So, like a kind of it's not the same level of responsiveness
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from those parts of the body. And basically, it helps prevent
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us acting out our dreams essentially, that's kind of the
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point of why that occurs but under normal circumstances a
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tone Ends upon waking up. So a person never becomes
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conscious of this inability to move in theory as a result.
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Researchers believe that sleep paralysis involves a mixed state
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of consciousness that blends both wakefulness and REM sleep.
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So, in effect the atonia and mental imagery of REM sleep,
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seems to persist even into a state of being aware and being
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awake. Now, let's move.
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On to sleep apnea. The definitions at least.
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So sleep apnea is when you're breathing stops and starts while
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you're asleep, most common type is called obstructive sleep
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apnea. And this is according to the NHS
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website. So the National Health Service
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in the UK, the main symptoms of sleep apnea include gasping, or
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choking noises while you sleep loud snoring.
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And feeling very tired during the day sleep apnea is usually
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treated with a mask you wear while.
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Asleep, which is known as a CPA AP machine.
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A continuous positive airway, pressure machine, and sleep,
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apnea is caused by your Airways becoming relaxed and narrow
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while you sleep and it's linked to things like obesity and
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getting older, there are also different types of sleep apnea.
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So according to WebMD with obstructive sleep apnea, it
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typically occurs when your Airways repeatedly become
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completely or partially blocked during sleep.
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And this is usually because the soft tissue in the back of your
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throat. Collapses, and during these
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episodes your diaphragm and chest muscles work harder than
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normal to open up your Airways and it's can also lower the flow
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of oxygen to your vital organs and lead to abnormal heart
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rhythms. As also Central sleep apnea.
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So within this type of your Airway doesn't become blocked.
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Instead your brain fails to tell your muscles to breathe because
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of issues in your respiratory Control Center, and it's related
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to the function of your central nervous system.
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So we've got kind of a rough understanding there, or what I
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think that's a fairly detailed understanding of sleep apnea and
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sleep paralysis. I must say, when I was doing the
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research, I did actually And a fair bit.
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And, you know, whenever I do these shows, I like to kind of
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blend it between having a mixture of my personal
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experiences. And then also having, you know,
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the, the cold hard facts. So I can mix it and match it and
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kind of put together a show based on that.
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But, you know, a bigger personal reason for wanting to do this is
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because I wanted to understand why I actually have sleep
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paralysis and sleep apnea and I'll be honest, I'm no closer to
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understanding Standing, why? I am a little bit closer to
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understanding the things that can potentially cause it or at
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least exacerbate it. But I think what I'm going to do
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is kind of run you through my personal experiences as in Where
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it All Began. So I started experiencing sleep
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paralysis from about the age of let's say eight or nine years
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old I remember it very vividly. It was the early to mid-2000s I
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think or yeah early 2000s. And the reason I bring that up
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is that everyone seemed to have those horrid awful, leather
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sofas that they were really, really popular, especially the
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cream brown colored ones. And I remember I used to visit
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my father, every Fortnight and spend the weekend there, just
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hanging out playing games. It was it was a blast I loved
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it. And I used to sleep in their
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living room with covers and duvet and everything because
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they didn't have like a And bedroom.
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It was pretty small apartment, so I'd sleep on the sofa, which
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was a leather sofa And I remember one particular morning
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waking up and again, this is the disputed thing and I'll explain
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a little bit later with regards to my general experiences of
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sleep app. Sorry, sleep paralysis and sleep
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apnea, but What I remember was basically my face kind of almost
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being stuck to the leather and I almost had this sensation of
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feeling like I had to peel it off my face, like I had to push
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my head up in order to get off the sofa.
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Now, I can't remember to this day, if that was a dream or if
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that was real, I do remember, when I finally did wake up, I
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was obviously very scared. I didn't really know what had
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happened. I guess in the moment, I was
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trying to figure out if it was real or what happened.
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And I remember just being generally scared, Now, I can't
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remember the next time specifically that this happened,
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but it kept happening and I understood that this is like, a
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common thing that I deal with and funnily enough.
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I never actually spent much time in my teen years, sitting down
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and actually figuring out what this condition was.
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You know, it wasn't until many years later that I'd actually
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discovered. There's a name for it and the
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whole this is the thing that I suffer from right.
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It was just something that I weirdly just accepted like oh
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okay. This is a thing that I deal with
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every once in a while I have this weird dream state thing
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where I can't quite explain if I'm awake or sleeping.
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And for a moment I basically am paralyzed and can't move which
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is obviously very scary and then I start to panic and then I
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stopped breathing which is where the sleep apnea comes in now.
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In my older adult years, obviously having researched on
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to sleep paralysis a bit more. Now, I understand that as I
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explained earlier with some of the definitions, there is like a
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delay in sometimes when I wake up in the morning between Me
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waking up, but my body and brain sort of having a bit of a
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disconnect because my brain is fully awake.
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And in that moment, which I guess is a dream.
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I know that I'm awake, every time it occurs exactly the same
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way I dream that I'm in my room and I dream that I'm laying down
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and I can't move myself. I'm desperately trying to wake
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myself up. Push myself up like, push my
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head up. Or most recently I was my legs
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wouldn't move and I was trying to jolt them and I've kind of
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learned that if I keep job in myself and Rocking myself back
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and forth at least in that dream state eventually.
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All work and our wake up, but a really important aspect to this
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is a can't panic because as soon as I start panicking, that's
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when something starts to go wrong and I start to kind of
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know exactly choke. But I can kind of suffocate a
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little bit like I suffer from I suppose like an acute form of
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sleep apnea and in that moment if I panic I just stopped
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breathing and it's be scary. I don't know what to do with
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myself and I'm kind of just locked in this state of
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not-knowing and then eventually something will click.
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And I'll just wake up and you know, it's like a whore every
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horror movie you've ever seen where I'm like, oh my God, and
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I'll be honest in that moment. Every time it happens.
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I'm just, I'm glad to be awake. I'm glad to be alive but it is
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terrifying. And it took a while for me to
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calm myself down and you know, even when it happens to this day
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I'm aware of what's going on and I'm grateful.
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But in that moment I'm able to calm myself down but it's always
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a very lucid dream. Stay it's very terrifying, you
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know, and it's meant that like my general.
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Fear is a fear of being paralyzed now, which touchwood,
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it never happens but it's a scary feeling and experience to
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have. And It really makes you
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appreciate being able to have all of your faculties being able
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to move in. You know, really makes you
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appreciate all of those things. So much more because when you
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don't have the ability to do that, you're kind of sit in
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their questioning everything. You like, how do I get out of
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this? You know, how do I prevent this?
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How do I Will it be okay? If will I wake up?
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Sometimes those questions go from my head.
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I wonder if you know y'all ever wake up again and it's a
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terrifying experience, and maybe I am overthinking it a little
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bit, but sometimes these thoughts and feelings go through
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your head. And another one of the ways that
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I kind of discovered that maybe there was a problem, was that
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certain Partners? I've dated over the years, have
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informed me that sometimes when I'm sleeping Stop breathing.
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Which is apparently quite a common thing that happens to a
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lot of people. But various girlfriends have had
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of sort of said, like hey, you know, you know, sometimes you
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stop breathing right or hey, you know, sometimes you snore and,
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you know, I used to laugh at that and be like, oh, come on, I
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don't snore, and occasionally, I do.
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But I've discovered with that, it's more about how you sleep
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the position you sleep in and also your diet and things like
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that can actually affect how clear your Airwaves are and
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everything. So, Other than wanting to just
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take care of myself in general, as I get older, and
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understanding that Fitness is important.
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I've also tried to improve my fitness as a direct response to
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sleep, apnea and sleep paralysis in an effort to kind of Well,
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lessen, the chances of it occurring and to some extent, I
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think it's worked. Like one thing that I've noticed
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is that if I ever go to sleep having drunk, a lot of alcohol
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or eaten foods like really late at night or just things, I don't
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normally eat or things that are known to cause people problems
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and Nightmares, things like cheese and stuff like that.
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If there's a direct change. Change in eating patterns in a
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dramatic way or just eating junk food or drinking alcohol, or a
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change in the sleeping patterns, you know?
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So if I normally go to bed at say 10 or 11, but one night I go
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to bed at 1 a.m. I'm more likely to wake up the
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next day and experience about of sleep paralysis or sleep apnea.
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So I'm kind of always looking at those things and revising the
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situation and looking at different ways that Could
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potentially improve that and prevent it from happening.
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Again, another thing that I discovered recently a couple of
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years back actually was that there was a celebrity, a singer
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of a band called Bring Me The Horizon called Oliver Sykes Oli
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Sykes and I remember seeing in an interview randomly that he'd
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said he suffers from sleep paralysis and I like, oh, okay.
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And I was interested to see if they'd asked him any follow-up
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questions. And I don't recall if he brought
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Forward this information or if he was asked, but he said that
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one way that he kind of learns to lessen.
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The effects of it is to sleep on his side.
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And I've been ever since I saw that, that, that Miniclip,
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that's what I've been doing all the time.
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I always make sure that at least when I'm falling asleep.
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I fall asleep on my side or at least on my front and not my
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back. I never sleep on my back because
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I've noticed if I do, it's more likely to occur.
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Now obviously I recognize the fact that, you know, you move in
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your sleep, you move your body move.
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So it's very likely that I'm sleeping on my back a lot of the
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time without even knowing, but When I do know when I am awake,
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I try to be conscious of that and try to sleep in that
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sideways position. And ever since I started doing
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that there's been less and less and less bounce a bit.
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So to some extent, it has worked now, I think in terms of what I
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suffer from I think, and again, this is all hearsay, I've never
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actually sat down and, and properly.
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Knows there or maybe I should see a doctor one day.
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I don't know if it ever gets more severe than it is now
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because right now, it's manageable and it's fine and,
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you know everything. But if I ever do need to seek a
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position, I will certainly do. So if it gets worse.
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But right now, I think I'm likely to suffer from an acute
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form of central sleep, apnea, because I do have like a lack of
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breathing. But I don't think it's like a
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full-on obstruction. I think it's Because with one of
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them with obstructive sleep paralysis, so not sleep,
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paralysis, obstructive sleep apnea.
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Sorry. That's the one where there's
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actually a physical obstruction, hence, the term obstruction
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obstructive. So, there's actually something
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preventing it. And in diagrams of seen, as a
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bit of skin, a skin flap, that gets caught, and that can
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actually cause it. But which Central sleep apnea,
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as I mentioned earlier, it's where your brain fails to tell
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your muscles to bring. Breathe, because of the issues
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in the respiratory control center.
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So when I do go in that Panic State, I think that's when the
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sleep apnea occurs. But I've noticed it only really
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starts to occur as a result of panic.
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Like, if there's panic and anxiety, like, I can't be myself
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up. I can't wake myself up, that's
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when it occurs without fail. Now, with regards to the type of
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sleep paralysis that I have, I think I have recurrent isolated
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sleep paralysis because as it mentions, Get in here.
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It occurs when there's multiple ongoing instances of sleep
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paralysis, but in someone who doesn't have narcolepsy and I
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don't have sleep paralysis consistently.
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It's very sporadic and it's very random.
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Sometimes I can go for years even without experiencing it and
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then suddenly I have about of it.
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So it's it's very random but I don't suffer from narcolepsy so
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because I know that narcolepsy isn't Just Bounce of falling
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asleep during the day. It can also be categorized by
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just The feelings of General fatigue and tiredness.
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And I noticed that there were certain things that I was able
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to change for instance, in my diet, that actually improved
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that. So drinking a lot more water,
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general fitness and working out help things, but also, I
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actually can't a lot of carbohydrates that I was eating
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such as whole wheat pasta and stuff like that because a it was
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just making me feel really tired afterwards be.
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It was Just kind of filling up filling me out and not really
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giving me much. Whereas, other forms of
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carbohydrates, were helping me. These particular forms were not
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help me. So, I decided to cut them out
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and, you know, kind of make substitutions and changes in
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that and that did actually help. But I also improve this general
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feeling of fatigue. I suddenly had more energy that
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I could use and I was like, well this is great.
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I mean this is one of the reasons why I wanted to get back
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into working out as well as because I knew I would have more
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G and course you have more energy, not only, do you feel
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better, feel healthier, but you're able to do more, the less
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energy you have, the less you can do in the less.
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You really feel like you want to do anything.
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You know, it's very damning in that sense, but yeah, let's move
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it on. So couple of facts for you.
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An estimated 70%, 75% of sleep, paralysis episodes.
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Involve hallucinations that are different from typical dreams.
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As with atonia they can occur when falling asleep via
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hypnagogic hallucinations or Waking Up via hypnopompic.
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Hallucinations sleep paralysis can occur at any age but the
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first symptoms tend to show up in childhood adolescence or
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young childhood. So anywhere between the ages of
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7 to 25, after starting in the teenage years episodes may occur
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more frequently in the 20s and the 30s.
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And this is very On the ball with, with me causes of
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paralysis, there are a range of different conditions thought to
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be connected with sleep paralysis and certain mental
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health, conditions have shown a connection with sleep paralysis
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including panic disorders and anxiety disorders.
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I have a sort of a low-level Aang's form of anxiety that
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sometimes get and I wonder sometimes if it's connected with
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that, a lot of what I've read. Online is consistent with that.
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I definitely have this at least from a scientific standpoint but
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let's move it on. So with the three categories of
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sleep paralysis hallucinations that people experience their our
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Intruder hallucinations, which involves the perception of a
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dangerous person or presence in the room.
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Some people refer to it as the night.
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Hag sleep paralysis demon. There's also chest pressure,
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hallucinations also known as This hallucinations that can
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incite a feeling of Suffocation and these frequently occur, when
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there's Intruder hallucinations and then finally, there's also
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vestibular motor hallucinations which include feelings of
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movement such as flying in outer body situations.
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Now, I'll just tag onto this. This isn't related to the sleep
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paralysis, but I've definitely had dreams where I felt like I'm
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falling, you know, the falling dream where you're falling
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rapid. Rate and you never hit the
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ground but you definitely have that sensation of falling in
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your stomach coming over like that and I had it a lot when I
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was a young teenager. I remember that there were
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several times when for instance I remember there was a handrail
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on this bunk bed that I had in my room, my teenage room.
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I remember so many times waking up and feeling as though I'd
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felt fallen into the bed and I was clinging onto the rail. was,
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if I was clinging onto the edge of a building or something, So
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it makes me wonder sometimes if I experienced astral projection
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that maybe we can explore that in another episode.
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We're bringing it back to the hallucinations, which is another
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major aspect I wanted to add to this.
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So as far as it pertains to sleep paralysis, I've not really
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had any hallucinations bar one, which I will get to.
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And I've wondered a lot about this, because I've seen a lot of
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people online, say things like, oh, it's the sleep paralysis
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team. This someone coming into your
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room, it's a real thing. Or it's a hallucination or
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whatever the case may be. But I'd never experienced that
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into a couple of years ago. So I just thought it was just
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hokey. I thought it.
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Maybe maybe it's just people's brains mucking mucking around
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with them and I still feel like it could be that but this one
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was pretty pretty intense. So I was I was living in Estonia
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and I was renting a sort of a very basic apartment in the city
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center. There is an older apartment.
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I think it would have been one of the one of the older nice
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buildings as actually quite blessed that it was in the not
25:41
such a nice building but the building probably would have
25:44
been made in the early 1900's early 20th century.
25:49
Something like that, Devon probably the early 20th century
25:53
or I can anyway, I was sleeping on a long shade.
25:59
Long style so far. It was a long.
26:03
I don't know how to put it. One of those ones that goes
26:06
around like that, like the shape each letter L, I don't know.
26:09
It was pretty uncomfortable, but it was just a temporary thing.
26:12
And, you know, I'm not one to complain.
26:15
I just made the most of it, you know, hey, at least I've got
26:17
somewhere to sleep, right? But it was very uncomfortable
26:22
and it makes me think that, you know, actual Comfort just
26:26
having, a comfortable bed or a comfortable space to sleep in.
26:29
In my also be another. Aspect to this sleep paralysis
26:34
sleep, apnea thing. Like the more comfortable you
26:36
are. Maybe the less likely it is to
26:38
happen. The more uncomfortable you are.
26:39
Maybe the more likely it is to happen.
26:41
I don't know. I'd love to, you know, I would
26:43
love to have a Let's throw this out into the universe.
26:48
Maybe we can get a scientist, or a doctor who studies exclusively
26:52
sleep, paralysis and sleep apnea, and maybe we could ask
26:55
them all these questions. That would help one another.
26:59
My experience with the night hag or a sleep paralysis demon was
27:02
that I was laying down on this sofa.
27:05
With my I was laying down on my back or sleeping on my back.
27:08
I remember that very clearly. And if you've ever seen the
27:13
movie, The Ring or just any of those old dark horror movies
27:17
with like a writ from the early 2000s with like a really creepy
27:20
girl with long black hair and scary eyes always dressed in
27:23
like a white dirty like dress or something like that.
27:27
That's what I saw. Basically coming up onto me and
27:32
sort of like, straddling me, and basically, they were right on
27:35
top of me. So I felt the the chest pressure
27:38
like and I'll jolting like that. And I'd never experienced that
27:41
aspect of it before. Normally, when I experience the
27:44
seek sleep paralysis, it's that I can't move my head or other
27:47
parts of my body but I can move the rest of my body normally.
27:50
It's just my head, that's kind of waited but everything else
27:53
works but in this instance I was fully paralyzed.
27:57
Like, I just couldn't move. And this demon, if you like, was
28:00
on top of me on my chest, like, straddling me like on top of me,
28:06
and then it's arms, were basically coming around to choke
28:11
me. And it started choking me like
28:13
that, and I just couldn't breathe at all.
28:17
And I guess that's where the sleep apnea side of things came
28:19
into play. Remember jolting, and this is
28:23
the thing. It's like, It's kind of real but
28:26
it isn't like. I know that that's a dream.
28:27
I know that that's not really happening at least hope so.
28:30
Anyway, but that was what I felt was happening.
28:35
And then I finally did wake up and I was sweating like
28:39
profusely and it wasn't even especially hot day.
28:42
I think it would have been at that time.
28:45
Probably like 16 17 degrees. I think it rained the night
28:48
before. So, it wasn't like really hot or
28:50
anything like that. And it was a cool apartment.
28:52
Wasn't in the intense Heating. Of course, it was summer.
28:55
So there wouldn't have been any heating on anyway, and I was
28:59
just sweating buckets basically, and you know, classic horror
29:03
Style You know, I just just wondering what the hell had
29:07
happened and it was, it was difficult to go to sleep after
29:10
that, I have to say, like I slept on my side and I'd
29:13
fortunately ended but it's very difficult to sleep after that
29:18
thinking like, oh my god. What the hell was that?
29:20
Like, I've never experienced that before.
29:22
Is that going to be a common thing?
29:23
Is that going to happen again? And thankfully touch wood.
29:26
It's not happened since but this happened back in 2019 I think or
29:32
late 2018. But it was intense, and it
29:36
sounds like it was a combination of those hallucinations.
29:41
And wasn't really sure what to make of it time.
29:45
I kind of, I guess I dismissed it.
29:49
But I also started looking into it a bit more at that time.
29:52
And I started to wonder, like, okay, maybe this sleep for Alice
29:56
is sleep apnea thing. There's, there's more to this
30:00
and maybe I should start looking more into this, I don't know.
30:04
But there it is. I've managed to finally talk
30:09
about this sleep apnea and sleep paralysis with you and share my
30:12
experiences with you. I hope that you have enjoyed it
30:16
and hearing about it. Please let me know if you suffer
30:18
from this, or if you have experiences of this, I would
30:21
love to hear about them. Send in your questions, more
30:24
than happy to read them out in the show and engage with them.
30:28
And now I'm going to move on to different topics because that's
30:32
not all we have much more for you.
30:35
On the Christian re podcast. Kind of wish this was a radio
30:39
show because I be able to have like a break from speaking.
30:43
I have to just keep going. I have to keep talking, there's
30:45
no one to push the button. I suppose I could just stop and
30:48
start but once I'm kind of in a, I don't know, I was going to say
30:53
in a funk, that's not what I meant when I'm on a roll.
30:56
I like to keep going and as I mentioned earlier, when I first
31:00
tried to record this episode, everything that could go wrong.
31:03
Went wrong. I was sneezing left, right?
31:05
And Center. There was constant.
31:07
Loud noises outside and sirens and I got to about the 3040
31:12
minute Mark and I was like, I can't I can't release this.
31:16
Even if I do edit it, it's just it's a shambles and it wouldn't
31:20
be right to to give you guys a shambles.
31:23
And there's been episodes in the past.
31:25
I've released I've still been like humming a narang about and
31:28
to this day I'm still listening back and going.
31:31
Hmm. Maybe I shouldn't have released
31:33
that. Maybe that wasn't good but you
31:35
know, hey, I've been doing this for two years now.
31:37
Now, we're still very much learning still building, still
31:40
trying to grow it and actually Reach people.
31:42
So maybe I'm still allowed to make these.
31:46
These rookie mistakes, a and just keep trying to get better.
31:50
But anyway, I got a couple of new things for you.
31:52
I guess new segments that I mentioned earlier.
31:55
So the first segment I kind of want to do is just talk about
31:59
what's going on in my life right now, which I don't know if
32:02
everyone's necessarily going to be interested in that but you
32:06
know what, maybe not everyone who Since the show knows who I
32:09
am and what I'm trying to do with my life, and I kind of
32:12
weirdly thought that maybe it might be interesting to give you
32:17
kind of a vague update every once in a while when new things
32:20
had happened and I try to share these things in live streams
32:25
when I when I do them. But I don't know that everyone
32:28
necessarily always knows what's going on or keeps up to date.
32:32
So I figured like if I start talking about it on the show
32:35
people can go and they get like a and around the idea of what's
32:39
going on in my life and it's recorded.
32:42
Its on has a tape. We don't no one uses tapes
32:46
anymore. It's there, you know, so you can
32:49
refer back to it and you can do, like this particular point in
32:52
time, this is what was going on in my life.
32:55
Now, as you may or may not know I record these ahead of time.
32:58
So I'm recording this around the 21st of August.
33:02
Sorry, I know, I know, right. I thought he did it as it's
33:07
happening. I'm trying, I'm trying to kind
33:09
of stay a little bit ahead of it, but, you know, at the same
33:14
time, I don't want to get, like, too far ahead with payday.
33:15
It helps when it's pre-scheduled, but anyway,
33:20
What's going on in my life right now?
33:21
Well as you may or may not know. I am an aspiring actor, voice,
33:25
actor, podcaster musician, writer jack of all trades and
33:30
master of none. And I've been pursuing acting
33:33
since 2019. And this year has been very
33:40
interesting when it comes to the acting sphere, I've had a couple
33:44
of different acting roles specifically voice acting roles
33:48
that I've actually been paid for And and they and that's kind of
33:53
made me. Realize dat voice acting as far
33:55
as pay is concerned is a very potentially profitable industry
33:58
to get into but it's hard to get into.
34:00
There's a lot of competition just like acting and you know
34:04
I'm starting very much from scratch you know I only started
34:07
doing this really in 2019 and I'm very much still trying to
34:11
build and work on things and get better and it's the same with
34:15
the podcast. You know, I've been trying to
34:18
get sponsors for the show. Show, and I've started pitching
34:22
every once in awhile, but it's difficult because most sponsors
34:25
all they really care about is numbers.
34:27
How many people are listening? How many people are watching,
34:29
you know, they don't care that, you know, you're getting all
34:31
these wonderful guests and they don't care that you maybe you're
34:34
getting better or that you've just reached two years or you
34:37
know you've done over 150 episodes like they don't care
34:40
about that. All they care about is how many
34:42
people are hearing this and listening to this and a my
34:45
potentially going to be able to, you know, make money out of
34:49
That, you know, from the potential of those people
34:52
listening. And I do understand that as a
34:54
businessman, as a guy that studied marketing and worked in
34:57
the field for many years, I get that and it's one of the reasons
35:00
why I don't actively promote it also advertise, it are very
35:06
often because I know that, you know, sponsors aren't really
35:09
gonna take even a slight glance at what I'm doing.
35:13
But, you know, that can change that can change overnight.
35:15
Like all it takes is just one. Click to go viral and Only
35:19
people pay attention or, you know, you get shared because of
35:23
a particular episode and people start paying attention to what
35:25
you're doing. Or you know, sometimes it can be
35:27
gradual and you can start just building an audience and I'm
35:32
always working on it with the podcast and it's the same with
35:35
acting. I'm always looking at different
35:36
ways I can advertise myself. And that one of the things I've
35:40
been doing lately is every time I apply for an acting role,
35:43
which I apply for stuff every single day via websites like
35:47
backstage for example. And I'll recall Good voice
35:50
acting clips. I'll do self tapes for on-screen
35:54
roles but somewhere recently, I realized like, oh, hey, I can
35:58
use this as a Content. I can repurpose this, so it
36:00
doesn't matter if I don't get, you know, picked up for these
36:03
roles. I'll still get something out of
36:05
this one way or another, you know, other than just, you know,
36:08
practicing acting. I can actually record myself
36:12
doing these self tapes, or, you know, the voice acting clips.
36:18
And then I can just post Post it on, say Tik-Tok and Instagram,
36:21
and that's another way of advertising because it's like,
36:24
oh, hey here's me acting, you know, I know it's just a self
36:28
date but it's evidence that I'm acting that can act that I'm
36:32
trying to get better and learn and etc, etc.
36:35
And it's kind of my attempts to constantly put myself out there
36:39
and try to, you know, advertise myself.
36:42
Which, you know, it makes me laugh because, you know, these
36:47
days you've got to be everything you've got When it comes to
36:50
content creation and being an actor, you know, you got a
36:54
advertise yourself, you know, be on social media, you know,
36:57
create acting reels and voice reels, and you've got to do
37:01
everything, you know, especially if you don't have an agent.
37:05
Because I don't have one. And I've been trying, that's
37:07
another thing that I do all the time.
37:08
I'm always applying to different, casting agencies, and
37:13
emailing agents all the time and, you know, I get
37:16
projections, that's pretty much all I get now, that is all I
37:20
get. Are you getting nor do I get
37:22
rejections and that's normal. That's part of life.
37:25
But every time I go on and acting shoe or an audition, I
37:29
always hear people talking about like, oh, my agent.
37:31
Got me, this, my agent got me that and I'm like, damn.
37:34
Do I get one mean? One of those?
37:35
You know. And, you know, maybe I just
37:39
don't have the, the formal training, maybe, maybe.
37:42
It's because I'm a bit older. I'm 29 and maybe people were bit
37:45
like. But you know, I hear all these
37:46
stories of people making it big and getting their break later in
37:50
life and kind of inspires me to keep going.
37:54
But I do realize there's a lot of competition but I guess the
37:57
point of all of this what I'm saying right now is that I'm
38:01
constantly working on this goal. I have to be a professional.
38:04
Channel actor. My dream is to be a professional
38:07
actor, full-time for a living. I want to travel the world doing
38:11
it. I want to do lots of different
38:12
roles and I want to do a combination of on screen and
38:15
voice acting. I love to act, I'm really
38:18
passionate about it. I want it to be my career, I
38:21
love it. I absolutely love it, I adore it
38:24
and with everything else you know with the podcast I want to
38:29
I would be nice to make money from this.
38:30
It's not the end of the world. If I never make money from it,
38:33
I'm going to keep doing it anyway.
38:34
Because I just love to do podcasting, was always a dream
38:37
of mine years ago, and I finally got to do it, and I love to do
38:42
it. And I think one of the biggest
38:44
reasons why I love to do podcasting and sorry for
38:47
repeating this. I know, regular listeners are
38:49
going to be a bit like, oh, this again, but I love to do it
38:54
because I love to meet new people and I love to explore new
38:56
topics and I like to test myself.
38:59
Every time I do this show, it's a test and I get a bit nervous
39:02
like today, I hadn't Recorded an episode in many weeks.
39:07
And the last time I ever tried to record this episode, I was
39:10
really rusty and it was just a shambles and, you know, I walked
39:15
into this a bit nervously thinking like, oh no, like, can
39:18
I not do this anymore? Like do I just suck at this?
39:20
Now not really a testament to two years of hard work.
39:24
And then suddenly I just can't do it anymore but it's like you
39:27
have your down days. You have your You know, you
39:30
periods where you're you just make mistakes and you just have
39:34
to keep picking yourself up and keep going, right?
39:37
Same with all those acting rejections that I get.
39:40
And those days when I can't get like, even one person to view a
39:44
video or listen to a podcast or you know, whatever the thing is,
39:49
that's my focal point at that particular point in time, you
39:53
have those days and then suddenly a new day will come and
39:56
something will happen. That gives you Feeling of
40:00
inspiration, inspires, you that motivates you to keep going, one
40:05
of the biggest things that keeps me going is all the wonderful
40:07
people that I meet online that have been supporting me for some
40:10
time now or new people that have joined even new people.
40:14
Listening to the show who might have discovered me on Tick Tock.
40:18
There's a lot of people saying really nice things and that
40:21
inspires me to keep going as well as people that keep
40:24
listening to the show and keep you know saying all these lovely
40:28
things I really do. Appreciate it.
40:30
I tried to be, you know, is real and transparent with you all the
40:34
time. I like to share The Good, the
40:36
Bad and the Ugly with everybody because I just, I'd like that
40:39
level of transparency transparency.
40:42
I like to be like, hey, you know, it's not all sunshine and
40:44
daisies, it's like there are hard times and, you know, most
40:47
of the time like these days, I'm just kind of trying to make ends
40:51
meet, keep keep money coming in just to pay the bills.
40:54
And hey, you know, we're all going through a difficult time
40:58
right now with Cost of living crisis here in the UK and all
41:02
the other crazy stuff that's going on in the world right now.
41:06
All you can really do is your best, you know, and I tried to
41:09
be grateful for what I have. I try not to complain too much
41:12
about what don't have but, you know, I'm not going to sit and
41:15
be like, oh yeah, everything's great because, you know,
41:18
sometimes it doesn't feel that way and I feel a compulsion to
41:21
share it. I know that people won't care
41:25
necessarily but for those people that do Care.
41:27
Thank you for caring for And supporting me, it means the
41:31
world. Now, in terms of other things
41:34
that I'm doing, I did a voice acting thing recently that I'd
41:38
done for the first time, which I thought might be interesting to
41:41
share. So I did this thing called ADR
41:44
which Common Board it stands for you.
41:46
Have to Google it. Sorry.
41:47
But basically ADR is like a form of like dubbing for TV shows
41:52
which means technically I have now worked on a TV show.
41:55
So I've finally done something for television have not appeared
41:59
on television. Revision but worked on
42:01
television and I work I did. I provide it's made, ER,
42:05
recording for a television show and literally all I had to do
42:09
was stand in a room with a bunch of other really awesome voice
42:12
actors and provide like fake conversations dubbing
42:17
conversations just just improvise, which is something
42:21
I'm good at. I'm not so good at learning
42:23
lines and working on it, you know, it's hard.
42:26
Sometimes I'm good at it sometimes, not, but I'm but I am
42:29
good. Improvisation, I can do that
42:30
forever and it was amazing to be in a room full of people.
42:34
That were also good at that and we were able like we didn't have
42:37
any hiccups like I thought they would be mistakes or maybe we
42:40
might have difficulties here and there and the directors that
42:45
were given us instruction might have to, you know, be like know
42:47
do this do this, but it was like clockwork.
42:50
It was like weed. It was, it was like, it was our
42:52
job every day and that's what we do every single day and no one
42:56
ever makes mistakes. Like everyone there was amazing
42:58
and just Tree professional and just love the experience.
43:03
And it was a good payday and I sat there thinking like damn,
43:06
like maybe I could make a career out of it.
43:09
Like I would obviously as you know, I want to be a
43:12
professional voice actor and an actor full-time but doing
43:17
getting occasional breaks like this, you know, opportunities to
43:21
do things like this. Inspire me, they make me think
43:25
like oh, hey, like maybe maybe this could be a thing and One of
43:29
the experiences on set was that was really cool.
43:32
Was I met a lady that had been doing it for 20 years and she's
43:37
made this her career and she was talking about how the industry
43:39
has changed over the years and what it's like now.
43:42
And she said, one moment she mentioned about taking the
43:45
plunge into into voice acting full-time.
43:49
And she said, like oh you know, and I was doing freelance
43:52
writing here and there and then I just decided to just take the
43:55
plunge and Do It full time. And I'm sitting there listening
43:57
to this like that's me, I'm doing I'm freelance stuff right
44:00
now. I have been for many years and I
44:03
want to do acting full-time. I don't really want to do
44:06
freelance writing anymore. I want to do this acting now
44:09
because recently, I've had to kind of, you know, take up
44:12
freelance writing and bar work. But to go back into customer
44:17
services, just to kind of keep money coming in and, you know,
44:21
keep the bills paid and it's not really what I want to be doing.
44:26
I want to just be doing this all the time, but you know what?
44:29
You got to do what you got to do to make sure that the bills
44:32
paid. You know, sometimes you just got
44:34
to do stuff that you don't want to do and it sucks.
44:36
But hey, it is what it is but I kind of thought that I was done
44:40
with customer services because we spent so many years doing
44:42
that and, you know, here I am back in doing it.
44:46
But you know what it is very flexible but I'll work can be
44:48
fun. It's hard work but it is very
44:51
flexible and enables me to keep pursuing these things and keep
44:54
doing these things. I just hope that one day I can
44:58
finally make money from these. Things.
44:59
And then maybe I won't have to do these other things anymore.
45:02
Maybe I can make a career out of acting and voice acting and who
45:07
knows? Maybe even broadcasting as well.
45:09
But yeah, that's a bit of what's going on in my life right now.
45:15
Let me know if you want constant updates, what's going on in my
45:18
life? But basically, I'm always just
45:20
looking for work, applying for acting roles and emailing
45:23
casting directors, that is my life right now and For the final
45:30
segment of today's show and quacky.
45:31
Look, we're at 45 minutes, 45 minutes and we still going.
45:36
I'm happy with the aisle progress.
45:39
One of the things I've been trying to do is create content
45:43
where I pose questions to read it.
45:45
Now, I've one time before I did briefly share in one particular
45:51
episode several months ago, life lessons from Reddit.
45:55
So I asked people a bunch of random Ian's.
45:59
And I collected all the best responses and compiled them and
46:04
read them out on the show. And I thought that was really
46:06
cool and it kind of fits in with the brand of, you know, how I
46:10
asked my guests, the best life lesson, best advice question,
46:15
but I decided to try something different with with Reddit and
46:18
I'd like to make this maybe a regular segment.
46:21
So if you have ideas or questions you'd like me to ask
46:24
the people of Reddit and see if we get any funny or inspiring
46:27
responses, let me know. And I lost them but here's a
46:31
couple of questions that I asked in the past week and here's some
46:34
of the responses. So I said I asked the people
46:37
have read it, what's the worst thing someone or someone you,
46:43
okay. What's the worst thing?
46:44
Someone, or you said on a first date?
46:48
The responses were, thanks for lunch but I don't think it will
46:51
work out. With that's really cheeky.
46:55
I don't know how I feel about that one least they're honest.
46:59
Another person said, I'll be honest.
47:01
I'm just here for a free dinner, just no shame.
47:04
Just just here for the free food.
47:08
One person said, the last girl I used to love and then apparently
47:12
went on for a long conversation, talking about their ex and then
47:16
they sort of said like you should never do this, never ever
47:18
do this. And then apparently they became
47:20
friends with this person for the next two years.
47:23
And And would frequently be reminded of how they miss that
47:27
chance by doing that. And one person said, I slept
47:31
with my cousin but it's okay because it was in Mexico, what?
47:35
The so there is let me know what the worst things that someone
47:41
you met on a first date. Said to you, I'd love to read
47:45
them out on the show crikey, I don't know, have I I've not had
47:50
many dates to be honest. I mean I've had a few here and
47:53
there but I can't think of any particular ones that stand out
47:56
that I could really say, for sure.
47:58
We're like particularly bad or memorable.
48:01
It's mostly just like awkward situations.
48:05
I do remember, actually going on on one day and wasn't so much
48:11
what was said, but it was my weird kind of Idea of what the
48:17
date should be. And then, you know what, this
48:20
person would be interested in. So I remember I was about 14 and
48:23
I was dating, this really cute girl and I took her to see a
48:27
movie which to be honest. As a date idea, is a pretty bad
48:31
idea because the whole point of a day is that, you know, you
48:34
want to get to know the person, spend time with them, right?
48:37
But in a movie, you just sit and watch the movie, so you can't
48:41
talk to them until afterwards. I mean, there's course, you
48:44
know, maybe you make out in the cinema, That might happen,
48:46
right? But the likelihood is you just
48:48
gonna sit there and watch the movie?
48:50
You're probably going to be pretty tired because you'll
48:52
probably see the movie in the evenings by the time.
48:54
You're done. They'll probably just want to go
48:55
home. So you don't really get to spend
48:57
any time with them. You just see a movie together
48:59
and then they go home. It's kind of a bad idea for a
49:02
date. I mean it's good if you can,
49:05
maybe if you do it earlier, let's say you do it middle of
49:08
the day and then you take them out for like lunch or you know,
49:12
dinner or something afterwards. That's a good idea but But don't
49:16
don't take them for a movie in the late evening.
49:18
I think that might be the bad idea.
49:20
Anyway, I decided to take this girl to see Ocean's Thirteen
49:25
because I thought that the first two oceans Ocean's, Eleven and
49:28
Ocean's, Twelve will really good.
49:30
So I thought, oh, this would be great and I think it had Al
49:32
Pacino in it and maybe I need to re see it.
49:36
But at the time I thought it was kind of a bit of a slow start
49:39
didn't feel very interesting, but she hated it.
49:43
She really wanted to get out of there and she literally just got
49:46
I walked out and I was like oh snap and originally we were
49:50
going to see something else but for some reason we chose to see
49:53
that and she was not happy and I can't remember how the rest of
49:56
the date go but suffice it to say we never spoke again.
50:00
So yeah, I messed up my shot there but fair enough.
50:03
It was a pretty terrible idea. I should have picked a better
50:07
idea for a movie. We I should have just taken her
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to, I don't know. Somewhere fun like bowling or
50:13
something, but, you know, lesson learned.
50:15
But yeah, I was a teenager like I was young, I didn't know
50:18
anything. Still don't know.
50:22
Anyway, I asked the people have read it.
50:25
What's the point of it? All, I don't know what I was
50:29
hoping to get back from this. I just thought it might because
50:32
sometimes when you ask like silly or poignant questions, it
50:36
get it inspires people and you get some interesting responses
50:39
and in this particular instance I did The first person said,
50:42
Pizza, which it's hard to argue with.
50:46
I think Pizza is pretty magical, and if the meaning of all life
50:51
is pizza, I wouldn't be disappointed.
50:56
Another person said it's to experience and I agree.
50:59
I think experiences are largely what make up the complexity of
51:05
Life, the the makeup of life more and more.
51:09
I find myself kind of living each day trying to live in the
51:13
moment as much as possible. I know that sounds really
51:15
cringey and, you know, just just obvious, but you know what?
51:21
I think it's true. As you get older and you see
51:24
your friends passed away and you go through the more difficult
51:27
hard times and you get through them and you get to the other
51:29
side and you realize like old, okay, life is hard but you can
51:32
get through it. It does make you think like you
51:35
know what those little experiences those beautiful
51:38
moments that you experienced here and there, that's what it's
51:41
about especially the little things like just spending a bit
51:44
of time with a loved one or just walking on its on a Sunday.
51:49
And you know, like today I began my day by just talking to people
51:54
via live stream and having coffee and just chatting and it
51:57
was nice. It was a good experience and It
52:01
was just, it was, it was nice. It was, it was a good experience
52:04
and A good moment, I think that is what life is about, but you
52:11
know, it's different for everyone.
52:13
And a few people said this, as people said, it depends on the
52:17
person and, you know, it's up to you.
52:19
You need to figure out yourself. Then there's a lot of Truth in
52:22
that what is one person's? Truth isn't another person's.
52:26
Everyone has a different truth. Everyone has a different
52:29
understanding of the world. I mean, that's an important
52:31
thing. I think a lot of us missed
52:33
sometimes. You know, we might desperately
52:34
try and make other people understand the way that we see
52:38
the world, but they see the world differently.
52:40
Sometimes we find people that see the world in a similar way,
52:43
but never exactly the same. We are all each unique and we
52:48
very in, and it's kind of fascinating, in a way.
52:50
I mean, that's kind of the beauty of meeting different
52:52
people, as you get different perspectives and different
52:55
understandings of the world. One person just straight up
52:59
said, there's no point and you know what?
53:02
I know it's very flippant and they're just mucking around.
53:04
But yeah it's true and another person said it's suffering which
53:08
I thought was very negative but I do understand it.
53:10
I mean your worldview can certainly change your
53:13
perspective of things. I've had times in my life where
53:16
I felt like. All I did was suffer and times
53:19
when I did feel like there was no point and one of the things I
53:22
try to do in my life is to seek purpose, you know, even if
53:27
there's no No point in life. I think we just have to give
53:30
ourselves some purpose and try to make the purpose, a positive
53:33
thing. It tries to help people in some
53:36
shape or form, you know, like when I'm creating content and
53:40
creating things and doing acting like, I am doing these things
53:43
for me, I love to do these things.
53:44
And I do them because they make me happy and that's what I want
53:46
to do with my life. But the end goal is that I want
53:49
other people to appreciate those things.
53:51
I love those things and get something out of it, you know.
53:54
Someone was watching me act. I want them to be in.
53:57
Tained, hopefully inspired motivated, you know, that kind
54:01
of thing. If someone's listening to this
54:03
show, I would like for them to be entertained and enjoy it and
54:08
get something out of it. And if people do, then I see
54:11
that as a massive success and you know, even if this show
54:16
never gets anywhere and we never achieve anything with it.
54:18
I think the biggest achievement I can really hope for is to
54:21
reach people and provide some entertainment that in of itself
54:26
would be a noble purpose, I think I think I'll Pope her
54:34
appropriate, our purpose changes all the time, but then again,
54:38
you know, sometimes we re-evaluate things and we change
54:41
that up, and it can mean different things at different
54:43
times. But ultimately, I feel like,
54:47
what I'm supposed to do is, is to reach others and entertain
54:51
them, and maybe Inspire them or motivate them.
54:55
You know, I'm not super intelligent.
54:57
I'm nothing special. But I feel like sometimes I can.
55:04
Make people smile. Or get the best out of people
55:08
and I think that that's something I want to continue to
55:11
keep trying to do. Let's keep going.
55:15
One person said to find and admire the good things in this
55:19
rotten place as a lot of Truth in that.
55:23
I remember when I was growing up, there were adults.
55:27
Cynical adults, that would say like our life is very difficult.
55:31
Wait until you get into the real world when you get into the
55:34
Adult World won't be so easy. And I know that they were trying
55:38
to be flipping and have a sort of a half joke but they were
55:41
right. When you become an adult life,
55:44
does get more difficult, it gets hard, there are times when you
55:49
Experienced traumatic, things, difficult times in your life
55:52
that feel like their never ending and you come out the
55:54
other side and it makes you appreciate life in a different
55:58
way. But sometimes it can make you
56:00
think that the wild just sucks or the world's out to get you.
56:04
And you know, I've been in that mindset before you know when I
56:09
meet people that think negatively or have a very kind
56:12
of Like they're angry at the world, I remember feeling that
56:17
way. I felt that way in my early 20s
56:21
and I remember being so negative as to kind of be flipping and
56:27
respond to anyone trying to be positive, as kind of saying like
56:30
oh you're full of shit. This is the way the world really
56:32
is. I was very cynical and angry at
56:34
the world. And then as I got older Things
56:38
got more difficult, but I started to see the possibilities
56:42
in life and I started to see that you can change things, but
56:46
life doesn't move at the pace that you want it to move at life
56:50
moves. Is it at its own pace and you
56:52
have to accept and kind of go with the flow and almost be at
56:57
one with it, you know? Hello car horn.
57:01
Is this problem with living right next to a main road?
57:05
It is what it is. One day.
57:06
I'll actually have a soundproof. From in a big apartment with my
57:10
own studio and I went out these problems gonna be rich
57:15
everybody, I'm gonna be rich and successful and it's all going to
57:18
be great. Now that you got find the yeah,
57:24
the good things in there in this room, I don't think the world is
57:26
inherently bad, but I do recognize that there's a lot
57:29
wrong with it, but if you focus on the good things rather than
57:33
the bad things I do generally think that's a better way of
57:37
approaching life, you know, even things like that.
57:39
Like okay, but a car horn just went off and it interrupted me
57:43
doing this podcast. Now, one person might say, oh I
57:45
just edit it out, it's fine. But as you know, I like to keep
57:48
this show quite Unedited because I'm a bit lazy in that sense but
57:53
also because I like it to be quite natural.
57:56
You know, I am talking, I suppose it is pretty unnatural
57:59
to sport speak for an hour to yourself, but I like it to feel
58:04
like that I like it to be almost like, you know, it's me sitting
58:07
in the room with you talking and maybe you're just listening, you
58:11
know? I don't know.
58:14
I like that concept. I like that idea.
58:17
But these things that used to annoy me like a car horn going
58:21
to going off. I would have years ago been
58:23
really upset by that angry and you know, felt like the world
58:27
was out to get me like everything's trying to ruin
58:29
this, but now I just take it in my stride.
58:31
I might you know what? Turn it into something.
58:33
Positive, turn it into something funny.
58:35
Turn it into a life lesson. Like, right now where you just
58:38
look at it. And you go, you know, what these
58:39
things happen, that's just life. Don't worry about it.
58:44
One person said in response to what's the point of it.
58:46
All, I don't know. I'm just here for the chocolate.
58:52
Well, I'm right there with you. I mean chocolate is pretty
58:54
Sensational. I was with the person said,
58:57
pizza, but hey, if chocolate is the point of it all down with
59:01
that too and some good chocolate out there.
59:04
And this is what I wanted to end it on.
59:06
One person said, the point of it all is to live.
59:10
Some people only live their life surviving and it's a horrible.
59:13
All way of living, but if you live your life, you will see the
59:19
beauty of life and be able to understand and appreciate the
59:24
great things. Sometimes you'll see horrible
59:27
things and your brain will remember those horrible things.
59:31
But when you, surround yourself with happiness, when you focus
59:35
on the happiness in life, you live in the moment.
59:39
And I thought that was a really great way to end this show.
59:44
I hope you've enjoyed the topic of sleep paralysis and sleep
59:47
apnea. Let me know if you have any
59:48
questions on that. Hope you enjoyed these new
59:50
segments that I've introduced today.
59:52
I hope you just enjoyed this show.
59:54
Let me know if you enjoyed this show as much as I did producing
59:58
it. And thank you so much for
1:00:00
listening, be safe, be well, and I will see you in the next
1:00:04
installment of the Christian Reef podcast.