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Redefining Failure | What Failure Really Reveals | Pastor Duke White Jr. · Witness the Wonder Christian Podcast: Supernatural Christian Testimonies, Miracles, and God Stories

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  It just didn't happen the way I thought it was, and it didn't
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  happen in the top I thought it was.
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  I got in my head all by myself, didn't talk to anyone.
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  I was trying to be strong, pretending that I wasn't
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  completely destroyed inside. Have you ever felt like failure
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  disqualified you? This episode will help you see
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  what failure actually. Reveals welcome to witness the.
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  Wonder I'm your host, Christina Smith.
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  Today, we're going to talk. About something we all face
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  failure. And my guest today is Pastor
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  Duke White. Junior.
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  He is the Co founder of the Goodview Network and.
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  Also he is the. Host of real.
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  Life with Duke White Duke Let's let's have a discussion.
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  About failure, we all go through it.
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  Failure is the the only opportunity a lot of times that
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  we get to really come in contact with who Jesus actually is.
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  When I think about the scripture where he says that I've come for
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  the broken, the oppressed, the blind, and sometimes we think
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  that that's a scripture about him, which it is, but it's
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  equally a scripture about who we are without him.
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  We are these absolute failures without him.
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  And so my personal story reflects that.
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  And it's weird because we are terms like we're more than
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  conquerors, we're victorious. That is true.
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  We can go through so much in life that we often forget that
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  he's already defined us as reborn, resurrected.
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  We resurrected with him. We can go through stuff in
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  moments that a lot of times in my, my personal experience, I
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  defined myself by my failures, not by his promise.
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  And I wanted that conversation because this is an age where so
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  many Christians are trying to be creative, trying to find their
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  identity. They, they know that God's
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  called them. There's something, but they're
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  faced with these constant failures.
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  And often we think it's the enemy.
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  And then a lot of times it's not just the enemy, It's also our
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  inadequacies and these challenges and how and failure
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  has such a bad reputation. But often God uses that failure
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  to show us our vulnerability and our absolute dependency on who
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  he is. I've been pastoring for 25 years
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  and I've experienced such utter calamity in my life.
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  Usually that calamity comes when I try to do things that only he
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  can do and how to interpret that.
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  You know, it's like God, you've given me this ability, but every
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  time I try to do something, it blows up in my face.
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  Believers were to be honest, there's a lot of times we just
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  want to throw our hands up and just walk away.
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  But there's something inside of us that doesn't allow us to do
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  that. So I'm going to start really
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  with understanding that failure doesn't feel good, but it can be
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  such a weapon to keep us humble to to keep us focused on on who
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  God is and how much we need him. Most people don't understand
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  this, but even in the physical realm or when, when athletes
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  work out, they actually work to failure because that's the only
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  way to get stronger, you know, is, is to to what comes against
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  you. And so if we learn to get a new
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  word association, a new emotional association with the
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  word failure, it actually helps us achieve more and realize, oh,
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  this is what it means to be more than a conqueror.
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  I had a business, a Christian clothing line coming soon,
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  Jesus. It's it's still there, We're
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  still doing it. But right now the focus is good
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  view. So, but 2023 years of my life
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  was coming soon, Jesus. The goal was to get the shirts,
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  say coming soon on the front, Jesus on the back.
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  God had me started in the mall. I used to be an evangelist in
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  the mall. I still am.
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  I would go to the mall. God would tell me to go to the
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  mall and I'd preach in the mall and then I'd get kicked out and
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  I'm like, what do you keep telling me to come here?
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  Like am I being crazy? I'm doubting myself?
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  Oh my God, I keep getting kicked out.
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  And and he gave me a word. He said that the people that are
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  in the mall, they paid a price to be there.
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  Are you willing to pay that price?
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  And I said, yes, Lord, I'm willing to pay that price.
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  Immediately fear comes in and I'm like wait a minute, I can't
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  afford to be in the mall. It's going to be like twenty
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  $30,000 a month and I don't know where to start.
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  Now I'm feeling like a failure because of my own fear and I
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  haven't even really talked to God about The Who, what, when,
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  where or how. But now leaving that I can't
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  already spend about 12 years go by and I don't even try but it's
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  haunting me. And then I decide I'm going to
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  go at least find out after 12 years up and I'm selling the
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  shirts at different events like that.
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  But he keeps calling me to go to the mall and so I finally go
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  there and find out the the actual cost was $2000 a month.
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  Right, right. Oh my God, I could do that.
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  We go into the mall and we're all optimistic and I bring my
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  family. We have this family business.
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  We're running it. It's wonderful.
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  And the excitement wears off and it's like, wait a second, this
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  is, this is not going well. People are not coming to the
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  mall to, to find Jesus. But but something interesting.
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  The same security guards, they used to kick me out now work for
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  us. Now they're, they're there to
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  protect us. So there's this shit.
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  I'm like, well, that's cool. However, this is not cool
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  because now it's a financial burden and that, that sense of
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  failure is starting to come. We were there for about 3 years
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  and I pretty much invested everything that I had into it.
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  And I'm focusing on how much the the, the stress and the
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  oppression. I'm not even seeing the amount
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  of people they got saved at the kiosk.
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  We were ministering and preaching to people and sharing
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  the gospel like we were supposed to be.
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  And it was so effective. And we weren't getting kicked
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  out. Lives were being changed.
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  But all I could focus was the failure.
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  I couldn't see any of the good because the money wasn't coming
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  in, the support wasn't there. I was discouraged.
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  Oh my God, what are you doing? I'm like, I counted the cost
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  and, and, and now this is happening.
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  Well, the malls started dying and the COVID thing happened and
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  it's starting to get worse. Depression starts coming in.
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  I'm watching my children watch me handle the stress, the
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  depression, and I'm failing as an example, as a leader, as a
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  father. Now they're watching me preach,
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  but at home, they're watching the the effect of failure
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  happening to me. So they're looking for a strong
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  leader. They're looking for their dad to
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  be who he preaches about, and I'm battling it.
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  The next thing I know, the depression leads to to alcohol,
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  and I started drinking. I was this close to becoming an
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  alcoholic. It didn't help me make it make
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  anything better, but it was like, at least I knew what I was
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  going to get out of the alcohol, right?
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  I'm still preaching, but nobody understood the pain that I was
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  going through. Then I couldn't take it anymore
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  and the next day I know I'm closing the kiosk because the
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  the the money wasn't there, the support wasn't there.
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  I'm angry at the body of Christ. I'm angry at the lack lack of
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  support. And then I have about $20 in my
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  pocket when I get a request to go to this thing called NRB.
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  I'm just like, yeah, God, of course you want me to go to NRB
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  with 20 bucks in my pocket. I don't even know what this
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  thing is. I I kind of got this snazzy
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  attitude. Like, you know what?
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  God, you're the same one that told me to go into do the mall
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  thing. Let me show everybody how you
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  treat me. So I'm literally with 20 bucks
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  in my pocket going to driving to Florida and I'm like, when the
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  car breaks down, God, you know, like, remember, this is what you
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  told me to do. And I'm on Facebook Live having
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  a hissy fit because I'm I'm a drama queen.
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  I'm whining up everybody. The body of Christ didn't
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  support and I'm mad, but I'm like, I'm going to keep the
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  faith and I'm being sarcastic as you can be.
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  I'm telling people what's going on and I'm like, and then he
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  tells me to go to Florida. You know this and that, you
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  know, and I've lost everything. And then people start sending me
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  cash apps to get to NRB safely. It's not even dawning on me that
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  the CEO of NRB actually not only invited me, said, Hey, your
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  tickets going to be taking care of me want you there.
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  They, they saw my television broadcast that I was also on,
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  which also no money was coming in.
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  So I'm just putting out thousands of dollars each month,
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  stressing out again, not considering how many souls are
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  being saved and and all this good stuff.
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  All I can think about is failure.
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  I'm obsessed with failure. It feels terrible.
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  I get an RV 1 miracle after another meeting.
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  The Warrior riders was one of them.
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  One miracle that happened. I end up meeting all these
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  wonderful people. All of a sudden I can't see the
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  failure. I like, wow, God, one miracle
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  after another and guess what happens?
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  I go, I knew you were gonna do something like I knew I had the
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  faith the whole time and God's like, no, you were not doing
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  that. I end up meeting organization
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  that develops television networks and he offers me this
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  opportunity to have a television network.
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  And then when I hear the price, I'm like, yeah, great.
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  I got you're talking to the guy who got here on a miracle, you
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  know, and on the way back, God tells me exactly who to talk to
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  about this, who is now my business partner.
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  When I talk to my friend about it, he says, I believe in the
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  vision, let's do it. And the next thing you know,
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  good views born. And I'm confused because coming
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  soon, Jesus, the kiosk was supposed to be what paid for the
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  television network. And I'm going to wait a second.
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  Hold on, God, you did exactly what you said you were going to
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  do, and then I got consumed by failure.
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  You were consistent and like what happened, It's here, the
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  promise is here. Why all the emotional trauma and
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  drama? And then I realized I didn't
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  trust Him through my failure, what I was identifying as
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  failure. What we hold on to because we're
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  afraid of failure. We don't have to remember that
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  surrendering it over to God is part of the process of success.
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  Surrendering surrendering it over to God When a when a tree
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  drops a seed let's it go, it takes root, it goes through its
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  process and I realize wow, God was taking me through.
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  Then all of a sudden good views here and coming soon.
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  Jesus is still here. It just didn't happen the way I
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  thought it was, and it didn't happen in the top thought it
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  was. And now I'm thinking, wait a
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  second, who did I become in between that fear, failure and
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  faith? And I realized I got in my head
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  all by myself, didn't talk to anyone.
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  I was trying to be strong, pretending that I wasn't
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  completely destroyed inside. So often we look at our
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  callings, the things that we're doing as maybe not as big, that
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  Everyone's How you doing, Duke? I'm fine, you know, the whole,
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  you know, being polite, being strong because you got to walk
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  in faith. So I'm not trying to be
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  discouraging, but the more people I talked to, they said we
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  saw your discouragement because you when I would go live to try
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  to advertise, each one got a little bit more and more
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  negative to the point at the very end it was more like where
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  is everybody help me, We're drowning.
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  Reminds me of Jesus sleep on the boat.
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  He's like, don't you care that we're dying?
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  We're going to drown. And I realized we can maneuver
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  through failure a lot better when we don't forget to trust
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  him. And, and and that's the real
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  challenge. When we feel like we're failing,
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  we have to really hunker down and say, OK, Lord, what are you
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  really doing? Not what do I think you're
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  doing, but show me what you're really doing.
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  And, and my entire life was like that, this.
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  And he started to walk me through real deliverance from
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  this fear of failure because I, I had such a negative word
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  association with it. You know, I, I've had people
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  call me stupid because they didn't understand my creativity.
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  So then I got caught up in trying to prove who I was.
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  Then I didn't realize I can't control how people see me.
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  You can't. You, you can best person in the
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  world with the best heart in the world, the best intentions and
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  people be like, yeah, we just don't believe you.
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  You're too good to be true. Or you're just trying to get
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  money or whatever the situation is.
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  You're trying to make sure people see you the right way.
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  All that stuff happened very young in my life because we live
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  in a culture that seeks approval and what happens?
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  Failure in getting people to see you the right way.
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  Now we're consumed by that. And I realized how much of our
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  lives is occupied trying to avoid the inevitable failure.
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  It's going to happen. And then I begin to see the
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  success stories of celebrities and made proudly without a
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  nonchalantly talked about how much they failed or a movie they
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  made bombed. I'm like, how come the world has
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  such confidence? How come they're not afraid of
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  failure? How come they just keep going?
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  And I realized because they believe in themselves.
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  And this is where the mystery kicks in.
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  What's the difference between pride and confidence?
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  How do I know where where my ability still is not enough?
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  When do I ask for help? All these things, these all play
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  a part in how we're going to interpret what failure actually
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  is. When I realized so many people
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  won't take chances because of their fear of failure, then
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  other people will do the exact opposite and take unnecessary
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  chances. And I'm like God, Well, where is
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  the balance? The balance actually is in
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  surrender. Saying God, only you can do this
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  moving forward while being surrendered is a key element in
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  deliverance from the fear of failure.
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  When we accept that failure is a form of transformation, it
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  really is because most people are living according to their
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  emotions and emotions can be extremely deceptive.
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  First of all, when when fear gets involved, you're going to
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  misinterpret everything with fear if you're looking through
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  the lens of fear. So if I put on my fear lenses,
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  I'm afraid of everything. I'm afraid of doing nothing.
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  I'm afraid of good things, I'm afraid of bad things.
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  I'm afraid of everyone. We've got to be able to make
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  sure we're looking through the lens of faith because that's the
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  only true way that we realize that.
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  And there's no such thing as a wasted moment.
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  God's always moving us forward. But if we're not careful, when
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  we define ourselves as failure, failures, not having a moment
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  where we failed or a moment where we made a mistake.
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  In the movies, they go take one, take two, this is a mistake.
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  And so God says, do it again. You're going to get it right.
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  When I realized that 25 years still ministering, leading
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  people to the Lord, but inside I still saw myself as a failure.
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  I realized because I was not only trying to do what only God
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  could do, but I missed this revelation, but even what he
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  wanted to do through me still required community and I'm like
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  we're the body of Christ, every believer like we're we're
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  necessary. So the truth of the matter is it
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  was impossible not only to do it with God, but without God, but
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  it's also impossible to do it without community.
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  And by connecting to community, what that actually did for me
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  was help me find peace, Help me realize that we were never meant
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  to do this alone. That when you find community,
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  when you, when you allow not only God to order your steps,
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  his steps are not going to necessarily just lead you to
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  your destiny. He's going to lead you to the
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  people that are supposed to be a part of your destiny.
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  We're all part of the story of God, and He's bringing us
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  together for His story, His completion.
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  A lot of times we'll take our ministries and our ministry
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  becomes our identity, which is a big mistake.
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  And then, you know, then, then we define ourselves by how well
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  we do our ministries. When God is really calling,
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  calling us to rest, he's calling us to peace.
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  If you look at all the promises of God, usually he's telling the
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  human to obey and then he will do this go throughout the
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  scriptures. All he's asking us is to do is
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  to be available and he will open this door.
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  I remember holding so tightly to coming soon Jesus, and now you
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  guys got to remember it wasn't just a brand for me.
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  It was this, this divine revelation that Jesus is really
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  coming soon. When we miss opportunities to
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  celebrate what He's doing because we're so focused on
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  failure, it comes off as ungratefulness.
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  But really it is a striving to please God.
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  And that's not what He wants. He doesn't want us striving.
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  He wants us to trust Him. He wants us and rest and failure
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  comes in when we don't actually respect rest in peace, you know,
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  that's when the misinterpretation of failure
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  comes in, you know, and that's, that's a very hard thing to do
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  because especially if you're a doer, right?
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  You know, because you're a doer. I understand that one exactly.
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  Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it's just like, you know, we
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  don't celebrate like I wasn't good enough.
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  And this is going to sound awful when I say it.
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  One of the things that that that God showed me through keeping my
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  eyes focused on Jesus is with the naked eye.
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  You see failure everywhere in the ministry of Jesus.
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  The rich young ruler reject Jesus.
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  They called him a devil casting out devils with devils, you
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  know, isn't he the carpenter's son?
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  There was this always this doubting there was a where
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  there's a scripture where he's preaching in his own family,
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  sees the intensity of the rejection that he's going
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  through. And they were like, OK, they're
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  not receiving calm down. And they begin to mock him.
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  And he says, my mother and father are those that do the
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  will of God. And then of course, the
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  crucifixion biggest 1 is that it's it's in John 666.
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  Matter of fact. Well, it's the scariest
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  scripture. He had 500 disciples that walked
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  away from him leaving only the 12th and he asked them us will
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  you leave too? And they said where would we go?
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  You have the words of life. Their ability to not look at the
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  situation as failure, even though with the naked eye they
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  they saw something different. And the reason why they saw
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  something different because they didn't just follow Jesus when he
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  was preaching, they were intimate with him.
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  And so because they were intimate with him, they're like,
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  hey, 500 people can walk away. We watched him walk on water.
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  500 people can walk away. We watched him feed 5000 with
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  five loaves of bread and two fish.
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  We we saw him raise the dead. They were so confident in their
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  intimacy with him. But but it wasn't the miracles.
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  They said, you have the words of life.
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  Well, this lets me know because we have to be very careful that
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  when we're being ambitious and we're trying to please God and
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  we're trying to do the will of God that we feed on the words of
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  life, not the the the technology, not our ability.
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  What's the newest trend? What are we supposed to be no
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  feed on the words of life. Stay in that surrendered
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  position because one thing's for sure is challenges are going to
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  come like Peter walking on water and it's like, how do you please
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  this Jesus you walk on water. He gets distracted, he sees the
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  wave and and he sinks and Jesus picks him up and say ye of
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  little faith. It's like, well, what about the
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  fact that I just took a couple good steps.
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  This is a very defining moment of what failure looks like.
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  Peter, he didn't get in his head and go, well, I'm the only one
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  that got out of the boat. He he wasn't offended.
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  He just, yeah, messed up. But he then he gets back and
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  stays focused on Jesus. When you started talking about
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  Peter, I was thinking about it, but I was thinking about it from
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  a different perspective. I was thinking about it from the
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  standpoint of all the disciples that didn't get out of the boat.
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  And how much of A failure they probably thought of themselves
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  in that moment. They're like man Peters like
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  getting all this recognition from Jesus.
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  Jesus said upon this rock, I will build my church and like
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  there was a lot of especially on the show the chosen they were
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  show them as being competitive a little bit wanting to know who's
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  going to sit beside Jesus in heaven competing over his
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  attention, his affection and we know he was he loved each of
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  them equally, even though he recognized each of them's would
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  serve a different purpose in his father's plan.
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  So often we look at our callings, the things that we're
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  doing in our for the Lord as maybe not as big that maybe it's
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  a failure compared to what someone else is out there doing.
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  You know what I mean? If you are planted exactly where
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  he has you doing exactly what he's called you to do, and it's
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  not a failure if it's not some big gigantic ministry.
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  You know, we all have these like grandeur ideas that we have
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  called to do this big ministry out there.
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  And what if he's called you to be the best mom that you could
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  be because you're raising up the next Billy Graham.
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  You know, you're raising up someone who is going to have a
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  huge calling. Think about Mary.
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  I mean, it was all she did was birth the son of God, like like
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  all she did, right? Like but what if she?
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  Didn't like all I am was a dad. All I am was a mom.
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  Right, exactly. Her job was to carry the Son of
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  God and to raise him. I mean that alone.
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  It would be intimidating, the call.
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  And there's a massive lesson in that when when we're walking in
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  faith, it doesn't mean that failure is not going to come,
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  but what makes a difference? How?
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  How fast do we repent? How fast do we depend?
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  How fast do we cry out to him? Lord save me.
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  Because that becomes a defining moment that redefines failure.
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  So failure is a awesome opportunity to cry out to Jesus
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  and and instead of being discouraged, because discourage
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  is a product of failure, discouragement means your
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  courage has been dismantled. Most people and too many people
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  think discouragement is the same thing as depression and they're
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  not. Discouragement means your
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  courage has been dismantled and you don't have the inner
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  fortitude to keep going. You like, oh, this battle was
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  too hard, and you don't even realize that you can still fight
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  because because you're still here.
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  You didn't quit. It's only true failure when
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  you've actually stopped. And if you stopped in your mind,
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  you're actually going to stop in your faith, you're going to stop
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  in your heart, and you're not going to give a true chance for
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  transformation to take place. It's important for people who
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  are creative, whether you're writing a book, whether you're
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  making music or whatever you're doing as you offer these things
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  for God, that you don't get deceived by failure.
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  And in the first case that we knew biblically that this was
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  going to be a problem. The first case obviously is Adam
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  and Eve failure. They failed, right?
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  However, we that we can't dismiss that failure came,
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  judgement came, consequence came, but also grace.
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  Even though they left the presence of God, they came back
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  and, and, and, and instead of cursing them, he curses the
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  earth in their stead and then gives them grace.
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  Still consequence, but he gives them grace for their failure.
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  You see the second case with Cain and Abel, his worship was
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  rejected and the opportunity that God was given him, giving
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  him was to overcome. He says, why is your countenance
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  falling right. So when we when we fail, our
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  countenance falls and and sometimes it can come from God
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  rejecting an idea because we can have good intentions, but are
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  they God ideas? God ideas don't fail, good
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  intentions do. That's a hard thing to process.
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  And you watch Cain struggle with that And then what does Cain do?
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  He operates in his emotional idolatry and ends up taking his
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  brother's life again. Failure in relationship, failure
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  in emotional management. But what does God do?
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  Grace shows up. Third case, Noah.
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  Noah. Mankind has completely failed.
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  Judgment comes. God judges the hearts of man,
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  but Noah finds grace, you know, and that story repeats itself
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  where humans especially, even when you get more defined to the
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  children of Abraham, they fail. David fails, failures everywhere
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  throughout the Scripture. It's never about our failure.
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  It's always about what God does with our hearts.
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  And it's so important to get ego out of the way.
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  And we've got to practice surrender.
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  We've got to practice accountability.
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  We got to be honest with ourselves and have these honest
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  conversations. And I, I, I think I got a little
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  ambitious and got ahead of you or God, I, I think I doubted
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  you. I know I doubted you, you know,
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  or God, I, I think I, I, I was too zealous.
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  Do you see what I'm saying? And especially when we live in a
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  culture where success has this presentation.
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  But for the believer, the same way we have to redefine failure
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  is the same way we have to redefine success because
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  ultimately the goal is to get people into heaven.
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  When I even though I lost the kiosk due to failure and, and
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  the feeling the business, the amount of people whose lives
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  were touched, I learned when I redefined failure, I learned how
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  to appreciate all those moments that I overlooked that I
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  dismissed that Maybe if I wasn't so focused on trying to avoid
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  failure, that would have given me the energy, the synergy, the
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  perspective to actually have a victorious mindset.
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  And in a sense, I, in a sense, God relieved me from the chaos
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  of the kiosk because he saw with winds in my heart, you know, he
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  saw that he's like, OK, and this is how you know, he's a good
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  father. He's like, OK, let me get you to
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  see that I'm with you and that it's not you.
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  So even that 15 hour drive with 20 bucks in my pocket to go to
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  NRB, which would be the birthing of Goodview, which was born out
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  of failure, doubt, fear, frustration, depression,
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  sadness, all while being this powerful man of God inspiring
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  other people. But inside I was broken and
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  defined by failure. And not only did he give me
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  brothers to build Goodview Network in, a family to build
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  Goodview Network with, but then I started meeting these amazing
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  people such as yourself. And it's like, yes, finally,
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  victory, we're winning. It's important too, that you
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  that you line everything up with the word of God.
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  If you have fear at all. Fear is not from God, right?
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  If you're afraid of failing, then that's not God because
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  that's he said the Bible says that he's not given us a spirit
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  of fear, but of power and of love and a sound mind.
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  And so if that's what's preventing you from stepping out
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  into something you really truly believe is from God, then you
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  know that that's the enemy working against and against you.
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  It's not for for your good, but God is for our goods.
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  This has been so good, Duke of any like final words of
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  encouragement for anyone who is afraid of failure, has maybe
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  failed, and is struggling to get back up again.
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  Yes, accept it. It's going to happen what
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  doesn't have to happen. You have to control how you let
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  failure affect your faith. The failure is going to happen
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  whether someone stops you or whatever, but it doesn't have to
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  stop you on the inside. Just recharge, plug back in with
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  God, and he'll be good to go. To learn more about today's
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