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Wellness Wednesday (This Is A Safe Space) · Black Girl Interrupted Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Chop another. What's up? What's up? What's up? Y'all? Welcome
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  back to another episode of Black Girl into Rut podcast.
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  You already know who it is. It's your favorite girl
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  from the five OO for bringing you another beautiful episode
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  of Black Girl into Rugby. Oh, Happy Wednesday, Happy Wednesday, y'all.
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  Let me just start off by saying, thank y'all for
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  all the love and the support that y'all give me.
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  Excuse me with each and other episode that I bring
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  to y'all, Like, I don't think y'all understand how forever
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  grateful I will forever be for the love and support
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  for the people that surround me. But anybody that knows
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  that or that is new to Black Girl Interrupted. I
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  always start off with a mental health checking, So before
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  we get started, let's go ahead and let's do this
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  mental health check in. I always play something that's inspiring,
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  something that's inspirational. Excuse me, excuse me, excuse me, excuse me,
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  excuse me. That's something I always do. Always try to
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  play something motivating, something inspirational, something empowering, something encouraging for
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  those that may find themselves somewhere in a bind. But
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  here we go. And then we're gonna jump on into
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  tonight's conversation will knock you between the eyes.
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  Speaker 2: It will catch you on the blindside, come out of
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  know If step you can't anticipate, they will knock the win.
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  Speaker 1: Out of you.
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  Speaker 2: You want to give up, It's going to be very challenging.
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  Whenever you decide that you want to grow, Whenever you
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  decide that you want to go to another level, all
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  hell will break loose.
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  Speaker 3: It's hard, it's not easy.
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  Speaker 1: It's hard changing your life.
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  Speaker 2: And here's what I want to say to you, for
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  those of you that have experienced some hardships, don't give
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  up on your dream in moments when you're going to
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  doubt yourself. Their rough times are going to come, but
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  they have not come to stay. They have come to pass.
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  Speaker 1: We all go to the problem.
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  Speaker 4: They don't have to overwhelm you thought.
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  Speaker 5: Problems don't have to take you out, though problems will
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  have to make your life miserable. Though your problem is
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  you go back and running your safety net.
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  Speaker 1: I can't do it help and you're.
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  Speaker 5: Gonna be running to it for the rest of your
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  life until you get to a point where you look
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  at life and say you will not beat me.
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  Speaker 3: It's easy to complain. It's easy to point out your circumstances.
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  It's easy to talk about what has happened to you.
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  It's easy to talk about your situation, what you're going through.
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  Speaker 1: But if you do what is.
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  Speaker 2: Easy, your life will be hard. But if you do
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  what is hard, your life will be easy.
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  Speaker 1: See, it's easy to be on the bottom.
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  Speaker 2: It doesn't take any effort to be a loser, doesn't
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  take any motivation, any drive in order to stay down
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  there at a low level.
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  Speaker 1: But it calls on everything in you, ladies and gentlemen.
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  Speaker 2: You have to honess your will to say, I'm going
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  to challenge myself Sometimes I have to pull myself out
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  of beds and come off lets.
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  Speaker 1: Things I know I should do.
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  Speaker 2: I talk to things I shouldn't do I do. I
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  found that the biggest enemy.
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  Speaker 6: You have to do.
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  Speaker 5: You know with this yourself, your problem is some of
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  you are phenomenally still.
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  Speaker 6: But it is a phenomenal will that.
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  Speaker 5: Says every time I get knocked.
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  Speaker 2: Down, I will get back up and I will succeed.
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  Speaker 5: I will not surrender. You have something great in you.
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  You can do it. Where you are is temporary. You
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  will not be there for the rest of your life.
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  Hit my last for a second, hit my last for
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  a minute, hit my last for an hour, hit my
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  last for a week.
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  Speaker 6: It might last for a day, it might.
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  Speaker 1: Last for months.
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  Speaker 6: But sooner or later, if you do not surrender, if
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  you do not give up, if you do not give in,
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  it will subside.
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  Speaker 2: You've got to say yes, Yes to my dreams, Yes
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  to me. I can make it. Yes I can. Doesn't
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  matter how many failures I've made. Doesn't matter how many
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  mistakes I've endured, doesn't matter about my defeat, doesn't matter
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  about what I've done.
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  Speaker 4: I don't care about the fact I'm in a hole now,
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  doesn't matter about where I am. Yes, Yes, the last
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  chapter to my life has not been written yet.
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  Speaker 2: If you judge me now, you'll judge me prematurely. I
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  haven't exposed all my stuff yet. I'm still in the
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  process of transforming my life. I'm still in the process
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  of becoming.
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  Speaker 6: Yes, you are prayers, you are unique, you are special,
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  you are talented, and you deserve to have everything you want.
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  And stop listening to the people who tell you don't
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  kill the noise. What do they know?
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  Speaker 1: Who are they?
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  Speaker 6: And when that thing tells you to quit.
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  Speaker 1: You look at it in.
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  Speaker 6: His eye and say, I ain't going nowhere. I will
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  break you before you break me.
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  Speaker 5: You will not defeat me.
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  Speaker 4: You will not destroy me.
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  Speaker 6: You've been through so much hell, you won't quit now.
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  You don't quit now. It's the tenth rour. You got
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  two more to go. And when you get to success,
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  it's not about still you can get you a certain
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  level of success.
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  Speaker 1: It's about standing up.
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  Speaker 6: It's about you wanna breakly. You can't take me.
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  Speaker 1: I'm far too long, I'm far too hard.
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  Speaker 6: It's too late now. He should have broken me a
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  long time ago.
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  Speaker 4: I'm not unbreakable now.
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  Speaker 1: Oh man. Let me tell you. When I sit down
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  before I do my episodes, I always try to find
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  something that I could relate to to encourage to you
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  to utilize. Let me say this to utilize and encourage
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  or empower somebody when I tell you, it's rough out here, y'all.
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  Like everything going on in the world, somebody is going
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  through something and then they're dealing with it alone. So
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  anybody that's tuned in dropping the comments, let me know
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  how are you feeling today? I know today it's Wednesday,
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  it's hot day. We're three months until twenty twenty five.
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  How have you been? How have you been doing? That
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  is my concern. I want to know how are you doing?
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  How is your mental doing? What can I do as
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  a person, as a friend, as a sister, as a cousin,
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  as a whatever you label me, what can I do
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  to help you through this? Hence, this is why I
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  created Black Girl Interrupted podcast. I mean, on those days,
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  forgiving y'all, I'm trying to adjust the microphone. But I've
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  noticed that ever since I started doing my podcast, it
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  has been very therapeutic for me. It has been very
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  easy for me to get on here and just be
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  able to love on y'all, to be able to pour
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  into y'all and to receive the same love that I
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  give out. So that's the beautiful thing about my podcast,
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  you know what. Let me back up, let me rephrase that.
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  This is the beautiful thing about this space of a
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  podcast that I created not just for me, but for
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  all of y'all, for men, for women, because we really
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  just don't have a lot of safe spaces. We don't
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  have spaces where we could go in and we could
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  talk and we could vibe and without the disrespect. You
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  know where we are genuinely in a space where we
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  could love on everybody, where we can pour into somebody,
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  where we can encourage somebody, where we could uplift somebody,
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  Because again, you don't know what a person is going through.
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  And like I said this before and I'm gonna always
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  say it, you never know. Excuse me, what a text
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  could do to somebody's day that could change their whole
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  move Just to receive a text saying I love you
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  or I'm thinking about you, hey, just checking in with
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  your whole things are good on your end. That could
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  change a person's whole day. So I say all that
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  to say is I know life, life's a lot of times.
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  I know it does, but it really only takes you
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  about thirty seconds to just send somebody a text and say, hey,
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  you know what, I just want to let you know
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  I was thinking about you. I know life is life,
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  and you know I've been busy blah blah blah blah
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  the woo, but I just want to let you know
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  I was thinking about you, and I hope everything is okay.
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  I text the girlfriend of mine yesterday and I just
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  I told her, I said, you know, I miss talking
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  to you girl. Like we really have to catch up.
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  We haven't spoken since maybe January, I believe, maybe right
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  before right after Christmas, and she was like, you know,
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  she was like, it's really good to hear from you.
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  And she was going through some things and I didn't
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  know she was going through something. But just the fact
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  that I just sent her a text and to all
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  I was thinking about her hasis just checking in with you,
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  how you're feeling blah blah blah. And she was like,
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  you know, thank you. And that's what I mean when
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  I say it only takes a moment for you to
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  just send somebody a text and say, hey, you know what,
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  I was just thinking about you today. Both things are good,
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  both the kids are good, or husband, wife, whatever it is.
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  It takes nothing away from you for, you know, to
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  check on somebody. It takes nothing away from you. But again,
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  the reason why I do these mental health check ins
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  again because we didn't have this, you know, when I
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  was coming up, we didn't have these circles where we
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  checked on people, where we reached out to people to
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  see how they were doing. Especially in a black community,
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  it's rough. It's difficult for us to try to be
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  transparent without the judgment So this is another reason why
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  I created Black Girl Interrupted, because I wanted a space
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  for us where there would be no judgment. I wanted
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  a space where we could actually get in here and
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  we can talk, we can laugh, we could joke, we
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  can cry, and don't have to worry about people saying, oh,
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  he's sad because he's crying, or uh, she's this, she's that.
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  We don't you know. You know, I don't tolerate disrespect
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  in this space. But again, I do this because I
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  didn't have circles like this coming up. So I wanted
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  to be a cocoon for somebody. I wanted to be
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  an envelope for somebody. I wanted someone to know that, hey,
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  I'm thinking about you, that I do care about your
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  mental that I am concerned about how you're doing, how
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  you're feeling. I want to know because again, maybe you
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  maybe you just need me to be the ear. Maybe
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  you just need to have the conversation and I could
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  just sit and just listen to you without saying, oh,
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  I remember that happened to me, and then I'm taking
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  over the whole entire conversation. So I'm learning, you know,
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  I'm learning that when people say, man I got this
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  going on. I'm learning to stop making a conversation about me.
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  I'm learning to listen and to be the vent for
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  that person that doesn't have anybody else. So that's why
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  I do these mental health check ins. This is why
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  I created a Black Girl Interrupted podcast, simply because I
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  wanted us to have a space where we could just talk.
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  And I'm not talking about a space where we get
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  up here and yeah we do, we laugh, we gotsipping,
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  we joke, and we played from time to time, but
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  we're serious a lot of times. I love the fact
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  that people are so transparent and they're not worried about
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  everybody else. I love the fact that people are now
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  starting to open up and tell their stories about what
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  has happened to them, what's going on with them. I
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  love that. I love that, you know. So this is
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  what we do over here on Black Girl Interrupted. We're
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  gonna have those mental health check ins. We're gonna talk
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  and have some of the most uncomfortable conversations. We're gonna
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  talk about things that are going on, things that we
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  could do as a person, even as a community, to
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  make things better for us. So again, I'm gonna always
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  say Black Girl Interrupted it is not my space, it's
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  our space. And y'all not gonna give me tonight. I promise,
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  y'all not gonna give me tonight. But today is Wednesday, y'all,
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  and today is wellness Wednesday. That is what. I don't
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  know what's going on. This thing is just it's been
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  going so crazy. But today is Wednesday. It is wellness Wednesday,
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  and this is a safe space. Why I chose wellness
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  Wednesday not just for your physical health, but your mental health,
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  your emotional your emotional wellness, your mental wellness. How are
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  you doing? When I tell y'all, I can tell y'all
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  how things have been going for me. When I tell
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  you God has really and y'all not gonna give it
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  to night, y'all, y'all not gonna give me tonight. But
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  I will say God is really, really, really moving for me.
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  I'm not gonna cry to night, I promise, because and
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  if I do, y'all know I'm the biggest craw baby
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  in the world. But I want you to know these
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  are not tears a sadness, these or tears a joy
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  because when I tell you God has been stepping so
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  big for me, I can't give I can only give
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  him the praise and the glory because there are some
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  things that I wake up and I don't feel like
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  I'm worthy of a lot of things. But then when
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  I sit down and I have these conversations because I
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  have one on one conversations with God, and God tells
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  me I created you in my likeness, so you are
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  worthy of everything that I give to you. So I
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  have to sometimes I have to take a step back,
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  and I have to say, you know what, if God
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  didn't want me to have these things, he wouldn't give
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  them to me. He wouldn't bless me the way that
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  he does, and he does. God has given me a
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  beautiful circle of people that are always front and center
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  for me. God has brought new people to my life,
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  you understand. So I'm blessed for that. I'm blessed that
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  I woke up today. I'm blessed that I just I
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  gotta raise at my job. It may not have been
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  a big raise, but any raise I will take. I'm
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  not m I am grateful for everything that this man
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  has done for me and continues to do for me.
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  God has put me in a position, y'all to be
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  a grown up, y'all to really truly be a grown up.
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  I paid off my car, my credit card bills are down,
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  and God is putting me and my husband in a
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  position to become home buyers now. So I'm forever grateful
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  for that. But I knew there were things that I
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  had to do in order to start to receive that,
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  because I'm not gonna to y'all. I lost my weight.
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  I did. I forgot who God was, and then I
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  had to realize, this man is the head of my household.
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  This man is the center of my universe. This man
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  is everything, and he just wants a little bit of
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  my time. So as I sat down and I started
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  to read my Bible, I started, you know, let me
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  back up, let me say this. I started to relearn
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  the Bible because I knew it as a little girl,
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  but I didn't know it as a grown woman, as
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  a mother, as a wife. So as I sat down
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  and I started to read the Bible, I started to
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  understand why things weren't happening for me. God said, the
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  way you will living, I can't bless a mess, and
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  that hit me.
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  Speaker 5: It hit me.
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  Speaker 1: So here I am. I'm living with a man, I'm
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  not married too, and it's just like, do I really
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  want to marry this man? Do I want to be
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  with this man for the rest of my life? I
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  prayed on it first, but prior to me even pursuit
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  getting into a relationship with this man, I just lost
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  my father. So here I am. I'm dealing with that.
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  I'm battling with that. Then I meet this man who
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  I felt like didn't understand anything that I was going
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  through because he still has both of his parents his
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  mom and his dad only had my mom. So I
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  was very, very mean to this man in the very
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  beginning our relationship. I was I was horrible simply because
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  I didn't understand the word first of all. Second of all,
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  I allowed my past to control the present. So as
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  I started to sit down and really have a conversation
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  with my now husband, he showed me these are the
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  things that you have to do. He's the one that
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  pushed me back towards God. You understand, and I don't
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  share a lot of that, But y'all are family, so
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  you know I'm gonna ever be transparent, you know, forever,
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  I'm gonna tell y'all everything. So because of him, I
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  got back into reading my Bible, and the more I
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  read the Bible, the bigger doors started to open for me.
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  When I finally was like, you know what, I know
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  this is who I want to be with. God really
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  started to open doors for me. God really started to
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  bless me. God started to reveal things to me that
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  I thought, Man, they can't be like that to me,
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  but they were. And then God started to remove people
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  out of the way. He started to clear my path
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  for me. Was I sad? Yeah, because I wanted to
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  hold on to these people because I thought these people
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  really truly loved me. I thought these people were my
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  real two friends. But they weren't. So God made it
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  made it possible for me and this man to really
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  just you know, get into our relationship. Then when he
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  moved here, God said, okay, I've moved him here. Now
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  what are y'all gonna do? And we talked about marriage.
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  We did, but then I said, I don't know. I
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  started the question, am I really ready to be a wife? God?
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  Am I really? And God says, I prepared you? What
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  do you mean you prepared me? He said, you didn't
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  notice all the things I started to do for you.
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  I was clearing your path to make you the way
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  that I knew you could be. And I say, but God,
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  he said, no, I don't care what you've done. Then
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  I've watched you. Your dad is paid in full. So
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  I said, okay, God, God started to repair the relationship
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  with my children. He started to repair the relationship with
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  my mother and my sister. But because I was so
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  determined to try to hold on to who I was,
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  because that's that's what I was holding onto, was who
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  I used to be, and then appreciate the woman that
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  I became. Oh, y'all got to forgive me. So we
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  got married. God said, Okay, I've gotten you over one
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  hurdle I've given I built the foundation for you. I've
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  given you the tools. Now you know what to do.
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  So we're married. We're no longer living in in saying,
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  where we're living the righteous wait? And all I can
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  hear was God say, thank you what you're thinking me? For? God? Like,
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  why God, why are you thinking me? God said, because
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  you listened, then you understood the assignment. I didn't even
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  know I was being tested, but he did. And as
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  hurtful and as painful as it was, I held on.
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  I held on, and that man moves and walks for me.
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  God said, I'm about to bless you. He say, because
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  you passed the test, you understood your assignment, you knew
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  what you were supposed to do. He said, But I'm
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  not done. But I'm not done with you. What you
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  mean you're not done? He said, you still have some
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  things to do that I need you to do for me.
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  So I never questioned anything, but my cousin tells me.
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  She says, you're supposed to question God. Y'all have a relationship.
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  You're supposed to ask questions if it's things you don't understand.
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  So I said to God, I said, what do you
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  need me to do? He said, don't worry, don't worry,
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  don't worry. You have a purpose. I use you to
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  pass the word because people stop and they listen to you. Ashley,
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  that's all.
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  Speaker 7: I said.
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  Speaker 1: What you mean people listening? He said, they do. He said,
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  look at where you started to look at where you
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  are now with your podcast. He said, okay, he said,
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  you connected with some amazing people. Okay, I'm still questioning, y'all.
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  I'm still trying to figure out. Okay, like, okay, I
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  do I guess maybe I just have the energy say no,
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  that's me that moves through you to talk to the people.
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  Why me, Why you pick me? He said, because it's
• 23:18
  your gifts. He said. Your mouth is big, he said,
• 23:20
  you talk a lot, so let me give you something
• 23:23
  to talk about. Cool, no problem. So here we y'all.
• 23:30
  Black girl learned about the podcast. We have something to
• 23:33
  talk about. But I mean, just hold on. I got
• 23:38
  some comments my sister. Oh my god, I'm so sorry.
• 23:44
  I did not mean no scream. Y'all. See, hey boo,
• 23:49
  I miss you, I love you. I love you, I
• 23:51
  love you, I love you. Yes, I'm here. I'm back.
• 23:55
  I am back. I am back. And when I tell y'all,
• 23:59
  I'm strong, I'm better than ever. You understand. When I
• 24:03
  tell y'all, I just want y'all to know how great
• 24:10
  God is. That. That's all I want y'all to know.
• 24:13
  I want you to know. M Let me take a
• 24:21
  deep breath, because when I talk about God, I get
• 24:26
  on my soap boxing and when I tell you, it
• 24:28
  makes me so emotional, but never in a bad way.
• 24:30
  Let me say that, never in a bad way. Yeah,
• 24:35
  I was allowing my past. I sure was. I sure was.
• 24:39
  I sure was. And she says, let go and let
• 24:41
  God and I have because without that man up here,
• 24:45
  I wouldn't be where I am to date. Without that
• 24:46
  man up there, we wouldn't be where we are today.
• 24:49
  You understand. Without him, and the and the and the
• 24:52
  thing about it, we don't give God all the praise
• 24:57
  that he's worthy of. You understand we and we only
• 25:02
  go to God in times of need, but we never
• 25:05
  go to Him in the times we don't need. You understand,
• 25:09
  God is not and I don't want anyone to take
• 25:13
  offense to this. God is not a part time person.
• 25:16
  You understand. God is a full time person. He's full time.
• 25:21
  He's not part time. He's not as needed. God is
• 25:27
  all the time. We need him all the time, and
• 25:29
  the good days, the bad days, the highs, the lowers,
• 25:32
  the ups and downs. We need him all the time.
• 25:35
  And all God asks for us is to just give
• 25:37
  him a little bit of our time. God is not
• 25:39
  telling you to stop your whole day, but he wants
• 25:42
  some time for him because he's a jealous God. And
• 25:45
  those are and that's some of the things that I've
• 25:47
  learned as I started to relearn the Bible, because again
• 25:51
  I was talked about it as a little girl. You know,
• 25:53
  I was a preacher's daughter. But I guess it really
• 25:57
  just didn't make sense to me until I got older
• 26:01
  and I was able to go back and go back
• 26:02
  and say, you know what, God, you was right all
• 26:06
  the while. You was right all along. But here I am.
• 26:09
  I'm trying to do things my way. But my way
• 26:13
  wasn't working, you understand. So God told me, he said,
• 26:18
  since you want to keep doing things your way, I'm
• 26:20
  gonna step back and I'm gonna let you do this.
• 26:23
  That is what I said. Okay, cool, bet, I got this.
• 26:27
  I'm strong. You know. You got me and my little
• 26:29
  suit of arm. I'm ready for the war until it
• 26:32
  was time for me to go through the war. Okay, okay,
• 26:42
  but we thought we were ready. You understand, we slewed
• 26:46
  it up. I'm telling you. God gave us everything until
• 26:51
  it was time to go into the war, and now
• 26:52
  we're scared. I don't want to do it. God, I
• 26:55
  don't know. Don't God say you was ready, you didn't
• 27:00
  need me, You didn't need me to go through the war.
• 27:02
  You don't go, and then you come back and you
• 27:05
  let me know how you made it out. Baby. Let
• 27:11
  me tell you, y'all. My first foot in that door,
• 27:13
  I said, I ain't gonna be through this without him.
• 27:16
  I ain't been through this because I've been trying to
• 27:17
  go through the war. And guess what, I've been hurt
• 27:20
  and stabbed and beat up and bumped and bruised, and
• 27:23
  I've been down. I've laid down. But God says, I'm
• 27:27
  gonna take you through the war. I'ma I'm gonna take
• 27:30
  you to the war, and I'm gonna take you through
• 27:31
  the war. You understand, wherever I take you, I'm gonna
• 27:34
  take you through it. I'm not gonna leave you there.
• 27:36
  I didn't understand that because I used to get so
• 27:40
  angry with God and say, well, God, where are you?
• 27:42
  Why do you keep doing all of this to me?
• 27:44
  Because he was trying to prepare me for the war,
• 27:47
  even though I had told him I had it under control.
• 27:50
  I knew how to do this, Like God, I don't
• 27:52
  need it. You like I got this just to sit back, Jesus,
• 27:55
  I got this, okay. So Jesus and the twelve Disciples
• 27:58
  and God and everybody else marry. Everybody said, Okay, she
• 28:02
  got it, let her go. Let her go, and let's
• 28:06
  see how how she does. So by the time I
• 28:09
  made it back to God, y'all, let me tell you
• 28:10
  all to beat down. I was wole down. I was
• 28:13
  told down baby. I had black eyes, I had bumps,
• 28:16
  brute baby, I was scratched the I looked at high
• 28:19
  mess and here I come dragging back to God. God,
• 28:24
  We'll said, what do you want now? I said, But God?
• 28:28
  He said, He said, I tried to tell you, but
• 28:31
  you knew it all. You will know it all, God
• 28:34
  told me. He said, you are a smart dumb No,
• 28:37
  he said, you are dumb know it all. I know
• 28:40
  you ain't calling me no names. Uh huh he did,
• 28:44
  he said, because I kept trying to tell you. He said,
• 28:46
  I kept trying to give you the tools. He said,
• 28:48
  I built the foundation. He said, I gave you the
• 28:51
  manual and you didn't read it. So now I'm mad
• 28:59
  because I been through a war. Y'all. I'm bumped, I'm bruised,
• 29:03
  I'm hurt, my ego, everything, self esteem, everything. God said,
• 29:08
  I tried to tell you you wanted to do this
• 29:11
  on your own. I told you I was gonna walk
• 29:14
  with you, but no, you want to be big and
• 29:16
  bad and strong. And guess what now, you in this war,
• 29:19
  it's raining, it's fire, it's hot, it's everything, and now
• 29:23
  you in the midst of this storm crime after I
• 29:27
  told you to hold on, I'm gonna go through it
• 29:31
  with you. But because you're so impatient, I let you
• 29:36
  just gonna go. You want to ride that bike with
• 29:42
  no knee passed, no, no no elbow pass no helmet.
• 29:46
  Speaker 5: Not.
• 29:46
  Speaker 1: Look at you, You're toe down your clothes, tore up,
• 29:50
  your look raggedy. Hold who are talking to? Who God
• 29:56
  think hes talking to? He said, I'm talking to you,
• 30:01
  he said, because ain't nobody in this conversation but me
• 30:03
  and you. Oh of God, you can't handle me like
• 30:06
  he said, I can handle you anyway I choose to.
• 30:08
  He said, You're my child, not the other way around.
• 30:12
  Somebody better say man, because God is the father, you understand,
• 30:18
  He's the head. So I said, Okay, some of y'all
• 30:25
  have been through a storm, you understand. Some of y'all
• 30:27
  still in the midst of it. Some of y'all choose
• 30:31
  to try to do this on your own. And every
• 30:33
  time you do a guess what, you're running to a
• 30:34
  brick wall, and then you run back to God. God,
• 30:37
  and God is tired of hearing it. God keeps telling
• 30:40
  you hold on what you think you're gonna miss if
• 30:45
  you wait a minute, what I'm gonna miss whateverybody? He said.
• 30:50
  But you're not everybody else. Okay, God said, you're not
• 30:58
  everybody else, You're just you. He said. Your problem, you're
• 31:06
  too busy eating off everybody else's plate. In your own
• 31:09
  food is getting cold. Eat what's on your plate. I'm
• 31:16
  tired of having these conversations with this man. A baby.
• 31:18
  I'll tell you that man. Let me tell you all
• 31:19
  about go baby. God gets you together, and what can
• 31:24
  you say? What can you say but sit there and
• 31:28
  listen to what the man are saying? Right, You can't
• 31:30
  do no but take it because arguing with God, you're
• 31:32
  never gonna win. Because let me tell you something. God
• 31:35
  has a verse for every rebuttal that you try to
• 31:38
  give to him, whether it comes from the Book of Job,
• 31:41
  whether it comes from Ezekiel, whether it comes from John,
• 31:44
  whether it comes from two Timothy. God has a rebuttal
• 31:46
  for everything you trying to throw to them, every excuse
• 31:49
  you try to give God, God has a rebuttal for.
• 31:51
  God is gonna give you a sermon. So I said, okay,
• 31:59
  what's the word today? God? God says, boundaries. Where are
• 32:06
  your boundaries? I say, God, I don't know what that means.
• 32:14
  He said, So you just let people run all over you.
• 32:15
  You don't know how to tell people?
• 32:16
  Speaker 5: No?
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: Yeah? Not, I say no. He said, no, you don't,
• 32:24
  he said, because everybody that I've removed from your life,
• 32:26
  you kept trying to pull them back. He said, because
• 32:31
  I removed them for a purpose, for a reason, he said,
• 32:34
  because you were that star around all those black clouds,
• 32:40
  And can't nobody see your star when you're around it,
• 32:42
  when you're surrounded by black clouds? Right, okay? God said,
• 32:47
  come on, come on, sit down. I know you heard.
• 32:52
  I know you may. I know you feel some kind
• 32:54
  of way. Look at you got two black eyes, the
• 32:57
  elbows all scratched up, your hair missing in the bag everything. God,
• 33:01
  so you've been you went through it, hall, He said,
• 33:04
  you can down there tussing with the with the devil hug.
• 33:12
  He said, because it devil made it look good to you,
• 33:13
  didn't it? I said, he did? He said it wasn't good?
• 33:16
  Was I said it wasn't. M hm, that's what he said,
• 33:24
  Because he say, even small milk is white. That may
• 33:29
  have flown over a lot of y'all heads. But he say,
• 33:33
  even small milk is white. So I said, okay, God,
• 33:39
  I'm listening now. He said, you don't have a choice
• 33:41
  but to listen because you're all told out A can't
• 33:45
  nobody else rebuild you but me, he said. But I'm
• 33:48
  not going to put you back together all at the
• 33:51
  same time. So I said, So you won't let me
• 33:55
  go out in the world with one black eye? He said, yeah,
• 33:58
  I am. I said, well, what about all these scripts
• 34:02
  you say they'll here? I didn't understand that. So God
• 34:09
  will send you back out to the battle even though
• 34:11
  you are battered and bruised. But just because you're battered
• 34:16
  than bruised, don't mean the war is over. Okay, So
• 34:23
  you're gonna send me out here looking like a homeless way,
• 34:25
  he said, And I am? He said, what are you
• 34:30
  more focused on how you look or winning the battle? Okay,
• 34:39
  I got you, he said, becauseee, once you win the
• 34:42
  bat once you win the battle, then we can work
• 34:45
  on how you look, no problem. Because see that's the
• 34:51
  problem with us when we go through these wars. We're
• 34:54
  so worried about how we're gonna look while going through it,
• 34:57
  instead of winning the battle. HM hm, okay, say, let's so,
• 35:07
  it doesn't matter how I look, it's how I come
• 35:09
  out on the other side. You understand, because you're not
• 35:12
  gonna come through anywhere unscathed. You understand you're not gonna
• 35:15
  come through any storm and not get wet. You're not
• 35:19
  You're not gonna go through any war, come through any war.
• 35:22
  And I have some bumps and bruises. Okay. I thought
• 35:27
  I thought the church in the back said hey, many,
• 35:29
  because I saw somebody said it. But that's a problem
• 35:34
  with us again, y'all. We're so worried about how we
• 35:38
  look going through the storm, but not concerned with making
• 35:40
  it through. Okay, because see, I'm tired of God taking
• 35:46
  me through the ups and downs and highs and those.
• 35:48
  But he said, I didn't make your roads perfect because
• 35:54
  along the way you will be tested. Along the way.
• 35:58
  I say this all the time, weapons will form, You're
• 36:01
  gonna have everything against you. But how you make it
• 36:04
  through is what matters. Some of y'all right now, are
• 36:11
  in the biggest war of your life, and you're so
• 36:14
  concerned about how people are looking at you, how people
• 36:17
  are viewing you, instead of how you're gonna come out
• 36:19
  on the other side. Some of y'all are like that
• 36:21
  right now. Yeah, some of y'all are like that right now.
• 36:29
  They always say, well, I don't look like what I've
• 36:31
  been through. Again, you focus on the appearance. You're focused
• 36:35
  on how you go, how you look going through it,
• 36:38
  but not how you're gonna come through it. Y'all are
• 36:43
  worried about the wrong thing. We need to start thinking logically.
• 36:47
  You understand, because I want to. I know every storm
• 36:50
  I endure, I'm gonna have some type of bump or
• 36:53
  bruise as I come through it. But I know once
• 36:56
  I make it through, I'm gonna be healed, and I'm
• 37:00
  gonna be prepared for the next storm that I may encounter,
• 37:04
  the one that God may throw my way to test me,
• 37:06
  to make sure I'm on my a game. You understand,
• 37:09
  because God is gonna test you. God don't care how
• 37:14
  fast you've driven the ball up and down the course.
• 37:16
  He don't care how fast or how far you can
• 37:18
  throw the ball up and down the field. Can you
• 37:20
  endure the war? Can you stand in the midst of
• 37:25
  that storm and own it and say, you know what, God,
• 37:27
  I got this, I'm gonna make it through. I'm with God.
• 37:32
  But guess what I made it. I may have lost
• 37:36
  some people, but guess what I made it. Y'all about
• 37:44
  to maybe start crying because I done been through a
• 37:50
  lot of storms, and I questioned every day how am
• 37:54
  I gonna make it through? But I didn't focus on
• 37:57
  how to get through it? You understand, I just want
• 37:59
  them to How can I get over this? Come on, God,
• 38:04
  hurry up, hurry up, God, come on, get me through this.
• 38:09
  God said, Hi, this is just the start of your storm.
• 38:17
  Can you make it? Will you hold onto my hand
• 38:22
  as I walk you through it? Or will you let
• 38:26
  my hand go? When you trying to fight this war
• 38:28
  on your own and then you end up defeated? And
• 38:32
  now you're mad at me. Now you don't believe in God.
• 38:35
  Now it's oh, I hate God. God always do this.
• 38:38
  And now you're mad because now you've allowed those demonic
• 38:42
  spirits to penetrate or infiltrate your thought, your thinking process,
• 38:46
  because now you're thinking on emotions, you're emotionally thinking, because
• 38:51
  now you're tired. You're mad now. But God, you said
• 38:54
  you would always be there for you. But you let
• 38:56
  my hand go, You let my hand and go. I
• 39:01
  held on to you, my child, I held on to you,
• 39:04
  but you let my hand go because you wanted to
• 39:07
  be big and bad. You did that, not me. I
• 39:11
  tried to hold on to you. I tried to pull
• 39:13
  your back to let me walk with you, but you
• 39:15
  want to walk in front of me. So guess what,
• 39:18
  I'm gonna let you go. And God says, when you're
• 39:23
  ready to have a real grown up conversation, then you
• 39:25
  come back and you can talk to me. That's what
• 39:30
  he told me. So guess what. I had to walk
• 39:37
  with my tail tucked, my head down like this. God,
• 39:45
  God said, what do you want? I said, God, I
• 39:48
  can't do He said, I know, He said, I knew
• 39:50
  the moment you let my hand go, you wen't gonna
• 39:51
  be able to do it. But I had to let
• 39:55
  you find your way because when you realize you can't
• 40:00
  do anything without me. Mm hmmm mm hmm. Yeah, I'm laughing,
• 40:09
  because baby, I couldn't do any I can't do anything
• 40:12
  without that man. I don't move without God. When I
• 40:17
  talk about God, I get very emotional. I look at
• 40:25
  the things my friends have gone through, my my cousins,
• 40:29
  even people I call my cousins, even people I call
• 40:31
  my sisters. I've seen their storms. And all I can
• 40:36
  do is just say, just grab God's hand, just hold
• 40:38
  his hand. He gonna walk you through it. He gonna
• 40:42
  walk you through it. Hold on to him, hold on
• 40:46
  to his unchanging hands. Because God ain't gonna never let
• 40:49
  you go. Man may let you go, but God ain't
• 40:52
  gonna never let you go. God gonna make sure that
• 40:58
  you were covered, that you are protected. And He's gonna
• 41:02
  give you the tools. You understand. God gonna build a
• 41:05
  foundation for you. He gonna give you the foundation. He
• 41:08
  gonna give you the tools and the manual. And I'm
• 41:12
  talking about the cheap manual with all the answers, But
• 41:18
  are you gonna read it? Are you gonna read it?
• 41:25
  And that book is called the Bible. Every question that
• 41:31
  you may have, the answer is in there, every trial
• 41:35
  of tribulation you may endure, how to overcome it is
• 41:38
  in that book. Whomever it is that you give the
• 41:43
  most praise to, it's a manual, whether it's the Bible,
• 41:48
  whether it's the Koran, that's your manual, that's your guide.
• 41:53
  That's for them to say, I'm gonna help you get
• 41:58
  through where you need to go. I'm gonna help you
• 42:01
  make it to the other side. But you gotta hold
• 42:03
  my hand and you gotta trust me. You gotta trust me.
• 42:08
  You gotta trust that no matter where I bring you,
• 42:12
  that I'm gonna bring you through. And we don't trust him.
• 42:16
  A lot of days, y'all we question. Okay, God, the baby,
• 42:21
  God could do anything. God is a healer, God as
• 42:26
  a counselor. He's a therapist, babyguardess, everything that you want
• 42:29
  in one person. He's all of that. But we don't
• 42:35
  give him the praise and the glory that he is
• 42:37
  so worthy of because of God. If you're awake to date,
• 42:40
  why you didn't get that man the praise upstairs? Why
• 42:44
  you ain't get a man this praise because he woke
• 42:45
  you up today? Y'all don't praise him enough. Y'all don't
• 42:51
  love on that man enough. But you only run to
• 42:53
  him when you're tired, when you're going through something, but
• 42:57
  never in your good times. You always go to him
• 42:59
  in your bad times, never in the good. So what
• 43:04
  are we gonna do? We gotta we just we we
• 43:12
  have to build our relationship closer to him. We have
• 43:14
  to be be and bring ourselves closer to that man.
• 43:19
  Because I'm telling you, yo, should say you better speak.
• 43:24
  Alres say come on, now speak, Hey, it's us. YO
• 43:28
  should say you better speak. She'll say bumped and bruised,
• 43:32
  and she'll say change is coming. There's my sister, Hey,
• 43:35
  jul Hey, sus and she says amen. YO should say
• 43:39
  come on and SML Jeffy says, can you help me,
• 43:43
  my love? What are you nia with, sugar? What do
• 43:47
  you need? But we have to give him all the
• 43:54
  grace and the mercy and tell him thank you. Day
• 44:00
  your head and your feet hit that fluor, you gotta
• 44:04
  go to God and you gotta say thank you God.
• 44:07
  Because there's somebody right now tonight that's not gonna wake
• 44:09
  up tomorrow. There's someone right now that's gonna go to
• 44:12
  work tomorrow and they're gonna lose their job. Someone that's
• 44:15
  gonna lose their house tomorrow. Yeah, So you gotta give
• 44:23
  them the grace. You gotta give yourself the grace. You
• 44:28
  gotta give yourself and know what you're grateful for again.
• 44:35
  Welcome back. Oh it's some new people jumping in. Hey,
• 44:39
  everybody that is new to this podcast. Welcome to Black
• 44:42
  Girl Interrupted podcast. It is your favorite girl from the
• 44:45
  Bible for bringing you another beautiful episode of That Girl interrupted.
• 44:50
  Tonight it is wellness Wednesday, So tonight I'm just talking
• 44:54
  about anything that can inspire your wellness, whether it's your
• 44:57
  mental wellness, your emotional wellness, your physical wellness. You understand everything,
• 45:01
  wellness of everything, empowering everything, uplifting absolutely, baby Yoshua saying,
• 45:07
  make sure the knees hit the flow. Absolutely absolutely, because
• 45:13
  guess what, God don't have to bless you. He don't
• 45:20
  have to. He don't have to do anything for you.
• 45:25
  But He does, whether you like it or not, He does.
• 45:31
  He does no matter how much we we slander his name.
• 45:35
  Guess what, God shows up every time. Every time he
• 45:40
  shows up. But we have to stop using him as
• 45:44
  he's like like a convenience, like he's a convenience to us,
• 45:52
  because we have to start learning to praise him in
• 45:54
  the good times and the bad times. We gotta talk
• 45:57
  to him on the good days, on the bad days,
• 46:00
  on the good guys, on the good days, just say,
• 46:02
  you know what, thank you God for waking me up today. Man, God,
• 46:04
  you step in big for me. I appreciate you. On
• 46:09
  in bad days, talk to them, be open because God
• 46:11
  sees everything, so you can't lie to them. You can't say, oh,
• 46:14
  we got it. God gonna say, yeah, I know it,
• 46:16
  I saw it. Tell me the truth. You gotta go
• 46:21
  to him with an open, honest and pure heart and
• 46:24
  tell God what you want. But you gotta trust him.
• 46:29
  You gotta leave it with him. You understand if you
• 46:31
  tell God, this is what you want, and let me
• 46:32
  tell you, you have to be specific in what it is
• 46:35
  that you want. Me and my husband we're starting the
• 46:38
  home buying process. So I've spoken to God and I say, God,
• 46:41
  this is what I want for my family. It don't
• 46:45
  have to be a big house. I just want a
• 46:47
  house for me and and my children and my husband.
• 46:52
  I want to conquerable space for us. I want a
• 46:54
  prayer room. Please get me. It don't even have to
• 46:56
  be a big space. I just want a little space
• 46:57
  with a little prayer room where I can go in
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  on them days where I just need to talk to God.
• 47:03
  That's all I want. That's all I want, And I'm specific.
• 47:07
  I told God, I don't care to color. It don't matter,
• 47:12
  but that's what I want. I want a comfortable home
• 47:14
  for me and my family. I want a prayer room
• 47:20
  and whatever else you give me. I'm gonna take it,
• 47:22
  even if it's five pennies, even if it's two quarters.
• 47:26
  Whatever God gives me, I'm gonna be grateful for it.
• 47:28
  I'm gonna be blessed that he thought about me. You
• 47:30
  understand that he passed by and say, you know that,
• 47:32
  go my girl. Let me drop this off up. That's
• 47:36
  all I want. I don't want nothing big. I don't
• 47:39
  want nothing extravagant. I want something comfortable for me, my husband,
• 47:42
  and my family. That's what I want. I want God
• 47:46
  to keep blessing my friends. I want God to keep
• 47:49
  blessing my family. I want God to keep looking over
• 47:51
  my family, keep blessing them, keep taking care of them.
• 47:54
  Because I know there are some people right now that
• 47:56
  are going through it. Right now I'm talking like when
• 47:58
  I say going through it, they're going through it. So
• 48:03
  I asked God take care of the people that I
• 48:05
  love the most, and he knows who they are. I
• 48:07
  don't even have to name no names, but I pray
• 48:09
  over y'all. I pray over y'all because you know what
• 48:13
  I want us all to win. I want us all
• 48:15
  to be blessed and highly favored, even on in bad days.
• 48:20
  That's what I do. I pray over y'all. Even you
• 48:23
  don't let me take Let me say this. I was
• 48:25
  talking to one of my co workers today mm hm,
• 48:31
  and let me say this about her. Let me say
• 48:34
  this about this young lady. We work together, and I'm
• 48:41
  so sorry, y'all be and her. We've never met in person.
• 48:44
  We always talk on the phone. We're always laughing at
• 48:47
  joking and playing at work. So I told her to think,
• 48:52
  I say, you don't understand how much you mean to me.
• 48:58
  I'm sorry, y'all, I'm the biggest problem ever in the
• 49:01
  entire world. But I told her to day. I say, girl,
• 49:05
  I say, I don't think you understand how much you
• 49:07
  mean to me. God always sends people to you at
• 49:13
  the right time. So when we really started talking, like
• 49:19
  she was going through a lot of stuff. I was
• 49:21
  going through a lot of stuff. But we connected and
• 49:25
  I told her, I say, when we meet in person. Now,
• 49:28
  mind you, we were together and I told her, I say,
• 49:30
  when I meet you in person, I think I'm gonna
• 49:32
  cry because when I tell you, I look at this
• 49:35
  young lady like my sister for real, for real, And
• 49:39
  that's rare. When you find someone that's genuine, you understand.
• 49:44
  We meet people in some of the in the craziest places,
• 49:48
  but it's a lot of them that you just really
• 49:50
  hold near and dear to your heart. Even when I
• 49:53
  lived in Mississippi, my sister Yoshi, let me say this,
• 49:58
  how I met this woman. I met her in a
• 50:02
  shoe store while I was the guy I was there.
• 50:05
  And at the time I met her in the shoe store,
• 50:09
  and this lady was battling cancer. She was going through things,
• 50:17
  you know, her husband, her daughter. It was a lot
• 50:20
  she was going through. And to this day, that woman
• 50:26
  is still near and dear to my heart when I
• 50:31
  tell you, and I get emotional when I say this,
• 50:35
  because I didn't realize a person like me whatever deserved
• 50:41
  friends like what I have now, because I wasn't a
• 50:43
  good person. I wasn't a good friend. I didn't know
• 50:46
  how to be that, you understand. I didn't know. But
• 50:50
  God said, I'm gonna bless you anyway, and I thank
• 50:54
  you for just allowing me to have a cocoon of
• 50:58
  people around me that loved me genuinely. You understand I'm
• 51:03
  talking about I never have the second guess anything, you understand,
• 51:07
  Never with these with these people that are in my
• 51:10
  circle and I hold on to those and I see
• 51:16
  how God is blessing them, you understand. And to those women,
• 51:22
  I love y'all. I always say, I'm not gonna cry,
• 51:28
  but y'all always get me like this. Y'all make me sick.
• 51:30
  Y'all always get me like this. But when I tell
• 51:34
  you to my circle.
• 51:39
  Speaker 7: God, I love y'all. I really, I really truly love
• 51:47
  y'all on a coup, no lie, no care.
• 51:52
  Speaker 1: Thank y'all for loving me. Thank y'all for supporting me,
• 51:55
  Thank y'all for encouraging me. Thank y'all for getting on
• 51:58
  me when I've been slipping. If I ain't told y'all today,
• 52:03
  I appreciate y'all. I'm grateful for y'all. You understand. And
• 52:08
  I would never, ever, ever ever take our friendship and
• 52:12
  our relationship for granted, because people like that only come
• 52:16
  once in a lifetime, I promise you, and I give
• 52:18
  it all to God, because, like I told y'all, I
• 52:22
  was a horrible person. I was a terrible person. I
• 52:24
  didn't know how to be a friend. I didn't know
• 52:26
  how to how to be a girlfriend, like I didn't
• 52:28
  know how to be a good mother. I was just
• 52:30
  a harbor person. All the way around. But when God
• 52:32
  grabbed me and said I got you, you just got
• 52:37
  to trust the process. God cleared the path for me
• 52:42
  to have more roses in the garden. You understand, because
• 52:45
  God says flowers came blue. Where roses reside, you understand
• 52:50
  where weeds resigned. My apologies, So I said, okay, So
• 52:58
  to those ladies. I love y'all, and I'm so proud
• 53:03
  of y'all and everything that y'all have done, everything that
• 53:07
  y'all have been doing, the things that y'all have been through. Man, God,
• 53:15
  it's so able. He's so great. That man is just
• 53:23
  h He's an awesome gollar. He's an amazing God. When
• 53:27
  I tell you that man there is yo, she'll say, yes, Lord,
• 53:34
  like I don't think they understand sis. Oh Lord, that's
• 53:38
  my girl. She say, it's me and I love you.
• 53:41
  I love you. Oh my goodness, that is Glinisi is
• 53:46
  my coworker. Okay, y'all, I didn't even know she was watching.
• 53:49
  This is who I was talking about that I work with.
• 53:51
  When I tell you this, lady here and my husband
• 53:54
  is he's always saying, oh, you must be talking to Glensia.
• 53:59
  He taking about y'all need to be working. Y'all be
• 54:00
  lillagagging over that. Not too much on my sister. Okay, honey,
• 54:05
  my sister says, God never affirmed that challenges wouldn't occur.
• 54:11
  He said non challenge would prevail. Amen, I'm trying to
• 54:15
  tell you, yo, she says. We stuck like glue. It's
• 54:20
  us against the world. Absolutely, she says, I love you
• 54:24
  so much, ash Man. I'm never I'm telling you. I
• 54:31
  met some amazing people when I live in Mississippi, and
• 54:34
  I still talk to them. And then Glenysia say, she's like, oh,
• 54:38
  I'm crying Sis, Oh my god. No, She'll say, God
• 54:42
  got us. I'm so blessed to have you. Man, she say, laughing,
• 54:46
  my ass our brother be hating, yay, he be hating,
• 54:49
  like he don't be wanting us to have fun. But
• 54:53
  when I tell you, when I make it to the top,
• 55:00
  when I tell y'all, y'all the first ones I'm coming
• 55:03
  to grasp, no hesitation, I don't even have to question
• 55:08
  because if I make it and I win, y'all have
• 55:11
  made it, and y'all win, and we all going, we all,
• 55:14
  we all going to the top, all of our tables
• 55:17
  are gonna be fully I'm talking about fully loaded with food.
• 55:22
  Everything that we could ever ask for, God gonna give
• 55:24
  to us, and he's gonna keep blessing us in front
• 55:26
  of our enemies. You understand, God is gonna keep giving
• 55:29
  us everything despite what people have said about us. You'll
• 55:33
  get what I'm saying. Because people are talking about us.
• 55:35
  People don't want to see us win. But guess what
• 55:37
  we're gonna win anyway. Oh girl, she just let me.
• 55:41
  She said, I love your down, says ooh baby, I
• 55:43
  love you down. And let me tell y'all I already
• 55:46
  told Galiniesia. Oh granted, that's my granny. I be asking
• 55:50
  about it everything like y'all don't understand. Like when I
• 55:53
  say I love y'all, I love you, don't nobody even
• 55:56
  have to question me about that. And God gave me
• 55:59
  that was able to Like I said, God was able
• 56:01
  to pick me up and pick me up and turn
• 56:03
  me around and turn me into a better person so
• 56:06
  that way I could attract like minded people. So I
• 56:09
  give it all to him. If it weren't for him,
• 56:11
  I wouldn't have my circle around me. I wouldn't be
• 56:14
  the woman I am today. I wouldn't be the mother
• 56:16
  I am today, I wouldn't be the wife I am
• 56:18
  today if it were not Forgot. So I give him
• 56:22
  all the praise or shine out to my therapist too,
• 56:24
  because baby, when I tell you, that lady keeps me
• 56:26
  on track. Baby, that lady keep me right where I
• 56:29
  need to be. So I'm blessed to have this beautiful
• 56:34
  circle of people around me. And I'm talking about all
• 56:38
  the time when I say, when I'm down, these ladies,
• 56:43
  if I call them, guess what, Ashley, what's wrong? Let's pray,
• 56:49
  they're gonna give me something encourageing and they're gonna give
• 56:51
  me something in power. They're gonna do something to uplift me.
• 56:53
  They're gonna encourage me, and they're gonna tell me, remember
• 56:57
  that little light that USA didn't shine, and how bright
• 57:00
  it is? Keep let keep blinding them. It's what they're
• 57:03
  gonna tell That's what they're gonna tell me. Turn that
• 57:06
  light up so they can they can't see your light
• 57:08
  not bright enough? Cut it up. And I'm gonna give
• 57:11
  them the same in return, because let me tell you something.
• 57:17
  When I started to relearn their Bible and my relationship
• 57:20
  started to get stronger with God, my love for people
• 57:22
  got better. You understand my love for things got better?
• 57:25
  Do I still need? I'm still a work in progress,
• 57:27
  so let me let me let me just say that
• 57:29
  because I'm not perfect, but God gave me the skill
• 57:35
  to love more, to step out more, to open up
• 57:40
  a little bit more to people. He said, because everybody's
• 57:43
  not out here to hurt you. Because the people that
• 57:47
  I thought were close to me sure be bad. You'll
• 57:51
  see it's on in me right now, because God says,
• 57:56
  I see and I hear conversations that you're not a
• 57:59
  part of. Stop saying that person is your friend. That's
• 58:04
  a liability right there. That's not a friend, that's a liability.
• 58:09
  I'm gonna connect you with some friends. I'm gonna connect
• 58:11
  you with some assets. And when he said assets, I say, well,
• 58:14
  what does that mean? He say, people that will add
• 58:16
  value to your life. That will add to your life,
• 58:20
  not take away. So I said, cool, say let's go.
• 58:27
  And that's what he did. When I tell you, these ladies,
• 58:32
  even these fellas that I call my brothers, have added
• 58:36
  so much to my life by bed shuck. Yes, Lord,
• 58:44
  But God said, hold up, wait, He said, you got
• 58:46
  a bunch of weeds in this garden and me clear
• 58:48
  it up. Hold up, wait, wait, he said, because I've
• 58:50
  given you some more seeds to plan in your garden.
• 58:53
  What he said, Yeah, he say, gone school over because
• 59:01
  I got some more ce's that you need to plant. Ooh,
• 59:05
  God say, lets now look at these roses, Yoshi my rolls,
• 59:12
  Jewel my rolls, Glenesia my rules, Britney my rolls, Ari
• 59:19
  my rolls in this garden. Well, I was all along
• 59:23
  with all these weeds, and nobody even came to tell me, girl,
• 59:28
  you need to get rid of them people. Okay, I
• 59:35
  hear you. So, God said, if you're not gonna, he said,
• 59:39
  you either want to do a voluntary or involuntary But God,
• 59:43
  that's my Nor, that's not but God, that's my No.
• 59:48
  It's not God that's my friend. Nor that's not but God,
• 59:52
  that's my No. It's not. Everybody that I said was
• 59:57
  my friend was really not. Let me tell you. Let
• 1:00:03
  something real happen in your life, and let's see who's
• 1:00:05
  still with you at the end of the day. Hm, hm,
• 1:00:11
  when you're going through your toughest thorm, who's that with
• 1:00:14
  you at the end of the day. Outside of God?
• 1:00:18
  Who else is that with you? Hm, Real situations reveal
• 1:00:26
  real real people. You understand. Real life situations reveal people's
• 1:00:30
  true intentions for you. And I had to learn that. Yeah.
• 1:00:36
  I got stung a lot of times a lot of
• 1:00:39
  people that I was like, Oh, that's my God said no,
• 1:00:42
  it's not. God. Say you use that friend word a
• 1:00:47
  little too loosely for me. Yeah, I looked around. I
• 1:00:53
  looked around because what he said, y'all use that that
• 1:00:58
  that that friend word a little too loosely. Y'all, y'all
• 1:01:03
  love calling people sist, y'all love calling people bro. But
• 1:01:08
  is that your sister or your sister? Oh? Is that
• 1:01:16
  your bro? Or your brother dirt? Oh? Because we call
• 1:01:23
  everybody siss, we call everybody broke. But is that your sister?
• 1:01:28
  Is that your brother dirt? Okay, So I say that's
• 1:01:35
  your sister, but that's your sister? Oh, I say, but
• 1:01:40
  what's the difference? He says, sis is the word everybody uses.
• 1:01:44
  But you never heard hear him say that's my sister,
• 1:01:47
  or that's my sister, that's my good sister. But again, God,
• 1:01:53
  what's the difference. Your sister is a liability. Your sister
• 1:01:59
  is your asset? Oh, your bro mm hmm. That's your liability.
• 1:02:10
  But your brother is your asset. Oh so, God, what
• 1:02:15
  is an asset in the liability? He said? Assets add liabilities. Lie.
• 1:02:24
  Oh oh okay, I say, But don't sisters lie, he said,
• 1:02:34
  not your real sisters. Oh but that's my sister. No
• 1:02:41
  that's not. That's your sister. But that's my sister. No
• 1:02:46
  it's not. Oh that's your sister. Okay, going over there
• 1:02:51
  and guess what, my good sister burn me, he said.
• 1:02:58
  Your discerning is off. You're not paying attention. Mhmm, he said,
• 1:03:10
  because you always try to see the good in people.
• 1:03:13
  I do, he said, but you remember the devil was
• 1:03:18
  once the angel. Oh okay, Lesson learned. Keep getting burned
• 1:03:28
  with those liabilities. You'll cook with the asset. You'll get
• 1:03:32
  a good meal with an asset, but you're gonna get
• 1:03:35
  burned every time playing with them liabilities. Stay less. I
• 1:03:42
  received that goal. I thank you for blessing me with
• 1:03:48
  my sisters, my sister hagarl, but my sister, it's my
• 1:03:56
  baby right there, My sisters, they're my babies. God them
• 1:04:04
  the ones I got on their prayer list right there,
• 1:04:08
  Keep them covered, God, says say less and let me
• 1:04:13
  tell you something. So many beautiful things have been happening
• 1:04:16
  to these women. I'm not gonna even tell you all
• 1:04:19
  their business, but just know these ladies, I'm proud of y'all.
• 1:04:30
  I'm proud of y'all. I am say because God say,
• 1:04:36
  hold tight. He said, you're putting them on your prayer list.
• 1:04:40
  I say, yeah, the the ones, He said, you show
• 1:04:42
  them the ones? Say yet, then the ones? He said, Well,
• 1:04:45
  let me go back through your list one more time.
• 1:04:50
  Some names got erased. I say, but God, why You'll
• 1:04:59
  see in due time, you'll see why. A lot of
• 1:05:04
  those names were only written in pencil, but these permanent markle.
• 1:05:15
  B So a lot of y'all, a lot of names
• 1:05:25
  that are in your books. Tell me which ones are
• 1:05:28
  written in pencil and which ones are written in permanent markle.
• 1:05:40
  I bet a lot of y'all's books would be empty
• 1:05:45
  if you went through and looked at all the ones
• 1:05:47
  that were in pencil and not the ones that are
• 1:05:50
  written in permanent markel. H Oh yeah, So, y'all, permanent
• 1:06:00
  like a tattooed, permanent, etched in stone, like a headstone, permanent.
• 1:06:12
  If it don't turn out right the first you know
• 1:06:14
  what you gotta do. You gotta throw it away and
• 1:06:15
  start over.
• 1:06:15
  Speaker 6: I I.
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 1: God said, I got you, and I'm gonna build your
• 1:06:23
  table big enough for all your people to eat. Say,
• 1:06:30
  let's start, so we eating, ladies and gentlemen. Gods preparing
• 1:06:37
  that table big enough for us. Baby, bigger than the
• 1:06:39
  one that's in the last supper picture. That's how big
• 1:06:42
  that table gonna be. If not bigger, you understand. If
• 1:06:46
  not bigger, so you gotta hold on whatever it is
• 1:06:54
  that you're going through. I'm telling your baby, he says.
• 1:06:59
  Say that's right, yoh'd say it's there, she said, and
• 1:07:03
  the time is now, she said. They are damaged goods,
• 1:07:07
  and they are returned to send the baby. I'm telling
• 1:07:09
  you because guess what, sus, sister, every letter that's addressed
• 1:07:14
  us don't mean we gotta open it, send it back. Hey,
• 1:07:20
  ed one, let me tell y'all. Let me tell y'all.
• 1:07:23
  And when I'm gonna sing you something in your inbox,
• 1:07:25
  I found some of my other Facebook page. I'm gonna
• 1:07:27
  send it to you. Let me tell you about this
• 1:07:28
  young man right here. When I tell you this was
• 1:07:32
  my Comcast boot, this was my baby right here. And
• 1:07:34
  I still love him to this day. This young man
• 1:07:39
  had the whole world snatched from up under him, and
• 1:07:42
  you know what, God turned around and blessed him tenfold.
• 1:07:47
  So y'all can't y'all can't say God man ed when
• 1:07:51
  I'm gonna have to get you on my show because
• 1:07:53
  I want you to. I want you to share your testimony.
• 1:07:55
  Let's connect for real, My sister, Juel, she says, I
• 1:08:00
  love your sister beyond the move. Baby. Let me tell
• 1:08:03
  you something. It's out of space with us. I got
• 1:08:06
  the baby. My love is infinity, infinity, never ending, never ended.
• 1:08:14
  Everyone say amen, Well, he said, say no new friends? Nope, none, none, Yo,
• 1:08:23
  she says, Ashley my garden. Yes, Lord, you that other
• 1:08:26
  roles that I see, that other roles that anybody tell
• 1:08:29
  you your uh leaves to get bigger than my rolls? Girl,
• 1:08:32
  Ain't nobody tell you that you are beautiful, beautiful pink rolls, beautiful,
• 1:08:41
  a beautiful pink rose. This lady here, this lady defeated
• 1:08:46
  breast cancer. SHM y'all, y'all gonna get me the crime again,
• 1:08:53
  I promise y'all not. And we are sisters, yes, snakes, absolutely,
• 1:09:02
  I'm telling you, She'll say, but we are in it
• 1:09:05
  to win it. And she'll say we are family and
• 1:09:10
  can no one change that? And came the only person
• 1:09:13
  that can change that is Jesus Nathaniel Jerome Jackson the
• 1:09:15
  Third That's the only person that can separate us. Baby,
• 1:09:18
  that's it. But I want to say this to you,
• 1:09:22
  to everybody that is tuned in. Y'all always give me emotion.
• 1:09:27
  I always try to get on here and do a
• 1:09:28
  great show with no crime. But I don't know what
• 1:09:31
  it is. Whenever we get to talking about God and things,
• 1:09:34
  just I mean, it just moves through me, you understand.
• 1:09:37
  So I just move the way God wants me to move.
• 1:09:39
  I just pass on the message that God gives to me.
• 1:09:43
  But I want to say this to y'all as we
• 1:09:45
  get ready to bring this to a close. Don't allow
• 1:09:51
  God to be a part time person in full time situations.
• 1:09:58
  Hold on to God, lean on him anything you won't.
• 1:10:04
  You gotta give it to him, and you gotta trust
• 1:10:06
  and believe. You understand that God is gonna say what
• 1:10:08
  he said he was gonna do. And I just I
• 1:10:12
  love this, y'all. And oh y'all, let me know if
• 1:10:17
  y'all can hear this real quick, y'all. Let me know,
• 1:10:19
  can y'all hear this? Because when I tell y'all this song,
• 1:10:25
  let me see, I don't know, y'all. Let me know
• 1:10:28
  if y'all can hear it. Plan right here, y'all. If
• 1:10:40
  you can hear it, let me know. If you can't,
• 1:10:44
  I'll have to like try to post it to where
• 1:10:46
  y'all can hear it. But I was listening to this
• 1:10:50
  song by CC Wine. It's called the Goodness of God.
• 1:10:55
  And when I tell y'all, this is my go to
• 1:10:58
  song at night, every night, before I lay down and
• 1:11:00
  go to suit, this is my go to song because
• 1:11:05
  God not only has been a father, but he's been
• 1:11:08
  a friend. I'm trying to pull it together, y'all. But
• 1:11:22
  when I tell y'all, God is such an awesome God.
• 1:11:27
  God is, He's not a judgmental God. God is just
• 1:11:38
  I don't think there are enough words in the dictionary
• 1:11:40
  to even explain how beautiful and how wonderful God really
• 1:11:48
  truly is. Anything that God has done for me, he
• 1:11:53
  could do for you. Wheneveryone through their tiling and said, oh, Ashley,
• 1:11:58
  she'll never change, never do this. God always shows up
• 1:12:03
  and allows me to prove them differently. God says, I
• 1:12:06
  don't want you to pull to anybody. I just want
• 1:12:08
  you to pull to yourself. I'm so sorry, y'all. So
• 1:12:17
  I say all her that to say, and stop worrying
• 1:12:19
  about what people think about you, and focus on how
• 1:12:22
  you feel about yourself, because you're a God's child. God
• 1:12:27
  created you in his likeness. It's the biggest thing that
• 1:12:37
  we do. We're so focused on what people think, on
• 1:12:41
  the things that people say about us, and less of
• 1:12:45
  what God feels about us, and bless of what we
• 1:12:47
  feel about ourselves. So I want each and every last
• 1:12:51
  person that is tuned in tonight, anybody that goes back
• 1:12:54
  and they rewatch this episode, I want you to stand
• 1:12:57
  in the mirror and I want you to tell yourself
• 1:12:59
  you are and that you're able, and that regardless of
• 1:13:10
  what life throws at you, you're able to stand up
• 1:13:14
  and endoor everything. Please know that you don't have to
• 1:13:17
  ever go through a war by yourself. You understand. Yes,
• 1:13:20
  God gives us the tools. God gives us the equipment,
• 1:13:25
  He gives us everything, or we have to hold onto
• 1:13:28
  us ever unchange your hands as we go through the storm.
• 1:13:31
  You understand, you don't have to fight it by yourself.
• 1:13:33
  You don't have to go through it by yourself. You
• 1:13:35
  don't have to stand in the storm by yourself. Because
• 1:13:37
  God is there. You just have to hold on to him.
• 1:13:39
  You have to trust him. You have to know that
• 1:13:41
  regardless of whatever comes your way, God will allow you,
• 1:13:44
  oh my goodness, to defeat anything that comes your weight.
• 1:13:49
  I don't want anyone to ever give up. You understand.
• 1:13:52
  Stop fighting. Don't never stop fighting. You understand, because you
• 1:13:55
  are needed, you are wanting, You are loved, you are
• 1:13:58
  needed here. We want you here. You understan. I want
• 1:14:01
  you to love on yourself. I want you to pour
• 1:14:04
  into yourself. I want you to encourage yourself. I want
• 1:14:06
  you to empower yourself. I want you to uplift yourself.
• 1:14:09
  I want you to get up regardless of how many
• 1:14:11
  times you fall down. Baby, I'm just proud that you
• 1:14:13
  got back up. You understand. I'm so sorry, y'all, but
• 1:14:17
  y'all know when I talk about God, baby, it's that
• 1:14:25
  Man is amazing. But I want y'all to get up.
• 1:14:28
  I want you to keep fighting. You understand, don't give up.
• 1:14:31
  Stop allowing those elusive thoughts, those dark thoughts, those black thoughts,
• 1:14:36
  Please allow God to penetrate your soul and your mental Please.
• 1:14:40
  That's all I ask. Because I've seen so many people
• 1:14:44
  that I've read it to throw on a tie. I
• 1:14:46
  know it. Y'all are tired. I get it. I'm tired.
• 1:14:49
  My sister said today, she said, I'm tired, but I
• 1:14:51
  keep going. So I say that to you. Get up,
• 1:14:54
  keep going, don't stop. You got this. You understand. You
• 1:14:58
  are strong, you are victorious, you are rezillient, you are human.
• 1:15:01
  You understand. So yes, allow yourself to feel the way
• 1:15:05
  that you feel, but don't stay in it. Get up.
• 1:15:08
  Get up, because I can't see you in the dark.
• 1:15:10
  You understand. I'm tired of trying to find you in
• 1:15:13
  a dark. I want you in a light next to me.
• 1:15:15
  I want you to stand with me. I want you
• 1:15:16
  to walk with me. I want you to praise with me.
• 1:15:18
  I want you to worship with me. I want you
• 1:15:20
  to know we did it. We made it. We got
• 1:15:25
  through it, regardless of how we look coming out of
• 1:15:28
  the store. We made it through. We learned how to
• 1:15:30
  make it through. Oh. I'm so sorry, y'all. Oh thank
• 1:15:42
  you for the God, thank you, thank you, thank you
• 1:15:43
  for the God for allowing me. Oh for allowing me
• 1:15:47
  to pass on your word to the people that have
• 1:15:49
  turned away from you. Thank you, Father God for continuing
• 1:15:53
  to bless me, not only my husband, but my family
• 1:15:55
  and the people closest to me. Father God, thank you
• 1:15:57
  for continuing to give me the voice. Mm hmm. I
• 1:16:04
  just thank him for everything. I think him for how
• 1:16:07
  far I've come. I thank God for when I'm going.
• 1:16:11
  I thank God for everything that I've been through. Because
• 1:16:14
  every test is not my testimony, you understand. So I
• 1:16:17
  say that to y'all. Keep allowing your test to be
• 1:16:20
  your testimony. Keep sharing, keep loving on people, even your enemies,
• 1:16:23
  you understand, Pray for them and ask God to step
• 1:16:26
  in and change their cold heart. Oh hmm. And I
• 1:16:38
  said to Be, I was not going to cry. I
• 1:16:40
  said to Be, I was gonna make it through this
• 1:16:42
  episode without get an emotional and truth. And I said,
• 1:16:45
  That's what I was gonna do. But I don't know.
• 1:16:47
  When you talk about God, baby, it's it's tears of joy,
• 1:16:51
  never tears of sadness. Because I can't do anything but
• 1:16:53
  give this man the greatest praise of all times, because
• 1:16:57
  that man has seen me on my darkest things. That
• 1:16:59
  man has held onto me even when I let go.
• 1:17:05
  God got me. Oh. Oh, I love y'all. Oh, I
• 1:17:13
  love y'all so much.
• 1:17:15
  Speaker 7: Oh.
• 1:17:15
  Speaker 1: I don't think y'all understand. I don't think y'all understand.
• 1:17:18
  There's my brother, big Low. That's my Bubba right there.
• 1:17:21
  Let me tell y'all something real quick. I told this
• 1:17:25
  man lo keep going, keep going, brother, keep going. That's
• 1:17:31
  my brother, y'all. That's my brother. I told him, keep going.
• 1:17:36
  This man is doing wonderful things. Yes, he's an Atlanta
• 1:17:39
  Falcons family. It's okay, it's okay. I love him anyway.
• 1:17:45
  I don't care what team meets you. I don't care.
• 1:17:46
  That's my brother, him and his sister Ronie. I mean
• 1:17:49
  his wife, my sister, Ronie, his wife. I'm proud of you.
• 1:17:55
  I'm so proud of your brother. I'm so, so so
• 1:17:57
  proud of you and everything that you've done and everything
• 1:18:00
  you continue to do. I'm excited for everything that you
• 1:18:05
  guys have done. You understand. Let me say that I
• 1:18:08
  love you more, brother, I love you more. Can't nobody
• 1:18:12
  take that away from me. I am so proud of you.
• 1:18:17
  But I say this to y'all, keep holding on, keep fighting.
• 1:18:23
  I know it gets rough. I know it's difficult. Some days.
• 1:18:26
  I know you're like, oh my God, how am I
• 1:18:27
  gonna do this? How I'm gonna get through this? Hold tight, old, tight,
• 1:18:32
  hold tight, hold tight, hold tight, and don't let go.
• 1:18:43
  Don't let go, because God is about to step big.
• 1:18:51
  He stepping beg he step in bed. But don't forget that.
• 1:18:56
  When God gives you what you're asked for, you better
• 1:18:59
  thinking think him in advance, like Marvin Sacsee. You gotta
• 1:19:03
  think him in advance. That's what you gotta do. Thank you,
• 1:19:09
  little little saying. I'm proud of your two fam I
• 1:19:12
  did it, brother, I'm back. I'm here, I'm standing. I
• 1:19:16
  fell down, y'all, and I stayed there, but I'm up,
• 1:19:20
  even with my back against the wall. I'm never given up,
• 1:19:25
  never given up, never ever ever given up. And you'll
• 1:19:30
  better not either. You better hold on, gear me, hold
• 1:19:34
  on because your blessing is on the way, because God
• 1:19:37
  said he's in the blessing season and some of y'all
• 1:19:41
  better act right or you're gonna miss your blessing. Mhm,
• 1:19:45
  y'all gonna miss it. Keep listening to them liabilities and
• 1:19:50
  want you miss out on your blessing. Keep on, keep on.
• 1:19:55
  I promise you keep on. So I'm gonna bring this
• 1:19:59
  episode to a close. Thank y'all for tuning in to
• 1:20:03
  another episode of Black Girl Interrupted. I'm so sorry, y'all,
• 1:20:09
  but y'all know when I talk about God, anything with
• 1:20:11
  regards to God, I always I get emotional, just everything.
• 1:20:17
  But I want to say I love y'all. Thank y'all
• 1:20:21
  for ever loving me. Thank y'all for supporting me. Thank
• 1:20:24
  y'all for pouring into me. Thank y'all for encouraging me.
• 1:20:27
  Thank y'all for just being who you are to me,
• 1:20:31
  even on them days that I wasn't good to myself.
• 1:20:34
  I appreciate y'all for still loving me. You understand. Thank y'all.
• 1:20:39
  Thank y'all. Thank y'all for making Black Girl Interrupted the
• 1:20:42
  podcast and how it is. You understand. Thank y'all for
• 1:20:46
  showing up. Thank y'all for loving me. Thank y'all for
• 1:20:48
  supporting me. Thank y'all for saying, as she stay in
• 1:20:51
  the race, don't give up, don't give up, don't give up,
• 1:20:54
  don't give up, don't get up. My brother big Low says,
• 1:20:57
  you're a fighter, sister. Brother. When I tell y'all got
• 1:21:01
  these boxing gloves laced up and tight. I'm ready now,
• 1:21:04
  I'm ready, because, baby, when I tell you them punctures,
• 1:21:07
  they was wearing me down. But that's because I was
• 1:21:10
  trying to go through a war by myself and not
• 1:21:12
  hold on the God's hands as I went through it,
• 1:21:14
  you understand, because I was more concerned about how I
• 1:21:17
  looked instead of getting through it. You understand. Oh, and
• 1:21:22
  I love you too, Yoshi. I love you. Oh my Nyery. Oh, y'all.
• 1:21:27
  I'm so sorry to mean to get loud. That's my baby.
• 1:21:30
  Let me tell y'all, my niece is in college right now.
• 1:21:33
  Let me tell you that beautiful chocolate woman. She went
• 1:21:38
  from this little girl to this beautiful young woman. And
• 1:21:41
  I couldn't be more proud of her. I promise you, baby,
• 1:21:43
  tell my Nyry I say I love her and I'm
• 1:21:48
  so proud of her. I need y'all to pray over her,
• 1:21:50
  I promise. So as I bring this to a close again,
• 1:21:54
  I just want to say, thank your Father God for
• 1:21:55
  allowing me again another day above brown. Thank your Father
• 1:21:59
  God for allowing my people another day above the ground.
• 1:22:02
  Thank your Father God for blessing my people. You understand.
• 1:22:05
  Thank your Father God for pulling them out through the storm.
• 1:22:08
  Thank your Father God for pulling them out those situations
• 1:22:11
  that they know they never should have got into. Thank
• 1:22:13
  your Father God for just loving them the way that
• 1:22:15
  you're doing. Thank your Father God for continuing to feed
• 1:22:18
  and clothe and house them the way in your likeness,
• 1:22:21
  Father God, Thank you for allowing us to walk in
• 1:22:23
  your purpose. Thank your Father God for building the foundation
• 1:22:26
  and giving us the tools and the manual to make
• 1:22:30
  it through. Some of them ain't looking at it. I know, God,
• 1:22:33
  forgive me, but we just gonna keep praying for those.
• 1:22:38
  But in Jesus' name, I say, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen,
• 1:22:44
  I promise you this is. This is why I love you.
• 1:22:57
  Toolsis Oh God, I love you so much when I
• 1:23:02
  tell y'all, Oh Father God, just keep keep your hands
• 1:23:08
  on them, keep your hands on the Father God, pull
• 1:23:11
  them closer to you. Some of them are lost their way,
• 1:23:14
  some of them are little scared. Some of them don't trust.
• 1:23:18
  But God, I want you to just love them. Keep
• 1:23:20
  wrapping your arms around them, Father God, keep showing them
• 1:23:23
  who you are. Keep revealing things to them even though
• 1:23:26
  they don't ask for them. Father God, keep preparing the
• 1:23:29
  meals for them and start those enemies. Oh did I
• 1:23:34
  say that? My bad, My bad, But I just mmmh.
• 1:23:47
  I was not supposed to be crying today. I promised
• 1:23:49
  I was not. But you know what God say, crime
• 1:23:52
  that cleanses the soul, the spirit. You understand. So I
• 1:23:56
  say to you, ladies and your gentlemen in that mirror tonight,
• 1:24:01
  before you lay down and you say those beautiful things
• 1:24:04
  about yourself, because words are powerful. Tongue is mightier than
• 1:24:08
  the sword. You understand, y'all know, tongues cut deep. Once
• 1:24:16
  you say those words. Y'all know you can't take them back.
• 1:24:20
  Words of power. So if you speak ill about yourself,
• 1:24:24
  guess what you're gonna get? Those things I'm telling you.
• 1:24:31
  I'm telling you God is gonna He's about to bless
• 1:24:36
  a lot of y'all. Some of y'all are asking for
• 1:24:38
  things I don't even know you understand, But God is
• 1:24:43
  blessing you. God says, your blessing is on the way.
• 1:24:45
  I don't know when it's coming, but it's on the way.
• 1:24:47
  It's an envelope coming with your name on it. It's
• 1:24:50
  a blessing coming from above with your name on it.
• 1:24:54
  That's the one you open, not the ones from everybody else.
• 1:24:57
  You understand. You have to be mindful discern, you understand,
• 1:25:00
  so you only open the ones that you know are
• 1:25:03
  specifically addressed to you. Stop opening up everybody's letters and
• 1:25:08
  reading every about a mail because sometimes God don't want
• 1:25:10
  you to see that. Sometimes God wants you to mind
• 1:25:12
  your own plate and stop worrying about everybody else's. You understand,
• 1:25:17
  that's what he wants you to do. That's I'm telling you.
• 1:25:20
  This man tells me everything I need to say to y'all.
• 1:25:23
  So I got to stop worrying about what's on everybody
• 1:25:25
  else's plate. Because my fool getting gold. I'm mad because
• 1:25:29
  she got that big piece of chicken. But God says,
• 1:25:32
  if I gave you this big piece of chicken, would
• 1:25:33
  you really be able to enjoy it? No, it's go
• 1:25:37
  on giving it in the wing over there. Let me
• 1:25:39
  let me, let me try to the wing over it.
• 1:25:41
  Give me that little scoop of mashed potatoes with a
• 1:25:43
  little scoop of gravy. Give me like two or three
• 1:25:46
  string beans, and give me just a little half a
• 1:25:48
  piece of world. God. See see, now you're asking for
• 1:25:50
  too much. But I said I was home he said,
• 1:25:54
  I'm gonna feed you. All right, we gotta step back, cause,
• 1:26:01
  see you, we're gonna keep making ourselves six sick if
• 1:26:04
  we keep overloading our plates, if we keep trying to
• 1:26:08
  eat off everybody else. That's why we stay sick, because
• 1:26:10
  we soapiens, are trying to eat off everybody else's plate,
• 1:26:13
  and we're not focused what's in front of us. So
• 1:26:16
  if you tie to being sick, focus what's on your plate.
• 1:26:19
  Eat what's on your plate, because see, everything that God
• 1:26:22
  prepares for everybody is not always meant for you. Okay,
• 1:26:26
  And we out here jealous, and we out here jealous,
• 1:26:29
  we out here mad because this person got a bigger
• 1:26:32
  piece of chicken, but we don't know if that person
• 1:26:34
  gonna chalk on that big piece of chicken. So let's
• 1:26:36
  start with this little piece over here. Let's enjoy this,
• 1:26:38
  this little chicken wing right here, with that little scoop
• 1:26:41
  of mashed potatoes with a little taste of water. Just
• 1:26:44
  enjoy that, you understand. So I don't want what's on
• 1:26:47
  your plate. But see that might be poison over there.
• 1:26:50
  That might be poison over there. And that's what I
• 1:26:54
  mean when I say stop opening them letters. That is
• 1:26:56
  not designed for you. Baby. Let me tell you we
• 1:27:03
  do too much at times. We do too much at times,
• 1:27:08
  and I love her too. Golnisi say, I needed to
• 1:27:11
  hear this, She said, I don't went from crying to smile,
• 1:27:14
  and baby, let me tell you something. Every time. Let
• 1:27:16
  me tell you this. I always try to do episodes
• 1:27:19
  why don't cry, But when it comes to God, that
• 1:27:23
  man gonna move. I'm telling that man's gonna make me
• 1:27:25
  cry every time, every time, every time, anytime I speak
• 1:27:30
  about God, anytime anybody tells me that they that they
• 1:27:32
  prayed over me, that they've asked God to put my
• 1:27:35
  name on the blessing list, I have to cry and
• 1:27:37
  I have to shout because guess what, that man is
• 1:27:41
  gonna take care of me every time ever a time.
• 1:27:45
  Goalnisian say amen, my sister, say amen yo. She'll say
• 1:27:50
  her baby is home from spring, she's home for spring break.
• 1:27:54
  Safe safe, say keep us safe. She'll say amen, my
• 1:27:59
  good sister. Vane she say yes, God, Amen. Let me
• 1:28:02
  tell you about this lady right here. And I know
• 1:28:05
  I keep saying we're going in the show, but I
• 1:28:07
  have to say something about this lady Vanessa. I met
• 1:28:09
  her own clubhouse beautiful spirit, beautiful energy, and it's something
• 1:28:16
  about her. I just love her so much. When I
• 1:28:19
  take that's my sister right there. Okay, this woman here
• 1:28:24
  has prayed over me. This woman has spoke light and
• 1:28:28
  life into me. I told y'all, God cleared the way
• 1:28:32
  for me, because God say, you holding onto too many liabilities,
• 1:28:36
  and I need to give you some assets. I need
• 1:28:38
  to add. I need to give your people that will
• 1:28:40
  add value to your life. I need to give your
• 1:28:42
  people that will encourage you. I need to give your
• 1:28:45
  people that you know, when you fall down, will pick
• 1:28:47
  you up and will drag you across the finish line.
• 1:28:51
  So y'all be jealous about that, because I got my
• 1:28:57
  track team right here, I got my runners, I got
• 1:28:59
  my tracks starts right here that if I fall down,
• 1:29:04
  they're gonna say, I'll get up, get up, and let's go.
• 1:29:09
  I got that, and I'm gonna be the same for them.
• 1:29:12
  I'm gonna tell her I get up, get up, get up,
• 1:29:17
  go and meet see and say yes, keep revealing so
• 1:29:20
  I could go outside somebody. You know what, I'm not
• 1:29:22
  going to play with her, y'all. This is what I
• 1:29:24
  did with at work, with this praise, that that she'd say,
• 1:29:26
  I had to make your laugh. Let me take your sis.
• 1:29:29
  You are everything you are. You are beautiful. Glenna say,
• 1:29:35
  I'm so proud of you. Man, you don't even know.
• 1:29:38
  YO should say feed the soul. Man. He does this
• 1:29:41
  thing up here talking about that sound good? Her and
• 1:29:44
  this chicken. I'm telling big we love us some chicken.
• 1:29:47
  But that's I say. God men crying good tears, sister,
• 1:29:50
  But I got you forever, and I know you do.
• 1:29:53
  We locked in infinity, baby, infinity. But that's what I
• 1:29:58
  mean when I sing, sit back and watch God work
• 1:30:02
  for you. Watch how he's gonna move for you. Watch
• 1:30:05
  God put you in spaces that you didn't even think
• 1:30:08
  you get into. Watch your name come up in conversations
• 1:30:10
  that you didn't even think your name will get mentioned then.
• 1:30:14
  And I mean that in a positive way. Yeah, we're
• 1:30:17
  gonna have to hate us, We're gonna have the people
• 1:30:18
  talking about us. But watch watch what I tell you.
• 1:30:23
  Because everybody has a blessing coming with their name on
• 1:30:26
  it that was up to you to receive. It's up
• 1:30:30
  to you to manage that blessing because just like God'll
• 1:30:34
  give it to your baby, you'll snatch it away from you.
• 1:30:36
  So you have to be mindful with how you treat
• 1:30:39
  people if you want to keep getting blessed. You understand,
• 1:30:43
  maybe you look at yourself in the mirror and wonder
• 1:30:45
  why you're not being blessed. And we're gonna leave that there.
• 1:30:49
  We're gonna leave that there. But I want you to
• 1:30:53
  give God all the praise tonight before you're laid down.
• 1:30:56
  I want you to tell God thank you. I want
• 1:30:58
  you to tell God I got you like you got me.
• 1:31:02
  You need me to pass your word on Father God,
• 1:31:04
  I got you. Take a moment and relearn your Bible.
• 1:31:07
  You understand I'm doing it right now. I'm relearning as
• 1:31:11
  an adult, not as a child, but as an adult,
• 1:31:14
  because your interpretation as a child is different from how
• 1:31:19
  you interpret it as an adult. Because you get a
• 1:31:22
  better understanding of the Bible. I love it. I love y'all, God,
• 1:31:28
  bless y'all. Today is Wednesday, Happy Hunt Day. We are
• 1:31:33
  two days away from the weekend. Whatever it is that
• 1:31:35
  happened today, leave it on today, Leave it on today,
• 1:31:39
  because you can't change what's already happen. You understand, focus
• 1:31:42
  on what's going on right now and look at what's
• 1:31:44
  going to happen for you going forward. You understand, focus
• 1:31:46
  on that. Let today go. Today is done and over with.
• 1:31:50
  You can't change what happened thirty minutes ago. You got
• 1:31:52
  a feeling in that moment, and then let it go
• 1:31:55
  because you can't wait till tomorrow and say, oh, I
• 1:31:57
  want to be sad about something that happened yesterday. I
• 1:32:01
  feel it today, and let it go and work on
• 1:32:03
  tomorrow because tomorrow God is gonna give you another day
• 1:32:06
  to get up and do it again. You understand. So
• 1:32:08
  you have to receive that blessing because there's somebody right
• 1:32:10
  now that's not gonna wake up tomorrow. It's somebody right
• 1:32:16
  now it's not gonna wake up. So you thank God
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  for the now, Thank Him for right now. Thank Him
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  for still allowing you to have breath right now, because
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  we could get off and I could drop dead as
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  soon as we get off. So I'm thinking God right now,
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  I'm thanking God for everything that God has provided to
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  me in this very moment. Thank you Father God for
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  giving me the voice. Thank you Father God for allowing
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  me to continue to do Black Girl Interrupted podcast. Thank
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  your Father God for giving me the guidance and the
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  knowledge to speak on things that I had no understanding about.
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  Thank you, Father God for providing that to me. You understand.
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  Thank you, Father God. And I'm gonna prayer over my
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  friends and my beautiful loved ones all over again. Thank
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  your Father God for blessing me with these beautiful people,
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  these beautiful energies, these beautiful spirits. I thank your Father
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  God for allowing you to place such genuine people in
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  my life. You, Father God, thank you for removing those
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  cubans zir conias and giving me diamonds. Father God, you understand.
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  He removed and took away them cubans are conias and
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  gave me some diamonds. Thank your Father God for removing
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  the weeds and giving me roses. And my God, because
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  God says, all you need is faith the size of
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  a mustard seed. And in Jesus name, Amen, I love y'all, God,
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  bless y'all. Happy Wednesday, Black Girl Interrupted will be back
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  Tuesday tomorrow. I have no you know what, I want
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  to do something tomorrow. Let's jump on here tomorrow. You
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  know what, Let's do talk to me Thursday. Even though
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  this is National Women's History, Monk, I am gonna celebrate
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  these beautiful black women Tuesday, tomorrow, Let's jump on. Let's
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  just have a random conversation tomorrow. Let's talk Tomorrow is
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  gonna be talk to me Thursday. Whatever conversations you have,
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  whatever topics, whatever's going on in your city. If it's
• 1:34:10
  something you want us to know about it, it's some news.
• 1:34:12
  If you have a new job, if you're starting a
• 1:34:13
  new business, I want to know about it, because, baby,
• 1:34:16
  let me take you someone want to celebrate with you.
• 1:34:18
  I want to celebrate your accomplishment. You understand. If you
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  got a business and you need me to promote it,
• 1:34:23
  come on, let's do it. If you need me to crivatry,
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  you need me to laugh, but you need me a joke,
• 1:34:27
  what you need me to do, let's do it. But
• 1:34:30
  tomorrow night we coming back. We coming back. Talk to
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  me Thursday. Any conversation goes. All I ask is that
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  you do not get disrespectful and respect the people. And
• 1:34:39
  you know what, I don't even I don't even know
• 1:34:40
  why I'm saying that to y'all, because guess what, y'all
• 1:34:43
  have always been so respectful to one another. Y'all have
• 1:34:46
  loved on one another, y'all have encouraged you one another.
• 1:34:48
  Y'all have even exchanged numbers with people. So, baby, let
• 1:34:51
  me tell you something. That girl interrupt the podcast. We're
• 1:34:53
  here about bringing people together. Third, Okay, we're not here
• 1:34:57
  to tear anybody down, but we all here to hold
• 1:34:59
  you accountable, and we will have those real life conversations.
• 1:35:03
  We will have those conversations that will trigger the mind.
• 1:35:07
  What tupacs say to spark the brain, those are the
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  conversations we're gonna have. Yes, Yes, we're gonna We're gonna
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  shake the table. We're pulling the arms, We're pulling the
• 1:35:17
  band aids off. We're opening whatever I'm below, even if
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  it wasn't addressed us, we're gonna open and we're gonna
• 1:35:22
  read it, okay, and we're gonna send it on. But
• 1:35:25
  I just want to say I love y'all. God, bless y'all.
• 1:35:29
  Like I said, tomorrow night, anything goes. You understand, anything goes.
• 1:35:33
  We talking about whatever tomorrow night is. Talk to me Thursday.
• 1:35:36
  Don't forget. We are live stream live to Facebook, excuse
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  me and YouTube every Tuesday, every Thursday, eight thirty pm
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  Central Time. Don't forget to like, share, subscribe, comment, Don't
• 1:35:46
  forget to tell your friends how it goes down over
• 1:35:48
  here on Black Girland to abrupt the podcast, because, Babe,
• 1:35:51
  we have fun over here. We laugh, we cry, we're
• 1:35:54
  a joke, we're cussed, we're freak. Baby. We do it
• 1:35:56
  all over here. But at the end of the day
• 1:35:59
  in a number up and that's all we gonna have
• 1:36:01
  over he is love.
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  Speaker 5: Baby.
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  Speaker 1: So if you got a business, let me say, let
• 1:36:05
  me say this one more time. Tomorrow night is talk
• 1:36:06
  to me Thursday. Whatever conversations. If y'all have a conversation
• 1:36:10
  or a topic excuse me that we may not know about,
• 1:36:14
  bring it over here and let's talk about it. Baby.
• 1:36:16
  Let's pray for somebody. Shoot, let's celebrate somebody that got
• 1:36:20
  a new job. If you're starting a new business, baby,
• 1:36:22
  I want to know about it. You got some strews,
• 1:36:24
  two strings I need to buy, give me ten pass. Nope,
• 1:36:26
  I don't want to discount. That's what we're doing over
• 1:36:29
  here on Black Girl Interrupted Tomorrow night. So tomorrow night,
• 1:36:32
  it's talk to me Thursday. That's what we're doing. Anything goes,
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  whatever topics y'all bring, we gonna talk about it. We're
• 1:36:38
  gonna wake it up. We just gonna have a good
• 1:36:41
  time tomorrow. It is Thursday. But like I said, don't
• 1:36:44
  forget to like, share, common and subscribe. Black Girl Interrupted
• 1:36:47
  is on all streaming platforms wherever you get your up
• 1:36:50
  podcast Baby putting Black Girl Interrupted and watch your girl
• 1:36:53
  pop up. But on that note, I do want to say,
• 1:36:56
  I love y'all so so so so much. Thank y'all
• 1:36:59
  again for the love, for the support. Thank y'all for
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  everything that y'all have done for me. Thank y'all for
• 1:37:03
  everything you continue to do for me. Thank y'all for
• 1:37:05
  all the love. Thank y'all for the prayers, thank you
• 1:37:07
  for the support. Baby, Thank y'all for just being you,
• 1:37:10
  because I wouldn't be me without y'all. And on that note,
• 1:37:13
  I love y'all, and don't forget. Tomorrow night. Tomorrow night, y'all,
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  eight thirty pm Central Time, Baby goes up on Black
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  Girl Interrupted podcast. I love y'all and I'll see y'all
• 1:37:24
  tomorrow night. Hello,