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Trusting God’s Plan and Overcoming Life’s Challenges | FT Dr. ShantaQuilette Develle | EP91 · Jess Ask

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Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl, Jessica and Smith, and you already
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Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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Speaker 1: have fun and just ask God for another Do you
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Speaker 1: already know what it is?
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Speaker 2: And then you know it's about to get real.
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Speaker 1: To be sure to show your girl the love and
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Speaker 1: like coming and subscribe God.
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Speaker 2: For another day.
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Speaker 3: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way.
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Speaker 2: Yeah, y'all, y'all, I can't get I can't like, well,
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Speaker 2: you're out, you're talking about how like you.
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Speaker 4: I've been trying, Oh like this, like this, I think
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Speaker 4: it's about that. I think it's a strogger got that
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Speaker 4: much strength in my fall? Just do it?
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Speaker 2: Just based on New York? Can you do it? Because
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Speaker 2: we recorded were on here.
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Speaker 4: Fel like my whole mouth is moving. I'm like this, y'all.
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Speaker 5: Y'all, y'all finna see this yo, yo, yo, instau girl
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Speaker 5: Jessica Smith and we are here the we hear, we
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Speaker 5: hear the in the his out, the same space where
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Speaker 5: influencers decompressed, have fun and just ask you know what
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Speaker 5: I'm about. Sick of y'all, but I love y'all because
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Speaker 5: y'all wearing this song out man, that's a ray.
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Speaker 2: That's all right, that's all right, that's all right, that's
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Speaker 2: all right. That's a rat. That's a rate. Was that
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Speaker 2: a balie move?
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Speaker 4: What is that?
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Speaker 2: Schoop it?
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Speaker 5: Do it? Do it again again? Practicing you've been practicing
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Speaker 5: in the mirror. Yeah, in the mirror. I've been working
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Speaker 5: on that for y'all. I've been, you know, trying to
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Speaker 5: you know, get my moves.
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Speaker 2: Literally you get that song. No one can say your
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Speaker 2: name regularly anymore.
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Speaker 4: I know they really can't.
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Speaker 5: They really why because the Jessica is Smith, like you know,
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Speaker 5: like I was on the shout out to the pombies, Yeah,
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Speaker 5: shout out to the we I was watching they live.
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Speaker 2: Oh sorry, I know, I know it.
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Speaker 5: You see y'all.
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Speaker 2: I did not say anything to you.
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Speaker 4: I called it.
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Speaker 2: You called it. I'm glad you called it.
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Speaker 5: I was on the live, you know, just comment and
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Speaker 5: they was like, that's Ray, that's a ray.
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Speaker 2: I said, I know, they not they are?
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Speaker 4: They did?
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Speaker 5: You are a whole thing song, man, I mean it's
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Speaker 5: I mean, it's only you, only you.
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Speaker 2: Boo you that much. He will give you a whole
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Speaker 2: theme song only for Jessica and the Lord.
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Speaker 4: Y'all.
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Speaker 5: We are super excited about today and the conversation about
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Speaker 5: to have baby head y'all. Okay, but before we get
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Speaker 5: into that, y'all already know what time it is.
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Speaker 2: What time is it?
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Speaker 5: Does it?
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Speaker 2: Ray?
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Speaker 5: It's community shoutout time, It's community highlight time. And baby
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Speaker 5: this week, this week, this is a little bias. I'm
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Speaker 5: gonna go ahead and sad to tell people it's a
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Speaker 5: little bias. It's a little bias. Why because this young
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Speaker 5: lady has been holding us down. Okay, listen, sometimes as
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Speaker 5: well as you grow, the Lord will send you help.
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Speaker 2: Okay, the Lord's gonna send you help. And baby, she
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Speaker 2: has been helping.
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Speaker 5: She was already supporting, but then the Lord sent her
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Speaker 5: our way and she has been serving in the background.
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Speaker 5: And so we just love some and not the one
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Speaker 5: for Friday. She is not close to the one for Friday, baby,
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Speaker 5: baby bad. Okay, just go check her Instagram.
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Speaker 2: Felicia underscore raw.
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Speaker 5: Okay, Felicia, we love you so much, Sis, We honor you,
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Speaker 5: We honor the oil on your life.
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Speaker 2: We are the annoysing on your life. You are more
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Speaker 2: and more and more.
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Speaker 5: I just hear the Lord say more and more and
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Speaker 5: more for you, more and more and more for you
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Speaker 5: in twenty twenty five, not only just more for you,
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Speaker 5: but more for your children, more for your legacy. More
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Speaker 5: and more is coming to you, and not only to you,
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Speaker 5: but through you. Hallelujah. I see the Lord just using
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Speaker 5: you in a mad, a mighty, mighty mighty way, even
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Speaker 5: ways that you could not predict for yourself. And God
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Speaker 5: is saying he is taking the limits off. No longer
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Speaker 5: will you have to break them yourself. God is partnering
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Speaker 5: with you in this season. So girl, keep on moving,
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Speaker 5: keep going up.
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Speaker 2: We love you, y'all. Give it up for police. You
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Speaker 2: gonna find your button? Did you find it? Did you
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Speaker 2: touch it? They're gonna change some stuff up over here.
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Speaker 5: I'm glad because you and this button is working. It
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Speaker 5: it worthing, y'all, y'all, y'all. Let me tell y'all something
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Speaker 5: I know. Yeah, yeah, yeah, warn you.
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Speaker 2: I'm hum yeah.
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Speaker 5: She she came in hot and Reddy fun baby, busts down.
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Speaker 2: I can't wait for this Camel season. Bust down. Okay.
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Speaker 2: The woman that we have here is the total package. Okay.
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Speaker 2: She is a survivor, a fighter.
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Speaker 5: She fins, she fins, she finds. Okay, she is representing
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Speaker 5: you guys for the forty and overs. Okay, baby, she
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Speaker 5: don't look it. She smooth, smooth like bottle. Okay, is
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Speaker 5: when I tell you she's multi faceted, fashion, comedy, finance,
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Speaker 5: what else?
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Speaker 2: Health, women's health, like everything.
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Speaker 5: I think I can ask her a question about anything
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Speaker 5: that she could have an answer for it.
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Speaker 2: Why.
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Speaker 5: Because the Lord has taken her through some things, brought
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Speaker 5: her out of things, out of some things, and she
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Speaker 5: is more than conquerors because she chose God. She's a
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Speaker 5: daughter of the King, the child the most High. None
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Speaker 5: other than doctor shan Quynette got too excited. I got
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Speaker 5: two let me break up. That is so embarrassing, wen Seantaquette.
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Speaker 5: What did I say running back? Oh, we're gonna to
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Speaker 5: edit it out to chant to collet. I just got
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Speaker 5: hot in the face and ready like the little ready,
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Speaker 5: How did how you do that? I know this lady name,
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Speaker 5: Let me start, Let me try to get.
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Speaker 2: Literally what for this? And I just like, how did
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Speaker 2: I just mess it up? Anyway? How you doing?
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Speaker 4: I'm doing well?
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Speaker 2: Doctor?
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Speaker 5: Here you you you shopped. I know it's gonna be
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Speaker 5: good because the enemy was just trying to miss get
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Speaker 5: out your head because I'm shoulder get out of Let's talk.
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Speaker 5: Let's talk about get Let's talk because I'm about to
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Speaker 5: go straight into that. But before we go straight into that,
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Speaker 5: how are you?
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Speaker 4: I'm doing well? Thank you so much for it was amazing.
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Speaker 4: Here you got. You got a small.
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Speaker 2: Little airport, this cozy staying in your business, your business,
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Speaker 2: stay gone. You look good.
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Speaker 5: Now this this, this, this jacket. Now you gotta give
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Speaker 5: us y'all.
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Speaker 4: Y'all never would.
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Speaker 2: Never could have made it.
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Speaker 4: The Lord knew better than make me a single.
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Speaker 5: I think I think you probably can if you go,
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Speaker 5: get you some listen on.
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Speaker 2: You won't keep you now. I see you were there
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Speaker 2: for me.
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Speaker 5: Let's talk about what just happened. I feel like this
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Speaker 5: is about to be an untie moment. This is about
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Speaker 5: to be an untie moment. I really feel it. You
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Speaker 5: have mastered overcoming the moment I just had. I am
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Speaker 5: so like, I am so bad at like just beating
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Speaker 5: myself down, and maybe that was the Lord he just
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Speaker 5: want to hit hit that on the head. One thing
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Speaker 5: I admire about you and what I've studied about you,
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Speaker 5: is that anything that has come your way, I mean,
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Speaker 5: you've been through it. You you've been down through there.
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Speaker 5: How have you master to the art of overcoming?
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Speaker 4: I couldn't do anything without God. Oh it's all God.
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Speaker 4: A lot of times I surprised myself because being so
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Speaker 4: young and going through so much, so fast, stroke, heart attack, stroke, retirement,
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Speaker 4: forceful retirement, being a mom, trying to still be a wife,
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Speaker 4: trying to be a mother, trying to be a sister,
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Speaker 4: all while trying to still take care of me. It
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Speaker 4: was difficult. It was difficult, but I couldn't have got
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Speaker 4: through it without God. He had his hands all on me.
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Speaker 4: And like they say, there was the people who've been
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Speaker 4: gone a long time ago that have covered me, the
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Speaker 4: prayers that are still covering me to this day.
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Speaker 2: Did you grow up in the church?
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Speaker 4: I did? I did? I did. My grandmother is an evangelist,
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Speaker 4: grew up Church of God in Christ. And I think
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Speaker 4: it was when my so my brother passed away when
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Speaker 4: I was fourteen years old and he was one years old,
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Speaker 4: and just seeing he.
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Speaker 2: Was one, he was one, Oh wow, was he ill?
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Speaker 4: Medical malpractice? And seeing my mom how she handled that
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Speaker 4: and how she prayed day and night and I never
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Speaker 4: see her lose a beat, miss a step, just gave
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Speaker 4: it all to God all the time. Even my grandmother
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Speaker 4: just just covered us all the time and just prayer
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Speaker 4: and worship and going to church. It was just just
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Speaker 4: still very very very very very early off in my
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Speaker 4: in my young age.
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Speaker 5: Yeah, I grew I grew up in church a lot too.
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Speaker 5: I'm a I'm a PK. I'm a PK. So growing
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Speaker 5: up in church it really teaches you something. But I
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Speaker 5: did not learn how to have a relationship with God until,
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Speaker 5: like I started going to church that because I wanted to,
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Speaker 5: not because I was forced to. At what point in
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Speaker 5: your life did you realize that you needed your own
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Speaker 5: relationship with God like and what did that look that
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Speaker 5: development with your relationship with Him look like?
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Speaker 4: I thought it a long time. I thought it a
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Speaker 4: long time because I know my grandmother. I remember being
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Speaker 4: maybe about five or six and my grandmother saying that
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Speaker 4: I She saying that I spoke in tongue and.
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Speaker 2: That I had this gift and got it at five
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Speaker 2: or six.
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Speaker 4: She was speaking years old, And I remember my grandmother
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Speaker 4: said that I had a special calling on my life.
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Speaker 4: And the one thing I remember her saying that it
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Speaker 4: would be a gift and it would be a curse,
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Speaker 4: But I never followed that gift always followed the curse.
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Speaker 4: So I was always running running from God. You know,
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Speaker 4: every opportunity that he was giving me to come to
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Speaker 4: him and to surrender, I wouldn't do it. I kept
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Speaker 4: snatching the pin while he was right and like this
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Speaker 4: is this is I know you got this, but this
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Speaker 4: is how I want to do it. And it wasn't.
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Speaker 4: Literally I've been I've been stabbed, I've been held at gunpoint.
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Speaker 4: It wasn't until I had my stroke, until I have
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Speaker 4: my stroke, that I finally surrendered to God. Like when
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Speaker 4: you have to face your own mortality in a way
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Speaker 4: where you you're meeting death face to face. And I
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Speaker 4: had to think, is this is this how I want
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Speaker 4: to be? Is this is this what I want my
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Speaker 4: my my legacy to be? And it wasn't. It wasn't.
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Speaker 4: God truly pulled me up by my lapels and showed
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Speaker 4: me the light I saw. I truly saw the light
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Speaker 4: and it and it took some time. It took, it
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Speaker 4: took some time. It wasn't it wasn't overnight, but just
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Speaker 4: being able to truly call on him and to see
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Speaker 4: his work and act yeah, and to see what he
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Speaker 4: could do because at first I thought, you know, I
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Speaker 4: thought I was being punished. I really thought I was
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Speaker 4: being punished when I heard God say, if you don't
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Speaker 4: come to me, if you don't come to me in
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Speaker 4: this moment, then I can't no longer use.
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Speaker 2: You come to you as in be obedient to.
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Speaker 4: What obedient to him?
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Speaker 2: So what were you? What were you running away from?
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Speaker 4: I I was just just scared, just being scared of
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Speaker 4: of that's the devil again, Like I didn't know what
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Speaker 4: to do.
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Speaker 2: Bring mic closer.
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Speaker 4: Yeah, it was just I was just I was just scared.
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Speaker 4: I can't truly tell you what I what, what I
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Speaker 4: was truly going through, But it was like it was
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Speaker 4: like the work that God was putting in front to me,
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Speaker 4: I felt like was too big for me.
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Speaker 5: M okay, okay, we got to dig deep in that,
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Speaker 5: because that's not by a happenstance, as you say that,
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Speaker 5: because this is a season that Desiree and I have
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Speaker 5: talked about being were currently and like wait, hold up,
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Speaker 5: what so how are you navigating through that? How did
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Speaker 5: you navigate from the point of being fearful? And how
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Speaker 5: are you navigating through that daily to continuously show up?
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Speaker 4: I'll come out of it. I'm like, this was you know,
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Speaker 4: so this was five years So this was five years ago.
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Speaker 4: So I had my stroke in twenty nineteen. So really
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Speaker 4: surrendering and allowing him to work, I mean just releasing
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Speaker 4: all of me and giving and giving myself to all
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Speaker 4: of him. And that took prayer. I mean that took
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Speaker 4: constant prayer, that took meditation, that it took therapy.
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Speaker 2: Yeah, it took.
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Speaker 4: It took so much to get to this point and
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Speaker 4: just try and truly loving him, truly loving him and
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Speaker 4: knowing and knowing what he had what he has for me.
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Speaker 4: And the moment that I did, that thing started opening up.
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Speaker 4: Because I had this career that I absolutely loved that
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Speaker 4: I thought I was going to retire from my good
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Speaker 4: government job. I knew my pinsion, I knew when my
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Speaker 4: pension was like you know, and so I thought I
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Speaker 4: thought that I had been doing everything right. You know,
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Speaker 4: I had opened up a nonprofit, I was, you know,
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Speaker 4: really giving myself and being vulnerable to women. But I
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Speaker 4: think the thing that God was working with me with
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Speaker 4: on was empathy. It's really truly understanding who my what
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Speaker 4: my purpose was, who I was talking to. And so
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Speaker 4: when he whipped me down and had my knees buckled
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Speaker 4: and put me in a vulnerable position, put me in
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Speaker 4: a position where all the only thing I could do
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Speaker 4: was call on him. Yeah, that's when the breakthrough. That's
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Speaker 4: when the breakthrough truly happened.
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Speaker 5: You said something in the midst of that, you said
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Speaker 5: that you started to be open with women. At what
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Speaker 5: point weren't you open?
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Speaker 2: And what was you know?
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Speaker 4: I wasn't. I can't truly say that I was one
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Speaker 4: hundred percent being my authentic self because there was so
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Speaker 4: much that I was. I guess there was shame, maybe
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Speaker 4: a little bit of shame of who I who I was,
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Speaker 4: or who I thought I should be. M hm. You know,
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Speaker 4: I grew up in a very modest home, two parent,
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Speaker 4: two parent household. But you know I was. I was
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Speaker 4: a single mother. I was, I was, you know, a
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Speaker 4: team mother. You know all these things that I didn't
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Speaker 4: at some point, didn't envision my life as big and
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Speaker 4: so my family made me. Not my mom and my dad,
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Speaker 4: but you know, my aunts and uncles and stuff. They
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Speaker 4: made me. They made me shame of that I was.
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Speaker 4: I was kind of shamed of who I was because
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Speaker 4: I didn't fit this I didn't fit this picture. I
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Speaker 4: didn't go I didn't go to college. I didn't go
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Speaker 4: to college right out of high school. You know, so
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Speaker 4: I was I was a little shamed of that, you know,
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Speaker 4: but I didn't realize what God was doing, you know,
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Speaker 4: every step from being there's not I can say probably
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Speaker 4: probably one person who's probably been through everything.
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Speaker 5: Yeah, I think I will agree with that statement because
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Speaker 5: I was, like.
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Speaker 2: You said you had the stroke twice.
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Speaker 5: Okay, we're gonna get into that, because I'm just like,
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Speaker 5: how do you like you?
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Speaker 2: In my mind? Like I'm looking at you now, there's
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Speaker 2: a way you create me if I'm wrong.
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Speaker 5: You look healthy, like healthy. I know it's taking some
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Speaker 5: work or whatever. I can't look.
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Speaker 2: At you until that you had a stroke and you
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Speaker 2: say you had too.
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Speaker 5: And normally like people that I've seen with like multiple strokes,
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Speaker 5: that the face are lopside or anything, they're almost spoken to.
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Speaker 4: Out.
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Speaker 2: There is no evidence.
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Speaker 5: Well, I mean from the from you what I'm looking at.
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Speaker 4: Put me inside out, put me inside out. Let me
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Speaker 4: show you the doctor record. You want to you want
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Speaker 4: to take you want to visit me on a you
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Speaker 4: want to go with me on a doctor's visit?
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Speaker 2: Evidence she said, hold on, let me let me clock
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Speaker 2: you real quick.
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Speaker 5: You can't see it, but I can't side out. But
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Speaker 5: that's the I think that's the coolest thing about the Lord,
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Speaker 5: Like how he'll cover and protect you and you have
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Speaker 5: to tell you have to tell that part of listen
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Speaker 5: to people.
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Speaker 2: Yeah, so walk us down.
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Speaker 5: Like I know you said the aftermath of the of
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Speaker 5: the stroke, but I know I've heard you say that
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Speaker 5: you on a treadmill list you were actually working out.
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Speaker 2: You're trying to be healthy.
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Speaker 4: That was so I was healthy. So I worked out,
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Speaker 4: worked out. It was very adamant about going to the gym,
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Speaker 4: taking care of myself. And then one day I was running.
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Speaker 4: I was running on the treadmill and I started feeling
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Speaker 4: fluttering in my chest. This was around twenty eleven, twenty twelve,
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Speaker 4: and so immediately I knew something was wrong. I shouldn't
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Speaker 4: feel fluttering in my chest. I started. I kept running
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Speaker 4: on the treadmill. The fluttering continued, so I stopped, went home,
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Speaker 4: called my doctor the following day, got an appointment and
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Speaker 4: got sent to a cardiologist. Cardiologists what I will say,
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Speaker 4: it did not properly, properly diagnose me. So I went
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Speaker 4: about eight years going back and forth with doctors regarding
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Speaker 4: chest pain, shortness of breath, and was only told that
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Speaker 4: it was stressed. It was due to stress. And because
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Speaker 4: I worked for the I R S, people automatically think
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Speaker 4: you're stressed. We have no reason to be stressed. We
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Speaker 4: pay our taxes. So that's when you have to pay
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Speaker 4: your taxes when you work for the I R S.
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Speaker 4: That's not a word non negotiable. It is a requirement, okay.
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Speaker 4: And so so I wasn't. So I didn't consider myself stressed.
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Speaker 4: But when you have a health professional, somebody with expertise
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Speaker 4: telling you that you're stressed, that's what you go with.
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Speaker 4: And so I continue to live my life coexisting with
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Speaker 4: all these symptoms. I was having all these things I
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Speaker 4: was going through, not only creating more stress because I
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Speaker 4: know in my mind there's something else going on. Yeah,
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Speaker 4: but I'm an able to articulate that to a doctor
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Speaker 4: where he can understand it or believe me because I
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Speaker 4: tried Google. I tried to google my symptoms. I remember
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Speaker 4: going to my doctor and saying, hey, maybe it's this,
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Speaker 4: and he looked at me and he said, you're an accountant, right.
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Speaker 2: Wow, Now what did I'm not trying to.
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Speaker 5: Yes, I'm not trying to be biased, but can you
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Speaker 5: was the doctor of our Okay, I've heard and you
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Speaker 5: can correct me in my room that there is a disconnect.
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Speaker 4: There's a huge there is a huge disparity in health
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Speaker 4: when it comes to not only black individuals, but specifically
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Speaker 4: black women. Yeah. So, uh, I felt unheard. I you know,
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Speaker 4: there wasn't a time where I could say that I
20:52
Speaker 4: was angry, but I was sad. I was sad because
20:55
Speaker 4: I knew that there was more going on and it didn't.
20:58
Speaker 4: It took my stroke for them to actually take me serious.
21:04
Speaker 4: And that's actually after this doctor is gone, because I
21:06
Speaker 4: had to fire my whole my whole staff, that's what
21:09
Speaker 4: I considered my doctor is my staff, and I had
21:11
Speaker 4: to fire my whole staff and ended up getting a
21:14
Speaker 4: black neurologist that took me serious. Was had no choice.
21:19
Speaker 4: I had a stroke, yeah, but was able to give
21:22
Speaker 4: me the right cardiologists, give me the right testing, which
21:26
Speaker 4: was months and months of testing to finally come come
21:29
Speaker 4: down with a diagnosis of what was actually going on
21:32
Speaker 4: with me, which was a heart condition that I had
21:36
Speaker 4: that I have now. And it's just lucky I'm lucky.
21:43
Speaker 4: It's it's God's grace that I'm still here.
21:46
Speaker 5: So what's the what's the language? Did they ever give
21:48
Speaker 5: you language to use so that you could know.
21:54
Speaker 4: I have a condition called ASCVD?
21:55
Speaker 2: Okay?
21:56
Speaker 4: And so it's basically where.
21:58
Speaker 2: You're your blood your arteries.
22:02
Speaker 4: Your arteries close up and they closed. They caused blood cloths.
22:05
Speaker 4: So as a result of high cholesterol.
22:08
Speaker 2: Mmm, so is this after the this is the first stroke?
22:13
Speaker 4: No, this is the second. This is the second. So
22:16
Speaker 4: the first one was a mini so I had a
22:17
Speaker 4: t I A. So it was a mini stroke, but
22:19
Speaker 4: it was also misdiagnosed at that time.
22:22
Speaker 5: I was just about to ask that, like, so okay,
22:25
Speaker 5: because obviously that was a that was a disconnect.
22:28
Speaker 2: So you still had your first first.
22:30
Speaker 4: Dark And then about ten months later, had a mild
22:37
Speaker 4: heart attack, had a heart attack, was in the hospital
22:40
Speaker 4: about six days. UH. Had a stress test.
22:45
Speaker 5: Uh.
22:45
Speaker 4: They found that at that time there wasn't anything major
22:48
Speaker 4: going on with my heart that I had an exercis.
22:52
Speaker 4: I had exercise induced art arrhythmia. That was the only
22:56
Speaker 4: thing that they had diagnosed me with, but still related
22:58
Speaker 4: it to stress. I was told to quit my job
23:02
Speaker 4: with my good government job and find something else to do,
23:05
Speaker 4: because that was I was basically causing my own my own.
23:09
Speaker 5: Demise, even though you never complained about your job to them,
23:15
Speaker 5: never never.
23:16
Speaker 4: Mentioned my job, even though I had my stroke on
23:19
Speaker 4: the job.
23:20
Speaker 5: But well, let me tell you, they probably thought that
23:26
Speaker 5: what I feel like.
23:27
Speaker 4: You know, here's the thing. I was adding stress, So
23:32
Speaker 4: the stress of so there's so much stress that I
23:34
Speaker 4: was adding to myself, not only having a having a
23:39
Speaker 4: condition that I didn't know I had, like them telling
23:43
Speaker 4: me nothing's wrong. Then having to go back to work,
23:47
Speaker 4: saying that I'm having these issues, but on paper the
23:49
Speaker 4: doctors are saying nothing's wrong. So so now my job
23:53
Speaker 4: is is hounding me like, well, there's nothing wrong with you,
23:56
Speaker 4: so you can come to work. You can. You don't
23:58
Speaker 4: need to be missing days, you don't need to be
24:00
Speaker 4: taken off. So it's that stress, you know. And then
24:04
Speaker 4: the doctors when I had my I remember when I
24:07
Speaker 4: had my heart attack, the doctor who I had at
24:11
Speaker 4: the time came in and told my family that it
24:14
Speaker 4: was that I was it was nothing wrong, that I
24:16
Speaker 4: was stressed out. I told her that I needed and
24:18
Speaker 4: at the time I had started gaining weight because I
24:21
Speaker 4: stopped exercise because of the exercise induceter rhythmia that I
24:24
Speaker 4: was scared of the fluttering that I was having in
24:27
Speaker 4: my chest. So it was all these things going on
24:30
Speaker 4: that was just on top on top on top on
24:34
Speaker 4: top of the existing condition that I had.
24:38
Speaker 5: So I see that you're you're I would call you
24:41
Speaker 5: an advocate, would you?
24:43
Speaker 2: So how do you teach women to navigate for themselves?
24:48
Speaker 5: Like?
24:48
Speaker 2: What what should we be asking doctors when we go?
24:50
Speaker 5: We go because I'm I'm thirty two, she knocking on forty,
24:56
Speaker 5: she knocking on forty?
24:58
Speaker 2: What should we like?
24:59
Speaker 5: How can we be proactive to make sure that we
25:02
Speaker 5: don't have these conditions or things are not going on
25:05
Speaker 5: with us?
25:05
Speaker 2: Like we can think everything is normal.
25:07
Speaker 5: It's like, oh, it's just this or that, Like what's
25:09
Speaker 5: what's should we What's what should the conversation look like
25:13
Speaker 5: with our doctor?
25:13
Speaker 4: First, you knowing your body and trusting yourself. You know
25:16
Speaker 4: your body better than anybody else, right, and so when
25:20
Speaker 4: you go to the doctor, you can't be scared to
25:22
Speaker 4: talk to them, you know, let them know what's going on.
25:24
Speaker 4: I always say to make sure that you are making
25:29
Speaker 4: a list of any symptoms that you have before you
25:33
Speaker 4: go to the doctor, because it's easy to forget when
25:35
Speaker 4: you get to doctor. Once you get to the doctor's office,
25:37
Speaker 4: when you start naming symptoms. But make sure you know
25:40
Speaker 4: your body, make sure you know your numbers, make sure
25:43
Speaker 4: you That was another thing I had. My cholesterol was high,
25:47
Speaker 4: and when my doctor went back to look at all
25:50
Speaker 4: my records, it had always been high. It was just
25:52
Speaker 4: getting each visit it was getting higher and higher and higher.
25:55
Speaker 4: Nobody was addressing it. I was just taking a doctor's
25:58
Speaker 4: word for it. There was no reason for me. I
26:00
Speaker 4: felt like there was no reason because I wasn't knowledgeable
26:04
Speaker 4: at the time. There was no reason for me to
26:06
Speaker 4: go behind a doctor to see what he was saying.
26:09
Speaker 4: I really trusted my doctor. But then when I went back,
26:12
Speaker 4: all my numbers were high. Everything was showing that I
26:15
Speaker 4: was leading to have a heart attack and a stroke.
26:21
Speaker 4: It was all there. So know your numbers, know your numbers.
26:25
Speaker 4: And if you don't trust what the doctor saying, get
26:27
Speaker 4: you another doctor, Get you another doctor. It is okay
26:31
Speaker 4: to find I say, be the CEO of your health.
26:33
Speaker 4: Doctors are your work to be. And if you don't
26:36
Speaker 4: feel confident in what the doctor's saying it's okay, get
26:39
Speaker 4: another doctor. It's okay to question. It's okay to sit
26:42
Speaker 4: down with the doctor and say, hey, you're paying, you
26:44
Speaker 4: pay the doctor. It's okay to sit down and say, hey,
26:47
Speaker 4: let's go over this, you know, and question him. So
26:51
Speaker 4: if it's not this, what could it be? So if
26:54
Speaker 4: you're saying it's not this, what else could it be?
26:55
Speaker 4: What other testing could I do to rule this out
26:59
Speaker 4: or to rule other things out?
27:01
Speaker 5: That's really really, really really important, very important because now
27:06
Speaker 5: I'm like it's almost like my my spiritual father told
27:10
Speaker 5: me I was going through a transition, like with churches, right,
27:13
Speaker 5: and he was like, Jessica, you can date the churches, like,
27:16
Speaker 5: go if you go to different churches, just see you
27:19
Speaker 5: don't have to commit to them, just.
27:20
Speaker 2: Date them to see if you like them.
27:22
Speaker 5: It's almost like you're saying the same thing, like figure
27:24
Speaker 5: out research the doctors and they not because if you
27:29
Speaker 5: look good, you can.
27:34
Speaker 2: She made a point.
27:34
Speaker 4: Eight.
27:35
Speaker 5: Okay, she made a point, but no, for real, like
27:38
Speaker 5: we need to not just say, oh, let me just
27:40
Speaker 5: choose them because they said that they're a doctor. We
27:43
Speaker 5: need to really go to like if something's really going
27:45
Speaker 5: on and be like really specific with ourselves and care
27:47
Speaker 5: about ourselves enough I see a specialist.
27:50
Speaker 4: Yeah, this is so good.
27:53
Speaker 2: Okay.
27:54
Speaker 5: So I'm just trying to figure I'm trying to connect
27:57
Speaker 5: the dots to how long you been funny?
28:00
Speaker 4: Like?
28:00
Speaker 2: How long? Where? Where did this comedic release come from?
28:05
Speaker 4: I have been funny all my life, and I believe
28:08
Speaker 4: I have been fun I believe all my life.
28:10
Speaker 5: So did you start to because I know, I know
28:15
Speaker 5: that you you started your TikTok journey with your kids
28:19
Speaker 5: with which is just amazing. I love I love her TikTok,
28:24
Speaker 5: and I think it's just because it's almost like you're
28:27
Speaker 5: bridging a generational gap, like the language that is being used.
28:32
Speaker 5: You making it makes sense to us. You're making it.
28:34
Speaker 5: You bring us back some old school for for us.
28:37
Speaker 5: But then the kids that are coming up.
28:39
Speaker 4: His name is Tan, Who's that's my mama?
28:48
Speaker 2: And I love it? So can we can we start
28:50
Speaker 2: from the beginning from there?
28:51
Speaker 5: How did you develop the desire to get become this
28:55
Speaker 5: influence or did you even know that you was going
28:57
Speaker 5: to become this influence?
28:58
Speaker 1: No?
28:58
Speaker 4: No, so I so I always knew I had a gift.
29:01
Speaker 4: I always knew how to gift I was always funny
29:05
Speaker 4: as far as I could go back. It's the second grade.
29:09
Speaker 4: Mishappy h a p P I. She had red nails,
29:11
Speaker 4: just like this p T. White lady. And I would
29:15
Speaker 4: be in the back of the class trying to tell jokes.
29:18
Speaker 2: Uh.
29:19
Speaker 4: My daddy used to listen to Dolomite and my daddy
29:22
Speaker 4: way down and junk way down the stepped on the elephants.
29:31
Speaker 2: I know the name, but I don't know nothing about that.
29:34
Speaker 2: You trigger her, you trigger her age.
29:36
Speaker 4: She knows what I'm talking about. So my dad used
29:39
Speaker 4: to My dad used to repeat those poems what he
29:43
Speaker 4: called was poetry, inappropriate, inappropriate poetry, And so I would
29:49
Speaker 4: try to repeat them, and Mishappy would come up to
29:52
Speaker 4: me and she'd take her little finger and she'd go
29:55
Speaker 4: like this in my head, and she say, Ms Carter,
30:00
Speaker 4: take your show on the road, not my classroom. And
30:04
Speaker 4: as I think about that now, she saw something to me.
30:07
Speaker 4: She didn't tell me to stop her class in her class,
30:12
Speaker 4: not in her classroom, not in her classroom. And so
30:17
Speaker 4: little does she know how much life she was speaking
30:19
Speaker 4: over me at that time. And so I always always,
30:24
Speaker 4: no matter when the teacher, when the teacher called my
30:26
Speaker 4: mama's house. That's what she would say when she called
30:30
Speaker 4: my mama. Dadds. Shanta is very talkative, she's very silly,
30:37
Speaker 4: but not in the classroom. In the classes room, and
30:43
Speaker 4: so it's just been who who I've been all my life.
30:47
Speaker 4: And so the comedy that has now turned into a
30:54
Speaker 4: full time gig for me was not intentional. I use
30:59
Speaker 4: comedy as an hour. I use it as an outlet
31:02
Speaker 4: because when I was going through this transformation, when I
31:05
Speaker 4: was in my metamorphous stage, I was really just trying
31:11
Speaker 4: to figure things out and figure out myself and figure
31:14
Speaker 4: out where I was going and who God was calling
31:17
Speaker 4: me to be. And my daughter, my daughter and my
31:21
Speaker 4: son came to me one day and was like, Hey,
31:24
Speaker 4: do you want to get Can you get on TikTok
31:26
Speaker 4: with us and do a video? And it was during
31:28
Speaker 4: the pandemic. They were home, and I was like, sure,
31:31
Speaker 4: what is tiktac? I don't know what ticktack is, but
31:34
Speaker 4: I'm gonna get on and I'll get on. I get
31:37
Speaker 4: on ticktac with you. I get on tiktac with you.
31:39
Speaker 4: And so I did a video with them, and then
31:42
Speaker 4: they got my husband involved, and then we just started
31:46
Speaker 4: doing TikTok videos and then I asked them to download
31:49
Speaker 4: it on my phone and I was a watcher. I
31:53
Speaker 4: was just watching videos and I was just like, oh,
31:55
Speaker 4: I just got so inspired. So I started creating my
31:58
Speaker 4: own videos. At first, they were not comedy related. I
32:01
Speaker 4: was doing voiceovers, I was talking about my nonprofit. I
32:04
Speaker 4: was cooking food, doing all these things. And one of
32:08
Speaker 4: my girlfriends was like, girl, you should get on there
32:10
Speaker 4: and tell them jokes and that stuff you'd be telling us.
32:12
Speaker 4: And I was like, girl, nobody want to say we're
32:14
Speaker 4: gonna getting stuff. I was like, I can't get I'll
32:17
Speaker 4: get canceled. I know what it means now. I know
32:20
Speaker 4: what it means.
32:21
Speaker 2: Now said I get cancer.
32:23
Speaker 5: Yeah.
32:23
Speaker 4: I don't think that was the word I used, but
32:25
Speaker 4: I know it canceled now. And one day I was
32:29
Speaker 4: coming from therapy. I was in therapy for two years,
32:32
Speaker 4: four days a week, three to four hours a day, occupational, physical, cognitive,
32:37
Speaker 4: and speech therapy. And so I am someone who loves
32:42
Speaker 4: to look beautiful, loves.
32:44
Speaker 2: To dress up because you bad bad and give them
32:54
Speaker 2: were doing one time bound.
32:59
Speaker 4: She did asked for that, but I it was like extra.
33:01
Speaker 5: It was.
33:03
Speaker 4: But when I tell you. My aunt uses My aunt
33:06
Speaker 4: uses this phrase, you might y'all, y'all from the South,
33:09
Speaker 4: rolled hard and put up with.
33:12
Speaker 2: Now, m don't hard put up with.
33:15
Speaker 4: Just think about a white a rag, a wet rag,
33:19
Speaker 4: rolled up and dry, and when you take it out,
33:22
Speaker 4: you know how it look ragged. That's rolled hard and
33:25
Speaker 4: put up. And so that's how I felt hard. I
33:32
Speaker 4: just I didn't recognize myself. I didn't recognize myself. And
33:37
Speaker 4: I came home.
33:39
Speaker 5: I was feeling mighty bad, feeling muttery. Look, I was
33:47
Speaker 5: feeling mighty bag. That's all you do at home? Quote
33:54
Speaker 5: quote all scripts out of the.
33:57
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, got a movie.
34:02
Speaker 4: Bad. And I turned on my video. I turned on
34:06
Speaker 4: my TikTok uh video and I started talking about a
34:13
Speaker 4: time where my mom it came to my school and
34:16
Speaker 4: also making it relatable to how I was feeling in
34:21
Speaker 4: that moment. And I did a video called me without
34:25
Speaker 4: Me Without my Wig.
34:27
Speaker 2: Oh okay, Now.
34:31
Speaker 5: Now I'm interested in the story you without your wig with.
34:35
Speaker 4: Me without my Wig. And so basically it's about my
34:38
Speaker 4: daughter Sona and how the school calls and says it's
34:44
Speaker 4: that there's a strange man picking her up from school
34:47
Speaker 4: every day and they don't know who this strange man is.
34:51
Speaker 4: And so they describe the man. They say, hair is fragile,
34:55
Speaker 4: he's got a light mustache. Uh, he's out of shape,
35:00
Speaker 4: and I'm just shocked. I don't know who it is.
35:03
Speaker 4: And I demand that they send me a picture because
35:06
Speaker 4: I don't believe it. I say, send me a picture.
35:08
Speaker 4: There's no way you know she's coming home every day.
35:10
Speaker 4: There's no way a man is picking her up. And
35:13
Speaker 4: if it is, I need to know who it is.
35:15
Speaker 4: And they send the they send the picture.
35:18
Speaker 2: Please don't tell and it's me. I felt that in
35:23
Speaker 2: my spirit.
35:24
Speaker 4: I was like, without my wig on, help was Jesus?
35:35
Speaker 2: Oh man? He said, please don't tell me. That was
35:42
Speaker 2: no way, okay.
35:44
Speaker 4: He said the hall was fragile, My hair was fragile, fragile,
35:48
Speaker 4: light mustache. Sha.
35:53
Speaker 5: And what was your response when you and I'm sorry, I.
36:00
Speaker 2: Was like, please don't say it was her? So you
36:02
Speaker 2: recorded that, you told the people that it.
36:04
Speaker 4: Was recorded it. I recorded it, and I had a
36:07
Speaker 4: preface on the screen. Have you seen my daughter? And
36:12
Speaker 4: so have you seen my daughter? And first it got
36:15
Speaker 4: it got removed, it got removed. The ladies were like, oh,
36:19
Speaker 4: my God, this is so this is so dangerous, This
36:23
Speaker 4: is so scary. You know, you know, we got trafficking,
36:26
Speaker 4: we got children that actually you know, this is just so.
36:31
Speaker 5: I was like, Okay, maybe I went overboard, and maybe
36:36
Speaker 5: I'm I know, I'm endearingly inappropriate, but I.
36:40
Speaker 4: Kind of have I have a dark I have a
36:42
Speaker 4: dark mind and I love dark comedy, and so I
36:47
Speaker 4: appealed it. Though I appealed it, and they I won
36:51
Speaker 4: the appeal. I reposted the video, but I changed the
36:55
Speaker 4: preface and God, in that moment told me, no, change
37:03
Speaker 4: it back to what it was. M change it back
37:05
Speaker 4: to what it was. And I'm gonna tell you something.
37:07
Speaker 4: A little bit before this, God said, change it back
37:10
Speaker 4: to what it was. I changed it back, went to bed,
37:15
Speaker 4: woke up the next morning. My phone is like going crazy,
37:20
Speaker 4: I mean crazy, Like I didn't even know what was
37:22
Speaker 4: going on. Like I was just like notifications was coming.
37:24
Speaker 4: I was like, what is going on. One of my
37:28
Speaker 4: friends out of state called me and was like, there's
37:34
Speaker 4: a video. I'm gonna send it to you. Is this you?
37:39
Speaker 4: And I'm like he's like, dude, you viral. I was like,
37:45
Speaker 4: what does that even mean? Yeah, it means I'm home
37:48
Speaker 4: on disability. Oh wow, And I looked like I was
37:51
Speaker 4: real healthy in that video.
37:53
Speaker 2: They don't send me back to work.
37:55
Speaker 4: I don't want to go back to work black people.
38:03
Speaker 2: I gotta come in there with a limp in the.
38:08
Speaker 4: Speech therapy.
38:12
Speaker 2: She need But you didn't know. You didn't went viral.
38:20
Speaker 2: You don't know what viral and viral.
38:22
Speaker 4: And then from there so and I got I was
38:24
Speaker 4: actually because I didn't know what it meant. I didn't
38:26
Speaker 4: know what the virality was. I did not even know
38:29
Speaker 4: what that meant. I was like, okay, I got to
38:32
Speaker 4: keep my good government job. I don't know what's going on.
38:35
Speaker 4: And I remember my boss, my boss who's a good friend,
38:39
Speaker 4: a good friend of mine. It was like, oh my god,
38:42
Speaker 4: you're putting up numbers. Oh my god, you are so funny.
38:45
Speaker 4: But we always know. He calls me Deuce. That's my
38:48
Speaker 4: nickname because the movie quoting movies, uh cold movies in
38:53
Speaker 4: the in the office place. But he was like, this
38:58
Speaker 4: is dope, This is dope. And the people started asking
39:01
Speaker 4: for more, and I was like, well, it's this gonna
39:04
Speaker 4: be Like I was worried about my job, but God
39:07
Speaker 4: was doing something else. Because just a week before that,
39:11
Speaker 4: I posted on Facebook, God, make my name known to
39:16
Speaker 4: the world. Wow, I just got so I can serve
39:24
Speaker 4: the people that you want me to serve.
39:28
Speaker 5: That's so interesting that you just you say that, because
39:32
Speaker 5: it seems like she is literally telling us what we're
39:35
Speaker 5: going through right now, Like okay, so no, like this
39:41
Speaker 5: this time last year, this time last year, and we'll
39:46
Speaker 5: talk about moing after the camera. The Lord had me
39:49
Speaker 5: leave my job to do this, and so I'm about
39:54
Speaker 5: to tell you something. Oh my gosh, uh uh, don't
39:56
Speaker 5: cry when you say this, girl, won't he do it?
40:01
Speaker 5: So I had and I don't even think I told
40:04
Speaker 5: you this, Desiraate. I had a moment toward the end
40:08
Speaker 5: of the year, like in December, and I was I
40:14
Speaker 5: was questioning myself like, Okay, did I make the right move?
40:18
Speaker 2: Did I hear you right? Did I?
40:20
Speaker 5: You know? Am I being selfish? Am I serving like
40:24
Speaker 5: you want me to serve?
40:25
Speaker 2: Am I doing like? Am I give you my gifts? Like?
40:27
Speaker 5: Because this journey is not easy God, And I'm just
40:29
Speaker 5: trying to make sure my heart is in the right
40:31
Speaker 5: place because the numbers not numbering, the this is not
40:34
Speaker 5: doing this And I'm working like we work hard like this,
40:37
Speaker 5: this is cute, this recording and cute, this part is cute,
40:41
Speaker 5: But am I really like you gotta show me something?
40:45
Speaker 5: And you hit me up in my dim Now we
40:49
Speaker 5: had already scheduled, but God had to remind me and
40:53
Speaker 5: then he allowed me to like you were just you
40:55
Speaker 5: were on my timeline, but you had started just being
40:57
Speaker 5: really really heavy on my timeline and so in my mind,
41:01
Speaker 5: I was like, well you in my mind, you already
41:03
Speaker 5: at a million million followers because I guess I was
41:05
Speaker 5: paying attention to the TikTok more than the Instagram because
41:07
Speaker 5: I love TikTok.
41:08
Speaker 2: Hope they don't meet you.
41:13
Speaker 4: This is a calling to the people.
41:17
Speaker 5: Call him, call him please and tell him what you
41:21
Speaker 5: want please do. But no, And I was looking at
41:25
Speaker 5: and God just really highlighted you for me, and it
41:28
Speaker 5: was big for me because he used miss tab in
41:31
Speaker 5: the beginning of the year and then you you at
41:33
Speaker 5: the end of the year says keep going like keep
41:36
Speaker 5: like and I just listened to your story. I know
41:38
Speaker 5: it took you time, Like in those moments where I'm
41:41
Speaker 5: like I'm having like what was your what was your
41:44
Speaker 5: push like? What was your push through? Because this is
41:46
Speaker 5: this is not easy at all, Like, well, this is easy,
41:49
Speaker 5: but like the consistency part of it. Especially, I dealt
41:53
Speaker 5: with shame, I dealt with doubt. I deal with it
41:56
Speaker 5: a lot. That's why I was like, I got to
41:57
Speaker 5: get out of my head. I have to get out
41:58
Speaker 5: my head about the early Yeah, because I was like,
42:01
Speaker 5: you see what I don't deserve none of this. Like
42:03
Speaker 5: the enemy will really like psych you out. What do
42:07
Speaker 5: you do when you about to have them psych out?
42:10
Speaker 4: Moments? Cause I say, my my affirmation that I say
42:14
Speaker 4: every day is God showed me how good it can get.
42:16
Speaker 2: Ooh, and I allow him.
42:19
Speaker 4: I allow him to use me and everything I do.
42:22
Speaker 4: So every thought that I get comes from God, every
42:26
Speaker 4: every thought, every suggestion, everything I do, whether I reach
42:31
Speaker 4: out to people, it's all God. And I remove I
42:35
Speaker 4: removed out because He showed me when I when I
42:39
Speaker 4: put on Facebook, God make my name visible in the
42:43
Speaker 4: work to the world. He did it in a week.
42:46
Speaker 4: He did it in one week. Oh, I can show
42:53
Speaker 4: you better. And I was so worried about God knew
42:59
Speaker 4: that I would so worried about the money. Yeah, I
43:03
Speaker 4: was so worried about I was so worried about the money.
43:06
Speaker 4: I was like, and and I have a I have
43:09
Speaker 4: a good man at home. I got a I have
43:11
Speaker 4: a wonderful man, and that he had never asked me
43:16
Speaker 4: anything about my paycheck. And he was like, listen, you're good.
43:22
Speaker 4: You don't have to worry. But I like making my
43:25
Speaker 4: own I like being somewhat independent in my own in
43:30
Speaker 4: my own realm. And God knew that I was. I was.
43:35
Speaker 4: I was worried about that, but he was like, I
43:38
Speaker 4: gotta show it again, Buffalo wild wings in my inbox.
43:44
Speaker 4: They're like, hey, we want to offer you this for
43:46
Speaker 4: you to do this, and I'm like, man, this is
43:50
Speaker 4: this is more than I was making in a paycheck.
43:54
Speaker 4: You asked me to do something for fifteen seconds. You
43:58
Speaker 4: want me to do a fifteen second video for what
44:01
Speaker 4: I will for what I was making making more there
44:05
Speaker 4: than I was making in.
44:07
Speaker 2: Two paychecks with the government.
44:10
Speaker 5: With the government and the government they say, the government,
44:13
Speaker 5: the government paid well.
44:14
Speaker 4: Good government job that I've been on a long time,
44:19
Speaker 4: and it just it just kept getting better, it kept
44:23
Speaker 4: kept increasing, kept increasing. And then then I get the
44:27
Speaker 4: celebrity endorsements, you know where you know people reaching out
44:31
Speaker 4: like Snoop Dogg just posted you snoop. Steve Harvey just
44:34
Speaker 4: posted you. God said, I see you. I can make
44:38
Speaker 4: your name visible. Just trust me. You w on national.
44:43
Speaker 4: I'll get you global. See all these little thing you
44:48
Speaker 4: asking for little things, I got big things. What I
44:52
Speaker 4: got for you is you can't even see you can't
44:55
Speaker 4: even see that far. And it was, it was, it
45:02
Speaker 4: was that right there. So anytime that the enemy tries
45:07
Speaker 4: to lurk up.
45:10
Speaker 5: Elbowing and how you do it, I was about to say,
45:16
Speaker 5: give me that look again, doesn't stop the game, stop
45:22
Speaker 5: stop because he gonna go forward.
45:25
Speaker 4: I'm gonna do it.
45:25
Speaker 2: I can't keep together.
45:29
Speaker 4: He's just he's just amazing, and and and it and
45:32
Speaker 4: it built a closer relationship with everyone in my household,
45:41
Speaker 4: including my son, because I believe my son was hit
45:44
Speaker 4: the hardest because he's the youngest. He was hit the
45:47
Speaker 4: hardest with me having a stroke. And and I know
45:52
Speaker 4: this because I remember one one time I was sleeping
45:56
Speaker 4: the I was sleeping the bed and I woke up
46:01
Speaker 4: and he was standing over me, and I was like, oh,
46:03
Speaker 4: what are you doing? And he was He said he
46:06
Speaker 4: was trying to see if I was cold, and I
46:09
Speaker 4: was like, oh, you want to you was trying to
46:11
Speaker 4: give me a blanket, and he was.
46:13
Speaker 2: Like, no cold, Mmmm, whoa cold? What did that do
46:20
Speaker 2: to you?
46:27
Speaker 4: It hurt? No, it made me. It made me sad,
46:30
Speaker 4: you know, it made me face my mortality even more. Yeah,
46:34
Speaker 4: and it made me value life a lot more and
46:42
Speaker 4: to create memories because at that time, I was like,
46:48
Speaker 4: you know there, you know, we don't we don't know
46:51
Speaker 4: when our expiration dated.
46:53
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know.
46:54
Speaker 4: And so while I'm laying comfortably in my bed, I
46:58
Speaker 4: need to start living life, truly living life. And everything
47:03
Speaker 4: that I do with my son is intentional because I
47:08
Speaker 4: want him to have those memories and those moments that
47:11
Speaker 4: he can always look back on. All my children, I
47:14
Speaker 4: want them to be able to look back on, you know.
47:19
Speaker 4: So that it was it was really important for me
47:22
Speaker 4: to leave that legacy behind because, like I said, we
47:26
Speaker 4: we all, we all on a timeline.
47:29
Speaker 5: Yeah you know, you know, yeah, you bring your son
47:34
Speaker 5: up and I'm so glad y'all.
47:35
Speaker 2: Be y'all be having too much fun.
47:37
Speaker 5: Okay, I want the way you come to his room
47:41
Speaker 5: and just starting kicking.
47:42
Speaker 2: Thum how like? So was he the was like, how
47:48
Speaker 2: did that dynamic come about?
47:50
Speaker 5: As far as y'all doing a lot of y'all's reels
47:53
Speaker 5: together because I look, I think those are my favorite
47:56
Speaker 5: ones because it seems, it seems it brings like I said,
47:59
Speaker 5: it bring, it brings just a gap.
48:00
Speaker 4: And exactly it's authentic.
48:04
Speaker 5: It shows that all black boys don't do the same thing.
48:07
Speaker 5: But he's a respectable young man like everything. So how
48:11
Speaker 5: how is it for you guys? Like do y'all come
48:14
Speaker 5: up with the skits before, like y'all brainstorm together? Like
48:17
Speaker 5: how does that work? And is he trying to be
48:19
Speaker 5: inspired like a comedian too?
48:21
Speaker 4: He's so addicon is funny. He is, Well, my whole
48:24
Speaker 4: family is funny. Everybody is funny in my family, my husband, everybody.
48:29
Speaker 4: But it's improv We improvise. It's all improvisation. We don't.
48:35
Speaker 4: We don't. When I come in his room, a lot
48:37
Speaker 4: of times he's just laying in the bed and he
48:40
Speaker 4: may he may just be waking.
48:41
Speaker 2: Up, you disturbing the piece.
48:46
Speaker 4: So he sleeps. So like you know, so a lot
48:48
Speaker 4: of times, well if he's if you hear him, that
48:51
Speaker 4: means he's up, a lot of times if you don't
48:52
Speaker 4: hear him, he's he's he's sleep. So we still gotta
48:55
Speaker 4: get you know, we still got to get that that
48:56
Speaker 4: camera time. But I just say, hey, this is this
49:01
Speaker 4: is the topic, and we just flow off of each
49:04
Speaker 4: other's energy. Our chemistry is solid.
49:08
Speaker 5: It's tight because I really thought, y'all like, we don't like, okay,
49:11
Speaker 5: let's do this lah like, no.
49:13
Speaker 4: We don't rehearse. We don't. We don't rehearse any script.
49:17
Speaker 4: Now we are starting to work on we did uh.
49:21
Speaker 4: I don't know. If you see the video with me
49:22
Speaker 4: with the glasses on top.
49:23
Speaker 2: Of my head, yes, I just so.
49:25
Speaker 4: We so we are working on a mockumentary type style series,
49:31
Speaker 4: and even though we still use a lot of improvisation,
49:34
Speaker 4: there's a little bit more that goes into it than
49:38
Speaker 4: when I just like when we just come up with
49:40
Speaker 4: something off the off.
49:41
Speaker 2: The off, the cuve. I love it.
49:43
Speaker 5: I just love seeing you can tell it's like not fake,
49:48
Speaker 5: like you go back home and he really don't like you,
49:51
Speaker 5: but he's just doing it just like being the camera,
49:53
Speaker 5: like it seems like he genuinely likes to be around you.
49:57
Speaker 2: Genuinely. They seem like all your kids you got, you
49:59
Speaker 2: got to going in.
50:00
Speaker 5: Here like it's it's just a beautiful thing because honest
50:03
Speaker 5: to god, I didn't have that relationship with my mom. Yeah,
50:07
Speaker 5: and that's something that I like when I see mothers
50:11
Speaker 5: able to do that. And I love my mom and that,
50:12
Speaker 5: like we have a great relationship now, but growing up,
50:15
Speaker 5: there was no there was no connection. That's probably why
50:19
Speaker 5: I'm having a therapeutic moment right now. That's probably why
50:21
Speaker 5: I like those videos so much, because you're you're there's
50:24
Speaker 5: a bond that's being created.
50:26
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's your heart posture.
50:27
Speaker 2: Yeah.
50:27
Speaker 4: Well, because I can see that in the comments all
50:29
Speaker 4: the time. Either it's either oh you remind me and
50:32
Speaker 4: my mom. A lot of times people will say their
50:34
Speaker 4: moms have passed on and it's like, oh, this just
50:37
Speaker 4: brings up some nostalgia with my mom, or others saying, oh,
50:40
Speaker 4: I wish I had a mom like you. I wish
50:42
Speaker 4: I had a relationship like that with my mom. Or
50:45
Speaker 4: like sometimes like people honestly think that Adison don't get
50:48
Speaker 4: in trouble, but Addison dies, Addison still gets treated like
50:51
Speaker 4: he well he grown now, yeah before that, he he
50:54
Speaker 4: still gets treated like he's a child, like you know,
50:58
Speaker 4: so he still get disciplined. Uh, he's still getting you know,
51:02
Speaker 4: he still had curfew, even though he still tests me
51:06
Speaker 4: like any other teenager would try to test their mom.
51:09
Speaker 4: But other than that, the dynamic is is pretty good.
51:15
Speaker 4: I was like.
51:18
Speaker 2: The and I saw that.
51:20
Speaker 5: I just saw that bottle that you was put you
51:22
Speaker 5: put on the TikTok about the acid reflux.
51:25
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I have to try because.
51:27
Speaker 4: That time is good. It's good.
51:28
Speaker 2: It's getting older.
51:29
Speaker 4: Like my grandson said, it's good for your stunach and
51:35
Speaker 4: you know he said that on his own. You know,
51:36
Speaker 4: he said that on his own.
51:37
Speaker 5: And that's and you It's like, you have the perfect
51:41
Speaker 5: Like we just need to put these cameras in your house.
51:43
Speaker 2: Yeah, just go around and uh recording what you do?
51:46
Speaker 2: What you do?
51:47
Speaker 4: What?
51:47
Speaker 2: What is it called the reality TV show?
51:49
Speaker 5: You?
51:49
Speaker 4: I would not do. I've been approached about a reality show.
51:54
Speaker 5: Uh.
51:54
Speaker 4: And I remember my daughter. They were the ones saying, mom, like,
51:58
Speaker 4: you will not be able to control the narrative on
52:00
Speaker 4: that show. That is not even you like, And I
52:04
Speaker 4: was like, yeah, I don't want you know, because a
52:06
Speaker 4: lot of times people do reality shows and it tears
52:09
Speaker 4: them apart. You show people they end up in divorce,
52:12
Speaker 4: and I'm like, no, if I were to do something
52:15
Speaker 4: like we're doing now a documentary style, it would be
52:19
Speaker 4: I would control the narrative. I would control the narrative.
52:22
Speaker 4: I would I would be able to show what I
52:24
Speaker 4: want to show and not allow somebody to edit it
52:27
Speaker 4: and make it look like it's something.
52:29
Speaker 2: That you want to do.
52:30
Speaker 5: Yeah, I totally agree with you, Like, yeah, they be
52:34
Speaker 5: wilding out here.
52:35
Speaker 2: So I know you just I know you just hit this.
52:38
Speaker 5: Big milestone on Instagram and there's a lot of things
52:41
Speaker 5: that you want to do. So in the next five years,
52:43
Speaker 5: I want you to give us a description of where
52:45
Speaker 5: you see yourself.
52:46
Speaker 4: Oh my God, acting, writing, producing my own show. We're
52:54
Speaker 4: probably on the four times five, so we be on
53:00
Speaker 4: like the twentieth twenty fifth season.
53:03
Speaker 2: Okay, okay, yeah.
53:05
Speaker 4: Twenty fifth season, and just allowing God to use me
53:10
Speaker 4: for I'm done snatching the pin while God is writing
53:14
Speaker 4: and I love what he's doing and I love the
53:16
Speaker 4: chapters that he's creating, and I'm just turning the pages
53:21
Speaker 4: as they go. You know. I used to overthink things
53:25
Speaker 4: and say, oh, well, I need to do this and
53:28
Speaker 4: I should do this, and then I think about it
53:30
Speaker 4: and I'm like, everything is going well, Everything is going well,
53:37
Speaker 4: and I'm at ease, there's no sense of urgency, there's
53:43
Speaker 4: no pressure. I control my own atmosphere. I don't want
53:49
Speaker 4: to put myself in a situation where it feels like
53:51
Speaker 4: it's work and that I'm running myself down trying to
53:56
Speaker 4: meet all these these deadlines and goal.
54:00
Speaker 2: Yeah.
54:01
Speaker 4: I just say my affirmation. I say, God, show me
54:05
Speaker 4: how good it can get and allow me to serve
54:10
Speaker 4: my purpose with favor and grace. That's that's that's, that's
54:18
Speaker 4: what it is. I tried it my.
54:20
Speaker 2: Way, and like literally, like you said, just.
54:25
Speaker 4: Doing the work. He gives me, He tells me, hey,
54:27
Speaker 4: and I do.
54:28
Speaker 5: The work, because when we don't do it, we end
54:30
Speaker 5: up in a whole lot of And then it was
54:33
Speaker 5: it was interested in you. I think you said something
54:36
Speaker 5: recently where you was like, we give the devil too
54:38
Speaker 5: much credit?
54:39
Speaker 4: Well, and we give it's a part of a uh
54:43
Speaker 4: of an anthology chapter I I I was in a book.
54:46
Speaker 4: I was in anthology I was in and my chapter
54:49
Speaker 4: was called I gave so much credit to the enemy.
54:52
Speaker 4: I was discredited in God and a lot of times
54:55
Speaker 4: because we already know the enemy can't do nothing without right.
55:00
Speaker 4: And so I remember this tumultuous time that I was
55:05
Speaker 4: that I was going through at my job, and I
55:09
Speaker 4: just kept I just kept blaming the enemy. I just
55:12
Speaker 4: kept saying, the enemy is doing this, and the enemy
55:14
Speaker 4: didn't want me to have his job, and da da,
55:16
Speaker 4: and I was saying all these different things. And at
55:19
Speaker 4: the end of it, it was just like big surprise,
55:24
Speaker 4: and I, you know, I ended up getting relocated, you know,
55:28
Speaker 4: getting everything that I had asked God for in the beginning.
55:32
Speaker 4: But God was like, no, I'm gonna give it to you,
55:34
Speaker 4: but I'm gonna give it to you my way, not
55:36
Speaker 4: your way, so you're gonna have to go through X
55:38
Speaker 4: Y Z. And at the end of it, I remember
55:43
Speaker 4: talking to my deciding official and this incident that happened
55:47
Speaker 4: at work, and I started crying, and he said, Ms. Carter,
55:51
Speaker 4: why are you crying? I said, because I was given
55:54
Speaker 4: so much credit to the enemy. I was discredited. God
55:57
Speaker 4: all this time has been God. Every situation that I've
56:01
Speaker 4: been in at this job was all God, and He
56:05
Speaker 4: was preparing me. And everything that I asked for in
56:09
Speaker 4: the beginning didn't compare to what He gave me. It
56:17
Speaker 4: didn't compare to what He gave me. Again, what you're
56:20
Speaker 4: asking for is little stuff. Yeah, that's little stuff. Yeah,
56:24
Speaker 4: it's like our minds are the more and more I
56:28
Speaker 4: listen to people that really got money but also have
56:30
Speaker 4: a relationship with God. It's like, I really think about
56:35
Speaker 4: how small, how small my thoughts are. Like what the
56:40
Speaker 4: word says is for your ways are not my ways
56:42
Speaker 4: and your thoughts are not my thoughts. So God, bring
56:45
Speaker 4: me up to where you're thinking, Like we have to
56:48
Speaker 4: really like be intentional about that because I love your
56:50
Speaker 4: affirmation because it just reminds me personally and hopefully the
56:54
Speaker 4: views can relate to this. It reminds me personally that
56:58
Speaker 4: even the big thoughts I can think, God still out
57:00
Speaker 4: thinks those.
57:01
Speaker 5: Yeah, Like even the things that I think I can
57:04
Speaker 5: do well in or control. But I won't say manipulate,
57:08
Speaker 5: but that's probably the best word I can think about
57:10
Speaker 5: right now.
57:11
Speaker 2: He can still do more.
57:13
Speaker 5: Like he's still gonna He's still gonna do what he
57:16
Speaker 5: wants to do in my life. And when it's submitted
57:18
Speaker 5: to him and we say God, I submit to you.
57:20
Speaker 2: Got to give you my years. God, this is We're
57:24
Speaker 2: in a campaign right now, Yes three sixty five.
57:26
Speaker 5: We say yes to God every day of the year
57:29
Speaker 5: because we want to obey God and want to see
57:31
Speaker 5: God move like literally, we have to be submissive. And
57:35
Speaker 5: that's what I that's what I get from you. Like
57:37
Speaker 5: you really say, you know what, God, you ain't.
57:39
Speaker 2: Gotta fight me, right.
57:42
Speaker 5: You?
57:42
Speaker 4: Mike Tyson?
57:43
Speaker 3: Me, I.
57:45
Speaker 2: I'm a souljah.
57:49
Speaker 4: Lord, I think I got me.
57:52
Speaker 5: Listen, it's a it's a real that I saw and saying,
57:56
Speaker 5: let me see if I'm on the mighty warrior.
57:59
Speaker 2: Listen, like please say take me out there, please you
58:04
Speaker 2: out here?
58:05
Speaker 5: You know?
58:05
Speaker 4: And then you say, but you think about it, because
58:07
Speaker 4: that was the thing. At first, It was like why me?
58:09
Speaker 4: Why me? And then I started saying why not me?
58:14
Speaker 4: Why not me? He did, he did. He did pick
58:19
Speaker 4: the strongest. He did pick the strongest. And he gives
58:26
Speaker 4: you more, you know. You know old church church church
58:29
Speaker 4: folks will say, God don't give you more than you can't.
58:32
Speaker 4: God won't give you more than you can handle. Yeah,
58:34
Speaker 4: I believe. I don't. I don't believe that at all.
58:36
Speaker 4: I believe he gives you more than you can handle.
58:38
Speaker 4: Because if he didn't give you more than you can handle,
58:41
Speaker 4: there would be no reason to call on him, there
58:42
Speaker 4: would be no reason to surrender. Now big fis there
58:45
Speaker 4: would be no if if I could God, I would
58:48
Speaker 4: be if I can handle it on myself.
58:52
Speaker 2: You're right about that.
58:53
Speaker 4: So I tried it and it did work.
59:00
Speaker 2: Falled.
59:04
Speaker 5: Oh my gosh, listen, yeah, she I feel like we
59:10
Speaker 5: could we could go around the table like you know,
59:13
Speaker 5: what's that movie Soul Food and the place be on.
59:17
Speaker 5: We could just do the place shift and she'll be
59:19
Speaker 5: talking and giving us a whole bunch of wisdom.
59:21
Speaker 2: We'll be laughing, we'll.
59:22
Speaker 5: Be crying because she she almost got me caught up
59:25
Speaker 5: a few times.
59:26
Speaker 2: What's your thoughts over there, Sees. I think it's a beautiful.
59:29
Speaker 5: I'm just you know, I love sitting here listening and
59:31
Speaker 5: just reflecting and all the things. But I think it's
59:33
Speaker 5: just a beautiful Your story is a beautiful picture of
59:36
Speaker 5: God's grace and his redemptive power. Right, So it's kind
59:41
Speaker 5: of similar, like I have a similar similar story where
59:44
Speaker 5: like it's like God allowed you to think that she
59:46
Speaker 5: was in control of your life and do all the things,
59:48
Speaker 5: like Lord, I'm doing all these things. But until the
59:51
Speaker 5: moment came, I too found myself on a hospital bed
59:55
Speaker 5: near death, right, And so it was in that moment
59:58
Speaker 5: I was like, you know, and this is the crazy thing.
1:00:01
Speaker 2: It wasn't even the thought of dang, I'm about to die.
1:00:04
Speaker 5: I could die right now, like literally, I was like
1:00:06
Speaker 5: literally internal bleeding, like had to get like eight unitsbu
1:00:10
Speaker 5: you know, platelets, all these things. And it wasn't even
1:00:12
Speaker 5: like dang, lode I could die. It was I don't
1:00:15
Speaker 5: even think I've done anything, Like I didn't even touch
1:00:19
Speaker 5: the crass the surface of what I believe that you've
1:00:21
Speaker 5: put me on this earth to do. So in that moment,
1:00:24
Speaker 5: I was like, I don't know what that is, but
1:00:27
Speaker 5: I'm gonna give you my yes. And this was only
1:00:30
Speaker 5: this was February twenty twenty one, right, so as a
1:00:33
Speaker 5: I was doing here full time of licensed cosmetologists, So
1:00:36
Speaker 5: in my mind that's what I did. Now apparently I'm
1:00:40
Speaker 5: producing podcasts, you know what I'm saying. So it was
1:00:42
Speaker 5: almost kind of like he just used that moment to
1:00:46
Speaker 5: really help me to realign to what he really has,
1:00:50
Speaker 5: you know, and on this earth for to do. And
1:00:52
Speaker 5: that's kind of like similar it's like, hey, yeah, you know,
1:00:54
Speaker 5: you got a good gunment job, but I got so
1:00:56
Speaker 5: much more. Like there's so many people, so many more
1:00:59
Speaker 5: people that I have that need what you have that
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Speaker 5: I put on the inside of you, and so you're yes,
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Speaker 5: just allows you to begin to flow in His blessings
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Speaker 5: and his graces.
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Speaker 2: And I'm just like, Lord, this is beautiful.
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Speaker 5: So I'm just sitting back and I'm just listening, and
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Speaker 5: I can see like parts of me and Jess's story
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Speaker 5: in there. And I do believe like the listeners, the
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Speaker 5: listeners will be able to see themselves too. And then
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Speaker 5: just understand that God can only The truth of the
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Speaker 5: matter is he can really only do as much as
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Speaker 5: we allow him to do.
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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 5: So he's waiting on us to say yes, a fool
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Speaker 5: surrender render, a full surrendered yes.
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Speaker 2: So I'm grateful.
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Speaker 5: But you're coming on in this thing and blessing us today.
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Speaker 5: You just you just suk you just what was what
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Speaker 5: was that?
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Speaker 2: What was that? Oh? I'm asking I.
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Speaker 4: Used to do hair too. Oh, come on first, cousin.
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Speaker 2: I don't want to almost I don't know if I
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Speaker 2: want experience, it's experience, man, Listen. I learned from y'all
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Speaker 2: I would learn. But what was that? That was your
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Speaker 2: connection with her?
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Speaker 4: Yeah?
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Speaker 5: Okay, I was about to say no because folks, she's
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Speaker 5: speaking tongue.
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Speaker 2: Y'all, y'all know what I say about fo this speaking tongue.
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Speaker 5: I'll yield the flow real quick, she said, She says,
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Speaker 5: he I will yield it. Listen, this has been refreshing.
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Speaker 5: It's been refreshing. You feel like family, like you just
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Speaker 5: feel like family.
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Speaker 2: Are fat.
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Speaker 4: All my brothers, sisters and me cousins, cousins, first cousin, second, third, removed.
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Speaker 2: You know how we beat, you know how we beat.
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Speaker 5: But no, I really, I really, I really love your
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Speaker 5: story and I can't wait to just see what God
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Speaker 5: exposes to you, like just continues to surprise, like use
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Speaker 5: you as the evidence that he is love, that he
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Speaker 5: is everything that he says that he is. So I
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Speaker 5: know he's talked talked about a lot of things, from
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Speaker 5: women's hell, to bridging a generational gap to just you know,
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Speaker 5: overcoming fear getting your name right. I'm gonna I'm gonna
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Speaker 5: let it go, like in a few minutes. I'm still
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Speaker 5: mad at myself by that. I know you not the
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Speaker 5: Lord then already dealt with me while he was having
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Speaker 5: this conversation. But within all of that, if they didn't
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Speaker 5: hear anything, what is the one thing you want to
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Speaker 5: leave with the viewers today.
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Speaker 4: I'm gonna go back to what I said, stop snatching
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Speaker 4: the pin. While God is writing, trust trust the story
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Speaker 4: that he's writing for you. Trust it. You know a
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Speaker 4: lot of times we we don't see the destination, so
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Speaker 4: we we don't want to drive the car, but understand
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Speaker 4: that there would be detours, it will get bumpy. And
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Speaker 4: make sure on the way you don't never let the
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Speaker 4: enemy in because if you let the enemy in on
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Speaker 4: the door and you let him in on the passenger side,
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Speaker 4: it won't be long before he's trying to drive. Okay,
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Speaker 4: So I just say trust trust what God is doing
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Speaker 4: in your life. There is a there is a breakthrough
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Speaker 4: at the end of that storm. I know it.
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Speaker 5: You are evidence evidence evidence Okay that Naomi so name
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Speaker 5: only rain song just came.
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Speaker 2: That's that's the word that passed He gave us for
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Speaker 2: this year. Is you are the evidence?
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Speaker 4: Yeah?
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Speaker 5: Literally, yeah, Oh I snatched.
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Speaker 2: It because you are. You are hotly the evidence doctor
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Speaker 2: shuned to collect.
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Speaker 4: You said it right.
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Speaker 5: I said it right because I practiced it like forty times.
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Speaker 4: With your head. You know that you were sitting here
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Speaker 4: right you was talking. That's how you kind of you
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Speaker 4: was like, no, I praied this boy.
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Speaker 2: This the gag.
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Speaker 5: You know that it was a picture where you had
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Speaker 5: your shirt on and you had it's uh, it breaks
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Speaker 5: it down.
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Speaker 2: What did you call it? When the word is broken down?
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Speaker 5: The definition the definition, but it breaks your name down
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Speaker 5: the phonetically. I wanted to say that word, but I
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Speaker 5: didn't want to be ignorant in front of the doctor.
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Speaker 4: I lack a local.
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Speaker 2: Two F three's. I looked at it.
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Speaker 5: I look, I studied that shirt under you shirt, and
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Speaker 5: I promise you.
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Speaker 4: I was like, Okay, you did good. I've heard a
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Speaker 4: lot worse. Like normally, I don't I don't even correct people.
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Speaker 4: I kind of sometimes just let them go with the flow.
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Speaker 2: Nine is my friend, and I'm not I'm gonna call
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Speaker 2: oufter be like girl, mama and now you're.
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Speaker 4: My Mama's so nice.
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Speaker 2: She's not even gonna be mad.
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Speaker 3: Girl.
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Speaker 4: Don't worry.
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Speaker 5: I know, but no, I really believe that the Lord
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Speaker 5: is allowed that to happen for multiple reasons. But another
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Speaker 5: reason is even if those things happen, we gotta move
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Speaker 5: forward and be the evidence.
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Speaker 2: Evidence. We gotta be the evidence.
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Speaker 5: So you guys, we thank you so much for tuning
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Speaker 5: in desil Ray, Hey you go girl. I love you
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Speaker 5: so much, y'all. I love you until next week. Until
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Speaker 5: next time, remember life could be much more simple if
1:06:54
Speaker 5: you just has.
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Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always say.
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Speaker 2: Thank God for one another day.
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Speaker 3: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way. Hey,
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Speaker 3: pray thank God for another day. Hey Hey, I'm just
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Speaker 3: thankfu for another day. Hey hey another day? Oh, another
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Speaker 3: day wise, another day to get it right, another day
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Speaker 3: to rise up, another day living, another day.
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Speaker 2: We love ones.
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Speaker 3: I always remember hold it down for a ball one
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