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Maryam Henein | Kundalini Love Links, and Quantum Twin Flame Entanglement · My Family Thinks I'm Crazy

• 0:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm in a shame, but every time I do, my family thinks I'm crazy.
• 0:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: The whole world, you opposed any of the dating toward the one of the Swiss guys dating.
• 0:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: But let's not go about these things, they think I'm crazy.
• 0:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: I know I'm stupid, any one of them.
• 0:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm crazy.
• 0:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: I go with none, ain't you told this?
• 0:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm crazy, babies.
• 0:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think they think I'm crazy.
• 0:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, like being authentic, you know, it's not always pretty, but if you have unconditional love, which it shouldn't be conditional to begin with, right?
• 0:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: Diamonds instead of forever.
• 0:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the energy, the energy,
• 0:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: between us is very, initially was very well all of our interactions.
• 1:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, it gets, if there's interferences or substances, then it kind of derailed and now it's in a critical place and I'm being shown also surrender, trust after losing trust in the universe because of all the darkness.
• 1:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I was told as above so below, we took you really low into the dark,
• 1:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: and Maryam, you can fly really high and see things from an exalted, mature, wise place because where are these wise women?
• 1:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: Where are these wise men?
• 1:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: Where is wisdom?
• 1:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: I did a meme last week of like instead of where's Waldo?
• 1:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like where's wisdom?
• 1:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: You just heard today's guest.
• 1:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: The author of Operation George Floyd, multi-layered, exposed, and activist, and a founder of the honeycolonate, honeycolonate.com.
• 1:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: She joins me, Mystic Mark here on the My Family Things I'm Crazy Podcast.
• 2:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you for tuning in, and enjoy this conversation with Mary M and Nane.
• 2:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: All right, ladies and gentlemen, before we get into this episode, this unorthodox, sultry, little seductive episode of the my family thinks I'm crazy podcast.
• 2:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: Not an episode for everybody.
• 2:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: If you're here to hear me talk about the Epstein lists or any of this other crazy stuff going on in the news, I apologize, but we will have an episode for you coming out next week.
• 2:41
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• 2:44
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• 2:49
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• 2:55
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• 2:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: The previews are going to be on the Instagram and the website this weekend so you guys can place your orders, pre-orders, are already going on Patreon and Substack for the people who support the show.
• 3:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: But beyond the lookout is the merch is dropping.
• 3:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've been making it myself.
• 3:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: We have a Jeffrey Epstein cloned himself shirt.
• 3:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: We have a what list Epstein lists shirt that has all of the celebrities who were listed on the Epstein list.
• 3:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: on the shirt right there for you to sport on your back.
• 3:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: Show it off to the world.
• 3:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: What list?
• 3:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: What list?
• 3:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: All right.
• 3:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, let's get to this episode.
• 3:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you all for tuning in.
• 3:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you for dealing with all of the craziness here.
• 3:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: But that's what brings you back to the my family.
• 3:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: Think some crazy podcast.
• 3:52
  [SPEAKER_00]: And we appreciate you.
• 3:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: I appreciate you.
• 3:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: Most importantly, you appreciate you.
• 3:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: So be your best self.
• 3:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: and wind down, relax, and enjoy this conversation with Maryam and Nane.
• 4:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: Ladies and gentlemen, welcome back to the my family.
• 4:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: Think some crazy podcasts.
• 4:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: And joining me is a return guest, a tortoise force in her own right.
• 4:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: She is blazing a trail.
• 4:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I'm excited to have her back on the show.
• 4:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: We last spoke mainly about the George Floyd conspiracy, all of the fakeness and strangeness around it.
• 4:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: There are some updates in that case.
• 4:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe we'll have time for that.
• 4:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't think we will.
• 4:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: So we definitely need to have her back on.
• 4:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maryam Heinen joins the show for a second time.
• 4:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maryam, it's a pleasure to see you again.
• 4:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you for joining me.
• 4:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: Thank you for having me.
• 4:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: My last name is pronounced Henane.
• 4:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: Henane.
• 4:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: A word in name, but Henane.
• 5:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I will show the book that I have spent five years to show us.
• 5:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, it's on.
• 5:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: I got it on Amazon after a lot of fuckery and three different publishers.
• 5:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's self-published.
• 5:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: So Operation George Floyd, also known as the How You Make the Sausage.
• 5:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: So
• 5:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I finished the book and I was saying that when I finish, I'm gonna have my own fucking great reset and I did.
• 5:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: I finished the book had a Kundalini awakening and then I did some plant medicine.
• 5:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: ceremonies to clear out further clear out my chakra system and go back, go way back because in this age of Aquarius there is an opportunity for those to remember if they so choose.
• 5:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: I want to hear all about that.
• 5:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't know you well enough to say this for sure, but there is a shift in the energy from our conversation the first time to this one, at least just with the surface level of what topic we're going to be focusing on.
• 6:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: But you just brought it up.
• 6:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: So tell us about that.
• 6:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: You put a lot of your
• 6:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: i mean all of yourself into this book right it's not an easy thing to do it's it's a difficult topic as is and you put your all into researching it publishing it so at that point
• 6:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: you call it a great reset.
• 6:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: Was this something that you, you know, took ownership of it was already kind of the, the wheels were already turning or is this something you set in motion intentionally like, okay, once I finished this book, I'm going to need to rid myself of this energy.
• 6:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: Take me through that.
• 6:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I think that initially I was saying I'll have my own fucking great reset as maybe my higher self new more than my three D self and I knew that I wanted to I still need a break from from everything I've navigated with my company.
• 7:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: I got infiltrated by arguably proctor and gamble and I thought
• 7:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: I thought my life was going in one direction and it took because of dark forces a different direction.
• 7:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: However, I myself had a shift a great reset.
• 7:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'll say that I had not done Ayahuasca since twenty eighteen.
• 7:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: I did it in July, twenty eighteen.
• 7:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've done a handful of ceremonies.
• 7:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: The last time was ironically in Corona, California.
• 7:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: And on the way home, I had my Toyota RAV go from seventy to zero.
• 7:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've had, I've had warnings of being careful of my tires.
• 8:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: because of my B movie and taking on bare crop science.
• 8:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I think...
• 8:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: I didn't really know what I was going to get into, and this is more than five hundred pages, and it's definitely not just about George Floyd.
• 8:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's about everything having to do with the Mexican cartel, money laundering, and it comes with receipts, and yeah, it took, I sacrificed a lot.
• 8:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was on the front lines of the Rona regime, and now I see
• 8:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: colleagues, colleagues that I thought were colleagues and that everyone is compromised and there's this age of Aquarius that's upon us that the overlords have been waiting for for a long time and all these solar flares and just the energies have reconfigured
• 8:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: where I'm more focused on my internal self, I'm writing my second book, which is more what my soul wants to write as to do with twin flames and quantum entanglement and reincarnation and remembrance of what, how do you exit this trap, this samsara wheel?
• 9:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: So, I have been on a spiritual path of knowing myself since I was thirteen years old, remembered that I've been here before.
• 9:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: And if people watching consider like French as my first language, I'm like, was a chubby nerd from Montreal, Canada.
• 9:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I definitely have reached a glass ceiling as a journalist.
• 9:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I wanted to just hold the book.
• 9:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I should have said, I wanted thousands of people to hold the book because I didn't expect all the effort to even publish this book.
• 9:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I, around the same time,
• 9:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I met a man on a car lock and co-sign for a vehicle for a man I did not know and I realized that that was something else at play because I'marium would not do such a thing.
• 10:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to back up and say in my book
• 10:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have the bolded all the thirty three three three three three three and there's a there's a lean there's a chapter on the Masonic links.
• 10:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: So after while I was still my formatting got messed with to Kibash this book coming out.
• 10:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I was dealing with that and I started seeing three three three everywhere.
• 10:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: and on my oven on the dresses on receipts just everywhere.
• 10:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I thought that maybe like in the three body problem, there was a force telling me you better shut down the book or we're gonna come after you and I've done a show on Targeting and I felt that they've been messing with me for quite a while.
• 11:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: I am banned on Venmo Vimeo PayPal.
• 11:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: Go find me Instagram, Airbnb, Amazon.
• 11:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been persecuted by the government and spirit of national, by a national channel.
• 11:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I don't think that I'm average and I'm going to claim that because I don't think the normies, not that your audience or normies, when I get into an Uber there,
• 11:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I feel like people should know what the real people on the front lines went through for them because I stood up and I displayed more courage than most men on this planet.
• 11:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: Let's face it.
• 11:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I started seeing these three, three, three's everywhere and around the same time I wasn't really paying attention to any boys.
• 11:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was so busy and it takes a lot to get my attention because I identify as Trinity now.
• 11:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not in the matrix.
• 11:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I got outstead from the matrix.
• 11:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: I spent, I'm a reckless, I'm a public private person.
• 11:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when I was going to meet this man that I've been texting for a year and then he
• 12:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: told me that he wasn't feeling good.
• 12:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when I looked up, I saw his name.
• 12:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was standing in front of a church with his name.
• 12:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then he went missing.
• 12:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: I thought he went missing.
• 12:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: I think now that it was my soul that recognized him and was like, where did you go?
• 12:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been looking for you.
• 12:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when I started searching for him, I really thought that he was something happened.
• 12:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: I saw three, three, three in a blog that he wrote about Christianity and astrology.
• 12:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: This is like, you know, an American with tats and guns.
• 12:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it had me thinking about how basically the Christians
• 12:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: stole the stars because we used to honor the cosmos.
• 12:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then his phone number had three, three, three, and then I asked him if he was a plant.
• 12:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he told me that it was also three, if you three was also on him, tattooed on him.
• 13:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I offered to cosine thinking and wanting to help him.
• 13:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: For whatever reason I saw myself in him, I knew things about him.
• 13:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: like I knew he worked with his hands, I knew he was alone wolf like me and I wanted to help him.
• 13:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: So we met on a three, three, three parking lots and basically got this badass truck came back home and when I was making dinner, I asked him about his tattoos and he had a
• 13:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: home sign on his left thumb and I was like, oh, I also have an home sign on my left thumb and he told me it was born with the court around his neck and I said, oh, I'm also born with the court around my neck.
• 13:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I didn't I didn't say before he showed up before he resurfaced.
• 13:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was tapping into his energy.
• 13:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm clear audience and
• 13:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: clairvoyant and I'm an empath and I was tapping into his energy.
• 14:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had not even looked at his social media.
• 14:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: When I did look at his social media, I felt into him and then I was just at my desk thinking where could he be and I had a spontaneous
• 14:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: orgasm at my desk, not thinking anything sexual.
• 14:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: Now, the sadness is that Kundalini really has nothing to do with sexual energy.
• 14:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's our innate divinity.
• 14:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: But now we're all acting like clowns and we're in a clown world and we're devolved instead of elevate.
• 14:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I didn't know that it was a Kundalini.
• 14:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just went to bed that night saying, OK, universe, this guy better show up because I need to know if I'm whack a doodle or super psychic.
• 14:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I said it whoever's energy, I'm feeling that's who I want to be with.
• 14:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I met him, I don't know, a week or so later.
• 14:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the next day later, I looked and I'm like, there must have been something in the skies for me and him to collide.
• 15:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it was a planet parade, six planets lined up in the sky.
• 15:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: After I met him eventually, he kissed me.
• 15:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was like, I felt love in my heart because
• 15:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: covering the Rhona plus transhumanism plus George Floyd is has been very dark and the dark will swallow you up.
• 15:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I then went to have a
• 15:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: a buffalo ritual and I was told that I graduated that I was done looking at the dark side that I had been assigned to look at the inverted matrix really understand it because this really is how the sausage is made and that I was not going to look at the dark stuff anymore.
• 15:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: At the same time, you know, this twin flame phenomenon
• 15:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: When I found out there was a Netflix series about twin flames, it's a two billion dollar industry.
• 16:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like everything, I'm very clinical in my investigation.
• 16:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I've been investigating this.
• 16:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: space and in conjunction with Pluto getting out of my sign of Capricorn and launching the official age of Aquarius.
• 16:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: And this is all coinciding with AI movement and this faux spirituality that the AI is now burping all of these
• 16:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: spiritual people on YouTube that are applauding the AI, that the AI is reflecting things to it to them, which is, you know, recursive.
• 16:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's spiritual narcissism.
• 16:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not a divine spark.
• 16:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: So now we're going to have more spiritual narcissism and praising the AI as God.
• 16:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: And we don't know what's true, what's not true.
• 17:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I'm not really looking at the politics.
• 17:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's all fake and gay.
• 17:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it's all loose.
• 17:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's all distraction.
• 17:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: I really wish as a journalist.
• 17:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: I got that memo.
• 17:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I kind of reached the, I'm too good of a journalist for this country because they're all parents and prostitutes or limited hangouts or whatever.
• 17:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: So
• 17:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: The Kundalini, when I, this is a year of a snake, this is a nine year, I'm a nine.
• 17:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when I realized that the Christians turned it into, they made it demonic.
• 17:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: And this is really your innate, your innate divinity.
• 17:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, I'm listening.
• 17:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm here.
• 17:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm, it is bringing up some personal stuff for me.
• 17:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 17:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: That is something we've gotten into on the show recently.
• 17:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's been a, a very heavy year for me.
• 17:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: And to someone that I connected with on a level where the both of us acknowledged, you know, something like being twin flames sadly ended this year.
• 18:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: And yeah, it's interesting.
• 18:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: I am reminiscing on conversations that I had with them where
• 18:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: They very wisely made similar comments as what you said about AI and how it's trying to tap into people's spiritual bodies and take people over on a mental level.
• 18:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's really scariest, especially considering the stories that have come out recently about
• 18:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: various suicides and even homicides that were inspired by AI and it's well really voice to text in that whole voice bot chat bot
• 18:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: world of AI, which is existed for quite a while.
• 18:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: I mean, as long as I've been on the internet, there have been chatbot type things.
• 19:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: There was an bio weapon injected into the people where now the future is here, the zombies are now.
• 19:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: And just say that, well, to my point though, I'm curious, your thoughts on how
• 19:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: single people in this day and age can find true love without technology.
• 19:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because it sounds like that's a little bit of what you're describing.
• 19:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: I am a rosy person to ask.
• 19:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: I want to hear your story because I feel more of an interrupted art.
• 19:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: So yeah, some are with that.
• 19:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: But yeah, just a wrap.
• 19:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: There would be it.
• 19:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's the thing that I looked
• 19:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: I looked to, I looked to try to find answers to what the fuck I was going through and stumbled upon the twin flame and even though I've been on a spiritual path since I was thirteen, I never looked into twin flames and I think there's a lot of misunderstandings and there's a lot of fake people making shit loads of money.
• 20:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I've been very clinical to look at what is really happening.
• 20:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: Now, to even go back and say, could it be that they that we were divine masculine divine feminine and I know that
• 20:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's all in the tack on our divinity.
• 20:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: All of the lies are to hide our own divinity.
• 20:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: I thought having almost died and having had a near-death experience when I was shown no-dyself.
• 20:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I thought it was about being your better self, but now people are not embodied.
• 20:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm clear audience.
• 20:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: I can scan someone's voice.
• 20:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: I can tell when they're vaccinated or not if the brain is working.
• 20:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: People are not here.
• 20:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: No, they're not.
• 20:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: And so as someone who has a sharp mind, thank God, you know, I don't take it for granted.
• 21:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've reverse loopists.
• 21:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: I could have been in a wheelchair.
• 21:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was hit by an SUV and dragged fifty feet.
• 21:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm on the path of divinity.
• 21:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I am named after the Virgin Mary.
• 21:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: I hold sacredness.
• 21:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had not been with someone for almost three years.
• 21:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when he kissed me, the first thing I said is like, this is not the first time I kissed you.
• 21:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: All of it has been magical, but also torturous.
• 21:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: And my views, what my higher self has shown me, I was vibing very high, my frequency, I have like the Hawkins scale.
• 21:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't think if I didn't have this Kundalini, I would get, oh, it's about raising your frequency.
• 21:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: and getting out of the survival paradigm given that we're living in a loose harvest world where it's all about distraction.
• 21:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm a little bit upset with myself that I didn't remember sooner that all the answers are within.
• 21:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have ADHD.
• 21:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: I luckily
• 22:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: Just I realized that six planets in Capacorn, I've come a long way for a brown ethnic chick from Montreal who doesn't English as an even in a first language.
• 22:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: But it's all ego.
• 22:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's all my persona.
• 22:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not who I am.
• 22:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: I am very sensitive to energies and I
• 22:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I go through, well, I got banned on bumble, be laid against banned on bumble because I shared my George Floyd movie where I purchased all the footage from the government and my movie came out a year before the fall of Minneapolis.
• 22:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: So also, fucking with my ability to meet people as if it's not hard enough because to find someone that, you know, I had put it out there that I want to meet someone
• 22:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: on a physical spiritual mental and emotional level, not in that order, because you could connect with someone.
• 22:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: but I don't know why I've spent any time with non-spiritual people that would poop, who sacredness, we need our divine masculine and divine feminine.
• 23:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: So part of the true twin tray twin ray, journey, it's first of all, it's a, it's a son of path about romance, it's really,
• 23:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: being your best self and loving yourself unconditionally and realizing in my case, I've given a lot of my honey to shitty people through my prose to swine and didn't trust my intuition.
• 23:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I've been in my masculine and many women are.
• 23:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: The thing is, I'm not American, so I've see how women devolved.
• 23:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it's like, I'm a dream compared to maybe I'm too smart.
• 23:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know for those insecure men, but we're
• 23:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: ruining both sexes.
• 23:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: Both sexes have just don't know they're asked from the elbow.
• 23:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: The only answers are within to have some sort of sacredness.
• 24:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'll tell you, unfortunately, the men are not stepping up to the plate.
• 24:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: The women are doing a lot of the work.
• 24:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: And we really need our men.
• 24:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it's not like either you're feminine with man boobies or you're like, you know, testosterone like ripped alpha asshole, right?
• 24:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: To be strong, but to also be sensitive and to hold space is like, I'm a warrior woman.
• 24:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like, where are the men?
• 24:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: There's like, yeah.
• 24:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: So with you, Mary, I see it too.
• 24:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm on dating apps now and I can relate to the George Floyd block, like the you putting your work out there and getting blocked by I'm sure soy boys who had nothing better to do but look at your profile.
• 24:48
  [SPEAKER_00]: for more than way too long.
• 24:51
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• 24:51
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• 24:52
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• 24:55
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• 24:58
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• 25:00
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• 25:09
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• 25:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: I didn't know that there was substances involved and demonic forces and interference.
• 25:22
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Tell us about that, because you let us on with a really what sounds like a romantic sort.
• 30:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, because it was you're in our soul when you first meet in the twin flint, you're in like time and space.
• 30:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: Time and space just, you know, before all the three deep shit trickled in and I do feel that
• 31:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: The twin flame world, there's even, they want to know where the twin flames are.
• 31:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: And they've monetized over it.
• 31:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: And again, there's a lot of garbage.
• 31:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: People have just evolved.
• 31:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I say, you know, you could find a best friend that you like to fuck, like have a best friend where you're honest and you're keeping each other in check and you're growing together.
• 31:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not able, I could tell you that I'm writing my second book about this and it's on my sub-stack and I call this man Snuffy because he's like an imaginary friend and the amount of just even speaking to him in the ethers finishing each other's thoughts, knowing things about him that I don't know.
• 31:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And there's a lot of separations.
• 32:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: And every time I don't know, it's not an easy path.
• 32:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not something like they say, like, I don't wish this on you.
• 32:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I know that you have to be evolved as a soul.
• 32:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: So there's a soul's evolution.
• 32:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I did the info and was told that I had graduated.
• 32:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then when I did Ayahuasca, maybe two weeks
• 32:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: At the, about this time last year, at the Lions Gate Portal, we were, we, him and I were supposed to go on a road trip and he totally stood me up.
• 32:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: And so for instance, it's like, no one's ever stood me up.
• 32:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, wait, my daddy stood me up.
• 32:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: My dad, when I had a, a surgery schedule to remove the metal rod from my leg, it's not enough that he didn't come when I almost died.
• 32:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: So the point is, what is it bringing up?
• 32:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: You can, this is like a mirror and then there's distortions and it's actually
• 33:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: The twin flames is a path of fast-track to ascension if you take it seriously.
• 33:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: And in this scenario, a lot of the times, it's the woman who is the more elevated spiritually evolved.
• 33:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: But there's a lot of fakes.
• 33:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: Fake spiritual.
• 33:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm a fake spiritual person.
• 33:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: I drive my test lab to a cow, Sarah Moni, and I pat myself on the back, like fake shit.
• 33:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, like being authentic, you know, it's not always pretty, but if you have unconditional love, which it shouldn't be conditional to begin with, right?
• 33:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: Diamonds instead of forever.
• 33:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the energy, the energy,
• 33:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: between us is very, initially it was very, well, all of our interactions.
• 33:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, it gets, if there's interferences or substances, then it kind of derailed and now it's in a critical place and I'm being shown also surrender, trust after losing trust in the universe because of all the darkness.
• 34:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I was told as above so below, we took you really low into the dark
• 34:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: And Maryam, you can fly really high and see things from an exalted, mature, wise place because where are these wise women?
• 34:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: Where are these wise men?
• 34:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: Where is wisdom?
• 34:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: I did a meme last week of like instead of where's Waldo?
• 34:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: Is that where's wisdom?
• 34:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's, you know, they attacked the low-hanging fruit, the elderly people, any elderly person that's not vaccinated is like that treasure as far as I'm concerned.
• 34:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: And there is an opportunity to remember.
• 34:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: So my consciousness raised
• 34:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I am more attuned, I guess with my oversoul, I was always looking at myself from a young age, from observer stance.
• 35:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just have severe PTSD that stems from other lives.
• 35:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: I remembered, I'm like, oh shit, I interviewed Howdy McCoski.
• 35:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was like, oh, shit, I've played this character before.
• 35:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been the scribe.
• 35:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been the record keeper.
• 35:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: I can resonate with Hepatya who was torn to shreds by the Christians.
• 35:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's I came to the point where like Christians, they want to petal their Bible to me.
• 35:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'd be like, dude, I was here before Christianity was
• 35:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: was created.
• 35:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: They did steal the stars.
• 35:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: We do come from the cosmos.
• 35:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I've had a lot of remembrance.
• 35:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: A lot of the things, how can you prove?
• 35:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just started reading a book about twin flames.
• 35:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I saw the same shit.
• 35:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: Mary, I'm trying to get someone on their show.
• 35:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, you don't want to come on my show.
• 35:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: Maybe you're faking gay.
• 35:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: And so seeing in this realm as well, they're pedaling, you know, Robert Edward Grant is pedaling the architect.
• 35:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he summoned his minions to play with the architect and say, shit about the technology, but it's like the answers are within.
• 36:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I believe that the walls are closing and anyone who's on a path to liberate, the time is now.
• 36:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I wrote two years ago, I don't plan to come back.
• 36:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was also told in, just intuitively, intuitions, hunches that the light at the end of the tunnel is a trap.
• 36:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had no idea that there's a whole thing.
• 36:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: Now it's like it's becoming invoked.
• 36:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: Now there's even like an academy to teach you how to exit properly.
• 36:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I believe it's all within you.
• 36:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: You have to remember if you're at this level of the game and this is not your first rodeo, it's like Westworld.
• 36:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like Westworld.
• 36:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: So in Westworld, there's a scene with Maeve and Hector her lover.
• 36:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: And that scene stood out.
• 36:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: I haven't seen seasons three and four.
• 37:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: But she's dying over and over again.
• 37:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: And she's trying to figure out the way out, which I could relate.
• 37:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was like, I watched the Truman show.
• 37:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: I thought it was like on the outer edges.
• 37:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: But it's not.
• 37:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's in
• 37:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's in and up through your crown.
• 37:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like there's a way to die.
• 37:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: And as we know, there's a die off of ignorance, but I choose not to come back to this.
• 37:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, you could think it's all happening all at once, everything all at once in the quantum field.
• 37:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not a science brain, but I got quantum lean tangled with this man.
• 37:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: I
• 37:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I know that there's forces that interfere.
• 37:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was shown and told that from the get go.
• 37:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: People can read.
• 37:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's in Hollywood.
• 37:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: There's a lot of movies about split apart.
• 37:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I even got the download that the rib
• 37:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: What is the ribbon in Hebrew?
• 37:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, it means soul essence.
• 37:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: So if we were twelve-strand DNA, if we were divine masculine, divine feminine, and we were like superheroes, and then they made a mobile hangcock, and they sub-they
• 38:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: reverse the truth because together they could be super heroes, but then they make it that together they're going to cause too much damage.
• 38:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: So there's a lot of twin flame movies and Hollywood.
• 38:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: That is what that magnetic
• 38:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: But it's a sweet, it's a sweet, you can't, I fell in love with this man's soul before I met him.
• 38:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: The three D is a different thing.
• 38:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: At one point, I said to him, and to the universe, like this is, I don't know, maybe six months ago, what the fuck is this?
• 38:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I heard in the past life you signed up for a three D, five D split test.
• 38:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: And now on YouTube, everyone's so talking about the three D, five D, but I didn't know what the hell that was.
• 38:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I've been shown a lot of things and I know I'm an old soul and I know I carry wisdom.
• 38:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: And of course, what you believe, you know, if you are awakening or are in a path, it's a big onion and you have to empty yourself limiting beliefs.
• 39:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: trauma gets stored in the body.
• 39:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: There's so many, in so many ways they're trying to keep us trapped in this simulation.
• 39:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: And now they're going to put us in another simulation.
• 39:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: Simulation in a simulation, right?
• 39:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: People will lead you astray, agentsmiths, and the matrix is a real thing, and people are not necessarily what they say they are.
• 39:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: And so I've learned a lot of things.
• 39:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: I self-sacrifice, I gave from my heart, and I'm calling in divine justice and divine intervention, because if there are substances and this person is not in full control, years of addiction,
• 39:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm looking at my own addiction, like I smoke pot.
• 39:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like, it's about looking at itself and taking real sitting in contemplation and not lying to yourself, which luckily I haven't led a life of lying to myself.
• 40:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: I know when I'm, I know how I come across, I have extreme self-awareness.
• 40:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I heard also throughout this Lucy, because I absorb a lot of information.
• 40:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: hundreds of books at the time of our reincarnation and just to jog my memory and piece together because even the mysteries, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, whatever.
• 40:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's still distilled.
• 40:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's distilled.
• 40:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: I know how it is.
• 40:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, I know how it is because they've done it to me.
• 40:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: They digitally scrubbed me.
• 40:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: In some circles, I'm a legend.
• 40:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: And in woke circles, I'll be disinvited now.
• 40:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: I went to a spiritual moon gathering, and I'm like the oldest one, the most vibrant, however, and shared about my George Floyd and the fucking hell I've been through for standing for their medical freedom.
• 40:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I made them uncomfortable.
• 41:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, you're going to go there and say, well, it's so snowflake.
• 41:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's not what spirituality is.
• 41:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: If you're triggered, they didn't even talk to me in person.
• 41:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have no idea what I said.
• 41:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: That was offensive.
• 41:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: But again, as the, who where I come from, I'm speaking truth, if I make you uncomfortable with my truth, that's on you.
• 41:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, of course, people have their delusions, right, in some galaxy.
• 41:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: This is a safe and effective vaccine on vaccines still.
• 41:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: So it's going to get pretty dangerous.
• 41:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: What's true?
• 41:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: What's not true?
• 41:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll tell you what, Marym, as a newly single man, I've been doing my research on the women that are out there.
• 41:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: And the majority that fit the archetype that you just described, they're not mature enough spiritually or intellectually to take a leap out of the comfort zone that's been given to them by public education or the media or their family
• 42:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: or I mean, hey, private education, but it feels to me from what I've seen is a lot of people, they don't even have the capacity to think in those terms.
• 42:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: And when they say, oh, I'm uncomfortable with what you bring up, you know,
• 42:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's not even going through their critical thinking centers.
• 42:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's just that it's a critical response.
• 42:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, exactly.
• 42:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, a lot of the girls came and said it's like, but nobody's having a conversation with me.
• 42:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I said, I have fun talking about me in your next circle because how can you not?
• 42:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: I came and I did what I had to do.
• 42:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: I go and dance at a club.
• 42:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm a dancer.
• 42:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: I could have been in a wheelchair.
• 42:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm the most vibrant one.
• 42:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, I don't, I'm grateful.
• 42:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I go and dance like
• 42:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: They think I work there, the people there work there, think I work there.
• 42:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I just walk in like it's like in the movie bliss.
• 43:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: Some of I can go in Wilson at the ring.
• 43:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like, are these people even real?
• 43:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: They're like, I'm in a different, I am in a different galaxy.
• 43:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: I go there.
• 43:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: Sure enough, I'm trying to have a different reaction, but sure enough, some chick will come up.
• 43:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, I came to be earlier, not alone.
• 43:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: I said, those that look like I have a problem being alone.
• 43:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: I said, or do you need to be in my energy because you don't want to be alone?
• 43:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then they last, and I'm a bitch about it, and I'm trying to soften, like, that's part of my work.
• 43:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like, I was thinking today, would you rather someone put a smile on you, a smile and just fucking lie to you?
• 43:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: or be honest, I don't know, there's a way to deliver things I'm trying to come more in my heart, but it's like, I just call shit out now.
• 43:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: And maybe because of the Kundalini, I do feel like I have an edge.
• 43:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not to say, I can be taken down.
• 43:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm getting cockroaches in my lunch.
• 43:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm the only one speaking to the dude who's stabbed Derek.
• 44:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: The government damn well knows about me, Tucker knows about me.
• 44:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: They all know about my book.
• 44:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: and the conservatives supporting me on radio because...
• 44:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's too true.
• 44:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's too true.
• 44:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: I wrote it for the future.
• 44:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: I wrote it for the records, not at my glory.
• 44:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: And, you know, it's part of remembering.
• 44:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: This is not my career.
• 44:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not who I am.
• 44:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not my I am.
• 44:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: I am that I am present.
• 44:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I know that there's a lot of garbage out there.
• 44:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's why I don't know what's the fuck's wrong with snuffy because I'm not asking for anything other than be treat me like a human being.
• 44:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: And, you know, the car is
• 44:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: In collection and a beautiful thing got turned into you know, I have when when you have someone that's so similar it's it's maybe even mirroring if I mean there's a lot they people couldn't go on my sub stack and I am
• 44:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: Before I met Snuffy, I just came about my book and he said, oh, they're going to turn it into a movie.
• 45:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I knew that wasn't the case because I already made a movie.
• 45:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: They're not going to turn into a movie.
• 45:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: But this, that I'm writing, that I planned to turn into a Netflix series.
• 45:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: We don't have to put my name on it because they'll figure out, take my name off of it.
• 45:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: But given that this is a two billion dollar industry, this is like a crazy, a crazy story.
• 45:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not sure.
• 45:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: how it ends.
• 45:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's also, it just showing me deep, deep surrender because if I panic and go into fear.
• 45:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I was shown after the Kundalini.
• 45:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: There was a lot of shock to energy.
• 45:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: It was dancing a lot.
• 45:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: I realized that he's my muse.
• 45:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: I would just hear phrases, go look, it would be a song that do start doing dance videos.
• 45:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was turning, you know, creating, but it's all I can do on TikTok.
• 45:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm on my third handle.
• 45:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: And even the dance videos,
• 45:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I think if it was someone else or someone else posting my stuff, I can't do any lives.
• 46:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, I fell through the cracks.
• 46:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yes, it was two years ago.
• 46:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was in Miami.
• 46:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had been dancing.
• 46:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was sober and I saw some guy in a Hawaiian t-shirt with a microphone and I'm like, are you doing a man on the street?
• 46:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I took the microphone from him.
• 46:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I started saying, plantemic, people, I'm not a, I'm not a sheeple, I reverse loop is, I'm the B lady.
• 46:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he took the microphone from me at one point and I took it back from him.
• 46:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: He laughed and I said, what's funny?
• 46:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: Because I wasn't expecting any of this.
• 46:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, that's right.
• 46:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: You weren't expecting to meet the B lady.
• 46:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: So a couple weeks later,
• 46:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was moving to San Augustine, and I started, I was told that I was going viral.
• 46:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: I got five points, six million views.
• 46:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then, oh, can't tag, Maryam, because people were saying, oh, she directed vanishing of the bees.
• 46:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then, you're not allowed to do any Facebook lives because what did the people want to know?
• 47:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: How did you reverse loop is?
• 47:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: How?
• 47:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: What's your fifty-two years old?
• 47:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: How is that possible?
• 47:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I don't know about the maturity, but I realize that there's a rested development, and people will say that they're spiritual, but they have to remove the distortions and take responsibility.
• 47:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: I taking responsibility.
• 47:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have fear in my body.
• 47:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm a lioness on the front lines, and there's no protection.
• 47:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's God, because I'm in a town of only been here.
• 47:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like I moved to the West Palm, because I figured they're not gonna shit in Trump's backyard pretty smart.
• 47:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: And this is not, there's a lack of soul here.
• 47:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I don't have a car.
• 47:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I'm, and as I told you, my company got infiltrated by proctor and gamble.
• 47:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I saw it too late after the Kundalini I started seeing into subtle energies.
• 47:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: And just unfortunately thrown my pearls to swine and trusted agentsmiths.
• 47:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: So we'll see.
• 47:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know.
• 48:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not scared of death.
• 48:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I don't know where this is going.
• 48:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: The solar flare is tomorrow's a day out of time.
• 48:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: July, July, twenty-fifth.
• 48:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then July, twenty-sixth is the Galactical New Year.
• 48:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when I met Snuffy the first day, he showed me the Giza clock.
• 48:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I was shy and I was in the days and I was like, oh, why is he?
• 48:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: Does he know?
• 48:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm Egyptian.
• 48:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: Why is he showing me this?
• 48:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then before the alliance gate, he showed it to me again.
• 48:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I realized, wow, he's literally showing me the alliance gate.
• 48:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: You can connect with someone in the five D. There's one time I said, I wonder what the stars look like for you.
• 48:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then that morning, he sent me just one picture of the stars.
• 48:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: There's another time he came to do a job.
• 48:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I asked him, how much, what, what are you going to charge?
• 48:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he said, six hundred.
• 48:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was thinking more, three hundred and sixty five.
• 48:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then when he left, I'm like, what do I know?
• 49:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: I undervalue things.
• 49:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not in the matrix.
• 49:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: And this isn't my, you know, I'm not a plumber and electrician.
• 49:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I was thinking of a number.
• 49:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm like, five hundred and eighty eight.
• 49:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then woke up and around, I'm before in the morning, it sent me an invoice for five hundred and eighty eight dollars.
• 49:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: The second time I met him, I was praying myself, he wasn't with me.
• 49:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was praying myself some water.
• 49:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: I saw a brown and black dog around him.
• 49:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: I said, did you just have a dog when you were young?
• 49:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: I used to say you were young.
• 49:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: He showed me a picture of his dog and I'm a great spirit.
• 49:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: What's the dog's name?
• 49:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I wrote something.
• 49:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: I can't think of, it has to come to me.
• 49:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: It can't be on command.
• 49:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have to be still and clear and centered.
• 49:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I looked at what I wrote and I wrote Roger.
• 49:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: and all names are dog Roger.
• 49:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: So then I asked him and he said, Ruger, which I didn't know Ruger was a gun.
• 49:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he's like, you kind of got it right, because the O is the U. So I saw him, I hadn't seen him for two and a half months, and I saw him, I guess a week ago.
• 50:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: Or so, I mean, time will pass, it's brutal, because I just want to connect with him, not asking for marriage.
• 50:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: Okay, so I hadn't seen him.
• 50:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I was like, I'm just going to, I had a feeling where he was staying.
• 50:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was right.
• 50:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had a feeling that I was having a cavitation and I had a lot of swelling for the past month and kind of didn't want to see him anyway, because I was not feeling good.
• 50:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I felt that he was having a mouth issue.
• 50:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I do know what a cavitation is.
• 50:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he's like, yeah, I have a hole in my socket.
• 50:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, what toothed?
• 50:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it was like the same tooth in the mirror, but on the other side.
• 50:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then he does tattoos.
• 50:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I've been wanting him to touch
• 50:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: to give me some tattoo symbols.
• 50:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I've been playing around with what I would want, like just little symbols on my collarbone.
• 50:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And as I got, did I show you this tattoo?
• 51:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm like, that's the tattoo that I want you to tattoo on me.
• 51:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I went back in my journal and I sent him an image with that symbol to him.
• 51:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: But because I can't speak openly and because there's, you know, whatever he's doing and he has severe trust issues, then
• 51:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's, I don't know what's happening out there.
• 51:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: I know my imagination, like I've thought he is a plant.
• 51:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: So maybe it's also recaching distortions and I'm just trying to sustain my lane and send love.
• 51:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: Even though, you know, there was one woman who was involved with that broke his guitar.
• 51:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like I'm factizing about him playing the guitar.
• 51:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I said, what would you have done if she was me?
• 51:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: Would she have shot you?
• 51:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like, what the fuck?
• 51:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: So it's also the relationship, the connection is ancient.
• 51:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it's like, feel like, it's my husband, my brother, he's my enemy, he's my friend, he's a stranger every time I see him.
• 52:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like the first time and the bazillionth time, the way I say his name, like, I actually remember putting a sigil to jog my memory.
• 52:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: I remember watching a movie called Made in Heaven,
• 52:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: And after the plant medicine, I was like, what was that movie?
• 52:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: I couldn't think of the name and I pulled it up on YouTube and I was like falling like viscerally.
• 52:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was like, oh my God, I forgot.
• 52:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: I, I've been looking for him.
• 52:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's why I freaked out when he went missing because who cares, you know, he's like,
• 52:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was in paying attention to boys.
• 52:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: So anyway, it's been, I hope people will come to mariamenain.substack.com and they can read them on part, I'm on part twenty six.
• 52:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: And when I did the iosca ceremony, the shaman,
• 53:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: said, we've been played by COVID-nineteen in HIV.
• 53:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was standing by the fire away from the crowd.
• 53:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was like, oh my God, he's spreading tries.
• 53:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: Truth makes with lies.
• 53:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: No, no, full.
• 53:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: Those are bio weapons made by man.
• 53:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: And this is how it works.
• 53:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: You just say the shit over and over again.
• 53:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it becomes truth.
• 53:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I heard you are an ancient soul.
• 53:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: You are not to listen to anybody else.
• 53:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: You need to trust yourself.
• 53:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I started saying, I am that I am, I am that I am.
• 53:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm like, why am I saying that?
• 53:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then the next day, I found the next day in one of the many books I bought, I found about the I am presence.
• 53:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I woke up one another morning and I heard seven three.
• 53:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I didn't know what that was.
• 53:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it was this man that showed me the ascension.
• 53:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: He's shown me so many things.
• 53:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, you know, in the end, I
• 53:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just, you know, there's the spin drift experiment to just send non, you don't put your desires, you just send love.
• 54:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm, I'm sure I put a lot of energy that he's felt in the ethers.
• 54:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
• 54:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: Anyway, in the path of divine feminine, I don't think there's a lot of divine feminists out there.
• 54:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I know my heart is pure.
• 54:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I could even hear my voice in twenty-nineteen.
• 54:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: It was so much sweeter than after this fucking Rona regime.
• 54:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: This was a war.
• 54:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was on the front lines.
• 54:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then the piercories of the world get the credit.
• 54:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the people who
• 54:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: get all the glory, like I worked on pandemic with anyone, no, no.
• 54:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: Let's make he said that it's not about us, but it's about you.
• 54:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: Sorry, buddy.
• 54:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm calling out the fake and gay in this world.
• 54:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's a lot of ego and where's the heart?
• 55:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, wait.
• 55:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: They create the bio-appen.
• 55:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: So they can adjust the heart.
• 55:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: So you can't raise your frequency because that heart is way more powerful than the mind.
• 55:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: And they could say all is mine, but it needs to be filtered through the heart.
• 55:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's what I believe.
• 55:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: So that's a lot that I said.
• 55:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: Powerful journey you're on, Miriam.
• 55:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: I have a few follow-up questions before we wrap up because I know you don't have all night.
• 55:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: You have somewhere else to be or something else.
• 55:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have a sub-stack to finish.
• 55:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, I want to ask because you mentioned amuse, you mentioned a man.
• 55:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: And somewhere in between I'm curious, you know, I getting this sense by the tone of everything you've said that this is indeed a real man.
• 55:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: But something about him, you're thinking he's a plant.
• 55:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe there's something artificial.
• 55:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: We took a look at the presentation talking about AI and how they're sort of creating false twin flames.
• 55:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: So that's why I'm wondering.
• 55:59
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• 56:00
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• 56:00
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• 56:11
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• 56:12
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• 56:12
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• 56:13
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• 56:13
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• 56:14
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• 56:14
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• 56:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe this was just my interpretation of which.
• 56:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: No, he's real.
• 56:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm not questioning.
• 56:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm not questioning.
• 56:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: I mean, real.
• 56:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: Stick with him for a second.
• 56:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm not questioning that.
• 56:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: What I'm questioning is you said something about amuse.
• 56:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: You said the name Snuffy.
• 56:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I'm wondering like where is that?
• 56:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because I read a book a few months ago about spiritual marriages where
• 56:43
  [SPEAKER_00]: men and women experience astral or out of body or just inner, you know, maybe we'll call it as you put it, tell a clear audience sort of experience, right, with a being that is not physical, that is spiritual and it becomes like a real marriage and there's a book
• 57:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: I forget the author's name, but she compiled a lot of different stories about men and women across the world who have these relationships and it's not a new phenomenon by any stretch of the image.
• 57:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: I would like to know the name of that book.
• 57:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
• 57:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: Not my shelf.
• 57:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'll pull it off and text it to you.
• 57:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: But I'm just, yeah, I'm curious because if somewhere in the story, I felt it reminded me of the book that I read.
• 57:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I would need to look at the book to make a comparison.
• 57:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'll just make clarify one, obviously I want to be respectful of his privacy.
• 57:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he is reading my series.
• 57:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: So it's not like I'm keeping it secret.
• 57:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: I call them snuffle up against because it's a big bird's imaginary friend.
• 57:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And once he leaves the ones, I've only seen him
• 58:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: In my place and I've gone, I've been in the car with him, you know, from the lock back and went on one outing with him.
• 58:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: And so from a quantum physics point of view, just even observing this connection can change the reality of it.
• 58:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I also don't know when he, you know, I've joked with him.
• 58:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: He functions in orbital time.
• 58:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: not the clock.
• 58:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: And that's a fear.
• 58:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have a fear.
• 58:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have trust issues and the thing is he has trust issues in his mind.
• 58:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: He entertained that I was I was also scheming to harm him.
• 58:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I don't know.
• 58:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: I haven't been able to have the trust and
• 58:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: to sit with him because there's trust issues, which is extremely also looked from a human design.
• 59:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: We're also both six twos, which trust is a lot.
• 59:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: And yeah, I mean, from my perspective, it's pretty obvious where I come from, but I don't know what else is involved, but I'm not, I'm not shaming or judging his
• 59:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: is what he's entertaining.
• 59:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: Maybe he also thinks I'm too good to be true.
• 59:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know.
• 59:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, I thought he was too good to be true despite the behavior.
• 59:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I see I connect with him on his soul level.
• 59:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: the first time two months passed and I didn't know what that fuck was happening because I've never, this is very unusual and also I guess the three D with classified dismissive avoidance if they were to put a label.
• 59:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I went to a nudie beach with a nudist from a lady that had taken photos of me and after he came in a sat behind me and I could feel like his
• 1:00:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: testicles on like he'd on my back and I just said to my like I can count the number of people I've slept with on my hands like like I'm never like all let me get over get under to get over or that so I just in my head I said get the fuck off my towel I'm married and then I'm like you're not married Mary I'm where was that coming from so like five minutes later
• 1:00:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: He, I told him, hey, just because he told me to have a Yoni massage.
• 1:00:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I said, you know, just because this guy's not responding to me, I'm not going to, I don't need to go get other energy.
• 1:00:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like, I'm very confident in myself.
• 1:00:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: I know I'm a beautiful attractive smart woman.
• 1:00:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm a secure.
• 1:00:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't need to, I rather go and read a book and learn something than I don't drink.
• 1:00:58
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just, if I'm not learning or exchanging something, it's like, I choose to be by myself.
• 1:01:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: which is not easy, but I'm just, anyway, so I told him, you know, just because so he went off on his cowl and, like, less than five minutes later, he had a heat stroke.
• 1:01:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: He was, he was side-draided.
• 1:01:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: He had eaten heat.
• 1:01:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had to drive his home and he said that never happened.
• 1:01:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I later, I'm like, what happened there?
• 1:01:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like, was my energy so like, get the fuck off me, like get the fuck away.
• 1:01:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: And, you know, I had, I hadn't seen him since,
• 1:01:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: before the Rona and it's like there's just there's nothing like I'm in another galaxy as far as what I'm looking at and what I'm focusing on and I'm also operating in a different way because I'd wake up and just be on the computer I you know it's like anyone who says this is safe and effective you're in calling the FDA you weren't looking calling Pfizer you didn't put yourself on the line anyway I was just operating
• 1:02:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: in a different way how much took me five years to write this.
• 1:02:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like really like you read this and you tell me not you specifically.
• 1:02:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just gonna read
• 1:02:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: This is Daniel Estelen, who is cited in my book, who's written about Tabustock.
• 1:02:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: Maryly names exhaustive investigation of George Floyd's murder.
• 1:02:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: Assassination, ritual killing is a one-of-a-kind top-notch real-life journalism.
• 1:02:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: Maryam is fearless as she unravels the mystery of George Floyd's death and event that without a doubt, shook America to its core.
• 1:02:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: She goes beyond the headlines.
• 1:02:34
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the status quo while lifting layer after layer of mischief, deceit, and political, expediency to get at the truth.
• 1:02:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: From multilevel investigation leaves you breathless and awestruck when all the facts are laid out for us to see.
• 1:02:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I cried when I read that.
• 1:02:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: He got it.
• 1:02:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the people who have bought the book, said, how did you get all this information?
• 1:02:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: Half of the footnotes are gone.
• 1:03:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the George Floyd family did threaten me.
• 1:03:05
  [SPEAKER_03]: There's so many footnotes and they're just literally scrubbed from archive.org.
• 1:03:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I'm just waiting to, you know, I'm looking for operations person.
• 1:03:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: I need to get my name off of my company.
• 1:03:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm on a shit list.
• 1:03:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: What can I say?
• 1:03:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: powerful, I could say I'm more powerful, but I can't, I was trying to see like, was that a negative belief, I'm like, well, you can't, I can't lie to myself that there isn't something messing with me and maybe messing with him to mess with me.
• 1:03:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: I told him before I met him that maybe that I felt that he was also being messed with before my book came out.
• 1:03:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: So maybe, you know, it's about our frequencies.
• 1:03:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: And they don't want us to remember, and they certainly don't want men and women to love each other, because two in this world is better than one.
• 1:04:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:04:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:04:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: And there's so much about, first of all, I just want to stop what I'm going to say in comment on you are an incredibly powerful person and a beautiful woman who's absolutely radiant and glowing through the screen.
• 1:04:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: So there's no need to talk that up any further because any guy can see that
• 1:04:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: from a month, except the man that I, yeah, but you know what, that's the courtship dancing all the other stuff.
• 1:04:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: So, you know, maybe you, this is beyond this is where there's, I mean, I'm going to pray for America.
• 1:04:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'd be happy.
• 1:04:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, I'm with you when you present when you mentioned you said something about quantum entanglement and and the way our perspective can shift a relationship and these subtle forces, you know, this is something that I've been very aware of.
• 1:05:02
  [SPEAKER_00]: my entire adult life, you know, from the ebson flows of each relationship I've had, I've calculated in reverse or that sounds weird.
• 1:05:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've revised my, you know, social skills based on making mistakes, right?
• 1:05:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: And adjusting accordingly.
• 1:05:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: But, you know, through some of those mistakes, I've noticed psychic
• 1:05:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: elements to things that occurred and and I'm getting that in things that you've said, but yeah, it's very difficult.
• 1:05:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think, you know, especially after the scam dynamic plan, dynamic bio weapon bullshit, we all had to go through and, you know,
• 1:05:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: my heart goes out to anybody who lost people through that I had you know friends who who've lost you know close to believe it over and over this right no yeah exactly so you know who knows when people are going to be listening to this though so but it is interesting like this thread that you're you're weaving and it's very compelling I know maybe the average person might
• 1:06:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: say it's crazy but hey that's the show my family thinks I'm crazy my mom still I mean who's to say like this fucking crazy world it's like the thing is that I often sound out there but when the future catches up to me I am no doubt I have no doubts I only say that it's just in general right there's a lot of even on
• 1:06:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: on self-aware, suppose it twin flames, but again, there's nothing, that's why I was fascinated by the connection because it felt strange, but familiar, it felt ancient, it felt magical.
• 1:06:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: And you need to trust that intuitive sense that you're getting and something that you said in our conversation really stuck out to me and that is
• 1:07:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: you know, being your best self and you project this sense of integrity that's like not compromising for anything.
• 1:07:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like what you're saying about your interactions with the women in that, you know, event or what have you.
• 1:07:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: You weren't being a bitch.
• 1:07:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: You were sticking to your integrity, right?
• 1:07:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I think the authenticity is something that's so foreign to the average person because of our, you know, average world.
• 1:07:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's where it's at.
• 1:07:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's the highest frequency along with love and so I didn't mean to answer that.
• 1:07:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, and that's what they want us to and I'm just kind of reiterating things that you've said so we can put a crescendo on this conversation and things that's really I agree with like the fact that they don't want people finding that match for them.
• 1:07:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, I have friends now that I've gotten older and made deeper friendships that
• 1:08:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: are married and have what seems to be good partners in their lives.
• 1:08:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I see where the two balance each other.
• 1:08:08
  [SPEAKER_00]: And as a Libra myself, I'm like ironically, like, oh, when am I going to, you know, find that in the whole life?
• 1:08:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thirty years old.
• 1:08:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'll do it.
• 1:08:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: You're young.
• 1:08:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:08:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:08:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:08:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:08:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: So like, I'm a woman.
• 1:08:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not going to be, you know, like, it's, it's, and I'm, I'm not a feminist and I'm also super picky and people wouldn't understand because there's a lot of toxic behavior.
• 1:08:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't even understand.
• 1:08:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just could say it's an energy and I, you know,
• 1:08:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: arguably on the surface, it looks bad, but I care more about this man being clean and I have no, he's chosen this.
• 1:08:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I don't know what's going on.
• 1:08:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know, I know it's difficult to give up pot.
• 1:08:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: I have compassion because then it's also brain chemistry if there's trauma.
• 1:09:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, it's a lot of work.
• 1:09:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been working on myself for a long time and I still have
• 1:09:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: I call you have coherence in my mind.
• 1:09:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think there's an attack on people, particularly men and women in their own, in a sort of specialized way for each gender.
• 1:09:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, God forbid we get into the conversation of more than two genders, because I think we both agree on that.
• 1:09:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: Absolutely.
• 1:09:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't think anyone listening to this show.
• 1:09:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't unless they're new to the show.
• 1:09:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: Whatever.
• 1:09:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, let it be.
• 1:09:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: there's something going on that's curtailed to each gender will say and for me as a young man like just getting over my twenties and some of my bad habits in my twenties recently I've noticed like a big change after giving up
• 1:09:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: porn and masturbation and actually sticking to it for a long time.
• 1:10:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm seeing like a real, like a real change in my physical body and I'm just thinking like, wow, if I only knew that five years ago and I could see, you know, so.
• 1:10:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: Maybe decision, right, you made it.
• 1:10:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: He's not making the decision.
• 1:10:22
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, like his there's still there's a there's substance abuse and it's it's impacting you I want to say something about the you know the divine masculine divine feminine like these are energies it has nothing to do your P.P.
• 1:10:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: or your Yoni and that's part of the maligning it what they're doing with in the mutilation and blah blah but so
• 1:10:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, I'm operating out of my masculine like do do do instead of like receive and just be because I was trying to get my daddy's love and it's like even, you know, I'm so ambitious like six plants and capital coordinates like then you see those.
• 1:11:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: plastic chicks of like oh my god, like I'm a dream compared to these fucking superficial women that it's like, you know, I'm not boring like I do accents every I mean it's never it's never boring.
• 1:11:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: So yeah, and then I would attract attract guys or like you're tantalizing, but you're not tantalizing like you have nothing like there's no you can't force it, right?
• 1:11:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: I had I befriended someone
• 1:11:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: Friendships take long.
• 1:11:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: This was whatever happened is like, it's an anomaly.
• 1:11:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: This is not my pattern.
• 1:11:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I know myself.
• 1:11:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: One thing also, like, I could feel people's energy.
• 1:11:43
  [SPEAKER_03]: And whenever he's in the space, I don't, it's like, it's the same.
• 1:11:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's the same.
• 1:11:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's the same soul frequency.
• 1:11:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: When I met him on the Carlotta and I hugged him, it's like, everything went quiet.
• 1:11:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: Of course, you know, I can't speak for him, but regardless,
• 1:12:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, just see have a trust where the human being in your life, like if there's things going on that are...
• 1:12:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know.
• 1:12:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know what's going on.
• 1:12:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been locked down to like, you know nothing, John Snow, you know nothing.
• 1:12:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: You are very brave.
• 1:12:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: And that comes across just talking to you in our first conversation in this conversation.
• 1:12:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't mean brave like, you know, the way weak liberal talk about brave.
• 1:12:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: I mean real, like brave.
• 1:12:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: But that obviously, you know, scares men, blah, blah, blah, blah.
• 1:12:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: I've been very soft in his presence.
• 1:12:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: I feel very feminine and shy, actually.
• 1:12:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 1:12:48
  [SPEAKER_00]: I had something else I was going to say, but I lost it.
• 1:12:50
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm intimidating.
• 1:12:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm intimidating.
• 1:12:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: No, I don't know.
• 1:12:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't think that's what I was trying to say.
• 1:12:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: There's something else I wanted to say, but I lost it.
• 1:12:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: Sorry.
• 1:12:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: I haven't come back.
• 1:13:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: It'll come back.
• 1:13:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: But it's just interesting.
• 1:13:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like brave.
• 1:13:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: You're, you're, yeah, now I got it.
• 1:13:08
  [SPEAKER_00]: You're talking about it, right?
• 1:13:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: And when I was younger, I was always so afraid to talk about my love interest with people because when I did it first, I received a lot of doubt.
• 1:13:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I noticed that that doubt I received in conversations affected my
• 1:13:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: And my confidence so I said you know what some things are best left not spoken about but you've kind of ascended past that to where like you're kind of writing Reality as you speak it which I think that's what men and women in their own
• 1:13:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: masculine and feminine ways should learn as a life skill not just a romance skill like you can project your will and not in a way that you know someone doesn't like you and you're going to make them like you you know we're not talking about that when you have an organic connection with somebody
• 1:14:06
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, I think a lot of people will get anxious.
• 1:14:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: They want to make it happen and do all the things and the hope it goes well.
• 1:14:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: When really as a man, my instinct now is to just let it all go, right?
• 1:14:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: Let it slide because the right person will make that connection.
• 1:14:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know what I mean?
• 1:14:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: Like there is no buddy out there to find
• 1:14:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm not going looking for somebody.
• 1:14:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: I just go out and do what I want to do.
• 1:14:37
  [SPEAKER_00]: And that person will be there.
• 1:14:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: And they'll just like the car loss, that moment you shared with us.
• 1:14:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: Those moments happen, but when you're being your best self, right?
• 1:14:49
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I feel like
• 1:14:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: You're past the point of looking for it.
• 1:14:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: Now you're actualizing it.
• 1:14:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: And that's something again, very brave to do on a podcast.
• 1:14:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know.
• 1:15:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know what, you know, I'm sure people would think I'm obsessed or looking at the actual connection and I've helped it's
• 1:15:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's helped me surrender to any preconceived like I just want to be honored now I don't and I wanted to do a good thing and I want this man to be clean like I have I'm not conventional and early on.
• 1:15:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: early on, he said, I'm going to say one thing.
• 1:15:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to say it as a question.
• 1:15:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he said, do you realize that you're forcing a relationship?
• 1:15:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was fucking mortified.
• 1:15:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was so mortified.
• 1:15:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: I was like, I thought you liked me.
• 1:15:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: What?
• 1:15:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: He was driving an hour and a half to see me, but maybe he was, you know, I don't know.
• 1:15:48
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I said, I'm really sorry, you feel that way.
• 1:15:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: We've messaged each other in fucking, like, texts.
• 1:15:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it's a very, it's a very, it's beyond three D. That's all I could say.
• 1:16:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's beyond three D because I won't see him with worse, were like,
• 1:16:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: will have looked at the same thing like I remember I sent him the gateway experience and then when I saw him he was all I had come across it like three days before you sent it to me.
• 1:16:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: But so when he said that I'm like, whoa, like it's you make it sound like I'm trying to draft you to the war.
• 1:16:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like what?
• 1:16:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I remember I said, like, how about a date, like, relationship?
• 1:16:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: I said, everything's a relationship.
• 1:16:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: You're relating to the fucking eggs you had this morning.
• 1:16:38
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like, everything is a relationship, right?
• 1:16:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: So there's, you know, knowing a lot of spirituality, but then you have to practice it.
• 1:16:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And if you have someone like me that's your mirror, like when we were on the lot,
• 1:16:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: And the sales, the car salesman came in and said, OK, I know that people don't close time for people.
• 1:16:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: They know what along someone that they don't know, right?
• 1:17:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: That's why I know that it was a faded encounter.
• 1:17:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: not to mention the six planet parade.
• 1:17:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: So the car salesman said, is that your brother or is that your husband?
• 1:17:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I wanted to say, actually just met him for a minute to go.
• 1:17:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: Then I went and I looked at him and I was like, yeah, he could be my brother.
• 1:17:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: Both have like full lips.
• 1:17:23
  [SPEAKER_03]: Both have tattooed both dark.
• 1:17:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: So I don't know.
• 1:17:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: I ultimately, you have to surrender and ultimately have to listen
• 1:17:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: to the messages you get because this is about a soul evolution.
• 1:17:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's not about romance.
• 1:17:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: And surrender into being your best self, right?
• 1:17:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because that is where you'll find that person who resonates on that level and or give that right person or that person that's, you know, in your view,
• 1:17:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: that challenge or that obstacle they need to step up to resonate on that level with you.
• 1:18:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: And maybe what you sensed in that reply or that statement about forcing a relationship was that hesitancy, but either way.
• 1:18:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: It was just pushing me away.
• 1:18:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
• 1:18:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 1:18:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: I wasn't.
• 1:18:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, I maybe I was excited that I met someone that I thought liked me back and like the mantra is like,
• 1:18:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: the person that my heart and soul and body and everything in this life wants me equally back, mutually, right?
• 1:18:36
  [SPEAKER_03]: Because what happens is, you know, as far as like everything starts as a friendship, and it takes time in this day and age.
• 1:18:44
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like I met one guy on Facebook dating who was very knowledgeable about spirituality, but then
• 1:18:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: He told me it was an ascended master.
• 1:18:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I was this disciple.
• 1:18:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not your fucking disciple.
• 1:18:57
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm teaching you just as much buddy when he said like, wow, you're so mature.
• 1:19:01
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, good luck finding.
• 1:19:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then that evolved into fuck you.
• 1:19:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm a, I'm a megalomania.
• 1:19:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: Wait a second, you're the one who's calling yourself an ascended master.
• 1:19:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: But I'm a megalomania.
• 1:19:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: No, you're just using a title of self-importance to hide your insecurity.
• 1:19:19
  [SPEAKER_03]: So that was like two weeks.
• 1:19:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: And
• 1:19:21
  [SPEAKER_03]: you know, it exploded and I blocked this person.
• 1:19:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: So then, so it's just, we know when you see your best self, if you're processing a lot of things, what is your best self?
• 1:19:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like I put on my wall, be the love you seek.
• 1:19:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I want to touch people with my heart and I'm still working on that because I think most people are, are retarded today, so that's like a juxtaposition, right?
• 1:19:49
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, I know that sounds mean, but I really think there's like, it's not a mean.
• 1:19:54
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, but I would like to have more compassion because also in the end, it's all to lose you.
• 1:20:00
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's all a loose fest.
• 1:20:04
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's all like I'm learning to stay in my center because I get like, oh my God, this car is in collection.
• 1:20:10
  [SPEAKER_03]: This guy's fucking me over.
• 1:20:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: I feel betrayed and then I could derail.
• 1:20:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think it's a, you know, and on this theme, I've been on this theme for a few episodes and we can wrap up on this if you want to switch up now.
• 1:20:28
  [SPEAKER_00]: Beboodev, Mizra joined me on the show a couple months ago, maybe a year ago and told us that this past May would be the end, officially of the colleague and the beginning of the duarpa yoga, which I believe is
• 1:20:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, for people thinking in Western Civ terms, we've got the lead age that we just left and now we're entering something like the Bronze Age, the Silver Age, just beyond that and the Golden Age is beyond that.
• 1:21:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: So to me, it feels like
• 1:21:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, our grandparents, their grandparents, their generation was very solidified, densified into the three D realm, so they were very much, you know, confined to those dimensions and their relationships reflect that.
• 1:21:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: The people they paired up with, whereas now that we're entering this more,
• 1:21:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: expanded age, we're still getting the downsides of the lead age, but we're getting some of the benefits of what we're going to experience in the silver age and the two are meeting in the middle to be the Bronze Age.
• 1:21:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I think some of that is more accessibility, more communicability, you know, aquarium energy, the age of Aquarius and all that.
• 1:21:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: I don't know how accurate that is, but you mentioned the day out of time, which is Jose Argoales.
• 1:21:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: And his work is great.
• 1:21:55
  [SPEAKER_00]: I didn't, I don't know if I asked people about where he stands on Jose's work and how the two intertwined, but he did speak favorably about the Mayans calendars in his book.
• 1:22:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: So I don't know if Jose's sighted, but I'll look into that.
• 1:22:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't know enough about his work.
• 1:22:17
  [SPEAKER_03]: I do remember this time energetically last year.
• 1:22:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I got the remembrance that I come from Cyrus B. Of course, how would I know that?
• 1:22:26
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then I was listening to him.
• 1:22:29
  [SPEAKER_03]: Is it wife both of this couple with Stephen Burns yesterday and they were talking about how it takes fifty two years for Cyrus B to go around Cyrus A and I found that really interesting because I'm fifty two years old and I I resonate with Cyrus B and
• 1:22:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: You know, the twin flame journey is, it could be seen like this.
• 1:22:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: And you know, whatever I say, I mean, I mean, no disrespect to this man or like to, you know, I respect his privacy.
• 1:23:02
  [SPEAKER_03]: And so,
• 1:23:06
  [SPEAKER_03]: I see this connection in the best possible light even though it looks like I'm getting very much the shortage of stick and I'm getting leftover.
• 1:23:15
  [SPEAKER_03]: But you know, it's not a good or bad.
• 1:23:18
  [SPEAKER_03]: You don't know the end of the story by the Chinese fable and to stay in the possibility of what is possible and not to be diluted, but to also
• 1:23:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: just expect miracles and I know that I, my heart is golden and that if I stand firm, I chose to do this.
• 1:23:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not a victim.
• 1:23:42
  [SPEAKER_03]: I, I just really, I just want the best for him, actually.
• 1:23:47
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I, you know, when when I, he left last time,
• 1:23:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: He had his guitar here, and I said, who else would be thinking that you haven't played your guitar in a month?
• 1:24:03
  [SPEAKER_03]: And, you know, he was Johnson to play his guitar.
• 1:24:07
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then when he left, I said, I'm scared that I'm not going to see you again.
• 1:24:13
  [SPEAKER_03]: And he said, I know that you thought that, I don't know how he knows.
• 1:24:20
  [SPEAKER_03]: I got upset because I'm like, how could you think I would want to do anything to harm you?
• 1:24:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like, how could you see that?
• 1:24:28
  [SPEAKER_03]: Like, isn't it a fucking obvious?
• 1:24:32
  [SPEAKER_03]: So, anyway, you know, love, love from the soul and the heart is not, I don't think it's, it's not the mind.
• 1:24:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: There's some things that defy logic and we've been operating under a faulty paradigm.
• 1:24:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm not a science brain, but I understand now quantum entanglement.
• 1:24:51
  [SPEAKER_03]: And I'll say, no, I'll give in analogy.
• 1:24:53
  [SPEAKER_03]: I started wearing all these different
• 1:24:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: necklaces and in the beginning they would get all tangled and I would spend an hour untangling them and then I came across oh shit this is like quantum entanglement and I was writing my bike a few weeks ago
• 1:25:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: And it came to me that by writing this story and him reading this story, that that has an impact on the outcome or it shapes things.
• 1:25:24
  [SPEAKER_03]: And then when I looked in the mirror, I was like, oh, the necklace is now, it's like one, all the different quantum, all the threads are now one thing.
• 1:25:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not going to spend my time.
• 1:25:35
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's its own thing now.
• 1:25:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I don't have time to sit and untangle this.
• 1:25:40
  [SPEAKER_03]: So that's an analogy.
• 1:25:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: I love that.
• 1:25:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: I love that.
• 1:25:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: And as you were about to say what you just said, the phrase struck my mind that the story has just begun.
• 1:25:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: The story is being written.
• 1:25:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: I said something to that effect to two women I was talking to a couple of weeks ago at this big huge flea market.
• 1:26:07
  [SPEAKER_00]: And they're like, oh, you got to print that on the shirt.
• 1:26:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: That's so smart.
• 1:26:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: and you know it's the truth because to your point about quantum entanglement there is no future there is no past there's only the present moment and we are writing the story of our lives as we think it as we act it as we live it so with that mariam thank you so much for sharing this intimate
• 1:26:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: with us because it is I know you're so personal and you've you've been very respectful to his privacy.
• 1:26:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: There's not me, there's not.
• 1:26:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, I think he'll he'll listen if he does and he'll he'll preach.
• 1:26:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know.
• 1:26:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: He's blocked me is not much to even.
• 1:26:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's blocked me.
• 1:26:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: Well, hey, if that is the case and there is the the chance for move on then there's someone even that's the thing you can't move on from it You can move on, but it's a soul thing and yeah, unfortunately everybody peels in comparison So what I'm open is there only one twin flame do we have one twin flame in one
• 1:27:08
  [SPEAKER_03]: They'll say bullshit about more than one to inflame.
• 1:27:11
  [SPEAKER_03]: You can find a soulmate.
• 1:27:12
  [SPEAKER_03]: I could find a soulmate and have a very peaceful life.
• 1:27:16
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, right now, again, it's like, I'm just even to find good people to connect with that are not shallow like puddles because usually people can go as deep as I can.
• 1:27:25
  [SPEAKER_03]: I mean, in my world of like speaking to people like you and other content influencers, but I'm just saying, outside,
• 1:27:33
  [SPEAKER_03]: when I go dance, like they're all drinking booze, they're all in the matrix.
• 1:27:37
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm not in the matrix anymore.
• 1:27:39
  [SPEAKER_03]: I identify Trinity and I'm, yeah.
• 1:27:45
  [SPEAKER_03]: So thank you for, thank you.
• 1:27:46
  [SPEAKER_03]: I didn't expect to have a sentiment conversation and I would invite people to go to marimining.substack and read my book that's in the works.
• 1:27:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I'm having fun writing it.
• 1:27:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: I love it.
• 1:27:59
  [SPEAKER_00]: I love it.
• 1:28:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: Mariam Henane.
• 1:28:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: I wrote it phonetically.
• 1:28:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: This Lexic, I tried to pronounce your name correctly and I failed miserably.
• 1:28:11
  [SPEAKER_00]: Here's the second term nailed it.
• 1:28:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 1:28:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: Miriam Henane boom third try nailed it.
• 1:28:18
  [SPEAKER_00]: You're the best.
• 1:28:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: This was great.
• 1:28:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: You think we should have another conversation in the future and maybe even field some relationship questions from the audience before.
• 1:28:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.
• 1:28:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: Because, you know, there's not a lot of people talking about relationships from this quantum entanglement, three D, four D, five D perspective.
• 1:28:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, a lot of people
• 1:28:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: Pretend, you know, like we've pointed out throughout this conversation.
• 1:28:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: There's a lot of phony spirits.
• 1:28:48
  [SPEAKER_00]: So yeah, you're welcome back on the show any time you have time for us and it's been a pleasure.
• 1:28:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: So check the link in the description to connect with Mary and yourself and I hope you do and until next episode, immerse yourself in the moment wherever you are in the now.
• 1:29:17
  [SPEAKER_00]: Alright, ladies and gentlemen, that was our conversation with Marym and Nane.
• 1:29:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: She is an interesting character.
• 1:29:25
  [SPEAKER_00]: Yes, I got her name wrong, but I pronounced it correctly all the other times.
• 1:29:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: Marym and Nane, what an interesting character.
• 1:29:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: I support her.
• 1:29:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: I understand the insecurity about coming off.
• 1:29:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's crazy.
• 1:29:42
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, as a man talking to a woman, there's definitely a dynamic there that might make me think out this woman's crazy.
• 1:29:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: But I know Maryam from my previous conversation with her.
• 1:29:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: I trust her.
• 1:29:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think that what she's going through is something that I can relate to.
• 1:30:01
  [SPEAKER_00]: I can resonate with.
• 1:30:05
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've had love interests in the past, who I thought were my twin flame, maybe even one of them was.
• 1:30:13
  [SPEAKER_00]: Sadly, those relationships are ended and I am a single man for the time being.
• 1:30:21
  [SPEAKER_00]: So we'll see what happens.
• 1:30:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: Shout out to my previous love.
• 1:30:27
  [SPEAKER_00]: I miss you, girl.
• 1:30:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: But anyways,
• 1:30:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: We've got a lot going on.
• 1:30:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: I haven't been the most present with the podcast lately because well, I'm single as we're getting into with this conversation.
• 1:30:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: I hope the personal stuff doesn't make people uncomfortable.
• 1:30:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm not going to make that the main focus of the show at all.
• 1:30:50
  [SPEAKER_00]: My sex life is none of anyone's business.
• 1:30:54
  [SPEAKER_00]: But for conversations like this, I think it was appropriate to get a little personal, given Maryam.
• 1:31:00
  [SPEAKER_00]: It was very personal, personable.
• 1:31:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: But anyways, yeah, if you guys liked this type of episode, you want to hear me talk more about sociology, about sexuality, relationship dynamics.
• 1:31:15
  [SPEAKER_00]: Let me know in the comments whether you loved or hated this episode.
• 1:31:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: And we'll see what happens, you know, because I am somebody who has spent a lot of time thinking about romance and relationships throughout my adult life.
• 1:31:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I don't know that I have great advice or anything to teach anyone, but I do enjoy talking and learning.
• 1:31:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: And I feel like I have a certain
• 1:31:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: A certain process that is unorthodox being that I am mystic mark.
• 1:31:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you saw little glimpse of that through this conversation.
• 1:31:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: But it's hard to keep up with everything.
• 1:31:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: Maryam is saying because she's a little frenzied, but she's a good person with a great heart.
• 1:32:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: So if you're walking away from this episode like, what did I just listen to?
• 1:32:10
  [SPEAKER_00]: I felt the same way in some ways, but overall I think the message is that we are constantly
• 1:32:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: In this sea of resonance with other people, and to become aware of that, sometimes help, sometimes hurts.
• 1:32:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: The relationship dynamics is hence the quantum entanglement.
• 1:32:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: There's karma at play.
• 1:32:38
  [SPEAKER_00]: There's past lives potentially at play, and maybe that's what it is to be a twin flame.
• 1:32:44
  [SPEAKER_00]: And with all this, you know, faux spirituality out there, at the very least, we got to talk about some of these things.
• 1:32:53
  [SPEAKER_00]: In a way that maybe you haven't heard before.
• 1:32:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: So again, if you're walking away from this episode like what did I just listen to, I kind of felt the same way, but trust me, we're gonna expand on this topic in the future.
• 1:33:09
  [SPEAKER_00]: Depending on how popular this episode is, maybe it'll be a Patreon exclusive.
• 1:33:14
  [SPEAKER_00]: But either way, it's kind of in a pinch for episodes this week and I have to put stuff out.
• 1:33:19
  [SPEAKER_00]: So, love you all.
• 1:33:20
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you for supporting the show.
• 1:33:22
  [SPEAKER_00]: You guys are the best.
• 1:33:23
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you for listening.
• 1:33:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: I've been Mystic Mark.
• 1:33:26
  [SPEAKER_00]: Support me on Instagram at my family thinks I'm crazy.
• 1:33:29
  [SPEAKER_00]: Give us a follow.
• 1:33:30
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm going to be posting the new merch.
• 1:33:33
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's pretty much finished.
• 1:33:34
  [SPEAKER_00]: I just have to put the lettering on some of the shirts this afternoon and then we're done.
• 1:33:39
  [SPEAKER_00]: Then we're ready to ship.
• 1:33:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: So if you would like to get your hands on some exclusive my family thinks I'm crazy merch.
• 1:33:47
  [SPEAKER_00]: We've got a ton of different designs, a ton three or four.
• 1:33:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: Some of them are going to be one-offs for very special people who are willing to pay the right price.
• 1:33:58
  [SPEAKER_00]: You know, there's only one or two shirts of certain designs, so we'll see what happens.
• 1:34:03
  [SPEAKER_00]: But either way, get there on the Patreon or the Substack first.
• 1:34:08
  [SPEAKER_00]: to call dibs on the shirts you want and based on that I will print more of some designs but some of them are one off some of them I would just make a bunch of mistakes if I tried to do them again so we'll see where we fall where the chips fall with the merch and depending on how popular it is we might do this every so often every month every other month come up with a new t-shirt design and promote it on the show
• 1:34:36
  [SPEAKER_00]: It's going to be related to topics and I think they're going to be cool.
• 1:34:41
  [SPEAKER_00]: This is going to become a little bit of a side business for me making art this way.
• 1:34:46
  [SPEAKER_00]: So it's really helping me tap into my creative side.
• 1:34:51
  [SPEAKER_00]: I used to do screen printing around the same time that this show started.
• 1:34:56
  [SPEAKER_00]: I made a shirt that said I am sick of the coronavirus within the first week of the pandemic.
• 1:35:04
  [SPEAKER_00]: So yeah, that's how I started my screen printing journey and I'm really sight and excited to pick it up again.
• 1:35:12
  [SPEAKER_00]: I think you guys are all going to be really impressed with what I've been printing.
• 1:35:16
  [SPEAKER_00]: There are some designs again, like I'm not going to be able to make a lot of them because they're very complicated and intricate.
• 1:35:24
  [SPEAKER_00]: but they'll be special because of that, you know, if there's only five or six of some of these designs, they might be sought after one day.
• 1:35:31
  [SPEAKER_00]: So get your hands on one now, patreon.com slash MFTIC, where my family thinks I'm crazy.substack.com to get first dibs.
• 1:35:40
  [SPEAKER_00]: And with that, we'll catch you on the flip side, think of tuning in until the next episode.
• 1:35:45
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm real sure self in the moment, wherever you are in the now.
• 1:36:00
  [UNKNOWN]: Thank you.