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Sober Talk SA - MotorHome Phill · Sober Talk SA

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  Holy High feather and grateful beside of 01.
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  Will insult. Last row it?
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  Yeah, well, it was like it was just a few Hills of me and I
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  don't ever get that tools and I can't and I'm No, I got one
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  ever. Thought I'd be under around
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  Alcoholics Anonymous for 11 years of killing 1989 and I by
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  telling to a up a lot synonymous and I was so.
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  But were three months and I'll pick up a drink and not
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  specially mother's house at like fights and I want Apple do need
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  their around. They're away at the Dawn.
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  And I and I had a certain, you sobriety.
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  And none of that had Ruby. Well, I'll serve in you at that
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  stage on you. I had a propyl when the booze
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  And, but I'll swap the which for the bit of slop for other stuff
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  that I never really thought. Then I just have why I say that
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  is because at the end of the week, 11 News.
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  Well I went back out there after that, seven years to three years
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  and then I came back after I've got a week off, 12 months, I was
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  emotional and I was never cried at made me for lunch growing a
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  break. I was very sick.
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  Loser known. And although I think was a week
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  off now down to give me a 12 month with Ellie, I give you it
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  will and on I went and knocked on this Moonstone.
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  She was a heroin addict being here in jail for eight years to
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  run properly and and their own soul, we're away been.
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  You know, I've had more, do I say it's just I swap the beach
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  to the bit when I put the alcohol down, I could hadn't
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  have shot him in the head. by that I mean that solve one if it
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  wasn't drugs or sex or lose or suffer you know it around and on
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  the shepherd's of June 2000 all sitting in in the data to think
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  that from you see us in front of this here though that we were
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  evicted Brock feature blocked him, call his land and iron.
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  I just thought my father told me he hated me or couldn't see my
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  knowledge because course is that what that will load mean problem
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  with our I had to be violent and I'm assisting what much nothing
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  to do with our at all over me. I was sick of me.
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  And I'm I detest the while I lived in drink then of cause
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  problems and the mother yet the Wayside an equal.
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  He says he's doing great. She said you're trying to when
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  you drink you excite you tired, you would person, right?
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  But the giant you bring problem time to the house and we go to
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  weddings or parties and they're thin.
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  Sweet will have to go up a feeling, you've got it, you've
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  got a site from and he got to get Barnegat.
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  Well, it's crying. And I didn't want to do that.
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  I didn't want to be loved. If that Chris after the events
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  had from work that I think the next day or whatever it was or
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  that side enough. And I thought, what was that
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  little dude, I don't want to do that.
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  What do you want to do that and caused that problem or and I
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  could never understand it. They'll come never understand.
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  But I always to use 27 years of drinking, I told the control be
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  drinking, I tried hallway so I tried to change we've moved.
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  Like I did not bring a child to change turned it.
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  Sydney's not great being out of wine.
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  You know, it, man. Yeah.
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  What poured whiskey and all there anything I could draw it
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  everything. But nothing would, you know?
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  And I thought it'd stay stopped for being of die because when I
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  got the trouble out a little drink to, so I only saw it to
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  say the all out, I'll hold National Anthem with water by
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  Dwight was made 14 years and I did it to me mother.
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  I swear I promise I won't drink again laughs.
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  Well you know, I meant it too. I really met. and I don't know,
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  next minute, the right and sticking up at her and ran and
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  the only front the chaos hits the fan again, you know, And you
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  could not understand. I thought I was late because my
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  my ex-wife she said to me, probably she left.
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  She said you needed to see a psychiatrist.
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  She said there's something wrong with you.
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  You're mad and I thought she's right.
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  I wouldn't blame the girl of the alcohol.
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  Well I thought something was wrong up.
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  He suffers a mystery that far to break his early like we mother
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  drink and I thought I had that something wrong and syndrome at
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  that alcohol's in prancing bill. I thought that's why they had
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  something wrong, we brine, but until she left me, she would
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  that do kids and then I had to fight record.
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  Then I've got corn in the filed off the kids back through court
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  and then I got caught in the hotel begin set out.
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  Why wouldn't that a drink or go for a street in that with wide
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  grow up in tires? And in back of parts of these
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  Gardens and they're not sitting in cars, waiting for his parents
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  to come out of that eye? To Leonard 12:00 noon before
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  sweet potato cooked. It was in the counting.
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  You know, and that's just thought I thought was normal,
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  but it wasn't know what? The kids state are off.
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  Big L. Couldn't see him again.
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  And now, yeah, I thought through all of them and they are, like I
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  said, I got back to the sentence of June 2000, the father, Tony
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  homework, consumer mother, and me, took me sisters in one.
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  Nothing to do with it. No one is seeing the kids at
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  that tight because sighs I was very sick again and on like
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  this, I'll solo my just what I wanted along the life back, I
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  want to get better light and I want to be seemly been ordered
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  to do anything in my power. And I like because I meant till
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  II for 11 years but I didn't on that.
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  I didn't do the book but I swiped it, we sell Clavin
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  pretend I was doing brother ink. I was bluffing all the old bleep
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  woman. The you know, he's taking your
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  wife's their mettle of me winner and and thank you know and it is
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  just starting with will you don't have to drink the first
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  thing? It does the damage you know and
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  I thought what that's the tech I've eaten per video, I couldn't
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  understand it. But I guess I was sick.
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  I was mad at night. I didn't know not what my admin,
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  right? Always offer on it so much.
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  You know, how it's a launch, you know, it's true.
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  That process the coming back in the seventh of Europe 2000s.
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  Well, I threw myself in there, you know, I knew I would let
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  people in later, Hooper, really? I couldn't communicate.
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  I didn't know. We're going, nice things, but I
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  started to force me to Yellow. And as the weeks and months and
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  years went by, I slowly was challenging for some reason, and
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  I was doing a suggested thing. They're only suggestion Taylor,
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  but there's a few must be of. Now, I must do if you followed
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  say it income, you know, if Arthur what this other part
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  they've got nothing on this Earth.
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  More core of. Yeah, what?
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  Walk like legs. They are here and also aside you
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  but want to want to want Lady things needed, you stick the
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  table. And you know, nice like about
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  the always in the position of the bone and and it's of known
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  little grave and all ages but really in light of the island
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  and I thought that's my problem with alcohol.
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  I could make a suit before the 27th.
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  I couldn't say it was alkyl one now does that sound like such as
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  much as very insane? We go in sign.
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  Then we going last time he stopped should be clicked on.
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  And around. Yeah I decide to put in me life
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  at night that and let people lie.
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  I thought I had a couple people. Well a lot of people helped me
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  actually by cuz I Heard a Voice say one at it to listen is a
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  spiritual. You're not because I used to
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  wonder what we're taught it in but I can then wake of people
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  think he's like a dive be ready to got all the engine you know
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  and I'd stuffed or but I'll cut up aisle four.
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  Now, I don't really bad down, still.
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  I still could do it today. Long.
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  I still take their ear and month, fake talked about that it
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  can wait sit and study civil hiring up costs are not, but
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  it's Rob better than is that he drink that we don't you're not
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  done so much in sobral. I It's actually in a salon and
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  he made any New South Wales in this little weed.
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  When I used to go to, he's down at said, I had a woman of
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  someone kind of it was on a bill.
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  They do, you know, if I had to find out that they had a woman
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  with the fault of the soil always on, and it says that set
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  up at the top in the corner and said, I need to live and the way
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  you wand all these It's not like Warner and I thought I'd never
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  live the way over. We would be violent to be happy,
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  but it will love him Carrie. What I've never died in that
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  lat. Go destroyed.
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  My mental capacity at this Dawn. It wasn't so much an eye out.
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  Yeah, all whole time. I saw mill well times and want
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  to start in our boats are among us to help me.
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  Well they're still real early but I recognized the hides World
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  War II. The word me.
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  What about living and caring compassion?
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  When Serenity, I never heard these words in a pop was sitting
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  out the bush last um drink of wine.
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  We won't kill it, right. Huntail.
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  I did what the word of God. I wrestle with that.
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  I dissector that all these book Detroit and I'll buy it was help
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  me said look your brother that both gave her that.
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  Take a big book, taken problems all and he had anything against
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  dictionary or with it. Just let me label that dowel
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  angst, idiot. Yeah, the label.
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  There are you. We must grow or will be if we
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  stayed night will die. Mmm side, girl.
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  We said nothing for a reason lost it.
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  That's why they numbered. You said, you don't want to be
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  for the oven, you're only unit and good decent straw.
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  It, you are not fast and not slut.
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  I think sometimes we could do this Stitch two quick, great
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  guy, Werdum say Bill used to get them up and get them on their
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  knees straight away and do the surge that and then, you know,
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  and goes for. But I think we can do in the
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  12th, ditched me in clicks on diets, the SoundClick wait out
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  and got the capacity at that. Because so I thought I told me
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  once, you said, you said, we could physically well quickly
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  said where you are used to say, don't get overtime over to
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  First, you do the hand. We were able to It had
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  spiritually, Littles, the night, your veggies, and and Hebrew,
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  canned fish a different, you know, get the fruit India.
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  But they used to say, we get this equally well Willie quick,
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  but the mental and emotional pursuing sophistical for could
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  be long, time, like till we get grilling mentally, well, mostly
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  mentally. And there are no lights honey.
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  I'm doing these things because I knew I was blending mad and the
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  more environments are telling me there are my type.
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  If that, you know, it's weird, isn't it?
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  Well, yeah, it tells us what we can.
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  They have been out of it that got us really bothered when I
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  thought. Yeah, that's it.
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  Does vary. How I didn't hear?
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  No muscle memories though. Even I've got it and I'll
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  counter. It doesn't know what you know,
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  total accident. Because I hadn't waited Neal
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  lights, newly 23-year 22 years at it.
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  Well between the show you Jared, but that doesn't go boy.
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  You we don't do yardsticks or music sore but I can see from
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  where I've come. How that works.
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  You know, I could only that them yourself Renault intro and tell
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  other people and get away with it work but it's a very good
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  wife, you know? I know that blood the slide a on
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  and Do the things, you know, in a good stride, not rushed and
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  tear and anxiety and worry. That's how I used to be an old
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  sorority. Huh now try not to rush the
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  running because it but it's raised their mind mentally but I
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  don't like it and then Anyway, we had a bit of a rush around
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  the night when on that. That's, we had these some to,
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  Yo, and we won the way that six but we didn't, we can delay for
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  life are sick. We all wanted on the line
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  distant cheers and in our Wetland addition, chip to win
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  that fight missed it. But yes.
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  And you know, they've seen, as we do know about yourself, you
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  know, and it's silly where we go away.
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  I'll admit on Rainbow, I'll never listen to a Father, John
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  Donne taste at tight for all those to me.
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  All right, type still Gordon but and Father, John the dial and he
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  used to talk about When you going, you wet, always give the
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  Shelf a half and then we'll get ready a half, and they're really
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  need ready. You can go to drive a nail
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  again, you felt about a half an hour.
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  You're not say it is only know what he meant nearly as he takes
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  that anxiety away. Right?
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  Dear Lottery. Yeah.
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  And it's a good life because some, they can see were real.
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  I've never sat pneumonectomy Drinkin in the loan limit at the
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  sill. My mind, empty and feel real
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  good. That's what this program does
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  for that. Nobody steals a good son towards
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  of side. Great for dancing.
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  I think sometimes are not great for running off.
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  You know, butt workout. Really got it from this program.
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  well, not on, but I told her I hope we brought or dividing do
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  the right thing died of labels and on Yeah, my family knows the
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  benefits of new and my veins flavor.
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  I know that I'm in Rio. Lisa broader needs.
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  We sister, she was up coins. Lance used to say thoughts.
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  It's he didn't know down, I didn't tell him I was down
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  there. I put it here on and on she
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  said, Dora what you would do on which dictate doing what you're
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  doing because she's nice chart, I could tell seen the new all
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  watch are few signs and I said, yeah, I know.
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  And then after about a several months later, I told her I said,
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  I'll go into a whole turned on. She's in done.
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  Still, we did you, but you've been a person though?
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  I didn't say it. I said, it's not.
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  My I said, this is the 12 steps and well thoughts ruined, my
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  sleep. And I had my like, they are, you
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  know, that I can't really walk 30 more in touch.
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  If you can understand me, I'm not religious.
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  I had a fight with a religion, when authors come in line with
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  God, and I read a billionaire. Bill Tom, you said we Don't
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  demand of releasing Vault, that's on his suggestion and
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  I'll go see, he wasn't saying, boo diary, it is your right at
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  athlete. See there's a lot of them
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  border. Now we can all sit in this room
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  and get along and thick Allied get on optic nature.
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  Now we'll just sing them to die about nights at like that big
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  thing there. One towards Earth that big 250
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  foot long, buddy. What's up?
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  Look that's bad. You know, that's powerful stuff
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  up there. Anyone in the planets and the
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  stars and, and all the animals of trees and you get out the
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  book includes that the police and that.
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  Yeah. That that's something about that
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  on its own. You know, when you sit on your
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  hand and just be happy and she was television.
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  Email is erotic Elliot, did he afterwards?
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  We'll go somewhere. Quiet and just don't think,
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  don't think about yes. I know need about tomorrow.
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  Don't think about your view, although I think about talk to
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  rebuild, Nothing about nothing practice, the clear your mind,
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  but everything will be okay. And that's the truth, too.
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  More worried about the more Ike screw me, buddy.
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  Head up the look pain. I had rented.
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  My, I just, I just love. I am a lot of the people, you
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  know how it saurons, it is so beautiful with, you know.
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  Alton be stored in s Santa and I don't do that.
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  What a beautiful partner of the old, all of that beautiful
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  picture that Topo 1 slope of the 35, we lost it.
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  My son and I will do what I want, I talk to, but of who used
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  to be cooked on that if God's will, he'll brings together
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  here, not available detach with love with it.
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  Do what I want on your not They are we just don't get on a
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  rowboat. Rob Knight of men.
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  So can't do any accounting diagonally.
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  So full power on. WE greater than yeah, many white
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  while he goes 52. Much in around.
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  I just click on that was that heaver it frightened correct.
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  Thanks Bill. The door like I'm the only one
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  here and read effect with all these