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ROR 179: Austin | Voicemail Episode · Red Onion Randy - Life in a Supermax Prison

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  Speaker 1: All Rany.
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  Speaker 2: My name is Jake.
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  Speaker 1: I'm calling from s Now of Michigan's in the Michigan
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  Speaker 1: rural area, kindently where you grew up. I'm just calling, man, just.
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  Speaker 2: Let you know.
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  Speaker 1: Hey, keep up a good fight, stay strong. You're very inspirational.
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  Speaker 1: You got some brass balls on you.
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  Speaker 2: Keep a good fight, man, and then I really enjoy
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  Speaker 2: your program.
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  Speaker 1: You take it easy now say fay. Hey Randy, this
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  Speaker 1: is Nick long time style brother. I think I've been
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  Speaker 1: with you since day one, since I very first saw
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  Speaker 1: your channel. Love it, love your stories, love your advice, everything. Bro.
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  Speaker 1: When you talk about getting out, man, I can feel it, Bro,
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  Speaker 1: I get the chills. So I know what's gonna happen.
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  Speaker 1: I pray for you every night, and me and my kids,
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  Speaker 1: my wife, we all pray for you.
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  Speaker 2: Brother.
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  Speaker 1: You're getting out of there soon. I had a dream
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  Speaker 1: me and you went on a fishing trip and we
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  Speaker 1: had a dollar bet who was going to catch the
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  Speaker 1: biggest fish, and we just kept catching the same size
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  Speaker 1: the whole time. So deal with that new SELLI brother,
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  Speaker 1: you got this man. It's just a test from the
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  Speaker 1: Lord and love.
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  Speaker 3: Deal with it.
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  Speaker 1: You know what you have to do, brother, to get
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  Speaker 1: your ass out of there and you will trust me.
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  Speaker 1: Trust me, brother, It's coming, man, I can feel it.
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  Speaker 1: Love you, brother, you stay strong, keep praying to the
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  Speaker 1: Good Lord, and you'll overcome and you'll get your butt
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  Speaker 1: out of there just as fast as you got thrown
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  Speaker 1: in there. Trust me. All right, buddy, all right, man,
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  Speaker 1: I hope this message reaches you.
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  Speaker 3: Good brother.
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  Speaker 4: Hey, Ryan Dy, this is Murphy. I'm from Washington, d C.
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  Speaker 4: I've did a little time in the vicentious system, and
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  Speaker 4: I just want to tell you to keep your head up.
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  Speaker 4: A lot of people getting a lot of good information
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  Speaker 4: from your podcast. Just keep throwing.
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  Speaker 2: Good man.
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  Speaker 4: God bless you, and I hope it gets soaping for you.
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  Speaker 4: Have a good day.
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  Speaker 3: Me question. I'm a forty nine year old man in Austin, Texas,
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  Speaker 3: and you just called me Austin. I started out in
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  Speaker 3: my other years in California Youth Authority. Yeah, they did
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  Speaker 3: a lot of bunch of stuff here I'm not proud of.
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  Speaker 3: And I was in and out of the youth homes.
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  Speaker 3: And then when I came into Texas from California, I
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  Speaker 3: got a lot straight. I started working on it and
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  Speaker 3: as a twenty year o old man, I met a
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  Speaker 3: twenty year old woman who had a couple of kids,
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  Speaker 3: a couple of girls. And before that, I was swinging guns.
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  Speaker 3: I was sling a little dope, and they got me
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  Speaker 3: my life correct. And for the past twenty years, twenty
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  Speaker 3: five plus years, I've been basically queen, you know, sort
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  Speaker 3: of will be here and there, you know a little
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  Speaker 3: bit of that. But now I've lost my job and
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  Speaker 3: I was making him the k here and now I'm
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  Speaker 3: in the stress point where I feel like I could
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  Speaker 3: do some dirty things. I was raised off thirty things.
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  Speaker 3: I was raised off of doing things, and now the
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  Speaker 3: money point is tight in this current economy. So I'm
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  Speaker 3: in this tradition to where I'm like almost fifty years
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  Speaker 3: old and I'm feeling the crete. I'm doing dirty things.
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  Speaker 3: And so my question is is what does it look
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  Speaker 3: like for a guy who's, you know, fifty years old
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  Speaker 3: going into a lock up. I'm trying to forgure out
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  Speaker 3: the right way, do you thinks man? And I appreciate
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  Speaker 3: your podcast and know what you do, and uh, I
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  Speaker 3: just I'm at a tiffing point. I'm trying to stay
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  Speaker 3: out of it, but uh I need your help explain
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  Speaker 3: me why I should save the fuck out of there,
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  Speaker 3: cause I'm at the point where I really don't care. Hello,
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  Speaker 3: this is a prebate call from a Department of correction.
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  Speaker 2: Read I'm in state present to.
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  Speaker 5: Accept this call RAS zero.
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  Speaker 2: It's is Randall Bob aka red On You Randy. I'm
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  Speaker 2: currently serving one thousand, two hundred and fourteen years for
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  Speaker 2: capital murder and on robbery now and finally at a
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  Speaker 2: level three fucking air correctional center. Don't ways throw from
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  Speaker 2: where I grew up. If you have any questions for
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  Speaker 2: comments and want to leave them at to whatever, I've
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  Speaker 2: got a voicemail line. That number is one eight eight
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  Speaker 2: eight five suit four one nine three suits. You can
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  Speaker 2: also visit my website which is new and improved and
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  Speaker 2: got different features and whatnot at www dot red on
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  Speaker 2: your Randy dot com. And I hope you do. Let's
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  Speaker 2: get started with the podcast. Alight, everybody, I gotta uh,
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  Speaker 2: I guess kind of an emergency situation. I reckon, I'm
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  Speaker 2: just gonna call this guy Austin since he happens to
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  Speaker 2: be living in Austin, Texas. He's sent in through the
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  Speaker 2: hot line and everything less than voicemails in a definitely
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  Speaker 2: definitely a high stress situation. I'm just gonna give you background,
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  Speaker 2: and then I'm gonna direct the west of what I
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  Speaker 2: got to say to Austin and for anybody else who
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  Speaker 2: kind of feels, you know, they're in this desperate straits
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  Speaker 2: the same as he is.
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  Speaker 3: So.
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  Speaker 2: Austin was born and raised pretty much in California, like me.
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  Speaker 2: He did time in juvenile detention system there, even though
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  Speaker 2: I wasn't in California mine West Virginia, but they called
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  Speaker 2: it the California Youth Authority. He was in and out
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  Speaker 2: of group homes, getting locked up, you know, raised doing dirt,
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  Speaker 2: the same as I was. Moved down to Texas where
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  Speaker 2: he was running drugs, running gun till he was twenty
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  Speaker 2: eight when he met a woman and she had children
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  Speaker 2: and they helped him and calls him and gave him
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  Speaker 2: a reason to get his life straight. Now he's forty
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  Speaker 2: nine years old. He had a job, you know, for
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  Speaker 2: the last however many years that was paying you know,
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  Speaker 2: one hundred thousand a year, which is good damn money
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  Speaker 2: right there, and unfortunately lost that job struggling to make
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  Speaker 2: ends me. You know, money's not just tight, it's got
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  Speaker 2: a knock tied in it, and he's wondering thinking about
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  Speaker 2: getting back into getting back into the game, you know,
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  Speaker 2: and what happens if he gets caught and has to
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  Speaker 2: do time in prison as a fifty year old man.
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  Speaker 2: So that's basically the rundown of what's going on and
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  Speaker 2: what I have to respond to. Well, Austin, I think
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  Speaker 2: you know me by now. I'm not gonna bullsh and
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  Speaker 2: I almost shoot you straight. What's the part you think you.
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  Speaker 4: All right?
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  Speaker 2: Now that I got that said, and I can get
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  Speaker 2: that off my chest, Bro, this is not a road
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  Speaker 2: you want to go down. You still got your wife,
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  Speaker 2: you still got your kids. They might be grown, but
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  Speaker 2: you've raised them. You are their father, you or their dad.
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  Speaker 2: You're the man they look to, the man they respect,
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  Speaker 2: the man they love, the man who sought them and
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  Speaker 2: raised him, and you do not want to let them down.
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  Speaker 2: I understand money's tightened. I get it right. For a
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  Speaker 2: long long time I had nothing. I understand the desperation
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  Speaker 2: you feel. Mortgage on the line, truck payments, bills come
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  Speaker 2: and do people knocking on the door. And I can
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  Speaker 2: respect that. I can even respect the fact if you're
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  Speaker 2: thinking worst case scenario, I might have to get back
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  Speaker 2: in the game. Let me tell you something. The game
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  Speaker 2: has changed. The game has changed so much you will
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  Speaker 2: not recognize it. You will not know the right people.
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  Speaker 2: There's too many cameras, there's too many stitches. Bro, It's
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  Speaker 2: not if you get called, it's you are going to
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  Speaker 2: get called. You have been out the game way too long. Man.
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  Speaker 2: There are other options, brou worse, come to worse. You know,
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  Speaker 2: start selling some stuff, you know, maybe as much as
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  Speaker 2: you might not want to do it. Maybe sell Maybe
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  Speaker 2: sell the house, maybe sell the land you're on. You know,
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  Speaker 2: get what you can get to knock off some bills,
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  Speaker 2: and you know, maybe go rent a trailer some damn where.
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  Speaker 2: You know, if you've been making one hundred k for
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  Speaker 2: the last few years or however long, you don't actually say,
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  Speaker 2: and the and the call in. You're living in a
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  Speaker 2: decent house, and you probably had a good chunk of
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  Speaker 2: it paid all. So you do sell it, even if
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  Speaker 2: you have to wind up selling it for less than
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  Speaker 2: what it's worth. I understand the economy sucks, I ass
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  Speaker 2: right now. I understand the housing market is down like
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  Speaker 2: it's laying on his back with his leg spread open,
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  Speaker 2: trying to make a little money. I get it, But sometimes, man,
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  Speaker 2: you gotta do what you gotta do. Just do not
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  Speaker 2: break the law, or I would give anything, accept my
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  Speaker 2: God and my wife. I would give anything except them
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  Speaker 2: two things to get out of prison. Right now. Do not.
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  Speaker 5: Do not.
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  Speaker 2: Do anything to jeopardize your freedom. It ain't worth it.
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  Speaker 2: It's not worth giving up your wife. It's not worth
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  Speaker 2: giving up your children. It's not worth giving up your freedom. Hell,
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  Speaker 2: it ain't worth giving up your dog to come to prison,
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  Speaker 2: especially the Texas Christmas system. Bruh. I know somebody. I
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  Speaker 2: talked to him on a somewhat regular basis. The dude's
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  Speaker 2: name is Matthews. He's a good bruh currently living in
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  Speaker 2: Fort Worth, Texas. He did time in North Carolina, got out,
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  Speaker 2: went to Texas. Done some dumps, did time in Texas. Bruh.
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  Speaker 2: He's told me about that. Texas is not a place
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  Speaker 2: you want to do in prison time. So if if
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  Speaker 2: you are desperate enough to break the law for the
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  Speaker 2: love of God, go to like freaking Vermont or Minnesota
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  Speaker 2: or South Dakota or something in place like that that
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  Speaker 2: is just straight blue state, straight democratic liberal as it
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  Speaker 2: can be. Stay got to Colorado, though they will tricky.
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  Speaker 2: They might they might vote blue, but they do corrections red. Dude,
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  Speaker 2: you don't want to I don't want to do time
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  Speaker 2: in Texas just because I'm capable of doing time in Texas.
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  Speaker 2: I do not want to do time in Texas. That's me.
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  Speaker 2: You've listened to the podcast. If you were calling my
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  Speaker 2: number in reaching out to me and asking for my advice,
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  Speaker 2: you've listened to every single podcast. You know my story.
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  Speaker 2: You know I'm not exactly a bitch, but I do
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  Speaker 2: not want to do time in Texas. That is hard,
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  Speaker 2: hard time. And what are you going to do? Man?
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  Speaker 2: Leave your wife there with all the bills. You're fifty
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  Speaker 2: years old, brouh. I'm assuming she's your same age, give
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  Speaker 2: or take. You're gonna leave.
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  Speaker 5: Her alone, huff.
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  Speaker 2: There's something we can do. You go on jaypay. Be
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  Speaker 2: quick about it, though, because we're about to switch from
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  Speaker 2: Jpey over to viapad. You know, sign up on the kiosk,
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  Speaker 2: send me an email. You don't even have to give
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  Speaker 2: me your real name. Whatever, just you know whatever, dude,
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  Speaker 2: just reach out to me. Man, I will give you
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  Speaker 2: one of my stories, will fricky, you know, we'll do something,
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  Speaker 2: man Like I don't have a problem helping you. You know,
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  Speaker 2: I can't obviously send you money, but you know I've
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  Speaker 2: got ideas I've you know, I mean, worst come to
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  Speaker 2: worst man, Dude, I understand. Brother, you got your pride
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  Speaker 2: and your man, you know, which is why I respect you.
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  Speaker 2: Know kind of what you're thinking. I get it. You know,
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  Speaker 2: if it came down to it and I couldn't support
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  Speaker 2: my family, I couldn't feed my family, I'm gonna do
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  Speaker 2: whatever it takes, you know, but you've got to exhaust
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  Speaker 2: every every single opposite. First man, set up a gofund
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  Speaker 2: me page.
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  Speaker 3: Bruh.
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  Speaker 2: You know you got golf clubs, man, go sell them.
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  Speaker 2: You got a bass boat, go sell it. I get it.
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  Speaker 2: You don't, you might not want to if you you know,
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  Speaker 2: worst come to worst man, go get a freaking job
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  Speaker 2: at McDonald's, you know, a burger king or doing whatever.
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  Speaker 2: And you just get on your knees every single morning.
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  Speaker 2: You get up early. You don't drink coffee, you don't
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  Speaker 2: fix breakfast. Man, you just get on your damn knees
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  Speaker 2: and you just start praying, and you just throw yourself
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  Speaker 2: on God's mercy and you just ask him with as
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  Speaker 2: much faith as you can mustle with as much belief
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  Speaker 2: as you can muster to give you a job. It
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  Speaker 2: might not be what you was doing, it might not
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  Speaker 2: pay as much. But as long as you can afford
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  Speaker 2: to put food on the table, gas in the tank,
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  Speaker 2: and pay some damn bills so they don't shut things
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  Speaker 2: down and take things from you, man, that's all that
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  Speaker 2: matters at the end of the day, as long as
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  Speaker 2: it gives you some grace period, as long as it
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  Speaker 2: gives you enough of a safety net, man, so you
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  Speaker 2: don't have to go back to the game. You don't
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  Speaker 2: have to go back to the streets. Everything's changed out there.
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  Speaker 1: Mind.
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  Speaker 2: A guy will get pulled over for a speeding ticket
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  Speaker 2: and he'll tell the cop, hey, look man, I know
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  Speaker 2: this guy's selling drugs. I know this guy he's selling
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  Speaker 2: guns literally just to get out of a fifty dollars
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  Speaker 2: speeding ticket. He will put your ass in prison for
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  Speaker 2: the rest of your life, because if you go into
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  Speaker 2: prison at fifty for you are not coming out, especially
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  Speaker 2: a place like Texas. Let me, uh, let me break
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  Speaker 2: down a little bit of prison like to you, you know,
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  Speaker 2: and go back and listen to all the episodes and
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  Speaker 2: just think everything I talk about the Virginia prisons system,
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  Speaker 2: it's probably a thousand times worse in Texas. I want, man,
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  Speaker 2: do you know how many people die of heat stroke
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  Speaker 2: in Texas prisons every year? Because you can google that,
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  Speaker 2: it'll tell you it's a lot. And let's face you, brother,
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  Speaker 2: if you don't have money on the streets to pay
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  Speaker 2: the bills, your wife ain't gonna have enough money to
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  Speaker 2: send you, to send you the money to buy a fan,
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  Speaker 2: to send you money to buy hygiene, to send you
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  Speaker 2: money to buy a commissary. So you're not only going
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  Speaker 2: into you're not only going into the Texas Department of Corrections. Oh,
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  Speaker 2: by the way, where they're going to make you work.
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  Speaker 2: In Texas, they don't pay you. They do not give
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  Speaker 2: you money for a state job like here in Virginia. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: Virginia pays crappy ass paid, you know, twenty seven cent
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  Speaker 2: of our thirty five cent hour forty five cent hour.
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  Speaker 2: Though for like tutors and peer recovery specialists, they just
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  Speaker 2: raise those pay raise to a dollar twenty five you know.
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  Speaker 2: But these are literally, you know, the hardest jobs in
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  Speaker 2: the world to get. Mit will hire me as a
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  Speaker 2: professor before the Virginia Department of Corrections hires me as
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  Speaker 2: a tutor. And you know, even if I did, somehow,
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  Speaker 2: have God give me a miracle and give me that
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  Speaker 2: everybody in their mama is going to start snitching on me,
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  Speaker 2: lying on me, and making stuff up and the hopes
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  Speaker 2: of just catching me a charge just so they have
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  Speaker 2: an opportunity to put an application in and the hopest
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  Speaker 2: that they get that job, even though they're too stupid
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  Speaker 2: to realize the same thing they just did to me,
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  Speaker 2: everybody else is gonna do to them. That's why I
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  Speaker 2: don't put in for that stuff. You don't get paid
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  Speaker 2: in Texas, bro, and you're gonna work straight up slave labor.
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  Speaker 2: You're going into an environment at fifty years old where
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  Speaker 2: people are gonna automatically view you as weak man. Them
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  Speaker 2: young boys, and them young gang bangers eighteen, nineteen, twenty
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  Speaker 2: years old. Hell, some of them are fifteen sixteen years
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  Speaker 2: old doing adult time in prison. Bro. They ain't got
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  Speaker 2: no sense at all. All they gonna see is a
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  Speaker 2: fifty year old man and they don't give a damn
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  Speaker 2: what color of your skin is. That don't mean nothing
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  Speaker 2: to them. You have no idea. The hell's a misery,
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  Speaker 2: you'd be putting yourself in, bro. I don't care if
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  Speaker 2: you ran in the streets. I don't care if you
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  Speaker 2: dis in juvenile time in California. Broh, Juvenile ain't gosh
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  Speaker 2: on adult. Yeah it's wild, you're fistfighting and whatnot, But
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  Speaker 2: man duds ain't getting stabbed then, juven dus ain't getting there.
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  Speaker 2: He busted open with padlocks. The food in prison is horrible. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: I have a cookbook out. Yeah, I'm pretty good at
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  Speaker 2: taking something bad and turning it into something good because
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  Speaker 2: God gave me a gift, and I spent twenty something
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  Speaker 2: years hungry, hungry, starving, daydreaming and thinking about food and
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  Speaker 2: thinking what I would do and how I would do
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  Speaker 2: it when I did get a little something. So are
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  Speaker 2: you going to have that time to get a little
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  Speaker 2: something something once you're in I'm fifty years old, You ain't, bro.
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  Speaker 2: So you're already fifty. Your body's already starting to break down.
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  Speaker 2: And if you was working one hundred thousand dollars a
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  Speaker 2: year job, maybe you was doing some roughneck stuff on
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  Speaker 2: a on a well, you know, drilling for hold or
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  Speaker 2: something along those lines. But more than likely you're making
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  Speaker 2: that kind of money. You've got a desk job, which
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  Speaker 2: means you probably wasn't working out some tough you know,
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  Speaker 2: so you're not in the best of health coming in.
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  Speaker 2: And then when you start eating crappy ass food, when
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  Speaker 2: you start getting fairly negligible medical care, your health is
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  Speaker 2: going to plummet. So you are going to spend the
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  Speaker 2: rest of your life in prison, broken down, beat down,
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  Speaker 2: a victim to circumstance, a victim to young people's anger,
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  Speaker 2: you know, bruh. And I cannot paint a bad enough
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  Speaker 2: picture for you, mane all I can do, Bro's just beggar.
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  Speaker 2: You just ask you, in the name of Jesus food
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  Speaker 2: that don't go down this road. Do not go down
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  Speaker 2: this road. And I know it seems like you've lost everything,
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  Speaker 2: but I can think of hundreds of stories, man, just
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  Speaker 2: like yours, where somebody lost everything or it seemed like it,
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  Speaker 2: but they didn't give up. They didn't quit. They didn't
• 24:32
  Speaker 2: take the easy route, they didn't take the short cut
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  Speaker 2: the God on their knees. They reached out to God
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  Speaker 2: and they got some help. Even some stories where they
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  Speaker 2: didn't go to God, but they didn't quit. They didn't
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  Speaker 2: give up. They went out there, and they also they
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  Speaker 2: made something happen. They bro go wash them days and
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  Speaker 2: Navy Seal videos where they're talking about improvised adapts. Overcome
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  Speaker 2: and reach out to every other company that you know
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  Speaker 2: that does the same thing you've been doing, and turn
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  Speaker 2: in a resume, turn in a job application. Man, show
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  Speaker 2: up every single week asking them about that job, letting
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  Speaker 2: them know that you are ready to work. I would
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  Speaker 2: go home and shovel with my hands if it meant
• 25:47
  Speaker 2: I could be on the street with my wife. Don't
• 25:53
  Speaker 2: think about the problem. Start working solution because it's out there.
• 26:01
  Speaker 2: You have to simply get your mind off of the problem.
• 26:05
  Speaker 2: You already know the problem. You don't need to think
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: about the problem no more. The problem is obvious. You
• 26:10
  Speaker 2: lost your job. Okay, we know that, we got that
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  Speaker 2: all right. Now. What can we do? Simple get a
• 26:23
  Speaker 2: damn job driving a truck if that's what it takes.
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  Speaker 2: Truck drivers are scarce in this country. Go get your
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: CDLs real fast, you know, Go work at Burger King,
• 26:37
  Speaker 2: Go work at a restaurant. Man, Go get a job. Yet,
• 26:42
  Speaker 2: you might drop down to twenty five thirty thousand a year,
• 26:46
  Speaker 2: whatever the case may be, probably going to pay the
• 26:49
  Speaker 2: damn bills. Get to keep you with your wife, it
• 26:53
  Speaker 2: to keep you with your family. Man, Start a podcast,
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  Speaker 2: tell stories about your juven nowadays. Hell, bro, I'll even
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  Speaker 2: let you record an episode, send it to my guy.
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  Speaker 2: He'll edits it, clean it up, whatnot, and we'll put
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  Speaker 2: it on my podcast so people can hear your story
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  Speaker 2: and then hopefully my listeners, which if I'm not mistaken,
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  Speaker 2: somewhere between ten and eleven thousand, you know, hopefully they'll
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  Speaker 2: take my advice and now go listen to your podcast.
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  Speaker 2: You know it's something. It's man, there's things that you
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: can do. There's stuff that you can do money that
• 27:43
  Speaker 2: does not involve you breaking the law. One. You turned
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  Speaker 2: your back on that life money, and you turn your
• 27:52
  Speaker 2: back on that life for a reason. Bruh. You and
• 27:59
  Speaker 2: I both go. It wasn't because of your life, And
• 28:03
  Speaker 2: it wasn't because of those children, no matter how amazing,
• 28:06
  Speaker 2: no matter how wonderful they were. Yeah they were the catalyst.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah they are what caused you to take that step.
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: But you took that step and you made it last
• 28:17
  Speaker 2: for so long because you knew that you that wasn't
• 28:23
  Speaker 2: what you were supposed to be doing. It wasn't. You
• 28:27
  Speaker 2: shouldn't have been doing that in the first place, and
• 28:29
  Speaker 2: you know that, so you walked away from.
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  Speaker 5: It because you are inside.
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  Speaker 2: It's not a criminal, you never were. You just got
• 28:47
  Speaker 2: caught up as because of where you was born and
• 28:52
  Speaker 2: the homes and the placements and the families you was
• 28:55
  Speaker 2: put in. I get it bro same thing right here right.
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  Speaker 2: I had to live and beat out of me, and
• 29:05
  Speaker 2: so I became a rabbit dog, I became an animal.
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  Speaker 2: I was less than human when I was on insurance
• 29:12
  Speaker 2: back when I was young. I'm five foot nine and
• 29:21
  Speaker 2: a half one hundred and fifty some pounds, but back
• 29:25
  Speaker 2: then I was one hundred and forty some pounds. In
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  Speaker 2: the Virginia Department of Corrections classified me, locked me up
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  Speaker 2: out of population, back into the hole for seven years,
• 29:39
  Speaker 2: without a charge, no investigation, nothing. They just said that
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  Speaker 2: a little son of the bish right there is one
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  Speaker 2: of the most violent, most dangerous inmates.
• 29:47
  Speaker 5: We have.
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  Speaker 2: Put his ass back in solitary confinement and let him
• 29:53
  Speaker 2: die back there. If it wasn't for God, and it
• 29:57
  Speaker 2: wasn't for that documentary, I'd still be sitting in the
• 30:00
  Speaker 2: hole that read on your state prison. I was made
• 30:13
  Speaker 2: into that person. I was turned into that animal through
• 30:18
  Speaker 2: circumstances outside of my control. Now I'll tell your responsibility
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  Speaker 2: for my actwers. I blame no one. Sometimes in life
• 30:28
  Speaker 2: happens well, but you got your together. You fought to
• 30:40
  Speaker 2: get out that life. You walked away from that life man,
• 30:42
  Speaker 2: and you did it better than most. How many guys
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  Speaker 2: do you know that we're in our lives that grew
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  Speaker 2: up the way we grew up, that had to go
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  Speaker 2: and built to the family, made it to a job
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  Speaker 2: where you was making one hundred thousand a year, or
• 31:15
  Speaker 2: you used to be proud of yourself because I am
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  Speaker 2: Did you get something that is one of the hardest
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  Speaker 2: things for someone on our side of the fence to do.
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  Speaker 2: You stopped being a statistic that alone should qualify you
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  Speaker 2: for sainthood. Or don't give up man, believe in yourself
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