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Learning How To Get What I Want In Life · Conscious Mastery: The Science and Spirituality of Creating Your Next Level in Life

• 0:18
  SPEAKER_00: Do you ever get the feeling that you're destined for an even bigger, bolder, more magical life?
• 0:24
  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to the Conscious Glow Up.
• 0:26
  SPEAKER_00: I'm your host, intuitive energy healer and coach, Crystal Ward.
• 0:30
  SPEAKER_00: My goal is to help you create the life you fantasize about by teaching you energetic spiritual laws of the universe and neuroscience tools.
• 0:38
  SPEAKER_00: I'll share how I utilize these teachings in my own life with stories of single motherhood, entrepreneurship, finances, and relationships.
• 0:46
  SPEAKER_00: Let's dive on into the depths of consciousness and glow up from the inside out.
• 0:52
  SPEAKER_00: Hi, and welcome back to The Conscious Glow Up.
• 0:56
  SPEAKER_00: I am your host, Crystal Ward, intuitive energy healer and life coach, here with an episode after it has been a little bit of time.
• 1:07
  SPEAKER_00: To me, in my mind, I'm kind of like, ooh, that was a pause on my podcast, but really it's actually been anything but a pause.
• 1:16
  SPEAKER_00: I have been deeply integrating so much these past few months.
• 1:21
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, I kind of always am, but these past few months, and I'm gonna get into it into this episode, have been um, they've been a lot.
• 1:29
  SPEAKER_00: They've been, they've been up, they've been down, they've been highly illuminating.
• 1:34
  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, just a lot has been going on since the last episode.
• 1:39
  SPEAKER_00: I also completed uh a few classes at guided light healing.
• 1:45
  SPEAKER_00: I'll mention that school later in this podcast if you're not, if you haven't heard me mention that school before, where I've been learning to master my intuition, and I have just joined Alessandro's Energy Healer program.
• 1:58
  SPEAKER_00: So there's just there's been a lot of movement.
• 2:00
  SPEAKER_00: Like I said, there's always a lot of movement.
• 2:03
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and sometimes it just feels like I need to give myself rest.
• 2:10
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm really excited to be back though.
• 2:12
  SPEAKER_00: This episode has been in the making for about two weeks.
• 2:16
  SPEAKER_00: I had the topic, I knew what I was going to say, and yeah, it's just part of being in that pause, that integration.
• 2:24
  SPEAKER_00: And I think the longer I let myself process what has happened and move from what has happened, it has been easier to come back to the podcast to talk about it.
• 2:36
  SPEAKER_00: Easier and I think more effective for the message that I want to send with it.
• 2:41
  SPEAKER_00: I was in in uh I was an English major, a writing and editing, writing and rhetoric major in college, and one of my professors, a writing professor, said that you want to have a little space in between an event and or circumstance or situation or whatever, and when you write about it, so that you can process it.
• 3:05
  SPEAKER_00: Kind of like when you learn something that you know you were going to teach, you wouldn't, you probably wouldn't learn it and teach it right away.
• 3:11
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, I I am guilty of doing that, but it's usually more effective once you've learned it, put it into play a few times, and just had that period of integration before sharing it with the world.
• 3:23
  SPEAKER_00: So here we are.
• 3:25
  SPEAKER_00: Life kind of turned in a direction that I was not expecting, but that's how it happens, right?
• 3:31
  SPEAKER_00: Unexpected directions present themselves when we aren't expecting them.
• 3:37
  SPEAKER_00: But as much as it pained my human self to experience, I understand that it was all planned by my higher self.
• 3:44
  SPEAKER_00: She was tired of me looking at myself through a pair of lenses that shrunk me, that shrunk what I thought I was capable of.
• 3:52
  SPEAKER_00: So it was kind of like her way of saying, get up, bitch.
• 3:56
  SPEAKER_00: I see you so much bigger than you see yourself.
• 3:58
  SPEAKER_00: So I am going to throw a level 200 out of 10 obstacle in your face, something that'll be impossible for you to ignore so that you get your act together and start wearing the pair of lenses I see you through.
• 4:10
  SPEAKER_00: Because I love you.
• 4:12
  SPEAKER_00: Always done with love, no matter how many times she calls me a bitch.
• 4:17
  SPEAKER_00: She does though, she really does.
• 4:19
  SPEAKER_00: Um, in a in a great way, in a loving way, gets my attention.
• 4:23
  SPEAKER_00: Sparing the details of the specific occurrences that happened because they really don't matter for you to know.
• 4:31
  SPEAKER_00: And shockingly, I guess there are some things I'll keep personal, uh, maybe because it has to do with someone else, though.
• 4:38
  SPEAKER_00: Uh at the root of it all, which is the important piece here, was the uncovering of my main reflection in my life.
• 4:45
  SPEAKER_00: If you are not new here, you've heard me talk about reflections plenty of times, and I will probably never stop.
• 4:52
  SPEAKER_00: If you are new here, the small, medium, and massive ways our higher self gets our attention to let us know we have somehow limited our perception of self in an area of life is called a reflection.
• 5:06
  SPEAKER_00: Our higher self does not want us feeling limited at all.
• 5:10
  SPEAKER_00: Reflections are a way for us to see what is going on internally by looking at experiencing what is going on externally, how strangers treat us, how our relationship go is going.
• 5:24
  SPEAKER_00: Cough, cough to me and this episode, if potential clients are following through with their payments, if we landed the job, it all lets us know how we are perceiving ourselves, whether we feel capable, valuable, special, worthy, all of your beliefs and thus actions taken from your belief systems are all written in what is called your creator field, which is the electromagnetic field that radiates off your body, kind of like your personal space that other people pick up on and respond to.
• 5:59
  SPEAKER_00: If my boss nagged me for something that wasn't actually my fault, from a reflections point of view, it indicates that I nagged myself or beat myself up about something that wasn't actually my fault or in my control, but I was blaming myself for.
• 6:16
  SPEAKER_00: My boss or whoever would be doing this because they are picking up nag, nag for something, even if we don't know 100% it was their fault, because it would be written in the script in my creator field to treat me like that because it was how I was treating myself.
• 6:34
  SPEAKER_00: On the other hand, we are also always subconsciously reading other people's creator fields, and theirs lets us know how to behave with them.
• 6:45
  SPEAKER_00: Have you ever picked a fight with your partner or a friend, but didn't really know exactly why you felt such a need to start an argument?
• 6:55
  SPEAKER_00: Kind of like something was almost speaking through you, but you felt you had to say what you wanted to say in the exact way that it felt it needed to be expressed.
• 7:06
  SPEAKER_00: Or one day you felt it was really necessary to jab at the fact that they never put their dirty clothes in the laundry basket instead of on the floor when before it didn't really feel that important to you.
• 7:19
  SPEAKER_00: On the reverse, this can let you know how your partner or friend or whoever you're nagging has been treating or talking to themselves.
• 7:27
  SPEAKER_00: When I start nagging my boyfriend for petty ass shit, I know that internally he's been doing the same to himself.
• 7:34
  SPEAKER_00: So that's like ninja level reflections work right there is seeing how you're behaving with someone and knowing that, oh, they must have been treating, talking to themselves in that same way that I'm behaving with them.
• 7:48
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe they forgot something at the house and kept beating themselves up about it the whole way to work.
• 7:54
  SPEAKER_00: Reflections are not always caused by profound things.
• 7:57
  SPEAKER_00: The littlest things can cause us to spill the latte we just bought all over our lap, and it could have been simply from a tiny thought of should I really be buying this right now?
• 8:09
  SPEAKER_00: Fellow business owners, pay close attention to this one.
• 8:12
  SPEAKER_00: If your creator field has doesn't follow through with self, do you think your electromagnetic field's script informs prospects to follow through on their payment or to bail on you?
• 8:24
  SPEAKER_00: And that's why reflections are such an amazing tool for us to use to our advantage.
• 8:29
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, spilling crap on my lap sucks, but the fact that it is an opportunity for me to evaluate where I feel like I'm spilling my energy in my life can create a massive positive impact if I use that information to make changes.
• 8:46
  SPEAKER_00: We usually have one to two main reflections going on in our life over a long period of time, say basically our whole entire life up until now, until when we develop our own or find someone with the intuitive skills to decode reflections.
• 9:04
  SPEAKER_00: Those one or two main reflections are responsible for all of the little reflections as well, such as spilling the latte.
• 9:12
  SPEAKER_00: Like one big domino course that does not stop until you finally figure out the root reflection and do something to change it.
• 9:22
  SPEAKER_00: Spilling water, spilling a latte, crashing into a car, stubbing your toe, dropping your phone, losing your wallet, ripping your shirt, getting dumped can all be reflection shootoffs from a main one reflection in life.
• 9:37
  SPEAKER_00: One of my main reflections, the one I will mention here, the main reason I'm bringing this episode to you now, my one of my main reflections has been lodged in my life since I was about four years old.
• 9:53
  SPEAKER_00: And I became starkly aware of that in my most recent one-on-one session with my intuition teacher and mentor, Alessandro.
• 10:01
  SPEAKER_00: He is the founder at the spiritual school I'm attending to master my intuition and learn energy healing.
• 10:08
  SPEAKER_00: And I really have zero doubt that he is one of the best intuitive healers and teachers in the world.
• 10:14
  SPEAKER_00: And no, I don't mean energy healing like Reiki.
• 10:17
  SPEAKER_00: I'm Reiki certified, and Reiki is kindergarten to the kind of things we learn here.
• 10:22
  SPEAKER_00: If you were interested in bringing new skills into your business or changing your life in profound ways, ways that had I just stayed a coach, I could never have helped myself or other people, then I do highly recommend you check out his school called Guided Light Healing.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it is not for the faint of heart.
• 12:41
  SPEAKER_00: Disfucking claimer, if you want an easy life, do not check out this school, avoid at all costs.
• 12:47
  SPEAKER_00: Definitely do not attend any of his free webinars or classes.
• 12:51
  SPEAKER_00: But if you were here, you are probably into the kind of masochistic growth that I am into, so you'd probably love it.
• 12:59
  SPEAKER_00: Well, I have been developing to master my intuition for over a year.
• 13:05
  SPEAKER_00: He's been doing it for like 40.
• 13:08
  SPEAKER_00: So I like to bring the big guns for massive awarenesses that I can't get on my own to sessions with him.
• 13:14
  SPEAKER_00: And to me, it is worth tenfold whatever investment I give him.
• 13:19
  SPEAKER_00: What he can show me in one hour could take me five or more years to uncover this most recent thing.
• 13:25
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, like I said, I've had since I was four, so it's been a few decades.
• 13:29
  SPEAKER_00: And not only does he un help me uncover it by telling by me telling him my current obstacles, he shows me the reflective piece, aka what has created the problems, and he gives me very thorough, multiple action steps, both physical and energetic, ways to shift my life.
• 13:48
  SPEAKER_00: My first session with him, I was struggling for five years to have consistent business revenue or like any.
• 13:55
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, I made money every year, but it was not what you would think a business should be making.
• 14:02
  SPEAKER_00: And after one session with him, I proceeded in six months to make more than I had made the past five years combined.
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  SPEAKER_00: So this stuff is really no joke.
• 14:11
  SPEAKER_00: So he shows me what's in my creator field, gives me multiple tools and steps to shift what needs to shift in order to get me to my goals faster.
• 14:21
  SPEAKER_00: And then when I actually do the work, and that's the hard part, and I see it in my clients all the time.
• 14:26
  SPEAKER_00: The ones who get profound results are the ones who do the work outside the session.
• 14:31
  SPEAKER_00: When I do the work, I experience life changes that I thought were impossible beforehand, and I experience them quickly.
• 14:39
  SPEAKER_00: After each session with Alessandro, I realize that I can actually have and experience what I want when I have the right steps that I personally, uniquely need to take to get where I want to go, which surprise, surprise, is all due to shifting my reflections, taking out of my creator field things that prevent my goals, such as not following through on promises to myself, and putting things in my creator field that are non-negotiables to get where I want to go.
• 15:08
  SPEAKER_00: Have I convinced you to look into reflections yet?
• 15:12
  SPEAKER_00: And this is how intuition is different from coaching.
• 15:15
  SPEAKER_00: I have been a coach for almost seven years and have hired a dozen or more coaches for myself for different areas of my life, especially business.
• 15:25
  SPEAKER_00: A coach usually has a system.
• 15:27
  SPEAKER_00: Hopefully, they have a system.
• 15:28
  SPEAKER_00: Some of them really don't.
• 15:30
  SPEAKER_00: Uh they just kind of talk.
• 15:31
  SPEAKER_00: But a coach should and usually has a system that helped them get where they are, which is ideally where you, the client, wants to go, and they sell that system to other people.
• 15:42
  SPEAKER_00: The problem I faced with a lot of coaches was that if they had a system, a lot of the times it did not really work for me or not fully work for me for the results that I was promised to get with them.
• 15:56
  SPEAKER_00: Now I love coaching.
• 15:58
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, it definitely has a huge place in my heart, and I think the industry has so much to offer.
• 16:05
  SPEAKER_00: However, there are some gaps in the coaching industry, but nothing is perfect.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we see that illustrated in the glorified Western medical system.
• 16:16
  SPEAKER_00: But as a few years ago, at least, I don't know if things have changed, medical malpractice was the third leading cause of death in America.
• 16:24
  SPEAKER_00: So no industry here is perfect, no matter how promising it looks from the outside.
• 16:29
  SPEAKER_00: So the difference with intuition and coaching is that intuition is information from source, creator, or your higher self, the part of your energy that doesn't quite fit in your human body and is basically all-knowing.
• 16:43
  SPEAKER_00: To use intuition is to read light.
• 16:46
  SPEAKER_00: Everything is made of light.
• 16:50
  SPEAKER_00: It is what makes up all matter, including our thoughts, beliefs, creator fields, our physical bodies, and all of the physical matter around us, all of the events and circumstances that happen around us, the table that my microphone is on.
• 17:04
  SPEAKER_00: Coaching is a hopefully tried and true system, but systems like that don't work for everyone, as I mentioned earlier.
• 17:12
  SPEAKER_00: But intuition is always accurate because the information that is held in light is always accurate.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is truth.
• 17:20
  SPEAKER_00: When you learn to read people, which you I'm sure are already doing this to a degree, when you learn to read people, situations, circumstances, events, etc., intuitively, you are reading basically the exact code that they are running on that that light runs with.
• 17:36
  SPEAKER_00: So for with coaching, I can tell someone to exercise three times a week because that's a common results formula for many clients, weight loss clients, energy clients, bodybuilding clients.
• 17:48
  SPEAKER_00: I don't have bodybuilding clients, but if I did, you know, I'm sure it would be like exercise seven days a week.
• 17:52
  SPEAKER_00: But with intuition, I can tell someone the exact number of days they should exercise, the amounts of time, and the types of exercises that are best suited for them based on their age, their health, their physical capabilities, and many other factors of their unique body and lifestyle, because not everybody will get the same results with the same exercise plan.
• 18:17
  SPEAKER_00: So that is how coaching and intuition are different.
• 18:20
  SPEAKER_00: And that is why I trust intuition so deeply, and that is why I trust the information coming to me through my mentor because of his decades trained intuition and the results I see when I work with him.
• 18:32
  SPEAKER_00: He is not giving me a system that he, you know, he's used for his life.
• 18:35
  SPEAKER_00: If it is like a financial system, he has intuited those and used them in his life.
• 18:40
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's an example of a system, but his when I go to him for intuition, I'm not getting his opinions and his advice.
• 18:47
  SPEAKER_00: Like it is straight up source and higher self-provided information.
• 18:53
  SPEAKER_00: And bringing intuition into my coaching has made my services way more powerful than they could have ever been had I not learned to develop this skill.
• 19:02
  SPEAKER_00: And it's super cool because I'm still not at my full intuitive potential, and it is awesome because I watch current clients, relationships, businesses, and bodies shift dramatically when they work with me now, and I cannot even imagine how much more I'll be able to help people when my intuition is more dialed in.
• 19:19
  SPEAKER_00: The systems I had as a coach, mainly health coach, were great, but the gap was that they were not fully tailored to each unique individual that I helped.
• 19:28
  SPEAKER_00: So now I can help people in specific ways based on what I intuitively read would help them most.
• 19:35
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, back to the session with Alessandro.
• 19:38
  SPEAKER_00: The session was booked out months in advance because of how full his schedule is, and it almost feels like my higher self created that unexpected turn in my life, the topic of this podcast episode, just in time before the session.
• 19:55
  SPEAKER_00: When I booked the session, I didn't really have anything specific that was blaring for me to talk about, which is just an example of my intuition letting me know to book something in advance because my higher self knew the explosive life event that was coming my way that she planned that I would need some big help with.
• 20:13
  SPEAKER_00: And I was also probably not coincidentally perfectly freaking timed in the middle of taking Alessandro's Reflections Mastery course when this little life hurdle came up.
• 20:24
  SPEAKER_00: All by design.
• 20:25
  SPEAKER_00: Booking the session, being halfway through Reflections class, and this obstacle timed painfully beautifully.
• 20:34
  SPEAKER_00: Of course, for my growth, right?
• 20:36
  SPEAKER_00: It's all fine.
• 20:38
  SPEAKER_00: In order to have the success I want in my career, my higher self needed me to fix something pretty freaking important in my creator field to let me call in the success that I want.
• 20:50
  SPEAKER_00: In other words, I've had a limited perception of myself almost my entire life.
• 20:56
  SPEAKER_00: I think I already mentioned I was like four years old when this negative belief came up.
• 21:03
  SPEAKER_00: A limited belief perception that is guaranteed to prevent the success that my business was created to have in this lifetime.
• 21:14
  SPEAKER_00: My higher self needed me ready in a way that I have never been before.
• 21:20
  SPEAKER_00: And apparently, the only thing that would get me ready in this way was by facing one of the biggest repeating challenges I have had throughout multiple decades in 90% of my past relationships.
• 21:33
  SPEAKER_00: And I am a serial monogamous.
• 21:35
  SPEAKER_00: It's not like I've had three relationships in the past two decades.
• 21:38
  SPEAKER_00: I have had many.
• 21:40
  SPEAKER_00: So I got that same reflection in my current relationship, which, if you've listened to other episodes, you've realized by now that this relationship has no shortage of reflections, meaning I have been getting fucking drunk off growth.
• 21:55
  SPEAKER_00: And it's barely been eight months, you guys.
• 21:58
  SPEAKER_00: Normally you have a honeymoon period.
• 22:00
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, we didn't have that.
• 22:01
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but look, we're still here.
• 22:04
  SPEAKER_00: We're still here.
• 22:06
  SPEAKER_00: Like with Reflections class, the rocket ship of growth I have had since finding Guy to Light Healing in May of 2025.
• 22:13
  SPEAKER_00: It's barely been over a year, has provided no shortage of opportunities for me to implement the new tools I've been learning.
• 22:21
  SPEAKER_00: Difficult, plenty of tears, so much excitement.
• 22:24
  SPEAKER_00: I do know it'll pay off in ways that I can't even imagine right now.
• 22:28
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm staying the course.
• 22:31
  SPEAKER_00: But honestly, it has already paid off tremendously how I see myself, how I navigate every aspect and obstacle of my life.
• 22:40
  SPEAKER_00: My bank and savings accounts look much different.
• 22:44
  SPEAKER_00: I got out of debt.
• 22:46
  SPEAKER_00: That story was freaking wild.
• 22:48
  SPEAKER_00: I got out of a debt relief program 10 months early, just fucking randomly after taking his financial mastery class.
• 22:55
  SPEAKER_00: My relationships, I function different in relationships, the speed at which I have aligned myself to my soul's purpose in this lifetime.
• 23:03
  SPEAKER_00: I am at a fucking 98%, and it is all thanks to everything I've been learning.
• 23:07
  SPEAKER_00: And how do I know percentages?
• 23:09
  SPEAKER_00: Intuition.
• 23:10
  SPEAKER_00: So all those painful obstacles, all that reflective shit I've talked to you about in these episodes, are not for nothing.
• 23:17
  SPEAKER_00: It is just so deep and intense sometimes that I just wish I could be drinking pina coladas on the beach with a hookah instead of journaling.
• 23:24
  SPEAKER_00: Journaling about my creator field.
• 23:26
  SPEAKER_00: But here we are, sober with a microphone and a cold brew.
• 23:30
  SPEAKER_00: Very delicious from Paris Baguette.
• 23:32
  SPEAKER_00: I finally tried it and wow.
• 23:34
  SPEAKER_00: Talking to who knows how many of you, intending for each of you who finds me to have incredible life changes and to see yourselves in the most abundant and worthy of ways, to have capable, strong perceptions of self that help you create the success you want in any and all areas of your life.
• 23:54
  SPEAKER_00: And back to the topic again the juicy part, one of my life's main reflections, the one intuitively decoded by Alessandro, the one that I could have told myself years ago, but didn't even think that it was causing so many slash all of my obstacles in life.
• 24:10
  SPEAKER_00: The reflection is trust in myself.
• 24:16
  SPEAKER_00: Trust specifically that I have the capabilities that I have what it takes to create my desires.
• 24:23
  SPEAKER_00: AKA my business a home for myself that I own, a beautiful relationship and marriage.
• 24:32
  SPEAKER_00: And all of this this lack in trusting my capabilities to create my desires has literally created all of my partners to do things that were the opposite of honesty.
• 24:45
  SPEAKER_00: I have created in my creator field, I've attracted partners who are dishonest in some way, shape, or form big enough to rock the fucking relationship.
• 24:56
  SPEAKER_00: And this is not in any way to out my partner at all.
• 25:00
  SPEAKER_00: I do think he knows by now that I share my experiences with you, and he is also aware of reflections, obviously.
• 25:06
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, look who he's dating.
• 25:08
  SPEAKER_00: And we both understand, thanks to intuition, the specific part we both played in getting to this massive hurdle.
• 25:16
  SPEAKER_00: So part of it was reflective for him, and part of it was reflective for me.
• 25:21
  SPEAKER_00: And just to let your curiosities ease, he did not cheat on me with another woman.
• 25:26
  SPEAKER_00: But when trust is broken in a relationship that was previously founded upon honesty and openness, no matter what the circumstances, it will feel like almost anything is cheating.
• 25:37
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, to me, any type of lie, like you're fucking you're cheating.
• 25:41
  SPEAKER_00: And you know, you're you're cheating us out of an honest uh relationship, a stable foundation.
• 25:48
  SPEAKER_00: So cheating doesn't have to be just be like, you know, sleeping with someone.
• 25:54
  SPEAKER_00: This is definitely high conscious shit because the go-to in relationships is usually to exit stage when big things happen.
• 26:03
  SPEAKER_00: Because most people are not aware of this annoying but very helpful spiritual energetic law of reflections.
• 26:10
  SPEAKER_00: I definitely was not aware of it in years past.
• 26:13
  SPEAKER_00: While my human self did want to leave this particular relationship and situation because of how hard I was, because life is also so much easier when you're single.
• 26:24
  SPEAKER_00: My higher self did not give me the okay to leave.
• 26:27
  SPEAKER_00: How do I know?
• 26:29
  SPEAKER_00: Intuition, baby, the answers are always there.
• 26:32
  SPEAKER_00: And that is stuff, you know, big stuff like this.
• 26:34
  SPEAKER_00: I do get calibrated, I do get those, and like I'll pull intuitive information, and then I will just emotions can really skew your intuition, wants and desires can skew it.
• 26:45
  SPEAKER_00: So I did get this calibrated, you know, checked, confirmed with Alessandro as well.
• 26:52
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm actually with his intuition learned that I am a couple years out from getting my creator field so on point to where this relationship, aka the two of us in the relationship, have made it the best it can be.
• 27:05
  SPEAKER_00: And you never want to leave a relationship when it's not better than it's ever been, because it means there's still a lot more reflective pieces for you both to work on, but only from that point can, you know, I make a decision to stay or leave.
• 27:21
  SPEAKER_00: And the reason you don't want to leave a relationship or even a job for that matter when things are obstacle or highly reflective is because the reflections are literally your greatest gifts from your higher self because he or she is giving you the keys to your up levels.
• 27:41
  SPEAKER_00: So because you need those reflections to get you to change parts about your life that need to change or shift in order to get you where you want to go, the reflections will follow you.
• 27:55
  SPEAKER_00: That is why you see relationship patterns because people don't know about reflections.
• 28:00
  SPEAKER_00: They are, you know, we see, I'm sure you can think of somebody who's always getting cheated on, or always being left for someone different, or being treated the same kind of way by everyone they date or taken advantage of in similar ways.
• 28:13
  SPEAKER_00: These are reflections, shitty as they are, it is your higher self trying to get your attention about an imbalanced, limited perception you have about yourself and or your capabilities and or your life.
• 28:26
  SPEAKER_00: It is when we finally see, like the pendulum swings the other way after years of putting up with shit, that we are finally open to the truth, the truth about ourselves, which is never a limiting truth.
• 28:38
  SPEAKER_00: From powerlessness in relationships to I will never let myself get treated like that ever again, for example.
• 28:46
  SPEAKER_00: Relation reflections, sorry, will follow you until your perception of yourself is at a place that will help you get what you want instead of preventing you from getting what you want.
• 28:56
  SPEAKER_00: Pretty important in life, in my opinion.
• 29:01
  SPEAKER_00: So subconsciously, I chose a partner designed by that beautiful, loving higher self of mine who would show me this pattern yet again so that I could bust it once and for all.
• 29:12
  SPEAKER_00: Had this situation not happened in my relationship, I could have gone years longer without trusting in my own capabilities to create my desires, to create wealth in my business.
• 29:24
  SPEAKER_00: So my higher self planned this lovely event for me to get my eyes wide the heck open so that I would do the inner work necessary to build that trust with myself.
• 29:35
  SPEAKER_00: Looking at my past, especially since starting my business, I got into tens of thousands of dollars worth of debt because I hired coach after coach to basically tell me what to do with my business.
• 29:46
  SPEAKER_00: I thought they had the magic formula because I didn't trust myself to have the answers within me or to guide myself appropriately.
• 29:53
  SPEAKER_00: I didn't think I could get where I wanted to go on my own.
• 29:56
  SPEAKER_00: So anyone who promised they could help me, uh, they got my money.
• 30:02
  SPEAKER_00: And why is trust so important, especially when building your own business from pebbles up?
• 30:08
  SPEAKER_00: Because the creator field, of course.
• 30:11
  SPEAKER_00: If mine says I don't trust myself, that means other people and potential clients are reading don't trust in my creator field.
• 30:21
  SPEAKER_00: And it is not at a conscious level.
• 30:23
  SPEAKER_00: I don't come off as some liar, and I'm not a liar, but except to myself, right?
• 30:28
  SPEAKER_00: Sneakily, it's sneaky shit, right?
• 30:30
  SPEAKER_00: I'm not sitting there every day saying, I don't trust my capabilities to build my business.
• 30:34
  SPEAKER_00: No, consciously, I know I'm a badass.
• 30:37
  SPEAKER_00: I know I'm building a fantastic business.
• 30:39
  SPEAKER_00: I know every day I'm taking the steps to build it, but deep fucking down where my beliefs lie in my subconscious brain, I was at 11% trusting myself.
• 30:52
  SPEAKER_00: The fact that I wasn't specifically trusting in my capabilities to build a successful business means that I had a level of do not trust in my creative field.
• 31:04
  SPEAKER_00: And it doesn't mean I have never had clients.
• 31:06
  SPEAKER_00: Like I said, this past year was my best one yet, but I won't and I wouldn't have reached the level of clients I was born to help had I continued not fully trusting in my capabilities to build the business that will help the people.
• 31:20
  SPEAKER_00: So thank you, Cameron, my love, for being the perfect partner to simply reflect what was going on in my creator field all these years.
• 31:29
  SPEAKER_00: The gift he gave me of showing me the biggest reflection of my life, self-trust, not trusting myself, is worth everything to me.
• 31:37
  SPEAKER_00: As painful as it was to go through, growth is not pain-free.
• 31:41
  SPEAKER_00: And he did not do anything, by the way, to intentionally or physically hurt me, in case you were wondering.
• 31:48
  SPEAKER_00: I am a sensitive bitch though.
• 31:49
  SPEAKER_00: Any kind of hiding things hurts me to the core, and this was like a level 10 to me.
• 31:54
  SPEAKER_00: And I know for a fact to other people, could have been no big deal or like a level three, but I no longer gaslight my emotions and self-lovingly, this was a big deal.
• 32:04
  SPEAKER_00: Big enough for me to finally face the biggest reflection and most limiting belief of self of my entire life.
• 32:13
  SPEAKER_00: Reflections in the moment are the most annoying things on the planet once you really get to know them.
• 32:19
  SPEAKER_00: Like, are you joking?
• 32:20
  SPEAKER_00: I created dropping an entire watermelon on the ground and it exploding all over the pavement.
• 32:25
  SPEAKER_00: But yeah, I did create that.
• 32:27
  SPEAKER_00: And how am I going to figure out what the heck limited perception of self got me to that point so that I can turn that around and face the truth about myself, which is always, always something so much more than the empowering limited thought that got me there.
• 32:47
  SPEAKER_00: This was a real one, you guys.
• 32:50
  SPEAKER_00: I have talked about reflections before, and I always think I've explained them thoroughly.
• 32:55
  SPEAKER_00: But this episode really digs into the what, the why, the how, and the why do we want to look at these pesky things so that we can up level our lives in magnificent ways, in ways that literally get us to our freaking goals.
• 33:10
  SPEAKER_00: So listen to this again.
• 33:11
  SPEAKER_00: If you are new to the concept of reflections, especially listen maybe a couple times.
• 33:16
  SPEAKER_00: And as always, if you want to continue this conversation or ask me about any reflections that might be going on in your life, feel free to reach out to me at crystal at crystalward.com or on Instagram at crystal underscore baller.
• 33:31
  SPEAKER_00: Crystal is spelled K-R-Y-S-T-A-L.
• 33:35
  SPEAKER_00: Uh funny story, I used to work at a steakhouse in a casino.
• 33:38
  SPEAKER_00: So I've been a server at restaurants for geez, coming on 20 years soon.
• 33:43
  SPEAKER_00: And so I've worked at a few different places, and um the only place I worked where I got asked this question was at this casino steakhouse.
• 33:57
  SPEAKER_00: And the question was, is that your real name?
• 33:59
  SPEAKER_00: Is that your real name?
• 34:01
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, that's my real name.
• 34:03
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 34:03
  SPEAKER_00: I look forward to being back with another episode for you soon.
• 34:07
  SPEAKER_00: We will talk later.