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Carefully Reckless: My Past vs. My Future · The Breakfast Club

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Speaker 1: Welcome to Can'tfley Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio and
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Speaker 1: the Black Effects, And just.
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Speaker 2: Like that, we're back on the air. Welcome back to you.
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Speaker 2: Had another carefully reckless episode with your girl, just hilarious.
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Speaker 1: What I'll be doing, I'll be fixing mess and we
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Speaker 1: got my girl Taylor in here today. Say hey to Taylor,
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Speaker 1: y'are say, let's say hey to the babyols. All right,
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Speaker 1: so listen, I'm gonna just jump right in and read
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Speaker 1: the story.
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Speaker 2: This one is really really good.
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Speaker 1: Obviously it's not a voice note, and she did say
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Speaker 1: something about it not being a voice not too She
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Speaker 1: was like, my man listens to carefully Reckless on iHeart
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Speaker 1: Andie listens to you fix people mess on Breakfast Club.
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Speaker 1: So she didn't want to leave me a voice note.
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Speaker 1: So here it goes, Hey, Jass, I need you bad child.
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Speaker 1: So one of my children, one of my childhood friends,
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Speaker 1: was my very first boyfriend in life.
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Speaker 2: That's cute.
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Speaker 1: He was the big time drug dealer in our city.
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Speaker 1: We're from Saint Louis. Oh lord, I've loved him from
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Speaker 1: a child to an adult. We've been together on and
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Speaker 1: off for about fifteen years. By the grace of God.
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Speaker 1: I never got pregnant by him, but we always talked
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Speaker 1: about having kids together and him making me a wife,
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Speaker 1: not about a.
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Speaker 2: Grace of God. He yo.
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Speaker 1: During the time of our relationship, he was back and
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Speaker 1: forth to prison, involved in shootouts, all the things that
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Speaker 1: would make a girl want out, And all the years
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Speaker 1: we were together, I had to deal with that and
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Speaker 1: more house raised and long sleepless nights.
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Speaker 2: House raised.
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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, fuck all less when somebody raised. Okay, so Taylor,
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Speaker 1: when somebody raised your house, they're looking for a.
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Speaker 2: Fucking drug dealer. House raise. Oh no, no, no, no,
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Speaker 2: no house raise, no, no, no no.
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Speaker 1: He never cheated as far as I know, but being
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Speaker 1: the girlfriend of a drug dealer became very old and
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Speaker 1: tired for me as I got older. He never cheated
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Speaker 1: as far as I know, but being the girlfriend of
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Speaker 1: a drug dealer became very old and tired for me
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Speaker 1: as I got older.
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Speaker 2: So I gave him an ultimatum, me or that life.
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Speaker 2: He just couldn't let it go.
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Speaker 1: Right then, he said he had a goal and as
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Speaker 1: soon as he hits it, he's gonna come marry me
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Speaker 1: and we can start building our life together. Now this
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Speaker 1: was about three years ago. The last time we spoke
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Speaker 1: on this. He went to jail for a year after
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Speaker 1: that and been home for about two years.
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Speaker 2: Now.
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Speaker 1: During that year, I met a gentleman and he was
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Speaker 1: literally everything I was missing. He was everything I wanted
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Speaker 1: in my on again off again x We were so
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Speaker 1: compatible in the early months of us dating Jess. This
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Speaker 1: man showed me real love and a passionate way. I
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Speaker 1: swear he is my person. A few months ago, my
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Speaker 1: ex pops up out of nowhere at my job now
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Speaker 1: I work at the bank.
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Speaker 2: I thought he was coming to rob it. What the
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Speaker 2: fuck the fuck? Hello, Well, just kidding, bitch, caty fucking.
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Speaker 1: Just kidding like this the fuck He was telling me
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Speaker 1: he needed to take me out and that he needed
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Speaker 1: to talk and update me on his life. Job came
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Speaker 1: to her job because yeah job. Maybe she didn't say that, yes,
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Speaker 1: she said. I did get to meet with him, and
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Speaker 1: he briefly ran down all of his life changes to me.
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Speaker 1: He joined the church, he is actually Oh my good,
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Speaker 1: he's actually owner of a business. He started his own
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Speaker 1: tech company and he has a trucking company.
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Speaker 2: Okay goes. He turned legit. This was the one that
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Speaker 2: was in jail. We came out but so was she
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Speaker 2: just not in contact with him? Probably not because she
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Speaker 2: had already met another dude. This is the crazy thing.
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Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, so he had told her about you know
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Speaker 1: updated let me say, didn't.
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Speaker 2: Say how long she was in contact with him though,
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Speaker 2: because he did a lot. He did a lot and
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Speaker 2: that look. Yeah, well he was on for two years
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Speaker 2: and this was a few months ago he came.
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Speaker 1: He probably was trying to get a ship together before
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Speaker 1: he came back, because she had gave him that last
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Speaker 1: ultimatum like look me or this, and he was like, yo,
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Speaker 1: I can't lead a game yet.
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Speaker 2: I got a goal. I'm trying to earn a certain amount.
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Speaker 2: You know how drug Deale's talk.
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Speaker 1: I know it so well because I was dealing with
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Speaker 1: a lot of them back in my day, you know,
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Speaker 1: so period he came home. Now he's reformed and shit
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Speaker 1: and he's basically like ghosts James Patrick. He was trying
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Speaker 1: to be legit, trying to be legit and everything. And
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Speaker 1: she said, wow, crazy thing is I felt so good
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Speaker 1: talking to him. All the memories flushed.
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Speaker 2: I was back in love. Only thing is my current
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Speaker 2: guy proposed to me.
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Speaker 1: No, proposed to me weeks weeks before that girl, and
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Speaker 1: I said, yes, crazy, I.
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Speaker 2: Mean break it all. They didn't get married yet, and
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Speaker 2: so she basically asking what should I do?
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Speaker 1: Jess, I find myself in bed laying next to my
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Speaker 1: fiance thinking about my ex because he is everything I
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Speaker 1: wanted this life with. However, I went on ahead and
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Speaker 1: got engaged, not expect acting him to ever change or
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Speaker 1: grow up, and he did well.
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Speaker 3: First hurting her to see the receipts. Yeah, what the
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Speaker 3: drug dealers talking about? Just what he said, what he's saying.
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Speaker 2: And then I just don't jump out there and just
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Speaker 2: like go, you know, just because he came to you.
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Speaker 2: And although he been out for two years, so he
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Speaker 2: probably did take.
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Speaker 1: All this time to get like, you know, but he's
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Speaker 1: not doing the things he used to do, got businesses
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Speaker 1: that company.
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Speaker 2: I mean, take time is good. But I'm saying like.
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Speaker 3: The only reason why I'm like hesitating with that is
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Speaker 3: just because sometimes I feel like things will happen how it's.
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Speaker 2: Supposed to happen, yeah, and and everything that glitters is
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Speaker 2: not gold.
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Speaker 1: Yeah.
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Speaker 2: But also just like if you're supposed to be together, y'all,
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Speaker 2: y'all would have been.
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Speaker 3: Y'all would have been together, right, Yeah, like, and I
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Speaker 3: guess you tried to wait and all.
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Speaker 2: That, but to go back and then on and off
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Speaker 2: for fifteen years. Yeah, because Jesus you let him. You
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Speaker 2: gave him.
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Speaker 1: Fifteen years of your life and he gave fifteen years
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Speaker 1: of his life to the streets. That's a long time
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Speaker 1: before you grow up. And shit, now, other guys take
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Speaker 1: longer to grow up. But damn, nigga, now supposed to
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Speaker 1: drop everything I'm doing because you are home now and
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Speaker 1: you decided to get it right in your life. But
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Speaker 1: that's what tells me when he told her that when
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Speaker 1: she gave him the ultimatum the first time, and she
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Speaker 1: was like, yo, me or this, and he was like, no,
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Speaker 1: not right now. I can't choose you right now because
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Speaker 1: I have a goal to get to. I'm not gonna
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Speaker 1: be in this shit forever. But I am like, I'm good,
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Speaker 1: Like I got a goal and I'm gonna be out
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Speaker 1: of this shit. I just got to do some things
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Speaker 1: right now. When I wonder if she agreed then, like
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Speaker 1: did she say did she just leave and say all right,
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Speaker 1: since you're not choosing me whatever, have a nice life whatever,
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Speaker 1: or did she agree in that moment all right, I'll
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Speaker 1: wait for you, because if so, that's why.
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Speaker 2: The fuck he came back and just expected for her
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Speaker 2: to be right there, you know what I mean?
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Speaker 1: Hold up, Hold up, I know this shit getting good,
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Speaker 1: but listen to just a couple seconds of a commercial.
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Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen now. Like you said,
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Speaker 1: I wonder if she was keeping in touch with him
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Speaker 1: that whole year he was in jail, or how long
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Speaker 1: was he out before you knew he was out? And
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Speaker 1: how did y'all have a conversation? How long before the
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Speaker 1: bank when he shopped, when he popped up at your job?
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Speaker 1: Did you see him it was the last time you've
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Speaker 1: seen him before you saw him in the bank. Was
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Speaker 1: the time you know you gave him that ultimatum? Was
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Speaker 1: that three years prior? Or like?
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Speaker 2: What the fuck was that? I don't know.
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Speaker 1: I think, honestly, because she didn't give us that part
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Speaker 1: of it. I think she honestly didn't talk to him
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Speaker 1: purposely because she was trying to get past them, and.
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Speaker 2: That's how she ended up meeting her person. Yeah, I
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Speaker 2: know that's the thing, and that motherfucker probably looked good too, But.
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Speaker 3: I guess it's one of those things too, like takeaway,
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Speaker 3: like all y'all got butterflies.
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Speaker 2: Now, yeah you real? I don't know. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah,
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Speaker 2: I don't know. And then what's with this new fiancee?
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Speaker 2: Is he everything that you wanted? Yes? She did listening
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Speaker 2: for him. Listen, I'm I'm gonna reread it. She said.
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Speaker 1: During that year that he was in jail, I met
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Speaker 1: a gentleman and he was literally everything I was missing.
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Speaker 1: He was everything I wanted and my on again off
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Speaker 1: again x We were so compatible in the early months
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Speaker 1: of us dating. Just this man showed me real love.
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Speaker 1: So then I swear he is my person. So then
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Speaker 1: I don't think and that nigga proposed he knew what
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Speaker 1: he had.
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Speaker 2: Exactly, so I don't think like you're about to give
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Speaker 2: your whole thing to do that, all this moving on
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Speaker 2: that you did, like all this healing.
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Speaker 1: But when she ever healed, if she sat down with
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Speaker 1: with ex convict one time and then all came back
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Speaker 1: and lay laying in bed next to your.
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Speaker 2: Fiance, that was her person. The X kind was ever her.
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Speaker 1: Well. In the beginning, she says, to one of my
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Speaker 1: childhood friends was my very first boyfriend in life. It
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Speaker 1: was a big He was a big time drug dealer
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Speaker 1: in our city. So yeah, I've loved him from a
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Speaker 1: child to an adult. We've been together on and off
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Speaker 1: for fifteen years. No, and then that, by the grace
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Speaker 1: of God, I never got pregnant by him. That tells
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Speaker 1: you something that's screaming, like, I've always had one leg
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Speaker 1: and one leg out.
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Speaker 3: I don't think she should do it, Yeah, because she
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Speaker 3: don't want to follow her. I think you're still holding
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Speaker 3: on to maybe a cute little fantasy, but.
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Speaker 1: You know, and then you feel a bit of like
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Speaker 1: obligation because your childhood friends, you know, Yeah, you've known
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Speaker 1: him since he was younger.
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Speaker 2: Y'all kind of grew up together. He's known you.
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Speaker 1: He knows what to say to get back in your
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Speaker 1: good graces. That about you probably didn't change. That's how
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Speaker 1: all the butterflies started rushing back, and all the feelings
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Speaker 1: started swaying in, you know, coming in and colliding on
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Speaker 1: you and shit, and now you feel like you're in
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Speaker 1: love with your ex all over again. Laying next to
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Speaker 1: your person that night, thinking about this nigga. I don't
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Speaker 1: even think it's so much she thinking about this nigga.
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Speaker 1: I think she's thinking about what she's going to do,
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Speaker 1: and it's stressing her to funk out what she wants
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Speaker 1: to do.
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Speaker 2: Yeah, and then yeah, so that's a hard decision. I
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Speaker 2: don't think she should drop everything and then what about
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Speaker 2: this scenario? Right?
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Speaker 1: So look, this is also a thing as well, right,
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Speaker 1: because I've seen it time and time again growing up
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Speaker 1: in Baltimore City, being good friends with drug dealers, not
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Speaker 1: even drug dealers that I used to deal with, but
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Speaker 1: being good friends with drug dealers. My nigga, they'll get
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Speaker 1: into beefs and shit. She said, shootouts and all that
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Speaker 1: type of shit.
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Speaker 2: It's the thing.
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Speaker 1: They'll get into beefs and ship will I was. I
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Speaker 1: was building up to that tailor.
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Speaker 2: Damn shit, bitch. I was ready to set it up perfectly.
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Speaker 2: I was taking too long.
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Speaker 1: He said, Yeah, what if the pants come back down?
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Speaker 1: Shit and the listeners knew where I was going?
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Speaker 2: Oh anyway, so yea, I must still want to say.
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Speaker 2: I'm gonna still just say it. So, girl, I've seen
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Speaker 2: in my life where the past comes back to watch
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Speaker 2: and done.
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Speaker 1: If he's gotten the shootouts, obviously he's doing that's been
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Speaker 1: doing the shooting and ship because he ain't get killed
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Speaker 1: or shot.
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Speaker 2: She didn't say he got shot, you know, maybe got
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Speaker 2: he's been shot at.
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Speaker 1: What if somebody waited until later and then it's y'all
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Speaker 1: out together and this nigga get shot up and killed
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Speaker 1: or what if you get killed being with him? You
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Speaker 1: know you said he was a big time drug dealer
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Speaker 1: in Saint Louis. I mean, I'm sorry, Missouri, but goddamn,
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Speaker 1: we know certain cities and drugs.
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Speaker 2: That ship is different. It gets deep. And then just
11:39
Speaker 2: watched the show Power, I'm sorry for I mean for
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Speaker 2: what like what for reference? Like absolutely or watch the
11:49
Speaker 2: wire fuck Power? Watch the Yeah what mm hmm? Even
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Speaker 2: snow Fall, Yeah, like I mean, I'm.
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Speaker 1: Not I'm just saying, no, that's more realistic. Snowfall is
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Speaker 1: way more realistic than Power.
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Speaker 2: I ain't girl. The ghosts and Tommy should have been
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Speaker 2: died the first episode.
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Speaker 3: The way, but even think about like he's saying he
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Speaker 3: got inn tech company and not to like say yeah,
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Speaker 3: but I just like his.
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Speaker 2: He could his roots is in the streets. He could
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Speaker 2: still be in the street.
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Speaker 1: That it could be unto wash his money, like he's
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Speaker 1: just trying to wash his money with legit businesses and shade.
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Speaker 1: You know, he could still have now he may not
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Speaker 1: be the one that's on the streets in the streets
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Speaker 1: distributing anymore, but he could be the plug. He could
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Speaker 1: be he still got his hands in it some type
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Speaker 1: of way. And I'm not saying, we're not saying he does,
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Speaker 1: but that could still be the case. Like you said,
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Speaker 1: so like say, let's say it. So see your receipts.
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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: Don't just jump out the fucking window or not not
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Speaker 1: even delve. Don't even dive into that, you know, like
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Speaker 1: you said, just just know, just steer clear of that life.
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Speaker 1: That's that's what you you saying. You made a very
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Speaker 1: and your passes that you read to me, like during
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Speaker 1: the time of our relationship, he was back and forth
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Speaker 1: to prison, involved in shootouts, all the things that would
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Speaker 1: make a girl want out.
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Speaker 2: You've been wanted out.
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Speaker 1: You just felt some type of devotion to him because
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Speaker 1: he's also your childhood friend. You said, in all the
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Speaker 1: years we were together, I had to deal with that
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Speaker 1: and more house raised, long sleepless nights. And you said
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Speaker 1: he never cheated as far as you know, which is fine,
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Speaker 1: But that's not even the tip of that shit.
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Speaker 2: That that's everything that's watching your back.
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Speaker 1: That's you being even affiliated with a nigga who got
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Speaker 1: a target on him every day. You know what I'm saying,
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Speaker 1: You don't want to marry nobody, go throw your life
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Speaker 1: away for somebody that gotta still watch his back because
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Speaker 1: he's done so much dirt and his in his earlier life.
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Speaker 1: You know, I mean earlier in his life. You know,
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Speaker 1: you just that shit is dangerous. You know, you don't
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Speaker 1: want to be one of those girls. You really really don't,
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Speaker 1: you know, And you seem like you got a really
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Speaker 1: really good thing going and I would I would honestly
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Speaker 1: hate what if yeah to the what if yeah from
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Speaker 1: a long time ago. Yo. The way you speak about
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Speaker 1: your fiance is amazing. It's like immagular, Like you can't
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Speaker 1: even see yourself without this man, you know, And you
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Speaker 1: met him at a perfect time, right after you get
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Speaker 1: a guy ultimatum and you kind of cut it off
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Speaker 1: with him. He went to jail, so he couldn't even
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Speaker 1: he wasn't even out to disrupt your relationship or whatever.
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Speaker 2: You met him at a great time. You leave that
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Speaker 2: chapter where the fuck it was at.
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Speaker 1: Now we got a commercial and if you click off
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Speaker 1: this podcast, I swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen,
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Speaker 1: you have to meet up with this nigga again, and
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Speaker 1: you got to tell him because one thing about drug
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Speaker 1: dealers or ex drug dealers or whatever they used to
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Speaker 1: getting what they want, and he gonna start that hagging out.
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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, Like he's not going to
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Speaker 2: stop trying to prove to you that he is ready
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Speaker 2: to be with you now, you know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: Even if he did turn you know, turn great or
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Speaker 1: do a whole three sixty with his life, you feel me,
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Speaker 1: it's still just I think things happened, like Taylor was saying,
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Speaker 1: things happened for a reason.
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Speaker 2: You know, it was a reason why you were supposed
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Speaker 2: to meet your new guy.
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Speaker 1: You know what I mean. I'm gonna just call you
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Speaker 1: you guy Melika, and I'm gonna call you ex Kanaan.
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Speaker 1: It was the reason why you met Malika and you
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Speaker 1: let Caanan slide up in the bank. You said you
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Speaker 1: thought he was about th robbing Man and you're talking
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Speaker 1: about loll No, but you was dead, sir.
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Speaker 2: You got scared of shit.
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Speaker 1: You probably felt like Frankie and set it off. The
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Speaker 1: fuck because what's the procedure when the gun is to
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Speaker 1: your head exactly. Your ass got scared of shit talking
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Speaker 1: about butterflies. Yeah right, you were scared at first, and
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Speaker 1: then when.
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Speaker 3: Even with that though, yeah, you're coming to my like
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Speaker 3: like workplace, just like I don't like that. That seems
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Speaker 3: very aggressive.
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Speaker 1: It is. It's very possessive too, like she always minds,
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Speaker 1: she gonna be mind type shit. And most of the
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Speaker 1: time those mindsets don't don't get very far either. It
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Speaker 1: results in something bad because if I can't have you,
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Speaker 1: nobody will them. It's guys that really really lived by
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Speaker 1: that ship for sure, you know what I'm saying, And
15:56
Speaker 1: that ship I'll be watching snapped and I d TV
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Speaker 1: and all of that ship, that ship be going down, man,
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Speaker 1: and women be scared for their fucking lives. These men
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Speaker 1: are these these men, especially these obsessive and possessive.
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Speaker 2: Men, you know. So's almost like that.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, so you dealt with somebody like that almost the
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Speaker 1: only almost because he was saying, like, just like, I
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Speaker 1: don't care if you're he thought I was like married
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Speaker 1: or something like that, and he said he didn't care.
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Speaker 2: I don't give you're married like me, and you like
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Speaker 2: over over.
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Speaker 1: The dog possessive Oh my god, y'all had a fucking dog.
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Speaker 1: So I had a child, Yeah, it.
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Speaker 2: Was my child, so or he's my child? So okay,
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Speaker 2: So who bought the child? I don't know how he
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Speaker 2: got the dog, but I'm sorry he gave it to
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Speaker 2: me though. Oh okay, So it sounds like a father.
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Speaker 2: He sounds like the father. I don't know where he
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Speaker 2: got the dog from. So he got the dog for
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Speaker 2: you mom out here? Oh okay. So when he got
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Speaker 2: the dog, it was like when he dropped you off
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Speaker 2: and he was a deadbeat. We weren't even together. Oh okay,
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Speaker 2: and so he but were you single around the time?
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Speaker 2: Did he know you were single? All right? So that's
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Speaker 2: what it was. He just didn't want you to be
17:07
Speaker 2: with somebody else. He wanted to sing, but he just
17:11
Speaker 2: felt I guess it's always an attachment. Yes, that's how
17:15
Speaker 2: it is. It's done because it was nothing. I didn't
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Speaker 2: leading him to me. The only type of leader was
17:24
Speaker 2: when I went away, you could wash the dog. That's it,
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Speaker 2: does it?
17:28
Speaker 1: Know?
17:28
Speaker 2: Like Roman?
17:30
Speaker 1: Yo?
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Speaker 2: It was weird, damn.
17:32
Speaker 1: But I know when people do get passed together, that
17:35
Speaker 1: does put a different expectation on the relationship because people
17:39
Speaker 1: will be like, no, this is like our practice child
17:43
Speaker 1: kind of sort of.
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Speaker 2: I remember I had a goldfish with a nigga who
17:45
Speaker 2: thought I was I was like, first of all girl guys.
17:50
Speaker 1: The fish was called Samson, Like uh uh, why the fuck?
17:53
Speaker 1: And then why would you name my fish deck? So
17:56
Speaker 1: I already was turned off anybody. I'm not ever gonnass you.
17:59
Speaker 1: Sam thing was the name of the dog anyway.
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Speaker 2: So it was named something else. Yes, yeah, I really
18:05
Speaker 2: didn't want nothing to do him, like we were broken up.
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Speaker 3: Tell why we say friends because him because hedn't really
18:12
Speaker 3: didn't do nothing wrong.
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Speaker 2: I just he just grew blind what it is, but
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Speaker 2: like he was, but so look it was the breakup bad. No,
18:22
Speaker 2: it wasn't breakup.
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Speaker 3: It was still I just remember him. When I did
18:26
Speaker 3: break up with him and I told him on the phone.
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Speaker 3: Him called me back and was like, I know you
18:32
Speaker 3: don't think that I'm about to let you go this easily.
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Speaker 2: And I was like, yeah, sir, you will.
18:38
Speaker 1: You will have to because this is done. But damn, now,
18:44
Speaker 1: let me ask you. Because he probably thought it was
18:45
Speaker 1: still like some reconcile like they. He probably thought it
18:48
Speaker 1: was still able to be reconciled and.
18:51
Speaker 2: I told him off because it was a breakup because.
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Speaker 3: What happened was, if to be honest, I feel like
18:57
Speaker 3: in a sense, he loved by me, and yeah, so
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Speaker 3: and it was just nice.
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Speaker 1: See I let somebody do that to me too, and
19:07
Speaker 1: I knew I really didn't want to take it that far.
19:10
Speaker 1: It was just like a rebound situation. I was like,
19:14
Speaker 1: I'll be honest, I was loved bomb by my ex
19:17
Speaker 1: by Wayne. I got loved bomb by Wayne, you know
19:20
Speaker 1: what I mean. And it was what I needed at
19:23
Speaker 1: the time because I had never been shown that before.
19:26
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, like, oh this, Oh it
19:28
Speaker 1: is possible for somebody to spoil you. It is possible
19:31
Speaker 1: for this type of love. And he's emotionally intelligent and
19:34
Speaker 1: he you know. So what Wayne did was just show
19:36
Speaker 1: me that there is love.
19:38
Speaker 2: Out there like that.
19:39
Speaker 1: You know. I was just so used to toxicity, drug
19:41
Speaker 1: dealers and niggas who using me and shit like that,
19:44
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And then he came along
19:46
Speaker 1: showed me that that was different. And then I think
19:48
Speaker 1: what me and Wayne didn't do was become friends first,
19:51
Speaker 1: because if I would have just became his friends, we
19:53
Speaker 1: would have never been together. We would have just been
19:55
Speaker 1: friends because Wayne is a really good person.
19:57
Speaker 2: You know, I feel too. Yeah, he just loved bomb me.
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Speaker 1: And I was like I felt obligated to just oh ship,
20:04
Speaker 1: Well I'm gonna just Behamdan you know. But it's like no,
20:07
Speaker 1: And then that was you know what, six fucking years
20:10
Speaker 1: ago or whatever, you know, So I don't know. I
20:12
Speaker 1: didn't know now then.
20:14
Speaker 2: What I know now, you know. So yeah, but I
20:17
Speaker 2: am grief. I don't regret it though for like four years,
20:20
Speaker 2: like yeah, still, what are you going to sir?
20:23
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's crazy and c and some trash like New
20:29
Speaker 1: York and from New York the office. Let me ask
20:33
Speaker 1: you this real quick before we get out of here,
20:35
Speaker 1: because we passed. Yes they are the New York Yes,
20:38
Speaker 1: But is he like Caribbean, Jamaican or something like that,
20:43
Speaker 1: because all of that he gives like Haitian. Uh.
20:47
Speaker 2: I think he had roots in some island. But it's
20:53
Speaker 2: not like he like okay, okay, I got you. But
20:57
Speaker 2: he had a lot of he's a good guy, yeah,
21:00
Speaker 2: but he just yeah, yeah, issues, it was a lot
21:03
Speaker 2: of issues.
21:04
Speaker 1: No, I feel yeah, well, I think we gave this
21:08
Speaker 1: this woman a great sense of direction as it pertains
21:12
Speaker 1: to advice.
21:12
Speaker 2: I think she should. She also was gonna do what
21:16
Speaker 2: she want to do.
21:17
Speaker 1: Obviously, she's still in love with her ex, or she
21:19
Speaker 1: thinks she is. I think her feelings are mixed. I
21:22
Speaker 1: think what she's feeling is not an obligation to the guy.
21:25
Speaker 1: I think like she don't. I mean, I don't think
21:27
Speaker 1: what she's feeling is love all over again. I think
21:30
Speaker 1: she's just probably scared and she's frantic.
21:33
Speaker 2: She don't know what to do. She's stressed out. She's like,
21:36
Speaker 2: should I go back or And I think that's because.
21:41
Speaker 1: Like if you wasn't thinking about him, because because she
21:43
Speaker 1: wasn't think about him, because she wasn't in contact with him.
21:46
Speaker 1: I think she do need to move on though, stayble. Then,
21:50
Speaker 1: you don't know what the fuck your fiance done went through, Neva.
21:54
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. You don't know what he
21:55
Speaker 1: went through and how he ended up with you. He
21:57
Speaker 1: probably felt like you would have one, just like you
21:59
Speaker 1: felt like he was the one. You know, he probably
22:01
Speaker 1: had somebody do the ship to him before, and here
22:03
Speaker 1: you go about to do it again.
22:05
Speaker 2: Jesus girl, So.
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Speaker 1: So keep me updated and write me back, baby girl.
22:11
Speaker 1: All Right, all right, and just like that, we come
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Speaker 2: don't worry about I don't even fucking thank you for listening.
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Speaker 2: I don't know, because they.
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