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Embrace Your Darkest Moments: A Journey to Motivation · D-constructing Topics

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  What's going on everybody and welcome to the Deconstructing Topic Podcast.
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  My name is David and I'm your host of this legendary podcast.
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  Ooh, ooh, we're making it happen. We got a good motivational podcast. Let's go.
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  Woo! A little bit psych and hype and all that in between. And welcome to my podcast.
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  I appreciate you, the Deconstructing Topic Podcast family.
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  I appreciate you. We got a couple of numbers coming up. We got a little bit
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  of everything coming up and a little bit of numbers.
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  Audience is going little by little. I appreciate that. I appreciate you.
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  For a matter of fact, always hit the like, hit the share button,
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  comment, all that go on all your socials.
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  Whatever socials that you use, if you want to go to Mars too,
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  maybe there's people in Mars. Maybe there's something going on there. I don't know.
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  But you know what? Let them know. They can show up the top of the podcast.
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  Let's go. So we got a little motivational thing going on because I did say in
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  the beginning of the year that, you know, this this is that year.
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  This is my 20th anniversary of my 20th year where I'm remembering 20 years ago
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  prior to my car accident, which was late September.
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  So we doing a little podcast.
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  I'm going to do my thing where I'm trying to take you and I'm going to grab your hand.
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  I'm going to take you there so we could be in that situation.
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  Because a lot of times, and the reason why I did a podcast where it says,
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  you know what, let's this be
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  the year that we embrace in a little bit of darkness, our darkest moment.
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  You know, we've been there. We had a year, either two years.
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  We had a month. We had a week. We had a day. You know, we go through life where
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  we had days and you'd be like.
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  The hell is going on here you know what
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  i mean you know we got we got those days we got
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  those months we got those years we got those weeks whatever seconds
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  minutes takes all that and
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  this year as i'm celebrating my 20th anniversary
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  once again of my car accident i'm trying to
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  remember it i'm remembering as i
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  started the year we're already in january
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  we're already in i'm sorry we're in february january just
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  passed time is flying like whoo you
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  know what there's a lot of stuff that we could uh talk about
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  here one of the things that i realized when i
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  was entering 20 years ago in 2000
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  and whatever the case might be 20 2005
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  you know i was in a situation where i
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  find myself in balance and i always say
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  that in life sometimes we need a little bit less balance yes
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  we do need chaos we knew the good things
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  we knew you know the bad things were always going
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  to happen but we need balance and sometimes
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  in life depending on you know your spiritual physically emotionally
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  whatever it is that you're going through sometimes
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  we kind of feel like we are a little bit in balance and
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  even I in balance is in balance right because sometimes
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  we need that balance where physically emotionally
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  something has to be holding on to
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  that thread holding on to us so that.
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  We could be a better person and me entering uh
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  2005 coming in the year as i
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  recall a young a young immature i'm
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  not gonna say mature but just they ain't know a lot of stuff because
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  that's what life is even though i didn't know a lot of stuff but sometimes you
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  know experience do tell a lot of things and sometimes people won't even with
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  time sometimes people will just don't get it and at that time i understood like yo come on d.
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  Get your stuff together let's make it happen but what happened was is that entering 2005,
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  had that imbalance i knew
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  what i wanted to do in life in terms of my professional career
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  and all that but i just didn't
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  understand i just didn't drafts on what's
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  going on with life at that moment because you see
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  you know life when it comes to life you know
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  it's always that moment you always want to
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  understand what's going on on that situation on that day
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  that second and i'm one of a believer that hey listen in life we all live the
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  past the present and the future it's all combined into something like a little
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  bow of whatever it is that you want to call it universe,
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  life whatever so what affects you
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  in the past is what affect you presently and
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  what's going to affect you on the next day and that's
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  where i found myself 20 years ago where
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  i'm like okay i made some bad decisions
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  or i might have not made no decisions at all right because sometimes in life
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  it's damn it if you do damn it if you don't we don't know what's the right decision
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  until the aftermath of whatever decision we make but sometimes we make good decisions.
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  Sometimes we don't make decisions. We let it be.
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  And sometimes we make bad decisions. But we just make decisions.
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  And me coming up to 2005, there was just so much going on spiritually, emotionally.
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  My mind, heart, and soul would be. We were not in the same page anymore.
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  Somewhere in my heart was somewhere over there.
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  My mind, I don't know. I mean, you know, hey, what's going on?
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  Where were you at? You know, come over here. My soul.
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  How many times that we come to a situation or something happened and we tend
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  to kind of question ourselves.
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  I know those who have faith in God and, you know, they'd be like,
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  hey, God, I guess you're testing me, you know, testing my strength.
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  But that's why I made this podcast so we could all kind of listen to each other,
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  learn from each other, and do something.
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  Because I remember in 2005, and one of the things that I started picking up,
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  and we all got our vices, we all picked up something.
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  We all pick up some type of substance abuse, some bad habit.
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  Now, I'm not one to say I picked up substance abuse in terms of drugs or anything
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  like that, but I used to do whatever the job that I was doing back then.
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  I used to get off the train.
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  I used to get off whatever, 8 o'clock. By the time I'm home, it's almost 10.
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  I used to pass by that liquor store. Let me get that little pint of Bacardi
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  or half a pint of Bacardi.
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  You know, we've been there. and a lot of
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  times you know i know people that even if they don't
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  drink they don't smoke they don't do drugs whatever it
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  is they picked up a certain habit because that's their escape and for me that
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  was my little escape and as a young being you kind of like okay you know i'm
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  good you know wake up the next day do the same routine do whatever i gotta do go to work,
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  but at that time I'm this young being that just thinking
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  about what is more to life why
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  am I observing all this knowledge for for what for what purpose you know what
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  I mean for what reason and again we've been there as human beings and you're
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  listening to me I love yous I love for the people that are listening to me right
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  now and they'll be like yo what happened to me where,
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  I was entering a moment in my life that I didn't know what to do, but yet I knew what to do.
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  You know, that type of kind of feeling, that type of vibe and going,
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  you know, like I'm seeing to myself, damn, there's something going on.
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  And I used to go to sleep and this way I used to go to sleep,
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  like kind of like I used to, how can I say?
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  I was, I was in a situation and I used to kind of go to sleep and imagine and
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  close my eyes that I was in this hospital bed.
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  It's dark and I'm saying to myself, help, help, help.
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  See, a lot of people over here, they, and my people, and my beautiful people,
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  sometimes we don't know how to seek for help.
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  Sometimes for us seeking help, again, it's going to our vices.
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  I know a couple of people that do that shopping thing, but they don't do shopping
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  because they, you know, I love shopping.
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  They do shopping because that's their escape.
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  You know, something comes up, oh, man, I can't believe that I spend this much
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  on this whatever watch or whatever it is.
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  And we all got our vices we all fall into this trap and for me 20 years ago
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  I was falling into a trap and I knew I was falling into a trap and I'm saying
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  to myself okay it's it's the winter time you know when the spring comes when
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  the summer come I'm gonna bully I'm gonna do something,
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  where I was working at you know small business whatever one of those mom and
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  pop chops whatever you want to call a small business, they say small business, right?
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  And we're doing our thing, and a lot of people's like, yeah,
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  you know, Dave, you're a smart dude, and, you know, I enjoy talking to you.
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  You know, back then, I think podcasts, I think have been created,
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  but it was only a couple of people out there.
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  It's not like now. You just could plug a microphone and put it on your phone,
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  put it on your computer, put it in the air, put it in the cloud,
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  and you could talk all day, woo, like me. Hey, let's go.
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  The crazy thing is that that was going on back then.
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  I'm like, yo, you know, where am I going out with life? People are telling me,
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  damn, that David, you're smart, too. Wow.
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  David this, David that, you know. But I would just slowly, slowly,
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  but just eat myself up like, what?
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  You know, just do the gaming thing, do the drinking thing, do whatever the thing.
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  But I was not doing my thing. And once again, how many times have we been in
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  those situations? We become complacent.
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  That's a crazy word right there.
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  We start to procrastinate. As we learn that procrastination has a lot to do
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  with your mental health, your mental being where you at.
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  If you're procrastinating, basically, you're not doing anything.
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  You're going to basically be like this Yeah, you know, I'll do this next day Well,
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  the next day Next time I'm over You know, there's always an excuse You know,
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  one of the craziest words,
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  That we have That we tend to kind of talk more Than I love Is next N-E-X-N-E-X-T,
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  Yeah, there's no plug-in for the wrestling fans out there that are listening to NXT.
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  NXT, no. Because it's always next.
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  Next day, next time, next this, next that, next second, next, next, next, next, next.
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  We always leaving it to the next. We ain't doing it for the now.
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  And that's what happened to me 20 years ago.
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  I knew that connection with NXT is like, all right, we're going to do it next. Let's go.
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  But on that darkest moment in my life that's why
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  this year more than ever it's like you know whatever i do this
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  year we gotta make it happen sometimes we gotta
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  grab times where we gonna something happen that kind of change the way we think
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  the way we act the way we do this the way we act the way we talk you know what
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  i mean and my thing is like yo hold on hold on hold on travel.
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  How's we is in the next day? How we is in the next future? How we is in the next second?
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  And I'm saying to myself, wow, what happened?
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  I say this because sometimes, a lot of times, that's what happens to us in life. We humans.
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  We just kind of like, you know, we become reactionaries.
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  We only react to things when something happens. But that's on us.
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  Oh, man, I can't believe that happened. Then I should have done this. I should have done that.
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  And that's where my mindset was at in 2025. It's like I was not enjoying the moment.
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  I was thinking about the future. but then
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  my past was like yo I should have done this I should have done that
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  why did I do this you know bad decisions
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  and I'm living life at the moment at that
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  time even two or three years prior to 2025 you know I'm enjoying the moment
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  but what's the point I was telling a beautiful sister in arms of mine and we
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  was talking we having a nice conversation and we was like you know we We were
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  talking about the things that we enjoy,
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  and this person enjoys this and that.
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  And sometimes, you know, we kind of like, you know, we have similar kind of,
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  how can I say, situation where we help out.
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  We help the family and all that. We do all that good stuff.
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  But then I say, yo, what's the point of enjoying something when an emergency,
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  when something happens in a family?
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  They don't take a break. It's like, hey, I need help.
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  You know what i mean meaning that sometimes
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  in decision and sometimes in life uh we
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  make those decisions and we always got to pay the price for something and
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  back in that darkest moment i was like okay where am i paying the price for
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  and i knew that i was going to pay the price but i always felt deep in my heart
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  there's something out there and i said to myself sometimes greatness will come.
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  Sometimes good things will come.
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  I just embraced that dark. And when I was embracing that darkest moment 20 years
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  ago, well, I got done saying, help, help.
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  What I knew deep inside my heart, deep inside my soul, that I will make it happen.
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  And I'm going to do something to help people.
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  And that's what I've been dedicating my life. Feeding the needs.
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  Feeding kids who's out there that are not in a situation.
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  Helping families, helping migrants, the black community, the Puerto Rican community,
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  Dominican community, que la vaina loco, you know what I mean?
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  All the time, and I've been doing that, and that's why I created this podcast.
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  Because little by little, as I'm doing this thing and I'm challenging myself
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  to make legendary things, I said to myself this year, there's that one thing.
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  There's a cloud that's still hanging over my head.
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  There's a couple of people I want to talk to, a couple of people I love.
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  But, dang, I was there for you where you at.
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  I was there for you when you needed the most in your darkest time.
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  And all I'm saying, where you at?
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  And that's my thing over here in this year. embrace that
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  darkest time that sometimes we're gonna
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  forget certain things we're
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  gonna forget damn i remember this whatever you
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  feel down and whatever you feel like out of
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  it just remember your darkest time
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  and where was you at because trust me in your darkest moment your body was the
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  best and that's the message on this podcast we're making it happen let's go
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  feel free to like share hit me up let's make it happen this is deconstructing topic podcast.
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  Oh we got a lot of talk about much love out there sending that love always remember
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  that darkest time in your life it's what's gonna make you legendary i'm out of here peace.