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She Started Using Drugs At 12 To Hide Who She Was — And Built A Church For Everyone Like Her | Astrology Ride of the Day · I Am Astrology Readings Podcast with Paul Heath

• 0:08
  Was
• 0:09
  you
• 0:09
  always
• 0:11
  attracted
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  to.
• 0:13
  Well,
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  when
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  I
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  was
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  12
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  years
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  old,
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  I.
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  My.
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  My
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  best
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  friend
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  and
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  I
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  got
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  caught
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  being,
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  you
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  know,
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  girls
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  together
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  and
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  playing
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  doctor.
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  And
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  that's.
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  Yeah,
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  that's
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  when
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  I
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  started
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  using
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  drugs.
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  That's
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  when
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  I
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  started
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  using
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  drugs.
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  Because
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  of
• 0:32
  that,
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  I
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  was.
• 0:32
  I
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  was.
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  They.
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  They
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  didn't
• 0:34
  allow
• 0:34
  me
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  to
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  see
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  her
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  anymore,
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  and
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  I.
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  And
• 0:36
  then
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  I
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  just,
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  you
• 0:37
  know,
• 0:37
  started
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  using
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  drugs.
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  Do
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  you
• 0:39
  think
• 0:39
  that
• 0:40
  some
• 0:40
  of
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  the
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  drug
• 0:41
  use
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  had
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  to
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  do
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  with
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  trying
• 0:43
  to.
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  Because
• 0:44
  you
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  in
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  Mississippi
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  and
• 0:45
  all
• 0:45
  that?
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  Absolutely,
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  absolutely,
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  yes,
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  100%.
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  Could
• 0:50
  it
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  have
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  been
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  to
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  mask,
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  in
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  a
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  way?
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  Yes,
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  yes,
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  100%,
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  because
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  I
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  was
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  living
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  a
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  life
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  that
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  did.
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  That
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  went
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  against
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  who
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  I
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  really
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  was,
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  and
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  I
• 0:58
  was
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  unable
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  to
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  live
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  in
• 0:59
  my
• 0:59
  authentic
• 1:00
  truth.
• 1:00
  So.
• 1:00
  Yes,
• 1:01
  absolutely.
• 1:02
  So
• 1:02
  let
• 1:03
  me
• 1:03
  ask
• 1:03
  you
• 1:03
  this.
• 1:04
  So
• 1:07
  did
• 1:07
  you
• 1:07
  kind
• 1:08
  of
• 1:08
  hesitate
• 1:11
  when.
• 1:11
  When
• 1:11
  the.
• 1:12
  In
• 1:12
  a
• 1:12
  way,
• 1:13
  the
• 1:13
  pastor
• 1:14
  asking
• 1:14
  you
• 1:15
  to
• 1:18
  handle
• 1:19
  that
• 1:19
  crowd,
• 1:21
  which
• 1:21
  is,
• 1:22
  in
• 1:22
  a
• 1:22
  way,
• 1:24
  him
• 1:24
  asking
• 1:25
  you
• 1:25
  to
• 1:25
  embrace
• 1:26
  your
• 1:26
  authentic
• 1:27
  self?
• 1:28
  Yes.
• 1:28
  Put.
• 1:29
  Put
• 1:29
  you
• 1:29
  right
• 1:30
  in.
• 1:30
  And
• 1:30
  it
• 1:30
  made
• 1:31
  you
• 1:31
  look
• 1:31
  yourself
• 1:32
  in
• 1:32
  the
• 1:32
  mirror.
• 1:32
  And
• 1:33
  all
• 1:33
  these
• 1:33
  people
• 1:33
  just
• 1:34
  coming
• 1:34
  in,
• 1:34
  coming
• 1:35
  in,
• 1:35
  coming
• 1:35
  in,
• 1:35
  talking
• 1:36
  to
• 1:36
  you,
• 1:36
  and
• 1:36
  you
• 1:36
  just
• 1:37
  sitting
• 1:37
  there
• 1:37
  like,
• 1:37
  wait
• 1:38
  a
• 1:38
  minute.
• 1:39
  Yes.
• 1:40
  Yes.
• 1:41
  And
• 1:41
  that's.
• 1:42
  That
• 1:42
  was.
• 1:42
  That
• 1:42
  was
• 1:43
  2011.
• 1:44
  All
• 1:45
  right.
• 1:45
  And
• 1:46
  2012,
• 1:47
  I
• 1:47
  walked
• 1:48
  away
• 1:48
  from
• 1:48
  the
• 1:48
  church
• 1:50
  and
• 1:50
  my
• 1:51
  ministry
• 1:51
  and
• 1:51
  everything,
• 1:52
  and
• 1:52
  they
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  crucify
• 1:56
  me.
• 1:56
  It
• 1:57
  was.
• 1:57
  Who
• 1:58
  say
• 1:59
  they.
• 1:59
  Who
• 1:59
  are
• 1:59
  they?
• 2:01
  Church.
• 2:01
  My.
• 2:02
  All
• 2:02
  the
• 2:02
  people
• 2:03
  in
• 2:03
  my
• 2:03
  ministry,
• 2:03
  my.
• 2:04
  My
• 2:04
  friends
• 2:05
  who
• 2:05
  I
• 2:05
  considered
• 2:06
  my
• 2:06
  friends.
• 2:06
  My.
• 2:06
  They
• 2:07
  crucified.
• 2:08
  They
• 2:08
  started
• 2:09
  just.
• 2:09
  They
• 2:09
  called
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  my.
• 2:11
  They
• 2:11
  called
• 2:12
  all
• 2:13
  the
• 2:13
  people
• 2:14
  that
• 2:14
  I
• 2:15
  was
• 2:15
  working
• 2:15
  with.
• 2:16
  I
• 2:16
  had
• 2:16
  a
• 2:16
  network
• 2:17
  across
• 2:17
  the
• 2:17
  state
• 2:17
  with
• 2:18
  judges,
• 2:18
  with
• 2:19
  probation
• 2:19
  officers,
• 2:20
  parole
• 2:20
  officers,
• 2:22
  all
• 2:22
  sorts.
• 2:22
  And
• 2:23
  they
• 2:23
  called
• 2:23
  all
• 2:23
  of
• 2:24
  them
• 2:24
  and
• 2:24
  told
• 2:25
  them
• 2:25
  that
• 2:25
  I
• 2:26
  relapsed
• 2:28
  and
• 2:28
  left
• 2:28
  my
• 2:29
  husband
• 2:29
  for
• 2:29
  a
• 2:30
  woman.
• 2:31
  And
• 2:32
  they
• 2:32
  told
• 2:32
  me
• 2:32
  I'd
• 2:33
  lost.
• 2:33
  They
• 2:33
  told
• 2:33
  him.
• 2:33
  I,
• 2:34
  you
• 2:34
  know,
• 2:34
  and
• 2:34
  this
• 2:35
  was.
• 2:35
  Rumors
• 2:36
  started
• 2:36
  flying.
• 2:36
  They
• 2:36
  were
• 2:36
  typing.
• 2:37
  They
• 2:37
  were
• 2:37
  doing
• 2:37
  all
• 2:38
  this
• 2:38
  on
• 2:38
  social
• 2:38
  media.
• 2:39
  My
• 2:39
  pastor
• 2:39
  was
• 2:39
  preaching
• 2:40
  against
• 2:40
  me,
• 2:41
  using
• 2:41
  me
• 2:41
  in
• 2:42
  the
• 2:42
  pulpit.
• 2:43
  It
• 2:43
  was
• 2:44
  horrible.
• 2:45
  And
• 2:45
  all
• 2:45
  of
• 2:45
  my.
• 2:45
  And
• 2:46
  I'm
• 2:46
  having
• 2:46
  a
• 2:46
  whole
• 2:47
  identity
• 2:47
  crisis,
• 2:48
  and
• 2:48
  of
• 2:48
  course,
• 2:48
  I'm
• 2:49
  terrified
• 2:50
  because
• 2:50
  I've
• 2:50
  been
• 2:50
  taught
• 2:51
  that
• 2:51
  I'm
• 2:51
  going
• 2:51
  to
• 2:52
  hell
• 2:52
  over
• 2:52
  this.
• 2:53
  And
• 2:53
  so
• 2:54
  I.
• 2:54
  I
• 2:54
  literally
• 2:55
  had
• 2:55
  to
• 2:55
  go
• 2:55
  inside
• 2:56
  and
• 2:56
  deconstruct
• 3:00
  in
• 3:00
  order
• 3:00
  to
• 3:04
  live.
• 3:05
  Yeah.
• 3:06
  I
• 3:06
  had
• 3:07
  ptsd.
• 3:07
  I
• 3:07
  had
• 3:08
  nightmares.
• 3:08
  It
• 3:08
  was
• 3:09
  terrible.
• 3:09
  Yeah.
• 3:10
  And
• 3:11
  that
• 3:11
  was
• 3:11
  2012.
• 3:12
  And
• 3:13
  let
• 3:13
  me
• 3:13
  ask
• 3:13
  you
• 3:14
  this.
• 3:14
  Let
• 3:14
  me
• 3:15
  ask
• 3:15
  you
• 3:15
  this.
• 3:21
  Now
• 3:21
  that
• 3:21
  you.
• 3:23
  What
• 3:23
  did
• 3:23
  that.
• 3:25
  What
• 3:25
  do
• 3:25
  you
• 3:25
  think
• 3:25
  that
• 3:26
  situation
• 3:26
  showed
• 3:27
  you
• 3:27
  about
• 3:27
  people?
• 3:30
  That
• 3:30
  situation
• 3:33
  taught
• 3:34
  me?
• 3:35
  Or
• 3:35
  more
• 3:35
  like,
• 3:39
  what
• 3:39
  did
• 3:39
  that
• 3:39
  show
• 3:40
  you
• 3:40
  about
• 3:41
  people
• 3:42
  and
• 3:42
  beliefs?
• 3:44
  I'll
• 3:44
  show.
• 3:45
  I'll
• 3:45
  tell
• 3:45
  you
• 3:45
  what
• 3:45
  it
• 3:46
  showed
• 3:46
  me
• 3:46
  about
• 3:46
  beliefs.
• 3:47
  Are
• 3:47
  you
• 3:47
  ready
• 3:47
  for
• 3:47
  this?
• 3:47
  Let
• 3:48
  me
• 3:48
  grab
• 3:48
  something.
• 3:48
  I'm
• 3:49
  going
• 3:49
  to
• 3:49
  show
• 3:49
  you
• 3:49
  something.
• 3:50
  This
• 3:51
  is.
• 3:51
  Okay,
• 3:52
  you
• 3:52
  ready?
• 3:53
  All
• 3:54
  right.
• 3:55
  Fear
• 3:55
  and
• 3:56
  faith
• 3:56
  are
• 3:56
  the
• 3:56
  same
• 3:57
  thing.
• 3:58
  Fear
• 3:58
  and
• 3:59
  the
• 3:59
  belief.
• 3:59
  Yeah,
• 4:00
  and
• 4:00
  faith
• 4:00
  are
• 4:01
  the
• 4:01
  same
• 4:01
  thing.
• 4:01
  Fear
• 4:02
  and
• 4:02
  faith
• 4:02
  are
• 4:02
  the
• 4:02
  same
• 4:03
  thing.
• 4:03
  Here's
• 4:04
  the
• 4:04
  belief
• 4:05
  that
• 4:05
  something's
• 4:05
  going
• 4:06
  to
• 4:06
  harm
• 4:06
  you.
• 4:06
  And
• 4:07
  faith
• 4:07
  is
• 4:07
  the
• 4:07
  belief
• 4:08
  that
• 4:08
  something's
• 4:08
  going
• 4:08
  to
• 4:09
  help
• 4:09
  you.
• 4:10
  And
• 4:10
  I
• 4:10
  wrote
• 4:11
  that
• 4:11
  down
• 4:11
  one
• 4:11
  day
• 4:11
  because
• 4:11
  I
• 4:12
  was
• 4:12
  like,
• 4:12
  holy.
• 4:14
  That
• 4:14
  never
• 4:15
  dawned
• 4:15
  on
• 4:15
  me.
• 4:16
  And
• 4:16
  I
• 4:17
  wrote
• 4:17
  it
• 4:17
  down
• 4:17
  and
• 4:17
  I
• 4:18
  was
• 4:18
  looking
• 4:18
  at
• 4:18
  it
• 4:18
  and
• 4:18
  kind
• 4:19
  of
• 4:19
  meditating
• 4:19
  on
• 4:19
  it,
• 4:20
  and
• 4:20
  I
• 4:20
  noticed
• 4:20
  the
• 4:20
  word
• 4:21
  belief.
• 4:22
  It's
• 4:22
  giving
• 4:22
  me
• 4:23
  instructions.
• 4:24
  It's
• 4:24
  giving
• 4:24
  me
• 4:25
  instructions.
• 4:25
  This
• 4:25
  word
• 4:26
  is
• 4:26
  telling
• 4:26
  me
• 4:26
  to
• 4:26
  be
• 4:27
  leaf.
• 4:28
  L,
• 4:28
  I,
• 4:29
  E,
• 4:29
  F.
• 4:29
  Now
• 4:30
  I
• 4:30
  know
• 4:30
  how
• 4:30
  important
• 4:30
  words
• 4:31
  are.
• 4:31
  So
• 4:32
  I
• 4:32
  said,
• 4:34
  I
• 4:34
  need
• 4:34
  to
• 4:34
  know
• 4:34
  what
• 4:35
  leaf
• 4:35
  is.
• 4:35
  And
• 4:36
  I
• 4:36
  looked
• 4:36
  it
• 4:36
  up.
• 4:36
  L,
• 4:37
  I,
• 4:37
  E,
• 4:37
  F
• 4:37
  means
• 4:39
  love.
• 4:41
  I
• 4:41
  did
• 4:41
  not
• 4:42
  know
• 4:42
  that.
• 4:42
  So
• 4:43
  this
• 4:43
  word
• 4:43
  literally
• 4:44
  means
• 4:44
  be
• 4:44
  love.
• 4:46
  And
• 4:48
  my
• 4:48
  mind
• 4:49
  was
• 4:49
  blown.
• 4:49
  So
• 4:50
  I
• 4:50
  said,
• 4:50
  okay,
• 4:50
  Spirit,
• 4:51
  So
• 4:51
  what
• 4:51
  you're
• 4:52
  saying
• 4:52
  to
• 4:52
  me
• 4:52
  is
• 4:52
  fear
• 4:53
  is
• 4:53
  not
• 4:53
  a
• 4:53
  legitimate
• 4:54
  belief
• 4:54
  because
• 4:54
  perfect
• 4:55
  love
• 4:55
  casts
• 4:55
  out
• 4:56
  fear.
• 4:56
  And
• 4:57
  then
• 4:57
  I
• 4:57
  said,
• 4:58
  so
• 4:58
  what
• 4:58
  you're
• 4:58
  saying
• 4:58
  is
• 4:59
  fear
• 4:59
  is
• 4:59
  my
• 4:59
  enemy
• 5:00
  and
• 5:00
  fear
• 5:00
  is
• 5:00
  a
• 5:01
  liar.
• 5:01
  And
• 5:01
  spirit
• 5:01
  said,
• 5:02
  no,
• 5:03
  fear
• 5:03
  is
• 5:03
  not
• 5:03
  your
• 5:04
  enemy.
• 5:04
  Fear
• 5:05
  is
• 5:05
  your
• 5:05
  guide
• 5:06
  showing
• 5:06
  you
• 5:07
  where
• 5:07
  you
• 5:07
  need
• 5:07
  love.
• 5:08
  This
• 5:08
  is
• 5:09
  why
• 5:09
  the
• 5:09
  angels
• 5:09
  always
• 5:10
  say,
• 5:10
  fear
• 5:10
  not
• 5:11
  when
• 5:11
  they
• 5:11
  show
• 5:11
  up,
• 5:12
  because
• 5:12
  they
• 5:12
  come,
• 5:12
  embodied
• 5:13
  in
• 5:13
  your
• 5:13
  biggest
• 5:14
  fear,
• 5:14
  to
• 5:14
  guide
• 5:14
  you
• 5:14
  to
• 5:15
  your
• 5:15
  greatest
• 5:15
  strength.
• 5:16
  That
• 5:17
  is
• 5:17
  mind
• 5:18
  blowing.
• 5:18
  And
• 5:18
  I
• 5:19
  said,
• 5:19
  oh,
• 5:19
  my
• 5:19
  gosh,
• 5:19
  that
• 5:20
  is
• 5:20
  profound.
• 5:21
  And
• 5:21
  spirit
• 5:21
  said,
• 5:22
  but
• 5:22
  you're
• 5:22
  missing
• 5:22
  the
• 5:22
  whole
• 5:23
  point.
• 5:23
  And
• 5:24
  I
• 5:24
  said,
• 5:24
  I
• 5:25
  said
• 5:25
  to
• 5:25
  Spirit,
• 5:25
  I
• 5:25
  said,
• 5:27
  so
• 5:27
  if
• 5:27
  there's
• 5:28
  more
• 5:28
  to
• 5:28
  this
• 5:28
  teaching,
• 5:29
  give
• 5:29
  it
• 5:29
  to
• 5:30
  me
• 5:30
  and
• 5:30
  I'll
• 5:30
  give
• 5:30
  it
• 5:30
  to
• 5:31
  everybody.
• 5:32
  And
• 5:32
  spirit
• 5:33
  said,
• 5:33
  what
• 5:33
  is
• 5:33
  that
• 5:33
  word?
• 5:34
  And
• 5:34
  I
• 5:34
  said,
• 5:34
  be
• 5:35
  love.
• 5:35
  And
• 5:35
  spirit
• 5:36
  said,
• 5:36
  what
• 5:36
  is
• 5:36
  love?
• 5:37
  And
• 5:37
  I
• 5:37
  said,
• 5:37
  God.
• 5:39
  And
• 5:39
  spirit
• 5:40
  said,
• 5:40
  be
• 5:41
  God
• 5:41
  already.
• 5:43
  He
• 5:43
  said,
• 5:43
  this
• 5:43
  is
• 5:43
  what
• 5:44
  Jesus
• 5:44
  came
• 5:44
  to
• 5:44
  teach
• 5:45
  you.
• 5:45
  Jesus
• 5:46
  came
• 5:46
  to
• 5:46
  say
• 5:47
  to
• 5:47
  you,
• 5:47
  ye
• 5:48
  are
• 5:48
  gods
• 5:48
  and
• 5:49
  will
• 5:49
  do
• 5:49
  greater
• 5:49
  things
• 5:49
  than
• 5:50
  even
• 5:50
  I.
• 5:51
  And
• 5:52
  I
• 5:52
  got
• 5:52
  this
• 5:52
  understanding
• 5:53
  about
• 5:53
  belief.
• 5:54
  Your
• 5:55
  belief
• 5:55
  is
• 5:55
  your
• 5:56
  God
• 5:56
  power.
• 5:56
  And
• 5:57
  whatever
• 5:57
  you
• 5:58
  put
• 5:58
  your
• 5:59
  belief
• 5:59
  into,
• 5:59
  whatever
• 6:00
  you
• 6:00
  invest
• 6:01
  that
• 6:01
  energy
• 6:01
  of
• 6:02
  belief,
• 6:02
  that
• 6:02
  God
• 6:03
  energy
• 6:03
  of
• 6:03
  belief
• 6:04
  into
• 6:04
  you,
• 6:05
  you
• 6:05
  empower
• 6:06
  it
• 6:06
  as
• 6:06
  God
• 6:07
  and
• 6:07
  it
• 6:08
  becomes
• 6:08
  the
• 6:08
  creator
• 6:09
  of
• 6:09
  your
• 6:09
  reality.
• 6:11
  And
• 6:11
  so
• 6:12
  belief,
• 6:13
  what
• 6:13
  has
• 6:14
  happened
• 6:14
  in
• 6:15
  religion,
• 6:17
  the
• 6:17
  belief
• 6:17
  has
• 6:18
  become
• 6:18
  the
• 6:18
  God.
• 6:20
  The
• 6:20
  belief
• 6:21
  has
• 6:21
  become
• 6:21
  the
• 6:21
  golden
• 6:22
  calf.
• 6:23
  And
• 6:23
  people
• 6:24
  are
• 6:24
  worshiping
• 6:25
  and
• 6:25
  serving
• 6:26
  the
• 6:26
  dogma
• 6:28
  and
• 6:28
  the
• 6:28
  doctrine
• 6:31
  not
• 6:31
  becoming
• 6:32
  God,
• 6:33
  not
• 6:34
  becoming
• 6:35
  love,
• 6:35
  not
• 6:36
  living
• 6:36
  and
• 6:37
  vibrating
• 6:38
  and
• 6:38
  being
• 6:39
  unconditional
• 6:40
  love,
• 6:40
  which
• 6:40
  is
• 6:41
  what
• 6:41
  I
• 6:41
  was
• 6:42
  and
• 6:42
  the
• 6:42
  frequency
• 6:43
  I
• 6:43
  was
• 6:43
  in
• 6:44
  after
• 6:44
  the
• 6:45
  lady
• 6:45
  touched
• 6:45
  me
• 6:46
  on
• 6:46
  the
• 6:46
  Third
• 6:46
  eye.
• 6:46
  And
• 6:47
  it
• 6:47
  wasn't
• 6:47
  until
• 6:48
  I
• 6:48
  started
• 6:49
  feeding
• 6:50
  on
• 6:50
  the
• 6:50
  doctrine,
• 6:51
  the
• 6:51
  beliefs
• 6:53
  of
• 6:53
  this
• 6:53
  is
• 6:53
  good
• 6:53
  and
• 6:54
  this
• 6:54
  is
• 6:54
  evil,
• 6:55
  that,
• 6:56
  that,
• 6:56
  that
• 6:57
  love
• 6:57
  frequency
• 6:58
  became
• 6:59
  divided.
• 7:01
  Oh,
• 7:01
  this
• 7:01
  is
• 7:02
  good
• 7:02
  and
• 7:02
  this
• 7:02
  is
• 7:02
  evil.
• 7:03
  And
• 7:04
  so
• 7:04
  I,
• 7:04
  my,
• 7:04
  my,
• 7:05
  my
• 7:05
  vessel
• 7:06
  is
• 7:07
  unable
• 7:07
  to
• 7:08
  hold
• 7:08
  pure
• 7:09
  unconditional
• 7:10
  love
• 7:10
  because
• 7:10
  it's
• 7:11
  got
• 7:11
  a
• 7:11
  split
• 7:11
  right
• 7:12
  down
• 7:12
  the
• 7:12
  middle
• 7:12
  of
• 7:13
  it.
• 7:15
  You
• 7:15
  don't,
• 7:16
  you
• 7:16
  don't
• 7:16
  know
• 7:16
  this,
• 7:17
  but
• 7:19
  I
• 7:19
  re.
• 7:20
  I
• 7:20
  recently
• 7:21
  did
• 7:21
  an
• 7:21
  episode
• 7:23
  and
• 7:23
  it's
• 7:23
  called
• 7:24
  Venus
• 7:25
  Split.
• 7:28
  Right.
• 7:29
  And
• 7:31
  even
• 7:31
  though
• 7:32
  most
• 7:32
  people
• 7:32
  know
• 7:32
  me
• 7:33
  for
• 7:33
  astrology,
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  do
• 7:34
  dabble
• 7:35
  with
• 7:35
  tarot.
• 7:36
  And,
• 7:37
  and
• 7:37
  so
• 7:39
  the
• 7:39
  episode
• 7:40
  is
• 7:40
  about
• 7:41
  Venus,
• 7:42
  the
• 7:42
  empress.
• 7:44
  Venus
• 7:44
  rules
• 7:45
  two
• 7:45
  signs,
• 7:46
  Taurus
• 7:47
  and
• 7:48
  Libra.
• 7:49
  Libra
• 7:50
  is
• 7:50
  Jupiter
• 7:51
  justice
• 7:51
  in
• 7:52
  the
• 7:52
  tarot
• 7:52
  deck.
• 7:55
  Taurus
• 7:56
  is
• 7:56
  the
• 7:57
  herant,
• 7:59
  and
• 7:59
  the
• 7:59
  herant
• 8:00
  is
• 8:00
  connected
• 8:01
  to
• 8:02
  tradition
• 8:05
  and
• 8:06
  justice.
• 8:07
  And
• 8:07
  Libra
• 8:07
  is.
• 8:09
  Libra
• 8:09
  is
• 8:09
  all
• 8:09
  about
• 8:10
  relationships.
• 8:11
  And
• 8:12
  Libra
• 8:12
  is
• 8:12
  air,
• 8:13
  and
• 8:13
  air
• 8:14
  is
• 8:14
  communication
• 8:15
  and
• 8:16
  thoughts.
• 8:17
  And
• 8:17
  so
• 8:20
  what
• 8:21
  happens
• 8:21
  when
• 8:23
  Venus,
• 8:24
  what
• 8:25
  we
• 8:25
  love,
• 8:25
  what
• 8:25
  we
• 8:26
  desire,
• 8:26
  and
• 8:27
  all
• 8:27
  of
• 8:27
  that
• 8:28
  comes
• 8:28
  in
• 8:29
  conflict
• 8:29
  with
• 8:30
  the
• 8:30
  hierophant
• 8:31
  tradition?
• 8:33
  Do
• 8:33
  you
• 8:33
  keep
• 8:33
  it
• 8:33
  up,
• 8:34
  right,
• 8:34
  or
• 8:34
  do
• 8:35
  you
• 8:35
  turn
• 8:35
  it
• 8:36
  reverse
• 8:36
  and
• 8:37
  be
• 8:37
  the
• 8:37
  unorthodox
• 8:38
  one?
• 8:38
  And
• 8:39
  then
• 8:39
  what
• 8:39
  comes
• 8:39
  with
• 8:40
  that?
• 8:40
  And
• 8:41
  then
• 8:41
  how,
• 8:43
  by
• 8:43
  the
• 8:43
  way,
• 8:43
  when
• 8:44
  it
• 8:44
  comes
• 8:44
  to.
• 8:46
  And
• 8:47
  then
• 8:48
  the
• 8:48
  cards
• 8:49
  that's
• 8:50
  connected
• 8:50
  to
• 8:51
  this
• 8:51
  Taurus
• 8:52
  would
• 8:52
  be
• 8:53
  the
• 8:55
  5,
• 8:55
  6,
• 8:56
  7
• 8:57
  of
• 8:57
  pentacles.
• 8:59
  Right.
• 9:00
  And.
• 9:01
  And
• 9:01
  the
• 9:03
  cars
• 9:03
  connected
• 9:04
  to
• 9:05
  justice
• 9:06
  would
• 9:06
  be
• 9:06
  two,
• 9:07
  three,
• 9:07
  four
• 9:08
  of
• 9:08
  swords.
• 9:10
  Right.
• 9:11
  And
• 9:11
  two
• 9:12
  of
• 9:12
  swords.
• 9:13
  Three
• 9:13
  of
• 9:13
  swords
• 9:13
  is
• 9:14
  the
• 9:14
  heart
• 9:14
  with
• 9:15
  two
• 9:15
  swords
• 9:16
  and
• 9:16
  one
• 9:16
  going
• 9:17
  through
• 9:17
  the
• 9:17
  middle.
• 9:18
  Yes,
• 9:18
  I
• 9:18
  have
• 9:19
  a.
• 9:19
  Yeah,
• 9:19
  go
• 9:19
  ahead,
• 9:20
  go
• 9:20
  ahead.
• 9:20
  And
• 9:20
  so
• 9:21
  you
• 9:21
  think
• 9:21
  about.
• 9:23
  That's
• 9:23
  kind
• 9:23
  of
• 9:23
  the
• 9:24
  story
• 9:25
  you
• 9:25
  just
• 9:25
  talked
• 9:26
  about
• 9:26
  when
• 9:27
  you
• 9:28
  trail.
• 9:28
  When
• 9:28
  you
• 9:31
  said,
• 9:32
  you
• 9:32
  know,
• 9:32
  this
• 9:32
  is
• 9:33
  what
• 9:33
  I
• 9:33
  love,
• 9:33
  this
• 9:34
  is
• 9:34
  what
• 9:34
  I
• 9:34
  desire.
• 9:35
  I,
• 9:35
  this
• 9:35
  is
• 9:35
  what
• 9:37
  I
• 9:37
  value.
• 9:38
  I
• 9:39
  find
• 9:39
  value
• 9:40
  in
• 9:40
  this
• 9:40
  and
• 9:40
  these,
• 9:41
  this
• 9:41
  type
• 9:41
  of
• 9:41
  people,
• 9:42
  this
• 9:42
  type
• 9:42
  of
• 9:42
  lifestyle.
• 9:43
  What
• 9:44
  did,
• 9:44
  what
• 9:44
  did
• 9:45
  the
• 9:45
  hierophant
• 9:47
  tradition
• 9:48
  do
• 9:48
  to
• 9:48
  you?
• 9:50
  Broke
• 9:51
  it
• 9:51
  all.
• 9:51
  Yes,
• 9:52
  yes,
• 9:53
  absolutely.
• 9:54
  Absolutely.
• 9:55
  And
• 9:56
  it's
• 9:57
  so
• 9:57
  interesting
• 9:57
  about
• 9:58
  what
• 9:58
  you're
• 9:58
  saying
• 9:58
  here,
• 9:59
  Paul,
• 9:59
  because
• 10:00
  when
• 10:00
  I
• 10:00
  had
• 10:01
  that
• 10:01
  rebirth,
• 10:02
  right,
• 10:02
  that
• 10:02
  awakening
• 10:03
  on
• 10:03
  September
• 10:04
  26th,
• 10:04
  that's
• 10:05
  Libra
• 10:05
  season.
• 10:09
  Yes.
• 10:09
  And
• 10:10
  let
• 10:10
  me
• 10:10
  show
• 10:10
  you.
• 10:11
  I,
• 10:11
  I
• 10:12
  use
• 10:12
  paintings
• 10:13
  to,
• 10:13
  I
• 10:13
  teach,
• 10:14
  I,
• 10:14
  I
• 10:14
  do
• 10:15
  a
• 10:15
  lot
• 10:15
  of
• 10:15
  teachings
• 10:15
  and
• 10:16
  I,
• 10:16
  I
• 10:16
  paint,
• 10:17
  but
• 10:17
  I
• 10:17
  did
• 10:18
  these
• 10:18
  paintings
• 10:18
  and
• 10:18
  I
• 10:19
  want
• 10:19
  to
• 10:19
  show
• 10:19
  you
• 10:19
  a
• 10:20
  couple
• 10:20
  of
• 10:20
  paintings
• 10:20
  because
• 10:20
  it's
• 10:21
  real
• 10:21
  interesting
• 10:21
  what
• 10:22
  you
• 10:22
  just
• 10:22
  said.
• 10:22
  I'm
• 10:22
  going
• 10:23
  to
• 10:23
  turn
• 10:23
  my
• 10:23
  camera
• 10:23
  around
• 10:24
  so
• 10:24
  you
• 10:24
  can
• 10:24
  see.
• 10:25
  Let
• 10:25
  me
• 10:25
  see
• 10:25
  if
• 10:26
  I
• 10:26
  can
• 10:26
  figure
• 10:26
  out
• 10:26
  how
• 10:26
  to
• 10:26
  do
• 10:27
  that.
• 10:28
  Oh,
• 10:29
  well,
• 10:29
  maybe
• 10:30
  not.
• 10:30
  Don't
• 10:31
  know
• 10:31
  how
• 10:31
  to
• 10:31
  do
• 10:31
  that
• 10:31
  on
• 10:32
  here.
• 10:32
  Okay.
• 10:33
  So
• 10:33
  I'm
• 10:33
  just
• 10:33
  going
• 10:33
  to
• 10:33
  turn
• 10:33
  my
• 10:33
  camera
• 10:34
  around.
• 10:34
  Okay,
• 10:35
  so
• 10:35
  this
• 10:35
  is
• 10:35
  the
• 10:35
  painting
• 10:36
  that
• 10:36
  I
• 10:36
  say
• 10:36
  is,
• 10:37
  like,
• 10:37
  my
• 10:37
  awakening.
• 10:38
  Like,
• 10:38
  this
• 10:38
  is
• 10:38
  the
• 10:38
  moment.
• 10:39
  This
• 10:39
  is
• 10:39
  an
• 10:40
  almond
• 10:40
  brand
• 10:41
  or
• 10:41
  almond
• 10:41
  tree.
• 10:42
  And
• 10:42
  the
• 10:42
  almond
• 10:42
  tree
• 10:42
  is
• 10:43
  known
• 10:43
  as
• 10:43
  the
• 10:43
  Awakened
• 10:44
  One.
• 10:44
  And
• 10:45
  so
• 10:45
  this
• 10:45
  is.
• 10:45
  And
• 10:45
  it's
• 10:45
  got
• 10:46
  the
• 10:46
  Ouroboros
• 10:46
  in
• 10:47
  it.
• 10:47
  It's
• 10:47
  my
• 10:47
  awakening.
• 10:48
  And
• 10:48
  then
• 10:48
  I
• 10:49
  talk
• 10:49
  about
• 10:49
  when
• 10:49
  I
• 10:50
  went
• 10:50
  into
• 10:50
  the
• 10:50
  church
• 10:51
  and
• 10:51
  got
• 10:51
  into
• 10:52
  religion.
• 10:52
  And
• 10:53
  this
• 10:53
  is
• 10:53
  what
• 10:53
  happened.
• 10:54
  This
• 10:54
  is
• 10:55
  what
• 10:55
  that
• 10:55
  experience
• 10:56
  did.
• 10:59
  Oh,
• 10:59
  the.
• 11:00
  The
• 11:00
  three
• 11:00
  of
• 11:00
  swords.
• 11:01
  The
• 11:02
  three
• 11:02
  of
• 11:02
  swords,
• 11:05
  yeah.
• 11:05
  So
• 11:06
  everything
• 11:06
  you're
• 11:07
  explaining
• 11:07
  is,
• 11:07
  like,
• 11:07
  blowing
• 11:08
  my
• 11:08
  mind
• 11:08
  a
• 11:08
  little
• 11:09
  bit.
• 11:09
  So,
• 11:09
  yes,
• 11:09
  absolutely.
• 11:10
  100.
• 11:11
  And
• 11:11
  I
• 11:12
  think
• 11:12
  all
• 11:12
  of
• 11:12
  us.
• 11:12
  Excuse
• 11:13
  my
• 11:13
  palm.
• 11:13
  I
• 11:14
  think
• 11:14
  all
• 11:14
  of
• 11:14
  us.
• 11:15
  Oops.
• 11:15
  Okay,
• 11:16
  Sorry.
• 11:16
  I
• 11:17
  think
• 11:17
  what
• 11:17
  we
• 11:18
  are
• 11:18
  all
• 11:18
  here
• 11:19
  to
• 11:20
  do,
• 11:21
  we're
• 11:21
  all
• 11:22
  here
• 11:22
  to
• 11:23
  put
• 11:23
  the
• 11:24
  vessel
• 11:24
  back
• 11:24
  together.
• 11:25
  It's
• 11:25
  broken.
• 11:27
  And
• 11:27
  our
• 11:28
  journey
• 11:28
  through
• 11:28
  life,
• 11:29
  that
• 11:29
  is
• 11:29
  why
• 11:29
  we're
• 11:30
  here.
• 11:30
  We're
• 11:30
  here
• 11:30
  to
• 11:31
  find
• 11:31
  the
• 11:31
  places
• 11:31
  where
• 11:32
  we
• 11:32
  have
• 11:32
  cracks,
• 11:32
  where
• 11:33
  we
• 11:33
  have
• 11:33
  brokenness,
• 11:34
  where
• 11:34
  our
• 11:35
  vessel
• 11:35
  is
• 11:36
  unable
• 11:37
  to
• 11:37
  hold
• 11:37
  the
• 11:38
  frequency
• 11:38
  of
• 11:38
  pure,
• 11:39
  unconditional
• 11:39
  love
• 11:40
  because
• 11:40
  of.
• 11:40
  Because
• 11:41
  of
• 11:41
  shame,
• 11:42
  because
• 11:42
  of
• 11:42
  guilt,
• 11:43
  because
• 11:43
  of,
• 11:44
  you
• 11:44
  know,
• 11:44
  insecurities,
• 11:45
  because
• 11:46
  of
• 11:46
  fears.
• 11:46
  And
• 11:46
  what
• 11:47
  happens
• 11:47
  when
• 11:48
  we
• 11:49
  walk
• 11:49
  in
• 11:49
  with
• 11:50
  the
• 11:50
  triggers.
• 11:51
  Show
• 11:51
  us
• 11:51
  where
• 11:51
  the
• 11:51
  cracks
• 11:52
  are,
• 11:52
  and
• 11:53
  that's
• 11:53
  where
• 11:53
  the
• 11:53
  work
• 11:54
  is.