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INTERVIEW: Monaleo and Stunna 4 Vegas On Breaking Generational Curses, Getting Married, Trauma, DaBaby + More · The Breakfast Club

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  Speaker 1: Every day Up the Breakfast Club, y'all done.
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  Speaker 2: It's the World More Dangerous Morning Show, The Breakfast Club,
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  Speaker 2: Charlamade and the God just Hilarious. DJ Envy Envy had
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  Speaker 2: to step out, but ll Cool Bay Lauren Lorosa is
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  Speaker 2: here and we got some special guests. Man, Big Stunning
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  Speaker 2: for Vegas, Big Monola. What's happening?
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  Speaker 1: How y'all feeling? But I love your music.
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  Speaker 2: By the way, I can't pronounce the title of it either.
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  Speaker 2: I call it you Ain't Black, but I did study
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  Speaker 2: what it was though. Solarian is a I say, I'm
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  Speaker 2: saying solon.
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  Speaker 3: So it's a new way to describe Black America, Black
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  Speaker 3: America exactly. So it's like an interpretation of like black culture,
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  Speaker 3: black history, and it relates to like descending slaves specifically.
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  Speaker 1: I love.
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  Speaker 3: So that's what the.
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  Speaker 4: Term I want to take. Congratulations on the wedding, the
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  Speaker 4: tie in, the not the baby, the family, everything. Congratulations King,
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  Speaker 4: I appreciate that. Yeah, and congratulations you too, beautiful all
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  Speaker 4: pink wedding. Ye, you agreed to it? Huh yeah, you
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  Speaker 4: said man, happy white, happy life.
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  Speaker 3: You didn't suggest agreed to it?
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  Speaker 4: Okay, So that's obviously a favorite color. It's always extent
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  Speaker 4: sent and all your videos, I've seen everything.
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  Speaker 3: The only color that I wear.
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  Speaker 5: Okay, how did you get him.
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  Speaker 3: To tell him? I was like, we can compromise if
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  Speaker 3: you want.
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  Speaker 6: To do what you have to do all that you
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  Speaker 6: feel me. I was with it right right, you have
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  Speaker 6: to do all that you.
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  Speaker 5: Just love but you you love us so much like
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  Speaker 5: I just give her.
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  Speaker 6: But I love that.
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  Speaker 1: What made you finally want to want to settle down? Sir?
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  Speaker 6: We're being settled down there just like we put it
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  Speaker 6: on the internet just last month, being together like four
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  Speaker 6: years for sure. My first year of meeting her though,
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  Speaker 6: it was like kind of just taking a break, falling
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  Speaker 6: back from like the or whatever anything I was going through.
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  Speaker 6: She probably not, Probably she like helped me get through
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  Speaker 6: whatever everything like a homeboy would, yeah experience that from
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  Speaker 6: no female.
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  Speaker 2: You knew she was the one immediately, Like yeah, like
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  Speaker 2: you like God told you, like, man, lock this one down.
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  Speaker 5: And that black woman behind you, I know that's.
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  Speaker 1: How did you know he was the one?
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  Speaker 6: Yeah? He was just already.
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  Speaker 3: That didn't That didn't mean that I knew he was
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  Speaker 3: the one when I'm I just felt like he was
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  Speaker 3: very he was just as intentional as I was, and
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  Speaker 3: I really appreciated that, and he took good care of
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  Speaker 3: me the same way I wanted to take care of him.
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  Speaker 3: So I feel like we were on the same page
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  Speaker 3: at the same time.
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  Speaker 5: I love that.
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  Speaker 3: What was the beauty of keeping everything off the end?
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  Speaker 5: Like what did it was.
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  Speaker 6: On the internet. It's just like they chose to bite
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  Speaker 6: down when they did. We've been popping out though, Yeah,
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  Speaker 6: we've been.
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  Speaker 3: But it's because just protecting our something that's personal to us.
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  Speaker 3: It's something that we care about and we love. So
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  Speaker 3: it was like protecting our relationship was super important. But
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  Speaker 3: we both have supporters that have been with us on
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  Speaker 3: our journeys, so it was important to include them in
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  Speaker 3: these pivotal moments in our life, like the wedding. I
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  Speaker 3: feel like that was a no brainer. Like so many
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  Speaker 3: people support us and love us and have been rooting
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  Speaker 3: for our union, so it was important for us to
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  Speaker 3: invite them virtually to the wedding.
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  Speaker 7: You had us crying, girl when you posted the moment
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  Speaker 7: with your dad. I was like, I literally was like,
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  Speaker 7: oh my God. And you talked about him going through
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  Speaker 7: his cancer battle and getting to see you married, and
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  Speaker 7: like wow, like that was really emotional for me. So
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  Speaker 7: just speak to like kind of you know you because
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  Speaker 7: my mom is a stage four cancer survivor and one
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  Speaker 7: of the things that she's always asked me, it's.
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  Speaker 3: All, why did you ask me that question?
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  Speaker 5: Okay?
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  Speaker 7: Hard thing is now is like she's like, I've been
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  Speaker 7: sick before. I want to see you be able to
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  Speaker 7: do things. I don't know if I'll be able to
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  Speaker 7: be here tomorrow. So when you posted that, I was like, dang,
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  Speaker 7: like time is of the essence, Like it made me
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  Speaker 7: start thinking like, wow, I want my mom to be
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  Speaker 7: able to see me get married and have kids. And
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  Speaker 7: you know, like it's I don't think people understand the
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  Speaker 7: cancer battle, how scared it gets.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, that's true.
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  Speaker 2: Your mom will see you be successful before she sees
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  Speaker 2: you get.
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  Speaker 7: When I when I when I saw your posts and
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  Speaker 7: I read the caption, it just really made me think
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  Speaker 7: because you know, when you know, parents are always trying.
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  Speaker 3: To be like superheroes always.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, so even through my mom's cancer battle, she was like,
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  Speaker 7: it's going to be fine. Just make sure you get
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  Speaker 7: some grand babies here because I want to see my grandbabies.
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  Speaker 7: When I read that, I'm like, oh, like this is serious,
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  Speaker 7: like I gotta figure this out, so serious. It was
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  Speaker 7: such an important moment for me to share with my dad,
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  Speaker 7: and so I'm so glad you brought that up at
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  Speaker 7: the top of the interview because I can't wait for
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  Speaker 7: him to hear this. But even during his cancer battle,
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  Speaker 7: he was very secretive.
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  Speaker 3: He was private. He didn't tell anybody for six months. Obviously,
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  Speaker 3: I feel like me being kind of tapped in spiritually,
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  Speaker 3: I felt like something was going on with him, but
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  Speaker 3: he never had explicitly told me that he was battling cancer.
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  Speaker 3: I just saw him deteriorating in a sense, like he
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  Speaker 3: was getting smaller and it's his hair was going and
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  Speaker 3: I was just like, Dad, what's going on with you? Like,
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  Speaker 3: and he was distancing himself from me, wouldn't even him
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  Speaker 3: no more. My son when't and my son loves my dad,
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  Speaker 3: but he was he didn't. Every time my dad picked
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  Speaker 3: him up, he would be crying, and I was just like, Dad,
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  Speaker 3: something's going on. And I just kind of pressured him
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  Speaker 3: a little bit and I was like, tell me what's
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  Speaker 3: wrong or else. And he showed me his scans and
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  Speaker 3: I could see he had it real zoomed in so
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  Speaker 3: that I couldn't see that it said hoskins and foma.
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  Speaker 3: But when I took his phone and I literally took
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  Speaker 3: off running down the street, and I assumed and I
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  Speaker 3: started to say hoskins and foam, and I'll just bust
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  Speaker 3: out crying because it was such Anymore, I've never seen
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  Speaker 3: my dad cough, sneeze me, either, have a cold, none
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  Speaker 3: of the things. So to know that he was that
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  Speaker 3: he was battling cancer without my full support really touched me.
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  Speaker 3: And it really really really hurt me. But thankfully he's
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  Speaker 3: beat cancer.
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  Speaker 1: God.
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  Speaker 3: Afterwards, he I guess the chemotherapy had done a number
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  Speaker 3: on his heart, so he was he had heart failure
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  Speaker 3: and he had to have a triple bypass surgery. That
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  Speaker 3: he also wasn't clear about either. One thing about my dad,
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  Speaker 3: he is truly superman like. He doesn't want to He
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  Speaker 3: doesn't want people worried about him, even if it's something
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  Speaker 3: that I should be concerned about. He doesn't want us
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  Speaker 3: to be worried about him. So when I found out
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  Speaker 3: what he was battling, I was so emotional and I
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  Speaker 3: was so all over the place. So and I kind
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  Speaker 3: of put, if I'm being candidate, put it made me
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  Speaker 3: want to expedite this the process for everything, because I realized, like,
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  Speaker 3: I don't know what I was waiting on. I think
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  Speaker 3: it was I was feeling the pressures from society, and
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  Speaker 3: I'm like, maybe I'm too young to be doing this,
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  Speaker 3: and you know, you think about all these things in
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  Speaker 3: your mind, and then that kind of really snapped me
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  Speaker 3: back to reality and it made me live for myself
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  Speaker 3: and for my family, for my village, for my community.
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  Speaker 3: So it kind of made me want to expedite the
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  Speaker 3: wedding process. And we did it.
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  Speaker 1: And to my dad, walking on the as be there, Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, walk me down the aisle was a dream.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, why do you Why do y'all think the adults, Oh,
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  Speaker 2: the adults feel like keeping that from the kids is
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  Speaker 2: the right thing to do.
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  Speaker 1: Like why fight a battle like that alone?
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  Speaker 5: What's scary?
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  Speaker 3: It's like a nightmare. Yeah. I don't think he knew.
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  Speaker 3: I think he wanted to keep hope. But he was
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  Speaker 3: diagnosed as stay straight, stay straight for it, so he
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  Speaker 3: I think he he was optimistic, but I truly think
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  Speaker 3: he didn't know. And I think he wanted me to,
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  Speaker 3: you know, focus on my tour and my career. He
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  Speaker 3: didn't want me to leave and abandon what I was
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  Speaker 3: doing because he knew I would have done that. Nothing
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  Speaker 3: more important than me than my family.
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  Speaker 7: You have a song on your mixtape, Diary of an
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  Speaker 7: og and when even that song too, I was thinking
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  Speaker 7: about this. You're the oldest, the oldest girl, yes, and
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  Speaker 7: you talk about the responsibility of being the oldest girl
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  Speaker 7: in your family and not being able to think about yourself,
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  Speaker 7: and that made me think about your relationship with your
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  Speaker 7: dad and everything you went through as well while having
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  Speaker 7: a career. Because another thing too, I think why like
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  Speaker 7: the older people hide it is because they know drop
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  Speaker 7: of a dime, you're not on tour no more, You're
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  Speaker 7: not dropping songs, not doing nothing.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm not complying with anything career related. I would
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  Speaker 3: have dropped everything to be at his side every single day,
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  Speaker 3: every chemotherapy appointment. I would have been cooking his meals
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  Speaker 3: every day. So to a degree, I'm grateful that he
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  Speaker 3: was selfless in those moments and allowed me to continue
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  Speaker 3: following what it is that I'm passionate about because he
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  Speaker 3: knows I wouldn't have I wouldn't have pursued it. I
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  Speaker 3: wouldn't even be here. I would have taken a complete
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  Speaker 3: I wouldn't have recorded any music videos, photo shoot, nothing
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  Speaker 3: would have mattered to me other than making sure that
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  Speaker 3: he was okay. So I think now that time has passed,
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  Speaker 3: I feel like maybe he did make the right decision
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  Speaker 3: and this shit. I was upset because I was like, Dad,
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  Speaker 3: I want to be there for you. This is a
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  Speaker 3: really scary time in your life. And he didn't tell anybody,
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  Speaker 3: not my siblings, not his mom. He didn't tell anybody
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  Speaker 3: other than his wife, so it was just them too,
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  Speaker 3: and she had just lost her mom, so it was
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  Speaker 3: really difficult for them to manage at the time. So
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  Speaker 3: I'm so and I'm glad Charlamagne that you talk about
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  Speaker 3: therapy as much as you do, because he's in therapy
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  Speaker 3: now and we're getting back to a place of trusting
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  Speaker 3: each other and loving each other and supporting each other.
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  Speaker 3: And I feel like the wedding was just a way
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  Speaker 3: to extend olive branches to everybody in our village, in
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  Speaker 3: our community. So I'm glad that he was there.
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  Speaker 2: It's incredible how God works, because you know that once situation,
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  Speaker 2: which could be deemed as negative, let to all of
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  Speaker 2: this positive. You know, it said it means you put
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  Speaker 2: your gas press the gas on your career and made
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  Speaker 2: y'all get married.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm gonna tell you something.
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  Speaker 2: When I look at y'all, man, forget to look when
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  Speaker 2: I'm sitting next to y'all, I can feel it.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, family like y'all.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, y'all are a unit. Like it's something like y'all
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  Speaker 2: are supposed to be together. Like even looking at Stunt,
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, I think a Proverbs eighteen twenty two man,
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  Speaker 2: when a man find a good wife, man, you know
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  Speaker 2: he gained a different favor from the lord. Like I
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  Speaker 2: even see something different in your spirit.
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  Speaker 6: Oh yeah, I do too. Already know though, because I'm like,
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  Speaker 6: I'm like deeply involved to like how she is spiritually,
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  Speaker 6: So I already know.
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  Speaker 5: And when we saw you get emotional, right, what were
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  Speaker 5: your thoughts?
• 10:38
  Speaker 6: I was like, yeah, I was like looking at gangsters
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  Speaker 6: in the crowd crying you feel me. I was looking
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  Speaker 6: at my mama, my dad that I just met, feel me,
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  Speaker 6: her grandma because even her family and me alone, like
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  Speaker 6: after the wedding, it's like both of our family's family now,
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  Speaker 6: but like before it was, I was already like this
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  Speaker 6: with her dad, Grandma, Grandpa, great grandpa all of so
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  Speaker 6: I was just like getting ready for her to walk out.
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  Speaker 6: You feel me, And that's what it was like, because
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  Speaker 6: I was crying before she walked out, but when she did,
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  Speaker 6: I was just like, damn, it's like I've been through
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  Speaker 6: a lot of stuff. You feel me, And I don't
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  Speaker 6: like get on the internet to public make it public.
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  Speaker 6: I don't. I don't. I don't really do nothing but
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  Speaker 6: deal with it. You feel me on my own too,
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  Speaker 6: So it was just like all that was just like, man,
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  Speaker 6: all that ship out the window, now, like this is
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  Speaker 6: what I'm walking into. When she was walking down, it
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  Speaker 6: was just like I'll let everything go that she wants
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  Speaker 6: me to let go, stuff that I'll be mad about
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  Speaker 6: one month and be fine with it the next. Like
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  Speaker 6: I just let it go because it's all that mattered.
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  Speaker 1: You said your father had just met Yeah, my.
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  Speaker 6: Dad on Father's Day was no cap, no cap. I
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  Speaker 6: met him on Father's Day. My wife got me to
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  Speaker 6: do a DNA ancestory kid. We was doing that. As
• 12:04
  Speaker 6: we're getting ready for the wedding, I'm like, boom, I
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  Speaker 6: probably ain't talked to my grandma, my mom mom in
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  Speaker 6: like ten years. Ain't hugged or nothing. Uh, family too,
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  Speaker 6: like uncles and aunts, but it always being me and
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  Speaker 6: my mom. Like my siblings had their dad, so they'll
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  Speaker 6: go live with them. If we anything, gotta go to
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  Speaker 6: a shelter whatever, if it me is me and my mama.
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  Speaker 6: So I'm like telling my wife, like, damn, I want
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  Speaker 6: my family to be at the wedding. I want my
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  Speaker 6: mama to be there with her mama, my aunt, my uncle.
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  Speaker 6: Like that's how I grew up around family. Whatever I'm
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  Speaker 6: doing it, we're doing the ancestry Kid. Probably a month
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  Speaker 6: before we go sit down with my family, I'm like,
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  Speaker 6: I'm about to sit my mom and my grandparents down,
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  Speaker 6: my uncles and aunts. All that long story short, that
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  Speaker 6: was like not meant to happen. And that same day
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  Speaker 6: I was just like, damn, it ain't gonna never be
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  Speaker 6: like what it's supposed to be with my family again.
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  Speaker 6: It was like five o'clock in the morning. We was
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  Speaker 6: in North Carolina because that's what we was meeting up
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  Speaker 6: with everybody. My wife woke me up like, man, babe,
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  Speaker 6: I'm finding your cousins right now. Like on my dad's side.
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  Speaker 6: The ancestry Kid had hit like that that day the
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  Speaker 6: results came back to day that I tried to sit
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  Speaker 6: my mama down with her mom, brother and sister and
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  Speaker 6: it went left. Then we found a few cousins. They
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  Speaker 6: was telling me, you look like this guy. You look
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  Speaker 6: like this guy. We went on a month trying to
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  Speaker 6: find my dad, and then on follow the day we
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  Speaker 6: got a.
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  Speaker 3: Hired the genealogist to interpret the to interpret the ancestry
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  Speaker 3: in the results, and it took her about six weeks
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  Speaker 3: to give us the full report. And then when she
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  Speaker 3: sent the full report back, she said that, you know,
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  Speaker 3: his dad could be one of these three people and
• 13:51
  Speaker 3: there were three brothers, and so we kind of went
• 13:54
  Speaker 3: down the line and I called she had numbers listed
• 13:56
  Speaker 3: in emails. I reached out to everybody. Person that I
• 14:00
  Speaker 3: was able to contact was his grandmother. And initially they
• 14:03
  Speaker 3: thought it was like a scam. They were like, you know,
• 14:05
  Speaker 3: why are you calling us? And I was like, listen,
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  Speaker 3: we don't want any we don't want child support, we
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  Speaker 3: want anything. We are well off people. We just want
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  Speaker 3: to mend the relationship between him and who we believe
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  Speaker 3: is his dad. And so we kind of went through
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  Speaker 3: the three different options. His two uncles and his dad,
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  Speaker 3: and we called it. We called it, we called the
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  Speaker 3: first option, and she the genealogist, had him listed as
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  Speaker 3: the first option because he was the closest in age
• 14:33
  Speaker 3: to his mom. So we initially thought that it was
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  Speaker 3: his uncle, so we FaceTime them. They didn't all the
• 14:38
  Speaker 3: way look alike, but they had some sort of similarity.
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  Speaker 3: So we were like, hey, you know, we're just trying
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  Speaker 3: to figure this out. And he was like, Hey, I
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  Speaker 3: don't think it's me, but it might be my brother
• 14:46
  Speaker 3: because I think he looks more like my brother. And
• 14:48
  Speaker 3: then we FaceTime, we know, FaceTime with him later on
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  Speaker 3: Father's Day, and when at his grandmother's house and him
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  Speaker 3: and his dad, they looked just alike and the synergy
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  Speaker 3: was their immediate and we flew out the next day.
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  Speaker 3: He's from these dads from Detroit. We flew out the
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  Speaker 3: next day. We met his dad, We met the rest
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  Speaker 3: of his family, and his dad was his siblings. He
• 15:09
  Speaker 3: found out he had two a brother and a sister
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  Speaker 3: that he didn't know about. So this has been almost
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  Speaker 3: thirty years that he didn't know his dad. So to
• 15:19
  Speaker 3: be able for them to be able to reconnect right
• 15:21
  Speaker 3: before the wedding was so it was a lot of
• 15:23
  Speaker 3: emotions going on. When people see the clip, they think
• 15:26
  Speaker 3: it's like, oh, he just up there tore up about
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  Speaker 3: his wife, And I think that to a degree, he
• 15:29
  Speaker 3: was emotional, but there were so many different things going on.
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  Speaker 3: There were so many different reasons for us to be
• 15:35
  Speaker 3: happy crying that day.
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  Speaker 1: So how whole that made you feel?
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  Speaker 6: Son, I don't know yet. I don't know yet. I
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  Speaker 6: don't know yet.
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  Speaker 5: That's honest. That's honest.
• 15:50
  Speaker 4: The conversations with you and your dad, are they like
• 15:54
  Speaker 4: what you dreamed of or did you want like you know,
• 15:56
  Speaker 4: were you nervousy with this whole process?
• 15:59
  Speaker 6: Nah? I don't think so.
• 16:01
  Speaker 3: I feel like I think there were a little bit
• 16:04
  Speaker 3: of nerves.
• 16:05
  Speaker 6: Yeah, But I'm just like a difficult person to deal with.
• 16:08
  Speaker 6: So I don't know. I mean, like, you know, like
• 16:12
  Speaker 6: I mean, like as far as nothing like against my
• 16:15
  Speaker 6: dad though, But I just don't I don't know. I
• 16:18
  Speaker 6: don't know how it made me feel. Sometimes he called
• 16:20
  Speaker 6: he gonna see this and be like sometimes the call
• 16:23
  Speaker 6: and I might not even know like what we should
• 16:26
  Speaker 6: talk about, so I might not ask and I call
• 16:30
  Speaker 6: her dad though immediately yeah, like whatever, as soon as
• 16:34
  Speaker 6: we leave out of here, I'm gonna call him probably
• 16:36
  Speaker 6: like or he gonna call me. We talked. It's like
• 16:38
  Speaker 6: we got the relationship that I was like looking for
• 16:42
  Speaker 6: for a long time because I was in there with
• 16:44
  Speaker 6: him when she when she was at work. I was
• 16:46
  Speaker 6: going to chemotherapy or I'll be whatever I need. He
• 16:49
  Speaker 6: gonna pick up, he gonna drop whatever I asked him
• 16:52
  Speaker 6: to drop for me right then and there. So he
• 16:54
  Speaker 6: kind of like build the void before my dad could
• 16:58
  Speaker 6: come in and like feel it. But it was just
• 17:01
  Speaker 6: good also to meet my dad and I see like
• 17:03
  Speaker 6: we look alike. He looked, my son look like him.
• 17:06
  Speaker 6: You feel me, We walk alike. I met my grandma,
• 17:09
  Speaker 6: I got a sister, my age, You feel me.
• 17:11
  Speaker 2: But you learn a lot about yourself though, because you
• 17:12
  Speaker 2: could be dealing with physical health issues, mental health issues,
• 17:16
  Speaker 2: and not even nowhere but your dad might have been
• 17:19
  Speaker 2: dealing with it. You learned a lot about yourself when
• 17:20
  Speaker 2: you connect those dots.
• 17:21
  Speaker 3: You think it was a nerve wreaking experience too, like
• 17:24
  Speaker 3: just for me trying to facilitate, I was really nervous
• 17:28
  Speaker 3: because I didn't know how his dad would receive him
• 17:32
  Speaker 3: and receive the situation as a whole. I was just
• 17:35
  Speaker 3: hoping that he wanted to connect as badly as Sonna
• 17:41
  Speaker 3: wanted to connect. That was my main goal, I guess
• 17:46
  Speaker 3: in my mind, because you never really know how people
• 17:47
  Speaker 3: will receive things. Some people will be like, oh no,
• 17:49
  Speaker 3: I'm not dealing with this, it's too much. But I
• 17:52
  Speaker 3: think it's been difficult for both of them to process it,
• 17:55
  Speaker 3: and his dad as well, like how do you really
• 17:58
  Speaker 3: process having a son and not knowing that you had
• 18:00
  Speaker 3: a son for almost thirty years and then he's an artist.
• 18:04
  Speaker 3: But he was telling us too. He was like, I've
• 18:07
  Speaker 3: seen him before, I know his music. He was able
• 18:09
  Speaker 3: to tell us some of the songs that he did
• 18:10
  Speaker 3: that he really liked. So it was just like I
• 18:14
  Speaker 3: could tell he was stunned. Yeah, he had no idea though,
• 18:18
  Speaker 3: because if you look him up he's from you will
• 18:21
  Speaker 3: see that he's from North Carolina. His dad had never
• 18:23
  Speaker 3: been to North Carolina. He had met his mom in
• 18:25
  Speaker 3: Atlanta and they were young. Things happened, they moved apart,
• 18:31
  Speaker 3: she was pregnant, she moved back home to North Carolina
• 18:34
  Speaker 3: to kind of go throughout her pregnancy. So it was
• 18:36
  Speaker 3: like there was never really he never really knew anything
• 18:42
  Speaker 3: about him so I imagine that that's a lot for
• 18:44
  Speaker 3: him to process as well, and his mom as well too,
• 18:47
  Speaker 3: because I know that she lives with some of those
• 18:49
  Speaker 3: feelings and like, you know, just being young and being
• 18:52
  Speaker 3: a human being and making mistakes, but not really a
• 18:54
  Speaker 3: mistake because I needed him, so it's not I don't
• 18:57
  Speaker 3: perceive it as a mistake. So it was like, it's
• 19:00
  Speaker 3: a lot for everybody to process in this experience. So
• 19:03
  Speaker 3: I'm just trying to be the glue in this situation
• 19:07
  Speaker 3: and keep us all close, keep us connected, and keep
• 19:10
  Speaker 3: us in this healing process.
• 19:13
  Speaker 2: Generational crust breaking moment, I'm just.
• 19:19
  Speaker 3: General some generational curse breakers. I love that, And that's where.
• 19:24
  Speaker 6: We live, that's what that's what we stand on.
• 19:28
  Speaker 3: That's what we swear by. Where does that come from?
• 19:30
  Speaker 7: Because in your music, yes, are you raised that way
• 19:36
  Speaker 7: that something like where does it come from?
• 19:37
  Speaker 3: For sure? I have a family full of matriarchs, full
• 19:40
  Speaker 3: of very strong matriarchs, my mother, both of my grandmothers,
• 19:44
  Speaker 3: my stepmother. I have a family full of women who
• 19:47
  Speaker 3: are the glue for their families. So I have a
• 19:49
  Speaker 3: really good example of like how to keep a family together.
• 19:54
  Speaker 3: And I think they've done a lot for our family,
• 19:58
  Speaker 3: but it's with me. I feel like my purpose is
• 20:01
  Speaker 3: to usher in change and bring about a certain type
• 20:08
  Speaker 3: of energy that it's real and that's raw, and that's unapologetic.
• 20:12
  Speaker 3: And if that means we often to put our mess
• 20:16
  Speaker 3: on the table, that's what we have to do so
• 20:19
  Speaker 3: that we can really get somewhere. Because I love my
• 20:22
  Speaker 3: son with everything in me, and I don't want him
• 20:25
  Speaker 3: to experience half of the things that I experience growing up.
• 20:28
  Speaker 3: I want him to have a pure, a pure life,
• 20:33
  Speaker 3: and so I want to if that means uncovering everybody's
• 20:35
  Speaker 3: secrets and just my son deserves to know his grandparents,
• 20:40
  Speaker 3: his grandfather, He deserves to have a relationship with everybody
• 20:44
  Speaker 3: that is healthy. So whatever I have to do to
• 20:48
  Speaker 3: bring in these healthy relationships, I'm willing to do.
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: All I want to do. All I want to do
• 20:52
  Speaker 1: is raise trauma free kids.
• 20:53
  Speaker 3: That's all I want to do.
• 20:55
  Speaker 2: Please God, is give me the power and the ability
• 20:57
  Speaker 2: to raise or trauma free young lady.
• 20:59
  Speaker 3: Please.
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: That's it.
• 21:01
  Speaker 3: That's odd because I can only imagine what that looks like.
• 21:04
  Speaker 3: I can't imagine what that will look like on my
• 21:06
  Speaker 3: son as an adult. I can't wait to see you know,
• 21:10
  Speaker 3: the fruits of my labor. I can't wait to see
• 21:13
  Speaker 3: how he grows up to be. And like, I don't
• 21:16
  Speaker 3: really know very many people in my life, just as
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: a young Black American, Southern Black American girl, I don't
• 21:21
  Speaker 3: know many people in my life who haven't experienced some
• 21:24
  Speaker 3: sort of trauma. So I'm excited to see what that
• 21:27
  Speaker 3: looks like on him. And I just want him to
• 21:29
  Speaker 3: be everything that he wants to be, an astronaut or
• 21:32
  Speaker 3: school bus drop, whatever you want to be. I just
• 21:34
  Speaker 3: want to be here to facilitate that in the healthiest way.
• 21:37
  Speaker 6: Yeah.
• 21:38
  Speaker 5: Now, are you in therapy? It stunning?
• 21:40
  Speaker 2: No, but.
• 21:43
  Speaker 6: Mm hmm. I'll be talking to her so I'll be like,
• 21:45
  Speaker 6: I don't really need that type of stuff because like
• 21:48
  Speaker 6: she can get me to a point where I'm not
• 21:51
  Speaker 6: mentally like out of it. Yeah, so I'll be like
• 21:54
  Speaker 6: kind of like, maybe I don't need it like that.
• 21:57
  Speaker 3: We've tried. We tried therapy, though we have. We did
• 21:59
  Speaker 3: pre counseling before we got married, and then you did
• 22:03
  Speaker 3: your own individual therapy before we did premieral counseling. You did. Yeah,
• 22:09
  Speaker 3: a start, It's a start. It takes a minute to
• 22:12
  Speaker 3: get people. I grew up hospitalized in different mental health institutions,
• 22:19
  Speaker 3: and I grew up in therapy. I really struggled with
• 22:21
  Speaker 3: my mental health growing up, so that was kind of
• 22:23
  Speaker 3: It's not that it was normalized. But my grandmother, she
• 22:27
  Speaker 3: works at a mental health hospital, so she was always diagnosing,
• 22:31
  Speaker 3: and you know, I grew up taking medication, like I
• 22:33
  Speaker 3: really grew up trying to fix whatever was wrong with me.
• 22:38
  Speaker 3: So that's something that was normal for me. But when
• 22:41
  Speaker 3: we got in our relationship, it wasn't really a thing
• 22:43
  Speaker 3: that was talked about with him. So I try to
• 22:45
  Speaker 3: encourage him to do therapy, and I think he's coming
• 22:50
  Speaker 3: around to it, for sure. It's not that he's anti therapy.
• 22:52
  Speaker 3: I think he's coming around to it for sure. But
• 22:54
  Speaker 3: I think his main priority is just surviving.
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: So and you got to find the right therapist.
• 23:02
  Speaker 6: I feel like that.
• 23:04
  Speaker 3: Too. But I think we've we've really reached a point
• 23:07
  Speaker 3: of like bliss and happiness currently, like we're really in
• 23:12
  Speaker 3: a really happy space. But I know therapy is preventative,
• 23:16
  Speaker 3: so it's not necessarily reactive like some I don't think
• 23:20
  Speaker 3: feel like something has to happen and then you go
• 23:21
  Speaker 3: to therapy. I think you should be in therapy period,
• 23:24
  Speaker 3: just to process what it is that you've experienced in
• 23:27
  Speaker 3: your life. But we're slowly but surely we're coming around
• 23:30
  Speaker 3: to it. But I'm really proud of him for the man,
• 23:32
  Speaker 3: and he's become his sobriety journey. Like there's so many
• 23:37
  Speaker 3: things that people don't.
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: Come ahead and bring me the big bottle and head
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: to see them.
• 23:40
  Speaker 3: No, no, no, not liquor, sir.
• 23:48
  Speaker 6: I used to do that every day before I ate,
• 23:50
  Speaker 6: like real talk and not saying I don't know, like
• 23:54
  Speaker 6: making it cool. Yeah, because even when I was doing that,
• 23:57
  Speaker 6: I don't think I was making it cool. I think
• 23:58
  Speaker 6: I was like doing therapy. Yeah, And when I met her,
• 24:02
  Speaker 6: I kind of found out that, like, damn, that's all
• 24:04
  Speaker 6: that was because of Medicaid. I started going to the gym,
• 24:07
  Speaker 6: I want to pick up a pert or bottle or
• 24:10
  Speaker 6: nothing like. Even now I don't like to drink unless
• 24:13
  Speaker 6: I'm with her.
• 24:16
  Speaker 7: That sounds crazy, that's so bad, No, but he's yeah, yeah.
• 24:22
  Speaker 6: Yeah, I do.
• 24:23
  Speaker 2: What did stunt to do that made you feel so
• 24:26
  Speaker 2: safe and protected?
• 24:28
  Speaker 3: I think he showed this level of care that I
• 24:32
  Speaker 3: hadn't experienced yet. Yeah, that Southern hospitality that I hadn't
• 24:38
  Speaker 3: experienced yet. Like I said, I grew, I grew. I
• 24:40
  Speaker 3: went through a lot growing up. I was abused. Please
• 24:44
  Speaker 3: put a trigger winning on this too, because I don't
• 24:46
  Speaker 3: I'm not here to trauma dump. But I'm just being
• 24:49
  Speaker 3: candid because I prayed for this opportunity to get on
• 24:52
  Speaker 3: Breakfast Club. I actually wrote it in my journal five
• 24:54
  Speaker 3: years ago. I wrote this in my journal, I will
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: be on Breakfast Club before I was even putting music out.
• 24:58
  Speaker 3: So I'm just making sure that I do my due
• 25:02
  Speaker 3: diligence to my younger self because I told myself I
• 25:05
  Speaker 3: was going to be here, and I'm here, and I
• 25:06
  Speaker 3: want us to see us this opportunity to be candid
• 25:09
  Speaker 3: and clear and concise. I went through a lot growing up,
• 25:13
  Speaker 3: so and I feel like there was a lot of neglect.
• 25:17
  Speaker 3: And that's not to shame anyone or shame my parents,
• 25:21
  Speaker 3: but they were young and they were learning, and my
• 25:24
  Speaker 3: experience is my experience, and what happened to me happened
• 25:28
  Speaker 3: to me, and I can't erase that. So I want
• 25:31
  Speaker 3: to be clear about that too, because sometimes I feel
• 25:33
  Speaker 3: like when you talk about certain things, especially in the
• 25:36
  Speaker 3: black community, it's like what happens in the house stays
• 25:39
  Speaker 3: in the house, and I want to free myself from
• 25:42
  Speaker 3: those experiences as I grow into this woman that I'm becoming.
• 25:46
  Speaker 3: I experienced some things, some abuse, things happened to me
• 25:49
  Speaker 3: that should have never happened to me. So when I
• 25:51
  Speaker 3: met him and I didn't feel taken advantage of. I
• 25:56
  Speaker 3: felt celebrated, I felt appreciated, and I felt valued. Yeah,
• 26:02
  Speaker 3: so that made me feel like this is where I belong,
• 26:07
  Speaker 3: this is where I should be in his family, they
• 26:10
  Speaker 3: were receptive. We went through our things, but we they
• 26:14
  Speaker 3: reminded me a lot of my family. So we have
• 26:17
  Speaker 3: so many similarities that we shared and I was just like,
• 26:19
  Speaker 3: this feels like home for me.
• 26:23
  Speaker 2: Since we having this conversation, Is it true that you
• 26:27
  Speaker 2: attempted suicide in the fourth grade?
• 26:30
  Speaker 6: Hm?
• 26:33
  Speaker 5: Hm, there's a baby, you're a baby.
• 26:40
  Speaker 6: Yeah, there's more. She donet been through. I go down
• 26:45
  Speaker 6: the list myself.
• 26:46
  Speaker 5: She doesn't.
• 26:49
  Speaker 6: Through a lot. That was another thing that when I
• 26:52
  Speaker 6: got around, she wasn't like trauma dumping on me, but
• 26:56
  Speaker 6: it was like, she'll be telling me stuff and I'd
• 26:59
  Speaker 6: be like, man, I was just with you as four
• 27:02
  Speaker 6: five niggas over there. Yeah, Like in North Carolina. We
• 27:06
  Speaker 6: could see a bum getting be a woman and we're
• 27:09
  Speaker 6: gonna go do something to the man or taken advantage
• 27:11
  Speaker 6: of I'm not. I'm not. I'm saying like that's what
• 27:15
  Speaker 6: made me be like man, not not even that. I
• 27:19
  Speaker 6: just wanted to protect myself. I just wanted to show,
• 27:21
  Speaker 6: like I saw the God, that shit won't happen again,
• 27:23
  Speaker 6: Like you don't have to do that, you won't have
• 27:25
  Speaker 6: to do this, wi't nobody come looking for you, want
• 27:27
  Speaker 6: nobody put in none of that, it will ever happen again.
• 27:29
  Speaker 3: Yeah, he was very protective, but yeah that I was.
• 27:34
  Speaker 3: I don't know, well, I guess I was. I was
• 27:37
  Speaker 3: experiencing a lot as a kid that I really couldn't process,
• 27:42
  Speaker 3: and I knew it didn't feel good. I didn't know
• 27:45
  Speaker 3: exactly what was happening, but I knew it was like
• 27:47
  Speaker 3: this feels wrong to me. And I really struggled with
• 27:53
  Speaker 3: my self worth, my self confidence, and I was just
• 27:56
  Speaker 3: like why am I here? And I was feeling like
• 27:58
  Speaker 3: that very young, very young fourth grade I I, that's true,
• 28:03
  Speaker 3: that's my that was my earliest Well, third grade is
• 28:07
  Speaker 3: when those feelings started, and then fourth grade is when
• 28:09
  Speaker 3: I like started like, Okay, let me figure out what
• 28:13
  Speaker 3: I can do to not be here anymore. So it
• 28:16
  Speaker 3: started in fourth grade and then it progressed through middle
• 28:19
  Speaker 3: school through high school. But I'm so grateful that I
• 28:24
  Speaker 3: don't feel that way anymore. Tru I think residually those
• 28:31
  Speaker 3: feelings that kind of come up, cause it was so
• 28:33
  Speaker 3: much of my life I was. I just kind of
• 28:36
  Speaker 3: got accustomed to feeling to you know, I had indoctrinated
• 28:40
  Speaker 3: all of these negative feelings and thoughts about myself. So
• 28:43
  Speaker 3: it got to a point where I was like, this
• 28:44
  Speaker 3: is my being, this is my core being. I don't
• 28:46
  Speaker 3: like who I am. Y, this is to the core.
• 28:49
  Speaker 3: I hate who I am and what people have done
• 28:53
  Speaker 3: to me. And I felt like I deserved it at
• 28:58
  Speaker 3: a point in time, but I know that's not true now.
• 29:01
  Speaker 2: Trauma is never your fault, but never your healing is
• 29:04
  Speaker 2: your responsibility.
• 29:04
  Speaker 3: So healing is my responsibility.
• 29:06
  Speaker 2: When was that pivot? When did you realize like I
• 29:08
  Speaker 2: got it, I got to heal.
• 29:10
  Speaker 3: I think I got to a point where I was like,
• 29:12
  Speaker 3: I'm tired of feeling this way about myself, Like there
• 29:16
  Speaker 3: has to be more to life for me than just
• 29:19
  Speaker 3: waking up every day and hating my existence. There has
• 29:22
  Speaker 3: to be more to life. And I started journaling because
• 29:27
  Speaker 3: I had already gone through therapy, and in my mind,
• 29:29
  Speaker 3: I told myself, therapy doesn't work, this medication doesn't work.
• 29:34
  Speaker 3: A lot of it was what do you call it,
• 29:38
  Speaker 3: like hardwired? So my grandmother struggle with her own battles,
• 29:44
  Speaker 3: my mother struggle, my siblings struggle. It's kind of like
• 29:48
  Speaker 3: I don't want to say it's hereditary, but maybe it is.
• 29:53
  Speaker 3: Maybe it's hereditary. So it was like it got to
• 29:56
  Speaker 3: a point where I was like, I can't do this anymore,
• 29:58
  Speaker 3: Like I want to. I see everybody in in their life.
• 30:00
  Speaker 3: I'm ready to enjoy my life. I'm ready to experience
• 30:03
  Speaker 3: it and a lens that isn't coming from this trauma,
• 30:08
  Speaker 3: Like I want to see what life really has for me.
• 30:11
  Speaker 3: And I started journaling. I started making music in that
• 30:14
  Speaker 3: process and really venting my frustrations and just kind of
• 30:20
  Speaker 3: journaling via this rap bea rap, And it started off
• 30:26
  Speaker 3: as rap. I never thought I was gonna be a rapper,
• 30:27
  Speaker 3: but it started off with rap because I was in
• 30:29
  Speaker 3: that angry phase of my healing. I was just mad
• 30:33
  Speaker 3: at the world, mad at everybody for letting me down,
• 30:35
  Speaker 3: mad at my parents, mad at people who did things
• 30:38
  Speaker 3: to me, just mad at everybody. It was everybody's fault.
• 30:41
  Speaker 3: So RAP was like my first real outlet because I
• 30:46
  Speaker 3: was able to vent these frustrations in a very aggressive way.
• 30:50
  Speaker 3: And it still helps me though to this day. Like
• 30:51
  Speaker 3: I still will make a real aggressive record, but I
• 30:56
  Speaker 3: feel like it's helping me come to a calmer place
• 30:59
  Speaker 3: in the weird it's way. It's like this weird juxtaposition.
• 31:01
  Speaker 3: I'll make the most aggressive song and I'm like, all right,
• 31:03
  Speaker 3: I'm good, I'm chilling for the rest. I could chill now.
• 31:06
  Speaker 5: Yeah yeah.
• 31:07
  Speaker 6: Now.
• 31:08
  Speaker 4: You said your grandmother she worked in a mental institution.
• 31:11
  Speaker 4: Yeah so, And you said she even had her own
• 31:14
  Speaker 4: as well. Do you think there was some correlation between
• 31:17
  Speaker 4: where she was working or do you think.
• 31:19
  Speaker 5: That was I think she grew up too.
• 31:22
  Speaker 3: I think it's just generational, generational curses. Her mother had
• 31:26
  Speaker 3: her at fourteen, my great grandmother, And she said, my
• 31:29
  Speaker 3: great grandmother is still alive to this day. Thank god,
• 31:31
  Speaker 3: she was here. She was here during the wedding. She
• 31:34
  Speaker 3: had her at fourteen, so God knows what she experienced.
• 31:37
  Speaker 5: Gotcha, and you have had these conversations with her.
• 31:40
  Speaker 3: I've had these conversations with everybody. I'm one of them.
• 31:42
  Speaker 3: People were gonna talk. Yeah, I'm gonna talk with my
• 31:44
  Speaker 3: whole family because I want to get down to the
• 31:46
  Speaker 3: bottom of why do we act this way? What's happening? Like,
• 31:49
  Speaker 3: what has made us behave this way? And then she
• 31:53
  Speaker 3: did her part, but she kind of I feel like
• 31:55
  Speaker 3: she kind of ran to a degree, like she left,
• 31:58
  Speaker 3: she left her hometown, She went to college, and she
• 32:01
  Speaker 3: really put a lot of effort into her studies and
• 32:04
  Speaker 3: she works. She's a workaholic. To this day. She refuses
• 32:07
  Speaker 3: to retire and she's had two strokes. She refuses to
• 32:10
  Speaker 3: retire because she just I notices her way of coping
• 32:15
  Speaker 3: with everything that it is that she deals with the
• 32:17
  Speaker 3: pressures in the stresses of being a matriarch. And then
• 32:21
  Speaker 3: I feel like that trickled down to my mom. And
• 32:24
  Speaker 3: my mom struggled with her own battles growing up and
• 32:28
  Speaker 3: even as an adult. And I feel like as an adult,
• 32:30
  Speaker 3: her having me caught the I caught the the I
• 32:38
  Speaker 3: caught a little bit of what she was struggling with,
• 32:42
  Speaker 3: you know. And that's not too that's to humanize her,
• 32:45
  Speaker 3: if anything, because I feel like we especially young Black girls,
• 32:48
  Speaker 3: oldest girls, oldest Black girls there human they were, they
• 32:52
  Speaker 3: would hear me and they would understand where I'm coming
• 32:54
  Speaker 3: from as an older as an older sister, you are
• 33:00
  Speaker 3: kind of you're adultified and you don't really get to
• 33:07
  Speaker 3: experience your childhood the way that you're supposed to. And
• 33:11
  Speaker 3: I always feel like that And it was because of,
• 33:15
  Speaker 3: like I said, my mom was struggling with her own things.
• 33:19
  Speaker 3: And I hope when she hears this, she knows that
• 33:23
  Speaker 3: it's not too pass judgment on her. I love my mother,
• 33:28
  Speaker 3: that's like she's my baby. I love her, and it's
• 33:32
  Speaker 3: not to be judgmental towards her, but it's just to
• 33:35
  Speaker 3: open up the space to have these conversations that are
• 33:39
  Speaker 3: so uncomfortable to have. But I want her to know
• 33:42
  Speaker 3: that I'm proud of her for doing what she could
• 33:48
  Speaker 3: with us. And I think things happen in the process
• 33:50
  Speaker 3: and all we can do is move forward and heal
• 33:57
  Speaker 3: and learn to love each other through through raw struggles,
• 34:01
  Speaker 3: through our mishaps. So I think it's been passed down
• 34:06
  Speaker 3: from generation the generation, but it definitely stops with me.
• 34:10
  Speaker 6: Trauma.
• 34:11
  Speaker 2: Trauma runs in your family till it runs into you
• 34:13
  Speaker 2: running me, and I believe that our parents they would
• 34:16
  Speaker 2: have they were just trying to survive.
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: I feel like.
• 34:19
  Speaker 2: We're the general We're the first generation that has the
• 34:21
  Speaker 2: luxury of healing. Like you know, they didn't have the
• 34:24
  Speaker 2: resources and that that that that that we got. We
• 34:29
  Speaker 2: weren't talking about anxiety and depression.
• 34:32
  Speaker 3: Then, and these resources are readily available to us, and
• 34:36
  Speaker 3: they're promoted almost. I feel like I've seen a rise
• 34:39
  Speaker 3: in people promoting taking care of your mental health and
• 34:42
  Speaker 3: I love that. And I also have my own organization,
• 34:45
  Speaker 3: Stay One More Day, where I promote people healing and
• 34:48
  Speaker 3: focusing on staying another day. Until you get to a
• 34:51
  Speaker 3: point where you're happy to be here.
• 34:53
  Speaker 4: Well, you're definitely supposed to be here. I think it
• 34:57
  Speaker 4: was God's plan for you not to take your life
• 34:59
  Speaker 4: and the grade at eight years old. You are a baby,
• 35:02
  Speaker 4: you know, So I'm glad that you are here. And
• 35:04
  Speaker 4: then you're breaking generational curses. So when you got pregnant,
• 35:10
  Speaker 4: what was that like? Because now you're a mother, you know,
• 35:13
  Speaker 4: and you replayed things in your mind like, oh my god,
• 35:17
  Speaker 4: I grew up this way.
• 35:18
  Speaker 5: I'm not going to allow my son or my daughter
• 35:20
  Speaker 5: because you didn't know what you were having at that time.
• 35:21
  Speaker 3: Don't didn't know to deal with but I kind of
• 35:23
  Speaker 3: knew to a degree because I had a dream. One
• 35:25
  Speaker 3: thing about me, I'm a dreamer. I feel like my
• 35:28
  Speaker 3: these spirits that come to me in these dreams. My friends.
• 35:31
  Speaker 3: I had a dream and my homegirl who passed away,
• 35:32
  Speaker 3: her them is saving. She told me in a dream
• 35:34
  Speaker 3: that I was pregnant and that I was having a
• 35:36
  Speaker 3: boy the month that I conceived my son. So I
• 35:39
  Speaker 3: feel like I kind of you.
• 35:41
  Speaker 6: Yeah, I told him that the regular dream like became
• 35:44
  Speaker 6: my dream last night and told me we were having
• 35:45
  Speaker 6: a boy.
• 35:46
  Speaker 5: Yeah, so y'all planned baby boy?
• 35:48
  Speaker 3: Well, yeah, we did because we had a candidly speaking,
• 35:52
  Speaker 3: we had a miscarriage first about nine months before then.
• 35:57
  Speaker 3: And that also, and I'll talk about this a lot too.
• 36:00
  Speaker 3: And also it's like I talk about a lot of shit.
• 36:02
  Speaker 3: I'm not trying to be the spokesperson for anything either.
• 36:05
  Speaker 3: I want to make that very clear. I'm telling you,
• 36:07
  Speaker 3: I'm just detailing my experiences.
• 36:09
  Speaker 5: So I don't want to which is gonna help.
• 36:11
  Speaker 3: It's gonna help. It's gonna help because you don't realize
• 36:14
  Speaker 3: how many people go through these things until you meet
• 36:16
  Speaker 3: somebody who's ready to talk about it, and I'm ready
• 36:18
  Speaker 3: to talk about it. There was a lot of I
• 36:21
  Speaker 3: had been told that I had these cysts, and then
• 36:25
  Speaker 3: I went to I got multiple different evaluations. They were like, oh, yeah,
• 36:28
  Speaker 3: you have assist. It's five centimeters six six centimeters. It
• 36:31
  Speaker 3: needs to be removed immediately. And then other people, other
• 36:33
  Speaker 3: doctors were like, oh, I don't see any cists. So
• 36:36
  Speaker 3: it was just like it was so much going on
• 36:39
  Speaker 3: at the time. So when I found out that I
• 36:41
  Speaker 3: was pregnant with my son, I was very protective over
• 36:44
  Speaker 3: that process and I didn't even announce that I was
• 36:46
  Speaker 3: pregnant until I was eight months. And then when we
• 36:49
  Speaker 3: had them, we had a home birth at Amazing, had
• 36:52
  Speaker 3: it in our kitchen, and my grandmother was there, My
• 36:54
  Speaker 3: mother was there, both my grandmother's actually his mom was there,
• 36:58
  Speaker 3: his sisters, my brother was they're his brothers. My dad
• 37:04
  Speaker 3: was there. It was a whole and it was a
• 37:07
  Speaker 3: very strange experience because it was such a vulnerable experience
• 37:11
  Speaker 3: for me. But again, it was one of those things
• 37:15
  Speaker 3: that was like, I feel like I feel called to
• 37:17
  Speaker 3: do this because my mother and my grandmother, they both
• 37:20
  Speaker 3: my mother had all sea sections with all her kids.
• 37:22
  Speaker 3: They told her she was she would never be able
• 37:24
  Speaker 3: to deliver naturally or like vaginantly. They told her she
• 37:28
  Speaker 3: would never be able to do that. By the way,
• 37:31
  Speaker 3: it's a lot.
• 37:31
  Speaker 1: They told my wife that for her second daughter, and
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: she had next to.
• 37:35
  Speaker 3: They told me the same thing. They told me the
• 37:37
  Speaker 3: same thing, literally told me the same thing. And then
• 37:39
  Speaker 3: my grandmother she almost died having my mom. She only
• 37:41
  Speaker 3: has one child, which is my mom, and she almost
• 37:44
  Speaker 3: died having nurse SOEs she never had any other kids.
• 37:46
  Speaker 3: So it was important for me to heal that trauma
• 37:48
  Speaker 3: for the matriarchs in my family and show them that
• 37:51
  Speaker 3: because when I first told them, they were like, what
• 37:53
  Speaker 3: are you thinking about? Like you canna have a baby
• 37:55
  Speaker 3: at home? Are you sure?
• 37:56
  Speaker 6: They were telling her that she needed to she might
• 38:00
  Speaker 6: have to do Session two.
• 38:01
  Speaker 3: Yeah, they were telling me, and the doctors were telling
• 38:04
  Speaker 3: me that I shouldn't. But I don't want to advise
• 38:08
  Speaker 3: anybody against any doctor's orders, because there are doctors out
• 38:11
  Speaker 3: there that are diligent and that are thorough with the
• 38:14
  Speaker 3: work that they do. But again, I'm just going off
• 38:18
  Speaker 3: of what I feel called to do, and very early
• 38:21
  Speaker 3: on within like the first six or twelve weeks of
• 38:23
  Speaker 3: me being pregnant with my son, I was like going back.
• 38:25
  Speaker 1: And for it.
• 38:26
  Speaker 3: I was like, Noah, I'm doing a home birth.
• 38:27
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 38:28
  Speaker 3: So I got a midwife, I got a doula, and
• 38:30
  Speaker 3: I have my family.
• 38:31
  Speaker 1: That's what we got to do it for third and fourth.
• 38:35
  Speaker 5: That's the best way.
• 38:35
  Speaker 3: I had natural births or y'all just had a duel
• 38:38
  Speaker 3: at the hospital to advocate for y'all.
• 38:40
  Speaker 1: My wife had a natural birth, not because she wanted to.
• 38:43
  Speaker 3: On the third one was it was happening so fast.
• 38:45
  Speaker 2: Yeah, there was something going on with the hospital where
• 38:47
  Speaker 2: it was. She always gets I tell the story wrong,
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: but if something they couldn't get the abadoros or something
• 38:51
  Speaker 2: like that. So she ended up having a natural but
• 38:52
  Speaker 2: she we just decided to get a do it for
• 38:54
  Speaker 2: the third and fourth because it's so hard when black
• 38:55
  Speaker 2: women go to the hospital, like you can't play with
• 38:57
  Speaker 2: that the way the black maternal death rad is actly.
• 39:01
  Speaker 3: So that was all that was on my mind. I
• 39:03
  Speaker 3: wanted to take care of myself.
• 39:04
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 39:05
  Speaker 4: So now you got your music, yep, and then you
• 39:08
  Speaker 4: you turn your you know, your pain into a beautiful
• 39:12
  Speaker 4: you know, oh.
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: You know y'all got something in common. Then you study
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: mortuary science.
• 39:15
  Speaker 3: I did, okay, just a mortuary all. What you study
• 39:21
  Speaker 3: mortual science?
• 39:22
  Speaker 5: Girl, I went for one semester and I couldn't do it.
• 39:25
  Speaker 3: It was too much.
• 39:25
  Speaker 5: It was too much, the whole embovement. And then you know,
• 39:28
  Speaker 5: limbs's alive.
• 39:29
  Speaker 1: If you do too much, they jump.
• 39:32
  Speaker 3: Yeah, girl, fart, that would happen, like all the screamed,
• 39:37
  Speaker 3: they let the noises, they let.
• 39:41
  Speaker 2: It.
• 39:41
  Speaker 3: Yeah. The nerves are like settling basically, so they jerk
• 39:44
  Speaker 3: and they move and they all and.
• 39:48
  Speaker 4: Then everybody is the one and you're working and you chilling,
• 39:51
  Speaker 4: and you going break and you got your back turn
• 39:53
  Speaker 4: and then you look, you see I can give somebody
• 39:55
  Speaker 4: seeing up.
• 39:55
  Speaker 5: It's a little you know, and then like.
• 39:59
  Speaker 1: The dead body sit up.
• 40:00
  Speaker 3: No, I did not see it. When I was in
• 40:02
  Speaker 3: mortuary school. They were, they had they told us that
• 40:04
  Speaker 3: was a possibility, But I never seen that personally. But
• 40:08
  Speaker 3: I have seen, like you know, bodies jerk and move
• 40:10
  Speaker 3: and make these noises and these liquids to come out.
• 40:13
  Speaker 3: Like I've seen the whole thing.
• 40:15
  Speaker 5: And so you actually went through the whole thing.
• 40:18
  Speaker 3: I didn't graduate because I started rapping midway through and
• 40:22
  Speaker 3: I was like, all right, bet, I'm doing this one.
• 40:24
  Speaker 5: I didn't graduate because I got scared.
• 40:27
  Speaker 3: I understand it was.
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: Working at the mortuary first of all.
• 40:31
  Speaker 3: No, but you have to you have to internship during
• 40:34
  Speaker 3: your school. By the time you graduate, you have to
• 40:36
  Speaker 3: have been done or else you can't graduate. You have
• 40:39
  Speaker 3: to finish your internship. So you do it while you're in.
• 40:41
  Speaker 5: School, right, to get your hours, to get your.
• 40:44
  Speaker 3: Hours yet yeah, yeah.
• 40:47
  Speaker 7: Because you started with Life after Death and then it
• 40:52
  Speaker 7: just and then who did the Body? I was like,
• 40:53
  Speaker 7: what is her thing with like life after Death? Literally
• 40:57
  Speaker 7: like it's kind of all centered around it and it's
• 40:59
  Speaker 7: very like church, cheap Baptist.
• 41:00
  Speaker 3: Church, it is exactly.
• 41:02
  Speaker 7: I'm like, it feels like a funeral at first, and
• 41:05
  Speaker 7: then it goes into a whole different world.
• 41:07
  Speaker 3: Exactly I did. I did so culturally I feel like
• 41:11
  Speaker 3: this project for me culturally who did the body? You know,
• 41:13
  Speaker 3: when black people go to a funeral, if the body
• 41:15
  Speaker 3: looked good or bad? Where I was like, who did
• 41:17
  Speaker 3: the body? To see? Which were home? Never who did
• 41:28
  Speaker 3: the body? Like it's one of the two. So culturally
• 41:30
  Speaker 3: it was living but also like like I was just
• 41:32
  Speaker 3: talking about I had so many I've just had a
• 41:34
  Speaker 3: really weird experience with life, and I've also had weird
• 41:39
  Speaker 3: experiences with death. So this project for me was kind
• 41:42
  Speaker 3: of liberating me in that sense and freeing me from
• 41:45
  Speaker 3: the fears of death. But we're all and just also
• 41:47
  Speaker 3: talking about just opening up that conversation about grief in
• 41:51
  Speaker 3: our community and insurance and that type of stuff like
• 41:55
  Speaker 3: that was important to me to highlight with this project.
• 41:58
  Speaker 3: So it's and it is very so Baptist. I grew
• 42:00
  Speaker 3: up Baptists. My grandmother was. She was a youth minister
• 42:03
  Speaker 3: on my dad's side, so she made me sing in
• 42:06
  Speaker 3: the church every Sunday. I had no choice. Even if
• 42:09
  Speaker 3: I was nervous or scared, I had no choice. So
• 42:11
  Speaker 3: those are really my roots. I grew up with a
• 42:14
  Speaker 3: praying grandmother, so those are truly, truly, truly my roots.
• 42:18
  Speaker 3: So I wanted to just highlight Southern Black American culture
• 42:21
  Speaker 3: with this project.
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: How do they feel about you doing this secular music? Now?
• 42:25
  Speaker 6: You know?
• 42:27
  Speaker 3: They My granny cuss though, so it's like she, you know,
• 42:31
  Speaker 3: you know how Baptist people are. It's like we real Baptists,
• 42:34
  Speaker 3: but outside the church, we like to turn up and
• 42:36
  Speaker 3: have a good time. So it's like my granny, she cussed,
• 42:39
  Speaker 3: she was crazy. She is crazy, So I know it's
• 42:42
  Speaker 3: like she can find a little bit of herself and
• 42:45
  Speaker 3: that I am my grandmother's baby. So it's like, boo,
• 42:48
  Speaker 3: where did I learn this from? But other than you
• 42:50
  Speaker 3: and my mom, I got this from y'all, So how
• 42:52
  Speaker 3: can you really be?
• 42:53
  Speaker 6: They?
• 42:54
  Speaker 3: They love it, they support it.
• 42:56
  Speaker 1: What did Jesus turn the water into water for? If
• 42:58
  Speaker 1: not for a party?
• 42:58
  Speaker 3: If not for a party, you know what I'm saying,
• 43:00
  Speaker 3: Not for a good turn up. You know what I mean?
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: Hello?
• 43:02
  Speaker 4: Okay, maybe for a different taste. You know they only
• 43:04
  Speaker 4: had water bag then he probably like, let's say something else.
• 43:06
  Speaker 3: But I'm saying you could have turned into apple juice, oranges,
• 43:09
  Speaker 3: any of the things wine he was trying to turn up,
• 43:11
  Speaker 3: and I feel I feel him.
• 43:13
  Speaker 4: Okay, now beating down your block? That was my anthem
• 43:18
  Speaker 4: like three years.
• 43:19
  Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm not playing. Did you expect that song to
• 43:22
  Speaker 5: be as big as it got?
• 43:23
  Speaker 3: I expected it to change my life. I don't know
• 43:26
  Speaker 3: about I didn't know exactly what the parameters. I didn't
• 43:28
  Speaker 3: know how big it was gonna get, but I knew
• 43:30
  Speaker 3: it was going. I knew it was pivotal in my life.
• 43:32
  Speaker 3: And when I talk about journaling and writing that I
• 43:35
  Speaker 3: was gonna be on Breakfast Club, that was this is
• 43:36
  Speaker 3: around the time that I made that song. I was like, Yeah,
• 43:38
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna be on Breakfast Club. I'm gonna be getting interviewed,
• 43:41
  Speaker 3: I'm be getting plaques. Like I knew, I had a
• 43:44
  Speaker 3: feeling in my bones that that song was going to
• 43:46
  Speaker 3: change my life, and it did just that.
• 43:49
  Speaker 5: I love it.
• 43:50
  Speaker 3: And I'm at that second phase too, where I feel
• 43:52
  Speaker 3: like these next few songs that I'm dropping in this project,
• 43:56
  Speaker 3: I feel like it's also going to elevate my life.
• 43:58
  Speaker 3: I feel like even Sexy Solon has elevated my life
• 44:01
  Speaker 3: to an agree with all the good and the bad.
• 44:03
  Speaker 3: Talk about it and also thank you Charlemagne for posting
• 44:06
  Speaker 3: that for me. I appreciate you for exposing that to
• 44:08
  Speaker 3: an audience who might dad have seen that, an older
• 44:10
  Speaker 3: audience that like my dad, my mom's generation, who might
• 44:13
  Speaker 3: not have seen it. I feel like it definitely is
• 44:16
  Speaker 3: taking my life to a new tier as well, new fans,
• 44:19
  Speaker 3: new levels conversation too. It causes conversation, which was fine.
• 44:25
  Speaker 3: I'm cool with the good I'm cool with the bad.
• 44:27
  Speaker 3: It was. I just wanted to usher in the conversation.
• 44:29
  Speaker 4: So what I love about it? You were still a
• 44:31
  Speaker 4: little too nice. She was like, you were just telling
• 44:33
  Speaker 4: them all black people to go to the bad.
• 44:34
  Speaker 5: You ain't saying it out.
• 44:35
  Speaker 3: No, I just said, create a level of you know,
• 44:40
  Speaker 3: separation to a degree, not trying to segregate nig because
• 44:43
  Speaker 3: I'm just saying, like, give us our space to congregate,
• 44:47
  Speaker 3: frightnize fellowship for two minutes. I wanted to create a
• 44:51
  Speaker 3: space for Black Americans to turn up and have a
• 44:53
  Speaker 3: good time Black people in general, because I know people
• 44:55
  Speaker 3: were like, what is this for Black Americas for It
• 44:58
  Speaker 3: was like I wanted to promote black unity and black community,
• 45:02
  Speaker 3: which is why you see me depicted cloaked in this
• 45:04
  Speaker 3: black American hairt juste flag, which I want to encourage
• 45:06
  Speaker 3: people to support and buy straight from the source. You
• 45:09
  Speaker 3: can get it on Black Lettic, where Black Litics is
• 45:12
  Speaker 3: not sponsored, by the way, not smart set at all.
• 45:14
  Speaker 3: I just want to I saw people were buying the flag,
• 45:16
  Speaker 3: and you can kind of buy these dupes from like
• 45:18
  Speaker 3: Amazon and different like Chinese vendors, and I want to
• 45:21
  Speaker 3: encourage people to shop straight from the source, which is
• 45:24
  Speaker 3: where black letics. He collaborated. His name is Rodney. He
• 45:27
  Speaker 3: collaborated with Joy, who is the daughter of Melvin Charles,
• 45:31
  Speaker 3: who was a co creator of the Black American hairt
• 45:33
  Speaker 3: Juste flag. So and I had to talk with her
• 45:36
  Speaker 3: earlier this week because I well, a couple weeks ago,
• 45:38
  Speaker 3: because I wanted to make sure that I had the
• 45:40
  Speaker 3: origin story of the Black American Haritge flag correct, which
• 45:43
  Speaker 3: is basically they created it in nineteen sixty seven to
• 45:46
  Speaker 3: basically acknowledge Black Americans for their contributions to America because
• 45:51
  Speaker 3: and it also just create some representation because at the time,
• 45:55
  Speaker 3: we were being identified as negroes, like they didn't really want
• 45:58
  Speaker 3: to acknowledge us as people. We didn't have our own flag.
• 46:01
  Speaker 3: We were kind of like they were paying us dust.
• 46:03
  Speaker 3: And so they created this flag so that we can
• 46:06
  Speaker 3: fly it and represent the Black American culture and our
• 46:09
  Speaker 3: contributions to this country. So and a lot of people
• 46:12
  Speaker 3: at the time didn't really resonate with the American flag either,
• 46:14
  Speaker 3: So it was like we had something of our own.
• 46:16
  Speaker 3: So you see me cloaked in the Black American Heritage
• 46:19
  Speaker 3: flag and the video, but then you also see the
• 46:21
  Speaker 3: flags behind me, the ethnic flags behind me stitched together
• 46:25
  Speaker 3: Nigerian flags, and you know, and I wanted to make
• 46:29
  Speaker 3: sure what was important to me was, like I said,
• 46:32
  Speaker 3: to promote black unity and black community because under the
• 46:35
  Speaker 3: umbrella of white supremacy and racism, we are all black
• 46:38
  Speaker 3: here in this country and cops pull us over. Then
• 46:42
  Speaker 3: I asked you here are you Jamaican? Are you? Where
• 46:44
  Speaker 3: are you from? Fact, they're not asking that you just black.
• 46:49
  Speaker 3: So I wanted to detail these shared experiences across the diaspora.
• 46:53
  Speaker 3: And I know what It's upset a couple of people,
• 46:55
  Speaker 3: which I can understand to a degree, because I feel
• 46:57
  Speaker 3: like Black Americans we want so badly to be represented
• 47:01
  Speaker 3: and we want something of our own because it feel
• 47:03
  Speaker 3: like people have taken from our culture. And I understand
• 47:05
  Speaker 3: that to a degree and still do so. I understand
• 47:08
  Speaker 3: the frustration about incorporating the other flags. But I'm just
• 47:11
  Speaker 3: here to detail what I was trying to depict, and
• 47:13
  Speaker 3: that was black unity and black community. And I'm not
• 47:17
  Speaker 3: trying to divide the diaspora. That will never be my intentions. Unfortunately,
• 47:21
  Speaker 3: that's just not what I'm trying to do.
• 47:23
  Speaker 5: I love it.
• 47:24
  Speaker 3: I'm here to bring us together.
• 47:25
  Speaker 2: You had When I went to go search the song
• 47:27
  Speaker 2: that morning on YouTube, and all I saw was reaction
• 47:29
  Speaker 2: videos of people upset.
• 47:31
  Speaker 3: Oh yeah, they was mad here, Like.
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: Like, is this really it's mad already? I'm like, when
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: this song came about, it's only six days ago.
• 47:39
  Speaker 3: Exactly, they were mad. I was. I expected white people
• 47:43
  Speaker 3: to be mad. I real don't give a damn what
• 47:44
  Speaker 3: white people think about me. I expected for them to
• 47:47
  Speaker 3: be mad. I got that. That made sense to me
• 47:50
  Speaker 3: because white people his thing with white people, And it's
• 47:54
  Speaker 3: not that I'm saying that all white people are bad, right,
• 47:58
  Speaker 3: you know, they be saying like I got a black
• 48:01
  Speaker 3: best friend. My best friend is white. You know, I's
• 48:04
  Speaker 3: taking a page out of they book. So it's not
• 48:06
  Speaker 3: that I'm saying white people are bad. But I think she.
• 48:09
  Speaker 1: Wasn't in the video. Everybody somebody said that to me
• 48:20
  Speaker 1: this morning. It was like, she got a Latino best friend,
• 48:22
  Speaker 1: Oh my.
• 48:22
  Speaker 3: God, just because she's tatty.
• 48:24
  Speaker 1: I promise.
• 48:28
  Speaker 3: That's my best friend. But it's like, I feel like
• 48:31
  Speaker 3: white people what they need to understand is that they've
• 48:35
  Speaker 3: been conditioned a certain type of way under this because
• 48:42
  Speaker 3: I feel like racism is a fundamental issue, and they've
• 48:45
  Speaker 3: been conditioned to this certain type of teaching in this
• 48:48
  Speaker 3: certain type of way subconsciously. So I feel like, consciously
• 48:54
  Speaker 3: it needs to be called out and it needs to
• 48:56
  Speaker 3: be unlearned. That's my only thing that I want to
• 48:58
  Speaker 3: make clearest, not that I'm saying a white people are bad.
• 49:01
  Speaker 3: So they were mad. I didn't give a damn about that.
• 49:03
  Speaker 3: I ain't care. And they were like, well, what if
• 49:05
  Speaker 3: white people made a song like this? White people have
• 49:08
  Speaker 3: done worse. Let's be clear, they've done way worse in
• 49:11
  Speaker 3: real life. And there is a song, actually I saw
• 49:14
  Speaker 3: the other day there was a song exactly exactly, so
• 49:19
  Speaker 3: it's like, what the hell are we talking about? What
• 49:21
  Speaker 3: are we talking about? But yeah, I expected them to
• 49:25
  Speaker 3: be mad, but I didn't expect for so many people
• 49:28
  Speaker 3: in my community to be upset. And then I kind
• 49:30
  Speaker 3: of like did my homework and I'm like, what is
• 49:32
  Speaker 3: it that is upsetting people? And I got down to
• 49:35
  Speaker 3: the root of it, and I'm like, all right, I
• 49:36
  Speaker 3: see what's happening here. I can't listen. I can't do
• 49:42
  Speaker 3: all this. This is too much. All I'm gonna say
• 49:45
  Speaker 3: is what I wanted to clearly articulate, and that was,
• 49:50
  Speaker 3: like I said, black community, black love, black comunity, and
• 49:55
  Speaker 3: detail these, like I said, shared experiences across the diaspora
• 49:58
  Speaker 3: that we can't control our grandmother are very similar. So
• 50:01
  Speaker 3: I wanted to detail that.
• 50:03
  Speaker 2: Sometimes you just got to tell people it's a black thing.
• 50:04
  Speaker 2: You wouldn't understand, you wouldn't care what. They don't need
• 50:07
  Speaker 2: an explanation, they.
• 50:08
  Speaker 3: Don't need no expl and it should be actually should
• 50:10
  Speaker 3: be gay kept. I think a lot of our cultures
• 50:12
  Speaker 3: should be kept close to us because you know, white
• 50:16
  Speaker 3: people that keep whatever they want to keep close to
• 50:18
  Speaker 3: them is kept very close to them. There's a lot
• 50:20
  Speaker 3: of shit that's kept away from us. And I feel
• 50:22
  Speaker 3: like we should have the same pride and integrity about
• 50:24
  Speaker 3: our culture. And it's not about being exclusionary. Is just
• 50:27
  Speaker 3: showcasing a level of pride and reverence and respect for
• 50:31
  Speaker 3: what's been put in place historically.
• 50:33
  Speaker 5: You are twenty four years old. You are so.
• 50:37
  Speaker 4: Like just intelligent, brilliant, educating your informative.
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: You know, sound like white people. White sound like white people.
• 50:44
  Speaker 3: They like white people.
• 50:46
  Speaker 1: You sound like white people saying that white people.
• 50:48
  Speaker 6: What are you talking about?
• 50:49
  Speaker 3: Because I'm giving another young.
• 50:50
  Speaker 2: Black woman sometimes I'd like that don't mean she white,
• 50:53
  Speaker 2: but that means you're just an intelligent black woman, like
• 50:56
  Speaker 2: you don't want to white?
• 50:58
  Speaker 3: That make you said that? Are we tell like they
• 51:00
  Speaker 3: sound like white people?
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't like that.
• 51:02
  Speaker 2: No, no, no, I said, said that she'd be sounding
• 51:05
  Speaker 2: like white people using big words.
• 51:07
  Speaker 6: You just used a couple of words that I didn't
• 51:09
  Speaker 6: even know.
• 51:09
  Speaker 1: Like that don't mean you white. That does mean she's
• 51:11
  Speaker 1: No no no.
• 51:12
  Speaker 4: Before said that he can say whatever you want to
• 51:15
  Speaker 4: say about his wife because and you say.
• 51:17
  Speaker 1: Because you look at you.
• 51:18
  Speaker 2: Why you know why because you looked at her and
• 51:20
  Speaker 2: you said, wow, you're twenty four years old, and you
• 51:22
  Speaker 2: sound so intelligent.
• 51:23
  Speaker 1: I wanted, no, I did, no, I didn't.
• 51:28
  Speaker 3: Sound of course, I.
• 51:32
  Speaker 4: Did not say she said please. I did not say
• 51:35
  Speaker 4: she sound so intelligent. I said, you're twenty four years old.
• 51:39
  Speaker 4: You are so intelligent. You're informative, you're educating your like.
• 51:46
  Speaker 7: I did not say that she means but I don't
• 51:49
  Speaker 7: think she means what you mean that she's gone white. Yeah,
• 51:54
  Speaker 7: she's talking about age and the maturity level when you
• 51:57
  Speaker 7: when you when speaking to.
• 51:58
  Speaker 3: Her in a comprehension story.
• 51:59
  Speaker 2: Some already told me the other day when Little John
• 52:02
  Speaker 2: was on Your Apprentice, and Donald Trump used to say,
• 52:05
  Speaker 2: come look at little John talk. Y'all got to hear John,
• 52:08
  Speaker 2: he's so intelligent. Oh my god, because you got.
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: The dreads right and the gold grill. You know what
• 52:14
  Speaker 1: I mean.
• 52:15
  Speaker 5: I don't think she meant that.
• 52:16
  Speaker 3: I hear what you're saying. If what was coming from
• 52:18
  Speaker 3: if it was coming I would be like what you
• 52:20
  Speaker 3: mean by that? But I understand exactly what you mean
• 52:24
  Speaker 3: because I think, like just especially with the rhetoric with
• 52:28
  Speaker 3: the ship that's being pushed on us right now, I
• 52:31
  Speaker 3: think I get what you mean, like to bring light
• 52:34
  Speaker 3: to these subjects and you know, explain some of these
• 52:38
  Speaker 3: topics that we don't really talk about in our generation.
• 52:41
  Speaker 4: We don't talk about it. We don't hear about it
• 52:44
  Speaker 4: from young people enough. You know, Like there's three lesson
• 52:47
  Speaker 4: you just gave us on that flag. You know what
• 52:49
  Speaker 4: I mean that you you intentionally put in your video. Yeah,
• 52:52
  Speaker 4: that's you know what I'm saying, Like all of that
• 52:54
  Speaker 4: and then everything that you've been through, you could have
• 52:56
  Speaker 4: went a whole other way.
• 52:57
  Speaker 5: You could have you know what.
• 52:58
  Speaker 3: I'm saying, Like, Yeah, for sure, I go around people
• 53:02
  Speaker 3: and it's so crazy to see the difference in how
• 53:06
  Speaker 3: trauma has affected us. And I don't fallot anybody for
• 53:09
  Speaker 3: the path that they chose, because you really never I
• 53:11
  Speaker 3: feel blessed. I don't know what it was that steered
• 53:16
  Speaker 3: me this way, because I could have been I could
• 53:19
  Speaker 3: have done anything in this life. Because I grew up
• 53:21
  Speaker 3: with people and we all grew up, we started at
• 53:23
  Speaker 3: the same point, we experienced some of the same things.
• 53:25
  Speaker 3: Some of the people that I was hospitalized with we
• 53:27
  Speaker 3: shared some of the same experiences, and we've all kind
• 53:30
  Speaker 3: of taken different paths, but we still stay closely connected.
• 53:35
  Speaker 3: But it's like, this is why I advocate the way
• 53:37
  Speaker 3: that I do, because I think people misunderstand my upbringing
• 53:42
  Speaker 3: or they see me or just like or they see
• 53:45
  Speaker 3: somebody who's poised and put together and they think or
• 53:48
  Speaker 3: well spoken, articulate, and they're like, oh my gosh, she's
• 53:50
  Speaker 3: so like, you know, they have no idea the things
• 53:53
  Speaker 3: that I've seen, the things I've witness, things that I've.
• 53:55
  Speaker 4: Experienced, and I admire it. It's inspirational.
• 53:58
  Speaker 5: Like so, yeah, it's.
• 54:00
  Speaker 2: Definitely glad you answered your call. Is that don hu
• 54:03
  Speaker 2: Leo record? Is that really about stunning for Vegas.
• 54:05
  Speaker 5: Answering the phone, Yes, it was why you ain't answer
• 54:08
  Speaker 5: the phone?
• 54:09
  Speaker 1: Why you didn't answer the call? Made a good song,
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: blessing on your line. You ain't pick up?
• 54:13
  Speaker 3: Get him?
• 54:13
  Speaker 6: I caught her back.
• 54:16
  Speaker 3: He called me back halfway through the song, and I
• 54:18
  Speaker 3: was did.
• 54:19
  Speaker 6: Know ship like not even just made the song. She
• 54:23
  Speaker 6: just saidn't have said that in the interview.
• 54:24
  Speaker 3: I shouldn't have, But I was being honest though, because
• 54:27
  Speaker 3: everybody's like, when you lie, you gotta keep up with
• 54:31
  Speaker 3: the lie. So I feel like the first time somebody
• 54:33
  Speaker 3: asked me what was the origin of the song, I
• 54:37
  Speaker 3: was just like, oh, yeah, this is what happened because
• 54:39
  Speaker 3: it was just like the most readily available answer that
• 54:43
  Speaker 3: I had, which was the truth. Maybe I probably shouldn't
• 54:45
  Speaker 3: have said that, but it was true and me he
• 54:46
  Speaker 3: called me back halfway through the song, but I was
• 54:48
  Speaker 3: already deep. I was like, I was already I was vibing.
• 54:51
  Speaker 3: I was loving a song. I knew it wasn't here.
• 54:53
  Speaker 6: There was no point.
• 54:55
  Speaker 3: I shouldn't have said that. You do why you answer?
• 54:58
  Speaker 3: We shooting a video? Oh, I mean it happens every
• 55:02
  Speaker 3: now and then.
• 55:03
  Speaker 2: You know, she said, she's looking at you designed that
• 55:05
  Speaker 2: was his story. He better stick to it.
• 55:07
  Speaker 3: Yeah, No, I was really I was calling him and
• 55:10
  Speaker 3: I was like, why is he not?
• 55:11
  Speaker 6: I don't be doing no sucker ship, bro? Why I
• 55:13
  Speaker 6: don't even like when like a normal person walk up
• 55:16
  Speaker 6: to us and joke about that song, I'll be ready
• 55:19
  Speaker 6: to be like, bro, I'll slap the shit out of you.
• 55:21
  Speaker 3: Right, I shouldn't say that.
• 55:23
  Speaker 6: Hopefully it's not nobody with me for little brother to
• 55:25
  Speaker 6: be like, bro, we'll slap the shit out of you. Career,
• 55:29
  Speaker 6: I don't know. I don't even play.
• 55:31
  Speaker 3: Like, Yeah, his bros is crazy.
• 55:34
  Speaker 7: My best friend sent me that song. That's this is how.
• 55:37
  Speaker 7: My best friend sent me that song and it was like,
• 55:38
  Speaker 7: this is you. Y'all are spirit animals. I was like,
• 55:41
  Speaker 7: which was flying? I'm a sad scorpio cuss? Okay, yeah,
• 55:45
  Speaker 7: when your birthday November twenty second? Oh fire, my granny's
• 55:47
  Speaker 7: birthday November twenty third. Oh So she she's fun, but
• 55:50
  Speaker 7: she's fun. Yeah, she's crazy.
• 55:53
  Speaker 5: How did the link up with Lizzo happened?
• 55:56
  Speaker 3: So she's from Houston. So she reached out to me
• 56:00
  Speaker 3: and she was like, hey, you know I gotta do
• 56:02
  Speaker 3: you have any anything you want me to get on.
• 56:05
  Speaker 3: And I didn't have anything at the time, and I
• 56:07
  Speaker 3: was like, I'm recording this week, I'm recording all week.
• 56:09
  Speaker 3: If I find something, I'll send it to you. And
• 56:11
  Speaker 3: I send it to her. She sent it right back
• 56:13
  Speaker 3: the same day. She sent it back the same day,
• 56:16
  Speaker 3: which is very rare in this industry. I'm saying that
• 56:18
  Speaker 3: because I don't even be sending it back the same
• 56:20
  Speaker 3: day because I be needing to sit with stuff, or
• 56:22
  Speaker 3: I be needing to get to the studio. Maybe I
• 56:24
  Speaker 3: don't got a studio planned for another two weeks. Like
• 56:27
  Speaker 3: it just worked out that way. So I'm very appreciative
• 56:29
  Speaker 3: that she sent me that burst back so quick. I
• 56:31
  Speaker 3: never experienced nothing like, especially from us, a star like Lizo,
• 56:37
  Speaker 3: like somebody who is so accomplished like her. I would
• 56:39
  Speaker 3: have thought that she would have gave me to run around.
• 56:41
  Speaker 3: But she was really adamant about doing the song because
• 56:43
  Speaker 3: she was kind of like she's entering this rap phase
• 56:45
  Speaker 3: and I'm just happy to facilitate.
• 56:47
  Speaker 5: Yeah, that's dope.
• 56:48
  Speaker 1: It is true. You you, you and the baby back good.
• 56:52
  Speaker 6: We we speak, we speak, I mean we speak.
• 57:00
  Speaker 1: Had you facilitated that combo? Was that true.
• 57:03
  Speaker 3: I didn't facilitate that Conbo. I don't know him personally,
• 57:06
  Speaker 3: but it was like.
• 57:07
  Speaker 6: I facilitated that Combo. I was on tour with talking
• 57:10
  Speaker 6: to you and he told you like that, let's just reached.
• 57:13
  Speaker 6: That's how we seen. I've seen it up there. Like
• 57:16
  Speaker 6: even when I reached out to him, I was reaching
• 57:17
  Speaker 6: out to him on some grown man ship, like I'm
• 57:20
  Speaker 6: gonna take my lick, like I was the reason why
• 57:23
  Speaker 6: we separated because it was a ship going on outside
• 57:26
  Speaker 6: the business. So I moved around and when I hit
• 57:32
  Speaker 6: him up, I probably moved around before I hit him up.
• 57:36
  Speaker 6: I moved around with animosity on my chest. So when
• 57:38
  Speaker 6: I hit him up, it was more so like not
• 57:40
  Speaker 6: getting it off. But it was definitely like, man bro,
• 57:42
  Speaker 6: I'm gonna take accountability. Like I went left. I should
• 57:47
  Speaker 6: have came and spoke to you about certain ship. There
• 57:50
  Speaker 6: was nothing like, man bro, you like I want to
• 57:54
  Speaker 6: get back to that, Like this is the only dudo
• 57:56
  Speaker 6: I'm worried about. So like when I reached out to
• 58:00
  Speaker 6: him on some real ship, it's like, well, I really
• 58:02
  Speaker 6: do miss my brother me. That's all it was. It
• 58:06
  Speaker 6: wasn't nothing, It wasn't about no I needed a song.
• 58:08
  Speaker 6: I'm trying to get back right there with none of that,
• 58:11
  Speaker 6: Like I missed my brother. We're not been through enough,
• 58:14
  Speaker 6: Like it wasn't just straight music ship. I'm like, man,
• 58:20
  Speaker 6: how the hell shout? It adin't hit me up yet. Yeah,
• 58:24
  Speaker 6: but we did end up speaking one out. We was
• 58:25
  Speaker 6: on tour. That's how it kind of happened because I
• 58:28
  Speaker 6: was on tour with my wife. She was on tour
• 58:30
  Speaker 6: Don Tolliver. I was playing around. I got into it
• 58:33
  Speaker 6: like Rick on Don Tolliver bike and like messed up,
• 58:37
  Speaker 6: like faction, every bone in my face and stuff like that.
• 58:40
  Speaker 6: And then when Leo posted about it, like basically letting
• 58:42
  Speaker 6: it be known that I'm straight, probably like a day later,
• 58:46
  Speaker 6: he reached out to me, responding back to the DM
• 58:51
  Speaker 6: that he told you all about. So I had hit
• 58:54
  Speaker 6: him before you fear me, before he came up here
• 58:57
  Speaker 6: and told y'all, and he still didn't even reached that
• 59:00
  Speaker 6: like whatever he said he told y'all like, oh, it's good.
• 59:03
  Speaker 6: But even then, I know bro, like I really know him,
• 59:06
  Speaker 6: so I'm like shit. However, when I sent the message
• 59:11
  Speaker 6: to him, I'm like, however he reacts, I'm not tripping
• 59:13
  Speaker 6: because I'm taking accountability for even letting this shit get
• 59:17
  Speaker 6: this distant. God moved around without saying anything. I moved
• 59:21
  Speaker 6: around without saying like, oh this is going on, or
• 59:23
  Speaker 6: somebody saying there somebody telling who, I just moved around.
• 59:29
  Speaker 6: But even then, because I ain't got nothing against bro
• 59:32
  Speaker 6: loving to death, like, I look at it like when
• 59:35
  Speaker 6: I moved around, like that's what I was supposed to
• 59:37
  Speaker 6: do on God, that what I was supposed to do, Bro,
• 59:40
  Speaker 6: Because that's just what I was supposed to do.
• 59:43
  Speaker 2: What was the issue though, because it's not like you
• 59:44
  Speaker 2: didn't have your own identity even being with the baby,
• 59:47
  Speaker 2: like people knew who stunner forward was.
• 59:49
  Speaker 1: You was on your own trajectory. You didn't feel like.
• 59:54
  Speaker 6: That, Yeah, that's what it felt like, though they might
• 59:59
  Speaker 6: not have been at That's what it felt like though,
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 6: And that ain't got nothing to do with him, you
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 6: feel me, We was bruh. It was just that shit
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 6: happened too quick that I can really say that's his
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 6: my career, like I can say it happened so quick
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 6: that it was probably too much for everybody and not
• 1:00:18
  Speaker 6: just me. But at first I used to look at
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 6: it like, man, that shit was too much for me, bro,
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 6: Like before that, I was in a two bedroom apartment
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 6: that was getting shot up. My mama was at that,
• 1:00:27
  Speaker 6: like seven niggas in there, my sisters in there, still
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 6: still going to school every day or whatever. Like uh,
• 1:00:37
  Speaker 6: I looked at it like it was just too much
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 6: for everybody from me bruh in the scope and everybody.
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 6: You feel me, you feel me because I did my part,
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 6: Like I ain't never end up how any of my
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 6: peers ended up. That we was doing the same thing
• 1:00:52
  Speaker 6: on and off Instagram. We was doing the same exact thing.
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 6: I ain't end up like nobody else. I ain't never
• 1:00:58
  Speaker 6: get one of my close partners indicted. You feel me killed?
• 1:01:06
  Speaker 6: Nothing I ain't do. I feel like I felt like
• 1:01:08
  Speaker 6: the only thing I did wrong was just funck off
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 6: money because I'm a genuine guy at heart already with
• 1:01:14
  Speaker 6: anybody I come across, like the bus driver, the janitor,
• 1:01:19
  Speaker 6: the president, and everybody got like, no big use, no whatever.
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 6: So I'm like, man, it was just too much, bro,
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 6: it was just too much for everybody. Like because like
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 6: I said, it can feel or it can even look
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 6: like something to y'all, but over here it's something totally different.
• 1:01:40
  Speaker 6: Like I was really surviving my whole time over there,
• 1:01:43
  Speaker 6: not even just with being all the baby like within
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 6: the scope being our help. I was surviving. I wasn't
• 1:01:52
  Speaker 6: I feel me. I wasn't top of the line like
• 1:01:54
  Speaker 6: everybody thought it what brother's top of the line, for sure?
• 1:01:57
  Speaker 6: With me, I was like surviving. I was trying to
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 6: get through there. I was trying to I'm paying lawyer fees.
• 1:02:02
  Speaker 6: I'm doing like everything that artists do around my age,
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 6: like thinking that we've grown already, are like, oh yeah,
• 1:02:11
  Speaker 6: I'm a man, Like I'm out here. You feel me?
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 6: So like I say, I can say yeah, it felt
• 1:02:15
  Speaker 6: like that or even looked like that. But now I'm
• 1:02:18
  Speaker 6: twenty nine years old and I can look back on shit,
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 6: wake up every day with my wife, breakfast, lunch, dinner,
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 6: feel me, wake up with my son, go to the
• 1:02:27
  Speaker 6: studio when I want to, Like, I see this shit
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 6: for what it really is. So I know when a
• 1:02:32
  Speaker 6: nigga get on that bit talking about like man, I
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 6: gotta take this risk for the family, gotta get away
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 6: from that shit, be cap that shit, be total cap
• 1:02:41
  Speaker 6: because I know, like even now I'm bigger than I
• 1:02:47
  Speaker 6: was before. Bro, I just was like streaming music, and
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 6: it was dropping so much. I was dropping it through
• 1:02:54
  Speaker 6: a company or whatever versus, Like now that's what I'm
• 1:02:57
  Speaker 6: getting back to doing. But my music is better than
• 1:02:59
  Speaker 6: this being. I'm really like genuinely happy. I really feel like.
• 1:03:03
  Speaker 6: I was talking to young Thug the other day, was like,
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 6: how'd you for? Real? Bro? How'd you for I said,
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 6: I'm better than I ever been, Like, I ain't just
• 1:03:09
  Speaker 6: saying that to you either. I'm better than I ever
• 1:03:12
  Speaker 6: been before I got some money. When I got some money,
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 6: like everything, bro, I look at it like a lessen
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 6: and not a loss. So I just say it was
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 6: just too much for everybody, but it was supposed to
• 1:03:24
  Speaker 6: happen it. It put me in position to be here today.
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 6: Feed me. It put me in position to learn, like
• 1:03:33
  Speaker 6: about a lot of stuff that a lot of guys
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 6: can't come in that bit with the biggest rapper at
• 1:03:37
  Speaker 6: the time, Like I'm coming through here with the baby.
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 6: So I'm gonna meet Drake, I'm gonna meet Gucci, I'm
• 1:03:41
  Speaker 6: gonna meet every rapper. I'm gonna watch this rapper do
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 6: lame shit that I used to look up to. I'm
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 6: gonna watch I'm gonna see all of it. Feel me.
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  Speaker 6: And then when I finally get to that moment with myself,
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  Speaker 6: while I'm like, man, why ain't you take this nigga back?
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  Speaker 6: Why don't following this nigga? What am I doing?
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  Speaker 1: Like this?
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  Speaker 6: Ain't me? I get to break down all that shit
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  Speaker 6: that I've seen from everything, and and then I just
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 6: tell myself like it was supposed to happen like that
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 6: versus before my wife came around too. I was definitely
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 6: telling myself that I'm about to mood to Houston, about
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 6: the mood of Houston. I'm about to run up some baby.
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  Speaker 6: Feel I'm about to woo. I'm about to take a
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  Speaker 6: break from North Carolina before I go to jail or
• 1:04:21
  Speaker 6: do something wrong. Feel me, I'm about to mood to Houston,
• 1:04:23
  Speaker 6: about to woo woo. And then when I meet her,
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 6: I did them just start telling myself like I did
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 6: my first on the radar. I did that first interview.
• 1:04:33
  Speaker 6: I told him in an interview, I was like, I'm
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 6: done rapping. And from there, from there, when I said
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 6: that out loud, like I'm done rapping, I ain't do
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 6: no freestyle on the radar. From there, that's when everybody
• 1:04:44
  Speaker 6: come up with the narrative, Oh baby did this he
• 1:04:46
  Speaker 6: dropped and me dad da da, He's gonna fell out.
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  Speaker 6: But I really literally like what's that on the radar?
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  Speaker 6: Like just burnt. You can go look at the interview
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  Speaker 6: right now, like look at my face and you can tell, like, bro,
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  Speaker 6: that nigga did not want to do this. I was
• 1:05:00
  Speaker 6: sober in that interview, but I was just like and
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 6: this shit, like everything about it is not what I expected,
• 1:05:06
  Speaker 6: like feel me.
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  Speaker 1: But it's the industry in general.
• 1:05:09
  Speaker 6: Yeah yeah at the time. But like I say, all
• 1:05:11
  Speaker 6: that supposed to happen, bro, Like I was supposed to
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 6: watch the industry go through the ups and downs that
• 1:05:16
  Speaker 6: it went through as an industry alone, because I used
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 6: to look at it like is it me going through
• 1:05:21
  Speaker 6: the ups and downs? And I don't know. I'm a
• 1:05:23
  Speaker 6: good I'm a good dude, like, but I'm watching fuck
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 6: niggas go straight ups every time, so I'm.
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 1: Like, is it me?
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 6: But I'm also watching like as a year ago about
• 1:05:33
  Speaker 6: another year ago. But I'm like, it's really the industry
• 1:05:35
  Speaker 6: because you can see I don't want to use no names,
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 6: but you know, shit like did they me and Leo
• 1:05:41
  Speaker 6: got married? Our name was besides whoever y'all wanted to
• 1:05:44
  Speaker 6: say it was, but a week before that, the narrative
• 1:05:46
  Speaker 6: was that maybe I'll fell off for maybe whatever it was,
• 1:05:51
  Speaker 6: Maybe I'm around my wife because of what she got
• 1:05:53
  Speaker 6: going on, whatever it was, you feel me. They had
• 1:05:56
  Speaker 6: every narrative that they wanted to put out there until
• 1:05:59
  Speaker 6: we just like I say, put it on the internet
• 1:06:02
  Speaker 6: like this is the narrative, like or people seeing me
• 1:06:06
  Speaker 6: cry and ship like that. I thought, like, in reality,
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 6: I'm not tripping about that shit. Or when my wife said,
• 1:06:15
  Speaker 6: what we're gonna do the ceremony because I'm like, shit,
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 6: you supposed to cry. I cried for a nigga that
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 6: died game. You think I'm not about to cry for
• 1:06:22
  Speaker 6: my wife? Right? You feel me?
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 3: Right?
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  Speaker 6: Yes, you feel me like I feel the same way
• 1:06:26
  Speaker 6: about Like they'd be like, oh a nigga, you tender
• 1:06:29
  Speaker 6: if you I'll be like, I'm right I am. I'm
• 1:06:32
  Speaker 6: gonna be the first one to tell you straight up
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 6: I am like and even if she she wouldn't do that,
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 6: but it don't matter. I'm tender. You feel me because
• 1:06:40
  Speaker 6: of the same way you play with my homeboy. I
• 1:06:42
  Speaker 6: know how much react he damn a rat. You play
• 1:06:45
  Speaker 6: with my son. Mama absolutely.
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  Speaker 1: Feel me.
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  Speaker 2: And also because of the trauma we've been through, we
• 1:06:50
  Speaker 2: don't expect tears of joy.
• 1:06:52
  Speaker 1: No fact, you're supposed to shake tears of joy at
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  Speaker 1: your way.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 6: I was crying for like ten minutes in the shower
• 1:06:56
  Speaker 6: before I put my suit on. My homeboys out there
• 1:06:59
  Speaker 6: getting ready. I'm just in it. Been trying to clean up,
• 1:07:01
  Speaker 6: like song go out there looking toe up. Yeah, like
• 1:07:04
  Speaker 6: this shit really going on today, That's all I was
• 1:07:05
  Speaker 6: telling myself in the shower. Yeah, for sure, that was
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 6: like probably the biggest thing I ever did. What the
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 6: biggest moment my life other than my son, Like no tour,
• 1:07:16
  Speaker 6: no show, no big chick could amount to that day
• 1:07:19
  Speaker 6: for sure.
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  Speaker 1: Congratulations eighteen twenty two.
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  Speaker 2: Man, he who finds your wife finds a good thing
• 1:07:26
  Speaker 2: and a teans paper from the Lord.
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  Speaker 5: I really really admire y'all.
• 1:07:30
  Speaker 4: What y'all got, y'all, Thank you, Alice, the empire, y'all building,
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  Speaker 4: How y'all raising y'all, little boy, how you're breaking generational curses.
• 1:07:38
  Speaker 1: House.
• 1:07:38
  Speaker 4: It's gonna get It's going to get easier and easier
• 1:07:41
  Speaker 4: with time with your dad if you just keep going,
• 1:07:45
  Speaker 4: you know, like like Mona said, it's hard for you
• 1:07:48
  Speaker 4: and it's also hard for him. But I know it'll
• 1:07:50
  Speaker 4: get It'll get right, you know, yeah time.
• 1:07:55
  Speaker 2: Because she's giving you that look like she want to
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 2: go make another one man?
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 1: Yes, but no, who did? The body comes out this Friday.
• 1:08:06
  Speaker 6: Friday seventeen.
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  Speaker 3: Look at them, look at that, look at us, see
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  Speaker 3: that people stamp. Yeah, that's a proud of us. Look
• 1:08:15
  Speaker 3: at us. Magazine stamp.
• 1:08:18
  Speaker 5: Yeah, I love it.
• 1:08:20
  Speaker 2: Keep going, generational curse breakers, man, that's the best work
• 1:08:23
  Speaker 2: that y'all can do. Not being afraid to come out
• 1:08:24
  Speaker 2: here and tell y'all stories and just being this amazing
• 1:08:27
  Speaker 2: example of black love.
• 1:08:28
  Speaker 1: Man. Salute to y'all.
• 1:08:30
  Speaker 3: Thank you so much, absolutely, thank you'all. Yes, thank y'all
• 1:08:33
  Speaker 3: for having us.
• 1:08:34
  Speaker 1: Vegas is the breakfast club.
• 1:08:37
  Speaker 8: It's not Mono Leo, Mona Leo le You sound white every.
• 1:08:49
  Speaker 1: Day a week ago, breakfast club. Finish, y'all done,