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Be the Hero of Your Own Story | A Motivational Masterpiece · Motivation Mindset Podcast

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  Speaker 1: You know, yeah, all these people saying, oh, you know
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  Speaker 1: you can't write. You know, you're not going to be
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  Speaker 1: able to write a fictional novel, or your memoir won't
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  Speaker 1: do good, or you can't you're not going to be
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  Speaker 1: an actor, you're just the rapper guy.
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  Speaker 2: Blah blah blah. Now at this phase.
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  Speaker 1: Of my life, those things like I don't hear that.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, I acknowledge it. I know I'm a human being.
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  Speaker 2: Sometimes it hurts to hear it, but I've.
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  Speaker 1: Gone through it my whole life, being told what I
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  Speaker 1: can or can't do, not only personally, but then professionally.
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  Speaker 1: You'll never be a rapper, you'll never sell out the garden,
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  Speaker 1: you'll never this, you'll never that. And knowing that every
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  Speaker 1: single thing that is, you know I've been told that
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  Speaker 1: I couldn't do, I actually achieved it. And so as
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  Speaker 1: a man, you know, at thirty and stepping back and
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  Speaker 1: realizing my worth as a human being, now stepping into
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  Speaker 1: this next round, this next chapter of creativity.
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  Speaker 2: I know I can't. I know I can't.
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  Speaker 1: And for me, that's what this book is, That's what
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  Speaker 1: this conversation is. It's letting people know, like, dude, you
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  Speaker 1: can do it because at the end of the day,
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  Speaker 1: I just feel like we're all kids. Like everyone's like,
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  Speaker 1: you know, first graders with nuclear codes.
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  Speaker 2: As adults, it's weird.
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  Speaker 1: And when I look at, you know, other people, when
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  Speaker 1: they tell me their dreams and their ambitions and all this,
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  Speaker 1: I see this child inside of them that is pure.
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  Speaker 3: And excited, and I root for that person because the
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  Speaker 3: child in me has been stepped on and kicked but
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  Speaker 3: is still standing.
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  Speaker 1: So moving into this next chapter, I think the biggest thing,
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  Speaker 1: even though it's hard, even though my own voice goes,
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  Speaker 1: you can't do it, You're a fraud.
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  Speaker 2: Everyone's gonna know.
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  Speaker 1: I still say, yes, you can, you know you can,
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  Speaker 1: you can do this. I just found out recently I
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  Speaker 1: have cervical dystonian.
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  Speaker 2: Do you know what this is?
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  Speaker 3: I've only heard about it through you.
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  Speaker 2: Well.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, So it's a neurological disorder which basically either can
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  Speaker 1: cause a person's head to turn in one direction and
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  Speaker 1: it's kind of stuck in that direction unless they use.
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  Speaker 2: Like a sensory tick.
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  Speaker 1: And for me, I have a tremor, a head tremor,
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  Speaker 1: and it goes in a no motion and I cannot
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  Speaker 1: control it, and it causes me a lot pain, I
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  Speaker 1: guess for me when it comes to these endeavors of
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  Speaker 1: acting and writing scripts and all this stuff. The thing
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  Speaker 1: that rips me from this, the fear that I have
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  Speaker 1: is that I can't control my head from shaking. And
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  Speaker 1: so for the last two years, I haven't written anything.
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  Speaker 1: I haven't really sat down sat at a table the
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  Speaker 1: way that I like to sit at a table normally
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  Speaker 1: without my head doing this, which is shaking back, which
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  Speaker 1: causes me extreme emotional pain, which also stems from the
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  Speaker 1: fact that when I was a young boy, I would
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  Speaker 1: see the elderly shaking and it freaked me out. It
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  Speaker 1: scared me so bad. And then now I'm dealing with
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  Speaker 1: this thing. I think it's crazy that, you know, as
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  Speaker 1: we're having a conversation and you're talking to me, I'm
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  Speaker 1: doing everything that I can to listen to you while
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  Speaker 1: also wondering are your viewers watching my head shake, and
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  Speaker 1: wondering why do they think I'm nervous? Do they think
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  Speaker 1: I'm weird? Is it weird that I'm sitting on a
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  Speaker 1: couch at a certain angle and turning my head while
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  Speaker 1: trying to hold this and put my arm back here
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  Speaker 1: to look as normals this is in my head, and
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  Speaker 1: I wish all I had to worry about was the
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  Speaker 1: creative aspect of it.
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  Speaker 2: Now here's the funny part.
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  Speaker 1: There's always going to be some back in the basement.
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  Speaker 2: I was broke with my mom, you know, and what
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  Speaker 2: I was going through.
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  Speaker 1: I was on welfare and food stamps, and you know
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  Speaker 1: my stack dad's slitness achilles heel open and bleeding profusely all.
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  Speaker 3: Over the.
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  Speaker 1: Kitchen floor while my mom was hauled off by the cops,
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  Speaker 1: or when she was in a psych ward and I
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  Speaker 1: was all alone with my sisters. There's always something, and
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  Speaker 1: so part of the reason that I bring this up
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  Speaker 1: is to say, like, there's always going to be something
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  Speaker 1: in our lives. There's always going to be something that
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  Speaker 1: isn't right, but we can't let it stop us from
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  Speaker 1: doing what we love. So many people have underlining things
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  Speaker 1: that they deal with personally that nobody else would know,
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  Speaker 1: and it's torture. Man.
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  Speaker 2: It scares me. It scares me.
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  Speaker 1: What if I've given this to my son, What if
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  Speaker 1: it becomes extremely debilitating and I'd become a burden to
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  Speaker 1: my wife and my family.
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  Speaker 2: But at the same time, Yolo, I have to focus
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  Speaker 2: on the present.
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  Speaker 1: I have to look back on what I wish I
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  Speaker 1: could have been focusing on in the basement.
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  Speaker 2: What I have right now is my health.
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  Speaker 1: I am able to sit and have a conversation and
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  Speaker 1: most people don't really notice it. And I will be
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  Speaker 1: damned if I allow it to stop me from writing
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  Speaker 1: or doing these things.
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  Speaker 2: Just because it's like someone's poking you twenty four to seven.
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  Speaker 2: You got to live with it.
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  Speaker 1: Adaptation It's one of our you know, mankind's greatest.
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  Speaker 2: Features, I believe. So you know, I had so many.
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  Speaker 1: People telling me what I was or what I wasn't
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  Speaker 1: or that I was trying to be this, or that
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  Speaker 1: I was trying to be that, and I was.
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  Speaker 2: Just always just trying to be myself. You know. Sure,
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  Speaker 2: I've tried to rap like Kendrick Lamar and j.
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  Speaker 1: Cole because I think that they rap really cool, so
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  Speaker 1: maybe I'll try a cadence like them.
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  Speaker 2: I wasn't trying to be them, you know what I mean.
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  Speaker 1: But you can say the same thing for Tribe call
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  Speaker 1: Quest for you know, Nas and jay Z and Kanye West,
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  Speaker 1: like these are guys that I look up to and
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  Speaker 1: for me, it's funny that if you're in a not
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  Speaker 1: to go on another tangent. But you can't be a
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  Speaker 1: fan of a contemporary artist.
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  Speaker 2: It's just no. It's in a way they're your enemy,
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  Speaker 2: but they're your brother.
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  Speaker 1: They're your competition, but they're And it's like, no, dude,
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  Speaker 1: if Kendrick Lamar has a really cool beat, I'm gonna
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  Speaker 1: be like six, let's make a beat like that.
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  Speaker 2: And I want to do it in a completely different way.
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  Speaker 1: Realizing that that's okay, like all these all these imaginary
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  Speaker 1: blurred lines on what you can, all.
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  Speaker 2: These rules that are just made up. You know.
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  Speaker 1: It's like I'm that child inside drawing and painting and
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  Speaker 1: making the sky orange or whatever, you know, painting the
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  Speaker 1: sky oornge.
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  Speaker 2: And so with that, looking in the mirror now older.
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  Speaker 1: I've realized everyone's fully nobody knows what they're talking about.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know why am I worried about this?
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  Speaker 1: Like my son is beautiful, my wife is amazing, my
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  Speaker 1: life is amazing. I'm just a guy who writes words
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  Speaker 1: down and sometimes wraps them or sings them or acts
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  Speaker 1: them out in a scene. And some people literally hate
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  Speaker 1: me for it, and some people like me for it.
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  Speaker 1: A majority of the people on this planet have no
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  Speaker 1: view who I am, so what before honestly really moving
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  Speaker 1: on to anything else in your life as far as
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  Speaker 1: any passion. So if we're talking about music, let's use
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  Speaker 1: that as an example. But at the end of the day,
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  Speaker 1: we're talking about creativity, we're talking about life, We're talking
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  Speaker 1: about dreams and goals, right, so utterly commit yourself to
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  Speaker 1: this one thing before moving on.
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  Speaker 2: So I've been.
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  Speaker 1: Doing music for seventeen years and it's only now that
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  Speaker 1: I am moving on to film and different things like that,
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  Speaker 1: while still doing music because I love it, because I'm
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  Speaker 1: an addict. And what I would say is like, make
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  Speaker 1: it your everything. And I'm still a student. I think
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  Speaker 1: I know a lot about hip hop and music in general,
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  Speaker 1: but it's like, dude, I'm still learning all the time.
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  Speaker 2: Ask questions because it is better to ask.
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  Speaker 1: A question and learn and learn something everything, Like literally,
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  Speaker 1: make it your everything. I would wake up think of
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  Speaker 1: raps and ideas. I would wake up and record. I mean,
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  Speaker 1: there was a point in time when I was doing
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  Speaker 1: five songs.
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  Speaker 2: A day, minimum minimum five songs a day.
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  Speaker 1: No matter what I do, it's always never good enough
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  Speaker 1: in the eyes of not necessarily just hip hop, but
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  Speaker 1: entertainment in general, you know what I mean, it's not
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  Speaker 1: good enough. You're gonna okay, you got you know, you
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  Speaker 1: got a couple of followers on Twitter, but you can't
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  Speaker 1: do a show.
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  Speaker 2: And then you do a show.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, fifty people showed up, but five hundred people
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  Speaker 1: to show, and then five hundred people show up, and
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  Speaker 1: then five thousand people and then twenty five thousand people,
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  Speaker 1: and then it's like, okay, yeah, but you ain't gon
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  Speaker 1: you ain't got no album. You know, it's okay, but
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  Speaker 1: the album's not platinum, okay, And that starts.
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  Speaker 2: To ingrain into your head.
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  Speaker 1: And it's not just the just music, I mean, it's life, right.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, okay, you have no high school diploma, and
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  Speaker 1: then you get high school, yeah, but you didn't go
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  Speaker 1: to college. And you can go to college, yeah, but
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  Speaker 1: you don't have your masters, and you get your masters
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  Speaker 1: and then before you know, you're like eighty years old
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  Speaker 1: and you didn't You don't even live your life, you
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  Speaker 1: know what I mean. And I think I think I'm
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  Speaker 1: really lucky to have discovered that.
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  Speaker 2: At a young age, you know, because thirty one is young.
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  Speaker 1: But my life is a lot just slower now because
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  Speaker 1: I've been able to look back while creating this book
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  Speaker 1: and realize that basically the goals I had as a
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  Speaker 1: young man and a musician and a creative person.
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  Speaker 2: So look, even though they were real.
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  Speaker 1: And they make sense, you know, like Okay, I want
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  Speaker 1: to put out an album, I want to sell a
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  Speaker 1: certain amount my first week, or do this or do that.
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  Speaker 2: It was just this hamster wheel that.
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  Speaker 1: Never stopped, and I think I just feel like that's
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  Speaker 1: very unhealthy. I never once patted myself on the back
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  Speaker 1: or said good job.