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Its Important To Ask For Help · Blind But Now I See

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  Speaker 1: Back at it for another episode of the Blonde. But
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  Speaker 1: I see show. I A'm your host. FOBC. No oh
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  Speaker 1: no no no, no, no no, no, no more f OBC. No,
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  Speaker 1: it is over for that. I am Chris, I am Cino.
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  Speaker 1: I am the official Blonde Stuffer. I am the voice
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  Speaker 1: of the Disables. I'm blind lighting, and no more fob
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  Speaker 1: The fob is out. It's gone.
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  Speaker 2: Got caught up in the old. You got caught up
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  Speaker 2: in the old, man, I mean, gotta gotta practice new
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  Speaker 2: habits that's.
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  Speaker 1: Out of here here or there. And you know where.
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  Speaker 1: We're at two sixty five Canal Street, where dreams happened,
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  Speaker 1: where magic's happened, with contracts being signed. It's ce Lovely
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  Speaker 1: sitting on his couch and I'm one of them. And
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  Speaker 1: you know who.
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  Speaker 2: I'm here with the one and only my dog Wolf
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  Speaker 2: wolfo man yo.
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  Speaker 1: Whoa whoa Wolf is up there now? You feel me
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  Speaker 1: expiring me speaking to like fifty people last week. So ship,
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  Speaker 1: I'm in there. We'll talking that talk about content, I said, okay,
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  Speaker 1: talk that ship woof And then like everybody running down
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  Speaker 1: on world for everybody want to know about content. Me.
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  Speaker 1: I feel like he was the best speaker and I
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  Speaker 1: ain't even try to be biased, but he he can't
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  Speaker 1: prepare outline. So playing, Yeah, yeah, I was tired.
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  Speaker 2: But I made it.
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  Speaker 1: I had to go support my boy man sliding to man,
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  Speaker 1: that was one of the best things.
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, Damn, I ain't like talking some ship like
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  Speaker 2: and that's when I realized I got the best producer
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  Speaker 2: in the game. You feel me me making more magic Now.
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  Speaker 2: I really appreciate you, sliding, bro, because you was the
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  Speaker 2: and this is no disrespect to nobody, but he was
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  Speaker 2: the only familiar face there, you know what I mean.
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  Speaker 2: So it was just nice having that support, you know
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  Speaker 2: what I mean, knowing that it's like and it could
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  Speaker 2: be motivating too. It's like my man's here now God that.
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  Speaker 1: Through Yeah yeah, but you gotta think about it. Like
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  Speaker 1: we always say, family is is like I chosen friends
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  Speaker 1: and this point chose the family. At this point we family.
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  Speaker 2: We locked in. It's been up a little over year,
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  Speaker 2: it's over year. Now we locked in. We straight moving.
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  Speaker 2: I was going through my phone yesterday. I was trying
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  Speaker 2: to delete because I ain't got no space in my.
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  Speaker 1: Phone, and I got I'm all through your ship, bro.
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  Speaker 2: I was like a year ago, Bro, a year ago,
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  Speaker 2: it was me and you and Inza. We was in
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  Speaker 2: here doing whatever the was doing.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I was remember that, bro, like when he was
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  Speaker 1: talking that was that was Father's day. Nut geez were working,
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  Speaker 1: were working, and this podcast responsible the Master Connected Agency.
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  Speaker 1: Shout out to you and Nicole. That book is on shelves.
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  Speaker 1: Hit Amazon up, run down, go cop that book. I'm
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  Speaker 1: telling you she's dropping juice, she dropping game. She the
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  Speaker 1: Master Connected for a reason. I feel you know, you
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  Speaker 1: need some knowledge. Go to www dot the Master Connected
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  Speaker 1: Agency dot com. She got it all up there. Man.
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  Speaker 1: She connected people for small fees and everything. Never know
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  Speaker 1: who I might head up and they might come and
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  Speaker 1: bless this couch thing the cold. So shout out to
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  Speaker 1: you and Nicole. But we're gonna get into this episode.
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  Speaker 1: Before we even get into that, I was thinking, how
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  Speaker 1: I'm instarted this. You know, we need a private investigation.
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  Speaker 1: We need a private and even investigatory to find a
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  Speaker 1: nigga that shot me and tell him that he I stumbled,
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  Speaker 1: but he ain't knocked me down. Nigga. I said, that's
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  Speaker 1: how he's starting that bit. Joe, I'm talking cocky now.
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  Speaker 1: Thirteen years in and looking look at me. Now you
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  Speaker 1: feel I'm feeling good?
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  Speaker 2: Wait a minute, you need you need a private investigator
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  Speaker 2: to find a nigga who showed you find a.
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  Speaker 1: Nigga that shot me, Just to tell a nigga that nigga,
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  Speaker 1: that nigga blind Poppy is doing good.
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  Speaker 2: What would you legit like if that nigga was if you,
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  Speaker 2: let's say, like on some real ship, the nigga was
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  Speaker 2: right in front of you, what.
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  Speaker 1: Would I say that? Yeah, thank you, thank you because
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  Speaker 1: why you helped me find myself? Oh yeah, it's so
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  Speaker 1: emotions is like thistu. At the end of the day,
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  Speaker 1: my life is good and like what about yours?
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  Speaker 2: It's probably not as good as yours. I can all.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, he sho. He probably out there looking at my
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  Speaker 1: clips in my pocket like.
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  Speaker 2: God, damn b no imagine this. Imagine bro, no funny ship.
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  Speaker 2: Imagine the nigga has seen your clip. Probably his heart
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  Speaker 2: probably dropped to the bottom of his feet, flipping falling
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  Speaker 2: because he's like, Bro, this nigga not only is he
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  Speaker 2: he loo, he going forward. You going for it to
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  Speaker 2: the head and I'm still here on me because you
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  Speaker 2: dead ass going for it like you do everything. Bro,
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  Speaker 2: like you got the fucking clubs. You're popping out, like Bro,
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  Speaker 2: let me let me tell you something. This is like
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  Speaker 2: the third time he done pulled up dolo. He usually
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  Speaker 2: got somebody to assist him, obviously. You know what I'm
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  Speaker 2: saying this, Bro text me today. I was in the
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  Speaker 2: other room doing the session. He was like, I'm downstairs
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  Speaker 2: the door lock. I go downstairs, Bro already, I'm thinking
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  Speaker 2: I'm about to help Bro get out the car. He's
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  Speaker 2: gonna be sitting in the car. He's gonna be waiting.
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  Speaker 1: I pulled up to your ship even for my speech.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, you Bro sitting right there. So it's like you
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  Speaker 2: gotta imagine Bro get out the car. I know not
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  Speaker 2: this to you, this is like how else I'm gonna
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  Speaker 2: do it right? But to me, I'm like, Bro, this
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  Speaker 2: ship is crazy, Like Bro hop out the v He
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  Speaker 2: was the stick, you know what I'm saying, moving that
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  Speaker 2: bitch around, so you hitting shit, making sure and then
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  Speaker 2: the nigga. He's like, Okay, I'm against the building. Cool,
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  Speaker 2: I'm a wait until my person come through. It's like, damn, Bro,
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  Speaker 2: I new best friend.
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  Speaker 1: Now.
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  Speaker 2: Man's is efficient.
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  Speaker 1: Like I said, I ran from this shiit thirteen years.
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  Speaker 1: I was scared of this stick for thirteen years. Now
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  Speaker 1: this is my sight, This is my best friend, this
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  Speaker 1: is my money maker.
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  Speaker 2: You know you you're doing what a man it's supposed
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  Speaker 2: to do, which is that it's not men. Men need help, right,
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  Speaker 2: we're not robots. But it's like sometimes you get to
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  Speaker 2: these moments in your life as a man where it's like,
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  Speaker 2: you know what, if I don't do this, it is
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  Speaker 2: not gonna get there.
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  Speaker 1: And I got tired of depending on people.
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  Speaker 2: You get know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 1: Got tired people telling me, oh they can't I shut down.
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  Speaker 2: How long was you depending on people before you? Before
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  Speaker 2: it click to you? You know what, I'm gonna start
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  Speaker 2: making my own moves blind not blind, It don't matter.
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  Speaker 1: Shit. The whole thirteen years, the whole thirteen years. Just
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  Speaker 1: started using this shit.
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  Speaker 2: Oh that's what you mean?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, I mean time just started.
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  Speaker 2: This is your first time like going places by yourself?
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  Speaker 1: Hell yeah, bro in thirteen years, thirteen years, like I
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  Speaker 1: went to places like by myself, like jumping into cats.
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  Speaker 1: But I never used the stick though. Yeah, it was
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  Speaker 1: all some shit. I'm listening to the engine and I
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  Speaker 1: started walking and I walk into the car, I walk
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  Speaker 1: around the car, I'm listen to the engine, and then
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  Speaker 1: once I hit the engine, I'm like, I had a
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  Speaker 1: car right head get in. I was living dangerous because
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  Speaker 1: like I could have got any call, even though I
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  Speaker 1: wasn't worried about that. But it's the first time I'm
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  Speaker 1: actually going walking with the stick. I'm moving with the stick.
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  Speaker 2: Before when I used to use the stick or whatever,
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  Speaker 2: or like, when I try to do a little content
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  Speaker 2: with the stick, I used to wait until people.
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  Speaker 1: Walk past to do it.
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  Speaker 2: That makes sense. I never want to listen to the
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  Speaker 2: footsteps here to chatter.
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  Speaker 1: Nah, I just walked in, let them walk past, and
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  Speaker 1: I never want them to see me with it.
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  Speaker 2: Mhm.
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  Speaker 1: I was. I was kind of ashamed of this shit
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  Speaker 1: that thirteen years, look at me now. And then besides,
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  Speaker 1: I put up a little video on Facebook and that
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  Speaker 1: shit went by. I'm like, damn, they love me. This
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  Speaker 1: is what they like people want to see. And then
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  Speaker 1: it's like I called myself the voice of the disablers
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  Speaker 1: and official blonde stuff, but how I'm not representing I entity?
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  Speaker 2: Also bro like no funny shit, But when you appear
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  Speaker 2: like a regular guy, then you gotta play by regular
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  Speaker 2: guy rules, and you shouldn't have to if you don't
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  Speaker 2: want to. Like, so if you want to, then it's
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  Speaker 2: like within ball means. But like understand regular guy rules.
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  Speaker 2: We gotta do way more to prove why we're worthy
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  Speaker 2: to be listened to versus you haven't. Because clearly the
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  Speaker 2: sweater is not enough. People don't think that you're blind,
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  Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying. So when you have the
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  Speaker 2: walking stick, is that the right way to say it? First?
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  Speaker 2: Walking Kane walking stick. So when you got the walking stick,
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  Speaker 2: visually people can associate like, oh okay, because like if
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  Speaker 2: people track your eyes, it doesn't look like you're blind,
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  Speaker 2: but if you look hard enough, you could be like, okay,
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  Speaker 2: well maybe I could see right. So once the stick
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  Speaker 2: get there, then they bring a three point context like oh,
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  Speaker 2: the eyes, the sweater, the stick, he's blind. And so
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  Speaker 2: now when people look now that it's a different type
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  Speaker 2: of response you might get as far as support, you get.
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  Speaker 1: What I'm saying, you need help. Oh, you can say
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  Speaker 1: right here.
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  Speaker 2: You don't get the regular third, I'm like, I love
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  Speaker 2: this ship. You ain't get shot. You ain't been in
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  Speaker 2: the dark for thirteen years to not get to get
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  Speaker 2: regular nigga support.
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  Speaker 1: Bro. I started taking as using my assessor right now,
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  Speaker 1: Fuck that shit. Too much money to ninety that's all
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  Speaker 1: of me right there. And it's just like two dollars
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  Speaker 1: ninety cent nigga.
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  Speaker 2: That's Metro, that's NTA.
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  Speaker 1: And you go anywhere in the Five Boroughs comfortable. You see.
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  Speaker 1: I be pulling up in Tesselas and all that. You know,
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  Speaker 1: I ride clean. I tell you y'all sitting that big
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  Speaker 1: white ship, I ain't getting on it now. My brand
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  Speaker 1: gotta be my brand. I sit clean like nah, when
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  Speaker 1: doing that big ass bus day, you can hit an
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  Speaker 1: engine from two blocks. Now, I'm too clean for that.
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  Speaker 1: Too clean for that. I respect Before I used to
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  Speaker 1: like the stick don't match my clothes, but nah to
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  Speaker 1: stick my best friend. I'm too clean for the other ship. Yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I ain't doing that.
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  Speaker 2: It's cool to yeah, be too clean.
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  Speaker 1: You got to ride and stop stylars die too. I mean,
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  Speaker 1: I just I just be feeling good of the work
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  Speaker 1: I've been putting then in the work that I accomplished
• 9:02
  Speaker 1: over these years, like these last couple of months, and
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  Speaker 1: it's like walking into the club this Saturday, and I'm
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  Speaker 1: just going to show love to somebody that on a
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  Speaker 1: party and DJ like the Stevie Wonder the party he
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  Speaker 1: called me, the Stevie Wonder of party promotions is here,
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  Speaker 1: the party promoter is here.
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  Speaker 2: Somebody got to do it. Somebody got to be Steve
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  Speaker 2: Wonder party promotion.
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  Speaker 1: I said, it's another blind nigga.
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  Speaker 2: I know.
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  Speaker 1: I'm the hood Ray Charles. They said, now they talk
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  Speaker 1: about you. I'm like what, I'm just in the vibing
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  Speaker 1: and I'm dancing. I'm feeling good. Yo, I was tripping
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  Speaker 1: out and everything. I'm feeling.
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  Speaker 2: It's good.
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  Speaker 1: You feel me. I'm walking around people like yo, bro, yo,
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  Speaker 1: we need to do a party together. Bro oh yo
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  Speaker 1: bro we needed we need I'm like yeah, I'm like, damn,
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  Speaker 1: I'm really important to the into this world, really important
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  Speaker 1: to the disabled world. Like I want more disabled people
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  Speaker 1: to come from like I want more disabled people to
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  Speaker 1: come after me and following my first up to do
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  Speaker 1: something different add on to it, like it's Stevie won
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  Speaker 1: though it's Ray Charles. Ce no and who next after?
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  Speaker 1: See no next after that person?
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  Speaker 2: You know we need to do. We need to funk
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  Speaker 2: around making mount rushmore of blond.
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  Speaker 1: They gotta put me up there. What they got crazy
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  Speaker 1: Ray Stevie is Ray Stevie me and who that person
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  Speaker 1: would because then the game is because I really don't
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  Speaker 1: know what too many blonde, but blonde Fury got blonde.
• 10:32
  Speaker 1: Then you got the but you got the Jamaican blonde niggas.
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  Speaker 1: I forgot the nigga name. I forgot his name, but
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  Speaker 1: you got big songs. He was more than he's bigger
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  Speaker 1: I say bigger than blonde Fory because he went on
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  Speaker 1: a tall running everything.
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  Speaker 2: His name it Naji boy. Okay, he's blond, okay, so
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  Speaker 2: he's big. So it's like I would have to put yo,
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  Speaker 2: no funny ship bro, like Mount Rushmore of blind people
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  Speaker 2: because a lot of people put in pain on on
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  Speaker 2: this earth, bro niggas. It's some worker around here. Yeah, Stevie,
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  Speaker 2: wonder bro Stevie Ray Right, what were we talking about? These
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  Speaker 2: niggas put in pain?
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  Speaker 1: Stevie Ray c note check that out there.
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  Speaker 2: Like that's actually fire as life goal to us to
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  Speaker 2: go for.
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  Speaker 1: That's like a good backdrop, good set. Let's build that set.
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  Speaker 2: I got I got the guy to do it, to
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  Speaker 2: paint it for you. I got the guy. Let me know,
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  Speaker 2: I got the guy you know what the money is,
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  Speaker 2: we can lock it in.
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  Speaker 1: No no, no, no, no, no, no no, let me
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  Speaker 1: know what it's hitting for.
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  Speaker 2: No, no, no, I got the guy.
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  Speaker 1: You feel me. Shopify store is up, but I ain't.
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  Speaker 1: I ain't released to the public. I'm just doing a
• 11:39
  Speaker 1: little tweaks and wait for my scale to come in.
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  Speaker 1: It's gonna be w w W dot blinde stuffer dot com.
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  Speaker 1: That's my shop off. I store be locked in with
• 11:47
  Speaker 1: that like everything is branded. And then when you get
• 11:49
  Speaker 1: your I want you to hashtag it. We're going up
• 11:52
  Speaker 1: right now. And then when you it ain't no more
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  Speaker 1: f obc do dot com. It's w w W dot
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  Speaker 1: c Christopher feld speaks dot com.
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  Speaker 2: Hold on, bro, can I send this nigga voice voice
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  Speaker 2: memo right now?
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  Speaker 1: Send a voice hold on?
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  Speaker 2: Hold on, Yo. So I produce a podcast right called Blind.
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  Speaker 2: But now I see as my man he been blind
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  Speaker 2: for thirteen you want to take that's right here? Okay,
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  Speaker 2: my man been blind for thirteen years, right, and we're
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  Speaker 2: doing the podcast, and I just thought to myself, like, bro,
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  Speaker 2: you know what, it'd be great if we fucking had
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  Speaker 2: a painting of a mount rushmore of Blind niggas say,
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  Speaker 2: it'll be Stevie, it'll be Ray, it'll be my man
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  Speaker 2: Ce No, and then it'll be maybe somebody else. But yo,
• 12:33
  Speaker 2: can we hire you to paint that for us? And
• 12:36
  Speaker 2: it's something we gonna have on set. It'll be oh,
• 12:39
  Speaker 2: this is so far, we'll have it on set and
• 12:40
  Speaker 2: it'll always be showing. So we could always give you
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  Speaker 2: credit to but let me definitely, yeah, let me know
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  Speaker 2: what the ticket is on that, bro, Thank you, bro, and.
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  Speaker 1: We can lock it in. Blind Poppy is here.
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  Speaker 2: Nah, this nigga too. I know him. I know him good.
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  Speaker 2: He like best friends with my cousin. Anyway. Fuck speaking
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  Speaker 2: the style, I see you got the new sweater on balls,
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  Speaker 2: that special you know, bro, got the fucking stars in
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  Speaker 2: the hoodie. What are you talking about? Got the Roys Royce.
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  Speaker 1: Hood you know, just that special limited. This that thirteen
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  Speaker 1: year anniversary. This is I look at it like this
• 13:13
  Speaker 1: my thirteenth birthday.
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  Speaker 2: Hold on, I gotta put this on my gram This this.
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  Speaker 1: Is my thirteenth birthday. This is that special limited. You've
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  Speaker 1: seen the white one, plain one. I had to come
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  Speaker 1: with the black one with the logo with the stars
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  Speaker 1: on it, matching the Flu games, Chicago Bulls had You
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  Speaker 1: know if I'm a step I'm a step big you
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  Speaker 1: feel me about the Flu games on and all like
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  Speaker 1: Black and Red. Let people know. Man, all right, come on, man,
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  Speaker 1: I doese this. I feel good. Private Investigator, get that man.
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  Speaker 1: Find that man.
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  Speaker 2: You serious?
• 13:44
  Speaker 1: I'm serious?
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  Speaker 2: Tell a man, man, how serious are you?
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  Speaker 1: Hundred serious? Wow?
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  Speaker 2: Hold on?
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  Speaker 1: He created a monster?
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  Speaker 2: What if we we can't do that?
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  Speaker 1: He created a monster.
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  Speaker 2: He created that because he never got caught for doing that. Right, No,
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  Speaker 2: he created a monster though he couldn't even go to
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  Speaker 2: jail for that. Now at this point, no, don't know
• 14:08
  Speaker 2: what the great thing about it.
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  Speaker 1: I don't want him to go to jail. I want
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  Speaker 1: him to see my success. I want him to eat
• 14:15
  Speaker 1: that ship up. Why because every time you go on Instagram,
• 14:19
  Speaker 1: you're on Facebook, You're going anywhere on the web, You're
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  Speaker 1: gonna see me, and it's like, I'm the nigga that
• 14:24
  Speaker 1: you tried to kill.
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  Speaker 2: Let me ask you some wild ship, bro, what if
• 14:32
  Speaker 2: he wanted to be on your show.
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  Speaker 1: And me and add to that level. Yet I'm still
• 14:38
  Speaker 1: a hood nigga. We ain't at that level. He nah,
• 14:43
  Speaker 1: I popped my ship and talk about ship. Well, we
• 14:45
  Speaker 1: ain't on that level yet. I don't know, but I
• 14:49
  Speaker 1: want to let you know, like I'm doing good for
• 14:52
  Speaker 1: myself after you did you feel me? And I was
• 14:55
  Speaker 1: like I was mad for so long. I let him
• 14:57
  Speaker 1: control the narrative of my life and now it's like
• 15:00
  Speaker 1: it's hard not being mad. Man. I ain't mad no more, Bro, Yeah,
• 15:03
  Speaker 1: I ain't mad. It was beautiful yesterday. Normally on the
• 15:06
  Speaker 1: twenty first, I'd be pissed off, I be teed up,
• 15:09
  Speaker 1: I'd be mad at the word because it's like what
• 15:11
  Speaker 1: could I did different? But yesterday I woke up like
• 15:15
  Speaker 1: you think this every time, the anniversary, every time, every time. First,
• 15:19
  Speaker 1: I'm laying on the couch and my right hand man,
• 15:22
  Speaker 1: my best friend, my brother Larry sent me that first message.
• 15:26
  Speaker 1: He was with me when I got shot. He the
• 15:28
  Speaker 1: one that went through the whole thing, holding my hand.
• 15:31
  Speaker 1: When I'm in there getting worked on everything and surgery
• 15:33
  Speaker 1: and everything, he texts me a heart emoji, a fingers
• 15:37
  Speaker 1: cross emoji. He like, I'm just doing a boss check.
• 15:40
  Speaker 1: Is you here? Are you good? I'm like, I'm great, Bro.
• 15:45
  Speaker 1: He said, you got a different level of strength, Bro,
• 15:49
  Speaker 1: I said, when I got good when I got good
• 15:51
  Speaker 1: niggas around me. Mane can't stop me, he said, I
• 15:55
  Speaker 1: just wanted to make sure you was good today, boss.
• 15:57
  Speaker 1: I enjoy your day. Good. I woke up in the morning.
• 16:01
  Speaker 1: The dollar is trying to get up. The beauty of
• 16:03
  Speaker 1: wakened my son up. Yeah, get up? He turned over.
• 16:07
  Speaker 1: You good.
• 16:08
  Speaker 2: I'm great.
• 16:10
  Speaker 1: God was in the room. I'm not down now. Normally
• 16:12
  Speaker 1: I be dragging this day. Boom, I'm good. Talk to
• 16:16
  Speaker 1: my daughter. How your mental health is? Mental health check?
• 16:19
  Speaker 1: I'm great.
• 16:20
  Speaker 2: We good.
• 16:21
  Speaker 1: Be locked in people tagging me thirteen years this time
• 16:25
  Speaker 1: and third years. This is my birthday. I ain't tripping
• 16:28
  Speaker 1: over this shit no more.
• 16:30
  Speaker 2: Now.
• 16:30
  Speaker 1: Yesterday was yesterday, twenty first, It's my birthday. I'm good.
• 16:34
  Speaker 1: It is it like?
• 16:35
  Speaker 2: What do is there something that people that love you
• 16:38
  Speaker 2: should do that day? Like they like? Is that is
• 16:41
  Speaker 2: that weird that people hit you on that day? Or
• 16:42
  Speaker 2: do you do you welcome that?
• 16:44
  Speaker 1: Nah? It's like it ain't wet because like they know
• 16:48
  Speaker 1: do the previous year is how it was for me.
• 16:51
  Speaker 1: It was hard for me when the twenty one, when
• 16:53
  Speaker 1: the twenty first came, I always try to relive the moment.
• 16:56
  Speaker 1: What could I did different. When the twenty first came,
• 16:59
  Speaker 1: I was moody. I was mad that shit took me
• 17:01
  Speaker 1: out at my element because it's like, damn, what did
• 17:04
  Speaker 1: I do to deserve this? Why? Like damn thirteen years?
• 17:07
  Speaker 1: The doctors told me, give ten years. I'm gonna sit
• 17:09
  Speaker 1: again in ten years. Let my eyes healing. All we
• 17:11
  Speaker 1: had thirteen so, like they know the effect of it.
• 17:16
  Speaker 1: That shit. Don't bother me, don't more, bro, I honestly said,
• 17:19
  Speaker 1: I woke up yesterday feel good.
• 17:21
  Speaker 2: This sounds crazy. I think you're gonna see it again, though.
• 17:23
  Speaker 1: Bro, think so I do.
• 17:25
  Speaker 2: I actually do. That'll be cool, but I ain't not
• 17:29
  Speaker 2: for sure for sure, no stress, you know, because you,
• 17:31
  Speaker 2: like you literally have created such a beautiful life for yourself. Bro,
• 17:35
  Speaker 2: Like you you so fucking motivation.
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: This podcast saved my life. Bro. Yeah, people don't understand.
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: This podcast saved my life because it was up into
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: this podcast where I could talk about it and not
• 17:45
  Speaker 1: cry about it when I leave. Before I used to
• 17:48
  Speaker 1: talk about it and go home, and.
• 17:50
  Speaker 2: Then sometimes I cried about it because how the fuck
• 17:53
  Speaker 2: was you really talking about it before you had a podcast? Like,
• 17:55
  Speaker 2: like honestly, like, how was you really talking about it?
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: Like standing outside, you know, people talking and people just
• 18:00
  Speaker 1: looking at you and they just want to say something.
• 18:02
  Speaker 2: Yeah. But see that's even that is kind of weird
• 18:04
  Speaker 2: because it's like, oh, like you talking to the niggas
• 18:06
  Speaker 2: you outside, but that's not necessarily the format to like
• 18:09
  Speaker 2: like when you when you politics, you know, black people,
• 18:11
  Speaker 2: we go deep, right, So it's like, yeah, you talking,
• 18:13
  Speaker 2: but it's like, but you ain't really really like maybe
• 18:15
  Speaker 2: the closest thing you're gonna get is maybe to your shorty,
• 18:18
  Speaker 2: to your mother if you're in your house, or a therapist.
• 18:22
  Speaker 1: Yeah no, that's a fact. So it's like, when do
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: you really get to like really dig into it, like
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: the real human being saying on the podcast. So if
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: you're gonna do something, come sit on the podcast, Come
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: sit on the jail, express your feelings. It's just you
• 18:33
  Speaker 1: the engineer in the room and cameras and microphones and
• 18:36
  Speaker 1: you can get it all out, no judgment, no nothing.
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: What really stuck to me one of the I mean,
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: and you gonna lock in what they guess a future
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: guests that's coming on. She didn't want to tell her
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: story because she was scared people gonna judge her, And
• 18:50
  Speaker 1: I told her fuck what people say. Be not worrying
• 18:54
  Speaker 1: about the two, three, four or five people that might
• 18:58
  Speaker 1: have something negative to say. We think about the people
• 19:00
  Speaker 1: that you changing their lives, people that you're saving, that
• 19:03
  Speaker 1: you're saving their lives, people that you're giving a voice too,
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: that went through the same situation as you. So who
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: gives a fuck about with the people that's saying that
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: going through what they're going through. Now we lifting, We
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: lift for moments like this right doing my best work
• 19:16
  Speaker 1: right now. Some people say negative stuff on there, I'll
• 19:20
  Speaker 1: skip back it sometimes I entertain it. Entertain it sometimes
• 19:24
  Speaker 1: cause it's like, yeah, I can go petty Blond Poppy sometimes,
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: you know, just to get the people. Man, I'm laughing
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: on the other end of the phone and the other
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: ending cause it's like I'm living my life. I'm living
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: my truth. Honds, I'm bothering you and we go from there.
• 19:36
  Speaker 1: But now I'm just living life, man, feeling good. My
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: thirteenth birthday. Blonde Poppy is out here. Special limit ted
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: shirts coming soon. Shopify about the drop. Just working man,
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: book me for your schools. Man, let me talk to
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: these kids. Man, I'm just saying, but I ain't allot
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: the value be going The value gonna be going up soon,
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: So y'all a better catch me while I'm at the
• 19:54
  Speaker 1: price I am now.
• 19:55
  Speaker 2: Oh, Bro, listen. If people don't listen, let me tell
• 19:58
  Speaker 2: y'all something before we drop into the outline. Let me
• 20:01
  Speaker 2: tell you something. Man, I've been telling people. I've been
• 20:05
  Speaker 2: telling y'all this guy. He thinks, he thinks, and he
• 20:11
  Speaker 2: thinks in multi he has multimillionaire, multimillion dollar thoughts. I'm
• 20:16
  Speaker 2: not bigging him up. That's not that's I'm not gassing it.
• 20:20
  Speaker 2: It's none of that. But like this, this is how
• 20:22
  Speaker 2: he was when I met him. He was already like this.
• 20:23
  Speaker 2: We didn't develop this together. He had this already, you understand.
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: So it's like just when we locked in, it just
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: got even serious.
• 20:31
  Speaker 2: So the thing is, it is like, if you want
• 20:34
  Speaker 2: to lock in with Bro and you want to collaborate
• 20:36
  Speaker 2: with him in some type of way, it gotta make sense, though,
• 20:39
  Speaker 2: Gotta make gotta make sense. You know what I'm saying.
• 20:41
  Speaker 2: We're not we're not just doing anything. But if you
• 20:42
  Speaker 2: want to collaborate with Bro in some kind of way,
• 20:44
  Speaker 2: I'm telling you everything gotta start right before Apple became Apple,
• 20:50
  Speaker 2: it was it was something small, but it.
• 20:51
  Speaker 1: Was on his way before Joey had the rings, but.
• 20:55
  Speaker 2: It was on his way, jay Z.
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: It was on his way, not every So what I'm
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: saying is like said had that big hit, it was
• 21:01
  Speaker 1: on his way. And the thing is, it's like, so
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: y'all better catching while ya can.
• 21:05
  Speaker 2: And you got to understand the difference though, is because
• 21:07
  Speaker 2: his situation, your situation is so unique. There is nobody
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: ain't gonna find too many like me that's in your lane.
• 21:14
  Speaker 2: They can't be because, first of all, even if somebody,
• 21:17
  Speaker 2: even if we want to U like entertain the idea
• 21:20
  Speaker 2: of like, oh, somebody got shot, and then it's like, well,
• 21:22
  Speaker 2: first of all, the fact that you're even alive, so
• 21:25
  Speaker 2: somebody else it's like, yeah, you might, let's say you
• 21:27
  Speaker 2: get shot or something, but then it's like, who's to say, like, nigga,
• 21:32
  Speaker 2: you might, you might have to bounce back from your injury,
• 21:34
  Speaker 2: might take you another five years, but you already thirteen
• 21:36
  Speaker 2: into yours on the.
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: On the upside, thirteen gays into this ship on the upside.
• 21:41
  Speaker 2: So it's like, so my point being, it's like his lane.
• 21:44
  Speaker 2: The only thing that could stop him from finding everything
• 21:47
  Speaker 2: he looking for in this is him. Nothing else will
• 21:50
  Speaker 2: stop him because there's nobody else all these other lanes
• 21:53
  Speaker 2: that we in, even me as a podcast, so like
• 21:55
  Speaker 2: I'm trying to have a self development podcast. You know
• 21:57
  Speaker 2: how many niggas in that lane? So many many niggas
• 22:00
  Speaker 2: is in that lane? You get what I'm saying.
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: So many niggas in the lane, but it's only one
• 22:03
  Speaker 1: Wolf Teler.
• 22:04
  Speaker 2: Yeah true, But but in his lane, there's nobody there.
• 22:06
  Speaker 2: Oh and definitely Now I can't tell you too me.
• 22:09
  Speaker 2: I've never seen a blind podcaster, to be honest, that's smooth,
• 22:13
  Speaker 2: too cool with it. You see the merch got the
• 22:16
  Speaker 2: good brand, good good brand.
• 22:18
  Speaker 1: Photo shoot?
• 22:19
  Speaker 2: Ready bro, when we get that fucking painting. I'm telling you, Bro,
• 22:23
  Speaker 2: that's such a genius idea.
• 22:24
  Speaker 1: You're going crazy.
• 22:25
  Speaker 2: Remember when we was having a conversation, I was like,
• 22:27
  Speaker 2: you know, podcasters that build a world around them on
• 22:30
  Speaker 2: the set, that's what we have to do.
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 22:32
  Speaker 2: No, And honestly, I've been meaning to hit Bro for
• 22:35
  Speaker 2: a minute for my ship, but you don't how money go.
• 22:37
  Speaker 2: It's like my money getting allocated other places. But it's like, yes,
• 22:42
  Speaker 2: that ship right behind us.
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: Yeah, we're gon, we're gonna get you an LC and
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: all that shit be moving for the twenty twenty five year.
• 22:49
  Speaker 2: Listen, let's get into moving.
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: Let's get it definitely get into this outline what we
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: talk about today. All right.
• 22:53
  Speaker 2: So I feel like it's never a bad time to
• 22:56
  Speaker 2: talk about mental health when it comes.
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: To man, there's definitely like a lot of people running ducket.
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: I was one of them.
• 23:01
  Speaker 2: Yeah, never never a bad idea to do that. So
• 23:04
  Speaker 2: I got a couple questions that I wanted to ask you,
• 23:06
  Speaker 2: let's talk really get your opinion on this. Do you
• 23:11
  Speaker 2: think a man's worth is based on how much he's needed?
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: Uh? One, I ain't gonna lie. I thought it was,
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: but it's not.
• 23:19
  Speaker 2: It's not.
• 23:20
  Speaker 1: It's definitely not. I was one of those like, all right,
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: I lost my vision. I was no I was with
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: my ex. I felt I was not a man because
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: I can't do the things that I once did for
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: her before. It was tripping me up to a point.
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: It's like I felt lifeless and hopeless, when really that
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: was just in my mind in my head, because it
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: was like, all right, you get out the call, excuse me,
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: get these bags. But I'm like, damn, I gotta hold
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: onto your shoulder, like you can still carry these bags,
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: right cool, I'm walking in there with the bags. That
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: made me feel like, oh damn, I'm still a man.
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: You go to the laundry carry these bags, carried his bag,
• 24:10
  Speaker 1: so it's like I'm picking the bag up because it's heavy,
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: and she's behind me guiding me to the building. Made
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: me feel like a man, Christopher, I need you to
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: put this up, and I'm saying there and saying, how
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: the hell I'm putting a hole in the wall with
• 24:24
  Speaker 1: her now and this and a third, But she she
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: never like discourage to me that I couldn't do it. Nah,
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: go ahead, like hit right there this or no, I
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: got it up, and I got it up and moving.
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: So I looked at it like it was more of
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: a pride thing that damn, I'm a man, I can't
• 24:46
  Speaker 1: do certain things when really it's other ways around it.
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: And she really showed that, like she really showed me
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: that it don't matter if I need somebody to help
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: me do it. I'm still a man. And I was
• 24:58
  Speaker 1: cool with that.
• 24:58
  Speaker 2: I'm sure you appreciate that, like she like she's not
• 25:02
  Speaker 2: treating you like.
• 25:03
  Speaker 1: She never stripped me from being a man. She showed
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: me that I'm still a man even in the even
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: and if I'm an adult. And I loved it, like, yo,
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: you got two hands, like you don't have to see
• 25:13
  Speaker 1: to do this. Let's get it going. I'm like, and
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: I love it.
• 25:17
  Speaker 2: You still got a responsibility. I love it. That makes
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: you feel good because you feel like you.
• 25:22
  Speaker 1: I never lost who I am. I never lost it
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: being a man. No, I can't do this. Nah. It
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: put me in a depression. Nah, I don't know you.
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: You don't excuse me. You don't got to see to
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: do this. Make you feel like you got some of
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: your purpose? Yeah, Like I'm still at she still even
• 25:38
  Speaker 1: though she's helping me doing it, she still valued me
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: as a man, nothing less than that. And I love that.
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: And that's why And to this day I give it
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: nothing but respect. That's beautiful, like I give another recept.
• 25:49
  Speaker 1: She never made me feel low like how some people
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: definitely try to. It's like a nigga, you can't do this, this, that,
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: and the third it was like, oh damn that she
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: made me second against myself. But then you got somebody
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: that's right here, like, oh, now can you put this
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: on the top show for me? Like she could easily
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: stand in the chair and put it up there, but nah,
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: I want you to do it. Like that's like I'm
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: doing a man's job. I ain't cooled, no problem, I
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: could do that, And I'm like, damn, I'm still a man.
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: Like she's not stripping that away from me. I'm still
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: a man. When she cooked, she's bringing it like like
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: little ship, like you can wash it this ship evencause
• 26:29
  Speaker 1: you're blind, you can't do this. And now hell yeah,
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: I wash thishes. I cook everything like and I feel
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: like shout outs to her. She gave me my She
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: showed me that I'm still independent.
• 26:40
  Speaker 2: You know. I don't be cooking though, Like how the
• 26:42
  Speaker 2: fuck a.
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: Man cooking with blind Poppy coming song? Like cooking with season,
• 26:47
  Speaker 1: my my season, my food and everything myself season it
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: cook You.
• 26:52
  Speaker 2: Have somebody put the seasons out for you.
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: No, I do everything in myself.
• 26:55
  Speaker 2: You grabbed the season.
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: Yes, I promise you know what's what because I keep
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: it on top of the f R. I know, alright,
• 27:01
  Speaker 1: this complete season, this lorries, this iron powder, this garlic powder.
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: I know the different seasons. How do you know? Just
• 27:11
  Speaker 1: like the texture sometimes just like the shape of the bottle.
• 27:15
  Speaker 2: The shape, what about the weight, Like not so much.
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: The weight, but just the shape of the bottle, because
• 27:23
  Speaker 1: sometimes like it would be different sizes, like the complete
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: season is bigger than them. I know the lorries is
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: round like a round dick tool.
• 27:32
  Speaker 2: You can smell it too, Oh, you could definitely smell it.
• 27:35
  Speaker 2: I definitely smell like, all right, this is what is what?
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: Especially iron and gallic.
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: You can tell the difference. Go from there, says, throw
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: it on there, mix it up, you know what I mean,
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: Put the grease on. I might know what like take
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: the flowers, sprinkling it when it starts, says, and I'm like,
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: that ship is hot. Let's cook should be all right,
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: I should be fire fire. I can call it like
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: about ten people right now, and they're right.
• 28:03
  Speaker 2: Nah.
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: That nigga banadas is crazy, ZD crazy, my steak rice
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: and corn crazy. I gets busy in the kitchen. I
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: love to cook burgers, fries, pull chops, chicken, barbecue, bake fry.
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: I gets busy in it. I love it. I get
• 28:23
  Speaker 1: I gets busy in the kitchen. I mean cook it
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: with block poppy coming soon. I gonna see me do
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: it all. I ain't even hold you.
• 28:27
  Speaker 2: I got it.
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: I got a couple of adventures coming up. But men
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: don't feel like if you lose ability of something, mobility
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: of something, like, you're still a man. Don't let nobody
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: take that away from you. Don't If a woman beating
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: you down, telling you that you're not a man, then
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: that's not the woman for you. She's supposed to say, baby,
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: it's okay, we could do this, we could do that,
• 28:48
  Speaker 1: Like it's cool. I'm the type like say, if I
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: wasn't blunting, I was in a wheelchair and I need
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: help to get to a like the top of the figerator. Shit,
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: my baby going to hold me from the back, like
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: MYNLD lift me up. Shit, we did it together. I'm
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: feeling I'm feeling good. I appreciate you, Like, yeah, of
• 29:06
  Speaker 1: course I need your help. At the end of the day,
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: I still feel like a man by doing this carrying bags.
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: Some people like no, because I'm disabled. No, I got it.
• 29:14
  Speaker 1: I got it. No, don't worry about don't. No, I'm
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: still a man. I could do it. I learned climb
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: ladders to change the light bulbs. I feel like a man.
• 29:23
  Speaker 2: Let me ask you this, have you ever hid your
• 29:26
  Speaker 2: emotions behind your work ethics. Like sometimes guys like maybe
• 29:31
  Speaker 2: you could like because you obviously you work really hard,
• 29:34
  Speaker 2: you know what I mean. But do you ever find
• 29:37
  Speaker 2: feel like you're working so hard as a way to
• 29:39
  Speaker 2: distract yourself from dealing with the emotions that would be there.
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: Absolutely. I feel like when I had too much time
• 29:46
  Speaker 1: to day, I go back into the being depressed. So, nah,
• 29:50
  Speaker 1: I get up, what I'm going to do today, what
• 29:52
  Speaker 1: I'm going to talk about today, what videos I'm creating today.
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: Let me go check BGBT or give me give me
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: ten quotes. I can turn these. It's a videos. I
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: can't leave my I can't leave no time for me
• 30:04
  Speaker 1: just to sit around there and mope about something I
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: can't change. And a lot of people sitting they sorrow.
• 30:11
  Speaker 1: I can't be one of them. I did it for
• 30:13
  Speaker 1: the first eight years of me going blind. I can't
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: do it no more. So now when I get up,
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: I know I wake up every day like four or
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: five in the morning. Every day. I get up, all right,
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: let me get let me give you some push ups. Now,
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: I'm back doing push ups. Now. Now, let me get
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: push ups now. I do like clips of ten So
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: it's like a good song. I do ten. I let
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: a song play, I rest another song, I go down,
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: do ten. I try like I'm at fifty right now,
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: because I'm back in motion right now. I ain't gonna
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: stop till I get a hundred in a day, you
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: feel me. Then I sit before I even do that.
• 30:46
  Speaker 1: Sometime I wake up before I even pick up the
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: phone or anything I saidn't say it. Thank God for
• 30:50
  Speaker 1: another day, and manin' God, thank you for another day.
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: Thank you for the kids, my kids around me, my
• 30:56
  Speaker 1: niece is my nephew. Thanks for just blessing me to
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: motivate the world again. And after that, I get on
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: the floor, I do my pushups, go in the bathroom
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: and watch my phase, brush my teeth, and I sit there,
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: go on TikTok. Scroll. I got two different phones, so
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: I got one phone with ratchet content, and then I
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: got another phone that got the motivation, the business and
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: all that. And I get on the business one. I scroll.
• 31:19
  Speaker 1: I scroll. Then when I get tired of that, scroll,
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: look at my thumbs are like, all right, it's enough boom.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: Let me listen to some podcasts today. I might put
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: on halfway up, might put on decisions decisions might put
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: on million dollars worth of game Melani Money Show like
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: melan In Money Show, earn Your at Leasia, Social Proof,
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: that's stay in rotations because it's business content. I don't
• 31:42
  Speaker 1: want to be here. I don't want to be in
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: the predictam man. Yet I'm at every day, while I'm
• 31:46
  Speaker 1: at today, I want more. I deserve more. It's stuff
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: out there that I got my name on it. I
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: just gotta find ways to get to it. Like one
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: business could come one business can create seven incomes. So
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: how I'm in make myself income to get this ship up.
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: That's the way I think now. But if I didn't
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: think like that, I wouldn't be coming to the podcast.
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't be consistent. I be moping about why me
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: wom blonde?
• 32:11
  Speaker 2: Not?
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: It don't work like that? Yeah, it don't work like that.
• 32:15
  Speaker 2: And the speech that I had, you know, one of
• 32:17
  Speaker 2: the second one of the points that I made is like,
• 32:19
  Speaker 2: you got to make the most of what you have.
• 32:20
  Speaker 2: You have to And I was saying that, like, you know,
• 32:23
  Speaker 2: if you continue to look at life like, oh, I
• 32:25
  Speaker 2: can't do this because of what I don't have, then
• 32:27
  Speaker 2: you'll never have. You'll never have.
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: Turn your trauma into a success story.
• 32:32
  Speaker 2: You know, like at the end of the day, like
• 32:33
  Speaker 2: no matter who you are, no matter what you're dealing with,
• 32:36
  Speaker 2: right like they're what they're challenge with doesn't even have
• 32:39
  Speaker 2: to be similar to yours. But it's like at the
• 32:42
  Speaker 2: end of the day, all you have is literally all
• 32:45
  Speaker 2: you have, no matter what it is, bro, all you
• 32:47
  Speaker 2: got is what you got. And I promise you the
• 32:50
  Speaker 2: deck of cards that you got currently you got one
• 32:52
  Speaker 2: job on this planet to work that decer cards. That's
• 32:56
  Speaker 2: best of your ability. And if you don't, you got
• 32:58
  Speaker 2: nobody to blame but yourself.
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: And then you said you mope, you sit in sorrow
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: when it's other people and it's where are going today?
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: That's that's that's battling with other ship too, and they're
• 33:10
  Speaker 1: making the best out of it. Like we were just
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: in the room and you were speaking and a god
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: like yo, you know, he lived in a funeral home.
• 33:18
  Speaker 1: Then somebody like they got molested by they stuff like damn,
• 33:21
  Speaker 1: and you like you think your story is bad till
• 33:23
  Speaker 1: you listen to somebody else ship. So it's like you
• 33:27
  Speaker 1: sitting sorrow, you just setting yourself back because now you
• 33:30
  Speaker 1: got you gotta spend day after day to try to
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: get yourself from the past, to bring yourself to present
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: to the future, coming from somebody that that been there
• 33:41
  Speaker 1: the first eight years. If I was the person I
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: am now, back then, I would have been out there.
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: I would have been going already. I would have been gone.
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: But things happened and Tom and toman Is. I feel
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: like tom Is is perfect because I rented to I
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: rent it to you. We locked in. Like I said
• 34:00
  Speaker 1: said before, I work with a lot of producers, but
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: I never produced it great content until I linked up
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: with you. I mean, content was great and all that shit.
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: But I look at from when I first started to now,
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: it's like you can see that. You can see the growth,
• 34:12
  Speaker 1: you can see the change. You can see I involved,
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: I revolved, So it's like, I mean, it was the
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: best time that for it to happen. Yeah, And we
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: moving and were going from there. We're shaking. Yeah, No,
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: that's real, bro, we shaking.
• 34:28
  Speaker 2: What about you? How you feel about it? Hiding my
• 34:32
  Speaker 2: emotions behind how I feel. I do it all the time.
• 34:35
  Speaker 1: It's not good, though, do it all the time. It's
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: not good. I feel like all that should bottle up.
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: You like a walking tombone the littlest things could act.
• 34:44
  Speaker 1: I was like that, I'm People came around and it's
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: like I was like regular, it was like nothing. I
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: was happy, I was jolly, I was smiling. But when
• 34:55
  Speaker 1: I went in there a room, It's like I'm breaking down.
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: I'm crying. I'm like why I keep it? And then
• 35:00
  Speaker 1: like I'm not in pain? Why I act like nothing
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: is wrong? People like, oh, nah, he's good, he's a right.
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: How's Christy? He's good, he's a right? They see me?
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: Or damn, bro, you got yo? You strong? You smelling this?
• 35:12
  Speaker 1: That and the third. But in my mind is like,
• 35:14
  Speaker 1: y'all I'm in pain right now? Do y'all know I'm
• 35:17
  Speaker 1: in pain? Oh you want to drink? Yeah, hell let
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: me drink. Why I'm gonna try to drink my pain
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: away so I won't have to think about this. But
• 35:24
  Speaker 1: when I go home laying on that pillow, I'm crying, Damn,
• 35:27
  Speaker 1: why me? Why I'm in his dog? Yeah?
• 35:30
  Speaker 2: It's you know, when you when it comes to like,
• 35:36
  Speaker 2: if you're going through something, you feel uncomfortable, you said,
• 35:39
  Speaker 2: whatever the thing is that you're feeling that you don't
• 35:42
  Speaker 2: want to feel. There's so many bad decisions you can
• 35:45
  Speaker 2: make to cover it up that sometimes when it comes
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: to like covering it up with work, it just feels better,
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: It feels less guilty to cover up the feeling that
• 35:57
  Speaker 2: you're running away from. Because sometimes you're running away from
• 36:00
  Speaker 2: an emotion you don't know really how to deal with it,
• 36:04
  Speaker 2: and you're.
• 36:04
  Speaker 1: Just gonna keep running, keep running, keep running. But then
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: it's like when you when you meet the edge of
• 36:10
  Speaker 1: that cliff, what happens. All that shit is bottled up
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: inside and it's hurting you. You might just go over,
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: Like I feel like it's bester to talk and let
• 36:24
  Speaker 1: people know about your emotions. So if you ever meet
• 36:27
  Speaker 1: that cliff, you you don't talk it over to a
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: point you could talk yourself with that age to step back.
• 36:33
  Speaker 1: It ain't made for me to go over. But when
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: you're at that edge, it's so much going through your hand,
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: it's so much you just feel like you're not you're
• 36:39
  Speaker 1: not worthy of being there, and then you'll jump over
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: the edge.
• 36:43
  Speaker 2: I also feel like if excellent point first of all,
• 36:46
  Speaker 2: to add on top of that, I also feel like
• 36:48
  Speaker 2: you know when you feel bad or when you feel
• 36:51
  Speaker 2: uncomfortable or uneasy or is there something going on. Maybe
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: there's a loss in your family. Maybe it's maybe you
• 36:57
  Speaker 2: and your friend not tight no, or maybe you broke
• 36:59
  Speaker 2: you know what I mean, maybe it's having their breakup.
• 37:01
  Speaker 2: Like I think, it's really important for people to understand
• 37:04
  Speaker 2: that feeling that you that you're feeling right now, that's
• 37:07
  Speaker 2: making you feel uncomfortable and that's why you want to
• 37:09
  Speaker 2: sex the pain away or drink or whatever. That feeling
• 37:14
  Speaker 2: is showing up, because y'all need to have an introduction.
• 37:18
  Speaker 2: Y'all need to be and what you need to do. Listen,
• 37:22
  Speaker 2: I can't tell you one hundred percent what to do,
• 37:24
  Speaker 2: but what I can tell you is that when that
• 37:26
  Speaker 2: feeling comes, don't run from it. I mean, you gotta
• 37:29
  Speaker 2: feel bad, you gotta feel bad. I can tell you
• 37:32
  Speaker 2: what to do when you feel that feeling. It's okay
• 37:35
  Speaker 2: to sit.
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: Somebody down like this is how I'm feeling today, because
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: people like how you feeling today. I'm good knowing that
• 37:40
  Speaker 1: I'm not good to the point. It used to be
• 37:43
  Speaker 1: times where I call my mother and I'm crying because
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: i feel like I'm at the age like it's hard,
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: I can't do this, and she's at work and she's
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: trying to like she's talking to me about off that age.
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: She's times I call my grandfather and he called me,
• 37:57
  Speaker 1: and I call my grandfather. He like, yeah, Chris, and
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: I'm calling him like Daddy, I'm at my breaking point.
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: I can't fight no more. He's like, nah, you can't
• 38:05
  Speaker 1: give up with me. Now, you gotta keep fight. You
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: got to keep swinging. I ain't teach you this. Keep
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: them hands up, keep swinging. Don't let the devil take
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: you over. And I sat there and I'm like damn,
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: and I come off my edge. The's times I sat there.
• 38:18
  Speaker 1: I called my ex to honey and I'm like, yo,
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: it's hard. And I cried on the phone and she's
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: like yo, but you know what we was against. And
• 38:27
  Speaker 1: I set there like damn, and it's like, cool, I
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: gotta fight this bad or I gotta fight this me
• 38:31
  Speaker 1: get up. It's time. Like I didn't want to express
• 38:35
  Speaker 1: my emotions to my friends because it's like they only
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: look at me as one way to a point. My
• 38:40
  Speaker 1: right hand in the same one that I got shot with.
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: He'd be he worked, Oh he used to work over nights.
• 38:45
  Speaker 1: Me and him is on the phone and all that
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: and I told him like, yeah, damn, bro, I'm going
• 38:50
  Speaker 1: through it. I'm like and we sat there, were talking
• 38:53
  Speaker 1: back on the phone because he's telling me what he
• 38:55
  Speaker 1: going through and I'm telling him what I'm going through,
• 38:57
  Speaker 1: and it's like for a minute, it's like we vulnerable
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: to each other. We be understanding each other, We're trying
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: to help each other out, trying to figure it out.
• 39:04
  Speaker 1: I'm not high now, emotions no more. My oldest sister Crystal,
• 39:08
  Speaker 1: I call and I'm crying. I'm like, yo, it's just hard,
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: and she's like, yo, I know, stink fuk, but you
• 39:12
  Speaker 1: gotta stand in there, like you can't leave me now.
• 39:15
  Speaker 1: And it's like all right, cool. So that's the first step,
• 39:17
  Speaker 1: is telling the people how you feel instead of high
• 39:20
  Speaker 1: in it. For the first couple of years I hit it,
• 39:23
  Speaker 1: it was not see no good. Yeah, I yo, he good.
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: My mother like, man, this big a nigga good.
• 39:31
  Speaker 2: But really inside, I'm dying inside now if I'm not
• 39:35
  Speaker 2: feeling good, you're always one of them days like what's wrong? Nah?
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: Just just thinking this that. And the third I'm not
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: ashamed to say it because now I feel much better
• 39:43
  Speaker 1: when it's out there. And now when it's out in
• 39:46
  Speaker 1: the universe. I got my little brother calling me, what's
• 39:48
  Speaker 1: going on, gang, what's up? How you feeling? Got my sister,
• 39:51
  Speaker 1: what's up? Mommy told me you having a bad day.
• 39:53
  Speaker 1: I got my little sister come over here with her kids.
• 39:56
  Speaker 1: The twins. They running and they jumping on me. I
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: love you, uncle Chris. They kissing me. Just the third
• 40:00
  Speaker 1: it's like, I feel better now. No, I'm not feeling.
• 40:04
  Speaker 1: My son coming in he's he's signing wrong. He'll walk
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: back and forth, walking back and forth. He had jumped this, that,
• 40:08
  Speaker 1: and the third, he'd be a play fighting all that. Man,
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: that feeling that is going down. I express how I feel.
• 40:15
  Speaker 1: So the best thing to do is express it instead
• 40:17
  Speaker 1: of bottling keeping it bottled up, because the only thing
• 40:19
  Speaker 1: is going to do is just you just a walking
• 40:21
  Speaker 1: tom bamb to either hurt yourself or somebody else. And
• 40:23
  Speaker 1: it's not good. It's definitely not good. I've been I've
• 40:27
  Speaker 1: been in these points. I've been in these places. I've
• 40:29
  Speaker 1: been in these points when I try to hurt myself.
• 40:31
  Speaker 1: I've been in these places when I hurt other people. Nah,
• 40:34
  Speaker 1: sometimes it's just a simple I'm not feeling good today.
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: The world is dark today. That's it. Yeah.
• 40:40
  Speaker 2: That that perfectly leads into my next question, which is, like,
• 40:45
  Speaker 2: can you talk about the importance of asking for help
• 40:47
  Speaker 2: before you start drowning? I'm about to go into the
• 40:49
  Speaker 2: other run. I'm gonna stop the session just yeah. Can
• 40:52
  Speaker 2: you you can keep going, though? Can you tell me
• 40:53
  Speaker 2: about the importance of a man asking for help before
• 40:57
  Speaker 2: he gets to the point where he feels like he's drowning?
• 41:00
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I less you want to clip it there when
• 41:05
  Speaker 1: you're going back, not go for it, go for it.
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: So I feel like it's best to ask for help
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: before you start drowning, because it can really be too late.
• 41:19
  Speaker 1: I feel it was definitely me like I don't, like
• 41:24
  Speaker 1: I said, I don't abuse alcohol, I don't abuse drugs.
• 41:28
  Speaker 1: I don't put my hands on women, I don't put
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: my hands on friends. I don't felt like I was
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: like helpless and lost and I was by myself. I
• 41:39
  Speaker 1: was confused when the whole time, the littlest things I
• 41:43
  Speaker 1: could have dode was just ask for help to do
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: certain things. Oh, I can't pick my son up from school.
• 41:49
  Speaker 1: I'm set up there moping and I'm crying about it,
• 41:52
  Speaker 1: when I could have just had somebody just to say,
• 41:54
  Speaker 1: you know, can you please take me? Can you help me?
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: And that little thing where it went far At the time,
• 42:04
  Speaker 1: I wasn't comfortable walking with the stick, Yo, can you
• 42:08
  Speaker 1: please help me to the store? But it said I
• 42:10
  Speaker 1: got frustrated because I felt like I was, like, to
• 42:13
  Speaker 1: go back to the first point of the podcast, I
• 42:18
  Speaker 1: felt like I was a man. I couldn't ask for
• 42:20
  Speaker 1: help or I couldn't ask for somebody to do something
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: because I felt like I was less of a man.
• 42:25
  Speaker 1: There's nothing wrong with help. I felt like that's the
• 42:29
  Speaker 1: best thing to do. It's ask for help because trying
• 42:33
  Speaker 1: to figure things out and do it yourself and you
• 42:35
  Speaker 1: don't know what direction you're going in the only place
• 42:38
  Speaker 1: you're going is down underwater you're going and like quick
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: saying taking like taking the floor from up under you
• 42:48
  Speaker 1: ask for the help, like yo, I'm drowning, throw the
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: lifeguard in, grab my hand. We don't, we don't. We
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: don't have to honestly speak, We don't have to suffer
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: when we got people around us to help us. We
• 43:05
  Speaker 1: definitely got to reach out more to when we need help.
• 43:09
  Speaker 1: Like like I said before, you left out, even if
• 43:13
  Speaker 1: it's to eat. There's nothing wrong with reaching out to
• 43:15
  Speaker 1: the people around y'all. Listen, it's been a bad week
• 43:18
  Speaker 1: for me. I don't have money to eat. Can you
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: help me? I felt like a lot of people Proude
• 43:23
  Speaker 1: is too big for that. No, we need to put
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: the pride aside to reach out to the ones that
• 43:28
  Speaker 1: we have around you and helped. Like I explained, I
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: knew my podcast had potential. I kept reaching out to you. Yo,
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: you ain't ready to be the producer yet, this, that,
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: and the third until I you cave in. And the
• 43:45
  Speaker 1: body of the body of work that we are producing
• 43:48
  Speaker 1: every weekend, giving it to the packaging and giving it
• 43:50
  Speaker 1: up to the people, it's phenomenal. So it's like it's
• 43:54
  Speaker 1: priceless to a point. Later, podcast networks in different gonna
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: be beaten at my door, knockn have my door.
• 44:03
  Speaker 2: I know it is. And then now it's like, now
• 44:05
  Speaker 2: that I got this, this great body of work, and
• 44:08
  Speaker 2: I could I could demand what I want cool, I don't.
• 44:11
  Speaker 1: Want you to produce. I got to bring my producer
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: with me. I don't want this, I don't want that,
• 44:15
  Speaker 1: like and what that came from that came from me
• 44:19
  Speaker 1: reaching my head out for help and what being a
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: lifeguard to pull me out the water, to help me out?
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: I lost the whole episode with Weezy Weezy w t
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: F Weezy, decision, decision, whatever you want to name her.
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: I was sick bro for that moment. I wanted to
• 44:41
  Speaker 1: give up podcasting after that, Yeah, I feel you. But
• 44:45
  Speaker 1: then look what happened. Weezy willing to come back up here,
• 44:49
  Speaker 1: And it all came from the help that I reached
• 44:52
  Speaker 1: out for. It's not wrong that me and Wolf took
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: all the time. Things he needs help with. I'm here,
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: things I need help with. He here. It's like it
• 45:00
  Speaker 1: is a combination. There's no pride, no that we laugh.
• 45:02
  Speaker 1: We joke. That's what good friends about. It was one
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: time that our text Wolf, damn, it's feeling dark. I'm
• 45:09
  Speaker 1: feeling like I need some white. It's dark, and it's like, damn,
• 45:14
  Speaker 1: why you felt like that?
• 45:14
  Speaker 2: Dog?
• 45:15
  Speaker 1: We came in here, We made a podcast, made magic
• 45:18
  Speaker 1: like little shit. I have a hard time trusting people.
• 45:22
  Speaker 1: I had Wolf woking me up Canal Street with my stick.
• 45:25
  Speaker 1: My mother said, you must really trust him. I don't
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: do that with nobody, everybody, even for me to come
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: to the studio by myself and like somewhat putting my
• 45:36
  Speaker 1: life in your hands. I trust trust. Look at a
• 45:40
  Speaker 1: combination we build so and like to flip the question around,
• 45:45
  Speaker 1: if you feel like you drowning, are you too man
• 45:49
  Speaker 1: enough to reach out for help? One of those I
• 45:54
  Speaker 1: gotta figure it out myself.
• 45:57
  Speaker 2: In a lot of ways. Yeah, I'm not gonna I'm
• 45:59
  Speaker 2: not as bro in a lot of ways.
• 46:02
  Speaker 1: Wow, don't you know sometimes you can go a week
• 46:05
  Speaker 1: further if you just asks. You can't ask everybody, because
• 46:09
  Speaker 1: some people just not your friends. Some people love to
• 46:11
  Speaker 1: see your downfall.
• 46:12
  Speaker 2: Some people live off that, and they live off people
• 46:15
  Speaker 2: down for Yeah, but if you're going through something, whether
• 46:19
  Speaker 2: it's a couple of dollars short, this, that and.
• 46:22
  Speaker 1: The third, it's not even wrong with turning to your
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: real friends and be like, listen, it's been a bad
• 46:26
  Speaker 1: week for me, or Bill's caught me this week, this
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: and the third. You got ten twenty hours for me
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: to eat. A real friend ain't gonna look at that.
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: They're gonna respect their head, no problem. A real friend
• 46:36
  Speaker 1: ain't even gonna look for that money back either.
• 46:39
  Speaker 2: I think I think it's been such a long time
• 46:45
  Speaker 2: since how do I say this, I think it's been
• 46:50
  Speaker 2: such a long time since I've been in that traditional
• 46:54
  Speaker 2: dynamic between like, oh, this is my friend. I think
• 46:58
  Speaker 2: it's been so long since I've actually been in that
• 47:01
  Speaker 2: type of rhythm with somebody that I just kind of
• 47:06
  Speaker 2: I just look inward, now, you know what I mean,
• 47:08
  Speaker 2: Like I don't even think to look outside myself because
• 47:13
  Speaker 2: and I don't and I don't mean no disrespect to
• 47:15
  Speaker 2: nobody that I call my friend, But it's like I
• 47:17
  Speaker 2: just think that, like there's been so many times in
• 47:20
  Speaker 2: my life where I just felt like I couldn't tell them,
• 47:23
  Speaker 2: not because they would not even because they wouldn't have
• 47:25
  Speaker 2: I don't know. Sometimes I almost feel like, let me
• 47:27
  Speaker 2: not waste my time sometimes like it's not even about theirs,
• 47:31
  Speaker 2: Like let me not waste my time because maybe they
• 47:33
  Speaker 2: not gonna get it, or maybe they're not gonna understand,
• 47:36
  Speaker 2: or a lot of the time it could be sometimes
• 47:39
  Speaker 2: with me, like I could I could be a pretty
• 47:41
  Speaker 2: judgmental person, bro. And sometimes like if I got a
• 47:44
  Speaker 2: friend of my life and I feel like they're not
• 47:46
  Speaker 2: operating in they like the way they could, sometimes it
• 47:50
  Speaker 2: just it makes me want to distance myself from them.
• 47:52
  Speaker 2: It's just kind of like, my nigga, you're not doing
• 47:53
  Speaker 2: what you're supposed to be doing, Like how could you
• 47:56
  Speaker 2: be not.
• 47:56
  Speaker 1: In a way like that. I totally understand, Like I
• 47:59
  Speaker 1: do the same thing.
• 48:00
  Speaker 2: Yeah, like how could you be beneficial to me? Not
• 48:03
  Speaker 2: that you can not Like it's always good to have
• 48:05
  Speaker 2: an ear. But in my mind, I'm like, nigga, you're
• 48:07
  Speaker 2: not even helping yourself.
• 48:08
  Speaker 1: So how can you help me? And that one thousands?
• 48:10
  Speaker 1: But so I understand. But I'm that type of friend
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: a person. They'll be like, yo, bro, listen, I need
• 48:16
  Speaker 1: to borrow a couple of dollars me. Bro, you don't
• 48:18
  Speaker 1: explain that shit to me. How much you need? I
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: can send it. You want to sell, you want to
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: cash out, but you want to come by the crib
• 48:25
  Speaker 1: and pick it up your cash. I don't care what
• 48:27
  Speaker 1: you need it for. Bro, you don't got to explain
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: it to me. That's none of my business. Just here's
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: the money, so you could deal with your business. Now.
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: I have you somebody that is just I need a bear,
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: I need to drink. I want to go to the club. Yeah,
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: I want to go to the club. I want to
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: get lit. I want to do nah, nigga, I don't
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: got nothing for you. I don't got for you full
• 48:47
  Speaker 1: of money. Yeah, I ain't got nothing for you. Like
• 48:49
  Speaker 1: sometimes you gotta do that. But I see somebody that's
• 48:52
  Speaker 1: grinding and doing what they got to do and put
• 48:54
  Speaker 1: all their resources out here. It's a big difference.
• 48:57
  Speaker 2: It's a big difference when it's like that, you know,
• 48:59
  Speaker 2: And I think, again, no disrespect to nobody. And this
• 49:02
  Speaker 2: is another thing I've been learning my lessons through this.
• 49:04
  Speaker 2: Like I literally was just on this guy's podcast virtually,
• 49:07
  Speaker 2: this dude here, a life coach, and he kind of
• 49:09
  Speaker 2: asked me a similar question and I told him the
• 49:13
  Speaker 2: same thing I'm telling you. But what I also told
• 49:14
  Speaker 2: him is that I also had to kind of rewire
• 49:18
  Speaker 2: my brain and understand that like just because said friend,
• 49:23
  Speaker 2: whoever that person is, just because they don't want to
• 49:27
  Speaker 2: work hard at something outside of their job, right, because
• 49:31
  Speaker 2: they're not going hard on their passion doesn't mean that
• 49:34
  Speaker 2: they're not valuable anymore though, And I know that, but
• 49:38
  Speaker 2: I don't operate like that.
• 49:39
  Speaker 1: Though I don't operate like that. Anybody work at this
• 49:43
  Speaker 1: is different.
• 49:44
  Speaker 2: Yeah, And also I don't know, it's like fuck, it's
• 49:47
  Speaker 2: like it's like I'm trying to find the words and
• 49:49
  Speaker 2: I'm not not really reaching them. But honestly, if I
• 49:52
  Speaker 2: had a woman in my life, I feel like I
• 49:55
  Speaker 2: feel a lot more comfortable sharing just like certain shit
• 49:58
  Speaker 2: with just a woman.
• 49:59
  Speaker 1: A woman, you know what I mean, I give what
• 50:01
  Speaker 1: you saying. I was the same way, like things like
• 50:03
  Speaker 1: I was telling my ex I couldn't tell outside.
• 50:06
  Speaker 2: It's like it's not that I don't love my man's
• 50:08
  Speaker 2: but it's like I'd rather tell you something something about
• 50:10
  Speaker 2: it just feel better speaking get.
• 50:11
  Speaker 1: To I used to feel that the same way until
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: I had that first conversation with my right here man,
• 50:17
  Speaker 1: and it's like I can show you that even though
• 50:21
  Speaker 1: I'm strong, I had weak moments. Yeah, And I feel
• 50:25
  Speaker 1: like our relationship got even way better because now it's
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: like I'm crying into you of what I'm going through.
• 50:31
  Speaker 1: I'm not hiding this ship from you no more. This
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: is what I'm going through since the day I came
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: out to the hospital, bro. And it's like he never
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: judged me. He always understood. Like, but it's gonna be
• 50:42
  Speaker 1: all right, bro. Like that's my biggest like that's my
• 50:47
  Speaker 1: biggest supporter right there, Yo, Bro, it's gonna be all right.
• 50:50
  Speaker 2: Bro.
• 50:51
  Speaker 1: Now it's cool. Bro. Podcast came. I'm proud of you.
• 50:54
  Speaker 2: Bro.
• 50:54
  Speaker 1: The word need didn't know what you went through the
• 50:56
  Speaker 1: world needed to hear this, Like he motivated. He pushed
• 50:59
  Speaker 1: me to get to where I'm at today. Nah, that's
• 51:03
  Speaker 1: why I said, it's not wrong with that ship. I'm
• 51:05
  Speaker 1: pouring in like I ain't scared. IF's something I ain't
• 51:08
  Speaker 1: scared of Pelton your text, walf Yoda, how you gonna
• 51:13
  Speaker 1: figure this shit out? Bro?
• 51:14
  Speaker 2: Like like I got you into my circle, Like I
• 51:17
  Speaker 2: got you into my circle, so I'm comfortable to doing that.
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: Like I'm reaching out to help, like I put out,
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: I need a manager who want to help me, to
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: be my manager, who want to help me to stay
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: on top of certain ship. I'm connecting you with an email,
• 51:33
  Speaker 1: a business email and all, Like, let's get this money.
• 51:35
  Speaker 1: It may not be much in the beginning, but it's
• 51:38
  Speaker 1: gonna pay off when I started taking off. Who believe
• 51:41
  Speaker 1: in me that much? I want to be my manager?
• 51:43
  Speaker 1: That want to be the the shop off I store,
• 51:50
  Speaker 1: making sure all this and everything is fulfilled and all that.
• 51:53
  Speaker 1: Who want to do that. Let's let's build this company.
• 51:56
  Speaker 1: Let's stand behind Chris Feld the global and then everything
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: else gonna come from there. Because when I make it,
• 52:04
  Speaker 1: everybody that that was with me when it was nothing
• 52:07
  Speaker 1: coming with me. I ain't scared to ask for that help.
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: Some people are like, nah, I ain't loo getting for nobody. There,
• 52:13
  Speaker 1: no this, that, and sometimes some of the best hand
• 52:16
  Speaker 1: I was, beauty, get you where you need to go.
• 52:18
  Speaker 2: I'm I'm I'm gonna definitely start working on it.
• 52:21
  Speaker 1: Yeah, definitely I was. I was just the same way. Bro.
• 52:24
  Speaker 1: If I'm hungry, I won't never tell nobody if I
• 52:26
  Speaker 1: if I ain't having the gas money, I'll eat a
• 52:28
  Speaker 1: car park and I'll walk because I ain't want to
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: ask nobody for money for no gas. I ain't want
• 52:33
  Speaker 1: to do that. I ain't want to do a lot
• 52:34
  Speaker 1: of shit. But then it's like, now that I'm thinking back,
• 52:37
  Speaker 1: it's like I let my pride get in the way
• 52:38
  Speaker 1: of a lot of things that could have came my way.
• 52:41
  Speaker 1: When it's not it's really not worth it. Yeah, I'm
• 52:44
  Speaker 1: not scared to ask for help. Sometimes you asking for
• 52:47
  Speaker 1: help and could move you ten places up.
• 52:51
  Speaker 2: That's a fact because you know, in our culture, a
• 52:53
  Speaker 2: lot of the time we got this foolish mentality that
• 52:56
  Speaker 2: like and rap song is perpetuated all the time. It
• 52:59
  Speaker 2: was like, oh like, I like, I did it all
• 53:01
  Speaker 2: by myself, and it was like nigga, everybody somebody.
• 53:05
  Speaker 1: Even that they said they did about yourself. But when
• 53:07
  Speaker 1: you start pulling the strings or see you had a
• 53:10
  Speaker 1: pr you see, you had a manager. You see, you
• 53:13
  Speaker 1: had your best friend doing this. You see you had
• 53:15
  Speaker 1: your your mom's doing this that you never did that
• 53:18
  Speaker 1: ship by yourself. Nah, I didn't do this by myself.
• 53:21
  Speaker 2: Even if your moms didn't do nothing but make your meals.
• 53:24
  Speaker 2: It's like, nigga, your meals, Nigga, that's nourishment.
• 53:26
  Speaker 1: She gave you exactly nourishment. She washed your clothes, clothes.
• 53:33
  Speaker 2: You didn't do it by yourself. Your girlfriend, like nigga,
• 53:37
  Speaker 2: you didn't do it by yourself going through relieving yourself,
• 53:41
  Speaker 2: sexual healing. Yep, that's nigga. That's just wanted to keep
• 53:44
  Speaker 2: you going.
• 53:45
  Speaker 1: When you're in the house and you you saying these
• 53:47
  Speaker 1: lines old and no shit not baby sound good baby
• 53:49
  Speaker 1: shit had this never doing it by yourself by yourself.
• 53:52
  Speaker 1: Didn't do it by yourself. Me, I didn't do this
• 53:54
  Speaker 1: by myself. Bob and I see a wheezy orchestrated there.
• 53:58
  Speaker 1: I had. I never worked with Alex, but we had Eden.
• 54:03
  Speaker 1: I had y'all, and I had Dave. Look whoof this
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: podcast didn't just come just with me just coming in
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: here thinking I'm big bad because I got a story
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: to tell. Now, I needed the right people to put
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: around the story, to bring you the content that I'm
• 54:19
  Speaker 1: bringing you every week. I had my little brother CJ
• 54:21
  Speaker 1: come here every week uploading the content, making up names
• 54:27
  Speaker 1: for the titles and like we really figured it out together.
• 54:33
  Speaker 1: I didn't do it by myself. I need I needed
• 54:35
  Speaker 1: the people, the fans, to share it, to hit the
• 54:38
  Speaker 1: airplane mode, to put in their stories. Otherwise my podcast
• 54:41
  Speaker 1: and content would never got far if I didn't have y'all.
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: We all need somebody, And I'm not ashamed to say it.
• 54:47
  Speaker 1: I still need y'all to share it, to like to describe,
• 54:50
  Speaker 1: to tell her friend, to tell her friends. I would
• 54:52
  Speaker 1: never not need y'all. Even when I'm at I feel
• 54:54
  Speaker 1: like I'm at the highest point, I still need y'all.
• 54:58
  Speaker 1: I still need y'all. Jay Z need us, fab need us,
• 55:02
  Speaker 1: fifty cent need us, marriage a blind need us because
• 55:05
  Speaker 1: they drop in and we don't support it. Who is they? They?
• 55:08
  Speaker 2: They nobody's they do concerts. Were not paying for these
• 55:10
  Speaker 2: they were not buying these tickets.
• 55:12
  Speaker 1: Who are there? They are nobody? They need us. We
• 55:15
  Speaker 1: all need everybody needs somebody. Everybody needs somebody. Them them
• 55:19
  Speaker 1: disabled people that's on the other side of that screen
• 55:22
  Speaker 1: hearing me talk, giving them motivation that they want to
• 55:24
  Speaker 1: start a podcast. They need us, They need me well
• 55:28
  Speaker 1: dropping knowledge halfway up. People need you, even though it
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: might be a thousand people in the water with you.
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: But guess what, you can start your own ocean. You
• 55:38
  Speaker 1: creating your own bloody see why everybody over here eating
• 55:42
  Speaker 1: you finding ways to move through all these sharks and
• 55:46
  Speaker 1: start your own blood path and your own ocean. That's
• 55:49
  Speaker 1: why I said, like, it's a lot of people that's
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: out there doing what you do, But how many of
• 55:54
  Speaker 1: them putting out quality content? How many of them really
• 55:57
  Speaker 1: sticking with it? Like talking knowledge? People up there talking bullshit.
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: You're like, I'm not listen to that next podcast. But
• 56:04
  Speaker 1: when you're talking this and then and people take their
• 56:08
  Speaker 1: hand off the next button and they actually listening, Like
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: damn what he's saying. Your clips always grabbed me into
• 56:15
  Speaker 1: a point. I gotta listen to the whole episode. I'm like, Yo,
• 56:19
  Speaker 1: you really be talking that talk, talking that ship motivate,
• 56:22
  Speaker 1: you make, you make a young man wanted like turn
• 56:27
  Speaker 1: into being a man about the way of living. I'm like, nah,
• 56:31
  Speaker 1: you you really doing your thing, bro, You really done
• 56:33
  Speaker 1: your thing. Just like when you were speaking last week,
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: seeing how you grab the crowd and you interact with them,
• 56:42
  Speaker 1: like I said, damn, like you really making people better
• 56:45
  Speaker 1: without even knowing that you really what you're doing. Nah,
• 56:49
  Speaker 1: don't don't stop. You gotta give man, you gotta jump
• 56:51
  Speaker 1: on more panels and all that shit. Take this shit over.
• 56:54
  Speaker 1: Let people know like you you're not You're not just
• 56:57
  Speaker 1: Wolf Taylor.
• 56:57
  Speaker 2: You're the king of content, your own right in your
• 57:00
  Speaker 2: own lane.
• 57:01
  Speaker 1: To believe it or not. Man, you and we in
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: two different lanes. We have never cross path. I got
• 57:07
  Speaker 1: the story, you got the knowledge, and look what we created.
• 57:11
  Speaker 1: We created magic. I mean people my mother called, she said, Yo,
• 57:14
  Speaker 1: ain't gonna lie like you and what dy man, how
• 57:17
  Speaker 1: y'all work? He's like, you see what you think about that?
• 57:20
  Speaker 1: And then you start talking like yeah, wo be serious.
• 57:22
  Speaker 1: But you the clown, he said. But they jaws together
• 57:25
  Speaker 1: that say that shit is somebody like, Yo, damn you
• 57:27
  Speaker 1: and woof need a podcast together, bro, I said, why
• 57:30
  Speaker 1: you feel like? He said, Yo, It's just you got
• 57:32
  Speaker 1: two different views. It's like you be talking from a
• 57:35
  Speaker 1: hood point of view and what I said, explain. He said,
• 57:38
  Speaker 1: you talking from the hood point of view and Wolf
• 57:40
  Speaker 1: talking from the suburbs point of view. I started laughing.
• 57:45
  Speaker 1: I said, not the way TikTok me trying to in
• 57:47
  Speaker 1: crucify one man. They're like, nah, they're like Noah Wolf
• 57:50
  Speaker 1: looking at it on a higher level. You looking at
• 57:52
  Speaker 1: it like man, fuck that level like I said. Yeah,
• 57:55
  Speaker 1: I said, but look at the beauty of two different,
• 57:59
  Speaker 1: two different words coming together and creating magic.
• 58:02
  Speaker 2: Also, hold on, I just got to clear that I'm
• 58:05
  Speaker 2: not from the fucking suburbs. Okay, I just got to
• 58:08
  Speaker 2: clear that I am not from the fucking suburbs. Yo
• 58:13
  Speaker 2: for the suburb I just gotta cut it up like
• 58:16
  Speaker 2: I'm not from the fucking suburbs. You know what I'm saying.
• 58:18
  Speaker 2: I did not grow up like that. I did not
• 58:20
  Speaker 2: grow up with like I grow up like that, my nigga,
• 58:24
  Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying This.
• 58:25
  Speaker 1: I came out the project hallways and what jumped off
• 58:28
  Speaker 1: the front part?
• 58:29
  Speaker 2: Yeah, fuck no, fuck no, Like, please don't get nothing misunderstand.
• 58:32
  Speaker 1: I don't know what it is, yo, they say, he
• 58:35
  Speaker 1: just took whatever it is.
• 58:38
  Speaker 2: That might give off the impression. But I'll be the
• 58:40
  Speaker 2: first to let you know I ain't suburban about me.
• 58:44
  Speaker 2: I was dying, not a motherfucking thing.
• 58:46
  Speaker 1: The whole episode about the slight like he like the
• 58:50
  Speaker 1: suburb Who I am?
• 58:53
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying?
• 58:54
  Speaker 1: Like I said, Yo, They was like, Yo, that's why
• 58:57
  Speaker 1: what person it's like doctor Umar Boosie on account together.
• 59:00
  Speaker 2: That's better than the suburbs at least ship, at least
• 59:03
  Speaker 2: doctor respecting my people from the suburbs. But like that,
• 59:09
  Speaker 2: I have lived a very unique life and I don't
• 59:12
  Speaker 2: walk through a lot of different types of paths to
• 59:14
  Speaker 2: get to where I'm at right now. And that and
• 59:17
  Speaker 2: was not one piece of that ship, not one piece
• 59:21
  Speaker 2: of that ship, Suburbs, suburb not one not one piece,
• 59:24
  Speaker 2: not one piece. So that's I just got to say
• 59:27
  Speaker 2: that because the bro because one thing about me, I
• 59:30
  Speaker 2: don't ever want to get misunderstood with a certain type
• 59:33
  Speaker 2: of thing. It's like, now, one thing about me, bro
• 59:35
  Speaker 2: like I paid all my dudes, you know, one thousand,
• 59:38
  Speaker 2: me and my family. You know what I'm saying. I'm
• 59:41
  Speaker 2: not even about to go out deep into it. But
• 59:43
  Speaker 2: like they ship silver spoonish around this bitch, not one
• 59:46
  Speaker 2: thing otherwise. Yeah, they think they could think that though,
• 59:50
  Speaker 2: But for the people that's listening here, it's like listen
• 59:52
  Speaker 2: like whatever, I don't know if it's like.
• 59:53
  Speaker 1: The way I talk, the way I look it is,
• 59:55
  Speaker 1: they just they go for clip and feel like that's
• 59:58
  Speaker 1: fine what it is now, But you to really tap
• 1:00:00
  Speaker 1: into the episode.
• 1:00:02
  Speaker 2: Nigga, I'm not from the suburbs. I've never lived in
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 2: the suburbs never ever, what.
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 1: Boys out for the suburbs?
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I gotta let that be known, you know what
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 2: I'm saying. Like, Nah, nigga, like what you talking about?
• 1:00:13
  Speaker 1: You know what they talk about. But yeah, man, don't
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 1: never be scared to ask for help. Man, Sometimes I
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 1: ask for help. You can block your blessings. Yeah, block
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 1: your blessings because you never know who could pull you
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 1: up out of that quick sand and bring you into
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 1: a whole different platform. Right never. Never, that's like that's
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 1: like ask for help. It's like you pretty much locking
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 1: down opportunities for you. We're not doing that for the
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 1: new year. Like I said, we've grown, we be on
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 1: bigger and better, were on different ship.
• 1:00:44
  Speaker 2: Like I'm on my way here and I get a
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 2: text from niggas that can see four eyes clearly, you'll
• 1:00:50
  Speaker 2: see you.
• 1:00:50
  Speaker 1: No, you gotta put together a festival, bro, Let's think big. Yeah,
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 1: the parties every week is cool, but let's let's bring
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 1: out a Let's do a festival that people look for
• 1:00:58
  Speaker 1: every year to come to. Yeah, all right, I'm gonna
• 1:01:01
  Speaker 1: get started on it. So that's how I said, we're
• 1:01:04
  Speaker 1: not blocking no more blessings.
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 2: Man, No, we're definitely not blocking no more blessings. And
• 1:01:08
  Speaker 2: he's not from the suburbs. I'm not from the fucking suburbs.
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 2: I damn never get offended if I would, because it's
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 2: just like, don't take away my accnplisation. Yeah, because it's
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 2: just it's just like, you know, like the type of
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 2: life that I've lived, bro, the type of ship that
• 1:01:22
  Speaker 2: I've been around. I'm not from the fucking suburbs.
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 1: I done been around some ship, respectfully.
• 1:01:28
  Speaker 2: Shout out to my mother and my father being beautiful people.
• 1:01:31
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. But at the end of
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 2: the day. It's like, Nigga, my my story ain't been all.
• 1:01:35
  Speaker 2: I got a beautiful heart.
• 1:01:36
  Speaker 1: But we didn't.
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 2: We didn't have hard times. Run now have silver spoons
• 1:01:39
  Speaker 2: like I'm talking about, Like Nigga, we didn't. We didn't
• 1:01:41
  Speaker 2: fucking opened up Christmas gifts with flashlights and candles because
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 2: it wasn't no electricity on Christmas Day.
• 1:01:49
  Speaker 1: People don't understand that.
• 1:01:52
  Speaker 2: On Christmas Day, I'm talking about coming home from school
• 1:01:56
  Speaker 2: and it's all good when the sun is up. But
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 2: when the sun is down, Nigga, I got a handle
• 1:02:00
  Speaker 2: with me so I can I can aim straight, so
• 1:02:02
  Speaker 2: I can make sure I'm not pissing on the ground.
• 1:02:04
  Speaker 1: People don't understand that.
• 1:02:05
  Speaker 2: It's like that.
• 1:02:06
  Speaker 1: You know that niggas been in his when blackout heat.
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. It's like that, you know
• 1:02:10
  Speaker 2: what I mean, Like we just really couldn't pay that
• 1:02:12
  Speaker 2: light bill, or were sleeping on so and so floor,
• 1:02:14
  Speaker 2: were sleeping on sweet and so and so. How so
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 2: we got it from place to place, so we mom
• 1:02:19
  Speaker 2: trying to pawn the fucking wedding ring so we can
• 1:02:21
  Speaker 2: get some bread. You know what I mean. It's like
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 2: the wedding ring. Is she been heart and my dad
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 2: been separated?
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 1: You know what I mean.
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 2: But it's like you gotta keep that type of ship
• 1:02:27
  Speaker 2: around that's value because it might be value. You can
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 2: turn that into that can go liquid. Yeah, you know
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 2: what I'm saying. So like you know what I'm saying,
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 2: and listen, I never try to sit in there like
• 1:02:36
  Speaker 2: I had the worst life. I definitely have not, but
• 1:02:39
  Speaker 2: it ain't the fucking suburbs.
• 1:02:41
  Speaker 1: Either had a worse life. But I mean you definitely
• 1:02:45
  Speaker 1: had to work to where you got.
• 1:02:47
  Speaker 2: It's been work, bro, it's been working, even just the
• 1:02:49
  Speaker 2: ship that I experienced through my homies and ship like that.
• 1:02:52
  Speaker 1: Like look at you now though, you know what I'm saying.
• 1:02:54
  Speaker 2: So we were proud to be here. We're not from
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 2: the fucking suburbs. I just gotta I can. I gotta that.
• 1:03:00
  Speaker 2: I just got to. You know what I'm saying. It's
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 2: like that's what you make that you're looking at the Yeah,
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 2: man at you.
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 1: You know, let's not let's start running away from this
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 1: mental health please.
• 1:03:09
  Speaker 2: Yeah, if you need help, bro, read the help.
• 1:03:12
  Speaker 1: Please do.
• 1:03:13
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna do better. I got it. I could work
• 1:03:14
  Speaker 2: on them.
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 1: Yeah, because I worked on myself.
• 1:03:17
  Speaker 2: I was mad.
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 1: I wasn't telling people I was going through. I was
• 1:03:20
  Speaker 1: putting my hands on women and I was drinking.
• 1:03:23
  Speaker 2: I was your hands on women.
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: That's the worst thing I ever did in life. Bro.
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 1: I hate my I be hating myself to this day
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 1: over ship like that, bro, because it was like it
• 1:03:37
  Speaker 1: was that was never me, that was I was never
• 1:03:40
  Speaker 1: that person. I never let women get under my skin.
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 1: And it's like at that moment, I'm fighting the dog
• 1:03:47
  Speaker 1: and they and it came off to them. And then
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 1: right after I did that, ship is like I'm crying,
• 1:03:53
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry, Like, what the fuck is I'm doing?
• 1:03:55
  Speaker 2: Like you can't take it back?
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 1: But I kept telling them to stay away from me.
• 1:03:58
  Speaker 1: I'm a fucking monster. I'm not this person. Just do
• 1:04:01
  Speaker 1: third stay away from me? This right so on, all
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 1: I could have been avoided. I was telling the people
• 1:04:06
  Speaker 1: what I was going through. All that could have been avoided.
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 1: But I sat there and said, listen, I'm not having
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 1: a good day today. Can you please stop doing this? Yeah,
• 1:04:13
  Speaker 1: there's nothing wrong with that. Man, Like, man, that's straighten up.
• 1:04:17
  Speaker 1: Don't let our pride get the best of us. Let's
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 1: take this game over. Man.
• 1:04:21
  Speaker 2: Do.
• 1:04:21
  Speaker 1: I'm scared. We got talk space out there that you
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 1: can reach out to medicaid. You can do that shit
• 1:04:25
  Speaker 1: in your comfort zone. You got better help. You can
• 1:04:28
  Speaker 1: do that shit from your comfort zone. And I'm not
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 1: sponsored by even one of them, but they need a sponsor.
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 1: So though, thanks to Chad GBT, it might be coming.
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 2: So i mean, listen, I just got a sponsor. Man,
• 1:04:38
  Speaker 2: maybe we can we can, we can spread the wealth
• 1:04:40
  Speaker 2: around some somehow, some way.
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 1: What's the new sponsor.
• 1:04:43
  Speaker 2: The new sponsor is King Energy Only. Man, King Energy Only.
• 1:04:47
  Speaker 2: So I just literally recorded three episodes. I gave him
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 2: a shout out. They didn't ask me this too. They
• 1:04:51
  Speaker 2: literally just semi your product, and it was just like
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 2: just show a little love. But I'm so I'm such
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 2: a grateful individual. I literally did three episodes. I gave
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 2: him a shout out in all three episodes, and then
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 2: I made a piece of content. I'm working on it,
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 2: like a little piece of like a little lifestyle content.
• 1:05:05
  Speaker 2: Like I'm like, they send me a candle, and they
• 1:05:08
  Speaker 2: send me a room spread heat through this. Man feel
• 1:05:11
  Speaker 2: definitely was telling me about that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 2: So I'm making a little piece of content like you know,
• 1:05:15
  Speaker 2: lighting it like showing it in my life and ship
• 1:05:17
  Speaker 2: like that. You know what I mean, using it, Yeah,
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 2: because I want to. It's all about relationships.
• 1:05:20
  Speaker 1: Nah, that's it's all about, you know, like the Master
• 1:05:23
  Speaker 1: Connect Agency. Come on, oh you know sponsored by No Code.
• 1:05:27
  Speaker 1: He showed me nothing but love like comment on everything, Nicole.
• 1:05:31
  Speaker 1: We just need this booking audio audible. Turn it to
• 1:05:35
  Speaker 1: audible with the block community that need to head the
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 1: gems that you dropping. We need this in audible and
• 1:05:40
  Speaker 1: shout out to Candice Foster. She sponsored a podcast to
• 1:05:43
  Speaker 1: be coming. It's coming soon, next episode be going Limited
• 1:05:47
  Speaker 1: Wealth Builders. She fixed my credit I'm gonna send that
• 1:05:50
  Speaker 1: over to you too, big dude, because oh I had
• 1:05:54
  Speaker 1: credit of a dad man and she she gave that
• 1:05:58
  Speaker 1: shiit CPR credit of a credit man. You did CPR.
• 1:06:02
  Speaker 1: She gave mouth to mouth. I'm telling you now my credit,
• 1:06:07
  Speaker 1: I can go into the banks. They said, hey, mister
• 1:06:09
  Speaker 1: fild would you like to apply for a platinum card
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 1: to I would I'm loving it. Shout out to you. Then,
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 1: I mean I got another one. A book publishing company.
• 1:06:18
  Speaker 1: They sending the merch they sending their stuff out so
• 1:06:21
  Speaker 1: I could put on the episode shout out to Paul.
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 1: I'm working. I'm working, so talk space better, helping all
• 1:06:28
  Speaker 1: of them out there that's holding back. Come on, yes,
• 1:06:32
  Speaker 1: hold back. Poppy is on them. Come on yo.
• 1:06:36
  Speaker 2: It's like we just got to get the numbers up.
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 1: Oh yeah, we working.
• 1:06:39
  Speaker 2: Once we get the numbers up, theyre gonna slide.
• 1:06:41
  Speaker 1: Yeah. I'm starting to put money behind marketing and stuff
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 1: right now. They get the word out there even more.
• 1:06:45
  Speaker 1: But it's like before, like before I leave this earth,
• 1:06:48
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna have a street named after me. Before I
• 1:06:51
  Speaker 1: leave this earth, They're gonna have to put me in
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 1: somebody textbook. That's what you want, That's what I want, No, lie,
• 1:06:59
  Speaker 1: I want when you walk into the disabled building, you're
• 1:07:01
  Speaker 1: gonna see my picture of it there. I like, I'm
• 1:07:03
  Speaker 1: the motherfucking CEO, because why I gave these blind people
• 1:07:07
  Speaker 1: a voice. I gave blond people vision when they thought
• 1:07:10
  Speaker 1: they lost their sight.
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 2: I gave people that's in the wheelchairs, like the ability
• 1:07:15
  Speaker 2: to walk even though you can't walk between we stepping,
• 1:07:18
  Speaker 2: we walking.
• 1:07:19
  Speaker 1: So therefore y'all gotta put my picture there because I
• 1:07:22
  Speaker 1: ain't leaving us behind. I'm taking this over like if
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 1: I make it. When I come on stage. I'm bringing
• 1:07:26
  Speaker 1: all y'all with me that may not be on stage
• 1:07:28
  Speaker 1: physically with me. When I'm walking with y'all, when i'm
• 1:07:31
  Speaker 1: talking about talking, I'm talking my shit and I'm popping
• 1:07:33
  Speaker 1: my ship. That's a believer. It's ten blond people that
• 1:07:36
  Speaker 1: didn't get this far that that's struggling that I'm talking for.
• 1:07:40
  Speaker 1: It's blind people that couldn't deal with it, that committed
• 1:07:44
  Speaker 1: suicide and couldn't deal with it. But guess what I'm
• 1:07:46
  Speaker 1: talking for y'all too. So therefore you got to put
• 1:07:48
  Speaker 1: my picture in these buildings. I'm leaving me. They I
• 1:07:51
  Speaker 1: mean they They pumped Stevie wand up. They pump Ray
• 1:07:54
  Speaker 1: Charles up. They're gonna have to pump see no end
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 1: of the story. I am who I am? Where can
• 1:08:02
  Speaker 1: they find you at?
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 2: Well? Forget about me. Bro Outro was amaculate Outro was
• 1:08:08
  Speaker 2: great man.
• 1:08:09
  Speaker 1: I'm just saying, private investigator to find him, telling him,
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 1: are you serious about that?
• 1:08:15
  Speaker 2: You ain't serious? This nigga talking, this nigga chatting? Why not?
• 1:08:18
  Speaker 1: I want him to see what he did when he created?
• 1:08:21
  Speaker 1: Oh what to him? Wow Yo?
• 1:08:23
  Speaker 2: No funny ship.
• 1:08:24
  Speaker 1: I owe his life to him. No, funny ship, this
• 1:08:29
  Speaker 1: pain that I experienced that I can't on this couch
• 1:08:32
  Speaker 1: and express, I want to give it to him.
• 1:08:34
  Speaker 2: I know this sounds crazy, but like one day if
• 1:08:38
  Speaker 2: I don't know, I don't.
• 1:08:38
  Speaker 1: Know, I'm a bump into him one day.
• 1:08:40
  Speaker 2: No no, no no, But I'm saying like one day,
• 1:08:42
  Speaker 2: like if you had him on the pod. I know
• 1:08:45
  Speaker 2: that sounds crazy and I know that's like something's just
• 1:08:49
  Speaker 2: not worth money, but I'm just saying, like I'm just
• 1:08:51
  Speaker 2: imaginating me real quick though, I'm imagining with that bitch
• 1:08:55
  Speaker 2: straight on Patreon. Put that bitch straight on page be
• 1:08:59
  Speaker 2: a paid gonna run out' gonna run out you want
• 1:09:04
  Speaker 2: to see people.
• 1:09:05
  Speaker 1: It's gonna be the fire marshals in here, the fun
• 1:09:07
  Speaker 1: because it's gonna be too hot, police detective, everybody gonna
• 1:09:12
  Speaker 1: be out here because they won't make sure this podcast.
• 1:09:15
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't even do it in the studio, fun that
• 1:09:18
  Speaker 1: we were doing a live show for you, a live show.
• 1:09:23
  Speaker 1: I want people to like. Show like David like I'm
• 1:09:26
  Speaker 1: not about the street justice.
• 1:09:29
  Speaker 2: Know how to talk to you.
• 1:09:31
  Speaker 1: I want people to let him look stupid. I want
• 1:09:33
  Speaker 1: people to see him do the stupid. I want people
• 1:09:36
  Speaker 1: to clap when he come on stage, because look, you
• 1:09:38
  Speaker 1: created a motherfucking monster beast. I can't be stopped you.
• 1:09:42
  Speaker 1: You fed me shells, try to put me in the
• 1:09:45
  Speaker 1: in the grave, and it's like, I'm I rose like
• 1:09:48
  Speaker 1: like like, and it's crazy, right, good Fridays. When Jesus died,
• 1:09:54
  Speaker 1: he rose on Easter twenty first. I got that right.
• 1:10:01
  Speaker 1: I got off the rest rain of the twenty four.
• 1:10:04
  Speaker 1: That's three days. I'm the motherfucking blonde Jesus. It said
• 1:10:10
  Speaker 1: seven days, right, seven days Jesus did it. Seven days
• 1:10:16
  Speaker 1: I was. I was diddy bopping out the hospital. Call
• 1:10:19
  Speaker 1: me Jesus the Blonde Jesus. I'm signing to be wrecking
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 1: with man, like I said. There's no mountain higher enough
• 1:10:26
  Speaker 1: that I can't climb. There's no old shit wid enough
• 1:10:28
  Speaker 1: that I can't swim. There's no obstacle that I can
• 1:10:31
  Speaker 1: defeat breakthrough. I am blonde, poffee. I am the official
• 1:10:36
  Speaker 1: blonde stepper from the Blocking I Se podcast. I'm thirteen
• 1:10:40
  Speaker 1: years in man, and we see me when I'm fourteen
• 1:10:43
  Speaker 1: years and and we out of here, man here, Manna.
• 1:10:56
  Speaker 1: I had to let people know give me my credit. Man,
• 1:11:00
  Speaker 1: that was good. I am who I am for sure
• 1:11:05
  Speaker 1: I am who I am